Comment: This doesn't sound at all like you Stephen.........maybe I've  missed something.
The institution /organisation wouldn't exist if it weren't for the individuals.  I think your being a little too hard on yourself
A not so long ago  piece by Josephine McKenna RNS  Sex orgies, prostitution and porn claims shake the church in Italy,  certainly sent child down my back  [a problem displaying the full article] and has nothing to do with just a few apples  in the barrel, the whole damned tree is contaminated.
It leaves nothing to the imagination to whatever else is hidden away. 
There are no secrets in the corridors of the Vatican.
Be well.