I tend to like books with more dialogue and less narratives about their inner thoughts... Those are the parts I skimmed through. There's a lot of hype about this story so I read it to the very end and felt just "ok". There was a disconnect for me with believing someone blacks out when dealing with death and doesn't recognize reality from delusions. I have to feel the story is believable no matter how dark it may be. The ending was just confusing to me and didn't give me the wow factor.