(TW. this review talks about the subject matter of the book, which involved rape. Rape that was poorly handled. I may get crass, because that's what I do when I read a book where rape was poorly handled. The fucking bane of my existence is authors trying to tell empowering stories about rape survivors to empower girls who have never been raped and only girls who have never been raped.) 
 This New Adult Genre confuses me. 
 I understand you need a line between YA-Fade-To-Black sex scenes and sexy books written with the intended age the actual age of the main characters, but holy shit there is no fine line in the genre. I am confounded by this genre. I have no idea where we cross from YA to NA, from NA to straight up wish-fulfillment romance. The only thing I can say NA has in common is characters the ages of 18 to late twenties, internships, grad school, or college. 
 So as I read through this, anticipating smexy times, I found a very common YA staple; the "I got raped at some point in the past and I'm still antisocial and sad about it somehow its my parents fault" story. See, I thought we were going full Bared to You territory, a book considered by some (for God knows what reason) to be NA, where we need traumatic backstory to heal together by reclaiming sexual desire, but this...no. 
 Here's my problem: I hate stories about girls who are rape survivors that are saved by pushy guys. Pushy guys took advantage of them in the first place. I think shoving in a love interest who doesn't take "no" for an answer sends some mixed signals there. 
 To those uninitiated, read "Speak" or half of Sarah Dessen's books. 
 You can tell by the plot: girl is sullen and antisocial, literally lucks into a group of two casual friends, meets boy, rejects boy several times but I'll be darned if that charmer doesn't persist, girl falls for guy, shocking reveal of backstory, misunderstanding, characters hastily get back together for a Big Dumb Ending. I'll give Speak credit because there is no boy. Yay Speak! Speak did it first Speak did it better. 
 You know what a girl is missing when she's going through trauma over rape? More penis. 
 But only the penis of a saucy bad boy with a checkered past, some well-rounded, sexy, funny, smart, athletic, hot, supportive, caring, creative, and perfect enough to weasel his way into her panties. But not when she wants to, when he thinks she's ready. 
 And in a desperate attempt to preserve the main character's virginity, in a shocking twist we find out that her rape was up the ass. How....? Is that better.....? I feel like it's worse....? And incredibly painful....? But at least her virginity it still there....? Wasn't that thoughtful of him....? 
 Probably because the guy saw the value of price tag she was placing on her hymen and even he knew he couldn't sully that priceless virginity. YOUR FIRST TIME MIGHT AS WELL BE YOUR ONLY TIME YOU ONLY GET ONE OF THOSE GIRLS. 
 Yeah, I honestly took offense to that diversion. It was because the author wanted the lead character (I can't even remember her name, scary) to be a virgin but also a survivor of rape, and then she glosses over the whole thing during a conversation with the love interest, and I really wish we had a minute to watch his head explode. 
 Also there is a plot about someone stalking and harassing her, and she deletes all emails, calls, and nasty messages without reporting them. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU STUPID BITCH?! GET A NEW FUCKING PHONE!!! 
 Which honestly, I could forgive the clunky subplot if that was all that was wrong with it, and if the book delivered what it was advertised as. A sexy NA book. There is barely-there sex in the midst of all this rape and trauma and social anxiety. So fine. Advertise it as that kind of book. Cut back on the sexy dialogue. Maybe make the main character stop creaming herself every time the love interest is in the room. 
 Instead we have a jumble of emotions, a first love story, a recovery story, a NA hodge-podge of conflicting feelings and statements, it was just a mess. NA is a tough genre to define and I feel this is the penultimate NA book, and that's not a compliment. What the fuck is NA? What the fuck is this book?