Hey all! So good to be here on your screen!
I'm sorry for how my mobile app will destroy this format, but please bear with me!

Long story mildly short, I dated a man for 2 years,  ending 2 years ago. and got lucky that I managed to escape. On the short list of things he did, just to set the scene;
Locked me in a bathroom and a laundry room for respectively 2 and 4 1/2 hours because he thought I was spending too much time out of the apartment, broke a lightbulb on the wall behind me that was meant to hit my face, constantly forced me to watch him self harm and threaten to kill himself, actually attempt to hang himself in front of me, 'gifted' me an iPad and then made me pay $1000 for it and not letting me use it outside allotted hours, and forcing me to pay his half of rent and utilities for 5 months, and the list goes on.

I was a terrified 20 year old girl. One day, he told me it was time to renew the lease on the apartment for 6 months. He asked me if I was planning on paying 6 months, and I told him yes, fully knowing if I said no he would guilt trip or threaten me. At that time, I was forming an escape plan.
A week later, my brother and I moved all my things and my two pets out and I warned everyone in my life that he was either going to try and break in to find me or hurt himself.
He ended up sending many threatening texts and showing up to my work/my family's house telling them he was going to kill my pets and himself if I didn't give him money for rent.

I knew he wasn't going to make it on his own. And he didn't. He lives with his family in another state, but he probably is still in a bad financial place.
I still feel guilty about this. I try to rationalize my actions, and I really did not have the money, but I still don't feel good about it.
AITA?