, , , okay okay but seriously what two internships


is it the one you posted about our new linkedin, I just we are friends on LinkedIn then I just scroll through the news feed then it's there what


ya we are, I have a hundred and sixty friend on LinkedIn so how could you not be one of them I'm trying to expand my network on linkedin,


it's such a thing, ya how's your holiday been,


ya <tamil>நானும்:nanum</tamil> like I spend a lot of time just like recovering, from the think from the semester, ya I just like don't have the energy to get out of bed like, I only and I and like I don't even know how or why it's just I've am so mentally and physically exhausted to do anything I spend like two whole entire days just watching are you the one on Netflix


ya <tamil>அது அது:athu athu</tamil> is <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> is a really stupid show okay so <tamil>அதுல என்ன நடக்கும்னா வந்து அதுல பத்து பசங்கள் பத்து பொண்ணுங்கள்:athula enna nadakkumna vanthu athula pathu pasankal pathu ponnungal</tamil> and <tamil>அந்த அந்த:antha antha</tamil> algorithm <tamil>வச்சி:vachi</tamil> <tamil>அந்த ஒவ்வொரு பையனுக்கும் ஒரு பொண்ணு வந்து:antha ovvoru paiyanukkum oru ponnu vanthu</tamil> perfect match


like they determine


right and <tamil>அவங்களுக்கு யாருக்கும் தெரியாது அவங்களோட:avangalukku yarukkum theriyathu avangaloda</tamil> perfect match <tamil>யாருன்னு ஆனா அந்த:yarunnu aana antha</tamil> goal of the show <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> <tamil>பத்து:pathu</tamil> tries <tamil>கு அப்புறம்:ku appuram</tamil> <tamil>அந்த எல்லாரும் வந்து அவங்களோட:antha ellarum vanthu avangaloda</tamil> perfect match ah <tamil>கண்டுபுடிச்சிடாங்கனா:kandupudichitangana</tamil> err <tamil>அவங்க எல்லார்க்கும்:avanga ellarkkum</tamil> one million <tamil>ஒரு:oru</tamil> million dollars err prize prize money <tamil>கெடைக்கும் அது வந்து:kedaikum athu vanthu</tamil> equal ah split <tamil>பண்ணிட்டு:pannittu</tamil> it's why <tamil>எல்லாருக்கும்:ellarukkum</tamil> fifty thousand


, , err


, oh ya I watched too hot to handle it's so it pisses me off I hate francesca I'm sorry I also hate harry I just hate the both of them, is is and and the blonde girl that like hangs on her every word that girl also just err


you know the girl that's like, no no no the blonde girl who hates everyone, ya, ya is nicole the irish one


(ppc), (ppc), , I like her too I think she was very chill, about the whole situation, ,


, , , , ya


, , exactly exactly they should like vote them out or some shit you know, like survivor which is also another show I'm watching on Netflix right now


it's cause my dad like you did this weird so my brother likes the office lah and then only US netflix has office, so my dad went to download it, I watch some episodes but only like the thing is I spoil shows for myself so I watched the first few episodes then I'm like pam pam and jim so cute then I'm like I need to know what happens to them then I went to watch the full compilation of their life story on YouTube and then I lost interest in that show cause now I was like okay these two get together so like what's the point


ya, ya, ya ya I mean I yeah that's facts you could, it be I I don't think is a very oh my god dude you know he keeps walking around shirtless in the house so every time like


, ya I don't know why he literally does not wear a shirt ever


oh my god hazard okay I'm just really trying to speak in the tamil over here I hope this does not get us like disqualified


maybe I mean I I just this year just been like too many things happening in this year but then like it feels, very err actually is that the opposite of what you're saying, I'm,


ya and the I'm like time is just messed up like I don't know when happened what anymore, no I don't I want to start on it


I was going to start on it I want to start on it, I wanted to start with rowen but that movement he started himself, and then he's like it's very good and then he finished it ya you were watching it like when we were in in when we were on that europe trip


okay <tamil>நா:na</tamil> , ya you seriously fell asleep watching sia you were so into it


, that's kinda that's kinda nice actually kinda goes into your brain when you are sleeping,


I mean base I mean if it's a useful habit to have then you can listen listen to the economist or something you know you trying to go to sleep you know


what what book


, , , I like this house I want to live in this house


okay


, oh okay,


, why


affair,


damn, (mmhmm)


, oh, (ppc)


pressure of cleaning the house ah, oh that's so stupid


!whoa!


ya three servant maids


!wah!


!aiyoyo!, ya correct <tamil>டு:tu</tamil> ya he should


but that's so stupid you should have asked the wife before he bought the house though, ,


danny dies,


oh my god maeve though remind me to tell you later okay, I spend a hundred and eighty dollars on ikea for stupid rowen but nevermind continue, ya okay so it's a story okay nevermind continue


, , , custody, better is it for the house


oh my god,


yeah, ,


, , , !aiyoyo!


what


that's facts, india is such a random place to run away to can I just say, ,


, okay so just go to the most like ungrand place right india, just like say go to a third world country sorry I keep interrupting you nevermind continue


self therapizing


oh my god dude <tamil>நா இப்ப தான்:na ippa than</tamil> goole <tamil>பண்ணன்:pannan</tamil> dutch house eh sorry I was curious to see when it was, <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> actually, ya it's a finalist finalist, four four twenty it has a four point one rating on good reads for two hundred and twenty thousand votes


okay okay sorry sorry, oh my god and the and err and the synopsis itself sounds interesting


(ppc), (ppc) the what, no, I haven't seen it


!wah!, damn I don't know eh <tamil>என்னால:ennala</tamil> normally <tamil>அந்த மாறி படத்த:antha mari padatha</tamil> I can't sit through it like just cause it's like a bit I as in a lot of how do I say this I feel like


I am so used to watching shows like brooklyn and friends you know, then like it's hard for me to sit through a very emotional, long movie, unless it's gone girl, ya I prefer lighthearted stuff but in books I can read like I don't know why


maybe cause with movies I can skip through you know to see what happens and I get very impatient like that, I don't know rowen also says the same things he says I keep spoiling things for myself


and I'm like who has the time, I had the time now lah but , (ppc), ya, let me tell you the ikea story oh my god I actually need to update you on five million things


I actually <tamil>மொதல்ல:modalla</tamil> starting with, my birthday, okay


okay is just like a whole drama thing lah so basically I didn't want to do anything on my birthday because I was just super duper stress at school like full ah <tamil>வேலையா இருந்துச்சி:velaya irunthuchi</tamil> like everyday school lah <tamil>இருந்து அஞ்சு மணிக்கு காலையில அஞ்சு மணிக்கு தான் நா:irunthu anju manikku kalayila anju manikku than na</tamil> school leh <tamil>இருந்தே வெளிய வருவன்:irunthe veliya varuvan</tamil> like for close to <tamil>ரெண்டு வாரம்:rendu varam</tamil> ya it was really really bad <tamil>ஏன்னா நா ஒரு:eanna na oru</tamil> film photography mode <tamil>எடுத்தன்:eduthan</tamil> and <tamil>நா அது வந்து:na athu vanthu</tamil> dark room lah <tamil>வந்து அந்த:vanthu antha</tamil> chemical lah <tamil>வச்சி அந்த:vachi antha</tamil> paper ah wash <tamil>பண்ணி அந்த:panni antha</tamil> image ah burn <tamil>பண்ணி:panni</tamil> it a very time consuming process


so <tamil>அதுக்கு நா ரெண்டு வாரமா:athukku na rendu varama</tamil> was very very stress, film camera, ya


elective <tamil>எடுத்தன்:eduthan</tamil> just cause ya <tamil>இங்க தெரியும் அம்மா அப்பாட்ட வந்து ஒரு:inga theriyum amma appatta vanthu oru</tamil> film camera <tamil>இருக்குனு:irukkunu</tamil> and you know how in the movies you always have like the dark room then it's like arrey and then it's like people are sex in it


really I was thinking it's just people have sex in it, , shock ah


ya so ya I just wanted to do it cause it's I think it's very cool like even in the film <tamil>னா எடுத்துட்டு:na eduthuttu</tamil> right you must, err develop the film in complete darkness


basically it was just very time consuming so I told my mum I didn't want to do anything with anybody but then my stupid mom goes to like book a picnic for like me and like a couple of my friends lah


like, ya just cynthia and ellen cause I think they like they are my friends since sec one like you know any ya then she just wanted and she was going to invite kit but then kit lah <tamil>அவ:ava</tamil> UK lah <tamil>இருக்கா இப்போ:irukka ippo</tamil> err


ya she's almost done with her thingy I think but, , ya and then ellen invited rowen also so it was supposed to be like a east coast park like you know those like glamping


something like that <tamil>ஆனா:aana</tamil> it was really super duper hard so everything was like just a mess it was so bad and like I was very mad at her cause I was like tell you I have so much work why did you do this then she was like oh I thought it would be a nice break for you and then I was just like I don't need a break I need like time to do my work


and then like it was just a whole thing I was just mad at her I was like <tamil>ஏன் இந்த மாறி:ean intha mari</tamil> company <tamil>எல்லாம்:ellam</tamil> engage <tamil>பண்றீங்க அவங்க:panreenga avanga</tamil> weather plan was shit like it was so bad and then I also felt very angry cause like even include cynthia they have finals so like why do you force them then she was like oh our like it was out of their own choice also


like they want to come I didn't force them, then I was just like who would say no to a mom and then it was just like a whole thing then I was just like super frustrated and then you just to top it all off like rowen got me this necklace from Swarovski Swarovski necklace


ya ya it's a hundred and fifty dollars, but god damn if I tell you it wasn't the ugliest necklace I have, it was, it ugly dude so ugly


it was just so ugly, I was just so so so ugly, and then ah and then like, it was this like ya is this <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> concept <tamil>வந்து நல்லா இருந்துச்சி:vanthu nalla irunthuchi</tamil> so he knows I believe to astrology and like


like I take pride in being a scorpio so he got like a scorpio symbol you know the M looking symbol, so <tamil>அத வாங்கிட்டு:atha vangittu</tamil> like <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> end lah there was a crystal lah but I don't wear silver jewelry like most of my majority is gold and I also don't like Swarovski to stress I like think they're tacky


but <tamil>அந்த அவன் தெரியாம வாங்கிட்டான்:antha avan theriyama vangittan</tamil> then like I really try to pretend like I like it okay like for ten fifteen minutes I was like oh my god it's nice then I tried wearing it then it looked even worse on me, , then I think he could just kind of tell that something was wrong and then I was like ya bro do you sstill have the receipt can you return it then he got super butt hurt


he was like you've having a bad day then I just made it worse, then I was like whatever lah just return so he return it so then after that he thought that I was getting Vans so he just like this buy or sell something then I was like okay I'll get myself Vans


you know but then, err ya to visit his parents, so I was just like you know like I kind of feel bad like cause he doesn't


he works really hard for his money ah like his family isn't very well off, so like he's always doing like job like at school like everyday he works his weekends he just spends like working as like a TA or like some other kind of random job you know


so I felt bad that he like spends so much money on me so I just like you know I will channel his money back to him but I won't I know he will get pissed if like I give the money back, so I that's why I just went to ikea then I just like spend spend it all on like upgrading his room


<tamil>ஒரு:oru</tamil> raggu, uh and then some storage you know


ah, ya then he said we have already came to hundred and fifty hundred and sixty


ya so, ya I did that I'm super excited now, past two weeks that's why I was in a tournament this last weekend, so <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> tournament everyday <tamil>முடிச்சிட்டு:mudichittu</tamil> like I just go to his room then I clean lah


and there was so much to be cleaned, oh my god I know I'm like the world's biggest sims, like the world's like biggest sims honestly like used my own birthday money to buy him stuff like


I went with like another friend, not a what, is it not I think it just, is so I feel like, I don't know I just feel like it's so Bleh like I'm a bit disgusted at like how like


at my myself ya, so I just oh my god he's so gross you know honestly I don't know how I'm gonna, like <tamil>வாழ்க்கைய எப்டி இந்த பையனோட நடத்தப்போறனு தெரியல ஏன்னா:valkakaya epdi intha paiyanoda nadathapporanu theriyala eanna</tamil> his room was disgusting I learned more and more about it the more I cleaned it and I was not happy


then open pandora there's like freaking mold, and I saw like a car


ya and then he just has this giant plastic bag full of bags and then some of the bags like he order from grab food or what right then got like the food stain in like in the plastic bag, and then I'm just like why do like okay I get it like like collecting plastic bags like a indian mom kind of thing <tamil>என் அம்மா கிட்டயும்:en amma kittayum</tamil> like she has a drawer full of plastic bags you know


but he is I swear to god this bag was giant and so many plastic bags and you know what's the most ironic thing, he's freaking waste he's waste bin right the actual waste basket that should have a plastic bag right


didn't have a plastic bag on it , so like what are you doing


, I'm like <tamil>இந்த:intha</tamil> plastic bag lah <tamil>வச்சுட்டு என்னா பண்ற:vachuttu enna panra</tamil> seriously dude when I tell you I folded so it was such a giant bag it was like a giant like err like err giant I don't even know how to explain how big this bag were but when I tell you that I wanted to compress it like so so many I I had to fold all the plastic bag lah right I swear to god I fold around a hundred plastic bags dude I'm not even kidding


I spend like around an hour just fucking like folding it into triangles, , ya and then ya I did that more and then I think more of his <tamil>எனக்கு தெரியாது:enakku theriyathu</tamil> like as in like I thought it was like a I know it was a big bag of plastic bags but I thought it was just like the ball


no no no <tamil>அதுக்கு தான்:athukku thaan</tamil> I keep like I kept doubt I sneakily asked him like what kind of house like would you like to and I I've had this conversation before with him also he wants to live in like those modern minimalist kind of house which I think is I we're going I know we're going to fight over it like in the future for sure


and recently brought dude I always fucking date scorpio or libra man it's a problem either november october it's like I know no Atham is that I don't even know why,


is known pisces, I don't know about capricorn I know pisces is my most compatible sign


oh, okay okay but ya like I am not super compatible with libra like Pang was a libra, and then Praveen was a scorpio so


I'm just like you know just fun times I did I dumped one libra man then start dating another libra man but, ya we're gonna fight over it lah cause I like the very like Ratta and like wooden kind of feel but a bit modern kind of like scandinavian a bit


Muji but also like warm I need the house to be warm so I can travel around the world and buy knickknacks and then put it in dining places you know, but you can't do that she'd with like a minimalist house like if I go to africa and get like a african mask or whatever then where do I hang that in like a never mind I deal with that little bit <tamil>நா மொதல்ல எனக்கு நா என்ன ஏன் நா என்ன:na modalla enakku na enna ean na enna</tamil> plan <tamil>பண்ணி வச்சிருந்தனா:panni vachirunthana</tamil> okay like that's after I graduate then I can give him some of my stuff


you know, like let's, maybe decorate my room because honestly I little bit selfish also I want to spend some of that money to buy myself like this really cool like Rattan thing from ikea ikea


but I was just like nevermind let's just get those stupid minimalist thing for him also cause he's spending more time in NTU so, yeah I just got gross grey black white things


and got it in grey ah kill me kill me grey, , , I was so tempted to get him this


oh my god he be so mad because he's already not super on board with the idea of fur or grey thing but, I just feel like that room really needs a rug because he literally you know his roommate said he had hadn't sweep his room since the start of this semester


ya and like his like the roommates side of the room is very clean because the roommate is like actual need like guy, but rowen under the table lah like I don't know he shaves his face in the room or what just like tiny tiny tiny tiny hairs


and like freaking spiders spider spider got spider you know spider, ah ya I just spend a shit ton of time cleaning out his room, and oh I found his #sai baba# necklace and then he was very happy about it


I told him that much at least, dude his parents think he's like some #sai baba# fanatic, , no so I think his parents introduced him to #sai baba# and then like I think he was very into #sai baba# when like he was a kid


but then, and then he stopped he went to college like he went to BITS Palani is you know that uni, err before he transferred to NTU, and then err


he gone to ITT bro, and harvard, harvard is too was too expensive for him, so he couldn't do it ya and then IIT he didn't get the course he wanted


ya, com science, I says I did the same diaper man, darwin does com science and then, Peng was like they all have something in common with each other like Peng was a bit different I guess he did econs but he was still a libra and then


it's like he's a combination man rowen a combination of of Preevin and Peng, but, ya so he in BITS Palani picked up smoking and then he picked up drinking and like he picked up eating meat so now his spends like don't know any of everything that he's like a hyper religious


like, like vegetarian boy like it they all eat meat ah does like his family and not not eat meat his family eats egg, but they don't even think that he eats egg because of anyone they got into #sai baba# things like I'm giving up egg


and then as in now he's back like in dubai and like he's like going through nicotine like withdrawal , and not eating egg and is just kinda dying like


okay ya, and so much shit has happened


it's, okay so I'm just like super fucking salty about everything because in the tournament <tamil>போன:pona</tamil> in the weekend <tamil>பண்ண:panna</tamil> tournament lah out of a hundred and fifty hundred and sixty teams twenty four teams make it to the octo finals


octo octo, octo finals, yes, before before quarter finals octo finals, there's also double octo finals


wait no ya sorry twenty four is the double octo finals , ya so and then it's quarter finals and then semi finals and then finals sorry so double octo finals was twenty four teams and then guess what my team was the twenty fifth team


like it's all based on whether you get a judge who's very, ya ya it's super arbitrary lah <tamil>அதுல நெறைய:athula neray</tamil> teams <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> five points lah <tamil>இருப்பாங்க:iruppanga</tamil> out of eight eight round lah <tamil>வந்து ஆறு:vanthu aaru</tamil> wins <tamil>எடுத்தா:edutha</tamil> confirm break


so basically <tamil>என்ன ஆச்சுனா:enna aachuna</tamil> sam and rowan and chaitu on one team and they broke so they made it to double octo finals


double octo finals


but then he went to complain to vihard that's my coach that err like that I'm not going to team with sam anymore lah like she I really hate sam <tamil>அவ என்னோட:ava ennoda</tamil> relationship ha ruin <tamil>பண்ணிட்டா:pannitta</tamil> like I don't like to team with her you know err ya but he didn't kind of say in that way he said it in a way that like <tamil>இது:ithu</tamil> Bala <tamil>வோட:voda</tamil> last year debating <tamil>என்னோட:ennoda</tamil> girlfriend <tamil>போற மாறி:pora mari</tamil> I want to go with my girlfriend like you know it's her last year so I want to do that so but then sam <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> obviously wasn't very happy about it because rowen is a very strong debater in in the squad so in the squad like I will say the strongest debaters are like me rowen err and this other guy called darren


err and darren is my vice president so, basically sam wasn't happy about this cause Chaitanya <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> not a very good speaker <tamil>என்னோட என்னோட:ennoda ennoda</tamil> partner so she went to complain to Weea she's like <tamil>இங்க பாருங்க:inga parunga</tamil> like <tamil>அவன் என்னோட என்னோட:avan ennoda ennoda</tamil> chances matter <tamil>பண்ற அது மாறி:panra athu mari</tamil> like I feel like it like my break chances will matter but <tamil>அவளால ஒன்னும் பண்ண முடியாது:avalala onnum panna mudiyathu</tamil> because like rohan just said I wouldn't go with you


so <tamil>அது மாறி ஆயிப்போச்சு:athu mari aayippochu</tamil> then rowen and I broke at ABP which is a major achievements it's the first is the first time NTU broke in three years lah but, like no one was really like, sam wasn't happy about it it was very obvious you know she thought that if she'd gone with rowen she would have broken which is bullshit lah she wouldn't if I'm better than her but anyway because that okay the rankings for this tournament this major tournament was like this


err sam and Chitu two fight first, okay, and there it was some state bullshit lah <tamil>அது அது வந்து:athu athu vanthu</tamil> is another big bullshit <tamil></tamil> only, it's we are broad this other person into judge who's a very good friend of sam's so


everyone really thought that he gave sam very biased high speaks, ya, ya but it be like that and then it was jose


and then it was rowen darren and then me


but but <tamil>என்னாச்சுனா:ennachuna</tamil> Weeha <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> jose ah <tamil>எடுத்துட்டு:eduthuttu</tamil> thirteen lah <tamil>போட்டா:potta</tamil> so she put jose in the team with helena and celest helena and celest are year ones they're juniors


because jose is this very weird guy in our squad right who wants who who does this thing that he doesn't want to be competitive <tamil>அவன் என்ன எப்டிதான் சொல்வானா:avan enna epdithan solvana</tamil> oh debating <tamil>ரொம்ப:romba</tamil> stressful <tamil>நா வந்து:na vanthu</tamil> just chilling ah <tamil>இருக்கும் நா:irukkum na</tamil> I just want to chill


like that his preference <tamil>ஆனா அதுல என்ன:aana athula enna</tamil> what piss me off <tamil>னா:na</tamil> this Weeha <tamil>வந்து அவனோட:vanthu avanoda</tamil> preference ah <tamil>மட்டும் தான்:mattum than</tamil> like she took into account she started the entire selections processing this time my word is final like no one but if you don't like the if you don't like what I tell you just


fuck off like you can be a judge err cause she was like <tamil>அந்த போன போன தடவ இருப்புற:antha pona pona thadava iruppura</tamil> was very stressful for me, which first of all I don't get because like she's not the one like debating she's just watching but that aside like <tamil>அது மாறி பண்ணா:athu mari panna</tamil> you should go strictly according to rankings right


but she only took jose preference into account but then because jose was going with the juniors, she put Chitu and sam in a team together and then rowen who then who same ranking leh, she split them up so she put rowen in NTU one then she would darren in team with me


and then she put, ya it's just is just fucked up lah <tamil>ஏன்னா:eanna</tamil> darren and rowen have what been wanting to team together for very long <tamil>அவங்க ரெண்டு பேரும்:avanga rendu perum</tamil> they always go for tournaments together and they are very very close friends and I am very like I'm obviously rowen girlfriend but also like


no no no joel is the gay one that one is another dude I swear this year I've been guarding people out of my life left and right you know, ya I did


oh I didn't tell you the end of it ah, okay so


basically like darren rowen and I are very close darren <tamil>அவன் வந்து என்னோட:avan vanthu ennoda</tamil> vice president so I work a lot with him, and we are very very very close friends I'm really quite good friends with this darren's girlfriend


, who does any whose NUS law by the way she just graduated so if you need any help that I can ask her if any you need any help you need law stuff lah, arial


she's NUS law, err and then, err ya so basically , ya like they she this happened for just I I honestly think that isn't right is because Viha like sam also


and if she puts me like jose Chitu sam in a team <tamil>ஒரு:oru</tamil> team lah <tamil>போட்டா:potta</tamil> the team will die, we will absolutely die because, they they are just err ya none of them are strong but me I'm a natural third speaker darren is a best first speaker and rowen is a natural second speaker like <tamil>நம்ப மூணு பேரும் ஒரு:namba moonu perum oru</tamil> team lah <tamil>போட்டோனா:pottona</tamil> like we will definitely do well


but but NUS debate leh another problem lah the people who are good together keep going together, and let's that makes that the rest from the club either stagnant or they feel left out, or they leave the club


because the people who are good keep going together, and Viha wanted to avoid the situation so she's distributing strength across teams so you know the team that she put one potato call Seng Seng, and then she <tamil>அந்த அந்த:antha antha</tamil> team lah you know she put rowen so that strength is evenly distributed which I don't think it's a good strategy honestly but


I guess for the guys sure it works like like in terms of, making sure no one feels left out you know, so that happen and rowen broke with


with Chitu and sam and I'm just really really angry about it because I don't think that they deserve as in, first off I think that now if we get if me darren and rowen and, had been a team we would have broken highest so breaking <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> they they rank you from one to twenty four right we would have broken higher cause Chitu is very weak and darren is very good at very persuasive so he would've gotten more speaker points which means that we would have broken higher and also err <tamil>என்னன்னா:ennanna</tamil> ya I just


so after a tournament ends there's this thing called the tab that is released and in the tab like they they give you like err they they ranked the speakers based on how much speaker points they have


right and rowen is always the best performing in NTU because, he's very persuasive very loud, very aggressive, , so, I think we would have definitely broken lah with rowen and I just think it's unfair how everything went and I just don't think sam deserves it


and this is me a heck of and <tamil>நா இது என்னோட:na ithu ennoda</tamil> previous president <tamil>ஓட நா:oda na</tamil> was discussing this ah so I, my previous president was andrea and we were the ones who like brought Viha into NTU as to coach


and then I <tamil>எல்லா:ella</tamil> then andrea <tamil>ட சொல்லிட்டு இருந்தன்:ta sollittu irunthan</tamil> like <tamil>இது மாறி நடந்து போயிருச்சின்னு:ithu mari nadanthu poyiruchinu</tamil> then andrea was just saying like oh that's really overbearing of viha like, but <tamil>நம்ம ரெண்டு பேரும்:namma rendu perum</tamil> we don't know how to deal with the situation also like it's just come to a point where like Viha dictates the teams and like


rowen wasn't happy about it darren wasn't happy about it I wasn't happy about it, and it's just like, it's the major competition ya


make sense right, exactly


exactly I know, I don't know I just I I also thought so but, I don't know, which is, yes she's a alumnus she's alumnus yeah and I and I really she really cares for the club and everything lah but


I am rest really frustrated so, ya and there was some shit fuckary that went down in the seventh round also for that tournament when we should have really obviously won,


but some stupid judges gave the call to the other team, and it was just so, debate is complicated and <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> full ah enagaged <tamil>பெறகு:peraku</tamil> you get bored so I won't bore you with the details but basically some shit fuckary went down and


we should have broken but didn't and I was really mad about it but that happened and, sam is like, being a absolute bitch about it like


dude she was it was so annoying you know <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> break Naid <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> twenty fifth team <tamil>னு:nu</tamil> and due to and she will still [orh] like so happy that she broke when like me and darren and send seng was just sitting there like feeling like so terrible


and she was just being or like you know you have to be sensitive when obviously someone it's like darren second last UADC and it's my last major for this tournament


and it was very obvious she was just like, she was just happy that she broke and it was just incredibly frustrating ya, so that happen and it's just a shitty freaking weekend


ya, debate very drama affair it's err it's err I don't even know what to do about it you know at this point I'm just like, it's whatever


and then, like I also like literally I know <tamil>மொதல்ல முன்னாடி சொன்னன்:modalla munnadi sonnan</tamil> like you know it bothers me that joel and sam are closed, but, okay I have to tell you about this giant I have with joel and we're not friends anymore


err, okay


and their requirement, my point it's ya so, okay so


so <tamil>ஆனா அவன் வந்து:aana avan vanthu</tamil> he's the president of this nonprofit organization and <tamil>அவன் வந்து அவன்:avan vanthu avan</tamil> expo join person I said okay I'll help, so I join, and I was doing a lot of work for it so


I was basically organising a tournament for around three hundred primary school and secondary school kids


and the debate topics that I have to decide I have to liase with the other judges, and I was basically doing a lot of work for it and <tamil>மத்தவங்க வந்து:mathavanga vanthu</tamil> help <tamil>பண்ணாத மாறி:pannatha mari</tamil> I was feeling like just left out but I didn't say anything I just kinda continued and finished all the work and on the day of the tournament <tamil>என்னா ஆச்சுனா:enna achuna</tamil> err zoom call lah <tamil>இருந்தம் எல்லாரும்:iruntham ellarum</tamil>


what, light, okay I'm plugging in my airpods, okay hi can you hear me


okay fantastic,


relax relax you'll be fine I'm sure we will hit the twenty percent tamil along the way, , it's okay I'm interning now actually two internships at once so it's kinda


nice you , , , still laughing


you know they going to be like what the fuck we want to work out there can't exist one hour of them giggling,


, err one one of the law firm, so <tamil>அங்க வந்து:anga vanthu</tamil> as in it's just a regular law firm ah, then the other one is do you see my instagram is like legal deck project


ya !wow! you see my linkedin nice okay are we even friends on linkedin


oh I didn't know that okay nice to know that we had also friends are linkedin, , !wow! superb


, it's okay dude <tamil>ரெண்டு வாரமா தான்:rendu varama thaan</tamil> been having like a break like since fourth december so it's like two weeks-ish, err


ya I haven't really gone out that much so, recovering from, fair enough ya everyone needs downtime


like, like a love violence situation or is it like a lover's blind situation, (mmhmm),


oh okay


you know I hate it when shows do that like they make everyone computer then <tamil>கடைசில கடைசில:kadaisila kadaisila</tamil> they are like, here's one million dollars <tamil>உங்களுக்குள்ளயே பிரிச்சுகோங்க:ungalukkullaye pirichukonga</tamil> it's like what the fuck some couples work harder than the others have you seen love is blind, eh not love is blind err too hot to handle


right I hate francesca too I don't get the hype with her I really don't


chloe and nicole, oh then she got kicked out, oh ya ya then like the ya it was surprising when they kicked her out but ya


ya nicole the irish one I actually really like her like I know like everyone's like what's the big deal but for some reason I actually really like her, exactly she causes no drama no nothing but anyway coming back to the point like <tamil>நா சொன்ன மாறி அந்த:na sonna mari antha</tamil> show lah <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> you will see harry and francesco when they got the private suite to themselves they just ended up having full on sex whereas


that that black couple I forgot their names, when they got given the room they did nothing just to like make sure that the group doesn't lose money so would would couple when they give no collective fucks


and one couple is like you know stay abstain to ensure that the group doesn't lose out, I think it's a tad bit unfair that everyone has to split the prize money equally, if you make it into big boss


(uh huh), , oh my god do you watch the office


no , no oh my god okay okay fine but okay I love that err Kanthas is watching the office, feel like he and I could be better friends


, oh god,


, so so have you introduced rowen to your mom


okay


or maybe just time passes so slowly, still I don't know feels like one year or something already


slow, no no I I feel like a lot of things have happened but we just forget it because they focuses on COVID


ya do you watch the good place, dang it I was gonna say it left from someone but ya, (mmhmm),


it is very good , ya correct I was, that was really good


I think I was in between like season finale or something and I was like oh my god needs to finish but no data, dude that's like my regular habit I fall asleep watching stuff or listening to stuff


no but I forgotten how to sleep without it like would a TV show <tamil>ஒரு ஒரு:oru oru</tamil> audio book <tamil>இல்லாம எப்படி தூங்குறதுனு மறந்துடன்:illama eppadi thoongurathunu maranthutan</tamil> so,


!wow! no I don't do that <tamil>நா என்ன இப்ப பண்றனா:na enna ippa panrana</tamil> I downloaded an app called libby which is like NLB's app, and they have like Ebooks and audio books on it and it's like linked to overdrive, so I mean I go through I download whatever audio books I like


and <tamil>இப்ப வந்து:ippa vanthu</tamil> I'm listening to one audio book and I actually really like it I'm kinda low key kinda lazy to read, and low key kind of lazy to go borrow the book physically also, so I think audio books are very nice especially cause they're like performed and narrated by someone and usually the narraters are very good


so I, okay <tamil>இப்ப வந்து:ippa vanthu</tamil> I'm listening to a book called err the dutch house, okay <tamil>எத பத்தினா:etha pathina</tamil> that is


it's basically like a, very emotional drama kind of story, it's set in like nineteen sixties seventies america


so there's this family that lives in a that lives in pennsylvania in a big house that's on top of the hill it's like four stories big and this is like war torn america okay so everyone living in poverty and they clearly live in like the richest town and house


and , so the younger brother is called danny he's the protagonist of the story then he has an <tamil>அக்கா:akka</tamil> called myth who's like six years older than him, and then their father is like a real estate I wouldn't say mogule but like sells and buy real estate basically a landlord for living


and this dutch house is built by the dutch err family that lived before in the house and they made it into such an extravagant and grand mansion, and


correct correct <tamil>அது முன்னாடி அங்க வந்து ஒரு:athu munnadi anga vanthu oru</tamil> dutch family <tamil>வாழ்ந்தாங்க அந்த:valnthanga antha</tamil> family lah <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> they were running a cigarette business and everyone in family died out like the two sons die in the war the <tamil>அம்மா:amma</tamil> passed away then the <tamil>அப்பா:appa</tamil> also pass away in the house, so I mean eventually then the bank took over the house and resold it to danny's father


so , but like the decor the architecture style everything is very very dutch and it's known in the entire like neighborhood as the dutch house and it's like the portures house on the street


and I'm I mean of course the the err writing itself is beautiful like err the way she describes it not as very very lucid and I'm I'm not a person who likes very flowery writing but this is just enough detail without err without going to the point of like overly over description


okay so the house is kind of at the centre of the story but dan it's it's through danny's life experiences and all that so <tamil>அப்ப என்னாகுனா:appa ennakuna</tamil> danny <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> I'll be <tamil>அப்பா:appa</tamil> him and may and the story starts with him coming down with his sister his sister clearly like a bit of a


so maeve <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> she's a very over protective sister of him she's very like firm she's very like no nonsense the story starts off with him being like probably ten or something and she's just like sixteen


and you know you soon come to realise that <tamil>இவங்க ரெண்டு பேரோட அம்மா வந்து:ivanga rendu peroda amma vanthu</tamil> she would have run away not run away left to go to india when maeve was like


and, you the story will later reveal that the mom is a not a drop, no no the mom has a very recent two person at heart so <tamil>அவங்க அப்பா வந்து:avanga appa vanthu</tamil> he buys the house she couldn't take the grandeur of the house cause the house is like


decorated with , teak wood carvings that were like hand flown from italy and like gold gold palletered stuff it's a very very grand house and they went from being a family that lived you know shoe box apartment in like someone in the bronx


in brooklyn, to living in this like grand mansion, that's the thing so the book <tamil>லையே சொல்லுவான் அந்த மாறி:laye solluvan antha mari</tamil> he was like at that point our father wasn't even rich enough to buy a cart like to visit the house itself when he first took them mah then he would have rent like borrow a car from a friend but because the bank took over after the Vanhookbak died and because it's war time america and all that nobody was really interested in buying that mantion it sold for a very very cheap price


so like ya so danny father would have bought the house, and so the after awhile the mom couldn't like take the pressure of it anymore and she would have left and she would have gone, no no pessure of just living in the house and you know the entire


no I think it comes there comes a point in their marriage like the father and mother's marriage right clearly the father wants different things from the mother the father you know wants to live a grand, , free like a life that is dipped in luxury but as the mother is really really very simple at heart and the thing is the dad bought the house without the mother's knowledge as as a surprise for her


correct ya so like the mum was like I can't do this I'm living in the house every day while the rest of the country is war torn she couldn't take it you know, so <tamil>அப்ப வந்து:appa vanthu</tamil> and the and and they they had three servant maids from having nobody they now had like three servant maids


and yes, but they could afford it and like the house is huge so they had err and the housekeeper's all very nice people so there was jocelyn sandy who were like the cook and the housekeeper then there was a nanny called fluffy or fiona


ya, so like the mum leaves when danny is a <tamil>கைக் கொழந்த:kaik kolantha</tamil> and then maeve was already diabetic but she like stopped eating and completely like almost dies because of it because she misses her mom so much and then after that she recovers and her dad is her dad becomes like cold and aloof and distant and heartbroken


I mean like he didn't really step up to the role he just became even more aloof and like heartbroken you know, ya but


essentially so the mother leaves and like maeve grow up to be this very very over protective mother figure to danny, and when they both about like, no when thery're about when danny's about fourteen and when maeve is in college the father remarries this lady called andrea and their first memory of meeting andrea is they come in and andreas already like oh we should do this change to the house we should do that change the house the only thing is the hous is so like err open and transparent like because the house is just made of like fully glass


it's it's a very open concept and andrea doesn't like it, and she's always prided herself in like, she's always talking about some renovation or change to make to the house, and they, okay


!wow!, okay so then


what happens after that okay so they hear the father marries andrea and andrea has two daughters of her own and basically andrea like creeps into how do you say she kinda like cleaves her way into like lagging in the house and she doesn't treat, danny and the sister very well


and then <tamil>ஒரு கட்டத்துல வந்து:oru kattathula vanthu</tamil> the father passes away when danny's like in, junior high school, and danny always grew, ya danny always, err kind not surely okay basically the father always told danny that he would take over the father's business one day and and one of the few times that the father spent time with him was every saturday he'll take him along with him to collect rent from the tenants and you know to go visit the all the buildings the father owns


so danny kind of knows the business in and out maeve has worked maeve is also very smart she's an accountant and she's worked in her father's company before but when the father passes away andrea just sells the company, liquidified and completely sells it and she tells them that she like the house now belongs to her because of like she basically what got the lawyer before the father pass got him to bequeath the house to her and <tamil>அங்கயிருந்து:angayirunthu</tamil> she kicks out err andrea and <tamil>அங்கயிருந்து:angayirunthu</tamil> she kicks out maeve and danny saying that maeve <tamil>நீ வந்து:nee vanthu</tamil> college <tamil>படிக்கிற:padikkira</tamil> you should be on your own already so get your own apartment and take your brother with you


and luckily the father had set up a trust education trust fund that is danny and andrea's two daughters maeve is not included and maeve was like what the fuck, but by the time maeve had finished college she was like looking to go to graduate school


so it was like K whatever and then the lawyer says the lawyer kind of like check and see that trust is set up to support education so you can technically study until a PHD or whatever and just milk milk, milk the trust


and drain it off when all the money if you really want to take revenge on andrea and like make sure her daughters have no money like if they're probably not going to study past high school because let's face it this is nineteen sixties america, so


so <tamil>அதுக்கப்புறம் வந்து:athukkappuram vanthu</tamil> danny will go to, danny would go to college no he he go to what is it, he will go to err boarding school because it's super expensive maeve would maeve will send him there


just a drain money enough after that she will send him to colombia for err, pre-med course and then he will do medicine at columbia also but the whole time he just want to do real estate so after that he will become a doctor, as in he will graduate medical school but <tamil>கடைசில அவன் வந்து:kadaisila avan vanthu</tamil> medicine practice <tamil>பண்ண மாட்டான்:panna mattan</tamil> medicine practice <tamil>பண்ணாம:pannama</tamil> like right after he graduate he will start looking for building that he will buy buildings and he loves going to real estate like his father


and in the meanwhile he also meet a girl and maeve and his wife won't get along, and there will be like a little bit of drama there and like then they would still lease they would kind of reconnect with fluffy who was who was danny's like nanny when they were kids


and the thing is like fluffy would have gotten fired when danny was four, cause <tamil>எதோ ஒரு ஆத்துரத்துல:etho oru aathurathula</tamil> she would have hit danny on the head with the wooden spoon


I'm so sorry for what I did she's like consumed with guilt she said I really loved you and at that point I was having yes I was leaving with your father but I thought he would marry me


and like when that morning when I hit you like I had a really bad argument with your father because every time he's told me that he has no intention of marrying me so I felt like all of this was very immoral and all of that and I was already in a very bad temper and then you were being noisy and <tamil>அந்த ஒரு கடுப்புல தான்:antha oru kaduppula than</tamil> I had do I didn't mean to hurt you or whatever


and danny you know he all these years he's kind of held a grudge against fluffy but then you know the minute he meets her she's like in her fifties now and he forgives her and like knows what is what she would have gone through <tamil>அவ அவங்க அப்பா என்ன யோசிச்சி இருப்பாரு:ava avanga appa enna yosichi irupparu</tamil> all of this makes sense for him and he's like okay no problem lah <tamil>நா ஒன்ன மன்னிச்சிடன்:na onna mannichitan</tamil> them and at the same time like fluffy now says by the way do you know that your mum is back in the US and she's like living fifteen stops like she's living this place fifteen stops from you and she's still into the


she still into the service life like she's serving at a soup kitchen down somewhere and she's like repenting for her mistakes and danny's like you know , danny's like oh she's not my mother she's dead to me she left me and my sister how could you do that blah blah


and she just ran away to india then then that that fluffy like no you must, I know I know precisely it such a random fact in the book, and then fluffy like a <tamil>இல்ல இல்ல:illa illa</tamil> you must try <tamil>நீ புரிஞ்சிகொனும்:nee purinjikonum</tamil> <tamil>உங்க அம்மாக்கு வந்து இந்த:unga ammakku vanthu intha</tamil> that that house is way too much grandeur in in a post war life and


ya so your mother couldn't take it, , ya so you mother couldn't take it and then she left him then you know but she's really she's she's she's repenting her mistakes and she serving out her pendant that with the soup kitchen and all that


and you know must you must try to forgive her and all that and danny is like K great thanks thanks for reconnecting it was fun talking to you and the thing is as much as like maeve and danny got kicked out <tamil>இல்ல:illa</tamil> they like to every summer that danny comes back from school every time they meet maeve likes to like drive outside the dutch house and they'll just sit in its like the street opposite it cause it's a huge house on the hill and that so that's like a huge driveway leading up to the street then <tamil>அவங்க என்ன பண்ணுவாங்க:avanga enna pannuvanga</tamil> they will sit on the other side of the street <tamil>உக்காந்துனு அந்த:ukkanthunu antha</tamil> dutch house ah <tamil>பாத்துன்டு:pathundu</tamil> they will just be bitching about andrea and like recollecting and kind of like


self therapizing, you know just like, like you know talking about their childhood or trying to piece together things understanding what they went through and, and ya I guess kind of brewing in it and like mourning over their lost house and all trying to


ya, it's a poly suprise wear, oh finalist okay ya


ya it's a very very nice book I'm telling you I mean now so some people might have like simplified the story to like it's backbones, I've just found out that the mom is alive that's all that's all I know I need to listen to more of the book


ya it's it's like watching a very slow moving emotional drama and dance heavy movie


like just about have you seen like the judge that stars johnny depp the judge, it stars I want to say robert downey junior to ya I think is robert downey junior


is very the premise is very simple is just a man comes back to his childhood, his native village of native home town, and he has had a troubled relationship with his father growing up and his father's dead basically comes back at the funeral and he like kind of goes over the relationship with his father and at the same time <tamil>அவனோட:avanoda</tamil> ex-lover ah <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> meet <tamil>பண்றான்:panran</tamil> and he kind of goes over his relationship with his ex-lover


that's literally the premise of it and his father used to be a judge so it's called the judge, but it's a very very like, drama heavy or like emotions heavy movie with a very simple premise


so you prefer lighter


, oh yes, so listen listen, oh yes happy belated birthday


oh, okay


film photography now you must take it on err like the rolling film camera ah


, also where the ghost kills people, , sure but have you not seen shutter the ghost will be like on what okay anyway go ahead


shuttered, okay nevermind go


(mmhmm) (mmhmm)


okay, [orh] sweet


oh


!wow!


!wow!, oh no why


(uh huh), ya ya ya, okay, okay


oh no


holy shit


okay, oh okay


(mmhmm), okay


(mmhmm)


okay, (mmhmm), okay but like <tamil>நீ:nee</tamil> room <tamil>னு சொல்லும்போது:nu sollumpothu</tamil> is it an NTU hostel or is it like outside apartment


okay lah fair enough


uh, oh my god , (mmhmm)


it's not sims behaviour, it's just sweet


oh my god


inner thing ya,


ya, , , , oh my god, this kind of clown


, oh my god


ya what what if he doesn't like it at all


!eww!, is he a gemini his sounds like a gemini,


but like, it is your compatibility oh okay what what are the signs you are most comfortable with, oh you're also can compatible with pisces and capricon


no you also conpatible with capricorn because I check for myself what so my most comfortable are pisces and capricon so pisces and scorpio sorry


, oh ya


(uh huh), ya


(uh huh),


so got him like bright lime yellow or something, , like surprise


oh ya


oh man


oh no I don't want to think why those asking, yikes


okay, but his parents are into is is just him


(mmhmm), oh, ya, oh okay !wow! he's really smart


!wow! okay, what is he doing in NTU, oh man, oh damn what does he do in NTU


[orh] okay okay, com science oh ya


oh my god, okay


, oh shit


and how's the situation with that wasn't sam I forgot her name, no <tamil>அந்த தொடர் கதைய நா கேக்கணும்:antha thodar kathaya na kekkanum</tamil> come <tamil>ஒன்:on</tamil> give it to me


, (mmhmm), quarter finals , what does the octo oh the one before quarter


okay I've never heard of an octo finals but okay, !wow! okay, okay


, (hmm)


okay okay, , (mmhmm)


correct correct ya, then rowen Paruthiya, correct ya


okay, (uh huh), (uh huh)


okay


!whoa!, okay


oh okay okay how unprofessional


(mmhmm),


okay, okay


oh okay, okay


oh I think that's on purpose, okay


is darren the gay one I forgot, right you told me about the drummer issue, ya ya ya but how


like how you took them to the hospital on blue line and his friends exam and then you you wouldn't comfortable with it, no never but finish the story and we'll get to that


correct ya, okay


oh sure okay what's her name, arial doesn't ring a bell but okay, okay as in ya doesn't ring a bell though but okay


okay, , none of them are strong


okay, (mmhmm), okay


(mmhmm), (mmhmm), (mmhmm)


okay, ya (uh huh)


okay, okay,


okay, (uh huh)


okay


oh <tamil>அப்ப இதுக்கு:appa ithukku</tamil> ya it makes sense to like put the strongest together and try to advance your chances of winning rather than focus on your culture and spreading the strength like <tamil>அந்த மாதிரி:antha madiri</tamil> strategy you could have adopted for err less prestigious more err routine competition


this is a NTU alumnus or like is she external coach


okay, (mmhmm)


oh okay, no it's fine it's fine


(mmhmm), ya correct, (mmhmm)


!wow!


(mmhmm), okay wait but I'll just let you know ah we have like about one <tamil>ஒன்றரை நிமிசம்:onrarai nimisam</tamil> to fill before we stopped this recording and do the second recording


so just, ya ya she said two sets of one hour lah, no instructions <tamil>போய் பாரு:poai paru</tamil> I think the last bit or something that says we need two hours of recording


say that okay


okay, okay, okay


ya, so, uh ya so <tamil>இதலாம்:idalam</tamil> like, like, that's fine like I don't, need, him in my life


ya now I felt like, you'll just gonna be like, I was just gonna be a place for him to, like, validate him and like, still, there not be a better debater then him basically because he is, that insecure


, so I'll just like so that, so I'll just like, that's I mean <tamil>இல்ல இல்ல அது கூட இல்ல:illa illa athu kooda illa</tamil>


, and I I <tamil>அது அந்த:athu antha</tamil> text conversation lah it was obvious when, things were going bad, , so I'll just like


uh, he said, I'll fetch your boss over and the, point which you disrespected my authority, ya, and I was just like okay bruh let


go off , and like , ya , I'll just like very done, at that, point, he, even if he gets very emotional sometimes right <tamil>நா முன்னாடி வந்து:na munnadi vanthu</tamil>


like <tamil>பரவால:paravala</tamil> he has depression he has anxiety like he has like, , aidumociphilis I don't know how that screws with your brain but , and, like he does like drugs, and


ya ya ya, he's gay what so singapore gays <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> is a barely wild dude like they do a lot of like, drugs when having sex, I think if you're rich


it's fine, you'll get it easily, , , ya but I'll probably skipped,


oh ya ya ya I vaguely remember this,


, damn, do you know him still or something, ,


, , , !wah!


, , [orh], ,


, , , , is it Shukrinah,


, , ya,


ya that thing is actually very easy to, like more more than like people like to admit, actually


it's called fam sex, that that kind of drug fuel sex ya that's the name of it, never mind but continue, , you know drug a drug


it it's not like it's like, uh, cocaine, (mmhmm), drug drug that's banned in singapore


, ya he like it's like I'm, I'm actually saying like wild, like orgies sex parties that last for like, three days, , , dude I know right


I know, ya, but these guys are also not, majority are also like you not doing anything right now lah he, australia


Monash, is that but is that a good law school, Monash,


ah <tamil>எனக்கு:enakku</tamil> australia I don't have like a good opinion of schools in australia at all


that's facts too, ,


ah, , okay, but ya, uh he's going there, , and, how do we get to the drugs , oh ya ya so he's like on it like he has a drug, problem and like all that stuff


so I've like I usually excuse his behaviour alarms like whatever your problems like, you know, but, ya I guess he's not


he has problems man like, he grew up in the church and like, being gay was you know like a big, thing and like his parents like, ugly religious, and, his brothers are like really like


typical, and the NS men you know the straight, chinese, NS men , and <tamil>அவன் வந்து:avan vanthu</tamil> he's more feminine he's uh non-binary he's like, come, gay, [orh] so so, I think, his family life is not that great


so, I mean I can see why he might, turn to drugs, , so I'm, I'm like whatever I think he uses sex as some kind of weird, coping mechanism, I'm not even going to see weird coping mechanism


ya, , like I was like such a whore, in your wild like, trying to, be with, one was identity but Praveen , ya just


ya, till there's that, and then I ran away from him,


the wind, to that, toilet and then I walked around in the toilet for half an hour is just like hyperventilating, I felt like I couldn't breathe, I don't know man , but this was at the start of this semester lah I don't know if I had the same reaction now I think I'll probably run away but maybe I'll hyperventilate less


, and then like Rohan was obviously not happy about it dude <tamil>ஒன்ட நா:onta na</tamil> as soon, I want to talk Binas, I want I've been wanting to ask you this for like a long time I know, how do you


what are your thoughts on natural compatibility, like <tamil>ஒனக்கு எப்படி தெரியும்:onakku eppadi theriyum</tamil> like how did you know when you and Safti were like really over over


because the thing is right like, that Rohan and I fight a lot and there's some, points in which I just don't know for a compatible, , was that one of the reasons why you broke up with Safti or not


, correct there's there should be a priority, for uni life at least


that's fair, I will, what really, I didn't know that


!huh! when why, I literally don't, what does he lie about, what things dude, I don't know what I mean uh sorry if I like sour like or memory gap but I really cannot


ya <tamil>ஞாபகம் இல்ல:njapakam illa</tamil> , , ya, look I swear it's so drama okay never mind continue,


, uh, oh LOL


ya, what I didn't know he did detested him I just, thought they were kind of like weird, like Friendnermies


and it actually rented out to his mother


, , oh


!aiyo! I swear Ashey'S mom ah, , , I sorry ah Ashey'S mom was like quite a bitch,


, okay either situation says mom is the asshole here, uh, uh, Ashey'S mom is the asshole here,


(ppc), (ppc), (ppc), (ppc), , , oh ya ya ya ya ya


oh my god , , , ya, , ,


, (ppc) , (ppc) oh my god I'm dead, , that's high key lah I'm sorry it's like this,


, actually is a tiny bit of the asshole lah for diverting, but, but I think the biggest ass hole is the mom, and also Satif family for ostracizing their son


he was dying, , , (ppc), so he still holds a grudge for ashey for that,


damn son, that's so facts


, man I don't have, if we did ya I know, I think we have other closer friends but I wouldn't say we were Friendnermies like that


that's facts too, that is so facts I've never should talk to you or anyone


, I can't remember what was that


oh oh ya ya ya


, oh ya okay okay I I <tamil>இது ஞாபகம் இருக்கு:ithu njapakam irukku</tamil> ya ya you're right


and that's facts, I did feel like judged by everyone during like that phase, uh and I felt kind of alone in that but like, ya I'd felt nice like that you understood me after, you know


(ppc) , (ppc) a bunch of hypocrites man like everyone except Ashey lah, Saktil and vickie ah like such <tamil>ஓன்ட சொன்னனா:onta sonnana</tamil> like you know the the day I saw vickie


in NTU, , ya I just walked straight pass into, oh my god no dude the last time I spoke to Muthu was


no no was it after no eh I came back from europe then like I saw him again, oh <tamil>நா ஒன்ட சொல்லல:na onta sollala</tamil> okay okay


so after I came back like obviously like #muthu#'s, like I know Muthu would be down sleep with me all these, fuck with me in that sense, okay so that's the thing so


ya and then, he was like ya like you know I wanted like sleep someone else like I wanna, like forget about Ramley you know, and then I'll just kind of like Muthu I'm more like some weird sex doll for you to sleep with like no


uh, and then I was just like no I'm not doing that but then, (ppc), but I came back from exchange remember how throughout exchange I still kind of on off about, the Peng


and then <tamil>நா வந்தோனே:na vanthone</tamil> that whole thing with his like new thing girl went down and then the new girl blasted them on instagram, ya and then the girl was like don't talk to me ever again and and I was feeling like super emo about it then I will like it's just like basically sleep with someone else to get over him then I hit up that dude from NUS laws #thatha boodi# and then had erectile dysfunction


, ya, ya and then like that dude right erectile dysfunction and I can't remember a lot from Muthu I just remember he does not have erectile dysfunction so I was considering sleeping with Muthu so I like


uh, just texted him like I you up then we met up first for like a bit, and then like I was just telling him about Peng, , cause I was just like not in a very good place it's kind of rambling and like, drunk alone


ah but then I just didn't, couldn't do it I just couldn't bring myself to kiss Muthu or sleep with Muthu because I felt super duper wrong, so I was just like ya I'm sorry Muthu I can't do it like , this is just weird for me


after I came back from exchange, so this was around like, march


april, april it was like towards the end of the sem, , , I I just said I couldn't do it lah, and then Muthu was just like, still pushing I think he he kind of, could, figure out that I was not in a very good place and like he maybe thought if you push to me more I would sleep with him


but like he was just like but you haven't shown me your new room yet like, uh like I you know I haven't ever been to a motel room, this was after by the way like I told it, like, this was after by the way I told him I'm sorry I can't do this like I know like what that text like


insinuated but I'm sorry I can't do this it's too weird for me, but then he was just like he he'd just kind of weirdly, it was kind of weirdly coercive and then at that point I was just like absolutely ya no way


, ya I'll just like, no ya sorry Muthu like I'm not feeling too well I'm just gonna go back, wait ya after that incident I was just kind of like, those kind of asshole, as in not a asshole he is kind of a


uh, no I I think he broke up with Ramley, it's a one on off situation dude, I asked him I was just like broken up with Ramley there and then he said ya


, is it the one with Ridshi, the !hey! baby Z, oh my god


ya,


oh ya, ya ya ya ya ya, or do I dude I you know I think Muthu will be, okay


ya I don't know either, I think they've just been really really on off that's why Muthu told me at least that time he like took me out to that weird place, not even took me I pay for myself he we went to that weird place


ya, I know, he was really pushy but the more he pushed the more I became more firm, , to else super like, it did not work it this way but, cause , if there's one thing that debate has


like turned me into stamp me into a super raging feminist, , and, ya, and <tamil>என்னோட:ennoda</tamil> Efati <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> is about coercion eh not coercion sorry consent


sexual consent, it's uh educate, no no it's a like a kind of a, campaign, ya I'll I'm I'm doing like just a social media campaign and like a, kind of pop up booth and I had to come up with the world curriculum about it it's an education campaign


uh for fifteen to eighteen year olds about consent, so ya I was thinking about it this even then and I was just like this is a sign of coercion , these are signs of coercion and I was just like is this like a weird like


flip that went out and like this morning so ya since then I, it's just , kind of repeatedly asking, you, do, do something even though, you don't want wanna do for example it's


if it's like with the power differential, , this can, just be like ya, by saying things that would appeal to you like you are so much of uh for your age or like, saying stuff like example like my other girl friends have done this


like for example sending nudes, even if you may not be comfortable with it may just be like oh but my other girl friends did it stuff like that, you know so I was just like, like at that point all that stuff I was reading was just like no means no


to like what you said so after I said no he kept pushing us like, no , so this is this is bad, so ya (ppc), Muthu just kind of


he's a, pushy guy, ya, so I'm just kind of really turned off, by that


and, ya, mean you know it was all the more fucked up because I think at some point in that conversation I was telling him like how affected I was by Pang how ah like I, couldn't feel like I was


I was feeling like numb and not really like myself, and then even through all of that he was just kind of like acting as though everything was fine , and he was just like ya like let's go see your room and I was like


!wow!, so ya I haven't talked to Muthu since then because I think he, is, not a very nice, person, kind of but I also maybe, may have just brought it


upon myself because I, we did stuff in the first place, you know, (mmhmm)


ya, but maybe it's just me you know maybe like I just, portray myself like, like, frigging objectifying me like , or something, , in that do that sense that like guys like , why to objectify or maybe it's just Muthu, I don't know it's not a problem with like my other guy friends like


, (ppc), (ppc), Rudol Fo Suraj, , darren for example like these are, guys that I don't think, least I hope not they don't object, me or at least don't act like


they do so,


ya, ya, you're right, so ya, Muthu eh, beep beep beep dominique can have that I guess, , ya so there's that


, but ya back to my question, , I'm sorry we took aside trying but how do you know if like, this is again not, okay I guess you and Saktil damn break up for that reason, but like you, do you believe in like compatibility


, uh really


like always Ashey, what


what about Saktil


oh wait why, twelve twelve is ramsey birthday


I did not know that I don't give no shit about ramsey, , , I'm sorry I can't like imagine like


obsessing, over a person who does not care about you, like maybe when I was twelve with justin bieber ya like ya like, not when I'm like twenty


damn it,


, , , <tamil>என்கு பயமா இருக்கு:enku bayama irukku</tamil> I think I met the point which like it can go either of the two ways


, <tamil>அதாலா எனக்கு என்னான்னு தெரியல ஏன்னா:athala enakku ennannu theriyala eanna</tamil> I have, to apply for my masters, and he I know for my job, like there's not a senior in singapore as much as there is in london


and, and ya and like I really have to do a masters in london I think, I really think I do and I should,


do that, but, it'll have to be long distance because Rohin bonded in singapore for three years, he's bonded in singapore, and I, want to settle in london or at least settle out of singapore


because I don't want to risk my, get up here, especially in knowing like how people in other countries live man I think like <tamil>நம்ப வந்து:namba vanthu</tamil> we went through efforts and we got like the benefits I mean maybe not JC was not beneficial but like RJ has have the smartest most special snowflake in the world


, , like, you know like I think we got like the better and that and I feel like definitely I could groom my child into that, and I didn't feel like I had a like a childhood and I did feel like I had fun it I


do like reap the benefits of it I guess, but, also I don't think it has to be that hard man, to get to like a good position in life <tamil>ஏன்னா:eanna</tamil> UK lah <tamil>போயும்:poyum</tamil> like you can do all in the A levels you can still get to the UK colleges and what not you know


so I'm just like it doesn't have to be, that hard like what we went through so, I want to re-locate, at least but, I don't know


you are, to there's that, don't know what's gonna happen there, <tamil>நானும்:nanum</tamil> rohan <tamil>னும்:num</tamil> if fight at least, once or twice a month I now I feel like we're, uh it's a it's the most roller coaster relationship I've ever been in


and it ya it it is Yicks because our highs are really really high and our lows are really really like, low, ya lah boyfriend already he's very romantic he's like very


textbook movie romantic like , episode do they like, he will, like, pick me up when like he sees me and swing me around all that randomly like dip me and then like kiss me and then he randomly bring me flowers he randomly bring me chocolate he's like always telling me how pretty I am that I <tamil>எங்க போனாலும்:enga ponalum</tamil> like during debate or whatever like he just like


whisper in my ear and be like babe look so hot and then he like, squeeze my ass or some shit you know it's like, , but you get it like he's very, ridiculously romantic


I've never I've never, felt very loved, but I think we are, we might not be super compatible in that he's also very emotional and I am very emotional, so


like when comes to fight and stuff it's just like a super, like he's very sensitive so even when I joke around about something he gets hurt, , , and then


I just blanked out for second oh , , ya, and then I'll fight charges, very very, bad


so ya I'm I'm stressed about that and I don't know, I don't know if it's supposed to be like, , be like this cause sometimes I feel like he brings out the worst in me


!huh!, , dude


I don't know man but some time but, how do I, I don't, that facts like I guess like sneaky behavior like that like the Pang actually there was just me that was like my insecurities, and stuff like would


like, I don't know, maybe because we are both debaters like now Rohan know, ,


I don't know , I don't know , uh, I don't know ya like I I think I'm just like, scared and I'm looking to the future because


you know my master's is coming up so soon, I know so stupid


, , uh, uh,


, uh, it's fine for now, very good for now, so I guess for now it's fine, but


uh, you know I think the biggest problem right now is actually just that, he doesn't think I compliment him enough for this debating, but I don't like his debating style but if I tell him that he like, emo for five million years and he


seeks approval from his mother when he was growing up and his mother never gave that to him, and now he seeks my validation and my approval, I know


what do you mean, oh my god, oh my god you are the one


, apparently his poor mommy never said like good job or like you did well, or something, oh my god you poor kiddos


oh my lord, you all you all can hard to heard about it lah, , or the same mother


, mandamn wherever means like punishing you right both of you all like mommy issues, , , but ya do it's bad oh my god ya you're right you both of you all have like


almost the same ya, like more mistake this hair both scared too that like both are scared to them of their moms are also love their moms like a shit ton


ya man like he's always like oh my god my mom's the most beautiful women I love my mom she's so pretty and at the same time with me like oh my god my mom is clingy if she finds out I swore my mom will kill me if I do this ,


and killers, but ya I think I'm like really taking on like this weird like mom rule you know did I tell you this weird thing that he said, he said like one time, he didn't call me mom he said he


I he said okay so we're cuddling and like and and sleeping, and then he woke up in the middle of the night and he thought he was cuddling his mom,


I think so too, I think so too , he says he he cuddles his mom, oh my god you're right


dude, <tamil>அவன் வந்து:avan vanthu</tamil> like, india, when he goes back


but after he went to college he was sleeping with his mom, I mean cuddling his mom so I'm


ya, I hope so, I don't know ah I just don't think his mom did very well in like raising him up to not be disgusting from like, evidence from his room


uh oh my god I'm highly dramatized, ya, but also he is gone and love me


that when it's time so how you put it, dude I will I'm so hype actually, oh my god ya, I even bought all cleaning equipment for him you know to keep them clean


, ya


what what, ya, Sam Joel that's all updates to my life my debate, or he's mentored by a overbearing coach


uh I've cut out four people out of my life this year which is the, most number, no I didn't, nah I can't be bothered


but the fact, , Saktil Ashey no no Ashey Ashey Ashey I just don't talk to him much any more, these days


ya I think I think he has other stuff to focus on so,


!huh! oh oh ya this one this one this one


, , oh, (mmhmm),


, , my mom


ya, ,


, said


ya, ya


hello, hello hello


lost of control


, ya, the families won't be happy lah come on who are we kidding


sorry , , ,


<tamil>எனக்கு ரெண்டு மணிக்கு தான் சொல்லால:enakku rendu manikku than sollala</tamil> please <tamil>நா எனக்கு கனவே:na enakku kanave</tamil> Manasa <tamil>வந்து மூணு மணி வந்து:vanthu moonu mani vanthu</tamil> ghost <tamil>பேயா வந்து என்கிட்ட சொன்னா:peya vanthu enkitta sonna</tamil> since then I cannot get it out of my stupid head you know every time


every time like freaking it's two AM or three AM right he can playback to Malasa telling me it's old style, the eye or leaving our mothers telling me that neighbours were lovers


yeah, I mean honestly leh, I mean I I personally don't agree with like uh her exchanging from her family for a girl


oh yeah speaking of which, oh my god, now might as well learn lah ma should as in do you think I should tell my mom about Rohan


all she wants me to get married already, like as in not at eighty bid not now but like she's already talking about it she says you have maximum three years, yeah


yeah she wants me to get married to another, but no maximum four I think by twenties no she said ideally by twenty five maximum maximum twenty six, from there but honestly I'd wanna get married by twenty six too if i'm not married by twenty five i'd be a bit like I don't know because I want to have a kid


I don't really want to have a kid when i'm thirty or something, you know I'd wanna get married at like twenty four, twenty five and they have a kid like by when I'm twenty seven


yeah, ya you, oh yeah yeah


, ya, oh


how do you know your java then, or the temper lah, oh ya ya ya ya ya ya ya oh my god Ravin also did this


no no no not the not the my ex Praveen the Praveen


!huh!, he doesn't even do that, I mean what the, fuck, it is best that, oh


ya that's facts,


, , oh !wow!


!wow!, ,


, , ya ya that's what he said or he said is ya Athukam also said he won't get married until like thirty something, , ya


ya, oh man,


ya , , ,


, oh my god you should totally do it too he's so fun to hang with man like honestly, ya, like for sure you all would make great friends and I just you know you all would make great friends


uh I may go find out ah, me go see, ah <tamil>சொன்னன்னு நெனைக்குரன்:sonnannu nenaikkuran</tamil> he message


, oh my god I haven't responded to Ashey second december, give me, I am a bad person


Praveen, june twenty june twenty, sorry never mind it's alright


!aiyo!, how can you see your last seen on telegram


okay okay okay, he's a gemini, !eew!


is that compatible with you, ya I don't think is compatible with naturally you know cynthia's a gemini, scorpio


okay, we are same, same but, what do he's a solid friend


so you should definitely be friend to them he is definitely that type then be there for you lah, and you if you are or so, ya, have you ever been to any furniture from ikea


they know but seriously, I wish I could just break into other schools like that Sambavi, but my car only allows me access to ADM


ya, it does I can go to other school libraries but I don't think I can access their labs and and also I don't know if the engineering labs have like hammer that kind of thing you know


, what do you think engineering people do, oh my lord, uh fuck this I get table from him ya


ya but I'm building a table for Rohan remember, but my I don't know where is my dad keeps his toolbox and then it's damn Sassified (ppb) <tamil>நீ என்ன சொல்லிறவா அம்மாட்ட:nee enna sollirava ammatta</tamil> seriously I'm thinking man


okay let me cousin, okay can you hear me, okay ya let's go ah, you deputy procedure now


oh ya continue,


(uh huh), ya,


!wow! ya, but it's, (uh huh)


ah, !wow!


!wow!


, alright, right of course hear that ya, what


really I mean how do they even procure them, ya okay I have, I've heard that, do you remember <tamil>நம்ம:namma</tamil> Rafuls <tamil>கு வந்து:ku vanthu</tamil> , there is this lawyer who came and I think J two


it was the don't do drugs talk, no I remember he was a lawyer with lot of tattoos , and like, , pony tail and he was like, before he became a lawyer he went to jail or something


ya his name is, shit I keep forgetting his name every time if I'm not wrong it's, #rusepher stan#, let me, let me double check


oh yes and he's name is #josephus tan# I don't know why I thought of Rusephus, , , popular singapore, criminal defense lawyer popular because, of the way he looks popular because he was from prison in the past


, and he's like, ya but, I, he's not really popular, for like, his lawyering skills lah, you know, he's like a celebrity lawyer that kind of thing, ah , but ya


my my friend went to apply for an internship at his place, and, it's a very small firm and I know he's not doing too well like money wise also, and when he my friends are very very smart, girl and and she's a malay muslim girl also, apply <tamil>பண்ணும் போது:pannum pothu</tamil> he said


look you know you you clearly a very brilliant person, I'm happy to have you, but, yes it is, Shukrinah ya correct, I'm happy to have you but in, mills and like very locker room talk


and , it was truly that like, stepping out, outside the interview room like, it was a lot of like, jokes about sex and, all of that so, should she know is like a bit sugars and, she, like he said I'm not sure if you'll be a right fit here , and


I I guess he's kind of right but also it's disgusting that he runs his firm like that, but anyway , but ya I remember him saying during the, talk, that, like, what at fuels that in <tamil>மாறி:mari</tamil> he he could, procure drugs in like, if you have the money you can procure drugs in singapore


that's crazy but ya, , I think I have been, [orh], like, that's the name of the job


it's a drug, fuel drug, like, Jeez sexual drug, not a, I was thinking like LSD or like, , okay but is it like a,


prescribe, drug or like is it uh like, drug drug that's banned in sinagpore, [orh] !wow!, okay


what the heck who has time for three days


okay I forward, !wow! okay, okay okay, they're famous for having a vibrant student life


that's a reason good ya, me too but like, I don't wannna dishonor too much because <tamil>நா:na</tamil> A level lah <tamil>ஒழுங்கா பண்ணாதனால:olunka pannathanala</tamil> I got teach this I'm kind of grateful australia for being a


backup, but, ya, ya, but I mean it still depends where in australia you go to and how well you perform, and you can be from NUS law but it, I mean I I've seen so many, graduates from, UCL NUS SMU who like you know


have a good GPA but like when like comes to work, they can't produce ya so, it it's it's really not indicative


, oh


I mean if the lump problem or I feel like this is something he willingly participates in and I, don't think you should, excuse his shitty behaviour for this


(mmhmm),


okay, okay , (mmhmm)


(mmhmm), ya, okay, driving ya, yes


oh my god why, okay


, so, what is natural compatibility


oh, , wait that that, doesn't, I'm not sure how that ties in with natural compatibility


(uh huh), okay, uh no I'm kind of relax, my relationship with Safti was holding me back, from, just, like achieving and, and, having time to


spend, on my career or whatever, like already <tamil>அவன பாக்குறதே:avana pakkurathe</tamil> was like, for once uh once in two weeks or like twice a month that sort of thing and he was demanding more of my time, and, like, all we would have been really to give it, but like


you know the third time that we did to those kind of like, no I'm, I I kind of want to focus on my studies and my career now so, this isn't my priority, ya, I mean it was not really supporting you enhance or adding value to my life in anyway


so, I was like, I'm like, you know it's it's, the small small things like, like you know he has this prolific line problem and I don't like that, dude come on all of us know this like Vinesh actually called him as a pathological liar


he lies about everything, everything from the smallest to the biggest things, , okay for example, if, when meeting


, , it's like having and having enough trauma here right , , , , uh , so, eh eh okay, like I give you the smallest examples like


, if we were, supposed to meet someone, he would, like run lead and then that sort of slack scene that , he actually like a fool more like I'm just leaving he'll be like , I'm already at that bus stop where we are supposed to meet or like I'm deleting the bus stop


then I'll be like, why don't you just say you are like, just leaving home and like actually running very late, like I would much rather know that and, you know Vinesh was very , on about punctuality and and being on time so


like, that that was one thing that, kept surfacing , and another thing about how he, keep saying his you know has no problem with Ashey but actually he, has such a huge grudge against Ashey so like, you really detests him


know that's the thing like outwardly in front of Ashey he doesn't say anything he pretends as if they're like, best buds from the diapers, and like, Ashey is like you know Ashey is just very like , yo man is chill as long as there's no like, problem I'm chill that kind of person , but then to me he'll he


always put on a fusion, always bitch about him, and , about how Ashey is opportunistic and conniving and , , ya, and, and this was stemmed from, you know, that , that time when, apparently


Ashey told his mum about , me and him and then his mum called, Shafti mom and like, Shafti having dengue and, give him a hard time at home, from that episode in J one so he still holds a grudge against like, Ashey for, uh, uh, like writing it out to his mother or something like that


dude I haven't heard like, two different versions of the same story, Satif says that, Ashey was just making, fun of him and me like at this point


#shakthi vel# and I won't even eating anything , was just me something after #shakthi vel# big time, , and then, like, Shakthi, like, I've, wanted is, , I think, , Ashey mom was trying to find out where Ashey was or something


and then when, Ashey got home, , like, in order to cover his tracks about him and Afisah, throw off like him and Afisah he said something like, oh ya there's something going on between something and Saftil, and, , Ashey mom


called, Satif mom but like, , oh your son isn't as like, righteous as you think he is or like he's as traumatised as you think he is, something along the side and then like Satif almost like, super


, yes, , I mean yes and no, like, ya like whatever , anyway, , Ashey is saying that she, he didn't say that and his mum, totally fabricated that


and when, he tried, to like stop, her, , or when Ashey tries to, tell Satif about it or when Ashey he tries to stop his mother or something , basically Ashey, mom, phone


Ashey <tamil>ஓட:oda</tamil> phone ah <tamil>எடுத்து:eduthu</tamil> she like, completely threw it, into a corner like it broke, ya and then like Satif was completely kept out of the dark, mom went on a whole suspicious thing and like , kept sinks a few of their relationship and


like they didn't even tend to him even though he was puking and , having fever left right and center and they didn't even take him to the doctor , and one week later Saktil like, immune board, immune system just help him recover , and then they took him to the doctor and then the doctors like ya you had dengue


, Saktil was like, my entire family


, , , sorry ah, I'm sorry and , so that,


, , ya, ya he does but <tamil>வெளியில வந்து சொல்லிக்க மாட்டான்:veliyila vanthu sollikka mattan</tamil> he will be like ya ya she an for all of that nonsense


so I'm always like if you have a problem with Ashey put pieces sort it out like, ya I mean it's JC we all make mistakes big deal, and then you know he turn to me be like you don't lecture me you and Bala the fakest friends I mean like


that's not true, I would, no but, like I'm not fake friends with you and like I don't pretend to be a friend and


do shit behind your back or like, I don't think, I I'm not being a secretary to Ashey too for sure, do you think you remember there was one point when I said some like, don't remember what is something like


Bala I understand where you're coming from or something like that I know it's a big turning point for me, from not really agreeing with your actions or not really, understanding why you do what you did, to like kind of understanding, you better


I I remember I haven't send her a message, or like I talk to you and I remember like telling you like I have lot of respect for you and I, I understand why you doing what you're doing, I think it's after Saktil and I broke up and I understood why you had to go on like your whole whole phase and


, like I think I understood your, feelings probably better, I was like I understand what you mean by emotional cheating and uh and I understand why you needed to see other people to kind of get it out of your system


so like when when the guys were like , just, start shaming you or whatsoever I was like actually, I I kind of share symptom when like I kind of did the same and it's important I think


ya so, there was that,


I think you mentioned it I think you mentioned that, are you saying Dasha Moto


ya you don't in europe, oh okay okay


wait isn't it with Ramley already, ya you told me all that


correct, okay


ya, correct correct


wait, so that <tamil>தான்:than</tamil> but you, wait he's from NUS law, oh I did not know that, fun fact okay,


alright


okay, (uh huh)


when was this again, then was like, june last year right, oh no no no I think the exchange was january this year


okay okay, okay, okay


okay, okay


okay, okay glad you sort of yourself


but, is it in the whole time wasn't he attached to Ramley, okay, okay


okay cause, like you know recently release some big songs some time, I think was like, ya ya, I mean what doesn't involve the shit, ya


so I think <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> release <tamil>ஆனது:anathu</tamil> it was like, august september october some sometime around that, later part of this year right, and , , Muthu story about like story about like him


him and, Muthu and, Ramley having a double date and playing monopoly or something I'm like oh okay, right right you know remember seeing that right, it sound like okay like that


that sounds like, so sounds like from, your pre-exchange time, to, like after that whole like incident with you I guess he got back together and that like together sounds like


it's so strange that like all this happen after exchange


damn he was be so desperate to get late and keep pushing his shit like, no means no dude fuck off


, okay


oh okay like art, the consent and artist, what, no but like displayed through art, okay


oh okay !wow! interesting,


so what are signs of coersion


(mmhmm), (mmhmm)


(mmhmm), !wah! okay


ya but like, uh the second time you kind of me I'm sorry I, I know that, my message sent sudden signals but <tamil>இப்ப வந்து அவன்:ippa vanthu avan</tamil> not feeding it so I'm so sorry blah blah like you made it so exposed and clear but <tamil>அதுக்கப்புறமும்:athukkappuramum</tamil> he gives, pushing and all that


it's it's it's, no , no


no do like it either lah I don't think there's any, part of, your fault, like, it it is just about, as you said consent, and it's as simple as that so, if you both do consent, consenting adults, want to engage in certain thing go ahead


if one person is here I know I made a mistake, and I can make, I don't want to do this tonight, then, she's the other person she's been like oh okay ya you, waste my, wasted my time fuck you, but, like, that, they shouldn't, be it trying to cause you or or


uh cajole you into doing something that you're not up for,


oh absolutely I do, and, okay call me old fashioned but, I do think your horoscope will play a big deal, in your compatibility or sort of like natural baseline compatibility, I have found, a


fairly high tendency that, most of my close friends are either scorpio, or pisces, and, , the, people, who are my close friends were who do not belong to these, , horoscopes right, like, like I find that, a lot of them are like


text book of their horoscope, and I have to like, understand and kind of tolerate that, quirks that kind of irritate me, like that's when after putting, Ashey is a pisces, ya Ashey is a pisces my friends are this is a pisces


my friend Shukrina is a pisces, you are the scorpio, what is scorpio matter all the man are attracted to all scorpios, the only men that amanda was attracted to was pisces was for sure


so, Saktil is an aquarius and he was, textbook aquarius and I'm like, quite, textbook, capricorn I think but I'm also cusp which means , qualities of both so my aquarius side kind of like , played with Saktil like, I like Saktil because he is mysterious and


like I like guys that are mysterious and silent, but after I kind of figured him out over two years I was like eh you're boring like, I can just read you like a book, I actually know what you're thinking so, and you're not adding value to my life in anyway and that's on my capricorn side to over us like


okay you know what try your autism life, dude ya I bet he did some crazy for like twelve dollars ya, twelve twelve is Ramsey birthday what


ya, , I I know enough Rajini


, I know, so I I do believe that like some people are, naturally more


uh compatible, with like a certain set of people than others, but, like under natural compatibility will not carry you through all the way that's you still have to work on it, but, I also believe that like, because I think compatibility got to do with the percentage than ah


so you can still get married to like or have a relationship with the person that you let's say only one percent compatible with, but as long as both of you are willing to meet each other halfway and willing to work around each other then that's fine but it's just that,


through like life, life's like everyday stresses and all of that, you can't, that that patients and that willingness to meet each other halfway kind of wears out, and, after awhile it becomes exhausting, to, change yourself


to, be highly compatible with another person, so that, under that natural compatibility comes into play, but, that natural, having said that I don't think natural compabilities also stagnant , as a person changes as you get to know the other party more


and, and spend more time with them, you also, grew, with them, and, and become more compatible with them


I think that you'll , the real litmus test for your relationship will be one, when you graduate , and after though when he graduates cause that's the real, like point right but my only advice to you would be, don't bear yourself down in the name of relationship like don't say you're not going to take up an opportunity for your relationship


cause, this is the prime time for you to shine, okay


oh ya you are very excited for that, (mmhmm)


oh okay so <tamil>அவன்:avan</tamil> graduate <tamil>பண்ணதுக்கு அப்புறம்:pannathukku appuram</tamil> three years


okay,


(uh huh)


(mmhmm), ya correct


ya, fair enough, ya


ya okay


uh sweet, oh my god I've did not need to like that


(mmhmm),


oh man, , oh okay


, okay


no I , I think brought out the worst in you with all the spying and everything


ya I mean you can't, you can't plan every detail of your life and if anything twenty twentieth times that even if you, plan every detail of life it's up on the matter, so, so take it one step at a time, as for as long as you think this relationship adds value to your life


hold on to it, but the minute you think, your priorities are shifting or you think this relationship, shouldn't take up as much of your time on its two draining too toxic blah blah blah, then you have to re-evaluate and see if it's worth working on, or if it's worth letting go


okay, then just take it one step one day at a time


oh my it sounds way too familiar with an attitude, it sounds way too familiar of an attitude, it's my story


I'm the one ,


, ya be like you Rohan


my brother from another, ,


, , oh no he called you mom


(mmhmm), okay that's weird


he has a psycho sexual mommies for this, it's like boyd from brooklyn ,


okay I think that's okay, like on an everyday night or like or like once in awhile he goes back


okay please don't phrase it like that but ya


I think it's a very indian mom thing ya whatever,


, , (mmhmm)


send me a reaction video, !wow! , so much for sending a message


ya so that's what it is


and we are talking about, Rohan, ya,


no way, okay, , alright


ya, same, ya, I mean ya okay I've just learnt to let go the lost of control like


then I have to lose going for counselling right so, when we were like talk, ya so <tamil>அதுல வந்து:athula vanthu</tamil> one of the things that <tamil>இங்க:inga</tamil> share <tamil>பண்ணது வந்து:pannathu vanthu</tamil> , ah should call it the drama circle, so <tamil>அதுல வந்து:athula vanthu</tamil> I realise that I have this tendency with my friends called the rescuer mentality


so I'd like to think that my friends are making poor choices in lives and I like to rescue them, by making them rise up to my level, or like rise up, to, uh acceptable level or whatever, and I realized that I


try to exhibit a lot of that Ashey, for like, two pronged reasons because, , at if I remember correctly it stems from like, my innate need for validation, one is validation from,


Ashey that like I'm, being a good, black friend and I'm steering him the right path and the second is external validation from society that like, won't that you know like if I if I managed to steer Ashey , in the correct path of driven him from making self destructive mistakes <tamil>அப்புறம் வந்து:appuram vanthu</tamil> society


can't look at me and be like <tamil>நீ:nee</tamil> friend <tamil>டு தான நீ வந்து:tu thana nee vanthu</tamil> advise <tamil>பண்ணி இருக்கனும்:panni irukkanum</tamil> ,


that kind of put me into rescuer mode now it's like god save Ashey , and by that it kind of victimises him and then like, I talk to my cousellor about Aktil and we realise that


he you know the like he very very , strongly convert <tamil>பண்ணி அவன கல்யாணம் பண்ணிக்க போற:panni avana kalyanam pannikka pora</tamil> plan lah <tamil>இருந்து:irunthu</tamil> he's very


it it might just work out well like it's not like he's not doomed for failure or anything


if they are happy good for them and, there is only an extend of locust control I can exercise over another person right, so ya


correct but at the end of the day, it is his choice and who knows like <tamil>இப்ப நா:ippa na</tamil> advice <tamil>பண்ணாலே:pannale</tamil> when all, be the best for him


like I'm putting my, my perception of what is best in life on him right, for all you know he converts my risk, hello can you hear me


hello okay, no no my head my wifi, hello, hick, ya so we're talking about, so what I think is best may not actually


ya like, it is my perception of what is best in life, need not be correct for all you know he could, marry her the family could be happy you could be hugely successful in life


you never know it right so, I mean you never know, like, like they they are not, we are not the same people we are in the past in life, like


, , are you dying , mean


horror film like producer or something, like the demon coming after you


oh ya it is witching hour, , !huh!, then, but it's facts


(uh huh)


it really depends on what her perception of having a relationship now is, at this age


!wow! oh actually you know what I'm not surprised like knowing your mom I'm really not surprised


!wow! !hey! what are your thoughts


(uh huh), okay


!wow! okay, , I don't think I'm looking to settle anytime soon like I feel like now only my life and career starting out, and


so I probably look to settle when I'm twenty six, and maybe twenty seven twenty slowly get married you know well I don't like when they're gonna they're gonna get mad married at twenty nine so it's chill but yeah I know I know the whole biological clock thing and how like


we I told you under the stand called knowledge of Siam, ya #kue lupis# in order to demand a pretty Mian


could say you could look at it, oh dude okay updates of that also but okay go on, I think I just thing is uh various we'd guide but like I I am terrible at are playing him do like he's so weird he like messages me good morning leh every single day and he'll be like how is your day and


(uh huh), this is right, after we, correct, he whose, look <tamil>நா:na</tamil> bumble download <tamil>பண்ணதுக்கு:pannathukku</tamil> it was like before besides, , and it was terrible timing


and then he would message message message, and I would, like reply few hours later , I'm like previously apologize I'm so sorry Praveen like, I would like in the middle of two competitions that millions of pressure are like so many things you know how like, busy semester can get right


so I I'll apologize and like, and then at one point I was like, okay dude, I mean we we to talk from time to time when I'm a bit more free but it's mostly like , law stuff I'll just ask him by how practice is and like tell him what more I'm doing , it's all very like professional and I realize that we have another friend in common also


it was like another close friend of mine, her name's Didya she she , was, in uni with him, and she was like, my, my mentor during internship became friends


ya so like we were just talking and then , at one point I was like, okay look prof I'm not sure where you stand but like I just wanna let you know that I'm not looking to date anyone, I download bumble just because I'm curious so I'm, I I think we'll be great friends but I don't think I wanted take it further than that


and then he say ya ya no problem like I'm not looking to date anyone any time soon and things so ya, oh ya okay, so I was like ya okay then I'll get you later but then after awhile he'll just keep on messaging me and uh I mean I also haven't meet following them I should probably like hit him up tomorrow morning or something


be like, like when I told him I feel so guilty that I don't like cause, see usually he'll message me at like eight o'clock in the morning like good morning have a great day ahead , and then by the time I reply him won't be like one PM back hi prof thanks, like you too then I was like


and I was like okay prof I feel so guilty when you do that because like , , and like, you know this is such a bad time in the middle of semester and it's like such a busy semester also


so I feel so bad that I'm not able to reciprocate the same amount of effort and like thoughtfulness whatever , he is like no need to worry about it he was so nice and I told him like we should totally meet up for lunch or dinner one day , maybe you meet with me or something I should like, take him up on that now


(mmhmm), okay, ya lah okay when is his birthday is he like a pisces or a scorpio anything mentions


oh no the last time you message me was november thirty that he said good morning have a great day ahead, then I said, , june twenty is a what cancer is it, okay let me check


uh I mean the last time he message me was november the, november third good morning have a great day ahead, oh man okay I've been blue ticking quite a bit okay then I said you too and that was the end of it then he never message me


his last seen on telegram is seventh december, twenty twenty, I allowed mine to be seen when we like a reciprocal thing


here, oh, okay