There were no easy choices to make in life. That was a lesson she didn't need Antonin to teach her years earlier. She'd already learned it on her own. It was normal to second guess decisions made even if there was nothing that could be done to correct them after the fact. She would just have to learn how to be content with what she decided about her son. He wasn't abandoned completely. There were other women in his life that were better suited for the role of being his mother. Maybe her husband would eventually give up on her ever returning and find love with someone who could be a better mum for Ollie. It wasn't wrong to hope for that, was it?