So...  You used to be into commercial bands that were once great back in the 1990's (Smashing Pumpkins, NIN). Then, you "discovered" Crust Punk and completely flipped over the course of a year. Now, you listen to commercial bands that are shitty now (Pearl Jam, TEB) and lament upon what an "asshole" your former Crust self use to be. 

So long. Punk is not missing you.