I 'm miserable because I am alone , unloved , and there is nothing I can do about it .My heart is skipping beats for no apparent reasons .I 'm in pain because my hearting is n't beating the way it 's suppose to .My heart is in physical pain and it 's hurting me .
Why am I feeling the way I 'm feeling ?
I hate waking up with the feeling , you know the one that makes you wanna cry , the feeling inside your chest that presses down not letting you breathe , the feeling of being alone even when surrounded by people , the same feeling that eats your heart with every beat , that feeling which has stayed with me it chokes me at times and makes me feel so insecure . I do n't want to blame anyone but my self and at the same time I want to blame every and anyone who 's ever got close to me . Why ca n't I brush things off like I used to ?