"I thought for sure that it was over but the next day I snuck away and went to the same spot I always did. When he turned that corner in a panic, expecting to find me in a blubbering mess, I just stood there and stared. I looked at him and lost all the ability to talk. We had never really discussed anything and the fact that I was there because I just really wanted to kiss him again was not something I had the courage to say."