So I'm going to be using the names Bob for me and Susan for my girlfriend. I apologize if this post seems to be in shambles, it's late and this question has been tearing me up inside lately.

So I, Bob, am a bisexual man. I came out while at college, and during this time I got really involved in my college's Queer Student Union. That's where I met Susan. We instantly clicked. We had all the same interests and loved the same books and bands. I knew she was asexual when I first met her, but despite that I sorta started falling for her.

By the end of my sophomore year, I found out that despite being asexual, she was still romantic and still craved intimacy and romantic relationships. At this point, she was a close friend, and since we had so much in common, I decided to go for it. 

Fast forward to now we're becoming really serious, and I think that's what has caused potential permanent abstinence to set in. I haven't had the guts to attempt to initiate anything because I knew she was asexual before we started, but I don't know whether it's "repulsed by sex" asexuality or "never initiate" asexuality, but I'm afraid of pushing her boundaries and ruining both our relationship and our friendship by being pushy.

I'm a virgin. I'm Catholic and the emotional crisis I went through before realizing I was bisexual meant I never tried anything with anyone because I was too scared over the possibility that I might be gay. When we started our relationship I thought no sex wouldn't be an issue cause I'd never had it before, but I'm realizing that was a naive assumption. Now that I'm comfortable with my identity, I want to experience that part of life, but I don't feel I can if I stay with Susan.

She's the first person I've ever been in love with, and that love was built on the foundation of our friendship beforehand. But, even though we love each other now, I think we'll end up resenting each other if I don't end it now. At that point, not only would the relationship end, but our friendship too. Even if she was willing to have sex for my sake, I'd feel like I was manipulating her because she wouldn't actually want it. Yet, at the same time, I feel like only a complete shitty asshole would break up with their best friend when they feel so strongly for each other over something as minor and selfish as sex.

**TL;DR: Girlfriend is asexual and I knew that going in. We're starting to get really serious, but I don't think I can keep abstinence going, so I'm considering breaking up before it gets to the point of no return.**