I can't think about him without it ripping my heart out. So I didn't want to see the world anymore, because what I wanted was a world with him. He kept me safe, and warm and just made me see life and everything it was as beautiful. But now he wasn't here to be that distraction, that craving and I can't escape all those cruel memories coming to the surface again. Like Romeo and Juliet once said: "What greater punishment is there than life you've lost everything that made it worth living?" So...