I need to think about this book more before I post a full review, so this is more initial notes than an actual review. I was deeply compelled by this story and these characters and will be thinking about it for a long while. 
 I have complex feelings about the disability portrayal. I really liked that basically every significant character in the story was disabled in one way or another. So much of the realities of living with PTSD and creating relationship with other trauma survivors lived between these pages. I found the descriptions of everyday life with chronic pain very deeply resonant with my own experiences of chronic pain. That said, the best word I can think of to describe the portrayal of physical disability is...stuck (stuck in an ableist framework, stuck in that there was basically no character growth around Travis' relationship to his own disability or his projections of what that would mean for a relationship, stuck in a very limited idea of what kinds of sex and relationship are possible when accommodating physical limitations). The portrayal of PTSD was less stuck, and had some moments I really appreciated so much, but it still felt more mired than I'd hoped it might be. I want to discuss both of these things in more detail, but need to think about them some more first. 
 In general, I was so frustrated with Travis in particular, but also with both of them. Which I guess is a sign I cared about them, but argh they frustrated the hell out of me and not in a way that was resolved by a character arc that had them grow as individuals or as a couple. 
 I had a hard time with the way Clints relationship with his family was portrayed. It felt like the story excused him for (view spoiler)[ traumatizing his kids and ex wife and being violent towards his family, like that was ok because it was part of how he responded to the trauma he experienced in the military. (hide spoiler)] 
 If you are a trauma survivor and are considering reading this, I do recommend looking at the TWs below as there is significant trauma-related content that definitely caught me by surprise. 
 Trigger Warnings (view spoiler)[ Detailed descriptions of combat, including war crimes and plane crashes, and increased PTSD because of silencing of highly classified experiences during combat. Detailed descriptions of internalized ableism and harmful efforts to pass as less disabled because of an ableist system. Both of these things are threaded throughout the story. Detailed descriptions of PTSD symptoms, which are threaded throughout the story. References but no detailed story about a sexual assault with multiple perpetrators. One character has an ex who committed suicide, and this is referenced multiple times throughout the story, including a detailed description of the suicide, which involved a car crash. Descriptions of alcohol addiction and family violence while under the influence of alcohol. The story feels like it excuses the family violence because of his PTSD from combat. Many references to homophobia in the military and the way it creates despair for queer folks serving in the military. (hide spoiler)]