Is NOBODY wrong in the post ? POST : My godmother’s sister passed recently. Their family is very close to mine because of my parents, but I only really have vague memories of them from growing up before they moved when I was 9 (I’m now 24). When she was hospitalized my mom asked me to come to the hospital so I did to console her and the family. I didn’t really feel any personal connection to the loss but I still wanted to be there to support them. This was actually my closest experience with this kind of loss in a family. 

A day before the funeral (which I was not told about at all before) my mom asks if I can go but I am scheduled to work that day and it’s over an hour away. I said I would try to find a replacement to take my shift, which is nearly impossible on such short notice. 

The very idea of funerals make me uncomfortable, especially since it is an open-casket. Also, being very strongly atheist, I would be especially uncomfortable in a very sad religious environment. I also don’t want to be there expected to be as sad as everyone else for someone I barely knew 

I’m feeling so conflicted. I managed to fine someone willing to take my shift, but I decided not to go. I can’t shake that feeling of guilt. I supported my godmother and her family while her sister was in the hospital and visited my mom after it happened to console her. My mom sounded so upset about me not going but the the thought of it makes me anxious. Am I an asshole for not going?