<s>[INST] I am 14 years old and I think I m depressed, when I look at myself I wonder why i even bother because life doesn t feel worth getting up in the morning for and I would rather be dead than carry on. I look at the future and instead of seeing a way out, I just see a load of closed doors. I can t handle my life anymore, the slightest thing makes me want to cry and never get up again, and I feel stressed all the time and speak to people in ways that normally I wouldn t. I kind of distance myself from people because I think they won t understand. I don t feel any motivation anymore to do anything constructive or worthwhile, because it all seems so pointless. [/INST] Hi Joseph, Welcome to Chat Doctor, and thanks for your question... I can understand how difficult and distressing it must be to going through such feelings. From the picture you have given, I think you are definitely in the midst of a depression. Feeling low, lack of motivation, social with Chat Doctor.  Are all symptoms of depression. Often, when we are depressed, our thoughts and attitudes can get clouded due to the depression and we don't feel like even seeking help, as everything seems pointless and a mere waste. It is a positive thing that you have a good insight about your feelings and are able to recognize that you may be going through depression. Now, it is very important to seek help for this, without hesitating or postponing.  I would suggest that you first talk to someone close to you... may be your parents or relatives ...and let them know what you are going through. You will also need professional help from a psychiatrist who would be able to assess you in detail and treat you appropriately. There are various options available - talking therapies, medication, etc. and you will be able to come out of this soon. Wish you all the best. -  </s>