I have a friend. Let’s call her M. She’s a college sophomore and I’m a junior. We weren’t close last semester but we hung out, and she’s like close to the end of her party thot phase.

This semester weve hung out a lot more, because our friend group kind of split, and we’ve become better friends. She hangs out a lot at my dorm which is like an apartment so there’s a kitchen and living room and it’s roomy. I love when she hangs out, she’s a wonderful person and is super sweet. And yet as the semester comes to a close, she says she’ll hang out and then ditches me and my roommates for whatever dumb hicks invite her over to drink with them. Like you barely know these idiots and are only there for the alcohol, and then the next day you’re like bragging to me that you got so wasted last night. DO I GIVE A SHIT? You ditched me for a bottle. 

Am I being ridiculous at being hurt? Like if someone made plans and then decided to get drunk and basically not care about you anymore, that would piss you off right?

I hate alcoholics, I think they’re incredibly selfish; when they’re doing what they do best, they become everyone else’s problem. 
And seeing her slowly dive deeper and deeper into daily drunkenness as a coping mechanism for finals week breaks my heart. Can’t tell her anything because she’ll just get defensive and give the silent treatment. Tried that once last semester (texted her “I bet if I brought beer you’d come”) and that got me in some hot water. 

She’s one of the sweetest people I know, and when she’s not tired or stressed she’s an angel. It just makes me sad that like half the time I see her nowadays she’s either drunk or hungover. So which one is the real M? If the person I loved spending time with is gone, then I’m out of here till everyone’s grown up a bit. I’m sorry if I’m hurt, but it’s just sad seeing someone slowly fade into someone else, who isn’t even real