She would probably die before she had all of the answers she wanted. Unless she was able to somehow trick Rodolphus into explaining himself, she wouldn't know why he used her as a pawn in his sick game. None of the possible answers to the "why" brought her any sense of peace. It could be for anything. Part of her hoped she would have the opportunity to confront Rodolphus one day, but mostly she never wanted to see him again. He frightened her like no one else ever had before. She'd never been so vulnerable, so violated. What if he still had power over her? It was a fear she knew she would carry until one of them was dead.