What others might think could not do away with a feeling which in the first instance would hardly be too strongly described as indignation and loathing that she should have been expected to unite herself with an outworn life, full of backward secrets which must have been more keenly felt than any association with _her_. 
 this could not do away with her indignation and loathing that she should have been expected to unite herself with an outworn life, full of past secrets. 