Hello first post here and its my second account.
Please ignore the name.
And im not native Englisch, so please forgive me if i make a mistake.

Its about my mother and it goes its way back a few years.

She has some Problems with her family, her brothers and sisters. She is the youngest out of 8 and always felt as if they didnt care about her, abused may be not exactly right but some part do suit the word.
She always was molested by her brother as a kid
This becomes important later.

My Mother started drinking after her Brother (which molested her) died when she was younger. It escaleted badly and she became an alcoholic.

Then she got sober for a while till, when i was 6 years old my father punched and then raped her in Front of my eyes.

Not long and she started drinking again.
It was a really bad time and it was really hard as a kid as i didnt understand what really was going on.
They took us away in a Facility for kids who cant be home.
We stayed there 3 and a half years.
In this time she worked to get sober again and many times drunk again.
She also started smoking Joints.

Fastforward, im now around 20 years old and my mother was sober for arround 14 Years.

Around Midsummer she drank again.
She told us, how it all didnt go well for her, she works from home, does nothing but smoke and watch series besides work. No wonder she got depressed again.

Well yeah we tried to help her be nice as we could. She also promised she would go in therapy. She never did...

Now im working in a place to learn a job.
Its well you could call it a special place for people with mental or other health Problems.
I started there around 2 months ago.
Yesterday after i finished work i got on the train and got a message by my sister that our mother drunk again.

I felt broken, so the way home was terrible as i couldt calm down anymore.

As i got home she was sleeping, i tried to talk to her but she was to drunk.

Later around 9 she woke und and first thing she did was some a joint, i was really dissapointed but more mad at this point.

My sister started talking to her but she started like no i didnt do anything etc.
But my sister had still her glass full of vodka in the kitchen...

I got mad and wanted to know where she hides the alcohol but she said she wouldnt tell me, i should go away.

Then i exploded, asked her in a loud voice why did you drink?
No answer...
What did happen?
My sister is underage what would you think would happen if people found out?
She was like as if she didnt care.

She suddenly asked since when i was home, god damm its 9 in the evening i saw you and heard you be drink, you even talked to me or did you smoke your brain out?
She sounded somewhat sad the whole time but she is extremly stubborn so she also got mad.

I said im calling my uncle, her brother.
Cause we dont know what to do, i cant handle her like this.

Last time she said it was also cause i had problems at worked, missed every week a day cause of my mental problems.
And she said it was also part of her start drinkig again.

Now its not much better but i am supposed to work 100% but coulndt absolve a full week till now.
Its a new place, i have 3 hour train way, i am just about to get used to it.

I told her i that i dont again want to be called a part of her problem again and she started defend her like, i know you only care about that.

Honestly i have no idea what to do, i dont wanna go home again. I wanna search a place for me to live alone but also dont want to leave my sister alone with my mother...

Today she woke me up as usuall but besides morning or goodbye she didnt talk to me

Aita for getting mad and loud at her?
