First off, I want to state I am expecting an everyone sucks, as what everyone did was a bit out there, but I was ruthless. Secondly, I am going to try and give as much as I know from her side too so as much from both sides I can give are on the table and can be better evaluated. Third, I do suffer from schizoeffective disorder so I am also not always in the right state in my life. This is going to be a long one.

To kind of get a hint of what kind of relationship we had, we had a long distance online relationship that started with us being friends for a couple years. When we started dating I was 18 and she was 16, her in California and me in Indiana, the Romeo and Juliet law in Indiana being within 4 years of the adults age the minor is allowed to be with them, but her its still the age of 18 so I knew there would be risk. We also kind of grew more towards each other as we shared similar traumas, we are both child abuse victims, and both rape victims and we kind of were able to help each other through our experiences as we knew what it was like.

We got together after I asked her out (not a catfish, we had video called before) in October of 2017. We kept things going until December of the same year, her getting into trouble and getting grounded from the internet, and I told her I would wait for her. I kind of kept in touch with her friend when she got back online and we didnt contact each other directly as her mom knew about me and didn't like me. Finally on my 19th birthday I had to get back in touch, and created a secondary account akd contacted her, and we reconnected and continued our relationship.

We kept a nice relationship going for a while, her having really picked up art in our time apart, her even offering to draw one of my characters (this comes up later). We kept talking and she eventually confessed that she suffered from depression and told me that she does edibles and takes hits from the weed vape thing ( I don't care to know what they are called) and she was scared to tell me as she knows I dont like it due to the connections of my abusive alcoholic parents also being drug dealers. I told her it was fine, she had a decent reason to use it, but one of my main goals is to get her happy enough that she doesn't need it anymore, and I succeeded eventually.

Another thing she suffered from was her mom's boyfriend, he was constantly when her mom wasnt home groping her and sneaking into her room at night and stripping her (he didn't rape her, that was about a year before we got together) and finally after he got arrested for paying for prostitution her mom finally decided to press charges as he was also found with stolen items and drugs. A detective came to her house and got her side of it, and asked if she told anyone and she mentioned me, in which turn they asked if I was willing to talk to them about what I know. I agreed to do it for her, even knowing I was at risk of legal trouble considering the ages, and I had also seen nudes of her. I luckily didn't get in any trouble and they never askes about that, but at home her mom accused her of seducing her boyfriend and that she wanted to fuck him and smack her around for it. I offered when she turned 18 I would go down there and pick her up, taking her to my place and she could be safe with me and she was happy too, so I spent some time saving up, asking her too as well to make things easier but she was addicted to buying art, which consisted mostly of my character and hers as a couple even though I asked her repeatedly not too.

After sometime she grew a bit distant and then one day her mom called me talking about her and some other guys, one of which was her in a group chat with a bunch of gay guys who would send nudes to each other and stuff, I kind of let it slide. There was this other guy though, who in her contacts was known as E. I confronted her about it amd she confessed that when we were separated that she didnt know if I would wait for her, so she started looking and found him, apparently not telling him about me when I came back, not wanting to upset him. I also now regrettably let that slide as she came clean and stuff, sending me screen shots. I forgave her and we started to grow together a bit more. We had our 1 year anniversary, I bought her some gifts and stuff, and we spent the day together. Then we started to grow apart again and our relationship went on for another couple of months, of which we had a switch of me moving to her as she may have a job lined up at pixar with a friend she knows there, not that it mattered anymore.

I tried my hardest to keep the relationship interesting as she said she was growing bored but everything I tried she shot down until eventually we split up and decided to be friends. She said I made her happy but she wasn't sure if I was something she wanted to spend there rest of her life with, I asked if there was any chance of us getting back together amd she said no, I later found out why.

After a couple of weeks we were talking and she was upset at first, saying she finally worked up the courage to break things off with E, later turns out he was talking to other girls behind her back as she was talking to him behind my back. I talked her down until she wasnt sad and even happy. Then she randomly told me her parents weren't home, which confused me as she only told me that when she was horny and wanted to vid call or something, so I asked about it amd she said she had a secret to tell me and couldnt tell with her mom around and had to do it while actively deleting the post. What she told me was a fucking atomic bomb, but I wont say what it was until later.

Anyway, she asked me if I would let her keep my character as she saw it as a power couple and wanted to keep them together. I told her no and that I was kind of hurt by her comment, then she continued to say she was sorry and that she was hoping I would say yes to make things easier. She planned on using them whatever my answer was so I got angry with her. The next day I said fuck it and that I didnt care but she could tell I was bitter and told me if I want him back that I would pay her the money she put into it without my permission and I got on her about blackmail and all that even though she argued it wasnt blackmail. Eventually I said fuck it and left it open and even more bitter.

Then she had the dumbest idea in human fucking history. She wanted me to meet her new boyfriend, which I understood why we wouldnt get back together as she had moved on in less than a week. Me being upset and now depressed I didn't want to but she decided to put us in a group chat anyway. I tried being civil and kind of state stuff and when I mentioned being somewhat depressed he tried saying it was my fault that people treated me badly and yada yada. So I left the group chat and she got mad at me saying I am the asshole and I need to grow up and kept throwing me back in a group chat with him saying I needed to work out my problems with him as he kept actively calling me a pussy, bitch and that I wouldmt last a day where he was from typical tough guy shit. I kept leaving as they both attacked me and she told me I was being immature and I was attacking him and need to apologize yada yada.

I finally asked her about him, she had KNOWN him for 3 weeks, he was the guy she went crying to about our relationship saying she wasnt happy without talking about it at all with me to try and help our relationship grow. He was the guy who said she should leave me and she got with him while still talking to E and before she left me. I also found out she was cheating on her old boyfriend with me before getting with me so she is in a vicious cycle. Then she told me he had the passwords to her accounts and hers to his (something she wouldnt do with me, now I get why) saying they dont lie to each other. I brought up the big secret she told me and she told me to not dare tell him so I already caught them in a lie. She had also already sent him nudes in the 3 weeks she known him, pretty much admitted to me that she cheated on me. I still decided to be the civil one but I refused to talk to him. I even tried telling her he was a fuck boy, I guess on Reddit it would be r/niceguy and she wouldnt have it.

For the next two days she kept throwing me in group chats that I kept ignoring, her pleading with me to make peace with him because I am one of the only two people in her life that truly make her happy, me and him, so at this point I knew she didn't give a fuck about me. So I told her no, and I suggest she stop because I am tired of her and her time with me she should know that what I have done to other people who crossed me I am not one to be fucked with.

They both kept fucking with me....and I snapped going to his direct message sending him a screenshot of her big secret without even saying a thing to her.

She had sex with her dog. I put on the screen shot saying when she cheated on me she had the decency to do it with another human.

I followed up in her DM saying that I am not one to be fucked with and she gave a quick fuck you, then blocked me. He followed up messages to me saying she was crying, at this point I truly didn't care, I was on a warpath. I told that her future is in my hands, and that I still had the number of the detective I risked myself to talk to for her and he immediately broke down, telling me I win, don't tell him or her mother he said I hurt her enough and what else could I possibly want from her. I told him I don't really have a reason to not tell them, I didnt care anymore. He broke down, pleading with me, telling me I win, apologizing, asking me what I want to get this to stop. I said I want one thing, exactly that, I didn't even say what it was, nor did I really even think about what it was, but he had a hell of a guess. 