i made a previous post on r/relationships about the state of us but basically i'm(18f) visiting canada with my mother to meet him(24m) for the first time. when my mom purchased the tickets ($2000+ for all expenses) we, me and my ex, were together. 

i broke up with him and we both agreed to change that to a mini-break until i met him. all in all, he's unintentionally abusive but i still love him and im sure the feelings are mutual.

 my mother has spent so much money on everything i already feel bad since we're not together anymore and don't want to give gifts to someone who hurts me emotionally/verbally.

 yet i feel bad because i got his parents gifts. the expenses of the gifts is ~$150 and will take up a considerable amount of space in my luggage. i've also made art of his favorite singer but i plan on giving that to him regardless of what happens. but again, in the spirit of christmas, i don't want to be petty and hurt his parents or his feelings.



**tl;dr:** got my (now ex)bf gifts to give to him for christmas when i met him but i want to return them because they're expensive and would take a lot of space in my luggage. 