<s>[INST] i feel tired all the time i get angry or depressed sometimes which I manage by thinking angry thoughts and smoking smoking cigerets make me feel nothing like i have no emotions so i don t care if i huts someone or if they hurt me i sometimes think people are hiding things from me my heart rate is low but my head is always too hot i almost fall asleep if im in a hot room. i have drunk alot but it didnt use to effect me but now if i drink too much i wake up the next day remembering nothing [/INST] Hi there ~ I understand that you have been having problems with depression and being frustrated with it.  Maladaptive mechanisms to deal with one's depression would involve diverting yourself by using substances that just reinforce the addiction cycle and make your psychiatric condition i.e. depression worse.  Alcohol is also a depressant and could make depression worse by itself.  You also have been having blackouts which indicates that your body is physiologically and physically dependent on alcohol.  You need dead diction treatment and I think that you may need to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse counselor to help you get over your depression and alcohol/nicotine dependence.  I hope you seek help as soon as you can. Take care and have a nice day! </s>