"I think it was because you were made to do terrible things. I think He became your mentor, and you wanted to impress him. You were clearly in awe of his power, and your father liked him enough. It stands to reason that you would have done things he said, especially to prove you were as capable as any wizard. And to do any of that, you must have needed to convince yourself that you’re the hero. It would drive anyone as intelligent as you to madness."