The 44-year-old also wrote that the experience gave her a reminder of her own mortality, and made her reevaluate her life. "I have an expiration date. I've always envisioned that date being sometime after my kids have graduated college, met the loves of their lives and created families of their own, but I was reminded yesterday that it could come anytime, in any country, whether I'm surrounded by strangers or people I love, or neither, or both. I've never been perfect and I never will be, but from here on out, I vow to try my best to live this life to the fullest." Trista also thanked her Bachelor Nation family for their outpouring of support. ( Trista and Ryan met on the series over 14 years ago during the network's first season of the female-led Bachelor spin-off.)