*i received an e-arc of this book from netgalley and the publisher in exchange for an honest review* 
 this book got me MESSED UP! i don't think you can read this book and not ask yourself so many questions involving suicide and ethics. like WHAT did i just read?! i honestly don't know what to say that isn't a spoiler, i think you should go in mostly blind on this one. but there are trigger warnings for suicide, death, an incredibly violent car crash. And, i feel like this story has some of the problematic things that Me Before You had, so be weary if that book bothered you. I am going to be thinking about this book for a long time, I know that.