As much as she desired to end her misery by swallowing several vials of the illegal potion she swore she would never touch again, Hermione just couldn't do it. Even as she stood on the pavement outside of a Knockturn Alley shop she knew for certain would have exactly what she needed, without the added rage and lust potions of course, she simply could not allow herself to pull open the door to go inside. Did her promise mean nothing? If she allowed herself to give in to her temptation, she would become just another failure. She never wanted her son to look at her again with shame and fear in his eyes. Maybe Oliver would never know if she broke her promise, but she would.