She burrowed down further into her covers with him gone. Lying used to come second-nature to her before she ran away. And she still was able to keep some secrets. Why then was she having so much trouble not blurting out to Antonin exactly what had her bothered and upset? She didn't think there was anything she could do to make her husband hate her. Well, except where it came to his children, but she pushed those thoughts away. Even if she killed the Dark Lord with her own hands right in front of him, he wouldn't turn her in. Especially not to someone as cruel as Rabastan. No, he would stop at nothing to make sure she wasn't implicated in a crime or arrested. Maybe that was why she was so eager to tell him what she did and why she was afraid. But, if she started that confession, she wouldn't be able to stop until she told him everything about her connection with the Resistance. She already spent too much time that year believing that he'd harmed members of a family that took care of her when she needed help. Knowing that he hurt someone else would've been too much to bear. It was important that she not tell him anything.