3.5 to 4 stars 
 I've been unsure about many things in my life except that I have always loved him. Every single minute of every single day that I have been on this earth, my heart belonged to him. It has never been a question, never a doubt. The love had taken on many different forms over the years, but it had always been a constant. 
 Amanda had been in love with her best friend, Noah for their entire lives. She always felt that Noah was her hero, and would always be there for her. One particular time he was there for her, she was granted her nickname, Tweet, by Noah. The story of how that happened is sweet, and worth reading for yourself. They shared all of their firsts with each other, that is until they are teenagers and Noah shows a different kind of interest in Amanda and Amanda feels that she is not good enough for Noah, not good enough to be his girlfriend. Noah realizes that he can't have Amanda the way he wants, but he never really gives up. 
 Amanda grew up in the shadow of her perfect sister, Emily. Always compared to Emily - usually by her parents - Amanda's self esteem is shot. While Noah continually tells her that she is beautiful, and that he wants more from her than simple friendship, Amanda cannot fully believe it. Instead she watches as Noah dates other girls (one being her closest girlfriend), has sex buddies, and finally finds a girlfriend at the end of their high school years. Still Amanda feels she is not worthy of Noah's love, that if she gave into her feelings for Noah and agreed to a romantic relationship that she would end of messing things up and losing Noah forever. And poor Noah,, he always loved his Tweet, he tried to move on, while still trying to have her in his life in any way he could. 
 "I know you've always been down on yourself. I know you think you're doing whats best for me. I hate that you think so little of yourself and I hate that you don't think we belong together. I've tried to be around you and stay in the friend zone. I've tried so fucking hard. 
 I can't be around you right now. It hurts too much, because I am so completely and desperately in love with you, Tweet." 
 It's not until something catastrophic happens to Amanda and she meets a significant person in her life who helps her to realizes that maybe its worth the risk to have Noah in her life the way she has always wanted. 
 I love you. I've loved you from the first moment we met. I love you deeper every time I see you. And, I know the timing is awful, but there's never a perfect time. So, no matter what happens, I needed you to know how I feel." I finally exhaled. 
 There is a very funny exchange between Brooke and Noah at the conclusion of this speech from Amanda - so not funny to Amanda, but I thought Brooke's one line to Noah was hysterical. 
 (view spoiler)["YOU READ HER TEST WHILE YOU WERE FUCKING ME!" Brooke screamed. 
 "My phone was on the bedside table. I just glanced over at it." 
 "Then you almost broke your fucking neck jumping off of me to get to the door." 
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 And, other than a couple of good/funny one liners: 
 It was like the John Hughes of version of Caligula. 
 Yep, I had to admit it, Brad was a stack of hotcakes covered in sexy syrup and I wanted to fork him. 
 The D-Bags blasted through my head. Kellan's voice always soothed me. A shout out to S.C. Stephen's book boyfriend Kellan Kyle. 
 So, other than those, and other funny lines, and the last 1/4 of the book - including that awesome epilogue - my rating is based on the fact that I am very mixed about this book. The first 25% was boring, and honestly, I skipped parts of the book, then 25-70% was slow and Amanda annoyed the hell out of me with her inability to see what was in front of her... but then after the 70% mark, we got to see her actually struggle and realize her feelings. I really did enjoy the last 25% of the book, but loving less than half of a book unfortunately does not get a very high rating from me.