She considered this for a long, long while. "I don't... I wasn't exactly in my right mind. I think... I think I saw him that night and he was the only familiar thing I'd seen in so long. The only thing, the only person, who felt safe in the world I'd allowed myself to be brought into and I... clung to it. To him. And, to be honest, there was a considerable amount of alcohol involved, at least that first time and -"