I really feel like such a little spoilt asshole. My mom has a room. My younger sister has a room. I have a room, but my dad doesn't. He sleeps in the living room, on a sofa-bed. He's been doing it for years and I'm not sure how it began, I think my mom and dad were fighting and my mom doesn't want to share a room with him. He's expressed occasionally that he doesn't like sleeping in the living room and that none of his friends have this kind of living situation. But mostly he seems to suck it up. He's a doctor and scientist and the one who supports the family, so it's unfair that he gets the short end of the stick. 

The reason I feel like an asshole is because I'm almost 20 now and I should be thinking about moving out so he can get my room but I honestly am not prepared to do that. I can't afford it and I'm too scared to. I know I'll feel really alone without my family close. My sister cheers me up so much. I don't want to live alone and be sad, I'm really scared of it. My dad told me recently that I should move out, I'm not sure he entirely meant it because it was during an argument but still...

If I moved out it'd be so much easier to starve myself, cut all the time without my parents seeing, drink, and have random sex with men who hurt me. Living at home prohibits me from all of that. 

I'm honestly not sure if this post fits here but the primary thing is I feel really bad over this situation, and I'm wondering if I have responsibility in this or if it's "out of my hands"? 

