"But that’s the problem, Sirius!" The words burst from Remus’ mouth before he has even fully processed them. "I..." He takes a deep breath to collect his thoughts. "I spent five years hating you with every fibre of my being. You were... everything wrong with the world, the cause for every bad thing in my life, the root of all evil. And sometimes I would turn it all over in my head and wonder how you could have done that to James, and then remembered all you’d done to me, and... and I just