He tried to pull himself together. He really does. He’s not one to break down, especially in front of his friends. He’s used to being the one his friends breakdown in front of. The one who smiles and cheers them up. The one that’s always happy. So he tries to pull himself together to make his way downstairs. He tries, but to his avail he fails. He fails greatly. Instead of the tears slowing, James notices a slytherin tie in the tub and begins to break down, sobbing even worse than before. He’s overwhelmed, sad, confused, and angry. Even if he doesn't understand everything that he is feeling, it's all still there, torturing him. 