2016-04-19 - It's Time To Lay My Death To Rest, 4-19-2016.txt

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Hey there folks Tuesday April come on Tuesday April 19th 948 a.m. Eight knowledge like data Four is fortitude and nine is of the elder For me that's knowledge and like information and fortitude Anyway It's about time To lay to rest all this crap about my death, okay Folks this stuff has gotten beyond silly Those of you that know me know that when it comes to fortitude Lit literally I have a limitless supply of it this body needs sleep It needs rest Like calm moments It needs food And this body for a while now has been going down you call it dying September 1st of last year 2015 My pneumonia and everything that I've been fighting for Decades Scores Has been getting worse and worse but September of last year September 1st last year my pneumonia got real bad Good to see you her key. I love you, buddy And my health is getting worse I Have said a couple time I have said a couple times on the video Excuse me, I'm trying to be very careful about how I said it. I Know what I am. 

I know who I am. I'm here for a reason I've done my job And I'm the only thing that was able to do that and I did it And it has to do with dealing with stuff on the other side. I Need to get out of this body to go home to take care of finishing For the people none of you have to believe any of this. 

This is information. I'm offering do whatever you want with it But what I do care about It's not that I don't care at all, but you know, it doesn't matter as much as the fact is I gotta tell you Okay, that's just how it is. This stuff is gonna become insane. 

I Am what I am no better than nothing I've built something for everybody everything on the other side. That's just it's like If you have a big Building and it's got some nasty stuff in it You have to literally get a huge hammer wrecking ball and destroy that building bring it down to nothing I got to go over there finish getting rid of what's in the way and then just Go ahead and put the other thing together and there's nothing to building it. It's just knocking it down. 

That was a problem This is relative to what People have been calling God I did too when I was young the original first being male and female They're gone now. They're dead There's no devil the original first being was 27 and a half percent negative Which for source energy That's a lot of negativity. Okay Anyway They're the ones that have made your lives tough miserable Put abuse into your lives made things hard. 

They had to be taken out they were What's inside of me is the main focal point of a huge thing called our and Our is what our is is It's like the male part of Lily well Lily narrow but one Two pieces that would pulled apart from the huge set of a clean source energy there were two of them they were pulled out Then he started having lives and then literally I remember when the original because I'm such a What's inside me? It's a primary focal point of our okay. So I Just a piece that's just wedged into me and it's stuck in there and it's flowing out everywhere But the main part of it's in here and it's locked into this darn body Anyway, it's got work to do. Okay Excuse me and It needs to get out of the body My job is to protect to take care of to serve no one servant but serve And that's what I've been doing. 

I had to write the books And yes, here we go again And at this moment book number one I had to take out of it Spiritual symposiums calm book one book two, okay Little one big This is how everything started. This is what happened after that. So I had to write the books I had to first get rid of the bad stuff on the other side then write those books and then crank up as many people as I couldn't get out of here As soon as this body dies and I get to come out and go home What I am inside bonds with the rest of this huge thing called our And it's literally gonna finish Reformatting creation. 

Okay on the other side So J's not doing it this energy inside me most of almost all that what's inside me is You know our the focal main focal point of our a part of it and it's coming out and it's going to do its thing So I know What I've done so to some people They've actually seen some of it as energy It's not like telekinesis move something that number one that had to never happen never I've gone into people's brains and Literally cranked them up made them so strong that they can actually see a whole lot more of them is over 2,000 times All the government agencies are interested in me or friends in space. They know me Okay, I'm no better than stick in mud and I don't want to be I Understand it's no such thing And those of you that really and I'm not the majority of the people I'm talking to don't feel like this But those of you that do watch and you have that attitude you need to get over yourself Because I am and they are okay. Nothing's any better than anything else the fact that something exists in creation Gives any quality with everything else when you protect something. 

The only way you can protect is to take care of everything Everything has to start with a basic quality. That's your foundation That's what this new age is compassion honor equality So anyway, that's what's inside me it's itching to get out to go to work to finish what I've been doing Lily a female part of what I'm part of my other half so to speak. She's anxious If The only one that ever ran lives was the original first being male and female They're the only ones that were in lives running lives is not the easiest thing to do I've had 10.8 for 6 trillion lives. 

That's the most Lily She's had over 8 trillion. We're the old ones. Okay Literally we understand more about running lives than anyone else does and We're literally gonna set things up where y'all have good lives and then understand how the heck to do it because we've never done it Either no one did but the original first being male and female. 

I'm gonna say we want to say I believe I'm gonna talk about J I'm talking about what's in me that comes out becomes something else. Okay? None of this is about me it's about you and listen to this as this happens and we understand how to do it Then immediately there's already councils that are being put together right now Angel energy from the beginning. There's not too many of them left, but they there are some they have an equal vote Then is the new angels equal vote The source there's all the different fields of essence Everything has their own every form basic form of energy has their own Field where they have their own council and two representatives and you all get together and run yourselves I'll be protecting everything I'll make sure that nothing gets abusive and Lily's gonna be running around giving love everywhere And again, when I say I please understand I'm talking about what's inside me that comes out and bonds with something else I don't know how it was to say it and I'm tired of dancing around things. 

I don't have much time Folks this body is dying Okay, I've been trying to get out of here since September and and the people running around Facebook that have nothing They don't have a life. That's that's their way to Glorify themselves and become try to become something more than what they are, you know, it's blah blah blah people talk so much junk Anyway Excuse me So I'm anxious to get out of this body, you know what my job is stuff on the other side doesn't really know how to run Lives to trying trying real hard to get things done. There's certain things that can do but it's mixed up It's like someone learning someone having to drive you where you need to go Maybe even a hospital, but they don't know how to drive a car. 

So they're trying like hell to get you there. Okay? That's what it is So there's a and there's a lot going on there's still issues on the other side I had a issue with a big part of my energy outside of the body very strong got in a big fight with it got hurt on Things are like only less than five people on this planet can actually see what's going on. Okay? We have what six over six billion people here That's not a big percentage So being something at least half intelligent, I don't expect everybody to understand or believe this A lot of you can feel it. 

This is here for you now This is here for people that you are going to talk to later and it's just here especially very important the next hundred years So getting back to on track about this death thing. I have said a few times That if I have to I will take myself home I'm not gonna get on video say I'm gonna commit suicide and most other crazy stuff That don't have to go that route. Okay But I did say that if I needed to I would literally take myself home If no one here can get me out of my body when I know it's time I'll find a way to shut myself down That's not gonna happen it's not the case, okay That's not gonna be an issue and I know that now When it was but that's the reason why I said that because I realized that there was problems on the other side where they might not Be able to get me home and I gotta go My body's been shutting down my energy what I am inside Understands all this stuff and it's literally that part of our and it's been slowly taking my body away But giving me time to get some stuff done that has to be done I Never I don't think I ever gave any date on the internet Exactly when I was supposed to go I Started feeling run back and then brought back and then run back brought back and they were trying to tell me look We're trying this mostly part lily Saying look when do we need to get you out but not quite yet need to get you up But not quite yet and they were having a hard time doing it and that's frustrating to me But especially to some people Who really wanted me dead? Because they felt in their mind as soon as I died when I when this body dies What's inside me comes out bonds for the rest of itself actually runs it and this thing's huge Strongest thing there is anywhere in creation. 

Okay, and it's gonna fix things where it's gonna be better for people But some of these people especially the person I used to be working with Literally thought they were gonna be made rich This person has some issues This there's a lot of people but one in particular y'all know who I'm talking about. She has issues and That's being brought to bear right now Right now it's already happening This is gonna be settled so I can get out of here October 28th, I was supposed to be able to go and I could actually see myself Starting to I looked at myself in a reflection. I had a red lobster and Then I could I saw my face and then I started relaxing my pineal took over and I could see Like the flesh coming off my face is telling me he has time to go and a young lady that was there actually looked at me and she said There's this huge big black angel of death behind you and I said, it's one of it's one of mine Not one of J's one of ours Kids one of the new angels it was there to protect me while I go home Not that I need it, but it's it's you know, the right thing to do And when we're in a body I shouldn't say didn't need it because when we're in a body we can be messed with but the Thing is when it's time for me to come out. 

I Don't think anything. I don't know. There's a lot of stupid stuff on the other side I was gonna say I don't think I don't think anything stupid enough to want to get in the way of that But honestly there is Most of that's gone now anyway So I explained or what it was is, you know a part of me hanging out there being my buddy and she said oh and she doesn't normally see things like that, but that's Cranked it literally literally cranked her up enough to make sure she could see it And I say it not because I'm being mean because they're both male and female Angels are anything that are like that So But I didn't get to go that next morning. 

I woke up and I said, okay I talked to the main body of Lily and I said what's going on? And she said you're not ready to go yet I said, I'll be damned if I'm not ready to go She said you don't understand but you will in a day and a half And she said definitely within two days and I'm like, okay But day and a half later I found out That my sister had screwed me to the wall and set me up to lose my house and then this other woman I was in business with spiritual symposiums calm open Open awareness incorporated. We all know Michelle She had caused all kinds of issues And all that's going to be taken care of in court, so I'm not going to go there but All the money I made over $200,000 I made that went to her the sale of my books on Amazon went to her everything went to open awareness okay, and she had She was had to get incorporated and she talked to me about it I did not want to do it But I agreed to be the vice president for a short term And then she was supposed to get Paul, Indiana to go on there too as well as pursue. Okay? So I could get the hell off that and After everything went nuts Paul Indiana's taken stay away from us. 

Don't call us Go away So I resigned but When I first met Michelle, I told her She said like why are you doing this for me? I gave her money out of my Social Security To literally help her she was in trouble financially big trouble exactly not going there, you know So And she's and then I brought this star asinine to her and I said look I'm supposed to be working with you We're supposed to do some stuff and I'm gonna help you Then she looked at me at one point said why you know, like when I brought the stone to her house in 2013 early For me 2013 and She said why you know why you give me all the stone? I said I'm not giving it to you It's a dollar gram, but I'm gonna advance it to you and we'll sell it and I'm gonna help you get everything set up Write some books. You're gonna get money for it. You're the one who's supposed to take this spiritual Evolution forward, you know, I got to go home I Was already feeling really rough back then. 

Okay, this lung disease I have COPD and I have some other kind of lung disease that I don't know what the name of it is Heard it once or twice, you know, you know me your names. I'm just I suck. I'm no good My name is Jay one letter for a reason no joke really so Get that thing off. 

So anyway The stars and I had all the cells of all the stuff it just went to her and then when it was time I I Don't want to go too much in a depth in this but it's a known fact that my last event September 26 27th and 28th Michelle's running around saying you got to hear what Jay said on this conversation personal conversation that we had She'd been recording them for about a year She never finished paying me for the first, you know the first load and a half I guess a stone I brought over there Uh She got so greedy, but anyway, yeah all the money went to her and then she finally hit me with a 1099 For having paid me wages. So it's like okay Gloves are off. So I had lawyers. 

I have wonderful lawyers wonderful hearts incredibly intelligent very powerful All That stuff I get handled but she started a campaign against me Just going nuts And got that she was at the event and she was getting everybody she could turned against me It was and yet she was talking so sweet to me and she even said later. I don't believe in any of this stuff I said what? Everything you see and everything you do and you don't believe in any of it Because I don't believe these lies you tell people on your videos and I'm like what and Then first thoughts came into my head you sure do love taking the money for it And we'll leave that there but that's how it all started And then from there it just branched out now on the other side There was a bunch of little all the souls I've gotten rid of everything that was a problem except for all these little souls running around everywhere all of a sudden They were top of the food chain. They went nuts At one time I called up Michelle I said Michelle I said you have like seven eight souls Attached to your head this seven of them an eighth one keeps trying to get in somewhere and another 20 of them hanging around I'm you know outside just waiting for a chance to get in. 

I said that 27% negative or you know around there, you know, they're great Energy that's the in-between so I Said clear your head and kill the stuff Michelle's incredibly strong, but she was anyway She's not now so She said Jay I did that but all I saw in the sphere was gray. I'm like Duh, I just said 27% more it's like So anyway, everyone had help with this from the other side okay, and part of my energy outside of my body if they went on long enough it went to everyone and Burned it out killed the stuff And for the longest time now for months what they're doing what they've been doing. They've been doing on their own Which makes them responsible? So anyway Things were getting said all over the place I expected to be going I said a lot of it might excuse me myself About because I had to go I gotta go folks. 

I've got to get the other side of a job Okay, I do Protect that you serve everything. That's my job. That's why I exist I was made like arrow was made like that in the very beginning again I say I because what's inside me that's really running everything is arrow, but it has Energy from the planet that was broken off in the very beginning from Gaia the part of that's in me too and then the physical body so I myself am not error what I am inside is very very strong error. 

So Anyway There's a few times when I supposed to go that didn't happen Somebody thought I was gonna make her a millionaire There's a lot of other problems here too And then I didn't happen someone a Woman actually got an insurance policy out of me life insurance policy. So when I died she'd have hundreds of thousands of dollars Wonder where she got the money for that So anyway, everything's gonna come out in the open here real soon So because of the issue With everything I was doing before with Those spiritual symposiums calm And then my sister Jill my father I got doused with gasoline and lit on fire burnt 60% of my body 30% real bad That was 420 of 2000 April 20th of 2000 April 5th of 95 I was in a head-on collision 45 miles an hour with a bad seat belt and no airbag My head literally blew through that didn't go all the way through but made a huge bubble in the windshield So anyway That's how things got started With this dying thing. I was adamant about whatever it took. 

I was gonna make sure I got home I wasn't running around screaming. I was saying I was gonna commit suicide, but I had to get home I Had so many there were so many people Blabbing all over the place. Oh, he's supposed to go. 

He's not going home. Go home No, no, you know all this crap and it is just it was insane. It was a circus There wasn't even five people There's three people Yeah fourth there's about four people and on this planet that's not many that actually knew what was supposed to happen when And after it didn't happen. 

I found out why I did talk about it afterwards, but not beforehand So I wasn't trying to build up this big thing. It's not about me It's about everything else. I am me. 

Nothing can kick my butt Nothing can kill me Nothing can change What I am Okay, I'm a constant that's always there My job is to take care of everything the best I can when when this body's gone and the big part of me comes out the focal point of error comes out and Bonds with the rest of itself that thing right there. It's gonna take care of things And there's a few people here that actually feel see understand and know that It's what it is fire truck airplane banana tomato Circus Shoe carrot things are what they are. Nothing's any better than anything else So That's what's going on my body's dying I have kidney failure setting in I can't hardly move my body. 

I Have a lot of issues a lot of health issues I won't be here that much longer As a message came in on the phone, but that's like an affirmation saying yes true That was the main body part of Lily saying that that arranged that I Have a job to do my job is free all I Don't want anything for myself and Lily doesn't either and as soon as Aaron Lily They're complete selves Not J Our and Lily they're complete cells as soon as they understand the right way to run things Then they turn it over to y'all y'all gonna run yourselves. You're not children. You've been around a long time You don't need someone telling you what to do and there's no one to praise when you go to pray something What do you do is make it arrogant anyway? I'll be right back Okay, we're back. 

So anyway the basic gist of this is When people start screaming about something like that They usually have nothing better to do They want something either they want something to be about themselves And they don't want someone to quote-unquote Being a limelight, which I don't like at all as a matter of fact, well, anyway, let me finish that um, or They know that they can't do it and in their mind no one's any better than them and they're a little better than them so if they can't do it, no one else can and They don't want to accept that anyone can do something. They can't When in reality all of us can do things Better or worse and and you know than other people. It's just the way it is. 

Okay Now back to the not want to be in the limelight those of you that follow a serious form of astrology If you take a look at my birthday and time July 27th 1955 at Is it 437 p.m. Long Island, New York and you're gonna find out that as far as astrology goes I'm on the tail end near the end of Leo But the way everything sets up I do get put in a limelight But it's not something I want a lot of quote-unquote basic Leos can be really like to very passionate like to show themselves Off or something. I'm not like that. I get put in a limelight sometimes because of what I do It's my deeds that put me there. 

It's what I am that puts me there not what I want I can talk to a class of a thousand people at one time five thousand. No problem I'm very happy at home relaxing with her key Sometimes hurt I'll buy DVDs and sometimes I'll put one in there and then her can I just sit back in a big king-size Bed and He'll just like butt up against me put my arm around him. Give him some leaven and just watch a movie together You know, he just kind of lays there Perky's sick He's tired. 

So am I? It's really close to going home, but I've always said that two things are really kind of private your birth and your death But especially death going home, that's a I don't like the word sacred because it's abused so much But that's one of the few times I'll actually say sacred another sacred moment is when you're actually in a body having a life Because it's a communion between you some energy from the planet and then the actual material of planet itself And by the way, you don't need to have a dual core Spirit to have a life that was put into your body. So it could help so you could to help control you and abuse you I wish I could just download all the information I have and leave you with it. I can't do that. 

I'm sorry I wish I could Make my life a whole lot easier Does no good boy It's Hard Sometimes to awaken and find out that you're this really cool thing you weren't aware of and For it not to take your emotions and let you let it get away from you a little bit and that's normal if it happens If you're ever concerned about having a problem you're pretty cool because you care enough to be concerned Those that refuse to accept there's any issue whatsoever, they're the ones that have issues Okay, they're the ones that have the trouble dealing with it Some people have mud on their face and they actually tell you you got mud on your face It's like wow, how can you even see that your face is covered in mud? Those kind of people just walk away from it don't care You know, I'm not saying do what I do be like me I'm here to give you information Okay, but sometimes maybe it's not too bad an idea to be to also like myself Not let other people push you where you want to go If you listen to them and you let them manipulate you then what are you doing? You're not being you That's important. You need to be you That's what all those videos and stuff were about and then of course when everything went crazy When When Michelle refused to pay me what she still owed me for the stone especially after everything I had to do I came home to the house and Me and her key and animals outside had thirty eight dollars and thirty four cents to live on for two and a half weeks before I had money again And she still owe me over twelve over twenty four thousand dollars and had all kinds of stuff and all kinds of money And then so I abandoned her and she had no money to take care of the animals and like wow All that's about to come out The truth so why didn't I die then the truth has to be known about what's going on. I had to save the house I had to take back the books Michelle cannot be and could not be left controlling the books She there was four different accounts with the Library of Congress where she had all that my copyrights entangled my What you call it My own personal email she changed everything on that all the websites I couldn't access anything good boy hurt Kenny I love you, buddy. 

That's right Hurt you saying let's go, but he's also saying tell it I'm coming buddy. I'm coming. Oh good boy Anyway, he wants to go out to anyway So I had to take all the bad, you know Uncle Jay 2010. 

I don't think she's an uncle Jay folks There was crazy stuff going on. I Couldn't leave yet. And that's why they didn't take me. 

That's why Lilith Lily This part of Lily. It's like the body part and her at her It's like her job is gonna be what Lilith was supposed to be So sometimes she when I see her she tries to give me the name Lilith to tell me she's the end of body energy part that knows of understands having lives but she's the part of Lily that's gonna stay out of the body and on the other side the Other part Lily's gonna be doing other stuff still staying at her body, but doing other stuff a little confusing Sorry, I had to go there, but I had to explain why I said the word Lilith. It's just Lily. 

So anyway So I had to save the house I had to and that's going awesome Everything's falling in place But I couldn't go yet. So that's why they didn't take me. That's why that part of Lily did not take me home yet So it's gonna happen but at the same time My health is very very poor has been a long time So when I do go those people that don't want to believe anything they have something to say this and hey He was just in bad health. 

That's all there's nothing about him good Good, let it be like that. It's not about me What I've told you so far today what I've always said about me is true and it's not everything I know Good leave it alone It's not about me. It's about all of y'all waking up becoming yourself being able to see and feel and understand there's other beings in other dimensions, let alone our friends in space and everything else and To see the other side people walking around you're gonna see fit There's all kinds of ways to see through the scanner through the pineal through your heart your gut straight through the crown in the hypothalamus folks this stuff is It's time for all of you to come alive time for the third dimension to become aware of all the other ones That's the only way creation can come together and sit at the same table. 

We have to sit at the same table once Just to see each other and understand. Okay, we are family. This is what we truly are. 

We have these abilities It's not a gift from God. It is who you are It's who you've always been Okay, when you're out of your body, maybe you have no idea We have incredible power how incredibly powerful intelligent and loving you are when you're not in a physical body that slows down your mass You're you're the way you feel love. Oh, it's it's it's let's just say It's a hell of a lot better than what you feel in a body people think No, you feel a lot better it's a lot cleaner you want to talk about ascending and being you want to talk about ascending and Being higher vibration proof. 

That's what happens when you get out of your body having said that please do not go thinking about Taking yourself out of your body. Please honor the fact that you have a life The only reason I even went there about you know, having a if I have to take Charge of this somehow myself. I had to go home my job. 

That was to take care of you. Not me Okay, and I all I ever said is if that's a necessity then I'm I'll you know, take a look at that I'll do whatever I have to do to do my job I have that much for to but that's not gonna have to happen Okay, it was never gonna happen. And it's also a threat to the other side saying look y'all need to get it together So that's the death thing in a nutshell a Lot of you don't understand because of all the crappy here on the internet Facebook, you know blah blah blah blah blah. 

You're kidding me, right? If you spend an hour on Facebook if you spend an hour on the internet, okay a day I Want to ask you something and I want to tell you something I'm gonna tell you if you spend an hour on the internet a day and You do not meditate or just I don't like that I don't like the word meditation if you don't relax and flow inside yourself for an hour a day Then you're never really gonna become alive unless you've already gotten yourself to that point where you can see and feel and stuff everywhere and 99% of the people who think they can aren't there. Okay number one number two Why wouldn't you want to become alive and See things for yourself Instead of like why should I struggle to wake up and become my true self where I can see and do things for myself When I can just look in the internet. Oh, this is right. 

That's right. That's right I'll tell you why because you're going like this all over the place all these other people saying all this crazy stuff Where does it get you? Every day you're going back So apparently you're not succeeding You spend as much time relaxing flowing inside yourself to help yourself come alive just going all you have to do is relax Just relax take your conscious mind let it flow away just away from you think of your conscious mind as a set of gears and just Flowing ten foot a hundred foot up in the air or whatever. It's still moving. 

So you're okay, but you're separating yourself from it a little slight slightly deeper breath go inside yourself and relax and Then just go just softly just float inside yourself and feel Just open yourself to feel or see Whatever you feel or see Once you get to the point where you can do that easily And it doesn't take long but you can just kind of put yourself there quick You're gonna find out you've just trained your mind How to operate properly how do you teach yourself how to become aware how to become awake? How to be the full you and then you can run around scream and do it Whatever you want, you see those guys on that wasting all their time Thinking they're ahead of the game on Wall Street. Okay It's controlled by the Anunnaki. Okay. 

Anyway, um, you see them going crazy talking with all the way You can be doing something like that and still be talking with the spirit guides the whole time because you finally got your head set Your frequencies and your brain you finally set yourself adjusted tuned yourself to where you need to be to be awake And that's also what they call enlightenment. You can take that 10 grand. You're gonna give a yogi and put it in the bank Maybe go buy someone some food go to a shelter help them for the animals We're a big family and by the way humans no better nothing else trust me Equality straight across the board. 

That's what it's about Animal essence not on the body is Incredibly intelligent and incredibly passion passionate compassionate and Has almost limitless fortitude We're a cool family But first you have to become yourself so that you can open up and then see everyone else that's true enlightenment to who you are and And we're all going like I always say you have no idea who you really are Okay, that's not an insult. That's just saying you have no idea who you really are You're so much bigger cooler stronger smarter than you could possibly think Until you find yourself and it's a little difficult getting there, but once you get there you stay there It's like riding a bike driving a car It takes a little bit and actually, you know, it's just easy as pie. Oh Folks like I always say and I always mean I love you, man So anyway, that's what's going on with my death anyone brings that up, you know, once you if you can just tell them tell them listen to this and Just get over it You know, I'm not a big deal my information is Your awakening is Not Jay. 

I'm the janitor. I prefer to go to work when everyone's out of the building and I can clean everything up clean up the messes tighten the loose doorknobs and then go home and Then y'all come in and start a new day at work But there's no way I could do what I did and be that and things for me to where that'd be crazy hard ridiculous anyway Folks love you. Have a good