I don't usually write reviews because English is not my first language. I let the experimented ones to do it. But today I really wanted to write a full review in hopes that maybe Ward reads them and understands something very important, even if her book The Shadows has a huge rating for what she did with this book. 
 First. I'm her biggest silent fan ever. I don't write reviews but I read everything she writes, and I do it the same day a book goes live. I have pre-ordered each and every book of her, and I know the day when she publishes a book by heart. I wait months and months for her books because I THOUGHT she could never disappoint me. 
 Second. J.R. Ward broke my heart in a way no book ever did because I never expected her to write something like this. 
 There was no warning. 
 You totally blindsided me and I'm extremely sad to say: you didn't do it in a good way. 
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 Actually... you know what, I'm sick and tired of books in which we read about heroines going through some terrible disease only to die in the end. I'm sick and tired of "romance" books that show us how a woman can be happy before she dies, about a short romance with something that IS NOT a happy end. There can never be a happy end like that, but at least in those books case, you know what to expect. You can read it or not, it's your choice. You know what you are buying and you do it at your own risk. 
 Has anybody anticipated The Shadows ending like it did? 
 Was there a warning I didn't see? 
 I never... in a million years would've thought Ward would do something like this in a book I waited so long for. In the Shadows case there only two scenarios left for Trez. He either eats a bullet or falls in love with someone else who is his real mate, but I don't see that happening. I don't want to see "The fall in our stars" kind of books over and over again because that doesn't give you any hopes. It's not inspiring, it's only plain cruel and ugly. It only makes you feel ok not to want to fight anymore and eventually give up. I don't think that's the way anybody should go, but hey... that's only my opinion. 
 A few months back, I read an article about a 50 years old woman who had cancers. She did two rounds of chemo but lost the battle in the end, because it didn't work. She had 4 stage cancer when doctors admitted her to leave the hospital and go home because they couldn't do anything anymore, and they thought she would like to die in peace at home. 
 And you know what? This woman cured HERSELF because she didn't want to die. She said that she felt like she had so many things to do, and if she was going to die in the end, this woman was going to try anything to save herself. And in the end she did. 
 I'm talking here about a case very public in my country, a woman supervised by the best doctors we have. This woman I'm writing about went home and try some juice diet she found on the internet, some honey product, some vitamins for her immunity system, she tried everything in the same time, but most then all, she said she wanted to live and she's thinking that's the reasons she today has a clean bill and she is testing with doctors who wants to see how she did it. 
 I WANT TO READ ABOUT THIS KIND OF STORIES because they are inspiring, not this bullshit I just read and broke my heart in a way no book ever did because I never expect it. There was no warning and I read everything, I LIVED EVERYTHING, believing I would get what Ward always has given me. An incredibly interesting story, a thrilling ride, one that ends in a good way, because now is hard for me to believe this author didn't know that was her recipe for success. For having so many readers still waiting for a book in a series that promised to still have success in the years to come. 
 Dear J.R. Ward, I respect the hell out of you. You are good, you are very good, but you lost the way in this book because personal experiences. And you know what ... you can do whatever the hell you want. It's your book, you can write about Wrath leaving Beth and ending up screwing Lassiter, but ... what about those who read you from the beginning? What about those who invested so much in this books, you fell it's ok to do this to them? Why couldn't you at least give a little warning this book was a game changer? 
 Don't you feel like that was the last you could've done for you humble readers? 
 What about does who read your book and they are sick? How are they feeling, you know? You care? You care if there's a person in this world who read all your books and maybe she/he is sick? Maybe she/he has cancer or something same as terrible, but still fighting it? How do you think that person felt when she read about dying the way your heroin did? Because it broke my heart in a way no review can ever explain. 
 I'm sorry to say this, I'm sorry for using this page to pour my soul out, but I'm officially done with anything you write. You have no respect for the ones who read you, you have no respect for live, but mostly, you have no respect for the one who are sick and fight every day for their life. 
 You just took a step forward with this book and showed us there no reason to fight anymore, in the end we either wait for a miracle from divinity or die, because we are powerless with our own body, with any disease. Your message to me was loud and clear, there's no hope. And you know what, you are so wrong. 
 THIS IS NOT A ROMANCE BOOK YOU WROTE. 
 THIS IS A TRAGEDY. 
 I'm no hater and please don't label me like one, but I do feel like I have a right to say what I feel since I paid for a book that destroyed me, a book that was not properly advertised, a book you sold to people who have read every book you wrote and had no warning you suddenly changed you mind about what your writing should be about. 
 I only wish I was smart enough to wait a couple of days and see reviews before buying this book, and I wish I wouldn't trust you like I did. Because I will say it again, you deserved it, you BROKE MY HEART. And you also lost one fan you didn't know you had, and you'll never be missing. (hide spoiler)]