One of the most immersive reading experiences I've ever had. Bea's head space is raw, frustrating, layered, overwhelming; every time I took a break from reading I felt bad knowing that Bea couldn't just step out and go do something else. Really powerful story and incredible writing--I'll be picking up Haydu's other YAs ASAP and would happily recommend her to fans of gripping, gorgeously written contemporary YA, especially that addresses mental illness honestly and respectfully. The missing fifth star for me is Bea's mom, who was mentioned a few times in ways that made me wish she was more of a presence in the story. I especially felt her absence given the great use of so many other complex, fully realized secondary characters.