"The friendship is gone with Ron, but I feel more for Harry. He feels like a brother I never had and I want to protect him so badly, but he also needs protection from me. I hate it, but it is true, some day word will get out and he will feel betrayed. There is nothing I can do about it. He needs to hate me for what I did, and I can only love him for who he is and what he has to do. It’s a twisted world," tears start to fall and I suddenly don’t know how to stop. 