"My heart isn't simple or straightforward. It's a complicated mess of wants and needs, boys and girls: soft, rough and everything in between, an ever-shifting precipice from which to fall. And as it beats, it's still her name that thrums through me." 
 Ok, wow, I totally did not expect to fall so completely in love with this book. The premise is seriously intriguing - a recovering teen drug addict on a mission to solve her best friends murder - and perfect for fans of 'Veronica Mars' or readers new to the whodunit crime fiction genre. But to be honest, there is just so much more to this story than a simple murder mystery, so much unexpected emotion and soul and beauty written into these pages that my heart is still hurting even though it's been days since I finished reading. It was just so damn amazing. And honestly, so very needed. This book really does so very much in terms of positive diverse representation and tackles sensitive concepts with astounding nuance and authenticity. 
 I think the biggest surprise for me came from the fact that, whilst the crime and mystery elements were intriguing and generally well-written if not especially revolutionary, this was really a book about people and relationships and friendship. And honestly, these characters completely and utterly steal the show. This is a deeply human book, filled with beautifully nuanced individuals, people who are flawed and real and painfully honest, people who love and live and are messy and imperfect and complex. I can't remember the last time I fell so completely in love with the characters in a story. The non-linear narrative is used to powerful effect, exploring the many significant and tragic and beautiful and heartbreaking moments that shape each character, their story and their relationships in a way that was so genuine and emotional and intense. I adored Sophie and Mina, their relationship was beautifully drawn and incredibly genuine. Yes, there is an immeasurable amount of loss and pain and tragedy woven into this story, but there is also so much love and humour and friendship and tenderness. I honestly couldn't ask for more heartfelt or touching bisexual and lesbian representation and I'm fairly certain this story is going to be one that will stay with me for a very long time. 
 Highly recommend, especially for readers in search of a story that thoughtfully and realistically portrays chronic pain/disability, drug addiction and trauma. There are so many poignant and powerful passages and so many beautiful, deeply touching moments that make this well worth the read. 
 TW: murder, trauma.