He didn't —couldn't admit all of that right then. But he could trust his parents. And if the first time they chose to lie to him was now, he'd accept that. Because he couldn't accept anything else just then. He couldn't accept the truth. So he would hold on to the hope of his parents" lies and beg that it guided him to salvation. Beg that the Ancients chose the path of mercy. Pray that his mother was not looking down in shame at his sins.