seriously someone should give miss hawkins some millionaire fine or a very serious lecture about how not to play with reader's feeling writing this kind of endings/cliffhangers. 
 i cannot process my thoughts right now. the only thing i can say is that the book is not as fun as the first one, but it reminds me of hex hall 2 because of its intensity (and of course the effing cliffhanger)... 
 i need to calm down.