"My mental state doesn't matter when my Father is out there trying to kill everyone I have ever cared about, I've already watched my Mother hang herself, i'm not watching anyone else die because of me. As long as I keep up with the Missions that Dumbledore has given me I don't care what happens to me, if I die I don't care because I have never had a life to begin with. I live solely to serve other people, I am just a shield, I'm not a human." Alani exclaimed, her eyes looked tired, like she just wanted everything to end. "You don't actually believe that... Right?" Mattheo was horrified. "Have you ever seen me show any interest in anything other than studying and fighting? I grew up too fast, I've never had a childhood. Our Uncle never let me cry, or smile, he said emotions would only make me weak. I burnt my hand to see if I'd get scared and take it off the stove, I didn't, I don't feel anything anymore..." Alani spoke in a misty voice, she truly believed that she was worth nothing, she was merely a sheild.