Spike:  Well , I haven't been to a hell dimension just of late , but I do know a thing or two about torment .
Buffy: I was happy . Wherever I was ... I was happy ... at peace . I knew that everyone I cared about was all right . I knew it . Time ... did n't mean anything . Nothing had form . But I was still me , you know ? And I was warm . And I was loved . And I was finished . Complete . I - I do n't understand theology or dimensions , any of it really ... but I think I was in heaven . And now I 'm not . I was torn out of there . Pulled out , by my friends . Everything here is hard and bright and violent . Everything I feel , everything I touch . This is Hell . Just getting through the next moment , and the _ one _ after that . Knowing what I 've lost . They can never know . Never .