I was quite aware of my own ineligibility; and if I had not been so miserable as a governess, I never should have married; and then----"
Caroline's eyes asked her to proceed. They entreated her to break the thick cloud of despair which her previous words had seemed to spread over life.
"And then, my dear, Mr.--that is, the gentleman I married--was, perhaps, rather an exceptional than an average character. 
I was quite aware of it; and if I had not been so miserable as a governess, I never should have married; and then - and then, my dear, the gentleman I married was, perhaps, an exceptional character. 