This may sound like a typical run of the mill sibling rivalry, but I’m sick of everything and I can’t do much because I’m young.

Lets start off with my brother. Annoying, a druggie, high school drop out, and overall fucking jerk. 25 years old. Is “sick” and had/currently still has autism. My relationship with them is nonexistent, and always has been. I’ve tried to make amends, but its always ended in them just yelling at me and my parents taking his side for stupid situations that are clearly his fault. I’ve been verbally and physically abused by them ever since I can remember, from them busting my front teeth out while they were in high school over a slushie, to them constantly butting in to conversations and disrespecting my parents, constantly arguing with both me and my family, always threatening to smack me and cursing at them. My parents have done the best they can to help him out, from offering to give him money, get him a job, funding rehab and therapy classes, and he simply doesn’t want to do anything.  All I’ve witnessed are constant fights over him stealing money and using any of the money that my parents DO give him to buy drugs. Theres not a single day that there isn’t an argument in my household. Its come to the point where I absolutely just hate being home and in my brothers presence in general, because all he does is call me a worthless brat, a bitch, and a few threats to bust my face in. He’s overstayed his welcome in this house, but my parents refuse to do anything with him and just baby him by putting him on a pedestal. When I did get extremely frustrated and voice my concerns to my mother in a car ride one day, she called me crazy, yelling at me that he’s my brother and that to not pay attention to him because he’s “sick.”

However, I simply cannot just ignore him anymore when it’s been happening for all my life, and him having a mental disorder doesn’t give him any more of an excuse to be an asshole. I’m pretty open in saying that if this man got into a car accident one day, then I wouldn’t feel sorry or worried at all.

AITA for feeling this way towards someone who I SHOULD be relatively close to? 