She hated to admit, even just to herself, that she was worried about Antonin. So much had changed between them. It might not be a forever plan to remain with him, but in the moment, she knew that he was her best chance at survival. Remembering that she'd seriously considered taking Rabastan up on his offer to join his faction made her physically sick to her stomach. What would that have actually entailed? Beyond betraying her husband when he wasn't the monster her sick mind made him out to be for years, such a decision would've put her on the same side as the horrible man who'd been manipulating her mind for years. And to what purpose? She still didn't understand the man's motivations.