Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : **TLDR: I made a bad joke over text that sounded like I was depressed and about to do something serious. I tried to clear it up. My best friend thought I had a plan in place anyways and called my housemate. I haven't spoken to him since, and now I don't know if I can be friends with him.**

About 2 weeks ago, I was texting a really good friend of mine. He was going on about long lasting anticoagulants and I had a laugh because they're medicines designed to help with heart problems by thinning out blood. I thought it was ironic that we'd have to wait for them to kick in. I jokingly texted him that we should all just die instead and he taken aback.

Here's where I fucked up. When he asked me what I meant I was like I'm just tired and I want to sleep, idk what I'm saying. He said he thought I was planning to do something serious, and I reassured him I had never been happier. I realised I sounded very depressed and spent a good hour awake afterwards to make sure he understood I was ok, and then I went to sleep.

The next day after I came home from work, my housemates asked to speak to me. He called one of them and expressed concern. She freaked out and then got my other housemate, and they decided to knock on my door and check on me. (My housemates and I are trusting of each other so we tend to keep our doors unlocked when we're home.)

Needless to say I got pissed at him. I thought it wasn't right of him to call my housemates because I spent ages clearing it up. Even if I was that depressed, to tell others is such a break of trust. He's done it before. He told some friends that I wasn't responding to some drugs when I was first diagnosed with a chronic autoimmune disorder. We had a long talk then about making sure to ask me before spreading intimate conversations we've had. Frankly I feel betrayed he's done it again.

But at the same time I understand where he's coming from. I have a long history of depression; I'm a former victim of domestic abuse and I have PTSD. I used to be on antidepressants. I've also only recently been diagnosed with said chronic illness. I understand he didn't have ill intentions when he called.

I just can't talk to him though. I feel we'll have to go through the same conversation we went through previously. I'm only just coming out with my story of abuse, having only recently celebrated a year apart from my abusers. I have had a hard time trusting people. He's apologised to me profusely but I don't know if I can trust him again, especially because this is the second time he's told our friends something when I didn't want him to.

AITA for not wanting to speak to him and for ignoring him in the first place? And WIBTA if I chose not to remain friends with him after this? I feel so morally conflicted. Sometimes I feel it's justified and other times I have to remind myself it wasn't ill intention.