Alani bit her lip as she went back to reading, she felt conned out of her childhood, she hasn't catched a break yet, she is always working. Alani wished that she had a normal life, one where people loved her and where she didn't look like a freak. Alani wanted to eat shit loads of food without vomiting it back up, she wanted to get a peaceful night sleep, she wanted to have a life where she didn't have to take Twenty Six tablets every day and night. Alani wanted to be beautiful. All she wanted to do was kill herself, she didn't see any point in living if living was causing her pain, she was super suicidal, to a scary extent. Alani often took drugs while at the Manor, her meds offer weren't strong enough to numb her, because her Uncle always kept her on edge, she feared him.