I always feel that there's a pattern when it comes to helping out my friends. Whenever they need help I'm always there for them giving my best. But when it is the other way around I always feel helpless most of the time. Most of my frustrations during my problems is that they don't even bother to ask if there's something they can do or if not at least be open about it. Constantly being disappointed by my expectations, even the smallest act of kindness or help makes me want to weep right in front of everyone. I do know that when you help someone, you don't really have to expect something in return because you're doing it voluntarily, but even when I ask for help I'm generally met with this vibe that they don't want to help me at all which make me feel like absolute shit.

Sorry if I'm giving to much information away / vent here. I felt that some context was needed