Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : For starts I don’t want this person to be dead and I am sad this person (x) is dead at a young age. 
X and I had a bad relationship. I trained x in work and x was lazy and at times abuisve about being lazy. X wasn’t from here and used that to their advantage plenty of times. I say that because x put down their abusive behaviour as being a hot type personality that only Xs people are. X also disappeared over certain holiday periods for weeks at a time to be home with their family but always have some excuse. Other people (me) had to cover their shifts. X got a warning and that was all. 
X was very very good at cosying up to higher ups in work and anyone who didn’t get along with them x claimed were racists. 
The sad part. X died of a brain tumour last week. My social media has been inundated with comments what an amazing person they were even from folk who frequently bitched about them. 
I am hearing loads about it at work and I can’t help but in a complete rage about it. 
They died young it was sad I would never want that for anyone but they were still to me a complete asshole. And yet I can’t help but hate myself for being angry at someone who had the utter misfortune of dying so young. 
Am I the asshole here? 
P.s I have said nothing to anyone about how I feel I just act sad ( I am just not to their degree) and then let them talk about it till eventually conversations change. 
Also x only found out about the tumour 2 months ago and died due to a haemorrhage caused by it. 