I started talking to someone online in high school.  He lives on the opposite side of the country.  He’s become like my best friend.  We talk everyday and have both helped each other through some tough times.  

We’ve always talked about meeting.  I thought that’s what I wanted.  In the abstract “some day” it was always fun to talk and daydream about.  Now though he’s trying to set a specific date and arrange plans and it hit me like a ton of bricks that I’m not ready to meet him.  I feel like total shit about it, I always thought I really did want to meet him, these feelings are a surprise to me.  I told him that things are really crazy right now and not to make any plans yet.  