She needed to get away from the cottage and into the presence of other people. Too much time alone would destroy all of the progress she'd been making. Rodolphus was just trying to make doubt her own sanity. "Gaslighting" was what it was called. Once outside of his presence and able to calm down, she could finally remember the words she'd been trying to think of. She was not crazy. She wouldn't allow that horrible man, or any other for that matter, to ever make her question her sanity again.