Backstory: 

Me and her (let's call her "X") grew up in the same neighborhood but only become close and subsequently best friends  about 4ish years ago. About April last year she moved upstate  (about 7 hours away) to live with her boyfriend. Since then, whenever we've been able we've met up and hung out and it's always been the best.

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More recently however, I've been diagnosed with depression and sometimes I get sad and need my friend. I'm not the kind of person to be needy or dump my shit on other people so it's only usually when I could use cheering up that I call her and we talk about random things and try and make each other laugh.

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About 4 weeks ago, my sister was rushed into ICU and I was feeling low. I simply messaged X "Just so you know \[sister\] is in hospital and I'm feeling really low" and I sent her a photo of my sister in hospital too (as X knows her). X left me on seen and so I left it a few days, until I texted her "What's going on?" and this time she didn't leave me on seen, but had clearly been online but just wasn't responding to me. I had other priorities so I didn't think much of it except that it was pretty shitty of X. 

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Last week I finally messaged her "Can you let me know whats going on?" and she explained that the photo was uncalled for and she didn't know how to react. I admit that, that was pretty shitty of me to send a traumatic image without any warning or anything. She then explained how she felt really bad for not being able to get back to  me because it upset her so much. We managed to talk it all through and we were back to normal(ish) again.

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Yesterday, my depression was being really bad again and all I wanted was to talk to my friend, but I became afraid that she'd just ignore me again or whatever, or maybe she just doesn't want to know... So  feeling insecure I messaged her "I'm sorry if this is difficult to say, but where are we? I mean,  we used to come to each other with everything, but  now  I'm scared that will make you uncomfortable  and things and I don't want that to destroy us, so can you please let me know where I stand?"

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She responded "??" 

I first put "I don't want to ever make you feel bad, but depression can make me feel really low at times" followed by "Look, sometimes when I'm sad you ignore me, and I get it, you need space sometimes, but are we the kind of friends who can tell each other bad things, or are we only the kind of friends that  just make each other laugh?"

She responded "It's weird to define friendships like this"

So I said "I'm not trying to define our friendship, I just don't  want to break any boundaries or do anything that could destroy us. So I'm asking X, where do we stand, can I tell you when I'm low or not?"

She  blocked me...

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So kind people of reddit, AITA?