Okay so a bit more detail on this... let’s start with who drunk me really is. I have two drunk personas:

1. Touchy - I’m super affectionate but really strict on consent when I’m drunk. I won’t even hug you until I’ve asked at least 2 times if it’s okay. But I also get really horny, so I usually just rub one out if I’m not drinking with someone I’d have sex with sober. 

2. Crying - I cry easily when I’m drunk but that’s usually when I’m going through a rough patch.

Life is pretty good so I know that he’ll probably encounter touchy drunk. And to make this very clear I do want to have sex with him, but every time we are together and get the chance I get super nervous for some reason. This usually doesn’t happen, I’m usually really comfortable with sex and initiating it is easier than boiling pasta to me. 

We have had sex before, but he initiated it and it hasn’t happened since. And there’s been two or three chances in between.

So to give myself a little courage and to let drunk me do her thing, I was thinking about drinking a bit the next time we meet. Not to the level of black out drunk, I’m talking 5 shots max (I’m a big girl with a pretty okay alcohol tolerance). A lasting buzz and a boost in confidence is all I need.

I’d definitely stop if he didn’t like it. It’s happened before, I didn’t purposefully get drunk that time but the person I initiated the sexual encounter with wasn’t into it and I stopped immediately.

So WIBTA If I used alcohol to help me initiate the sexual encounter?