Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Apologies because this is long but its been on my mind for a while. For context I suffer from anxiety and I get panic attacks a lot.

My boyfriend and I had been invited to our friends birthday party. I knew most people going, including this asshole guy (AG for short) I used to be close friends with but no longer spoke to after he started acting like a complete cunt to me and my best friends.

Idk why but I was feeling really anxious from the moment I got to the party. I tried to stick by my bf to make myself feel more comfortable but he kept leaving to mingle and talk to other people at the party. I kept having panic attacks and went to the bathroom to calm down about 7 or 8 times during the night.

Then AG came in and as soon as I heard his voice I freaked. I wanted to leave right at that moment but it was only like half 11.

(I was staying the night at my bfs. I had no way to get to my house so I had to wait until he was good to leave.)

By about 12 I was super uncomfortable and told my bf I wanted to go. He was a bit upset and said he wanted to stay with his friends. I was thinking at this point that the party would end at around 2am, and that I could definitely hang on til then, but then he said there was some match on at 6am that most of the party were going to stick around to watch. I knew I could hold out for a short while but not until 6am, so he said if I really wanted to leave earlier then we could.

I had an ok time from then, thinking I'd only be staying another hour or 2, until AG came over to me. He was very drunk and wanted to apologise for how he had acted towards me and my friends, and he kept asking if I'd be friends with him again. I was really panicking at this time and it was a highly uncomfortable situation. What made it worse is that he said he was wrong to treat me and my friends how he did, "except X (one of my best friends), she turned out to be a selfish bitch and she hurt me bad."

This was an all round bad conversation, and I know for a fact that X actually was a really good friend to him and none of us understand why he hates her so much now.

Anyway after he leaves me alone I find my bf and tell him what happened and that I really want to leave. He kinda laughs and doesnt get why Im so uncomfortable even though he knows what happened between me and this dude.

Bf is real pissed I want to leave, tries to convince me to stay, even goes so far as to try to get me to take a nap with him on one of the couches. Im super anxious by this point and cant stop crying.

Eventually he gets it and we leave. Hes very angry on the walk to his and when he asks if i feel better and i say no he yells at me, "what was the point of us leaving if you don't even feel better now?"

When we got home he gave me a big hug and told me he loved me and I felt okay again.

It's been a few weeks and I can't stop replaying what happened. Am i the asshole here for making him leave?