I have this friend who is like a sister to me. She's been my best friend since we were very young (like 5-6). We'll call her Brittany.

So recently Britney has been severely depressed and has been suffering from panic attacks. We do not live near each other, so we only get to see each other about once a month, but we talk every day. Brittany has been having panic attacks during which she is unable to breathe and cannot talk. I receive a snapchat from her every day early in the morning or between 6-8 PM of her crying with captions along the lines of "I hate myself", "I want to die", "I'm having a panic attack and I want to kill myself", and even "I want to shoot myself". Every single day I reply with "I'm so sorry", "what can I do to help?" "I wish I could be there with you and help you through this", etc. Every day I receive a reply with sometime similar to "you can't understand" or "you don't really care about me." She also flips out if I leave her on read/open for more than five minutes.

I feel like it is worth noting that I also suffer from depression and anxiety, and I have been seeing a therapist about it for years. I have also encouraged Brittany to seek help, and to go to therapy or see a doctor, but she ignores this advice and instead chooses to deal with her panic attacks and depression by vaping and occasionally abusing drugs.

Last night, I was very upset about a personal situation. I was not in a place to give advice, and frankly, I wanted to die. I was in a bad place. Brittany sent me one of the usual snapchats- "I want to kill myself"- to which I sent back, "me f\*\*king too.". Minutes later I get one saying "wow thanks, you're such a great friend" (obvious sarcasm), to which I replied "I'm sorry, but I'm going through some shit right now and I honestly just want to die." I was pretty upset, so I turned my phone off.I woke up to a message saying "well, that doesn't give you the right to treat me like shit." I left her on read.

AITA?! I love her (she's family to me) and I want to help her, I really do, but I don't know how anymore.

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TL;DR: Friend is suicidal and when I told her I was too she flipped out on me for "treating her like shit".