Epic. Beautiful writing and I was so invested that at times I felt like my heart was ripped from my chest. I so rarely read stories like this that have sadness in them but I am really glad I read this one. I love when the story comes piece by piece and we don't get the whole story all at once. I loved Drew and Clay. Nastya was surrounded by so much good but at the same time I too could not get over her loss. I so badly want to give this 5 stars but there is a part in the book that I just couldn't forgive Josh for. (view spoiler)[ I cannot get over the scene where Nastya walks in to Josh's house and he is with the other girl. It broke my heart into pieces. I know they were broken up (BUT he is supposed to love her and they weren't broken up for that long). I don't think I could ever get over that! It's like what Nastya and Josh had was meaningless and I couldn't come back from it. And then SHE tells HIM sorry afterward! Yuck! It made the ending not as great for me because I didn't like Josh as much as I did in the beginning but maybe that's the point. (hide spoiler)] I will say that that last secret was a good one. I had to go back and rethink some of the first scenes.