So, me and a girl we can call Trish have had this on/off thing for close to a year. It's a weird ass relationship, and it's obvious to everyone, even complete strangers that she is really, really into me, like beyond a crush or wanting to hook up. 

I do like her company in small doses, but if I have to interact with her too much, I get really annoyed with her. A few days back we spent the day together and got fairly physical (no sex tho), but we spend a long time just holding eachother, and holdin hands. I fucked up, she caught me off guard and I regret that day. 

I met her again yesterday, and she was acting really odd, I think that day we spent together made a mark on her. Anyway, I started gettin annoyed with her right away, and just kind of stared at my phone to get her to stop talking to me.

My mind drew fucking blanks, I had nothing I wanted to say to her, I just wanted this meeting of ours to end. I had 0 interest in speaking to her, and I don't even bother with messages anymore. 

To b honest I think its best if I just ignore her until she gets the hint, even when she approaches me in public. I dislike her company, but if I tell her that she's gonna go apeshit. Am I the asshole for essentially planning to stonewall her, even though we ad a really special day a few days bac?