Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : There's a lot to unpack here so i apologize. One of my close friends SO's close family member died last week. I leave next week to start work in a whole different state that's relatively far away from home, so it won't be easy for me to just come home. We had planned this week to spend together and going to our favorite places as a send off tour of our hometown before I go. Then this death happens last week very suddenly. I am also very close with her SO and the family member that died and the whole family honestly, and my heart breaks for them and I am also grieving the person they lost. (I knew her SO and family well before she even knew him, like 9 years before) I feel horrible for all of them, it truly was a tragedy. And understandably, she is now spending the entire week with her SO. 

Now I feel incredibly selfish for feeling this way, but my whole week with her is gone, and I'm spending it with my parents and no one else since all of our other friends are at different parts of the country already. I'm not mad at her or at anyone, I of course dont blame any of them, it's just the circumstances that really suck. It feels like I will just slip away unnoticed and then I won't see any of them until I come home again, which I'm not sure when that will be. I know its incredibly selfish to feel this way, and I feel guilty feeling this because of the situation. But yet it's still there and I still feel it. Obviously I'm not going to say anything to them because that would be a dick move and cause drama, nor do I want to upset my grieving friends. I can't make it any clearer that I also grieve with them and feel their pain, have offered my assistance with literally anything they need. 

Am I an asshole for feeling this way?