She let her birds finish, she was crying too much now. She sobbed and sobbed for what felt like hours but was probably only a few minutes. She cried for her parents, she cried for her lost childhood, she cried for her friendship with Harry and Ron and she cried because she had changed, she cried because she had to change to win, she cried because no one was there to stop that from happening to her, she cried for Draco and she cried for everything that was still to come. She cried so hard she forgot why she was crying and her breathing became laboured. She felt a pain in her chest she had been hiding for so long, she couldn’t breath and she was all alone forced to deal with more pain, alone, again.