"Of course I want us, Hermione. I have always wanted us. But I need it like I need a fucking hole in my head" he said exasperatedly. "There isn’t a single part of me that hasn’t begged for this chance since I was a fucking kid. But things change and  people change. And subjecting you to... to me? If you thought I hated you then... well, that would just pale in comparison." 