I read the first chapter and wasn't really sure. I thought about giving the book a second chance but I really just need to trust my instincts on this, I think. 
 The writing style was interesting, I didn't mind it actually. But setting up your narrator as a smarmy, drug addict porn star isn't ever really going to jive with me. It just feels like you're trying too hard? Also, within the first 12 pages, two women have been killed off and another (a child! I might add) prostituted out for drugs. TWELVE PAGES. And all mentioned incredibly off-handedly. Pointless, save for the shock value. 
 I think it's a good thing if I just stop now. Especially because apparently this gets really homophobic and ableist later from what I've read.