And then I started to think, OK, well now this thing is probably just laughing at me, because it hasn't left, and I probably just look like this impotent, powerless thing that couldn't get it to go away.
Y empecé a pensar, quizá debe estar riéndose mí, porque no se ha ido, y quizá le parezca que soy impotente porque no conseguí que se fuera.