Hey I just met you 
 And this is crazy 
 But here's the book 
 I've finished already. 
 What I know for sure: I want my personal Ben as birthday present. 
 What I'm rather clueless about: how I should describe my feelings towards this book. 
 "I'll be back," I said, and my voice cracked a little as I said it. 
 "You won't be the same," she said. 
 "Maybe not," I replied. 
 It's not the first time I've been dealing with LGBTs, but this is the first time I've found a 
 new kind of approach 
 : an openly gay guy pretending to be straigh in order to feel "normal" again only to understand that suppressing his own essence and lying to himself and the others isn't probably the best idea he could have come up it. A sort of 
 double coming out of the closet 
 if you want to see it that way. 
 So far, my opinion is absolutely positive. But there's a problem. Throughout all the story I thought of Rafe, the 
 main character, as a huge hypocrite 
 . Always complaining about how the "labels" that people put on others create a sort of wall, when he's the first one to use them. I guess liars and double-crossers are just not my type, so I couldn't feel almost any empathy towards him (and I usually cry even for the most stupid thing). 
 The " 
 history of Rafe" chapters 
 were an intelligent way of putting a flashback withouth making it seem like one, but at the same time there was this huge 
 atmosphere gap 
 between the first third of the book and the rest. I'm aware of the topic isn't one of the easiest, but starting the book with one hilarious scene after scene after the other and then suddenly having to witness depression, betrayals and abandons all together wasn't probably a great choice. 
 Someone needs also to explain me why in the end there's nothing, litterally nothing concerning Ben. I'm used not to have the happy ending I hope for (usually my favourite character dies, my ship never sails, there's death and despair everywhere), but at least knowing what happended to one of the main characters (the sweetest, hottest, and most intelligent one moreover) should have been written. 
 "Agape," I said. "I like that." 
 "Me too." 
 "So... we're not... aga-gay?" 
 He laughed. "I knoew you were thinking that. You know what Rafe? If I was ever gonna be aga-gay with anyone, it would be you." 
 Considering what I said so far it seems like a terrible book, but don't get me wrong! There are also some perks, the fault is mine because as usual I'm better at writing about the flaws (bad habit, I assure you). Some parts were really 
 hilarious 
 (Rafe's parents are two understood geniuses) or totally 
 adorable, 
 and some concepts were developed in a way I had never taken in consideration before. 
 Maybe it won't be one of the best books ever, but it remains a 
 nice, quick reading 
 that I would recommend so as to have a change of perspective towards some topics.