"Because Harry... he’s like the brother I never had. I love him to death. But he has his own demons. He drinks just to sleep at night these days, I don’t need to burden him. And Ron... Well, Ronald is Ronald. He’ll just try to cheer me up and convince me that it wasn’t my fault. I’m not ready to stop feeling guilty, and I’m not ready to stop grieving either. Even though I’m not sure I ever started, until now."