"After what I did..." He frowned, trying to make sense of his thoughts and failing. "I don't deserve her forgiveness. I – I don't deserve her at all. And whether I wish I hadn't done it or not, I did, and maybe in the end that's for the best, as much as it...doesn't feel like it right now. In the end, if we win I'm going to go on trial, and I know damn well the Wizengamot is going to make an example of me."