The narrator will explode on the subject .The narrator will grieve .The narrator will yell at the subject .The narrator will ignore the subject .
What will the narrator do related to the subject ?
He was a part of me in a way I would never know while living . And here , in the distorted heaven projected around me , I finally could . And damn if the words did n't make tears sting in my eyes . I would have been embarrassed , but I think I was past all that .