ha but people people willing leh everyday got a lot of delivery one they all


ha, so funny


why don't you go and do group buy no ask him to do group group buy group buy group buy, group buy group buy, something like that more like err okay let's say you know on online right now hor they have a lot of group buy err websites [right] then you can post your offer there and say err laksa err super special laksa or something like that lah


ah, !huh!, oh my god so have to use it as a central kitchen kind of thing lor and then do already sell [orh] sell in masses [orh]


ha, then you never, !huh! then you never do this eh he's supposed to claim for free err free rental you know his is government one [right]


no no no is totally free the latest news


[orh] [orh], [orh] different I thought hawker centre


!wah! he got workers somemore, [orh] [orh] he he can get two hundred dollars [right], !huh! is a <mandarin>每个月:mei ge yue</mandarin> thing ah


how do you get it, ah ah ah ah ah


ah, [orh] [orh] [orh] cashless lah


ah ah, ah, ah, ya


[orh], !wah! !wah! how how to ah


, ya lor


!wah! eh how you how you apply for it ah


ah ah must be F&B is it, [orh] home base eh home base eh


oh, can can can you introduce you introduce, !wah!


!wah! awesome awesome okay lah then hor we all we all touch base again [orh], !wah! but interesting you you forward to me you forward to me tomorrow I go call


ya lor ya lor worth it eh worth it, can can can can can, can, first one I treat you ah


I Blanjah you lah I Blanjah you


ya lah true true true, , (ppc) okay you take care, bye


okay I clap I clap ah, ah okay very good, sure


hi, #Ban Hengs# is my real name no lah my real name is #Chun Hong#, [orh] this is a very long story, so, #Ban Hengs# came in army


and err one day my friend right cause my name #Chun Hong# correct or not, so one day right my friend wake up, then he suddenly like I don't know why he's at the other end of the room but I don't know why he suddenly turn his head and stare at me, ya then he stared at me right then after that he like suddenly #Chun Heng# and that's that's when everything started


then then after that we go Bangkok right, then my friend like, eh, Bangkok ah, can, split the words, then make a new name then I !huh!, ya then from then on I have like


#Ban Heng# and #Kok Heng#, basically I am #Ban Heng# and #Kok Heng# is the dog in a dog cafe, then I have other names like, #Teo Heng# #Swee Heng#, damn Heng #Cheng Hng# #Ban Hong# all from army


rubbish, , nah


!huh!, !alamak!, (uh huh)


oh must be sixteen K ah okay I set sixteen K, , alright


yes, year <mandarin>要进:yao jin </mandarin> year two <mandarin>了我:liao wo </mandarin> ORD <mandarin>三年了:san nian liao </mandarin> bro


eh, twenty eighteen Nia, !huh!


well formation is not formed yet


even though <mandarin>他已经:ta yi jing </mandarin> graduate I mean even though <mandarin>他已经:ta yi jing </mandarin> ORD <mandarin>了:liao </mandarin> lah but <mandarin>他还是会跟他们一起去吃:ta hai shi hui gen ta men yi qi qu chi </mandarin> lunch, then <mandarin>有很多:you hen duo </mandarin> insider news <mandarin>讲什么:jiang shen me </mandarin> err


help lah, okay lah but it's good to catch up with them lah


my BP as in the obese batch training, ya, actually PTP and BP right are trainings before BMT BMT is not actually like, BMT is a phase actually


ya, BMT ya is a two month phase then PTP or obese training is another two months also


pretty boring so like, okay lah actually first week is first week <mandarin>跟其他的:gen qi ta de </mandarin> week <mandarin>有点不一样:you dian bu yi yang </mandarin> (ppc) <mandarin>因为:yin wei </mandarin> first week right they scared we like fall down ah we like too fat too heavy lah, then after that they're like don't run


but walk fast, so like so like, we cannot run lah but me being a smaller one in the obese batch cause I lost I think like five to eight KG before I go in


ya I look what I am now before I go in a bit fatter lah, but I look what, like like <mandarin>一点肉:yi dian rou </mandarin> ya, I lost twenty KG in total eh


we so we walk, and walk very fast at the first week, and then after that subsequently jog then swim and jog and PT and jog and swim and jog and PT and you repeat this cycle for two months, boring but then like actually <mandarin>蛮好玩的:man hao wan de </mandarin> lah is like


is like <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> just just enjoy they pay you to exercise so why not right,


then is like, !aiya! just <mandarin>早一点进去也不用经:zao yi dian jin qu ye bu yong jing </mandarin> lah is like it doesn't affect me that much, ya so


thirty first October, but I don't know why I never get into that lah, then then <mandarin>他放我:ta fang wo </mandarin> as thirty first October, so after that <mandarin>因为你:yin wei ni </mandarin> thirty first October it as good as November <mandarin>你家两个:ni jia liang ge </mandarin> months <mandarin>就是就是:jiu shi jiu shi </mandarin> January <mandarin>了:liao </mandarin> what


ya so January <mandarin>就是:jiu shi </mandarin> JC batch January <mandarin>没有:mei you </mandarin> poly <mandarin>人的:ren de </mandarin> unless you are from obese so, , for <mandarin>我们:wo men </mandarin> obese hor <mandarin>全部是:quan bu shi </mandarin> poly ITE <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> but then when we go like unit or command school right then you will encounter a lot a lot of JC people


ya (ppc), which like a bit, the brain a bit, weird lah, not that I want to say bad about them lah but then like no some of them is very good, like legit some of them can think they're books smart and street smart that that kind right is like top notch one the level very high one


but got those kind right like only book smart right when you give them a bit of stress right they stunned already, they don't know what to do and then our company will Kena punished because of that, so it's like !walao!


ya, ya lah they cannot even do these properly ah bro , ya so the few of us that are a bit more street smart one we will guide them lah like actually you can do this actually you can do that


actually why not we do this then we suggest ah suggest, then if they don't know how to do they can only approve mah correct or not so so they approve to our commands lor, what to do


you want to get a you want to get a glimpse of what army is like right you are going in soon right <mandarin>你是几号:ni shi ji hao </mandarin> ah


seventh ah okay okay okay, eh also two weeks confinement ah, is it got confinement or not ah


[orh], [orh] <mandarin>我懂:wo dong </mandarin> <P2>jacob</P2> <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> brother <P2>jacob</P2> <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> brother <mandarin>是是警察:shi shi jing cha </mandarin> (ppc) ya ya, Jacob <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> brother <mandarin>是警察:shi jing cha </mandarin> then err church Marvin <mandarin>就是警察:jiu shi jing cha </mandarin> what ya


officer, uh, I will talk about the more normal one ah


normal one <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> like err


, obese ah, not true lah, my friend eat three four bowls of rice ah some of them some of them, ya <mandarin>看看:kan kan </mandarin> ya <mandarin>看他的:kan ta de </mandarin> size lah <mandarin>因为:yin wei </mandarin> like <mandarin>你可以:ni ke yi </mandarin> free flow <mandarin>加:jia </mandarin> rice


ya then <mandarin>那个:na ge </mandarin> scoop right is like, ya so not usually uncle <mandarin>给:gei </mandarin> one scoop


then after that <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> veggie then after that <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> soup


so it's (ppc) it's quite <mandarin>丰富:feng fu </mandarin> one lah but, so uh rice is sometimes rice is the best tasting thing out of all the dishes ya then then like the more normal ones are like pork cubes


and some weird vegetable that is like rancid okay not rancid lah it just looks very terrible lah, ya then, ya it's quite nonsense, ya it's quite nonsense one serious then it's like uh it's like uh what ah


the soup the soup still okay lah the soup still okay ya but on err Tekong ah Tekong Wednesdays are are, good food day


ya so


ya then, ya


civilian (ppc), nonsense one lah but then like <mandarin>就是就是一天:jiu shi jiu shi yi tian </mandarin> lah one day out of the out of the week, ya lor so, actually, okay lah all the meals are very different, err err breakfast is usually <mandarin>包:bao </mandarin> Lor-Mai-Kai


uh, got I think got err Hokkien Mee before I think have ah I think got Hokkien Mee, uh, then still got what err, err yam cake !wah! their yam cake ah I tell you, toxic y'know


I don't what I eating eh you see the you see the rubbish bin right the amount of yam cake inside rubbish bin right is a lot cause people like don't know what they eating they just throw away, ya, so if I know is yam cake right ah cause they will give two


if I know it's yam cake I'll ask only for one, cause you cannot don't eat if the sergeant see you don't eat right they can charge you okay not the sergeant but officer will charge you, they not it's not not eating the food they give you they can charge you for not eating


cause it's against safety regulation you must eat, ya ya, ya then the


the food actually per pax very expensive one but the food looks very cheap, so like let's say like, like #nasi lemak#, outside <mandarin>你买:ni mai </mandarin> like, let's say lah, but army right they will charge like eight dollars


that kind per person so if you don't eat right you pay, but then recruits don't get to do that lah recruits don't get to pay up lah, so you must eat, (ppc), nonsense one lah


!huh!, is that they talking about breakfast is it


ya they all the all the <mandarin>包:bao </mandarin> Lor-Mai-Kai don't come together one they come separately one so like let's say Mondays Lor-Mai-Kai Yuesdays is <mandarin>包:bao </mandarin> Wednesdays is like, bread or something like that


then they will ask for your survey so a lot of people survey right they want Lor-Mai-Kai so in the end like Lor-Mai-Kai becomes more


so like people just want to Siam the trouble so they will tap like satisfied and very satisfied, ya


ya lor, err err <mandarin>那个就那个:na ge jiu na ge </mandarin> err cook house


then right <mandarin>你会:ni hui </mandarin> realise right I think police <mandarin>也是差不多:ye shi cha bu duo </mandarin> I think I think lah, then <mandarin>你会:ni hui </mandarin> realise <mandarin>有一个:you yi ge </mandarin> cookhouse right <mandarin>是那个:shi na ge </mandarin> cookhouse hor <mandarin>很多:hen duo </mandarin> commander <mandarin>回去的就是:hui qu de jiu shi </mandarin> like <mandarin>那种:na zhong </mandarin> big shot ah <mandarin>那种:na zhong </mandarin> star <mandarin>还是那种:hai shi na zhong </mandarin> crab <mandarin>会去的:hui qu de </mandarin> hor


no you cannot you cannot follow them where they eat because you are you are you are specified to one one cookhouse ya but if that cookhouse you are allocated to right is like


then <mandarin>你就:ni jiu </mandarin> good lah good for you lah then got good food everyday waiting for you lor, (ppc) you won't dare to serve pork cubes to, a three crab person ah, like a colonel, or lieutenant colonel you won't dare to do that what so so <mandarin>他们会:ta men hui </mandarin> like <mandarin>会:hui </mandarin> they serve <mandarin>比较好的:bi jiao hao de </mandarin> food


ya, ya applies for all camps, in army I don't know about police but it applies to all camps in army, okay <mandarin>我:wo </mandarin> after


after <mandarin>我:wo </mandarin> BMT hor (ppc) then <mandarin>我去我去:wo qu wo qu </mandarin> command school mah <mandarin>我去:wo qu </mandarin> SCS mah, , (ppc) then but then after that <mandarin>我去:wo qu </mandarin> Gedong


then like like random days <mandarin>会突然有:hui tu ran you </mandarin> Bak-Kut-Teh <mandarin>会突然有:hui tu ran you </mandarin> prata <mandarin>会突然有:hui tu ran you </mandarin> like Nasi-Lemak <mandarin>那个有:na ge you </mandarin> Otah


err Laksa,


then <mandarin>我进去:wo jin qu </mandarin> army then I loss until sixty three, ya that's twelve KG (ppc) so from the my peak to my, after I lost everything already right it's sixty three KG


then after that I go SCS right I gained a bit I gained until about sixty four sixty five, but after I go Sungei-Gedong right I gained until like sixty six, ya cause SCS still can control cause exercise a lot a lot a lot, but then armour being armour right you sit on the armour you don't actually run


so PT <mandarin>还是会有:hai shi hui you </mandarin> lah <mandarin>一定会有:yi ding hui you </mandarin> lah <mandarin>就是:jiu shi </mandarin> one three five lor


ya ya correct correct <mandarin>因为我我是:yin wei wo wo shi </mandarin> train to <mandarin>我是:wo shi </mandarin> train to be sergeant mah, so err err <mandarin>有两种:you liang zhong </mandarin> armour <mandarin>有两种一个叫:you liang zhong yi ge jiao </mandarin> vehicle commander <mandarin>我们叫:wo men jiao </mandarin> VC lah <mandarin>一个叫:yi ge jiao </mandarin> section commander which <mandarin>我们叫:wo men jiao </mandarin> SC so like VC is a a newer thing


then <mandarin>你会:ni hui </mandarin> command <mandarin>你的:ni de </mandarin> driver <mandarin>你的:ni de </mandarin> gunner <mandarin>还有你你后面的:hai you ni ni hou mian de </mandarin> section, then section commander basically only command section, ya so vehicle so vehicle commander and section commander the roles very very different


ya then trigger commander <mandarin>就是站在:jiu shi zhan zai </mandarin> vehicle <mandarin>上面:shang mian </mandarin> and command <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> lah section commander <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> as good as infantry so that's why we are called armour infantry, ya so they're as good as infantry you get all the vehicle !hey! !hey! bla bla bla bla bla <mandarin>那种:na zhong </mandarin> lor


and <mandarin>就:jiu </mandarin> like eh driver forward driver left driver right driver stop ah gunner ah <mandarin>那种:na zhong </mandarin> lah ya, ya ya enemy


nonsense , accident ah <mandarin>我的:wo de </mandarin> batch <mandarin>没有:mei you </mandarin> accident but during <mandarin>我的:wo de </mandarin> cadet time other places got accident


for example <mandarin>那个的一个是谁:na ge de yi ge shi shei </mandarin> ah <mandarin>那个在:na ge zai </mandarin> Wallaby <mandarin>倒的那个:dao de na ge </mandarin> <mandarin>那个:na ge </mandarin> Davin ah <mandarin>还是什么不懂忘记他的名字了:hai shi shen me bu dong wang ji ta de ming zi le </mandarin> lah


ya <mandarin>那个:na ge </mandarin> because of that right <mandarin>我的:wo de </mandarin> Germany training uh pause for I think two three days eh, ya


so so err, ya ya, ya Germany usually armour because Germany they do all the tanks and do all the bionic and everything so


and then <mandarin>他们的:ta men de </mandarin> ground <mandarin>大:da </mandarin> lah I mean there are there are other places that we can do training India, there is err Australia, ya but for cadet training <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> Germany, ya Singapore you cannot do armour armour training here


then <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> fire <mandarin>的时候:de shi hou </mandarin> right <mandarin>你你的那个:ni ni de na ge </mandarin> tank barrel hor <mandarin>还是:hai shi </mandarin> bionic <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> barrel hor I <mandarin>我不懂:wo bu dong </mandarin> tank barrel <mandarin>有没有:you mei you </mandarin> lah, but but bionic <mandarin>是那个:shi na ge </mandarin> barrel hor I need to tie a chain


so the chain the purpose of a chain is right like, I cannot like turn left or right too much we call it traversing lah traverse means turn lah, like the turret turning, I will not turn left or right too much because if I turn right or left ninety degrees right those are my allies and if I shoot right they will die


and they will really really die in front of me so so we need to tie a chain in Singapore and then if we elevate the the barrel too much right the shore opposite us ah the buildings opposite us we can see ah is Malaysia


ya, (ppc), I mean I don't think my bullet is, uh that <mandarin>:</mandarin> to fly over to the shore lah but it will fly over the line lah then into Malaysia detect we die lah, ya then <mandarin>因为我们我们有两个:yin wei wo men wo men you liang ge </mandarin> round mah <mandarin>我们一个是:wo men yi ge shi </mandarin> high explosive round I think <mandarin>他的:ta de </mandarin> maximum


can fly a little more than that, but <mandarin>我有一个叫:wo you yi ge jiao </mandarin> armour piercing round, ya armour armour piercing round can fly thirty two KM


ya so I can touch Malaysia basically, I can fly half more than half of Singapore, armour piercing fin stabilising


ya, ya, ya


ya ya don't have, ya


ya ya, !aiya! Singapore is too small lah <mandarin>你你想一下:ni ni xiang yi xia </mandarin> like <mandarin>因为你的你的:yin wei ni de ni de </mandarin> jet plane you fly so fast right, Singapore (ppc) end to end is only forty two plus plus KM eh


ya ya then you you just fly I think like, less than a minute I think you fly all of Singapore already then you can fly round around Singapore like not not feasible mah so <mandarin>一定要去:yi ding yao qu </mandarin> overseas lah, like <mandarin>我们:wo men </mandarin> armour artillery <mandarin>也是一定要去:ye shi yi ding yao qu </mandarin> overseas no choice lah


ya <mandarin>因为:yin wei </mandarin> armour we go Germany the purpose of going Germany is so that we can drive and fire at the same time, Singapore cannot, you drive and fire at the same time right you bound to hit a lot of things , ya you want to hit your friend you want to hit Malaysia you want to hit some tree ya but germany got open space for us to train


ya then you can, you can !wah! very fun one you drive very fast it will fire , Singapore <mandarin>可以:ke yi </mandarin> drive and fire but only blanks <mandarin>因为你:yin wei ni </mandarin> fire <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> fire nothing mah, ya so the good experience is Germany lah ya same with artillery ah Jacob <mandarin>也是去去:ye shi qu qu </mandarin> err err <mandarin>哪里:na li </mandarin> Thailand what


ya ya <mandarin>他他是一定要去:ta ta shi yi ding yao qu </mandarin> overseas mah Singapore <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> RT <mandarin>谁:shei </mandarin> RT <mandarin>自己:zi ji </mandarin> Malaysia lor


no choice ah must must go overseas


good lah , I also don't want physical training, okay lah <mandarin>警察:jing cha </mandarin> <mandarin>比较:bi jiao </mandarin> local lah <mandarin>你去:ni qu </mandarin> overseas <mandarin>我觉得也没有用:wo jue de ye mei you yong </mandarin> as in like


ya lor


ya good life eh


err enlisting date <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> first week of July mah that's the usual intake, but hor because of COVID right they dragged two weeks later eh, and the two weeks right they drag is counted eh, it's counted inside ya


not fair right not fair right ya, but ah what to do COVID mah, !huh!


actually okay lah err as in like, whether you experience a full package or not actually two weeks doesn't make a lot of difference one, because they still experience uh confinement after these two weeks cause two weeks they at home mah


ya so actually the difference not very big, but the biggest difference <mandarin>我觉得是:wo jue de shi </mandarin> like, like (hmm) those who, go in already, then after that asked to go home, I think they missed a lot in the middle


those who miss at the start <mandarin>我觉得还好我觉得:wo jue de hai hao wo jue de </mandarin> lah <mandarin>我觉得:wo jue de </mandarin> I I'm not sure, ya, so, give and take ah, ya


eh <mandarin>你是去:ni shi qu </mandarin> err HTA <mandarin>先:xian </mandarin> right


so means <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> Chua-Chu-Kang <mandarin>做:zuo </mandarin> nine seven five ah


I go past HTA a lot, cause you go further in is Gedong, uh not very near further in like very far in


so from my house to Gedong ah <mandarin>因为我我家楼下就有:yin wei wo wo jia lou xia jiu you </mandarin> nine seven five <mandarin>了:le </mandarin> what, but I still need to take forty minutes to go in eh imagine that, ya depends on traffic depends on traffic, good days <mandarin>的话就:de hua jiu </mandarin> twenty five, bad days <mandarin>的话就:de hua jiu </mandarin> forty plus


ya ya ya <mandarin>看:kan </mandarin> traffic, ya then if <mandarin>我给你一个:wo gei ni yi ge </mandarin> tip ah if you want to board nine seven five right, don't try to Chap any queue


and, if you see a queue very long right go drink coffee first or, take a sip of tea first before you queue again cause like, very ridiculous one, the queue cause, the queue involves a few types of people police, uh


foreign worker, uh ya, logistic base cause nine seven five will pass by logistic base, then err Tengah air base people, if they are not taking one seven two I don't know why they want to take nine seven five somehow somewhere


and armour people, ya


ya so <mandarin>那边没有:na bian mei you </mandarin> bus <mandarin>那边只有:na bian zhi you </mandarin> nine seven five, Tengah air base <mandarin>还有还有:hai you hai you </mandarin> choice <mandarin>有:you </mandarin> one seven two, but <mandarin>其他的:qi ta de </mandarin> place right <mandarin>有:you </mandarin> one seven two, nine seven five and nine seven five a lot a lot of people take


ya so if you are not if you are at the back of the queue near the traffic light which is very far from the okay not very far lah not very far from bus stop, but the line is reasonably long


then <mandarin>你去喝一杯茶先:ni qu he yi bei cha xian </mandarin> lah, ya


I mean, okay most of them to be honest uh, so I feel like, I feel like a bit like <mandarin>为什么要这样子:wei shen me yao zhe yang zi </mandarin> but I guess is their culture back in like let's say Bangladesh or back in India


ya <mandarin>以前他们上:yi qian ta men shang </mandarin> bus <mandarin>你看那些:ni kan nei xie </mandarin> video <mandarin>那么上:na me shang </mandarin> bus <mandarin>很夸张:hen kua zhang </mandarin> mah <mandarin>有些人上:you xie ren shang </mandarin> bus <mandarin>上:shang </mandarin> the roof of the bus <mandarin>那种:na zhong </mandarin> ya so, so I think it's the way they are lah


but <mandarin>我看过有人喊来喊去:wo kan guo you ren han lai han qu </mandarin> but <mandarin>算了:suan le </mandarin> lah, for <mandarin>我也不:wo ye bu </mandarin> young ah <mandarin>因为我我家楼下是:yin wei wo wo jia lou xia shi </mandarin> nine seven five so I get a seat first before they push me so yeah


ya so that's one tip for you, ya, !wah! I don't know eh


I really really don't know eh, like I know they're military police, their military police are very very different from err err Singapore Singapore police force


okay, okay let's start, so uh, we'll start by introducing myself, I am <P2>Matthias</P2> and the partner I'm, having convo with is, #Xia Chun Hong# which


sometimes I call him #Ban Hengs#, #Ban Hengs#, eh actually I wonder who who gave you that name ah


ah


okay


, oh okay that's interesting


I think I should I think I should call you #Teo Heng# eh cause you like to sing a lot


point three ya so !huh!


alright so so it's been awhile since we, have met each other right right right, so, you've ORD already right now in uni first year second year


!wah! so fast, , you did your cycle right


oh they never never call you back for cycle


!huh!


, ya that's that's not bad, uh actually actually I got a I got a question leh I was like wondering like, , with actually you did your BP right is it before BMT or during BMT


ya err like what what err TAF club for NS ah,


is is a two month, is a two month period right, I I mean the BP the BP, actually actually actually what you, do there <mandarin>你去那边做什么:ni qu na bian zuo shen me </mandarin> like like


routine


five to eight KG !wah! actually you go in ah


what happen man when you come out what happened, oh my goodness ya so ya can continue


!wah!


ya why not they pay you to, to get healthier


thirty first October


(uh huh),


weird lah weird, ah, true true true


cause they follow the book mah they follow the book one, they need instructions to work to do properly properly ah, ,


, , (hmm) but then actually I also have like question like like wondering what what do you eat inside like like what's the food they give you inside


like <mandarin>有没有:you mei you </mandarin> will it have like, ya soon eh actually it's not really army but it's police SPF,


I think seven of October, ya like like <mandarin>七天:qi tian </mandarin> before <mandarin>我的:wo de </mandarin> birthday like I have to go in and celebrate my birthday then Sian leh I tell you damn Sian, !huh!


that one actually I don't know I really don't know, like not a lot of people that I know went in SPF, I guess, is it


ah, eh but ya so so what what do you really eat in BP ha


I thought they don't give you <mandarin>饭:fan </mandarin> leh like like <mandarin>不是很多饭:bu shi hen duo fan </mandarin> lah cause


you need to I mean they you need y'all need energy to to, push yourself mah, but then you also cannot eat too much cause you know, you might gain a lot, is it


eh actually <mandarin>很多:hen duo </mandarin> eh that's like <mandarin>夸张多:kua zhang duo </mandarin> eh, three four bowls, (uh huh)


eh actually that's a lot , ah


very bland is it


look terrible and very bland like there's no taste at all ah


, Bak-Kut <mandarin>还有:hai you </mandarin> Bak-Kut-Teh ah


finally Shiok


!wow!


, uh


but but then they still give you ah they still give y'all ah, ah, !huh! serious they can charge you for not eating the food they give you


[orh] [orh], so like they will have like, prepare those food so you just so y'all just take what they give lor <mandarin>就是这样:jiu shi zhe yang </mandarin> is it


[orh],


eight dollars, !wah!, , !wah! actually actually but then actually the food not bad eh cause cause I heard my


BP friend I I don't know what they say ah they just say that oh there's not a lot of carbohydrates you just eat bread, and then, don't know leh, but that's that's what they tell me


!huh! [orh] , oh, ah


[orh] there's a lot of variety lah not just, everyday same same


oh you can is can survey ah, [orh],


okay,


uh (uh huh), (uh huh)


ah, (uh huh), so if you if you you see all the #zai kia# like inspector like like all the #zai kia# Zai rank go there so you just follow them where they eat lah


so all the good food will be there, oh, oh right right right okay okay, ah


[orh] okay okay, interesting actually quite interesting


, (uh huh),


!wah!


!wah!, seventy five to sixty three that's that's twelve twelve KG, you lost twelve KG


ah, (uh huh), !wah!, ya that's true that's true


okay lah, physical not mobile lah but, you just do a lot , kind of, , just sit there and then you just command <mandarin>就是这样:jiu shi zhe yang </mandarin> lah something like that right


!wow!, ah,


(mmhmm)


ah, but but but while you're doing that in the field right is there any like


during, like anything interesting happen like accident, ah, oh !wow!


<mandarin>他翻车:ta fan che </mandarin> oh my gosh, that's a bit <mandarin>夸张:kua zhang </mandarin> though, !wah! okay


oh quite cool eh <mandarin>去:qu </mandarin> Germany, just for training but normally is, is is is only armour is it


, ah, (mmhmm)


ah,


, !huh! serious, ya ya is is


(mmhmm), thirty two KM


ya ya it's true ya Singapore actually a lot of SAF things cannot, cannot have cannot train in Singapore, ya you have to go out to Australia !aiya! Singapore !aiya! you, actually you fly even if air those those kind of fighter jet


pilot right, they also don't train a lot, in Singapore I heard I heard cause I I went to this , tour from my school, ya they they they give us a tour around the, the the SAF


pilot school, or something like that, ya then they told us that, training happens but actually I mean there's training ah in in even though if they are not even though they are not flying in Singapore


ya, but those pilot, most or all of them are, uh regulars ya there's there's no recruit pilot lah there's no recruit pilot, and there's there's only regular pilot so I heard that they have


ten years of, , ten years period, in in, the, RSAF school piloting school lor, ya then then they went to US they went to, that's like US, err Taiwan actually they got say but I not sure now they they still go there over there for training and stuff like that


so ya actually is quite cool lah but ten years is a bit too long lah sign like doing for the going for that, unless you are, like people are interested in flying lor


you you will miss a lot of, people lah ya, I mean it


ya from west to east lah west to east, yeah


(uh huh)


ah that's that's true, , for for for training right, outfield training ah


if not if not Malaysia upward, , !wah!


no no police I I heard right I heard I read from the forum that, there's not really a lot of of chance to go overseas maybe <mandarin>以前:yi qian </mandarin> lah but <mandarin>现在:xian zai </mandarin> I think, they don't go overseas for training cause police is small


police <mandarin>有只有车而已:you zhi you che er yi </mandarin> mah <mandarin>你你:ni ni </mandarin> you just drive around Singapore lor still <mandarin>还可以:hai ke yi </mandarin> drive around for like a few KM, like maybe patrol that kind of stuff lor not ya not a lot of chance to travel, ya that's that's


the one of uh unfortunate things of SPF, ya we we also don't, do a lot of outfield, so it's just, one place so it's just one place lor in in the


in the old Changi road ya that's that's the place we do for every single thing, for training for any course but I heard it's not so, they don't have such, a rigorous training


, most of the time is just, tests all those tests like, cause we need to learn a of laws we need to learn a lot of, like, things related to laws lor


ya so, not a lot of chance to, for for such, physical training lah, ya


ya lor


ya, , eh but eh but <mandarin>这阵子:zhe zhen zi </mandarin> because due to COVID virus right you know those those who went in for BMT right after only two weeks right they come out of BMT eh


they come out of the BMT right I mean you don't go home and like do nothing but, they just do admin stuff


one whole month, just, (uh huh)


ya, !huh! serious, !walao! they counted the two weeks later ah !walao!, good life eh <mandarin>他们是:ta men shi </mandarin> good life


they really having a good life man, !wah! Shiok eh,


oh, ah


like a lot of, okay


, I think I think <mandarin>我觉得会比较好一点:wo jue de hui bi jiao hao yi dian </mandarin> lah SPF <mandarin>的:de </mandarin> food, , but


ya <mandarin>对:dui </mandarin> eh <mandarin>没有:mei you </mandarin> uh eh ya ya ya, it is it's around Chua-Chu-Kang there lor ya but it's in the old road so it's a bit


further in and Ulu lah very Ulu lah, serious, oh oh so Gedong is just like near there lah somewhere near there lah


[orh], in in in the morning lah, ah


(mmhmm), [orh] okay


so a lot of people just, [orh] [orh] [orh] oh my, !wah! <mandarin>蛮多人:man duo ren </mandarin> leh


!huh!, okay


serious, !wah!


!wah! Shiok eh


!wah! okay okay that's that's interesting, I I heard that some some of the NS people posted to police also like there's a chance they get, post to police ah


I heard lah,


(mmhmm), I mean we all know why lah


ah, !huh! okay lah but okay lah but now now they allow, to bring your phone inside like camera phone inside even even in BM BM BMT eh like even in Tekong, I just bring phone in and then like just


, like, ah


ML competition ah, !huh!


!walao! they sit on their ass just to play game play game to win to book out


well now nowadays the NS getting very chill very


!wah! actually


ah


!huh!


!wah!, so so so what happen, !wah!, a bit a bit slack eh a bit shag eh, so don't hang any wet clothes around, the bunk area lah


inside [orh], okay,


, okay that's


uh, when they don't you, you just you just have to follow what they say lor


ya so is it so it's just <mandarin>没有:mei you </mandarin> family <mandarin>没有:mei you </mandarin> friend it's just, new people and then got one crazy, one crazy person just ask you to do whatever and then you have to do it lah


, (mmhmm),


(mmhmm), !wah! <mandarin>他们:ta men </mandarin> !wah!


!huh!, so that means their, training not effective even though they


have longer training so it's like kind of unfair to them, !wah! shag !wah! that's damn sad


everyday


I think I think is the Encik'S fault lah everything like they've they just have to follow and listen mah, they can they can do nothing unless they complain lor, !wah!


, that's, !wah! that's that's interesting leh


but what happen now man like like how much have you gain since then, !wah! eh bro you gain back how much, oh my goodness


you have anything to do if you don't have to like lose so much lah but at least


but okay lah seventy plus, the the what, [orh]


(oo)


!wah! hundred KM challenge, okay, but but have you go check with the doctor like what happened internally


but swollen <mandarin>有一点:you yi dian </mandarin> swollen on leg <mandarin>有点夸张:you dian kua zhang </mandarin> eh


, , okay


unhealthy life eh


, oh my oh my gosh but


I run okay lah about once or twice every week and COVID during the first phase right there's so many people running in the park eh like, like


more than thirty people !wah! all the kids playing there like, phase one eh I'm talking about phase one and not not phase two eh, so <mandarin>你去那边跑步:ni qu na bian pao bu </mandarin> hor it's just, you say you Kena you


[orh] you just stay at home that's it, cause cause , they they give err, err err err kind of a rule that says that you must wear your mask unless you are running or unless you are doing some kind of, vigorous exercise then oh you can excuse for not wearing mask then you go then you go in the park right cause park


you know like, just, walk walk take a hike but most of the people there right are over there just to go there for run, so you see a lot of people right not wearing masks, so it's not a surprise that


there's a lot of cases in, in a in a in a park where there's a lot of people running one it's just <mandarin>夸张:kua zhang </mandarin> you know, so so so when, the first phase one end right and the phase two start, so you just you go over there now you see that there's like no one you just


like no one runs like you don't even see like, people like


I just, like like, I don't know lah I don't know what they want but okay lah maybe, they, go there to walk but, ya like it's just people lah


like like like it's time to Kiasi right but they're not Kiasi, ya sia then then all our old uncle all the people like complain oh like


shit faced one they have to stay at home cause too boring then phase two start right then it just, they'll they'll complain about other stuff


!hais!, not yet ya lah cause some form of food right suppose to eat there like, you know all those like <mandarin>汤:tang </mandarin> food like Bak-Kut-Teh like who who <mandarin>打包:da bao </mandarin> Bak-Kut-Teh


then <mandarin>吃:chi </mandarin> I think you by the time you bring it home right it's just


ya ya ya it's just there's no there's no like, that you just <mandarin>去:qu </mandarin> NTUC <mandarin>什么都没有:shen me dou mei you </mandarin> okay lah during the phase one, but


Kiasu lor Kiasi lor this is Singapore this how Singaporeans like ah, they have to get it so that people, like, like they just, scared that they don't have what, other people have, that kind of mentality ah is is only I think only Singaporeans have lah okay lah maybe you maybe you talk about


our country okay asians ah asians this is just asians lah, US ah US is <mandarin>夸张:kua zhang </mandarin> ah it's just <mandarin>夸张:kua zhang </mandarin> ah like they even complain about, what not not wearing mask


going out not wearing masks, then now is like it's just, they use what excuse oh shit I cannot I cannot breathe, oh shit I I think I will die if I wear like mask for like


nineteen hours or or or even three hours where mask <mandarin>都会死掉:dou hui si diao </mandarin> leh like what, some kind of, meeting for those who, don't want wear mask so they have a meeting right and then


they will they ask people like, one by one they'll come up and present why they don't want to wear masks so some people use like what err oh shit because god made us like that so we cannot wear masks we cannot like, , destroy god's creation for breathing what


we're just wear masks <mandarin>会会死:hui hui si </mandarin> meh


oh god <mandarin>是:shi </mandarin> god got the final authority mah, you know the the they have he have the final say that kind of that kind of nonsense, like, ya [orh]


ya, they they just love to use the law, oh what I have the rights, I have the what right what right, to, do not do this I have the right to say whatever I want I have the right to say


like, to have their own opinion, but then but then in other countries like like in Japan or in Korean right, they they don't use their right they just follow the law, they they know what, is right lah they don't they don't just


, just, disobey the law they they, they understands lah they understand


!wah! I I think the count is still rising by thousands, which is a bit <mandarin>夸张:kua zhang </mandarin> lah every single day, a few thousand or one thousand <mandarin>起码:qi ma </mandarin> one thousand is just, insane


but is, bad lah ya <mandarin>我也是觉得:wo ye shi jue de </mandarin> it is very hard to, pass this phase


for better or worse lah change the world for better or worse


ya that's that's that's true, and and it's more effective lah, it's more you don't have to go to work, and then you go to work right like, you kind of go there for like, and then and then you're not productive


ya but


ya that's that's that's true, but, it's it's good that we adopt this kind of strategy, to to work, it's it's a safer option lah, you know cause cause there are some other countries like


Japan Japan right they they still have to go work, you have to go to office to work, and then when they work right they just work for, twelve hours they just work for more than fifteen hours is is like


there's OT lah you know you know there's OT and no OT work, so, but then at work right is permanent OT, so so normal normal work is eight hours right so they just have to work twelve hours, due to


political kind of reasons, so there's, , something like before the boss, get off from work right they cannot get off from work, until the boss, tells them oh


finish your work we can go and chill, ya it's there's a lot of political reasons in, Japan lah which makes people work, damn hard, and then they die in work, there's there's there's no social life there's no social life in such kind of


society lor, is damn sad, ya, which Singapore is which we are lucky that Singapore have, good government, ya and just they don't they don't just waste


or or anyhow give the rule oh that that, that, or, or , Singapore give the rule where, we cannot work, like over over, OT a lot


which is kind of nice,


ya that's that's true, !huh!


ya a a lot of a lot of things in Singapore is very expensive ah, it just whether we can afford afford it or not


uh, I think, !aiya! if if stay in <mandarin>最好:zui hao </mandarin> lah stay in you don't spend a lot of money, but you stay in right last time


!huh! are you serious <mandarin>五六百块:wu liu bai kuai </mandarin> a month, that's a lot leh


ya we should we should we should save when we can lah, but you start your saving plan after your NS ah


, sad ah, is like CPF like that


!wah! <mandarin>你:ni </mandarin> you bought for twenty twenty thirty years twenty years ah, twenty okay,


ya it's it's not a lot but, okay lah at least you got some, money somewhere that you know that you have lah


ya, ya that's that's true, ya lah now, okay lah now okay lah now I have a lot of free time ah until I enlist


which is, in three more months ya two more months ah two more months, !huh!, oh ya ya ya two months two months, ya lor two months


ya lor Botak head lor, Botak, ya suits everyone including girls yup


, is he wait wait is he is he planning to cut before before enlist


ya sia, , !wah!


but but I heard right if you don't don't meet their requirement for that hair style ya you still have to get get shave off eh which is, you still need to pay for cutting your hair inside


!wah!


, I, think <mandarin>需要:xu yao </mandarin> ah but but they just give us the instructions where


don't don't have, , obnoxious colour hair and short hair that's that's what they say


but I'm not sure lah I I think is the same for all enlistee lah <mandarin>不管去哪里都要:bu guan qu na li dou yao </mandarin> shave lor, I think <mandarin>需要:xu yao </mandarin> [bah] I think


ya but but whatever the case, I think shave <mandarin>比较好:bi jiao hao </mandarin> [bah] cut okay cut cut short cut short cut short


err today I went shopping with ben, actually in the morning we cook, but


err we cook the Kimchi pancake, cause I've, some craving for it then after that you went a shop and end up I went to his house and play with his, err little kids, they were really very noisy they kept, like, running up and down I was so tired err


as in, as in like I didn't cook the the pancake is he cook I just stand there and then <mandarin>我看他做:wo kan ta zuo</mandarin> lor


no wonder you you text the ben and ask him what's the parade called, then I was with him then I saw <mandarin>你你发给他简述:ni ni fa gei ta jian shu</mandarin> then I <mandarin>看:kan</mandarin> then he you said, !huh! what, that parade then I was like what I remember asking greg about it before


cause that time I was making his ORD video


oh ya then she mention a what guy her hall friend who knows ben also


like he knows of the name lah but then like he don't remember where this amos guy is from, cause when I asked him you know anyone, from NUS he say like <mandarin>他不知道:ta bu zhi dao</mandarin> so


[orh] true, but then like, I thought it's like, no I thought if like they are attached then


they won't do the speed dating thing what, but then I don't know it's NUS so, as in cause and, ya <mandarin>因为:yin wei</mandarin>


I don't know I thought I heard you say no meh, ya then can then just now I went abercrombie right as I bought this sweater I don't think you can see it but, was on sale quite cheap is like twenty something


after a lot of discount, like fifty <mandarin>巴仙:ba xian</mandarin> then eh fifty percent then suddenly , and another and another thirty percent so I was like, uh[orh] ya so quite cheap honestly


so I just buy also lah


no but then because is clearance or even staff discount also cannot use, but the staff dis, I don't know they say maybe weekday cause weekend a lot of people but but weekday then I must wait for someone else to


then can do orientation together cause now ask don't know err when the new persons coming so I just have to wait lor for them to call


obviously, I mean obviously if you work together not not very professional also what, then <mandarin>被他们抓到:bei ta men zhua dao</mandarin> is like, cannot have relationship with your co worker, I know


unless, but then what your this job, , but your this job is like how often, how many


!chey!


oh serious, !wow! why so good one


why so good one, I don't know


I think my job is like, freaking tough because and they only pay like eight an hour so if you think about it one week I must do like four shifts in order to make like hundred dollars a week then even then hor one month is like


one month is only four hundred is like less than a intern pay, I guess is part time so is not so bad ya I know


but then you also doing the temperature taking one so, I don't know


but it's easy money what, and plus you don't need to, go and walk to anyone is like they come to you, you know, then on okay just now


, , what you gonna do sia


I mean just use lah like I see a lot of people who would who take temperature they also use your phone and plus I don't think a lot of people will go to the country club, you know, it's not like shopping is not lah shopping mall


err <mandarin>受伤:shou shang</mandarin> so <mandarin>不可以:bu ke yi</mandarin> play


<mandarin>我的阿嬷不会:wo de a ma bu hui</mandarin> play golf lah, , <mandarin>你知道刚才:ni zhi dao gang cai</mandarin> I I went charles and keith so I bought, this shoes don't know if you saw it ah


wanted to get a white one a white version but then, no size then ben says was like, very common err was on sale so, thirty four thirty five, but I think is like not bad because I've been trying to find slip on shoes but then


cannot find and this one is kind of unique plus so I wear I I wear a lot, basic sheet so this is maybe, less basic or something, and just now when I was at zara I almost bought like a tie dye tote bag


it but it it looks really nice, it's like green, but then I decided not to buy it because the tote bag was like sixty dollars, who would buy like sixty dollars tote bag you know, ya but


no I'm not sure but, bag !aiya! but, I've been looking for one I guess, even though maybe you think it's ugly, but it's really like


serious


ah no lah I just wanted shoes cause sometimes, I very lazy to wear socks or something, I just want slip on and go if not now I always wear you know my white colour sandal, the one that you actually bought also but then you bought for like, freaking expensive ya either that or I've


like the heels that time I bought with you at charles and keith but then I also don't really wear heels and that one is a bit like, quite high, it's not that high but I don't want to keep wearing it, so I bought this one it's like lower, err but today <mandarin>我真的花很多钱:wo zhen de hua hen duo qian</mandarin> sia


sponsor <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> I spend like eighty dollars today


!wah! no it's cause I guess cause scoot, gave us the money then suddenly I think I rich but actually I'm not actually <mandarin>我没有钱的:wo mei you qian de</mandarin> but then scoot <mandarin>给我们三百:gei wo men san bai</mandarin> then I like oh shoot suddenly got money okay better save it


it is okay like, I think is it monday eh sunday <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> treat ben <mandarin>海底捞:hai di lao</mandarin> okay


it was like hundred something, cause I'm cause I wanted to eat <mandarin>海底捞:hai di lao</mandarin> really bad end then, then he say he don't want, I was like okay lah fine lah I just treat lah cause I really want to eat <mandarin>海底捞:hai di lao</mandarin> so in the end it happen lor


no but you know now


or do your nails everything then is like <mandarin>不划算:bu hua suan</mandarin> to go so because you don't really get the full service, I don't know


mine still okay lah cause ben always just sit opposite, but hundred dollars man so I don't know, thirteen august


no no I mean <mandarin>十三号:shi san hao</mandarin>, I I really don't know what, no okay because the thing I <mandarin>我真的不知道:wo zhen de bu zhi dao</mandarin> because I I spent a lot of time


I thinking what he really he wants in, can't really find like anything, to buy eh, and that is like not, too ex, I think my budget is like max may be hundred


to hundred fifty, okay but, like I think hundred fifty then maybe I'll spend, some of it on like a massage because he always complain his back really pain so I'm just going to bring him to


and this kind of thing is not a gift but more like experience, and I good as massage, then there are the rest of the money we all go buy something but I haven't thought of what


I don't remember honest okay but, I don't know what to buy, for ben is like within budget honestly, like what ya I know he wants a card then what okay lah


I mean I am like editing or video, very simple one lah it's really not hard, but, and also want to buy something you know but I just don't know what to buy, that is meaningful but, also not that ex cause honestly I'm kind of broke so


I cannot keep spending money, okay but okay here is the thing I remember he say is it okay if your of


present come late or something then I don't know what he buying, why if he buy something expensive, I don't think he will do it


I don't know I think maybe he mean like he want to earn some money first before he spend but I don't know what he's spending on you, that's why, I don't know okay I did, talk to him before like I call him then I told him


I have, a fear of, anniversaries because you know joel, and I, fought on our anniversary in fact we took like, one month break so I honestly quite traumatised


it's okay then we just don't, like celebrate it, something as in can celebrate but don't don't need put too much pressure, ya but I don't know


I told him ya I told him, just anytime lor honestly, I quite traumatised also is okay fine ya but I don't know I really don't know what to get him like what's what's there to get airpods


maybe I do like a gift box, it's like inside got a lot of small things okay no bro as in he still hasn't as in


and he's still hasn't bought a laptop a new laptop so I don't know what kind of cover he need one you need to know the size and anything first


no but I don't know anything I only know, mac, I only know apple, he's not doing business, he's doing engineering so like I really don't know what kind of computer he needs


or users, what I don't know leh, I never really ah


I never really research for him also, (oo) ya, ya, err september greg also right, or not


then you start so early, ya then


ya <mandarin>明天我也是要:ming tian wo ye shi yao</mandarin> bid for my modules, but like <mandarin>我都不知道什么:wo dou bu zhi dao shen me</mandarin> modules, I don't know what to bid for eh, serious, every rachael has been giving me a lot of tips also but I don't really want to depend on her


then and then, I really don't I really don't understand what's going on, in school, so I don't know I just feel very Sian I guess, because it's online then I just don't really care as much for some reason lah, you get what I mean


like maybe if it's in real life then I'll be more excited, like I will I will, be more excited everything to go and know more about it but now it's like online then I just really don't care not even putting in, effort which is bad, cause it's still graded in the end ya


why what they say, eh then


oh, but in the meantime you must still, train <mandarin>因为你很久没有打了:yin wei ni hen jiu mei you da le</mandarin> then you still wanna play what if your your fitness not as good or like ages lost your netball skills


you know ya, today we ate at err


so I thinking about, like the lunch I had we eat at the charlie brown cafe, uh near the alley


but it's like two floors above it I mean it's quite okay ya for the student meal but if you don't get the student meal it's like <mandarin>很贵:hen gui</mandarin> lor cause even with student meal his one wasn't student meal then we spend I think twenty something, which is still quite a lot I guess


but it was not bad cause that was like good beef, some good beef, ya <mandarin>牛肉:niu rou</mandarin> ya got got


of course lah the menu will change one what, ya, wanted but then because today like, I thought


that today I'll be working cause my friend just told me to go in A&F so I thought I'll be working having my orientation and working but then end up is I just go there and signed papers, then cause I thought that, I'll be out most of day no point just bring my things


to his house to film the TikTok, another another time lor, but I am planning to make him wear like denim skirt or something , cause I don't have any other thing that is like super stretchy I think I threw it away or something, I don't know


freaking funny, dude you know ben keep watching the video that TikTok of you and greg, he keep laughing at greg he keep observing


why greg do this like, I don't know, he's obsess with greg, ya I feel like greg actually likes the attentions


ya so I think he just jealous of your attention not because he's insecure, I feel like you should because you will be quite popular, honest


I mean, I don't know, ya and then I cannot take the kids just now let me went to like the, basketball court downstairs and we played frisbee, and


some boy just kept running around screaming I don't know, well it's quite fun think is just tiring but, they are very nice kids, ya it's like


okay they come for every saturday, saturday night but then today's is because is like, his second brother's chinese birthday, I don't know why ya it's just chinese birthday then, then they came over lor


but it also like no kid no nothing you just eat lah !huh!, but for me is, no lah it's not cause it's families so don't think it counts


but it's fun because the kids are very nice and they always play with me, just that at first they a bit awkward cause I haven't seen them in a while then they will warm up, is like, kids are scared of strangers what, then after that they warm up then after that when they warm up they crazy already


they just scream then they jump on me sit on me, ya don't ya but very fun, uh ben said like


oh ya actually that is quite good money, (ugh), but that one no more already


it's just like once off thing


then then greg still working there, or what what


it sound like piano name piano brand names, I got a piano ya call Mizuki (hmm) uh it's like


it's like those TikTok, mothers posting on, TikTok about their kids lunch I always like to watch but now I I deleted, as in I haven't watched TikTok for very long so, so I haven't been opening my TikTok messages although I should it's just that I very overwhelm and then I see then got like fifty plus then I don't dare to open


okay, I open tomorrow can actually tonight I quite


err no lah I think, nah not that much ya


oh anyways


!huh! okay I think I'm a visual learner I'll go I'll go there and see for myself, oh suddenly forgot, err, and I suddenly forgot


ya I mean ben keeps telling me about the trend but I don't know what he talking about, no I want to say something else but I really honestly forgot


I don't know man there was, I really don't know


oh ya !huh!, no tomorrow I'm tomorrow I'm going to stay at home, like do my uni bidding or something then , just stay at home and not spend


money now I keep going out I spend money but that is not a good excuse you know


no ah they say they will call me, maybe like this weekend or the next week, but okay it's cause like abercrombie has a very, err, a long process for their hiring thing it is not say very long is because that time I


terminated like my, I see late because like uni orientation for then I just give it late lor, but then, on is long because there are a lot of forms to fill in and need to wait a few days for your bank details to be updated, stuff like that, if not you cannot like book shifts


ya, but it's quite cool cause I have my own unique, abercrombie, employee ID then I also have like this abercrombie card, that is like you can scan it time in time out or like to get the staff discount something like that I don't know [orh]okay lah I think now I quite immune to it keep going to it now it's less strong I I feel ya okay lah I guess it's quite bad


the lighting also quite shitty so, should I might, serious better don't later you break your other teeth, !huh! what ya what I thought you go to town one what


serious I always go there, I don't know why it's just, I guess because I guess cause it's near my house , but I don't know lah


I mean I go out lah I really keep a distance from, people oh ya I if I am, I remember what I wanted to say my mums, COVID test came back, and it was negative so


she just she, serious she's just being dramatic as usual, she always like to exaggerate things, and after a while I get used to


I feel like that's you also you also like to exaggerate things, so, like it's not even a big deal but you were upset over your birthday thing so I don't know why you exaggerate


, but it's just a birthday


it's not even, I guess it's just you, that birthdays, it's it's not, it's okay it's not that, like


cause we fought before the anniversary, but it wasn't anything to do with the anniversary it was just, like , that you know the story right, you know I triggered by him because he's still so calculative after so long


I mean ben is ben is also calculative but, his intentions are different, I feel, and at least he will occasionally still buy me things but this last one


time was like, ya who can I also don't like


cause I'm not a calculative people in fact sometimes I can be too generous especially with like, boyfriends so ya, I'm not really, sometimes I'm quite ya but


okay tomorrow I'm just going to stay home not spend any money cause I've been spending too much with ben, then, maybe at night I'll go out with my friends but not going to spend a lot, no I don't have a uni friends this one is uh


err, and best but it's nothing much is because my guy friend he book out from his BMT, so I'm following my other friend to go eat with him or something I don't know but it's not confirm yet


okay I get I get it, I I I think it's really that case because sometimes now nowadays also like


making plans after awhile is, I feels like like a lot, effort I just wanna sleep if not at most I just like find ben or something cause that one don't need to think you can just do nothing but then if I go out meet people need to walk and stuff I just think about it I feel quite tired


so I I really get what you mean and plus now ben doesn't really have time, for me, he's working so today is his, s, today is his off day other than that he's like really busy, cause you live so far away and it's not like you work at NEX


if you are then okay but you always don't want me give me advance notice, serious


!huh! but then if you don't work at playmade <mandarin>他们不会赶你出去:ta men bu hui gan ni chu qu</mandarin> meh, that time like <mandarin>因为就是因为我没有我没有:yin wei jiu shi yin wei wo mei you wo mei you</mandarin> work then <mandarin>他们就:ta men jiu</mandarin> kick me out of whatsapp group what, !huh!


okay but I guess cause, she worked like for awhile first before she MIA a bit but for me is like, from the start I really just and I like I work maybe four shifts then after that I cannot cannot cannot cannot but that one cause of CCA which speaking of you know in uni


, I really don't know what CCA to do, been, I wanna make connections for LinkedIn, I'm not making friends I already say like connection


was dance


please I cannot even dance, that one is not even proper dance lor, but, <mandarin>我想了很久:wo xiang le hen jiu</mandarin> then I wanna join theatre but I saw


not cool, and <mandarin>我看他们他们我不要我不要:wo kan ta men ta men wo bu yao wo bu yao</mandarin> join, no I mean it's like, , I mean it's like the impression you get from their instagram, it's just not super attractive you know I think there's nothing else


what I want to join also I really don't know ya but


this one is online so it's different, you know, ya I mean I'm not making friends so I think I just wanna join maybe three CCAs like one is something I actually enjoy doing no listen this one something that I actually enjoy doing then one is err like for


community service cause SMU got, like, ya then , the last one I want to do is like for my resume, the kind of academic CCA


but I don't know what lah I mean can always just, know more then as you go along the interest drop lor, now I also thinking should I should I join like the Ambass


err never mind, I don't know different name is student association see how because


there's there really a lot of CCA in SMU not trying to flex or anything, because if I were you and like, ya I mean if I were you and I had something that I really wanted to join I'll join, but I don't have so I don't know


don't believe this mine also


cause now I got some of my err, modules already so I know, but it's really a lot kind of scary !huh! work lor as in now now


oh no I think he he's running, I don't know he's running ya serious what I mean I'm not even surprise


but same lah ben is always either running or playing game lor, no time for me ya but (uh huh)


oh ya ya serious, it's not the flower one right, cause the flower one is like kind is like ugly, no offence


ya what other flower painting you did, ya that it


honestly I thought was quite ugly


then you you really want her to keep things for obsessed with you meh I mean I I know you like the attention but, girl what if I throw it away


no listen I tell you what's wrong with the painting first of all the orange is damn weird and because I think your flowers are not big enough or they're like weirdly space <mandarin>有很多洞:you hen duo dong</mandarin> then like it's just too so random then


it's not that the flowers are the, shut up the flowers itself is okay but then but then, you're painting has this little, stems the stems don't look nice they just look like green lines that you never even put effort to go in colour with properly


then looks so fake and childish but the flowers are good is just like, the background and the leaves, and the fact that like the flowers are so random, it doesn't match, I feel like if you just


maybe you should just did it without the leaves you won't be so bad


no is so so, bad, just so bad man, eh it's not, I think the flowers are fine it's just the background the leaves that are big much, the background colour is okay but


like the flowers are too small then they just look very random, ya


no no what is your, what is your paint by numbers picture, !huh!, human is ugly you will see how it looks like


but you got see the final product right, or you just buy like that, !huh! you never then you, you really think you can paint until very nice ah


okay, ya lah you can't but, like the final big picture must look nice mah, where you buy from


you very free meh can paint now, I thought you should have bought it like during, circuit breaker or something, after I don't know why I suddenly very hungry now


ya that's why that would have taken your mind, oh wait you talking about your teeth right, !huh!


wait what then what you talking about, oh okay


I thought you were talking about your teeth and honestly I can't believe it was back in may feels like so recent I guess cause you keep talking about it so, it feels like, you should just be a professional Tiktok-Er I think you will get a lot of views cause you have this kind of stories and only weird things only happen to you


no ya but girl likes it, greg is even more attention seeking


because you never give him the scrap book what, more than two months late, almost two months almost two months late, do I have to do it no right kind of don't want


I very lazy do work on physical scars, ya later then I no card then I give skirt but I feel like, a fool for see how


so ex meh, err


I'm not going to make a scrap, book, unless I get a card first this time I not going to be stupid, eh that time right that time did I write a card no I didn't actually I never really I don't remember writing him a card no that time


as in for ben ah I don't remember, I don't remember writing a card except for his birthday I think, and let me get my card first as I learnt not to give like everything and we put in so much effort and in the end I don't get the same energy back it's kind of tiring you know


I feel like he's really trying, it's not okay


all well but


honestly I kind of hungry, I don't know if my mother cook then eat some rice or something, I know why I suddenly hungry


it's like, what's so nice about durian


durian very nice, I see but !huh! it's still durian season now


since young


so, I don't know I don't get was the hype about it and when I eat it before but it's not that I hate it but it's not like I like it eat the everyday so cause I really cannot stand like the smell on my fingers or like the heatiness


then you and ben are the same maybe you should get together, ya it's okay for now


oh oh I wanted to tell you something okay so, we film he he he we film some boomerang, he post on its stories so I reposted it right then, he told me I wanted to put a sticker he says okay lah so just cover my face so I covered his face then I put there out with my


best guy friend or something and he he was okay with the the, caption like, but he didn't think much about it in fact he say quite funny also then, suddenly, my friend go reply to my story say eh why you write that like, it is cause


you want your uni friends to think you single or then I was like !huh! no it's just ben say okay one what is a joke that kind of thing, ben saw the message because we're talking about it then after that he immediately tell me you take down the story as like err okay


cause as in cause he insecure or something but he wasn't angry he just say can you just take down then it's like now, he's like at first he didn't think about it but, after, I read your friends message then, can you just take it down then I okay


no he scared that people think I I'm single or something then I don't know lah then he insecure, but it's not a big deal


you are, so bad !aiyo! I don't know, then at first he's okay with it one but cause my friend go reply then he put the thought in his head like if I say like that other people will think, like I'm single but


it really doesn't make a difference, so I don't know, he just sensitive, you know I took it down then I was like man !huh! ya actually I posted then like


twenty people saw it like that today, ya, I posted but then twenty people saw it so I deleted it, it's like can you delete now [orh] okay


I mean ya is like one fifth lah and maybe those twenty people, those twenty people are from, like my uni, then it defeats the purpose, it's like I see already then I delete Liao, what I know very weird


I mean I only follow cause they follow me first, then I follow back no lah I not famous lah and I also <mandarin>我也是不要:wo ye shi bu yao</mandarin> lor


err okay sure err cause you are kind of are


okay, ya can lah, ya mean maybe never until like next week or something okay bye okay


eh buddy


long time no see leh eh how long has it been like, we haven't met for a few years, suddenly call you ah cause, want to know how you have been doing, and then


late


the whole day so I'm not working and I haven't been able to find one


!hais! so <mandarin>我就在想说有没有什么:wo jiu zai xiang shuo you mei you shen me</mandarin> Lobang hor, then, what do you think


!wah! you know, you know yesterday or I think the day before ah somebody introduced to me, , google and singapore government actually came out with a very good, initiative lah you know our skillsfuture credit right


for so many years ah, I haven't touched that five hundred dollars at all lor, so


work skills uh skillsfuture <mandarin>的那个:de na ge</mandarin> credit <mandarin>来还的:lai huan de</mandarin> leh, I think it's really not bad leh and it's google you know is like a big company everybody who is in it, in into IT or digital marketing or cloud technology would, you know would want to <mandarin>跟他们工作:gen ta men gong zuo</mandarin> lor


like they are such a branded, company and I heard from my some of my friends who is in IT, that google welfare is very very good they not only take care of their employees, they also take care of their employees family


!wah!, <mandarin>如果你有兴趣的话:ru guo ni you xing qu de hua</mandarin> hor then hopefully we will be selected


like (hmm) <mandarin>我读到:wo du dao</mandarin> is a thousand five a month, we get allowance, err just nice lah for unemployed people so we both are unemployed lah so when wondering if <mandarin>你要不要试试看:ni yao bu yao shi shi kan</mandarin> lor


!wah! seriously baking I never knew like we know each other for how long we know each other since, , since, has have an interest in baking like


like how long have we've, have we known each other for twenty years already almost, so baking is your interests I didn't know that I think ya lah I think you can go online go to the work skills uh I mean skills future, website and check if they have baking


sewing so actually she went to take up , you know a class there to do, to see if she can, honed her skills and then maybe go into that she is also working uh she's also a


she stay at home for, !wah! <mandarin>他的最大的儿子都已经:ta de zui da de er zi dou yi jing</mandarin> primary four Liao lor so ten years leh


I it's really difficult lah in, in singapore, or in fact anywhere, to, to <mandarin>都不做工这么久然后还能够找一份工作真的是有一点难了:dou bu zuo gong zhe me jiu ran hou hai neng gou zhao yi fen gong zuo zhen de shi you yi dian nan le</mandarin> so


I think all of these skills is good lah like baking also if you like it why not you know like you can even, save up and then maybe start your own business or something, ya, so I have many friends who are also


going through this kind of mid life crisis, like, they used to do, <mandarin>做一份:zuo yi fen</mandarin> like <mandarin>做一份工作了可能十年二十年突然间就觉得:zuo yi fen gong zuo le ke neng shi nian er shi nian tu ran jian jiu jue de</mandarin> eh


ya lor of course lor like, now the economy <mandarin>现在那个:xian zai na ge</mandarin> market <mandarin>这么:zhe me</mandarin> bad, the market is in a mess in a total mess is like the whole world is


just turning upside down you know many companies, bankrupt and all and then of course, one of my good friends right <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> husband, <mandarin>做:zuo</mandarin> F&B <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> general manager <mandarin>做了很久了:zuo le hen jiu le</mandarin> so


he's not the normal F&B kind of person he just he's, the working hours <mandarin>就很:jiu hen</mandarin> long lor, then


went from hotel, to more stable like nine to five working hours, same thing lor and then it's been a few months lah for them


then <mandarin>他以前是做:ta yi qian shi zuo</mandarin> F&B <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> retrenched Liao, found a, found a F&B job which means that she has to work retail hours


normal hours the job lah office hours the nine to five job, then, at one month at least ten thousand and above


the <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> husband, then now (hmm) he's willing to even settle for less than half of that in order to switch industries so that, with <mandarin>他的孩子:ta de hai zi</mandarin> lor


anyways, eh, eh <mandarin>最近我看到你的照片你的:zui jin wo kan dao ni de zhao pian ni de</mandarin> niece


err grow up a lot right how old is she already


[orh] that's (hmm), okay, that's so sweet leh like, you sound more like a papa than a <mandarin>舅舅:jiu jiu</mandarin> I mean <mandarin>叔叔:shu shu</mandarin> you know


in like, err like whatever express what whatever emotions that you go through, ya the ups and the downs and how, your niece <mandarin>会牵绊着你的那个新血:hui qian ban zhe ni de na ge xin xue</mandarin> ah


I think it's it's, it's something that most parents , will will experience lah but for uncle to be able to do that I think <mandarin>你真的是很疼他:ni zhen de shi hen teng ta</mandarin> lor, then, !wah! <mandarin>你的:ni de</mandarin> niece <mandarin>都八岁:dou ba sui</mandarin> lah that's so fast


ya lah is is all about it's, is really very different from <mandarin>我们以前的时候了先:wo men yi qian de shi hou le xian</mandarin> now is all about the internet you know <mandarin>又电话又电视又电脑:you dian hua you dian shi you dian nao</mandarin> now you know like


ya my daughter right she's also already four, , it's like you say lor, like, when I was of course I haven't give birth to her


, love can be so challenging ah, like she really brought out the best and the worst in me


like err I thought I'm very patient with children, but with her, err ya lah it's like I realise I'm really not so patient, so <mandarin>当妈妈当爸爸真的很不容易:dang ma ma dang ba ba zhen de hen bu rong yi</mandarin> lor


then, err <mandarin>可是:ke shi</mandarin> like you say lor , that she she can really make you really happy, it's a joy and, it's amazing to see to watch a child grow up


and to be there and see, that she go through every milestone


so, ya lah and !wah! it's a long long long road lor is like, cannot,


ya, like to take care of a child is for life lah, even, when your child is no matter how old your child is she he or she will always be


ya eh but then


ya lah it's true lor , !wah! it really takes a village, to raise a child <mandarin>真的:zhen de</mandarin> like, when, I took care of my daughter alone it's


!wah! I have to say is the most challenging thing that I've experienced in my whole life, ya so, you know like I I tend to, , envy


some other mummy friends that I have, parents in law to take care of their kids with them lah, so <mandarin>偶尔偶尔:ou er ou er</mandarin> they get to take a break or


you know if they need if they're new like me first time, then they get some guidance from from their village so called, but <mandarin>那时候我觉得自己一个:na shi hou wo jue de zi ji yi ge</mandarin> !wah! <mandarin>真的是很:zhen de shi hen</mandarin> lost ah, then because like you know lah like I I don't have


, the luxury of having my parents with me, err, but, okay I'm very fortunate that my parents in law are very nice,


but then , they are very nice and they they really, adore my daughter a lot


be a family with them, and I really really, from from their help, you know throughout my daughter's growing up ah, I really really understand


what it means you know that it takes a village to raise a child, and I think, you are really , you are also really precious to your to your family lor like to your brother to be able to be there for your niece wholeheartedly


so ya I think that's, that's very precious and I I hope that I mean I I believe that your niece will go up to, really appreciate it lah


you know, so, ya, then <mandarin>讲到那个:jiang dao na ge</mandarin> COVID period !huh!, you know they are, err like


during the COVID period worldwide, divorce rate, actually went up, because, husbands and wives, never in their married life


then <mandarin>变成:bian cheng</mandarin> like, all the, all the , conflicts lah


err online portal lah say, that


!aiya! I don't know lah this period is just crazy is madness you know


ya, you know lah first time mother then, certain imagination about <mandarin>我会当我会是一个怎样的:wo hui dang wo hui shi yi ge zen yang de</mandarin> mama


so initially, of course I read I read some books you know and understood from some as more experienced parents lah


so I want to be able to reason you know from young, , no physical hitting, <mandarin>不做体罚:bu zuo ti fa</mandarin> something like that, so err this is like okay very challenging


, it's called respectful parenting, it is a very good teaching, err which teaches the parents to respect the kids right from even when do right from day one actually even


when they are only one one day old, so so <mandarin>我觉得这样的教育方法很很好:wo jue de zhe yang de jiao yu fang fa hen hen hao</mandarin> and it makes a lot of sense but it's very very very difficult to, to to do


so we are so used to it I I find it very challenging to change that mentality totally lah and plus I have to, share with my husband to use the same concept, so it's totally not easy, then


first year is okay because she's still cute and you know infant mah ya baby then, cannot talk bad cannot run too far will not be, rebellious then after that two years old starting already pattern <mandarin>全部有一点出来了:quan bu you yi dian chu lai liao</mandarin> so


then it becomes, even even like even more and more challenging, then <mandarin>我就:wo jiu</mandarin> !wah!


but then sometimes Buay Tahan ah the hand smack then, in the heart like , then feel guilty lor, so then, that's that's like the transition stage, then now


after three over years of struggling, err I just, take out the cane ah, !huh!, cause, I think at this age and you have gone through it lah with their nice right <mandarin>他这个年龄真的是很叛逆:ta zhe ge nian ling zhen de shi hen pan ni</mandarin> [orh]


I will just, show her the cane


and, thankfully she she's still afraid of the cane lah, I agree with you lah it's not a long term solution, like <mandarin>现在他们还小可以用:xian zai ta men hai xiao ke yi yong</mandarin> cane


cannot use the cane anymore mah, then, like, how to convince them to cooperate with you, ya so that's, that's the challenging part lor, !hais! it's a long road ah


anyways, eh


, like, any, err, any luck, with with, finding, like what job do you want to find


uh, for now


part time lah <mandarin>还是什么因为我现在也在找:hai shi shen me yin wei wo xian zai ye zai zhao</mandarin> so if I see anything, pass like send over to you lor


, actually my, ya or ya, of course lah I know your your qualifications and situation


my sister also she at she technically <mandarin>他只有:ta zhi you</mandarin> N-level, it's the same challenges that she has gotten , throughout her


her course her her, work life lah, so, quite similar she does back end she does admin but she doesn't need to stand


all day long lah which is horrible you know so, eh, luckily, for her fortunately she made a, wise move, to go from one company that she felt didn't have


too much or too much opportunities, and now she's in MBS doing, admin sales if I'm not wrong, ya so <mandarin>他他:ta ta</mandarin> okay and MBS is not a small company mah so I thought okay lah it's it's a


it's a good move and her pay is definitely better than before, err


but then I realised that now, there are, more companies who look, who give a a fair chance, or a fair, err consideration to


individuals who have, err, more of experience skill set, attitude you know the the working attitude, and such qualities apart, on top of academic


, qualifications, , and


like, of course there are still companies that want


degree holders you know I'm I'm a diploma holders so you used to be able to <mandarin>吃饭:chi fan</mandarin> lah <mandarin>还好不会饿肚子:hai hao bu hui e du zi</mandarin> but then now, very hard to to, to find a decent paying job


, especially if, I want to find a job outside of my, my prior experiences, which is also why now the government is into all this uh


initiatives to help, uh, singaporeans, or PRs to be more employable, like, to improve lah, so <mandarin>我觉得这个其实真的是很好:wo jue de zhe ge qi shi zhen de shi hen hao</mandarin> lah I'm I'm really


impressed by what our our government is doing and then, I feel that we are really going doing a good thing, then , and, managing people like teamwork and all this honestly


I feel that of all job, being a manager is the hardest working with people managing people is really the hardest thing lor, I was in insurance


my thought was you know like insurance you have two paths to go you can do your own sales for, as long as you want, becoming a manager lah so <mandarin>当然:dang ran</mandarin> manager <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> perks of being a manager is


you go by leverage so you leverage on, and then like from there actually many many, , professional


in the insurance industry, earn more money from there, earn more passive income from there, that is also the toughest job, I feel, for, any industry


anywhere,


ya so, back then I didn't want to go into that route lah so I feel that [orh] okay I will just do


after I did insurance for six years I went into, corporate sales, so, in corporate sales


if, and I will become redundant


so I am being forced to, to do that lah and indeed after experiencing, managing a team, like you say trying to get everyone to, work together, you know and


resolve issues and all these things were !wah! <mandarin>我真的是觉得:wo zhen de shi jue de</mandarin> it is so so so challenging,


I feel that , so, if you are winner in managing people you are winner in life lor I feel


!wah!


and, it's not just a works skill is also the life skill it's, managing people is basically a part of


our lives ah our daily lives, like managing your relationship with your close ones managing your relationship with,


even, managing a relationship is yourself, you know


(hmm), , I never thought of it lah mid life crisis when I break it down and I really think about it because <mandarin>我觉得我好像:wo jue de wo hao xiang</mandarin> going through


and err <mandarin>忙着交:mang zhe jiao</mandarin> friends, and, ya lah plus when you are a kid


, and then after that you know when you are a teenager you go through puberty you what what do you think about you think about your own


looks, and of course you think about girls or boys you know you you, this these are the things that you care about, and then finally we graduate we go to work


so that's what we are busy about that's what how


our mentality our attitude our emotions our focus, our all our energy go into, that part of


, err, our lives our, thoughts our, emotions our energy, then after that err <mandarin>玩完了疯玩了:wan wan le feng wan le</mandarin> you know like we had our crazy times


err <mandarin>就成熟:jiu cheng shou</mandarin> lah <mandarin>就觉得:jiu jue de</mandarin> okay, so <mandarin>感觉上就是:gan jue shang jiu shi</mandarin> is time to, settle down you know to be more serious to start to, be more serious about <mandarin>理财:li cai</mandarin> to start to be more serious about err


looking at a life's partner or thinking about what, what, how we want to progress from there, no longer, crazy partying you know <mandarin>不再去夜店:bu zai qu ye dian</mandarin> lah


I feel that at this point, uh even forty over years old <mandarin>就想到自己是不是:jiu xiang dao zi ji shi bu shi</mandarin> mid life crisis or or goes through this stage I feel that it is because


we have finally come to a mature stage where


like for me is because I'm not working mah and my first four years of being a mother I was


just, very occupied with being a mother, so suddenly now that my my <mandarin>我的女儿:wo de nv er</mandarin> go to school right, feel that,


like for you is, for the first ten first, ten over years you are working on the same, you're working, you are doing the same thing you're you have every day you have to focus, you know you know what you want to do you know everyday you have a plan


so, , so what's next do I want to do the same thing over and over


even though we'd we go through different things we go through this stage at different time some people maybe because they are so busy with so many things they don't even have the time to sit down, and start to feel like this


mid life crisis thing, comes to different people at different times, ya


ya same here leh, like you said, err to the older the more <mandarin>怕死:pa si</mandarin> lor


so it it's it's really the same maybe because <mandarin>经一智经一事长一智:jing yi zi jing yi shi zhang yi zhi</mandarin> [bah], like, ya lor when a kid touched fire and get burn you he or she will also know that it will, it will hurt lah so next time


that kid will be afraid of fire so it's about the same <mandarin>道理:dao li</mandarin> lor, then, the spotify thing !wah!, it's very interesting leh, if I look forward lah if you set up that broadcast channel you know like


you let me know, , which is true lah how many friends you know like, don't say friends, how many family members


really sit down and listen to, err <mandarin>家人:jia ren</mandarin> like what do you think you know like


to ask for, all these things mah so ah ha moment I feel is definite ya, an interesting lah I think is really interesting and I think you can definitely, start from


, your close ones also


ya so interesting leh then <mandarin>你在讲的时候:ni zai jiang de shi hou</mandarin> I was also thinking, you know a bit ya singapore is an ageing population mah, so, we have less young people but, a whole lot of us we're we're the older people and


you know like, <mandarin>有很多时候你去咖啡店:you hen duo shi hou ni qu ka fei dian</mandarin> those coffee shop right you go and sit down then you see, all the old people they just sit there they are not working they don't have to work and then, because you just sit there and really stone or they gather together and and chat and all right


I can, it it came to my mind <mandarin>我觉得:wo jue de</mandarin> they


enough space or air time, but


to my opinion have a lot to share, , a lot of values that they can, give, to


the rest of us, it's just that they they they lacked that channel you know to to to speak, or to voice to to share, so


had the chance to sit down random in front of one random, #ah ma# or or #ah pek# you know to to talk to them, sometimes they really do share some, very good, life experience you know that can really open our eyes and mind lah


so ya I think that your channel that idea is really good and, and I think that it'll applies especially to to, our local context since we are ageing population right


you know share share our thoughts lah, ya I think that it works


so you let me know, when you are doing it how you're doing it you know


ya I think we have to go, I think I have to go


, yes same here so, so I'll talk to you again soon you let me know about the broadcast thing, right


hello


uh ya I'm fine like I haven't hear you for awhile ya so it's good like you know you mentioned about getting a job together, and you know haven't been working for quite some time, and also I'm ya <mandarin>我在想说:wo zai xiang shuo</mandarin> maybe


and then how see how it goes from there also, and err, ya maybe what do you have in mind then you can share with me lor


ya it's a good idea lor ya maybe I will I will consider that and go online check the you know vocational training that you mention, err <mandarin>蛮有用的:man you yong de</mandarin> you know like you can


use that allowance and and you know learn something and then keep, keep us afloat you know during this period of time, ya which I think is a good thing, and I'm also maybe <mandarin>在:zai</mandarin> explore <mandarin>其他的东西:qi ta de dong xi</mandarin> see other skill upset


up, grade, and, ya, I might also want to take up courses like <mandarin>那种:na zhong</mandarin> ah, like maybe pastry you know


err actually yes like you know, you know I got retrenched right <mandarin>我就觉得:wo jiu jue de</mandarin> like


and then I feel like !wow! at that point of time I feel very lost you know last year I was retrenched, so it took me a while to to to you know figure what I really want to do


the thing about, being in this crisis this situation like currently what <mandarin>我们在:wo men zai</mandarin> faced <mandarin>的这个东西:de zhe ge dong xi</mandarin> right, and, always keep an open mind for like opportunity that could come by


ya and from there we can know from each other experience like


also know that, we never, like I said be have a very open mind and and try to


to have or to accept opportunity that comes your way you know, ya that's


oh ya talking about her like uh, she's eight year old now


then she won't listen one, so everytime have to nag and scold her and then sometimes she will be angry, like


this kind of thing, like communication with the the the kids is is something that


which also I know that okay I'm a very impatient person so I know that, I need to


be more patient with certain things and ya, not to take it too, too hard on myself and too hard on my niece and everyone lah, ya, I am glad that you ask about my niece ah because ya


so unhappy


eh, like she can totally understand you, she can feel your emotion


I think that is very, that is a very precious gesture, coming from her asking my, asking how am I so I'm I'm pretty touched by that


ya so, there will be like <mandarin>欢乐:huan le</mandarin> then maybe, I get angry a bit but after all it's it's still joy to have her around


yup, so ya how about your four year old


ya <mandarin>对就是:dui jiu shi</mandarin> my mum me and my bro so it's like four of us <mandarin>就我们四个人:jiu wo men si ge ren</mandarin> lor


he will buy stuff like breakfast, for for her or by some snacks ah, so in terms of like other stuff like


like <mandarin>教他读书的这一个部分:jiao ta du shu de zhe yi ge bu fen</mandarin> right, is still me


you know like the the the school has to like you know to to shut off you know shut down and and, !wow!, I would never experience anything like that so


so intense so so <mandarin>气到我真的是要:qi dao wo zhen de shi yao</mandarin> like, like screaming for help that kind of thing


like for day I don't talk to her, and she know so like, okay I'm angry with her, and she don't come and <mandarin>就是不要不要跟我讲话他也不会接近我也不要不会要跟我讲话:jiu shi bu yao bu yao gen wo jiang hua ta ye bu hui jie jin wo ye bu yao bu hui yao gen wo jiang hua</mandarin> so, ya that that that kind of experience is


, a lot of disruption <mandarin>我觉得:wo jue de</mandarin> a lot of things change you have to learn to, adapt to changes


and, like <mandarin>跟自己讲说:gen zi ji jiang shuo</mandarin> okay <mandarin>不要不要那么冲动:bu yao bu yao na me chong dong</mandarin> okay maybe <mandarin>慢慢教他:man man jiao ta</mandarin> slowly guide her


then give her some break lor or maybe encourage her you know like kids like to be encouraged, they don't like to be scolded so you have to encourage them, ah praise them, ya this is something that I learn throughout the the coaching time during that period with her


so all in all I think everything, that we learn between the family, and and like situation base at home it all can be a good experience lor <mandarin>我觉得:wo jue de</mandarin> like


will help us to be, a a better person, and also to understand <mandarin>了解我们的:liao jie wo men de</mandarin> family better family member better, ya, so that's how I feel


and I also hope that my brother <mandarin>他会:ta hui</mandarin> like, be more proactive, because after all, my niece <mandarin>是他的女儿:shi ta de nv er</mandarin> mah so <mandarin>应该:ying gai</mandarin> be more proactive in in, you know asking <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> schoolwork lah


how's school at, know how school, for the day you know check on her <mandarin>这样:zhe yang</mandarin> lor, like


I can truly understand the, the fanatic of this, buying of a cane, because I also wanted to, grab my cane, ya but I didn't


so, I think that's that's err that's that's that's it's like out of frustration


when come to really <mandarin>要打他们的话:yao da ta men de hua</mandarin> I think <mandarin>会:hui</mandarin> think twice about it, which actually it's err it's more like a mindful, mindfulness thought, or like your mind have to be very conscious, when you want to do something then before you do that very split second right


can change a lot of things either it goes bad or it goes good, moment like that where frustration right <mandarin>你很烦你很想:ni hen fan ni hen xiang</mandarin> like


okay, maybe that is not the wrong way no sorry maybe that's not the right way


ya and after all I think, during <mandarin>那个时候:na ge shi hou</mandarin> I think <mandarin>那个:na ge</mandarin> kids <mandarin>也是:ye shi</mandarin> under a lot of, a lot of pressure <mandarin>他们多压力不可以见见那个:ta men duo ya li bu ke yi jian jian na ge</mandarin> friend lah, then <mandarin>也不可以:ye bu ke yi</mandarin> like you know go go out you know we try not to allowed them to go out you know


to to play during that that CB period


a way to teach


just


have went through, err what you went through to bring up the kid, so me I have went through the period where my niece was relatively small and and like


like a baby to to, to like five year old and up to eight year old so I like, have see how she actually grow throughout the years, so I can, say that a lot of frustration ya and it makes sense to like


buy some canes ah just to prepare lah in case lor


err <mandarin>有:you</mandarin> ah I was okay maybe maybe just sharing like


what's next, like what's gonna happen again, or like


what am I gonna do from here, or am I going to


other kind of job, you know because if I don't try other stuff I won't know what exactly I like, so <mandarin>以前我做的那一份工作:yi qian wo zuo de na yi fen gong zuo</mandarin> is like


you know like <mandarin>起来然后:qi lai ran hou</mandarin> okay get to work, and then after I like okay <mandarin>放工:fang gong</mandarin> then <mandarin>回来:hui lai</mandarin> you know that kind of thing like <mandarin>这个是一个:zhe ge shi yi ge</mandarin> routine that I, passion in it


and it comes to a point where <mandarin>到了最后最后的阶段:dao le zui hou zui hou de jie duan</mandarin> like maybe the last two year that I, only managed to be promoted as <mandarin>那个:na ge</mandarin> team leader


working life or you want to mentioned like career, I would think that


like, like <mandarin>我没有想到:wo mei you xiang dao</mandarin> right


to <mandarin>要把他们全部放在一起:yao ba ta men quan bu fang zai yi qi</mandarin> and and, like <mandarin>比较重的话他们就不高兴:bi jiao zhong de hua ta men jiu bu gao xing</mandarin> but then again


some time <mandarin>我觉得:wo jue de</mandarin> have to be very firm with them, that, you have to let them know that okay we are, when come to certain thing


I need you all to follow me, as in follow my direction, and because


really like what you going alone like that's my mind like what you really going alone, like then I'll like ah okay lah why not just go just relax


but actually <mandarin>我去到那边:wo qu dao na bian</mandarin> I sat there alone right I was actually thinking about okay, how do I solved this problem, how do I solved another problem, and how do I get the team


teamwork is very important, if you don't have teamwork between any any any any organisation right, it's very difficult to get things going


the other thing on top of that is how, communication like


like <mandarin>要崩溃:yao beng kui</mandarin> that kind of thing, like, !walao!


but <mandarin>他们看不到那一个那一那一个:ta men kan bu dao na yi ge na yi na yi ge</mandarin> that that side of that picture, and then they will think that I am being harsh on them, and you know like I'm being very err bossy ya <mandarin>那种:na zhong</mandarin> mentality or <mandarin>你是:ni shi</mandarin> so called so called


as in to think that, oh I'm on top


of you guys and you all must like listen to me it's more like, I pass on the message we work together like this because this is how things, can be done, I have seen it before, so I know


so, if you ask me, what I would want to do later part, warehouse supervisor <mandarin>我也是有想过但是因为我的腰:wo ye shi you xiang guo dan shi yin wei wo de yao</mandarin> right


so <mandarin>我站久的话或者我扛东西的话:wo zhan jiu de hua huo zhe wo gang dong xi de hua</mandarin> that's it <mandarin>了我的我的腰就是:liao wo de wo de yao jiu shi</mandarin> like okay


like, bad back pain you know that kind of thing, so ya I try not to look into those kind of physical


then because <mandarin>我的:wo de</mandarin> qualification wise also not not very , not very good so like I could only get very minimal, job but only


with my experience ya those kind but I'm still looking at <mandarin>那种坐在:na zhong zuo zai</mandarin> office, uh <mandarin>看电脑:kan dian nao</mandarin> lah, then prepare document <mandarin>的那一种工作:de na yi zhong gong zuo</mandarin> lor <mandarin>我觉得这样这样:wo jue de zhe yang zhe yang</mandarin> maybe will help me to to


to bring my experience to <mandarin>那个:na ge</mandarin> company then also to also,


until <mandarin>我有那个:wo you na ge</mandarin> varicose vein, ya and <mandarin>我还去那个:wo hai qu na ge</mandarin> so called <mandarin>那个:na ge</mandarin> cosmetic surgery in CGH


ya I think that was like a vanity and also like to to, to , try not to have any health implications


then <mandarin>他就:ta jiu</mandarin> suggest <mandarin>说:shuo</mandarin> okay


the excessive uh varicose vein lah, so ya, I I still want to keep my leg nice and and, I I prefer non standing, working environment and ya, like well this is something that I share


and, ya this is what I feel throughout, throughout that ten years and now like two thousand twenty and especially this moment this is how I, I feel about the whole thing after I look


back and reflect on it, that's how, ya that's that's why I think and what I feel ya lah, how about I mean what do you think about ya what I've told you


ya that that like you know, prompt me to like ask if you would think that, are we like, thinking a lot, you know


or, rather like <mandarin>因为:yin wei</mandarin> because we're at our thirties like probably like our late thirties sometime <mandarin>我会:wo hui</mandarin> wonder, wonder <mandarin>我现在这样的:wo xian zai zhe yang de</mandarin> emotion <mandarin>这样:zhe yang</mandarin> like so much of maybe some of like


too much of over thinking the thoughts right, am I like having a mid life crisis or should I, see someone that I could like, talk to and like you know like, to to dissect and <mandarin>就是很像让我知道:jiu shi hen xiang rang wo zhi dao</mandarin> okay <mandarin>你现在这个状况:ni xian zai zhe ge zhuang kuang</mandarin> right is not what you think that is mid life crisis


because a lot of time <mandarin>我们会听到这个:wo men hui ting dao zhe ge</mandarin> mid life crisis <mandarin>我们三十多岁听到这个:wo men san shi duo sui ting dao zhe ge</mandarin> might mid life crisis <mandarin>我们:wo men</mandarin> like <mandarin>会吓到:hui xia dao</mandarin> like because crisis <mandarin>这个字:zhe ge zi</mandarin> right


but, what what does it actually mean like <mandarin>一个:yi ge</mandarin> mid life crisis like what are the behaviour would be like mid life crisis or what are the thoughts that would form, mid life crisis, and is it how true it is like scientifically like


like, like <mandarin>一个:yi ge</mandarin> mid life crisis, ya


do you feel like am I in the mid life crisis, like, would you ask yourself this question like a question mark question mark am I like having this mid life crisis, like ya


ah what I feel like, for me myself


like not very open to meeting new people


how, ya or <mandarin>你:ni</mandarin> do you have any in, err, like any motive that kind of thing you know like I don't know why I I get that at this age


like maybe because maybe I haven't been out, err socialising or, you know I haven't been out working so, maybe that triggers that kind of paranoid fear or doubts that I have


so, ya and, if, that is the case like <mandarin>我很怕那个:wo hen pa na ge</mandarin> society right like <mandarin>个个:ge ge</mandarin> society anxiety if I do have, I might think that you know I want to do a broadcast if that's possible because I do enjoy


talking, over topics, and and asking question not like for example I I ask question about what you feel about this thing, and and what, do you take away from that thing, so


by by you know sharing with with me what you have told told us [orh] for those people who had heard this conversation


do some reflection, and people who don't really reflect on certain things that we have never spoke about, have they have not heard about or or like, suddenly they are just like driving driving a car then they listen to a conversation like that and and certain conversation does trigger some reflection


and I think is very very good that you know through refection you can actually, reflect back and and and improve on things that you think that you need to be, to be doing, or things that you have neglected on


and I think honestly right as you being my friend for like so many years


from young and and till like , becoming a mum maturity like like things that you have share with me your thoughts and everything and how you handle kids and everything


and and I can feel from from, from you that I could feel that authentic, that kind of authentic like , I am saying what I feel from my heart, I think which, what is very essential like for broadcast like we're not just doing it just for the sake of like doing it


but with good content that is genuine coming from a heart that that, there is very authentic that something that if I ever do, have a broadcast , broadcast


let's say I have a broadcast, in in spotify you know okay this is not advertising but if I do have, then <mandarin>我会真的会:wo hui zhen de hui</mandarin> invite <mandarin>你:ni</mandarin> as my first guest and then ya I'll I'll we will have some Q&A question


because I believe that, even we know each other for so many years I think there are there are there are some a lot of Q&A that you might still want to ask me you know and there's a lot of Q&A which I would want to ask you and answer, vice versa