I have quite severe depression and suicidal tendencies, and so to keep track of my mood, I note it all down in a planner. I had another attempt recently, which I told my best friend, M, about. A friend of mine was flicking through my planner and found out that I recently had another attempt. 

For some context, she and I have bonded about our mental health issues before, so she might want to be updated about these things. She also comes to me often when she’s not doing so well, and trusts me enough to tell me about her attempts and episodes. The only issue is I’m not close enough to her to tell her about all my numerous suicide attempts and etc, and also didn’t think it was a big deal. I also didn’t really want it to be spread around, and she has a tendency of telling our other friends want happened, because she thinks “they deserve to know.”

When she confronted me, she texted me: “I saw your planner. Why don’t you ever tell us [she and our other friends] about this shit? Why don’t you talk to us? We just want to help you”

Me: “I’m okay now, don’t worry! I just didn’t want to tell lots of people. I did tell M, though, because I just wanted to get it off my chest” 

F: “You’re not reading my tone right, why wouldn’t you tell me” 

Me: “it’s not a big deal, I’m feeling loads better right now” 

F: “No, it is a Big Deal. If it wasn’t, then why’d you tell M instead of me” 

At that point, I stopped responding because I didn’t know what to say. I saw her yesterday, and said hi, and was ignored. She’s been sending me death glares, and blatantly ignoring me. 

TL;DR - a friend, who shares a lot of her experiences and depressive episodes with me, and who I have bonded with about our terrible mental health, is mad at me for not telling her about my recent suicide attempt, and talking to my best friend M about it instead of her. 