"He raped me! For years he... and I know he hurt Remus, too. James never found out, because he was dealing with all sorts of shit, I didn’t want him knowing his best friend was... was... When I sought help from Dumbledore... but I was... I was... forced to... and... I didn’t want... so I went to the Dark Lord... I know... I know... I had hoped that it would never harm them. I never, ever wanted that for Harry! Not when I knew the truth of his mother being the daughter of... of..." he broke down in the near inconsolable sobs. "I would do anything, anything to make up for my crimes! Death penalty. Castration... even years long torture. But I want Harry to know that he doesn’t have to forgive me, just that he knows that I would change it all if it meant that he could have Lily and James back!"