"Enough to know that it will be... difficult... to deal with it if he is taken away.  I spent one night apart from him, not knowing if he was alive or dead, and it was the worst night of hell I have ever gone through."  She shivered, snuggling closer to Lucius, who hugged her.  "I never want to experience that again.  If Lucius is taken away, it will be as much a sentence for me as it is for him."