"Withholding information, keeping you in the dark, regimenting every aspect of your life to be entirely focused on their ends and desires, with absolutely no room for growth or change or  striving— you are not the first to question these limitations. Freedom, agency, knowledge—they’ve been withheld from you because it doesn’t serve the Order’s ends for you to have them." She swallowed again, on nothing this time. "And what do you suppose happens to an angel who no longer serves those ends? Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven."