I was holding up well through most of the emotional rollercoster- man, I was really impressing myself with the lack of waterworks. Right at the last quarter I cracked. Couldn't hold it in. Tears brimming as I said "Crap.". I just couldn't be all cool and unweepy. 
 The family and friends in this book are all so awesome, well written and interesting. Also very real with arguments and events and stuff. It's what makes it all so frakkin tragic. Once the waterworks started there was no turning it off, short of taping my eyelids shut but even then I'd probably still have made some pathetic whimpery sounds. 
 The meanest thing about this book is that it would say all these happy stories and illustrate how great the characters were and have me laughing and then WHAM back at the hospital and tragically sad. It was really really mean :( But also made the book really pack a punch. 
 This was an amazing book, but I can't help but resent it for making me cry and laugh at the same time, you know things have gotten weird when you're inhaling tears through your nose. I don't know if I can face the next book, but this one was worth the tears and crushing sadness.