She was constantly lying to me, whether it be out of kindness or to protect the relationship from heading towards an argument (meaning bad things she's done but has lied to keep me from questioning her). We've constantly had arguments with each other and she even started feeling like we weren't meant to be. So the 3rd time I broke it off, I felt sure I wasn't going to be with her, as I had no emotions. This was due to the fact that she is extremely selfish and wouldn't even console me when I was in a bad state. She then started to say things like I'll kill myself if you leave me, or she couldn't get attracted to other men. Being the asshole that I am, I decide to stick with her to make sure she stays safe, but I've really had enough at that point. Fast forward a few weeks later and the lies ensue. I face my fear of having a death on my soul and just tell her I've had enough with the lies, I break it off for the last time and she's quiet for a few days. She hasn't killed herself at that point as I've seen her online and she's tried to message me, (I've blocked her everywhere). Then I get messages from her on Instagram somehow, saying she'll actually kill herself, and I replied with "well atleast you won't be able to hurt anyone".......
I'm not familiar with Instagram but I think if their profile picture disappears they've blocked you? Correct me if I'm wrong. But I'm feeling guilty as fuck and anxiety is eating me alive. I'm religious, so having a death on me is.. Idk how to feel. AITA? 