October 27, 2019 October 28, 2019 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 18 Comments
Big LIttle Lions here September 2018.
Our home seems made for house concerts. This place is open in an unassuming way. Plenty of space for people eat and talk, then find a spot to sit when musicians begin to play. I feels to me as if a glow hovers around everyone at these events, intensifying as the evening goes on.
It doesn't matter that our carpet is three decades old, that portions of the kitchen floor are in ruins, that there are several different colors of siding on our house. What matters is making very real connections in an era when we're ever more likely to be distracted and rushed.
Two years ago my husband wanted to cancel our scheduled house concert. He insisted it would be too much for me. I'd recently gotten several frightening diagnoses and he was worried. I told him every crisis reminds us how radiant our lives already are and we were absolutely going ahead with the concert.
Our performer that autumn was veteran singer-songwriter Doug MacLeod. Doug had long performed the blues as a story-teller and won many national Blues Music Awards. When he showed up we were all in his thrall. Can you remember the hippest guy in school, exploring the best music and coolest haunts but too laid back to brag? Doug was that guy, all the more awesome for each of his years. Doug sat down to play, man and guitar, his sandpaper-y voice wearing off our sharp edges. His stories and songs held us . Late in the evening he told us about his son Jesse's cancer diagnosis and how they had begun composing together. Quite a few of us were madly in love with him by evening's end. Maybe, from sheer proximity, a little more hip too.
Our most recent house concert happened this weekend. We are honored to host amazing musicians from around the country, around the world (many found through the Concerts in Your Home network). I send out invitations well in advance, ask for RSVPs, try to have a houseful of around 30 people all donating a decent amount (100% to the musicians) to make it worth the musicians' while. Many musicians stay here overnight, our breakfast conversations a rich new element to this experience. I tend to stress over RSVPs, probably because so many musicians performing in our rural home travel long distances to get here.
Maybe it's a symptom of our times, but increasingly the 70 or so people on our invite list do not respond. Or they say they can come but cancel a few days before the performance. Recently a friend who cancelled actually paid for the two seats she and a friend would have occupied. Otherwise people don't seem to understand that this is opportunity to engage with live music on the most direct terms —- literally feet away — with established, talented, extraordinary artists. The audience for this weekend's concert, including family members, came to only 14 people in attendance.
My spouse says that our house concert experiment has run its course after nearly four years. I disagree. I did my share of active worrying when I got cancellation after cancellation for this weekend's show, many of them less than 24 hours before performance time, but those who came told me it would be perfect exactly as it was.
They were right.
Artist Noah Derksen and his accompanist Abby Wales made it an all acoustic show to accommodate our small audience and it was perfect. Nothing will stop me from continuing after the marvelous energy of this show.
The community we all need is in front of us. Miss your village? Maybe it's right here, waiting for you to show up.
Our Aural History
January 11, 2018 January 13, 2019 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 18 Comments
When two of my newborn babies spent time in the hospital due to serious medical problems, one of the many things that distressed me was all the noise surrounding them. I wanted them to be introduced to the world differently. I wanted to wrap them in the sounds of home — voices of people who loved them, clatter of dishes at dinnertime, wind in the trees, lullabies sung, books read aloud. Instead there were loud beeping devices, intrusive announcements, squeaking wheels on equipment carts. They heard all sorts of strangers' voices too, often while those strangers (for the very best reasons) imposed discomfort or pain. When they came home, both times, I noticed the sounds around them more than I normally would just because it was such a blessed relief.
My concern wasn't overblown. In utero, a baby hears a symphony of prenatal sound that includes the mother's heartbeat, breathing, and movement. The baby's auditory system is fully developed by the sixth month of pregnancy and what sounds it hears is a particularly big deal from that time until it reaches six months of age. Here's what one medical journal has to say:
The period from 25 weeks' gestation to 5 to 6 months of age is most critical to the development of the neurosensory part of the auditory system. This is the time when the hair cells of the cochlea, the axons of the auditory nerve, and the neurons of the temporal lobe auditory cortex are tuned to receive signals of specific frequencies and intensities. Unlike the visual system, the auditory system requires outside auditory stimulation. This needs to include speech, music, and meaningful sounds from the environment.
The preterm as well as the term infant cannot recognize or discriminate meaningful sounds with background noise levels greater than 60 dB. The more intense the background noise, especially low frequency, the fewer specific frequencies (pitch) can be heard and used to tune the hair cells of the cochlea. Continuous exposure to loud background noise in the NICU or home will interfere with auditory development and especially frequency discrimination. The initial stimulation of the auditory system (speech and music) needs to occur in utero or in the NICU to develop tonotopic columns in the auditory cortex and to have the critical tuning of the hair cells of the cochlea occur. The control of outside noise, the exposure to meaningful speech sounds and music, and the protection of sleep and sleep cycles, especially rapid eye movement sleep, are essential for healthy auditory development.
Hearing is also said to be the last sense to leave us at the end of life, as indicated by electroencephalograms of people in their last hours. (Oftentimes music can reach unconscious and dying people when other stimuli cannot.)
Sound has a way of sinking into us, linking with sensation and emotion to form lasting memories. When I read about refugees forced from their homes by war or famine or rising seas, my sorrow for them (and my admiration for their courage) leads me to think about what sensory experiences they can never fully recapture from their homelands. Keeping one's own language, foods, and faith alive is vital but I wonder if hunger for the unique sounds left behind ever goes away.
We carry aural memories with us forever. I suspect sounds from early childhood are rooted the most deeply. Here are some of the happiest I can remember.
A summer of locusts, the sound cresting and falling like waves.
The screen door's awwaak as it opened and my mother's voice from somewhere in the house calling "don't slam it!"
The shriek of a swing hung on chains as I swung on my belly watching ants scurry below.
My father whistling as he tinkered with some project.
News on the radio my mother listened to for a few minutes each morning, all of it inane chatter to me except for ads that lodged in my memory like this one.
Planes taking off from nearby Cleveland Hopkins Airport, curving overhead like toys even though adults insisted they were big enough to hold actual people inside (pffft!)
Music my father listened to as he graded papers — classical, pop, big band.
The creak of our old rocking chair.
The indescribable security of lying in bed hearing my parent's muffled voices.
Imagine sounds from 100 years ago in the place you are now. Perhaps horses on stone-paved streets, vendors hawking their wares from open carts as they traveled through town, afternoon paperboys calling out the latest headlines, church bells tolling the hours, the whistle of steam engines passing in the distance, children playing outdoors everywhere.
Or maybe imagine sounds 100 years in the future, if you can.
What sounds surrounded you as a baby? Your children in infancy? What aural memories make up who you are today?
Time Turns Back on Itself
October 30, 2017 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 14 Comments
A post from the wayback machine, although it feels like yesterday to me…
"He fit right into the palm of my hand," my mother always says. Her arm trembles now when she holds it out. "His head here," she gestures to her fingertips, "his little bottom here, and his legs curled up at my wrist. They never gave poor patients the incubators. They said babies that small didn't make it anyway. But he looked right at me and I knew he would live. I held him every night in the nursery until he was discharged. I wish I knew what happened to him."
My mother's stories of her early years as a registered nurse are becoming more common topics. I settle back and listen, encouraging her with my questions. The house seems darker each time I visit, curtains drawn against the daylight although family photos on every surface still fade in their frames. The cluttered rooms are hard to recognize as the same ones from my childhood. Time seems to stretch and bend out of proportion on these long afternoons.
"I nearly died of a staph infection when I was in nurses' training. It was all through my bloodstream. The doctors were amazed I pulled through." She shakes her head. "It was a miracle."
My two teenaged sons come in from doing yard work. They wash their hands, eat the snack she loves to offer them, and politely chat with her. She has tales to tell them too, usually emphasizing the value of working hard and saving money. Today she asks them to retrieve a bit of laundry she can't reach. Somehow it sailed over the washing machine lid to fall somewhere behind the washer. Tossing anything while hanging on to a walker is an accomplishment for someone whose movements are as uncertain as hers. I thought I'd heard all her stories, yet she tells the boys that her laundry throw probably stemmed from her teen years when she used to be quite the softball pitcher.
"I never was never much of a runner in gym, but I had a great throwing arm."
I am surprised. "You never told me that, Mom!"
"There's plenty I haven't told you," she says. Her gaze seems to linger on a field of high school girls from 60 years ago.
My father doesn't settle down for long conversations during these visits. He likes to work in the yard with his grandchildren, making use of their youthful energy, while my mother and I talk. I go outside to spend ten or fifteen minutes with him, reveling in the quieter connection we share, fully aware that my mother waits for me to return through the full length of each minute I'm away from her.
I see my parents bridging the passage beyond old age in their own ways. My father redesigns the garden and invents odd labor-saving devices, always thinking ahead. My mother goes back to revisit her stronger years.
I am greedy for time. I want decades more with my parents despite their poor health. Their tradition of waving goodbye at the door as I back the car out always brings tears to my eyes.
On the long drive home my son comes across an old Emerson, Lake, and Palmer tune on the radio. Time twists around itself again. I recall listening to this record in the late 70's, from the same house we just left, although the raspberry-hued carpet of my girlhood bedroom is now under a pile of boxes. I used to climb out the window of that bedroom to lie on the rough-textured roof, looking at the stars. I paid such close attention to the music of my teens that I felt wrapped inside the notes and the lyrics.
"You see it's all clear. You were meant to be here." While the song plays I remember being a wispy 14-year-old who bought batik scarves from the forbidden head shop in town. I twisted them into halter tops which I wore under more demure shirts until I was safely out of the house. I'd tell my parents I was going to see a girlfriend when I was really meeting my boyfriend. He and I kissed so much I was surprised my mother didn't notice I'd return with chapped and reddened lips.
When the song ends I'm almost startled to find myself driving a car—a woman in her forties accompanied by two nearly grown children, married to the boy she kissed so long ago.
As time turns back on itself in our memories it reshapes and teaches us. It occurs to me I loved Emerson, Lake, and Palmer because they honored the two sounds I couldn't imagine converging. I had rejected my parent's organized religion, and with it the evocative strains of organ music. Instead I spent my babysitting money on albums with sounds that stirred my soul. Emerson, Lake and Palmer put hymns and rock back together for me. As I head south with my boys, I'm also lying on the roof with my back safely against my childhood home and my face lifted to the sky.
I try to say something to my kids about how odd time and memory can be. But they're young and the radio dial needs flipping. I guess we're bridging our own passages. I take a breath, choosing to hold on to the peace of this moment so this exact car ride with my sons will always feel as close to me as the palm of my own hand.
Originally published in the anthology, Here in the Middle: Stories of Love, Loss, and Connection from the Ones Sandwiched in Between.
Waking the Spirit
July 14, 2017 November 10, 2019 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 10 Comments
"Music is the universal language of mankind." ~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
Andrew Schulman was born so ugly that his grandmother refused to believe he belonged to their family. She insisted the hospital investigate to make sure there wasn't a baby mix-up. Many years later, his cousin Miriam told him the nurses felt sorry for that disputed lone baby in the nursery, so they held him and sang to him all day. "Show tunes," she said. "I heard them when I was there. It was so lovely."
He writes in his new book, Waking the Spirit, "I like to think that my brain was wired in the nursery by the healing power of music."
Andrew grew up to become a successful musician. He plays Carnegie Hall, the White House, and throughout Europe. He has three CD's, an active performance schedule, and an enjoyable life with his wife in NYC. His life, however, changed when he went in for surgery.
The operation was a success but on the way to recovery he suffered a rare reaction and was clinically dead by the time they rushed his gurney out of the elevator. Although they managed to resuscitate him in surgical intensive care, they couldn't stabilize him. Doctors put him in a medically induced coma for several days, but his organs began to fail. He was not expected to live. His wife, desperate, asked permission to play music for him. His favorite piece, Bach's "St. Matthew's Passion" popped up on his iPod. After a half hour, still apparently unresponsive, his vital signs began to stabilize. Confounding doctors, he recovered quickly over the next few days.
As Oliver Sacks once said, "Nothing activates the brain so extensively as music." Andrew explains in his book, "Music reaches neural networks, including some of the most primary…. such as the brain stem, the cerebellum, and the amygdala. Music then initiates brain stem responses that, in turn, regulate heart rate, pulse, blood pressure, body temperature, and muscle tension…. "
We know that music chosen by parents and performed for premature babies for a few minutes at a time helps to calm them, resulting in longer quiet-alert states and easing pain. Music sung by parents has a beneficial effect throughout infancy. Babies respond to music, even regular drumbeats, with increased smiling. In fact research shows that babies correlate their movements with the tempo and rhythm. They dance! And music gets a much greater response than spoken words. No wonder adults all over the world naturally engage babies in a sort of singsong-like call and response. We're translating our language into one that is more evocative to mind and body.
Music makes a difference at the other end of life too. Studies of music in hospice care show it can reduce anxiety, pain, and fatigue while enhancing mood, energy, and sense of spiritual comfort.
After Andrew fully recovered he made his way back to the same surgical intensive care ward at the same hospital. This time as a musician. Three times a week, every week, he enters the SICU, walks through the ward guided by intuition as much as beeping monitors, then sits at a bedside and begins to play.
People on this ward are very ill. They're likely in pain and afraid. They may be in and out of consciousness, even comatose as he was. He plays all sorts of music for them, happy to honor requests by patients, family members, and staff. But he's found music by certain composers has the greatest healing effect — Bach, Gershwin, the Beatles, along with Franz Schubert's "Ständchen" and, strangely enough, "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Freddy Mercury.
In his experience, Bach's music is the gold standard. It almost magically seems to increase alertness, reduce pain, and stabilize vital signs. Neuromusicologist Arthur W. Harvey agrees. Andrew quotes Dr. Harvey, "Of all the music we tested in medical school with patients, colleagues, and others, Bach's music consistently made the brain work in a balanced way better than any other genre."
Dr. Harvey and students studied the effect of music on the body using brain scans, focusing on seven genres: chant, Baroque, classical, gospel, new age, jazz, and folk. After two years they concluded Baroque era music most effectively "…stabilized the different rhythms of the body and mind — mental, physical, and emotional — which allowed for greater concentration and focus. Bach's music consistently showed the best results in this regard."
Andrew tries to unlock what it is about Bach. "…Bach's music utilizes both chordal music (music characterized by harmony) and contrapuntal textures (the interweaving melodies) somewhat equally, which provides for music processing in both left and right hemispheres of the human brain. A descriptive characteristic of his music and music of his time is the significance of balance… You hear sounds that are soft and loud, high and low, short and long. Rhythms that are slow and fast, simple and complex. Melodies and harmonies that have enormous stylistic variety." Such music stimulates brain functions without overload.
Andrew goes on to note that healing music often comes from composers who themselves suffered from depression and other forms of mental illness. Perhaps despair transmuted into beauty more profoundly eases other people's suffering.
I can't help but consider all that troubles our beautiful world. When music helps to lift the individual mind from unconsciousness to consciousness, surely music helps to lift our collective awareness as well.
After all, music is used to lull small ones to sleep, rouse teams to victory, woo lovers, deepen worship, commemorate solemn occasions, and celebrate joy. Throughout history, music has been a traditional way to bring peace and justice. Through music we more fully grasp that all of us feel grief, love, fear, injustice, delight, and moments of transcendence. Let's play one another into a more loving world.
"This will be our reply to violence: to make music more intensely, more beautifully, more devotedly than ever before." ~Leonard Bernstein
Born to Love Music
June 4, 2017 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 1 Comment
All around the world, mothers gently murmur some version of "hush, hush," or "shhhh, shhhh" to crying newborns. It's said this calms babies because it mimics the sound they heard in utero — her heartbeat.
Babies actually hear a whole symphony of sound before they're born. Physicist Robert Chuckrow describes what makes up this orchestra in a paper he wrote back in the 1960's, titled "Music: A Synthesis of Prenatal Stimuli."
Walking: As a pregnant woman walks or climbs stairs, Dr. Chuckrow writes, her steps send "a thud-like vibration through her body, similar in sound and periodicity to that of the beat of a drum. "
Breathing: Each inhale and exhale, according to Dr. Chuckrow, makes a "…recurring sound rich in high frequencies and is similar to the sound of cymbals in music. In popular music especially, the sound of cymbals 'crashing' is very suggestive of the sound of the pregnant mother breathing."
Heartbeat. Complex patterns are formed by varying rates of two heartbeats. A mother's heart rate changes depending on her activity level and emotions, usually ranging somewhere between 60 and 100 beats per minute. In contrast, her baby's heart rate fluctuates between 120 to 160 beats per minute, making for an ongoing jazz-like improvisation.
Speech: A mother's conversations are another acoustic pattern. Research shows newborns not only recognize their mother's voices, they also show a preference for sounds from the language their mother speaks.
Other input: A fetus is surrounded by the internal hubbub of its mother chewing, swallowing, and the rest of the digestive processes. Her laughing, crying, coughing, yawning, sneezing, and scratching are also part of its moment-to-moment soundtrack. Add to that sounds heard from outside her body — whoosh of a shower, vibration from riding on a bus, clatter in a restaurant, drama of a movie she's watching.
These aren't just sounds. They come into the baby's awareness accompanied by fluctuations in movement, pressure, and chemical signals. Sound pairs with sensation, over and over, throughout the pregnancy. It is the earliest form of meaning, long before words make sense.
Take, for example, the effect when a mother experiences stress (even positive emotion). Her heart rate goes up while her baby's heart rate doesn't immediately increase. Instead, the uptick of her heartbeat would "…produce in the fetus a state that is the prenatal analog of emotional tension." Dr. Chuckrow likens this to the way music creates emotional tension, especially when an "…increase in tempo or changes in rhythm produce such tension in the listener, and the rhythmic effect is increased by an increase in dynamic intensity."
Or another example; the unborn baby's experience of its mother's laughter. As she laughs, her abdominal muscles contract around the uterus. Her larynx closes somewhat, making air intake irregular. And the noises she makes range from low giggles to shrieking cries. Dr. Chuckrow writes, "For the mother, laughter would be accompanied by an exultant state and changes in her heart rate, breathing, and blood concentrations of oxygen and hormones. These changes would be expected to affect the fetus. The associated patterns involve a climactic change of acoustic, tactile, and chemical stimuli associated with a state of maternal well-being."
Maybe these truly formative responses help to explain why music enters a place in us that's deeper than words, beyond the limitations of thought. We're shaped by an essential mother-specific melody.
"Many say that life entered the human body by the help of music, but the truth is that life itself is music." ~Hafiz
Sex in the Ditty
February 9, 2017 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 8 Comments
Steamy songs work.
Researchers tell us that romantic songs nearly double the likelihood that single women will agree to give men their phone numbers.
And music works for those of us in relationships too. Music does a pretty good job of expressing affection, amorous intention, and other feelings that can be screwed up by mere words.
Obviously we react to music we like and to lyrics that make us feel. Music engages our bodies, often helping us move out of our heads to a more sensory level. It gets to us in ways we aren't consciously aware of as well. In This Is Your Brain on Music Daniel Levitin describes what happens as we listen. Imaging studies show that activated nerves signal from the auditory system to activate expectation and reward centers in the brain. In fact the pleasure we take in music causes our dopamine levels to rise, and we all want more of that feel-good neurochemical.
I asked friends to tell me their favorite sexy tunes. We noted there's a significant crossover with love songs, because adoration is definitely a turn on. And it was surprising how many we had to weed out to eliminate exceedingly creepy, depressing, and misogynistic lyrics.
A more basic question remains. What music sounds sexy to you? Is it the beat, the lyrics, the overall tone? Or does it have more to do with memories you attach to the piece?
Offer your suggestions.
Here are a few of ours. Not in order and not by any means comprehensive.
1. What Kind Of Woman Is This? by Buddy Guy
I heard a blind man screaming, say
There goes a sight for my sore eyes.
2. Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover by Sophie B. Hawkins
I'll rock you till the daylight comes
Make sure you are smilin' and warm
3. You Look Like Rain by Morphine
I want to know what you got to say
I can tell you taste like the sky 'cause you look like rain
4. I Just Want To Make Love To You by Muddy Waters
I don't want you to be true
I just want to make love to you
5. Lay Lady Lay by Bob Dylan
Lay lady lay, lay across my big brass bed.
Stay lady stay, stay with your man awhile.
6. Wicked Game by Chris Isaak
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
7. Love Me Like A Man by Bonnie Raitt
I want a man to rock me
Like my… backbone was his own
8. I'm Wild About That Thing by Bessie Smith
If you want so satisfy my soul,
Come on and rock me with a steady roll
9. Fade Into You by Mazzy Star
I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
10. In The Midnight Hour by Wilson Pickett
I'm gonna take you girl and hold you
And do all the things I told you
11. Bang A Gong (Get It On) by T. Rex
You dance when you walk so let's dance, take a chance, understand me
You're dirty sweet and you're my girl.
12. Try A Little Tenderness by Otis Redding
But while she's there waiting
Try just a little bit of tenderness
13. Need You Tonight by INXS
So slide over here, and give me a moment
Your moves are so raw
14. Insatiable by Darren Hayes
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
15. Dance Me To the End of Love by Leonard Cohen
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of
16. Fever by Peggy Lee (and every cover ever)
Never know how much I love you, never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me, I get a fever that's so hard to bear
17. Arms Of A Woman by Amos Lee
Ya, when she wakes me
She takes me back home
18. My One and Only Love by Johnny Hartman and John Coltrane
You fill my eager heart with such desire
Every kiss you give sets my soul on fire
19. You Shook Me by Led Zeppelin
You know you shook me
You shook me all night long
20. Love Me Unique by Michael Franti
Mmmm, exhale
Touch me like the blind read Braille
21. Powerful Stuff by Sean Hayes
Alright now let's turn it up
Every day do like a flower does
22. Je T'aime,…Moi Non Plus by Jane Birkin and Serge Gainsbourg
Comme la vague irrésolu
Je vais je vais et je viens
23. Ready For Love by Bad Company
I want you to stay
Ooh, I want you today
24. Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm
25. Unchained Melody by The Righteous Brothers
Oh my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch
26. Father Figure by George Michael
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked at my side
27. Business Time by Flight of the Conchords
You know when I'm down to my socks it's time for business
That's why they call them business socks
Piper, Pipe That Song Again
July 25, 2016 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 25 Comments
We were put to bed early. My mother, the registered nurse, believed strongly in things like scrubbing away germs and getting a good night's sleep. Sometimes we could still hear neighborhood children playing outside while we lay in bed with our baths taken, teeth brushed, and prayers said.
Downstairs my mother watched detective shows and my father graded papers in another room with the stereo turned low. I could hear strains of his music mixed with her TV sirens through the floorboards.
I was never what is called a good sleeper. I would lie awake for hours telling myself stories. Sometimes, halfway asleep, I could hear impossibly faraway music and watch scenes unfold like a life retelling itself. I wondered where they came from, these distracting snippets that almost seemed like distant memories. Some were so strong I could feel them in my body. In fact, as a young child I was sure I could "remember" having died and for years could only fall asleep curled defensively to protect my ribs and throat.
Music brought the strongest sense of recollection. My mother says the first time I heard the distinctive sound of bagpipes I was a preschooler. "You put your arms up like one of those highland dancers," she says, "and you danced your little heart out."
I didn't encounter bagpipe music again until I was about eight years old. Hearing the strains of those grand pipes in a parade made feel as if I could almost recall dancing in a majestic hall with the stirring of pride that no danger could stifle. The music seemed to speak to my cells all the way to the marrow. It kept on speaking as the pipers marched by and the music faded away.
Since I had been warned about my overactive imagination I didn't mention those half-remembered scenes. But I did pester my mother about bagpipes.
"It's funny you are so interested in that music," she said. "We don't have any Scottish blood in our family."
An apparent coincidence? The fact that our last name happened to be Piper. My mother said she thought the name had been changed from a German surname, Pfeiffer, many generations back.
As an adult I have no idea where those so-called memories came from. Most likely I was creating stories that seemed real to me. There are, however, other explanations. Morphic resonance, archetypal images, echoes of past lives.
Another intriguing possibility is genetic or ancestral memory. Because, as it turns out my maiden name, Piper, is Scottish after all. Recently our history was traced, and we know now that my father's family tree is rooted securely in the soil of Scotland. Not a German branch to be found. In fact, we are related to legendary bagpipers as well as to some oddly-named royalty including Malcolm the Big-Headed.
These days I am surrounded by bagpipe music. My two teenage sons are in a pipe band, the Red Hackle Pipes and Drums, under the direction of Sandy Hain, a former Pipe Major of Scotland's Black Watch. I drive the boys and their buddies in the band to practices, parades, and highland competitions; my car overflowing with an odd mix of testosterone, exuberant conversation, and hairy knees jutting out from kilts.
Every week when I pull into the lot for bagpipe practice I see bumper stickers and window decals proudly proclaiming the drivers' pride in calling him or herself by my family name: Piper. Even on the coldest evenings the sound pours through the brick walls. And every single time I feel the music in my cells, all the way to the marrow.
And yes, I still hear it in my dreams.
Angus MacKay of Clan MacKay
(artist unknown)
Throwback post. This piece was originally published in Bewildering Stories.
Your Permanent Record Isn't You
February 17, 2016 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 12 Comments
Image: CC by 2.0 Alan Levine
I have boxes of old albums in my closet. The cardboard jackets are faded and the records inside may not be playable. I have no way of checking since we haven't owned a record player for decades.
These relics were once vital to me, but even as a teenager, back when I felt as if I lived within the notes and lyrics of my favorite songs, I didn't assume that recordings fully expressed an artist's music. A record was just that, a "record" of what was played at the time the audio equipment was on and how those tracks were edited.
A record can't capture the process of composing or the life of the musician. It can't truly sum up the sounds that formed the musician's work — from lullabies heard in infancy all the way to the hiss of air brakes on a touring bus. A recording is only a glimpse into something larger, deeper, and essentially inexpressible.
Which brings to mind a term that handcuffs students to a superficial and stunningly inadequate account of who they are. Their "permanent record."
A permanent record is too often a weapon used to cajole and threaten. It teaches kids that their best impulses —- to explore, to find worth, to help others —- are instruments of utility. Although the love of learning and the desire for mastery are higher callings, it reduces them to a way of proving one's ranking.
We strand young people on a narrow path while the wider world beckons in a million ways. Years of "pay attention" and "eyes on your paper" can dampen, even extinguish the unmeasurable and unique gifts each child brings to life.
Night after night of homework, grade after grade, test score after test score — there's barely room for what's not assigned to fit in a student's life.
Ask today's students. They'll tell you there's no authentic part of themselves in their permanent records other than a summary of the ways they bent (or failed to bend) themselves into shapes expected of them.
I wonder what music is inside that we haven't let them play?
Making Memories Through Music
March 25, 2015 June 29, 2016 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 9 Comments
Do you attach any significance to songs that start playing in your mind? I do. Maybe that's because they often get stuck, becoming earworms that loop around for what seem like hours. Sometimes they even wake me in the middle of the night.
I can't help but wonder why the underpinning of my consciousness loads a particular piece of music. Sometimes it's easy to figure out because my husband was whistling it or it was playing at a restaurant or I heard a slice of it when a car stopped next to me at a traffic light. Most of the time it seems too random to be chance. So I try to figure out what the song tells me in lyric or mood or memory.
Today, simply walking into a room, my mind's playlist came up with a tender song I haven't heard in decades, "Never My Love."
It took me right back to my childhood home. Most evenings my schoolteacher father sat in an armchair grading papers. I liked to sit on the floor with my back against his chair reading a book in the same warm circle of lamplight. On those nights he played music like "Only You" by The Platters, "Happy Together" by the Turtles, "Cherish" by The Association, "Both Sides Now" by Judy Collins, "So Far Away" by Carole King, "Close to You" by the Carpenters, and just about anything by Burt Bacharach.
My father loved all kinds of music. In college he was nicknamed "Pitch Pipe" – a play on his surname Piper and an homage to his perfect pitch. When my siblings and I were tiny he'd turn the stereo up so we could dance to big band music, the score from a musical, or a classical standard. He'd sing along, harmonizing against the melody. Without a shred of self-consciousness he'd lift up his arms to conduct a particularly tantalizing portion of Bach or Mozart. And sometimes after dinner a song would come on the radio and he'd dance with my mother, both of them smiling as they swooped around the kitchen linoleum.
My father's father died when my dad was only five years old. The only thing my dad owned of his father's was a guitar, which he taught himself to play. Supervising little kids' baths was one of his chores in the parental division of duties, so he'd sit on the toilet lid singing and strumming that guitar while we played in the tub. My splashy siblings and I sang right along with him to tunes like "You Are My Sunshine" and "Let Me Call You Sweetheart." We also sang songs he remembered from his college days, lyrics edited for little ears.
I don't know what it means that I'm hearing "Never My Love." Most likely something below the surface of my awareness triggered a childhood memory. But I prefer to think it's a form of connection that lasts even when death separates us.
I'm singing it aloud Dad. I'm singing it for you.
Keeping Creativity Alive
March 12, 2015 / Laura Grace Weldon	/ 4 Comments
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"The world is but a canvas to the imagination."—Henry David Thoreau
Imagination springs from nowhere and brings something new to the world—games, art, inventions, stories, solutions. Childhood is particularly identified with this state, perhaps because creativity in adults is considered to be a trait possessed only by the artistic few.
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Nurturing creativity in all its forms recognizes that humans are by nature generative beings. We need to create. The best approach may be to get out of one another's way and welcome creativity as a life force.
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If we are familiar with the process that takes us from vision to expression, we have the tools to use creativity throughout our lives. When we welcome the exuberance young children demonstrate as they dance around the room, talk to invisible friends, sing in the bathtub, and play made-up games we validate the importance of imagination.
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When we encourage teens to leave room in their schedules for music or game design or skateboarding or whatever calls to them, we honor their need for self-expression. Young people who are comfortable with creativity can apply the same innovative mindset to their adult lives.
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Creativity is necessary when dealing with an architectural dilemma, new recipe, marketing campaign, environmental solution, or personal relationship. In fact, it's essential.
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Imagination and inspiration have fueled human progress throughout time. Creative powers have brought us marvels and continue to expand the boundaries. The energy underlying the creative act is life-sustaining and honors the work of others.
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But there's a caveat. Creativity isn't always positive, visionaries aren't always compassionate, and progress isn't always beneficial. After all, a clever mind is required to craft a conspiracy as well as to negotiate a peace accord.
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Creativity is a life force when it arises as a healing impulse, as a truth-telling impulse, as an impulse to approach mystery.
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Tomorrow's possibilities call out to our inventive, imaginative selves. Let's answer.
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Portions of this post were excerpted from Free Range Learning.