It wasn’t just her health he worried for though. He worried about what kind of father he would be. He was desperate to be better than his own - to bring up his child to love the word rather than hate it. But what if he failed? What if he, unintentionally, perpetuated a cycle of sons damaged by their fathers? Or daughters, he added mentally, though Astoria seemed convinced they were having a boy and she didn't take well to being contradicted on the matter.