My (F/23) ex (M/21) and I just broke up this week because he felt like he needed more time to focus more on his acads and himself. He has clinical depression and couldn’t identify his feelings towards anything (including me anymore). We talked about it and decided to stay friends because we’ve been together for almost 6 years and we have a strong foundation built from friendship. To me he’s my bestfriend. But of course like any other break up-even if it was our decision, well mostly his to break up, it hurt so much for the both of us. I still want us to keep trying but I think he really needs time for himself right now. As someone that has been by his side for so long; I always , always want to be there for him. But he told me that I shouldn’t anymore because if I’m always there he wouldn’t be able to figure things out on his own. 

So here I am bawling my eyes out to sleep every night. It still hurts because even though we agreed to stay friends, to me the way he acts feels like he doesn’t need nor care for me anymore even though he says he still does and always will. It’s only been a week and I’m still grieving. Earlier today he invited me to go drinking with his two friends that were both girls/bi? He said he wanted to drink till he gets drunk (and he’s not the drinking type of guy so this is new to him). I felt hurt because I feel like he doesn’t care that I’m still on my grieving period with our break up and he invites me to drink with TWO girls. Of course I’ll still feel hurt. So i decline because I was upset and really didnt feel like talking to his friends. I want to talk to him though but he just cant talk to me straight.  And then he gets slightly pissed at me for my reasoning. I got more upset, hurt and also pissed. I just slept to clear my head and rest my heart. I don’t know am I the asshole here? 