The narrator is experiencing a dark period of their life .The narrator is experiencing happiness on a level they never previously felt before .The narrator is experiencing a so - so point in their life .None of the above choices .
Why would this person be craving unhappy events in their life .
finding myself in the oddest of situations has led me tocrave self - destruction and self - inflicted problems . only knowing myself when i am down has turned me intoa miserable prick who craves disaster . i truly am myown worst critic , and i am aware of the damage i am imposing on those around me . i am not aware of whyi refuse to change , i am fully conscious my intake hascaused me to become anything but immune to illness , i have no doubt that i search for pain wherever i go .