Please read before you judge me. I help people and I normally wouldn't do that, but this is a different case.

It all started innocently on one of my post that I made on subreddit lonely. It said that I seek friends and anyone that will talk about themselves. They just have to reply and sometimes write me first. And so she wrote me...

I told her to talk about herself and so she told me some basic stuff and then that her boyfriend verbally insults her and hurts her. Of course I told her to leave him alone. It would be before to be alone than abused right?

And so we continued. I'll skip some stuff because it would take a lot. I'll put the most important stuff. If any questions I can answer them. 

1. I gave her friends. I mean I made few post asking for anyone to help her. She said she was lovely and my father is my father I spent most of my free time with her. When I left her alone because I had to she wrote me she was too lonely so she pulled her hair. I gave her friends, didn't helped

2. I tried to find her a boyfriend. I used my other app to find her a boyfriend. She said she missed love. After I gently tried to explain to her that it won't work between us and I can't love her she told me she won't be loved anymore because I rejected her. I cried and shivered and was up until 3 am to keep her alive. I read "I'll go commit suicide" and passed out. When I woke up and asked her if she is alive she replied "Ugh". I thought I killed a person.

3. After all she called me a fake friend. My Internet sister helped me open my eyes. I tried to help this girl, gave my heart into it. My father yelled at me. I shivered, cried and stuff like that but I stayed with her, hoped everything will be okay. I helped twice so why not again? No..

I hate myself and don't mind hurting myself mentally but this was too much. I couldn't stay with her anymore. To not be bad on her I talked about my problems with her and she replied almost immediately. So yeah.. I don't know if I'm the asshole

(from her words, her family treated her bad and cared more about her other sister, her boyfriend had cancer and probably committed suicide, the closest psychologist took only 18+ people and she didn't wanted to call any social support.) 