I sat down and said after a little effort to be as calm as I ought to be, "One of my earliest remembrances, guardian, is of these words: 'Your mother, Esther, is your disgrace, and you were hers. 
I sat down and said after a little effort to be calm, "One of my earliest memories is of these words: 'Your mother, Esther, is your disgrace, and you were hers. 