I had not once looked up. I had not seen the visitor and had not even appeared to myself to hear the conversation. It surprises me to find that I can recall it, for it seemed to make no impression on me as it passed. I heard them speaking, but my mind was so confused and my instinctive avoidance of this gentleman made his presence so distressing to me that I thought I understood nothing, through the rushing in my head and the beating of my heart.

I had not once looked up. It surprises me to find that I can recall the conversation, for my mind was so confused and the gentleman's presence so distressing that I thought I understood nothing through the rushing in my head and the beating of my heart.
