But things are very different now. She is different, and her feelings are different, and the Order chose to leave her here, and it's been so long, and she's been so damaged, and she doesn't know what she will do without Malfoy – the thought of losing his presence makes grief and denial rage in her chest – and it's frightening. What if she can't fit in where she used to, with Harry and Ron? What if Ron still feels that way for her? What if they want to know what exactly happened and she has to tell them about what Malfoy did to her, and about what the Death Eaters did, and about how she tortured Malfoy? How could they understand that?