so i’m 15. my mom has drank for as long as i can remember. for the past couple years, it’s really gotten out of hand. she would drink and try to hide it, because i really didn’t like talking to her when she was drunk. she was mean, would cause problems, would argue with my dad in the middle of the night. but worst of all she would go to work drunk, drink and drive and would try to drive me places while pretending she wasn’t drunk. i’ve found bottles all over the house.
i need to add that i think i have a lot of mental issues and i recently had to get hospitalized because i had a panic attack and i thought i was dying. after the doctor told me i had anxiety i went to talk to the social worker and i told him everything: how my mom drinks and drives, how i get anxious about everything, etc. he got this social worker to talk to my mom and now she’s going to meetings about her drinking, and they also told me they would get me help. no help has come at all. my mom stopped drinking for a couple weeks, at home at least. but yesterday she was drunk again and it was a horrible night. she started yelling at me about random shit like if i have problems at school and how school is making me act up. i kept telling her no and trying to remove myself from the situation because she was yelling and drunk and when people yell at me, i can’t really help it but break down and start crying. i gasp for air and stuff and idk how to stop it but it’s hard to communicate when someone is yelling at me. she kept blaming me for putting her in the system and that now she has to go to meetings. and when i started crying and asking her to stop she started mocking me saying, “oh you’re gonna have another anxiety attack?” and saying i was a bad actor and that she could see right through my act. i kept trying to walk away to calm down but she wouldn’t leave me alone. i asked my dad to help me but he just ignored me and walked away. i tried to call my sister but she was yelling at me to do it in front of her. this morning was bad too. she told me she wasn’t drunk last night, even though she obviously was. she told me to mind my own business and to fuck off, which was the first time she has ever swore at me. she said it had nothing to do with me and that gods the only person who can judge her and not me. i told her she needed to stop lying to my face and that i could smell it on her. she blew in my face and started yelling at me. i really don’t know what to do right now reddit. am i really the asshole for trying to get my mom to stop drinking and telling someone? she told me i wasn’t her daughter anymore and i’m really broken inside now. i really don’t know what to do