As much as she might have tried not to, periods of idleness forced her mind to thoughts of her husband and the life she left behind. In all fairness, life with Antonin wasn't always so bad. They had their moments, of course, but there had been a kind of happiness with him too. Maybe not the kind of joy and contentment found in so-called "normal" families. There had been a lot of laughter in their home. And nights were filled with moans, almost always the pleasurable kind. If she'd known before they were married what she could've had the opportunity to experience in his bed, she probably wouldn't have had done so much to avoid it.