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Openly Straight
December 19, 2018 December 19, 2018 kristenLeave a comment
Openly Straight by Bill Konigsburg
Narrator: Pete Cross
Publisher: Dreamscape Media
Rafe is openly gay and lives with the full support of his parents and community in Boulder, CO. The problem, as he sees it, is that everyone sees his label first. He's always the gay boy, the gay soccer player, the gay writer, never just Rafe. He finally decides he is tired of it and wants a fresh start, which he will get by moving across the country to an all-boys boarding school near Boston. Where he tells no one he is gay. He doesn't go back in the closet, he argues, he just doesn't advertise that he's gay. Naturally, things get out of hand. One little white lie about not being gay snowballs into Rafe actively asking his family and friends in CO to pretend he's straight. And then there's Ben, the quiet, kind soccer teammate who Rafe can't help but fall in love with, and who may or may not be discovering things about his own sexuality that he doesn't want to confront.
This was a very interesting and quick read. Well, I listened to it on Audible, but still. I am straight and have never had to deal with coming out, so I can only imagine what it's like for people always to be labeled as "the gay ____" of the group. I would hate that, and I really hope I have never done that to anyone. If I have, I apologize. It was inadvertent. Which is the point. Labels suck, and they are often placed unconsciously. This realization leads to the two best parts of the book. The first was the discussion in Rafe's literature class when everyone was talking about tolerance. It really isn't a very positive word, which is something I have said forever. To tolerate something – she is tolerable, I suppose – implies that it is just on this side of not making you vomit. You don't actively hate it. You allow its presence but don't welcome it. I tolerate the cat but I can't fucking wait not to have a cat. So why do we say that tolerance is good in society? Wouldn't something like acceptance or inclusion be infinitely better? I wouldn't want someone just to "tolerate" me. Rather than being tolerant, let's work on being accepting. Even better, let's be inclusive. Accepting is better than tolerant, but it is still not perfect, since to accept something has an implication of resignation or surrender about it, that you may not like something but you know you can't change it so you're going to just let it go. It is better than tolerating something, but I think embracing or including a person or an idea or whatever is perhaps the best way to go about it.
The second part that I really liked, which may be a spoiler, I don't know, so consider yourselves warned, is when Rafe realized that the "cameras" he was always so worried about were rarely actually focused on him. He realized that he had been staring at a guy in his group but he was thinking about himself and how concerns and realized what people think didn't have anything to do with his own sense of worth or his own masculinity or identity. And then he had that lightbulb moment and realized that when others stare at him, it isn't necessarily that they are judging him, but that they are thinking about themselves and reflecting on something utterly unrelated to him. I think a lot of people need to figure this out, that they aren't the center of everything and that people aren't always concerned with them. I know teens tend to have those imaginary audiences a lot, but I think many people never outgrow that. As my grandmother says, "you don't worry so much about what people think about you if you knew how seldom they do." It's true – I think people think about themselves far more than anyone else and, for the most part, don't care what other people do so long as it doesn't affect them too much.
I'm a bit off YA at the moment, but this was still a very good book even though it wasn't one of my favorites. The whole thing was just an interesting discussion and I am glad I read it. The writing style was easy and enjoyable, and apparently the author is local for me. Maybe one of these days I'll see him at a book thing or something, which would be cool.
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