"But what did I do? I allowed myself to be manipulated by Ron. He took advantage of my grief in the aftermath, made me doubt myself. I gave up the fight without a fight, if you see what I mean. I should have kept struggling, joined a resistance movement, maybe even left Britain on Harry's Ratway if I'd found out about it ... something, anything that was brave and would have justified Harry's faith in me. But I didn't ... I sabotaged a printing press and gave up. That was it.