TL;DR caring husband likes to talk about shit, I just wanna be left alone, AITA? 

My husband(29), is in touch with his feelings, a little on the sensitive side, likes to talk about feelings and things of the sort. Well me(28/F), I don’t, I was raised you squash that mushy stuff down, put a smile on your face and carry on about your business. 

I have a Neurodegenerative disease, with it deal with depression, I’ve considered taking my own life, because I don’t want to live with this shit.  I take meds to help with the depression, talk to a therapist. Recently just started disease modification therapy, to suppress my immune system. Lately, the spin, the depression, anger, and anxiety has been more than I can/want to handle. Sometimes it feels like if its not addressed, then it’s not there, just squash it down. 

On bad days I just want to be left alone, don’t want to talk about my thoughts, where my head is at, things that are going through my mind. Really just want to be left the fuck alone, to process. My husband tho, wants to sit and talk and hash everything out. I tell him I don’t want to talk about it, I’ll try to change the subject but am usually unsuccessful. He’s persistent with the damn questions, some I’ll answer just to try to ease his worries. He says talking should make me feel better. It doesn’t it makes me more angry, angry that he won’t leave me alone, angry that I have this stupid disease, just angry. It usually ends in me crying, and him upset that I’m upset and that I’m not willing to share. 

Other days, I have have a dark sense of humor mixed with sarcasm, and he gets upset. I know he cares and is just worried, I can see how he doesn’t think the things I say are as funny as I do. 

AITA for not wanting to talk about my feelings, when my husband so clearly does? 