So I met this girl at work about 6 months ago, and we immediately clicked. After 2 or 3 weeks of geting to know her, I asked her out. Only, I made the mistake of asking her to "hang out" instead of explicitly asking her on a date. She said yes, but the next day I found out that she did have a BF. I thought "that's fine, she's a cool person and I like having friends." We didn't hang out, though, and I never persued hanging out with her outside of work again. I did feel like I had caught a bit of the feely feels, but I figured I'd get over it and things would be kosher. I know a lot of women who I value as friends.

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But we did talk a lot. Our positions at work caused us to spend a lot of time together talking alone. The more I got to know her, the more and more it became obvious that we had some pretty bonkers stuff in common. Tons of stuff in common. I started to feel like I had never met anyone like her before. I fell for her pretty hard, and I was in way over my head emotionally before I realized it.

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Eventually, she left that job, but we kept in touch over FB messenger pretty often. My feelings grew to the point where I just couldn't get her out of my head. I became very, very depressed and started seeing a therapist for the first time in a long time. It highlighted the fact that I depend too much on others for happiness. I felt like I had to disconnect from her, and that there was no way for us to be friends without it being a toxic, one-sided thing. I didn't want to feel like I was leading her on in a friendship way for too long, and I felt like it would be best for both of us if we weren't friends while I tried to work on my co-dependency issues and my obsession with her.

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Since she was already involved with someone and she seemed happy with what she was doing on that end, I didn't want to tell her about my feelings. So I unfollowed her on Facebook and became less responsive on messenger, and I eventually quit responding, hoping she would get the hint. I felt like she was owed an explination, but I didn't think I should tell her about my feelings.

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But one day, she texted me, agressively asking for an explination. I told her that I had very strong feelings for her, and that it was probably best for both of us if we weren't friends. She was very hostile, accusing me of not seeing any value in her if I couldn't put my dick in her. Then she blocked me on all social media platforms that we followed each other on.

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This was a month ago, and I am crushed. I've never met anyone that made me feel the way she did, and I'm not that young anymore. I really had no idea what to do that wouldn't end with one of us getting hurt.

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I know that my fixation on her indicates that I have some serious soul searching to do to improve myself as a person, but I feel like I tried the best I could to what was best for me while also doing what was best for her.

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