Is OTHER wrong in the post ? POST : Let me give some context:

I'm a lesbian. My parents are the type of Asians that are extremely religious and very traditional. I know that they won't accept me because when my two gay cousins came out, she said that if they were her sons, she'd kill them. I'm also the middle child and I was always the difficult to raise. 

In short, I was cared about much.

When I was younger, it used to haunt me. I was always trying to look for their praise by being independent. As I grew older, I stopped looking for them to support me. 

I stopped caring a long time ago. Maybe it was in second grade when I stopped getting attention and I started doing my own thing. Maybe it was in 8th grade, when we stopped talking to each other. Or maybe its now in 9th grade, when I came to terms with what I want and what I don't want in my life.

Whatever it was, I stopped caring about what they thought of me.

Even my sisters agree that our parents don't even like me. But I'm not bothered. When I do come out, I've accepted that we probably won't talk afterwards. 

I'd come out and we wouldn't talk for the next 20 years. I'm fine with that. We were never really that close, and we shouldn't try to force a bond that isn't there and will never be there. 

They won't be there when I graduate college (if I come out then because I want to come out in college).

They won't be there to see me bring home my future girlfriend. 

They won't be there at my wedding.

They won't be there to see my kids.

They won't get to see my future family.

They won't be part of my life and I won't be part of theirs. 

I won't be there when they travel the world when they get old.

I won't be there at the family reunions.

I won't be there at holiday celebrations.

I won't be there at their funeral. 

We are strangers, if we don't see eye to eye.

Do I wish things could be better? Hell yeah, but I'm not willing to give up my identity for their pride. I'm not gonna spend the rest if my life censoring myself. 

I really do want them to be my parents, but if we won't compromise, that's fine by me. We don't need to be part of each other's life.

If they support me, of course I will try to create our bond, but if they drop me right after I come out, I'll drop them just as fast.