Love is horrible, isn’t it? It makes you feel so vulnerable. It opens your chest and your heart and makes room for someone to get inside, and once they are inside they can really mess you up. I am not saying that you loved him romantically, but I think that you did really care for him. And he used that path he carved to hurt you. I have lost many people that I loved. Perhaps not more than platonically, but it feels similar I am sure. It makes you doubt everything how could someone you cared for so greatly hurt you so very much."