Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Okay the title sounds bad but please here me out.

So, I will refer to my friend as X, as I don’t want to use her real name.

X is a girl I’ve known for many years, she’s a sweet girl, and she does have some mental problems, similar to me, she has depression, however it hasn’t been diagnosed. She claims she has anxiety, which I can see, however many things she does doesn’t qualify for someone with social anxiety. (Something I have)

Whenever she has a problem, she will tell everyone about it, and constantly receive support from it, and sometimes when she doesn’t get that, she throws these massive rants on how about nobody likes her and that she is thinking about death. (I do understand when being ignored by friends absolutely sucks)

So, overall she does get support from her friends, it’s great, I’ve always been there for her, I’ve been her shoulder to cry on, someone to rant at from any time of the day, etc. I want her to be happy, but I’m tired of sacrificing my own happiness for her, when I get nothing in return (I know I sound entitled, but believe me when friendships are supposed to be a two way street)

So, earlier today I was with her, and I had already a pretty bad day, and I wasn’t really in the mood to talk. And I was getting more and more upset, I didn’t want to say anything to make her upset so I just followed her, another friend was with us too.

We went to the shops and I said I was gonna wait outside as I didn’t feel well, she bought her food and as she left, she didn’t bat an eyelid to my direction and kept walking. 

I did go back to X and my friend, and the entire time she just ignored me and I just felt really bad. Eventually I wanted to leave and go to my class which was in 10 minutes, and she blanked me and kept talking to the friend with us.

I actually got really upset because I just felt unimportant. Later I was with a councillor and I was leaving my class, I got a message from my friend and he asked if I was okay and he noticed I was sad earlier.

I didn’t get anything from X, which just made me think she just didn’t care. We were supposed to go out later today, but I was still upset and she walked past me as I was visibly upset, glanced at me and walked on with another person.

TLDR: Friend ignores me when I’m upset but expects empathy from me

Would be appreciated if not hurtful comments were posted, I do understand if I am being an asshole, but I wanted to rant a little.

