He is dead. It is my fault. This is my punishment, I watched him die. I didn’t even try to save him. Godric Gryffindor has turned his back to me. I am a coward, I am not a Gryffindor, I’m not brave and I don’t have courage. Only yesterday I was feeling good about my new strengths, grateful for learning so many new skills. I actually forgot why I am training in the first place. They are training us to be killers and I am one step closer. 