** spoiler alert ** 
 After getting caught in a car driven by his drunk friend Chase is forced to move to live with his grandparents. His mother says it's the change they need after their fathers death but Chase doesn't know how to leave the drugs and alcohol he depends upon. At school he meets Nikki, a cheerleader who refuses to show any interest in him, even though he's expected to become the star of the football team. Chase is determined toshow her that he is more than his reputation. 
 This book was...so many things. At first I thought it would be a standard teen romance, yes both characters had suffered extreme losses but I figured they'd get through it together. The last few chapters made me feel like I'd been punched. It was not the ending I'd expected. It was not perfect and sweet, it wasn't two people going to college together. It wasn't a messy breakup. It was so sad and real, I can't explain. Just read it, if you've ever hurt for anyone read it. I gave it 4 stars because even though I really, really liked this book I am not a fan of the whole Chase and Brittney storyline. He pretty much flirts with her throughout the book, even though he's with Nikki and that made me feel awkward. Also, although this is Chase's story about growth and moving on rather than a romance I wish it hadn't been with Brittney. 
 Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying after someone dies you should never date again, it's more that he flirts with Brittney while he's with Nikki and then gets with her afterwards. That's what I have the issue with. I did read the next book though and you can find my review there.