She hadn't been able to get a proper night's sleep since before Antonin left. Realizing what an effect that man had on her ability to feel secure and safe was infuriating. How could she have allowed herself to get to the point where she was so dependent upon one man? She hated herself. Connections were weaknesses. Hadn't she learned that already? She loathed Antonin for making it so she was dependent on him for anything. He was the one, after all, who taught her all of those years ago to rely on no one, to trust no one. She really should've listened.