Severus is working to help me break down my occlumency walls. He told me about Aunt Bella, about what can happen if I occlude too much for too long. I don’t want to die, father. I want to experience that peace you said you’ve found. I want to feel that too. I’m looking for it, I swear, but there are some things I’ve locked away because I know when they’re free from their confines, I will never know peace again. My soul will never know peace, neither will my heart. I’m afraid, in fact, that it might shatter.