Hermione could not rely on anyone. Was that a lesson she was doomed to repeat over and over again? Would there ever be a day when she actually learned it? After she left Antonin the day before, she was embarrassed to admit that she spent the rest of the day feeling sorry for herself. It disgusted her when she slipped into those episodes of self-pity and inactivity. If she'd succumbed to the darkest thoughts in her mind years earlier, she wouldn't have been able to survive once she was pulled out of her broom cupboard.