As the two days passed over her, her mind grew more and more fixed as to its purpose. She would tell Mr. Grey that she was not fit to be his wife--and she would beg him to pardon her and to leave her. It never occurred to her that perhaps he might refuse to let her go. She felt quite sure that she would be free as soon as she had spoken the word which she intended to speak. If she could speak it with decision she would be free, and to attain that decision she would school herself with her utmost strength. At one moment she thought of telling all to her father and of begging him to break the matter to Mr. Grey; but she knew that her father would not understand her, and that he would be very hostile to her,--saying hard, uncomfortable words, which would probably be spared if the thing were done before he was informed. Nor would she write to Kate, whose letters to her at this time were full of wit at the expense of Mrs. Greenow. She would tell Kate as soon as the thing was done, but not before. That Kate would sympathize with her, she was quite certain.

In the two days before she was to see Mr. Grey, her mind grew more fixed in its purpose. She would tell Mr. Grey that she was not fit to be his wife. It never occurred to her that he might refuse to let her go. She felt that she merely needed the strength to speak in order to be free. She thought of telling all to her father and of begging him to break the matter to Mr. Grey; but she knew that her father would not understand. Nor would she write to Kate, although Kate would sympathize with her. She would tell Kate once the thing was done, but not before.
