Men desired respect every bit as much as women desired love. In order to feel like they were in a worthwhile relationship, men needed to feel that respect unconditionally. As she was getting to know the man who once had a starring role in the worst of her nightmares, she began to respect him, even admire him. There was much more to him than she could've ever imagined. More than just some mindless, one-dimensional baddie who served a cruel master, she saw there was more depth to him. It hadn't been hard for her to cling to some semblance of humanity when she was desperate for connection in that horrible time. She knew that it caused him more pain than anything when she disrespected him throughout their marriage. Sometimes she did it just because she knew it would hurt him.