"But I - I’m not that either," he said, frustrated, "I’m not attracted to men - just... just him," saying it out loud made him feel worse about it, and he voiced this, "and actually, that somehow makes it worse! What is it about him that has me feeling like this? The fact that this is so specific to him - I just... I just feel like I’m betraying Astoria without meaning too. I love her   so much   - I don’t want to be having thoughts about someone else. I just wish I could turn it off and go back to how I was two months ago - not really thinking about Potter at all," he was surprised when his mother reached over and took his hands in hers, snapping his attention to her face. He was surprised by her kind understanding smile.