Hey all, please bare in mind I have mild autism and I am kind of bad at communicating. Regardless, here is my story.

About 1 1/3 years ago I joined a group of people online. They're folks who built a community of support, honesty, and acceptance. They were my *best* friends. They were also very liberal, and that's not a bad thing, nor was it really unexpected, as they were a very diverse group. A lot of lgbt folk, as well as other minority groups. Now, this was a small community, and we interacted very often, and so we were very close knit. We had all been through some shit together, experiences I won't share out of respect for these people, but regardless our pain made us grow closer. However, I was always an outlier. I'm a centrist at heart, I don't consider myself part of the lgbt community, despite being bi, because I object to some of the actions and ideologies that the movement has garnered, and I'm also not a feminist for the same reasons. I was never afraid to talk about these things, and my friends were never afraid to engage in debate with me about it. Unfortunately, I wasn't good at communicating. I'd often end up interpreting things as confrontational, or let my emotions get the best of me, and these debates would devolve into arguments and not debates. It was an issue. But I did work to change it, and I still am. Unfortunately, I couldn't do so before it bit me in the ass. Big time. We were having a discussion about comedy and what is acceptable and what isn't, and at this time it was just a conversation, not even a debate. And to cut things a bit short, I revealed to them that I was very much a supporter of the "nothing is sacred, everything can be humorous" type of thinking. My friends were, understandably, upset. Again, to cut things short, things devolved rapidly. This subject had come up before, it wasn't new, but what ended up happening was that I was so unwavering in my defense of this ideology I had newly (in their eyes) adopted, and thanks to my lack of social intelligence, I ended up giving them the impression that I may have been associating with alt right extremists who were trying to agree with their way of thinking. This upset me, for several reasons. I thought that after all this time they would have known I don't want to hurt people, hell they were there when I decided I want to dedicate myself to pacifism. But they were afraid. They wanted me to be safe and I just wouldn't see things their way. The situation continued to fluctuate over a period of 2 days, all while I resisted adamantly. I considered that I might be wrong, but was still unwilling to change, to the point that I nearly convinced myself I WAS being brainwashed by alt right extremists. Things settled eventually, and the moderators of the community convened. They agreed I was a source of discomfort, and asked me to . They asked me to go, and I accepted. I knew I hurt them, and I felt like this was the only good thing to do. 