Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : Hi Reddit,

  


I haven't been in contact with my closest friends for some time now. I lived with them whilst I was at university, where we shared many human experiences, conversations and genuine, happy moments. I consider them some of the best people I've been lucky enough to have met.

  


However, even though they've tried to reach out to me (via messages, phonecall) I have actively been avoiding or dodging them for around a year now. This has occured since I left university.

  


Basically, from my perspective, life is not going the way I thought it would. At uni I achieved a 1st degree whilst also doing a year in industry. I sought out other avenues to flesh out my work experience and build my portfilio (my intention is not to brag, just to set the scene). However, after leaving uni my heart wasn't in the field i got my degree in (it made me very miserbale on some days), so I decided to return home, work part time for a bit, to figure out what I wanted to do in life.

  


Fast forward 1.5 years and I'm still working a menial part time job, procrasting in life and still feeling extremely lost. In that time, when friends/ex housemates have tried to contact me, I've actively avoided them. Im abit ashamed of where I am atm, so the idea of having a conversation with them, just to tell them I've not progressed at all and have little to talk about, is embarrassing to me. I also feel a shadow of the person I used to be, so I dont want them to see me at this moment in time.

  


However, I know deep down this is not a real enough reason to blow them off and ignore them. I'm accutly aware that I'm probably damaging these relationships through silence. It's not my intention to be cold, disinterested or unloyal. In quiet moments I do d myself thinking about them alot. But if you tried to check-in on your friend numerous times and were ignored by them for seemingly no reason for a year, wouldn't you think they were being an asshole?

  


AITA for ignoring my friends for almost a year?