"I’ve been tortured before, so I could’ve stood being hurt. And he had already... used me, so I was expecting that... but I didn’t... he..." She shook and when she continued, her voice was steady but weighed down with weariness and despair. "He didn’t merely bind us or use me, but Jamie, he made love to me. I think he wanted to ensure we would always be a part of each other, so he bound us together in the cruellest way possible, knowing that we would always be a part of each other until one of us dies... and then he – he forced me to take him in his mouth –"