"Everything comes at a cost. It's not a secret that at times in my life I have put work first. I've even used the word "workaholic" to describe myself . I've often tried to make sense of my need to continually create art & travel. The desire to always be busy. It goes beyond passion & often the need to make a living. It's in many ways a defense mechanism for dealing with harder things. Adjusting to the fact that I chose my career over friends at a young age & lost touch with people that meant a lot to me. The feelings of being an inadequate father since I didn't know mine. I burnt bridges & in some ways during the process of traveling lost who I was hoping that if I looked deep enough & traveled far enough I would find myself again. This isn't fun to write. It hurts to think about. All along I have had this feeling that maybe I could work my way out of it all… that all it would take is a little more effort.. so I kept pushing. And If I got to a certain point.. a certain level.. maybe I would end up with a fresh start.
Cover photo by Chris Burkard.