I don't hesitate for a second; don't think about the fact that I haven't done it in months; neglect the knowledge that this would normally require my Occlumency; ignore the circumstance that I requested Creevey as a partner precisely because I didn't want such a situation to arise in the first place. But most of all, I don't give a fuck about the fact that only a few minutes ago I vowed to myself not to take any of Dolohov's baits tonight.