uno
Yeah, I don't know where to start
How do you admit that you're falling apart?
I mean, how will I admit that I'm falling apart?
My mother's gonna worry but I'm fine in my heart
I've lived the words that I've said
And I live with a voice that tends to tell me that I'm shit in my head
Well maybe I should fuck it and be happy instead
I should just say "fuck it and be happy instead", right? Right
'Cos there's a lot of people tryin' to tell me how to deal with myself
But I'm not gonna listen if you mention my health
I don't care, don't tell me and don't text me
'Cos that kind of shit upsets me, just kind of affects me
And it's bringing me down, and I'm not gonna lie
These days I prefer to just not be outside
And these days I just end up spending all of my time
With my girlfriend, but to be honest, I think that's alright
'Cos time keeps rollin' and I'm just makin' songs
(I'm doing my best, still find myself stressed)
And I'm no longer sure where I belong
(I'm starting to rust, don't know who to trust)
(Don't trust anyone. Not even me.)
Some people concentrate on style too much
But I think I just force myself to smile too much
And that should soon end for the best
I wanna live my life with no stress
Love life and feel blessed, like
It's kind of funny on the inside
I'm tryin' to be a man, but really I'm just a little child, shit
And that's pretty much it, yeah, that's pretty much it
(Is there anything else?)
Oh yeah
My jaw hurts a lot because I grind it with stress (Uh-huh?)
I was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends (Aw)
Nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile
Being at school makes me aware of how I haven't been myself in awhile (Oh)
And I wonder what it was like to be 11
Wonder if there's such a thing as life after death, such a thing as heaven (Why?)
And every now and then I think about the fact that I'd become a legend if I died at 27