Preface: I've been dealing with alcohol and cocaine addiction since 2015. I've gotten 2 runs of more than 500 days but I relapsed in October and have been drinking about every other week since. 

When I was about 9 months sober last time i found a discord about being sober that i really liked. The owner of the server has seen me running a drug centric server and asked me to be a mod there. Things are going well and I get past a year. Then about 18 months in I have a massive falling out with my AA homegroup and get drunk. Since then I've been drinking and partying pretty much every time I get paid. I dont risk my job or house but I keep getting drunk. Thing is, I dont want to be sober forever. I have enough time before that I know the answers to the questions newcomers ask. But I'm not living the life I suggest. I feel like a fraud. So, am I the asshole for trying to help newcomers with advice I know works even when I'm not willing to follow it?