Hey guys,

throwaway for obvious reasons..

I started a relationship with a girl I really liked around two weeks ago. She was the one who asked me out, it turns out that we both felt the same about each other for a long time, but neither of us had the balls to ask until now. Unfortunately, we would have been much happier if this happened earlier, because we have around 1\~2 months of school left before we graduate, at which we would inevitably have to break up, because we are both going to different corners of the world with university choices. 

Because of that, I keep telling myself to not get too attached. Someone asked me what this relationship really meant to me, and I still struggle at that question. Truthfully, right now it feels a lot more casual, a fling kind of thing that will end soon. I also realized that I have no idea how to date, so this can be seen as practice... for the "real thing." I just put off thinking about it for a long time because these thoughts make me really uncomfortable, and I like her a lot. 

But at the end of the day, I can't with a straight face say that I am in this relationship for love. It's just that the fact that it will soon end is troubling me a lot.