Comment: You sound very classy using the term you did about your penis .  You are a boy .  That you only placed third shows you are weak boy at that.  Girls teams are for girls.  You cheated a real girl out of a spot on that team.   Before you get surgery , you ought to seek mental advice .  Clearly you are lost .  I feel sorry for you that your willing to make a life changing choice before you are old enough to really understand life. As for who you are---the doc declares you a boy or girl the second you came out of your mom.  They don't leave the space on the birth certificate blank for people like you to fill out later , depending on the social pressures of those around them or what you wish you were.   My advice is to put any operations on hold until you mature enough to figure out what life is really all about. Right now you don't have a clue.