Togetherness. Good.

Being thankful. Good.

People buying me random crap that I'm then obligated to fawn over like I'm really happy to have it despite it being just clutter and just over indulgent commercialism.

I know I am probably, and do feel like I'm an asshole. I feel like people getting me these things mostly just shows how little they really know. They try, but they aren't me. I guess I'm just a picky asshole, I'd rather get something I specifically need or want rather then have people waste money on things I'll just end up throwing out. Which then ends up in landfill. Maybe it's the lack of agency or the obligation that bothers me?

I think not getting presents would bother me less. Is this really fucked up?