Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Some back story first. I was a 20 yo male virgin when I decided to get over my loneliness and socialise a bit. So I installed Tinder and a couple of days later was texting a girl. We were both unable to meet for a week so we just texted a lot and talked over call. I think she was really into me so I went along with things mostly because I'd never dated anyone and wanted to see how things go. Being rather immature I caught a few feelings for her before we even met and told her so.
We were going to do a movie date, but when we met, she didn't look much like her pictures and apart from that was much more overweight than she led me on to believe. Whatever little feelings I had for her and any sort of attraction disappeared then and there. I was kinda trapped with her in the theatre but I didn't want to spend 150 minutes sitting awkwardly with her. However she just leant in and kissed me when the movie started so I sucked it up and told her I didn't find her attractive but that she was a really nice person. She obviously felt pretty bad and I felt bad for being honest and it was dark and we somehow ended making out wildly for the whole movie. I know I shouldn't have done that but I'd never kissed anyone before and we were both really riled up from teasing each other all week. When we got out though, she must have thought everything was alright and was holdi g my hand though I didn't want to. I thought it would be really cruel to not hold hands with someone I'd just been making out with so I walked around with her for a couple of hours and left. When I got back I called her and explained that I shouldn't have kissed her and that I still didn't find her attractive but I did have a good tins with her today but we probably shouldn't do it again. I know, I'm stupid. She said it was okay and that she had a good time too.
Thst should have been the end of it. But I hadn't ever had the kind of emotional affection that I experienced over that last week and adding that with the physical affection I got that day, I couldn't forget it easily. My friends told me I'd gotten catfished and to move on, but I kept texting her and soon we mutually agreed to friends with benefits. I kept asking her to make sure she didn't have feelings but on one hand I had some sort of feelings for her and I was sure that she has some sort of feelings for me. Anyway we hooked up a few times but our relationship is almost like a normal one over text but our 'dates' are just sex. I don't think I'll ever be attracted to her enough to want to date her properly and she said what we have now is good. Am I an ass hole for doing any of this? I'm so confused. 