Because of her desire to be just about anywhere else, the truth was that she didn't actually know her son very well. It was sad really. Seeing other mothers with their children always made her feel inadequate, like there was something wrong with her because she didn't want to be a mother. Of course she knew that other women must have felt the safe way, but it was never spoken about. Not publicly. She was always made to feel like she was somehow less than a "normal" woman because she didn't fall into the category of women who felt it was their mission in life to be a mother. If the Dark Lord hadn't ordered her to marry and have children, she would probably still be single. Only the pressure of her former master forced her into a role she never desired. But, even though she never wanted to have children and she certainly was thankful that she wouldn't be able to have anymore, she could see how unfortunate it was that she didn't really know her son. Maybe it wasn't too late.