Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : So hear my out guys. Throw away account for obvious reasons.

I am a 30 year old male living in new york. 
My great grand father was an italian fisherman. Of the coast of italy he was fishing during the great storm of Sergio (in 1828). The storm took his boat down, he was never heard from again.

I resent the ocean for taking my great grand father. I hate it for all the lovely times that he and i could share, but now we cant seeing the ocean took him.

I never swim. While at the beach i kick the water. Some times i spit at the ocean, even chewed out gums. 

Am i the asshole for hating and never forgiving the ocean for what it did to me?! Please help me out guys!