Conflicted Frustrated
How was the bond?
3 &#8220;Riptide&#8221; &#8220;Mine.&#8221; &#8220;Racer&#8220; KissesI am torn. Conflicted. Frustrated. I don't know what to do. Well...I know what I have to do but that doesn't mean that I am going to like doing it. When you know the capabilities of an author...a character...a story line...and when you love it so passionately, anything less than amazing is not good enough. That's what I'm faced with here. I feel like Real set the bar of what I was expecting for the whole series&#8230;and Mine did not measure up in my book. Stone me now&#8230;curse me if you will, believe me, the words that I have to say are not fun for me to admit&#8230;but I can&#8217;t lie about how I feel.Brooke Dumas...did I love everything about Brooke in Real - not exactly but I got over it because for some reason, on some level I connected with her and felt for her. So all the annoying stuff kind of...didn&#8217;t matter. I know it doesn't make a lot of sense but it works in my crazy brain. Well in the beginning of Mine, Brooke drove me about 10 shades of crazy with some of her antics and logic. If you are going to make decisions and then get mad at the results of those decisions...it's time for you to grow up! She was being completely irrational and utterly annoying at times. Drove me bonkers! Because that's not the Brooke I loved in Real. Then, it was like a heavenly light opened up and finally I got my Brooke back. She was strong, not only for herself but for Remy, I loved the way she handled him and their relationship and just&#8230;everything. I was proud of her and how far they had come together.&#8216;I&#8217;ve been broken and put together again.I&#8217;ve been loved, and I have loved.I&#8217;m in love, and I will be forever changed by this man. I used to dream of medals and championships, but now I dream solely of a blue-eyes fighter who one day changed my life, when he put his lips on mine&#8230;&#8217;Remy...Remington Tate deserves a million stars. Ten million. Alright infinity stars - there...it's settled. He is not perfect...he has flaws...he has issues and he is no where near infallible...but the man is so freakin&#8217; in love with Brooke it makes my heart soar. Remy is like no other book bf&#8230;he defies categories and logic because even his wrongs add up to so much right. The #1 thing that has me excited about Remy is the prospect of being in his head. He's just...*sigh*...there are no words. Well...there are actually lots of words....like loving, strong, protective, kind, sexy, alpha, dominating, endearing...he's just so complex and the more I get to know about him the more I crave him. There are so many layers to this chess playing, @#$ kicking, Brooke loving lion. He's like a drug and I totally want to be on a Remy high...forever.&#8216;And I want him like my next breath.I want him more than any one of these screaming women wants im.I want every fragmented part of him. I want his body. His mind. His heart. His beautiful soul.He says he&#8217;s mine, but I know that there&#8217;s a part of Remington Tate nobody will ever have.I am his, but he is untamable and unconquerable.The only one who can defeat Remington Tate is himself.&#8217;The thing that kept this book from being another 5++++ book was the repetitiveness. It was out of control...enough to the point where I was rolling my eyes. A lot. I loathe repetitiveness...I've stopped reading books because of it. What do I mean by repetitiveness? A few examples...talking about &#8216;his hair&#8217;, &#8216;his abs&#8217;, &#8216;his eyes&#8217; &#8211; I get it&#8230;the dude&#8217;s gorgeous, I&#8217;m aware. I love his looks&#8230;but I don't need to be reminded of them all the time, and it was constant. If that was all the repetitiveness then maybe I could have handled it better, but it was also using the same words, over and over, to describe the same things. I didn't understand the point and unfortunately, I needed more than that. They have this great and amazing love and connection &#8211; build off of that. Expand! They&#8217;ve not been in a relationship for that long, I wanna see all of those moments! So what kept me going? One word. Remy. Plain and simple. That's it - his character completely carried this book and made it worth reading for me. Because any other time I would have stopped reading before I reached 50%. I hate saying that. I hate thinking that. It just...sucks.&#8216;My lungs ache for breath and the rest of me aches for his hands on me. And when my gaze flicks upward to find those blue eyes pinned on mine, his face hurt and sweaty, all the testosterone in the world courses through him, pulling and enveloping me, so I can barely take living right now I want him so much . He makes me feel this all-consuming, soul -searing, heart-wrenching, painful need for him that&#8217;s more than physical, more than emotional.&#8217;I was warned about the repetitiveness too...so I was prepared to possibly hate it and maybe that softened the blow a little bit because while it grated on my nerves, I was able to shrug it off and push forward. If I am being honest, I probably would have DNF&#8217;d it had I not been prepared. That makes me want to cry. But despite the annoyance, I was glad I did read it because there were fleeting glimpses of the amazingness that was in Real. Like the amazing quote worthiness...I did swoon and love all my special little Remy moments...he and Brooke still blew me away with their love and devotion to each other. But then that only makes me wonder if the repetitiveness hadn't been so bad...what could this book have been? It's a sad thought to ponder...&#8216;His words caress me.Nobody ever taught him how to love.He does it instinctively.&#8217;I can't lie...this book did evoke emotions out of me, even though the half of the time the emotions were usually out of frustration, that wasn&#8217;t all I felt&#8230; I already admitted I swooned, but I cried, I gasped, it got to my little feelers...so I did have love for this book and that does mean something to me. I am an emotional reader and if an author can still pull emotion out of me even when I'm at my wits end with frustration...that's saying a lot IMO. I did not see a lot of this plot coming, which is another positive thing. I don't know what I was expecting but the story line was definitely unpredictable and I appreciated that it kept me on my toes. And seriously&#8230;the prologue&#8230;L.O.V.E.D. every word.&#8220;Remy . . .&#8221;&#8220;This is the last time I live without you. I&#8217;m half mad already and halfway into the f^@$ing grave. I don&#8217;t like this. Every single monster in my head tells me you&#8217;ll run and I won&#8217;t be close enough to catch you. Every instinct in me screams at me to go get you. Every bone in my body tells me you are MINE&#8212;not a part of me, but my brain understands why the hell I sent you away from me. The rest of me can&#8217;t take it. You can&#8217;t convince the rest of me being away from you is right.&#8221;&#8220;Remington Tate, I swear to you&#8212; I swear&#8212; that when I&#8217;m able to get up from this stupid bed and run again, you&#8217;re always, always, going to be the one thing I&#8217;ll run straight to.&#8221;I will always have a deep love for Remy and Brooke and their story...but I am nervous about what to expect from Remy because I am hearing similar things to what I heard with Mine. So once again...I will prepare myself but keep the hope alive that even though I may not like everything, that my love for the characters will save me from too much disappointment. :-\ 