Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : It’s my Grandpas birthday today, and my Grandma’s hosting a dinner for my family to attend. We’re a small family, one of each except for a sister (Grandma (moms side), Grandpa (moms side), Father, Brother, Me). Let me give you some background really quick: I think it’s safe to say that every single dinner I’ve ever attended (around 100) has consisted of fighting or concluded in some kind of fight. I don’t want to go because I don’t want to be around it. I’m currently a pre-med student taking an extremely heavy course-load while working so excelling is a priority. Lately, my anxiety and depression have gotten worse but I’m trying to stay level headed so I can do well in my classes. Going to these dinners ruins my week every time I go. They activate these really deep depression episodes that last about a week. They completely disrupt the flow of my studies and me trying to achieve a mental health status worthy of being deemed “healthy”. My family puts a pressure on me of “keeping the family together” and tells me I’m an asshole if I don’t go but my brother is absent all the time while also leaving me to take care of my father since my mom moved out a couple years ago. My father suffers from Parkinson’s (tremor), Glaucoma, Chronic Pain, and Dementia. He’s an old guy (71), he had me when he was 50 (I’m 21), and I’m okay with that. My mom on the other hand, can’t stand the man or the disabilities we all cope with. As a result, it’s constant fighting, yelling, &amp; hurrduur shit. I can’t be around it anymore, I feel like I’m going crazy, as if I stuck in a hole that just gets deeper and deeper. Obviously I love my father, and will take care of him until the day he’s no longer with us. I just thought I’d be taking care of my pops at 30-40, not 21. 

Reddit please tell me if I’m the fucking asshole. 

TLDR: Family dinners are a constant shit-show and send me into depressive episodes every time I attend one. I can’t keep being around it for the sake of my mental health. 