Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Hi,

I don't really know how to explain it so I will just say the facts and how I feel about them.

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Important: Even if it doesn't seem like it in the story, I'm recognized to always say the truth, even when it's not in my favor. It sound silly said like that but my totem name is lune franche (I'm french, sorry, but it sounds better in french, it means frank moon in english). I know I'm young, and I don't know everything about myself, but please trust me when I say that everything that I say in the next lines will be exacly what I mean (even the thing with soul mates, even that I didn't left my boyfriend because of my fuckfriend)

If you don't trust me on that, please just don't read the next lines, you can think I'm the asshole it's okay, but please don't think that because of something that is not true

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I'm young and it was only a 2 months old relationship so it wasn't a really serious relationship but I want to know if I was in the wrong.

Last monday, I left my boyfriend by texting him. I planned to tell him in real life but my mother forced me to go to the hospital (mononucleosis) and when I returned home, he had left all these kind messages and I just couldn't wait two days  to tell him. The next day I had prepared to see my ex-fuckfriend (we didn't slept together when I was with my boyfriend) and sleep together. The friday before that, we hugged (sometimes we do that, it's nothing sexual and my boyfriend was ok with it, because our friendship is more important than the sex we had, and he needs affection sometimes) but it was more than just friendly this time and we just couldn't help it (if there was soul mate for friends/fuckfriends we would be soul mate)(I don't believe in soul mates usually).

I didn't broke up with my boyfriend because of my fuckfriend, he was only the trigger. I wasn't ready to be in a relationship. I needed more liberty and more times for myself (to learn more about myself) and this relationship was not good for me and for him. I kept making limits to the number of times we saw each other (1 time by week). My fuckfriend was the trigger because he reminded me of when I had more liberty and more time for myself.

Also, he really thought that we were going to spend our life together... I mean, we're 15 years old, calm down please.

So when I told him that it was over he insulted me, tried to bargain and apologized. I accepted his apologies obviously but refused to bargain and decided that we would talk about it in real life wednesday. 

And tuesday I saw my fuckfriend and we slept together. I decided to do it because I was free, I mean I might as well enjoy it. Now that I think about it, I know that it was because I wasn't good mentally and I just wanted someone to think that what I did was okay

You, do you think it was okay? 