Having a crush is a concept that, in this world, in this moment, in this war, I don't really have the mental capacity for. There's something between Granger and me, that's for sure. I'm even willing to allow it if she allows it too. But having a crush? A weak term. It's too sweet, too innocent, too carefree for how I feel when I think of Granger. When I look at her. When I obey her orders during a mission. Or when I get on my knees in front of her to get her off with my mouth.