Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : So I would like to first tell you about the whole situation. I am a fairly shy introverted person and my friend Vikky (fake name) was fairly similar. We shared interests in Memes, television series like The Office and Brooklyn Nine Nine. We had some Highschool courses together and after a semester became best friends. We were very talkative together and brought out eachothers sense of dark humour. We started talking on Facetime almost daily, hanging out at school, and on lunch breaks. I had a crush on her, but as I said I was **very** shy about things that can blow up and make me uncomfortable. Halfway through the year one of her friends attempted suicide in school. This was very scary for me and I have necrophobia (irrational fear of death). Later on I mention how I can not deal with the topic of death and ESPECIALLY suicide (Important to remember). I say that I had thought her friend wascute but the stress would kill me, I would also think it was my fault no matter what. We change topics and continue talking the rest of the night. Summer rolls around and she starts saying that she wants to tell me something, but is scared of me becoming awkward. She continues avoiding the point and I get pissed off and I Ghost her for the next day. She says later on that she liked me (I had the feeling) we talk about it and I say, "I want a relationship with you, but I am very busy for the next few months (Vacations, summer camps, and dancing classes)". She says it will be fine and I go with it, we started dating. We talk and talk online, but I did not have time to meet because of eight hours of work and four hours of online schooling. We met up once at a location near the school and grabbed lunch and talked, it was nice. I go on the big trip which I had been looking forward to for **two years.** I leave and we text because we were keeping the relationship to us and some friends. One night halfway through my trip she sent a snapchat of her leg with a large cut through it. I knew she had trouble with depression and anxiety so I asked her what happened. She said, **"Please don't be mad."** I knew exactly what she was going to say. She had cut her leg (Purposely) and her Mom was not home so she had to walk 3.2km at twelve Pm. She knew that I would not like it because of when her friend tried to end it. I was SO done with it and stopped talking until I was back. Our communication levels deteriorated until School started up again.  We talked less and less over the weeks because I felt I lost the spark, I was going to break up with her until I was told by a mutual friend that she was going through "Hard times" so I called her that night (knowing that it could be REALLY BAD). She said she was fine after I asked her several times so we moved on and talked about different topics. I postponed it for about two weeks until she texted me to, "just break up with me already" I said that I wanted too talk to her about it and she reluctantly did after plenty of asking. She thought that I did not spend enough time with her and it was true, but I had told her that I was REALLY BUSY. I said I was very sorry but I think we should break up. I wanted to stay friends, but she said to, "stop pitying me". She blocked me and then ended all our communications.

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I have thought of this ever since. I feel guilty but thier was a part of me that felt she was started all the problems. I would like to hear all of your opinions because maybe it will be less of my thoughts day to day and because I am returning to normal school soon (I did an outdoor program away from the school). 

Thanks.