Full disclosure, my grades have been falling for the past year or so, I believe it’s mostly because of stress and self esteem issues, my parents think that I am putting up an act and using this as an excuse. My grades have finally picked up during the past month or so after addressing and trying to solve these issues,  and even though I am not in the top 3% like I used to be, I am happy with myself. My parents on the other hand, keep making fun of my ‘excuses’ multiple times a day, saying I was manipulative and just lazy. 

For the past week or so, my mom has been tutoring a student. She is an economics teacher, and while I don’t study economics, my mom keeps talking about how better of a student the girl she tutors is. How organised and better she is, how she doesn’t put up any fake excuses. My mother says really inappropriate things she feels bad about later on when she is angry, stuff like how I was born to make her put her head down in society, and my brother made her proud, how I would be a garbage man in the future etc. I never mention these things to her and she mostly forgets that she said them in her rage. 

I finally snapped yesterday and told her all these things and how it would be better if I just got to be myself and do things at my own pace, we haven’t been talking since. My parents are quite angry with me. I love them to bits, I am very fortunate to have them, and I feel like they are amazing, just not perfect like anyone else on the planet, and I keep apologising and I feel sorry but they still aren’t listening. I just wanted to know if I was the asshole.