I LOVED YOU AT YOUR DARKEST 
 _________________Romans 5:8 
 Well, let me describe to you how exactly I understood the meaning of this book in simple words (I really cannot use complicated language). 
 So, let's suppose that you really really love your food. That you are constantly thinking what you will eat next and you are so happy when you have a satisfying meal. 
 And let's suppose that at some point in your life you believe that you have already eaten in your short span of your life enough doughnuts to last for 10 lifetimes. And you want to feel healthier and lose weight and not die like your uncle from diabetes and heart problems. Thus, you start dieting seriously i.e. only healthy meals, counting calories, lots of fiber, no red meat, no sugar, no saturated fat, no alcohol, only decaf coffee, lots of green tea and cojie berry and quinoa. 
 And then one day (a few years or a few months or a few weeks after you started your diet - depends how weak you are), you visit your best friend who does not really care about the food she eats. Or maybe she cares, but she is not crazy careful like you are these days. But she is really nice and she means good, so she does not eat unhealthy food in front of you. But you suddenly appear and she does not have time to hide the Tangy Cheese tortilla chips, which by the way it is your favorite snack and you have sworn that you will never eat again. 
 But then you think they are just made of corn. Corn is healthy. Tortilla chips cannot be that bad. So you lick one. And you smile. And then you chew it down. And you eat another one. You are happy. Your friend is happy, because she finally shares some food with you. So you eat with her the whole bag of tortilla chips and you laugh saying 'ok, it does not matter. It can happen. I will not eat any more tortilla chips ever again'. And then you leave her house driving back home and you see the chain fast-food restaurant that you used to visit frequently, but now of course you have stopped visiting because you believe in healthy food and you have forbidden yourself from red meat. 
 But then you are a bit hungry and you have already eaten the chips. So you think 'maybe I can get some french fries. Potatoes are vegetables. It will not really matter if I eat fried potatoes once'. So you stop and you buy fries. And a milkshake, because milkshake is made from milk. It has to be healthy. And a veggie burger. Because it is made of vegetables. Before you reach your home, you have already bought an ice-cream family size cheesecake flavor and you have decided to order Chinese. 
 Anyway, that night you end up in your bed sobbing and thinking how weak you are and promising yourself that from now on you will be the healthiest person alive! And you will tell all about it to your personal dietician. 
 BUT you are already thinking of the next day and all the fried chicken you can eat and the pancakes recipe you grandmother taught you. So you never say anything to anyone and you start gaining weight again and everyone is noticing but nobody is saying anything. 
 Until your photograph appears (which shows you entering your favorite fast-food restaurant) on the local newspaper with an article saying that you are their 10.000.000th customer who entered the restaurant and you can claim a big prize. And inevitably EVERYONE KNOWS. 
 So there is Tyler, 29 years old, extremely good-looking, very athletic, very clever, very spiritual, very open-minded who is also a catholic priest under oath. But he used to be exceedingly sexually active 3 years ago and he liked sex in a specific way - not very vanilla. And suddenly a temptation appears and she is so good looking, so intelligent and so sinful that Tyler is definitely doomed. 
 He licked first of course (just a taste), but then he bit down. And then he pig himself out with willing Poppy. He gorged in sex without thinking of the Oil of Chrism, the crucifix, the altar or St. Augustine. 
 While I was reading the book, I could honestly feel the second Tyler just let himself go, he thought "f@ck it' and he just dived in. 
 Guilt and joy for him. Lots of guilt, Because Tyler is really a good catholic boy who wants to save everyone and who thought that the redemption of the Catholic Church lays on his hands. The old priest has betrayed his only sister and now Tyler is on the mission to save the reputation of all the priests. Unfortunately this is not what God wanted from him. 
 I enjoyed the book. The whole book is based on the internal battle of Tyler to understand why he is doing what he is doing and maybe stop doing it or keep doing it but nobody finds out. 
 The sex scenes are very HOT and I think I have developed a priest kink after this book hahaha 
 Final remark: Two very interesting characters in this book who can have easily their own stories are: 
 a)	Sterling Haverford III who is a bad bad boy and he needs to "be punished". I have a soft spot to be honest for stalkers. 
 b)	Father Brady aka Jordan who is too much saint-like and he needs to feel a bit of temptation.