(More of a 4.5... kind of leaning into 5... ITS A GOOD BOOK OKAY) 
 I'm a sucker for YA contemporaries and no surprise this book emotionally lulled me into its distressing trap. 
 The characters were incredibly realistic, to the point where I felt like I knew them, to the point where I would silently curse their stupid decisions and/or throw agitated fits at their careless reactions and comments. The themes were in context to the age group of the characters, it looked greatly at peer pressure and in its cunning and intricate way the manipulation that can take place in toxic, unhealthy relationships (thumbs up for that). The story also looked at child abuse and the theory of "distractions" and how alcohol, drugs, and unhealthy relationships can be the solution to "getting over it" (when the character is able to find in it himself to trust others I cried happy tears). 
 Themes of alcohol and drugs were also discussed to quite a large extent and while societies depiction of alcohol was brought up (how it is glorified for its "fun" aspect) I still found that the story failed to emphasise the importance of choosing YOUR OWN routes and not caving into peer pressure. I appreciated the realism of these themes in the book as we were dealing with teenagers but I just would have liked to see some final comment on the dangers associated with underage drinking. 
 Even in saying this, I still can't fathom to you how gripping this book was, I stayed up until 5:30am just to find out what happened next... No matter what page you are on, you have to know what happens. 
 I NEED THE BOOK I NEED THE NEXT BOOK 
 OH AND NOW THERES THIS BLOODY LOVE TRIANGLE LIKE THANKS ESTELLE THANKS