Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : I live in a very Islamic country. And my family are very religious Muslims.

I am a trans woman and if they were to find out about this they would abandon me and I might even end up dead. So of course i want to get out of here and leave my family in the next year. 

But my mother has been sick for the last 4 years. And I'm very close to some of my cousins and I can't imagine how they would feel if I left.

I feel very selfish but at the same time I don't wanna be stuck here and be miserable for the rest of my life. 