Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : A slight preface to this; I’m 15F and all others are under the age of 21. Need outside opinions as many have been a mix of YTA, NTA, and ESH.

Around a month ago I got into a disagreement with friends due to me feeling left out and feeling as if there was a double standard present. I was unable to do something without them, yet they all did it without me. I originally responded very immaturely, vague posting on social media (all of which I have deleted now) instead of talking it out like a mature person should.

I got called out on being selfish (which I was, and I’m pissed off at myself for behaving like that), and that I was hypocritical for going to my other friends for advice when I go to them for advice when I have issues with these other friends.

It took me a while to respond, even though I should of responded earlier, because I was extremely anxious and not being able to deal with it properly at the time. I ended up seeing a professional I haven’t seen for a few months now and they gave me advice on what to do, which helped a lot.

I sent a message back around 2-3 weeks ago, apologising for my behaviour, how I handled things and that I should’ve been more aware of their feelings. A friend got vagued about by their ex and seeing how upset she was made me even more disgusted at myself that I could do that to people I care about.

I have gotten one response, which I haven’t responded to yet, but knowing that they are up to trying to work things about in a more amicable setting means a lot to me. I received it shortly after my message but I am yet to respond due to anxiety and feeling physically sick a lot.

One other person though sent messages before I sent my apology, essentially saying that I would probably never respond, and it felt like they didn’t want me to respond so they would never have to talk to me again. I felt as though it’s hypocritical that they say that when they haven’t responded to my message. 

So AITA for just wanting this entire thing to be over and also thinking this person is being slightly hypocritical?