( CNN ) -- The following are WhatsApp message exchanges between Oscar Pistorius ( OP ) and Reeva Steenkamp ( RS ) , as read in court Monday during the athlete 's murder trial . January 11 , 2013 : . OP to RS : Angel please do n't say a thing to anyone . Darren told everyone it was his fault . I ca n't afford for that to come out . The guys promised not to say a thing . RS to OP : I have no idea what you talking about : ) RS to OP : But thank u for telling me I appreciate it x. January 19 , 2013 : . RS to OP : Baba . OP to RS : Yes . RS to OP : There are a lot of things that could make us both feel like s**t. RS to OP : I 'm just very honest . RS to OP : I wo n't always think before I say something just appreciate that I 'm not a liar . OP to RS : I know . It was just when you got back from tropica you made it sound like you had only smoked weed once and then last night that came out . I do n't know how many times you took or if you took other things or what you did when you were on them . RS to OP : I 'm sorry if it upset you it was n't my intention . OP to RS : I do appreciate it . could never be with someone that was . RS to OP : Me neither . RS to OP : It 's like I see rabbit things in your house and when we go places you take pics of them everywhere . For me I 'm thinking who do you have that connection with ? And the same things will play on your mind . At the end of the day this is now not then . RS to OP : I was n't a stripper or a ho . RS to OP : I certainly have never been a prude and I 've had fun but all innocent and without harmful repercussions . January 27 , 2013 : . RS to OP : I 'm not 100 % sure why I 'm sitting down to type you a message first but perhaps it says a lot about what 's going on here . Today was one of my best friend 's engagements and I wanted to stay longer I was enjoying myself but it 's over now . You have picked on me incessantly since you got back from CT ( Cape Town ) and I understand that you are sick but it 's nasty . Yesterday was n't nice for either of us but we managed to pull through and communicate well enough to show our care for each other is greater than the drama that attacked us . I was not flirting with anyone today . I feel sick that you suggested that and that you made a scene at the table and made us leave early . I 'm terribly disappointed in how the day ended and how you left me . We are living in a double standard relationship where you can be mad about how I deal with stuff when you are very quick to act cold and offish when you 're unhappy . Every 5 seconds I hear how you dated another chick . You really have dated a lot of people yet you get upset if I mention ONE funny story with a long term boyfriend . I do everything to make you happy and to not say anything to rock the boat with u . You do everything to throw tantrums in front of people . I have been upset by you for 2 days now . I 'm so upset I left Darren 's party early . SO upset . I ca n't get that day back . I 'm scared of you sometimes and how u snap at me and of how you will react to me . You make me happy 90 % of the time and I think we are amazing together but I am not some other bitch you may know trying to kill your vibe . I am the girl who let go with u even when I was scared out of my mind to . I 'm the girl who fell in love with u and wanted to tell u this weekend . But I 'm also the girl that gets sidestepped when you are in a s**t mood . When I feel you think u have me so why try anymore . I get snapped at and told my accents and voices are annoying . I touch your neck to show u I care and you tell me to stop . Stop chewing gum . Do this do n't do that . You do n't want to hear stuff cut me off . Your endorsements your reputation your impression of someone innocent blown out of proportion and f***ed up a special day for me . I 'm sorry if you truly felt I was hitting on my friend Sams husband and I 'm sorry that u think that little of me . From the outside I think it looks like we are a struggle and maybe that 's what we are . I just want to love and be loved . Be happy and make someone SO happy . Maybe we ca n't do that for each other . Cos right now I know u are n't happy and I am certainly very unhappy and sad . OP to RS : Please let me know when I can call you . RS to OP : I 'm here . OP to RS : I want to talk to you . I want to sort this out . I do n't want to have anything less than amazing for you and I. I am sorry for the things I say without thinking and for taking offense to some of your actions . The fact that I 'm tired and sick is n't an excuse . I was upset that you just left me after we got food to go talk to a guy and I was standing right behind you watching you touch his arm and ignore me . And when I spoke up you introduced me which you could 've done but when I left you just kept on chatting to him when clearly I was upset . I asked Martin to put on that Kendrick Lamar album in the car and do n't know it . Granted that it was a s**t song but you should 've just lent forward and whispered in my ear to change it seeing as I had to drive to pick up your friend . I was 30 minutes late and I know you do n't like it when I drive fast but then you could 've asked Gina to drive herself so that we would n't have to . When we left I was starving the only good I had had was a tiny wrap and everyone was leaving for lunch . I 'm sorry I wanted to go but I was hungry and upset and although you knew it , it was n't like you came to chat to me when I left the table . I was upset when I left you cos I thought you were coming to me . I 'm sorry I asked you to stop tapping my neck yesterday , I know you were just trying to show me love . I had a mad headache and should 've just spoken to you softly . In sorry for asking you not to put on an accent last night pretty much the same and did n't have the energy . February 8 , 2013 . RS to OP : I like to believe that I made you proud when I attend these kind of functions with you . I present myself well and can converse with others while you are off busy chatting to fans and friends . I also knew people there tonight and whilst you were having one or two pics taken I was saying goodbye to the people in my industry and Fitz wanted a photo with me . I was just being cordial by saying goodbye whilst you were busy . I completely understood your desperation to leave and thought I would be helping you by getting to the exit before you because I ca n't rush on the heels I was wearing . I thought it would make a difference in us getting out without you getting harassed anymore . I did n't think you would criticize me for doing that especially not so loudly so that others could hear . I might joke around and be all Tom boyish at times but I regard myself as a lady and I did n't feel like one tonight after the way you treated me when we left . I 'm a person too and I appreciate that you invited me out tonight and I realize that you get harassed but I am trying my best to make you happy and I feel as though you sometimes never are , no matter the effort I put in . I ca n't be attacked by outsiders for dating you and be attacked by you -- the one person I deserve protection from . Live blog .
`` You have picked on me incessantly , '' Pistorius messages Oscar . The message exchanges show strife between the one . At one point Oscar says she 's scared of Pistorius sometimes .