( CNN ) -- For more than three years , Hallie Twomey has struggled with the suicide of her 20-year-old son , C.J . She searched his belongings for a note with a clue of what tormented him . She sought counseling and attended support groups . Nothing helped , she said . Now , a plea initially to Facebook friends throughout the United States to help C.J . `` see the mountains that he never got to climb , see the vast oceans that he would have loved , see tropical beaches and lands far and away '' by scattering his ashes has turned into an international effort . Strangers from India to Jamaica are spreading his ashes in tribute to the adventurous young man . A separate Facebook page called `` Scattering CJ '' has more than 4,000 likes . `` How do you say thank you for that ? '' Twomey asked in an interview with CNN . `` It 's been so much and so amazing but I 'd give it all back if I could have C.J . It does n't go past me that it 's Christmas , and holidays are so hard for us . I just wish I had him and none of this . '' Still , the outpouring of support since her `` Scattering CJ '' page went up November 11 has been a source of comfort . On Facebook , the pictures and videos chronicle the places : From the Grand Canyon to the Caribbean , from Australia to Morocco , C.J . 's ashes have been spread . `` Quite frankly , I spent the first two weeks doing nothing but crying , '' Twomey , of Auburn , Maine , said . `` I just was n't prepared for what people were sharing and how somebody who has absolutely no connection to me could be affected . '' Along with the ashes , Twomey sends a note and a small photo of C.J . in a Boston Red Sox T-shirt . His ashes have even been scattered at Fenway Park , home of his favorite team . His mother asks the recipient to think about her son and the people he helped through organ donation . She also asks that in their thoughts , they remind him that `` Mom and Dad love him , and that Mom is sorry . '' Many of those scattering the ashes have also been affected by suicide or have outlived their children , she said . `` I 'm so touched , '' she said . `` I 've lost all faith in pretty much anything since C.J . died . I do n't pray anymore . I 'm just not spiritual . I think this was such an effort for me to put my faith -- not to be dramatic -- in mankind . That 's been wonderful . '' For three and half years , Twomey said , she has regretted the argument she had with her son moments before he stormed out of their home and shot himself in his car . `` C.J . and I fought terribly literally two seconds before he put a gun to his head and my last words to him were not nice , '' she said . `` I did n't tell him I loved him . I did n't hug him . '' Twomey said C.J . had been upset about not making an Air Force special forces team . After being honorably discharged , he returned home . `` He seemed OK , '' she said . `` I did n't see any major life changes or severe depression . '' More than 150 packets , each containing a small portion of ashes , have gone out so far , with 300 other people offering to extend C.J . 's journey . She has spent nearly $ 600 on postage , Twomey said . `` My biggest fear was that C.J . would be forgotten and every time somebody writes a comment or offers to take him on this journey , he 's being thought of , '' she said . `` That 's so powerful . '' National Suicide Prevention Lifeline . 'How can I help my child ? '
A mother 's Facebook plea for help in scattering son 's ashes becomes an international effort . From the Grand Canyon to the Caribbean to Australia , C.J . 's ashes are spread . Many of those scattering ashes have been affected by suicide or have outlived their children .