There are few things you should know before concluding.

1. Me (23F) and my boyfriend (23M) have our 2 year anniversary tomorrow. We live together almost from the start of relationships.

2. His mom works in another country and visits him twice a year. She has a flat in different city, so when she arrives, they meet and live there for the whole period.

3. His mom arrived yeaterday, and we both went to this city to spend some time with her.

The initial plan looked like that: we spend december 29-30 with her, then december 30-31 we go back and celebrate anniversary&amp;New Year. After that he returns to mom for one more week, then she leaves.

Today it turned out that we stay.

He knows what an antisocial person I am. I can’t even have eye contact when talking to people, not mentioning absolute nonsense that comes out of my mouth in the minute of stress and willingness to kill myself when people in the room are too loud (that scares me a lot). He knows that tomorrow there will be 8 guests, and that’s a fucking lot for me. He knows that his family will never allow me to sit silently in the corner. He has really loud family.

So, when today I mentioned that we should leave, he gave me the sad look and said “but I had so little time with mum”. And then started to convince me that we should stay, because “I can’t do it like that, I can’t leave her in the New Year’s Eve”. With eight guests around, I bet she will feel so fucking lonely.

I cried the whole evening. I wanted to leave by myself, but he didn’t let me. Eventually, he agreed to leave with me, but I refused. I told him “anyway, the celebration is 100% ruined for me. Be with your family, and I’ll just wait for this to end”.

Now I feel like bitch, because I’m gonna totally demonstrate that I FEEL BAD HERE and he is the only reason why. I don’t want him to have cozy celebration. I wanted that day to be ours. I didn’t want to spend it in fear and loudness around. Still, I understand how hard is to say “no” when your mom looks you in the eyes and begs to stay.

AITA for blaming him and behaving like sad shit while I actually CAN emphasize and will not die because of one loud evening?