that's going through things together, yeah at your lowest point but I I hate it when K one that's that's the thing that's uh about loyalty, then if I'm if I was there when you were at your lowest, like, like no I don't expect you to be


here when I'm at I when I'm at lowest but I expect you to still be around when you're not low, you get I mean when you are at the happiest when you get the things that you want because of how I let it to be or how I correct you, and then you suddenly just disappear and that sucks ah


yes exactly so you can like, like you know I I'm not being selfish, to the extent where like oh when I'm done I expect you to be there I don't care because I can settle things on my own I want you to be around when you are still happy, I think how that's suppose to be lah thick and thin


okay next, oh shit, but we have we have a lot though, okay in between break okay then okay let's have break


can you name me the call signs from A to Z, yes


golf, okay H, H is H is is the easiest call sign because it's a it's used one of the most, casualty conveyed to, no, ya correct hospital but you don't say hospital one or hospital two you say hotel


ya so H is hotel ya, okay H I, yes L, it's a number in Malay, ya lima ya ya H I J K L M


person's name, , Mike, uh okay N, it's a month, yeah oh


it's a person's name, yes and I mean the O P, yeah, what do we always say for police, no, as in call sign for police, yes correct papa papa Charlie P N N O P Q


yes, you are, Sierra


Q R S Sierra, R S T, T is easy, tango yankee tango Q R S T U, something you wear yes U V, person's name


Victor, T U V W whiskey, uh the X, X, yes and with S T U V W X Y


Z is zulu okay, there you go, ya I have to, okay alpha bravo, alpha bravo Charlie delta echo Foxtrot, golf, hotel India lima


J juliet J K kilo, L Lima, kilo Lima L M, M is mike N November O Oscar, Q R L M N O P papa, Q Quebec


R romeo S Sierra T tango U uniform V victor, TV W whiskey W X Xray, Y yankee Z zoo, I had I had like went through a lot


shit for that, okay now back to the card, catch and release, this is gonna be tough for you how do you know when you let how do you know when to let go of someone


okay


okay, just left it in leave it in oblivion


okay but that's


how to, let go this is how do you know when, to let go of someone


okay I I am basically the psychiatrist or the therapist for my, circle of friends, so, I've, been through and like, me personally I went through one toxic relationship, but my uh I have countless of friends who went through toxic relationships


so one of it was, uh, to the extend of, physical violence, but, one one relation to, all of it was I noticed was codependents, codependents being


one not being being able to, live or carry their lives without the other party, yes so if if you are codependent and you forget how to live on your own, uh that's one major issue that


you, that's a one big sign that you you know that when you have to move on or like live on your own first, because I strongly feel that if you don't know how to take care of yourself right how are supposed to take care of a family or, someone's daughter


or son you know, because, ya exactly so you have you have to learn you have to learn how to take care of yourself first, before anything else, and then you can, start


like that you can start into moving in or or diving in into a, diving in into a, a relationship, okay so when is it time to move on is when you noticed when


both of you need each other too much, and like when to the extend where you guys are at your lowest point, and then like, you you let's you guys for the solution of it is for you to need, time, alone from each other


but then you guys cannot, cannot commit to that I think that's when you should try to move on, who me no not the mature one just know


I think because for for a long time I was just watching at the sidelines, rather than being in a relationship myself, cause after being in a toxic one I just decided to let go and then just decide to leave, and then like that you know that's why you shouldn't have regrets in your life


like regret meeting this person or regret going to this path because like, through that phase you are the person that you want or not, so moving on, it's yours cause I just ask you the


my true home, okay true for me the the


you can be home without being at home, cause to me the definition of home shouldn't be a, physical, place, you should be, who you with, if let's say you are at a certain place you are thrown into a certain place


to live there on your own, for the rest of your life do you would you consider consider that your home, if it's just you being thrown there forced to live there is it considered to be your home, I don't think so I think home, home is where


you know you get what I mean so when you when you get back, after work you wouldn't feel like oh this is home you know you would just feel like this is a place I'm sleeping, to eat to live you know home is, exactly home is I think home, correlates with comfort and


the people you are with, so it to me for me it's my family and, the people I love, so if my friends are not there my family isn't there, I don't think I'll call it home


do you feel the same


true, see you go back home you get what I mean you go back home you, you don't you don't go back to the place where


maybe you want to to let it vibrate, this one is super sensitive, see, ya super sensitive, right okay mine okay this is nice mutant power


, if you could wake up tomorrow morning with a special ability what would you have


(ppb) there you go, that was in my head also ya


K what what would you what would, what would be the, silliest superpower, the most useless superpower ever, is it no invisibility is not useless


is not okay one thing is not useless because of like if if you're a shy person you can just like, decide to be just invisible, just poof, and then if if you are pervert you can specially you can just poof , so when when you are invisible lah the the only thing


stopping you from, from doing bad things is just your own moral values lah because when you are invisible you can rob a bank, you can, you you can be a peeping tom, when you are you cannot, peep when you teleport people still see your face you know


like you you teleport, one thing I hated about the the Jumper movie though, is that, you know the people chasing them, they can follow the, the whatever the gate that you, through the gate that you live right


if you are running away, why don't you just, teleport, right, you teleport and then the person follow you right but you teleport to the, sky, teleport to the sky and then you fall, and then you, and then you teleport and then the person won't know where's the next gate so he cannot fall towards the dimension and then the person will just die what you


that's the easiest and the like or like, teleport into the bottom of the ocean, teleport to the bottom of the ocean the whole time of the movie I was thinking you guys are not making full use of your power, just teleport to the bottom of the ocean


but yes I would I would love to teleport man, , and then he will see and then you will see, like there oh spray and then like oh this is the gate I'm gonna go to the place where the person went why like the person went to the sky like you just fall to the death


but teleportation is a good power, and it's a power that no one should have because like, imagine if everyone has the power to teleport, it it, it wouldn't be a norm because, everyone teleports to everywhere


there would, because of transport won't be there, and then there's no immigration laws like how you suppose to to like, control the power if, everyone is teleporting and then teleport to different countries and then the whole earth there won't be borders or things like that


correct, I think the the silliest superpower could be like, turning turning


everyday objects into rubber ducks, right you know that will be the silliest superpower you like you are born as a mutant and then you like, every like you can just turn things into ducks not even humans you can just turn things into ducks


the table quack, there's the I think that the the and possibilities is endless too, if you want to think about the silliest superpower, like turn turn good water into, toilet water


why that's a very good superpower , , K next you're on, , why am I looking for a partner


I think like what's the what's the need of you having a partner, what's the reason for having a partner for me is


find someone who can compensate the things that I don't have, like, emotionally the way you live, like something second on loo the person have to compensate, like the person has to be able to like catch lizards


and like it doesn't have to be emotionally emotionally of course, like one has to fire and one has to be water to put out, so you have neutrality, if both is like flaming balls of fire I think it will just


it will be a, toxic relationship well ya it will be in this, that's why opposite attractions I strongly feel opposite attractions with common ground, with no common ground you are just fire and fire, how about you


I think I think someone who who, I think your idea partner would have to be, someone who is, more straight forward, or like ya you need you need people who are straight forward straight to the point


of course, the true life fulfillment life's fulfillment is to have a family, to have a happy, starts with the wife though


a happy life is a happy wife is a happy life, that's so, what do you called that uh that is super, sure


okay, speaking of which, on the idea of smoking, should it be ban in Singapore, oh wait this is political cannot speak, this is kinda okay okay do you think that smoking is there's there are benefits to smoking


that's not political at all


but what was the reason for you to start smoking, there you go you know, I honestly think that stress is the most


horrible reason for you to start smoking though it's the worst possible reason for you to start smoking, because first first thing is you don't even know how it taste, and then like what makes you think it will relieve your stress if you don't know how it taste and how what makes you feel how it makes you feel, for me I think it's mostly peer pressure and


and how it looks damn cool, to smoke , okay it's not cool when you are on streets and then you are people are walking and then you are just blocking their way with their with your like toxic smoke, but then it looks cool in as it looks aesthetically pleasing in pictures in movies


and things like that and then it just, we we we are we oh we all are like, pleased by, so like there's a Malay saying your eyes eat first then your mouth, so that's why when you, that's what uh I I used to learn in the cafe


you have to always the presentation no matter how late the order is you always have to the to focus on the presentation, you will always have to present it nicely be it drinks be it coffee or be it food, cause like in the eyes, feast for the eyes first then the mouth


I yes yes the thing is okay, I wouldn't discourage anyone to smoke honestly cause like it is, social I would say a social catalyst, that breaks, it's that breaks ice you know


like easily easily when when I was in poly honestly if If I didn't smoke I would I I would ya ya ya I wouldn't have, exactly, and and I saw this uh this article on why you should date a smoker


okay you don't look you look, ya okay this is interesting right you should look okay look past all the the harms and the, and the dangers of smoking no doubt it is horrible for you to smoke it is cancerous and it's, definitely bad for the people around you and especially you if you want to date a smoker but


a smoker in general they, very simple people like they can just, if you ask them to wait for you over like forty five minutes they wouldn't mind, because


now okay I'm just saying okay I'm just saying , I'm just saying okay if let's say let's make it let's say if your ya like my girlfriends ask my, my girlfriend ask me to wait for like forty five minutes cause she wants to get ready you know how girls are, okay then I wouldn't mind because


one thing I have my music all I need is my music and then my cigarettes, you and because like I think, every stick, represents time, exactly five to ten minutes and then it's like oh forty five minutes sure I can just like smoke and then


and then break for like another ten minutes and then smoking in so it's like if you break, those into like small parts it's actually forty five minutes isn't that long, won't you think about it, ya so okay back on the topic you shouldn't


uh why you should date a smoker is because, they would, they are, unselfish people, because easily they would, give you a stick of cigarettes it's like a stick of cigarette if like if you walk to if you go up to a stranger and like


dude I I just, uh, I just I for I left my cigarette my cigarette pack at home can I have one without a doubt the person would probably give, unless the person has like one stick left, so I ya I wouldn't I wouldn't like


stop anyone to like, start smoking but then you shouldn't smoke for long because all all of this is like to your own self discipline whether you want to quit or not, so ya it really is actually social catalyst that breaks ice easily


yes definitely of course that that that would cause harm to my wife and my family so


but when you already are a smoker I think it is justifiable for you to smoke, when you are stressed because it calms you down in a sense right, but when you ya ya but I when you, haven't tried a cigarette before and never smoked at all and then you just come up to and then you just come here oh I was so stressed in PSLE or like


in O-levels that I want to start smoking like don't not don't come up with that nonsense lah, and it's honestly nonsense because like you don't even know how it taste like you don't even know what it does to your body what makes you think it will relieve your stress if you smoke, I think one one of the reason is


just to rebel against their parents the need to rebel against strict parents ya, I think that's one of the reason why I started smoking also, just to rebel against strict parents, what was the topic before that ah


oh because one one hour after the one hour we go for, ya we still have a lot more questions so don't worry


I have only one, of the siblings so I am forced to be close to her , true okay so I have only one sibling and my relationship with her


ya sister ya, older sister by five years, but I think my relationship with her best described as , uh I hate your guts but if you need me to bury a dead body I would do for it


for you ya you know like, very it's a love hate relationship lah you know, it's not super it's not super lovey dovey but, that's it's not, I hate you I hate your guts up until I won't


intro like my kids won't see your kids and things like that lah it's it's nothing like that, ya I would never be like that like sibling rivalry wise on my side it was never an issue, I wouldn't like I didn't think of like oh she's like that this like that right and, I I want to be better than her no it's just I think


partly because she's five years ahead so, I don't really care what she does I just live my own life, yeah yeah, but I wouldn't want my kids to have the relationship that I have with my sister though I want it to be like, yes I would bury a dead body for you but we still


hug and uh salam each other or like acknowledge each each other's presence you know, I wouldn't I I would want my kids to be super lovey dovey to each other, I I would want to, yes and then like I I I would want to like kiss my kids goodnight up until they are super


old twenty five I don't care I will still kiss them goodnight, not that sucks, does does it does it suck being the oldest


how did you know that


a mother's love know no bounds


but do you think that okay, just because, I'm not speaking for myself ah I'm like speaking in general if let's say, , you have a bad relationship with your mother


okay, and, it's because she's, let's say your both your parents or like either one of your parents is, shows very bad traits and like , don't take care of you well or like brought up you very bad but you turn out fine, and then you decide not to


, you decide not to like, uh, how do I say, like acknowledge your presence, do you do you think, that's wrong, like do you think oh she's your mother you know you should you should


, you should, be always nice to her even though she's she's a complete, uh, complete horrible person to you you should always be nice to her


one one thing about parenthood ah, kids don't know that they forget that parents are, doing this parent parenting thing for the first time you know, like you know you get what I mean for even, even ya it doesn't come with a manual right even if it's like you have ten kids later every different kid is a different way to raise you know


so like, they they I think people always forget that their mothers or like, parents, in general, are actually doing, this for the first time, when you turn fourteen they are like they going through puberty they are going


through this phase with you for the first time, I mean, so right (ppb) the the things you cannot expect, ya you cannot expect them you cannot, expect parents to be like the superb or perfect human being because yes they are wise because they


eh they in a sense they went true a lot right, but uh, they are humans in the end so they they always end up, you know people still screw up ya, ya, correct


it's it's the first time for everything and they are going so many first times with you , we all tend to forget that, right , next question, inner fiber what personal trade do you like most about youself


that's nice confidence, not sure ah I , uh one thing, that I am, proud of myself is


uh, a certain form of patience and, uh, being able to step back, at , ya I think self control self control ya self control is something that I'm really proud of and I think uh something that everyone should have


where it pushes your limit to to anger or to, to test your patience I think it's, I have the ability to learn, step back, like think of what's the person going through like if the person is like is it the best time for me to speak


of this now or like is it the I think my EQ I think the it is it is related to EQ ya EQ rather than IQ my IQ is horrible, I can tell you that , like situational awareness


feelings awareness, things like that I think I think I'm very proud of it, and like uh I, ya ya ya but I thing I don't like about myself is I get influence by, movies way too easily, oh


or like I feel like, oh this thing, is cool but then it's good also because I recently watched (ppc) a show called, Atypical, uh A T Y P I C A L, it's uh ya it's about


this autistic kid, uh high super effective or high I forgot what kind of spectrum is it, super effective so they they are always, every little sounds uh trigger them, then but they they are very good at


certain things ah so that's why super effective that means if they are they have a good trait they will just be on that good trait, and if let's say they, uh, they they like, uh, penguins for this show they like uh penguin and Arctic animals so he really focus on everything Arctic and everything penguins


that he actually don't know that he he forgot that he has a, he has another trait that he's really good at which is drawing, super effective super super nice drawings and then uh, not being able to, to know people's emotions basically


yes ya your EQ goes, you EQ tends to go on the other side of the spectrum, so but then uh it makes me, emphasize


people who don't, who has very bad situation or emotional awareness, like you know of the the the persons that we know of in station, like uh it really makes you makes you


pity him ya but, you and you the thing is, you are working with him you know so, when you when it's off working hours I wouldn't mind, having a conversation with or like let him speak what's on his mind and give him the attention that he wants


but then when it comes to work, and like let's say we are going to a fire call and then it's it's really very, uh, it's I'm on the fence of uh, it's it's no it's scary it's very yeah it's very scary when you turn out with him


cause like, there was one instance where I ask him to take a fire extinguisher and he just ran up to me instead, then he's like yes sergeant, then I'm like dude take the fire extinguisher but then but then then other person, took the fire extinguisher already, so like he


listens when he wants to, I think he the thing is he he tends to forget a lot, he ya ya he's not he's really not he forgets things a lot, but he shows effort


and like shows interest in what he's doing you know he's really he's really interested in what he's doing but it's just that he wants to be competent but then he can't, and it's really, it makes that show makes me emphasize this guy you know and I I feel like


I just want give him a warm hug but, , but (ppb) but, again we are working in a very toxic masculine place so our heart wouldn't justify any actions, it'll, it will just make things worse lah


so ya it really makes like one thing I like about myself is, I uh my my self control and one thing I don't like is I get influenced but like it might be a good thing because like, it makes me think about life lah


ya, yes yeah yeah, ya that's why you need to step back


like if let's say it gets too over over overwhelming right I think you need to step back and take a whole view of your situation, just like if let's say you are you are being appointed to be a section commander, and then you are appointed to be the ground commander and then when you come there's a whole lot of things going on first there's like


you there's so many aspects that goes through your mind is there is there are there people trapped are there, is that is that black smoke fuming, is it what level of the fire and then what things you need to bring, like you you were on leave last duty right


yeah, you heard from who, one of the people lah okay, oh okay, so okay last duty, went out, I was the first arrival okay I was the first arrival so take it into my situation first arrival very quiet no it is okay then


on their defence okay on their defence the the the call sheet stated my house is on fire, there's a lot of smoke, okay, okay so one thing my my he said my house is on fire, so


that person, should be outside the house am I right, that person should be outside his house, and then, there shouldn't be a need, for forcible entry, that's my take on it okay you I mean I'm your section commander what you expect me to do things think on my feet and then do things on my on my own


on my own willing right on my own will so I feel that okay when I reach there there's first of all there's no multiple calls theres no, the the ops centre was really calm about it so I I just take it as like okay, nothing much, and then my first thought of it is that


okay, when I reach there, smell one thing is smell because if let's say it's a real fire and the fire really broke out, you can smell the smoke from a in the whole distance away, so when I reach there even when I was at the carpark or the park in at the at the scene below it there was no smell at all


no smoke I cannot even see the smoke, so when I intended to leave so before that I I just look up I mean like, , nothing much so uh and I thought, the person would probably the person is there so probably you wouldn't need a care lah so I I told


I told uh my firemen I said, dude just grab an extinguisher lah I think it's nothing much and then when we went up true enough it's just, white smoke like very thin white smoke and then it smells of of, like uh burning something like something burning ah


ya but also when I reach there , the smoke was very thick and then like the door was already open lah the smoke was relatively thick it wasn't so thick, I went inside and then I ask my firefighter to there's another thing I learn don't trust your fireman


, no matter how close you are to the person, work is work so I ask the person to check the kitchen, you not supposed to mention names , , anyway so ya I told my fireman to can go check and then the kitchen then I will go check the rest


and then I went to all the rooms and then there's one particular room that was super thick the the the smoke, and then uh the fireman said, okay the so the fireman said the kitchen is super clear like really he said like there isn't anything in the kitchen he said the kitchen is super clear


and I'm like okay, never nothing it there there wasn't even smoke at the kitchen the kitchen was the clearest part of the house, ya it's as good as day the kitchen is the clearest part of the house except for every other room that was there


so the the bedroom the master bedroom the other guest room the store room everything was filled with smoke except for the kitchen, so I went to the kitchen I look, it's seriously clear it's nothing it's like super clear so I went back to their rooms and then one particular room was filled with smoke


like super thick, exactly that's what I thought, so I went there I look the whole place under the bed and everything there's nothing only until the, the deputy rota commander came, he went to the kitchen


and then he did his own stop message he said, uh it's a case of unattended cooking and then I'm like oh I thought I think he is just like hiding something ah, so I went there is really unattended cooking, the stove was really burnt out


the gas finished off on it's own, that's why ya that's why he got pissed, ah, so one lesson from that is never trust your fireman do things on yout on your own


and then uh think of the worst because they came up with B BA sets, they came up with breathing uh apparatuses, I didn't I just came up with an extinguisher, because I really thought to me it's really not a big issue


it was just no smoke no nothing so just, no, exactly why go to the but apparently if you are a section commander you need to think of the worst, which is I think which just causes panic to to the public more


yeah and cause cause panic right exactly, so every no one was no one was at, no one was there to look up and then you know if there's a fire everyone is like and then like everyone will be be gathering downstairs right, the carpark was super clear and there was no smell no nothing no smoke in the air so I just thought like


nothing lah so I I still justify my case as, what I did was right, but, I apparently I was wrong because I have to apparently I still have to, think of the worst scenario possible, so if the call sheet says my house is on fire then apparently it is on fire even if is not


ya y'all look at me, no no no, don't hit there man no no no lah he he wasn't super paste lah he wasn't super hero he just came up to me, he he just he spoke to me nicely was like


you know him being him lah he, he has his uh what do you call that ah, (ugh), no no no no, the the something hostile what ah, passive


passive aggressive you know how he is passive aggressive ya ya he's, super passive aggressive like you know like he speaks to you nicely but then behind every every word is a is a harsh message, so we got that, and is a break (ppb)


test, got it, where were we do you want to start first, oh ya it's yours, oh damn this is a hard one who would I eat with


I would eat, with, oh if you were if you were to only choose one person it would be very hard, so I'm not gonna do that, I will eat with my family and, my girlfriend and my some of my friends


uh what would I eat that's even tougher actually, , honestly it doesn't matter because I am gonna die anyway and then like


true KL one, to eat, K I will want to eat, Subway, McDonalds, like okay a mixture of, Subway sandwich uh McDonald's fries


KFC chicken uh Burger-King's burger, uh no I wouldn't want a Burger-King's but I want, to have like a chef made burger, with like with like uh home made patties


and then I will have like, something to drink I would have a good, mojito lime !fuh! that sounds nice ah, mojito lime, what would it be for you is


the very hard question you know, yeah, !huh!


subway sounds good right, maybe later I would do that ah I want to buy a subway sandwich and then MacDonald fries, sounds good right no I think I need to do that subway sandwich MacDonald fries, I love it I love it


okay, oh cloudburst when did you last cry, I know this , , it's on the bus, , beside her, it was beside her


eh dude, !wah! that's so sad, did she did she see you did she notice you were crying,


this toxic masculinity is very bad for everyone, for man especially, you know, not being able to cry not being able to show love to your guy friends , I think it's uh it's something that people should stop doing


but some places is inevitable lah you know like some places like for us we cannot have that kind of compassion, towards, ya ya, but the thing is okay, if, you you you know you have this some sort of feeling up against the regulars in the station because like


uh these people don't don't really care about us you know like they, but in their defence they only see you for two years of their lives and then they have so many two so many, so when so many of you that come and go in two years and then they I honestly think they shouldn't care so much even if, they are in charge of taking care of us I don't think they should have that certain kind of attachment to us


ya ya cause it's it's not healthy for them, so that's one reason why I don't want to be in the force, cause like uh you you cannot you don't have the person that you stick through, like from the start ah but till the end that you want to be friends with, so but I I honestly feel that I want to be a paramedic though


right you do you have that that thought of being a paramedic, same, but then it it it, it, brought back more money actually for for me is more of the money


uh that's why I join the section commander, I wanted to be a paramedic so badly, but then it was one thing was the fear of being in CDA, being a paramedic in the at the at the horrible vocation no it's not not being a paramedic at


the fire station where you can turn out to real call to the assist, the paramedics to to real calls, ya, exactly


that's super boring but then like, the hours also lah the hours is the hours is very bad, twelve, but you see okay let's say you are working the night shift


and the okay from nine, to nine, am I right nine to nine, and then from that, another nine to nine you that's the only time you have to to to sleep, dude that's a that's just another twelve hours you know, twelve hours, considering the time you take over time you hand over the time you bathe


time you sleep and then you wake up it's very limited that's why one thing about this, time flies super fast when when when you working rotation shift, like when you, work one day, you are basically working for two days, like okay you look you like tomorrow is


fourth eh uh fourth, and then you are basically working on fourth and fifth, you get it, so like, there's only one actual day when you are at home resting, or there's only one that you only have one whole day to yourself


whereas if you are working office hours you have like after, uh after work hours basically after six, after six uh after six up until the next six and then you work for another eight hours, as compared to twelve exactly twelve and twelve it's it's super bad I think the hours is horrible but then


it's an it's an honorable job ah, and that was when when did I last try it, oh when I thought of my lates, ya ya it is but it was more it was never like


uh about my other half it was more, my late grandmother, then then like remembering late my late grandmother or like, no it's way after she pass like, of course the crying doesn't stop when she just passed


I was way after like remembering oh I think the last time I cried was, when okay my my late grandmother is super superstitious so that's not even if she's not superstitious she sticks to routines and traditionals


traditions so one of the traditions is to, uh, have an event let's say you want to have an event like a engagement or a , or a, wedding, or or a a religious feast


what you want to do is to wait at the end of the month, where everyone uh, has enough money so everyone is free and easy and things like that so but it was very hard for me to come come that across to my, uh girlfriend's parents when they were they want they when they chose the date for married for our wedding


in between, it wasn't even the start of the month it was in between so it was uh it was quite tough to to, bring that across cause they were like why can't you just save before, or like some people just some but because now they have they have the


the rights lah you know they are correct definitely cause nowadays like arts our, our our, pay comes in at the end uh the middle of the month is not the start or the end, ya so they they have their points ah, so like beacause because I think because last time, everything pay all the pays were just in the at the end of the month where


everything was, now no not not really because you see , uh one of it is twenty eight one of my my one the people I know has like their pay on the twenty eight on the seventh on the twenty third, so it's, it's either


early-ish or the end-ish ah so is not really the middle of the month so to me the middle of the month is still a bad day but then, just whatever (ppb), uh and then what ya what brought me, what brought me to tears was just the thought of my grandmother lah


ya cause she like even till till her deathbed she was still, compassionate and, she was still thinking about others, instead of like you know, over soft, one one sweet thing was that, she was going through dementia then the only people that she remembered was


uh, the husband, the husband, dementia Alzheimer's is a part of dementia, so she she was she she only called for the husband and the mom, it was, quite sweet but then my other grandmother


who who had a blood clot at the brain, she, uh she couldn't speak, but then it was quite a sweet moment because the first time I brought my girlfriend to meet her, can mine do it


they, are very , crude, they're very crude with their words they don't hold back their words they, they speak as as it is they they said, ya ya ya the tongue is super sharp laser sharp tongue, so usually I I so I preempt my girlfriend first so I was like


don't take it too heart she's she's she uh she's just a she's just an old lady and that's how she she usually speaks ah, so she uh at that moment of time the only people she could remember was me me and some of her sons lah, she's like out of three or two, she she only remembered like one of it one of two of them and then me


and then uh I I said lah omma do you recognize me omma then she was like ya I do you know Adil, but she didn't she was just like uh Adil then I say yeah omma have you eaten then she's like, eat, you know that kind a not she she's just one one word at a one word at a time then then I say


uh omma this is my friend, uh I say blah blah blah, this is the this is my ya this is my friend, this is my lady friend that I bought over to see you, Dilah she just wants to see you lah, so she's like, pretty


said cantik then I like !wah!, then that's all she spoke for the rest of the day, and then for the rest of that the the, the the, her lifetime it was just that was one her last words, was to my girlfriend she said, pretty and she wasn't she's not supposed to be able to speak


and that was the I I took it a sign lah is superstitious already so I took it as a sign lah, so


I have a few okay one of it was quite recent I went to Disneyland with my girlfriend it was one of the happiest moment lah, super happy it was the one of the most happy moment of my life, uh ya the other one would be, on my, ya I did not I did not because previously I surprised her


uh at Hong-Kong, she was with her with her school friend uh school uh, CCA which I was in also but I didn't, I didn't apply for it because I would have to pay for If I go on my own with my mom's ticket I wouldn't have to pay


so I told her that I'm not going lah that's she was quite sad and then she went there with her friends and then the day after that I came, the day after I came over, on my own, and it Hong Kong is very easy to commute is like Singapore actually with better efficient


transport (ppb) but , uh, so I went there and then, I surprised her I I said happy birthday is not her birthday lah and then she started crying oh


and so now she did the same thing so I entered the room, I was supposed to only meet my mom, then I opened then I opened the door, and then uh it was my mom and then there was some another girl praying at the back with a telekung so I couldn't recognize


so I was like oh who who is that, and then she turn and she like happy birthday and then like she what the hell you know like, you're now supposed to be in like thousands of miles away and then now you're here, I didn't expect you to be there she was quite smart so it was quite scary how well she lied to me


that was one of the happiest moment lah the other one would be my sister's marriage, cause I really liked my brother in law, he was uh I knew him for I think at that time is more than ten years, and then like, I felt like he's the one lah that should be in our family


yeah, so how about you (ppb), yes yes


ah, what line would it what line what line of work, oh I see I see that was good though


I think you should start getting your license


there is one thing that I really want in my life is, for it not be mundane, like I want to try different as many activities activities that I can like, okay I can show you something of my bucket list like cave diving


uh, bouldering in the wild like real bouldering, uh, but I still want to like serve, I still want to like, travel, still want to


ya I still want to explore like but the thing is at first I thought I wanted, the this whole time I thought I already had these all all of these planned out, up until I meet my girlfriend, and then, slowly slowly she was like


she was she was like inching into my life, and I wasn't used to it because uh I'm I mean I'm a, comfortable alone actually I was comfortable alone and I, actually enjoyed my own presence so when she came into my life and she was, pressuring against like she was pressuring towards uh


being together forever I was quite taken, ya ya I was taken aback a bit I will, known out I was just I was taken aback which is, putting me out of my comfort zone, way out of the comfort zone, but then


I slowly learn how how a cage bird, feels freedom, you know, but you not necessarily tight to the ball of chain with when you are you are attached to someone or you are getting married, he can be


the new form of freedom, when you are together you know because like, exactly if you if you just, if you just live your life, with one type of, mindset and, uh, ya you are not going to be happy if you just stick to it and that is the thing I don't want it to be a routine I don't want my life to be a routine and


uh I want it, to have like, super, up side down send like super soup, adventurous and like I can tell my kids !woo! I went to a Turkish bath you know, like uh like this the uh right


ya exactly, ya, cause my dad told, my dad told me, bunch of story and I loved it cause he he was a freelance model and like how he told me like how


uh like last time in the eighty's ah in the eighty's Isetan Metro, newspapers magazines they all hire local models they won't they don't out source from, they all they don't get pictures from oversea they do it, from from Singapore so


the the locals are crazy, crazy, uh active with the, model scene, so my my dad was and there there there were even this thing called, uh, I forgot what is it called, uh retail modelling or sales modelling something like that so what happens is


like, the the a bunch of pregnant will sit in the room, and then, uh okay then, uh for example Abercrombie uh H-and-M, and Uniqlo, call uh come to this place, and then


hire these models to model their clothes in front of these uh panel of judges so the the judges would, choose whether they want to put it in their retail or things like that you know, so what do you do we just, change come back, change come back model change come back model change come back model there's a two hour thing or three hour thing and then you get thousand of dollars for it


and then you get to hang out with like, super models and then like super models will be like changing in front of you and like he told me everything and it was so fun, I know and I don't want my life to be so mundane and like there's nothing to tell you know like, exactly and like as a grandfather you wouldn't want to just sit down there and there like you know when your kids visit


your your kid visit and then bringing the grand kids you don't want to just sit down there and then like, how was school, okay and then you just sit down there and then just enjoy each other's presence that's not what I want I want to tell them stories and inspire them to, go outside and do do things you know


like a cafe game is fun no doubt I I do it as well but you have to go out and, then, experience ya ya experience for yourself, life is life is not suppose to be mundane I just saw this post, I I just saw this post on the internet and it said


I was not born here to just pay bills and die I'm sure of that, , so I know I know I'm not gonna I'm not meant to just, pay bills and die


oh ya it's my turn okay, mystery guest, topic is which if you could have, an hour long conversation with anyone at all who will you talk to, okay not me you are forced to anyone in the world anyone at all in the world


no not not topic wise it's not, who would you talk, with anyone


ah, uh and and you how was the comic found by the, by the, well uh


so if it's it, so you would want to talk to him lah that's one person you want talk, ya just forever ah


ya ya ya, for what nine PM to five AM, ya you cannot do that with not everyone ah


the difference the different stages of depression, one person I want talk to is, no but I wouldn't want talk to my friends because I always talk to them


ya I would K there's this, okay confide confide without a doubt I would talk to my girlfriend or my mum or my dad, but then like If I want to talk to, to have a conversation like a dialogue, there's this girl I downloaded this App


then when I download this App called, what is it called slowly or something like that it is a pen pal App, so it it the messages, the messages send proportionally to, to where to stay so if let's say they stay at Australia


the the letter your send will take, as long as sixteen hours to or like whatever to like is to mail time lah yeah basically just mail time, then there's this Malaysian girl who I spoke to, who was uh a, a aspiring lawyer


ya it, eighteen years old Malay, so I was quite ya it was, and she was very open open minded and, I like the the topics that we were talking about and, I wish to meet her in person then to convert to have a dialogue like this but then she she stopped talking today


so like, I wish to talk to her again ah cause because she is the only person who can who is like really, open minded enough, to, to be able to, uh have a rebuttal or a reply, to uh support


to the things that I said ah to controversial topics cause I really like talking about controversial topics, it should be an, I think everyone should start talking like speak about controversial topics, shouldn't have the fear of, judgement, or


or like oh this guy this person think this way about life or about , for example sexuality, this person speak this way about sexuality I'm not going to be friends with him you know someone everyone should be, be able to open minded enough to have conversation and then like


because there there are so many information around the world that you, you have not, consume yet so, it's really fun learning, and, and seeing seeing another person's of uh perspective so it's really fun I really want I hope I get another chance to talk to her again


but it doesn't matter lah, well would I do If I have ten million dollars tomorrow


first of all I would invest so that the ten dollars would grow (ppb) ten million dollars would grow, then with whatever money I have left I will buy a a home for for everyone that I love then we can just live together but privately


big enough for you to be private but then, big enough uh small enough to be close to each other, and then, travel around the world man, experience things I would love to go to like, uh


to places of Japan even the locals don't go to, or like uh Taman-Negara, ya just explore yeah, anywhere and then and then of course one of the things is go like


luxurious shopping, and like go, ya spoil someone spoil yourself buy expensive items , go to go to hotel have breakfast in, Paris and then, have a have a surf in Hawaii


and then like go to the Colosseum then there's endless things to do in this world man, ya and it's scary how, is, there's a possibility that we can actually go to the other side of the universe, but then we won't know


both thoughts are scary is if we are alone in this whole universe it's scary, and if there are other things out there you haven't discovered it's equally as scary, I want to experience it all so that ten million dollars I would do everything and anything under the world


grow my hair long, grow my beard, in cause you don't need to be regimented, hate being regimented I hate being disciplined I hate being regimented


true, disappear ya, but not in your lifetime at least yeah


but you have to see ya you have to see how big, how much ten million is you know, it's a lot it's one it's just a lot it's how many zeroes it's seven zeroes, and for you to remove three zeroes


out of it is like, a hundred thousand, for you to remove three zeroes you know, is it, yeah, that's crazy that's crazy a lot of money


so the the opportunity is endless, one billion dollar is too much money for you to have, so you can just live life ya


or probably go but I wouldn't okay I'll probably go to a place like, somewhere where can I where I can own a house and that house is mine forever, then like, uh, then just live a simple life so that money that money won't dissipate for a few generations


but I was think I was thinking of cloths like Judas shopping not going to buy like, uh like you know ten million dollars uh you're not going to buy ten one million dollars cars or like ten one million not like stupid like that lah, ya, true


alright next (ppb) uh if you knew you could not fail what could you go accomplish, boring, ties that bind, what activity do you, most enjoy doing together with your family this is a nice question for you


for me activity that I do most, is, traveling traveling with my family, is a nice thing cause one thing is I don't have to plan my my mom plans out everything, she's like a, human Google honestly she is and then like


ya because of the thing is that I wanted to do is always out of the way is not family friendly so I'll just stick to whatever she wants to do, and then, usually it it usually turns out fun ah, and and, it'll be nice to to be able to travel again as a family with my dad and mum


and my sister, and like, I if if like I cannot wait to get married and then travel with the whole extended family you know, ya like my my mum my dad my sister and her husband me and her girlfriend, and then our kids it would be so fun


like a whole ya it'll be so fun, this very hard to make it happen cause like you all of you have to sit down and plan and taking, the same leaves and this amount of time and the like when when because my wedding law is a footballer so when does the season ends things like that


is it my turn no is it ask you the same question I just ask you the question, ya, what activity do you like to do with your family


nothing, not one bit, no regrets in life ya, nothing, not all all because like I strongly strongly


stand on whatever I've done before whatever, is is makes me what I have to do and that's how much I love myself now like, is a good amount of self love and self confidence is not narcissism nothing that's nothing like that I know my flaws, so


no regrets, the thing on cause it it , the regrets K what people usually regret of is, because it exposes their flaws, or like brings them to a certain place that they do not want to be, and they get stuck there so what usually they don't do is dig themselves out


actually the phrase dig yourself out doesn't make sense cause you just dig, cause when you dig you just dig down, you get so you crawl yourself out so usually when they fall into a hole they don't climb out, so that's that's one thing why people usually regret


uh so if you actually go through that process of that down, and then you and then you go back up, and then you actually become a better person and a strongest stronger version of yourself, I really believe in being the strongest the strongest person that I can be


yes the strongest version of myself, so no regrets none none at all, would you have do you have regrets


true, people make mistakes, yes


correct, but the thing is if you didn't go through that process if let's say you, turn back time that's because you know your mistake, right and then you learn


so if if lets say you turn back time and then that didn't happen, okay you wouldn't know, your mistakes and then you wouldn't, have grown as much as you have grown now, so if let's say in the future if let's say, touch wood that this thing doesn't work out K and then you come you come together with another girl


you probably do the same mistake so is better now is better to learn now than later, that's that's why you should never have regrets, exactly, okay which okay this is fun which of these symbols best describe you


there's a minus sign plus sign times divide equal, ya, however you want to take it lah


I think that, because you are a very positive person you think you you, ya ya you take things into everything into a positive light, quite free and easy right, yeah, but I feel that's, the downside about the downside of what being a plus person right


is that okay if let's say you take a negative, plus, a positive, what's the outcome, the outcome would be a negative right, you're actually so if you're I think if you are always a positive person and then, something bad comes into your life and then you're unable to


to counter it, you cannot process it and then you then you you get you then you get influenced to be a negative instead of continue being a negative, positive, so I think the best one is to should be an equal


I feel that I am a bit of a, I'm a bit of plus and minus and then mostly equal, because I can't I can't lie that of course I have my downsides and I have my my selfish days you know, I just I just want to make things my my way and then


uh you know make people fall into my own death trap things like that the toxic trait almost everyone has, which is just whether you want to acknowledge it or not, but almost equal lah equal is I think the best way, in life is to be equal so no matter the outcome that is the outcome where you just take it as it is


do you think so, but I think girls are times, you know why, cause like if you give them like, this amount of love, they will give you back, more


but then if you give them this amount of shit, and then they will just give you a whole life for hell, you should think so you give them like there was once this thing I saw you give them a house, they'll make it a home


you give them your sperm they'll make a family, you get what I mean, then you give them shit they will give you hell, , you give you give your world they they will make into your universe things like that lah I don't know what


legend legend, a legend who went to a fire with a fire extinguisher


okay, how would I want to be remembered, I would to be remembered as, a person who has made, to someone's life, no matter if it's small impact or a big impact


like of course good I wouldn't want it to be a bad thing, I would want them to remember as, but it's kinda, selfish ah , some ah but then they they forget who am I already because like when


when I got together with my girlfriend right they they didn't expect it to last this long, they like they use to call me oh they use to call business man also cause I know why I go to the club the business is always open, and then I always get the business done but then


now like people joke about like oh the business close and then it's quite, they they were quite shocked that I I could settle down, and then I settle down quite long before anyone else and like every every other relationship that I know of, started to breakdown in frail


ya so except for mine and my girlfriend's I don't know why I think it's because, I went through a lot then I know I I tend to learn how to, handle situations well, so I I I want people to remember as that guy who


has the answer to everything, no, but it's kinda selfish if you want people to think of you that way isn't it


humility is hard lah, don't you think so humility is kinda hard, if you have it you you falunt it that's that's usually how people do it ah, right like a peacock flaunts and like flaunts his feathers, to the mate


it's inevitable


to live a full life, Jesus is there someone at this table you would like it's just me and you, character flaw what personal trait do you dislike most about yourself


what personal trade do you dislike most about yourself


when it comes to self esteem, wait some days you wake up and then you feel like the best person ever, like the best version of yourself and then, just, some days you just, think that there are, other ways you can


better yourself but is very hard to do for you to do it at this moment of your life you know, I think there's one toxic about myself is, I uh, when it comes to situation where involve others I can step back, and, and like try to grab grasp the whole situation but when it comes to myself


is very hard for me to to have some some sort of self realization and then when it does hit me, it takes quite a toll on me, so I think that's one one thing I don't like about myself


(uh huh), that's yours, oh


Disneyland is the best place on earth, really is no I've been to other Disneylands uh I've been to Hong Kong I've been Tokyo I've been to uh, no Tokyo is better but the best is of course the ones that are, Anaheim LA


Anaheim is really the best place on earth really like but is creepy because, they give, you were some sort of a feeling of nostalgia, of a childhood that you never had, if let's say you've been there let's say you've been there for a first time if let's say you've been there for a first time and even as an adult


you feel nostalgic, because because of the, because the ya but the thing is even if you don't grow up with the the, cartoons right the smell the food, the the music, brings you like it's a it's a psychological thing that they did


I lost the number, , I forget the number, uh I don't know one zero nine one zero three, five, six seven five three, there's a there's only nine numbers, to think of


shucks, ya anyway ya New Zealand is really a place to be, ya, can be there forever, it is humongous man, how about you


I like nature, but I I like, when when when I can, I'm able to wear what I want and, and like do what I want, like when I went to OBS it's, really really bad cause I was like they made me sleep on the on the worst place


possible, the ground and like the ground filled with rocks and, things like that, and uh, I had, when you tell you the truth like the survival anything that has to do with survival I hate it I like


you know because you're not you're not, absorbing or enjoying the nature you are surviving you are you because like, the thing is the the, the, the word survive, relates to something that might kill you, you get what I mean, so the


the in this sense survive, relates to a the the harshness, and the the discomfort of being outdoors, so that doesn't doesn't make me anymore doesn't make me like nature anymore but I like it when I can


I can bring my own like a hammock, or you know a trial at my own will and then when when I want to go the water I don't have to wear shoes and socks and tights and things like that I can just wear shorts, that's a something I would like lah bouldering and things like that but when you ask me to do it in like you ask me to dive into into the water with shoes


with socks that's so disgusting it's so ya it's the worst feeling ever to to have wet socks it's really the worst, if it's wet from your own sweat it's fine but then if you if it's, if it is wet, with like sea water it's horrible


disgusting, seriously disgusting, seriously no lah


no I have a lot, doesn't she describe the perfect date, he's wearing book, ya, I have a lot, take off, because uh there mine is here, I have this much left


I think this would cover another how many minutes is that, ya so, ten ten about thirty five minutes is it, ten twenty five minutes, ten fifteen ya twenty five minutes


ten hour fifty ya, okay all or nothing at all, what risk, have you taken for someone you love


that's quite silly why would you just keep anything for, for a dog that's your future, (ppc), ya you got your job back


that's good eh wait how how how long did it, take for you to go to like is it three months or six months you try for the job, during poly oh you you tried for the scholarship is it, that's nice


thirty minute, thirteen man interview that's crazy, but I'm sure you have to be a little bit of nervous at least right were you nervous at all


of course right, you crazy, for me what risks okay the risk I already told you what the risk that is like is


me replanning my whole life, like because of replanning, ya ya you know rearranging my whole life for for her, cause , I didn't I didn't expect to get engaged so early I didn't I don't plan to get married so early


true but, the thing is I haven't done the things that I want to, and I'm not I'm I'm not able to until I finished paying off everything, after marriage you know, ya I was expecting like after NS uh like during NS I can like travel or like do do things


spend money on myself but it's kinda hard, and like do things on my own time but now I have to include her in my time, timeline, and future and present you know, so that's one risk


doesn't mean it has to be for the bad, who is your hero how does he or she inspire you


is your father side or mom's side


I think for me it's more of a group of people lah you know you don't you don't if you, not thing is you you just take inspiration from from another person another like you don't if for me like, when I do things in life I don't focus on one thing


so because I feel like it's bad I don't think it's a good thing so when it comes to a hero I I would have different heroes I would have my grandfather, who lived up to ninety seven, with a fulfilling his own like everything he wanted that everyone wanted in life


and then, ya ya ya definitely lived a full life up until ninety seven, (ppc), then on the other side my grandfather of my mother's, who, my mom who is uh my mom's dad who is still alive, uh at eighty something


ya and then like being able to, move on after the wife's passing, that quickly even though it it did affect him very badly for the past for the first few days but then, he clock in he just


fully fully committed to the feeling of sadness and then after that he just let it go, uh, that's one thing I I I really respect him about and, for for four years she took care of my grandmother quite well, she was bed ridden bed ridden dementia Pneumonia things like that but then


it's just four years it's only him, , taking care bathing her changing her diapers uh everything he no nurse, no maid nothing it's just him then he wants to do it then he does it really well, to the extent where on her deathbed when she when she passed


there was a, the what do you call that the caretaker or, the person who brings the body to the grave, ya, she went she went to see look at the body and she was like uh, uh this one just came back from the hospital is it


it's like no she's been here for months, oh this is very well like she's very clean very well taken care of, those smell things like that, so that's one thing we respect dude, I think some things first good things form some people then ignore the bad things you know


then that's so late and I take into my own life, ya like like somethings from my dad like live free from my dad and then like, how to settle down my dad taught me that like how to be a gentleman what to wear


how you should always match your shoes with your belt, you should never wear a bow tie if you're not wearing a suit not wearing a jacket, if you're not wearing a tuxedo you shouldn't wear a bow tie, things like that yeah he he give me good fashion tips ah and and now I turn out quite well


uh my mother is very loving, caring, uh, works, eight hours a day and still need come back home to cook and clean so that's one thing that's, super crazy and admirable


next, , I'm I'm thinking of McDonald's and Subway already, super hungry man, do you think there's food nearby


, far from everything, I don't even know like which part of the map are we at, Tai-Seng okay that's Tai-Seng


we are at MacPherson we are near to Geylang, can we art at the south, east, close to the central, South East, ya


it's a basically in the middle of nowhere, seriously its, it's really ah, what the nearest, dude purple line is upper Potong-Pasir, Woodleigh, Bartley Tai-Seng


MacPherson, Paya-Lebar, Aljunied, Kallang, Mattar , what, oh uh ah


ya where is it, it's blue, #Sallim-Mattar#-Mosque, middle of nowhere


you should go lah I'm really hungry, and I want Macs and Subway lets search for the nearest Subway, Subway Subway


Subway oh, what the hell so big, where is it where is it where is, ya


seriously, you take the the, that long, ya, where is Hoagie's restaurant Hoagie restaurant


I don't know, Subway oh there's one at Paya-Lebar, oh but there's one near here it's just across the street, ya, Subway build your own, sandwich chain


but isn't MacDonald, we are near SCDF HQ, K we going have subway


what are you going to order, okay what's your bread, really


okay and then uh your, you would choose what, subway melts, uh what topping


ya, I ask for all, I ask for all except for olives, tomatoes


pickles you don't take jalapenos, jalapenos sounds good now, (ppb) uh the the the sauce, ya of course


you should try sweet onion and honey mustard, best combination ever, you should try that later, the thing is I want to try the, the meatball marinara or the, uh what is that ah


the teriyaki chicken, ya it's either meatball marinara or, ya but why would I want to got to Malaysia if I can have it here, I want to, to have, uh, teriyaki chicken with


uh, egg mayo (ppb) and then, you want a, bread would be, honey oats, what if you're done


honey oat and then uh sauce would be sweet onion and honey mustard it's always sweet onion and honey mustard, always and then, all the cold cuts except for, , olives, tomatoes


fireman though, uh, I'm in the watchroom


, why you don't want to be with your batch mates, do you , you can sleep at at your left what


even more you can sleep even more you know


is a long way, cannot wait though but I fear for the unknown, I if if let's say, in December I apply for the job and I get it right, then I cannot wait for to ORD already, yes


uh working for Exon, electrical, electrical ya, ya operational technician, I hope so


ya that's why I'm taking my licence and I hope to finish my licence before I ORD, scary ah, ya save up money for a bike that's why I told my I told my girlfriend that


uh, after January I'm gonna put everything on hold and just focus on my bike and my bike licence to save up for my bike and my bike licence I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna put aside money for the marriage yet, cause uh


priorities ya she has to because it's priority what then the only reason why I'm taking this job is because, it's sustainable for her her lifestyle, ya so, and that's because of her and I I hate honestly I hate going for brags


so that is also for her, I hate going for backpacks it's so stupid, it's horrible the instruct the instructors are so horrible they and they have a quota whether so either whether you do good or bad they will just fail you


ya so it's very annoying, so if let's say they pass for the rest of it and then they will just fail like the three of you there, so horrible, the system is bad


(ppb) what stoic what is a stoic, a hero, who is your hero, from where


ya because it's tiring reading through cards, ya, I, okay, it's okay yawn, do you know so do you when is it just me or when you were in when you were a kid you will just go to the bookshop and buy things


do you do that like go to the bookshop to just like even for fifty cents you will buy something fifty cents, like country eraser, or like those magnets like those magic magnets or whatever they the call it


ya we were we all did I mean you don't have a childhood if you didn't, hold on so I'm supposed to clean up my late grandparents house at Toa-Payoh, I don't know, afterwards but but my parents are already there


so, I you us no they they know where I am, finishing finishing most of it anyway


I I'm telling my mum I wanna eat first with my friend, super hungry and I want Subway but I hope there's McDonald's nearby, what cause I wanna, I want McDonald's fries


where's Mamanda, ya, think so ya it is basically but everywhere is a thing so, Subway okay let's find the nearest McDonald's


I just want my MC McDonald's


ya, it shouldn't be affected actually, but I mean different people handle things differently ah, no


it shouldn't, shouldn't be too attached at this moment, just let it be even if she if she date you you have to like, respect her decision


to do so, you know cause she is she is living her own life and you have to live your own, be able to what


but ya it hurts true it hurts but you guys are no in a relationship, what you what you are going through is basically what I went through with like with this girl, like I waited like a whole year, for nothing


cause like okay she said that she she wants to, she wants her own time, so I give her own space then that led to her being, with another guy, but, at the end of the day I know, like you'd you'd tend to like, of course you feel sad and then like you feel that you you will test your self esteem ah


but, uh, you you tend to like oh, if it's not it's not be honestly it's not it's not you, cause like you if if, she was a if she was okay at the world


she would stick to stick by by her words and like okay uh, I, I will want to make things work If I I really, what she what I needed was really my own time so, I I gotta make use of it


and then after that I come back to you lah you know, but if she, ya but if she's not even if she's not you you, you would feel better that knowing that you didn't dive into this relationship knowing that how she is


ya because okay there are there are traits of her let's say there are traits of her like these good traits these similarities and then things like that, yes okay and then just so happens that she, found another person and then she decided while she is in contact with you she decided to jump into a relationship with the other person


you, should be glad that you are not in that relationship, with her because if she is willing to do that to you she might do that do the same with this guy, which what I predicted she after a year dating her, halfway through she jumped into another relationship and then like I stuck by for another six months still thinking about her


and then after the six months like I decided to drop it just forever lah you you do you do you and then I'm just gonna live my own life, after that, uh after another year, they break up three months later they get married she get married to another guy


why would I want to be in a relationship with that that kind of girl, she's so fickle and then like just so happen she can like, you are the most fickle person ever and then what makes you think you can make a lifelong decision within three months, you wouldn't know, so I'm glad that I that I'm off her


not saying that, uh, the that your your girl would do the same but, it's a everything is a is a is either a lesson learnt or, someone for you to love ah, you know


ya ya


that's quite scary though cause there's that was what happpened to me, like when she wants to reply she will reply and then she will just go away for a week, just keep your guards up ah, don't don't, don't the don't fully dive into it


ya, bus but keep an open mind and, and don't, fully commit yourself to her lah, ya you shouldn't, it's not healthy


three two one zero


hello okay hello good morning, alright when yes start, K, , so, focus on this picture first K we start, uh


what can you tell me about the differences between the pictures ah, okay


I see, K let me start with the from from the picture, I can tell from your uh my picture is different from yours cause it it says on the sign all bets are on, but mine it shows place your bets, another difference also I can spot is


in the health shop it's mine says herbal pills, but yours your says natural Energy Pills, so we can tell there's there's a difference in these pictures lah


secrets, not only that, K there's a dog, is it dog no it's a Teddy Bear oh-my-god it's a Teddy Bear on dig, the child is not learning anything, and, on


on the window the window is it, doesn't display the, the red dress the red shirt suit red suit is it ya it's a red suit, K so those are the so so far those are the differences I can spot


shop late Wednesday, I don't even know what that means but okay ya it's two different days, and there's also a sign on top of it that shows pet show twentieth September


don't have right, okay , okay, swarming things up, (mmhmm), ya I have like the I have the bird too


sell your story to us, oh !woo! different science ah, okay, oh, my dog does not sniffing anything, there's no pie


only a girl, nope, mine doesn't say anything just shows two dancing, ya, okay, other visuals


, not really, don't have this two signs ya, there's four signs on you but there's only two, ya, besides that I think that's all


far it's a good warm up, okay yeah, right want to move on to the next, okay, let's start our warm up, alright let's go through the card, how about I start first


alright, let me start with a first question what are you top three children's name, children, children names


girls you prefer girls over boys okay


what, I see, the similarities in these three names na na na , K, for me, I haven't thought about it yet but my top three children names would be


, okay forget about it I forgot , okay what if it was English


no, Luke Luke is a nice name ya for a guy, ya, K, let's move on to the next question shall we


yours, my most embarrassing moment of my life, , you can say


the most embarrassing moment of my life would be, falling down, in front of public crowd ah, but still


oh I see I see, yeah


ya, ya neutral lah , okay, , awkward alright


ya that's fine that's fine, to eat his own, okay, now let's move on to the next question, K, this


is quite a deep question K depends on how you you answer it, how would you react if a close friend express his or her romantic feelings for you, ya, would you feel


how you react, K let's say it's a girlfriend since we are both man right


alright that's fair, for me, If I had a close friend girl friend, and she express a her feelings for me right, honestly I wouldn't know how to react


at the same time, I also don't want to jeopardize the relationship that we have lah being friends, I mean, as much as, I know how it feels to be on the other party, and If I confess to a friend


wouldn't be right lah it wouldn't be right, that's true, it sucks


ya, ya, ya it's hard lah


everything is a balance, K, your turn, oh is nah I mean it's good chill chill


is like talk, oh oh what what, where does this come from okay, dating agency, by the age of twenty eight, I won't let anyone


my mom, is pressing me to get married why not, I don't see the I don't see the wrong in it, they think it just is like


no I think it's more of a pen and paper you write your name, and they will go through through speed dating or whatever, ya algorithm the love match ya, algorithm


interest simulate interest, ya, ya fate comes, comes funny


that's true, somewhere on the road you'll fate the you'll meet the mr right mr woman


that's the situation right currently and look where we are now, which what nicknames do you go by


which is your favourite, okay, do explain, come on


kitchen what do you, what were you working as, oh cafe


okay, ya


yeah it's toxic is toxic, ya and basically you will title as a softie ah


I see I see, which is your favourite, okay in poly alright that's two more okay


Satan, K the Satan itself okay, , oh, So it just left them hanging lah


okay , Ah-Tan, Talib ah alright alright


that's true okay so which is your favorite, that's true okay never mind you should own that nickname (ppb)


it describes who you are you cannot change it


there's no in between bro, okay, alright my nickname uh so far in my life my whole twenty two years life, I have been called Zack lah ya cause, , if your name starts with a Z and Z and


automatically people call you Zack, and even my grandfather, his name was uh no need to go through name ah but people call him Zack also, ya so I guess it's like a, hand me down nickname, ya


yup it's too loud over here, your turn, (hmm) how well do I keep, K I won't say I were I'm


proficient or, I'm like a chef (ppb) or whatever but, I can cook K not not the basic Maggie type but, I can cook uh western Malay cuisine dishes ya, uh cause


sometimes I find myself in the kitchen when I'm hungry and, my mum just teaches me ah this all these uh recipes, I mean, it doesn't taste as good as her cooking but ya I can still cook


ya, how about you, ya I know and yet you haven't cook for me once


no I was uh, different place, shame I didn't get to try it


yes everything is by


you want sweet you don't know you don't even know how much tablespoon you wanna put


ya, okay, okay let's move on to the next question, what do you value most in a friendship, uh, okay


loyalty and low maintenance okay, (mmhmm), (ppc)


ya, better tell me the truth lah, but then when we meet, it's wonderful time yes, for me, I value


like brotherhood, K, uh and also low maintenance, K, for low maintenance wise, I have my own, life and he and sometimes it can get pretty busy


and I don't have time to meet my friends, but when I do, when when we do meet, ya sometimes I prefer to have a great time with them lah, even thought its if it's for a short while, and for brotherhood wise ya it's like we go through thick and thin together


that's what I value most in a friendship lah, ya


where were you at when were you at mine, ya okay okay ya


ya it sucks, it should be there through thick and thin lah, ya


ya it's supposed to be like that, think we are going thru too fast cause it's still twenty minutes eighteen minutes, relax, ya we have a lot, after this if under the sun


call Science, you mean alpha, okay alpha bravo charlie delta, echo, F is


I forget about the F phase, foxtrot, alpha bravo charlie delta echo foxtrot, G G uh I I forgot all the consonants, golf


H, Hospital


hotel, uh, I, India, L , Lima Lima


Lima, M, a person's name, uh, Mary, I forgot I forgot, Mike oh-my-god, N


November, oh, Oscar, yes, P, Popo


, papa, quebec, R, Romeo


S, I forgot the S, Sierra, this call Science, T tango


uniform, V, Victor, whiskey


X-Ray, uh, yankee, zulu, !wow!, so you memorise all of it ah, come on recite it to me


bravo, bravo, okay, catch and release


okay okay, how do I know when to let go of someone okay, basically, okay I'm quite a religious person okay, and, usually I pray for signs or, just give me the strength to carry on


okay, but, as a man, I prefer doing things face to face or, I have, to do something physically so that I can move on, okay


meeting her or, I just need to meet the person first before we end things off I cannot just, leave it, ya leave it hanging just by, through text message like I think we should stop seeing each other or


I I can not move if it's, not through my own, doing lah, how, when


uh , basically, okay this one depends on the uh depends on the person actually also lah, okay uh how do I know when to when to move move on right, if the relationship that we're heading to is becoming toxic


or, frequently, we are getting into fights and, I don't even know what's the problem like, you don't you don't even know what you're doing what you did wrong, what what what, you also don't see that she does anything wrong like you just get into a fight suddenly


ya I feel that, is time to move on lah cause you're not meant for each other, yeah, how about you, how do you know when it's time to move on like how do you feel


okay


ya in some ways people do feel like that ya


that's true, you know I can feel that, I can feel that, that's true that's true, ya


(ppb), I see, a relationship ya so that's when you know when it's time to move on lah


(mmhmm), (ppb) (mmhmm)


I see fair point, uh that makes you the mature mature one among the circle of friends ah, you, I mean ya like the consensus of, uh people's minds ah


(mmhmm), you pick you pick up a few things ah ya


(ppb) ya that's true, next question your turn or my turn, uh yes okay, the question is a bit vague but, I will just ask it anyway where is your true home


okay it doesn't have to be a place that you haven't been to you can you can just name, Japan for example or whatever lah Netherlands, ya where is your true home you you think


nope, I wouldn't feel that home, yeah, you're not comfortable


okay, okay now for me true home right, as you said lah, true home should be somewhere with, relatives family friends but, if, I'm forced to be in a new environment without them


someway one way or another I've to adapt I've to survive you have to make new friends, and probably once in a while I'll just go back home lah, in a way my true home is where my relatives are lah my family, ya, go back home


ya (ppb), ya, oh, K


oh X-Men, written like X-Men, uh (ppb), okay, like it's just like the X-Men lah uh okay


if I If I wake up the next morning with a new ability, I would like to have the ability to, teleport teleportation, uh, okay I always


ever since I saw the movie Jumper, I was fascinated by the power come on, okay, alright teleportation is fine but sometimes apa uh I I also think too much of, maybe power to control pyrokinesis is nice maybe


uh, just to, make ice around anything that's also a nice one, electricity you won't even, the useless (ppb) superpower ever


invisibility , it is, it's useless [sial], okay


uh for for ill intentions lah, when you teleport


if you can teleport also you can do it, I can just see and then bye ah


ya through the


and you teleport another one, ya, is just stupid right, , that's true that's true


and it's just stupid, good point mate, I'm going to watch jumper again and I'm going to see if he's a valid power


the purpose of transport would it be that one, ya


but that side is is like expense you can only have one person one power so what's your, what's the worse power that you could ever think of having, is like your worst luck


you can't enjoy the expand like that


alright next question, !wow! why are my question all so deep, why are looking for a partner, yeah K basically the question can elaborate in another way lah


why I looking for a partner, ya for life ah, ya, emotionally or


will mess up, okay, why am I looking for a partner uh basically


I'm a giver not a taker okay and, basically If I have love to give I give, and when it reach pause okay, and, I don't I don't just look for anything in a partner I look for


we share things to each with each other, and, I'm the type of person that, say sorry too much and I feel that, the person that, I'm with her should be


somewhat, I don't know I don't know how to explain this but, yeah, I need straightforward more lah


ya why am I looking for a partner because, you know sometimes, you can't help but think that there's a void in you lah there's a void in you that needs to be filled, but actually you just time time alone sometimes, but ya going back to the question why am I looking for a partner


some day I just see myself having a family having a kid, having kids, ya, to have a happy life you have to have a happy family to have a happy family


to have, good, yup, happy wife happy life, uh that's nice uh okay uh around the sixty minute mark we'll take a pause and we go for a smoky break


Shiok, okay, , but it's our opinion


, to me I don't think smoking is a good habit it's a very bad habit okay, but, all for the times if your circle of friend uh you are influenced by if your circle of friends smoke, okay, and, honestly I didn't think I would I would smoke


when I was like twelve years old or what but now look where am I, I wanted to try new things and, I mean it seem kinda cool right just to


, ya oh I'm stressed oh takes fact, that's true


peer pressure, the lips damn cool right, ya


okay okay


ya, present it nicely, so, back to the question


would you quit smoke, when


(mmhmm) yeah yup, if it was a stranger right, right hey can I have a lighter or whatever let's talk on something


why you should date a small girl okay tell me more about it


!wah! , is it the one just now, oh come on Adil you are more mature than that


depends around ten minutes, there's like four sticks or three sticks right


that's understandable okay, that's true


before you have kids will you quit, that's wise, personally I think, I sort of quitting many times, , try and try again but I failed okay but then


yeah, uh I wouldn't know I wouldn't stop anyone lah from smoking but then then again, smoking is a social catalyst ah uh ya that's true, and uh, sometimes when you feel


overwhelmed by things you just take, smoking just lets you think, I'm not saying that when you're stress you smoke, okay it's just that, when you smoke, girl you just have the free time to accept what you can just think


what did I do wrong what what am I supposed to do after this ya, yeah yeah possess dopamine


and you started smoking, that's just crap


in a way, the topic, relax oh, everything fine, okay


let's start by other questions ah we still have a lot more, don't worry, okay how many siblings do you have, next question who are you close to, , oh no no you don't have to be close to your sibling what you can be close to your mother


sister older sister, five years


come on siblings, ya


the age gap difference is bit too much


(mmhmm), you have your bag yeah just now that bag ah is it


for me I have two siblings, ya I'm the oldest so, yeah, not really sometimes she take charge of things but then, when, push come to shove you have to be you have to man up you have be the like the elder of the family


okay, and I'm really close to my mum I'm not really close with my siblings, basically cause, I've uh, one younger brother, okay he's one year younger than me but


uh he's, quite lazy in a way we are opposite ah K he doesn't even, do chores at home and ya I feel that he should because, doing chores, shows, shows your personality lah


K even if you are lazy if you still do it, it tells something about you lah, okay yeah, and, ya I'm only close with my mum, we basically talk about things, and


even when I'm sad and I didn't even tell her she knows it already ya, she try to cheer me up lah, yup that's all


I think, I know, personally if if that were to happen to me, I think that's wrong, cause, whatever or whoever


my parents are, that's that's their problem okay, all I know is, when I, when I have my own family I will still want them to meet my my children to meet my parents, even though they have very ill intentions, but still like you know I know


at the bottom of their hearts they still love me, they care for me and, I wouldn't be the man I am today lah if if it weren't for them, okay whatever bad traits they have or personality, don't don't, don't take upon yourself or like


it's not your fault or whatever lah, it's just them, it's not them it's, ya


(mmhmm) ya, doesn't come with manual


(ppb) ya, like what do I do , what will happen


ya, some way they might they might do somethings that you wouldn't agree with, but still


ya, my personal trait I think is, confidence


ya, and, in a sometime sometimes I might I might have the lack of confidence but, when I do have confidence I know that because is because is what, I want to do, and, is what I want to achieve and


and basically I have no shame ah If I If I do I do want it ah, even if it's, , up against a crowd right, I'll still just, have confident in doing what I want to do ah, yeah


how about you, what trade the world if, come on there's always that one, you're very good at


control yourself, self control


I see


your emotional quota, no there's there's no such thing, if your if your EQ is high that means your IQ is also high does that, it's the same bro


ya, in a way makes you mature right


the typical lah


ya basically when you are, you have high IQ, yeah you are you don't tend to, drop, yeah


ya, , he's just the worst (ppb), pity him


ya, boring


ya scary


ya, oh what you were saying it's not the sharpest tool in the toolbox ah


ya, I I see I see, , okay tomorrow you better give him a warm hug


I want to see that, I don't care I want to see you hug him tomorrow


self control, for me I think I have very poor self control, when


things bad things happen I tend to overthink, and ya it leads to it worsens the situation, that's why, for my lack of self control I try to, stop it there, put nip it in the bud (ppb) and just


talk, talk another time when I'm, sane or whatever lah, have a clearer view of the situaion


ya, fire level what, what method oh !wah! that one, ya I know I heard about last duty


, eh Akmal, yesterday I met him what


unattended cooking right, (uh huh), (uh huh)


that's true, ya


that's true


one block away can smell the smoke already, ya


burning ah burn, unattended cooking right


uh yesterday was Qayyum and who, oh ya, well didn't even know who's Qayyum is okay whatever, Sabri yeah


oh he wasn't in the kitchen


like there wasn't even even a church of fire or what lah, ya is like like clear like this lah


uh so, that means the seat of fire is there lah if if there's fire ah


and that's where he got this like what the hell are you doing , ah okay okay, yeah, is just see like that okay no fire


and you didnt', ya, why like why go why go to the trouble


you shouldn't cause public, ah panic sorry panic to the public


he got mad at you, just for that, then like they got apa tent duty what should you know,


passive agressive ya


yeah, okay, alright, okay, for your last meal what would you eat and who would you eat with


let's say you you're charged with, a felony ah, like crime and you have to be hanged, okay and your last meal, last supper lah ah who will you eat, what would eat, not McDonalds or whatever


come on you can just name anything burger cheese burger, ya baik better die with a full stomach right, a full course whatever, lobster


, subway


something of five star, mojito, !woohoo! what


okay okay, uh I would eat okay let's start with, uh who do I eat with uh I would eat, my mom of course, and, ya it's gonna be the last face I see


uh I don't I don't, if it's with family it'll be quite hard for me to eat with them, so it's it's just feel a bit, eat with my mom ah, my last meal, I think I'll just eat, uh subway


or, burger ah ya that's true, ya,


okay it's your turn, come on, where did I last cry, ya it's on the bus beside her, ya beside her (ppb)


ya, but, that one I don't know but then when I, cry it was manly tears lah I was like, oh shit, but ya cause I didn't want things to end very abrupt what


things were going so good and I didn't know what I did wrong, but perhaps she didn't want it to see that way lah, and ya that that was the last time I cried, recently


ya especially in the business world of working world lah


ya, we come and go


ya, ya


(ppc), right, I have I wanted to be a paramedic more than a firefighter actually (ppb), but why okay whatever you just put me this


uh yup, ya


uh any chance that, we are confirm posted to an STI [loh] just check up on, king people, that's boring


but it's quite okay what I mean in that twelve hours there's gonna be a lot of course lah but then it's twelve hours, ya, nine to nine


(mmhmm) ya, quite limited, yeah


ya lah, of the work hours lah


just killing your life, for a while ya, yeah, that's like


when did you last cry, now is just happy moments for you right , family


actually pass like that


okay like those big event ah !huh!, okay,


oh the date they chose was, at the start of the month lah, in between


(ppc), you have to give and take ah sometimes, ya


even now what (ppb) except for our false


so that's what uh brought you to, what makes you solemn lah


she has Alzheimer's is it or what dementia


(ppb), how so, yeah yeah yeah, they speak their tongue lah


don't take it too hard, take it with a bit bit of salt ah, (ppc)


friend


okay so, now we'll just hype things up ah describe the happiest moment of your life, it's up to you talk about things so solemn just now now we just what's describe the happiest moment of your life


oh yes yes I remember that yeah, you didn't expect it right or were you just


did she agree, happiest moment my life, (ppb) okay, we see life is about, picking your moments ah life is made up of many moments a million moment, there are toxic moments there are happy moments okay


happiest moments, let's say, family when I'm going out with my family that's that's, that can count as happy happy uh happiest moment, I can spend time with my family even though with my busy schedule, one of the happiest moments also would be like recently just recently I just got


this uh I just know that, I got the job ah, uh from, the scholarship, the I got yeah but the, downside to it is it's at Tuas ah and I'm gonna work


ship ah marine, yeah, the person got back to me ah, and, definitely I indefinitely cause, I usually, don't, fall for girls ah and basically the girl


ya recently it was one of the happiest moments ah, even though it's only for two months, and I hope, I hope to god that, it's gonna continue lah, and ya it's one of the happiest moments she really she really brought color to my life ah, it was very my life is very boring very mundane


it's very routine, to break all of that routine is nice, once in awhile it's, ya it was a rollercoaster of emotions ah


yeah, right


she want to export explore life, basically


it's a do or break thing I don't think ah


it's just about the mentality lah it's not restrictive, (ppc) (ppb), you're not going to be happy ah


right you want you want your life to be sum up to one, point of time lime oh I just sat at home and play computer games, you want to experience more, (ppc)


Acrobomb be, , yeah


yeah the locals lah, model scene ah


you want to add spice to your life right


right, experience it for yourself


it's not supposed to be


that's true, what


come on


topic wise is it, if you can have an hour long conversation, okay I I see, I have this close friend of mine, basically we uh we've known each other since Primary one


so I mean he's he's a child he's a childhood friend ah, and, somehow our lives are intertwined by, this this event in Primary during Primary six ah, okay we were, we were young dumb and doing stupid shit


okay, basically (ppb), our lives intertwine when, we made a comic basically at that point of time we were like we were into comics ah, and it the comic that we made about was this another boy's life


he was he was basically (ppb) world lah he he likes to talk, about his, he likes to blow things up you know like oh my dad has a Harley-Davidson and all that, so we took it took it upon ourselves right to draw a comic


watch life, about his dad riding a the Harley-Davidson with another another another woman, besides his wife I mean it was dumb and, stupid lah but then then we , me and the my this close friend


got called up into the office and explain why we do this shit (ppb), the the boy knew about it ah he read oh what the <EX2>fuck</EX2> is this , I mean, stupid lah you know all the it's like we draw we drew the father like


cheating on the wife all, , that one it was like stupid shit lah we did in kids, ya, then somewhere along the line, we just click with each other ah, certain events, happen (ppb)


and he will share the problems with me and I will share problems with him ah, in a way like the question just now that I ask like the brotherhood ya, he's like a brother to me ah, ya, can visit if not, not for an hour eh I I the recently I can just talk to him like


from nine PM all the way to five AM five AM, then who attended, ya we just basically talk the whole night, cause (ppb), I was facing through some things ah, yeah, you know there's this stages of depression


I was at the anger stage yes I was damn angry, and basically for that nine PM to five AM, the stage stage progress to accepting reality ah, acceptance yeah


ya (ppb), ya come on we have a circle of friends very, cute, really, okay who would you confide in


another girl


mealtime ah mealtime, !woo! damn, Chinese Malay, that's right


rare from a country like that lah ,


you know it's limited right, point of view, ya, so, my question


(ppc) big break, what would you do if you won ten million dollars tomorrow, ya if you won ten million dollars from a lucky draw whatever shit


Taman-Negara , explore ah, ya when you have ten million dollars you can go anywhere in the world, come on man, ya just want to spoil someone right


endless things


can do that with ten million dollars, ya, find one ten million dollars tomorrow


I'll still continue on with my life, okay cause ten million dollars is in a way it's much it will it's a lot, but is not much, okay you cannot do any anything some one way or another the money is gone, is gonna finish


invest that true I'm gonna invest probably around three million, then then seven million left will be, spend it on my family, I it would, , by my, pay off my debts, my family debts


my extended family debts


hundred thousand


ya it's too much for anyone to have, travel, explore, splurge


ya that's what I said ya I will just continue with on with my life, i'm just gonna buy a normal car I don't care I'm not gonna be robbed If I even though I got ten ten million dollars


oh shit


I come from a simple family, and we do things simple, basically, things that I enjoy doing with my family is like we going fishing, or having a barbeque, at East-Coast-Park ah or Pasir-Ris, ya, I enjoy doing family things ah


and, uh, my family doesn't go on holiday trips that much so but when we do, doesn't matter the destination as long as with family, I I enjoy it lah, yeah


that's all, you,


so lazy uh


it will be so fun right, ya


the availability of, them ah, Orchard, and you eh, oh


sorry okay, if you could turn back time what is the one thing you would have done differently, you have no regrets with what you do, really even during primary school secondary school, nothing


it was, it's what makes who you are now is it


okay ah


and dig deeper


the strongest version of you lah, , some ways I do, okay but, the recent


the thing that I I wish I could turn back time was, with the girl ya the currently lah now, okay, I would, press the buzzer and turn back time and, honestly I would still want to meet her I still do


cause we uh share common interests, common ground lah and we have our opposites too, the thing that I would have done differently right, is, to not follow my emotions too much


to, take things slow that's what she wanted so it wouldn't have to lead, to this, but I know, this thing could have, it could have been avoided ah, but then, we we are human


eh we cannot, uh ya, it's not about mistakes more it's about about the, our self control of our emotions, what we felt, what she feels what what I feel is what she reciprocate reciprocated the same feelings also


okay, ya I would have just, treat her like a, sis like a like a friend, then when things progress, uh that's when I, go for the kill lah


yeah


she might be the one she might not be but at least I learn something out of it


okay, this should be should mean like spiritually right, what, okay, , I think the symbol that best describes me right is


plus the positive, yeah, okay whatever this influences the topic is influencer right, and this symbols might, each represent their own, influence personality lah


but for me the positive the plus the plus sign is, what I mean is, the plus sign, how do I describe this eh, positive ya I'm a glass half full kind of guy and


plus


you cannot process the, ya I think that's are the feeling right now, okay so what are you you are equal is it


ya that's true that's true, ya (ppb)


ya that's true, and should this oh-my-god, it's a good I remember


how do you want to be remembered, alleged, how do you have to remembered,


good or bad, Ah-Tan , in a way people remember you as Ah-Tan Once Upon a Time


not really it's just how you want yourself to be remembered as, even, it's good in a way because, people depend on you, for, solution lah, and you can give it to them


sometimes, ya, it's a sensitive thing


I want to be remember as, someone who was friendly, someone who has, lots of friends and, I was nothing but good to them and


I live a a full life, live a full live, someone who live a full life you always have good memories and, good experiences to share with their


loved ones ah, yup, so, just simple, the question are getting boring ah what


what, what personal traits okay uh that's a good question, what I dislike about myself is, trait


I would say, my indecisiveness, you know I'm, I'm confident I know what I want to do but I cannot decide on things


and for the lack of self control right, I tend to be very indecisive, I don't know what to do, when to do it, ya basically just that


I hate that part of myself, how about you


okay okay


okay, next question, your turn or my turn, really meh, okay we can just, name a favourite place that you've have been to what is is it significance what is it


is it's significance, the Tokyo Disneyland, Hong Kong, Hong Kong is best or Tokyo one


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