Emotional rollercoaster. I was not expecting so much angst. 
 The first part of the book brought me joy but I was upset by Tony's lion share of the "home work", and the fact that it was always Mac who drove the car, who topped in bed, who took him out etc. It was too much old traditional heterosexual roles. 
 The second part of the book brought me down. The angst... OMG! I think maybe I love the guys too much to enjoy a book where they go through so much pain. If it was not about Tony and Mac, the pill would be easier to swallow. But this is Tony and Mac! And on top of that the end is kind of... unsatisfying. The closure is insignificant compared to the angst. 
 So I'm feeling rather down after reading the book :-( And I dread the sequel because it's clear things can get much, much worse. (view spoiler)[ Between Mac's potential abuse as a child, the potential drama with his family, the potential drama with his career, the potential drama with the kids, especially Ben, the potential emotional breakdown of Tony... It's the stuff of nightmares. This family has A LOT on its plate. It can get really worse before it gets better. (hide spoiler)]. And I have the feeling that the author will not pull her punches. 
 There is a new character I found absolutely entertaining. I hope we have his story one day, maybe. It's Dominique, alias Dom the dom, a (view spoiler)[ short and skinny but (hide spoiler)] total dom who has a dungeon with twelve ropes of different colours, no less! 
 All in all a painful book, half enjoyed and half endured, but pretty amazing in its depth and realism.