diff --git "a/test_data.csv" "b/test_data.csv" new file mode 100644--- /dev/null +++ "b/test_data.csv" @@ -0,0 +1,526 @@ +example_id,title,text,annotator1_t1_label,annotator1_t2_label,annotator2_t1_label,annotator2_t2_label,annotator3_t1_label,annotator3_t2_label,t1_label,t2_label,batch,metadata +2,Summer is the worst for us lonely men,"What do you even do in summer? nothing, just rot away inside your room, play games, jerk off go to sleep",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.75,part3,lonely +5,I want hug someone (っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ,"I'm overwhelming ! I need hug from stranger ⊂(・﹏・⊂) +I'm so lonely! ",['Lack of physical touch'],3,['Lack of physical touch'],2,['Lack of physical touch'],3,['Lack of physical touch'],2.67,exploration,lonely +9,Someone reached out to me,"After seeing my comment on this sub. +We were talking fine. +Asked for my age and blocked me. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.25,part3,lonely +15,vent,"i also feel like it’s so hard to meet ppl, both romantically or platonically, bc most social events cater toward couples or friend groups. there aren’t any good examples of solo meetup activities. you join a club or volunteer to make friends or even ppl to date, and ppl who sign up are doing it w their friends. try to go to the bar alone and ppl are there w their friends or partners. being single these days is a lot harder bc most ppl don’t do activities alone and the ppl who do want to connect w others just stay online","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",2,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",2,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",2,"['Lack of friends','Lack of romantic relationships']",2.0,evaluation,lonely +16,19f no friends,"I made a throw away for this as some people I know follow my actual account. I have a boyfriend who doesn't seem to be interested in me at all anymore and apart from him I genuinely have no one. I want to go out and see/do things and talk to people and I feel like when you're so young you're supposed to be having a great time and seeing friends and making memories. I have tried to make friends and everyone is so judgemental or just wants to go clubbing, do drugs and get with guys which I'm not interested in. Other than that me and my dad were close so I've been making an effort to see him more but he said that life was better when my boyfriend liked me so I gave up on that. Life really sucks when you're alone.",['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",3,['Lack of friends'],2.67,evaluation,lonely +23,why am i not allowed to just be sad 19f,"Does there have to be some big reason. My life has been kinda ass if I'm being real but this past year better than ever. Shockingly depression doesn't just go away, I'm not suicidal anymore but I'm not happy to wake up. I don't know how to tell anyone, my mom or my two online friends Lol. I have a therapist i see once every 2-3weeks, i have too much on my mind all the time, i talk about maybe 40% of my issues to her. Sorry imwtired thank you for reading ",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],3.25,part3,lonely +24,I had a fight with irl dad.. im just heartbroken," +He told me how he’s disappointed that I continue working in the kitchen and how I will have no job and how I should want for it.. im failure dad.. my own parents don’t love me.. I don’t love me.. death is the best choice I could done.. he’s right it’s a dead end job.. I have been taking this poor man (dad) money and give him nothing.. I could never let him be happy.. I understand what he wants, I should have done long time ago ",['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3.0,evaluation,lonely +30,I feel crashed in on and broken,"I miss my grandmother so much. She was the only woman I felt true unconditional love from. She was by no means perfect but I felt I could do no wrong. And now she's gone. And I feel alone. + +I feel like all my relationships have gone poorly. I don't know why. It must be me though, right? Not all relationships go poorly for everyone else. I feel cursed. + +I don't know what to do. I'm stressed and tired and have no outlet and no safety. I feel stuck and broken. + +Maybe this is just me forever.","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of romantic relationships']",3.33,exploration,lonely +35,I cry when singing anime songs.,"Every other day or so, I like to practice my singing by belting some of my favorite anime intros, themes and soundtracks. + +Some of them, in particular, like Sparkle, from Your Name and Grand Escape make me tear up and I can't keep going on anymore and my eyes get teary.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +37,My weakness for women has ruined my life...,"The older I get the more I realize that I'm a misanthropist. I really don't like... people. I'm also at least slightly narcissistic. It's not a big deal though since I'm an extreme hermit. I haven't had any friends for like 15 years now. I cut all ties to my friends when I was about 13. That was when I realized that I actually hate people and want to be left alone. I have an unusually low craving for social interactions. Most of the time my longings are satiated through semi-parasocial shit like reading, watching movies or being on Youtube, etc. I'm barely ever lonely. However, my stupid nature forces me to get amorous and horny all the time (I hate that word but eh, it is what it is). It's like some kind of disorder. I can't stop thinking about women, watching porn and craving a girlfriend. At the same time I never connected with women and don't like people. I only connect with the idea of interacting with women because I find them physically attractive. It really ruined my life because I could have been a highly functional human being chasing his dreams and life goals if it wasn't for my libido. Instead only because of this one deeply ingrained craving I ended up a depressed lowlife alcoholic shit who's becoming more and more suicidal. I hate human nature and the needs that come with it. + +I would appreciate anyone who's in a similar situation to provide advice or encouragement. I really don't know how to deal with this anymore. Women and lust are driving me crazy.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],3.5,part3,lonely +44,No Friends = No cards On My Birthday,[(4) No Friends = No cards On My Birthday #mentalhealth #selfimprovement #selfimprovement #birthday - YouTube](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVjmQKLDzTo),['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4.0,part3,lonely +47,Anyone want to voice call,I can't sleep and thought it might be nice to talk to someone,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +51,DM if you feel lonely 😊,"If you're feeling lonely and need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to send me a DM. Sometimes all it takes is a friendly conversation to brighten your day. Whether you want to vent, share a story, or just have a casual chat, I'm here to listen. Feel free to reach out anytime.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +53,Lonely,"I'm a man, I've been married for 25 years, I'm 46 and I feel alone. Does it happen to you too? If anyone needs company like me, you can contact me Thank you for your attention",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.25,part3,lonely +54,I am going to die,"Will my life be full of love, warmth, openness and closeness or will I continue to be cold numb and alone",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.75,part3,lonely +55,"Rant, I guess","I want to build a community of people, but I also do not want to burden anyone with my problems. I want to be able to do everything on my own and become frustrated when I cant. I am so so so tired of being alone, but I cant seem to break the barrier down enough to not being alone and reaching out. ",['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3.75,part3,lonely +57,growing up sucks,"if you think things are bad now just wait til you get old cos once youre in your 30s its pretty much hopeless either you have a social circle of some sort or youre pretty much a hermit, and the longer you stay a hermit the harder it gets to communicate you forget how to talk how to listen how to be human until the only thing you have to look forward to is dying + +growing up sucks this whole incarnation is fucking bullshit i demand a refund",['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],4.25,part3,lonely +58,Anybody for call?,I have PTSD and cant sleep. Will someone ne talk on voice?,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +59,What's everyones favorite video game?,"My favorite video game is super mario kart, how about yours?",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +63,26M [Friendship] [Chat] Looking to meet people and make friends!,"Good morning! How is everyone? Would love to meet some new people and possibly make some new friends! Some of my hobbies are gaming, MTG, anime/manga, working out, sports, cooking and more! I’m pretty open about anything. Normally would be off work about now but I was off tonight so. Probably gonna be around for a little. Hope to chat soon!",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +66,Birthday today,"I just turned 17. I've never had a birthday party not once. Never got a gift that wasn't from my parents (didn't even start getting gifts or even cake till I was 12). + +I always wanted a birthday celebration. I wanted to go out and hang out with friends. My peers frequent chuck e cheese for their birthdays even if it is kind of dumb. I just wanted something like that or even someone to so much as wish me a happy birthday. + +I don't think I'll ever get that. People who even have friends stop really celebrating there birthday once they get older so I've just missed out on my chance. ",['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3.25,part3,lonely +67,20 M I need someone,I just want a girlfriend to watch movies with lol. I love sharing my favorite movies with people. I want a girlfriend who will watch movies or TV shows with me. We would talk about our favorite characters and scenes. I just want someone to care about me. I want to feel loved. It's been so long since I've cared about some like that.,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.0,exploration,lonely +69,Drowning in loneliness upon waking up," +How to deal with the constant waves that keep crashing into me especially right upon waking up + +This is the worst its been for me now. I would say the last three months it started to hit very hard for some reason. ",['Other'],3,['Other'],5,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.67,exploration,lonely +76,i feel so alone in this world,"it's not just the fact that i've never had any friends, or romantic relationships, never been kissed. it seems like i can't connect with anyone or anything in this world. + +i can't even enjoy movies, tv shows, or books the way other people do, because my tastes are so different, and the things i'd wanna see in a story, don't exist. + +every time i look around, everything i see, no matter where i am, reminds me of just how much i don't fit in. i feel like an alien, born in the wrong planet. there's nothing here that i like, no place where i'd feel i belong, i don't think i really like anyone, and no one likes me.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of friends','Lack of romantic relationships','Lack of community or social support']",4.75,part3,lonely +85,Stupid loser dog girl,"My boyfriend has so many friends, the way he's able to make friends and connections so easily. He's funny and smart and attractive. He's had several relationships with other girls because people just want him. He has goals and is actually working towards them. + +Then there's me. I don't really have any friends. I just follow him everywhere like a miserable little dog. All I am is just an extension to him. I'm not a standalone person. I'm like one of those dogs people carry in purses just for the aesthetic, though I'm not very pretty so I guess that analogy doesn't really work. I just sit in my room all day and rot it away. I don't go to school, I don't have a job, and I'm too mentally ill for either. I'm stuck in this pit that every attempt to get out just ends up with me digging it deeper. + +And there's this evil demon in my brain telling me to ruin everything, telling me what I want is for him to hate me. Subconsciously I think I know he deserves better. + +Everything feels wrong but I can't quite explain why. He loves me, I love him, why do things feel wrong?",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Not lonely'],2.75,part3,lonely +93,Anyone here 25 years old or older?,Please only respond if you are 25 years old or older.,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +94,I feel very lonely these days,Make friends in the United States that I can talk to everyday. I want to tell you how my day was.,['Other'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],2.33,exploration,lonely +97,I’m tired,I’m tired of being lonely. I’m tired of distracting myself in order to be happy. I’m tired of being socially awkward and I’m tired of waiting to get a friend. The one person who I thought was a friend just continued talking to me out of pity. I have no girlfriend and I only interact with family members.,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends','Lack of romantic relationships']",4.0,part3,lonely +104,"Back again, looking for someone to talk to while I watch scary movies, tonight ",34 year old guy looking for someone to talk to on discord or Snapchat while I watch horror movies and play games.,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,lonely +105,Fixing my socializing issue as a neet.,"I don't know how to work on my social skills when everyone I talk to just ghosts me after a few days (If I'm lucky). It just makes my social skills worse than what they were. I get I'm a dry and plain person but it's hard to improve not being dry if I just end up ghosted faster than I can learn to be better at talking to people. + +Please don't say something like ""Touch grass!"" or ""Go to the gym!"", Not looking for advice, just wanting to vent.",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.0,part3,lonely +106,"Idk what I need advice or maybe vent, an opinion or another way to see the bigger picture? ","But. What I'm kinda having a little come to realize for a while now is that people of my opposite sex don't like me. And most definitely don't find me as attractive as people of the same sex. +Like. I don't have a problem wit that at all. But when ur kinda looking for a relationship, connection, vibe, or something at emotional level - at least for me I don't think of a Male. +But seems that's all I can find. + Does that make me shallow ? + + + I've been dealing with depression and loneliness for 9 years now.. and honestly at this point im feeling like Should I not be picky and just get what I can get. Even if it's not my cup of tea. +I mean honestly it does beat the loneliness. +But not the emptiness in my hart. +If that makes sense.. ",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.33333333333333,part3,lonely +108,You should devote your life to a femcel,"Imagine having a femcel girlfriend. At first, you don't get along with her and fight every single minute, but you try anyways because you're desperate for a woman's attention and you know deep down she's a good person. Eventually you get strangely comfortable with her rants and thoughts. Everytime you cuddle she whispers how you are trash and worthless, but then she tells you how much she loves you and no one would love you like she does. She gaslights and manipulates you until you forget who you are. She's doing this not because she's evil, but just because she is insecure and wants to keep you only to herself. You are reduced to a mat for her to step on and love as she pleases. You even start to enjoy the the degrading stuff she does because you truly start to fall in love with her. Although you see her as the most perfect woman, you still insist that the reason you are with her is because you just pity her, but deep down, you know the months of grooming, manipulation and propaganda has corrupted you, changed you as a person, to agree with her extreme views to just want to be her precious toy. You like the feeling of being choked to near asphyxiation, being under her feet, and being crushed under her weight. In front of her online friends she gets even worse, since she has a reputation to hold up. You know you can't beg since that will just make her stronger, but the thought of that doesn't seem too bad for you at this point. It's the perfect match made in heaven, she satisfies your self-hatred but also loves you. She's your soulmate. You want to devote your life to her.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +111,Anyone would like to be friends?,"I don't really have anyone. Im 22 years old. You have to be 18 years old and older though. I miss talking to someone and having friends. If you are interested, message me!! ",['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.33,evaluation,lonely +112,Struggling... looking for someone to chat with,It's been a rough day for me. Just looking for someone to chat with,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Lack of community or social support'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +127,my ex did it again,"**i told him i loved him a lot and he had a gf he said he chose me but he said Your not but I think we should calm down on the baby's and things like that I'm sorry I just want to be with my gf and we can be friends still I just think we should calm down on those things I'm sorry i said Of course 👍 and K and I honestly don't feel like living I can,t stand to see u with athorer girl im still crying at night and day and i though i was everything to him but i guess im not anything to him anymore what do i do now because i feel like nothing and its so strong i guess i have to keep my mouth shut from him because all he says is Sorry Ik you do and ik you can't I'm here ok maybe not in the way you want me to be but I am ok Awww thank you ik you will I hope you gave a great night and I'm here if you need to talk about anything 😊 and im trying to act like every thing is ok when its not and i still love him **",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +134,Done with life!!,As the title says probably it’s gonna be my last night been suffering for couple of years and I’m all alone rn might take the step today.,['Other'],5,['Other'],5,['Other'],5,['Other'],5.0,exploration,lonely +136,16M,Got no one to talk to or anything I play video games and like cars and much more dm if you want,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +140,Cannot maintain any relationship,"Whether it's romantic or platonic, I literally cannot maintain anything. In the beginning it was fine as I've got memory issues. I used to forget about peoples whole existence if they were out of my line of sight, even if they were my own parents. + +But now that I'm on medication, my memory is a lot better but apparently nothing else is. I can make friends (acquaintances?) pretty easy, but when it comes to maintaining it? I'm absolutely awful and I can acknowledge that it is pretty much always my fault. The only relationship I can maintain are the ones with conditions (?). The ones with a certain environment needed, but then again, it's more on an acquaintances level. + +I thrive for some sort of bond with anyone but the moment it starts to get serious I air them and avoid them yet get jealous when seeing others having no issue with getting close. It's annoying me, like atp, I might as well take myself off the meds and go back to forgetting everything if this is how it's gonna be. + +Literally feeling much more miserable with the constant knowledge that I have no actual bond with anyone. No one to talk to, hang out with etc.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends','Lack of romantic relationships','Lack of community or social support']",3.33333333333333,part3,lonely +141,Looking for long-term chatting partner/friend,"Hey everyone. I have not had anyone to talk to in about six years now. I am looking for someone who is nice and will want to chat pretty much every day, throughout the day. Please only contact me if you are also lonely and interested in mutual venting, discussing how to get through it, etc. I am 26/M/USA. Thanks for your time.",['Lack of community or social support'],4,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4.66666666666666,evaluation,lonely +142,Looking for long-term chatting partner/friend,"Hey everyone. I have not had anyone to talk to in about six years now. I am looking for someone who is nice and will want to chat pretty much every day, throughout the day. Please only contact me if you are also lonely and interested in mutual venting, discussing how to get through it, etc. I am 26/M/USA. Thanks for your time.",['Lack of community or social support'],4,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4.66666666666666,evaluation,lonely +143,Looking for long-term chatting partner/friend,"Hey everyone. I have not had anyone to talk to in about six years now. I am looking for someone who is nice and will want to chat pretty much every day, throughout the day. Please only contact me if you are also lonely and interested in mutual venting, discussing how to get through it, etc. I am 26/M/USA. Thanks for your time.",['Lack of community or social support'],4,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],4,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",3.67,evaluation,lonely +143,Looking for long-term chatting partner/friend,"Hey everyone. I have not had anyone to talk to in about six years now. I am looking for someone who is nice and will want to chat pretty much every day, throughout the day. Please only contact me if you are also lonely and interested in mutual venting, discussing how to get through it, etc. I am 26/M/USA. Thanks for your time.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",3.67,exploration,lonely +146,I just want someone to feel safe with,Anyone is welcomed I just want to find someone to feel safe with,['Lack of community or social support'],2,['Lack of community or social support'],2,['Lack of community or social support'],2,['Other'],3.0,part3,lonely +157,"[24/M] ~ looking for kind, silly, non judgmental and lifelong friends <3","Hello there, as the title implies i’m looking for some new friends! i’ve always struggled to make new friends, i think it’s just because i’ve always kinda been out there. Not in a bad way tho, i think it’s in a good way. I’ve never been ashamed to me who I am :) + +Some information about me is that i’m 24, gay, and from the united states. I really love video games, i play on PC and Switch! I’ve been on a huge overwatch kick lately so if you need a pocket Mercy hit me up! I absolutely love horror movies and love hearing recommendations, and talking about them in general. Also I love thrifting and fashion. I used to draw and paint a lot as well but haven’t in years. Some other things I enjoy are working out, astrology, music, and shopping! :) + +As for you, please be 18 or older and I would prefer to talk to someone from the United Sates or a similar timezone but that’s not a deal breaker for me, just a preference! I love wired, silly, and kind people the most too! Please message me a little bit about yourself, if you’d like to reach out to me at all! Thanks for listening to my rambling and I hope to hear from you soon! <3",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +159,Loneliness is screwing me over.,"Since I was 7 years old, I never had friends, now I am 17, and as you can imagine, I am desperate to communicate with someone. I have never received words of appreciation from anyone genuinely interested in friendship or conversation, I am starting to feel a huge resentment and hatred towards people because all my online venting is ignored, I know I am a weirdo, but a simple ""hello"" would help me a lot. This may seem ridiculous to you, but school doesn't help much either, people only talk to me out of obligation and not out of genuine interest, moreover, the bullying I have suffered in previous years, including last year, has left my self-esteem almost nonexistent. + +Living in the third world with autism doesn't help either",['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],5,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",4.0,part3,lonely +164,"26M Feeling Down Today, Come Chat and Distract Me?","Heyah, My names Jon. I am Feeling very down today, honestly has been a thing lately and wouldn't mind a chat that can distract my brain, maybe long term? Thinking about hopping in bed and just binge watching Love Island USA. Currently on break and have lots of time. Hopefully someone I can talk to often if not everyday? Recommend me some movies or shows I can binge? Pretty much will watch anything, My favorite genres are horror, drama, and fantasy. + +Some things about me: I am an Information Technology Major with one course left, I’m mixed, 6’1, Curly brown hair, Glasses, Dimples, and am from Minnesota if you are curious. Absolutely love movies and shows, Would like to have someone to watch movies with as I watch pretty often. Big on my sports, Football, Basketball, Hockey, Baseball. Absolutely Love Fishing and big on Boats too, Fishing is probably my favorite hobby, I also go Hunting, Trying to get back into Health & Fitness, Just started to run again. Ask Anything I'm an open book!",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +168,A lonely Friday,"I'm sad because I spent what's supposed to be a man's prime decade of his life doing nothing. I mean I have a car and a job. That's it. Other than that, I'm alone. Been like this for the past several years. I lowkey envy all of the normal people in my age group who fulfilled the dream life of a 20 something: banging random women, partying, hanging out, etc. ",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.0,evaluation,lonely +169,Feel like an outcast,"I feel so alone and just no idea how to deal with it, I live in the uk, I’m 23M. The uk is basically known for its drinking culture and partying and football and pubs etc but it honestly cannot stand any of it, I don’t drink, I don’t like drinking and it’s making me feel like a stranger to my own planet. I’ll go out with mates to a pub and everything about it makes me sick, the loud noises everywhere, the crowded rooms, everyone drinking and being loud it’s just not me, but I don’t have any other friends. Even my family like it, I’ve come on holiday with them and all they want to do is go out every night from 5pm till 1am and drink going from bar to bar and it just makes me feel stupid and childish for not liking drinking. I have no friends that don’t like drinking so I feel like a total loser.",['Lack of friends'],2,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",2.67,evaluation,lonely +170,you deserve friends. genuine connection,"Drink water. Breathe. Treat yourself kindly: take things a day at a time and do what you can for the moment. Sometimes all you need to heal is to have a good time: we've got helpful events and silly times to supplement the support. + +Click here if you're interested: https://discord.com/invite/C8sznUTNAw + +You can make it through the day. That's what's worked for me, and I hope it works for you.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +174,Do you ever get tired of pretending?,"I am so fucking tired of pretending to be happy for everyone around me. It’s utterly exhausting trying to fake a smile all the time so nobody knows how depressed I really am. + +Do you get tired of pretending? Or do you find that it’s just easier to fake a smile and go on about your day?",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +177,24F Someone to talk?,"I’m so lonely I don’t even see what’s so fun about life anymore. I do try and I’d say I’m nice but I’m the ugly unpopular kid in every setting so it’s not as easy to make friends as adults think. It’s not. I’m just tired. + +",['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],5,['Lack of friends'],4.0,part3,lonely +179,How are you?,"I feel depressed. + +Just wanted to ask it from strangers. + +How about you? How are you today?",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +182,Ghosting,Why do people ghost here rather than actually chatting? Surely it’s possible to have good conversations and make some new friends right?,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +195,"Single , lonely ",Please text me and we can also do rp,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2.0,exploration,lonely +196,"28M Mumbai, India! Need friends!","Hey! I am looking for online/irl friends with whom i could talk about the most random sh*t, hit some amazing cafes/arcades! I am also open to long distance online friendships (penpals ig?)! HMU",['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +197,looking for some to talk to (with similar interest),"in terms of music i like: Mac de marco, Cigarettes after sex, REM, Morphines, Leonard Cohen, Metallica. Basically i like indie, pop, rock and classical music + +In terms of movies: I like art house cinema, indie movies as well. Movies like Burning, Before Sunset, Past Lives, aftersun, mullholland drive, any from tarkovsky, kubrick, etc + +I like to talk about interesting things, for example about history, art, philosophy, psychology, politics, etc. + +the only sport i like is football + +I'm not much of a gamer unfortunately and i am not into anime as well, so i can´t talk much about these hobbies, but i can try, especially with gaming. + +send me a message + +",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +198,Anyone want to talk? Any other depressed friendless girls?,"Stressed about college (I have to go back and I have no friends and I’m failing :) I’m getting out to a toxic relationship, lost myself and barely sane, I can’t even think. Anyway looking for someone to be depressed with. ",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.0,evaluation,lonely +199,How to meet people/make friends after university/college?,"Hi. Hey. Hello. Yo. What’s up? I’m kinda reaching the realisation that maybe, just maybe, I probably should’ve spent far less time alone in my room at university. I should’ve made more of the gold mine of social opportunities that university/college afforded me - but I didn’t. Pretty stupid mistake, I’ll be the first to admit it, but that’s in the past now. I can’t change it, and I no longer wish to marinate in my own misery. + +So, for those of you who might have ended up in a similar predicament, or feel as if your own experience may be relevant to the dilemma of making friends after university - how did you overcome it? Any advice? + +Also, FYI, I’m just down to chat or even talk in general - internet friends, as fickle and flakey as they can be, are still friends, right? + +Thank you all kindly in advance, and I hope everyone has a lovely and less lonely day! ",['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2.0,evaluation,lonely +208,Would y’all cuddle with someone platonically?,"I’m 24m lonely and touched starved, I’ve always wanted to cuddle and watch anime with someone but I’m insanely lonely and have never been in a relationship before. I’d cuddle platonically with someone if they were interested. ","['Lack of romantic relationships', 'Lack of physical touch']",3,['Lack of physical touch'],4,['Lack of physical touch'],4,['Lack of physical touch'],3.67,evaluation,lonely +209,app to make friends,"hello i wanted to share this app i discovered and made a bunch of friends on, the apps called cantina and there is always ppl on u can talk to. i use it every day and u guys might like it. u can use mic, vid chat, and talk to new ppl in rooms. if u want the invite link dm me i don’t think i can post it (:",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +213,I’ll feel alone no matter what I do,"What's the fucking point anymore. Drinking doesn't help, smoking don't help, even other people don't. Sure I can flash a titty online or jerk off or something but that validation doesn't last at all and I feel even more disgusted with myself. The only relationships I've ever been in are with people who just used me, and the only healthy person I've been in love with and 'loved by' I fucked it up by ghosting him and pushing him away because I can never show anyone my true feelings. What does it matter, I still would've felt as shitty as I do now because this shit never goes away. No one or nothing will ever truly fill this fucking void, no hobby or person, depressions a bitch like that. I'm gonna graduate soon and kill myself probably.",['Lack of romantic relationships'],4,['Lack of romantic relationships'],4,['Lack of romantic relationships'],4,['Other'],4.33333333333333,part3,lonely +215,Some love and affection would go such a long way,"Been doing better recently, but having a pretty low night tonight. Just feeling incredibly lonely again. I get no physical other than a friendly family hug every so often. + +I just wish I could lay in someones arms, have them hold me, have it be okay cry with my face in their shoulder if I need to. A kiss on the head and they caress me and squeeze me tight. + +I can't even begin to explain how much that would do for me right now. I really hate being an adult, because it doesn't ever actually feel any different, but you aren't allowed to show that. + +No matter my age, I just feel like child who's all alone, and just needs some genuine love and care.",['Lack of physical touch'],3,"['Lack of physical touch', 'Other']",3,"['Lack of physical touch', 'Other']",3,"['Lack of physical touch','Other']",3.0,evaluation,lonely +220,3am.,"Dealing with people who are two-faced, overly self-involved, and deceptive is incredibly frustrating. These individuals often believe they can do no wrong, quickly blaming others while ignoring their own mistakes. They have a habit of distorting stories to suit their needs, omitting their part in conflicts and fabricating details to save face. This kind of self-absorption can ruin relationships. It's vital for such individuals to introspect and address these behaviors. Often, they find themselves in a cycle of losing friends and not understanding why, not realizing that it's their actions that push people away. Acknowledging and working on these traits is essential for building lasting, trustworthy relationships.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +221,Im completely alone,"Im always everyone's last choice, my friends always make plans without me, my partener does not give one shit about me and can go days without talking to me, my family doesn't even want to look at me. I started going in walks but my heart breaks seeing everyone be happy and be in communities while i am simply alone. I'm feeling very depressed lately and no one answers my messages, even if i just want to talk about how their days were, im getting completely ignored and i dont know what to do, i feel like i won't be able to keep up with everything if i have no one.","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",4.0,part3,lonely +222,Never had I felt so lonely and empty,"I got off reddit for a couple of weeks trying to talk to girls and improve myself but again I keep failing. I been working out since January and my body looks better but still I don’t know what’s missing. In June I wanted to talk to this beautiful coworker that I liked because of her attractiveness and how she had that funny and cute personality. Back then I wouldn’t had even talked to her now I decided to 3 weeks ago. Turns out she was taken but I accepted to be her friend asked for her IG so we could chat since she was transferring from workplace. When I followed her she did not, I guess because of the bf. My friend from college tried to hook me up with his gf’s coworker by me texting her, when I did she just said to my friend’s gf “that guy texted me, so weird”. My friend just encouraged me to not give up. I texted a girl in fb, she went try 2 days later and ghosted me by leaving me on seen. Again my friend asked me to follow one of her gf’s female friends which I did and followed me back, I texted her but its been 13h I can tell she is not going to reply. I do not want to be single forever.",['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +223,does anyone know?,"i want to be cooler at school for next year, like glow up and be more intelligent help",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +224,socializing sucks but I can't help it,"Yes, socializing sucks but I can't help it. I genuinely love socializing and talking to new people even if they're not new, I just genuinely like talking to anyone. I know I like being a lone but I can't help it, I feel like I'd go crazy if I didn't get my daily dose of socializing. + +But I am getting tired of it. + +I'm bad at keeping a relationship alive or being friends with people. It almost usually feels like I'm forcing them to hang out or talk to me and that I don't deserve to be their friend. That it'd be better if I was just alone so that I wouldn't need to think of what people think of me. It's selfish, I know. + +And so the cycle just keeps repeating, I meet and talk to someone, become friends with them, overthinks life and bedrots, stop being friends with them, then meet someone new and a new cycle repeats. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +225,I can never be happy,I’ll have days or moments where something good happens but something always has to go wrong. My life loves to give me good zones where everything is just peachy. And I always fall for the illusion. Because it ends up all crumbling down. I really ought to stop getting my hopes up.,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +235,i hate having these desires,"i hate having these desires sm cus there's nothing I can do fullfil any of them. I'm a very romantic person and I used to just day dream or even plan out dates in my head to have if I ever had the chance back in highschool. fast-forward to now I'm 27 and I've never even had a relationship or my first date yet. when ever I'm in public and I see a cute couple I'm instantly envious of them. bc I wanna experience that once. + +the worst is when you're, excuse my language but, horny and there's nothing you can do about it. porn and masterbation make me feel gross and pathetic. I'm not asexual either I'm just tired of wondering what human contact is like and never experiencing it. I'm a man too so I cant even load up and dating app and do some no strings attached stuff unless I do smth illegal and pay a girl. but at that point I rather call it quits lol.",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.0,exploration,lonely +239,What am I doing wrong?,"It feels like every time I go out with friendsx everyone is paired up and finds their match pretty quickly. I’m always the one out of the group that goes home alone or gets put aside. I’d like to say i’m conventionally attractive, but I guess it’s not enough for someone to want me seriously. And if they do interact, it’s for sex only. + +I feel so invisible. ",['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +244,Lonely nights,"I’m lonely and anxious. I’m 18m. I feel so touch starved. I fantasize about people talking to people, I fantasize about smiling, I fantasize about having friends. I have no friends, and my family is messed up. + +A hug from a boyfriend would cure me. Not really though, it’s just nice to think about. + +I wish I had friends I could hang out with, I wish I wasn’t so socially anxious that I literally shake when I speak, I wish I was normal. ","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of physical touch']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships', 'Lack of physical touch']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends', 'Lack of physical touch']",4,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of friends','Lack of physical touch']",4.0,exploration,lonely +245,Being the ugly girl in class,"I just hate it. I have naturally a ugly body and ugly features, but I can't wait to grow up out of the akward teenager proportions to see if maybe, just MAYBE, I stop being so goddamn ugly. I'm the ugliest girl in my class, I don't think I'm too disgusting or anything but I look like a ogre next to other girls my age. I have a big horrible nose (which I hate because why big noses look good in other people but not on me?), i'm too short, i'm brown (ironically I like dark-skinned girls better, but it looks bad on ME especifically. Ugh), I have a asymmetrical face, no curves. There's a girl in my class that literally everyone finds beautiful. + +And then there's me. So you can get an idea, I'm that one girl im class that's so fucking ugly thay boys play truth or dare and the embarrasing dare is to kiss me. It has happened (I've said no to kissing though), and getting rejected by me is like ""omg haha you got rejected even by the most horrible girl"". + +I know very well it's one of the reasons why I'm lonely. I make people look bad. I put a lot on effort in my clothes and hygiene to make up for it, but my appareance itself makes it hard to get friends or partner. I just wanna be like others girl my age and have friends and be pretty and have fun, but instead I got this stupid body. I'm embarrased to talk to anyone with my face. I'll never find love or make friends.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of friends','Lack of romantic relationships']",3.66666666666666,part3,lonely +250,one of those days where i just feel super ugly + super tired,i’ve no energy and just not feeling happy w the person i see in the mirror,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +252,Anyone wanna talk?,"I usually respond to these posts rather than make them, but eh. 19M, I'd prefer you be at least kinda similar in age, past that, I don't care. Just wanna meet some cool people and possibly make a friend. If you're not interested, thanks for taking the time to read this post anyway and have a great day.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +260,Improving situation,"Just curious what you all are doing to try and better your situation? Not trying to attack anyone, just curious whats working and not working for others.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +261,Anyone interested in talking?,I’m up lonely and bored in bed want to chat with someone!,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2.0,part3,lonely +263,I’m done.,Not a single soul in my life can tell me I’m worth it. Not a single person from my family. I do everything I can to make a living and I get looked down on. I just want to be happy for once where I can just be me. I feel like I have to fake my life to feel somewhat of good response. I’m just tired of everything and want to give up,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,['Lack of community or social support'],4.0,part3,lonely +265,21m anybody wanna chat?,I got nothing better to do right now so anybody wanna chat?,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +266,Being 33," +I'm not really sure what I'm about to write but I just know I need to write now. I don't know when it happened but I just don't know what's going on with my life anymore. Each day that passes seems like an empty blur and suddenly a year, two years, a decade passes by. I thought getting older would give me some sense of control over my life, and while I'm in a more stable housing situation and not actively abused by people, I feel empty. + +Pushing people away has always been my go-to for trying to manage stress and solve the issues I have going on inside. I always felt the need to run and hide from other people and now I look around and realize that there's no one in my life anymore. No family, no friends, just me and this empty apartment that I call my ""safe place"" I don't go out anymore, I don't leave my apartment for food and Uber Eats everything. + +It feels like I'm not even a person anymore and I don't know how to handle it. I don't want to be a shadow of who I once was or could have been. It's terrifying to think that this might just be my life forever now. ","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",5,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",5,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",5,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",5.0,part3,lonely +268,"29F4F, we are both lonely women so let's do something about it!","let's chat and maybe become friends!! Basically the only friends I've got irl are my two housemates who pretty much are outta the house and super busy all the time, so.. being that's it's summer and I'm a university student with nothing to do for the summer, it gets both lonely and boring being at home for hours on end and never really being among many people throughout the day ",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.33333333333333,part3,lonely +269,23M trying to find some ppl to connect with," +If ur serious about wanting a friend pls don’t be shy hit me up I’m a fast reply. A little bit of true about me is I don’t have many friends irl it’s been that way for a long time now is I’m kinda used to being alone but there’s nothing I want more than a true genuine connection with someone were we look after and support each other that’s all I want in my whole life I hate sounding so desperate but I don’t know what else to do. It’s beyond frustrating please reach out if you’re going through the same thing or something similar I promise I’m not a creep or anything just I’m just super lonely and depressed thanks for reading.",['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4.0,evaluation,lonely +273,Consumed,"I moved my senior year + graduated recently and I was left with my one friend. I've never really been that social due to my anxiety. Is it selfish to feel sad about them moving on to college and making new friends? I'm sure it is. I can already see us growing apart. It pains me to know I'll forever be this alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so empty. I feel like a bottomless void. \[I'm taking gap year\] + + +",['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],3.67,exploration,lonely +274,No soulmate I guess,"I’m almost 30, and I haven't had a partner since before the pandemic... The relationships I've had felt like child’s play. With neither of my two scarce boyfriends did I ever have intimacy beyond a kiss. We never got to that point because one relationship was long-distance and the other didn’t last long. I feel stuck in this aspect because there are many things that people experience in relationships that I haven't gone through. Recently, I tried to start something with a man, but the discomfort I felt when he tried to be affectionate with me was indescribable. I don't understand why I'm like this; I want to fall in love, I want to go through all of that, but it’s as if something within me won’t let me be free and experience those things... I don't know why, even though I desire it so much, I also feel so much anxiety. And finally, what worries me the most is that no man will have the patience to endure my slow pace, my quirks, and won’t take the time to go step by step with me because I feel like relationships these days move at lightning speed. + +Before you ask, yes I know I need to see a therapist but I don’t have the means to do so… ",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +277,I have no fucking clue how to date or live life,So yea i uh have no fucking clue how to date and at this point i woud probably go for any suggestions fuck IT i lowered mine expectetions for women so at this point im fine with older nice ladies but nervermind that i don't have any slight idea what to do in minę life like no set goals in so yea any suggestions or even SLIGHT ideas woud been great,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Not lonely'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +279,Why do I feel so lonely even tho I have people to talk to,"I don't know. I have these spouts of loneliness. I have friends I talk to, at least two of them every day. I go to the gym with one of them every day. But even after all that, I still feel lonely. It feels like something is missing sometimes.",['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +280,Not me stop using media social...,"I used to like media social because I'm love doing cover songs since i was 15 (2015) but started stop because I'm so lonely and insecure. (2020) now I just use Facebook but funny thing, my recommend friends all bunch of gay couple who look so happy :) Hahah! ",['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +283,Day 580,"I got Dr Pepper today!!!!! Made me so happy, I wanted to share a memory I shared with Blondie ( Bella ), my freshman year it was either the first or second week of school, Bella wasn’t feeling well, and I offered her gold fish because that makes me feel better when I’m not feeling well. And I wanted to make my friend feel better. + +I’m still alone as always ",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +286,"What do you guys think contributes more to your loneliness? Not being given a chance by people, or screwing it up when you do have a chance to talk and be you?","For me, I feel like it's the former, but I've seen many posts on here of people struggling with the latter. I'm just curious. Also, follow up question, which hurts more? Not being given a chance, or screwing it up when you're given one?",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],2.33333333333333,part3,lonely +289,A Survey to Help,"Hello to everyone that sees this again. Last week I posted a survey and wanted to thank everyone that filled it out. I wanted to post it again to try and get some more responses so please if you have the chance take a look at it or even an upvote really helps. Thank you all in advance and hope everyone has a great day!  + +[https://forms.gle/K3DCxZ1VzbiEGf216](https://forms.gle/K3DCxZ1VzbiEGf216)",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,lonely +292,Feeling lonely when hanging out.,"Rn im at a ""LAN party"" at my friends house. His GF is here and that's ok for me. I really like them and they are the most precious people in my life and they dont even know it. (they are my only friends) They are a couple and they do what couples do. They share hugs, kisses exc. That is more than ok for me since i dont want to be that ""negative"" friend. Those things just make me feel lonely. I know this might be a toxic way to think. It's just in me. Idk what to do about it. Im a single young man and i have never experienced true love. Never kissed, hugged, held hands exc. + +Lately i have felt even more lonely. Seeing all my friends getting a girlfriend and getting loved is dragging me down. My appearance is not my strenght. If i was a girl, i would never date me. That's how bad it is trust me. Few years ago i used to make fun of lots of people and calling insecure guys""forever virgin"". I grew up and started to realise i am the actual loser. Im the one who is the ""weird guy"". It hurts alot. Anyways this post is starting to go off tracks. Thanks for reading, advice for me is appreciated. (sorry for weak english)",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],4,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.33,exploration,lonely +298,40M-Hello :),"Hey there, I am male in my 40s. I have Aspergers and currently looking for work. My one of my big interests is music , I liked the decades from 60s,70s,80s,90s to present. I liked so many bands and artists such as Nirvana,ELO, Billy Joel,Elton John,Elvis,The Smiths,Guns N Roses,Queen,REM, Fleetwood Mac,Pixies,Beach boys,The Doors,Beatles,Ac/Dc, Grunge music,pop music,rock music. I go to many gigs to see local bands. I like books, mostly reading true crime stuff. + +I like reading and watching stuff about true crime, I am jogger too . I watch Netflix an odd time.And like memes, I don’t play video games.But can talk about anything. Send a pm or chat if you would like to talk!.",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,lonely +302,Lonely after breakup,"I need more people to talk to. I’m terribly lonely after I had to leave an abusive relationship. I am 26 male, and I love gaming! Please feel free to message me ☺️",['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3.0,evaluation,lonely +303,hey,"hi im new, i searched lonely to find a community that could hear me. i guess internet's better than real life, right?",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],2.66666666666666,part3,lonely +305,you deserve friends. real connection.,"Drink water. Breathe. Treat yourself kindly: take things a day at a time and do what you can for the moment. Sometimes all you need to heal is to have a good time: we've got helpful events and silly times to supplement the support. +Click here if you're interested: https://discord.com/invite/C8sznUTNAw +You can make it through the day. That's what's worked for me, and I hope it works for you.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,lonely +310,Just looking for fellow lonely friends :) m20," +Hey my name is max and I’m 20 :) +I love to game on my Xbox and Nintendo switch and I would love finding people to play with + +I also love movies and I love going to the cinema 🍿 just watched inside out 2 and many other movies :) + +I also love to draw and paint things even though I’m not very good lol but I try my best aha + +I’m a huge fan of sports, football and mma mainly and also I’m a massive wrestling fan aha + +I also love animals and have a dog called Bert who’s 12 and he’s perfect and I have lots of pics!!! +",['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2.0,part3,lonely +313,I feel like I should just stop talking.,"I know I have to talk to people to not be lonely, but lately I’ve been wondering whats the point? Anytime I try to talk to people they looked at me like I’m stupid, make fun of me, cut me off, or just ignore me. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. It’s so constant every time I talk. I feel like it’d hurt less if I just gave up and stayed alone. ",['Other'],4,['Other'],4,['Other'],4,['Other'],3.66666666666666,part3,lonely +316,im a boring person,"I feel like I'm literally such a boring person to talk to. idk how to talk to people like how do yall have conversations what do you guys talk about in general, I can never find a topic to talk about. I'll always contribute and won't have responses like ""oh okay"" but starting a conversation is so hard for me. it's specially with new people im meeting I just can't talk maybe it's because of my social anxiety but my brain just goes blank I can't think of anything. please I would love one of you yappers to adopt me.",['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +318,idk,"coming to the realisation my brain doesn't work the same way as other people. I always get stuck comparing myself to my peers, who are very functional well adjusted members of society. I know there's a lot i don't see but i can't help to look at what they're doing and what i'm struggling with. It's unfair to assume but yeah idk. anyway my brain right, in the recent years it's become more, i hate the word but fragile. I feel acutely sensitive to stress, things that i really just want to be over. Getting caught in negative doom and gloom clcyles is still something i'm trying to map out. I don't know if i don't think enough or too much. NO thoughts head busy. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,lonely +320,addicted to reddit even though i never get any attention,"i'm so desperate for attention, but 90% of my comments or posts don't get a single response, or even an upvote or downvote (i'd rather get downvotes than no reaction) + +the only time i ever receive dms is by horny men who see my long haired avatar and mistakenly assume i'm a girl. + +i should stop using this website since i'll never get the human interaction i so desperately crave but what choice do i have? it's not like i have any real life friends to talk to. can anyone else relate to this",['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],3.66666666666666,part3,lonely +324,It’s so easy to state past everything now,"It makes me think I’m getting closer to completely letting go and it seems whenever I feel I’ve reached it there’s always more to go. + +I want to laugh at everything and I’m getting closer to it but never satisfied enough. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +326,Feeling Lonely and Struggling to Make Friends,"Hey everyone, + +I've been feeling really lonely lately and wanted to share my thoughts here. It seems like everyone around me has no trouble making friends, while I find it incredibly challenging. It's gotten to the point where I'm even jealous of how effortlessly others seem to form connections. + +I've tried reaching out online to make friends, but it hasn't been successful either. It's frustrating because I genuinely want to connect with people and have meaningful friendships, but it feels like I'm hitting a wall every time I try. + +Does anyone else here feel the same way or have any advice on how to overcome this? I'd really appreciate any tips or even just knowing I'm not alone in feeling this. + +Thanks for reading.",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.0,exploration,lonely +330,"I got addicted to oxycodone for a year and a half, and I've weaned myself off. Nobody in my life knows.","Throwaway, obviously. + +Basically what the title says. + +I went through a horrible break up, and made the mistake of seeking comfort in opiates. I've been able to keep it entirely secret, and none of my friends or family is aware of this struggle. + +I managed to keep my addiction on a tight leash, but it was very slowly eroding my life. I've lost 20lbs. My breasts are gone. + +Two days ago I took my last ""dose"", and I feel fucking GREAT. I weaned myself off slowly enough I don't feel like shit. I genuinely don't even want it; the habit of use makes me feel like I'm missing something, but I'm not craving. It feels so good. + +I feel FREE, and I'm so proud of myself for having the strength of will to fix the serious issue my stupid self caused. + +I have no one else to tell, except you, Reddit. + +I hope you're proud of me :) + +Edit: To the people downvoting what is actually an awesome success, I hope your coffee order is always wrong. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +337,Sex sex,"Sex, sex, and more sex. There I talked about sex, now up vote me to heaven for talking about in this group that wasn't always this sexual.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +338,My wife is participating in a beauty pageant and I am feeling a bit nervous and insecure,"My wife (29 F) always wanted to be in a beauty pageant, and she finally signed up for one. I'm super proud of her for being so brave and going for it. It's all new for her, especially the swimsuit part. She's never worn a bikini in public before, and all I want is for her to feel amazing up there! + +But... gotta be honest. I can't lie, there's a part of me feeling a bit nervous and insecure about other guys seeing her in a bikini on stage I know it sounds dumb, really, because this is all about her feeling confident, beautiful and empowered. It's her big moment, and I want her to shine! + +I guess I'm feeling a little possessive, and maybe it's also a worry about what other people would perceive. Whatever it is, I know I need to silence that little voice and just be 100% there for her big moment. She's strong, confident, and beautiful, and this pageant is all about celebrating that. Seeing her own it on stage is going to be incredible. + +Any advice on how to squash these conflicting feelings and just be her biggest fan? Thanks for listening !",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +339,Venting session,"Would somebody like to go on a private chat for a venting session? + +Got a lot on my mind and no one to talk to, and I can listen to you too…",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.0,part3,offmychest +341,Broke up with fiance,"So tonight I caught my fiance cheating and kicked her out. I let her pack bags and get a friend to come pick her up and for the first time in my life I'm living completely alone. + +I absolutely lost it earlier, crying and screaming. I eventually called the closest thing I had to a friend and poured it all over her. I must have really scared her because she called health check with the authorities, I was mad at her for a minute until I realized it was just because she was scared for me. Now my eyes are puffy and dry, no more tears left. Life has no flavor and color when I'm alone. Yes I can function, but I have to wonder at the point of trying. Still, I promised my friend I would try and put myself into something, work, the gym, maybe both, volunteer work, whatever. I'm not going to kill myself, but at the same time if I fell into a coma I'd be okay with it.",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.33333333333333,part3,offmychest +349,will things ever be okay?,"I got fired at my job for poor performance months ago and I feel so worthless and stupid. It was my fault and I feel like I've just fucked up my entire career. + +I can't seem to get rid of my negative spiralling thoughts even though I've tried to talk to family and friends. I've looked for jobs but I keep fucking up the interviews because I lost all confidence and I'm self doubting everything about myself. + +Sorry for this rant - I just really need some hope things will get better.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,offmychest +351,Feeling Isolated and Wondering What Went Wrong,"I'm a 30-year-old guy, and I'm at a point where I've lost a lot of friends over the years. Back in high school, I thought I had a solid group of friends, but life has been tough. At 25, I found out I was adopted, which led to me cutting everyone out of my life, including my family. + +Now, looking back at 30, I can't help but wonder what went wrong. I've never been invited to a wedding, and many of my close friends are no longer in my life. One of my best friends is even dating my ex. I only have about five people in my close circle now. Is there something wrong with me?","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of friends']",3,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of friends']",3.0,part3,offmychest +355,My ex loved anal and I miss it,"I’m 45M. My ex wife was crazy but she was very hot and was very sexual. I introduced her to anal sex and she loved it so much there was a point she liked it more than regular sex. +I haven’t had anal sex since the divorce 12 yrs back. My current wife doesn’t even want it mentioned in the bedroom + has low libido. +Today I was remembering a night in 2011 when it was late, I was kinda horny but also sleepy. I wanted a quickie and she wanted anal. That would mean the whole 9 yards - foreplay, lube, buttplug, then going slow etc etc. So I said, “Can we not do this tonight and just do like regular sex?” Wow, had I known that would be one of the last times I was having anal, I would never have said it. +People who are having good sex - enjoy it, don’t take it for granted",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +356,My sister resents me and I don’t know why,"I’m 24. My sister is 21. We share an apartment and split the rent. + +Our relationship has been strained for the past 3 years. It’s the first time I started to notice that she had anger towards me. + +I think she started to feel like I didn’t meet her emotional needs, etc. maybe she felt like she gave a lot more in the relationship than I did. I don’t agree, but that’s her feelings. + +Also, I think beyond resentment it’s her own bitterness. Life is HARD. And when she turned 18 and had to have basic adult responsibilities she was angry. + +I have the same adult responsibilities and my life sucks just as much as hers. But the difference is I’m not bitter. I’m not happy, but not bitter. + +I think my lack of bitterness might also contribute to her resentment towards me. Idk ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +357,Fiancee is in jail while I'm 8 months pregnant,"Hi. So I really just want to get this off my chest. + +My (25F) fiancee (27M) is currently in jail for something that could have been avoided, but alas. He's looking at YEARS. + +I'm also currently 8 months (34+6) pregnant and I'm scheduled for a C-section in August. I love this man to death, but I'm extremely hurt that he went and did this after he was in jail from January until April of this year. He just went back in June. + +I am already scheduled for Therapy on July 31st, but I just have so many negative thoughts and feelings about him going to jail. + +Every time I ask him why he did it, he just says so that he doesn't know or he wasn't thinking. + +This is his first child and he's missed so much of the pregnancy already. Not to mention all the drama with his mother which is a completely different post in itself. + +I love him to death and I want to be with him, but I'm worried about our future.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,offmychest +360,Is it okay,"To just say + +Keeus H Christ I'm horny. + +Feel wet and uncomfortable closing my legs please come touch me + + +NOW + +",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +362,I have to because it really bothers me:," +while many of us are struggling to make rent, these kids come from their trust funds and live in the expensive buildings, are super rude to the original residents of the town, and literally walk like zombies. + +They never look up from their phones, it’s ridiculous. + +I also used to work in HR and left due to the favoritism on Indians and other Asians being hired for every role. I feel also that they think that they are too good to mingle with the rest of us. You literally say hello and they look at you as if you were an alien. It’s unfortunate. + +",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +371,Is there a way to describe what I’m feeling and how I should deal with it?,"I’m friends with someone that I’ve had a minor crush on for a while, nothing too intense but I know the way I feel about them isn’t completely platonic and for as long as I’ve known them, I haven’t been able to change how I feel. They’re somehow always in the back of my mind. Yet at the same time, I don’t want to date them, be in a relationship with them, or even have a physical relationship/fwb situation. I just know that I like them and I want to be around them all the time and that’s it. I know they like someone else and have liked that person since elementary school (we’re college students), so I’ll never make a move, but it doesn’t bother me much that their heart will never yearn for mine. If anything, I’m happy that they have someone that makes them so happy and I want them to be able to have their chance with the person they want - I’m hoping it will happen. I know I’m not special to them in the way they are to me, but I’m grateful that I feel so comfortable around them because of how difficult it is for me to open up. I just want to see them happy, whether that happiness involves me or not. I’m not asexual or aromantic, so I know it’s not attributed to anything like that, especially since I’ve been interested in people and wanted to pursue an actual relationship with them previously. I just know that this is different but I don’t know what it is and how I should go about dealing with it. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +375,"I was going to end my life today, but I decided to finish Sonic Unleashed instead","Title is exactly what happened. I've (m23) recently broke up with my ex (f22) and I felt like my life was over. The relationship had to end because it was too much pressure for her while she deals with mental issues. But to me it didn't seem like it had to end. So I was debating on just ending it all because I'm tired of ruining every relationship I have. I set the date for today - Friday the 12th - to decide if I was going to do it or not. + +But before that I thought I'd at least finish my last playthrough of sonic unleashed. Yea the game has its ups and downs, but playing it made me remember alot of things. All the ups and downs I've had and despite dealing with depression my whole life, I'm still here to play this game that's I've had since I was a kid. I did nothing but smile while I played it. + +So I've finished playing it and I think I won't go through with it. Its a stupid reason not to end my life, but somehow I feel happy enough to not go through with it and instead write this silly post on this really stupid thing that's happened to me. I can't kill myself because Shadow generations looks so good and I'm really looking forward to it. + +Tldr - Sonic Unleashed is so good it made me reconsider suicide",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,offmychest +378,Why can't life be easier,"After 4 years I'll soon be living on my own again. I'm so afraid to fall back into old habits. Staying in bed, isolating myself and overall neglecting the house I live in. I've got pets to take care of, so that's something, but I'm sure I won't be taking proper care of myself. I already spoke to an organisation that'll provide some help and support, but my first appointment isn't until next month. I can feel myself slowly slipping away and the depression is getting worse. I wish I could just enjoy life and do things I wanna do but my autistic arse is holding me back. I just don't know what to do anymore.",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2.66666666666666,part3,offmychest +384,This was something I wrote down about 4 years after my biological father passed away. Still don't know how to feel.,"The last thing you ever said to me was to ""walk in your shoes."" I never responded to you. I still harbor hate towards you. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive you. We all have made decisions in life that lead to where we are. We choose who we are. You chose drugs. I understand that after you get hooked, the drugs have you. But you didn't have to start doing drugs. You could've been a better man. You chose to break DJ's hips. You chose to use his identity to cause him to be in medical debt. You chose to use his name and get warrants for his arrest. You chose to cheat on mom, physically and mentally abuse her and your kids. And when she tried to leave, you threatened to kill her and your kids. I don't need to walk in your shoes. I wouldn't want to. I was 7 and I witnessed my dad stomping on my brotbers hips. I choose to be there for my kids. I choose to love them. I choose to provide for them. I choose to be the father they deserve to have because these are the best kids. I wouldn't know what to do without them. My kids are my drug. I have grown to be a better man than you. I have grown to be a better father than you. + + +Dj is my older brother.",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,offmychest +391,I can’t share my success stories,"Things at work are finally coming together, and I can’t share. + +My wife is getting her ass kicked trying to find a new job. + +My mother is a self absorbed narcissist. + +I’m “the successful” guy for my close friends anyway “We don’t even know / understand half of what you do” is another answer I got. + +yeah, luxury problems… but still.. argh!!",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,offmychest +397,Checking Compulsions,"I have a habit of checking things multiple times like if I locked a door or if I turned off a curling iron, today is the worst of it, I put a very important card in my wallet I know I did, I double checked twice only to find it in my wallet, now I checked it for the 10th time, and my brain is telling me to check again so I do, and then I put it back, the issue is I’m not comfortable so check again and stare at it for a second only to be uncomfortable again, I finally got it to stop but this happens with anything, I could be locking the door, and I have to check it 3 times to be comfortable, as for my curling iron I have to check it constantly to make sure I unplugged it after using it because I can’t remember if I did, this is honestly stressful, no I don’t have ocd, I I was diagnosed with adhd and anxiety",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +399,The hymen feels like a make-believe conspiracy to me.,"I (21F) first had sex when I was 18-years-old, and I never “broke my hymen.” I know I never had one, even as a virgin, because I was easily putting objects in there years before I ever had sex. When I lost my virginity, it was pretty easy and painless. Nothing “broke.” + +And unlike most girls, I never wore tampons, so I know my hymen wasn’t “broken” that way. I’ve always kind of felt like the hymen, and “breaking” it when you first have sex, is a make-believe conspiracy. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,offmychest +401,Nobody can politely talk politics,I’m not American so I can’t vote. But I really enjoy following politics. I’d classify myself as an independent. I see valid points from both US parties. My issue is whether I’m talking to a democrat or republican they’re always aggressive with their opinion and solidified in thought that the other side is completely wrong. I feel like people stay uneducated about politics because rather from learning about the oppositions way of thinking they immediately aggressively argue their side. I really wish I could engage in more conversations about it with those of differing opinions so I can learn more in a polite way,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +411,The Witcher x HTTYD,"I’m a huge fantasy fan and of course that means I love dragons. When httyd came out it was flawless, but I didn’t enjoy the other movies as much as obviously they’re targeted towards kids and the writing reflects that as they’re sometimes kinda dumb imo. The other day I tried getting into The Witcher as I’ve heard amazing things about it and as a fantasy fanatic it sounded exactly what I was looking for. Unfortunately I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would as it seemed to focus only on hunting evil monsters and I feel there is so much more to the genre that can be explored and enjoyed. + +I was listening to the HTTYD soundtrack today and I was thinking how cool would it be if there was a live action HTTYD shown that was directed toward a more mature audience and was kinda similar to the Witcher where they hunted monsters, found and fought and trained dragons, and explored more of the world. + +Just my opinion ✌️",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +413,Bf doesn’t like hot girls?,"My bf and I are both 21y. Recently he told me that he doesn't like hot girls because they're snobby and doesn't find me hot. But he says I'm still beautiful. +I've been overthinking this recently... is it a backhanded compliment? I want him to be sexually attracted to me and sometimes worry he isn't",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +420,I dodged the police and never got caught,"Years ago I was behind a car going 45 in a 55 so I sped up past him as an officer was coming up over a hill and saw me doing so. +He passed me with 6 other cars behind him and 4 behind me. I saw him pull over and after the 6 cars passed him he turned around as I was going over the top of the hill. As I was going down I turned off on a side road and waited for 10 mins before going but kept taking back roads cause I saw other officers pulled over on the main road and I knew they had my car description and I didn’t wanna get pulled over. +I kept taking backroads til I got out of the town and back home thankful I wasn’t pulled over and ticketed. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +426,I am struggling a lot with making and leeping friends recently,"I try to be super nice but i just feel like a burden right now. I feel like everything im doing is wrong and everyone is lying to me. + +My bf has been teasing me recently about how i am only friends with coworkers and his friends. I do have a few friends of my own, and I've tried playing games with them again like we used to. One friend is always on but almost never joins me and the other is always busy. And i get that. But i just feel like a burden at this point. + +I want to be able to have a decent time without overthinking every pause on conversation or wondering how many lies are beibg told to me. I'm working on this in therapy but i feel like my bf feels obligated to me because my lack of a social standing/friend group. + +Just wanted to rant ig.",['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],2.67,exploration,offmychest +432,Da rocks in da river,"Rivers have rocks in that run through them +Those rocks are carried far from their starting point +This process destroys the rock or completes changes it +And this destruction results in the river flowing differently + +I think about all the waste being dumped in our fresh water reserves and I wonder just what exactly is the endgame here. Water already has a price on it, and in some states it is already unclean. Whoever came up with the idea to sell water and dump the waste that comes with creating a plastic bottle to hold water into the water so they can keep selling water is clever. Sometimes it feels like elites think they can’t die, pushing for grandiose technological advancement in medicine and what not to live forever. Pushing the planet to its limits and sucking up the remains. For temporary reasons. There’s a limit we’ve already passed and now there’s nowhere to go but down. Or up, or sideways! Once that limit is reached I wonder what society will look like. Cyber punky maybe. Comfort will be the death of us all. Not one day. Soon. + + +",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +434,i feel like a coward,"i recently went to a summer camp after spending an incredible amount of time alone so when i was able to conect with friends i had felt good and had recently caught this attractive girl looking at me and was planning on asking her for her number she beat me to it either way weave been chatting for an entire week and i was also planning on asking her to on a date but she beat me to that to... + +so what im wondering is is she going to fast or am i going to slow or am just a coward the date is tommorow ill let you know how it goes... ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +436,I’m going to most likely be a high school drop out,I had a lot of trouble in public school for my freshman year and went into home school. Now after 2 years of homeschooling I wanted to be a senior in public school and walk across a stage for my family. Recently I found out that I will have to take a test and score high to see if I have all those subjects mastered but I’m a fucking dumbass and will obviously fail. I already got a 18 on the ACT and I’m very limited on everything and I know I will fail and be a failure I just broke down in front of my mom over it because I know I’m a failure and that I should just give up. I don’t know what to do anymore and I apologize if you read this. I’m sorry for letting people down and I hate the guilt from it,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +439,Sometimes I wake up in the morning irrationality horny,"I don't know why this happens but sometimes it does and i feel like a beast wanting to mate. Its so frustrating because I can't do it with a real person bc i live with my parents, have no partner and work all day so im tired 24/7, also i DONT feel any desire for people except for my bestfriend (and the same happens to her) but she lives far, really far away and it's impossible to meet. I already tried with other people but I just can't, it wasn't good. Anyways I'm not seeking for advice i just wantto rant about this bc i can't tell this to nobody + +Edit: i wake up in the middle of the NIGHT* usually 3am. i messed up the title lol",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,offmychest +442,I’m addicted to Costco Hotdogs,"Single guy here, although I don’t want to be (view profile). + +I live alone. I have no real big expenses besides rent ($1,300). + +My whole point in stating that is I have no business having a costco membership, yet I do. For one reason and one reason only: The hotdog combo. + +I used to have a sams club membership (a much better deal for anyone who actually wants to save money), but their hotdogs are nast. + +I made the switch to Costco, and although they are more expensive, its a whole new world of pleasure for me. + +Sams club has these really cool relish packets. I wish costco had those. You have to use the public relish pump at costco and I stg the most helpless people are always in line in front of you. + +Alas, I digress. + +I also hecking love those double chunk cookies from costco. They’re a bit pricey tho, but idfc. Once I walk through those doors, I get into a trance. + +I was at costco today, in line ready to place my order and it was a mad house. Clueless eldery clogging the pores of the screen to pick up funnel. I couldn’t wait around bc I had to be at work. + +So now I’m just sad. Lamenting on the savory feeling of that dog on my tongue. Wishing the morrow so I can go again, my tum tum never finding respite until the hotdog, drink, and double chonk cookie its it. + +Amen.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +444,Is it so hard to understand,"I don't want you to put me above anyone, I'm don't want you to neglect your responsibilities. + +Yes of course I wish I was your girl but accept any role or position vacant in your life lol + +I get butt hurt, complain, act out and feel truly angry or and kinda of negative way is because I don't feel treated fair. + +I've never been any priority in your life, yet I see you do it with everyone else. + +I've seen you go hang out at others homes sometimes for days, yet I have to beg or drag you to mine . + +I watch you work with others, travel with them often, hear about how you call them out of the blue to go have breakfast. + +I watch you have long conversations and I know that you share my texts with them. + +You talk more about me to them but the common theme is always the same + +You won't come chill, you don't do anything in which you would be seen with me, you don't call me I call you. + +You don't ask me about my day or my health you don't know anything about my life because you don't ask. + +Then you wonder why I feel the way I do. You wonder why I act out in ways you don't like. + +It's because I feel like I'm not good enough and I don't know why.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,evaluation,offmychest +450,"I am tired of being a people pleaser, tired of being lonely and having no real friends","All my life I have been mostly trying to please other people. Make them feel comfortable and happy. All the people I have met in my life have not been complete a-holes, but most of them have been pretty egoistic. I guess that lies in our nature. I have had many ""friends"", or so I thought. Most of them threw me away as soon as they started a family of their own. + +Tried gaming with friends and they just wanna play their game or by their rules. I mostly played their game and by their rules for so many years until I just said. ""screw this!"". They really do not genuinely care about me. Even if some have say they liked me, it sure does not feel like it. No one really does care, beside my own family. I never had a girlfriend either and I am soon to be 45 yo. It does feel lonely and it frustrates me so bad I am constantly losing my temper over small stuff and I yell cruel stuff to my family. I also suffer from adhd and I have some autism also. Sometimes I just feel like bashing in peoples head. I am so tired of living this life and I have no clue on what to do with myself. Creating this thread took me a lot of energy and it made me more frustrated....thought it would help, but nope","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",3,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",3,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",3,['Lack of friends'],3.66666666666666,part3,offmychest +451,Friendless Birthday,I make an effort to remember people’s birthdays yet nobody remembers mine. Sucks,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Lack of friends'],3.33333333333333,part3,offmychest +456,I believe that I could avoid being raped in jail,"As I victim of SA, I understand this might be controversial, problematic and potentially triggering. +But I genuinely believe that I could serve time without being raped. Just by consensually offering my body to them, which would be easy to do, seeing how I’m already bisexual. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +458,My father just went to the place just wrongly fired me and left them a bad review and pissed all over their bathroom,"long story short. I found I was being let go from this job from the owners response to a bad review. I wasn’t there long but I have autisim spectrum disorder and struggle with discrimination in the work place a lot. + +BTW I DONT CONDONE THIS BEHAVIOUR + +I JUST WANT A NORMAL FAMILY + + +i literally just needed to get this off my chest because i am FLABBERGASTED ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,offmychest +460,"i kinda hate that im so in love with my long distance bf, i wish i could be prettier for him","i literally love him more than anything and i cant find any other man attractive anymore. like not even male models r attractive to me tbh compared to how beautiful he is to me. he’s the only guy i think about and i wish i wasnt so in love because i doubt he loves me the same way i love him. ik he says he loves me more but im so scared he wont be attracted to me once he sees me in person. + +im not conventionally attractive at all. i have a flat saggy chest, a slight muffin top, and a weird looking chubby face which fucks up my mental health so badly. everytime i gain weight it doesnt even go to my chest or butt which fucking sucks. i wish i could be pretty for him cause every other girl i see is literally a model and then ofc i had to be unlucky as fuck and be born looking like this. i cry so hard knowing that not even losing weight or putting on makeup is enough cause i just look the same since middle school and im 20 rn. i seriously wish i could be born beautiful cause i just feel like breaking up with him so he can be with someone better :/",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,offmychest +466,How do I make friends,"I use to have friends but it was so long ago +That now I don’t even know how to start a conversation and when I try to become friends with someone they just ghost me and I don’t even know why",['Lack of friends'],4,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],2.67,exploration,lonely +467,"I want a cute guy to hold, kiss and cuddle with all day and night so bad 🤧🤧🤧","I just want one so bad, a cute skinny guy, very soft and gentle, it'd solve all my problems 🥲",['Not lonely'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2.0,exploration,lonely +468,What mean loneliness for you?,we are all different and everyone experiences things differently. What does loneliness mean to you?,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,lonely +469,how does one even attempt dating at 27 with no experience,"i don't know what to do. i know the answer people are gonna say is to ""make friends first"" yeah i get that. i'm aware that's not how relationships work. but i don't even know how to make friends with girls. + +at work i try to talk to co-workers my age but no one cares or replies to my text outside of work so i gave up. dating apps are just depressing. i'm not picky on looks i swear i like alot of the girls it gives me but i never get a match. and the few times i do get one they don't even reply back. + +i'm not a bar person. i like going to places like arcades and the bookstore all that. i don't drink or parrty. i'm 27 now. i'm insanely lonely and the fact im this age and never had a gf or kissed anyone or even held hands make me wanna cry. i don't even feel like a man",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.0,exploration,lonely +473,Why am I so uncomfortable with people being kind to me?,"I romanticize it all the time but Irl, I get uncomfortable 😣 ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,lonely +474,Girlfriend is working who needs a friend,I'm so bored,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,lonely +481,I sometimes wonder if my parents really cared about me,"The problem right now is i didn't catch the hint of how toxic my office is until right now. + +And now, my parents who face financial issue are trying to convince me to stay as long as possible to buy times until they are recovered from money problem. + +The issue is my office is getting toxic in each passing days and it drained me to the point that i didn't have any strength left after work. And it's been 6 months since my last exercise. + +I have senior colleague who try to belittle me and take every chance to humiliate me in the shit show in front of my superior (they are buddy too) + +So, right now, I feel like psycho who scream inside her mind and my soul feel like a void without any emotion or maybe on the boardline to kill myself. ",['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3,['Not lonely'],3.0,exploration,lonely +483,Tired of fake women,"I make good money and work 58 hours a week, which leads to me not really having any real downtime, other than weekends anyway. and unfortunately the girls around where I live talk, and they all seem to know this. + +They always wanna be my girlfriend for the money, and then act like I don't exist when I finally get home. Or worse, when I get home I'll find another dude who was told that my apartment was hers. And I can't really blame the guys, but it's such a downer to be used for what I work so hard for over and over. And today was round 7 of this endless shit charade. + +I just want someone who likes me for me, and not for what I have. But oh well, who really gives a fuck anyway.",['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Not lonely'],1,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Not lonely'],2.33,exploration,lonely +486,I went on the most amazing date of my life and…,"He said he wasn’t able to get past my obesity. I’ve lost 90lbs over the last 2 years, I’ve come to realize the extreme abuse, poverty, and neglect growing up led me to mentally check out and self medicate with food and lack of movement. I’ve overcome a physical disability (unrelated to my weight) to achieve more health and movement than anyone in my family ever has. I’ve gone from a US 28 to a US 16. I take dance classes and do archery 3x a week, I track every fucking crumb that goes in my mouth, I haven’t had heavily processed carbs in weeks, I haven’t had an actual fucking soda in 2 years. I was so proud of myself, and to know that my disgusting body drove away a guy that was almost perfect just makes me want to scream. + +Anyway, I’m gonna go pout and feel sorry for myself. Just needed to scream into the void. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +490,WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HOT,FUUUCKING ASS SHIT ASS SHIT FUCK,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +492,I helped an old man pay for his food and it made me sad,"I'm sitting in the parking lot and im actually crying because of this. + +I was just now at the grocery store, i went in to get my 2 things and then go out. As i was on the till the cashier called a guy forwards who had scanned his things but didnt have enough money. He said he had $6 on his card and asked him to remove the ham he was buying. The total was still over i assume so he asked to remove the bread too. He was still struggling to pay and i could see how embarrassed he was. They figured out the issue was that he had exactly $6 and his total was $6.03. (My country says rounds up or down when they say it as we dont deal with cents, the lowest is equal to 10 cents. 6.03 is rounded to 6 so thats what the cashier said, but as he was paying with card it still rang as 6.03). The cashier removed the 0.03 from the same so he could pay. + +I quickly said ill pay for the ham and bread for him and the man was so thankful, as the cashier was scanning it it rang up as $3, i was also given 50% off on those 2 items so it ended up being $1.5(excluding my things of course). + +I'm now really sad for him and everyone in a similar situation. I'm lucky enough to never have had to worry about having enough money on my card. I've heard about situations like this but this is the first time I've been a part of it. I wish I could do more to help people like him. I'm gonna look into charity and see if i can help anyone. I dont know where to start but I'll figure it out i hope. + +TLDR: I payed for a persons food that they couldn't afford and now i want to help more people in their situation ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +496,I had sex with my best friend and regret it,"TDLR: I had sex with my (former) best friend and regret it + +So I (F31) have been taking care of my grandparents for a long time, but live in a different city due to unfortunate circumstances (work). One day I got a call from their doctor saying my grandparents were not doing so well and I was going to visit them over break. Because of their housing situation, I always stay in a hotel. As I assumed it would be a regular visit, in which I would have a lot of time to spare, I invited one of my best friends (F30) to come along. She’s a lesbian and we have always had a bit of a flirty vibe, though nothing has ever happened. I consider myself straight. + +Getting to my grandparents, I quickly realised that they were in much worse shape than I had realised. They needed me much more than anticipated and I was very stressed when returning to the hotel room and bickered a lot with my friend. When I am pushed, I struggle with people in my space and I re-started this despite her knowing this from before. She insisted to stay “for comfort”. + +The situation got progressively worse for my grandparents and I was increasingly concerned and stressed out. For some reason, despite the constant arguments, I ended up sleeping with my friend and I am unsure about who started it. I have never had sex with a girl before, but have used sex as self-harm after surviving a DA relationship where SA was the norm. She knows all about this, but I confirmed consent in the moment and take full responsibility for my actions. + +I have never ever regretted anything more. First, something about her smell was revolting to me and having her fingers inside me made me feel absolutely disgusting. I faked an orgasm and she was pleased, and came on strongly to continue the sex, however I said we were done. That same afternoon I asked her to leave and later the same week, after many terrible things, my grandma died. + +It has been weeks and I am still so incredibly remorseful about it and struggle to move forward. I keep having flashbacks and just want to scrub myself raw to get rid of the memories. I fully understand and appreciate that it is my responsibility to be clear about consent and I don’t claim to have been assaulted in any way. + +Somehow this has been a lot more difficult to deal with than any of my previous experiences. It is the worst experience I have ever had, because of the way it has made me feel, the timing, the sensations and the loss of a previously trusted best friend. I am unable to continue our friendship, but have not explained why (and she’s not asked). + +I also feel ashamed about the regret and have not talked about it because of that. I just needed to tell someone, thank you so much for listening! ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,offmychest +498,What happened to being a decent human...?!,"So today I was doing my weekly shop with my toddler, I've had my hands full of shopping. I was walking out the shop when I noticed someone's baby dropped their toy and people just walk around as if nothing happened or kicking the toy to the side as the baby was crying and the mother was trying to pack her bags. I picked up the toy and gave it to the mother. +It p*ssed me off because so many people walked past without a care. What happened to being a decent human, just picking up the toy and handing it over. I don't want to hear excuses like "" Well I don't do it because I will never have a child so I don't expect the same"" because guess what, if the child pick ups that that's acceptable, when we're older and need help no one will help us. Show a good example! +Ugh what happened to people these days.... Sorry had to vent...",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,exploration,offmychest +499,Im done with dating entirely,"It amazes me how many people use others in new ways every day to use and abuse them. Between insecurities, narcissistic behaviors, fuck boy mentalities, and just plain leading someone on to end up with nothing, yes. Fuck dating. I'm a grown ass woman and I don't have time for bs games. It's best to be alone than deal with the bs. Just venting. Just exhausted from society alone is enough, then adding something like the bs of dating, yeah. I'm good. ",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,offmychest +502,Does anger and emptiness replace tears and emotion after years of abuse and torture?,.,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,lonely +506,Hi there,Anyone up for a chat? Kinda bored,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,lonely +509,Asian introvert interested in meeting chill people ^_^,"Hello, my name is Kirby, 24m from the Philippines. I am quite new to reddit and would like to get to know people from around the world. My interests are music, travel, cats, and video games (on the switch). Feel free to chat with me anytime. Thanks \^\_\^",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,lonely