I'm honestly not really sure how I felt about this book. I gave it three stars, but I'm not sure if that's enough or too much or just right. When I saw it on offer, I was excited to read it because I'll shamelessly admit to loving Willing Victim by Cara McKenna, and never reading anything else like it ever before or after. However, this book and McKenna's work are worlds apart. This story isn't what I imagined at all. These characters, their pasts...it 's violent and frightening and I warn anyone with triggers to steer very clear of Vivienne and Jonah's story. For those of you who don't have those problems, though, this was a powerful tale of what rape can do to people. How it can shape their lives and make them feel things in a different way. Need things that nobody else can understand. 
 But when you do find that one person who understands everything, the bond you form, well, that's unforgettable. A bond like that takes ultimate trust though, and when you enter into an agreement with someone without being fully honest about what you need, and why...things can get dangerous. 
 And hearts that were never part of the original plan can even get broken. 
 This book gave me major feels. There were points when I was uncomfortable. Points where I was unsure how to feel. Points where I felt sadness... I also felt curiosity, and wonder and then frustration and even a little indignation. In the end the strongest thing I felt was hope. Hope for Vivienne. For Jonah. For them as one, or separate. For them to find peace with their pasts and perhaps even their future. This is one that will stay with me for a bit. There were so many things that happened, and I need to know more. I will be impatiently waiting for the second book in this series to see how this wraps up, because I'm pulling for these two. No matter how life has shaped you, everyone deserves their happily ever after, in whichever form it suits them. I'd love to see both Vivienne and Jonah happy.