"I couldn't take it anymore, either. But he caught me and I survived. I was depressed for a long time after that, and still suicidal. He took care of me, more out of selfishly wanting me still alive than of wanting me to get better. He drugged me and spiked my drinks with fertility potions and when I found out I was pregnant, I begged him to end it. I tried to do it myself a few times, but he always caught me."