** spoiler alert ** 
 4.75/5 since the first time around I gave it a 4.5 and now that I understand it fully, I want to give a 5. 
 I really enjoyed this book the first time around, although it took a little effort in the beginning to get into it. 
 The second time around, I listened to it as an audiobook and I really enjoyed the narrator's voice. He read it at a good pace that I could take the time to understand the story still but it wasn't too slow. I absolutely adore this story now and each of the characters in their own way. I was able to notice all the little quotes that let me gain little insight into each character and it was... ugh MY LOVELIES. 
 But like BLUESEY. Like I can't even. I know he has to die... BUT STILL. And Adam and Ronan's interactions that I didn't take much notice of until really hearing them over again. And Noah, I love him so much, and his relationship with Blue. 
 Off to read the 2nd book for real this time.