you couldn’t have come to me to say the words. Instead I had to follow this ridiculous charade concocted by my mum and your grandfather to apparently," she made the air quotes gesture. "Draw you out, so that you would come running and grovel at my feet to take you back. "Do you have any idea how it felt, parading myself about with men who weren’t you? I felt awful and told myself the only reason for doing this was so you would come back to me. That we could talk and reach some sort of compromise."