Narcissa paused at that, her body going from defensive to relaxed. "It was a horrible idea I had one night after an... excruciating session. That was a decision that I regretted as soon as I was with child. I knew Severus would help me terminate it and make it look like a miscarriage, but when it came time... I felt him move, and I couldn't. Shortly after that, things were so much better. Luce was happy, and I wasn't being punished anymore. But I hated myself for what I had done. What kind of future I was making him be a part of.