"I didn’t visit because I couldn’t bring myself to do it. This is Sirius, funny, lovely Sirius. But I don’t know what he’ll look like, how ill or small or dead, even." She placed her other foot in her shoe. "I saw what that place had done to Bella, her eyes sunken and her hair matted. I couldn’t see that done to Sirius. I felt responsible for him, I have for our entire lives. If I saw him in any state even similar to Bella’s I would crumble, and he didn’t need to see that."