Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : I’m gay. We’re both girls in this story. 

There was this girl I went out with uhh like 7 times? And she was okay, but I couldn’t see being her girlfriend. She sent me a text like every day and I was getting kind of tired of it. I wanted to reject her but she was nice enough and we weren’t official so I thought I’d do it in a nice way.

I told her I was having a rough week and attempted su*cide (censored for trigger) and couldn’t go on dates for 8 weeks because I was on suicide watch. She was all oh my god are you okay and saying no no it’s okay health is #1 and I was saying thank you, she said she was there if I needed anything and I thought ok, this is where it ends. 

But she kept messaging me almost every day, except now more stuff like “I hope today’s not too bad” and “how are you?” stuff. And she would send memes. I started conversations every now and then too but not as much. 

Then she asks me if I’m busy over the weekend and I’m like wtf, I already said I was on suicide watch. So I go “oh I don’t know which day I’m free because I’m going camping with my family” hoping she’s gonna get the hint. And she says oh okay, that sounds fun and I go “maybe you can come” but like in a vague way, she says sure just let me know which day soon so I can figure out my weekend. I never told her the day or talked about the “trip” and hoped she’d forget about it. 

I try being more distant and it’s not working because she keeps worrying about me. Eventually she says she’s gonna give me space and promises she still likes me and is here for me, and I don’t respond. Then she calls me. And double texts. And triple texts saying “that’s alright, maybe I misunderstood, good luck with everything and cya”. I felt bad so I said I don’t know about my health and after a while stopped responding to her. 

She texts me again, in barely like a week, asking if we could be friends and how I’m feeling. I say I’m better and she’s like “wow awesome!” and I don’t respond. But my read receipts are on and even when I ignore her sometimes she double texts me. She asks me to hang out again and I say my schedule is so crazy for the next three months I don’t know (which obviously doesn’t go with the suicide watch thing... but she doesn’t get it) and she’s like you know, I really meant what I told you and really thought we were friends, and I don’t know what it is on your end, which sucks. 

I felt bad and kept saying no I’m just busy but she said “then tell me when you figure it out” and I didn’t answer. She finally left me alone. 

I heard a lot about ghosting these days and I don’t know it makes me feel kind of bad? I have anxiety and I meant well, and she had a lot of points where she could’ve taken the hint. I thought after the suicide thing she would go but she stayed and kept checking up on me. I feel bad and don’t think this makes me an asshole but also try not to talk about it. This is the first time telling the full story.  