Synopsis 
 Morgan can't step beyond the doorway of the apartment she shares with her mother and little brother. Beyond the door is life and the beach and the friends she had before, but she can't move. She only meant to do something right. There are so many things she can't forgive and even more that she can't forget. Unable to go to school, Morgan spends her days sequestered in the apartment taking online high school courses and remembering the details of the day when everything changed. She's particular about where she sits. She likes things to be to the left of her, but when new neighbors move in she's curious and moves to hear the voices. Then there's a knock at the door and there's boy standing beyond it, one of her new neighbors who reminds her of salty ocean air and the feeling of strength she felt while swimming. The world is behind him and beyond the door. It's terrifying, but parts of it call out to her. 
 Thoughts 
 I didn't know what to expect when this book showed up on my desk. I actually put off reading it, which is probably a good thing because I got to devour it in the safety of my own home. This review is going to be much more personal than my usual attempts to sound like a cool and collected librarian who knows what she's doing in life. Sometimes a book or a song or a quote comes into your life at the exact moment you need it, even though you didn't know it. This book was that to me. My relationship with anxiety is much, much different from the narrator's. Morgan suffers from PTSD after a traumatic event; I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder. But Morgan's voice moved me beyond words. Her voice is so genuine, while also having a lyrical and almost poetic feel to it. While Evan is a bit too perfect, he reminds me of my husband (who at one time was a teenage boy helping teenage me through panic attacks of my own), but the cute next door neighbor is only one part to this story. There are layers upon layers in this book. There are different forms of grief and different ways of coping. It is messy and it is beautiful and it hurts, but it also gives hope and humor to a difficult topic. 
 Thank you to Farrar Straus Giroux for sending me this ARC to review. 
 Thanks to Marisa Reichardt for making me cry and for writing this powerful debut. 
 Publication Date: January 12, 2016