"I know," Harry agreed his voice void of emotion, "But sometimes after a nightmare I expect her to be lying next to me. And sometimes that thought scares me half to death and the other times it brings me close to tears. Because she's not there and a piece of me regrets leaving and I begin to think that maybe I should have stayed. I try to convice myself that I hate her yet I know that, that isn't true. I mean, you understand don't you?"