"I must confess that what I then understood to be your obstinacy,--and I must say also, if I tell the truth, your indifference to--to--to all prudential considerations whatever, not to talk of appearances and decorum, and I might say, anything like a high line of duty or moral conduct,--shocked me very much. 
I must confess that what I then understood to be your obstinacy, and in truth, your indifference to all prudential considerations, shocked me very much. 