Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : So my dad has suffered with major depression and BPD for quite a while, and a few years ago he had a particularly bad episode. At the time I was 15, and he would often talk to me as a sort of 'therpist'. Around that time I started becoming more independent and isolated myself more from my family - a few years prior however, my dad and I were extremely close. I just took my growing independence as a normal feat of growing up. Anyways, so one day when I was 15 he was confiding in me about his depression, when suddenly he started confronting me about how I no longer spent time with him. Then he kinda got tearfully angry and told me that I'm the reason he is suicidal/I make him suicidal. This definitely bothered me at the time, but I was more resentful/angry than anything. I've remembered the incident quite clearly since then. 

Fast forward to today, my 18th birthday, and I'm sitting down with my parents at the table (a very rare occassion) and we're just talking. I definitely  have alot of resentments towards my family and my upbringing (I come from a fairly dysfunctional family, and my upbringing has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster) and towards both parents, but I was actually enjoying myself while we were talking. Recently I asked to get an appointment with a psychiatrist and begin therapy again, as I've been struggling with what I think is worsening depression over the last few months. So we talked a bit about that. We talked a bit about how dysfunctional the family is, and reminisced about the tumultuous up bringing - but in a good light. It was kind of nice,and I actually felt close to them for the first time in years (especially my dad).  I don't remember exactly what my dad said to me next (but I perceived it to be in an accusatory tone), so then I brought up the shitty thing he had said to me a few years prior - how he told me I make him suicidal.

He vehemently denied this at first, claiming that he must have been talking to my mom (as he accuses her of that quite often) or that I was just remembering incorrectly, because he would have remembered saying that. I was insistent until I noticed him growing upset as he began to acknowledge that it may be true, at which point I admitted that it may have been a misunderstanding (which it was definitely not). My mom made us hug and then he burst into tears, very obviously hurt, and started lamenting about what a shitty thing that was/how he's a bad person. Now I'm worried that he is suicidal again.

This then triggered me, and now I'm in bed succing on a cigarette and feeling like a total asshole for having brought that up. It is definitely something that has remained ingrained in my.mind, and I've told my mom about it, but never brought it up with my dad. So, AITA?