My suicide will free him so he can move on without being affected .My suicide will not affect him so much that it will pose any problems for him .My suicide will allow him to follow through with his own suicide .My suicide will devastate Jim so much he might kill himself too .
How might my suicide affect Jim ?
You 'll see , it will all go away . I love you Mary . " Many spouses and significant others have found living with a chronically depressed mate intolerable and have abandoned ship . My heart knew that Jim would never leave me for this reason although my joylessness and anxiety also affected him . " Do n't ever kill yourself babe , I could n't live without you in my life , " he 'd say .