My response is merely a derisive smirk. I will certainly not tell her that I want to feel something again. That I'm trying to fix myself. That I haven't given up hope of becoming a better person. It's simply none of her business. And what's even less her business is the fact that it's quite difficult for me and I've been on the verge of closing my mind several times since I got here - not least because of her and her confusing presence.