I really appreciate that Dr. Kim understands people with autism (like myself) are more sensitive to medications and that fact made me want to work with her. I have had unfortunately many other doctors not believe me or listen to me when I say a medication is too strong or I'm having negative side effects so knowing she was understanding of this made me feel safe in her hands. I was hoping to have a good experience with Dr. Kim because of this (as well as her being a referral from a really amazing doctor) but unfortunately I didn't even get to explain why I was there and what kind of help I needed in the first place. She jumped right in to trying to prescribe me a SSRI without talking to me about anything. She didn't let me finish answering her questions before she would jump to the next question. She seemed to either not understand me or not be able to hear me properly because the communication was very all over the place and I had to repeat myself multiple times because she said I said something that I didn't say so I had to repeat for clarity. She asked me in an abrasive way about my trauma history and after she asked multiple intrusive questions about it, she said she had to end the session abruptly. I didn't feel like she took into account that while she may do this all day, I do not talk to strangers about my truama and for me it's very difficult. I would have appreciated a little more gentleness especially speaking about certain forms of truama such as sexual abuse. I felt very pressured to speak about it. I felt very uncomfortable after she abruptly needed to end the session after I had to explain my traumatic experiences. She said she wanted to evaluate me and pressured me to get an appointment within the same week because she seemed to have forgot to do something (I'm very confused by this because she didn't really explain why she needed me to make an appointment by Friday) but I don't feel comfortable with her evaluating me if there was obviously a lot of misunderstandings going on and what felt like a lot of bulldozing and lack of actual listening. I just needed to continue taking the Propranolol for my anxiety. That's all. I have good BP and I'm not experiencing any negative side effects. I've only been taking it since last September after a medical scare. I've been doing much better and have been making a slow but continued recovery. After these last couple of experiences with doctors and mental health professionals, I think I'm just going to unfortunately stop taking the Propranolol and try using OTC medications and supplements because I just don't trust doctors anymore after this being the treatment I've experienced. I don't understand why most of the medical professionals I've seen wont just listen to me. I literally don't even have the ability to explain what is going on to get the proper treatment because no one will just take the time to hear what is wrong and why I'm asking for help. I'll just figure it out on my own at this point. I'm so confused. I'm deeply sorry if I've been a burden because I wasn't trying to be difficult or controlling. I know I don't know everything hence why I go to doctors for guidence and help but it feels like I am overstepping whenever I assert any knowledge about my own body and health. That it's inappropriate for me to have an opinion or perspective about my own health and body and experiences. I just needed help and I thought I could reach out, I've felt like something is wrong with me because I haven't been able to find any medical professionals to work with long term that will actually listen and just help me... Dr. Kisting has been the only doctor that actually listened to me but she is an Urgent Care doctor so I couldn't continue seeing her as a patient. I keep being treated like I'm asking for too much or that I'm just too much in general but all I wanted was to just continue taking the Propranolol at 10mg 3× per day. And I'm cutting down my usage slowly since I first started taking it last September (I used to take 10mg 4× per day). Why do I have to talk about my trauma to a stranger in order to continue taking the medication I was already on (especially when my truama history has nothing to do with current anxiety)? I was prescribed it by an Urgent Care doctor (Dr. Kisting) who referred me to Dr. Kim. I'm so confused why I'm being forced to do an evaluation, talk about truama history that has nothing to do with my current anxiety problems with a complete stranger who doesn't even seem to want to listen to anything I have to say, take a SSRI / change my medications when my current medications are doing perfectly... I'm just so confused. I rather figure it out on my own at this point. Please do not let this happen to others. Please make changes so this doesn't happen to any of your other patients.
WAUKESHA BH