My partner is in the navy and with travel etc we are apart more than half the year. This leave he has already been home for 3 weeks. One week he's been at his parents, another on a course and every weekend we've had his daughter to stay (that's all fine, has to be done). Obviously I'm still working 9-5. This weekend I was really excited as we had a nice lunch planned then drinks with my two best friends and their partners, I see them a lot but I'm always alone and feel like a 5th wheel. My other half has a bad cold and the lunch has been cancelled and I doubt he'll be coming out tonight. I feel like I'm single and just want us to spend a tiny bit of time together. Am I an asshole seeing as I did sign up for this when I got into the relationship? 