tonight my friends are throwing me a birthday party in one of their apartments. 

the issue is, that it’s not my party. they all invited a ton of people i️ don’t know, and it’s a lot bigger than i️ ever wanted (50+ people)

it doesn’t really feel like my party and it wasn’t what i️ had agreed to when i️ originally said i’d go
i️ don’t feel like going and babysitting a ton of drunk college students

however my roommate is really excited. she bought decorations and snacks, and a tiara for me for the party. i️ don’t want to be an asshole to her and dip, but i️ really don’t want to go to a rager and pretend it’s my party
