MEREDITH (VOIX OFF): In our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically, we're brand-new people.
WOMAN: Are you visiting Seattle for the first time?
MIRANDA: Oh, no, no. I live in Seattle. I- I just went home for a month. I took my son to see my parents.
WOMAN: Oh. What do you do in Seattle?
MIRANDA: Uh, I'm a surgeon.
WOMAN: Uh, uh, did you know any of those doctors... (lowered voice) from that shooting?
MERDEDITH (VOIX OFF): We may look the same. We probably do. The change isn't visible... At least not in most of us. But we're all changed... Completely... Forever.
MEREDITH: But that's normal. I mean, it's a biological imperative-- change. So the shooting changed me. I'm changed. But I'm also ready to get back to work. I mean, as ready as any of us are. But I'm also ready sitting around the house, waiting... I just spend my time worrying.
DR PERKINS: Your husband was shot. That's a lot to worry about.
MEREDITH: I'm worried about Cristina. She's getting married, and that's just... Well, I had to cut her out of her last wedding dress with scissors, so...
DR PERKINS: You watched your husband gets shot.
MEREDITH: He's fine. He's coming back to work today, actually. (screams inaudibly)(shell casing clatters) (monitor emitting continuous tone) We're all fine. (monitor alarm blares) (pager beeps) Uh, ex-excuse me.
DR PERKINS: Is everything okay, Dr. Grey?
MEREDITH: Yes. Yes. Everything's fine.
(cell door clatters) (bangs)
MAN: Opening two. (buzzer sounds)
DEREK: It doesn't look too bad. You just gotta keep an eye on it. Make sure it doesn't get any bigger. But if it changes color, you should see a doctor.
MAN: Dr. Shepherd.
DEREK: Mm.
PRISONER: Your lady looks pissed. (buzzer sounds)
MEREDITH: Again, Derek? (cell door clangs)
ARIZONA: Whew. (sighs) (elevator bell dings) What?
CALLIE: Nothin'. Just... You're awesome.
MIRANDA: Chief.
RICHARD: Oh, Dr. Bailey. Welcome back.
MIRANDA: Thank you, sir.
RICHARD: We missed you here. The place isn't the... same. Mm. Uh, did you get cleared for surgery?
MIRANDA: What do you mean, "cleared for surgery"? Who has to clear me?
(elevator bell dings)
MEREDITH: Well, the next time, I'll leave you there.
DEREK: You said that already.
MEREDITH: Oh, Derek got arrested again.
DEREK: Meredith...
MEREDITH: Reckless endangerment.
DEREK: Please.
CRISTINA: Did he lose his license yet?
MEREDITH: Oh, no, because they don't charge him, because the cops worship him.
DEREK: Because I saved some of their lives.
MEREDITH: What are we picking?
CRISTINA: Dress color. I'm not wearing white. Mm. It's sexist and... vaguely racist. Oh. No white, no veil, no rice.
MEREDITH: Well, what will your mother say?
CRISTINA: No mother.
MEREDITH: (sighs) you know, I didn't get cleared for surgery... and I'm pretty sure it's your fault.
DEREK: Meredith, I am the chief. I can overrule the counselor.
MEREDITH: You can? (chuckles) Yes. I love the blue.
APRIL: Chief shepherd, you're back.
DEREK: Good morning.
APRIL: I find a giant skull base chordoma. Biggest one I've ever seen.
DEREK: Really?
APRIL: He came in to the e.R. With trouble breathing.
MEREDITH: You got cleared for surgery?
APRIL: I did.
MEREDITH: Bitch.
CRISTINA: I like the brown, too.
APRIL: I know it looks inoperable. I mean, I would've said it was inoperable, but you're back and you're you.
DEREK: Right. Hey, uh, yes, good morning. Thank you. Thank you very much. (staff cheers) Good. Thank you. Thank you very much. It's, uh, it's great to be back. First of all, I'd like to thank Dr. Webber for stepping up in my absence. Thank you. (staff cheers) Uh, I'm grateful for all of you, for all of your support during my recovery. Thank you. Uh, it's just, uh, so great to be back as chief. I'm grateful for the, uh... (inhales sharply) I'm sorry. That's a lie. That's what people say, and, uh, the truth is... (man clears throat) I hate being chief. I hate it. (staff murmuring) Chief Webber... (murmuring continues) Chief Webber is our chief. Um... And I'm sorry, but this giant... Sorry, I gotta go look at this chordoma. I, um, I'm sorry, but... (chuckles) I quit. (staff murmuring) Let's go, Kepner. Come on.
APRIL: Oh, sorry. Okay.
MIRANDA: (laughing) He just quit. (continues laughing)
MEREDITH: He was supposed to clear me for surgery.
ALEX: (exhales) Yeah.
TEDDY: The bullet's at the surface. That's good. I can take it out now.
ALEX: Nah. I mean, if it's not infected, I'm gonna keep it. It's my war wound. (chuckles) Besides... Chicks dig that crap.
(door opens) (beeps)
CALLIE: (sighs) Oh, my god.
MARK: Wow. You weren't kidding.
APRIL: The last surgeon broke the dura, which enabled the tumor to mushroom into the brain and down into the spine. DEREK: It's wrapped around his brain stem. (beep) whatever we do, we need to do it quickly.
MARK: The size of this thing... Normally I open up the sinuses or the hard palate.
DEREK: Well, now you have to open up both.
MARK: You want me to split his whole face open? Sinuses, hard palate, tongue, jaw...
CALLIE: A broken jaw is excruciating, let alone the rest of it.
MEREDITH: Does this kid know what he's in for?
DEREK: He wants to live. I don't think he's concerned about the pain.
MEREDITH: Well, but you don't know how enmeshed the tumor is. You don't even know if you can get it all.
DEREK: Thank you, Dr. Grey.
MARK: If you want to try this thing, Torres and I are gonna need to coordinate. What are we thinking, a week?
DEREK: No later.
CALLIE: I'll clear my schedule. Welcome back, Dr. Shepherd.
DEREK: Thank you, Dr. Torres.
MEREDITH: You're not even cleared for surgery yet. (monitor beeps)
DEREK: I'll get cleared. (clears throat)
(Reflection eternal feat. Estelle) (record needle scratches, music stops)
RICHARD: Uh, Dr. Grey.
MEREDITH: (chuckles) Chief Webber.
RICHARD: Yeah, a little... little exercise.
MEREDITH: Okay.
RICHARD: Mm. Something I can do for you?
MEREDITH: Yeah. Um, that stupid counselor Perkins, he won't clear me for surgery. So I was just wondering...
RICHARD: No.
MEREDITH: But he cleared...
RICHARD: I'm... I'm sorry. I am. But we brought in the best, and when Andrew Perkins says you're not cleared, then it's him you need to talk to.
LEXIE: Did you hear that Dr. Yang and Dr. Hunt are getting married?
DR PERKINS: I did.
LEXIE: It's pretty great, huh? It's almost like a silver lining. You know, I... I've read a lot about trauma and how, uh, sometimes people just up and change their lives. They say that the trauma was the best thing that could've happened to them. You know, like Dr. Shepherd this morning. Did you hear that he's not chief anymore?
DR PERKINS: And how have you been, Dr. Grey? You've been through a lot since I last saw you.
(gunshot) (flashback)
ANDREW: does, uh, anyone have anything to say? I know that, uh, a lot of you are only here because this has been mandated. So let's talk. Anything at all?
CRISTINA: I ate a really good taco from one of those trucks by the side of the road.
MEREDITH: When?
CRISTINA: Last night. You were asleep.
JACKSON: Which truck? The one on 7th?
ALEX: I want to I like tacos.
APRIL: Me, too.
LEXIE: I read a book... About the history of mass murders in the US. That's... that's the actual name of what happened to us. It was a mass murder. You can't call it a terrorist attack, because the murders weren't political in nature. And we weren't the victims of a serial killer, because Mr. Clark would've had to murder several people over a period longer than 30 days in order to qualify him as a serial killer. We could call it a spree killing... (gunfire) which is defined as killings at two or more locations with no break or pause in between, because Mr. Clark shot that guy in his car before he got here. But I'm not sure that... that counts as a true second location since it was so close to the hospital, which means that we were a mass murder, because it happened at one place, by one person, and more than four people were killed.
(object rattles) (taps fingers on table)
OWEN: Oh, that was quite a show this morning.
DEREK: I didn't plan it.
OWEN: (chuckles) Made it better. Any regrets?
DEREK: No. Any regrets about proposing to Cristina?
OWEN: None.
DEREK: Getting shot turns out to not be the worst thing after all.
OWEN: I need a best man. I... I know... I know we're not that close, but... I don't know. You being married to the other twisted sister, I... (chuckles) I just thought it... It kinda made us like brothers or something.
DEREK: I'd be honored. It's an honor.
OWEN: Thank you.
DEREK: You need a bachelor party?
OWEN: No, no, no.
DEREK: Even better.
(elevator bell dings)
(siren wailing)
DR PERKINS: On the, uh, day of the shooting, I understand that you had a particularly difficult day.
MIRANDA: On the day I gave birth to my son, and he needed a craniotomy, and he almost died on Derek Shepherd's table. Now that was a particularly difficult day. And at the end of that day, my son was born, and my husband lived. But at the end of this day... The, uh... 'Unh! (shell casing clatters) No! No!' Um... This daywas the worst dayof my life.
(flashback)
BEN: Miranda. (she gasps) I'm sorry. I didn't mean to...
MIRANDA: No, you... you don't just sneak up on people. Okay?
BEN: You don't... I got these. I was, um, I was playing golf. My phone was off, and I'm...
MIRANDA: You know, 18 people got shot, 11 died, one in my arms. A boy died in my arms, and you were playing golf.
BEN: Bailey...
MIRANDA: We gotta go. (Tuck babbles)
BEN: Well, where... where are you going?
MIRANDA: Home, uh, to my mom. Right? Yeah? We're gonna go see grandma? Yeah, Tuck. Here you go.
BEN: When are you coming back?
MIRANDA: Okay, here, here. Here's your car.
BEN: Miranda, w... when are you coming back?
MIRANDA: (engine turns over) Okay, okay, okay, okay. Okay, tuck.
DONNA (PATIENT'S MOTHER): No. No.
GREG (PATIENT): M... mom.
DONNA: You're talking about slicing his face in half, breaking his jaw, cutting his tongue. It's just... it just sounds crazy.
DEREK: I know. I wish I could offer some comfort, but honestly, there's no comfort that can be offered in this situation. Let me just say that... Every medical advancement started with the statement, "that sounds crazy." Let me try. Donna, let me help.
DONNA: Okay. Let's try. Let's... Okay.
DEREK: Good. Okay.
MEREDITH: He could not wake up. He could... wake up... and never be able to move again. He could go blind. He could lose his ability to speak or to eat. He could require around-the-clock care for the rest of his life. He could be in a tremendous amount of pain for the rest of his life. He could die on the table. If that doesn't happen, if none of those things happen, he's still facing months of excruciatingly painful recovery from this surgery. And before you make a decision, you need to understand the risks. You're driving awfully fast, Dr. Shepherd. The least you could do is wear a seat belt.
DR PERKINS: You've been working.
ALEX: In the clinic, in the pit. We haven't been allowed to operate, which makes zero sense if you ask me.
DR PERKINS: I'd like to, uh, talk to you about the incident last week.
ALEX: She's not my responsibility.
DR PERKINS: She was your girlfriend.
ALEX: Well, she's not anymore.
(monitor beeping rhythmically) (flashback)
MARK: Karev, give me another suture.
LEXIE: My patient didn't bring her meds. She doesn't even know their names. I... if I give her albuterol and she's on propanolol, then she'll stop breathing. If... if I give her warfarin and she's on ibuprofen, then she'll... then she'll bleed out. If I give her diphenhydramine and she's on doxepin, then she'll die. So do... do... do you think she wants to die?
MARK'S PATIENT: Is she kidding?
MARK: Karev, what's going on over there?
LEXIE: I think that she wants to die. I think she wants me to kill her. Do... do you... do you... do you want me to kill you? Because you... you could just get a gun, and it would be a lot faster.
MARK: Karev, get her outta here.
LEXIE: You know what? So why doesn't somebody find a gun... (clattering) And we'll bring her a gun and just shoot her...
MARK: Karev, help her. I can't step away. Get her out of here!
LEXIE: 'cause she obviously wants to die Help! Somebody find her a gun 'cause she wants to die!
ALEX: I got my own stuff to do.
LEXIE: Somebody find something!
DR PERKINS: Why did you walk away?
ALEX: Look, life is too short. I almost died trying to stop that guy. Besides, I mean... You know how much tail you get offered when you're carrying a bullet around in your chest? It's like I'm a legend.
DR PERKINS: Are you, uh... always this crass, or is that a defense mechanism? I've had too much crazy for one lifetime.
MARK: You cleared Lexie Grey for surgery?
DR PERKINS: Dr. Sloan, I'm in... I'm in session.
MARK: I had to check her into psych last week. I had to commit her against her will! And you just clear her for surgery? What the hell kind of doctor are you?
LEXIE: It's okay. You can talk to him.
ALEX: I'll come back.
MARK: Yeah, walk away. You're good at that.
DR PERKINS: She got snowed. Psych put her on heavy doses of antipsychotics and benzos. And then she slept for almost 50 hours straight. When she woke up, she was no longer a risk to herself or others. I mean, she has P.T.S.D. Most of you do. For her, it caused severe sleep deprivation and led to a breakdown. All she needed was sleep. So protocol is that she goes back to work.
LEXIE: See? I'm okay. Really. I'm back.
TEDDY: Clamp.
OWEN: So how are you? I hear there's a guy.
TEDDY: Yeah, there's a guy.
OWEN: Mm. That good? (laughs)
TEDDY: (laughs) Shut up. I need another clamp. So... You're getting married.
OWEN: I am. I am getting married.
TEDDY: I'm happy for you. I am, really.
OWEN: Really?
TEDDY: Yeah.
OWEN: Thank you.
JACKSON: I dig weddings. I do a mean chicken dance.
CRISTINA: Oh, there will be no chicken dance. And if you start a conga line, I will physically throw you out.
APRIL: I just went to cafeteria, and some nurse called me Reed and then said, "I thought you died."
LEXIE: Yeah, don't go to the cafeteria for lunch. They just point and stare.
JACKSON: Is that why you dyed your hair?
CRISTINA: They stare because we should've died.
LEXIE: Pack a lunch. Keep it in your locker.
MEREDITH: (Alex laughs) You are kidding me. You got cleared?
ALEX: It's down to you and Yang.
MEREDITH: That is not funny.
CRISTINA: Well, Perkins is no dummy. He can see the crazy right under the Meredith Grey surface.
MEREDITH: Again, Cristina, it's not funny because you're not gonna get cleared either, and the two of us are gonna be serving slushies at the multiplex.
CRISTINA: Really? I'd choose dermatology over multiplex.
JACKSON: No, I'd go gynecology over dermatology.
CRISTINA: Oh, of course you would. Perv.
LEXIE: I think I'd go with psych. That was a joke.
CRISTINA: (forced laughter) That was good.
MEREDITH: Anyway, I don't know what Perkins' problem is with me.
CRISTINA: Maybe he saw your file.
ALEX: Maybe he knew your mother.
JACKSON: Maybe he heard how you told the shooter to shoot you.
MEREDITH: Not funny.
JACKSON: Not a joke.
MEREDITH: Dr. Bailey.
APRIL: Welcome back.
ALEX: You okay?
MIRANDA: I'm happy to see you all. Karev, there's a patient in 23-04 that needs an endoscopy. Grey and Yang, surely your paycheck covers more than stuffing your face in the basement. Get to the clinic now. And, you two... I'm awful sorry about the loss of your friends.
APRIL: Thank you.
JACKSON: So are we.
MIRANDA: 22-13 has a bowel impaction, and I'm sure as hell not about to stick my hands in there.
DR PERKINS: You, uh, quit your job this morning. Should I be worried about impulsivity?
DEREK: (laughs) I didn't quit my job. Being chief wasn't my job. I'm a surgeon. That's what I do. That is who I am.
DR PERKINS: But before you got shot...
DEREK: Oh, I wanted to quit that job every day before I got shot, I just didn't have the guts to do it. After I got shot, I, uh... (gasps) Life is short. So now I think less and...
DR PERKINS: So... for you, the shooting was clarifying?
DEREK: A l... a lot of people died in that shooting.
DR PERKINS: I'm saying, in your life today...
DEREK: A lot of people died.
[SCENE_BREAK]
(flashback)
APRIL: Meredith went to get something to eat. (voice echoes) She should be back soon. (groans) Um... I'm sorry I got you shot. By coming out of the office... I didn't listen, and then you got shot. I... I got you shot, and I just need to
say, I am so...
DEREK: April...
APRIL: So sorry.
DEREK: Gary Clark came here for me. I gave the order to pull the plug on his wife. I got everyone shot.
MEREDITH: So-- oh! Is this what I need to do to get cleared?
DR PERKINS: (clears throat) Dr. Grey, you're early. I'll, uh, I'll call you later.
TEDDY: Yes, please.
MEREDITH: That was creepy and inappropriate. I want a new counselor.
DR PERKINS: Teddy was never a... a patient of mine. She was cleared for surgery before I got here. We just met in the cafeteria.
MEREDITH: I'm not interested in your love life. I don't care how love blooms over day-old hot dogs. My husband is about to remove the largest chordoma on record. You cleared Lexie Grey last week. You cleared Alex Karev, who insists on running around the hospital with a bullet in his chest.
DR PERKINS: I know who I've cleared.
MEREDITH: So then why don't you tell me what you want me to say, and I'll say it.
DR PERKINS: Dr. Grey, I don't think that you're being honest... With me or yourself. And I think that's a potentially dangerous situation. So what is it that you're not saying?
(monitor beeping rhythmically) (flashback)
MEREDITH: Who's with Derek?
CRISTINA: Uh, when I left, um, Mark Sloan was with him.
MEREDITH: And where's Owen?
CRISTINA: Um, I don't know. I... I think he's still talking to the police.
MEREDITH: Okay, not a word of this to Derek. You have to tell Owen because he knows. Not a word.
CRISTINA: Okay.
MEREDITH: And April Kepner. She knows, too.
CRISTINA: Okay.
MEREDITH: Well, go... go... go tell them. Go... go back to the hospital and tell them right now.
CRISTINA: Don't you want me to stay for this?
MEREDITH: No, I want you to go. Go and... and make sure no one says a word to Derek.
CRISTINA: Okay. Okay.
(monitor beeping rhythmically) (sighs) (door opens)
DOCTOR: Your friend left? You want me to wait or...
MEREDITH: No, just do it.
DOCTOR: The d&c's pretty straightforward. The fetus was only at about 5 weeks. You'll feel some cramping after, but it shouldn't be too bad.
TEDDY: Andrew and I just got busted by Meredith Grey.
ARIZONA: Callie's watching me sleep.
TEDDY: What?
ARIZONA: She's watching me sleep. And she only watches me sleep when something is up, and I'm afraid that she's gonna propose or... start talking about making babies again, which I'm... I'm open to, honestly, just not right now, you know? And I can feel her watching me, and it is such hard work to keep my eyes closed, but I know that if I open them, that something loaded is gonna come out of her beautiful mouth and pop the pretty pink bubble that we've been floating in.
TEDDY: You want to pop the bubble.
ARIZONA: I don't, though.
TEDDY: Believe me. I've been living in that bubble for years. Oh, no. Owen and I? We're just friends, really. Finally knowing the truth? I don't regret that.
ARIZONA: My bubble is so pink and so... Pretty.
TEDDY: (taps pen on counter) Pop the bubble.
(Arizona sighs)
DEREK: I heard you were looking for me.
RICHARD: The board officially reinstated me this morning. No more "interim chief."
DEREK: Well, I'm glad to hear that.
RICHARD: You sure? No seller's remorse?
DEREK: Oh, have you seen the tumor I'm chasing? No, no seller's remorse.
RICHARD: You feel good about this surgery?
DEREK: That sounds like a loaded question.
RICHARD: Look, I know Perkins cleared you for surgery. Uh-huh. And I know better than to question your judgment, but... I still have nightmares, and I go to two A.A. Meetings a day. I'm not all the way back, and I didn't get shot. That's what I mean when I say, do you feel good about it?
DEREK: I feel adrenaline. And, yeah... The adrenaline feels good. (chuckles)
(buzzing)
MEREDITH: I can't believe I'm not down there. I can't believe I'm not down there.
MARK: Palate's divided. Torres.
CALLIE: Yeah. Okay. We're good.
MARK: Here we go.
RICHARD: You ever see anything like this?
OWEN: I've seen mortar fire that didn't do this much damage.
MARK: All right, let's bring that microscope in and get you started. Everybody's ready?
(monitor beeping rhythmically)
DEREK: Okay. There's the tumor. We're there. Microdissectors, please.
MEREDITH: Get up.
CRISTINA: No.
MEREDITH: Get up. Ow! Ow! Ow! Let's go.
CRISTINA: What is wrong with you?
MEREDITH: Everything is wrong. Derek is decapitating a teenager, and April Kepner is assisting, and you're sitting reading about lilies of the freakin' valley.
CRISTINA: Well, you prefer peonies?
MEREDITH: We are not better. Cristina, a psychiatrist, given several opportunities, has deemed unfit to do my job.
CRISTINA: Well, he'll get over it. Just go back in a couple of days.
MEREDITH: You are not better.
CRISTINA: Well, in a couple of days, I'll be better, too.
MEREDITH: In a couple of days, you'll be married.
CRISTINA: Are you trying to talk me out of this?
MEREDITH: Look at me and tell me you're sure.
CRISTINA: Okay, you know what? No. You don't get to do this. Okay? All you get to do is help me break the tie between the lilies of the valley and the... and the peonies. That's it.
MEREDITH: No, I do get to do this. I mean, Derek's the love of my life, but you're my soul mate. I do get to do this. I mean, why can't it wait six months?
CRISTINA: Please don't. Don't.
MEREDITH: Your flowers aren't going anywhere. You broke up with him because he couldn't choose you.
CRISTINA: Don't... don't... don't do this.
MEREDITH: Just why does it have to be right now?
CRISTINA: You know what I think? I think you should tell Derek about the miscarriage.
MEREDITH: We're talking about you.
CRISTINA: We're talking about us not being "better." Then you need to tell him.
MEREDITH: He's not ready. He's... he's not okay.
CRISTINA: Well, you're not okay. You should tell him.
DR PERKINS: Well, Dr. Yang, if you don't feel ready, there's no pressure. The hospital is prepared to work with you in whatever way...
CRISTINA: What... I'm sorry. I... I'm getting special treatment? 'cause I'm the girl who operated with a gun to her head? If you don't want to clear me, don't clear me.
DR PERKINS: Well, you didn't show up for your appointment last week. You were very late today.
CRISTINA: I'm getting married.
DR PERKINS: I heard that. Congratulations.
CRISTINA: Can I go now?
DR PERKINS: (chair wheels clatter) When you think about going into an O.R., how does that make you feel?
CRISTINA: God, the women in these magazines... (pages rustle) Some of them are actually brides, you know? They're not all models. All smiling. It's like the only thing in the world that matters is that they find the perfect shoe to match that dress. (inhales deeply) God, you know, I knew these girls. I w... I went to school with them. It's funny. I used to feel sorry for them. They're simple girls. They just want to find the guy and get married, you know... and live. (magazine pages rustle) I don't know. I think you're earthborn simple or you're born... me. I want to be the person who gets happy over finding the perfect dress. I want to be simple. Because no one holds a gun to the head of a simple girl. 'Stop fixing him! (crying) Owen, help.'
(bang) (flashback)
CRISTINA: Who is it?
OWEN: I... it's me. It's Owen. Hey.
CRISTINA: (chain rattles) You're late.
OWEN: I'm sorry. Hey.
CRISTINA: It's not okay.
OWEN: Cristina, what is this?
CRISTINA: (voice breaks) I don't want to be alone.
OWEN: You don't ever have to be alone again. I'm not going anywhere, Cristina. I won't ever leave again. You hear me? I am not going anywhere, Cristina... If you let me stay.
CRISTINA: Thank you.
OWEN: I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was late.
CRISTINA: Thank you. Thank you. (cries) thank you.
BEN: Miranda, look, um... Look, um... I... I was playing golf. And I... I can't apologize for it because it wasn't anything I did on purpose. I was just... I was playing golf. I missed you, and I just...
MIRANDA: You're... You're a good man. You are handsome... And kind... And smart. I mean, you're perfect. But, um... I'm... Busy. Holding myself together with tape and glue. And a piece of me wishes that you hadn't played golf, because... (voice breaking) then you'd be all taped and glued, too. And maybe you'd be where I am.
BEN: Shh. I...
MIRANDA: (crying) You're... You're too much for me right now, 'cause I'm busy with the tape and the glue.
BEN: (whispering) Shh. Shh. All right, all right. All right. All right. You take care of yourself.
MIRANDA: You, too.
MEREDITH: You were amazing in there.
DEREK: Let's make a baby.
MEREDITH: What?
DEREK: Mm-hmm. Come on. (clears throat) Let's do it. Let's start right now. Let's just pull the goal view... (pager beeps) Oh, god. It's Greg. Damn it.
APRIL: I... I already gave him 10 of morphine. He's in too much pain. I'm gonna start him on propofol.
DONNA: (crying) Greg. I never should've let you do this. I never should've let you.
DEREK: All right, Greg. It's Dr. Shepherd. You have to listen to me. Greg. Greg. Greg, this is the fight. T... The pain's gonna stop. We're gonna help you. But until it does, this is your fight. The tumor's not driving anymore. You are. You're in the driver's seat. The life that's in your head? You get if you fight. (beeping continues) You got it? Good. Good. Donna look, this... This pain? Yeah. It's not a dying pain. It's a healing pain. This is a victory pain. (Donna's sobs) You won. (monitor beeping rhythmically) We won.
DEREK: Hey. (chuckles) (sighs) what? What? I went out to get some ice. Oh, don't be mad. We'll make the wedding.
MEREDITH: Mm. I'll make the wedding. Just wanted to see you were alive for myself.
DEREK: Meredith. (chuckles) Meredith. (cell door closes)
(playing discordant notes) (spoon clatters)
ALEX: You ok hot. The whole, uh, "crazy eyes, tight dress" thing, it's, uh, it's working for you, for whatever it's worth.
LEXIE: You think that you are so badass 'cause you lived. I'm the reason that you lived. And while you were dying, you were crying out for the wife who left you. So that's the opposite of badass, for whatever it's worth.
MARK: I'm jealous. (Callie sighs) I think I'm jealous of Hunt and Yang. Mm. You know Derek's gonna be the best man? We hardly even know the guy.
CALLIE: I'm gonna do it.
MARK: You're drunk.
CALLIE: That's why I'm gonna do it.
ARIZONA: Lame surgery ran long. Sorry. What'd I miss?
CALLIE: I have something... to ask you.
ARIZONA: Oh, no.
CALLIE: I want you to move in with me. I love you, and you have a drawer and a toothbrush, and I want you to have a whole dresser and a whole... blow-dryer or something... more romantic than that or... Something.
MARK: You're doing great. Push through.
CALLIE: (whispers) okay. (normal voice) Unless you're just totally hating the idea, which... would be okay.
ARIZONA: Is that it?
CALLIE: Is what it?
ARIZONA: You just want me to move in to a place that I basically already live?
CALLIE: Mm-hmm.
ARIZONA: (whispers) thank god. (normal voice) Yes, yes. Calliope, yes. I would love to have a dresser and a blow-dryer or something more romantic.
CALLIE: Oh! (laughs)
MEREDITH: Oh. How are you doing? You okay?
OWEN: Yeah. I'm okay. Uh, Derek?
MEREDITH: Uh, I'm sorry. He's not coming.
OWEN: Um... He's my best man.
MEREDITH: I know. Do you want to pick a new one? Mark looks great in a suit.
OWEN: Derek had the ring.
MEREDITH: I have it.
OWEN: Oh, okay.
MEREDITH: Are you still good?
OWEN: Yeah.
MEREDITH: Okay.
OWEN: She is gonna come down those stairs, right?
CRISTINA: I never gave you any crap about your post-it.
MEREDITH: You look beautiful.
CRISTINA: I know. How's Owen? Is he good?
MEREDITH: Owen's perfect. He's perfect.
CRISTINA: Thank you.
MEREDITH (VOIX OFF): When we say things like, "people don't change". It drives scientists crazy... because change is literally the only constant in all of science.
OWEN: Thank you.
MEREDITH (VOIX OFF): Energy... Matter... It's always changing... Morphing... Merging... Growing... Dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural... The way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are... The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones... The way we insist on believing... despite every scientific indication... that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change... That's up to us. It can feel like death... Or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it... It can feel like pure adrenaline... Like at any moment... We can have another chance at life... Like at any moment...
CRISTINA: I do.
MEREDITH (VOIX OFF): We can be born all over again.
Plan: A: Dr. Perkins; Q: Who is the trauma counselor? A: the recovery; Q: What does Dr. Perkins try to help the hospital staff with? A: the present time; Q: The flashback scenes in this episode take place between the shooting and what time? A: Meredith; Q: Who fails to get approved for surgery? A: Derek; Q: Who is the doctor who speeds while driving? A: adrenaline; Q: What drug helps Derek return to work? A: a seat; Q: What does Derek lose at Owen and Cristina's wedding? A: Cristina's wedding; Q: What event does Owen and Cristina plan? Summary: A trauma counselor, Dr. Perkins, tries to help the hospital staff in the recovery and to assess each doctor's readiness to return to work. This episode includes flashback scenes, to events that happen between the shooting and the present time. Cristina and Owen plan their wedding, (his proposal is in this episode), while Meredith fails to get approved for surgery, as the counselor doubts her moving on. Derek quickly returns to work with adrenaline but worries Meredith when he continuously speeds while driving. This recklessness costs him a seat at Owen and Cristina's wedding at the end of the episode.