I was married to my wife for thirty years, and even though she has passed I can't bring myself to date anyone else.
After being married for that long, I really don't blame you. Do you want to move on and find someone else?
I don't, but my kids keep telling me to try it out.  I just feel like it's cheating and I can't stand the thought of it.
Well, if that's how you feel then maybe it is best if you stay in the dugout and don't play the field. No shame in that.