This is an alt account for obvious reasons. So I'm in college and currently my next door dorm neighbor who I'll call Chris has become one of my best friends. He's funny, sweet, cute and has helped me through a lot of my personal shit. I honestly don't deserve him as he helped me through some physical and emotional injuries over the year. I see him being present for the rest of my life for sure. Over the course of getting to know him I developed some romantic feelings for him but thought it was best not to do anything as it would be awkward if we broke up. Plus he has never dated anyone or has been sexually active. He's starting to become more into Christianity and I'm not super religious so I feel like I would ruin him if anything were to happen.

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So Chris invited me to be his date ot this dance and I was ecstatic. We danced the night away even though I was on a crutch haha. Eventually he confessed that he had feelings for me and I was shocked that he did it. I said I did too but when I also confessed he had this serious look on his face and it seemed like he didn't care. I brought up my issues that I wrote above and he told me there's nothing I could do to harm him. It meant a lot and I asked him if we were official. Instead of saying yes he kept talking about not wanted to pressure me and we should go slow. After then we got interrupted and had to cut off the conversation. The rest of the night he didn't even kiss me so when we went back to our place I tried lay some hints down that I wanted to move things along physically. It seems he didn't care or was oblivious as he just got dressed and went to his best friends birthday party that he mentioned earlier.

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Honestly I felt like shit but eventually I moved on and started talking to this guy who I'll call Dan from my club sport who was interested in me. Chris asked me out on a date a week later but I thought he was toying with my feelings at that point. Over our break I met up with Dan as I had surgery in his city. He asked me out and we started dating. When I came back to school I felt like I had to sort things out with Chris. Chris asked if I was dating Dan and I said not officially because I didn't want to hurt him. Then Chris started saying how he overheard us sleeping together like not too long after he asked me on a date and that gave him some kind of anxiety attack. I got super embarrassed and told him we were watching a raunchy movie and he believed me. So we worked things out and we seemed to patch our relationship up.

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I've been trying to keep the two separated and had to tell Chris that I've been meeting up with others. But later my new roommate went and told him that I was dating Dan since break and now Chris is pissed that I've been lying to him. I think sometimes to protect those we care about we have to do things not normally ok but my other friends say I'm wrong and that I have issues. 

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I'm such at a lost reddit, was I the asshole?