Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Hello everyone, Throw away account because I don't feel comfortable with the idea that people that know me might find my personal problems.

So I have been in a long distance relationship for a year and a half. At first everything went really well but I felt like we were talking less and less which I really did not like. I tried to talk to her about the issue many times as I believe that communication is really important in any relationship but she either ignored me, or told me that she will make some efforts without making any in the end. Note that she was usually just hanging out with friends or alone ( so nothing really important that takes time such as a job or studies), and came back home at night too tired to even send me a message ( which sometimes got me worried ) or reply to mine.

After trying anything that could go through my mind, I had come to the idea that the only way for me to make her realise how much of a big deal it was for me, and how much it hurts me was by breaking up so that it makes her realise it and maybe get her to make some efforts on that. To be honest, at this point I had already tried to adress the issue 8/9 times with no result and was pretty done both physically and morally and were not feeling able to continue like that for too long. I really loved her so I was hoping that she would finally realise but it actually backfired on me.

We have not talked for roughly a week. I was trying to hold my position as it was too late to go back, and was my only remaining option in hope of solving that issue. Came out that she thinks that I'm an asshole that just made out an excuse in order to break up. She accepts to stay friends though ( I had told her when I "broke up" that we could stay friends to add some realism to it. I dont know if this info is needed, Im just trying to be as transparent as possible).

She didnt seem to accept my explanations nor realise how big of a deal it was for me and keeps thinking that I just made up an excuse. However we keep talking the EXACT same way we used to with laughs and telling each others everything ( without the cute and sweet words ) which made me think that nothing is lost and maybe she just needs/wants me to insist ( like testing if I actually care about her or not- note that after asking her, she told me that she missed me aswell and still loves me as much as she used to). I tried for several days, but nothing. So I just got to the point where I got tired and decided to move on and stop insisting, but yet stay friends as I like her as a person and care about her despite not being with her anymore. 

However, it came to happen that I once told that I will never be in a relationship again if we ever break up - which is totally dumb and delusionnal but it also is my first relationship( even though I'm 21 ). So in order not to be a lyer I decide to inform her that I moved on and will probably try to get a new gf, and just moved on with the discussion. I didnt mean anything by that except the fact that I have accepted that we now are only friends and that she will never change her mind again. Yet she blamed me for saying that while still claiming yesterday that I loved her.

So let me be clear, I still love her, but I dont see myself waiting for her to change her mind forever. Now she doesn't even want to be friends and thinks that I have never loved her. 

Am I the asshole ? 