i am a failure  
what makes you think so? i'm pretty sure you aren't.
I wan't to help my fiance, she is going through so much, my job isn't paying me much and i've been working as hard as i can and i still can't do much, i wan't her to come here already because she is the only thing that keeps me sane 
that doesn't make you a failure! you are doing more than enough and i'm pretty sure she appreciate every single thing you're doing for her.
yo uthink so? 