Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Hey guys! This may be long so I'm the asshole for that and I'm sorry.

When I go christmas shopping for anyone, I'd like to think I put a lot of thought and love into what I get for someone based on what I know about them, as most people do.

Last year for Christmas, I had gotten my fiance several sweaters, Rayban sunglasses, pair of Vans, wallet and bluetooth speaker for his laptop, things I know he wanted as:

-He complained he didnt have nice sweaters to wear and that his were old with holes.
-He always talked about Rayban and how he loved a particular style and the fit.
-He had one pair of Vans(only brand he wears) and he used them for both work(hospital) and regular outings, which he ruined with bleach. 
-His wallet had seen better days with it ripping and what not from normal wear and tear.
-He always watches old movies on his laptop and I noticed he struggled hearing them(he is also partially deaf on one side as well)

He loved his gifts from what he said, and gave me my gift: an envelope and a pair of Minnie Mouse ears.

Inside the envelope, there was a letter he made on Word, which said he was going to take me to Disneyworld in late spring, and that we would stay at a Disney resort, and etc. 

Now I'm not really a Disney person like him, as I had told him for many years, I prefer Island Adventure or Universal Studios, etc. But I love the gift as the fact that it meant it would be us spending time together as we haven't done that for some time. (I work and go to school, he works full time doing overnight shifts at hospital so sleeps during the day)

He said he was going to pay for everything, but I offered to pay for our food while we are there at least. All he had to do was talk to his boss about requesting the days off to go and booking hotel and flights when the dates were drawing near. According to him, he had asked them before and they approved of it verbally, but told him to remind them 2 months before the trip. 

Fast forward to March 2018, I had found out(I kinda knew, as did my fiance before the holidays) that I won a vacation through my employment for performance. I did tell my fiance during the holiday that if he planned on us going to Disney, there was a chance I'd be winning a vacation with a plus one for around the same time he wanted to go to Disney. He stated he had anticipated that and he had asked his boss for time off for both vacations during the holiday and they said yes, but again to remind them two months before anything so they can put it in writing.

They denied his request, and informed him he could only choose one. He chose the free vacation through my work(Did I also mention they pay for literally everything, from hotel to food? He did not have to spend a dime on the trip). 

He never apologized for it, and has never made an attempt to make up for it. Not even during the summer when we were both free for 2 whole weeks. He never offered to rescheduled the vacation he planned or given an alternative gift like  pair of socks or a romantic dinner and movie.

Literally nothing but a pair of Minnie Mouse Ears and broken promise. I felt so unappreciated and unloved after putting so much effort into his gifts, and again, I know it's the thought that counts. I never brought it up and tried to let it go.

But I felt like after he was denied his trip, he never gave it a second thought ever again until I brought it up tonight while we were Christmas shopping. He kept saying he didn't want to talk about it because it makes him feel bad and he doesn't want us to argue.

I ended up bawling my eyes out as I felt he was trying to ignore what happened and dropped him off home while I went Christmas shopping for him and my family, teary eye and all. I felt guilty for bringing it up and fighting over it, but I also felt unappreciated, looked over and petty.

Again, I'm sorry this being long, but am I the asshole for feeling this way?