First of all: Happy valentines day, y'all.

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Second: I would appreciate the fuck out of you if you took your time to read this, as im  so lost and confused. I know it's a long post, but right now reddit is all I have to tell me if im crazy or not.

  
Before we start, I want to make it clear that I have ADHD and severe anxiety, both of which I take meds for. I also have depression (and i'm not faking it), and I have just started seeing a therapist. I am not having suicidal thoughts, but it is really hard for me to function. If it helps I am 14, very soon to be 15. 

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I went to see a therapist to change up my medication for ADHD So I can focus more during the day and get work done. I also was told that I am showing signs of depression, and a couple days later I really realized this. I was always tired, off task/ had a VERY tough time concentrating (more than how my ADHD usually affects me), I spent most of my time laying down in bed, I stay up late whenever I get the chance and usually don'get enough sleep, And to top it all off i'm veryyyy pessimistic and I have very little self confidence. I'm also insanely introverted, as I would rather play videogames, watch youtube, and be by myself than with other people. I usually socialise a lot at school by cracking shitty jokes that 1% of the time will get a couple laughs, but apart from that or having some conversations with classmates thats about it. 

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About a week or two ago I opened up to my mother that I was feeling really depressed and that I felt that it was affecting my schoolwork, as I had a giant research paper that I couldn't finish, even with an extension, and my grades which were normally in the high b's to mid A's had dropped to c's and B's. I was having fights with my mother who is always saying that I never do enough to help around the house, even though I do many chores when I get home because she tells me to do a fuck ton of stuff when I walk into the door. Then she calls me lazy when she asks me to do something else while i'm playing on my PS4. 

Before I opened up to her about my depression, My mother (IMO) gotten irrationally angry one night. I believe it was a half day because we had midterms, so school let out early. The only other midterm I had was Math, which I'm really good at and have studied for. I played for around 3 hours after doing chores, eating, taking care of our dogs, etc. Afterwards, I went and did some more chores, played with our dogs, took a long shower, came back down, had a snack, did more chores, all while my brother was having his turn on the PS4. He finally got off, and my mom said while I was going down to the basement that I haven't doen my homework, which I did. I explained this to her, and she said I hadn't taken a "2 hour break from electronics", Which I also did. She says that I didn't do any of my chores, Which I said that I did the chores she told me to. Now, my mother threatens to turn off the PS4 (she has this bullshit wifi blocker on her phone, such bullshit) because I didn't do enough, so I explain to her that I did, and I was going downstairs to play now. Around 7 minutes later, she turns it off after I was in the middle of a game, and I lost all my progress. I go up to her and ask why she turns it off, and she says "you didn't unload the dishwasher" (which she never explicitly told me to, and it may have not even been my turn to do it but she always tells me to anyway.). I tell her that's unfair because she never told me to, and she says i should've done it even when I wasn't told to, even though she knows I need things told to me because of my short ass attention span. I get really upset, go back downstairs, cool off a tiny bit, and write her a really long text message about how she's abusing her power, I shouldn't have to assume what job I need to do, and how turning it off was a bitch move (didn't say that though) because I did everything she told me to do. We have another conversation, and she says we're goign to try a week without the PS4. If I don't agree, then I lose my phone, PS4, i would be grounded, and proabbly won't see the ps4 ever again, so I have to unfortunately comply. Now, the PS4 is a fucking godsend to me. Its probably the only thing in life that I enjoy. After a long day of bullshit at school, I get to sit my fat ass down and release all my stress, anxiety, and whatever. Its one of the only things that really makes me happy ATM. 

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So, Up to today, things have been hell. My relationship with my parents has been deteriorating, I'm wildly unhappy, And my Mom is on my ass. Throughout the week she has been placing multiple restrictions on my phone, the only other thing I have other than the 1000 year old PC im on typing this. She wants me to do a crushing amount of chores and to not have the phone for 2 hours (basically I get it at 5). Throughout the events of this entire story, my mother has been  saying how I'm being useless and lazy, she has been comparing me to my younger brother and how he's so helpful, nice, Not lazy, doesn't argue, etc... and he always takes her side about how im a jerk. I don't think its my fault im not that helpful as I usually spend my afternoons in my bed with a dog, doing as much homework I can concentrate on, and watching youtube on my phone. Sometimes, she really cuts deep and screams at me. 

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Especially fucking today

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So, last night, I went downstairs at around 9:50 for some lays chips because I was hungry. I stayed up kind of late on my phone, like an average teen. I usually fall asleep with my headphones and my mom berates me for doing that, so i make sure not to tonight. I go to sleep at around 10:45. 

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I wake up at 6:30 to my mom yelling at me to get the hell up, so I get the hell up. She made a list of things I had to do the night before, such as get clothes out for tomorrow, brush teeth, etc. Im not four, these wont be a problem, except for the clothes. I have grown out of my clothes, so for an early birthday present, I asked my mother to take me clothes shopping. Instead she shoves a ton of shitty ass clothes I dont want, walks off, then very soon while im changing asks me to hurry up. Im done with her shit so I just get out and shove some random shorts im not gonna wear towards her. I tell her Im not wearing them, she gets upset, blah blha blah

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I wake up late at 6:30 because of my mom (which she claims Im ALWAYS late to wake up adn to get to the bus, which is untrue for the most part) and Im having trouble finding clothes. She explodes and goes fucking nuts screaming at the top of her lungs, saying its because of my phone and that its going away for fucking forever. She even tries to grab it but i snatch it back from her and leave after finding some shorts that barely fit. After a shit day, she screams at me first thing when she gets home to bring in groceries and to do a ton of chores. She also demands I put my phone down again. I do chores, I wait until I get to use my phone, I get screamed at some more, and she says she's going to talk about the phone again with my dad (which means mroe restrictions). Side note: My mother usually just tells my dad somethign and he agrees with it, then attacks me constantly for using my phone, he yells at me for "not paying attention", etc. Think rude ass customer but personal so he can be way meaner and poke fun at everything you do. I decide not to have dinner with my family because my mom has made me wick with what she is doing, and I cant stand her. I stay up in my room, just sitting in bed because I lack the motivation to do anything else. 

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she later calls me into her room, and says that my grandmother has bladder cancer. Im fucking crushed. My grandmother is the sweetest person ever, and I would take a bullet for her. I love her and my grandfather to death, and they are some of the best people in my lives. I'm crushed, so to take my mind off it I ask how dinner was. MY mom explains that she was upset I wasn't there and that im always being obstinate, So i explain to her  that it's because she's making my life hell by taking away all of my electronics. She then says "I dont want to hear it, im upset enough about my mother" WELL BITCH ME TOO, SHE MEANS MORE TO ME THAN YOU ATM. And especially after sharing this fucking heartbreaking news with me, my mother explains that "because I didnt set my clothes out and didn't wake up on time, I dont get my phone past 8;30", which is 2 hours before I usually go to bed. Im livid, and try to follow her aroudn to talk to her, But she does this thing where she goes "I dont want to talk, if you talk to me you lose your phone." I say to her that im wildly upset at hearing about how my sweet grandmother now has cancer and now she's taking away the last thing I have to make me feel at least a little happy. I try to talk to my mom, and even though she knows im having a really tough time wit hdepression and I explain this to her multiple times, she says" i dont care about how you feel or not, youre lazy and don't deserve this, stop talking to me or you will never get it again". I trusted her with my feelings and she basically threw them on the ground. Im less upset about the phone and more upset becasue I believe shes using my depression as a way to completely restrict all of my electronics, which would make me extremely unhappy

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after crying, idk what the fuck is hapening anymore, and im ready to give up at this point. So, reddit, AITA and being an overdramatic bitch, or are my parents in the wrong and are making things worse for me?