This girl I went to school since we were little keeps giving me mixed signals. We were really good friends when we went to school up till 6th grade. I guess I asked her out on the last day of school 5th grade and never reached out bc we were too young. I start to freak out bc I never had a gf. Middle school starts and I decide to avoid her at all cost. (Why? I still don't know) 

She found a new group of friends just like I did. Every time I would see her I would look away and attempt to not cross her path. I build a delusion over this girl.This would essentially go on until sophomore year.

Funny enough we would always always say happy birthday to each other via Facebook and be really good friends on the internet. Sadly, she would ghost me 2 weeks into talking.

Senior year comes. She's been in a relationship for 3 years now. My birthday comes around and conversate again. She starts talking about Prom and she would ask me which dress she looks best in. I kept thinking how lucky her boyfriend was. This time, she doesn't ghost me and we actually meet in person to talk.

We're both somewhat musicly inclined, and I knew how to play piano. She always wanted to learn how to play it. So we arrange weekly meet ups at a piano practice room in the fine arts section. The first session was fun, we both learned more about each other and had a blast learning the paino. 

More talking and piano sessions pass by, she starts talking about how her life is and gets less interested in learning piano. She opened up to me and really liked talking to me. At this point I felt a connection to her. She kept bringing her boyfriend up occasionally, enough to remind me she still has one. 

If weekly practice room "piano" lessons doesn't mean anything then idk what is.

Summer after graduating HS, she invites me to her local park. We walk and talk like we used to. She breifly tells me she is still with her boyfriend. Later that night, I confess EVERYTHING in my mind while still respecting her relationship. I told her I still had feelings for her. She tells me she HAD feelings for me too, but "moved" on. I tell her to leave me alone, but she still wants to be friends.

She eventually goes to a College 100 miles away from her. 2 year forward, she comes to my college for a semester. We reunite and go back to having our fun conversations. She still has this boyfriend. She knowing how I feel about her, she still comes looking for me. I stop looking for her and start to ignore her. She ignores me soon after. That year was the last time she told my Happy Birthday...

A year later she comes back, this time asking me to hangout with her. I politely declined again.

Another year passes by, she breaks up with her boyfriend, I run into her at school with my best female friend. She is completely star gazed at me and jealous as she thinks I'm dating my female friend (who has a bf of her own) 

I feel she still has feelings for me too, but she has way too many guy friends. Makes me think I'm not anyone important to her...

AITA for ignoring her and cutting her off from my life?


TLDR:School crush has suppressed feelings for me like I do for her, she gets a boyfriend, I'm become good friends with her, I cut her from my life.