Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : My bf is an alright dude. He's my best friend who is a guy, and I appreciate him lots, but recently I've been thinking that I made too many rash decisions along the way in pursuing him. 

First off, I'm bi. This relationship was my first, and I was the one to ask him out. I got rejected (for good reason) at first, but somehow we ended up becoming gf/bf anyways. He says he loves me, and I used to love him but I think I may have fallen out of love.


The reason is because, well, I guess it was mostly unfortunate circumstance. I just wasn't prepared for guys to be so, base, I guess. No offense. We were pretty good for the first couple months, though he would joke a lot about my small boobs, like small depreciating jokes, but enough to make it known that he didn't think they were a plus, at least. That was a pretty unfortunate shock, because I actually really like how small and non-womanly they are, cause I *love* androgynous looks, unique looks, bodies that are like fine art. I didn't mind at first, it's just different preferences, but then later he kept revealing stuff that made me realize just how *different* he was. Like, he was into girls with &gt;C cups (once he actually told me, post-sex, that if there was a me with bigger boobs, he would date her...and the sad thing was that later I asked him about it, and I think basically this was his way of trying to show that his attraction was "more genuine, not only in the physical sense." While internally, I'm like, "I'm gonna take it how he intended, but boy, you cannot get more stereotypical guy mindset than this...", again, I *prefer* the look of no boobs to boobs, fucking A) He's, I dunno, just another straight guy with hormones, and looking back, I'm not sure why I expected something other than what he is at face value. It's not his fault or anything, it's just, so goddamn disappointing, I guess. I thought he would be more like me, more open to not standard guy-view types of beauty. Again, I don't know why I expected this. Like to me, he is the most beautiful dude on this planet. I love his unique features, I find him sexy because his face is memorable, even though maybe others wouldn't. But my view of beauty is: fat girls, skinny girls, fat guys, skinny girls so long as they've got something different about their face. Guys have a really limited definition in comparison, and again, I'm not that, and I guess I dunno, it hurts a little. I thought I would be considered beautiful, at least by the one I loved, cause I don't really understand how you can love someone without thinking they're beautiful. But I guess I'm wrong. He tells me he looks at other girls, and that he can't help it, it's just that if a girl walks by with nice big titties or if a girl that's physically his type walks by, he's gonna look. Like, yeah, I get that, I get that it's out of his control. But he didn't really ever look at me...I didn't catch his eye, I won over his heart. He finds me attractive, 'cause I've got an attractive personality. He thinks that's OK, and that's normal, and I ought to be satisfied by that. But in my way of loving, that's called settling. There's supposed to always be something about your partner that you find beautiful (their eye color, the fine shape of their eyebrows or their eyes, the cute way one cheek is a little plumper than the other) that doesn't fade with age. How else will you still find the other attractive as you age and change? Anyways, I explained this to him, and he understands that I'm different but can't relate. I guess after learning that I'm starting to fall out of love with him.

Anyways, that brings me to my main point. I've seen lesbian/bi girls (and one bi/regular dude, idk) look at me in the way you know they mean business. I read online that lesbians think more like I do, although I realize this may not be true for all lesbians. Am I an asshole if I break up with my boyfriend (also best friend) now just because I don't want to have to deal with someone who has a different taste in beauty? Don't hold back, I feel like an asshole.