I have an incurable, life threatening illness. I was diagnosed with it when I was in elementary school. My disease has nearly killed me multiple times. It stole most of my childhood and it made me miss out on many academic opportunities.

Recently, my family and I found out that Make-A-Wish isn't just for terminally ill kids, it's also for kids with life threatening illness. We spoke to my doctor about applying and he felt that I would qualify due to of the severity of my condition and the fact that Make-A-Wish has already accepted kids with the same condition. He filled out all the paperwork and submitted my application. Almost immediately Make-A-Wish rejected my application. Their reason was that I was no longer sick enough. They said that if I had applied when I was sicker they would have considered me. 

We didn't even know I could apply at that point. Even if we did, we wouldn't have. My family thought I was going to die. I was quarantined for my own safety because my immune system was so weak.

Now, when I see kids who have received wishes I feel kind of bitter. Especially the ones who had cancer but are now cancer free. I get so frustrated because most of them will remain cancer free the rest of their lives but I will have to live with my condition forever. It irritates me that they're considered sick enough but I'm not. I'm not even angry that I didn't get a wish. I don't want to be sicker either. Honestly I'm not even sure why I'm so upset.