<s>[INST] I have had a series of unfortunate events over the past 9 years. I have been stable out of necessity, but I am now starting to have increased anxiety that is interfering with my life. My family history frightens any use of anti-anxiety drugs. I need help and don t know where to begin. I don t know if I am normal with never ending duress or if I am mentally ill. [/INST] Degree understand your concerns went through your details. YOU HAVE BEEN STABLE OUT OF NECESSITY FOR 9 YEARS !!. Amazing. This fact in itself is a confidence building measure for yourself as well as the therapist. Please understand what is anxiety. Anxiety always happen to someone who once was very courageous. Went against conventional diktats. Therefore, that is not a punishment, but a review. You need to go through literature regarding anxiety. Those will teach you how you need to ignore anxiety, because it is not a disease. You, too, need psychotherapy methods to streamline your life and thinking. Please consult a psychologist. If you require more of my help in this aspect, please use this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck. </s>