"I had been kinda stumbling through [Saturday Night Live] rehearsal because I was really self-conscious and embarrassed and I was like, 'I can't do this until it’s the moment and, you know, it's game on,'" she added. "A lot of that was cursing...They were like, 'You can’t do that on the show, cannot do that on the show' and uh, I did it on the show."