Because I was afraid if I said everything that she meant to me, that I owed perhaps the best parts of who I became to her care, and that the words "I'm sorry" were like a thimble to bail out all the guilt and shame and rage I felt over everything she had endured to care for me for as long as she had, I thought if I said those words to her, I would never stop crying again.
Porque tuve miedo de que si decía todo lo que ella significaba para mí --que quizá lo mejor de mí era por su cuidado, y que las palabras "lo siento" eran como un dedal para librar toda la culpa, la vergüenza y la rabia que sentía por todo lo que había soportado para cuidarme durante ese tiempo-- pensé que si le decía esas palabras, nunca dejaría de llorar.