Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : My boyfriend (21M) and I (21F) have been together for 3 years and been living together for that long as well. 

Just as some background info, he was interested in doing anal when we first started dating and I have tried it when we were first together. However, I really hated it as it hurts and just have no pleasure at all. Anyway I agreed for second time as I thought it would get better but it didn’t. So he did not push it often now. However, last time I gave in to anal again as we were in an argument and agreed kind of a forgiveness. 

Now onto what happened last night, he has been hinting at anal again the past week and last night I kind of gave in thought I could try and enjoy it. But midway through I kind of chickened out and told him to stop. He got angry and ignored me the whole night while I cried next to him(felt guilty mixed with abit of anxiety attack from thinking about anal/pain). 

Am I the asshole ? 

TLDR - kind of agreed into anal but chickened out in the middle. 

Ps. Post on mobile please don’t hate. 