I’ve been a bit tired out the past few days. Lots of exciting things going on here and new projects coming up with SikhNet. Plus getting ready to go to Singapore/Malaysia. I think I’ve been trying to do too much because this morning my throat started hurting and I wasn’t feeling so good. Makes me nervous because the last thing I want is to be sick on an airplane or while traveling. Today I’ve been trying to do what I can to combat the sore throat. At least I still have till Tuesday to get over this. I’m hoping I feel better tomorrow because it’s my birthday, and who likes to be sick on a birthday.
tomorrow (Friday) I turn 31 years old. This year no birthday party. Too much going on. Arjan is so pregnant and her belly seems to grow larger daily as the baby gets bigger. So, to celebrate, this afternoon he had a mini tea “party”. I made up some nice Indian style “masala” chai (we normally just drink Yogi Tea). Then Arjan made some some yummy pakoras and my favorite “humming bird cake”…and some mouthwatering cookies. I wish we had more. The food disappeared pretty quick. It was one of those beautiful sunny spring afternoons, so was very nice.
This past year has been really good. So many changes and exciting things are in the air. I’m really feeling on track these days with my life. I always used to ask myself…if I die today…would I be ready to go? I always felt there was so much that I needed to be doing and never felt ready. Not that I feel like my end is near or anything, I just like to question where my life is going and make sure I am on track. One never does know when the they will depart from their physical body.
I am amazed at how God/Guru arranges things. It’s as if I am just a chess piece being moved around for some bigger strategy. Everything I do doesn’t really feel like me. Things just cross my path and I start doing XYZ….which all of a sudden other things related all intersect at the same time and direct me to do the next thing that I am supposed to do. This just keeps happening. Sometimes when there are things that “I” want to do…and no matter how hard I try to make it happen it doesn’t work. It’s as if God is keeping me from going down a certain path for some reason.
I am learning more and more to trust in a higher power/God…and let things flow. Too often we get caught up in worrying about things. Sometimes a simple prayer and setting a projection for something to happen is all it takes. It really gives me a lot of faith in how Guruji can work through all of us in many different ways and guide our actions. It’s kind of hard for me to explain these feelings in words. Hopefully some of this makes sense.
Ok…I should get some rest. G’nite to you all :) Another sunny day coming tomorrow to a New Mexico state near you.