Hi. This will be a long post so please bear with me.

Last year I completed my one year masters' degree. I came to the uni as a shy, awkward guy. Not having much experience in the realm of romantic relationships, neither was I actively looking for them. I was insecure and still am.

During the first few days of the degree I met this super pretty girl, who was way out of my league, I'll call her Sarah hereon. we hung out sometimes with groups and sometimes just us. I felt we were close for a few months where I ended up falling in love with her, but my life experiences told me that it will just end up as an embarrassment for me and ruin things between us so I never pursued her.

There was a speed-dating event that was organised in the campus to which she went and ended up dating a guy. I felt jealous and humiliated - I tried very hard to keep our friendship afloat but a sense of indignation was rising inside me. Months went on.. we definitely talked less, she started missing classes to hang out with her boyfriend and his friends. I told her what I felt about that.

One day we both got drunk and confessed our feelings to each other. She said she loved me...and that it was too late. From thereon she started texting me nearly everyday about how she feels about me,how she loves her boyfriend and me both, how she cannot break up with him, how I would've done the same or worse if I were her.But she also started lashing out on me if I hung out with girls she didn't like. She started dumping her assignments on me. 

During the last month of our course, we got drunk at a party and ended up making out in a bathroom stall. She said she loved me. I told her I loved her. The next day was spent by her trying to know who saw or knew about us doing that. She made me swear I wouldn't tell anyone because the implications that will have on her life would be severe. But it happened again, and then again.

I had no ways to address my frustrations. I felt the un-uttered secret just never happened. I felt used, manipulated and silenced. A friend of ours, I will call her Lisa, was to leave to work in a remote region for two years. Realising she was going to leave in a few hours, I told her when she wondered why nothing ever happened between Sarah and I. I asked Lisa to not tell anyone. Except she told it to another mutual friend of ours, Jane, on text. Later Jane showed Sarah the texts

Thereon,she would bombard me with messages, she would call me a liar, untrustworthy etc while posing herself as someone who is always anxious about her image and what people are saying about her. She said I contributed in fueling her anxiety. At some point, she also said, "Would you get me if I made fun of you for your looks".. Right now she has blocked me. and is enjoying her weekend with her boyfriend and all of my friends, including Lisa and Jane from the looks of it. Everyone has sorted out their differences, except me

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So, AITA?