Initrial Impressions 9/20/14 Actual rating: 3.75 stars 
 In truth, I can't give it four full stars for REASONS, but it was an enjoyable read so I'm a bit torn. 
 HEY, remember the time I didn't read synopses? (Oh wait, that's always) so clearly I did not know what I was heading into when I started this book. Yes, it is contemporary but it has a weird twist and I still can't decide if I liked it or not. 
 Finding out the end of Jam's story... I get it. I really do. But I still in a way felt turned off by it. 
 Oh well. It was a good read, but another book that I wished had been more realistic than I thought it was going to be. (Like Landline) 
 Full review posted HERE on The Book Addict's Guide 11/3/14: Belzhar is a difficult book for me to review. While I enjoyed the book as I was reading it, a few things just didn't sit right with me in the end and it left me feeling a bit confused about what I had just read and how I felt about it. (Then again, if I actually read synopses through thoroughly AND even remembered what they were before I read the book, I'm sure I wouldn't have had such big issues. This is, however, a THING I do since I try to leave as many twists alive in a book as possible before I start reading.) 
 Well, BELZHAR (the "zh" pronounced like the "J" in Jacques, for those who didn't know!) is a bit of magical realism, which is always hit or miss for me. I've loved books like FAIRYTALES FOR WILDE GIRLS which has quite a bit of magical realism, but doesn't shy away from the fantastical elements and then I find myself on the fence about books like BELZHAR which tend to stick to a mostly realistic world with a specific magical element -- and I think that's the part of magical realism that doesn't quite work out for me. I love fantasy and I love contemporary but to mix the two in one book is a bit difficult for me. I'm more inclined to believe in the fantasy part of a story if there is more fantasy in it. If it feels too realistic, the magical elements feel too unbelievable. This of course has nothing to do with how the book was written -- it was simply an element that was an important part of the book that I just couldn't connect with as I was reading. 
 That being said, I actually enjoyed the contemporary romance/realistic fiction aspect of this. I actually had a lot of sympathy for Jam (well, in the beginning) because she had lost her boyfriend and she was going through such a rough time. As the book progressed, I really enjoyed getting to know her, but honestly, I liked some of the secondary characters more than I did Jam. Her despair became a bit taxing for me as I continued to read and as much as I wanted to continue to sympathize for her, by the end of the book (once we really find out the whole story with Jam and her boyfriend since she chooses not to reveal everything to her friends all at once), I was just really frustrated with the whole situation. 
 I just feel so CONFLICTED. I enjoyed the book as I was reading and yet, once I finished, I felt like I had all of these emotions that I didn't feel while I was reading. It was a very confusing situation and ultimately, that really changed my overall view of the book. Those little things that just didn't sit right with me were actually very big things once I really started to think about it so I came off totally torn.