I must feel hostile towards her .I must feel loving towards her .I must feel empathetic for her .I must feel welcoming to her .
How must I feel about her ex girl friend who told me I was " emotionally retarded ? "
some of her X - girlfriends were shrinks and they would show up at the house and psychoanalyze me . one of her butch dyke friends said I was " Emotionally Retarded " . not really I said .