She closed her eyes, tears falling freely now. He was unmoved, was determined to remain that way, at least for now. "Blaise knew that. Blaise was there for everything. Every hope, every dream. You didn't have any way to know that I was looking for you. Though, thinking about it, perhaps you should have because if you thought for one moment that I wouldn't look for you, that I wouldn't follow you wherever and however I could, you're an idiot." He stopped again, reigning himself back in as he felt his voice, his temper, his longing, rise like a tidal wave inside of him. "You didn't know, couldn't have known. But Blaise did. That's why I'm more angry with him than with you. Don't mistake me, I am fucking furious with you. For a lot of things, this included." She was nodding, wiping at her eyes again as she made an apparent effort to settle herself.