Be right back, crying. *Spoiler-ish review, I made a big warning at the bottom where I start to spoil the ending so watch out for that* 
 Trigger/Content Warnings: Publicly outed, rape, physical abuse, attempted rape, homophobic/transphobic jokes/words, self harm and suicide attempt (via drugs) 
 I have spent hours thinking about what I could possibly say to give this book what it deserves. It was amazing, it was beautiful, I cried, I smiled. I loved it. But this isn't enough. 
 The story follows a young trans girl, Amanda. She wants to have a new start, living with her father, after an incident happened at the mall. I could really relate with how Amanda felt; how worried she was, how she'd try to keep her head down, keep her secret to herself, and most importantly, just wanting to be herself. I know it can be really hard sometimes and sometimes your spirits are lowered, but you can't lose hope. 
 Arriving at her father's place, it's obvious he has problems with it. Not necessarily in the way you think. He just wants to protect her and while that's understandable, he doesn't do it in the best of ways at first. 
 "You're my child." 
 "I'm your daughter," I whispered. 
 (Pg 27) 
 Ah, this certainly struck a chord with me. My mother honestly does the same. It's the "I'm not quite ready to say the correct one but I'm not going to use the wrong one either" time. While he loves her and wants her to be safe and happy, he doesn't know how to show it, he's not quite ready to let go of his son and hold onto his daughter. 
 "It means I'm crazy, I guess, because it doesn't make sense." 
 "What doesn't make sense, Andrew?" 
 "My birth certificate says I'm a boy." 
 (Pg 29) 
 Personally, I never made this connection when I was this young. It's possible at any age to realize you're trans or feel certain things, like discomfort with your body or with certain pronouns or views. Any age, no matter what, you could figure it out when you're four, fifteen, twenty, thirty, forty, or even older, you're still valid. Amanda just happened to always feel feminine, always feel happier and more comfortable being a girl and presenting herself femininely. Her experience is valid and would mirror many other trans girls experiences but not all of them. Just as the author has said at the very end, she hopes people don't read this and take it as the one and only trans story that happens to every trans person because it's just not true, or even possible. (Seriously read the very end, where she says "To my cisgender readers and To my trans readers, it will help). 
 While Amanda seemed very stereotypically girly and feminine, it made sense to be, I guess I could say. Many trans people feel the need or want to pass as the gender they identify with and for others to view them that way. I, for one, always try to present masculinely even though sometimes I want to wear something feminine- The problem with society is that trans people sometimes have to cling to stereotypes of their gender in order to have their gender respected or understood and that's not right. No matter how a person dresses or acts or looks, their gender, pronouns and name should always be respected. 
 I believe this is an incredibly relevant and powerful book, and it's allowed me to talk about a lot of issues and explain why a lot of the stereotypes were probably put into this story. 
 Now onto two last points of why I loved this story and a small note at the end. 
 Firstly, I'm glad this wasn't based solely on her coming out and her being trans. It was more about finding self love, self acceptance and in turn believing you deserve love. While her being trans was brought up more than once, and her past is used to show how she came from there to here, it wasn't the main focus. 
 When her gender identity was brought up the first time, when she first confided in someone, I was really surprised, happily surprised, by the conversation they had. 
 "I've seen... what's the word? Transgendered?" 
 " 'Trans people' is best," I said. 
 (Pg 168) 
 I seriously went 'oh yes, thank you', when I read this bit. I have seen so many people use the word "transgendered" and I've just gone 'why?'. It's not a word, it's not grammatically correct and I don't understand why people love to use it. It's like saying the words, 'gayed' or 'intersexed' or 'lesbianed'. They aren't words, they aren't correct. Please, if you read this and you use the word "transgendered", please stop using it. You know why. 
 "So what's okay for me to ask?" 
 "Don't ask about my genitals," I said... ... "Don't ask about surgeries. Don't ask about what my name used to be. That's pretty much it." 
 (Pg169) 
 And this. I was glad this was mentioned. I'm going to be honest here- Nearly every single trans person will not answer those three types of questions. "So what do you have down there?" Not an appropriate question, not many people like talking about their genitals to anyone- The only people who need to know about your genitals are you, a doctor and a sexual partner (because obviously having sex, you'll be seeing each other's parts). "So have you had the surgery yet?" That's very personal and none of your business, I'm not being rude but whether or not a person has had a surgery or not, is not your business at all and is between them and their doctor. "What was your name?" No one on earth needs to know this name, you don't use that name anymore and it doesn't need to be said nor used. 
 My last reason is this; 
 You deserve to love yourself, to be yourself and to be happy. You deserve to experience love and to have friends and family that are there for you. 
 SPOILER FOR THE ENDING: 
 "For as long as I could remember, I had been apologizing for existing, for trying to be who I was, to live the life I was meant to lead... I wasn't sorry I existed anymore. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now - I believed, now - that I deserved to be loved." 
 This is what I leave you with. The final few lines that made me smile and cry at the same time. Every trans person deserves this sort of ending- 
 While I do feel it was too "happy ending-ish", I loved it, it made me happier to be me. We need more happy stories in our life, stories like these. 
 I understand that it's not a very... "realistic" story when there's news stories all around about how trans people are being hurt or bullied or worse- but we need to stand up and we need to believe in ourselves and each other, and others need to stand beside us and say "we deserve to live". 
 Trans is beautiful, trans is amazing, and all my trans siblings and myself deserve to live our lives in happiness. 
 As a final note, you can really tell the difference between when a cis author writes a trans character and when a trans person writes a trans character- 
 If you wonder why I say this- Just read my review of "Luna". 
 I have so many questions for the ending- seriously, it left me wondering. 
 SPOILER!!!!!! 
 Like what happened to Bee? Especially once she became sober and realized what she did? 
 What about Parker? Did he go to jail? Did he bother showing his face again? 
 And for heaven's sake, did Grant stay with her???