then I was like shit ya I also don't I mean like, that's cause I didn't like to share shit and I was in secondary school so I guess I was introverted in that sense now I don't give a damn so you all will know everything about me


ya same I was just going through something I think, let's not go there please oh my god


ya, it's okay, ya she was she's a really nice girl I'm actually thinking like


to reach out to her see like just catch up, ya, I don't want to catch up with Tash or Targen but I really wanna catch up with Jaya see why what's going on


I don't know and I don't care to do it also she posted something today or yesterday, like, ya like story she posted a story right, then like


like the collage of the same person like somebody and not like the way they hold the camera angle and everything so


is so niche like very niche to the instagram instagram game you know, ya


, okay, ya, then I was just like you thinking !wow! <tamil>மறுபடியும் உக்காந்து கால் மரத்து போது:marupadiyum ukkanthu kaal maruthu pothu</tamil> !aiyo!


(mmhmm), , yes of course, !walao!


ya what else


, (uh huh)


, Laka full ah <tamil>அங்க போய் இது பண்ணி படுத்துருக்காங்கல்ல:anga poi ithu panni paduthurukkangalla</tamil> correct


(uh huh), yes, uh


let me think


cause <tamil>உள்ளாரையே இருந்தா வந்து:ullaraiyae irunthu vanthu</tamil> we'll run out of things to do, at least <tamil>ஒரு:oru</tamil> hour <tamil>ஆவது வந்து:aavathu vanthu</tamil> we go check-in, oh


it is not like a aesthetic or like fun kind of pool right and then there's a lot of people like will be watching us or whatever then nope no thank you, we can go and have like fun


yes (mmhmm), yes


yes that's right, ya, ya <tamil>நா அதுக்கு முந்தன நாள் நல்லா:naa athukku mundhana naal nalla</tamil> rest <tamil>எடுத்து:eduthu</tamil> absolute


right it's because of that, ya, ya ya ya ya ya, I think that's why


on time ya lor, and then we'll also need movies to watch, we'll hook up our laptop someone will bring a laptop or something then we'll hook it up, I'll bring my portable speaker if you wanna have


dance parties ya, yes, nice


(uh huh), , (hmm), whatever, ya


yes, !wah!, yup what else what else do we need to clear


think probably delivery but


ya think delivery, or if we have a fridge there we can just go buy something and keep it inside, ya, okay


uh, , induction stove


and then, ya, photos ah can we just take a few good photos cause we using film camera to take right I feel like we spend so much time taking photos that we don't sit and talk


like like too much energy goes into that, ya, ya then then after that ya it's always the same thing,


(mmhmm), ya, (uh huh)


ya, okay, okay


, !huh!


, ah, !wah! (mmhmm)


ya, I also I I was also gonna wear my like cute PJs it's like not a set but it's cute enough as PJs


(mmhmm), dude they can get one from like cotton on like <tamil>இந்தமாரி:inthamaari</tamil> slinky slinky it's still a bit uncomfortable you know I got this pair of shorts from cotton on it was like ripped jersey material and it's so cute like it's so cute and


PJs <tamil>இல்ல:illa</tamil> there're shorts, ya then the my top is just a singlet like a very flowy tank top that my friend gave me white in colour and it just looks cute when I wear together but it's like a oh, what why why is she wearing this for sleep cum dress I don't know what to say


in ya, it's not too extra but, , ya but if, ya the like I love okay I like having nice pictures of myself yes, but


that's why I like the concept of film cameras cause like


ya, ya cause you ya, I have so many deleted also like


I will just delete a few cause I'm like it's too it's just the same picture repeated three times then I'm like


!wah!, yes we are you can tweak whichever one you want to download, (mmhmm)


ya, , ya, I wanna get a proper film camera also


ya, ya <tamil>பழைய:palaiya</tamil> camera


digital camera


ya so we have that, but I don't I don't I just don't I just hate the concept of disposable anything so I rather save up and get like a proper proper film camera <tamil>நா இப்ப:naa ippa</tamil> daily <tamil>போய்:poi</tamil> photo <tamil>எடுக்கற மாரி மிஞ்சி மிஞ்சி போனா எதாவது பூ நல்லா இருந்துச்சுனா:edukkara maari minji minji ponaa ethavathu poo nallaa irunthuchuna</tamil> I'll just take a picture I'm like a old lady and what the frick <tamil>பூ அழகா இருக்கு:poo alaga irukku</tamil> oh my god photo then I'm like what I also don't know


so stupid ya, ya polaroids are nice


ya, sometimes


ya I also feel like that, , (uh huh)


, ya (uh huh)


floppy disk but you didn't


cause no more floppy disk oh my god, , ya ya ya ya


, ages, !wah!


Ai <tamil>எனக்கு:enakku</tamil> <tamil>நெனச்சாலும் தொட முடியாது:nenachalum thoda mudiyathu</tamil> floppy disk oh my god


it's fine like how much it has developed right but I feel like we didn't have time to adapt to it in a healthy way, ya that's the issue it's not the problem with technological advancements it's that we weren't given a long enough time frame to adapt to it in a healthy way


(ppc)


(uh huh), ya, not sure


cause you keep holding your phone like that, (uh huh)


I never hold my phone like that I realise cause my my fingers are too small so I have to have all of my fingers engaged to hold it, and I, ya


ya my pinkie starts hurting if I rest it there so I just hold it like that and I use it and I use only use my thumb to swipe, (mmhmm) yup yes it is


how we're evolving, !wah!, ya, it's not ethical they they're rushing too fast


and it really is honestly it is


(mmhmm), I I think I know who I I think it's okay a few cultures do it together at the same time


they will have like okay thirty thousand or three thousand barley grains on the but it's


it's like still so big you know because it's a soft metal it can be easily melded and at that time it literally meant currency


okay <tamil>அதுனா அத வெச்சு:athuna atha vechu</tamil> trade <tamil>பண்ண:panna</tamil> for the ease of rate because <tamil>எப்ப பாத்தாலும் வந்து:eppa paathalum vanthu</tamil> commodity to commodity trade <tamil>பண்ண முடியாது இல்ல ஒரு ஆடு வாங்கனுனா அதுக்கு எந்த மாரி எப்படி எப்படி வந்து அதுக்கு இதுதா:panna mudiyathu illa oru aadu vaanganunaa athukku entha mari eppadi eppadi vanthu athukku ithuthaa</tamil> equivalent <tamil>நீ இது பண்ணுவ:nee ithu pannuva</tamil> so <tamil>அதுனால அது ஆரம்பிச்சுச்சு:athunaala athu aarambichuchu</tamil> it's a common myth


myth created by men humankind, ya very similar to religion a common myth so that people can be banded under a common ideology to ya


no it's that I mean like it's like a proven thing ya you know, ya


ya dude it's just like the for things you don't understand they just started dreaming up and like making up new reasons for it you know and I'm


ah the last symbol, da vinci code <tamil>படிச்சுருக்கேன்:padichurukkaen</tamil> before da vinci code was angels and demons and then da vinci code, angels ya I've read it


, ya it was it was very interesting and I remember when I was to the I I was so into dan brown at that time angels and demons da vinci code <tamil>படிச்சு முடிச்சிட்டு:padichu mudichuttu</tamil> the last book the last symbol right I was I was expecting the plot twist to come to the point where I actually solved it before he actually really revealed it


digital fortress ya


so like they were setting it up right so much that I was like <tamil>இது தான் நடக்க போது:ithu thaan nadakka pothu</tamil> I was like then halfway through the he threw in a he threw in like a


then when the plot point finally revealed right I was like, you know what, I'm <tamil>என் மூள:en moola</tamil> is is is not is not for this yes that's right


oh my god dude, uh I don't know I didn't thought they could make another more painful movie compared to <tamil>எந்திரன்:enthiran</tamil> and Shankar came up with two point O


dude two point O


(mmhmm), , ya


I think I even when it came out I didn't watch it I think, ya my family never did so I never watched it and <tamil>இதுல போடும் போது:ithula podum pothu</tamil> like TV lah <tamil>போடும் போது:podum pothu</tamil> or something I remember like I was so uninterested cause I was like eh you know I just I just didn't like at that time I think


ya he could act back then, but even then it's so there is I just don't like him at all like as a person also no like I don't think I don't think


I don't have to like him you know it's just ya I just don't think he's err I dont think he's worth all that, ya, a moniker


(uh huh), ya


ya I don't know


ya, ya I remember I think I got put off of tamil cinema


indian cinema in general like, it's just the, I mean not to say that it's not prevalent in other film industries you know, like there is a sort of like hollywood lah <tamil>கூட:kooda</tamil> there is a perverse nature like a celebrity <tamil>என்ன பண்றாங்க பாக்குறது:enna panraanga paakurathu</tamil> everything but then


they observe it they stan people they observe them whatever but it never err, takes it into the realm of err like they don't treat the actors like a god or a deity


haters gonna hate man what the hell


ya, , (mmhmm)


(mmhmm)


girl oh my god, , ya what the hell


uh (uh huh)


!haiyo! <tamil>கடவுளே:kadavulae</tamil> , ya


ya, I guess it's a mystery for the ages


(hmm), , <tamil>நம்ம ஆளுங்களுக்கு:namma aalungalukku</tamil> they have like a mechanism where, larger than life people <tamil>எல்லா வந்து அவங்களோட:ella vanthu avangaloda</tamil> role model <tamil>எல்லாம் எடுத்துக்கறது:ellam eduthukkarathu</tamil> and some people just go one step further and make them their god you know


very unhealthy but I can't really deny the fact that that's happening in many other places also like, you know it's just it's just ,


I think <tamil>அது என்னேனு தெரியில:athu ennaenu theriyila</tamil> it's not education education can't be the, ya and <tamil>தெரியில:theriyila</tamil> don't know what compels people into that maybe it's like oh <tamil>ஒருத்தர புடுச்சா வந்து அது வந்து:oruthara pudicha vanthu athu vanthu</tamil> it's like a community you know


<tamil>அட நமக்குள்ள:ada namakulla</tamil> two hour listening I just dude I just helped my father trim his hair cause he's quite adamant he was like in the <tamil>இப்பவே வெட்டிவிடு:ippavae vettividu</tamil> and I have no idea what I was doing cause I've never cut anybody's hair I was just randomly chopping off bits <tamil>நல்லவேல:nallavela</tamil> he has curly hair no ya I've <tamil>ரொம்ப மெதுவா:romba medhuva</tamil> it's just really like trimming like less than a cut or what then he said <tamil>நாந்தா வெட்டு:naanthaa vettu</tamil> cause he has curly hair right so likes side <tamil>எல்லாம் இப்டி வந்துரும்:ellam ipdi vanthurum</tamil> it'll just stick out like I have the same problem with my baby hair then he says like <tamil>வெட்டிவிடு:vettividu</tamil> then I was like I'm not professional I don't want to mess it up so in the end he asked me to chop off a lot lah which I did but he didn't have to he has like really nice hair he's like sixty almost sixty and he has nice hair to style it nicely so it doesn't stick out


oh well it's ,


again, actually ya I'm also having okay my mom made <tamil>மீன் கொழம்பு:meen kolambu</tamil> your house I had that for lunch and I'm having it for dinner too


true, eh it , (mmhmm)


ah ya


oh wait dude I think I get it I also get some like around my nose and then yesterday I one of this <tamil>அதுனால தா எனக்குல:athunaala tha enakkula</tamil> mark ah <tamil>இருக்கு:irukku</tamil> this one came randomly like last week and then this one came the day I dressed up <tamil>அன்னைக்கு சேல கட்னெல்ல:annaikku sela katnella</tamil> to go to #kayal#'s house I got it on that day after I left the house and I'm just like seriously


oh well,


yes, ah


it just feels congested but like only on one side and then like it's it's not runny yet but maybe a bit I dunno how and at night <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> dry <tamil>ஆயிடுது:aayiduthu</tamil> then it hurts


it's been around there for a week maybe but then today I was sneezing a lot like shortly after we talked but now I'm back to normal I stop sneezing, I don't know, (ugh)


!wow! interesting I've never heard that <tamil>வே வேகு புடுச்சு:ve vegu puduchu</tamil> uh <tamil>எங்க வீட்டுல ஆவி புடுச்சுனு சொல்லுவாங்க:enga veetula aavi pudichunu solluvaanga</tamil> I used to find that very fascinating when I was young <tamil>ஆவி புடிக்கிறோமா பேய் புடிக்கிறோமா:aavi pudikkiroma pei pudikkiroma</tamil> ya ah what a dumb kid I was


ya , dude it felt so good, but if you do it before showering


, ah,


, I don't know I cannot and I like really <tamil>எனக்கு வெளிய போய்ட்டு வந்தாலே ஒடனே குளுச்சிறனு:enakku veliya poittu vanthaalae odanae kuluchiranu</tamil> I'm a bit I don't know am I mildly germophobic I don't know like really <tamil>வெளிய போயிட்டு வந்தா நா எங்கயும் உக்கார மாட்டேன் எதையும் தொட மாட்டேன் ஓடி போய் குளிச்சுருவேன்:veliya poittu vantha naa engayum ukkaara maataen ethaiyum thoda mattaen odi poi kulichuruven</tamil> like not not because of COVID like


even even before that, ya and like I hate it when other people like <tamil>அம்மா அப்பா:amma appa</tamil> and sit on my bed before showering or like after they come from outside <tamil>நா என் அண்ணனெல்லா அடிச்சு வேரட்டுவேன் போ போய் குளி:naa en annanellaa adichu verattuven po poi kuli</tamil> they don't sit on my bed I'd be like


interesting mm, oh ,


(uh huh), , , , (uh huh)


, I do that too I like okay maybe I don't wipe it down like okay night <tamil>தூங்க போறதுக்கு முன்னாடி:thoonga porathukku munnadi</tamil> I'll go wash my feet and then like I wipe it before I get onto it lah but normally if I'm sitting down and I'm going to put my feet up I will check my feet to see if there is any article on it


and then if there is like I try to rub it off like <tamil>கால வெச்சு:kaala vechu</tamil> unless I really can't get it off then I'll wipe it off new info right


at night, okay lah, I'm not that far gone yet


, (uh huh),


ah, ya, depends if let's say like I'm sweaty <tamil>நா போய் எதாச்சும் பண்ணிட்டு இருந்தேன்:naa poi ethachum pannittu irunthen</tamil> l'll helping my mum or what if like <tamil>எனக்கு வேர்த்துச்சுனா:enakku verthuchunaa</tamil> then I won't go sit on my bed again


ya I don't know it's weird because you sweat when you sleep, but it's just I cannot bring myself to go sit there, and then ya even in like UK lah <tamil>வந்து:vanthu</tamil> err sometimes I'll have like a lecture then after <tamil>ஒரு ரெண்டு மூணு மணி நேரம்:oru rendu moonu mani neram</tamil> I'll have like a seminar so when I used to live close to uni I'll come back and then I'll go <tamil>சமச்சு வெச்சுட்டு போவேன்:samachu vechuttu povaen</tamil> when I come back I won't sit on my bed <tamil>பின்ன எனக்கு அப்டி தூக்கம் சொக்கும் எங்க அம்மாட்ட சொன்னா போய் தூங்கு அப்டினு வாங்க:pinna enakku apdi thookam sokkum enga ammaatta sonnaa poi thoongu apdinu vaanga</tamil> then I'm like no I just came from outside <tamil>என்னால உக்கார முடியாது:ennaala ukkaara mudiyathu</tamil> ya


ya, I cannot, and I like really really really cannot let's say


if let's say like I don't know like <tamil>எனக்கு:enakku</tamil> like <tamil>எங்கயாச்சு போய் நா சாஞ்சு உக்காந்துட்டேனா:engyachum poi naa saanju ukkaanthuttaenaa</tamil> like if my hair's like touching something also then I'll go like <tamil>தல குளிப்பேன்:thala kulippaen</tamil> I'm a little weird like that


ya my brother hates it, I guess he's the total opposite he's basically <tamil>பன்னிக்குட்டி:pannikkutti</tamil> in a human body so


and then we once fought because of this cause he was gonna pierce my ear, because we have that piercing gun right so he he's the one who pierced the second and third one eh third and fourth one so when he was getting ready to do it <tamil>நா போய் உக்காந்தேன்:naa poi ukkaanthaen</tamil> then then he like took out the gun and was ready lah then I said go wash your hands before you do anything before you touch the stud on my ear and stuff like that


then he said my hands are clean then I said you're just doing whatever you <tamil>என்னமோ பண்டிருந்த போய் கழிவிட்டு வா:ennamo pantiruntha poi kalivittu va</tamil> like what's the harm just go wash your hands lah you'll feel better he said my hands are clean and then he and then we just ended up fighting cos I don't know lah he says


he says <tamil>வாயில வருது:vaayila varuthu</tamil> this he says like that then ya, yes and then


but yes he hates it the most my mom's understanding, if I ask him to do something also he'll get a bit annoyed, like <tamil>எப்ப பாத்தாலும் ஏன் இப்டி:eppa paathalum yaen ipdi</tamil> rules <tamil>பேசிட்டு இருக்க:pesittu irukka</tamil> and I'm like it's not rules, it's just me trying to be hygienic but I guess I can be a bit too much lah


, oh


oh, it's that err !aiyo! <tamil>கலா சலா:kalaa salaa</tamil> and then because we <tamil>நடுவுல:naduvula</tamil> Mallika <tamil>என்னமோ வரும்:ennamo varum</tamil> like it's like my dear darling <tamil>உன்ன:unna</tamil> Mallika <tamil>கூப்புடுறா:koopuduraa</tamil> and then there's that Mallika I love you that Ajith one cause my <tamil>சித்திஸ்:chithis</tamil> name is Mallika


hats out Miya (mmhmm), ,


I know, ai


(uh huh)


oh, oh my god where is this place


okay I I think seventeenth is the day all of us are going to be done <tamil>நம்ம போலாம்:namma polam</tamil> ah


okay never mind anyways just two weeks <tamil>ரெண்டு வாரத்துல:rendu vaarathula</tamil> and everyone will be done so I can't wait yes


oh my god I also want to man <tamil>கடைசியா கடைசியா சரக்கு அடுச்சது:kadaisiyaa kadaisiyaa saraku aduchathu</tamil> was august I think eh no we did it in august right, then I did it with Shu and lina the week after so it was that that period


I mean, september first week lah <tamil>வந்தாங்க:vanthaanga</tamil> correct I really miss my independence my freedom and <tamil>எங்க அம்மா என்ன:enga amma enna</tamil> over ah <tamil>கேள்வி கேக்குறாங்க:kelvi kaekkuraanga</tamil>


have you like reached your saturation point, , (uh huh)


, wait so normally you don't drink after normally you don't drink water after drinking is it


dude but it really depends you know like sometimes some some alcohol just hits you out of nowhere then you're like !aiyo! <tamil>எங்கிருந்து வந்துச்சு இது:engirunthu vanthuchu ithu</tamil> , oh my, ya


it's it's okay I've I've I've been there sadly , no no no not not if to the point where my friends were like ambulance <tamil>கூப்ட்டுருவோமா:kooptturuvomaa</tamil> cause there's one time I got like it was the same like like I drunk a lot then


I think I started saying I couldn't breathe but actually I think I could breathe I was just taking really deep breathes but then I said I couldn't breathe <tamil>எனக்கு ஞாபகம் இருக்கு:enakku nabagam irukku</tamil> I was like crawling on the floor doing some shit, so I think they contemplated then they were like you know what never mind lah she's she's just like really drunk lah you just get her home and I was like okay


ah it's like one of the worst nights of my life and I still was like !wow!


(ppc) you know you know the other time the time when I drunk on my parents


would that ugly ass wound on my nose ,


, ya,


ah, actually they said, ya ya ya true true


, true, I and my mom asked me the other day uh you some conversation <tamil>இரு ஒரு நிமிசம் ஞாபக படுத்திகிரேன்:iru oru nimisam naabaga paduthikkiraen</tamil> uh I think my dad was drinking beer then my mum was like


meh I'm honestly like at this point if they don't know that I drink I I don't know what to say lah hopeless I like even your mom like don't you think she should know


actually I mean that one time I got away easily saying oh <tamil>அன்னைக்கு தா முத முத குடுச்சேன்:annaikku tha mudha mudha kuduchen</tamil> force <tamil>பண்ணிட்டாங்க:pannittaanga</tamil> and all that


!oof! I remember, (ppc) oh well,


I can hear your mum


, , I know


like don't get on your phone don't talk to anybody and then he was like okay <tamil>அப்ப தா வந்து நம்ம பேசமோது:appa thaa vanthu namma pesamothu</tamil> he was taking a nap so I was like okay phew


ya like he's the worst like <tamil>வீட்டுல எங்க நின்டாலும் எங்க அப்பா பேசுறது தெளிவா கேக்கும்:veetula enga nindaalum enga appaa pesurathu thelivaa kaekkum</tamil> that that's how loud he is <tamil>சின்ன வயசுல எல்லாம் தூங்கிட்டு இருக்கும் போது திடீர்னு யாரோ கத்துற மாரி இருக்கும்:chinna vayasula ellam thoongittu irukkum pothu thideernu yaaro kathura maari irukkum</tamil> and then you'll wake up and it's like oh nobody it's just my father on the phone and I'll go back to sleep


sad, phew,


, oh you were that kid, I have the opposite of that problem I'm too soft that people can't hear me it's like to me I'll be speaking very loud like and <tamil>எனக்கு:enakku</tamil> like <tamil>கத்துற மாரி இருக்கும்:kathura maari irukkum</tamil> but they'll be like !huh! !huh! sorry speak louder then I'm like !aiyo! <tamil>வரல:varala</tamil> ya so it happens even now sometimes


but I don't know lah, I think I think I got better after going to uni somehow if that makes sense, ya I think like I'm I'm more open to talking to people now also compared to like before I feel like it'll be I used to be quite anti social <tamil>இப்பயும் அப்படி தான்:ippayum appadi thaan</tamil> I just slightly better


meaningless stuff, (uh huh)


(mmhmm), I was having lunch on err friday friday <tamil>ஆமா:aamaa</tamil> office lah <tamil>உக்காந்து சாப்டிட்டு இருந்தேன்:ukkanthu saaptittu irunthaen</tamil> and then, everybody went for lunch at one lah <tamil>மொத்தமா ஒரு பத்து பதினஞ்சு பேருதான் இருந்தாங்க:mothamaa oru patthu pathinanju paeruthaan irunthaanga</tamil> or like even less than that I think maybe like ten people so they all went to lunch together like in their own little groups at one o'clock but I wanted to finish what I was doing


so <tamil>நா ரெண்டு மணிக்கு போனேன்:naa rendu manikku poraen</tamil> I brought food with me, so I just heated it in the microwave and I was sitting in that eating area doing my work <tamil>வெச்சு சாப்டுட்டு நா பாட்டுக்கு:vechu saaptuttu naa paatukku</tamil> netflix <tamil>பாத்துட்டு இருந்தேன்:pathuttu irunthaen</tamil> and then this guy came lah uh he's like slightly older he's from india, north indian and then err


I think he just pitied me cause was like <tamil>புது:puthu</tamil> like err new girl she's just sitting alone okay never mind then he just came and I think he said like isn't it a bit too late to have your lunch at the mall like it's it's, this is awkward lah then I took off my earphones and was just like ya so I was just trying finish my work or whatever then he's like how's it going and then <tamil>அப்ப நா கொழம்பிட்டேன்:appa naa kolambittaen</tamil> I was like how's what going oh <tamil>என் வேலையா:en velaiyaa</tamil> then I was like oh wait ah ya it's fine but it was like very shocking then he like sipped his coffee and he's like okay and he just like walked away ya I was just like oh shit I also felt bad like okay I could've asked something more


ya , (hmm)


, ah , I dunno in like in my office right they generally like older people like they're mother


but ya lah that the one time I try to contribute to a conversation I got ignored and I was like okay I've never talking to this office ever again , , on on like wednesday I think err <tamil>மழ பேஞ்சுட்டு இருந்ச்சு:mala penjittu irunchu</tamil> so usually I go to outram park then I like err


go to #tanjong pagar# from there like err interchange and then I'll go but then <tamil>அன்னைக்கு மழ பேஞ்சுட்டு இருந்ச்சு:annaikku mala penjittu irunchu</tamil> and I have a friend who works nearby she also just started working this week <tamil>அந்த நாய் சொல்லுச்சு:antha naai solluchu</tamil> it's raining, she said it's raining quite heavy now <tamil>நா வரும்போது மழ ரொம்ப:naa varumpothu mala romba</tamil> heavy ah <tamil>இருந்ச்சு:irunchu</tamil> is getting heavier


so I googled and it said there's a bus from outram park so <tamil>நா இறங்கிட்டேன்:naa irangittaen</tamil> outram park lah instead of going that one stop and walking to my office lah I got off at outram park cause there's a bus service from there


so I was just I walk around for like a good twenty minutes going up and down every damn escalator trying to find it and I reached my office like five minutes late or something lah I went back into the station and I took the train to #tanjong pagar# which I could have just done like twenty minutes ago


so <tamil>ஒரு வழியா வந்து சேந்துட்டேன் எனக்கப்பறம் பத்து நிமிசம் கழிச்சு ஒருத்தன் வந்தான்:oru valiyaa vanthu senthuttaen enakkapparam patthu nimisam kalichu oruthan vanthan</tamil> from the finance team that's the first time I'm seeing him err then he was just talking to like everybody in general lah the he said oh this is the new intern introduce <tamil>பண்ணி வெச்சான்:panni vechan</tamil> then I said hello <tamil>அவருதான்:avaruthaan</tamil> then he was talking and he did the exact same thing he was coming he got off at outram park he went all around


and he went back into the station so all I did say was oh ya I did the same thing I was walking around around he didn't even acknowledge me he was just talking over me like not even looking at me and I was just like okay you <tamil>இதுக்கு மேல நா பேசுறதாயில்ல:ithukku mela naa pesurathuyilla</tamil> then I just started doing my work


yes I don't think he did it I don't know lah I was just like okay fine was just like so sad for like a few minutes and then I just started doing my work , but ya (ppc)


I used to be an INTP we did it in err


ya and then, it doesn't change much lah <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> online <tamil>இதெல்லாம் பண்ணம்போது:ithellam pannam pothu</tamil> like it usually is just one alphabet that changes but I can't remember which one I think I was an INFP


ya , (mmhmm), , I would've


I still remember the first time I met you I love it, I dude but (ppc) I'm just grateful to Jaya for introducing me to you as you were so nice to me on the first day man


I don't know but Jaya was really nice that that usually nice of her lah to come talk to me you know that


(mmhmm), ya, and do it , is is is she still with that with that guy Arvin was it I don't know his name


oh, go see, oh,


, (hmm)


I'll tell you but I've got a pretty, interesting slash shocking story, (ppc)


fragile handle with care , you should stick it all over your room as a reminder a gentle reminder to you


, , , , I know accurate


yes, I don't know, , we're you're twenty one and I'm twenty two we're too young for this post


and I like I I feel like it's been really long time since like I had a good night's sleep like a while I don't feel well rested when I wake up I don't know why


(hmm) (hmm) ,


are we are we still going to the pool, , oh ya


, ya,


no no no we started late cause as you had your meeting, we came back around eight nine but <tamil>நீ நா போய் குளுச்சோன:nee நா poi kuluchona</tamil> you went to shower then I was setting up and all that


we started late you're right you're right, ,


yes, (hmm) okay


(mmhmm)


ya as long she doesn't call me in between


, I will make sure they stay up the previous night, (ppc) I'll play some movie for them and I'll <tamil>நா போய் தூங்கிறேன்:naa poi thoongiraen</tamil>


your house , !wah!, (ppc)


night <tamil>நம்ம சாப்பாடு வாங்கி வெக்கனும்:namma saapadu vaangi vekkanum</tamil> we're probably going to deliver food or what are we doing


I think at most we might have a mini bar fridge lah, I'm not sure will check the website err see like <tamil>இப்ப நம்ம:ippa namma</tamil> loft book <tamil>பண்ணியிருந்தோனா:panniyirunthonaa</tamil> there's usually like a mini kitchen space


!aiyo! ya ya ya induction stove and there was microwave and all that


but I don't think this space will have a that, oh we need to set aside time for photos too


ya, true, photo taking <tamil>அதுக்கப்றம் நமக்கு கொஞ்ச:athukaaparam namakku konja</tamil> tired <tamil>ஆயிருவோம் அது உக்காறதுகுள்ள:aayiruvom athu ukkarathu kulla</tamil> then time <tamil>போயிடுது:poyiduthu</tamil>


true <tamil>அதுனால தான்:athunaala thaan</tamil> I suggested to Divya the other day you know like when I was looking for dresses I came across this cute pj set it's like the PJs like shorts and like a like a stripy one then I said how about we just buy this and we'll just lounge around and then we'll just chill and then I don't know she didn't agree she wanted to dress up but I still feel like


ya, I dunno maybe if we both press on for that idea (ppc) we can peer pressure her into agreeing, it was a cute set <tamil>இரு நா:iru naa</tamil> photo <tamil>இருந்தா காட்டுறேன்:irunthaa kaaturaen</tamil> I mean that's also we're stil technically dressing up we're just not wearing a dress


you said telegram not working right until this Anjali <tamil>சொன்னதுக்கு:sonnathukku</tamil> you agreed right


oh, ah, but ya


I don't have a PJ set lah but I don't mind buying a PJ set at least I'll wear that, (mmhmm)


(mmhmm) PJs shorts ah okay okay, ,


[orh], , we'll see we'll see


ya , ya actually ya dude I prefer like back then


you're right we do spend a lot of time which is the <tamil>எங்க போனாலும் எதுக் போனாலும்:enga ponaalum ethuk ponaalum</tamil> like you should like it's not fun to look through your gallery anymore cause there's always a shit load of pictures


, but I like that about telegram though that it doesn't auto download onto your phone and you just get to pick


ya I I like the old old school idea of like having physical photo albums I'll totally do that in the future instead of having this I will definitely like print out and stuff I don't know I feel like there was more fun like how we sit and look at our childhood albums now


which I don't have a lot, like <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> wait you mean like a film camera and then you just want to keep buying refill is it, like the reuse like <tamil>அந்த பழைய:antha palaiya</tamil> camera lah basically actually I've a digital camera but my should I bring my digital camera will be like a very two thousand and ten thing err


like the normal camera which had that little screen at the back ya, but bunk battery <tamil>கண்டுபிடிக்கணும்:kandupidikkanum</tamil> is missing,


, !aiyo! err, I want a polaroid I've been wanting it since secondary school


I there're very cute I like that polaroid idea, I think I just don't want technology to develop anymore like can technology just stop advancing


like at least my brother got to live through like half of that, like I still remember when he was in primary school I was also I was in kindergarten or like I was also in primary school and he was also in primary school I don't know he had a floppy disk for the school project and I was so fascinated by that floppy disk <tamil>எனக்கும் வேணு அப்டினு அடம் புடிச்சேன்:enakkum vaenu apdinu adam puduchen</tamil> I never got one lah cause it's like <tamil>உனக்கு என்ன:unakku enna</tamil> dash floppy disk <tamil>அந்த கேள்வி வந்துச்சு:antha kelvi vanthuchu</tamil> and then he said is for his science project or something like that so I literally waited until we were like primary three cause <tamil>அப்பதான:appathaana</tamil> science <tamil>வரும்:varum</tamil> so like I waited until that just so I can start working on that project and have that floppy disc in my hand yes


I didn't cause by then USB was the thing, I never got to use a floppy disk in my entire life you know the <tamil>பழைய:palaiya</tamil> CPU lah <tamil>வந்து அந்த:vanthu antha</tamil> that little slot on floppy disk for a I always used to take like his floppy disk and go into I don't know why I was so fascinated by the floppy disk it's just a floppy disk


I'll go try to <tamil>என் இத எதுக்கு எடுக்குற அப்டினு எங்கயாச்சு கெளம்பி வருவான்:en itha ethukku apdinu engayachu kelambi varuvaan</tamil> so I waited all those years I did my waiting and, you know never happened


sad, , ,


yup , true I mean,


were you the one who's talking saying about the how our brains are like oh no it's Anjali I think how it's adapting to refresh like every five to <tamil>என்னமோ சொல்லிடிருந்தா:ennamo sollitirunthaa</tamil> because err we're watching like those videos that are like ten seconds or something and then like we want new content after that ten seconds


like we're actually like it's like we're evolving to have a little curve over here like in order to see it, like <tamil>இந்த கைல பெருசா தெரில:intha kaila perusa therila</tamil> but <tamil>இந்த கைல:intha kaila</tamil> it's quite obvious lah so they were saying <tamil>இன்னொரு:innoru</tamil> like <tamil>கொஞ்ச நாள்ல:konja naalla</tamil> let humans will be born that way


(ppc) how do you hold it, (ppc) I


I think my pinky used to hurt last time like when I first got my phone but <tamil>இப்ப பழகிருச்சு:ippa palagiruchu</tamil> but isn't it quite cool though


, ya, but you're right it's it's too fast and we before we can adapt to whatever current thing there is <tamil>அடுத்த புதுசா ஒன்னு வருது:adutha puthusa onnu varuthu</tamil> and then we'll we just move on to that


it's all about the money, it's very sad you know I always wondered oh I rememb sorry Salah I always wondered lah it's like who invented the concept of money


like there used to be trading and then who decided that okay let's create like physical


ah, ,


(mmhmm), , (uh huh), (uh huh)


[orh],


, !wow!, ,


ya, , oh (ppc) !oof!


actually I agree, it makes sense, religion is man made <tamil>கடவுள் இருக்கா இல்லயா:kadavul irukkaa illayaa</tamil> that's a different conversation lah if there's like a bigger power and all that but religion is definitely man made cause why are there so many religions first of all


have you have you read


okay I think it was angels and demons have you read angels and demons, I was quite interested like <tamil>அதுல உள்ள:athula ulla</tamil> some discussions lah which was quite


, (uh huh), (uh huh),


oh my god really (ppc), no I've read da vinci code angels and demons and the that that digital one digital fortress is it


ah I read that I have I've not read lost symbol, , uh


, (uh huh), (uh huh) (uh huh) ya knew it


oh !wah! <tamil>இதுக்கு பேறுதான்:ithukku peruthaan</tamil> museum <tamil>மூள:moola</tamil> <tamil>உன்ன வருங்காலத்துல உன் மூளைய மட்டும் எடுத்து வெக்கனும்:unna varungaalathula un moolaiya mattum eduthu vekkanum</tamil> you know, actually it's like that <tamil>எந்திரன்:enthiran</tamil> scene <tamil>:வெச்சுட்டு:vechuttu</tamil> his head will just be there in a litle glass thing


Shankar was just like you thought wrong watch me make it worse


dude but when I I liked the <tamil>எந்திரன்:enthiran</tamil> when the <tamil>எந்திரன்:enthiran</tamil> came out cause I was a twelve year old lah so <tamil>அந்த படம் பாக்கும்போது:antha padam paakumpothu</tamil> I was like !wow! robot well obviously like I didn't compare it to hollywood and all I never do that


well I like that movie but like <tamil>ஒரு ரெண்டு மூணு வருசம் கழிச்சி பாக்கும்போது:oru rendu moonu varusam kalichu paakumpothu</tamil> I was just like what was so amazing about this nothing , I did I did my family has a habit of watching every new movie whenever it comes up


(ppc), , I have nothing against him lah except when he like romances like people who're like thirty forty years younger than him then I'm just like !eww! but generally nothing against him


I like his nineties movies like <tamil>முத்து பாஷா:muthu basha</tamil> and all that, but even then he never danced (ugh) ya


, ya


oh no no no not that not that just generally how they treat movie stars and stuff like <tamil>கடவுள மாதிரி பாக்றது:kadavul mathiri paakrathu</tamil> just like you know you all are really doing it overboard you know like <tamil>ஏன் இப்படி:yaen ippadi</tamil> they're just actors like calm down enjoy their work appreciate it nothing wrong with that but like in the Vijay <tamil>படம் வரலன்றதுக்காக போய் தற்கொல பண்றது:padam varalandrathukkaaga poi tharkola panrathu</tamil> or like getting into like physical fights or like even like verbal online fights with like other fandoms and shit like that it gets really bad like I've seen like those conversation like comment thread and all that there's like so much swearing like (ugh) that whole thing seems very toxic


(ppc) ya,


, ya,


(mmhmm) ya the cook bro chill out


ya


!aiya! I don't know lah <tamil>நா வாய தொரந்தலே எங்கம்மா என்ன அத தான் சொல்றாங்க:naa vaaya thoranthalae engamma enna atha than solraanga</tamil> , it's it's just like oh <tamil>உனக்கு ஊர பத்தி புரி:unakku oora patthi puri</tamil> I mean she doesn't support it but I think she just wants me to leave them alone I'm just like <tamil>நா இங்க:naa inga</tamil> singapore lah <tamil>உக்காந்து பேசறதுனால என்ன ஆகபோது:ukkaanthu pesarathunaala enna aagapothu</tamil>


there was this one good okay this was when I was in Kodaikanal uh my like best friend there was a Vijay fan and I'm like I don't know lah <tamil>சின்ன வயசுலிந்தே:chinna vayasulinthae</tamil> is like a Suria fan right then


we we never had like a fight or anything like that it's just , somehow I got involved into a facebook conversation some fight with the friend of hers cause he was like dissing Suria and I got really mad and I was just like how dare you bitch we got into that then like halfway through the fight I was just like what am I doing like why am I spending time fighting with this idiot who I've never even met


err and then like I just like backed out of there and said you're not worth my time then I called my friend and said <tamil>யார் அவன்:yaar avan</tamil> I'm going to block that guy and then I was just like regretting wasting so much time on that it was just a one time incident but like I hated that I actually did that


and to think that people do that like you know like Suria reported trailer or like some either there was like a mini video err of like Suria speaking and like he's he listed, I don't think he'd I think he announced the release date or something like that there were so many negative comments on the site people fighting and like really <tamil>அப்பத்தான் வந்துச்சு:appatthaan vanthuchu</tamil> and these are like live comments going on the site and I was just like you guys are lifeless


it's all the Suria haters like Vijay fans and like fans coming on and like saying nonsense and then Suria fans like <tamil>அதேதா:athaetha</tamil> I the video cause it was on Suria'S instagram or something saying there's going to be a video so <tamil>நா போய் பாத்தேன்:naa poi pathaen</tamil> and then I saw this shit and I was just like


ya he <tamil>உங்களுக்கெல்லாம் வேற வேலயே இல்லையா:ungalukkellam vera velayae illaiyaa</tamil> I see that a lot lah a lot of things that's why I don't understand it, ya


it's like there's a lot of important issues for you to discuss <tamil>இவங்களுக்கு எல்லாம் சண்ட போடுறது விட்டுட்டு:ivangalukku ellam sanda podurathu vittuttu</tamil> why don't you go talk about like actual issues that there's like that farmer issue going on <tamil>பெண்களுக்கு எதிரா நரையா நடந்துகிட்டு இருக்கு:pengallukku ethira naraiyaa nadanthukittu irukku</tamil> generally <tamil>கொரச்சலே இல்ல ஊருல பிரச்சனிக்கு:korachalae illa oorula pirachanikku</tamil> there's so much more that you can channel your energy into


but in the end he just want to get into these meaningless feuds for no reason, , and it's not like a thing that started now <tamil>அப்பலிருந்தே:appalirunthae</tamil> Mgr Sivaji Rajini Kamal why doesn't it come out and all this it just keeps going on and on and on


(ppc) , ,


(ugh) ya, true, ya lah I mean <tamil>இத பத்தி நமக்கு தெரியுது:itha pathi namakku theriyuthu</tamil> because we're like close to it I guess but


(mmhmm) no, ya


eh eh eh K


you need a like can you hear it, ya ya ya it started, okay


ya same then I I also don't know why okay I mean I I had a feeling it's because I slept three hours so I just came back and slept, my head as in it it hurt on the way back so I thought is because I only slept for three hours because I went to play


no, [dey] <tamil>நான் தூங்கல:naan thoongala</tamil> [dah]


why you need to bend down your head will always be still what


I even remember those old people a lot of medical conditions all


brother my toes are gone like it's my toes are gone I I didn't I want to be fun like when you look at the videos right are worse


[dey] I mean it doesn't really matter I'm just worried that <tamil>ரத்தம் கட்டி ஏதும் ஆகிருமோனு பயமா இருக்கு:ratham kati yethum agirumonu bayamaa irukku</tamil> if it drops off it's fine lah


not bad joel is a beast now epic, I as in it'll happen like I don't like upwards for many


not when he went in legacy is assessing after dessert like don't you want to rest like it's time you gonna all you need to put weight


ya actually you got a lot of sympathy points like can you come over to help me pack then I like okay for your health I will treat you dinner right see so


he is devoted to basketball


okay okay, but they won't know who it is what so


study ah


no lah !aiyo! I have no work time to do, apply for internship somewhere lor


[dey] <tamil>அதுக்காக எவனாது அங்க வருவானா:adhukaaga evanaathu anga varuvaanaa</tamil> why why would anybody lives at home no lah is okay lah I will see you on exchange anyway what no need no need, no if if I if I come also then it will be harder to convince my parents to let me come out subsequent weeks


so must ration properly if like overall <tamil>போனவாரம் தான்:ponavaaram thaan</tamil> [dah] <tamil>பார்த்த:paartha</tamil> so, must ration anyway what time when you all meeting next week


lunch what time is your lunch one okay ah <tamil>ஐய:iya</tamil> one lah okay okay


ah see how lah


can you need to watch all the three clips in dude did they like it


which one


dude I like I like the baseline where like we both run towards each other then there's a skill or what that's epic, I can't shoot you know I don't need I shouldn't shoot like honestly everybody else play off ball and like move then I just find you all like the only basketball skill that is deep not even decent but possible at at my current calibre is literally passing I can't even I can't layout at all only can pass


not really it's, I don't think so I think


there's no method, and then I mean okay for me my opinion on defence is that first of all it doesn't really matter even on even beat this level or any level but ya lah eh I don't really bring much to the team also so we need to find different ways lah like I can set screens also I don't mind during their


post player


that's


okay what I mean, I don't know leh like I feel like you make a lot of shots with the head in your face rather than


it's okay can ya I think like improving in terms of playing as a team the like there's one player quite sick like Harish to Divaagar you know something like that was sick that was a perfect is it


I err then my second second memories is the like I just like not doing anything I just go for the rebound is like no the other one that also sick


better shooter never can


but you have time though like he's not like your man is always is closing up but they are not like they are not that tall enough to know that he should have that angle to shoot over is not like Divaagar coming towards you and even if it is Divaagar has the tendency to jump see so you can like fake shot and take like one step to the right or left


but if you are running around screens then you should be open right


it's only eleven minutes I'm damn shag dude, eh what show are you gonna watch


ya my I mean my dad right he bought the just for IBM so he changed the plan to some Netflix subscription thing you know so it's basically like a Amazon stick he's like he also has it in his house but in a setup box format so it came with Netflix and able to ya can can you just take lah eh don't need pay for it it's okay you can just use my account also I don't mind


I don't <tamil>தனியா:thaniyaa</tamil> account okay maybe I won't put your name lah because it's on the TV then my parents see it on TV, so you just use my account leh <tamil>என்:en</tamil> account use <tamil>பண்றா:pandraa</tamil> I don't use it


ya I don't like watching things on Netflix you you <tamil>இது கொஞ்சம்:idhu konjam</tamil> evil I I cannot control speed because I use my iPad right like I I watched things on one point two five speed minimum


dude my YouTube it's slow okay if I watch on YouTube right especially there's a lot of expert not experts a lot of information so it's usually a one point four five one point five speed then if I cannot understand if it's too complicated I just on captions


it is but it's a bit like you see it's a three hour movie now if I'm watching at one point two five one point one eight or whatever it is you can save up to twenty minutes what


you are missing out, who says I don't enjoy, try <tamil>பண்ணு:pannu</tamil> you won't be able to go back to it after that one point two speed level


shit I'm only I ask you what's your view for this semester likely to affect you the whole online thing


I don't even know when the results come out actually when is yours ah, oh shit is damn long I think mine is faster, why my professor


like thirteen or something is when the semester starts for me


and after you tell him you taking classes


how do you not agree with everything


okay okay okay fair enough


I don't think you should also like I think you can make a discern that can make that decision for yourself lah you can descend for yourself


so it's not really a I teach you but this is so <tamil>வேணாம்:venaam</tamil> [dah] <tamil>எனக்கு வேர்க்குது:enakku verkkuthu</tamil> how do you not wear this thing


oh I'm so torn between this right because the sound is very good but it gets warm, okay, do we have to pause


okay


, ya I can hear you


ah, like it's too humid here though


, Kabilan game got elevated you know once he went to london for example, game like clothing dressing sense because it has more things to mix and match


I think it's more expensive because you need to have a heater system and the cooling system and all the taxis in other countries whereas here you know it never really gets that cold so I I suppose it's more practical but in a vehicle I I don't mind the heat it's just the humidity


yes see it's not moving, my screens, got ya analyse


he was on fire he was on fire then Divaagar


no it was same game you he made like three consecutive shots he made a layout he started screaming then he ran another shot then he went like a like a in the wind then he was


I never remember the scores leh I legit don't know how many games I won and lost already, I don't remember as well ah can't remember


what is that what does that say about you, you are the floor raiser not a ceiling raiser


you are a ceiling raiser not the floor raiser, you are the shooting guard


err I have


at one, I don't have anything, [dey] <tamil>அது என்:adhu en</tamil> idea <tamil>வே கிடையாதுடா:vae kidaiyaathudaa</tamil> it wasn't even my idea like I say okay this like


really really calm down don't do it like it was something that Zambi saw interesting then she's like eh this would be nice you do this then I like what okay lah I think I think you work out which I think sort of gain I think like because you putting in manual effort to do it you know


and you had the school environment to do it but people can't really do anything so, eh


what is that [orh]


I know <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> !hey! <tamil>அது இருக்கு:adhu irukku</tamil> actually, ya bought already


err, okay can can it's in a bag ya there they they actually they much cheaper than you think and like they also don't expect much <tamil>இல்ல:illa</tamil> normal like normal from like a


lower child birth


but I ask you last week [dey] <tamil>நான் அப்பவே சொன்னேன்ல இதுலாம் வேலைக்கு ஆகாதுனு:naan appovae sonnaenla idhulaam velaikku agaathunnu</tamil> don't don't don't


ya there are you are all for it you are not for it, are you all for it or not for it, you you


no I no is that screw you no actually you are already sounds like a


ya, did you get the content though


you know actually forty five lah


but ups as in harmonica tuition both have the same hours right


forty forty five for one hour eh not bad


but is there like a general rate in the market or, that is not bad but is quite err lucrative the whole business achieved music side of things


but demand look like a lot of tiger mums and what not right, I mean especially during school


ya one week one week is on the grand scheme of grants


for a website, that seems like a lot


fair enough


ya lah IT side, IT side is always quite lucrative what, or as in what I mean by always any IT side is quite lucrative these days


service sector is quite well certainly


and not as in is like spilling over to next semester as part time also right


okay, I have them five certification, the financial advisory thing already


I can but I don't want to, I didn't have as in I haven't had perfect information lah I will be honest the whole thing was err online internship lah so I like I may or may not have just on the lecture and gone to bed immediately afterwards


like the as in but the certification you have to study for it lah like it's not like it's not like you attend the internship you already get a certification you still have to mug and it's actually beyond mugging <tamil>அதுல ஒரு:adhula oru</tamil> twist <tamil>இருக்கு:irukku</tamil> there's an M five M nine A and H I so just health insurance and a different like err bonds and what not lah


it's interesting


err part of the insurance ah, I mean there's a lot of part time students lah like it's if you have contacts you get it's a sales job at the end of the day and you need to find people to sell it to lah so <tamil>உனக்கு:unakku</tamil> contacts <tamil>இருந்துச்சுன்னா:irunthuchunaa</tamil> if you have a lot of relatives here then sure can be lucrative but


I don't know


also the stability of the income one like one month to increase I rather have more stable


income sort of flow lah, I know it's ah lazier I mean lazy if it's not necessary is very hard for me to push myself to do it like it is over there like like for for exams and things like that if I need to study then I will do it lah but even there I like to push it the last minute


like for example if I have a one week break right then my next test of like even example <tamil>இன்னைக்கு ஒரு நாள்:innaikku oru naal</tamil> relax <tamil>எடுத்துக்கலாம்:eduthukkalaam</tamil> then tomorrow I will slack slack salck then teacher say three chapters I will study two and a half, but I finish it within like then I sleep for like four hours and towards the end I will finish it lah but


so the <tamil>அதுக்கு முந்தின நாள்லாம்:adhukku munthina naal laam</tamil> sleeping at four plus sometimes you know five plus <tamil>வச்சுக்கோயேன்:vachukoyaen</tamil> eligible because my sleep cycle got damn messed up


like during the day like I just slack off <tamil>அப்புறம் பார்த்துக்கலாம் அப்புறம் பார்த்துக்கலாம் சொல்லிட்டு:appuram paarthukalaam appuram paarthukkalaam sollittu</tamil> like four five o'clock then I finished it lah like <tamil>அதுக்கு அப்புறம்:adhukku appuram</tamil> four then I will wake up around I will sleep at four then that day the exam is eight thirty so I was like okay today I will sleep at one


so I was like from three thirty all the way to seven thirty I was awake mathematics exam <tamil>வேற தூக்க கலகத்துல:vera thooka kalakkathula</tamil> one plus three equals to five <tamil>னு எழுதுருவேன்னு எனக்கு அந்த பயம்:nu ezhuthiruvaenu enakku antha bayam</tamil> because it's all online there's no method marks <tamil>நீ:nee</tamil> part A <tamil>தப்பு பண்ணிட்டேன்:thappu pannittaen</tamil> B C D <tamil>எல்லாம் அடிக்கும்:ellaam adikkum</tamil> then I was like !aiyiyo! <tamil>போச்சு:pochu</tamil> so I was quite worried about the mathematics exam


because it's the one finals ah last week ah, well the motivation but ya so that's that's that's enough that's the kind of person I am lah <tamil>மூணரை மணி:moonarai mani</tamil> that's like the first one <tamil>அன்னைக்கு தான் பயம் வந்துச்சு:annaikku thaan bayam vanthuchu</tamil> my parents my parents usually if I make some noise in the kitchen right <tamil>எந்திருச்சுருவாங்க:enthiruchuruvaanga</tamil> they would get up like they are very light sleepers but I have never usually had the problem of not falling asleep <tamil>தூங்கல நானு:thoongala naanu</tamil> like


before this I will feel sleepy so I will go to bed for the first time I was like, like sleep is so important like how how much of a basic need <tamil>அன்னைக்கு தான் புரிஞ்சுச்சு:annaikku thaan purinchichu</tamil> like I was like if you can't I'm so frustrated if I cannot fall asleep because I from three thirty to seven it's like I need to sleep <tamil>என்னலாமோ பண்றேன் ஆனா எதுமே:ennalaamo pandraen aanaa edhumae</tamil> workout <tamil>ஆக மாட்டேங்குது:aaga maattaenguthu</tamil> it was damn bad like that's why it's like ya


I don't know I just woke up like <tamil>நான் ஏதோ ஒரு:naan yetho oru</tamil> formula lah like I woke up then I was like I was like I was thinking of finals then I got up lah like I woke up to a formula then I was like <tamil>எனக்கு அப்போவே தெரிஞ்சிருச்சு போச்சு:enakku appovae therinji pochu</tamil> because I was wide awake it wasn't like err what's the time oh I can go back sleep it wasn't even that


not really like


!hey! <tamil>கேட்க்குதா:kekkuthaa</tamil> hello hello <tamil>இருபது நிமிஷம் இருக்கு:irupathu nimisham irukku</tamil> [dah]


yes, eh did I update you err acting if I get the gig, so you know I was telling you there's two ya, turns out <tamil>நான் அவங்க கிட்ட சொல்றதுக்கு முன்னாடி:naan avanga kitta solrathukku munnaadi</tamil> they called me and err they were like we are shifting it to err april to june one april to june


no no the play the TV show will be in like during the semester itself lah and january to april but again I haven't been confirmed yet like as they selected me already like I thought through everything so the the production company the director the producers and all of them they selected me based on my audition so they ask me to do like a write up for


it's like telling like because you don't have to travel with a channel like Mediacorp lah so essentially they were they wanted some extra pictures of me like performing and they want a write up of me and and like my experiences in acting something like that lah so <tamil>அதுனால நான் ஒரு வாரத்துக்கு முன்னாடியே கொடுத்தேன்:adhunaala naan oru vaarathukku munnaadiyae koduthaen</tamil> so we are still pending the results from that I hope I get it lah <tamil>சொல்ல முடியாது கிடைக்குதான்னு பார்ப்போம்:solla mudiyaathu kidaikuthaannu paarppom</tamil> like one of the I don't know if


I look too young in the sense that I don't know if they are looking for someone older because that's one of the reasons I got rejected for two previous auditions one was for V day one for I'm worried I'm worried they will reject me because I'm too young for this TV show


because I went for V day audition right I don't know if you know so I got to the last round, but then this is <tamil>நான் என்ன சொல்றது:naan enna solrathu</tamil> so they are like what's your schedule like I'm like oh I I'm in NS so weekends or weekdays evenings so the scheduling was also a problem and I'm now bald and clean shaven so that's also another problem and I went for another audition for swimming pool we are looking for someone from NTU


I think it was a NTU student film, they were looking for


whatever is <tamil>அவங்களே கூப்டு:avangalae koopdu</tamil> the play have actually been shifted to april to june so at april is actually my finals period lah so I told them like april I cannot commit because finals period but after that the april


ya end of april then I can commit so they said they will get back to me lah so this is this is another lead it's a Abhimanyu <tamil>மஹாபாரதத்துல வர:mahabharathathula vara</tamil> character, so it be another period play ya lah so this one also


it's possible as in because one entire month of ya ya then I just look if I can do CIP and right so


actually I'm going for another audition next actually coming friday this friday so I prepare a one minute it's not another this this like the previous audition <tamil>வந்து அவங்களே கூப்டாங்க:vanthu avangalae koopdaanga</tamil> like the guy the writer contacted me and was like eh brother I wrote this part for you so I want you to audition


ya this one I saw it on Instagram I saw like some of the actors reposting it so I applied lah, ya so <tamil>இது வந்து:idhu vanthu</tamil> this they didn't call me it's err an open call so the other people also


ya !aiyiyo! no brother it's the other way round


oh ya the


the retrospective


lecture <tamil>இல்லடா:illadaa</tamil> lecture <tamil>எல்லாம் அது ஒரு பெரிய கூத்து:ellaam adhu oru periya koothu</tamil> so one of my lectures err statistics <tamil>அதான் கணித பாடம் அது வந்து:athaan kanitha paadam adhu vanthu</tamil> lecture <tamil>காலைல எட்டு மணிக்கு:kaalaila ettu manikku</tamil> all my other lectures are twelve three three thirty twelve the only <tamil>அந்த மாதிரி இது இது வந்து காலைல:antha maathiri idhu idhu vanthu kaalaila</tamil> lecture thursday morning


so <tamil>நான் எந்திரிப்பேன் நான் ஒரு ரெண்டு மணிக்கு தூங்குனேன் னா ஒரு பத்து மணிக்கு அப்டினு சொல்ல முடியாது:naan enthirippaen naan oru rendu manikku thoongunennaa oru pathu manikku apdinu solla mudiyaathu</tamil> three thirty to bath it's like I would sleep late I usually wake up later than that lah I usually wake up nine nine thirty so for the stats right like I'm just I will just be so lazy to get to my laptop


it's one of the phone <tamil>லயே:layae</tamil> Zoom login <tamil>பண்ணிட்டு:pannittu</tamil> the tablet was beside me on the bedside table so I just the tablet there before I go to sleep lah then I will wake up <tamil>எல்லாத்தையும் அங்கேயே வச்சிருவேன்:ellaathaiyum angayae vachiruvaen</tamil> so I just like stay in bed and like I put the phone like this then my tablet then I lie on the bed lah <tamil>உட்க்கார்ந்து:udkkaarnthu</tamil> notes <tamil>எழுதிட்டு இருப்பேன் என்னாச்சு வச்சு எழுதிட்டு இருக்கேன்:ezhuthittu iruppaen ennaachu vachu ezhuthittu irukkaen</tamil> my friend calls me


my friend calls me and he's like brother brother your camera is on


it's a ya


, ya that was quite bad that's the only con with the whole online thing otherwise is not bad


but why


for the record <tamil>அந்த மாதிரி பையன் கிடையாது:antha maathiri paiyan kidaiyaathu</tamil> please


eh NTU stream <tamil>பண்ணலாம்ல:pannalaamla</tamil> the TV would be available right the TV will be available NTU


where what place, so it's not the lecture rooms that you brought us to lah


like the whole area beside the place where we went have cultures


like maybe if it's one hour one hour broken up with some time in between so you can catch up you know but two hours straight quite hard


[dey], [dey]


it was from, you end up fast


two err,


you were right


we do it, don't disconnect, don't disconnect


!aiyiyo!, [dey]


this thing is the best ya is epic, no as I bought it from <tamil>ஸ்ரீ முருகன்:sree murugan</tamil> like it's a during holidays like a Mustafa place lah


is I think is in is near north north point ya but is also new know it's not the it's one of the workplace


but that's honestly damn good but Lazada <tamil>இருக்குறதையே நான் இப்போ தான் பார்க்குறேன்:irukkurathaiyae naan ippo thaan paarkkuraen</tamil> so easy ah order <tamil>பண்ணலாம் போலிருக்கு:pannalaam polirukku</tamil> I didn't even know it was on Lazada, but each one is err under hundred and fifteen calories one packet


sugar ah seventeen grammes in one packet


ten grammes, what kind of what kind of sugar are we talking about


about, there's a lot dude


from where


I don't drink coffee and my milk it's just normal sugar


ya ya can can can, okay okay can, !wah! dude my back hurts like shit


I think I need go to a doctor on monday, oh man after I came back home I just laid on my bed and I couldn't move like for like a I just couldn't move ah and my head hurts my head hurts a lot and my back hurts a lot


no I had a massive headache like like, I think because you know <tamil>விளையாடி முடிச்ச உடனே:vilaiyaadi mudicha udanae</tamil> like I kept bending down right I kept bending down to use my phone and when I bend down I no you when you bend down you know like the blood flows going down your head and then your back feel a lot of pressure


like to use as in to use my phone and then I felt feel like there's a lot of blood going into my head when I bend down then a lot of pressure you know you know what I mean


ah no no no no no I'm going to be I'm going to be a healthy old man


that's called being a that's called being a P word I'm not going to say but


like I told him like if you really like Adithi and you want to dunk imagine if you can't walk that's a lot worse so make sure you can walk first


no devoted to the girl


that's true I got harmonica practice tomorrow morning shag man I got so much I harmonica stuff going I don't even have a holiday and I'm not doing any school work I need look for internship I need to study


ya I didn't study and ya I think I need backup lah study a bit more, eh come sunday tomorrow for long NTU


come NTU lah I mean come NUS come NUS come let's do some work


applying right ya come to NUS and do with me lah


monday right it's only two days two days later


ya but you all have lunch first lah or you can eat you can eat at you can eat there in


it's just that I won't be eating with you all lah or wait I can eat two lunches, you can eat two lunches


no no there's this one that was particularly very nice, later I send you


<tamil>சரி சரி:sari sari</tamil> ya but the I think our play was very good lah the one with floppy and all that


like I think that the you know


I think is is getting better like is much better now like honestly honestly like honestly is much better now


there is a method


I think your biggest value would be as a post player meaning like like not like scorer but like but like you get from the post and then like make pass from there


as in what you you know the hand off that's technically a post player ya like high post ya high post or even low post lah like you get the ball that's what raymond does what like you get the ball okay then you then there will be some ball movement and then you find the guy


Dhivaagar cannot pass man that one cannot Dhivaagar is like is not I think you are your passing your okay lah he can pass lah but I think you are more perceptive with your passes and anyway I think Dhivaagar should shoot instead of passing too much


should I like playing off ball I think ya how Harish was totally right I should have play off ball play one ball is too much I think too many court strikes


that's true no but I take a lot of course like that time there are some shots that are really really really really accurate there are certain shots that are just bad shots just bad shots ah but sometimes I think they are really really really bad shots


you know what I mean


so sad


ah <tamil>ஐய ஆனா:iya aanaa</tamil> I think I need to become a better shooter I'm a bit on the floppy side, is like !wah! it's really difficult you know shoot shoot off the sprint like clay does it so easily


no lah depends lah it depends it depends it depends I think I think once I make a few shots like today once I made a few shots while they were up in my face and then ya from from beyond the same point like


that's not true that's not necessary as in the open time is the time is just like one split second that's all


ya, Amazon dude do you have Netflix can I take your Netflix account can I share with you


what the fuck who will you watch shows on one point two five speed shit I just I just but it's okay, who watches shows on one point two five speed


the only thing I watch and like a speed faster than the normal speed is lectures man life ah enjoy <tamil>பண்றா ஏன்:pandraa yaen</tamil> [dah] fast ah


don't want I'm not gonna try it I wanna enjoy


I'm already watching lectures at like two times speed and like I'm used to people talking so fast you know like like lecturers right so you are so used to like listening to them at two times speed when I go to them for consultation it's so weird to hear thir voice at the normal speed


no man I think it's more of just me being a cock fellow <tamil>நான் ஒழுங்கா படிக்கல:naan ozhunga padikala</tamil> K lah it's just


okay as in if you want to be give excuses you can always give excuses right so like, I was yes I was busy but yes I could have studied so like it's also my fault lah mostly so I need to find a way to balance and like study


eh is it after new year


I think so lah, !wah! I need start paying for my harmonica classes already, next week


like I'm learning, ya but but the guy was nice lah he told me he give me four free lessons first, so tomorrow is the last ya it's very useful although I don't agree with everything that he teaches me at least like I'm seeing like another perspective


as in because like music as its like acting what like is an art like that someone tells you do ya it's not nothing is really objective right


ya like sometimes you tell me a certain thing should be played this way or played that way and like I don't think that like, actually sometimes he is wrong but like it's very hard for me to point it out because I'm a student ya correct


ya correct correct actually he told me also lah as in I like this guy because he's like he's very like frank and straight up with me ya he told me his role is basically just to listen to me and give me comments but ultimately is my own interpretation and all that so it's like quite quite chill about it I guess


well I'm learning like techniques and like things like that at least now like for the first time in a long time have someone to listen to me critically and like give me very specific comments to improve


okay okay <tamil>இரு இரு:iru iru</tamil> can you can you wait one second I want to switch to the headphones


wait one second


ya this is so much more comfortable, !wah! feels good okay


ya man this is so much better headphones over earphones any day, really I like okay lah I generally like the hot warmer weather it's not too bad I think colder weathers will suck a bit more than warmer weathers


but I think


Kabilan what's elevated, okay but I think the pros is like like I think just in terms of comfort is better to be in a warmer country


ya no lah just more comfortable what like when I went to like cold places it gets really cold you know like sometimes and when it gets really cold you cannot do anything like you really cannot do anything


ya seasonal so like ya ya ya seasonal correct so for like one two months you can't do anything


!haiya! I don't care already lah it's okay doesn't matter, what is not moving, what screen [orh] your screen


nice nice nice ya I said ya you are improving


I think you and Dhivaagar showed a lot today shown unlocked, and I took a lot of court shots Harish was so on fire the last game, he had like four shots you know


the scores like one seven or something


ya I I think, ya I think I can vaguely remember lah but I lost most of the games it's okay


there is this there is this one trend about me ever since I have been playing basketball my team usually loses I lose more than I win as a team


I don't know I think I think like like I need a point guard lah like I'm not a point guard, I should play like a point guard


facts


send a bouquet, send a bouquet then say from walmart Ashi


really ah, bought already ah oh oh my god <tamil>காமி:kaami</tamil> [dah]


and then


wait <tamil>வாங்கிட்டியா:vaangittiyaa</tamil> diamond ah


make sure you have at least four kids okay


adoption I already say what I'm all for it


all for it as an in me doing it or you doing it, me ah as in it wouldn't be my first choice but like err I can see why them lah like I will be supportive if my partner wants to do it but obviously if the first


like the first option would be you know <tamil>சொந்த குழந்தை:sontha kuzhanthai</tamil> birth the bloodline you know passed on you know all that


is great effort


sun <tamil>சடைங்களா இருக்கு:sadaingalaa irukku</tamil> super


don't think I will do lah maybe teach harmonica not tuition I think I got too little time in my life like honestly


no harmonica is much lesser like harmonica per hour I will charge like forty forty five right and only need a one hour lessons, that's normal


err ya general rate is slightly higher actually about fifty


it's not as it's difficult lah ya


ya my business !wah! they me man the only thing they approved was the name, they haven't approved the business yet so like still have to wait ah like one week


as in it's more like that is they have wait for the results ah they might reject also, then if they if they approve I need to pay hundred dollars for the business registration, so that's hundred dollars then after then I need to ask my friend to build a website I'm going to pay him about five hundred dollars


then, I don't know lah I will ask him to quote a price then then like I will pay him that much


people usually charge fibre is different remember the quality of fibre lah it feels like a trust not really a trusted friend but he's a occasion friend, I don't know how good fibre will be but I know this guy has done websites and all that before


and he usually he usually charges a few thousand, dude honestly if you know how to use software engineering you know how to make websites you can make a lot of money


he charges a few thousand for a website


because also like I said right he is doing so much but he feels like he is not doing a lot so is like, he's got a winter internship already then he already he already started ya he just started like during holidays lah but he is doing it for free lah he is doing it for free


, err actually that one I'm not sure, because this one is he's doing it for free, if he's not getting paid


then he's doing his people create the tuition thing, I mean the the he's teaching like python and all that, ya man eh you should try to get the CFA


what certification, oh nice nice so you can you help me buy insurance, why not


you're right I think, I have this err so like I know there's like like in our like NTU the harmonica chairperson so you have a chairperson meeting so I met another chairperson of another club


he is also like !wah! damn intense lah his CCA got like a hundred people and they do a lot of things so it's like he's quite busy with that and he has a business to run like second last year a year two lah basically because you know NTU is only three years


then he's also a doing he's also working in a company now as an FA


I think it will be damn tough lah if you do end up as a financial adviser I think the life is really tough like


like you know the gerald meme right ya like he ask someone to catch up with you we are trying to sell insurance that kind of thing I I personally don't think it's so bad but I think the bigger issues err


whether you can really find people lah


dude learn coding for far far try to learn coding, well honestly do it


okay okay english <tamil>லேயே சொல்லி தாடா எனக்கு ஒன்னும் புரியல:laeyae solli thaadaa enakku onnum puriyala</tamil> eight fifteen <tamil>ஆரம்பிச்ச:arambicha</tamil> okay okay


this was what finals ah, G G


then what made you wake up at three thirty


you know one time on the day of my exam right like I had such a wild dream when I woke up I didn't realise I had an exam that day like I forgot then after eating breakfast it suddenly hit me I have exam that day then I quickly started revising


it's damn dumn like you know when you wake up you feel disoriented sometimes do you have that, not really ah sometimes you know I have very vivid dreams it takes me like half an hour to normalise


like you know I think my imagination goes quite wild at night sometimes, then like it takes a while to like adjust to routine life


oh ya how how that that that situation


err wait, is it a tamil thing or english


nice nice nice


not bad man things things working out things working themselves out


it's nice nice nice not bad not bad good stuff man have you read have you read this book called the alchemists, there's there's a there's a saying in the book says that when you really want something badly the whole universe will conspire to help you get it


and I think this kind of true


I I think the bollywood movie rubbed off it, I think this book is quite old ah okay but like basically things are working out things will always work out


yes exactly I was quite actually I'm


honestly like I was pissed of like twenty twenty and COVID because I had so many plans right, now being the position I am now, I think twenty twenty went really well for me


like I don't know if it could have gone much better honestly like


and then,


, how does Kabilan feel about another girl seeing you naked


dude dude dude do you know something there was this video circulating a student from NUS I think, she was getting


I think for the thrill of it lah like they like the thrill then their classmates called them out then she stop then she changed back the background


I think it's understandable I I might do it if I could oh shit they laughed shit shit shit shit okay okay I won't do it I'm a good boy, oh shit


yes yes for the record <tamil>நான் அந்த மாதிரி பையன் கிடையாது:naan antha maathiri paiyan kidaiyathu</tamil> okay I hope my parents cannot hear you okay it's okay


, yes yes yes yes , ya ya ya I think there will be some like X box pool games PS five but hopefully it's open lah I don't know if it's open


student activity centre but I don't know if it's open, in NTU, no no that rooms like that no we can go to that rooms to watch a show or we can also go to the activity centre later see we can play like pool play some board games things like that


if that works out then I can bring some dates over there


oh shit okay I'm sorry boss this is a private information


can you imagine if two strangers were too dark for this like forty five could you could you do it like let's say those like ninety dollars for two hours of talking to a stranger


plus, ya one hour straight is already quite hard, what you talk about we can talk about women no the hard part would be listening to the other person


talk about something and act interesting


ah, err


it's okay it's okay I paused it now continuing


why does this makes it white


web check


they they they,


milkmist <tamil>அப்டியா:apdiyaa</tamil> is that on Lazada


oh is it near commonwealth


, do you know how much sugar we are allowed to take in one day


make a serious guest lah


sugars like I don't know but in the nutrition information the carbohydrates and sugars are usually understood differently


if carbohydrates we should be under fifty five grammes fifty five grammes, yes, that's not a lot dude one packet drink has seventeen grammes


a lot what if you eat bread there's sugar in bread there's sugar in rice there's sugar in, as in it's everything lah


and you add you add sugar to you add sugar to your coffee you add sugar to your


just to clap what is this nonsense man


yes <tamil>நேத்து என்ன நடந்துச்சு நேத்து:nethu enna nadanthuchu nethu</tamil> I went out to have dinner with my my my year one clique right my my university clique then like <tamil>நான் போனதே:naan ponathae</tamil> late because I was supposed to be there at seven thirty then like I initially my father was supposed to drop me then he was like say <tamil>ஏழரை மணிக்குள்ள போயிரலாம்:ezharai manikulla poiralaam</tamil> after that he say he cannot make it he got something on then he was like <tamil>நீ ஒரு நாள்:nee oru naal</tamil> cab <tamil>பிடிச்சு போயிரு:pidichu poyiru</tamil> or something and then this was at like


and from orchard to my house I have direct bus lah and like <tamil>அது வந்து வீட்டு முன்னாடியே வந்து இறங்கும்:adhu vanthu veetu munnaadiye vanthu irangum</tamil> so it was okay for me then I was just like okay you know like <tamil>நம்மளே கிளம்பி போயிரலாம்:nammalae kilambi poyiralaam</tamil> then because the thing is I never like update them anything until they my they call me, first mistake but usually I don't do it because it's like you know <tamil>வந்து இது பத்தி நாங்க நிறைய பேசிட்டோம்:vanthu idhu pathi naanga niraiya pesitom</tamil> why must I go and update like I will be busy with my friends like I don't have time to update <tamil>அந்த மாதிரிலாம் வந்து:antha maathirilaam vanthu</tamil> we used to talk about it like a few years back already lah so it's kind of like normal <tamil>இப்போதைக்கு:ippothaikku</tamil> then eleven o'clock my dad got me he was like <tamil>என்னமா கேட்க்குறதுக்கு ஆளு இல்லனு நினைச்சிட்டு இருக்கியா:ennamaa kedkkurathukku aalu illanu ninaichittu irukiyaa</tamil> then I was like


like like I was like the heck is happening I was so confused I was like <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> bus <tamil>ஏறி தான் வர போறேன் ரெண்டு பேரும் வர தேவை இல்ல:eri thaan vara poraen rendu perum vara thevai illa</tamil> like angry, then I was just like err not I was just like being joking and stuff lah because I mean <tamil>நான் அங்க போய் வந்து என்:naan anga poi vanthu en</tamil> friends <tamil>முன்னாடி கத்திட்டு இருக்க முடியாது:munnaadi kathittu irukka mudiyaathu</tamil> right so I was like laughing and saying that <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vanthu</tamil> direct bus <tamil>எடுத்து வந்துருவேன் வர தேவை இல்ல எனக்கு இங்க இருந்து:eduthu vanthuruvaen vara thevai illa enakku inga irunthu</tamil> direct bus <tamil>இருக்கு:irukku</tamil> then later halfway through right he just hang up the phone then I was like what the heck


okay to be fair I wouldn't say it's new but then is just like not civil in my opinion


so then after that <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vanthu</tamil> I went I left then I went to take the bus then I called him and say <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> bus <tamil>எடுத்துட்டேன்:eduthuttaen</tamil> then he was like <tamil>அது வந்து எத்தின மணிக்கு வந்து சேரும்:adhu vanthu ethina manikku vanthu serum</tamil> then I was like the bus takes half an hour I think in a sense that our they were just my dad was only my dad you know my mum was nothing nothing at all my dad was just like


panic I don't know if it's panic or angry it was just so confusing then err then I shared my live location also usually <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> late <tamil>ஆகிருச்சுனா:agiruchunaa</tamil> I will share live location then I reach home at twelve actually then , and I thought like expectations wise my dad will be awake and be like err <tamil>எதுக்கு வந்த: edhuku vantha</tamil> ya ya ya I I thought that was gonna happen but then the moment I stepped in my dad wasn't there he was in the room you know like sleeping <tamil>வெளிய செருப்பு இருந்தது:veliya seruppu irunthathu</tamil> then I saw my mom my mom was doing <tamil>அப்பா எங்க அப்பா உன்ன தேடி வெளிய போயாச்சு:enga appa unna thedi veliya poyaachu</tamil> then why <tamil>செருப்பு வெளிய இருக்கு அந்த செருப்பை போட்டுட்டு தான் வெளிய போணும்ன்னு இருக்கா அதென்ன:serupu veliya irukku antha serupai pottuttu thaan veliya ponumnu irukka adhenna</tamil>


so it was limit then after that like you know I was, err twelve I reach at twelve, and the thing is I got reach at twelve before, but it's just that at that point of time you know I would tell them <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vanthu</tamil> I will be late or something like that like it's just that sometimes I will inform them earlier that I will be late so they will just like be chill with it but just that ya <tamil>இந்த தடவ நான் சொல்லல:intha thadava naan sollala</tamil> after that then I was watching TV then I was like checking my phone and my iPad everything then my mum finish work she also went back to sleep like didn't even like call me or anything


and that pisses me off ya that pisses me off so much because is like this this whole issue of ya this whole issue of me coming late apparently because I don't have a curfew but is like you know sense of responsibility <tamil>இதுக்குள்ள இந்த:idhukulla intha</tamil> time <tamil>குள்ள வரனும் அந்த ஒரு எதிர்பார்ப்புலயே வந்து இவ்ளோ நாள் இருந்துட்டேன்:kulla varanum antha oru ethirpaarpulayae vanthu ivlo naal irunthuttaen</tamil> then this whole thing has been going on for at least like in my memory for five years like <tamil>இங்க இருக்க ஏன் வர மாட்டேங்குற:inga irukka yaen vara maattaengura</tamil> all these kind of late things then I'm just like


you know how long also can this be going <tamil>இத பத்தி வந்து:idhu pathi vanthu</tamil> we need to sit down and talk, and it was like very frustrating then I was just like that the whole night thinking like <tamil>ஏன் இந்த குடும்பம் இப்படி இருக்கு ஏன் இந்த வீடு இப்படி இருக்கு:yaen intha kudumbam ippadi irukku yaen intha veedu ippadi irukku</tamil> ya then I was like <tamil>வீட்ல சுத்தி இருக்குறவங்க பிரச்னைலாம் உட்கார்ந்து:veetla suthi irukkuravanga pirachanailaam udkaarnthu</tamil> solve <tamil>பண்ணிட்டு இருக்காங்க வீட்டுக்குள்ள நடக்குற பிரச்சனைய:pannittu irukkaanga veetukulla nadakura pirachanaiya</tamil> solve ya in fact you know like a few few months or few weeks back both my parents argued also right then <tamil>அதுக்கு அப்புறம்:athukku appuram</tamil> I don't know what happen to record the the argument like what was the conclusion to it so I'm just like


what the hell then like the thing is in the <tamil>இந்த:intha</tamil> dialogue <tamil>பத்து வருஷத்துக்கு முன்னாடியே எனக்கு வந்துருச்சு பதினோரு வயசு இருக்கும் போதே வந்து:pathu varushathukku munnaadiyae enakku vanthuruchu pathinoru vayasu irukkum pothae vanthu</tamil> then I'm like <tamil>உனக்கு இந்த வயசுலயே என்ன:uankku intha vauasulayae enna</tamil> stress <tamil>இருபத்தி ஒரு வயசு ஆனதுக்கு அப்புறம் உனக்கு இந்த வயசுலயே என்ன:irupathi oru vayasu aanathukku appuram uankku intha vayasulayae enna</tamil> stress it's not okay


to me it's not even like education system for me like my concerns are what am I going to do in the future like graduate <tamil>பண்ணதுக்கு அப்புறம் வேலை செய்றது:pannathukku appuram velai seirathu</tamil> all this kind of things are are the ones that mainly because which causes me stress but the thing is like they think err this kind of issues like don't affect us then I'm just like no it pisses me off <tamil>நான் ஒன்னும் இளிச்ச வாயி இல்ல எதுமே தெரியாத மாதிரி இருக்குறதுக்கு:naan onnum ilicha vaayi illa edhumae theriyaatha maathiri irukkurathukku</tamil> I have I do have a brain I do have some feelings here too


ya so that that's what like keeps pissing me off the the fact that they don't err understand ya they don't acknowledge it and <tamil>அதுனாலயே வந்து:adhunaalayae vanthu</tamil> there's a lot there's a lot of things that I try to do which is like you know I try to kind of prove to them that <tamil>என்னால வந்து:ennaala vanthu</tamil> I can lead an independent life by myself I can be independent I can be also like adult like without all your help so kind of like backfires and like ya just sucks


nothing because ya no as in I woke up at eleven then like I think my dad was getting ready to go out so he saw me awake on the bed then he was like good morning like usually then after that err he left already then my mum was like okay but then I the thing is I was like pissed inside the whole day so like none of them bothered to talk to me also


so ya they just let me be then but the thing is like you know the reason why I'm like this is because of the both of you all then like you all don't even want to like talk about it, ya that's all lah then I was just like watching Netflix and like I was on YouTube the whole day in the room


oh ya I was supposed go out then I told my friends like not feeling that that great <tamil>நான் அங்க வந்தா வந்து:naan anga vanthaa vanthu</tamil> they went ah they went without me but then I say <tamil>நான் வந்தா வந்து:naan vanthaa vanthu</tamil> ya I say like if I if I'm there then like I wouldn't feel that great also ya I feel like trash now


I was like crying in the shower just now but then I'm like dude is like is a dramatic right then I was just like you know like I'm I'm I'm I'm twenty one already why am I still having this kind of domestic problems it pisses me off so much


oh !aiyo! that sister very nice


which is true ya, and that is justified that we will end late it's just


ya I feel like if she gets into hall right she might consume the hall life also along the FYP


but okay lah one point seven K for your FYP I think is a bit not worth


so your mum was saying this, ya


I don't know maybe then she has like some other like pressure


so ya I'm going through that now


and like you know sometimes I feel I don't even have time for myself


the the thing is I will go out with you all and like my JC friends unlimitedly <tamil>அதுலாம் பராபட்சமே பார்க்க மாட்டேன்:adhulaam paaraapatchamae paarkka maattaen</tamil> but then <tamil>இவங்க ரெண்டு பேரு தவிர வேற நான் வேற யாரு கூடையாவது போணும்னா நான் ரெண்டு பேர யோசிப்பேன்:ivanga rendu pera thavira naan vera yaaru koodayaavathu ponumnaa naan rendu pera yosippaen</tamil> because even if you go there right


K what happened was like when I went to meet like my hall friend and stuff like we were one to one meeting is like it was very awkward because <tamil>அவனும் பேச மாட்டேங்குறான் நானும் பேச மாட்டேங்குறேன்:avanum pesa maattaenguraan naanum pesa maattaenguraen</tamil> my one of my my president from last time my hall concert president is is just like I feel like the connection is gone or like we don't like click well anymore <tamil>அவனும் பேச மாட்டேங்குறான் நானும் பேச மாட்டேங்குறேன்:avanum pesa maattaenguraan naanum pesa maattaenguraen</tamil> and then like we just you know trying to uh find topics and like basically right


ya at the end of the day we were just talking about like the gossips that was happening in hall which I nowadays I don't really care about hall already now <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vanthu</tamil> hall Instagram account <tamil>லாம்:laam</tamil> ya unfollow <tamil>பண்ணிட்டேன்:pannittaen</tamil> group <tamil>விட்டுலாம் வெளிய வந்துட்டேன்:vittulaam veliya vanthudaen</tamil> that's all I have left that life behind


ya ya ya then <tamil>அதுக்கு அப்புறம்:athukku appuram</tamil> I went out with also what but then it's also like a bit weird also lah then I was just like I don't wanna do this anymore I don't want do this social thing anymore


ya it's like I don't want to do this you know start all over again I don't have the energy to start all over again, the thing is you got into that earlier than me


ya ya she I mean I'm I'm so glad that she still has the energy to meet new people actually


it's like small talk I was


then I was like <tamil>நான் அங்க ரெண்டு மாசமா இருக்கேன்:naan anga rendu maasamaa irukkaen</tamil> but then I'm still like very awkward with everybody and like <tamil>நான் ஒழுங்கா:naan olungaa</tamil> hi <tamil>கூட எல்லாருடையும் சொல்ல மாட்டேன்:kooda ellaarutaiyum solla maattaen</tamil> especially with the mask on is so annoying can't even see my face me in office


ya we only go for lunch then like lunch is the only time that we will talk lah but then oh <tamil>ஒரு தடவை:oru thadavai</tamil> lunch <tamil>பார்க்க போகும் போது:paarkka pogum pothu</tamil> the first question the standard question that we ask how's your weekend, ya every because <tamil>வாரத்துல ரெண்டு நாளு தானே பார்க்குறோம்:vaarathula rendu naalu thaanae paarkkurom</tamil> then by then the weekend also comes in between so is such a standard thing for us to always ask


ah no I see them on monday and tuesday


oh my god one guy is a german what so our he just came to singapore err in september so now he's just like exploring all the different parts of singapore then


then so he went there on Diwali okay then he was like saying like there were a lot of I think it was like the foreign foreign workers <tamil>கூட்டம்:koottam</tamil> they were all partying together saturday night that ya he went on saturday night and then like <tamil>எல்லாரும் வந்து:ellaarum vanthu</tamil> they were partying eh


ya like we don't even go to little india on sunday for this particular reason then he is like that was very fun then I'm like sorry I can't relate, then then he also say <tamil>ஆனா அந்த கூட்டத்துல:aanaa antha koottathula</tamil> like there were no female the rest were all guys that's what he said then I was like ya usually we don't like kind of try to avoid the crowd then it was on Deepavali day you know it's like Deepavali little india


because I I drove past little india ya ya I went that day right then like they were filming in south also then everybody the <tamil>கூட்டம்:koottam</tamil> was there lah but he's not the normal kind of <tamil>கூட்டம்:koottam</tamil> but there was a crowd and the police it was quite crowded is quite crowded but it's not like you know the usual kind of crowd


dude I hate the world now man


they have a point they have a point they are not wrong, you know like now on my explore page on Instagram right I only look for like TikTok those kind of funny white girl TikTok I think they are quite entertaining


I use Instagram right but then like I'm so tired of looking at other people's faces and what they are doing with their damn life lah I don't care so I'm just like I'm just gonna explore explore page and looking at TikTok


they are like so relatable and so funny the effort the JC kids put behind their TikTok also


and I I I bet the indian parents don't even know they follow the same rule but it's like the kids are all going through the same issues then we all know


that's not happening


, ya you're still leaving behind your genes what


this is like the crowning the money you know, like <tamil>காசு இல்லாத போது மாடு தான் விப்பாங்க:kaasu illaatha pothu maadu thaan vippaanga</tamil> but then like


that's messed up that is so messed up, oh god


ya and then I was like I was like err why our parents like that can we change our parents then she was like <tamil>அவங்க எப்படி சொன்னாலும் அவங்க மாற மாட்டாங்க:avanga eppadi sonnaalum avanga maara maattaanga</tamil> like just might as well save them energy and you know don't talk to them about it


we we we know what's the good about the traditional side and we know the bad and we want to change it but then the thing is there's no one there to like help us change except for like ourselves and no one is like going to understand why we think this way


ya and like if we want to change also the only thing that we can change is our generation our mindset and the kids like the way we raised our ya are and how we are going to raise the next generation


will be more woke woke child woke kids, oh my god no that's why they were saying we are the sandwich generation what, the sandwiched generation is like saying that because err you know the what why did they call this sandwich generation


we are in between and we need to provide to, both sides like we need to provide support our parents and also our kids but then following from this right what will happen is that the kids will work from for themselves like <tamil>அவங்களோட:avangaloda</tamil> savings <tamil>அவங்களே வந்து ஆரம்பிப்பாங்க:avangalae vanthu arambipaanga</tamil> we don't we don't necessarily have to give anything to them it's like in a sense that from now onwards everybody every generation in just going to independent and work for themselves


ya they won't expect things from their parents but we will be the last generation that will have to provide to the our parents and to the kids something like that, ya no lah as in I wouldn't expect lah because you know is their life I mean it's free money but then is still like their life their choice you know <tamil>நீ என்ன பண்ணணுமோ பண்ணு:nee enna pannanumo pannu</tamil> unless you have you're going back like depicting it you know there was


is like a bit of how to say guilt tripping yes so I kind of don't agree to it yes I welcome the money but if you want if I want of money from my child I would want it like out of goodwill and not like


that is our version of my room is boring I want to make over my room it's just it's the same feeling but different context


ya I mean like if they got so much problem with my black one might as well you help me paint right it's not even your damn wall


ya and what what is the issue with society like, like <tamil>திருச்சங்கோடு கிராமம்:thiruchankodu graamam</tamil> but it's the the thing is our house is the biggest in the <tamil>கிராமம்:graamam</tamil> so they want to live up to that expectation then I'm just like stop ya ya ya ya they just want to be like that because <tamil>சுத்தி இருக்குறவங்கலாம்:suthi irukkuravangalaam</tamil> our relatives also <tamil>என்னோட பாட்டியோட:ennoda paattiyoda</tamil> like sisters and their daughters live around that area so for some reason this they are always like


ya that that's what that's what happens in my


ya ya ya


, then they all talk shit about they all


like I can


I did not know I do not know it affected your dad that way


ya ya


like why are you spending so much time caring about other people when you could use that same time to like fix things within yourself or like that's within your control then they just like <tamil>நீங்கல்லாம் வந்து சின்ன பசங்க:neengalaam vanthu chinna pasanga</tamil>


like that's the extreme of err extreme mean effect of having a big generation gap lah no because like some people they like I can't stand my parents and they will leave forever kind of thing then like it basically is in in a way it's just that the relationship between the the child and the parents like gets worse because of the so called the generation gap that you quote which you don't even bother to address or like solve


well it's so you know it's so it's so scary the concept of like university life like seven and a half years eh you are screwed for you are screwed


oh my god I don't know I think mine hasn't even started man, ya I heard it was twice


right


oh my god, I I just hate this whole concept of family I don't like I cannot catch a grip on this concept of family still


and I know the back to the previous generation of how people give birth without even being financially independent I'm just like they just bang go for it I'm like did you ever think about this properly ya I'm just like I was I did not ask be born you know remember that one Dhurga sent us I did not asked to be born either then I was like ya true I did not ask ya and I'm like


I guess like if you I mean which child will say I'm glad to be born will there be a child that says oh my god I'm so happy to be here ya will there be people I don't say that I'm just like oh screw ths shit dude oh my god there are actually people like that I thought everybody was just like sad and


you know how damn who are these kids is it kylie kid


oh okay


ah


oh ya true


you know like like no as in like like basically you know like when when you get married off then like the idea of you don't have your own house or like you out of your house it's it's the same feeling lor like you are like trying to detach yourself from


I don't know whether <tamil>ஏமாத்துறான்:yaemaathuraan</tamil> came from but


no is that is our version of <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> retired <tamil>ஆனதுக்கு அப்புறம் நான் பணம் வச்சு நான் வாழ போறேன்:aanathukku appuram naan panam vachu naan vazha poraen</tamil> is the same thing ya


is a housewife syndrome though ya


oh that that is so unusual for your father though I have never heard your father say these kind of words before


oh no


wait what time was this ah what time did you reach home, okay


(uh huh)


ya because <tamil>இந்த:intha</tamil> age leh <tamil>அவங்க இருக்க கூடாது:avanga irukka koodaathu</tamil> point note the point


I can't think


you still feel like trash


something that all indian kids go through I guess, ya as in like my mum got married when she was twenty one technically I should be able to do a lot of things but I still don't have the freedom like <tamil>இது இதை வச்சு தான்:idhu idhai vachu thaan</tamil> I also have a story about my sister


okay then <tamil>எங்க அம்மா கிட்ட சொல்லுச்சா:enga amma kitta solluchaa</tamil> so I like her group mates and her which are her friends lah they all planning to stay in hall for the final semester to work on the project together then she because she say see how ah it will take up a lot of time so like she will have to I come back home very late every day and if she does that then my mom confirm scream which is true


because I remember during sunday but we ended very late every single day and my mom was just so mad because every single day we were coming back home so late


then err <tamil>அப்புறம் காசு என்னனு கேட்டுட்டு இருந்தாங்க எவ்ளோ ஆகுது:appuram kaasu ennaanu kettuttu irunthaanga evlo aaguthu</tamil> it's expensive ya NUS one is expensive what <tamil>அதுவும்:adhuvum</tamil> single room double room <tamil>கூட இல்ல அவங்களுக்கு:kooda illa avangalukku</tamil> single room <tamil>தான் வேணுமாம்:thaan venumaam</tamil> probably PR it's like she err she was saying about one point seven K for like eighteen weeks which is a lot of money lah


then my mum was like <tamil>நீ என்ன எல்லா நாளும்:nee enna ellaa naalum</tamil> school leh <tamil>தான் இருக்க போறியா:thaan irukka poriyaa</tamil> then as in like <tamil>எல்லா நாளும்:ellaa naalum</tamil> school <tamil>இருந்து:irunthu</tamil> project <tamil>தான் பண்ண போறியா:thaan panna poriyaa</tamil> which is kind of like a valid question lah because technically this is her her last semester she only has the final year project so it's not like she's gonna be working on in like twenty four seven so she won't be spending like every single day working on it you know so there isn't a reason for her to stay every single day


ya no classes at all I think she has to take maybe one module I'm not sure I think she told me like one module but I can't remember so she has nothing else but to work on the project wait ya so ya ya so that's why I my mum was just like because if your friends are staying then maybe on those days that it becomes late then maybe you can stay over at their room for the night then you can come back you know


which I thought was pretty reasonable you don't have to stay every single day but like on those days that you have to work on it and it takes very long then ya ya the they are it's like her closest university friends is like you choose your group mates what for FYP


it's not it's like a unnecessary like <tamil>செலவு:selavu</tamil> , ya I think I think that's partially also the reason she's not telling my mom about that but she's she's mainly just saying how like <tamil>இப்போ நான் படிக்க போறேன்:ippo naan padikka poraen</tamil> you know like <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> group project <tamil>பண்ண போறோம்:panna porom</tamil> I'm like <tamil>நீங்க:neenga</tamil> group project <tamil>மட்டுமா பண்ண போறீங்க:mattumaa panna poreenga</tamil> you know


is because she was saying how like whatever money you have right now don't think of ways to spend it think of ways to save it because you have to pay back your loans


because right because the right now we have university loans what


like I I really do like being in this house, from from us


ya I understand that that's why she's going through that phase which I think I told you all right like she's going through the teenager phase now and I went through it in CR and I'm done already so I'm quite I would say mature and err a bit I'm like I'm like I'm like kind of done with the whole social life thing you know


I also understand lah


I mean for me I like to go out like once in a while lah but I feel like I go out once right I need to stay home for another one day or two days