I'm now 37 weeks and close to labor. I'm 24, 23 when I got pregnant. I'm very conflicted at the moment but the choice has already been made, and we will be raising this child. I just want to know if I did the right thing. Here's the back story: 



Some months before I got pregnant I got a call from the hospital after a routine PAP smear test. They found cancer cells and I was to visit them ASAP. This is all after a year of remission from my breast cancer. They told me I had to quit the birth control pill because the hormones could be influencing my cervix. I quit that day and had planned to get a coil in after my second period. 


A week later I got my first period. But the second period never came. I went to my GP and said "doctor, I'm now 1 month over time for my period and I'm worried". He said "don't worry, it can take up to 6 months for your period to regulate again". So I had no worries. He didn't recommend a pregnancy test. 


Two months after this my SO tells me I'm getting fat and to get a test. Test comes back positive. I immediately call my GP. He tells me to come in for an ultrasound. He puts the apparatus on my belly and starts laughing, like full on laugh. He turns the screen my way and there on the screen I see my daughter for the first time. Her head, back, rib cage, legs, all are formed. This is no just conceived embryo. He tells me I'm at least 3 to 4 months in. So abortion is still possible but I must make the decision very quickly. I decide to keep it after discussing with SO.


I'm very pro-choice, and if I was maybe 1 month a long instead of 3 the possibility of me aborting it would be 90%. But it was a person in my mind. 


Our situation is also not great for raising a child. Here's a list: 


- My SO is 21 years old (20 when I got pregnant), and still in college. He won't be done with school for another 4 years. 

- My SO is in huge debt because of parking/insurance tickets and all his finances go towards that (which is good, I want him to be debt free, but it needs to be considered).

- We do not own a house or rent a place, we live with my father (who now also has to deal with this new born, he's 65 and recently retired). My father agreed to give us the upper floor of the house (3 large bed rooms) to create a nursery, a bedroom and a study room. 

- My income solely goes towards renovation of these rooms, the baby things we need and whatever is left is for our food and other expenses. I also save 10% and another 5% for little one when she's 18. My net income a month is between €2200 and €3000. 

- I'm currently on maternity leave but before this I was working as a consultant. I lost the project I was on because of maternity leave. My boss is looking for a new project for me to start after maternity leave. But it could mean we have to live on 70% of my income if he can't find anything in time. 




So with all these points in mind am I the asshole for keeping her and wanting to raise her?