And she knew that if she wasn't careful, she would lose everything. Even if she could fantasize about running away to Brazil and creating a new life there, she knew that they had to fight the battle that was coming before she could escape. If Rodolphus was as intent on using her for his plans as she knew deep down he was, even an ocean wouldn't keep him away. She would have to spend the rest of her life running. It was no way to live. Looking constantly over her shoulder and never having the opportunity to really settle in wasn't how she wanted to exist.