Now Nymphadora is dead as well. He had known that in the back of his mind, but having lost her for so long before made him trick himself into believing she was just "away'. It was torture to know that he had pushed her into Remus" arms, since he was too much of a coward to truly love her as he had. He knew how his Nymphadora liked it; she was an adrenaline junkie who came the hardest once she was panting and flogged to the point of bleeding. Lupin would have found that disturbing and probably thought I had been dosing her with some sort of love potion to trick her into my arms. Severus forgot whose idea it was to have sex here, bending her over the railing just before sunrise. The memory was tainted since it was the same place he killed Albus, where the body fell and broke upon the ground far below.