Okay,my birthday was the 18th and I just turned 21,and my friends who go to college far from me came home for spring break,and I don’t really want this to be an excuse but I have depression and sometimes its hard even to get out of bed and want to go hangout with people and even kind of a fear of driving cause I was in a wreck as a newborn and I guess it is a subconscious fear and whenever i am driving i feel anxious because i dont trust other people and it just makes me super nervous, and cause he lives half an hour away from me  i am kinda afraid to drive there,but this guy has been my best friend since high school and I know I let him down by not hanging out this entire week,but I planned on hanging out with him on my birthday but I celebrated with my family (which includes drinking,and we had kinda made plans to hangout but I didn’t know the time my family was coming over so I told him he could make other plans (which he did and I was fine with) but my other friend ended up coming to pick me up and I hung out with my other friend,and I talked to him this evening and I feel horrible about this,so Am i the asshole?