in a sense ya because all those like maths people will know how to do the stats and stuff, which I don't so it's like kind of like low key salt but, what can I do about it, ya that's the other thing uh, ya writing cause it's easier to me so that one I have an advantage cause I mean maths I can just like practice a lot


ya but honestly, honestly if you can write you can write if your English is there you can come up with something


for writing uh, ya cause GPA (ppb) GPA will force you, Econs (ah) Econs actually your English no need to be very good actually, ya as long as you have the concept right they will usually mark you


like honestly my Econs teacher's English is not that great either but as long as he gets the concept across is fine, (er) ya I guess uh


(erm) for my H twos I got A A B History Lit and then, Econs B which I'm kind of sad over cause I know I could have gotten A but I was careless, no English (eh) wait no Lit and, A ya then Econs B those but those are my H two


H one math C, I mean , aiyah I expected it lah, like even though I studied right you know like sometimes when you do the paper you're just like oh well I can't really do much about it sia, I didn't take Chinese cause I took higher what so


I think I don't think Chinese ends up in your rank points the grade is just there, ya I got A for those


ya you know actually I was kind of worried about my results and then I talked to Miss kay about it she was like, (ppb) but then like when like when you look back on it right it makes sense that you get the grade you deserve


in a way yes


but honestly right like, if you badly it won't affect them at all


if you do badly right it won't affect your teachers, so like technically they push you because they want you to do well so in a way you also feel like, you should do it


ya like in a sense that you have to turn up for class and all that but honestly if you don't want to do extra practice that's on you lah, like they won't push you to do extra like they might say it but like they also won't like do it they won't won't do anything to you if you don't do it, and and it differs from teacher to teacher lah like you know that my Lit department push us a lot


but actually my Econs teacher was quite chill you want to see him for extra consult you go but if you don't want he's fine with that, (eh) no I saw him okay no I was careless lah, but like yeah


study it was lit because honestly you don't have to study much for lit you just really need to just write essays and then, is practice (ah), but I I don't know like, because like when you ask me about my favourite right, like I can't give you an answer because like when you're studying for something that's so important is like not very fun then


the the what


Shaun super intense (ah) Shawn was intense and like I don't think Miss kay liked him so he had it worse than me, oh-my-god I did not know that (ppb)


you can't even write in the book so I don't know what notes you're talking about you can't cause it's open book (eh) so you're not allowed to write in your book, ya ya you can bring the text in for the exam


so that's why the only thing they allow is highlighting, highlighting underlining, most of the time they will just flip through lah I mean nobody has time to read it page by page, they check thoroughly enough and honestly if you write something right it will be quite obvious even though you're


cause the only thing you should be seeing is underlines and highlight, technically if you loose your book right if you now your text well enough you shouldn't need it but everyone likes to have that extra safe


cause it was only one book we have five (ppb)


I don't know I like my book so like the quotes just came easily, I don't know I kinda miss lit but I don't really like the, ya


I don't know (eh) cause right in JC right the thing that is stressing you is the time that you have, and like the other people


ya ya I think is different different stress (lah)


not necessarily, like let's say right I would, I mean okay, I would be okay I guess but, I would be with the smart science people also those that who would like those that can get like eighty nine points those kind of thing


I guess is like, they had to pick you between you and a person who got ninety they would obviously pick the ninety right


I feel like that's not how it works but I can't exactly say (ppb), I actually don't really know how they calculate, like the


maybe or maybe is to give like those people who like didn't get the mark a chance, maybe is for like ya maybe is really for comparison across people lah


(er) no lor everything A


oh then their their worst H two gets cut, like their, ya ya ya, so even if you get all eighth right they will still take like one of your H twos and then give it an, the H one A


then that will be kind of good if you got a E and they will just like halve it into like, five


ya she threw, cause I was just, ya but I was thinking like the difference between a twenty and a ten if you and then there, but it it will still be better to get all As then one E there


still need study lah everything is still study , actually that's quite popular that's quite a popular combination, if it's not P C M E then it's B C M E


I'm just glad I didn't take science and I don't have to take it anymore (ppb)


kind of but it's like less focus on that


think they're doing okay, my friends look like they're doing okay like the ones I know lah at least


ya there are sign, ya some of the hat looks a bit more blue like like light blue than


it's like palish blue like it's colour of the sky


it's just the man is holding a black rod that is tapering out to a point and then after that it's, uh and then the string is extending about forty five degrees towards the left side, ya same


I see two seagull, oh okay


can lah I think it I think it won't be that like if it's a difference it will be quite a big different, I think if there's a difference it won't it will be quite a prominent difference


is it better, okay okay sure, both are flying towards top right for me, okay so we got that nice


wait the three fish how are they


like the bottom two are oriented towards the center correct ya, ya ya same


no he'll it's the same (ppb), sort of ya, okay then there are (ppb), beige (ppb), anyway I think like oh then for the


so there are two signs right on the beach, so the the bigger sign is a green sign for me with an arrow pointing towards the left side of the page, and then there there's a smaller sign to the left of the green sign the whole sign is red colour, let's say Paul and Joe Diving School


oh okay, ah okay okay, so got two yeah, it's just one aeroplane, oh okay okay I got three nice, and I think the differences will be quite obvious one lah


okay, okay, same any pattern, yeah same


oh mine have sign like over sizing Joes above the food right, okay so that's four okay, how about the windows how many window planes are there, same the door is it like two doors or one door


oh yeah same same okay, pale blue like around the slightly more blue than the roof


can lah, yeah there is a purple sign near the bottom left hand corner photo say logo sell fish


oh okay okay so have differences five, Joes yeah Joes, so they try to have differences in the word not really the exact minutiae at the picture


okay, not really okay, it's in primary school already start having the main judgemental statement about what people are doing like they are drinking wine but the


beach during the daytime then time to do the cage question and a Colosseum, yeah let's talk about two people sitting right in front of the food shelf first, so on the right side, on the right hand there's a man


it's like uh elderly balding man, no hair at the top although he has hair over like her posterior expel the scope, then he's shirtless, and wearing pale blue pants, plus, red


sigh uh shin high socks, and sandals why would you wear socks and sandals to the beach, he is on the right


from the left, okay great so there are six, okay that's seven, how about the, what's he sitting on, same, ya looks like a padded chair okay


facing the bottom right corner, ya lah but that's just cause he's sitting on the left in your, okay then right beside the man in my picture that means on


maybe beside the woman in yours there's a radio on the floor it's white colour, on the right side of the man, so the radio is on, on the left most of these two people lah


so that's different number eight, and how about the woman, same (ppb) correct


censored, ya, how many flowers, correct ya, what's she reading


lor, oh mine says liz L I Z, how does this look like lor


okay okay, same okay next, ya so in front of two of them I see a beach umbrella, so it's there are three triangles forming the umbrella


uh three repeated triangles then each triangle is split into, blue on the left and white on the right, okay and then there's like this rectangular little shape thing hanging extending beneath the triangle


which is blue in colour, downwards , ah ya okay a bit


and then right beside the umbrella there's a beach chair, which is like made of wood it's like a tripod lah sort of design and then there's like red and white stripe cloth, is it pointed towards the bottom left of the picture


okay can, ya, correct, okay


oh nice don't have okay that's different from a nine I don't have that, don't have (ppb), don't have except uh slightly above the bottom right there's a women and a ball, did you uh so she is wearing a pink bikini


her skin is pale like beige and she is also wearing a a, a brown sun hat with a white strap across it, the women's hair is brown colour, okay and then, she seems to lack any toes, okay and then


she's hugging a, she's hugging a ball the ball is green, like it's green and pale green stripy, like, her hands are (ppb), oh okay that's different


oh no she's standing beside it but her hands are outstretched towards it, okay number nine nine, never mind lah anyway the whole point is not exactly the differences


[huh] no Singlish meh, as in they wanted to pick up Singaporean accents, okay never mind ya but as in we just speak normally lah


the seat right, is orange or red, okay ya sort of ya, white, white seat


oh okay no this one is nine is the same orange or red seat, so that's difference number, ten (ppb) ya, and then the there's a black handle bar, in front of each seat, okay


ya okay so (ppb) beside the seesaw there are two people, and a chair and the sitting on, white, grey chairs, in front of a grey round table


on the table there's one bottle of red wine, and two glasses containing red wine both of them are filled, so at the table, oriented towards the bottom right corner is a man


he has sort of curly brown hair he's wearing sunglasses and he has a bit of a beard, then, okay no he's facing, he's facing the right not bottom just just like, the middle of the right, he's seated at the right oh ya he's ya ya he's on the left side sorry ya


ya okay so he has a light green tee shirt and, olive green pants, and white socks, he only has white sock on (hmm)


he only has a white sock on the right foot, left foot no sock, then he's wearing navy blue shoes, ya i said he's wearing sunglasses, okay then uh that the woman is


uh she has blonde hair, beige skin, she is wearing a spaghetti strap, pale like, normal light blue dress, sandals like slippers like that ah sort of like purplish


okay she's pointed towards the bottom right, oh uh bottom left of the photo, with a white label


correct same, around there lah ya, right in front of the two people, okay I think it's the top right hand corner then


ya I tell you it will be there lah, I think so too


brown uh black words, correct same, pink, it's like dark pink


ya what kind of trash would be that colour, okay , are they both open, ah mine at one the the further one is closed, that's number eleven


ya the wheels are all on the, right more side the the side that is closer to the right, ya same, ya correct


is it oval, wait, uh there's the door does the sign saying push


okay so that's the last difference, ya the my dustbin is closed, okay but just see the wine list, uh mine says wine le rose and peach


okay lah I think we're done, either we lost track somewhere or something but anyway we've oh doesn't matter, I'd rather play that game it's more interesting, ya


ya we can what as in cause, I think this kind of like it's one of our interesting talk about stuff that actually matters, oh the radio and the man are the same what that's the difference


oh to the oh to the woman's right oh sorry sorry, okay okay


this is more interesting, okay so flip that one over ah ask me that question, oh tough


actually right epitaph is what they write on your gravestone, but you don't really want to leave your ashes in a crematorium next to lots of people whom you don't know right


that's true, like remember we went there, okay can you hear me, can ah can


I remember you went there to visit my #ah-tai#'s ashes, and then like my grandpa kept looking around, like all the other little tubby holes trying to find famous people, and then, ya and it was quite Sia~ and then some more on one side is a crematorium like the block was all all the people's ashes right


the other side is a old folk's home with a carpark in the middle , then my cousin was like eh look they come from there then they go there , so like I think I don't really wanna be like


no I think is important to respect people as they die, not just transfer from here to there, yes well, he's not known for his tact I suppose, ya so okay I want people to remember me


I think by the way that I I, care for them, I don't know actually, as in so the whole is that I don't want an epitaph cause I don't want to be


put in a cubby hole, you will just get dark up in Singapore, maybe we should just get our ashes scattered somewhere


oh I know we can like pay for our kids to go and fly to somewhere, and then scatter our ashes think about that we can buy our kids a holiday, when they die, no you can leave out some money and the say okay you can fly there and then you scatter our ashes there together oh yeah can we have our ashes scattered together please


oh but then imagine like is, in the house, do you ever do you never watch three idiots, remember they no no we coming grandpa yeah


so maybe not in the house lah [hah], ya but then if we get scattered if you think about it then like we will just end up, dash against some rocks somewhere


okay that's true, so you just do something simple, maybe the, that's depending on whether like we die in a suitable way


medically training research, oh training education research act, ya


all the more we will probably just, cremate, yeah I know and you didn't even care, ya


I guess so, kay, next question, oh describe the happiest moment of your life


let's put the finish card here, really, yeah that was really happy


I'm not sure how much of you, don't pick this need to no let's not, go into details, I was thinking for the happiest moment of my life I was thinking would've been when got engage but then I was also filled with


a measure of worry, fine , it was a happy moment, what are the happy moments, okay they are so many happy moments


this suppose to be the best kind of life already, is it okay now


like that, okay okay, seriously


I think (ppb), (hmm) let's think about it like how we how we deal with people with it, cause you think about it, okay, maybe plus


hers are like think that I like that I would try to bring people together, but I whether I actually do that is a different matter, because we always want to perceive ourselves you know more positively than we actually are


or maybe I'm negative, hey, multiply means people like my sister who can like, bring the life to a party, then how about equals, is it very neutral


nice voice, okay


equals (ppb) okay, how well can you cook or bake, honestly if you try it, okay I think the pancakes


aside from how much you keep pouring in the milk, oh dear is this how it was baked with me


I remember the pancakes were never ending, oh ya, I thought you brought it with Nutella and like stuff


ya actually crepes are great, I don't think she play with staff right


yeah, let see, okay okay never mind let's play this this is interesting


you don't did you think me that much, I think irresponsibility the worst, irresponsibility yeah and like


I don't know , I think my people are not being very reasonable, yeah I hate self handle of people, yes that's true too, I know you know me very well


yeah I feel angst, yeah it's very hard to eat whether on the mic rushing side think they will mind it's okay, I'm okay lar


name of your closest friend how is he or she special to you, (mmhmm) how is he uh special to you


but that is how like guys from friendship right


that's true cause he used say very close stuff, I don't think it's in brightness instrument, I think I think he no I think that he just


took it as an opportunity to reinvent himself, he someone who really really successfully in mean of invented himself socially, you know how like you did a social lane that everyone have sort of that striatal, everyone sort of have that group like where they sort of fit in along the leader


and it so hard to go up you can only go down or like some people like say Hong-Wei, you think they are quite in the middle but then, as time goes by you understand their personality and behavior then they just go down and down, so it's interesting because


oh cannot if you think it sounds of like a typical like, like, popularities of, hierarchy ya, but ya it's quite interesting but ya I do


true that's true and like also I think, that if you're very open as a person you're open to being friends with everyone then, people will also generally have a decent impression of you ah


what did you value most oh sorry it's your turn ya it's your turn, never mind (ppb), I think is, I don't know is French leh anyway never mind just read out the question


our conversations are meaningful, okay I think yesterday we were talking to Janabelle because, like she and Leonica went for DJ on training


so next year there are like twelve Sec Ones uh P sixes coming into youth, so they are training they train fourth, girl D Jers lah but just want to confirm like just want to get them to confirm whether they are, okay with continuing on and like to be a DJer on next year because they went into the training thinking like okay


just train first then see how, so we were just talking to them and asking them lah like you know do like after having gone through the training, what do you all want do you want to be a DJer and, do they feel ready for it, ya I think Janabelle's a bit


intimidated by the commitment and like stuff like that but then, ya lor so were just trying to understand what she was worried about and like what she, ya and how we can like support them, I feel like Janabelle is like the very solid sensible kind Leonica is a bit more like


woo have fun kind but then, maybe a bit less, like, mature, but at the same time I think that you need a good balance of both, ya ya Leonica is like my sister totally, like she will bring a life to the party


ya but I guess in like in the D G you need one leader who is like the wee know how to have fun and then you need, if everyone was boring like me right you see the time I busy is like


true, I'm the disciplinary , cause I don't stand for nonsense and there's so much shit


ya I know (ppb), !aiya! whatever lah, I told the DGLs I won't tell the DG yet I don't went tell the DG


oh okay, well that's true I think I think I told them lah I setting down by end of this year, end of the year lah but okay I was thinking for next year right (ppb), we can because it's also not good to completely stop attending churches and only go to visit churches because then you like


so how about we do an alternate thing like so every other week we go and visit churches, ya


ya okay [loh] ya [loh] so that's what I told that's as in so I think that's a decent idea, ya but so the thing is if I step down then I can get every other week off [loh]


ya until we settle down then I would then we can gradually transit, cause I think like our parents also want to visit and then you can talk about this more later lah I guess


I don't know I think is like the name like the significance, like how cheap how deep the question is, okay name a favourite place that you have been to what's the significance, ya


okay, that's true we has almost everything, ya


ya (ppb), that's true, okay, I think my favourite place


I was thinking of my hall room, ya, like in M2 when Laurine and I share a room, I think 'cause it's already like my place, yes and like I can put things whatever I want to and I can make a place where I can be comfortable and happy


good memories, okay so your turn, oh okay (hmm) actually right what's the problem about bucket list


before you kick the bucket is it I don't know, really okay okay so okay


I don't really I never really talk about it like I'm not okay while I have done skydiving but I I don't feel like I need to do skydiving to be, complete as a human being (ppb), okay let's see so what do I want to do before I die, I've been to Europe


okay no but, but like that would make me happy but it may not necessarily be, okay okay if I were to die in a year I would go travelling with you, assuming that I don't need to bring my chemotherapy along, that means I'm not getting chemo right


no but that's this concept of ad driven chemotherapy that means even though the chemotherapy is the, like, the patient may be given chemotherapy even if, ya ya so for example for patients with like, colorectal cancer if the tumour is blocking a lot of the gut


then they might have ad driven chemo, to shrink the tumour first, oh no no no you cannot do radiotherapy to the, at least to do the large intestines, because you there's damage to the rest of the organs inside you like because it shifts around right


whereas compared to like maybe your breast, then that's only one part where you can zap all the, radiotherapy


ya but the problem is that it will still, no no no but you cannot do that for you cannot do that for for, because it it will still cause some damage to the surrounding bowel, (ppb) and that's very bad like one it could cause perforation or something then the patient die already


that's why they can only use chemo for, colon cancer only for rectal cancer you can use, uh radiotherapy, isn't that bad, but if you think about it you don't want like


ya, where if it's like a discreet area where you can isolate it from all the other organs, I guess you can radiate that part


or maybe it improves outcomes


but back muscles are more like it's like okay, it's just muscles, as compared to like the bowel which is maybe it's more fragile, you can go and ask them ah you are in cancer centre


oh no okay, after cardio what's next ah, oh that's quite fast then you're done with iron already, ya


yes I feel like you study very little endocrine stuff , but, uh no i don't wanna be


but there's stil one hour to go


can we go for brunch after this are we supposed to meet meet your family for lunch, okay lah then let's go for brunch, we can have dinner with your family, no lah we (ppb)


ya but are we going to your house and study, never mind lah can go to your house and study anyway your, parents are done with like your your mum is done with your room meh, yes we can have uh, a proper place to study without priests galloping around


okay whose turn is it, oh ya the bucket list okay, ya it's not like a picture of how you want your life to turn out but life will never turn out that way


ya, ya I guess so, I wanna get married, no there's still two years


ya okay uh, when did you last cry, why, okay


interesting okay, I think we're not really supposed to talk about religion never mind let's move on, oh, I don't know


there are so many mini regrets but there's no one massive regret, like even dating Sam wasn't that bad I didn't cause at the end of the day okay ya ya ya ya okay I would have, broken up with him more definitively and just


I think cause I didn't realize that, I didn't realize that like I can still be happy without him, so I think I clung on for the sake of that which is not good, and in that sense is like making use of him


ya, yes dear better possibilities, yes yes it's possible


eh wait is it my turn, oh okay so how you then what will you do differently


!oh! I'm surprised okay, yes dear


but I think it's a very important learning experience for you, ya I think it's very difficult for you


really, more on what but I thought in SGS because they heard those stuff about you, luckily you could prove them wrong


true, okay that's good


oh why why do you find that one of the most fun parts


oh, efficient, okay that sounds nice


that's true, Nicholas, lazy cut


no I like it when you go on chorus, kay


would you go on a blind date, last time


okay that's true like


ya, and then like once you need something you're supposed to like each other that's ridiculous, but okay do you even believe in love at first sight, ya I remember the first time when we met, okay not the first time but I always think back to the corale picnic


ya and then like everyone just fawns over Mark playing guitar


ya I know, okay ya that's true, I think the thing is that like, I think you you you are good at what you do but you just, what you do is not necessarily appreciated, like like other people may not enjoy it that's the thing


and like I think when you were younger you didn't realise other people didn't enjoy it, so you done lots while growing up


I purposely wear sports shoe so we can run, let's see the weather at five o-clock, okay who is your hero, how does he or she inspire you


that's a interesting concept


ah okay so who are your role models


that's true, I think they do have realistic expectations for M three, like it's just history taking a physical examination they must be very solid


okay ah that's true, ya then they ask you tons and tons of stuff about it


that's nice, ya I think you should take more opportunity and practise, ya okay, really okay


ya I thought you went you went to that why you did the test, so that's what you mean by having changed your


style of presentation lah, ya that's what ya ya you told me last time already what, okay


okay can, ya I'm surprised you remember that one, oh I'm proud of you thanks dear, I don't know I always I always like like JKL names


like like the in like I don't those few alphabets, no no not necessarily, ya, or, okay I just rule lah anything super common like Amanda Cheryl


Mathew, Jonathan, please you can you in the supermarket you shout a Cheryl and then three people will turn to you, it's just so boring it's really boring, ya no Amandas no Rachels no Rachels


although I like Rachel but no I don't want a name !huh!, I don't wanna name my kid after Eleanor, oh I think that's quite okay, it's quite nice what


I think like, not stupid names that will get them teased by other kids


ya I think that's nice, but I wouldn't rule on non typical character names you know what I mean, like I don't need my kids to be a Nehemiah, or <unk> please who would people don't even know how to spell it pronounce it


Nehemiah, is it easier, better than <unk> that one I really don't know


okay okay, what but what would you wanna name our kids, no but our kids like, you'll live with their names


that's true, how about the Chinese names, okay we'll get my mum to help, ya ya ya that's what I told you about it what, you, yours is Shi is it or is it Jie


oh that's why James is Shi-En, but that's cause she's female, ya, okay we can see what's the next word in the poem, no Andrew you should just do it come on


it doesn't matter to you anyway you won't call them by their Chinese name , but I think like for the family sake, ya just pick the next word, yeah is okay we will find something that works okay


we'll see, as in because tradition right okay no when we think about it tradition, like why is it even important to bother but it's just because, and the thing about family is that things don't always necessarily make sense but you just have to submit


is about recognizing that what, I think it's not harmful if, no one is hurt, if it doesn't come an expense of what we think is, at the expense of our values, because if not we if you challenge everything then like


I mean it makes it hard for the family also lah, like just we don't personally believe in it doesn't mean that it's not valid, because if not that I think that's a bit of a selfish way to think, as in I'm okay


ya that's why, if they don't want to then okay lor


it means, by your toilet door, that's legit is it, oh we can Google it later


oh okay yeah, can see how ah, okay that's sounds quite cool


oh ya ya ya ya heard that sound before , ha so funny


okay I would, I would give some of it to both of my parents and my grandparents, and then, like set up some sort of


savings slash investment thing so it can be used to multiply, you know think about it it's like a lot of, times strike the lottery but they spent it all, I guess we can like we can buy a nice like


condo or resale near your parents, ya and I would, I mean I would obviously donate or give away some, does this mean okay ya so one one million of it can be used on tithing slash donation


ya I'm just thinking but like, who to donate to is another issue, exactly so that's why it's like who, we want to give to like, the causes which we find meaning for


that's okay it well because like ya I would definitely want to grow it maybe I will let myself spend one million of it and tie one million of it


what else do we really need, oh ya we can have a nice wedding, I am already gonna order the nice food


but actually like who do we invite to the wedding, where ah, our old church our new church, that's why like one of the churches that I was looking at they have a marriage prep course


actually I think we should leh that one sounds like quite, solid stuffs, because I don't want those, I don't want those church prep courses that are just about like oh the Bible says this for marriage and says that about marriage then it's like Bible study, ya because I think the one in my church is quite useful cause they talk about issues like children and


finances and, which ya exactly I think that's super useful, ya okay oh then we should still go, for that, ya even if we don't need our ya then there's also that that


I told the cluster IC like the the guy in charge of all the DGLs, ya ya I'll tell talk to him next week, hope so too


I'll ask him next week ah, ya, ya, because of the kid


it's a very pessimistic statement to say , okay but any kids will be troublesome, that's true, you have expectations and then, ya


that's true, ya


!wow!, ya that's quite tough, ya


can see how lah, as in ya I think that's quite nice, where, hotel or not hotel


okay no obviously you'll have church wedding so I'm thinking for the dinner, it's different, as in (ppb), ya


is like the sit down dinner kind of thing not just the buffet lunch at the end of a church wedding, I agree I agree, is more expensive and like the ballrooms are so stuffy looking and like I don't like the look of it and it's so expensive


ya we can choose a nice restaurant, and I think is cheaper for everyone else, ya I really made it quite clear to my mom that, ya, anyway my dad doesn't really


my dad doesn't really care, eh I don't know ya but I think we can pick like a nice restaurant, think will be pretty, ya can we have fairy lights, oh my mom you know my neighbor that just got married apparently she does like Videography


ya my mom said her wedding video was very nice maybe can ask her do our wedding video, actually I'll rather have like, I would like to have a nice video, that like, they take us as a couple, to share the weding cause I think it can be really nice


I don't know I remember my aunty, ya ya she's in the industry, ya that will be quite nice right, but it's okay like it's engaging a vendor what


and like cause if we get Ryan to do it he won't really be able to enjoy the weeding, oh ya we can ask, okay but we can sometime it comes in a, applied together actually I don't know


true you don't ya if you always go to the same old brand then it's very like ya


like you don't really care lah it's another project lah


that's why we don't need to get a package, ya I rather we don't get a package, but I will wanna make sure that the amateurs are decent


like if it's someone that we trust but even if it's someone that we trust, like what if we don't like their work, ya let's go and we can consider I don't mind


okay, oh really okay, well this is one is why are you looking for a partner but I think that's quite redundant


but actually that's true leh why why do why do we look for our partner


it's like a life partner lah, that's true


what is the craziest thing you have ever done oh this will be interesting, ya


no that was a legit yawn


ya actually we're both very boring like like not boring but like, okay that's true ya, like I don't believe in doing crazy things cause it just makes me feel worried


you don't like drinking what that's why, kay, ya that's why cause it doesn't fit well on my head, that's why it's, I tried


uh kay your turn lah, kay I am getting a bit tired of talking, oh no , kay you can talk, okay


I can't decide, hey, okay so brunch food, scrambled eggs


oh it's fluffy and nice, I just like scrambled eggs and then, like the texture and the taste, like I don't always necessarily like all fluffy foods like I don't like mushy foods like peas and potato


oh ya that's true, it melt and it's too sweet, and it gets all over your face, kay I think it's mainly the taste I think it's mainly the taste not so much of texture, what but you like carbonara


oh ya I don't ya I don't like creamy foods like if it's too creamy it's very Jelak, kay I take your word for it you can have the carbonara, kay what else I like I like like I realize I like like cup like deserts like more like in terms of deserts is more the filling like desserts uh like brownies cake tarts


pastries as compared to like, as compared to like, like the more sugary things like chocolates, or moose, ya and like


and a good balance not too sweet, then spicy food is like curry and, stuff like that and then , I don't know there are so many, good things to eat out there I'm not a huge fan of stakes


it's quite funny the other day I went to Jack's-Place for Adriel birthday lunch, then they have like the stake on the hot plate, then like we realize that all of the all the guys all the stake the first half was good, then the second half I think it overcooked on the hot plate


cause it got like very like eh and then Shawn was like complain it was eating like hay, i was like how, luckily I got I got I got ceaser salad with salmon salad was nice and healthy, I think the good ones oh before the entertainer ends we should go and use it and get a nice steak


end of the year I think next year I will, steak, I'm hungry too, okay I will search up faces, kay but actually yeah I don't think


(hmm) I don't know eh what else ah, what places lah, ya I'll find something, but I realise I don't really like


I don't really like, what was I talking about, ya I'm not a huge fan I think cause it's too much chewing, alright you can have this today


ya we go are we we're going to your place to study right, do you want to, oh yeah also can do you want to go there


you always food coma, as in as in yeah is because you always eat carbs for lunch


ya or like just half the carbs, you wouldn't get girl lah, food that makes us hungry, okay, kay


oh girt your yeah yeah like, there's like like like, no I found in the context of like girt your loins like work hard


oh yeah yeah okay then like girdle, that's different, okay so what do you miss most about your childhood


ya, true


that's true, is like irresponsible


that sounds like some old song, when I was young warthog oh sorry


oh ya actually I really didn't do much of that I think cause, I don't know I just didn't really go out to play with neighbours


ya that's true like they really don't, is maybe the young kids or maybe is a socio-economic thing


no but actually if you stay in a condo you can still like have time with friends around


ya that sense of like


that's true (ppb) ya, kay lah, I guess you would hear the shouting


seriously, I think it depends on whether you see then down the corridor also lah


ya so you wake up before your family, you might also stay at my place, ya


I guess, is just, you know as she is uncomfortable and stress, actually I also don't really know, I don't know nevermind, hey


ya you know I realize that when I'm at #Punggol#-polyclinic the place is a fifteen minutes drive from your place, but then, the whole week, no but then my mum right I don't think she will be comfortable with that


okay I will I will I will think of asking her, ya that is why if I drive then, if I drive then unless like one night got night clinic, cause sometimes GPs they run night clinic ya then I will just


ya, see how ah, cause I realize right actually Pasir#-#Ris is quite near like Sengkang, ya, I know but it's so can you can just pray


and see whether we can get in, it was quite funny cause last time there was, there was one time we went to CGH to meet, he is a super outstanding medical student I mean now he is a HO eh no now he is a MO, but, ya he superb outstanding lah


like he was one of the two uh SingHealth IM residence, he get picked like even before graduation like super, king deans list all five years that kind, so then like so that time we had meeting with I I drove


me Jian Hui Soo Ting and Siew Wan over for tutorial, we seen so then, Jian Hui and Siew Wan were talking about something residency and like oh whether they should sign with SingHealth or NHG because of this and that, and then me and Siew just looked at each other and then we like


I'll sign with whoever gives me a job , it is cause I'm nowhere I never be, unless the list is build on like who can, organise case notes better


can lah but I think they are like, ya, but exacting is like if I do, if I do like medicine or like I am or like palliative I don't know how good I am is at


CGH but , I heard is quite bad, we will see how, is not the NHG [loh] then just drive [loh], can drive lah


as in the earlier stages of our career will definitely, ya, then we grab [loh], cause we'll be earning a lot of money or whoever's not on call then, as in the other person grab [loh] whoever's not driving then for example if I'm on call then you fetch me the next day or


ya see how lah, okay (urm) next question, oh ya I think is your turn, damned


actually this is quite important to talk about before we start before we get married, yes dear, I know you don't enjoy doing chores, I like the satisfaction of seeing things clean, but doing it is not necessarily very fun


oh dear, oh we still got another one hour to go, okay okay wait, if not we can take a pause or a break, ya ya okay but anyway so what okay I think I


I think chores wise


I think, I prefer like, ya like washing and cleaning stuff, kay ya but that's not a household chore, actually I don't mind mopping the floor, mopping the floor is quite nice if you can get all the hair and stuff out of the way


that's the problem ya so you have to like use dry mop first to get the hair and most of the dust out, and then you use the wet mop, but you have to I prefer using the what like the water and the bucket kind, not the the cloth like the not the wet wipes kind cause that one doesn't clean satisfactorily


then I think I'm not very good at ironing so we will need to figure that out, okay how about you then


like changing light bulbs and all that sort of thing, that's true that's true, how about if we can, we need to do that it's our house


it's not sustainable and you don't want, to eat so much MSG nonsense you will get fat, our kids will be unhealthy


you want them to grow up and be healthy, okay I want them to be healthy, I know, okay we can split up, like for example the okay but I I would appreciate doing it with you


like, ya like to be honest I always feel a bit like, I like to scrub it off then it makes me feel happy it's like yay it's gone I don't like rinsing


ya, like for example actually I always feel very uncomfortable when I see like for example, like your dad will sit there and then wait for your mum to like scoop the rice for him as well as for like all the siblings I know it's not, always the case but


I just don't I would feel uncomfortable if you sit there and wait to be served, as in I'm just telling you lah that like next time, oh because right, I realize because like last time I was talking to one of the patients you know when I was doing the scholar project interviews


so she was we were talking about other things and like how, whether the patient's anorexia has affected her personally that kind of thing like, then she was saying that even though she's more busy taking care of the patient, but her kids are quite old and quite self dependent, they are willing to like cook and clean and everything by themselves and by the time they come home


they set they cook their own dinner and they will clean up the kitchen, and then she was saying that actually how to train that from young is, that you just teach the kid you give the kids responsibility so like teach them how to bring out the rubbish even though, they do it slowly and they make a mess but


at least like just forcing them to be independent, and then you help them, like with fine tuning that skill but I think it's like empowering them from a young age and also, show setting the example for example if I'm telling my son hey go and wash your dishes but


my husband is just sitting there and waiting for me to wash his dishes, that's not an example that it speaks, it's very important lah, ya and actually I was thinking right like we can


get like plastic bowls and stuff and like I mean maybe we'll get like one nice set of glass crockery, yes I agree, ya ya I think that makes sense too ya ya definitely ah


but then like you know cause you always have, bowls and cup, I don't need it to be very fancy but I I would like it to look nice, as long as it's practical ya ya ya obviously we can't afford a chandelier dear


fairy lights you can get from Bangkok , no ya, ya I know I I you know my taste is not really like that, okay


okay, the corners ya ya


to the extend it doesn't affect your nose, and it's like I think it will be nice to have a field, but I'm not that type of girls that has like to sleep with ten soft toys I have enough problems coping with one jellybeans, because it takes up space on the bed, and that's why I hug my no what at home I have my own bolster


so he will sleep beside me and then I will then I just rotate, ya but anyway when we have a king size bed there will be plenty of space, my throat is starting to hurt from all the talking


oh ya okay, I have my own water also okay wait next question, oh my okay I'll drink your bottle, okay I'll drink your bottle okay


which literary character do you most identify with this will be interesting, you think about it when I drink water


we can answer both oh ya


okay can , okay answer oh ya which literally architect do you identify most with


okay that's true okay another question then, what stresses or de stresses you, so the lack of control lah


really but even if the situation sucks


okay


ya like when we have, true, oh ya okay


ya (ppb), oh this is quite a interesting question because just yesterday like, someone was posting on, Insta-Story like you know, just a sort of sad post I think because of her childhood


wasn't that great cause her parents got issues, then , then like so she was just saying how she always felt like from young she didn't have a true home, like in a sense because home like the house she that stays is not necessarily her home lah


you get what I mean, ya and then how she was saying how she felt very happy in RC four, like she felt like it was her home, until I think some some problems happen last year, ya so then she was just saying that, she's learn to recognize that home is not necessarily a tag to a place


but as with people, and its not necessarily a constant for her but it's a, like I mean she can find that sense of belonging and, comfort, different situations along the way


ya, ya, so I was just thinking like (hmm), I don't know where's my true home, like (hmm), I guess home feels like home because


when I'm at home I can let my guard down and, just relax, ya like the the the the (ppb), the chance to just relax and


not have to put on a front, but I think it would also be nice to have my own space which is why I really miss like, hall room ya but I feel its so inconvenient cause it's so far away, so I guess next time when you have your own house, I think it would be nice to have a space where we can sit down and focus and study


ya but the thing is like, things tend to get, like things tend to pile up, and take up space, if we don't like clear things regularly, so it's important not to clutter around


for both our, of course ah I would dryer but they said dryer is very energy intensive


but what are those in okay what if we have those indoor hanging rack, okay that's true cause if it's in the kitchen, like or like in the balcony, balcony


true and then we will still be quite tired, okay lah if we can afford one we can get a dryer, I know it's quite troublesome ya I know it's troublesome


ya and it may damage some clothes, so for some like, ya as in but for some clothes that are more like, like I think, for example someone says like some told me like socks or something they don't put in the dryer because it will shrink or whatever lah but


as in we should still have some space to hang up some other clothes but, I I would consider a dryer lah if we can afford it, we can have like a foldable sort of rack for the other small things


ya then we just wash in one shot, [huh] I would say my standard is every week


of course not, ya we can do when we are both free lah


ya lah like so when we are I mean or if necessary one of us just do first [loh] because, it's not realistic to share all the chores and all the work, and we take on different things, ya it's just the folding part that ya [loh] and I think that is true


it will get crumpled, no it will get crumpled, nevermind ya, ya or if not you can fold clothes while I iron


or vice versa maybe you might be better at ironing, yes dear there will be somethings I need to be ironed, is about how we approach money


it may not be the absolute cost, how we choose to spend money is something that like, I think we must be responsible about, is not that bad is is quite simple is just the more complicated or like is recognising the fabrics which cannot be iron or like


ya, I know I think maybe we can just iron the things that need to be iron like for example some stuff I know, like we don't need to iron everything right we can get you those shirts that don't need to be ironed


ya like we invest one source in that and then ya they have like I think it was from, from some G two kay or some sort of brand lah like or Uniqlo, like basically some sort of fabric that is like, doesn't need you to iron it


and for me most of my dresses like is okay if you don't iron, is not like just some certain particular items if it really looks very bad then I'll rather just iron it, ya I'm not going to iron everything please, your mum even irons all your tee shirts you know


ya I'm I I don't provide that standard of services sorry, ya cause if you want that you can do it yourself , okay what activity do you enjoy doing most with your family


yes I can tell, true


yes


okay, that's pretty good like , combination of skills, oh that sounds like James


!wow! (ppb), oh, oh so you have to like shoot at it and then when it


ya because it will get there right, !wow!


it's too late already, but if it's too how to say, I'm just thinking more of like is it , but if you shoot it out of the sky then how do you fly it


oh but won't it damage


so you can't see it, okay, ya, !hah! that's terrible


!wow!, I'm cold can we turn down, it's there it's the remote it's there, okay be careful ah you try to, okay, I think for my family we


actually nowadays we only spend time together eating , it was quite funny lah i was talking to my team then Jimmy also ya actually nowadays my family we just eat together only , ya, okay lah as in but like actually we spend time together just by doing our own thing together like yesterday I was doing


my uncle and my brother was using his phone and my mum was trying to do her Bible studies, and like just being in the same room together you know it's nice I like that feeling, like my family is there, ya and then after that my brother was like eh Jie can we watch cells-at-work and I was like okay fine


it's quite cute, ya maybe you can watch it with James it's nice to teach him Bio, ya it will explain things like for example, the red blood cell is this character red hair and red clothes and then she carries this box of oxygen and then she's always trying to find her way around, and then the platelets are like little toddlers they are so cute


ya, oh so the toddlers like, they have these fibrin nets used like fishing nets so they they have this coagulation factor ringing, then the leader platelet's like okay now we just


ya ya then after that you clip it together then it forms this big fibrin, net to cover up up the whole hole, it's just called coagulation factor, ya so there was one episode when there was once episode in the skin and is about how they


then like all the bacteria that were like blowing in and then the what the neutrophils go and kill all the bacteria, ya I think you should watch it with him I think he will like it, and then I watch with my brother lor, ya then there was one episode then I was like killer T cells and naive T cells


then naive T cells is this like, wimpy guy that runs away from every fight, and then after that he yeah and then all the killer T cells make fun of him, ya okay lah but is quite cute I really like the the creativities the concept is quite cool


no I'm okay now no now is okay


ya so is at least is not straight at you uh oh your turn to pick, quite a lot leh yeah I think so, ya is not bad


I don't think that I'll be able to eat much, okay if I know that I'm because there's anorexia towards the end of life our patients are severely ill, they just don't have appetite, as a loss of appetite that's one that's like emotional stress everything which worsens their appetite


then there's also health issues for example patients with, like coloratura cancer or like esophageal cancer they will have dysphagia, yeah so actually I don't think they can eat but if, I could, I would, I would eat a little bit of everything


actually I was thinking about it like cause you know my last, like I went out for dinner the day before with my family the day before the day before my wisdom teeth surgery and that was sort of my last supper, ya so we went to like you know in , Suntec there's that


uh Pasarbella you know the place with a lot of different kind of food stalls so you order a bit of everything not everything but a bit of a few different things to try, yeah sometimes is quite nice, what would you eat curry chicken


ice cream milk shake, oh-my-god


there's true like you know you won't make it to lunch right, milkshake, exactly ya


I know I definitely won't be able to eat, ya


but that's also makes me think about like why do, like everyone's just running away from death, and sometimes maybe if we're able to overcome that fear of it, then we can live a lot more liberated, lives


but it's human to fear death, ya it's the lack of control and the the unpredictability which is quite, true I mean we sort of


do but we don't really know either, oh ya like whether you have pain right


that's true, oh-my-gosh yesterday I had this dream, so I dreamt that I was at someone's house, I think it was your house, but it wasn't it didn't look like your house so then there was this , sort of basement thing so you were looking for something


then there was this big, like big tall like around this size, cardboard box and when you open it there was someone inside, but that person wasn't dead, she had some sort of


some sort of brain problem like, like she was normal and then there was some sort of brain problem so, we couldn't revive her and then I was so freaking out lah, then like so we trying to find a way to like, revive her and stuff, so then, it was some sort of hydrocephalus or I don't know what


it made more sense in the dream than it does in reality but, ya so I was really no no no so it was really scary, so like I told someone about it then they were like okay come we go and find so then, we went to find this person and what she did was like it's like take off the mask that they were wearing and stuff so they have fresh air and wake them up and then slowly they


recovered but I just remember it was very like disturbing dream, so I think that's why this morning I was still really tired I spent, ya it was scary, okay


eh shit now I'm scared okay okay it was the question again, oh last supper, okay, kay but I think it doesn't matter


oh okay, cause your it will it will break the control I I mean, then your Cthree to five is gone already your diaphragm is paralysed and you die


no you know I think you are like, cause you can see, ya as in they are just like, trying to like pull it off, I might have read this book where like, basically this girl committed suicide because and she just gave birth she's a young mother


and then she committed suicide because she thought her child was dead, and then then outside there was some nonsense like some, dodgy signs like how oh the child wasn't actually dead but there was like some, very cold temperature so that's why the child didn't


response stimulation and then only after that when like by the time the mother jump off her noose, and then she saw the baby start to cry and then she was struggling to get out but she died, ya that was really very sad, ya it's very sad


okay what is the most important lesson you have learned from your parents I think you would like this question


oh that's so hard, ya (ppb)


but I think it is also because you look up to him a lot so you would give his opinion ya exactly, fair enough


okay, ya (ppb), that's good


I think from my mum I learn the importance of, imagine like being very loving and accepting, like even though I really struggle to do it myself but I can see that it makes a difference


like she's very big hearted, she's really very big hearted like not just generous but, she just cares a lot, even though she will she's quite cynical and she says no she doesn't care but you know that at the end of it ya she does she's just


you know sometimes she's a bit like so tiring, or like I wish you wouldn't talk to me about your problems, or you know when I talk to her about my problems she will [orh], so what do you think I should do (ppb) then I'm like mum are you even listening and then I get really upset


ya, she does lah she's a good person and I think that like, she's very considerate of others, like she she cares about them and which I think is something super important to teach our kids like


I would hate to be someone just self centred all the time, and the thing is that self centred people don't know it, ya, but how do you teach them to not be self centred, you have to lead by example ya


oh ya that's true I guess we just have to have lot of kids like that, okay but they'll drive me crazy


I will leave that to my gynae, because you can pray and wish and hope and read up all you want about water births, but if your child is at a breech position if the gynae says that caesarean is safer I'm going to go for caesarean


but I mean if but I think my, nah I don't want no please I thought I want to go for an epidural I want to see how it feels I want to get through it, my mum was like are you crazy just go for the epidural and I was like no mum I must, like you know


if you're going to have a kid then you must like experience it properly, I don't know I really hate you


(wow) really


he's not the he's not the father, oh that's terrible, no I think the joke makes more sense if you say it makes the father


you said husband, that's awkward, ya but ya so I could have have a, I will I will avoid a epidural


of course, you will get, i'm sure that you tell the roaster person that my wife is going to go into labor anytime soon, say I didn't do the clock earlier ah we will work something out, ya I'm sure they will be understanding


obviously lah your own child was being born, I'm sure they will understand, unless really really cannot like if it's like a like super fast thing but I'm sure usually they would like let they will understand lah


not much, because if you wanna get married before you start work then, then we wouldn't wanna take took long of honeymoon what, i know I think after four days overseas you'll be, after SIP before work right


ya because before work there will be like orientation briefings and all that so I'll rather that you, actually I think before work right is more important to just rest, enjoy time with each other enjoy time with your family and then, attend everything prepare as much as you can


so I would actually I would say lah for example like we get married like the week before then maybe like, Sunday to Wednesday we go honeymoon then Thursday Friday weekend, come back and prepare a bit so that at least the weekend before you can actually like


also can but then then we cannot go for honeymoon or we push back the honeymoon


but actually if we, if you go according to the week we could even get married after I finish my MBBS, okay but then, so essentially you get married and then we just postpone the honeymoon but then the thing is that is a bit hard be you are going for electives


and the electives system is very, I think it make more sense to get married after you finish your MBBS, during the SIP lah


that's true so like for example like ya that's true or we could have like for we could get married on the second last weekend, of SIP, ya for example Saturday we get married Sunday we


and then Sunday said <unk> already then after that then or like can have a staycation, and then Monday go back to work, and then but it's a bit weird leh, ya Monday go back to work no then the week after that Monday to Friday then Saturday to


just go on a holiday together and let's not go into details okay but we can think about it, ya but I I think we don't need a very long trip anyway, ya exactly (ppb) it's like just


ya and that's so tiring no lah I think three four days is good, because I would rather that you have more time to rest and recuperate before work it's not worth it three to four days, we can just go to like Bali or somewhere


ya, because no the thing is that after MBBS like before the wedding itself you will also need some time to prepare, then like I don't really want I don't really want that to crash your MBBS so example all the what phototaking and whatever nonsense


ya, ya but we can keep it simply lah, but I mean like cause after M four is a bit hard for you, because like I mean there's very little time


unless they change it such that you get more holiday, I would like it also, ya, if we're earning an income


as in my family with what, for the first year, no like as in our family are also paying for the wedding, like are your parents going to like chip in (ppb) ya lor cannot then


we have we both have savings, but of course we don't blow a lot of it, but I think we have to talk to our families lah, as in as long as it's not completely paid by one side, I think that's fine, ya but I'm a firm I don't believe in all the


as in I don't believe in like the making you like you know how they before they they like, no lah I'm saying more like you know before you go and treat the wife then you must like go through all the stupid tasks, and pay a lot of money in #ang-bao#s and all that which


I feel like it's a bit degrading, okay but I guess it's also the, it's also meant to signify that you're suppose to treasure your wife, ya okay I'll just, adjust Lorraine's expectations


and you have to get custom gengar from Japan oh get a wedding gengar, that would be so cute, okay we'll figure something out


uh she already had like thirty gangars, exactly so I'm just saying that two may not be, okay okay you just get special gengars, oh okay


okay, sorry I still love you , I think this close friend must be very blind then


okay no actually actually no but this links back to this links to what I was talking to my team about, the other day so it's quite interesting we went for lunch, with uh I think Haresh and Sean didn't join us so it's me Adriel, Jolene and Jimmy so we were talking about


just chit chatting about random things lah like, like oh it was quite interesting cause we started about like , for example like oh what would you uh like , like for example would if your, would you allow your children to go overseas with their like boyfriend or whatever


and then if that then would you talk to them about contraception and things like that so like it's actually like more like your values and your, stuns towards certain issues, and then after everything we'll tell him about friendzoning, so actually I think the concept of friendzone is


an excuse, it's an excuse because you don't want to tell someone what's wrong why you don't wanna be with them, for example if I think you are if I think someone is ugly and I don't wanna be with them, you can't say, sorry I can't be with you cause you are ugly say


sorry I just see you as a friend, and the reason why you see him as a friend is because they are ugly, for example, so actually I don't think that there is such a thing as a friendzone because I believe that the best relationships are the ones that start off as, friends, because then you have a clear and


unskilled view point of their personality their, goals their who they are as a what, oh no Andrew you can put inside here I'm done with this bread I'm done with the bread, ya I'm not a fan of the too much yam


okay ya but anyway so oh careful the inside is sticky, ya oh but anyway, ya so I I don't really believe in the friend zone because, like Adriel was saying he thought like oh you know maybe, like for example if


you like your best friend, you're not sure whether to tell the person is it better to say earlier later that kind of thing and then he said oh like, it's better to say it later because I mean it's better to say earlier because the later, you tell someone the more likely they are to just see you as a friend


then I was thinking actually no I don't agree with that at all because like ya lor, so I think that, I I disagree with the concept of friendzone, it's an excuse


if you (ppb), ya exactly it's just like oh no you're just a friend you're just a friend


ya and some more it doesn't, okay but maybe you really don't see them in that way


okay that's true because you may it it could be a good idea, doesn't mean it could be a bad idea (ppb), ya I think so that's true


but the problem is after that if it doesn't work out the friendship is gone


no the friendship is is never the same, okay lah can still be friends for sure ya


not compatible, I guess that's the thing about lying ya lor can try dating I guess, is like Clara and Ernest they dated for a while but , which I think is a good thing they didn't work out cause very different


think she's okay quite happy, sometimes like okay like Ernest was telling me that actually, like cause I talk to him about it, then he will say like oh thanks for telling me then he said actually


he heard some not so nice things about Clara which is why, that makes him hesitate a bit as well as the experience of dating they see that they have some differences, then I just thinking ya so why does he hear these things about Clara, she's not a bad person per se but I think maybe the main thing is she doesn't really


sometimes she does things even though she knows that it's not wise, but is just a part of her and I accept that, and I do see over the years that she has been making effort too, to prioritise the right, things and the right people like I know that now she makes me a priority


so I think I do appreciate that, but ya I'm just thinking like why then, these issues but I mean there are always like rumors and shit going around lah, and it doesn't help that like you know last time there was some issue with that guy I don't know lah whatever lah ah tired


I'm tired of talking, okay next question okay you can talk more, whose question was it, oh your question okay this one is mine then


oh which personality trait do you dislike most about yourself, you have an opinion on your opinion


sounds like Adriel, when they do it lah, so how can you consciously make yourself listen


okay, ya, true because you will still hold firm to your stance unless they are very persuasive


(ppb) or unless they are really very right, that's true, ya ya


okay I think that's good, ya, we can work on that together don't worry, laziness yes, true


ya I quite like this game, I think it's more meaningful than talking about the weather no I don't, as it cause I saw the cards, it's been cold lately


of course I saw the cards when he was showing us, so I guess that's probably like, which I think is I I enjoy more, I think I dislike my


I don't know things in general (hmm), maybe okay maybe the underlying problem is how I see myself, okay next your turn


you're not a possession, then you know how I got my engagement ring so okay next , how long did it take okay no !hah!, oh ya my oh ya I don't want to lose but


ya it'll be a lot more problematic when I lost my phone but


oh ya that's true, maybe is cause you're like a mini version of your dad, ya I think so too


interesting, oh poor James, gorgeous, maybe cause he's insecure about his like his appearance


describe the worst date you've ever been on, !oh! this interesting, you've never dated any other girl right, but you went out with Kai-Lin right


why did you bring a guitar, I'm cringing on your behalf I feel, bad for you


oh dear, I think your perception of relationships, oh dear okay so, I think maturity lah [huh] learning that like learning that social appropriateness matters


yes well I think she's just not interested in you


I guess we learn, charisma


because if I had charisma, is a lot easier to get what you want, and so is something you can use for good, when it say something like what flying and teleportation I mean, it would be very complicated, and then there's also the whole issue on like you know


because you have more power you're obliged to use it for good and then kill every single Marvel movie whatever, ya I will rather have a normal power and be ordinary I don't want to be super


maybe charisma or let's see, wisdom, why


ya but I don't need that and come and think about it if you're under the fly, and then people see me flying that causes a lot of problems and then the government will come and shoot you down, ya so I'll rather have something ordinary yes I am very practical


uh ya, oh I though you meant the power as in you can hide easily, oh ya ya okay then, but why is it knowledge


I think knowledge is, ya (hmm)


but but doing anything well will make you proud, kay lah, kay fair enough I see your point at the end of the day it's just, how you use it


okay, what are procrastinating now , okay well seven more minutes, okay


I think, finish hypothyroidism then revise is it, because I think ECG you mostly can understand pick up quite fast, it makes sense to you but I think, okay then should go and revise lah but I think you finish the hypothyroidism notes first


notes ah, oh you can watch the video !hah!


oh okay, oh so is easier to note a pattern in that geographical distribution lah


but it's sort of localized geographically what it's like like that, then like that then like, ya oh ya that's true, true, okay


changes ya actually and you know there's that , ECG library that that that resource on on NTU library website, there's like videos that explain ECG I think can be quite helpful, since you learn better from videos than like reading stuff anyway


ya and is quite good cause it will it will show you like the pictures ya can lah, actually I think then after that you should go read up on heart failure cause every patient heart failure and acute coronary syndrome those you know those two really well


oh okay so acute coronary syndrome is a acute event, ischemic heart disease and what happens after as as in the whole process of like you know arteriosclerosis then, plaque rupture and thrombosis, that causes acute coronary syndrome so acute coronary syndrome refers to semi


non semi and unstable angina, ya that means like sudden acute worsening of chest pain blah blah blah, ya so then ischemic heart disease is a is a, ya so ischemic heart disease is a overarching term


ya okay, what is a dealmaker that is oh is it your turn, kay, oh-my-gosh, I don't know leh actually I think there have been many sad moments


but I don't think there's one that's the most sad, how can I say no, is true though I am happier now, I remember there was one time I went out for


uh dinner with my mom like me Jia-Yi my mom and, her friend and her daughter we went out for dinner, so then we went for dessert somewhere and then after that


oh we ordered snapple like one bottle of snapple for us to share, then I went my sister dropped something so I went to help her get another fork or something so when she came back, when I came back she had already finished like all the snapple like the last bit and I was very sad very upset


because, is like know I helping you and then you just never think and you just selfish finish it, as a kid lah so, I was very very sad and I started crying and my mom was like it's okay we can buy another snapple and then I realise it's, not really the snapple which matters


the thought that, no one that that, people don't care enough to remember, I think that's the sad part like I think what makes me sad in general is, if people don't care about me


ya if I'm not important and no one ask I am not important than anybody which is why the whole elective thing makes me sad sometimes because, I feel as if like, you know everyone has their own cliques and then that makes me feel, ya


so although like, cause I was talking to some of my team but Adria was like, no lah I mean like cause he then he was saying like oh, I was saying that it made me quite stress, because I didn't know who to go with then he was like no but then like why then I was like oh because I didn't have a clear clique in school


then he said oh but you don't you are not a contraindication I'm sure if you go somewhere and like, there's also like a few other people who go together they will be very happy to take you in, but then I was thinking ya so actually the issue is just the feeling of like being like, unimportant


ya I would do all the dishes and I will plan stuff and I will never get everyone around and be useful to keep, but generally I make myself useful


I think it would be okay lah, no one decided I'm not, because I would rather go back ya I would rather go back there with my family and with you, we can do driving ya I think it would be nice to drive around with my family and then like there's me you and my mum and my sister we can all drive


and then my brother can go, can lah no lah as in we will see how lah but at least there would be more driver so it will be safer and I know my family wants to go back, and like with family you can spend more and it's safer you know what I mean whereas if I go with two friends then it's like


Sian and what you going to talk about all the way, I would love to go back with you and like experience it together you know, next time lor, ya because if I'm going to fly all the way there I want to make it matter, I realize from like last time travelling to Europe that time with Clara that I don't really like


just rushing around, one place just see touch and go and then leave I don't really like that so I would rather, like take this chance go back to explore UK like other parts of UK like Brighton I want to go back to Paris and eat the croissants, ya and then like I can visit Dundee


ya but I don't really want to stay in Dundee also, I think so I may not apply for Dundee, oh wait what was your question again


oh what is the saddest moment of your life, ya you forget to write easily, oh eh, it's two hours seventeen minutes already


ya, okay, oh okay if you only had one more year to live what would you change about your life now, ya okay that's true


would you drop out of school


so what else would you do then (ppb), that's true cause it limits your capacity


okay so I assume you are looking at the same picture of the, beach thing and a lot of things with me is it, okay uh let's divide this into like quadrants first okay so let's take the top left quadrant, kay what I see, uh describe the stuff in the blue first okay so not counting the not counting the signs I I don't know whether you see signs in the bottom part of the left quadrant okay so


I see a person uh fishing he's wearing a yellow, top and a green bottom, and and black shoes and white hat he seems to have a beard you see that as well, light blue ah okay uh, palish blue okay okay I I cut out the sky !aiya! okay I think it's the same thing lah I would describe it as white


ya okay and in the water I see a grey shark fin pointing towards the left, like it's a curve on the left side straight on the right, same direction, kay the fishing rod uh what do you see


okay is there anything you want to end off the line mine does not have right it's just a line, okay nothing then I okay, what about to his right I see a seagull and three three green fish jumping off the water and the seagull's pointing towards the left, ah ya there are a total of two seagulls if you're talking about the one on the so the one on the


left side is smaller both the rings are below the length line of the water level as it might be towards the length, there are suppose to be twelve differences right we are suppose to stimulate conversation for a very long time, I think so you wanna out your mic a little bit closer to your mouth right you think it may be a bit


uh ya it is better okay just a bit okay, so the second seagull on the right of it is pointing towards uh the top right of the page it is flying towards the top right of the page, oh mine one no okay one of mine is flying towards the left of the page, now kay so that one one difference


ya okay the three fish , uh there are arranged in a triangle it's kind of like a okay there's one at the top and two at the bottom of the triangle sort of, so the one on the top is facing towards the left, the one on the bottom left is facing towards the right


the one on the right is facing uh okay not really the right lah, yes correct ya both of them ya then the one on the top is oriented towards the top left of the page, is it the same for you, okay uh any any differences in the man say again he's wearing a supposedly


ya he also has a beard thing is it, ya okay I his what kind of his what is his skin is it white, beige ah close enough lah, I mean that suppose in his country is uh close enough lah


okay this is different from me mine says learn to dive with Paul okay so this is one difference, okay the second one is the seagull okay what's green sign say other than the arrow, okay mine is different also mine says North Shore Golf Club, okay this is pretty obvious, ya okay so that's three as well okay that's just pay much everything


suppose so okay there's more or less everything covered in the okay the the, the brown building let's talk the bottom left corner shall we, okay let's talk about the building okay it's a grey roof yours, same, patterns on the roof no mine is blank, uh the foot it says foot track and blue the background is blue and then the sign words itself are white


uh oh okay mine says food shack okay so it's different, can ya then mine the the words are capitalised, the windows, okay, uh there are nine windows panes it's uh three by three grids, same, okay the door


mine actually has a uh the, window thingy on top so is like two doors at the bottom there the window thingy on top okay so what colour are the windows and the doors, pale blue, slightly more blue than the roof, ya okay I think is blur lah any way the differences are pretty obvious


the heart itself is like brown, ya it's different from the colour of the sign board but, it's brown nonetheless, ya any issue anything outside the do you see anything outside the this building


oh okay mine is different crayfish shellfish lobster, okay so there's a total of four eh four four five what's the fifth one, there's this oh ya there was the, oh the sign right okay okay ya okay so there's one two three four five okay


ya, okay never mind we just describe it anyway lah then we can keep this one going from did he say there was a time limit to this not really right, okay may I saw keep going this like primary school but better it's quite fun actually okay let's talk about


that sounds about right, okay let's talk about the are there people sitting near the heart, yes okay


okay


okay wait wait wait, okay can I can I just clarify that this is the person between the two people who are sitting this person is on the left or the right, he's on the right okay for me the person the person you are describing is sitting on the left, yes, and neither does he have those obnoxious red socks


okay so that's seven things, uh how how low do his pants go mine are just above the knee, okay he's sitting on an orange chair in my picture, the chair is oriented towards the right of the picture it's facing towards the right, uh more more towards the right but sort of bottom right


more more towards the right lah, uh that that that's true as well okay so that that makes, okay so which side of the man


okay mine is on the left side of the man, I, uh ya my if you were to look at the seagulls like on the top left of the picture draw straight line down it cuts through the radio so it's somewhere around there and beside the chair


ya okay so that's, okay the woman on my picture she's sitting on the right she's sitting on a blue chair, her hair is grey and curly she's wearing spectacles her forehead is wrinkled, uh her blouse thing uh swimsuit and blouse I don't know women's wear is totally not my thing


uh okay swimsuit I guess it's pink with red flowers on it, the red flowers are homogeneously red in colour, there are a total of five one is in the centre and four in the corners of her uh okay, she's I can't really see it's a small magazine thing of sort it's blue background I'm not sure if I can see the word lore


uh and there's a green, green humanoid trigger on the cover of it, maybe this is Liz I I don't know it's just, I don't know there's a very very very very faint


okay lah maybe maybe maybe I'm just it's probably not the thing, okay anyway she's uh relatively bare from mid thigh downwards uh except that she's wearing red slippers, okay so the woman it's just that the position is inverted


okay, yes this is correct, yes and there are three of those as well


okay what colours a stick and umbrella, black it's same which direction is the stick pointing towards, ya okay kind of slanted slightly towards the left than mine, ya okay close enough lah, yes


okay, okay, ya I think it's probably the same in my mind, sort of yes if a person were to sit into it they'll be pointed that direction, yes and the colours are red white red white uh repeat a total of


uh three times and then one more red, okay so this is probably the same thing, okay here's where I bet you it will be different right at the bottom right there's a sign that says beach combing at eleven AM in my picture, don't have oh so you don't have, there's no sign whatsoever, do you have anything all the way in the bottom right of your picture


nothing, yes okay tell me more about this woman, okay


yes, yes, I suppose so yes and my apologies to whoever translates this


okay say again she's hugging the ball is it, in my picture she is sitting on top of the ball with her hands resting on the ball, okay kind of dangling behind the ball, well okay so this is different how many how many differences is that again, okay I'll I'll assume you can keep track of where they are my


i kind of forgot , no Singlish no Singlish later the, supposedly we are suppose to only converse in English i'm, but that doesn't really constitute uh Singaporean slang right okay I don't know we


(ppb) okay so directly above this women there's a seesaw, on the left side is on the ground and it's uh has a orange, spherical thing on it, and it, oh it's a seat


I suppose so yes it might be a seat , I will say in-between , in-between and then the right size elevator and it's white, white seat


on both sides ah okay, ya ten, you saying ten right, okay let's go to ya, yes that's a black handle bar, yes, it's a curve thing like a semi circle or sorts, okay can


okay so he's facing the bottom right is it towards the right, okay can, so he is on the left side of the table is that correct, okay so seated on the left side of the table facing towards the centre of the table


okay can, okay you see again, ya, gone, yes


yes, your colour descriptions are way better than mine, is a man wearing sunglasses, oh okay I forget that sorry, okay ya go on


yes okay I agree with that, yes okay I think we're describing the same thing okay the bottle of wine what colour is it, red okay and the back, yes red and the white label and then the words which direction does it go for mine it goes from bottom left to top right


then the glasses they are only half filled, about there, okay I think it's about the same so the bottle of wine is in the center and then the two wine glasses are on the left and the right, okay so I don't think there's any difference in this one


okay I suppose all about even more words okay I suppose that will be where, maybe we describe this in too much detail, my condolences whoever transcribes this, okay so let's see on the top right there's a large build, rectangular box box building box shaped building


uh there's a sign in the a sign in the top middle saying bar it's a brown background, it has black words uh on the roof of the roof of this building is actually a thin strip of white, ya and then the rest of the build itself is red


there's a, close enough to me lah it's, all right I'll I'll dark pink, okay in the on the right of the building there are two garbage bins, oh hello ya there are two garbage bins and they are filled with


they are filled with some sort of trash lah there's like red trash there's blue trash and there's pink trash and there's a little bit of pink trash on the ground beside the left most, I have no idea, spa maybe people puke into it, uh yes both of them are half like


ya, ah okay yes most of them are open, do yours have wheels on them, yes, yes okay then I only see three bills in the picture


okay so going back to the building the door itself is pink on the right side of the bottom right, side of the front of the building with the round circular window in the top middle of it, uh oval lah okay lah oval lah is suppose to be more of a perception area perception thing


uh okay then to the left of that there is a window then the background you can see, no mine does not have a sign on it, is it, I thought that was eleven, oh we found a dustbin, right okay so let's read


uh mine says special offer peach wine, okay so that's it, you think so, how many differences were there supposed to be again, okay okay let's recap one of them is a bird


this one, okay okay so we are allowed to switch is it okay okay let's let's switch okay I assume we found, all the, that's true okay you can go on I'm I'm just looking at these pictures for half interest oh okay


oh the red socks are the difference, ah okay okay so that's where we messed up I thought you say the oh you meant right, in terms okay I meant the right of the picture yes I meant the right of the picture, okay okay never mind it doesn't matter we sort of got the


ya go on then then what's in the card, just looking at this out of curiosity, what are we supposed to do small talk, okay, epitaph how would you how would you want to be remembered


is it gonna be food related I'm just kidding


doesn't really matter I just don't want to trouble my miscellaneous relations from having to visit me once a year and take up extra space, man that's expensive in Singapore , it keeps falling off ah


it's a bit soft actually sometimes okay I hope the uniform looks okay ya ya ya the uniform looks okay, it should be alright


this this is why we this is why you may not want to do palliative medicine, okay ya that's true lah I suppose, okay this is why your cousin should not do palliative medicine, eh it's okay


bye, okay


how do you fit that on an epitaph it's suppose to be one of those snappy one liners, uh that's true, fair enough what about burial


that's true as well I don't even know whether burial will be legal, and then then people have an excuse to not show up , there's no obligation to, fly to somewhere


well but they will be have to be the ones paying though we won't be around anymore, I suppose, that will be quite that will be quite nice, I just hang on to it lah just put it in the house somewhere


ya until the other person kicks the bucket then we can scatter ashes together, I remember that now I threaten to pour daddy down the toilet bowl, oh dear


uh in the garden uh there won't be a garden anyway I don't think it is very practical in Singapore land is so scarce already, it doesn't matter we are already dead we wouldn't notice, (ppb) it doesn't matter lah see you upstairs


ya, ah but either way I either pay already we already signed the form for MTERA the the medical education training and research, eh no what was this stands for MTERA is medical training and education


research, authorization, act right, (ppb) okay, so I don't know how much there will be left of me but that time they are done with, it's okay lah I won't be around to feel anything


ah whatever the case lah I don't really want people to visit me anyway I always find it very tedious when like I have to go visit miscellaneous relations, most of the time okay lah it as in it matters for the people who knew the people, but for a person like me who I don't even know the person then is just like, okay


ya oh well, so, I don't know for me I wouldn't really want oh okay fine it's my turn to talk ya go on go on, depressing talk poor transcriber, happiest moment of my life, oh that's a good idea okay I'll put that there happiest moment of my life


I suppose one of the happiest moments of my life is when we got together , ya I suppose so, ya , never kissed the girl before


must make the transcriber feel feel awkward okay okay don't do it for your for your sake whoever is listening to this we shall make you not feel awkward, (ppb) okay shall I move on to the next question


but you're neurotic dear , you always worry, okay lah but yours are not bad moment as well, not bad moment, what are there happy moments there's a lot of happy moments ah, think is just a happy phase in life


okay the the waveform is getting a little bit small when we move it there okay okay we need to, adjust it a little bit okay that's a bit better for me I just need to be, uh ya yours is a bit a bit more a bit closer


ya okay that looks good, alright but just leave it there okay so my turn to ask your question, so let see influencer which of this symbols best describe you minus plus times divide or equal, I'm serious that's on the question


I have no idea you can interpret the question in any way you want, okay can you reach the card, plus why plus


that's true I suppose, it's an interesting question okay but, honestly I don't really know how to interpret this, I think I would just prefer not to be the divide sign, like I don't want to be the, the cause of division


oh that's what it means that's what it means negative positive, I suppose so like if you you, you like people's equals maybe just a very


phantom kind of person, you just kind of fits in all sorts of social groups but isn't really a influencer maybe, me, I I don't know I think my personal preference is to just be a ninja, although I'm generally a bit positive ya


I suppose so, how well can I cook or bake, okay thus far my biggest achievement would be not burning down the kitchen I suppose does that count, okay then that one that one's not too bad


not okay aside from the time where I didn't know that, you had to Smoosh the, I didn't know you had to Smoosh in the lumps of flour , yes I suppose so, and the thought of like eating two or three times the amount of pancakes that


we originally wanted, ya well I felt kind of bad Jo Pang kept eating the, the pancakes and the side luncheon meat and like veggies and then it was actually not bad kind of tasty, ya I did that then people started shoving other stuff into it it became a crepe


okay lah but is my, I'm, in my head I'm I'm thinking of it more and more as a crepe ah but my dad likes to think of it as a pancake I think is cause it's something that his mum used to do, ah but then all like I could never verify first cause I don't speak Cantonese ya my fault


oh dear, starfruit is totally not suitable for people with chronic kidney impairment or dialysis, definitely not, maybe the word dialysis is very important, to talk about medical things in there it'll be useful translator thing, okay later later alright


pet peeves who or what irritates you okay aside from me who or what irritates you, this much, okay I I think so you get really annoyed with people


you don't like self-centered people, and you hate people take advantage of you, you see I know you very well right now, I'm merely giving, words to what you feel, the basis that I know you very well by now


you feel hangry too, sometimes, I suppose so is okay do you feel hungry now I don't feel too hungry, okay that's not so bad so no hangry is hangry even a word


wonder if the translators will have an issue with this okay never mind your turn your card, one of my my closest friends okay so you aside I suppose, I suppose Bang


I think the friendship has evolved over the years so initially it was just because we have a lot of common interest, play a lot of Halo, a music stuff he got me into beat boxing, loads of things, ya but that's how ya but now now that we're both now that we're all in med school I think the friendship has evolved in the sense that we


talk about serious things more, uh I think is more because I have learnt to talk about those things as opposed to him learning, okay I think on his part he's learnt how to open up and share this kind of things with people, ya very very close stuff ya but


I think ever since we got into uni then somehow maybe his brother's influence I don't know he became more, open and more adventurous, you think so, the hair


I suppose so ya, he became more, vibrant, I suppose so


it depends what you mean by length, the top and the bottom and so on for, hierarchy, okay I suppose so


I wouldn't call bang like a leader any particular group to but he's he is popular in a sense that he he is, he's very controlled with what he says he does his best too, believe and speak the best of others which is very good and I need to learn that from him


ya it can really shows lah the only people who have problems with him are the people who kind of have other problems lah, oh well okay never mind let's talk into detail about that


oh is it oh I forgot okay let's, how you pronounce this words, had, is is okay is not English when did you last have a truly meaningful conversation with someone what did you talk about


okay not counting us that that's too easy


suppose so


yeah remind me of a bit of your sister, in the sense that she's very alike, she based left to the party even though she's not necessarily the the always being the mature one, ya


I suppose so, no lah actually between okay lah I suppose off the other details than of them lah super Rara item, ya you all have your serious side is it, yes dear


but the difference is that like they are teenagers you can't expect that same level of maturity out of them that come from you, ya is part of the growing process also lah for us to also learn how to, learn how to matured them do you tell them about when you're leaving


I think sooner rather than later will be better don't spring a surprise on them, and then leave the week after, so when did you actually intend to step down


ya I agree


I think that's quite reasonable, I'm not really sure I was thinking it's also possible that we, okay actually in term of for the, each is is your wave form okay ya it looks okay I


I think, in terms of, ya I suppose alternating would be better, if we are going to continue to save our families and our other current church commitments, ya I think that's that's reasonable you have you have off once every month is it


no youth service once every month, I suppose so


ya okay, shall we change I see your turn or my turn, what is numbers on the card, oh I see, okay


favorite place (hum), that's the tough one I really like the CSP, I mean it's functionally very useful, that's one but of course


it it has more meaning when you see a lot of friends around, (ppb) you hang out with them in the house rooms go to music room sing with medley, you know watch the dancers do their thing study in library, lots of stuffs lah you know chill around and play pool with people in the student lounge


ya it's and it's a very comfy place to take a nap, I like the bean bags, I think it's great, your hall room oh ya I I know you really like your hall room


yes you could keep it clean as much as you wanted, ya I suppose so


(hm) good memories indeed, oh, okay I pick up two cards but it's a let's see, bucket list what's top three on your bucket list


I have no idea people, I don't know I I don't even use bucket very much nowadays, why what's why is why is term bucket list, right, actually yes I think so I think so that's a very good point


go to Europe, travel to Europe, miss me


we'll see but if you're gonna die in a year, okay lah I


depends on, but it's just for symptomatic relieve is it


actually i, actually I thought they did more like <unk> radiotherapy


actually I thought that there was a concept when you intentionally uh irradiate the, whatever mass it is or whatever tumour it is from different angles so you give like loadal radiation let's say anterior to posterior, then after that you give loadal those radiation from lateral and then at the point where it criss crosses know


I will trust your opinion because I've not gone through <unk> yet, okay lah I suppose it makes sense it makes sense yes, so why do they do chemo for spinal involvement I mean sorry not chemo I mean radio radiotherapy for spinal involvement


because, I mean I've seen patients who have like, spinal involvement in whatever metastatic cancer or something like that, as in it's also for symptomatic relief I just wonder like because if you're gonna irradiate from the side you're also gonna catch along the back muscles and whatever posterior structures


just if you rate it interior to posterior gonna irradiate the entire abdomen, digest, that's true but I've done my heme onco week already


ya it doesn't matter next week is cardio week I'm supposed to go and like read up on ECG, after cardio it's back to gen med so about three weeks, ya but I'm looking forward to <unk> though it's three weeks of basically being able to roam around and, and practice approaches at I feel like that I improved a lot in endocrine read because we (ppb)


even though I objectively have studied very little endocrine stuff but, but that being said I supplemented it with a lot of thinking about how to interview patients and present, I can present to you now if you want, okay okay okay we will do something different


we're supposed to it's only been how long, it's okay what I mean it's something to do, let's see, okay but actually that just means it's me talking for like the next one minute or so it's only been thirty seven minutes, no snoring allowed ya it's been thirty seven minutes you know since we started talking but we talking about a lot of things


okay, is that, yes we can go for brunch after this, no, I don't have I don't have any, plans today, uh anything, as long as we study I don't mind having dinner out also my priority is to make sure I study enough for cardio


don't have to we can go anywhere, is up to you, okay we'll see how later, that shows James is done with exams he's very happy


ya oh well, never mind, I I forgot what was the last card, I asked we haven't even answered the question why are we here to talk silly things , ah forget it lah you don't have a bucket list do neither do I


this one, that's true, I just want to be useful you know what I mean, ya use useful and serve god's purpose ya before I die, okay that's not too difficult, no problem we are already almost there engage [liao]


okay okay patience patience, we'll see, is it your turn, we're just supposed to play this endlessly is it, when did I last cry, yesterday, I always cry when when I'm in service usually usually


ya, I don't know just sometimes I'm like I I pray to myself Holy-Spirit can you spare my lacrimal gland, I'm trying to sing here you know that kind of thing is is, a little bit irritating sometimes to be very honest, ya but at the same time


oh ya that's that's that's true okay okay moving on moving on hindsight oh another deep one if you could turn back time, (ppb) what is the one thing you would have done differently


uh that's very visceral, I suppose if you do it that way ya I think is more like you just didn't know you just didn't know


that, it was uh there were there were, other possibilities out there, okay I'm I'm very pleased about your your possibilities yes (ppb) kay kay, is it my turn to flip the card, okay


I don't know no I think you you ask uh no I ask you this question okay is your turn, what would I do differently (hmm), I don't know actually, maybe I would have been, I regret being being too inflexible during BMT I think that's a


ya, okay it was a good learning experience is just that I feel that it's a bit of a pity that because of that I, because of that I had a lot of difficulty getting along with people all the way through, until I went to SI, ya it was it was because of that experience