im not good with long texts so this will be rather short

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i was recently forced into a work program thing by the local goverment because i have been having big trouble finding a job/aprrenticeship as no place ever replied or tried to screw me over and i whould really like to be a medic or a chef 

and the reason i have trouble finding somthing is because im currently with a pretty big injury (shoulder) and the mediocre education i sadly got

and now to why i dont like it: like i said i was forced into this and what makes it even worse is i wont get paid for this despite having to wake up every day at 5am to get there and i have to cover every little expense myself even bus tickets which whouldnt be so problematic if it wasnt for the fact me and my mother are barely above the poverty mark (she cant work because she is already 50 and crippled) 

and so am i the asshole here for not wanting to go and finding every excuse possible to not go?

if anyone wants me to elaborate further i will try my best to explain it better if thats ok