** spoiler alert ** 
 OMFG WERE THE HELL DO I START WITH THIS BOOK 
 This book was an AMAZING read I LOVED it this was LITERALLY an emotional roller coaster for me and believe me when i say that I'm not an emotional person 
 It changed my perspective of life and opened my eyes to see what the meaning of life is what a family REALLY is this book was all sorts of messed up SPOILER: I STILL FREAKING HATE YOU JUDE FOR SENDING LEXI TO JAIL YOU SELFISH BITCH HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER ESPECIALLY CAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT SHE MEANS TO ZACH 
 If I could trust me I would make everybody that I know read this book but since I can't I will recommend this book to everyone I know and I can honestly say without a doubt that this is my FAVORITE book of ALL time I will NEVER forget this book I loved it so much it made me laugh but mostly it made me cry I cried for the loss of a loved one I cried for the loss of a child but most importantly I cried for the lack of life that this once perfect family had