Once Tom and I found the diadem I felt empty, unfulfilled. I want things I have never wanted before. I do things I have never done before. I act out of desperation and exhaustion. I find myself occupied by a desire to find Fenrir Greyback, and unsettled by his disappearance. The very man you know I dreamed of killing is the one person in this time I feel any sort of compassion and companionship toward. 