I usually read books that make me happy. Books that take me far away from this world. UF, Fantasy et cetera. Last night I was looking for a book to read, and came across this. Well, I knew this book would give me FEELINGS when I read other reviews. Maybe not happy, nice, excited ones, but feelings none the less. I found this free on Google Play, so I downloaded it. 
 Some people rave about this book and it's controversial setup, and hate this because "rape in never okay". 
 Well new's flash, rape IS NOT okay, but it still happens. And to me, this book was not about romaticizing rape, but about broken people. 
 When you are someone who's life has been easy and happy and good, it's so easy to be black and white. But world is not black and white. It's full of grey. Sometimes you love the people who hurt you the most and even though you know the momentary solace they sometimes give you is a lie, you still can't walk away. Sometimes sexually abused people no not get aroused of normal and happy relationships, but they always go for the ones who abuse them, over and over again. Sometimes they get orgasms when they raped, and are so ashamed, hurt and broken after that. Sometimes they fantasize in secrecy of violent things done to them. Sometimes they do it to others. They're broken. 
 Caled is broken, and he keeps on the cycle of abuse, this time being the abuser. He usually keeps his emotional distance, but this time his victim get's under his skin. Livvie is broken, and she is attracted to the one who did the most horrible thing to her. She seeks comfort, protection, solace in him, all the while he's the one who kidnapped her to be trained as a sex slave. They keep on breaking themselves and each other. 
 Book was full of sex scenes, and some different kind of violation on one's body, but I did not feel eroticism in them. It was like the time I had to read this book about a little girl who was sexually abused by her own grandfather. I felt the pain, the confusion, the raw emotions, but no arousal. But I get why some do. 
 I hate fake BDSM-books like Fifty shades. This I gave 5 stars solely because the author made a masterpiece of raw, dark, human emotions and the darkest corners of human minds. But I doubt I will be reading this again. I may pick up the next book though, after I've chewed this one over and had some happy, action packed, witty, non-realistic UF-action. 
 If you are a person who's world is purely black and white, someone who is very sensitive, maybe you should not pick up this one. If you want to be shocked, by a book, by your own reactions to the characters, the things happening in them, you should try this one.