She wanted to leave, but she didn't know how it would be possible. Nights she would lie awake in bed imagining how she could grab Ollie and run. In the beginning of her fantasies, she would have never even thought about abandoning her son. Either her only surviving child would come with her or she would remain in the same toxic and tumultuous home. Withdrawing small amounts of money at the bank and having the goblins secretly exchange it for Muggle currency helped her believe that eventually she would have enough to get them both out of Hogsmeade and away from the influence of her husband.