This book is one of the best books I've ever read and as such this review took me forever to write cuz I wasn't sure how to put into words how amazing this book is. Hopefully I do it justice. 
 I feel like the main premise of this 1st book in the series is to get the readers to understand how Wayne's mind works, his relationship with the twins, his past relationship with Kyle, his uncontrollable attraction to Kyle now and the turmoil that comes along with it. When the book ended I was left with multiple things I wanted to know more about, but that's what makes me crave for the next book. 
 I felt like the amount of information that the author decided to give throughout the book as well as the speed/timeline of the book was truly perfect. I never felt confused by lack of or excess of information and I never felt like the plot was too slow or too fast paced. Which is very rare for me. 
 It was extremely easy for me to relate to the MC and become attached to him. I loved how Wayne couldn't just turn off his anxiety/feelings cuz in so many books the mc will be worrying/upset about something and he just decides to not worry/be upset and it works, but that's so unrealistic in my opinion. 
 I was pleasantly surprised by how relatable/realistic multiple other characters in this book were (such as Kyle and Travis). 
 I'm a huge fan of smut so usually I hate when books have lil to no smut, but I feel like a sex scene in this book would've taken away from the actual story, which is a first for me. Though the kiss scenes in this book (mainly one in particular) were hotter than most sex scenes I've read. As such I have high hopes for future sex scenes in this series because if Carmen-Shea is capable of making a kiss scene that hot then what would a sex scene written by her be like. 
 I read this book for multiple reasons, but the main thing that drove me to reading it was how it was shelved as dealing with self harm as well as a suicide attempt. It definitely dealt with self harm (though the type of self harm took me by surprise), but there wasn't a suicide attempt in this book so I'm not sure why it was shelved as that. (view spoiler)[ Other characters thought the deep cut on Wayne's wrist was a suicide attempt, but it wasn't. Wayne was just trying to destroy his drawings using an extremely sharp object and wasn't paying attention to what he was doing. (hide spoiler)] 
 Despite this book containing self harm, the self harm wasn't as extreme as I think most readers would expect and as such I think even people that don't usually like books dealing with self harm might enjoy this book. 
 There's so many things that annoy me in books and despite really liking a book and giving it 5 stars it'll usually still have multiple things that annoy me in it. But in this book it was hard to find things that annoyed me. 
 The only thing I could think of that annoyed me was the slang and how at the beginning I had to keep jumping to back of the book to look up words. Though once I was about a fourth done with the book I had a better understanding of the slang and rarely had to look up words. I think if the glossary was at the front of the book instead of the back it would've been better cuz then I would've scanned it before i started reading which would've been a huge help. 
 I almost always pay attention to where I'm at in a book. It's usually cuz I want the book to be over soon. I'll feel this way with books I dislike as well as books I really like. Though for this book every time I checked how much I had read I was worried it was gonna end too soon even when i still had over 75% of the book left. When the book did end it took me by surprise and I was upset that the book had to end at all. 
 This book will forever be one of my favorites and I can't wait for future books in this series as well any other books Carmen-Shea writes. :)