So,... 
 Yeah, this book left me in an awe. I mean, I couldn't sort out my feelings and put it into words right after I finished it. So, pardon me if this review would consist of a bunch of ramblings or mess. 
 First of all, I am once again in the minority. Yes, I'm the crazy minority lady and I don't know why I've become one of it. If you look at my rating, yes, I give this 4 stars. But I don't think I quite enjoy this book as much as the other 4-stars-rater. 
 There's so much emotions built up inside of me while reading this, indeed. 
 The story is also enchanting yet filled with beautiful metaphors. 
 It got me wondering for the whole book, curious of what's the 'real nightmare' that Connor dream of each night. 
 But, I feel like there's something missing from the story. I don't know, I just couldn't point it out. I know it's ridiculous how I claim that there's something missing and yet, I don't know what it is. 
 Maybe it's just because it didn't really touch me. I mean, I was prepared to bawling my eyes out near the end of the book. Because I knew, I knew that ending would happen. But, I didn't. And maybe that disappoint me a bit. Because I picked this up with a faint hope that this would give me a book-hangover or simply made me become a complicated mess right after I finished it. 
 Yes, I'm kinda astonished and still couldn't put out my words properly (and maybe that's why I don't know what's missing in this book and held me from giving out the glorious 5 stars). But deep inside, I know that this book doesn't give much impact for me. I mean, I bet I would forget about this in about a week, or less. 
 Or maybe, I was just expecting too much. And too much is never a good thing. 
 But at least, this book is a complicated one that filled out with so many well-written thoughts. Thoughts that left me thinking and reflecting about myself. It's been a while since the last time I've been able to put down the novel I'm reading to quote several sentences out of it. And these are several quotes from the book that I enjoy wholeheartedly. 
 "Stories are the wildest things of all, stories chase and bite and hunt." --page 51 
 "There is not always a good guy. Nor is there always a bad one. Most people are somewhere in between" --page 84 
 "...The parson, though, what was he? He was nothing. Belief is half of all healing. Belief in the cure, belief in the future that awaits. And here was a man who lived on belief, but who sacrificed it at the first challenge, right when he needed it the most. He believed selfishly and fearfully. And it took the lives of his daughter." --page 135 
 "...Your mind will believe comforting lies while also knowing the painful truths that make those lies necessary. And your mind will punish you for believing both." --page 224 
 My most favorite is the one from page 135, or I could say the 'second story'. The second story feels personal to me. Since I've been dealing with this kind of issues lately. About 'beliefs' and how people live with it. For me, it is the portrayal of what so many believers have become. People who lived on belief, but who sacrificed it at the first challenge, right when they needed it the most. 
 See? My mind has just began to wonder again right after I typed that last sentence. 
 Damn, maybe I need the Yew-tree-monster to visit and help me to sort out my thoughts and personal matters.