I want to start this off by explaining that I’ve never been too open with my friends. They don’t know the extent of the sorta shit I went through with my mom and other really personally issues. I never really talked about it because I wasn’t ready to— I bottled all my shit up for a long time. I know I should have been more trusting and open with my friends and I now regret that I wasn’t. 

My mom recently died. It fucked me up. My friends heard about it and the two of them said the typical “oh shit” and “that sucks” sort of responses. After that, one stopped replying and the other one was actively trying to change the subject and no longer asks how I am or comes off as annoyed or super short when I mention something about what’s going on (I have two younger half siblings with no dad, so CPS is involved and they’ve been communicating w/ me a lot because eI’m their next of kin). I haven’t messed my first friend since he isn’t replying to me. I know he isn’t busy because he’s actively online playing Overwatch (he’s dropped 500 sr since I’m no longer invited to play and he doesn’t have a good healer. I found that a little satisfying to know) and my other friend will ask me what’s up, how I am, etc but then change the subject super fast if it isn’t in regards to things like video games or streams. 

The lack of communication or concern is sort of really getting to me. I would have hoped my friends would have supported me through this, offered advice or at least lent a shoulder for me to lean on. They know that I have very few family members, only 2 who actually truly care. When they were through shit I was always there and trying to help them.

Am I an asshole for being mad at them for this? Am I acting entitled? Is it this normal for friends to be so flippant when coming to stuff going on in their friends lives? I always thought friendship was about supporting one another, but am I crossing the line by expecting them to comfort me through this? I really have no clue. Not sure if I should just stop talking about how I feel at all about everything going on and just lie and say everything is okay, or what. 