Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : My boyfriend and I, over the past 3 years, have had phases where we aren’t the best girlfriend or boyfriend.

Well, anyway, he told me on Spring Break that he did not have those romantic feelings for me anymore because of my attitude and that he  tried everything. We settled that he could decide through break on what he wanted.
He told me I have “so much going for me” and that maybe one day we would reconnect down the road and it may end up being what we need. I ask if we can still spend time with each other this break since I still decided to come home anyway.

I begged him for a solid yes/no. I wanted him to commit to his decision whether it’s in my life or not. I begged for one or the other.

As I waited for communication via phone/in-person, I felt like he was the only guy for me and that the only guy for me doesn’t want me anymore. I know other guys would like me, but it’s not the same.
I accepted that he planned on leaving me despite I wanted to change and make things work.

I downloaded a dating app, matched with any guy that I had something in common with (military, love for food/traveling) and that was that. No dirty messages, flirting, etc.

The last day he tells me he loves me. I almost instantly deleted everything. Never looked at the app again.

I felt like I should be honest tonight about what I did. He told me he considers it cheating. I don’t FEEL like I cheated. I FEEL like looking at the app actually made me appreciate him more.


AITA? Am I a cheater? IDK.