He hated this -  hated it. That even now, after everything else he had ever been through, it was thoughts of the Dursley’s that tore him down even when he was at his strongest. He wanted to push them away and find somewhere to hide until he had calmed down, but they didn’t let him when he tried. The arms around his shoulders tightened, and he heard Sirius’s voice in his ear, crooning at him like he was a frightened horse trying to bolt.