He was a little bit sad though, because they made him believe he could be a better person. There were so many conflicting emotions inside him that sometimes he felt they would tear him apart - one day he would drink until he nearly passed out, hoping that he would die soon, without having to say goodbye and the other he begged on his knees, Salazar knows who, for another chance. He quickly understood waiting for death was actually worse than dying, especially since he was totally cut off from the outside world, not even an owl or a quick floo visit from either of them. 