"Previously on Defying Gravity:" "We believe that this lot of libido inhibitors is contaminated." "Think we sold them on the halos?" "Paula cant pilot that lander" "Beta chose Paula." "It didn't injure her thumb." " My thumb" "If she's not the one it will let us know." "What?" " Paula failed." "Like Job I feel I am being tested." "As if Satan himself were on this ship." "Rollie, there is a thing onboard with us." "A thing you knew about and didnt mention to me." "So while this is thoughtful and sweet doesnt make that right." "When we got married we made a rule." "We could get angry, fight, slam doors, sulk." "In three hours time we would come back and discuss it." "What do we do after three hours up here, Rollie?" "Oh my god." "Oh my god." "Defying Gravity S01E11 "Solitary" Eng Sub:" "Anreith |" "Darkside" "Hey!" "I get to make a call!" "Like most kids I used to play hide and seek in my neighbourhood." "Best place to hide was an old barrel behind the garage." "I used to climb in and pretend I was John Glenn orbiting Earth in Freedom Seven." "And I never got found." "But I did discover that after about an hour a barrel can get pretty cramped and lonely." "Just like the life of an astronaut." "So, Rollie didn't call me." "And I didn't call him." "I think make-up sex is probably a long shot." "I guess that's what happens when the 3-hour rule passes up here." "Nothing." "Sorry." "All right guys, so, Forum 24 today." " T minus 23 hours until Venus landing and Zoes walk." "What?" "Not doing my job isn't gonna make this thing go away." "Zoe, you are under orders to rest." " Its just a 20 minute walk." "In 460 degree weather." "You need to conserve energy today." "Fine." " Donner, MC want you to run the landing simulation." "Everyone else T-1 Standard." "Why not "Business as usual"?" " Because we're astronauts." "Ahhh, good morning sunshine." " Morning Steven." "I'm okay." "I'm sorry, I got a little overwhelmed yesterday." "But I'm okay." " Good, now that we're all okay," "Let's get going." "Oh, if you need help running the lander sims" "I've been helping Paula a week." "I've spent time in landers too, I think I can manage." "You rest." "Ted!" "I would love to do my space classroom on the Venus Suit today." "Any objections?" " I dont, but MC does" "You've been ordered to have a psych eval with our good doctor." "How are they doing?" " They're rattled, Eve." "Now, we trained hard." "But not for this." "You did." "You just didn't know it at the time." "So you are going to make history tomorrow." "We made history on Mars too." " We are doing it right this time." "What if we're not?" " If we're not then I was wrong." "And we have wasted billions of dollars." "Fifteen years." " And lives!" "Eve, lives!" "Walker and Sharon." "Zoe, Donner." "Ted, that is not going to happen." "We're gonna be okay." "I developed the halos that they sell at Mertman Cinco (?" ")." "20 years ago." "We have never, in clinical trials or active use, ever had hallucinations caused by the halos." "Well, maybe one batch went wrong and ISO got it." "There's thousands of halos in a batch." "We sell the things to prisons, to priests." "So the press release from ISO" " Is a lie." "It's a total fabrication." "But you have to get somebody from ISO to collaborate that" "Why do you care?" "It's my retirement." "And my grandkids college fund." "And I get one percent of all sales." "Kim, where's Goss?" " No idea." "You know you're lucky that the cop who picked you up washed out as an astronaut candidate back in 2043" "Because he called me." "Your blood alcohol level was twice the legal limit." " Is she okay?" "If that girl dies, you're looking at vehicular man slaughter" "Thats 25 years." "No parol." " Mike, just tell me" "Is the girl okay or not?" " She's in a coma, holding on." "What the hell have I done?" "Uh, I have to talk to Jen." " No you don't." "You are not calling Jen." "She won't hear about this." "And you are gonna sit silently." "While I figure something out." "You twelve were lucky enough to ge the first shift for sensory deprivation training." "This is how we find out who can handle the preassure of being alone in space and who can't." "What happened to "there is no 'I' in 'Team' "?" "This is how it works:" "You're in the tank until we pull you out." "Could be a half hour, could be two days." "You can expect periodic noises, we don't want anyone napping." "Why is he looking at me?" "Feels like he was looking at me when he said that." "Listen up." "This is a requirement, people." "Noone goes any further until the excercise is complete," "Is that clear?" "We'll start in ten." "Dude, this is it, man, this is totally it." "What are you talking about?" "One of the old AIs told me that after sense-dep training everybody gets laid." "Yeah, man, something about being alone and then needing... to not be alone." "That doesnt sound like its particularely scientific." "Doesn't need to be." " It's not." "Don't crush my dreams, doc." "Guaranteed sex tonight." "Guaranteed sex to-niiight." "Don't leave me hanging." "There you go." "Ey mamacita." "Sooo..." "sensory deprevation training" "Handsome, vulnerable, kind of broken" "Targeting Mintz to help you blow off some steam later?" "Don't be ridiculous, I'm gonna be sleeping alone, in my own bed tonight." " Amen to that." "Said the bitter space nun." " What, me, bitter?" "Come on." "Not even a word of support?" "What is wrong?" "Nothing." "Im fine." "Really." "This will be like an afternoon in a jacuzzi" "Yeah, except jacuzzis are in open air, with other people, with delicious beverages, with tiny umbrellas." "Okay, once we get through this we will go to Major Tom's and consume delicious beverages, with tiny umbrellas." "Deal?" " Deal" "Wass, tank One." "Wess in Two," "Schilling Three, Barentz Four." "I hear tonight can't help but be hot." "Can you do me?" " Sure" "Zipper." "Are we still on?" " For tonight, yeah," "I'll see you at Tom's." " Great" "So, I've got room to spare, ladies, if anyone gets lonely, wants a chat." "No?" "Not mad if you're curious." "Jen?" " Oh, yeah." "Good to go." "Get me out!" "Somebody get me out!" "Let me out!" "Easy, easy easy, easy." "Easy." "Thank you." "For the record, I didn't last five minutes my first time." "But, it is a requirement." "You have to pass." "Well, then I guess I'm out." "Jen, I promise you, if this is the reason why you burn out of the program you will never forgive yourself." "You know what to expect now, you can push yourself through it." "Y-You dont, uhm, You don't understand." "Look." "I will get you into a later group." "You can at least try it again." "Yeah." "Sure, whatever." "It's exactly what we need." "Soon as you get it, let me know." "Heeey." "Alright?" "Thanks." "They didn't keep you in there very long." "What happened?" "Your place." "Right now." "Will you marry me?" " Uhum" "Thirty meters." "Twenty meters." "Ten meters." "Stand by." "Touchdown." "Landing secured." "Even with the musical accompaniment." "Hey, sure you dont need any help?" "You're supposed to be resting." "Oh, well, talking to you isn't exactly taxing." "You're supposed to be completely off your feet." "Its a chaloric burn thing, like prepping for a marathon." "Why don't you go watch a movie?" "No, there's nothing on." " Read a book." "I've read them all." " Practice your first line." "What?" " Your line, you know." "What you're going to say, you're the first woman on Venus." "I hope you have a line." "Right?" " Yeah" "I hope it's better than Walkers:" ""Red Planet Conquered, the warrior brought to his knees."" "Of course it is." " Okay" "How's he doing?" " Perfectly, we've run three different simulations three times each and he's nailed it every time." "Can we wrap this up, Donner?" "Let's have one more time through, I want 549 B, it's the last one, promise." "549 B, wind gusting at 15 km/h, storm system moving in from east." "Im in." "Watch your pitch." " I got side winds coming in." "Hang on, I'm gonna pummel through this." "Thirty meters." "Twenty meters." "Ten." "Simulation failed." "Alright, going again." "I have nothing to say." " I find that hard to believe." "No, I'm going down to Venus tomorrow, and they're gonna record whatever I say when I get there in the annals of history forever, and" "I've got nothing." " I'm sure you'll think of something." ""Through difficulties to the stars."" " Venus is a planet" "Its Seneca, its a famous latin quote." "See, I took Mandarin." "You know, one of the useful languages?" "And by the way, aren't you supposed to be resting?" "I'm going to Venus tomorrow" " I know, we know, the whole world knows." "Are you okay?" " I'm fine." "I'm sorry about before." " Yeah" "Are you still fighting with Rollie?" "How did you get "I'm fighting with Rollie" from "I'm fine"?" "Just because you say you're fine doesn't make it true." "It's okay to reach out and ask for help sometimes, Jen." "Zoe, I'm fine." "Call." "Rollie." "I'm leaving." "I'm gonna go." "I know I messed up yesterday." "I get it." "Its just," "I dont know what to think about Beta." "At first I thought it was God, showing me my miracle," "But then it kept me from passing my landing test." "Why would it do that?" " I dont know." "You said that you think it shows us things we feel guilty about." "Just a theory." " Based on what?" "Back in the war, there was a girl trapped inside a building." "I tried to save her, and... didn't." "The scar on your back?" " Yeah." "And that's what you were hallucinating about?" "Like I said, its just a theory." " But I dont feel guilty about Hector." "Hector was my miracle." " Your miracle?" "Yes." "Beta shows me my miracle." "Hector is why I believe." "He's alive." " It's a miracle." "Noise to keep us from napping." "Whatever." "I could sleep through World War four." "How was your stay in solitary?" " Easy" "I saw my miracle and I knew I wasn't alone." "Hey, you wanna be my miracle, baby?" "You're disgusting Steven." "What about you, blondie?" "Wanna be my miracle?" "I'm gonna suggest you never say that to anybody." "Ever again." "It is both creepy and gross." "Oh yeah, well, that's what I was going for." "42 seconds." "I think that must be a new world record for worst performance ever by an astronaut candidate." "No." "But you do know it is a requirement and, you can get cut." "So I've heard." " You know what you need?" "You need mind over matter." "What the hell are you talking about?" "You don't mind, I don't matter." " Oh, gosh, such a cheezeball." "It's dark and quiet." "It's not so bad, right?" "No." "It's not so bad under here with you." "My proposal is this:" "An evening of dangerous games, followed by..." "Again." "Creepy and gross." " Sorry" "How did it go today?" " Fine" "Wow, you sound like an astronaut." "One-word-answer, flat delivery." "Just have to work on that drink." "You alone tonight?" "No, Im not alone." "We're here." "Together." "Really?" " Hanging out, yeah." "Yeah." "Yeah, we're just hanging out, man." "You guys are hanging out?" "Doing what?" "Playing darts, having some beverages" "You don't play darts." " I love darts" "She's really really good." " Well, lets go" "No!" "Now?" " Yeah, you love darts" "Come on honey, you can join us." " Thanks..." " That's me, it's me." "I got, I got, I got it." "Hey." "Oh, okay." "Okay." "It was Rollie, he got me back in." " Bueno" "Would you, uhm, come with me?" "It might not be so bad if I know you're out there." "Okay." "I'll try." "But just let me take a shower first." "Sure." "You okay?" " Yeah." "I go in in half an hour." "Schilling." "How was it?" " Like taking a nice warm bath." "So what is the miracle that Beta shows you?" "Hector used to wait for me to come home from school" "That day I saw Hector by the window as always." "I walked in, somehow Hector got out." "He was dead." "I begged God to give him back to me." "And he did." "God answered my prayers." "God sent Hector back to me, as a reward for my faith." "I dont care what it costs to bury this." "Just make it happen." "I've been looking for you all morning." "Their genomes have held steady since that first mutation, but in the last week they've mutated again." "We've been over this, Doctor." "We could be looking at serious medical problemss down the line, what's gonna happen when they pick up Gamma?" "We hope for the best." " We have to tell them!" "I need you to go back out to your station and do your job." "I'm trying, but you seem hellbent on making that impossible." "Sir." "Claire, we have just regained a modicum of equilibrium." "If I tell the crew that their genes might be changing, what does that gain me?" "So." "How was it for you?" "I thought it was kind of relaxing." "Once you got past the weird sensation of not knowing where your body ends and the water begins." "Kindof like having a few drinks." " Yeah" "So, I've already had two glasses of whine and if I don't get some food I might get to that place where I make bad choices." "Like dancing-on-the-bar-bad choices?" " It's really not pretty." "So, I was wondering, if you'd like to save me, from myself, by getting some food." "I know this Italian place, its..." " Claire" "I like you." "A lot." "Which is why I'm gonna say no." "I'm not the guy you want to get involved with." "Well, why don't I be the judge of that." "Trust me." "Hey." " Hey." "You ready?" " No." "That's the spirit." "Have you, uhm, seen Ted?" " No, no I havent." "You okay?" "Jen, look." "You are putting way too much on this." "Between you and me, it's kindof a stupid exercise" "ISO and the space program have built-in redundancy." "I mean, there are nine ways to solve every problem." "You're never alone, somebody has always got your back." "Look, try this: "Six sick slick slim sycamore saplings"" "I'm sorry, I don't even know what to say to that." "It's a tongue twister." "And it's harder than you think." "Trust me, focus on getting that right and, you won't think about this." "And I'm gonna be here the whole time, okay?" ""Six sick slick slim sycamore saplings"" "Six... sick... slim..." "Six... six... sick... sick... sick... sycamore.... saplings... six... sick slick slim sycamore saplings" "Six sick slick slim... sycamore saplings." "Six sick slim slick sycamore saplings." "I am talking to a bunny." "Good work." "Okay." " Hey Jen." "Kim?" "I'm sorry, isn't Rollie there?" "He should be on shift by now." " Yeah he had to go to" "Bertran head quarters." "Last minute all day meetings, mission status updates." "Do you want me to leave him a message?" "Why don't I just call him?" "He's not reachable?" "Communication lockdown until he leaves Bertran head quarters." "Their rules, not ours." " Okay." "Alright, thanks." "Damn" " Well that did it" "You are officially the worst dart player in the world." "You want some tips?" " No" "Uaaaaahhh" "Bathroom, right now." "I don't even want to wait to get you home." "Oh my god, it's even better from this angle" "Is everything okay?" " Everything is fine." "Why wouldn't it be?" "I don't know, just checking." "Okay, I have a game here, how about you let me finish?" "and I'll buy you a drink." " What do we need to win?" "Double twenty." "I love darts." "Thought you got the golden ticket to do nothing all day." "Looks like you're working." "I haven't got a thing to say." " Then say nothing at all." "Ah, yeah, hadn't thought of that." "I dunno." "Doesn't have much of a ring to it." "What are we talking about?" " Venus, need an opening line." "Oh, you should totally be like" " That isn't dirty" "I..." " Or juvenile" "We could all" " Or incomprehensible to anyone without five years of post-grad math." "Yeah I got nothing for you there." "Why did Donner even say anything to me?" "You know, I would've been fine, just gone down there, and something would have rolled of my tongue." "Okay, take it up with him then, he's still in the lander." "Still?" "Simulation failed" "Run it again." "Alright, brother." "Let's take a break." " Yeah, I'm not gonna get a break tomorrow, so why take one today?" "Donner, this is an insanely hard simulation, okay?" "The only reason it exists, is to prove to dumb jock pilots that they can't land in every condition." "This is designed to be impossible." "Its not impossible, I've done it before." "Let's go!" "We would never launch in these conditions, okay?" "It would never happen." "Come on, take a break." "Tomorrow, I'm gonna be down there with Zoe, and you're gonna be safe and sound up here like Goss was." "Im not Goss." "And this is not Mars." "Nadia, let's run it again." "So, Hector came back to life because of your prayer." "Yes" " Okay" "How did he get out?" "Did you leave the door open?" "No." "I walked in, I closed the door and I locked it like always." "Well how did it get open?" "Someone else leave the door open?" "God needed for Hector to be on that street." "So I could witness that miracle." "He makes all things possible." " So Hector goes from lying in the road, dead, to the sidewalk, breathing in your arms." "Yes." " And how does he get from the street to the sidewalk?" "That's part of the miracle." "Are we done?" " Tell me again about that door." "You doing okay, Claire?" " I'm fine." "If you need to talk to someone" " I dont need to talk to someone, Eve" "Do you realize what we're doing here?" "This is a ten trillion dollar experiment without a control." "I know." " What kind of science is that?" "So much could've been done with that money on earth instead we send eight people across the galaxy with a rock that we have no idea what..." "It's about faith, Claire." "And you know I'm not talking the religious kind." "Now, I dont know where I come down on God, but I have faith in those eight astronauts, and in Beta." "Well, I'm a scientist, and a doctor." "And my only concern is the well-being of that crew." "I can't just take things on faith." "And neither should you." "I walked in, Hector got out." "How many times do I have to tell you?" "So you didn't forget to close the door?" "No." " Do you remember who else was home?" "I can tell you who wasn't home." "My mother." " Okay." "Tell me about that." "I don't wanna talk about this anymore." "You're just questioning my faith." "Because you have none of your own." "Paula." "Paula, we're not finished here." "Yes we are." "You know, you strike me as more a usually Cabinet never Chardonnay type of drinker." " What?" "You just don't seem like the type for Whiskey shots." "Are you secretly judging me?" " No, no no." "Sounded like judgement." " No, just being observant." "What, did sense deprivation training get to you?" "Sure, let's go with that." " You know, I read somewhere that the best crew to send up into space would be a group of Buddhist monks." "Think about it." "They shut off all desire, they meditate all the time." "They focus on their religion." "Maybe I should try that." "Mind you, just sounds really bloody boring, doesnt it?" "Okay." "Come here." "Come here, I'm gonna help you." "No, I dont need your help." " Yeah, you do." "If only for the safety of Tommy's patrons, okay?" "That guy was not hurt." " Alright, yaw left." "Put your arm out." "Now it's all about touch." "You want to be solid, but relaxed." "Okay, just let the dart fly itself." "Solid, but relaxed." "Take your time." "That's it." "Beautiful." "Don't get any better than that." "Alright?" " Yeah" "That's perfect." " Thank you." "How about you buy me one more drink and take me home?" "Okay, yeah yeah." "That sounds like a plan." "Ehhh, have a good night." " You too." "Tchau" "Thanks." "So, I guess Ted never showed, huh?" "Well, there was a meeting, he probably got pulled into it." "Right." " Hey, come on." "You did it." "Yaay." "Why dont you let me take you out for a drink?" "I think I've been more than enough trouble, Rollie." "I should just cut my losses and head home." "Thanks." " Jen, you are never any trouble." "I couldn't have made it through this without you, Rollie." "Thank you." " Anytime." "So this is how this is gonna work:" "You're back on the floor starting tomorrow." "What?" "And this cost ISO a small fortune so we would really appreciate it if you keep this to yourself." "As far as you're concerned, this never happened." "What about the girl?" "Did you hear me?" "It never happened." " This is messed up." "Is that what you plan to tell her family, Mike?" "You're gonna tell them nothing ever happened?" "Is that what you're gonna tell her, if she ever wakes up, nothing ever happened?" "I may not have killed her, but you probably wont walk again, but nothing ever happened?" "Did it, Mike?" "Now I'm supposed to just walk the hell outta here?" "Because nothing ever happened." "Go home and call your wife." "She's been looking for you." "Can I help you?" "Woah, woah." "Hey, those are vintage." "Hey, hey." "Shhh." "It's okay." "I messed up." "Just hold me." "So, how's Paula?" " She's okay on the surface but there's something underneath it all." "Something she's hiding." "Repressing." "I think I can help her once I figure it out." "You okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine." "It's just one of those days." "Je t'aime." " I love you too." "Bye." "Thirty meters." "Simulation failed." " Alright, going again." "End simulation." " You can't be in here!" "You're throwing me off my game." "You're holding on too tight." " What?" "It's all about touch." "Solid but relaxed." "Alright, get out of here." " I'm not going anywhere." "Twenty meters." "Ten meters." "Touchdown." "SIMULATION COMPLETE" "Alright, Nadia, let's call it, I think I'm good." "All good." "Isolation is a fact of life in space." "I don't know if there's any real training for it." "There certainly isn't a cure." "Most of the time isolation is self-imposed." "Sorry." "I got called into a meeting at MC." " Jen?" "Sometimes by shutting people out." "Please, dont." "Jen, dont." "Jen." "Sometimes by inviting people in." "And sometimes by hiding alone in an oak barrel." "Sometimes by losing faith in things that keep us going." "What are you doing here?" "You were there for me before I left for Antares." "I'm here for you tonight." "Uhm..." "I think, I think I'm okay." "Well..." "I'm not." "I'm terrified." "We lean on each other." "Seek solace where we think we'll find it." "But sometimes its just unavoidable." "There's nothing to do but embrace the isolation." "And walk out into the void, alone."