I am trying to give myself every reason not to do it, but I had none. My reason was gone and I didn't know how to navigate the world without him and not see it through his eyes. Everything I saw that was beautiful I saw through him and now that he's gone, I see everything how I did before. The world was cruel and I had seen it. Time and time again. I saw it with Harry when he lost Sirius, with Cho when she lost Cedric and with Remus every class before a full moon. But then when I saw him, everything in the world that I thought was scary had gone away.