She admitted that she was having much more intense, and even suicidal, thoughts after the fight."I was sitting in the corner like, 'What am I anymore if I’m not this?'" she told DeGeneres. "And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself, and that exact second I’m like, 'I’m nothing, what do I do anymore, and no one gives a shit about me anymore without this.'"The one thing that saved her? Thinking of her boyfriend, Travis Browne, and their future family together."To be honest, I looked up and I saw my man Travis was standing up there, and I looked up at him and I was like, 'I need to have his babies, I need to stay alive,'" Rousey said. "Really, that was it."Between the tears, she continued: "I haven’t told anybody that. I think I only told him that. But that was, like, what I was thinking... I don’t know if I would have made it without him."She also said that she believes she is still "undefeated" because "being defeated is a choice." She is mentally and emotionally still a winner, to herself.Watch the full clip below