Hello, my darling. I need to tell you about our sponsor anchor dot f m. Anchor is a podcast creation and distribution tool. And it gives you everything you need to record edit. Plus they'll distribute your podcast to all of the major channels including Spotify Apple podcasts and Google podcasts free of charge you can make money with no minimum listenership and it couldn't be easier. Download the anchor app or go to Anchor dot. F m-- to get started. Sweet dreams. Hello, my darling. I am so glad that you are here tonight. And I have something very special to share with you. This will be part formation and Bart story. So I want you to my back. and relax and let me tell you. A little story chronic pain can be one of the most difficult things to endure in life. You hurt everyday for no reason at all. You wake up feeling completely unrested and your mental health begins to suffer. You can only endure so much in the level of pain that you experience becomes your new normal. This is your life. You hurt everyday and you get through every day. As best you can you begin to feel isolated and you stop telling people about it and you might even put on a brave face because that too is your new normal. You think that no one wants to hear about your pain because you begin to feel that your pain is all you talk about. You don't want to be that person that is always complaining. We're always bringing up. How are you hurt? And there's nothing anyone can do about it anyway, so they don't need to know but then you have bad days. D so bad, you can't get out of bed. And your mental health drums dangerously. You just want to sleep and you just want to feel rested. You just want to wake up and feel like a normal person without hurting every day. And the bad days are made worse because you've grown use to your normal bad days. You'd give anything to have your normal days back. You can't imagine making it through this bad day and your mind might go to Dark Places. You might even begin to question your sanity that you might begin to think but the bad days will never end, but you are not alone. You're not alone. I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself now. Because I feel that this topic is so important. And it's so close to my own heart. When I was in the United States Army. 16 years ago. I suffered a fairly devastating injury. It was during a training exercise and several of us fell from Victory Tower. It was about 20 feet high. And I fractured my pelvis. And severed some of the nerves in my lower spine. I also had stress fractures in my legs and back and it's been a very long road to Healing. and every day though I walk normally. And I look normal on the outside. And I smile and I'm positive and I always ask my friends about their day. I'm always hiding my level of pain. My Level that is now normal to be in excruciating pain and to find it normal. And then I have bad days to wear the normal level. Seems so desirable. And I do anything to have it back. And it's really hard. I know it's hard and I know it's hard on you. But you are not alone. I understand. And I want you to know. And every day is a new day. That you are okay. You get stronger every single day. You are stronger than you know and stronger than you'd ever give yourself credit for your strength comes from your ability to cope even on those days. When you think you can't cope any longer within you is an incredible power to survive. And work through very difficult times. I want you to remember this on the bad days. I want you to know that you are an incredible force and you have Incredible strength that you can get through this. and anything and when times are dark and you feel more down than you ever have in the past, I want you to remember that you are not alone. Myself and others we all suffer. And we all deal with the same highs and lows, but we can draw strength from this college because it means we are not know. And you are not alone. And we are stronger because of this. And now I want you to relax. I know that actually relaxing might be very hard for you. It certainly is for me, but trust me you need to find these moments to relax. To take care of your mind and your body. It is a very small thing. But as you know, small things can really add up relax. Close your eyes lay back and squish your body down. It's a good comfortable and your chair for your bed. for your blankets relax your toes first. And your ankle and the calves your legs. All the way up to your thighs. I'll give you your shoulders a little roll. And relax your arms down to your fingertips. I want you to imagine a little ball of light emitting from each finger tip before relaxing that finger entirely. Whatever time. relax each finger Unclench your jaw and give me a little smile. You can relax. You are safe. You are okay. You are okay to take this Moment by yourself. No one needs anything from you right now. I'll take your left arm and hold it lightly across your stomach take the fingers of your right hand. and gently Trace words on your left you can trace whatever you buy. But I'm also going to tell you what to trace will start with the word happy. Trace each letter Hey. a pee pee Now trace the word. Peace. See you are happy and you are peace. I'll chase the word love. Oh. trace the word safe you are loved by me and by mothers. And you are safe. Now before you drift off to sleep tonight, I'd like to read you a few affirmation that I've chosen for you. Keep your eyes closed. Imagine that I am gently playing with your hair as I read each affirmation to you. I believe in you. faith in you you beautiful. inside and out you are strong. You are worthy. You inspire me? And you inspire others around you? You deserve love. compassion and empathy You Are Not Alone You can be at peace. And you can be yourself. always matter to me others around you you deserve a rest. and relaxation you deserve these small moments in your day. It's okay to let bad memories and bad feelings. and bad people you deserve people that make you feel safe. and valuable and wonderful. And you never have to apologize for being yourself. Or finding peace or happiness in something. My darling you. can relax you are very safe here. And you are loved. How very sweet dreams? Good night.
ASMR, soft spoken with thunderstorm in the background. Whether it be mental, emotional, or physical, chronic pain is a brutal weight to endure, especially alone. But - you are never alone. And right now, you might not feel okay, and that's okay. Because being okay will come. I promise. This audio is very personal and intimate. I share details about my life with chronic pain and I share support and understanding to help you get through your dark days. With chronic pain, we have a level that we consider 'normal,' and we have days where that level skyrockets and we feel trapped and isolated by that pain. I want you to know that you are not alone, even on your darkest days. I also share a relaxation exercise and personal affirmations to help you find comfort and relaxation. This audio was created in honor of ASMR Saves Lives and is intended to give you a bit of peace on dark days  Tingles App: tingles.app.link/Tome-by-Tome-ASMR Podcast: www.anchor.fm/tome-by-tome-asmr YouTube: bit.ly/youtubeTomebyTomeASMR Twitter: twitter.com/PamMcElprang Sorrow of the Dragon Gods: amzn.to/2E6CT2v  Intro of the audio: Chronic pain can be one of the most difficult things to endure in life. You hurt every day for no reason at all. You wake up feeling completely unrested and your mental health begins to suffer because you can only endure so much. The level of pain you experience becomes your new normal. This is your life. You hurt and you get through your day as best you can. You stop telling people about it and you might even put on a brave face because that too is your new normal. You think that no one wants to hear about your pain because you begin to feel that it is all you talk about sometimes. You don’t want to be that person that is always complaining or always bringing up your pain. There’s nothing anyone can do about it anyway, so they don’t need to know. But then you have bad days. Days so bad you can’t get out of bed and your mental health drops dangerously. You just want to sleep, you just want to feel rested. You just want to wake and feel like a normal person without being in agony. And the bad days are made worse because you’ve grown used to the normal days. You’d give anything to have those normal days back. You can’t imagine making it through this bad day and you begin to go to dark places. You begin to question your sanity and you begin to think that the bad days will never end. But you are not alone. You are NOT ALONE. I suffer from chronic nerve pain from an injury I sustained during my time in the United States Army. Every day, for the last 16 years, I’ve been in pain. I’ve reached my normal level and I’ve had some very bad days. It’s hard. But it’s always hard and when that becomes the new normal you begin to adjust – you begin to get stronger. You are strong. You are stronger than you know and stronger than you’d ever give yourself credit for. Your strength comes from your ability to cope, even on days when you think you can’t cope any longer. Within you is an incredible power to survive and work past very difficult times. I want you to remember this on the bad days. I want you to know that you are an incredible force, you have incredible strength and you can get through anything. And when times are dark and you feel more down than you ever have in the past, I want you to remember that you are not alone. Myself and others like us suffer in the same ways. We can draw strength from this knowledge because it means we are not alone. You are not alone. 