Obviously, he tried to pretend it bothered him. Fooling his father and making him believe that Theo did not have the same darkness inside him was one of the hardest things he’d ever done. And he played his part so well, sometimes he thought he had even fooled himself. There were moments in his life, periods even, when he wished he was on the other side of the war. He wasn’t a good person per se, but he could imagine himself becoming one, should the opportunity arise. 