To cut a long story short. I live with one of my bestfriends. We've been friends for years and been through a lot of shit together. Ive realised recently that ive started to have feelings for her. I told her my feelings and she said she didn't feel the same. I was bummed out but thought I could get past it. We do everything with eachother and im the only person she really hangs around with when shes not at work. 

Fast forward to yesterday and she tells me shes going out on a date. My heart fell into my stomach and I realised I can't really continue doing this. Its not healthy for me. Ive decided to go back to my parents for a few weeks to sort myself out but i feel like ive just sort of ditched her and I feel awful about it. She described me as "her person" and that she doesnt know what shes going to do without me. Shes not doing great at the moment and I feel like im letting her down. I know shes upset that im going and when we said goodbye it was really hard.  We were both struggling not to cry. I just feel like an asshole for ditching her like that due to my feelings towards her. Shes loosing her bestfriend and shes done nothing wrong. 

I just feel awful. 
