Context - We've been together for 8 years, and in the past he's wrote stuff about me online (in twitter, on tumblr, facebook, you get it) and it's not been very nice things written. Stuff hasn't been too great lately, but instead of talking about it, he just ignores the issue and refuses to talk to me at all.  

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So I went on our laptop to apply for a few jobs and to do some stuff. I opened up a messaging app to send him a message and he was still logged in and was talking to a particular person who he's talked about me to in the past. Out of interest I opened the chat up and saw they had been discussing me. The messages consisted of how he regretted the puppy we had bought, how he wasn't happy that he'd moved out with me and was hoping that things would improve. His friend never has anything nice to say about me and they both seem to have come to the conclusion that he's only with me because he doesn't want to be alone. 

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Things haven't been great for a long time, and I'm fully aware of that and that I'm not an easy person to deal with. I just don't understand why he can't talk to me about these things &amp; why I have to find out that he feels like this through going through his messages.

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So, Am I the Asshole?