Well, that's not a good situation. First thing to do would be to see a therapist, you need help, and your parents are not qualified to deal with your issues. You need help man, and don't be ashamed about it, we all do at one moment or another.  If you need someone to talk, I'm here for you man.  (I don't know if you're familiar with my man Rocky Balboa, but if you're not, watch those, it might help you fight again)