“For example, in one dream, I'm throwing a party in my parent's home (where I desperately wish I was), I'm focused on the cakes and desserts, picking them out, pairing them with the right fruit, decorating the house, tidying up,” Miriam tells Refinery29. “People are arriving, the desserts are set, and then I look around to see the whole room is filled, people in close proximity with each other, and then the panic hits. What have I done? All of these people have to leave immediately. They're too close, I've probably sentenced them all to death by now as they grab cake and talk amongst themselves. Before I get a chance to scream, to yell for these people to get out, I wake up.”