Thank you, for keeping yourself alive soldier. 
 This book tore me apart and fed me to sharks for about 100 times. I mean I knew that I was going to expect a lot of heavy information because of how The Bronze Horseman ended., but god, it was all too much in one page. This is the most beautiful piece of literature that I have read. Hands freaking down! 
 Okay, so it literally picked up from the last page of The Bronze Horseman, we have Alexander sentenced to prison and that is also why he sent Tatiana away with Dr. Seyers to escape to America. But Tatiana obviously did not know that. 
 What got me super interested in this book was the fact that it talked about Alexander's past. I liked how I got to see Alexander pre-soviet union, when he was still in Barrington. I liked how I got to read about his own thoughts moving away from America. His own struggles with his family, how he did not like moving to the Soviet Union at all. 
 I don't want to forget this boy, he thought, in case I ever need to come back to him. 
 From that line alone, I knew that there was something deeper to his character, he's not just your tough-military guy, I was going to see the real Alexander Barrington. 
 So the time interval of the book was literally years. And that kind of intimidated me somehow because they weren't together for 3 mother-freaking years. You guys, a lot can happen in a week okay? Let alone 3 damn years. The story took me to Tatiana in America and Alexander's prison-almost execution-military mission-prison again kind of life. 
 If I were to be honest, I got really scared because people in the States were pushing Tatiana to forget about Alexander and a part of me wondered if she ever would. By the way, their son is so freaking cute I'm crying so hard. (MILITARY ROMANCE YOU GUYS) And I really didn't want that to happen cause at the same time, I was reading about how Alexander was trying his best to find his way back to her. /CUE TEARS/ But then it was also hard because Alexander kept wishing Tatiana did forget about him, that she moved on. So I was literally back and forth with these two that I myself just wanted to scream because hope was slowly dying for the both of them. AND ME AS WELL. Thanks, Paullina. 
 (view spoiler)[ Holy fuck when I was at the part Alexander found out that Pasha was freaking alive. I lost it. PLOT FREAKING TWIST. I never expected it because duh, all of Tatiana's family died back in Leningrad. I immediately thought of so many possibilities like a Tatiana and Pasha reunion. Pasha being alive sparked my hope up again because it would meant that this time, Alexander really will find his way back to her and bring her Pasha. But then... he fucking died. Like I was saying, the time interval was through years, so the next page can have a complete different story. When Pasha died, I was back to square 1 because Alexander surrendered himself and that freaking killed me. (hide spoiler)] 
 I already mentioned it before in my review of The Bronze Horseman and I'll mention it again... Tatiana is the most strongest female character out there. I don't care if people call her selfish or some shit. What she's been through, oh my god, this woman is a saint. From leaving Helsinki all the way to trying to survive in America with Anthony, the loneliness of bringing up your husband's kid without him. Tatiana's unanswered questions for 3 years. Tatiana going all the way to Europe just to rescue Alexander. My god. I applaud her so much. AND THAT IS WHAT YOU CALL LOVE. OK. 
 I'm trying to figure out if I should be happy or anxious with the ending. 
 (view spoiler)[ They finally made it to the American embassy and it's kind of going okay. Alexander even said "We are going home" but before that he said he only wanted to say something comforting to Tatiana. SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN. OMG. PLS. I can't. (hide spoiler)] 
 I guess I'm a mix of both emotions.