She squeezes her eyes shut so hard she can see colours bursting behind them and clenches her teeth. She can feel him as he drags her trousers and knickers off. He is heavy and the scent of his sweat fills her nose, his skin slides over hers as he settles over her, his fingers intruding on her genitals, rough and slick, coated with his own saliva. The feel of that slick slide makes her want to be sick, and she tries to clamp her thighs shut but he is between them and she can't.