Apologies in advance for the length, but I think it's important to have some backstory with this... (Also for formatting, I'm on mobile).


So, as long as I've known him, my husband has been a heavy drinker. I always saw it that as long as it doesn't impact his health or our relationship, I can deal with it because I love him dearly.


A few years ago, not long after we got married, I found him trying to flirt/ dirty talk with a old coworker through Facebook when he was heavily intoxicated. We got into a massive arguement, and he offered to stop drinking to prove it was a one time thing, and he wouldn't do it again. I agreed, and he stopped drinking for a while, but over a year/ few months the alcohol slowly started creeping back in until he was back to his old drinking habits.


Then, a few months ago, I found he had been speaking to other women online (including saying he was single and getting nudes from them) when he was heavily intoxicated (he drank a bottle of vodka at home in the middle of the day when he was off work).


I lost it, I got a hotel room for the night, and was planning to leave him, and then he went to hospital that night because he tried to kill himself. He admitted he had been battling severe mental illness (Borderline/ Schizophrenia) and had been using alcohol to control his issues because he was scared of getting any real treatment. 


I agreed to give him a chance, but he had to stop drinking, and he had to seek proper therapy. It's been a few months now, and he's on medication and has started seeing a Psych to get a proper/ more recent diagnosis. He hasn't started drinking again, BUT, he clearly wants to - this is where the AITA question comes up..... 


At least once a week (sometimes daily) he makes a comment about how "I could do this if I could drink", or "this would be so much easier if I could have a drink", and it's starting to drive me to resent him. I know it must be frustrating to not be able to have a beer with his friends, but it just feels like he is constantly finding reasons to bring the topic up. I've called his bluff before and told hi m to go drink if that's what he really wants, but he told me 'that's not what he wants, and he's just saying what's on his mind'.


So, Reddit, AITA for getting pissed off at my husband for repeatedly bringing up the fact he can't drink?


TL;DR: my husband and I nearly broke up due to his infidelity when drinking, he told me he would stop drinking to prove he was getting better and would be faithful. Now he regularly makes comments about how he can't drink, which makes me fee guilty and frustrated, and causes me to lash out - AITA?