She took a deep breath, continuing to shuttle the little charm back and forth as she aligned her thoughts. "I assume you mean why did I... why we... Jesus Christ." She bore down, she could (bloody well would) fucking do this. "I assume you want to know why I slept with him. Why we slept with each other." She didn't give him an opportunity to respond, but did note the dip in his Adam's apple as he swallowed heavily.