Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : So, my dad isn't just ill. He has Parkinsons disease and has had it since aged just 39 (he is now 60) so as you can imagine he has progressively and gradually declined in health and these days he isn't really my dad anymore like we used to go fishing, football and bike rides. We did everything a father and his son would normally do. As time has gone on he has deteriorated and it has been hard to see him loose his capabilities he once had. 

So bringing it to the present day, i have my own place and live with my girlfriend and i am finding it very difficult because she is wanting us to go round and see my mum dad and family etc but i have slowly started holding off as i cannot bear to see him so ill anymore and it is literally killing me and hurting so much.

Like the other night we went round to have a take away meal and just chill but he couldn't eat his meal due to swallowing (parkinsons affects swallowing and muscles in throat) and he kept coughing and choking, and then after that where we used to have a couple of Drambuies or beers we get into the living room and he is passed out straight away just asleep all night. It hurts that much i just go to sleep myself and let my girlfriend sit up with my mum and chat.

I simply am starting to take the stance of not going around nearly as much or avoiding it as much as i can to save my own mental well being but my dad is slowly withering away from a disease that has no cure and who am i to just stop visiting him, it seems so selfish.

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