Riley:  Yeah , I 'm well aware of how lucky I am . Like , lottery lucky . Buffy 's like nobody else in the world . When I 'm with her , it 's like - it 's like I 'm split in two - half of me is just on fire , goin' crazy if I 'm not touching her . The other half is so still and peaceful , just perfectly content . Just knows , this is the _ one _ . But she does n't love me .