"I told myself what I did wasn’t that bad. That I had no choice. That I could have done far worse. But today I realised those were all just bullshit justifications and excuses. Just like my mother tried to use on me today. You can feel however you want about me Hermione, and fuck I am so glad you do, and I love you too. But you can’t make me think I deserve to be with you. Because I fucking well don’t."