"I hate feelings, they make you weak, and I’ve been taught to be exactly not that. Weak. And to unlearn what I used to pray is – " He gritted his teeth, looking her dead serious in the eyes. "I don’t want to screw this up, but I’m not ready to say it. And not because I don’t feel it, believe me, but because I fear that when I say it out loud, it will become stronger and I don’t know how to deal with emotions. I’m horrible at it. Probably the only thing I’m truly horrible at."