"Helena was a very needy woman, one who would not admit it. I ended up being the one who supplied the support, but never received any in return. If that gives you any idea about our relationship." Helena and I were not right for each other. It wouldn’t be a surprise if many in the castle could tell. But we really didn’t have a lot of options. Not many women who prefer women were around at the time. What came from that would be abusive by modern terms. 