I try to keep a handle on my rage and my nastier tendencies most of the time. The overall fire I had going into things was quelled a bit after getting it out initially and then seeing Harry fine and happy fully helped me reign it in. Now that things have kicked off and I nearly died, and then having to witness Harry nearly get knocked out and then torn up extremely badly by a plethora of curses I felt something that I hadn't felt clearly in over a year, not since the Dursleys. 