And, in that few seconds, she realised she'd never known herself quite as completely as she did right then. Known quite so succinctly what she wanted in life. But also what she could have had ... and what she'd thought she'd lost. What Ron Weasley and Lord Voldemort had cost her. Hermione slumped against the frame of the door with the enormity of the revelations. It was as if all she'd ever fleetingly considered, ever cautiously desired in her life where Harry was concerned, suddenly pounded into her in an epic collision. It took her breath away.