A voice in the back of her head wanted to add the word "damage,’ but the word never formed itself into fruition. Make no mistake, it was true: Hermione had owned the dark wandless spell Malfoy performed for her. Whereas she could have let it destroy her, she claimed it and let it  define her. Not only because she had to, but deep down because there was a part of her that had almost seemed to will it into existence. She wished it had been her spell.