Well.. Actually, nothing can describe how I feel recently.. As I posted earlier, I had my 25th birthday on January 31st.. and Allah give me the most beautiful, most expected, most wanted gift.. Okay, let start with the beginning of the story..
Me and hubby just move back to Indonesia (Jakarta) this January, after our almost 2 years time lived in Malaysia for my hubby master program. Well, alhamdulillah my hubby has finished his study, and that's why we move back to Indonesia. Yes, we really enjoy our times in Jakarta.. with our family, friends, no stress out because of exam or something like that. Time goes by, and it is my birthday at the end of January.. Unconsciously, I was late.. about 1 week late.. hmmm.. I push myself not too much expectation about this period late, because it happened several times.. But, since my hubby bought us ticket to Surabaya.. and I just want to be sure whether is it okay for me to travel during this late period or not, sooo I decided to have test pack on February 2nd.
I woke up soo early that day, because to have urine be tested, it should be the first urine of the day.. So I woke up and keep dzikr in my heart and keep talkin to myself "okay, pasrahkan pada Allah aja.. kalaupun belum positif ya gapapa.. La hawla wa la kuwata ila billah".. And so I did the test.. I saw one bold stripe appear, but suddenly.. I saw another stripe appear.. but still it was thin line.. hmmm.. my face still flat that time.. and so I wait.. after wait for about 3 minutes, that other stripe more and more clear and bold.. wow! seriously??? that test pack have 2 stripes?? Subhanallah.. I was shaking.. and I ran to my-still-sleeping-hubby.. I woke him up, "kitiiing.. kitiiiing.. look look.. how many stripes do you here??" while he still rubbing his sleepy eyes he answered, "one?" and I insist, "nooo.. put your glasses on and see.. it has two stripes!!" and still, he was rubbing his eyes, yawning.. ahahaha.. it was funny.. and so I get down stairs to see my mom.. and my-sleepy-kucek mata-dad open the door, and I said "Paaakk, take a look at this.. how many stripes did you see??" My dad rubbing his eyes and said, "one.." Oh my God, what's happening to guys in this house siihhh?? Matanya pada siwerrr.. and so I see my mom, in the bathroom while she was having a shower.. "Modeerrr, look look.. my testpack shows 2 stripes.." and my Mom had her eyes covered with shampoo.. zzzzz.. "Hah, gmana teh? ohhh iyaa.. udah 2 yaa??" But my Mom was still a bit hesitate because of those foam on her eyes.. hihihihi.. It was a heboh morning.. And so my Mom and hubby told me to wait until next week re-test and see the doctor.. And I agree..
But, the next day.. I'm curious and do the test again using different testpack.. and alhamdulillah, it still shows 2 stripes.. and so I told my Mom and Hubby that I wanna see doctor ASAP.. like, right now! hehehe.. and they agreed..
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Being pregnant is one phase that I really looking forward right after we were married.. And Allah gave us 1 year to get to know each other better, to prepare ourselves better to be parents.. And when Allah said this is the time, then He gave us what we've waited for.. in our happiest time.. Subhanallah.. Alhamdulillah.. Allahuakbar.. Allah knows the best.. absolutely.. He listen to our prayers, NO DOUBT! and Allah answer it at the best time.. the best situation.. I can't hold my tears while writing this post.. ya Allah, thanks for this most beautiful gift for us.. Me and hubby.. its all because of You ya Allah, Your blessings, Your love, Your kindness.. Hopefully I can undergo this pregnancy with Your blessings and health.. until the due day is come.. Aamiin..