It would help me slur my words so we could laugh about it .It would help me smell better because normally my breath stinks .It would help me talk to him about life and what happened .I would lighten up and not be so tense about seeing someone after a while .
Why would being slightly drunk help me in this situation ?
I had this big elaborate plan - where I would be slightly drunk but not REALLY drunk and be all pretty and glamorous in my birthday outfit when I saw him for the firsr time . Just because from my previous experiences when you meet up with someone after its been a while there s just too much build up and they look different and you feel weird getting all excited and emotional around them and its just kind of awkward for a bit . I just wanted to skip all that ! I know this is n't exactly the most sturdy logic - but it made sense in my head .