"I didn’t. I did know I was going to get engaged to the Dark Lord, only a few days before the ritual he told my Father, who told me. You can’t blame me for trying everything I can to prevent it from working, to protect myself. Like you said, it is war or going to be one soon. I didn’t know the ritual between us would end with that... urge, I didn’t want to make you cheat on Pansy. The only reason I made my Father do the spell to turn off my humanity is because it was killing me inside, I couldn’t think straight and it will be much worse in the future and I know I couldn’t handle it," I admit and look at him. "Blaise is the only one who has time for me, you are always with Pansy, Theo and Daphne are always together, you all seem okay with it and I don’t blame you. Blaise is single and has time to talk and we walk around the school together. I like him, as a friend, nothing more. And lastly, Sirius, it was a mistake, we were both way too drunk and it just happened. I have very little control over my life at the moment and he made me feel like I had control, he made me forget. At that moment he was just a hot older guy, fucking me like it was his last breath on the earth and I needed that. I don’t want to hurt you, Draco, you still mean the world to me, you always will."