There was nothing about herself that she saw in those slips of memory that she liked. So many terrible choices had been made over the previous twenty years. Someone looking at her from the outside, especially one who knew her before the war ended, might assume that she only performed those awful acts or said those terrible words because she was brainwashed into believing in the regime. Forced to follow the Dark Lord. How wrong they would be! As more and more became clear, she knew exactly why she'd done what she did for so long. It was entirely her choice.