Reaching the showers, she disrobed, entered the private stall and hung her head under the blazing stream of water. Letting herself feel, the tears fell, melting into the water. The sobs overcame her, the force of them shaking her whole body. She knelt and wrapped an arm across her chest, her forehead resting against the tile. This was the one day of the year she let herself feel. To feel the losses and the pain.