Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : I'm at a bit of a wall at the moment, and I don't how to feel about this, I hate it. I want you guys to give me your opinion, because I can't give my own cuz I don't know what to think.

Bit of backstory. I met this person over the internet, and I've known/talked with her for almost 3 years now, and she really means alot to me. At one point, she was the only one I could openly talk to. This is the reason why I'm afraid I might lose her. 

To the story. So I'm just late at night, playing some games and I see her online, and because no one else was online, I decided to ask her. She decline, said she was heading to bed. I thought nothing of it, but that was the last message she sent me for the next 9 days. I messaged her a couple of times in those days, but I never got an answer, not even to a simple "Hey, how are you doing?". I felt mortified, so I contacted her on other social medias, since discord was not working. I send her a message, asking why the ignoring and all that. All I wanted was a simple answer on 'why?', but she couldn't even give me that. 3 days go by and I get desperate. I send a message saying "Soooo... that's it? Nothing, ever again?" 24 hours go past, and I finally got a message. What it contained, broke my fucking heart. She hadn't answered to me because one of her relative had died and she had had a pretty horrible week. I hated myself in that very second I read that. I apologized to her so many times and and I felt SOOOO bad. Haven't heard from her for 3 weeks after that message. I'm feeling really depressed about this shit and I don't know what to do. 

I'm sorry that this might not be more like AITA but a clusterfuck of my emotions, but I didn't any other place to post this. Thank you &lt;3