Rating: 3.5/5 
 ***Minor spoilers*** 
 Griffin doesn't know what to do. He thought the hardest thing to deal with would be that his ex-boyfriend and best friend has moved away and moved on. He thought the hardest thing would be seeing Theo happy with someone else. What he didn't expect was for Theo to die in a tragic accident, leaving so many things unsaid between them. They were supposed to be endgame, and Theo promised not to die. Now what? Griffin must now deal with the unspeakable pain that Theo's death left him with. At the same time, he begins speaking to Jackson, Theo's boyfriend, and learns that Jackson is the only one who really understands what he's going through. This novel follows Griffin's journey of coping with Theo's death, while also taking a look at the past to detail how the relationship between Griffin and Theo progressed. 
 Going into this book, I wasn't sure what to expect. I'd read another of Silvera's novels, More Happy Than Not, and didn't enjoy it all that much. Thankfully, though, I enjoyed this novel much more than I enjoyed his other work. To start off, this novel throws us right into Griffin's pain, meaning we start off at a much faster pace. We get to see Griffin's struggle and pain in the present, while every other chapter features scenes of Griffin and Theo from the past, which gives us reason for Griffin's pain. It also allows us to get a better look at Theo, and develop our own connection to him and allow us experience the pain with Griffin, rather than simply reading about his pain alone. 
 I really enjoyed how this novel explored emotion and coping mechanisms in a way that makes you feel for Griffin. I think the plot was moving at a good pace, though somewhere in the middle there was some stuff that was a bit weird. I will say that as the book went on, I started disliking Theo more than I did at the beginning, which made it a little less enjoyable when the characters were talking about how great Theo was. Theo had his flaws and he hurt people, though I suppose it's realistic to only reminisce about the best whichever loved one was lost. I didn't expect the ending, though I did find it fitting and satisfying. Everything tied together in a way that wrapped up the storylines but also left some room for imagination. 
 Overall, I enjoyed this book quite a lot, and I thought it was better than Silvera's other book that I've read, More Happy Than Not. It was quite emotional at times, and you can really sympathize with both Griffin and Jackson. I liked that it delved pretty deep into Griffin's mind, and you could easily form an emotional connection to him, since we're not only getting what's on the surface. I would really recommend this to anyone interested in an emotional, sort-of romance novel, and if you didn't like More Happy Than Not, I would give this book a shot anyway, because it is quite different.