Hi, this is heavily Pennington. And this is hapless podcast. Welcome to a brand new year. 2019 is here and I am so excited. Yep. I'm one of those. I love a fresh start. I don't do. Owens but I do kind of clean up my inboxes and throw all my bad food in the house and just kind of a restart reboot my everyday life and I love it. In fact, I would love to be better at goal setting and all those things which I'll talk more about later, but I do have something very exciting to tell all of you and the reason I've been kind of quiet and you haven't heard much for me is because I gave birth. No I didn't give birth to like Kid, which don't put it past me. I've done it four times, but I gave birth to a brand-new book and book is a really small small way to talk about this project because it is something that I have poured my heart and soul into the way that I think about. This project was a couple months ago. I was having one of those days where I couldn't get it together to every one of those days where you just can't get it together. I don't Feel good feels like everything is irritating every time every kid that's talking every email feels like an invasion. I just was having a hard day. And at one point my son was trying to get my attention and my little one and I said, what what do you want? And he said Mom I forgot how beautiful you are. I just I felt you know, like a punch in the gut but like a punch in the heart. It was so good that he said it was Shocking because I thought he was going to ask for something or tell me his brother was punching him or something like that, but he just had this kind of moment, but he wanted to bring me in on and at that moment. I thought you inherit everything your brothers have lost you have won it all I'm teasing kind of but it was this moment where I it took my breath away, but simultaneously I saw this parallel of how God Once us to see ourselves like we're busy doing life and we're dream chasing and we're hustling and we're building the family were paying the bills and we might go do more education and we might have another kid and we might do this or move here and gods like whoa, just a minute. Hey just want you to know don't forget how amazing you are. And that's what this book is. It's called leap into love and the reason I wrote this study was Has there was a part of my journey that I realized that it wasn't until I started to accept myself in a profound way today actually begin to be the vital voice that I knew I was and really wanted to be on the earth. So the tagline for the study is called living present to your purpose on the planet. We kind of as I went into the study. I was going to call it a study on self-rejection and radical love and I started out doing that. But I realized that it was more than that. It wasn't just an inner healing or a heart topic. It was more about learning to live present learning to be present in our everyday life and to accept ourselves for who we are in the middle of it. And that was really the secret to well to living full-hearted in our lives. One of the things I really looked at was the idea that self-rejection shows up in our lives and it shows up in our lives in ways that we don't really Fact be kind of think self-rejection is loathing or comparison or maybe even you know insecurity. Oh, you know, they're self-rejection they have insecurities, but when I began to really do studying around this topic, I realized that self-rejection shows up in a lot of different areas. One of those areas is perfectionism the idea that things need to be perfect for us to be settled for us to accept our lives for us to accept the people were with or two. Be comfortable in our environment. There's nothing wrong with striving for excellence. Let me say that I'm not asking you to be a pathetic so you can accept yourself. I'm just saying that when perfectionism begins to be the dominant characteristic of our lives and it's all about being the best and having the best into producing the best we end up realizing that we are striving for something that maybe we feel we're lacking which is an ability for things not to be perfect for us to be present. And then I also looked at, you know other areas. Critical of other people and superiority complex is actually really grounded in self-rejection a part of us that's making up for something that we lack. So we look at those kind of fruits that show up as if we're growing our lives on purpose and where does it show up? And where does it give us some evidence of self-rejection that we would not have seen nor we have thought and then I begin to really look at you know, what does it mean to grow and self-acceptance? There's this kind Kind of a worldly perspective that's hitting our culture which is kind of Me Myself. And I and if I could be powerful then that's all that matters. And I I agree. Yeah, we we need to be confident and there's a confidence of God confidence and there's a self-acceptance but it's not just finding ourselves because at the end of the rainbow we find ourselves we find that we need a God. We need to savior. We need more than just our personality and our good looks or whatever it is that we've kind of Then on our intelligence, we really need God we need a savior. And so how do we actually plug into the source of confidence and that is plugging in to God. It's plugging into our relationship with him. So we talk I really talked about that and then I look into the idea and I did a lot of research on this which was this kind of shell that we create which was really given to us in childhood to participate in our everyday life and to keep our anxiety low and just stay. Kind of present into our family world, but really it may not be our true self. And so what does it look like to go deeper to figure out who are we on the inside of all of this and I found in my own life when I got married there was such an Awakening in my journey. I assumed I was a certain way and I had been told I was a certain way then when I got married I realized I actually not that way at all and I had to unpack some of this narrative and this belief system and Even maybe the things I was ashamed of and assume that people didn't like and so I needed to change it instead. I began to realize don't know I am different and I like who I am and really being able to accept myself for who God called me to be and created me to be so I look at all of that. And then why do we go on this journey of a radical self-acceptance radical love towards ourselves, which God created our most the most wonderful part of who we are because you know, the whole idea is that if what we see in the mirror is God's example of his incredible work in our lives and but we hate it then how can we really trust him? I mean if he's the author and the artist of our lives and like wow every day were reminded of his work and we don't like it then why would we want him to do the rest of our life? Why would we say? Yeah now you create the rest of my life, but I hate the picture of what you created that's in front of me every day. So we have to really look at that one of the things I thought about This whole idea that the world is obsessed with models and you know people of perfection and yet I believe God wants us to become role models for a radical movement of loving the person God created us to be and how do you do that? Not just sounds really amazing. But how do you actually do that on an everyday basis? And we I unpack all of that and then I talked about when all of that is done and we begin to accept the person God created us to be what happens. Well it begins. Has to be this force in our life or we begin to be an Agent of Change. It's the way we talk to each other the way that we expect except each other the way that we experience each other. We begin to say I see you you were fearfully and wonderfully created and I accept you and I can't accept you until I accept myself and I can distribute that same radical love that. I'm giving to myself I can give to you and so what does that actually look like? So I'm going to talk about growing and selfish. Upton's growing in our physical features, you know some of the features we have we can't change I call them unchangeable features. What do we do with that? Because sometimes that can be really offensive, you know God you created me this way and it feels like the way you created me has been a burden. I don't like the way that I was created whether you have a flaw that you just a blatant fly and you're like, I feel like this flaw is just become a definition to me and yet maybe God wants it to be become it to be redefined as a mark of ownership or maybe there's a part of you where your beauty or your sexuality has become the defining feature and you've realized that the world has only accepted you skin deep and yet, you know, there is more to you a profound acceptance of who God created you to be and to be present to your purpose. Not just your body not just your physical experience, but to be present to your full purpose, which is internal external. And what you offer the Earth what you offer the planet? So what does that look like, you know that idea of having radical love and the root word for radical love is found that we it comes from radical comes from the word root and God has given us this ability to be rooted in him grounded in him to know that our source of Life comes from him and that's not just a really sexy spiritual thing. It's really It actually works and transformation works and and and the transformation of all parts of us. So I really took this journey to dissect all of this. I'm not a real heart person. Yeah, I know that sounds horrible to even say but I'm not a real feely person. So for me to go on this journey Took a ton of work, I worked harder on this project. It was a labor of love and I had to go deep into my own experience and my own presence and what what you know, where did I draw? Ants and what word narratives that I believed about myself and why that was important and even if I had experienced rejection or abandonment or if I had experienced maybe someone not accepting me for who I was it didn't Define me and how did I get to that point and it really required me to go deep and understand. What was I believing? And what was the truth and I got into the word of God. What does God say about me and I want to teach you that I want you to sit at my table for Is this January on January 22nd? We're going to start this journey. And if you were my girlfriend, I would say can you can we do this together? Can we journey together for 20 days and let's see. Let's like go on this this moment of transformation where we sit together for 20 days and we have pack some of these areas, you know, we can have a ton of goals. We can go. I want to work out everyday and I want to I want to eat clean and I want to be powerful. But if we have this underlying root of rejection that Just follows us. It doesn't matter what we fix on the outside doesn't matter what relationships we let go of our walk into if there's a root of bitterness in our lives towards how we were created. It will follow us and it will it will Poison every relationship where it and that's why often bad relationships follow people. It's because there's one common denominator. It's them it's you it's me. So we have to go deep and figure out what's going on. I was telling my girlfriend's this a It's ago. We started a book club and I was telling them that on January 2nd. My husband and I drove from LA to home. And you know, I'm one of those that when I get in the car and a long road trip, I want to talk about plans. I want to talk about future. I want to talk about ten year goals. I don't if you're like me if yours if that's used to say Amen wherever you are nod your head because you know, that's you and he can't go anywhere. I've locked him in it is a road trip for 10 hours. He's gonna hear it. And so I'm telling him and I first I was kind of telling him some things that I was like listen. I'm frustrated we didn't get here and I don't know why we didn't do this and I was explaining maybe some of the area's I felt that he kind of had gotten stuck this last year and I was like, listen we need to do this and I need you to jump in I need you to wake up in this area. And as I'm doing that which I know you wives know what I'm talking about the Holy Spirit nudged me and he was like, wow. Wow, you're giving him all of that. Twisting when really you're not stepping up in areas because of fear, you're not stepping them in areas because of Shame you're not stepping up in areas because you think that if he would be powerful you'll be powerful and the truth is you're giving your power away and not only that you're not accepting the person I called you to be which is often the starter. It's often the person that's got the yes, and so stop waiting for someone else in your life to show up show up and I had to Spent right there in the middle of I-5 I had to say listen, babe. I'm sorry. I'm holding you responsible for change and I need to change. I'm holding you responsible for transformation. I need to transform and I'm getting lazy. I'm getting a pathetic. I'm thinking. Well, I'm doing more than most people have 20% ahead of most people but it's actually creating a sense of apathy and me and I need to I need to go back to the foundation and one of the foundational things that has been critical in. Life, even, you know 20 years ago when I was cleaning houses, I would always bring my little boom box and my teaching series and I would sit and I would listen to a teaching series every single day for hours. We'd clean to big mansions a day. We'd spend six seven hours a day cleaning and I loved it because I would get these really good teaching series and I'd pop in one type after the other and I would go through an entire series and it was I called it my Bible school and what I realized. But over the years, I mean, I would glean I would take a book on audio. I listened to teaching series or I listened to some Churches series and I would just listen and I would almost Anand date myself with the topic to where I finally was eating and breathing every conversation was about what I had learned and I would cry and I would get excited and I would go home and journal and I realized that I was kind of forcing myself to learn these Concepts. Well as you get older, you're like what I don't know if I want to pick that up, you know, that's exciting but No, I don't want to like start again. I don't want to you know, they have a fault start again, or I don't want to discuss that it's exciting to get excited. But what about the bills and what about my kids and what about all these other things and I realized that this year hadn't picked up a book and I was like, oh, I don't know. I don't want to pick up a got a lot of books a stack of books, but we're at you know, someone would sit me, in fact all my friends because I have all these Learners as friends. They're sending me videos and you gotta watch this this month and you got to see this book and I'm like, yeah. Yeah when I felt this part of Me that was like I don't want to grow I don't want to transform. I just did a whole book on this I'm done and I realized that that was actually a really dangerous place for me because it when I stop learning is the moment I stopped being transformed as the moment. I stopped being present and I start thinking about another moment that they'll be another time and I immediately downloaded the messages. They sent me and the books and got out of my car went to the book club that I was committed to and just said no. I'm Gonna Learn I'm not going to sit here and wait for a moment. I need to do this and I'll tell you what only took a few minutes probably took an hour a certain message or Facebook thing that I was listening to and all this and I was getting excited and for our study, you know, I want to challenge some of you, you know, you want to be in the word but you're not you want to start something fresh, but you're not and you're obsessed with your business you're obsessed with your kids you're obsessed with your marriage, but what God wants to do is take you on a journey. Ernie at you know, a 5-10 minutes a day where you stay consistent and you give yourself to this thing and you don't start and do five days, but you're like I'm in it for 20 days. I set my alarm and maybe you give up something like I'm not going to look at social media in the morning. I'm going to do my five-minute study or I'm not going to watch my favorite TV show tonight. I'm going to do this study. I'm going to change I have to change something to actually have transformation. And so I want to encourage you with this leap into love. I'm going to be right alongside of you learning these Concepts again and revisiting them. They'll be thousands of women around the world that will join you but I want to invite you to not wait and not think well if my girlfriend doesn't I'll do it. Stop stop that your girlfriend's not going to do it. Like you're going to do it. You need to stop waiting for someone else. You got to show up and say I'm gonna do this. I know I started before I'm going to do it again. Why because you have grandbabies coming you have children that are going to be adults. You've got people that are waiting for you to show up. So don't give up. Keep going become. The person God's called you to be today stop waiting and every day you take a step forward take a step forward and you will transform. I promise you that so here's another thing that's really exciting. We've actually never done this but Bethel TV came to us and said, what would you think about us hosting a live for Night series Tuesday night series for four weeks in a row for our community. And what would you think about doing your new book leap into love? And the whole Community will do the 20 day at home? Eddie but what would you think if we actually did four nights of sleep in the lab? And I'm like I'm in I think I said yes before they even told me the whole thing. And so I said, well, I love what I have to teach and I have a lot to teach but honestly, I have some girlfriends that I think are profound on this topic. What would you think if they split the night with me and they're like Yahoo ever and so I have three of my friends that I honestly feel like are some of the leading voices on these topics of self. Acceptance and love and radical becoming a radical Agent of Change in your life. And so we're going to split the night up. It's going to be live worship. They'll be women in the room and you can gather your girl's you can have a small group in your home. You can have a book club in your home. You can grab your women's ministry and stream it live whatever you want to do, but lie panel of starts January 2nd 22nd and will join every Tuesday night for four nights at four nights in a row for two nights in a row. I can say that but then as well we'll have the 20-day. Right alongside of it. So what do you need to know? Well, it's totally free. The 20-day experience is free the Four Knights live experiences free. The only thing that you want to invest in is the leap in The Love Book, you're going to want to grab your book you don't have to but I'm telling you it will keep you focused and I'll give you all the information that we're going through in those in that book. So how do you find it? Well, you can find it where most books are sold Amazon. You can also get it as a digital book as well as you can order on Bethel shop. Shop and treat the tables shop. So it'll be everywhere and the book will come to you about right about time when it starts. So I really hope you join me if you've done any of my studies and you didn't do it last year jump in this year. Come on. I want to see you there and tell your friends, you know, everybody needs a good start, but why not start your year in the in the word and there's so many different things. So we're going to go into this idea, and I'm really proud of this. I really hope to pull up a seat and let me know if you're joining me. Tell me tell me how my socials on you know, Twitter or Facebook or Instagram. I'm joining you January 22nd. I can't wait follow us. We'll give you a bunch of information as we get going. But the main thing is is I want us to have a journey of transformation. There's other Bible studies out there Join one of them doesn't have to be this one the Lisa Turkish Lisa Harper. I'm seeing all these things start up Join one of theirs just get in the word and get on your journey to start 2019, but the street with Great. So, I love you guys. Thanks for giving me a few minutes of your day. I hope to be with you a lot more this year. That's one of my goals is to podcast more and hang out with you, and if nothing else just connect in our everyday lives. So I love you, and I'll catch you next time. Bye.
Learn all about Leap Into Love: https://truthtotable.com/leap-into-love/ A couple of months ago I was having one of those days where I couldn’t get it together. Everything was irritating me, and I was having a hard day. At one point my youngest son was trying to get my attention. I asked him what he wanted, and he replied, he had forgotten how beautiful I was. It was a moment that took my breath away but also showed me a parallel of how God sees us. We’re so busy doing life and dream chasing that we forget what God thinks about us. In this podcast episode, I want to talk to you a little bit about my new study “Leap into Love.” The reason I wrote this study was that there was a part in my journey where it wasn’t until I was able to accept myself in a profound way that I was able to become a vital voice. This study is more than just dealing with self-rejection and finding inner healing. It’s about learning to live present in our everyday life and to accept ourselves for who we are. It is the secret to living full-heartedly. This brand new Bible study starts on January 22nd and includes 4 LIVE teaching nights, plus 20 short daily videos where I’ll teach 6-8 minutes through the Leap into Love book. *You don’t need the book to join, but it’s a great resource to dive deeper. I’d love for you to pass this along to a friend and join me for this special 4-week journey to Living Present to our Purpose on the Planet. P.S This is the last week you can pre-order the book for just $ 12, so grab one for you and a friend and sign up today! I can’t wait to have you! 