But in her early 30s, the condition returned and wasn’t so easy to beat this time. She says it totally went away both times she was pregnant, but earlier this year, it came back worse than ever, covering her face and most of her body. “One night, I woke up to use the restroom and I physically couldn’t pick up my phone,” she writes. “I was freaking out—I couldn’t even pick up a toothbrush, my hands hurt so badly. I had worked out the day before and we did an arm day, so I thought maybe one of the exercises strained my hand. It didn’t cross my mind that it could be anything serious. As the day went on, I got a bit more movement in my hands, but they really hurt from the inside — I felt it in my bones. Everyone assumed it was just my workout, but I knew this felt different.”