First off, I’d like to acknowledge that I’m probably the asshole in this scenario but I just kinda want to know if this is an ESH situation or whatever, yknow. Out of curiosity.

Anyway, I was with this girl for about 3 years and things were rather good between us, great actually. The only problem with our relationship was that our sex life was rather dull. She still lived with her parents who were pretty much ALWAYS home, collecting disability, which made any real fun virtually impossible and I was living in my van at the time to cut down on costs (yeah yeah laugh it up, not the best place for a lay). That was always ok to us though, for we thought it made the time we did have alone particularly special.

However, a couple months ago, I was diagnosed with Peyronie’s disease, an uncommon form of ED. When I next saw my GF, I mustered up the courage to come clean about my condition, so that she wouldn’t wonder what was up with my ding dong when we got down (or attempted to at least) to business. But after I told her, she laughed in my face and called me impotent. We then got into a heated argument. I felt so wronged by her because I honestly thought she would at least be understanding. In the end though, she did apologize and claimed she was just fooling around and we ended up successfully making love that afternoon. But her comments REALLY irked me for next couple of weeks.

I finally let it get to me one day and I decided to go to a gentleman’s club to prove that I was good enough to get any woman, ED or not. I snapchatted myself getting a dance from multiple strippers and I really only intended my friends to see it but my gf, who I guess was stalking my socials, saw it too and got pissed off big time. We had a major falling out but she ended up forgiving me and accepted responsibility for making me do what I did. 

But a couple of weeks ago, I realized that I don’t really have to prove myself to anyone. I shouldn’t have to be self-conscious about my condition and I shouldn’t need acceptance from women to feel confident. And at the core of this struggle for acceptance was basically my gf all this time. So I weighed my options and ended up ghosting her, since I have no permanent address. I mean, she did put me through that ordeal and she was a little racist and perhaps islamophobic as well. So I kinda feel like I might not be the asshole in this situation since she at least partially deserved it. Idk you guys tell me. 