Is AUTHOR wrong in the post ? POST : So let's start with that - my aunt lives in another country. She has a really strong personality but that's what I like about her. She has visited a lot of countries, had many interesting jobs and experienced a lot. I love listening to her life stories. Sadly, I see her only once a year. I really used to enjoy her visits, and waited for them more than I even waited for Christmas, until she got a baby (a girl, is 6 years old now). 

Now we don't talk about interesting stuff like we used to, we barely even talk at all and if we do, it's now always about what her daughter did, what she wore, how "different she is from other kids because she likes dinosaurs and dragons". And I'm slowly getting sick of it. It makes us distant from each other and on top of that every time she visits us she wants me to play with her daughter all the time.

Don't get me wrong, I love my cousin. She is a sweetheart, she always cries when they have to leave and she knows that she won't see me for another year. She is a smart child and I love hearing some funny stories about her from time to time and don't mind drawing with her or building fun stuff with legos etc. but she is extremely lazy and gets bored of everything very quickly expect play pretending. Which would be ok if it wasn't like: I talk to her, try to be entertaining, play a hundred characters at once while she is just sitting and looking at me, sometimes saying a word or two. It is really frustrating and exhausting and doing that for a few hours really isn't fun for me. And when I try to do something different with her or tell her that I want to rest she goes downstairs to my parents, my aunt and my uncle chatting, and tells everybody that I don't want to play with her, making me feel like the biggest a-hole in the entire world.
Because of that I found myself for example eating extremely slow at family dinners when they are visiting us because then I don't have to play with my cousin (but she keeps on asking me over and over again to do that while I eat anyways).


There's also one more thing that concerns me.

This year I'm going on a trip to Asia with them (aunt, uncle, their daughter and me). It's my birthday present because I've never had birthday parties or celebrated my birthday in any way and felt like I want to at least make one of my dreams come true when I'm 18. My parents don't like traveling and I don't feel comfortable traveling on my own so I'm going with them. Plus they also wanted to visit Asia and I won't lie, they helped financially a lot.

However, besides money they don't organise or help with anything connected to that trip at all. When they visited us recently we had decided earlier to discuss everything but we just didn't. I didn't even had the opportunity to talk to them because I was always taking care of the cousin.
There's still a couple of months left to the trip, but still it's better to talk about these kind of stuff face to face and not via email.

There's only one thing about the trip they mentioned while already leaving and that was a comment directed to their daughter saying "Don't worry! You can play with [my name] in [the month we are going to Asia] for two weeks (we will be traveling for two weeks)!" and that really hit me you know.
I also heard from my parents that my aunt wants me to take care of my cousin on the plane and during car rides knowing very well that this flight will be long and I have motion sickness so I might feel awful and have even less energy than normal then.
I wanted that trip to be my present, my vacation, my break from everything and my opportunity to explore an interesting culture without having to take care of my cousin every damn second. 
But now I am not happy about the trip at all and I feel like a piece of shid for that because I feel like I'm over-exaggerating the whole situation. I'm just tired of all of this and don't know how to feel or what to do. I tried talking to them or my parents about it but they all make me feel like I'm exaggerating.

[[Also English is not my first or second language and this is my first post on Reddit so it's probably full of mistakes and it was a horrible decision to post that but hey.. I want to know if I'm really the a-hole here because it bugs me so much.]]