She also knew that she constantly being contrary in her thoughts and actions. Rationale had little place in her world those days. One moment she would be angry that no one was telling her anything. In the next, she would be glad that she didn't know what was actually happening. Too much knowledge could be just as dangerous as not enough. Her feelings on the matter were ever-changing like the wind. She never knew which direction she'd blow. Maybe she'd wait for days to speak with Antonin hungry for answers and when she finally had the opportunity, she wouldn't want to know again.