I swear for at least, AT LEAST an hour I just stared out my window just thinking about this book -- shellshocked. That's how you know when a book is good -- when you have no words to say at the end of it, when you question it, you question everything, and you wish, wish oh so much that you had more. And I did something that I have never done before: when I finished this book I went back and reread parts from this book again, rereading sections over and over again letting everything sink in. I wasn't prepared for this book I seriously cried a little bit and felt like sobbing (but I didn't) and I don't ever cry during books (unless I'm on my period). 
 Here's another thing to remember: hope keeps you alive. Even when you're dead, it's the only thing that keeps you alive. 
 Forget Delirum this was so much better and I actually liked that book (just the first one not so much the others). I forgot (I don't know how) how much I love Lauren Oliver's writing, like I said, I don't know how but it happened. She brought everything to life in this book and it's only been a couple of hours since I finished this book but, I miss it already. And her characters! It's been a long time since I've attached myself so dearly to characters and not just the main character but all of them, I love them all. I have to say it's pretty impressive how in just one book I got so attached to these characters, this usually only happens in long series where I invest so much of my time in, but 500 pages *shakes head* I don't think that that has ever happened until now. 
 In this book, Sam Kingston has a nice charming life, popular friends, good boyfriend... but all that in her life is erased by just one night, when she dies. Except it doesn't, Sam should be dead, and she is, but Sam continues to relive that last day of her life. She questions after that day her whole life, all the things that she wants to do, to say, she's dead but yet she keeps on living, and it's strange. Sam realizes so many things about herself, and over the span of time that she relives this day, she figures out how she wants to act and who she wants to be, how she wants to be even if it's not permanent, if tomorrow everything going to reset and the previous day really doesn't matter, except it does. I loved this premise, I've never read anything about this, it was so different and Sam was so relatable. 
 Maybe you can afford to wait. Maybe for you there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. 
 But for some of us there's only today. And the truth is, you never really know. 
 This is one of my new favourites, contemporaries are hard to please me I think there is only one other contemporary that I have rated 5 stars to. This book will take you on an emotional roller coaster, impossible to get off of but to be honest you'd never want to. 
 That's when I realized that certain moments go on forever. Even after they're over they still go on, even after you're dead and buried, those moments are lasting still, backward and forward, on into infinity. They are everything and everywhere all at once. 
 They are the meaning