I promised myself I would try not to cry. 
 What did this book make me do? Cry. 
 Now, I didn't cry when Thomas told Aaron that he did not feel the same way about him. I didn't cry when Aaron was thinking about undergoing the Leteo procedure. 
 No, I was completely undone after I read the chapter that revealed that not only did Aaron know that he was liked boys long befre Thomas even entered the picture, but he also had a relationship with a guy behind his girlfriend's back that ended badly, his relationship with his dad deteriorated when he came out to him, and he went through with the Leteo procedure already. 
 Right after that chapter, I was just hit with plot twists that were more depressing than the last. 
 Then, there was the ending: the ending that made me feel like I was cheated out a happy ending. I wanted Aaron to have a happy ending. He went through so much and suffered so much that I wanted him to be happy. He didn't have to be in a relationship, but I just needed him to be happy. 
 The argument can be made that he is happy when the ending considering that he's optimistic and is taking life one day at a time...but it wasn't enough for me. 
 He deserved more...a lot more. He deserved to have a nice, healthy relationship with someone who liked him and wasn't afraid to show it. 
 Honestly, this book was just a bucket of sadness. 
 Yet...despite all of that...the book was still really good. 
 I liked this book, so I'm definitely going to read more of Adam Silvera's works. I'll just make sure I have some ice cream with me just in case I read something that brings me to tears.