<s>[INST] I believe i was raped as a very young child and have no memory of it.  i am now 63.  should i seek psychological he i have had major lower back problems since a teen.  i never bled during my first sexual experience.  all i remember is always hiding in a closet and my parents told me i would never go to sleep and walk around the house at night a lot  my parents have never talked of anything personal with any of their 5 children and whenever doctors have asked meif i was hurt when i was a child, i asked my mother and she said i was very sick at one time and thinks i had scarlet fever [/INST] Hi, Thanks for writing in. It is possible that you are remembering memories of younger childhood days and this is causing distress right now. Some of it is normal and acceptable but if this is causing significant distress and anxiety in your daily life, then you need some help. Help can be in the form of keeping yourself preoccupied and making friends. You may share your thoughts with old friends or join support group for the elderly. If there are facilities near you home, you can seek help form a mental health professional and take counseling sessions from a psychologist. You can also start new hobbies and avoid bad memories and thoughts into your mind. Hope this helps </s>