I received an arc from the publisher via netgalley in exchange for an honest review 
 dnf @ 5% 
 I was very skeptical going into this book. It sounded interesting when I read its summery (especially since the note from the publisher was that it was a thriller that happened to have a m/m romance rather than just being a m/m romance) but after I requested it I realised it was by a straight woman who feels the need to talk about how much she loves boys kissing (hello fetishising) and how her books are inspired by Japanese culture ; that was the first red flag. 
 I wanted to give this book a fair chance, I really did but when the character Park tries to coerce Nao into letting him give him oral sex I knew that his book would fetishise gay men. Park wanted to give him oral sex as a way to 'pay off his debt' after Nao took him off the street when he was barely conscious. While Nao was attracted to Park (in a way that felt insta-lovey to the point he felt ~electricity when they touched~) it made me uncomfortable, especially when Nao eventually said he'd only let him do it to get rid of Park. 
 I really didn't want to dnf this since it is an arc but when I saw the not really that consensual oral sex coming (and really hoped it wouldn't) I told myself it'd be the last chance I'd give the book since there were other comments made that weren't appreciative. I would've rather them to build a relationship rather than jump into sex (especially since during Park's coercing he said 'pretend I'm a girl) because that feels like fetishise to me. This is why I'm usually skeptical of straight women writing about queer men; you usually get stuff like this. I have found ones I loved though which is why I continue to give them chances. This isn't there with the good ones, go read an own voices instead.