"Both, but mostly the other reason. I just feel like we’ve been building up to this moment for years, and what I want is for it to pass like any other day, and for us to reach the other side, but I feel like I’ve been fixated on the idea that this day is the end point, and there’s no way for us to move past it. It feels like a dead end, and I don’t know what comes next," he peered anxiously up at Draco, "Do you know what I mean? Like... like reading a book with an open ending and always being left wondering what happens next,"