I'm having difficulties when I think about my father. He died one year ago and it's still hurting very much.
I'm so sorry to hear about that, it must be awful. Do you have friends and family that you can talk to about this? 
Thank you for your kindness. My brother is around to listen but he lives a very busy life so it's hard to find someone to turn to.
When my relatives have died, it helps me to remember the good times, and makes me smile instead of being sad