Ignoring her concerns about running out of her drink too soon, Hermione began to gulp it all down. She longed for the haze that intoxication could bring. Thinking about the son she left behind, what a horrible mother she turned out to be, only made her feel worse. A good mother would have never left their child behind in an unhappy house with a violent father. Without her there to take the brunt of her husband's anger, what if he started taking it out on the one who remained? She didn't want to think about the possibilities.