*i'm currently staring at my laptop for 15 minutes now because i can't with words* 
 Beautiful, poetical, historical, emotional... ya'll know this already. 
 I started on this book when I was up in the air actually, it was a 10 hour flight and I literally had no physical book with me. So, I decided to check out my ibooks and read from there. I've had The Bronze Horseman on my phone for awhile now (thanks to my hoochie, viv) and it all started from there. I couldn't put it down and I was hesitant at first to actually finish the rest because again, I really don't like reading from my phone and the fact that it was fucking 1000+ pages on my phone, it was kind of intimidating. But I had no choice because my brain and heart wanted to read it ASAP so I did. 
 And now, I'm dead. 
 History is something I have always been interested about, particularly the WW2. I find the 1940's the most interesting year for me. And honestly, if I could get another life, I would want to live in the 40's because I just love everything about it. Idk. It's my guilty pleasure. And it has always been my thing. I sometimes wonder if an 80 year old woman is trapped inside me HAHAHA. I just like the vintage type. I like their music, their fashion, how they had to go through WW2. OH AND THEIR FILMS!! LIKE CASABLANCA. OH MY GOD. It just all fascinates me very much. Military men are also something I have always always been interested about because they're hot. Duh. Those uniforms? oh my god hoochie, don't even. HAVE YA'LL SEEN PEARL HARBOR THE MOVIE? It's my fucking favorite movie of all time. 
 Why you ask? Because if you serve me something that was set in the 40's, that has military men and romance all in one platter. I'm hella sold. And this book just did it for me. 
 It's not easy to love a soldier. I'm not going to explain because anyone would know why it's difficult to find a sense of commitment with someone who's daily job is at a battlefield. But you can't help whom your heart wants to love. In military romance, everything is frustrating. E V E R Y T H I N G. It's all about life. Literally. Anything can happen and anyone can die. 
 Alexander and Tatiana, in general, was a hard couple to stick with. They actually still are because he lied to her in order for her to be safe but that's a review for another time lol. Anyways, for the majority of book 1, I commend their patience with one another. The whole hiding the relationship sheenanigans with Dasha and Dimitri and the rest of Tatiana's family, it was extremely teasing my patience. I was going okay with it up until the point of Dasha's engagement with Alexander, like it ticked me off so bad. And I felt for Tatiana because what the fuck, I thought we were in this together Alexander. You can't just show up one day and say you're engaged to someone whom you don't like. I MEAN-- YOU CAN'T DO THAT TO US GIRLS BITCH Y U PLAYIN. 
 So yeah. Lol. 
 The family pissed me off naturally. 
 Tatiana is the most brave person out there. And Alexander knew it. Because the part where Alexander found out about how she saved his life when he was gravely injured, he knew, and oh my god, my tears were just flowing away like the fucking Niagara falls because he said the line that I was expecting to come out from him sooner or later, and that line is... 
 "I don't deserve you." 
 THAT. HIT. ME. HARD. IT'S A HOME RUN PEOPLE. 
 I'm not saying Alexander isn't good enough for her but what she's been through for him, at her age, Tatiana deserves a freaking god. Alexander is so fucking lucky to be honest. And in my opinion, Tatiana is too good to be true for him. Tatiana surpassed the definition of loving your partner. Actually, she surpassed the definition of love. And I'm just absolutely amazed by her. What's so funny is that at the back page of the book, it asked the question "Do you think a love like theirs is really possible?" and my anwser to that is... I don't know, maybe? But if I were to be 100% honest, the love Tatiana and Alexander had, died in the 40's as well. I really don't see that kind of love now. Maybe there is out there but have I actually seen one in real life? Sadly, no. 
 The Bronze Horseman is one of my favourites now for sure and I'm actually happy that such a book exists because my generation can pick it up and reflect about life back in the war. How life was a million times more difficult. If you set aside the romance, you can also see the daily struggles of having normal routines, of how hard it was to have a decent meal on your table. To see your family die, one by one, not being able to bury them or properly say goodbye. 
 Such an amazing book and I can't wait to dive into the second one. Am I ready? NAH.