I received an arc from the publisher via netgalley in exchange for an honest review 
 Review also posted on my blog 
 So if I'm being honest, I thought I wouldn't like this book as much as I did. I've read two of the author's other books, both of which were much shorter, and didn't like them too much. This one though? I can't even put into words how much I loved it. 
 Initially I thought I wouldn't like it due to some things at the start. Brandon, who's out and proud as gay, automatically assumes Jeremy, who's deeply in the closet, is gay. While he is not wrong, just the way he talked about it didn't initially sit well with me. It was also because he realised Jeremy was deeply in the closet and in a way sort linked it to him calling him a homophobic slur. Which leads me to address that. Jeremy experiences a lot of internalised homophobia and when Brandon tells him he's gay he uses a slur when advising him to not be too outspoken about that. This is actually later addressed how Jeremy actually really struggled with being gay. While I wasn't a fan of him using the slur, it does show how much he struggled with being gay and growing up around a father and two brothers who thought nothing of talking in such a crude way. He was so used to saying the slur he could barely say 'gay'. 
 So, leading on to what I loved about this book. It dealt really well with Jeremy's internalised homophobia. He receives a lot of demeaning comments from his family for being a diver. It's very clear how it affected him negatively and how he wants to gain his father's respect, a big part of that is working towards the Olympics. Again, his internalised homophobia plays a massive role in his life. He does struggle a lot with his feelings for Brandon but he does work through it realistically. Brandon also doesn't pressure him to do physical stuff, he never did anything when Jeremy was uncomfortable. 
 Their relationship was genuinely so good. It was definitely lust at first sight but they did have a lot of chemistry. Communication was also noted as an important thing which I loved. There is sex in the book and I don't think I've read a book with more realistic sex scenes. Since it was Jeremy's first time having sex with a guy, even though Jeremy researched, there was a lot of communication throughout it. And there was also references to laughing! I don't think I've read a book with a sex scene where the characters laughed. 
 This book was such a pleasant surprise and I can't recommend it enough. If you want a good m/m romance that deals with working through internalised homophobia, I definitely recommend it.