that ending... 
 I typed a whole bunch of stuff that got deleted. AND IM UPSET CAUSE IT WAS ALL MY FEELINGS. Oh yes, SPOILERS. HIDE YOURSELVES. 
 ANYWAYS, all in a nutshell, all the characters got me to cry. 
 Thomas Confession - gosh, I found myself crying out "no....don't...." because he's just a stab in my heart. Literally. Like even though I knew it happened already and it's of the freaking past, I can't help myself. IT'S TOO MUCH FOR MY HEART. 
 Tess' Confession - I finally realized how it feels. How she feels. Or I try very hard too. My biggest fear is being alone. And being alone all over again after finding someone to be her family and her loved one...it's all too much. I just wished she would've voiced it earlier. I really loved Tess' character in this book. 
 Day & June. - you guys. gettogetheralreadypleaseIbegyou...myheartneedsyoutogether. Basically how I felt in a nutshell. But like in my previous deleted review, they are like oil and water. No matter how hard you shake or mix, it's just....impossible. But their pure, raw feelings. It kills me. They really do because of all that's happened in the past 3 books. In a matter of 3 books, Marie Lu has got me all mixed up and sad and all feels and ships. /gahhhh #thisbook. 
 Freaking Jameson. Bitch, just die please. I'm glad you did at the end but at the same time, I just wish you wouldn't have caused me so much heartache. I was dying too because of you! 
 Day's vision of his mom. I cried on the trainnnn omg. I didn't even think I breathed. I was terrified of having another Allegiant ending and although I didn't hate Allegiant for it, it doesn't mean I don't want a happier ending. Thank goodness it wasn't. 
 In the end, like I was trying to explain with a pharmacy compound I once made, an emulsion, an emulsifying agent is required to bring together oil and water. And I felt like the ending gave them that. Their emulsifying agent was Day losing his current memories. He would no longer feel as pained while seeing her because he won't remember. It hurts though. It really does and despite June making the self sacrificing route...it made me cry. While on the train. Like if people stare up at me, they'll see the tears but since it's cold and I wrap myself up, no one saw. I also felt that June made a decision for Day ... which was selfish although with good intentions. If only we could have the best of both worlds. 
 THE EPILOGUE. 
 When they met again. Day's words. June's words. OMG EVEN TESS. Although this wasn't much of a concrete end, I'd like to imagine that they ended up together again cause what Day is missing is June and what June is missing is Day. They are the missing pieces to each other's puzzle. <3