4.5 starzzzzzz 
 I loved this book sm. I loved Julian so much. ;/ He is just such a great kid and I cant. This book was such a refreshing YA read and for once friendship and platonic love was the center of attention. I just binged watched 4 seasons of The Fosters and this book related to so much from the show. Its safe to say I have never read anything like this and it will always be in my memory. Its just so hard to put emotions into words and I know this review is a mess but its just so difficult. My heart broke for Julian so many times. I didnt cry though. Maybe it was shock or I was prepared. Reading abt it made me want to murder Russel. For J i was like 
 All in all I loved it and look forward to reading more realistic fiction like this.