ya, some parts of singapore ah the coffee shop the hawker center I think all very lousy one lah


ya, it's the same as anywhere else in the world lah all those all those Atas places all those high class one all all got very good place


the then all all those like lousy one is really lousy lah, sleep ah at uh twelve twelve AM sometimes it depends lah like usually I get to sleep by twelve lah


because I uh because like after class sometimes I will play computer game I'll look at my phone then sometimes twelve is like the magic number then I just go and sleep lor, or go out with friends lah because I always like to watch video play computer game


actually like certain points in my time I had a lot of social life lah because like after poly


uh, starting to pick up again lah, because like after poly , like like uh I had friends from poly I have some cliques who invited me in but we didn't talk much after poly ah then then after that like I was quite lost lah then for


for for a moment I joined the singapore dating union ah, like like because like my my father and mother met through that app ah then then they have like a lot of blind dates, so my mother say you can go there and then and then make friends from there then all of them are trying to find partner


then after that after that I was like taking french in poly right so like like I also decided to to , go for this uh french meetup called francophile club, singapore francophile club then uh it was organised by one of the french teacher lah then I got to know some other people there lah


uh but not not really close lah then after that, after that somehow I like met this uh social anxiety and depression group lah I saw it lah then I go for one of their outings lah then I got to know them lah then then, I got to know them until until I started like uh uni sem one lah


so when uh uni sem one I was like really struggling and then having no friends and stuff then they were my source of outside friends


ya so after !huh!, after that we drifted apart lah, uh after that then then I am I I was our like like somehow we somehow some of us like like , didn't get along some of them uh like like don't want to friend me anymore or like I don't want to friend them that kind lah then our group got smaller and smaller and smaller lah then then


then after that I I ended up like I I uh, had a falling out with a girl lah then after that like we like Bo Pian ah then had to break off the friendship ah


ya ya, ya, I think you have to be discerning lah you have to evaluate the person lah


because because my mum always keep saying that uh outside friends are worse than school ones, school one is uh less complicated lah uh it's safe safe safe harbour


because like like like recently I got to know this girl from the LGBT meet up lah then after that , like we went out together for the movie then she uh say she want she want to she want to buy this movie ticket lah like got one for one one


ah one for one movie ticket right ah then uh it's only half price don't have to pay the weekend price, then after that after that uh say say uh I I say I don't have credit card I don't have Mastercard because I scared later I pay for her she don't want to pay, then after that in the end in the end right uh she say !aiya! nevermind go for full price lah all that then I say I don't want to watch then say can ask your mum or not then my mum got no Mastercard


so I got this prepaid debit card so I decided okay I tell you what I go there I top up the debit card, so I went to uh Bukit-Batok there the West Mall I went to queue and top up the debit card then then then she she, she immediately intercept that I say I'm waiting for the queue then she say uh she say she already download the


she already download the Masterpass app on her phone she already download the the movie app on her phone eh so after that I went to the uh AXS machine to top up my card, I went to top up my card then I key in my pin and everything then after that after that right the worst thing is right


she already got the app downloaded prepared leh so so she keyed in my my prepaid card details into her phone eh, after that she pay me back in cash lah but but still it's not good to store the card details in someone else phone lah


ya then after that after that she after that after that she like, how to say uh sorry I'm losing my train of thoughts so after that she, she after that she key in then the Mastercard and everything then then she is like just happily okay let's go and watch a movie now it's it's uh


uh all the details are are firm up already and then worst thing is right the the the SMS code right the security code right is send to my phone, then she tried a few times she cannot try then then she say uh send again send again ah then finally get through then after that worst thing is


no no she's very complicated she might she might want to like access some some of your bank details you also don't know, ya so so so after after that right I I went to her went with her watch a movie then, then like during the movie I texted my mum about her then my mum was okay like so so lah


uh then uh go home then talk lah then after after that like like after the movie right I, I decided okay uh she she say she want to eat she say she hasn't eaten anything, then then, then then is like okay, uh


you can stop ah, okay bye


ah also can hear you can can can, okay so we begin now is it, okay okay eh what are we suppose to do ah for the picture thing


but must spot difference between what ah the the the yellow picture and the, , there's only one picture, oh okay !wow! okay so what like like what's in your picture


okay okay okay K, and mine is like a green colour like background (ppb) like then you know there's like a lot of like pigs and like I don't know like there's this pig like


there's this dog okay I think it's a dog lah it's a dog it's a dog so there's this dog it's like trying to hang, the clothes or something it's super weird don't know how to say and then this like pig is near the like all the, all the leaves and everything and then there's like two children sitting on the seesaw


ya super it's like super random it's like in like at the side there and then there's like a lady a green colour like shirt lady, who's like holding like this pair of scissors and stuff like that ah ya what else do you have what else do you have


oh eh I think we are having we have like the same kind of


photo eh cause like I also have like this one I'm gonna shoot you cowboy is it is it is it the same one, ya it's so weird it's like and these guys are surrendering okay K K then there's like also, this table and then this lady and a I think is a aunty or something lah they they look super like unhappy with each other


ya so weird I'm like thinking are they eating or something so weird, ya lor


okay okay can can can then there are the there are like some chickens or something I think it's like a Kampung lah is it it's like a Kampung is it okay okay okay


ah I see okay I think this one is the one that is different ah cause this one is like there's this what john pieris, store and then that one is like buy your dad the perfect gift so is like I think that one uh there's a few differences lor ya, I also don't know it's super weird it's like uh


ya eh eh does yours have the one with like the seesaw with like the children, ah seesaw and the children and then and then what else ah uh chicken


two hays right ya okay okay I don't know I think I won't be able to find the differences ah anyway, K any, honey oh I think uh mine also mine also


mine also mine also ya correct ya so anyway oh ya by the way right you you told me that you are going for like this what ah, uh what what are you going for later you have like what art oil painting is it, !huh! why why why why why was it cancelled


I see I see


then then why did you suddenly like want to take up oil painting, eh but then but then didn't you just graduate how come you unemployed for for very long meh


[orh] ya lor ya lor true uh then then then like you how you say it ah then you go for oil painting and then like in a sense, what do you hope to get out from there like you you wanna have some therapy is it or like what happen


!huh! really really ah they they say your painting can sell is it


ya but but but why oil painting though it's like it's damn hard eh it's like it's not that easy right


I see, [orh] but then like do you do you really enjoy doing that like


oh why why why why


!wow! oh my god that sounds damn complicated that sounds super complicated oh my god oh my god okay K K but then right like, if you enjoy it then just do it lah because you you know there's not a lot of people who actually have like the, who actually have this like you know how to say ah uh this patience to do it so I feel that if you like it then just do it ah


because you know when I was young right I actually took like up this like painting class but not oil oil painting lah this is just like using like, you know uh normal pastel colours and like colour pencils but then I just couldn't draw a nice one it's like I you know like people like, how do you say ah like like how you say when when you draw a table right people draw it in like a three-D way


like in a more like ya but I cannot you know I I just don't know I just cannot draw in a three-D way oh my god (ugh) (ppb) okay okay okay, ya, oh so you mean that you didn't actually like have any talent for art but then you took it up lah eventually is it


oh ya by the way what time did you wake up ah today, ten something is it ten something , [orh] okay okay K so like y'all like how do you say ah so you and your parents you guys you you all like wake up quite late lah is it, ~n [orh] [orh] [orh] ah [orh]


then then you still wake up so late


no lah cause cause the thing that I'm thinking about right is that like okay like you mentioned earlier right you say that oh like uh, uh like you are unemployed and stuff like that right like but I don't think so cause like just like just like what I said right , you only graduated like last month only right then then like


how do you say ah are you like feeling very helpless or something because you can't find a job or something is it


[orh] you know right the thing that I find right nowadays right is like you know like those employers like they're always like oh okay okay alright alright but then right like they may not, like hire you in a sense so it's like it's like just they just a put on like a false front saying that oh okay okay we will contact you again and stuff like that but


at the end !hais! don't know lah I mean I mean I heard from my mum right recently that okay not recently but few years back then right she told me that oh uh there is like , work for a like for a job in singapore right even entry level right like two thousand dollars plus plus per month right it there is like what


a hundred over people fighting over one position I don't know whether it's true ah but if it's really true ah how are we gonna survive ah


!hais! I don't know ah then but then just just sometimes right like although you say that oh like jobs are hard to find and everything but there are still a lot of people who are, ~ing you know so I also don't know especially like like I told you I I do like telemarketing over there right there are still a lot of like people who can like


you know go up to high positions I don't know how these people can do it lah but I don't know lah I I will say that most of them right like okay I will say that for, good companies lah I think most of them come out from like what, uh NTU NUS there are very few who actually really come out from like what SIM or something which is sad lor


ya correct correct that's why that's why I told you right like like I I shouldn't have went for JC you know like like legit like cause that time I


was like thinking okay poly V S JC JC is like two years if like uh if you don't get retained lah but in the end I I I mean in the end I also didn't get retained but, the results were like just not what I wanted but anyway like so that's why what I was thinking was like oh okay poly V S JC poly three years


JC two years I get to graduate earlier if I you know go JC and like what I was thinking back then is that I wanted to go to like, NUS NTU lah but then like throughout the two years right I slowly found out that like oh it is not that easy to actually like even get


like a C for like one of the JC subjects so that was when right I slowly started declining and everything ah and then now when I think about it I should have made like the change, to go to a poly after my year one cause like quite a few people after they got retained and stuff like that some of them went to poly lah so I'm like oh okay


!wow! okay then, but then I managed to like you know proceed to year two but then now when I think about it right, , (ppb) I should have like thought a bit deeper than just like passing those subjects because like at the end of the day right


like like after I reach year two it was it only got worse and like ya so, ya and then now it's like then they ask you uh what's your highest education that you have I mean your your your highest education, ~vel that you have right now right I can only say A-levels not actually I mean like if you compare A-levels to diplomas you will definitely say that diploma is a bit stronger right


like than A-levels


oh ya that one that time ah you told me before that actually your mum was the one that who actually told you to go into accountancy right, then then what what were you actually what like as in what were you actually interested in back then


!hais! but but actually right if you want to take computer science right or anything there is actually okay I I don't know whether I I, I say I'm not sure but I think there are computer science like diplomas in singapore eh I I think in the polys there are


ah oh ya perfumery ya I heard about it that time right like I was thinking of going into it but in the end I was like, but at the end of the day after I saw my A-level results I was like oh no definitely not even if like I were to like revert back to poly or something right, like I wouldn't want to take food science or anything because like how do you say ah


, it's very difficult and like although I like science in a way especially biology I think I cannot lah especially they have a lot of like those like, chemistry stuff and everything I think I can't so that's why ya so, ya so that's why but do you regret taking accountancy though


but then did you ever tell your mum that like that's not you what you wanted to do, cause it's very sad eh cause it's like when you think about it right like your life is so short and it's like you are still so young, like how does your mum know that you would fail like computer science or anything you


for all you know right if you managed to get into like some computer science course or like a course that you like right you might doing much better you know, do you tell your mum that


same here ah same here ah I mean but like how do you say it ah it doesn't mean that if you are slow then, how to say ah okay even if you are a bit slower right it doesn't mean that you are dumb or anything it just that means that you are slower ah just like me like uh uh how do you say ah, people take like a few days like they can just memorise like some biology concepts and everything but I take like what two weeks


but it I mean I mean like it really, how do you say ah it you don't you you really don't have to like be too, ~cerned about it and then like your mum force you to take like accountancy diploma right you know accountancy right I feel that you also need, I don't know whether I'm right lah but you would also need like some amount of like


how do you say you also need to learn fast what in a sense for accountancy right, ya lor !aiya! that's why your mum is also like okay


you know right sometimes right for me right, I I eventually found out right that it was actually because I didn't enjoy studying it's not because that you are slow, so that's why right like ya when I reflect back now right like, how do you say ah when I compare myself now and like a few years back then right I feel like I I'm able to like


learn a bit faster now despite like being older you you get what I mean like back then I was like only in like primary school, and then now I'm like already twenty years old but in a sense like I don't know why lah but my memory is like working much better now than before, then when I reflected back right I found that oh perhaps like it's because I really didn't like studying back then especially for like math


topics I really hated math that's why that's why ya so it's like when, like like did you ever think about it like is it really because I'm slow or is it like you know because I I didn't like that, that's why I in you know I couldn't absorb the information it could be like that you know ya


[orh] oh ya ya by the way right did did you see the uh talking about the written communication did you see what miss Dipa wrote


it was it was it really wasn't good right like like the oh shit oh no oh no, , ya ya I I I saw the email it was it it's just I mean it wasn't good lah in a sense like there were quite a few errors here and there


like okay ya , , ya not only your error ah ya not only not only your error so I I so I was like saying there were errors here and there everywhere like, at the implementation part like they said that they wanted some kind of like she said that she wanted some kind of like what


, what ah illustration or something also they didn't have it there and then a lot of like other other , problems and issues at like where ah where else and my part, and my and my part also there was like quite a few problems and then at the financial breakdown one and #nina#'s part there was also like kind of like random


errors here and there and then at the start ya it was everywhere, so that's why I'm like thinking right am I even able to get B plus for that


then she then they they then they didn't care right then she also ya !aiya!


ya, but but then I I would say right that oh ya by the way for your oral presentation for the that one right you you got twenty six out of thirty


that that's quite good you know at first I thought that you know she will rate everyone very low and stuff like that but like I mention because I didn't I didn't submit my peer evaluation form so, ya oh ya we we got eighty four out of hundred for the thing right, yeah uh


K lah okay ah but ya we can make it so, say say say, my GPA now isn't okay I wouldn't say it's, very bad but it's not very good either three point seven something seven eight


[orh] your yours is three point five three, [orh], ya but I I but I'm telling you right I think right we'll be drag the both of us ah will be drag down by the written comms one, cause you know for linguistics right I didn't I I I got like B plus did I tell you ya


I got B plus what what did you get ah, !wala~! eh so many people like I I I heard that a lot of people got A minus and A so ya , but it's okay ah I mean I'm okay with it then then in the end like, uh ya and then I think it will be pull down by by miss Dipa I think it will


, ya so and and then she haven't key in the final marks yet right as well, I think you I think


because I haven't taken a lot of mods yet I think how to say ah four five uh now is my fourth I think I've only taken like sixteen modules, around there


I I think the more modules that you take right then, yeah like even if you do not so well uh but unless you fail anything that's another you know issue but if you don't fail and you get like, B or B plus I think it wouldn't drag it down too much I don't know uh it'll probably balance out


ya I think I think it probably probably drop by like zero point two or something like like zero point zero like zero point something I think ya, ya ya correct correct correct then then how are you like besides doing oil paint oil painting right like what what other stuff are you doing now


uh besides going for interviews and oil painting what what other stuff are you doing, piano oh eh eh I find that right you are the kind of like people who are you're kind of people K you're the kind of person who is a very artistic in a sense is it


I didn't expect you to be like that you know like cause at first when I saw you right I thought that you are like the kind who, like plays games okay you play games okay at least like I'm accurate on one on one of them you are like the kind who like , let me think ah what do I think you do, (hmm)


(hmm) I don't know I just thought that you are the kind who plays games and watch videos watches videos but now, you watch videos but then there's there's this but then this there's this like other side of you that you kind of like do as well right, it's like in a sense you go for art lessons and then you play the piano I didn't expect you to play the piano like really


eh is it the one where you die and then like whatever


or your character gets hacked [orh] ya ya ya correct but but is it very brutal or not ah like


!huh! grow a lot of babies from where, like, [orh] baby chicken [orh] okay okay , what the , what okay okay okay that's funny then then like how long do you usually spend playing those games


oh ya you know like back then right I wasn't playing games lah but okay it it was a game you know Candy Crush right it's super popular


so I can I can actually spend like I don't know how how long you spend but I can spend like five hours trying to, clear like the levels and stuff like that but I think in the end I was like a bit, ~ed to it that's why I'm like asking I was like asking you the other day like do you get addicted to it then you were like oh no then I'm like okay K then


and I mean that's okay I mean ya, but do you get addicted addicted oh my god okay , but do you get addicted


like to games


[orh] so so you're is it ah I see so you're like the kind who is like not focused ah in a sense when you're trying to like , play something on the piano but then you are thinking of how to clear that you know that level is it


okay (ppb) okay you're funny but that's not being addicted to the piano or like to whatever you're just like very focused ah like what you mentioned earlier like, ya okay I see I see I mean that's good because you know ya


cannot stop then that means you're like you're a bit addicted lah to the games, that's that's why like you you you should how do you say ah, in in a sense right after you play for like, okay I I don't know what works for you lah but for me when I was trying to like stop playing Candy Crush I would just go like and set myself like a timing of like only one hour


everyday to play then I I won't go beyond that one hour so but I'll play everyday because I know that if I don't play a few days then, I'll probably just like switch on my phone and keep playing it like you know on on another day so, ya so I'm like trying to say like don't try not to get addicted to it lah


ya but but but then you know the thing is that sometimes right when you watch videos of stuff like that right don't don't, it's like do you feel that you don't feel like stopping, ya ya same same here same here it's like like like you are kinda brought into the another world that you don't want to come out from right ya ya I know I know I know that feeling


it's like it's like how do you say it's like (ugh) it's like I just I just want to stay in that world forever I I don't want to come out into the real world which is so, which is so cruel and everything


!huh! what do you mean by broken, oh ya I think right like the reason that you kind of found it thrilling at first right is like because you don't know a lot stuff ah there's like a lot of uncertainty that's why ya correct then


in the end like when you when you like how do you say ah when you already found out like oh uh this is like that the other thing is like that then you already like bored, actually played like for a few few times so like you getting bored already so (hmm), ya ya ya that's right lah that's right


[orh] I see I see I see !aiya! I mean don't how do you say ah I mean I mean it is always good there is something that, ~tains you because you know right uh I was thinking right if like you don't have something to entertain you and to like you know just like


in a sense bring you like away from reality for awhile it it's gonna be super like tough you know to survive I feel that definitely like everyday right, especially at night right I have to listen to some songs and watch some videos or like some anime I have to if not I will feel like very


I wouldn't say bored lah but, I'll just feel very sad I don't how to say ya downcast ya I have to because I really don't want to face the reality for like twenty four hours or something, like you know you get what I mean right ya


ya okay K ya correct correct correct in a sense ya it's a form of escapism but I I feel that it's, it is not necessarily negative I feel, because, because like when you kind of escape for awhile and then you come back like you feel better what that's better than


ya that's better than when you kind of like just you know force yourself to face the reality, like always ya , !hais! okay right, ya lor


what , !huh! really meh like as in as in, as in like okay K so so like those people in america they purchase like what like membership but then they are living in the in the basement


oh my god okay okay that's, funny (uh huh)


oh ya you know right okay K wait let let me think about that ah oh ya okay do you feel right that singapore has a lot of smokers, I also feel eh it's like you know right okay okay this is not a taboo topic right


okay K K K but whatever lah okay like you know that time when I was sitting on the bus right, I I actually saw like you know okay I live in Yishun like I told you before right so I actually take bus seventy four sometimes from Clementi, to like uh Ang-M~ Ang-Mo-Kio MRT station but you know sometimes right like


how do you say there's like a lot of like smoking areas like the bus passes by ah, and then whenever I pass by that area right I see a lot of people smoking there I really don't know it's like I think addicted to nicotine or something like that


really meh, no but the thing is that it it doesn't okay so so you are trying to say that they do social smoking is it, ya but but don't you feel that it's very sad cause like


okay okay if you are like if you did it willingly then uh okay if someone does it willingly I I I won't I I won't say anything because like no one force him or like whatever, but if the person is like doing it for like what social smoking or anything like you are just destroying your health just because of like


I don't know your friends or something it's just sad right like you are you are kind of forced to do that in a sense, I mean I see it as you as that person being forced


ya, ya I think so ya


ya true [orh], ya, what the but it destroys your health leh like in the in the long run in the long run I I mean like I don't know ah maybe cause because I'm not, the kind of people I'm I'm not a smoker so like


so like I cannot I I just cannot understand like the smell is so bad sorry ah I mean, ya okay, ya it's true right ya okay oh ya by the way right how how how is your relationship with your parents ah cause that time I remember like in WhatsApp I ask you like


oh how are you and your parents then you are like saying that y'all y'all go for lunch every saturday and sunday is it


[orh] I see I see I see


okay oh my god that was so funny you you trying to save money by eating with your parents okay okay okay, but then but then like so did you do it like but did you did you do it voluntarily or is it like you were just trying to save money, (mmhmm) [orh] [orh] I


see but then like are your parents still giving you like pocket money now, ya lor true true true true true but like how much do they give you every week like I'm just I'm just asking ah just curious, two hundredish that mean seventy around there ya for me it's like


like they used to give me lah pocket money ah my mother and then she is like uh let me think ah seven oh oh two hundred each per week is it for you, oh that's quite a lot sia my mine is like only eighty dollars per week , eighty or ninety ah cause cause like saturday sunday I I'll just eat with my mom and my ya my my my my family lah ya correct correct correct correct


ya, but then like you should tell her that you're not even cleaning the toilets in your home you're just like , you're just like getting mum your mum K you're just getting your mum to like give you money and stuff like that's quite a lot eh two hundred dollars you divide


okay let's not count like the, the the the the what ah let's not count like your your saturday and sunday ah cause like your saturday and sunday is like your parents right ya you eat with your parents, and then right like you you divide by five right it's like forty dollars a day eh sister


uh no but the thing that like if you just stand on the MRT like nobody would look at you what


[orh] I I think I get what you mean I get what you mean , ya ya correct I I think I get what you mean you know it's like you know sometimes right like


I feel that people are looking at me but although they are not looking at me but I just feel very like, okay I wouldn't say I would I I would I'm drained but I'm just sick and tired of people you know sometimes right like , how do you say ah I I really don't like to have a big group of


~s and I and I also don't have a big group of friends ah cause like how do you say I don't really open myself up to many people and like even if I open myself up, to like some people it's just like sometimes just talk about stuff and things like that ya I've had, I didn't I I don't know whether I told you before but I find it hard to trust people so


ya and then like on the MRT right I'm just feeling very irritated and upset like from people I just don't like okay I I know it sounds very weird but I would, I would just like to say right like I really don't like people especially at school I don't know why


ya ya correct correct oh ya oh ya ya correct correct ya I mean you've made a point there if they're welcoming and nice right, or like at least neutral then I will be okay but if you meet up if I mean like especially for group work right when like people


when like the teacher kind of like pairs you up or like she does the grouping for you right then then if like you meet up if you, like how do you say if you meet people who are like not so nice or like judgemental right then you you feel like so discouraged I mean I don't know about you but I feel very discouraged


I don't feel like doing the project anymore


oh for me right, that phase right that you mention earlier just like everyone has their group laughing and like talking loudly right I actually experienced it when I was in, secondary school and JC so that one already past but like already like past for me, it's like I I don't really care anymore like you want to talk you want to have like your own clique it's my it's none of my I mean I don't really care it's none of my problem


but I I mean like nowadays it's like for me I just want a, how do you say have a peaceful life, , I just don't want to care about anyone like, how do you say ah like like in the sense right, how do you say okay K I would say that there I have these two sides so the one of these sides is like the kind that


that I I want to interact with some people and like just for a short while and like, share my feelings and stuff like that and then the other side of me right is like you know it's like I just don't want to talk to anyone I'm just so irritated by everything , ya so you know I don't know ya


, ya so right now I'm just like I I I don't mind being alone or like anything but, I I I'm just socialising now like in school especially in school, because I want to have a group of like people that I can do a project with for example right like comm two four zero for comm two four zero had like the helen Wang


it is someone else ah not doctor Kanthan and like she actually said you can choose your own group of like six or seven people, but then like if like I didn't interact with anyone I wouldn't have any group and then it's going to be very awkward like what you mention it's like if you don't have a group then like everyone rejects you and stuff like that so that's why right


I interact with like this small group of people so that at least like you know you know I I I can like join that group if the teacher says that oh go and choose your own group or something like that ya, ya so that's the only one of the main reasons why I'm like interacting with them ah ya, ya then the others it's like when I'm going home I just prefer I just prefer to go home alone


ya, I don't know lah I mean I mean like I uh, how do you say ah you know there's this big clique in our school remember like the benedict and like the whole, the whole big group of them do do do you recall


[orh] [orh] I think you don't know it's like you know uh let me try to think, okay do do you remember ben like uh no no no wait wait wait, okay I think you don't know but ya nevermind but like there there's this in our in our batch ah there's this like


big group of people like I I mean, some people think that they are nice but I feel that they're judgmental, it is right judgemental so that's why I don't I I don't really want to work with them for anything, ya I mean I haven't been able to meet like really like


like talk to any of them like before but I just find it very judgmental like you know the way that they look at you and stuff like that ya it's just, ya


no but the thing is that right you think about it ah it's not like okay uh uh like oh I'm from, SIM you are from NTU NUS and then you are like everyone is in SIM I mean like what what's there to be high and mighty, about I don't get it


oh oh so so they are like so they think that they are like like that, oh !wow!


okay, ya lah the thing is that there's a whole batch of them you know there's a whole bunch of them who think that they are the queen bees !wow! okay


, okay, no I I I would say right in for me ah in secondary school it wasn't like that, because like okay everyone although like people also had their own cliques and everything but at least like people were nicer back then


then in JC right like when you reach like your sixteen seventeen years old fifteen sixteen seventeen years old right then that's when like the people like, you know all those whatever queen bees or those people looking for attention come ah ya that's why I feel oh my god


oh really meh I I didn't know that, what oh oh is it like the kind it's like or for example if you are like the whatever prom


prom king or whatever prom queen like the people of the opposite gender have to vote vote for you or something like that right in in in school


what the, really then what do you what do you get from being the prom king or the whatever prom queen, , OMG oh no


oh ya but but what do you do there right you know the thing is that like I like like what you mentioned earlier right like the the UB whatever thing right, you know I I don't get it like you still have to pay so much pay so much money, to for like for like whatever dinner or something I I don't think anyone ever goes you know does anyone ever go


really oh my god but but but the things is that the, is there even any students who go


really there are students who go so expensive


okay !wow! that's so funny you know but the thing is that you know you know you know the funniest thing is that you know whenever they come in to talk to us about like you know the , the not the prom uh the dinner and dance right you know they themselves right they also look like how do you say ah how do you say that


no no no no not judgemental they themselves also like look like they cannot like carry it out very effectively or like, they themselves okay ya okay wait I I found that word okay they themselves, are not confident you know why cause like whenever they talk about like you know the the cost and everything right they themselves know that it's expensive you you get what I mean


so like they are not that confident to say [orh] like [orh] uh it's only they they can't like how do you say, they are not confident enough to say that oh it's only like uh sixty dollars but because they know that it's expensive themselves, ya so I'm so that's why I'm just like, ~ing !hais!


ya, I I I mean like in a sense okay if you talking about printing alone like not colour printing like like black and white printing it's still okay I mean like unless you tell me like you, print a textbook or you print like I I don't know whatever then, that's gonna be a bit expensive you know the thing that right okay I I I'm okay now I I when I think about it right I shouldn't have bought the you know


psych one O one, like you who who who taught you ah psych one O one, okay mine was like okay K but that that's the not the point of it mine mine was taught by some, uh who ah doctor !aiya! forgot already but that that wasn't doctor rina then she ask us to buy a textbook called introducing psychology or something along that line that was like what


that was like eighty dollars or ninety it's hundred over was it hundred over sixty something dollars and then I was like because I was in my first semester, at that point of time I did not know okay I did I really didn't know I just dumbly went to like buy the textbook at sixty something dollars


and then after that I suddenly found right that you can actually go to the like you can actually go to, the the library to get go like photocopy and it's only like what less than ten dollars, I was like oh no idiot why why did I buy it all those stuff oh my god and then up till now right that that that textbook is still with me now


, (ugh) waste of my money the hell, no no there there's a there's a photocopying machine in school


ya ya I mean like okay K K K to be honest you either choose like okay easy but you have to pay more money, or you like to or you choose like do it DIY like you go and like photocopy by yourself but like, you know it's tedious but at least you get to save you get to save like fifty dollars why not


(ugh), ya true ah true ah okay ah so, !hais! sad sad sad, ya okay then then then like what else ah


why, no I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not comparing anything I mean everyone is like equal I'm just saying only I didn't compare anything ah I didn't I didn't, I didn't I didn't do anything I know uh no no I'm saying that like okay I mean everyone knows in a sense that private universities


are kind of like more expensive am I right, ya that but I'm not comparing what , K K I'm so scared right now , can what I'm not I'm not doing anything what ya then


oh ya by the way (ppb) right wait wait wait let me think properly what should I say oh oh ya so like are you planning to go on any holidays or anything


no but the thing is that right uh have you gone for internship before, I see


oh ya you know right that time I went to Ngee-Ann poly to lunch ah Ngee-Ann poly ya Ngee-Ann poly and then like I I know they have this like what what ah, career centre or something like along along that line that helps you find like internship so do y'all go and find your own internships or is it like they find for you or something like that


oh they choose for you, but like like so after they choose for you then they just send you there then say like oh #hui li# like you're you're going there or something like that is it


I see I see I see but but but then mean right like in a sense I I can say that you they will help you is it, , I see I see I see I see, then but then like uh did they pay you well cause since it's just an internship


per hour six hundred per hour oh my god I wish then that's really okay I I won't say that's very but I would say that it's quite low eh


I see but but have you ever like how do you say do you do you think right that they won't pay anything for for like an internship, unlikely right, cause you also need to eat what in a sense like I mean okay I I know also need to eat but you also need to survive right even because they know that if you are doing an internship


it's definitely a like a nine to five like, so called job training and things like that you don't have any other time to go and like do other jobs and everything so, like in a sense you you depend on like the pay that they give you from the internship to survive in a sense lah in a sense


ya but the, , but that one is just like paying your school fees, but what about like your surviving like like your meals and like your basic stuff


ya, ya I I think quite quite a few people from (ppc) from our


from our school right they also work and study at the same time eh, is it is it


who who who who who uh I think I don't know but, ya ya ya [orh] I see I see I see


, then then like I also know of people who are working but I I really don't know how they can they like just, how to say okay there are two points that I really admire them for so how do they even like schedule their work because like everyday right it's like, unless you telling me that you take only like one or two modules but these people like they also take like four modules or even five mods


how they how do they even schedule in their work I also don't know and then second of all right it's like, how do they find the time to go and do their like their their work and like relax and stuff I I I really admire them you know like really


I don't know eh I I mean okay K to be honest right I I wouldn't say that I am hundred percent sure that these people are working and like studying at the same time, but I have heard of like I I know a I I've heard of this girl I think she's shanice !aiya! forgot her name ah forgot her name


but then she I I heard that she works at Starbucks as like a barista, like and also like she also studies at the same time so I'm like thinking oh my god like, then I I also don't know eh it's like I am like oh my god how do you study and work at the same time !aiya! really don't know ah I mean


that that's going to be like a challenge for me if I want to try it one day


ya lor ya lor I mean I mean but if you take up a part time job right that means like you won't have much time for like to rest or stuff like that, , energy bunnies what's that


okay I mean going out with friends that's like at least some time like for your own you know whatever you like and like, you know uh I mean uh I mean I assume that they like going out with their friends ah , ya so but then like I I really cannot okay I can understand but I cannot


how to say I don't think I would be able to cope like you know if I'm like working on saturdays and sundays and study at the same time, unless you tell me that oh you only have to take like two mods this semester


MIA


oh ya you know talking about that (ppc) uh linguistics module right you know right you know from my group right there's this, girl who is in UB council school council and then the thing is that right she is never here for our meetings, and then you know and and yet the the funny thing is that right at at the end cause we didn't do very well for like the first draft or something lah uh I I forgot it's one of the draft


then she was like oh B plus only then she had that this like, it's like you know, sad face and stuff lah then we're thinking eh dude you didn't even contribute to like you know the the, this thing that why why are you like complaining I I don't get it uh but I didn't say anything ah ya


no no I I wasn't paired ya ya like in a sense cause she didn't have a pair, so like uh (ppc) she she didn't have like a group a group ya so my pair like you know my partner so at first I was doing with this girl called Suchita


so the both of us was like ya so uh wait like ya but the thing is that after that we just like tried tried to get more members because like we we were a bit lost, but then that girl was like she was alone so that's why she's so so we were like oh do you want to join us she's like oh okay and then at first her attitude wasn't very good


I don't know maybe she wasn't feeling well or something but whatever but at the end like she she got slightly better and stuff like that but she always said that she had no time because she was in uh UB council and stuff like that, and so she was I mean she did something but she didn't do much and then the other girl so there were four people in our group lah so me my partner my original


it's okay it's okay, [orh] [orh] is it like the very big it's very the very big box


first focus right what the heck is that, [orh] [orh] [orh] [orh] that that one, ah but, but then, it's okay ah I mean just continue


I I don't know uh uh after after the person come in then you can go and go and ask lor go and ask go and ask, then no it's okay it's okay uh I mean I can hear you now, and then you you keep but but did did did you see anything get disconnected or anything


oh my god don't , oh my god that's so scary


hello you okay there, [orh] okay okay okay K don't don't look anyhow kick eh anymore, , okay can K about what I said oh okay okay okay going back to our conversation now just now, so then this girl right like she had this like not so good attitude and then


what okay K then the other girl we had like the the other okay so we had four members in our group oh my god why the other girl okay, so me and my original partner and then this girl in the whatever council and then in the school council and also the


the the other one who ah who ah uh she okay she's also doing a part time job ah so she is like super busy and things like that, so the two of them right they didn't do anything like they they they did literally nothing at first I would say, so at first I just wanted to break off (ppb) with them as a group lah because I feel that if you're not doing anything right like


like why are we even working together but then at the end they did something but you know I still feel indignant when I think about it, ya in a sense ah so , correct, then, how how how how is it at your side now


[orh] okay okay okay can can can can can can it's okay


, so like , oh ya ya ya just asking ah I I dunno whether you know but what if you want to go to the washroom


it's okay it's okay ya not now not now not now not now it's okay it's okay later later it's okay, ya , so uh, wait ah what was I thinking okay K so , so right okay so far okay you just tell me a little bit more about your experience with Morgana


no no okay K K okay ya you tell me first ya you tell me first ya


but but, uh, but but how was it how was it the results and like did y'all do well, oh I see I see I see okay I mean that that's good lah I I mean ya


no no no I we never we didn't get A that's why I didn't get A in the end what because the whole thing, uh at first it was B and then after that it was a C plus because like we didn't like cause like how do you say we didn't do finish the


~s and then in the end it was a A or A minus so that's why in the end, ya correct that's why and then right no no the thing is that okay I don't mind not doing well, but the thing is that if you didn't put in any effort right or you didn't put in much effort right shouldn't you just like not talk, and like you know it's like oh only A only B or something like that then uh let's try to do better next time I'm like you didn't even do anything you didn't even do much eh why why are you like


(ugh), that's the people lah, oh my , , okay !wow! dude are you sure you can do this


oh my god that took ya really funny ya okay ya but whatever it is right I will say that there are many people who are not that nice out there lah, I mean I mean there are many people who are okay I wouldn't say not nice but there are many people who are entitled, you get what I mean so it's like they they feel that they should get good grades and then like oh uh you you're like


oh like [orh] I I I only like do one part and then uh I I can get like get good grades or something like that [orh] then y'all will do the rest because like y'all will want the grades as well, you know that I I think right that was what like the both of them were banging on, yes cause cause they know that me and the other my partner actually wanted to do well so that's why ya


so that's why they were like and then this they MIA also you know it's like okay for for for yours it's like they MIA offline cause like y'all were supposed to meet and stuff right but for us because they said oh, uh we have no time and stuff like that okay then we meet online then they MIA online they didn't even say anything


cause like she's working right like you told like like you told me


ya I mean okay ya I would say right, based on my part time job experience and like the experience in school right I would say right that society is super complicated nowadays, I I really don't know like back then when I was young right I was like thinking okay if like I I oh ya I was thinking like if the


you know society could be simple and stuff like or if you are angry just say it if you're, it like you know if you have any objections just say it don't say it behind my back or something like that but I feel that nowadays right, everyone is just like speaking behind everyone else's back and stuff like that ya


okay okay eh wait can you do me a favour can you help me to ask right ask that guy if I can pause and go to the washroom for awhile


uh can you hear me again #hui li#, okay K K K K can can so right like what I was saying just now right okay so are you satisfied with your grades right now


really [orh], me also


oh ya true true true ah I I think right how do you say uh sadly right, how to say people are paying so much right but then a lot of them don't really care much about grades I mean of course nobody wants to say fail lah but, I will say that a lot of people are not concern about the grades and then they are like there to build their portfolio then like I'm thinking


oh my god you are just there to build your own portfolio then you pay so much money, , uh so funny, true true


why why why they don't want to hire you


ya true true true true true oh ya by the way right did you leave your bubble tea in the washroom just now I saw your whole


okay okay okay okay you know there's a dustbin right somewhere over here , okay so you you like Chin-Chow is it


oh what what kind of drinks do you like are are you the very like local kind of person who likes local drinks


but but but do you like fresh juice, oh you oh ya me also me also it's like like okay K so between juice and fruits right which one do you like better, you really meh but the thing is that juice is made out of fruits eh like and you're talking about fresh juice right it's made out of fresh fruits


oh so you're like the lazy kind lah is it, oh I see I see I see you know right for me right


okay I would say I like both lah like both fruits and juice, but I would say that I won't I'm not the kind who likes every kind of fruit for me I like sweet fruits I like uh watermelon banana, uh okay some kind of kiwis are good lah okay some like the you know the yellow kiwi


ya I like it better cause it's sweet, and then right what else ah I I like sweet fruits how about you, mango pear


I like orange also, , ya you know right the peel right that time right I I don't know how to say ah but you know the peel will actually kinds of irritates your skin like you know something from the peel just, uh, there's there there was this stinging pain on my on my on my like lip like after I bit into the one with the peel


I I don't know ah but but but did you feel that did did did you get that before, no no no no it was on my lips, like you know the the kind that I I don't know how to say it okay K nevermind it's okay it's okay


ah ya correct correct there is something on the peel that makes it a bit like painful, ah ya maybe maybe maybe ya correct correct correct correct so so so like besides that right


like okay K so just now we were talking about like fruits VS juice right like like, don't you find that the canned juice it's like very like fake like very artificial


oh really you you don't like fizzy drinks, okay for me right I really like fizzy drinks like back then ah but now I stopped drinking cause I heard that you know it's very bad for your health and then it can like what, you know you you know like what your organs can shrink and stuff like that so I was like oh no I'm not going to drink that


ya ya correct but so so is it like from young you didn't like it or is it like, now only now from really okay that's rare cause like, I I mean I liked it but ya but now I I don't really take anymore and like you know


your nose wants to


oh ya ya I mean that's true lah but you know that's that's the point why I liked it at first, I don't know what I just I I don't know what I just like that you know that sensation but then now right I stop already and also Maggi Mee also it's like I stop eating Maggi Mee as well ya


really now you still eat, ya


ya same here same here so there there's this like sometimes I just like to oh eat eat clean like what you said like what you're saying or like eat less meat like eat more veggie and, stuff like that but then sometimes right I just get very sick and tired of all this like whatever diets or anything it's like and restrictions


like I just go and eat like my donuts and stuff like that but I stop eating Maggi Mee already cause like, how do you say ah I wouldn't say that it's the most unhealthy thing because I know that donuts and stuff that you know that I eat sometimes is also very unhealthy, but I'm trying to say here right that it's like cause it's fried right


the noodles in there it's like is it deep fried or is it I don't know lah but it's just not that healthy, and then right the seasoning everything is like they said it's toxic lah, ya, ya MSG and all those stuff so that's why I stopped eating it but it's very nice lah I mean like when I was young I used to eat a lot of it


ya but nowadays I just stop eating already so now like , , ya, correct, but but you for you isn't emergency food anymore what now cause you're like saying that whenever you're lazy


so how how how often does your mom cook


!huh! why, so now she doesn't cook anymore


[orh] so she cooks like, [orh] so so so so she in the sense she just like does housework lah like housework, [orh] I see I see I see I see then like, , then the okay so it's like your so what does she usually cook


cause like okay I I the other day I I think I didn't tell you before okay my grandparents right they cook like everyday, so what they cook right is that they will definitely make sure that there is like a meat like definitely got a meat lah like chicken fish or anything and then they will cook like vegetables and everything but, the the the thing that is not


how to say ah everything else is very clean like they wash the vegetables and everything everything is super clean, except for one thing is that because my grandpa right he likes to eat salty stuff, so like like the dishes are usually more like a bit salty lah but it I mean it's still much better as compared to outside ah


and also a bit oilier but it's also much better as compared to outside so how how how is your home cooked food like, food food


oh okay okay that one is very healthy, melon soup old cucumber soup is it, old melon soup okay K but but then right like you all only drink soup ah no no other dishes


ah but that that one is like not a home cooked okay okay I'm how to say ah it's in a sense home cooked lah cause she went to prepare it but, ya but it's really not healthy eh cause like if you all eat like fried food and stuff like that you know for me right cause right my skin is not so good so that's why I cannot eat like


too much of that so that's why I have I have to eat like those steam food and stuff like that your oh so so yours is like the, the kind who eats like semi how to say ah cause now those they are like semi how to say semi cook is it like like you know the


semi process, ya, all those like mixed vegetable rice ah mixed vegetable rice [orh] I see I see I see ya


Kang-Kong ya I I love Kang-Kong I really like that what I don't know ah like like is there an english for it I don't know I only know Kang-Kong, , Kang-Kong ya I really like Kang-Kong and then like what else ah I like spinach I like I like all those like green veggies ah but I I really don't like bitter gourd like


bitter stuff is like totally not my kind not my style same right ya correct correct correct correct you know sometimes right I'm like thinking right where will we actually get, like you know the time to really sit down and to like talk again like this, you you know cause like when you get how to say ah cause now like you're currently


so called unemployed but you really don't have to you you don't have to think too much about it because like you know people usually take like quite some quite some time to find like, full time employment ah that that's how I feel but then I I feel like once you really step out into the workforce right


how much time would you really have like with your family and like so like and like your own friends no okay ah okay I I mean okay weekends but, but really like how do you say what if you have to work on weekends okay I'm I'm I'm not saying both lah but what if to what if you have to work on like a saturday or something


it's like there's really limited time that you have with your family in a sense lah, ya


ya true uh but I mean like okay but if like for normal office jobs lah let's say monday to friday saturday but like, won't you want a day to do something like that you enjoy in a sense like wouldn't you have want to have like some me time on saturday or sundays


ya then like when you have your own me time so called me time right then you have even like less time for your family members so and then like, (ppb) I don't know lah over time this just gets very depressing, , I don't know leh when you think about it right it's like okay you you are you are like born


and then after that you slowly grow grow up and then there's only like a few two or three years where you are truly happy like your kindergarten, years or whatever nursery years and then like when you reach primary school then you say okay ya still everything is good and everything but and then after you graduate from like primary school


when you reach your teens right then that's when like you start feeling like, you you you get what I mean so it's like when like all all the judgemental stuff comes and then like, ya and then you are just troubled throughout your life and then you go out to work and then like you have to face all those like whatever office politics


(ppb) ah it's just so irritating and then ya


ya lah but I mean I I I don't know eh I mean I will just, !hais! I don't know lah I uh I mean but even if you go on a MC or you go on a holiday you still have to come back what like, ya lor


but the thing is that right in singapore right what if you can't find a job like you know the living cost are so high nowadays and everything, like what if you cannot okay not you ah touch wood like what if like someone cannot find a job, like you know the thing about the contract jobs right is like, like okay for example oh I sign you on for six years six years six month or like whatever one year whatever


but then after that contract right like you are jobless eh, really meh like what but what if your family is poor


you know right I I really feel right that I I haven't seen much of the society yet, I think I have a feeling right that there are a lot of poor people here


but uh ya whatever that is uh I don't know but but how about the unemployment rate for like, I don't know people in the twenties ah is it very high I I heard that it's increasing lah but I don't know whether is it very high or not


I think like nineteen like like ten percent around ten percent around there ya, !hais! what what what does this ten what do this ten people in this ten percent do ah I'm really like super


ya true ah true I mean like you would have to find a way to survive I mean


ya but then like given like the living cost right now right no matter how frugal you are right, !hais! you'll always find it hard lah right in a sense


true ah true true true I mean I mean, at the end of the day if like you really have no money then definitely have to scrimp and save lor like ya there's no choice on that ah, !hais! sad sad you know what I when I you know that's why right that time I told you that I really don't feel like graduating anymore now


, (ugh) so tough oh my god


ya uh I mean, no but the thing is that right I don't know where this degree will lead me to you know like like I'm I'm I'm being very brutally honest now like you know for this


~s you know whole whole major thing it's like they are not teaching anything that's related to the computer or like whatever it is like they are teaching so broadly like, all the different modules are all it's like what oh for example like your advertising and like what oh what else ah marketing like only one module you know it's like it's like not


focused on anything so broad, so I also don't know like so in a sense like unless you go and learn yourself or whatever like or, ya then then you can't be ya unless you go and learn yourself or, something you can't be specialised in anything yet from this degree


which I feel it's like a bit of a waste no uh I mean I I enjoy the modules but, I mean it's a bit of a waste ah in a sense because, how to say you don't really learn like anything that's like very concrete from it, that's why I'm like thinking like


if like someone ask me like oh, uh uh uh what what what did you get out from out from your degree like or what what what can you do or something like that like you know I I find it very hard to answer, cause like I'm not specialising in anything, ya


but I'm like thinking like cause I really don't okay I I mean I don't know for like in the future ah but, for now right I really don't feel like doing like any other further studies now because I feel that it's just a waste of my time and and my money because, you know right like


it doesn't having a master's I feel lah it's just in my own opinion, I feel that it doesn't mean that if you have a master's or PHD you will get a like a much better job than any other people you know, it's it's also depending like what you major in and like uh how you use that you know that education


level so ya, I don't know I mean professors ya true ah but but then right, I don't know how to say I I just don't feel like


and you have to write your whatever thesis or whatever oh my god that that felt so troublesome , , ya, ya I mean that's enough for me for now for education so I just want to stop at like a, degree for now so called degree for now


ya how about you, for now right ya


I mean right to me right I feel that your baking whatever thing right that thing is like kind of like more, how do you say ah more practical, then just like going for a master's ya because like nowadays like with a baking you know, I don't know certificate or anything you you can go and help out like I don't know and bake like CNY goodies


I mean you have employment opportunities but which are more like solid and like, you can get like confirm earlier but for for like master's right you still have to I mean you still have to undergo interviews like everyone else, in a sense and then you are still competing for the same thing that everyone else is competing for like a job ya


ya true ah so


ya, it's super different, ya correct and then and then for that one right one, thing that I really like about poly which that made me regret made me regret for not going to poly right is that they teach you practical practical stuff, especially when you go into like communications especially a mass comms or something like they teach you practical stuff


like like maybe photoshop or like stuff that you can use and you will need, like for your job but right over here right it's like they are just, how do you say they're just teaching like theories and then like oh teaching like uh whatever like or how do you do this how do you do that and like like it's just a lot of like theory based stuff


which I I mean I enjoy because at least like you know you you learn stuff and things like that and like, like being a lazier person on my own I I'm there thinking okay lah I mean just learn theories but when I think about it now right, I feel that it's not worth it leh especially the money the fees I feel lah I feel because like I'm paying to learn like theories that I can't even apply to my own life in the future


and you know because like these theories like they originate they how do you say ah these theories they can't apply to every like cultural context and everything so like, and so like what's the point


ya true true true, no K K K I feel right that nobody has ever feedback before because the thing is that I mean even if you feedback or anything right they won't care because the thing is that if they care right that means they have to change the whole curriculum leh


ya correct exactly, so that's why that's why I I think they also don't really care like oh whatever ah uh we're just going to teach you theories and then like uh the rest will be for your own you know


oh ya by the way right you didn't have to take the capstone right, ya ya correct correct correct then now right because like uh now it's like uh we are entering a digital world so like you need to be like digitally literate or something like that ah


and then so so so now like they're just uh asking us to do the whatever UBC that like it's like one credit unit or something like that and then they told us like oh, you have to do it and stuff like that then I'm like like it's like you know what is it about it's like about the portfolio


and stuff like that ya, , true but but the thing is that right, I don't know eh cause like you know if you want to make your portfolio public and everything right there's some settings that you have to do right like like, you you get what I mean you uh you understand what I mean ya


ya true true true and then right I was like looking at all the like looking through the internship stuff and everything ah, like you know a lot of them right they they require you to be like good in Excel but you know the thing is that I'm not good in Excel, , so I'm like are you good in Excel


ya so that's that's the thing you know cause right now I feel like I have to go and learn on my own, because like how do you say ah, in JC didn't teach they didn't teach us anything along that line


and then I don't think much people used it before and then now right they also didn't teach us they just said then they just like teach, they they they they just like keep teaching theories and stuff like that !hais! I'm really just, don't know lah


ya, ya true true true I mean that's a good thing but the thing is that like what you mentioned earlier right is it really like useful in making your portfolio better, because like how do you say it people from other schools or even like okay I I I'm not comparing anything right now I'm saying like every other


student they will definitely have their own projects and everything as well right, then like it doesn't make you stand out in any way what, okay I mean I admit that at least having something to show is better than nothing but I don't know whether it will stand out lah


and like if it doesn't stand out I also don't know what other stuff I can do to make myself stand out so that's why I that's why I told you right like, just now like I reiterated I really don't feel like graduating you know it's like, !hais! I don't feel like graduating


uh but but but just to ask right is there any possibility that you get fired from your internship during your internship, I I don't like at any internship


ya true, ya true you'll definitely I mean like for full time definitely cause they're paying you like full time a full timer's you know salary, and then what else ah ya correct and then so I'm like ya I mean


the world is really cruel nowadays I I mean okay I I mean you know I I cannot imagine whoever who's gonna hear this recording okay like the person the person will probably be like thinking who the hell, who in the world is this person and why is she talking about that but,


ya but I really feel that you know the working world is super cruel, ya, you just


ya, I really don't know ah because you know right like okay what's your goal for life


what's a copywriter ah again I forgot already, ah oh ya you are the one who okay ya I mean that that could be what I mean like it doesn't like how do you say ah okay I think for that right you need to know like what's the trend


and everything and like how to come up with words like really like attract people then you are then ya then you don't have to I mean, okay you will be involved in design of course cause like you have to see like how the words are like you know designed and where to put them but you don't have to involve yourself like too much with it cause like the person who is doing the


design of the poster or whatever will be doing it ya I I I think that's a nice one but have you have you tried before like applying for such job


who, what's that


and that means like in a sense right they're did they see it from your degree or they like say after they met you and like understood more about you, [orh] so all a lot of them say ah like all of them say is it


ya true true true true correct it's like it's like for me right like okay uh I would say that I'm slightly better slightly ah, slightly better in speaking than writing but I have to follow a script as well so that's why I like I'm thinking right I'm neither good nor bad in english


but I'm also like how do you say like I'm like halfway everywhere for like all my languages so that's why I'm like thinking where can I go I don't know eh I really don't know


but are you going to go like you're you're not gonna go back right, then what did you do at the career fair like ask


ya true but but then like but I'm I'm like a bit curious right like how many companies will there be like what kind of companies will there be are they good or are they like


I see I see I see, (hmm) , , , okay ah but then like so, so okay so like you are not planning to go on holiday now but if you really can't find like, a proper I mean a job that you want then you probably go lah like


but where would you go, like where where


but then you go free and easy won't you get lost, Google Maps that means you have to use your own data


but is it very expensive but is it very expensive, you know I I heard right that you know transport in australia is super expensive is it


oh ya oh ya you told me before ya told me but but then right I'm curious eh like how is the living cost over there


[oo] I mean that's like quite good eh


okay okay okay alright okay so so so so in a sense you would say that like how to say it's a bit better at australia lah


oh my god he what okay K wait wait so he came he went from singapore to australia to pluck mangoes, twenty three dollars per hour then what did he do with the money and like what did he do in the end


ya I mean but how did he even find you know that kind of like, opportunity ah it's like you can only say uh we wanna go and like uh work and have fun at the same time ya but I've never been able to find such an opportunities, or is it I because I didn't find before I don't know


oh so it's like like the walk in interview kind is it, but but then what if no one wants to hire you


oh my god then go farming pluck for he pluck for two two months, oh my god that's so funny like like but okay I mean at first when you're plucking you're like oh okay this is, something different from like singapore and stuff but but if you pluck for like two months won't you feel like very bored


but like okay if if I ask you ah like will you be willing to stay there forever to pluck mangoes


I see I see I see so, okay lah I mean I mean okay so you are trying to say that like how do I say ah, okay ah okay but but then now so like okay you are going for interviews and stuff right okay then when, do you think you want to like move out and like really have your own house


of course not now lah I mean not now I mean who who in the world will have like, how to say enough money to move out at the age of twenty one or I mean twenty two or twenty three I mean okay I wouldn't say no one but


definitely not you and I ya but, ya that that's why I'm thinking


ya, you do a oh ya of course lah ya but the thing is that what I'm thinking about is like I I really want to wait till I'm like thirty five, and then I I okay okay I may not have enough money lah but, at least I want to like buy like you know those one room HDB flat like only one room for yourself lah eh I want to buy those


when I reach thirty five ya


but but for me I don't want a tenant for me it's like I I don't mind having a small house cause I will be living by myself lah, but ya don't have any tenant I just want my own house like one room HDB flat anywhere ya


ya I think so ya correct then how about you like okay what if your mum isn't that controlling by then


like you okay so in a sense am I right to say that you still want to go overseas, why ah like you you don't like oh you don't like as in like you don't want to work over here is it


ya that's true ah no but for me it's like being in a tour group right it kind of just like ensures that at least like, okay I mean it does waste time because you're like on the bus and stuff like that like for a few hours but at least it ensures that you manage to go to some tourist attractions, you know cause that time right I my family we went on like this free and easy tour in Hong-Kong we had to like fly


fly we had to find a lot of like places ourself and to like ask around and stuff like that so in the end like we ended up wasting quite a bit of time, and then we were like uh trying to find the place and then like so I I mean I how to say ah I don't mind free and easy tours but I feel that like if you have like


a tour group at least like although it's it can get a bit like irritating or boring or like you know, on the bus ride sometimes but at least you can kind of like expect to see some places like at at least like you successfully go to some, ~es you you get what I mean, ya


ya, [orh] and then and then like talk very loud to them ah is it ya I see


[orh] so so like your family is the kind who like , how to say your mum is like the very talkative kind is it


her own kind , so but don't you feel right that your mum has kind of waste okay I I wouldn't say wasted ah cause everyone has like a different use for their own like


degree or whatever but but do you feel that your mum has like, , how do you say do you think your mum could have done something better with her degree than just being a housewife I mean of of course I know that she probably work before ah


[orh] so that's why she, [orh] so so she tried to coach both you and your brother, [orh] I see I see I see, okay I mean like


but how do you feel now like do you feel more comfortable like do you feel like more released, okay I wouldn't say released ah but do you feel more comfortable with like, yourself now, ya then that's good ah ya I mean


ya you know the thing that I don't really like about okay parents who are like, you know too controlling is that is that like I I, I don't get it it's like how do you know that it's like the best for your child to like keep pushing him or her towards a certain path that you want


you get what I mean, ya the uninvolved ya correct correct I mean


I see I see I see I see ya I mean like , how do you say it ah uh okay K I know it because it's very tough lah, uh like how do you say from a parents point of view right like I've like okay obviously I've never been a parent and I'm not a parent but I'm like thinking right okay it's a bit


tough because like you're scared that oh if I let my child go like uh his or her own way like wherever he or she wants to do then like I let him or she, err him or her do that will he or she like stray or something like that like you get what I mean like, ya but the thing is that right


how do you say ah if you are like too controlling and like you just want to like dominate your child or you want like your child to go like the way that you want him or her to go right, I feel that it really doesn't work that way eh cause like for my for my parents right, oh they are like oh you have to like they're the typical like you know the parents who are like oh you should go to a local uni (hmm)


like what uh you should go and like go for the high paying jobs like, like uh you you uh life is tough like no matter what you choose you will still be like not so you know it it will still be very tiring and stuff like that, but the thing is that they what they don't know right is like if you don't enjoy what you're doing right then no matter how you you won't be able to sustain that job for long


I feel lah, !aiya! so that's why I I I don't know ah I just I feel that my parents don't understand me sometimes I really feel that they don't understand me lor, ya


ya mine also mine mine one is like just like very skeptical okay I'm I'm but mine is like not on sing lah she's like, oh I will just be wasting money but the thing is that if you don't like try it once how would you how would you know whether it it works or not, I hate it when people say that oh uh definitely cannot work out one lah then and then like after that they just like


pull you down together with them in this like, journey it's like of negative feelings ya


ya mine mine also mine also okay mine mine didn't say that lah but mine just said that oh uh I think I uh like you you can just, you should have just gone and got a diploma and then like go out and work and stuff like that !aiya! whatever lah


ya true true true true true I don't know lah let's just, pray that everything works out for us at the end of it ya , ah I see I see [orh] !hais! don't know lah I mean just try our best lor


okay ya I think there's another one five fifteen, ~inute, ~s left ya , !huh!


ya mine also mine also but like there's there's another fifteen minutes ya, ya I think so


K can you hear me #hui li#, ya okay K K K okay okay okay so so right just now right like okay okay I should just ask you random question ah what do you think about singapore toilets


ya what you think, most cleanest toilet, a a most cleanest toilet okay okay K


oh world's world's okay okay okay really meh but I feel that you know like some of like you know in chinatown, the toilet is super dirty


(uh huh) not so good one ah not not so not so nice ah ya, ah the like those remote areas right like that ya, ya ya true


seriously, !eww! is that even in singapore, is it singapore


ya true true true true lah ya and then and then sometimes right you know like uh where ah in like those clinics right those toilets are also are also not very clean, in a sense right ya lor uh


oh the coffee shop is super lousy ya the coffee shop one is super lousy sorry ah but like in a Kopitiam it's like it's just it's how you say ah like, I just cannot bear to see the sight of it cause there's a lot of like flies flying around ya you get what I mean ya


ya correct correct correct correct true ah true true true


yeah so so like how do you say ah what time do you sleep everyday, I see I see so


I see I see so in a sense like at night it's like your own time lah it's like your own


ah I see I see I see I see I see then, oh, I see but like do you have a lot of like do you have much social life like you go out with friends is it


but now not much ah


so you were you were trying to find ah so you were trying to find someone


ah ah ah correct for me also for me also ya for me also it's like, like like I told you right semester one right it's like I how do you say ah I have friends lah but the thing is that like I was just very lost over there, ya I would say so ya


[orh] ya ya, ya, ah I see you know you know right


how you say ah it's just very hard to maintain ah cause you know sometimes right cause I'm a bit sensitive, so I also don't know what the person is thinking about and everything right so sometimes I I also don't know like how should I respond to that person, so that's the thing about it so I also don't know it's like it it it's just the thing that whether you try to


trust people or you don't want to trust people or like, like you have to be in between you you get what I mean it's like you can't say that oh I don't want to trust anyone then I've like no friends then that's lonely, then it's like you trust a lot of people and then in the end like they just talk behind you or or stuff like that then it's going to be bad what


!hais! don't know I don't know I really don't know, but how to be discerning the thing is that like what if that person is like putting on a show or like being you you get what I mean I I really don't know


really meh, don't know


oh so like you are the one who is paying lah in a sense in the end, ya exactly lah [orh]


oh weird, oh so so so she like is a like how do you say like I mentioned earlier is like a bit like entitled is it is like she feels that she's entitled to use your phone


I see I see okay uh we we can


photo which photo, there's two, folder, okay, the tractor that one, the tractor and the pig the and


yeah


you mean the piglet from the you mean the piglet from the pooh ah the winnie and the pooh, to which where you go


oh okay the drama your your meeting with friends right, right


you sorry you look what you look like what you you what did you do


who's your friend, the #xin lin# which one have I met her, oh I did meet her


I remembered when I saw you I did remember also when I saw these two remember at #sheng siong#, at the carpark multi-storey carpark when I saw these two birds one of them is dying and the other one is helping, the pigeon


the differences I I how you know it was a beach it's not a beach right, it is just like a farmhouse


the other one, oh K K I saw the eh remind me of maldives,


tent ya why what about the girl she was all alone by herself or waiting for somebody or


last seat, half, yellow tent is there any signboard I saw tribute to paul mckenny, I saw a signboard saying that south pavilion tribute to paul mckenny


oh then that one spot the different, no there isn't any signboard there's a beach queen standing


using I don't understand why is this beach queen using a bikinis with this so called, beach queen uh signage uh not really signage the I don't know what is it called so called using that


then there is there any other guy who playing a golf I don't understand why this guy playing golf beside the sea, shouldn't it be cover because the golf the golf balls can just hit other person or whoever swimming at the sea


ya I guess so at least tiger woods know how to explain on that then do you see the fishing shack open, the small hut fishing shack open the ironic ironic of that was that the door is closed


no the irony of the story ya the irony of the picture they said fishing shack open but the door is closed, ya, damn irony right


do you we was about the same topic do you see the three so call, three seahorse, what is it call what is it call ya, no don't have spot the different


we have, yes, and do you see two recycling container, by the side by a lady ya eh no mine is both recycling


then you do you see this guy who uh carrying peaches basket of ya a basket


oh ya ha it's so rhyme peaches beaches and beach, and do you, and do you see a do you see a boy sitting in the middle


where a boy wearing a cap blue shirt brown pants green socks, sitting there you you have, ya the irony is why is he sitting that side he should be sitting and facing the sea right should be more


it should be better, no but you know he he doesn't have a no I don't understand why is he looking there know know in the middle of, the middle of the road where people can just pass by


then I ask you, eh so how are we going to the MRT later we have to which photo


buy oh yes, buy the perfect gift for oh no mine is for mother days, and there's a so call a sheep so call there's a sheep standing outside right


this, no I don't have the baby sheep I have only mother sheep eh remind me of my dolls billy, billy the goat, three chicken yes


ya ironically they are vegetarian they are eating carrots only no steak so sad, oh no I don't have both of them is having two carrots on their plates


[orh] no mine is I'm gonna shoot without cowboy no words of cowboy, and then there's two, the guy is wearing a white and brown shirt right raising his hand up surrender ya surrendering


(hmm) yup yup, then there, oh ya doing the trimming of the flowers, [orh] there's no flower mine have I have five flowers


yes one of them wearing caps, cap and then the other yellow blonde colour guy with blue shirt and brown pants


true yup agree wearing, wheelbarrow no no I don't see my picture I don't see the pig eating leaf


remind me of hamlet, oh ya the one where that you we saw on the island alone left alone in the island pity dog ya the black colour dog was stranded alone on the island


waiting for us to, no he was all there the black dog was all no the, no the it doesn't have the owner only when the person came then the girl the black dog came over


drinking coconut every day ya the only dogs who drink coconut and have a black fur, ya very friendly dog I love those ya and it remind me of my trip to Broga when this dog


just when I feed him he accompany me all along the road then he help me !wah! that dog very cute, and everybody was like so afraid of the dog but the friendly dog just keep walking with me


oh no mine is adam and sue, I think the, uh one the adam is yellow sue is with pink in the middle with white colour


oh is it sue just sue without peggy, oh ya ya it's just like uh fading from this uh blank


black line lines fading, honey sure, oh yeah, oh yes yes I had it and then outside there's two is it three sacks of potatoes


oh okay spot the different, for mine I have, eh true I have it why I sound so fake no I am not not faking it it's just true it's like inside my picture, !aiyo! eh we completed these two pictures already


so, ha ha I, who who who is the person give you thumbs up, ah that handsome guy ah the friendly guy


I'm not fake why you keep on reusing your fake, oh did I okay


no I did not you know that's the different when I'm talking on the phone you don't expect me to shout when I was talking on the phone I I, the voice just keep change and I know it's just so different eh tell me what crazy things did you do as a child


tell me about what crazy things did you do as a child, that that the answer I should answer that question no


you had you have no choice, no you have no choice no eh ya I remembered the crazy things that you did was you went out from the


window remember when we go holiday when me your brother and your father went out for a stroll in the evening asking you along, then you said no you're bored you want to stay in the room, that after that we when we came back to the village


we were been informed that actually you climb up out of the window , remember and you ran away from that what a stupid things to do


no lah that is one of the crazy things that you did as a child so cute, that !aiya! can I can never forget about it , ya so (hmm) and what do you want


to eat later, coloured, have two pink cards, I have, (hmm) let me count ya have


I have two blues, eh why you sound so far, you sound so far please carry up the


uh three three eh I have three orange, yes, I have


no I have three green cards, yes same, and I have four pinks


oh is it how do you know, oh it's


what food probably has an interesting story behind the discovery that it was edible


[orh] now I know what do you mean fertiliser, ya fertiliser is fertiliser is bit into poops is made made into fertiliser, your poops lah when you poops then after that it will


uh it will decompose into fertiliser then it feeds the tree, and then recycle and then the cycle goes on, right, there is that sounds (hmm) K, (hmm) let's


what can, okay I ask you if you drop everything to follow your dreams what would you risk, you want to take a risk, the the pink card, if you drop everything to follow your dream


what would you risk


I don't know, are we, oh it's different it's not the same


ya by the way I like the dress that you're wearing today very nice, and I like the pants it goes along very nice also suits you the pants, the palazzo


ya you can go shopping, you want to watch what aquaman


[orh] adik went yesterday eh I wait adik went on friday, ya he said eh and I I heard the review was good about the spiderman


for the, uh spider, spiderman, I wanted to watch the aquaman !hais!, ya


oh is it and there's a bubble bubble


but the bumble bumblebee the bumble [kan] the the sound effect was so nice the so cute, bubble bubble man eh bubble car, ya ya !aiya! what do I want to have for our dinner eh


what do you want to eat later, arnolds arnolds where got arnolds have to walk all the way very far from wisma atria Geylang, to Tanjong, I don't know wisma wisma there's Pasar Geylang Pasar Geylang but I don't think so it's open we can go for


Kopitiam, Pasar Geylang where no no wait should be closed by now, Pasar Geylang, I didn't know


oh is it and I can hear you shouting you are not talking you are so you shout like as if as you are you know, you are so eager, you are so eager tone down your


ya you are talking very like so eager as if as you know and I'm alone here so, I don't no I didn't ha ha , how I


ya ya and I have my and I have a pillow for me to hug it's very nice, it's very nice, if I don't you can't see me, (hmm) oh ya I saw


so cute, I don't know I don't know me too I'm hungry thought of, maybe steak maybe soup some fish fish soup


but jack's place only offered lunch set meal jack's place ya jack's place is Nah, but the the theatre will start at seven by that time we finish at ten ten I think most shop is close already right


how what do you think, sorry Mariam you are burping, shouldn't you say sorry, (hmm) yes


(mmhmm), what do you think about it, (hmm) fish soup I like it so much leh


I'm hungry but just now you had your subway already, you don't take any breakfast, why, what time you left your the house


and what time is the poetry starts, nine forty eleven it's just at Bugis right


[orh] okay okay no wonder and ayah and adik will stay at home why didn't you have your breakfast at home, ya just prepare some omelette just do your drink just do some coffee and egg


ya I knew it just now adik also say he's very lazy ya I by the way remind me ah I need to buy bread for tomorrow morning, there's no bread at home, ya have to buy some bread ya for breakfast tomorrow tomorrow are you going out


you going out tomorrow, why you figure out you where you going tomorrow I'm working then your dad is at home, your brother is at home so you both can do lunch you can cook lunch


sometimes you just have to cook don't know what to eat ha, so how is your theatre yesterday with your friend, [orh] no sorry the one that you met with at Bugis


so you're going for to meet them you are going to do the intern with him again, [orh] then your friend of that they all of them knows lah you are leaving for good ah


does your JC friend know you are leaving for good, oh no some of them not aware of it, why not oh damn !hey! what do you want so how's


next year what which month are you going to register, for next year courses lah, I'm not sure what do you want to eat for dinner


wisma atria eh no no what wisma atria wisma Geylang, what food we have to take train forty five minute then we have to walk then after that wisma #geylang serai# food


I'm not sure the market still open or not, but we can have a look, do you want western malay food, or indian food, Briyani is nice ah fish Briyani, fish ya fish Briyani is nice


then I had rice just now I had this Nasi Sambal Goreng very filling, so full, then ya I just want soup lah some soupy or pizza also nice


pizza what about pizza pezzo pizza per slice, do you want, pizza, hello are you sleeping or I'm sleeping


ah then why you that's why you can just google lah what you want to eat, want to eat arnold will be at our place also mah, kfc lor kfc will be nice


eh your creative card right, the orange colour you have three right, the creative card the yellow colour card, what is the topic you have


#ayam bakar#, oh you are still talking about food #ayam bakar# yes #ayam penyet# is nice, there's no #pasar malam# nearby is it, I can't I don't know #pasar malam# nearby


#pasar malam# !hey! if you had three wishes what would you wish for let's talk about our wish, what do you what do you wish for tell me about it (hmm)


we have few more hours to go so you must tell me what you wish for I know you wish for, don't know then what you looking at


oh ya right, then I but I was asking you about the wish you can just tell me you have lot of them


ya, I thought you're wishing for the best for next year that you've been enrol to the courses that you want you want to have more friends


you want to be successful enough, you don't want to wish for that, but you have to think about it what if you don't have what is your plan what is the plan A and plan B


right, why don't, (mmhmm) but you if it's just saying that you have the wishes, for you to think about it for you to have it why not right


just imagine somebody in front of you said Mariam you have three wishes, then what do you wish for, so ya, don't you want something (hmm) unexpected


why, what do you you are looking at your phone you are doing your


(hmm) ya true, there's something that you have to plan to do, at least you know you know the backup point, (hmm) I have three their question or this silly question


if you could transform back and forth into an object what would it be, could transform back and forth into an object, object what do you want to be, object, what would it be


transform, what would you want to be ah transform to and fro eh to and, back and forth into an object, can't think of it


why you don't know, then how, do you want to, do you want to, go dinner I was thinking about food, (hmm) there's


#char kway teow# cockles, #char kway teow# cockles, that is nice, ya I don't think so it's open it's already close right #char kway teow#


#char kway teow# cockles Nasi #ayam penyet# just now Nasi #ayam penyet# was good it looks appetising I was like !wow!, but so expensive leh the Nasi #ayam penyet# over my what my workplace


ya expensive as usual cost about seven seven plus, remind me of the #nasi ayam# at Jurong point, the the shop, very nice


have you ever been in awkward situation you were stuck in


I remembered [seh] remembered when we went KL we stuck in the bus on desaru eh going to desaru, we stuck in the bus for few hours, and we had to wait and wait and when you're a baby you when we're stuck in the bus


you guys are crying for food, six hours a long journey right up to KL, and we stuck about three hours because of the accident, big car accident [orh] cost us about four hours then uh luckily on that time you were all on


using diapers so okay lah not that bad if it not, tell me about it but you and adik was so small I'll be like playing games in the bus keep you entertained


that's very nice, we should return back again, uh we wanted to go KL for shopping, can't really go shop, KL okay lah KL okay lah you can go shopping lor I wanted to try the food truck food truck the bazaar malam there


there they say have a lot of lots of varieties to choose from, not bad hor, can choose the food, ya the food truck I don't know where is the exact location


[orh] later lah when we want to when we want to return back to KL then we then search, then we can do our research we can know what to do and where to do, wanted to buy I wanted to buy the pants ah the palazzo pants very nice right


oh ya I wanted to so how finish your research of colouring your hair and cutting your hair, can you want, maybe we can there's one shop also at around Bugis I think and this Jcube offering


the same service also I think will be very nice have you ever heard the at Jcube package they offered better prices I think, for colouring hair, henna henna doesn't last long it only last for


ya at least with with henna you colour ya your hair it's good for your hair now


it's good for the hair can just call any of the shop to do henna and treatment once you do henna you have to do the treatment, red henna the brown henna very nice also I want to colour my hair blonde


that's very nice right, have, eh ya by the way have you finish watching the malay drama eh is it no


you have not finished them watching the drama, [orh] you haven't quit you did not completed the whole series, I thought you did say you left with few episodes


thought you finished that's why was right I remembered whether wanted to ask you have you finished this watching the movie or not, for me I ah the coffee prince ya coffee prince were not that bad ah


the coffee prince monday to friday show, I think ah I go before, they have, we have to we have to google, you have to


google, where, henna DIY, how is does the box look like, it's a store henna never know leh you can do henna on your own


I know that, the henna, not only henna some of dye colour also you have to try it behind your ears


you have to try behind your ears then you can , you can this one ah you can know whether you are sensitive to it or not then try not to use ammonia, unless ammonia is the best


ya was thinking also to colour my hair we should ah or go spa, (ppb) I want to have a body massage body so tired want to go, why you don't like you don't like spa


why, do you ever think


of making a story of your own, self, your own you you I mean write a novel what they call it, all your old stories to be made into a movie


so what do you want it to focus on, !huh! why you don't know


organic, what, he have another !woo! that will be quite an


quite a number, you want to go toilet, what you still hungry, we have finish


oh ya, so you haven't, so your ya your arts eh how ah


tomorrow you're you're going to do your art right going to call it your art again, why like that


the with the brushes, then, ya


colour must bleach then do the colour the brown colour the blue colour I did the blue colour they some of them do the blue and the pink colour, don't do any dead colour don't really expose lah that one is like become the anime the cartoon one the the