I have to start by saying I was dating the most incredible woman I’ve met. Since day 1 she’s cared about me so deeply. She’s beautiful, intelligent, attentive, and very funny. All great qualities, and ones I’ve longed for in a SO. 

I’ve been severely depressed since 18, and it’s gotten progressively worse. I’ve also attempted suicide on two occasions. Battling these demons has been very hard, but I truly want to live. I am currently in therapy, and going back to anti’s this month. All of these things were made well known to her (met in October). We fell for one another quick, and I told her that a relationship just wasn’t in the cards for me. I’m 24 and just started my career so my life is hostile as is and I knew tackling on new love would be hard (last relationship was a broken up engagement). Each time she assured me that she was in this with me, and that she wants to be there for me. I always gave her a chance. 

This last month I haven’t been well. I stay up late having empty thoughts. We spend a lot of time together, and I just need a break. I don’t even love myself right now, and it’s hard to force myself to love someone else. I lack showing her affection &amp; I know it’s taken a toll on her. I feel so damn bad cause she’s damn good to me, but I feel like I’m wasting her time. 

She’s really heart broken right now, but I hardly feel anything. Am I wrong, family? 

