Actual rating: 1.5 stars 
 Half Lost managed to beat "Allegiant" (by Veronica Roth) for the "crappiest ending ever". That was nothing in comparison; at least in that book you could catch a message of courage, of hope and of mending hearts. 
 In Half Lost? Well, the messages seem to be: 
 -Life sucks big time and then you die 
 -The light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train that runs you over (and you die) 
 -It's okay to commit suicide and give up on life 
 Sorry to say, I'm basically disgusted with the message(s) underlying this book. I'm not okay with it! NOPE! SORRY! 
 I couldn't find any beauty in the ending, only ugliness, hopelessness and bleakness. 
 I read to find hope, to remind myself there is still some good in the world no matter what...if I wanted something so depressing, so bleak and unnecessarily violent I would have watched th e daily news. I'm not buying the "they are at war" BS. 
 The plot of the book felt weak, with the whole world building lacking depth and texture (Why there are white and black witches? Why Soul wants to kill all the black ones? Some explanation on his motivations would have been nice, same goes for Wallender) 
 The action was okay but it lacked strategy, most of the time it is just Nathan head on, killing everyone on his path. Something a bit less straightforward would have been a bit more interesting, if feels like some lame mindless shooting game. 
 Half lost-basically dripped with unnecessary deaths and violence, with many deaths not serving any real purpose (plot-wise) but there just to shock the readers (I do not approve of this crap) 
 Nathan is a psycho for half of the book, that just kills, swears and treat Gabriel baldy (Gabriel is such a sweet heart!). After half of said book we finally get to see the Nathan and Gabriel we loved in the first books. Too bad, it does not last. 
 In the book, we also have a narrative apex such as "we do stuff, nice stuff, love-making stuff" (Really? What finesse! I was expecting something a bit more "refined" and ...yeah, something better!) 
 (view spoiler)[ Now, let's talk about Gabriel death. Both Nathan and Gabriel deserved to be happy, especially after everything they went through. But nope, Gabriel dies. How? Killed by bullets ricocheting off Nat who was trying to shield him with his body. Because of the amulet the plan backfires, the bullets, bounce off and still kill Gabriel. Gabriel then dies in Nathan's arms. IT WAS SADISTIC AND AWFUL. 
 After this horrible thing we have Nathan that after 5 years, decides to kill himself and becomes a tree in order to be with his love (and in the process, leaving his child behind). This is how it is explained: 
 "I lie by Gabriel's grave at night, most of the day too, when I'm not hunting. And I wonder if trees are happy and I think about their roots going deep into the earth and all the elements of earth and life and I think perhaps trees are the happiest of us all and maybe I could be happy too if my roots could find their way to him and somehow his body would find its way into me and some life, some elements, something of him could be in me. And I think of the stake in the earth that went through my heart and Gabriel's hand and for those few moments that we were bound together all was perfect." 
 Are you frigging kidding me? 
 This (shit)ending also reminded me of the ending of "The Elfstones of Shannara" and a bunch of stories from the Greek mythology but at least in those cases, it served a purpose, it had sense! But here? What crap is this? Really? You must be kidding, Sally! 
 Last but not least, let's end this review with the most horrible ending lines I have ever read in 15 years and more: 
 "I go up there every day now, to read. I read aloud to him like I used to do, mostly poetry these days. I sit on the grass by the hazel tree that's in the meadow. It's different from the other trees and apart from them; it's not so old, not so tall, but horribly scarred" 
 Oh and the straight people went on living happily ever after (Yes, I'm straight but I still DON'T APPROVE!). 
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