Her biggest fear was that Rodolphus turned her into some sort of walking weapon that he could use at his convenience. She'd seen enough Muggle movies when she was a child about brainwashing and sleeper agents to fear that that was exactly what had been done to her. What was she capable of doing? She knew that what she'd committed of her own free will that she never forgot was bad enough. Was it possible that Rodolphus trained her to do much worse? The possibilities were endless and few of them were positive. Somehow she doubted that the wizard took the opportunity to mess with her mind so thoroughly just to turn her into a better gardener or a primary school teacher. There was nothing to gain for him unless it was bad.