"When I close my eyes, it starts all over again. I see the babies." She was tying the laces when she looked up. "I keep thinking I should be remembering my friends, coworkers... but I can't recall them to save my life. I only see the babies, those little bodies, crying. I close my eyes, and I hear screaming. The arm. The red. Every night." Tears rolled down her cheeks but there was no sniffle; she was surprised as she wiped the moisture from her face. She didn't even know she was crying.