New York ( CNN ) -- Former pharmaceutical executive Gigi Jordan at first appeared calm as she described for a New York jury the last time she saw her son alive , those now-fuzzy final moments before she gave the 8-year-old autistic boy a lethal drug concoction . She ordered him food . She may have put on a movie for him . Little Jude Mirra 's vocabulary was limited . He typed on a BlackBerry to communicate with her . `` We were typing throughout some period of time . We were saying goodbye to each other , '' Jordan told the Manhattan jury on Thursday during her second-degree murder trial . She began to cry . `` At some point , I put the pills together , '' she recalled . `` I gave him the pills . '' `` Which drugs did you give him more of ? '' defense lawyer Allan Brenner asked . `` A lot more of the Ambien , '' she said . `` I gave him more Xanax , but the Ambien is the one I gave him the most of . I gave him Hydrocodone which were large . I was drinking a vodka orange and there was a little left . I broke up the pill and put it into the juice mixed with vodka . '' The chilling details came during Jordan 's second day on the stand . The defense team is trying to convince the jury that Jordan was a desperate mother ultimately driven to kill Jude because she felt caught between her two ex-husbands . One ex-husband had allegedly threatened to kill her , a crime that would have left Jude with her other ex , his biological father , who she believed had sexually abused the boy . The prosecution has sought to show the jury that the February 2010 killing was premeditated and that Jordan expected to survive . On the stand Thursday , Jordan , a former nurse who made millions in a home heath care company , portrayed her actions as a sort of mercy killing . Her ex-husband was threatening to kill her . `` You 're a dead woman , '' she claimed he told her . `` I made the decision I was going to end my life and Jude 's life , '' she recalled , placing her hand over her mouth . She said she checked into the luxury Peninsula Hotel in Manhattan . `` Tell us about your state of mind as you crossed the threshold into the hotel ? '' her lawyer asked . `` Numb , '' she responded . `` Defeated . I felt like it was over . Like it was done . There was nothing else I could do . '' Jude and Jordan spent about six hours in the room before she gave him the pills . She said she had the boy wash down the concoction with orange juice and vodka . Jude was knocked out in 15 minutes . `` Were you able to ascertain if Jude was asleep or in a coma ? '' Brenner asked . `` Jude was covered with a blanket , '' she said . `` I could n't tell ... I could n't tell but I assume he had passed . '' Her son breathed rapidly at one point and then stopped . `` At that point , what did you feel and what did you do ? '' `` I had a big surge of adrenaline , '' she said . `` My heart started pounding . I grabbed him off the bed and put him on the floor . I was crying and started calling Jude ! Jude ! Jude ! and started doing CPR . I titled his head back , grabbed his nose , gave him two breaths , then gave him 15 compressions . I maybe did this 20 times . '' When Brenner asked why she attempted to revive her son , the judge adjourned the proceedings for the night . On Wednesday , Jordan , fighting back tears , testified that she knowingly gave herself and Jude enough drugs to kill them both . When her trial opened last month , Jordan showed no emotion as a prosecutor described to a jury a `` chilling and horrifying scenario '' in which Jordan allegedly forced the boy to swallow the deadly cocktail . Bruises on the boy 's nose , chin and chest indicated that she got on top of him and pressed the poisonous mix of painkillers and anti-inflammatories down his throat with a syringe , the prosecutor alleged . Looking gaunt and pale , Jordan denied that scenario on the stand Wednesday . `` Did you climb on top of Jude and grab his jaw and forcibly put liquid drugs down his throat , '' Brenner asked . `` No , '' Jordan told the jury . `` Did you knowingly give Jude and yourself enough drugs to kill yourself and him ? '' `` Yes , '' she responded , tears welling in her eyes . Asked about a history of suicide in her family , Jordan said an aunt killed herself when Jordan was 12 and her mother tried three times . On Wednesday , Jordan also suggested that the boy was physically and sexually abused not only by his biological father but also by others , including the woman who took Jude to school . She testified that the boy was assaulted by `` a good number of people . '' She testified that one night Jude started screaming , according to Jordan : `` 'Dad bad . Dad bad . Dad bad . ' Jude was never able to articulate the word and not clearly like he was screaming at the top of his lungs . '' Jordan testified that she held her son as Jude gestured at his crotch . He pulled Jordan in front of him and whispered , `` Dad , butt . Finger , Finger . ' He also kept saying dad , and it was clear he was talking about his dad , '' she told the jury . She testified that the boy had been forced to eat feces and do other `` gruesome and horrible '' things by his biological father . The boy 's father has denied the allegations and has not been charged , CNN affiliate WCBS reported . In court , no one has disputed the unthinkable manner in which little Jude spent his final hours on February 5 , 2010 . Police found his cold body after they were dispatched to the hotel . The call to police came after a relative of Jordan was unable to reach her . At an autopsy , four of the painkillers and anti-inflammatories used to kill Jude were recovered undigested from his stomach , prosecutors said . `` His fate was sealed , '' assistant district attorney Matt Bogdanos said in opening statements . `` He did n't die fast . One by one , his vital organs shut down . It did n't take minutes . It took hours to die . '' While Jude lay dying , Bogdanos said , Jordan sent an email to a financial adviser instructing him to transfer the $ 125,000 trust she set up for her son to her personal account . Brenner said Jordan , believing she was ultimately protecting her son , brought the drugs to the hotel room with the intention of killing them both , but she survived the suicide attempt . Bogdanos said Jordan `` went to the bank , she transferred $ 8 million from savings to checking . She checked in ( at the hotel ) without a reservation and paid cash . '' On the stand , Jordan said she planned on giving the money to charity before taking her life . The exact time of the boy 's death could not be determined , but Jude 's body temperature was 80 degrees , suggesting that when police arrived , he had been dead for 8 to 14 hours , Bogdanos said . Brenner has sought to show that Jordan acted out of love and desperation . She had been threatened by her first husband and former business partner , Brenner said . She had accused the man of raiding her bank accounts and defrauding her of millions in profits from their joint businesses . She filed a lawsuit against him in 2012 , seeking damages for breach of contract and fraud . Her first husband filed a lawsuit in August 2013 , claiming Jordan defamed him in interviews she gave the media in an effort to advance her defense . Jordan believed that if she died , Jude 's biological father , a yoga instructor , would have gained custody , according to Brenner . Brenner said Jordan told a therapist and local authorities about the alleged abuse but no action was taken . Jordan faces 25 years to life in prison if convicted . CNN 's Grace Wong contributed to this report .
Gigi Jordan : ` ` I made the decision I was going to end my life and Jude 's life '' Jude Mirra , 17 , who was autistic , died from painkillers , other causes , prosecutors say . The defense says the desperate mother aimed to protect her son from a sexually abusive father . Jordan , charged with second - degree murder , faces 25 years to life in prison if convicted .