In truth, the answer was no, but on the other hand, a part of Astor knew he couldn't go back to his normal life. He had no family, his father had been the only person he knew as his mother had died in childbirth, and he had no siblings. He also thought about the legacy he would have if he managed to succeed. He could become a legend, and would have stories written about him. In Astor's mind, there was no choice between the choice for glory and the return to ignominy or anonymity.