I'm an introvert, my SO knows this. I also happen to despise weddings, but go and try to have a good time when I'm there. We have 5 weddings every weekend for the next 5 weeks that I am attending. Leading up to this, I dread it. I usually want to vent about why I dread it to sort of communicate that it's not easy for me to have fun at these things but I really don't want to have a bad attitude while I'm there, so venting helps me with that. Sorta gets it all out of the way early.

These weddings are all SO's friends/family and she feels self-conscious when they all pry as to why I'm not there, so I attend to ensure she isn't in the spotlight.

My SO views my ranting as pessimism and that it isn't going to help anything, so why have a bad attitude? She also happens to love weddings and be very extroverted.

I really don't want to be a drain on her though, so lately I've taken to venting to my siblings/friends, when she joined a conversation with me and my sister who relates well with me on this subject, my SO was somewhat offended I was venting about it to family.

aita? Is venting about or dreading the receptions a jerk move that I need to correct in myself?