"I am grieved that I should be the enemy--as I suppose I am--of a great number of relations and others, and that they should be my enemies--as I suppose they are--and that we should all be ruining one another without knowing how or why and be in constant doubt and discord all our lives. 
"I am grieved that I and my relations should be enemies - as I suppose we are - and that we should all be ruining one another without knowing how or why. 