This is going to get personal. If you're looking for a review, this is NOT it ...because I just can't handle this book right now. 
 It's rare to see genderqueer in print. This find was beyond exciting. 
 But reading made me dysphoric. 
 I debated writing this up because I'm sure the author had good intentions ...but I can't handle the transphobia. I don't need to hear the opinions of people who don't understand. I don't need to watch as they learn. 
 So I read some reviews to see if I'm just a bit sensitive at the moment. Maybe it's worth sticking out? 
 ...This was a huge mistake. 
 What's being said is a stab to the gut; the major criticism is to the use of the genderqueer label since -in the book- it's deemed a transitional period for transgender people. This is definitely not the case for the majority. ...But it is for me. And now... now I no longer feel like I can claim this title. It's been a coping mechanism for me. It's an attempt to be okay with the things I'm too terrified to change. 
 I need to be honest with myself. I'm not genderqueer. I'm a closeted transman. Nothing else. 
 I'm not welcome to borrow this umbrella term.