Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : Things that you should know about me that are relevant to the question. 

1. I have anxiety and depression. Both have been diagnosed by a doctor and I take medication. 

2. My brother is a marine and he is back home on leave before he deploys for a couple of years. 

3. My brother, sisters, and I went through a lot of abuse and neglect when we were younger. No one in our extended family did anything to try to help us. Also we NEVER speak of this.  EVER. 

4. Myself and my two sisters have all attempted suicide at one point in our lives. Our parents know about it but they never have talked to any of us about this ever. It is to be ignored just like our traumatic childhood. 


My brother has been home for about a week. We already have spent 3 days together in a rented home. On top of daily visits where we just hang out. My family has never spent this much time together ever. But since my brother is leaving we are trying to cram as much time together as possible. This is absolutely draining on me mentally but I can’t tell them that. They wouldn’t take it seriously and it will just create drama. Tonight we were supposed to go to a basketball game. My parents bought us the tickets, which was really nice of them. I just didn’t have it in me mentally. I tried going out to dinner and struggled the entire time. I felt overwhelmed and anxious and just needed a break.  So after dinner I said I wasn’t feeling well and went home. I know I disappointed everyone and I do feel bad about it but I just couldn’t. 
I know this is long and rambling I just had to tell someone what was going on. If you have taken the time to read this far, thank you. 