Before I say anything, I love my mother and am thankful that she at least tried when I was a child. But there are some things  that honestly make me want to get away from her. I'm also sorry for it being so long. I needed to get this off my chest. 
 
Basically severely sheltered me during my entire childhood...and things got worse when she remained. Whenever they'd argue and I'd try to say something, or she'd just ramble on about the fight for however long and I said anything that didn't make me agree with her..she'd go off on me and basically hound me and say that my step dad is brainwashing me. As if i don't have a mind of my own. Will also freak out and think he's leaving and makes me stressed. 

Saying every single time that I'm wrong and doesn't even say anything when he comes back. The same thing will happen after every argument. Trying to say every detail and attempt to make me agree with her. But when I just need to talk about something bothering me once in a while she tells me she's too stressed. 

She would simply waste money on too much food, trying to care for my lazy step dad, get him crud and pay bills. There were many times that I was turned away from my doctor&amp; dentist bc we couldn't pay. At one point, in 9th grade, a teacher who helped the special needs kids in the pe class ended up getting me a coat since I had no coat that fit, and we couldn't get one. 
 
I ended up being forced out of college a month in because of an issue. At the time I had some threats of harm towards me, ended up being empty, but she forced me home and it caused financial issues for me. Ended up not being able to get back in for a year and a half. 

After I learned to drive, she basically turned me into her little personal free cab. I understand helping once and a while, but this was just about every day. Still happens. Whenever she knows I have a free day from work, she wants to do all these things. Making it be like I essentially have no days off. Most of the time when I'm asked if I want to do something, I can't because I'm always with her. Or when I want to go anywhere alone she always wants to go or she spam calls me after an hour. It got worse after some surgery to her knees the last 2 years. She has even gone on about how she will move with me when I move out. Guilt tripping me and using my pets as an excuse to have me stay. 

I could say a lot more, but it would end up too long. But it honest to God feels like she's stuck to my side. After nearly 22 years of being alive..I feel like I'm going to be stuck like this. I love my mom and I'm sorry she saw dad die when I was young.  I don't know if it's because I'm the youngest. I can't keep going through her freak outs or her mental state in general.I feel like she's trying to live through me. Like she wants to keep me with her for her life. If I even try to talk to her about this, it will just end up in an argument, unfortunately. 