I just put the book down and i'm writing this review with a lump in my throat. 
 This book definitely moved me and the second half was heavy to read. I shouldn't have read it in one sitting. 
 just as a disclaimer, i'll spoil the book in this review, so don't read further if you don't wanna be spoiled. 
 Let me first start with a few things that I absolutely loved about the book 
 * The friendship between Lily and Allysa 
 * The flower store. The risk Lily took in opening her own business and I loved the concept of her flower store. The gritty, dark theme to it. I thought that was truly amazing and I kinda wanna visit that store. 
 * Atlas (I swear to God if she was not gonna end up with Atlas I'd have given this book 2 stars!) 
 * SHE LEFT THE ABUSIVE ASSHOLE! I was scared when it seemed like she wasn't gonna. But when she said it ends with us to Emmy, I was close to crying. Fuck. I never wanted a fictional character to leave their husband this much. 
 When I read the first half of the book, I was set on it being a 3-star read. There were just some things about the book that kinda bothered me. However, some were explained later. Others were made up for by the emotional train that was the second half. I don't wanna be a train wreck after reading a book; but it's beautiful when a book can make you feel that way. 
 So here are the things that I felt kinda 'ehh' about: 
 * Allysa just 'happens' to walk in the second Lily and her mom are in the venue and is willing to work for free. And what do you know, her brother ends up being Ryle! That was just too much of a coincidence for me. I felt there could have been a better way for Allysa and Lily to cross each other's paths. The reason she was willing to work for free was explained, but the whole coincidence of it altogether was still too artificial. 
 * Atlas also happened to be the chef of the place she went to dinner with her mother. They hadn't spoken for years, and there he was. In a complete different city. Later we did find out that he was planning on going to Boston all along, and so was she. So that made up for the way I felt about it. And she did set the precedent for him being a chef in the cookie scene. So that was a nice tie-in in the end. 
 * The whole Ellen DeGeneres thing. Idk. It just felt cheap to me. And then the whole 'Dory' thing, which is also a character voiced by Ellen. Like, did you get paid to do this or what? 
 I just thought it was a little tacky. It could have been flashbacks, or normal diaries. 
 I've said most I wanted to say about the book. Definitely worth the read but fuck, was the blurb misleading. I thought I was up for a cosy fireplace read (although it's mid july, what am i even talking about). The lump in my throat is still not gone. I've been drinking soda for a good while and I just wanna get rid of it. I am definitely gonna pick a happy read for my next book. 
 This was my first read by CH and I will probably come back for more. Eventually. I have so many books to catch up on still. Definitely was worth picking up. I was a little afraid that it was not gonna live up to its hype , and the ratings were basically too good to be true.