"I don't like to give up control. When you love someone, you give and you get, but it's messy. There's no rules and no guarantees, and sometimes the trade isn't fair. Sometimes you give all you have, and still get jack shit, and I always told myself I'd never let that happen. And I didn't. In retrospect I can admit it was a bit miserable, but it was a failsafe rule. And then you showed up." 