It is not the women dying in the dungeons, or the rape and the beatings, although both those things haunt her nightmares. But those aren't what crawl under her skin and make her itch and panic and curl up on the armchair during the day, feeling like being very, very still is the only way she can hold herself together. Those things are over now; there is nothing Hermione can do to save the women, and Malfoy will not hurt her again – it was Voldemort's fault, Malfoy didn't want to hurt her, it was their only option, and it saved her life, she tells herself – and knowing that helps her cope with it, most of the time. She feels horrified and violated, but knowing that she and Malfoy were both as unwilling makes it...easier to bear.