I grab hold, close my eyes and without thinking about it for a second longer, I force my hand to the right and feel the first snap. With a strong push towards the left side I feel the second snap. Immediately I suck up air through it. I can smell the blood that is caked on the inside and under my nose, but at least I can smell again. I am still wearing the shirt and my knickers, gross. Now I can smell it and I almost feel sick about it.  It happened, accept it. More people have done it before me, maybe not on the table but that is just a detail. 