' 4.5 stars' 
 "That's when I realized that certain moments go on forever. Even after they're over they still go on, even after you're dead and buried, those moments are lasting still, backward and forward, on into infinity. They are everything and everywhere all at once. 
 They are the meaning." 
 Just take a moment to let that sink in well, flip it over and over in your mind, because that's what I did the first time I laid eyes on it. For me it pretty much points out a very important aspect in this book. 
 Now, what can I say about this book? Let me ask you something. Have you ever felt so engrossed in a book to the point where you just want to carry it around with you wherever you go, even after finishing it? Have you ever read a book that just aimed straight for your heart and captured it? Before I Fall is definitely one of those unique books.I'm telling you, this piece of art has captivated me. It put me through a roller coaster of emotions; hatred, love, pain, grief, loss, happiness, sympathy, anger, and hope. Most importantly hope. 
 Samantha Kingston is your oh so popular mean high schooler. She's got it all, the looks, a hot boyfriend, popularity, and great friends. At the beginning of the book and throughout some parts of it, she seems quite-no really mean like mean mean, is kind of shallow and egoistic. But thankfully that doesn't last, or else I wouldn't have been able to finish reading the book. After a horrible breakdown, Samantha starts shaping up to a really nice person, who tries to atone for her previous bitchy and cruel acts. As the story unfolds the characters get more complex and deep, revealing some serious shit and secrets. Throughout all of that Samantha keeps on grasping on hope, for even the dead need hope to survive. 
 But the great devastation for me was the ending, it tore my hear out and stomped it thousands of times reminding me that I shouldn't hope much when reading a YA centered about a girl who lives the last day of her life seven times. Oliver kept on feeding hope to Samantha, keeping her aware that in some complex way, our actions, though they might seem small, they have a massive effect on others, so we shouldn't give up, but we should try harder inorder to work things out. Where has all that bullshit about hope gone Oliver? Huh? Tell me! Why the hell would you just crush me like that, getting me to expect a better ending, when all along you where just toying with my feelings?! Did you think what would happen to her friends and family? What would Lindsay, Elody, and Ally do after they find out? How much her little sister Izzy will be crushed? And what about poor adorable Kent?! He's been waiting 7 YEARS for her, to be her hero! I just had to get out all of that, because it was just eating me on the inside. I was left weeping like a little child who's favorite doll got broken, I pulled the book close to my heart and just stared helplessly at the void, hoping that somehow that wasn't how really this amazing and gripping book ended. 
 The ending is my only complain, it made me give this book a 4.5 rating, for if it was different than this I would have given it 5 splendid stars, because it deserves it completely. Before I Fall is one book I'm gonna remember for a long while now, it has a special place in my heart for it has ceased it at first sight.