Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST :  I'm going to start this off by saying that, I already feel like I am partially in the wrong, but I'm not really sure about another part (I'll explain this more in the story). Also it makes me feel really sick to write this because of our age difference, but even though I do like him that way, I really love him as a person and as a friend, and I feel horrible that I ruined our friendship. Now that I've really sat down and thought about it with a clear head, I'm ashamed of my feelings and I know I should have never told him about them.

So I'm a 17F and I have a crush on an 15M. I've liked him for several months (probably around 6) but because of our age difference I never flirted with him until he flirted with me. I also want to mention that I am autistic (he is too but very few people know aside from me), and I've never really talked to boys that much, all of my friends growing up were girls. I didn't know until after this happened that sometimes guys flirt with girls they are friends without actually wanting to date them.

 The flirting (at least I think it was) was stuff like calling me cute, winking at me, running his hand through my hair, smacking my butt etc. Because I'm autistic, I asked my friends if he was flirting or not because I wasn't sure, and they said it definitely was. I'm not saying this to try to put any blame on them though, I just want to make everything that happened and why it happened clear. 

Despite the voice in the back of my head telling me not to, I decided to tell him how I felt. I tried to tell him in person last Friday, but my nerves were too bad. Due to that I sent him a snapchat that said "Hey. What I was trying to tell you Friday is that I like you. I have wanted to tell you for a long time, but I didn't want to ruin our friendship." 

Well my worst fear came true. He never replied. I don't know if/when he opened it because there is a failed snap in the way and I obviously didn't want to send it after that. I can strongly assume based on his actions that he did open it though. Not only did he not reply, but we lost our streak (I didn't send one the next day and neither did he). He has avoided me at school the past 2 days. I haven't tried to talk to him. Even though I don't blame him, in way I wish he would just say something.

I honestly can handle being rejected and being called a creep more than just being avoided. I want to clarify that by upset I don't mean that as mad. More just I wish he would say something. I'm really mad at myself, and I hate myself for telling him, but at the same time I think it's probably more healthy for him to no longer be friends with someone older that has feelings towards him. I didn't even feel guilty about my feeling until after this happened, which I think makes it worse. I did think about it, but I didn't feel the same way about it that I do now. I also want to say that I do not feel like he should say something, it's just that I kind of wish he would.