The words hit like a knife to the heart, and Sirius can’t stop the wounded noise that escapes him.  Gone  , the healers had always said,  gone  , Dumbledore and McGonagall had said,  they were heroes, and fought bravely until the end . No one has said the words "James and Lily dead" around Sirius except Peter and himself, and he tried to kill Peter and often wished the same for himself during those five years in Azkaban. And although Sirius has thought it every day, no one has ever told him that what happened with the Potters was his fault.