"When Ron started seeing Lavender... I felt so alone and lost. I remember, one time, seeing you and Pansy. You seemed so sure of yourself and so much older. You'd just grasp her chin and then really kiss her, like a proper grown up. We were fifteen. It was incredibly sexy and I'd got all this pent up lust, you know? So I'd pretend you weren't "you" or the version of you I knew back then, and then when everyone was asleep I'd get myself off thinking about you kissing me like that."