Remus sometimes couldn’t believe that he had been lucky enough to have experienced the types of love that he had experienced in his life. Tonks had been bright, blissful, soul-shattering. Once they were no longer there, he shattered almost completely. Sirius was worse in some ways, because they saw all the ways in which he was broken and cared for him anyway. They were electric and all-consuming. Their affection was so open and unashamed sometimes that Remus felt he could cry from just the intensity of it. 