Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : One of my closest friends has been in a relationship with this guy, we’ll call him Ben, for four months. Me and him became very close friends. Probably closer than I have been with her. I developed a crush on him but obviously never acted on it.

I went to stay at her house for the week, and me and her boyfriend ended up taking opioids. I have never taken them before. Me and the girl had a slight argument as whilst high I was lying with my head on his legs and this made her uncomfortable. I got upset with what she was saying to me and he gave me a cuddle and told me he wished he had met me first. Nothing else happened. He gave me a kiss on the head and went to bed. I was woken up by the girl on Friday morning to her crying saying we had to call an ambulance because he had OD’d and unfortunately he died. I have been distraught. She has obviously been posting on Social Media about how upset she is, with all these pictures and I feel terrible because of how jealous I feel that she got to spend those months with him instead of me. Am I a horrible person for being jealous? I feel like I am. 