As if Harry's remarks had torn down the walls of his desire to answer him, the things he had been holding back all this time come rushing out of his mouth. "Once I got out and felt reasonably safe, everything just went away. I wasn't afraid anymore, but I didn't feel anything else either, and at one point I just wished I could go back to being the old wimp, crying and trying to hold on to someone, but there was nothing else inside me."