Not that I would want anyone else. I’d been in "puppy love’ with her for years, though I had to keep it under wraps. I still hate myself for all the things I did and said to her, but I couldn’t have lived with myself if it gotten back to the Dark Lord how I felt about her. That would have been catastrophic, resulting in either her death, or one of my parents to prove a point. I can almost hear him declaring he’ll make an example of me and my "weakened traitorous" heart in my head now.