UGH why am I feeling so guilty for loving this book !! 
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 There are no laws, no boundaries on feelings. We can love each other as much and as deeply as we want. No one, Maya, no one can ever take that away from us 
 Dear author, the person has pulled and ripped my heart to pieces. 
 I HATE YOU . I hate you for making me love this book !! 
 This was not a book for everyone, the issue the author tackle to could trigger a lot of people but I was glad that I had picked up this book. After reading this book I was devastated like I was in an emotional train wreck. It was so sad it hurt me deeply. This book has broken my heart. 
 Can we put the incest stuff aside for a moment and talk about these incredible characters I have had a chance to encounter. 
 Reading about Lorchan I thought I was seeing an old classmate of mine from highschool. My classmate, like Lorchan didn't talk to anyone in class if it wasn't necessary. He didn't have any friend for the last 3 years of high school, and he didn't even attempt to start or have a conversation with anyone, my teachers tried to make him participate in class activities but he just didn't interested in any of class activity. One of my friend said that he talked and played with his brother and sister at home but in school he barely talk. There were days (well most of the days) he didn't even speak!! Now I can feel like I know him better through Lorchan, how he had to struggle to survive a day at school. I, myself feel related to Lorchan, I never have the confident when it comes to presentation or the fact that I'm never the one to start a conversation with a stranger. Lorchan was a well-built character. I really love his narrator, his inner turmoil, and his struggles with everything in life. I couldn't understand how he can survive all that (he had to be the man of the family, to take of his younger brothers and sister, whom he referred as "my children", he had to take the father role after his dad was gone and his mom barely got herself sober, his struggle at school, couldn't make eye contact or talk to anyone without feeling panic.) but sadly I knew how he could survive all of this madness, it was because of his sister Maya. 
 It feels like people are burning me with their stares. Like there's no air left in my body. I get the stupid shakes, my heart pounds, and the words just - they just disappear. My mind goes completely blank and I can't even make out the writing on the page. I can't speak loud enough for people to hear me, and I know that everyone's just waiting - waiting for me to fall apart so they can laugh. They all know - they all know I can't do it. 
 Maya was only 13 months younger than Lorchan. Lorchan treated her as his equal not his younger sister. And like Lorchan she was force to grow up, to left her childhood behind so she could focus on her little brother and sister. Her character is although not as complex as Lorchan but it somehow really real, she has known that she love her brother more than a brother-sister kind of way. She can see through her family character, like why her brother Kit always angry with Lorchan, or she could see through Lorcan's inner turmoil. 
 We're the grown-ups. We've always shared the responsibilities. You don't have to start trying to shield me from reality now. 
 So let get this straight, this book was not saying that incest was an okay thing. Because our main characters can actually acknowledge that the thing they did was somehow wrong, that it was illegal. But the thing is you just can't control your own feeling, the feeling you have for someone come in in an unexpected way, so don't tell me this love is wrong. Love or any love can never be wrong, we just somehow can't understand that love. We all know that incest is wrong (you know ancient Egypt), it is wrong because one part our culture says that the other part is that because incest might affect on the biological gene of the child and stuff like that. It is just sad that two of them were just best friends in love with each other but happened to be brother and sister. All through the book I just hope that they wouldn't have sex, but they did it anyway and consequence came after that. 
 My god what an ending it just happened to stab me at the center of my heart that all!!! I cried so hard it hurt. (view spoiler)[ When Maya attempted to kill herself that was heart broken but Wila has reminded her and asked her what would Lorcan have wanted Maya do and she knew the question that he sacrifice himself to let her live a normal life, so she had to live for him. THAT WAS GOLD!! (hide spoiler)] 
 PS: I haven't read a good contemporary book for a while now so thank you !!