Let me get this straight. I am having a massive internal havoc right now and I can't..Oh gosh..I CAN'T BELIEVE (YES! AGAIN!!) HOW IT FECKING ENDED LIKE THAT?! Shucks! And I cried! YES I cried because I knew, I knew damn well from my very gut instinct who was the monster. Because right at that moment, I was feeling Mac. I was her. (Okay. Call me delusional but that's what I really felt!) I was inside her, feeling her disbelief, shock and utmost pain. That scene maybe painstakingly brief but the way the words describing Mac's emotions betrayed to me, like a great big punch in my gut/heart like an instant TOTAL BIG BANG of his face slammed on my head! And don't get me wrong because there was in no way I'd read any, even tiny spoiler of Shadowfever. I just knew who. I couldn't be wrong with that. Hence, I CRIED SO MUCH!! A total fecking bummer at that! And how couldn't I not forget how gravely this book consumed a great percentage of my sexual discretion? Or more like opened up my defensive sexual limits of understanding to the impending worst of scenarios that I had been rattling out in the previous book! And you know what had taken me aback? I expected to react like a very experienced reader to feel impassive of the whole predicament Mac had gotten into. Yet it was like I was a fresh highschooler who felt so sexually disturbed! Yeah well, I think it was just normal to feel so but well, I just couldn't believe that our heroine had to go through those FECKING GANG-SHITS! But with Barrons, well...it turned out to be a completely different feeling coz that's how much I love him. When he's around, my mood perked up exhilaratingly! Okay. Back to the way I was supposed to feel - AGONIZED. Yes, the ending made me SO AGONIZED that I mentally screamed along Mac. Fecks! Shadowfever must make this up to me or else! Sigh. To not make any of my agony prolonged, I should be off to read the last installment like very sooner!