Okay so a little context, I’m 23 in a serious relationship and have a whole host of medical issues. I’ve never wanted a kid, even at age 5 I found the idea of baby dolls etc just ugh. This idea evolved and changed as I did and eventually developed into where I am now which is even if I wanted one having one with my medical issues would just be dumb and dangerous for everyone involved. 

My cousin is the eldest of us all and has always been a family woman (honest to god I see nothing wrong with that, it’s just not for me) she’s happily married and is expecting her first. And so the family has gone into a bit of a baby craze. 

I live quite far so I’ve avoided most of the madness, but I went to see them all last weekend with a knitted blanket I’d made for her as a gift. This started the comments: “you’re obviously very mummsie think of what you could make for your own” “you’d be a great mum” “it’s what you were born to do” “oh your opinion will change when you’re older” 
To all of this I just laughed and made jokes just trying to get past the awkward but it’s a full 4 hours of these little gripes till my cousin says: “Honestly [my name] you’re so stubborn, believe me in a few years all your “opinions” will change then that job of yours won’t matter. I just hope it’s not to late and you don’t end up alone and bitter. Honestly having a kid is the best thing a woman can do and nothing can compare” 

This really angered me so I (somewhat tipsy and just kinda very done) snapped back “well sorry I have more ambition than being a breeder, have fun with a wrecked vagina” she broke down crying and that pretty much put an end to the family gathering. 

I feel horrid about it all and I really didn’t mean it. She’s always wanted a family and I’m so happy for her but I’ve felt like I’ve always respected her choices and she’s never respected mine and it kinda popped at the worst moment. I really want to say sorry but she’s now posting these really pathetic and snide fb posts and i really am just kinda tired. 

Small note: my cousin and that side of the family knows about my medical conditions, I even brought them up to point out how unsafe it would be. But they still continued. I know that doesn’t excuse what I did but I hope it explains why I got so angry. 

TDLR: at a family gathering and got crap for not wanting children, I snapped at my pregnant cousin and now she’s posting all of this stuff on fb and I just want the whole ordeal to be over. 