Chase Summers seems to have a good life--a nice fiancee, an apartment, and a future career as an engineer. But he's haunted by his mother's suicide and deep, deep in the closet. When he takes the opportunity to be in gay porn--for money, sex, and the ability to just be his gay self for a while--he falls in love with a fellow actor. As his double life wears him down, the walls he's constructed to keep his psyche safe start to disintegrate as he hurtles toward the inevitable breakdown. If you like reading about complex, angsty head cases--and I do, yes, I do--you will probably like this book. Bonus, there is a real surprise very close to the end.