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if he fails in all the ship dies � a prisoner to the set of the sea � a gift to the nearest enemy and as i have seen him he is infinitely patient and however it might have been in the old days when men clung to sticks and strings and the generation bred to pole know that he is the king pin of their system our assistant engineer had been with the engines from the beginning and one night he told me their story utterly unconscious that there was anything out of the way in the noble little tale no end good men it was his business so to arrange that no single demand from the bridge should go for more than five seconds to that ideal he toiled with his chief � a black demon in his vi a fleet in being working hours and a quiet student of professional papers in his scanty leisure an they come into the ward room says twenty one and you know they ve been having a young hell of a time down below but they never growl at us or get or anything no end good men i swear they are thank you twenty one i said i ll let that stand for the whole navy if you don t mind notes note i paint and a ship who attempted to dress on her service allowance of paint would in three months be as as a battery or regiment which kept its mess or band on the strict army footing therefore over and above anything that they may secure by and foresight the officers must dip into their own pockets to supply the many trifles none of them cheap which make for the of a ship this was forcibly brought home to me when i admired a shield and work at p the bows of a large yes said a friend it takes about fifty books of gold leaf to that decently no seventy said another how d you know well somebody s got to it and the yard don t give you seventy books for nothing was the significant reply if there were any means of reckoning the tax would be somewhat astonished at the sums spent by navy and army for the privilege of serving the queen both services have curious and tale bearing on this head note ia as the comfort and of the ship not to mention the captain s peace of mind depend on the first lieutenant the captain as a rule takes good care to pick his own man here notes are a few of the first lieutenant s duties he must act as a between the captain and the ship holding back the passing on the vital that is to say he must be a subtle and editor he must make all his arrangements for the ordering and disposition of every soul aboard through the next day week or month with the cheerful that the bulk of them will be knocked into a naval cocked hat by the of the service he must then retire into himself with a pack of printed cards one for each man and work out the whole puzzle afresh at the same time he must not allow his own irritation to affect his dealings with the whose official head he is and whose members are a his and b gentlemen of leisure assembled of an evening for a quiet rubber he must get the utmost out of them not by the menace of his authority because that means a up sooner or later but because of their genuine liking for him as an individual the is young very male and unable to avoid meeting itself every day and all day long you will that a certain amount of tact may be necessary in handling it he must further see with those eyes which he is to wear at the back of his head that no warrant or petty officer no ship s or master at arms is authority to spite some man or boy he must still further see that no official yielding to a natural desire for popularity is quietly letting down the discipline of the lower deck he must know the captain s mind seventeen and two thirds seconds before the captain opens his mouth because he will need that time to think out arrangements to meet the order he must be the soul of and honour but he must grasp the and the of every trick and trap sprung on him twenty times a day in the captain s absence he is the visitors host and and as visitors in harbour may range from to his manners must be in the sense of the word finally at all where the blue goes there must he lead leaping the larger abyss standing nearer to the danger walking the more slippery enduring longer the exposure and through it all he must keep the cool eye and balanced head of authority and the public is surprised when a naval officer proves that he is a notes note ii and the captain s is always an important person as a rule the captain has known him for a long time often for ten or fifteen years and the man follows his superior s fortunes with loyalty till he blossoms into the dignity of of the admiral s beside whom are not even three a penny he is by virtue of his office the man in the ship and by training becomes a clean shaved miracle of tact and discretion each boat s crew have a life of their own a little world into which they enter picking up where they left off so soon as or leaves the ship s side but i fancy the de corps is most strongly developed in the captain s on one occasion we had been out all day fishing and the wind forced | 39 |
acre every eighteen months no in all truth the house of pride ford was an heroic figure fit so ford thought privately to stand beside the statue of i in front of the building ford was gone but he his son carried on the good work at least as if not as he turned his eyes back to the what was the difference he asked himself between the grass dances and the dances of the women of his own race was there an essential difference or was it a matter of degree as he pondered the problem a hand rested on his shoulder ford what are you doing here isn t this a bit i try to be dr even as i look on ford answered gravely won t you sit down the house of pride sat down clapping his palms sharply a white clad servant answered swiftly scotch and was s order then turning to the other he said � f course i don t ask you but i will take something ford said firmly the doctor s eyes showed surprise and the servant waited boy a please the doctor laughed at it heartily as a joke on himself and glanced at the under the tree why it s the he said i thought they were with the hotel on tuesday nights some i guess his eyes paused for a moment and dwelt upon the one who was playing a and singing a song to the house of pride the accompaniment of all the instruments his face became grave as he looked at the singer and it was still grave as he turned it to his companion look here ford isn t it time you let up on joe i understand you are in opposition to the promotion committee s sending him to the states on this surf board proposition and been wanting to speak to you about it i should have thought you d be glad to get him out of the country it would be a good way to end your persecution of him persecution ford s eyebrows lifted call it by any name you please went on you ve that poor devil for years it s not his fault even you will admit that the house of pride not his fault ford s thin lips drew tightly together for the moment joe is and idle he has always been a a but that s no reason you should keep on after him the way you do ive watched you from the beginning the first thing you did when you returned from college and found him working on the plantation as outside was to fire him � you with your millions and he with his sixty dollars a month not the first thing ford said in the tone he was accustomed to use in committee meetings i gave him his warning the said he was a capable i had no objection to him on that ground it was what he did outside working i the house of pride hours he my work faster than i could build it up of what use were the sunday schools the night schools and the sewing classes when in the evenings there was joe with his infernal and eternal of and his strong drink and his dancing after i warned him i came upon him � i shall never forget it � came upon him down at the it was evening i could hear the songs before i saw the scene and when i did see it there were the girls in the moonlight and dancing � the girls upon whom i had worked to teach clean living and right conduct and there were three girls there i remember just from the mission school of course i discharged joe i know it was the same at the house of pride people said i went out of my way when i persuaded and to discharge him but it was the who requested me to do so he was their work by his example afterwards when he got on the railroad your railroad he was discharged without cause not so was the quick answer i had him into my private office and talked with him for half an hour you discharged him for for living if you please dr laughed with a grating sound who the devil gave it to you to be judge and jury does give you control of the immortal souls of those that toil for you i have been your physician am i to expect i the house of pride to morrow your that i give up scotch and or your patronage ford you take life too seriously besides when joe got into that scrape he wasn t in your employ either and he sent word to you asked you to pay his fine you left him to do his six months hard labor on the don t forget you left joe in the that time you threw him down hard and yet i remember the first day you came to school � we you were only a day scholar � you had to be three times under in the swimming � you remember it was the regular dose every new boy got and you held back you denied that you could swim you were frightened hysterical � yes i know ford said the house of pride slowly i was frightened and it was a lie for i could swim � and i was frightened and you remember who fought for you who lied for you harder than you could lie and swore he knew you couldn t swim who jumped into the and pulled you out after the first under and was nearly drowned for it by the other boys who had discovered by that time that you could swim of course i know the other rejoined coldly but a generous act as a boy does not excuse | 21 |
again and the moment shot away into the depths of the past to mingle with all the lost that are drowned there hard times i removing her eyes she eat so long looking silently toward the town that he said at length are you consulting the chimneys of the works there seems to be nothing there but languid and monotonous smoke yet when the night comes fire bursts out father she answered turning quickly of course i know that i do not see the application of the remark to do him justice he did not at all she passed it away with a slight motion of her hand and her attention upon him again said father i have thought that life is very short � this was so distinctly one of his subjects that he interposed it is short no doubt my dear still the average duration of human life is proved to have increased of late years the calculations of various life assurance and offices among other figures which can not go have established the fact i speak of my own life father indeed still said mr i need not point out to you that it is governed by the laws which govern lives in the while it lasts i would wish to do the little i can and the little i am fit for what does it matter mr seemed rather at a loss to understand the last four words replying how matter what matter my mr she went on in a steady straight way without regarding this asks me to marry him the question i have to ask myself is shall i many him that is so father is it not you have told me so father have you not certainly my dear it be so since mr likes to take me thus i am satisfied to accept his proposal tell him ther as soon as you please that this was my answer repeat it word for word if you can i should wish him to know what i said it is quite right my dear retorted her father to be exact i will observe your very proper request have you any wish in reference to the period of your my none father what does it matter mr ha drawn his chair a little nearer to her and hard times taken her hand but her of wards to strike with some little discord on his ear he paused to look at her and still holding her hand said i have not considered it essential to you one question the possibility in it appeared to me to bs too remote but perhaps i ought to do so you have never in secret any other proposal father she returned almost scornfully what other proposal can have been made to me whom h ave i seen where have i been i at are my heart s my returned mr reassured and satisfied you correct me justly i merely wished to discharge my duty what do i know father said in her quiet of tastes and fancies of aspirations and of all that part of my nature in which such light things might have been nourished what escape have i had from problems that could be and that could be grasped as she said it she unconsciously closed her hand as if upon a solid object and slowly opened it as though she were dust or ash my dear assented her eminently practical parent quite true quite true why father she pursued what a strange to ask me the baby preference that even i have heard of as common among children has never had its innocent resting place in my breast you have been so careful of me that i never had a child s heart you have trained me so well that i never dreamed a child s dream you have dealt so wisely with me father my cradle to this hour that i never had a child s belief or a child s fear mr was quite moved by his success and by this io it my dear said he you abundantly repay my care kiss me my dear girl so his daughter kissed him her in his embrace he said i may assure you now my favorite child that i am made happy by the sound decision at which you have arrived mr is a very remarkable man and what httle can be said to exist between you � if any � is more than balanced by the tone your k di hard times my object so to you as that you might while still in your i early youth be if i may so express myself almost any age kiss me once more now let us go and find your mother accordingly they went down to the drawing room where the esteemed lady with no nonsense about her was as usual while worked beside her she gave some feeble signs of returning animation when they entered and presently the faint was presented in a sitting attitude mrs said her husband who had waited for the achievement of this some impatience allow me to present to you mrs oh i said mrs so you have settled it well i am sure i hope your health may be good for if your head begins to as soon as you are married which was the case with mine i can not consider that you are to be envied though have no doubt you think you are as all girls however i you joy my dear � and i hope you may now turn all your studies to good account i am sure i do i must give you a kiss of but don t touch my right shoulder for there s something running down it au day long and now you see mrs her after the ceremony i shall be worrying myself morning noon and night to know what i | 8 |
a manner that his thoughts were elsewhere had nearly traversed the hall when two persons before him caught his attention one of these a gentleman in elegant attire carried in his hand a cane which he in a manner as he on the other an crouching figure listened to what he said � at times throwing in a humble word himself � and with his shoulders shrugged up to his ears rubbed his hands or answered at intervals by an inclination of the head half way between a nod of acquiescence and a bow of most profound respect in the abstract there was nothing very remarkable in this pair for waiting on a handsome suit of clothes and a cane � not to speak of gold and silver sticks or of office � is common enough but there was that about the well dressed man yes and about the other likewise which struck mr with no pleasant feeling he hesitated stopped and would have stepped aside and turned out of his path but at the moment the other two faced about and stumbled upon him before he could avoid the with the cane lifted his hat and had begun to tender an apology which mr had begun as hastily to acknowledge and walk away when he stopped short and cried bless me this is strange indeed it is he returned impatiently yes � a � my dear friend cried the other him why such great speed one minute for the sake of old acquaintance i am in haste he said neither of us has sought this meeting let it be a brief one good night replied sir john for it was he how very we were speaking of you your name was on my lips � perhaps you heard me mention it no i am sorry for that i am really sorry � you know our friend here this is really a most remarkable meeting the friend plainly very ill at ease had made bold to press sir john s arm and to give him other significant hints that he was desirous of this introduction as it did not suit sir john s purpose however that it should be he appeared quite unconscious of these silent and inclined his hand towards him as he spoke to call attention to him more particularly the friend therefore had nothing for it but to muster up the smile he could and to make a bow as mr turned his eyes upon him seeing that he was recognised he put out his hand in an awkward and embarrassed manner which was not mended by its contemptuous mr said coldly it is as i have heard then you have left the darkness for the light sir and hate those whose opinions yon formerly held with all the bitterness of a you are an honour sir to any cause i wish the one you at present much joy of the acquisition it has made the secretary rubbed his hands and bowed as though he would his adversary by himself before him sir john again exclaimed with an air of great gaiety now really this is a most remarkable meeting and took a pinch of snuff with his usual self possession mr said stealthily raising his eyes and letting them drop again when they met the other s steady gaze is too conscientious too honourable too manly i am sure to attach unworthy motives to an honest of opinions even though it a doubt of those he holds himself mr is too just too generous too in his moral vision to � yes sir he rejoined with a sarcastic smile finding that the secretary stopped you were saying � meekly shrugged his shoulders and looking on the ground again was silent no but let us really interposed sir john at this juncture let us really for a moment contemplate the very remarkable character of this meeting my dear mend pardon me if i think you are not sufficiently impressed with its here we stand by no previous appointment or arrangement three old in westminster hall three old in a remarkably dull and shady at st s where you being and of necessity educated out of england were brought up and where i being a promising young at that time was sent to learn the french tongue from a native of paris add to the sir john said mr that some of you of promise are at this moment in yonder building to prevent our having the surpassing and unheard of privilege of teaching our children to read and write � here � in this land where thousands of us enter your service every year and to preserve the freedom of which we die in bloody battles abroad in heaps and that others of you to the number of some thousands as i learn are led on to look on all men of my creed as wolves and beasts of prey by this man add to it besides the bare fact that this man lives in society walks the streets in broad day � i was about to say holds up his head but that he does not � and it will be strange and very strange i grant you oh you are hard upon our friend replied sir john with an engaging smile you are really very hard upon our friend let him go on � ir john said with his gloves let him go on i can make sir john i am honoured with yo or good opinion and i can dispense with mr s mr is a from the laws and i can t expect his favour you have so much of my favour sir retorted mr with a bitter glance at the third party in their s that i am glad to see you in such good company you are the essence of your great association in yourselves now there you said sir john | 8 |
� an then i could ha read i the books like fun an my head cool empty she s fine an ble now my old mother is she her baked meat an as often as she likes for i m so fuu o money i must a wife to spend it for me but it s a wife is � and t like her uncle who regarded himself as a man since he had retired from was beginning to find bob amusing but he had still a observation to make which kept his face serious ah he said i should think you re at a loss for ways o spending your money else you wouldn t keep that big dog to eat as much as two christians it s shameful � shameful but he spoke more in sorrow than in anger and quickly added � but come now let s hear more about this business tom i suppose you want a little sum to make a venture with but where s all your own money you don t spend it all � eh no sir said tom but my father is unwilling to risk it and i don t like to press him k i could get twenty or thirty pounds to begin with i could pay five per cent for it and then i could gradually make a little capital of my own and do without a loan ay ay said mr in an tone that s not a bad notion and i won t say as i wouldn t be your man but it ll be as well for me to see this salt as you talk on and then here s this o yours offers to thb mill on thb buy the goods for you perhaps you ve got somebody to stand for you if the money s put into your hands added the cautious old gentleman looking over his spectacles at bob i don t think that s necessary uncle said tom at least i mean it would not be necessary for me because i know bob well but perhaps it would be right for you to have some security you get your per out o the purchase i suppose said mr looking at bob no sir said bob rather indignantly i didn t offer to get a apple for mr tom o purpose to a bite out of it myself when i play folks there ll be more in em nor that well but it s nothing but right you should have a small per said mr i ve no opinion o transactions where folks do things for nothing it looks bad well then said bob whose saw at once what was implied i m tell you what i get by t an it s money in my pocket in the end � i make myself look big wi a bigger purchase that s what i m thinking on i i m a i am mr mr said a severe voice fix m the open parlor window pray are you coming u to tea � or are you going to stand talking with till you get murdered in the open daylight murdered said mr what s the woman talking of here s your tom come about a bit o business murdered � yes � it isn t many sizes ago since a murdered a young woman in a lone place and stole her and threw her body into a ditch nay nay said mr soothingly you re thinking o the man wi no legs as drove a dog cart well it s the same thing mr � only you re fond o what i say and if my s come about business it ud be more fitting if you d bring him into the house and let his aunt know about it instead o whispering in comers in that way well well said mr we ll come in now you needn t stay here said the lady to bob in a loud voice adapted to the moral not the physical distance between them we don t want anything i don t deal wi mind you shut the gate after you stop a bit not so fast said mr i haven t thb on ths with this young man yet in tom come in he added stepping in at the french window mr said mrs g iu a fatal tone if you re going to let that man and his dog in on my carpet before my very face be so good as to let me know a wife s got a right to ask that i hope you be uneasy said bob touching his cap he saw at once that mrs was a bit of game worth running down and longed to be at the sport we ll stay out the here � and me will knows his company � he does i might at him by th hour together b re he d fly at a real like you it s he knows which is the good looking ladies � sand s lar fond of em when they ve good shapes added bob laying down his pack on the gravel it s a thousand such a lady as you shouldn t deal with a i stead o goin into these shops where there s half a dozen fine wi their propped up wi a stiff stock a looking like bottles wi ornamental an all got to get their dinner out of a bit o it s to reason you must pay three times the price you pay a as is the way o goods � an pays no rent an isn t forced to himself till the lies are squeezed out on him whether he will or no but i yon know what it is better nor i do � can see through them i ll be bound yes i reckon i can and | 14 |
arthur has reason to be yery god bless his wife and him wept as she tried to thank him he reassured her took her hand as it lay with the trembling roses in it on his arm took the roses from it and put it to his lips at that time it seemed to him he first finally resigned the dying hope that had in nobody s heart so much to its pain and trouble and from that time he became in his own eyes as to any similar hope or prospect a yery much older man who had done with that part of life he pat the roses in his breast and they walked on for a little while slowly and silently under the trees then ho asked her in a of kindness was there anything else that the would say to him as her friend and her father s friend many years older than herself was there any trust she would repose in him any � she would ask of him any little aid to her happiness that she him the lasting gratification of it was in his power to re f she was going to answer when she was so touched by some hidden sorrow or sympathy � what could it have been � that she said bursting into tears again mr good generous mr pray tell me you do not blame me i blame you said my dearest girl i blame you no after clasping both her hands upon his arm and looking up into his face with some words to the effect that she thanked him from her heart as indeed she did if it be the source of earnestness she gradually composed herself with now and then a word of encouragement from him as they walked on slowly and almost silently under the darkening trees and now at length said smiling will you ask me nothing oh i haye yery much to ask of you well i hoped so i am not disappointed you know how i am at home and bow i love home you can hardly think it perhaps dear mr a i � si k i mo going from it of my own free will choice but do go iy low it i am sure of that can you � i i t no it is d to mr that it to much and being much beloved in it i con bear to it it � so of it so dear mid it is in the natural and change of time am homes are left go yes i know but all homes arc not left with such a in them na there will be in mine when nm not that is any of better more and more much but that th� y hare na fe nut that i i i � i and � he sobbed the girls than i bo much of me i pet s heart w pictured would i a change papa will feel ut and t know that at first i cannot be to him anything what i have u and it is then mr then more than at any th and entreat to remember him and to keep when you can a little while and to t� u t know i waa of him when i left him than i ever was in all my for there is nobody � lie me so himself when he talked i� this very day � there is he so well oa you or an i much a clue to what had passed between the father and daughter like a y stone into the well of s heart and to eyes he cheerily but not quite no � � ite tried to say that it be done that he gave her � promise if i do not speak of said pot more moved by � � r pretty in her innocent grief than could trust himself now to consider � for which he counted the trees and the fading light as they slowly in � mamma will me in this and feel my loss in a different way and will look forward in a r but you know what a dear mother ia remember her too will you not let trust him said lot trust him to da she wished and dear sir papa and whom i need not name do not fully appreciate and another yet as they will by by and it will ba duty and the pride and of my new life to draw a better knowledge of one another to be a another and to be proud of one another and to one loving me so dearly as you are a kind tn when i am first from home am going a long away try tu to him u little mon um ji influence to keep him � mind free real form will you do this for me ua an a poor pet self mistaken when were such changes ever made in men s natural relations to one another when such of differences ever effected it been tried many times by other daughters it has never succeeded has ever come of it but failure so thought so he did not say it was too late he bound himself all she asked and she knew full well that he would do it they were now at the last tree in the avenue she stopped and her arm speaking to him with her eyes lifted up to his � and with the hand that had lately rested on his sleeve touching one of the roses in his breast as an additional appeal to said dear mr in my happiness � for i am happy though you have seen me cr ring � i cannot bear to leave any cloud between if you have to forgive me not that i have done but any trouble i may have caused | 8 |
town he knew that his small party would soon be broken and in the open in the town however the were far from being in so good a posture it was as dick had said the night guard had already their harness the rest were still hanging � all unprepared for battle � about their quarters and in the whole of there were not perhaps fifty men full armed or fifty ready to be mounted the beating of the bells the summons of men who ran about the streets crying and beating upon the doors aroused in an short space at least two score out of that half hundred these got speedily to horse and the alarm still flying wild and contrary galloped in different directions thus it that when richard of reached the first house of he was met in the mouth of the street by a mere handful of whom he swept before his as the storm the bark a hundred paces into the town dick touched the duke s arm the duke in answer gathered his reins i i i the battle of put the shrill trumpet to his mouth and blowing a point turned to the right hand out of the direct advance like a single rider his whole command turned after him and still at the full gallop of the swept up the narrow bye street only the last score of drew rein and faced about in the entrance the whom they carried behind them at the same instant to the earth and began some to bend their bows and others to break into and secure the houses upon either hand surprised at this sudden change of direction and by the firm front of the rear guard the few after a momentary consultation turned and rode farther into town to seek for the quarter of the town upon which by the advice of dick richard of had now seized consisted of five small streets of poor and ill inhabited houses occupying a very gentle eminence and lying open towards the back the five streets being each secured by a good guard the reserve would thus occupy the centre out of shot and yet ready to carry aid wherever it was needed such was the of the neighbourhood that none of the lords and but few of their had been lodged therein and the inhabitants with one accord deserted their houses and fled along the streets or over garden walls in the centre where the five ways all met a somewhat ill favoured displayed the sign of the g the black and here the duke of chose his for the day to dick he assigned the guard of one of the five streets go he said win your spurs win glory for me one richard for another i tell you if i rise ye shall rise by the same ladder go he added shaking him by the hand but as soon as dick was gone he turned to a little shabby at his elbow go and that right speedily he added follow that lad if ye find him faithful ye answer for his safety a head for a head woe unto you if ye return without him but if he be � or for one instant ye him � him from behind in the meanwhile dick hastened to secure his post the street he had to guard was very narrow and closely lined with houses which projected and the but narrow and dark as it was since it opened upon the market place of the town the main issue of the battle would probably fall to be decided on that spot the market place was full of in disorder but there was as yet no sign of any f ready to attack and dick judged he had some time before him to make ready his defence the two houses m the end stood deserted with open doors as the inhabitants had left them in their flight the battle op and from these he had the furniture hastily tossed forth and piled into a barrier in the entry of the lane a hundred men were placed at his disposal and of these he threw the more part into the houses where they might lie in shelter and deliver their arrows from the windows with the rest under his own immediate eye he lined the meanwhile the utmost uproar and confusion had continued to prevail throughout the town and what with the hurried of bells the sounding of trumpets the swift movement of bodies of horse the cries of the and the shrieks of women the noise was almost to the ear presently little by little the tumult began to and soon after of men in and bodies of began to and form in line of battle in the a large tion of this body were in and blue and in the mounted knight who ordered their array dick recognised sir daniel then there a long pause which was followed by the almost sounding of four trumpets from four different quarters of the town a fifth rang in answer from the market place and at the same moment the began to move and a shower of arrows rattled about the and sounded like blows upon the walls of the two houses the attack had begun by a common signal on all the five issues of the quarter was tub black arrow upon every side and dick judged if ho would make good his post he must rely entirely on the hundred men of his command seven of arrows followed one upon the other and in the very thick of the dick was touched from behind upon the arm and found a page holding out to him a jack strengthened with bright plates of mail it is from my lord of said the page he hath observed sir richard that ye went dick with a glow at his heart | 38 |
half a dozen more ropes and danced over the deck like an at ebb tide one eye on tom ver good ver good done said after supper i show you a little i make with all her ropes so we shall learn class fer � a passenger said dan he s jest allowed you be your salt maybe tore you re s a heap fer i learn you more our next watch together taller peering through the fog as it smoked over the bows there was nothing to be seen ten feet beyond the boom while alongside rolled the endless procession of solemn pale waves whispering and one to the other now i learn you something long jack can t shouted tom as from a by the stern he produced a battered deep sea lead at one end the hollow captains courageous from a full of mutton and went forward i learn you how to fly the blue pigeon did something to the wheel that checked the s way while with to help and a proud boy was let down the in a lump on the boom the lead sung a deep song as tom whirled it round and round go ahead man said long jack impatiently we re not twenty five off fire island in a fog there s no trick to ut don t be jealous the released lead into the sea far ahead as the slowly forward is a trick though said dan when your lead s all the eye you re like to for a week what d you make it s face relaxed his skill and honor were involved in the march he had stolen on the rest of the fleet and he had his reputation as a master artist who knew the banks sixty � ef i m any judge he replied with a glance at the tiny compass in the window of the house captains courageous sixty sung out tom in great wet the gathered way once more said after a quarter of an hour what d you make it dan whispered and he looked at proudly but was too proud of his own performances to be impressed just then fifty said the father i we re right over th nick o green bank on old sixty fifty fifty roared tom they could scarcely see him through the fog she s bust within a yard � like the shells at fort bait up said dan for a line on the the seemed to be through the her wildly the men waited and looked at the boys who began fishing dan s lines on the and rail now in thunder did know help us here it s a big un too they hauled together and landed a captains courageous eyed twenty pound he had taken the bait right into his stomach why he s all covered with little cried turning him over by the great hook block they re already said long jack ye your spare eyes under the splash went the anchor and they all heaved over the lines each man taking his own place at the are they good to eat panted as he in another covered sure when they re it s a sign they ve all been together by the thousand and when they take the bait that way they ve hungry never mind how the bait sets they bite on the bare hook say this is great cried as the fish came in gasping and � nearly all as dan had said why can t we always fish from the boat instead of from the can till we begin to dress the heads and u d scare the fish to boat ain t reckoned though unless ye know as much as knows guess we run captains courageous to night harder on the hack this than the ain t it it was rather back breaking work for in a the weight of a is water borne till the last minute and you are so to speak abreast of him but the few feet of a s make so much extra dead and stooping over the the stomach but it was wild and furious sport so long as it lasted and a big pile lay aboard when the fish ceased biting where s and uncle asked the off his and up the line in careful imitation of the others s coffee and see under the yellow glare of the lamp on the post the table down and opened utterly unconscious of fish or weather sat the two men a board between them uncle at s every move what s the matter said the former as one hand in the leather at the head of the ladder hung shouting to the cook big fish and � heaps and heaps captains courageous replied quoting long jack how s the game little s jaw dropped t were n t none o his fault snapped uncle s were n t it said dan as staggered aft with the steaming coffee in a tin that lets us out o up to night s a jest man they have to do it an two young i know bait up a tub or so o while they re clean in said the wheel to his taste um guess i d clean up don t doubt it ye t though dress dress pitch while you two bait up why in thunder did n t them blame boys tell us you d struck on said uncle shuffling to his place at the table this knife s blunt dan ef out cable don t wake ye guess you d better hire a boy o your own said dan about in the dusk over the full of line lashed to of the house oh don t ye want to slip down an s bait loo captains courageous bait we are said i will pay better things go that meant the boys would | 39 |
past and of all the future may have in store for me but is there no in is there no physician there will he not take me by the hand and whisper be of good cheer thy sins are forgiven thee will he not heal thy wounds by pouring into them the oil of consolation he has promised to do this � yea much more than this and will he for the first time in the history of mankind fail to perform what he has spoken nay nay and i will doubt no longer my my have compassion upon me and declare to father as the lord my � g trust in god trust in god he will direct thee he love and will protect thee lean upon his mighty arm fear no danger fear no harm trust him for his grace and power trust him in each trying hour trust in god er thee trust him he sometimes thee wild tis in love to lead back when thou from the track trust him cling to him forever and he will desert thee � never trust in god the of ages louder still the tempest heave and roar mountain lash the shore nations tremble � hark the warning comes the night and comes the morning on the walls of catch a glimpse of s lion man of sorrows lamb once slain comes as king of kings to reign and from long oppressed creation break the of salvation trust in god the thee and while such a hope thee wilt thou fold thy hands in ease no the golden moments seize lay thy gift upon the altar thou hast duties � do not a alone and yet not alone am i sad and yet not sad no human form upon my solitude and yet he who fills creation with himself is surely with me sad i am for there are many earthly thoughts that contribute to cast a shade upon my soul and yet heavenly thoughts soon such mournful ones songs of hope oil that affection might be placed upon things above and not on things on the earth my heart be gloomy when such a glorious prospect opens before me � a world of immortal beauty by the presence of god himself and a glorious city even the new fly lingering moments fly away and bring that long expected day when christ shall appear in glory to take his weary children home thou shalt know hereafter the wind has how still and tranquil all the ghastly moon still shines upon the wall while other eyes are closed why do i weep ye welcome sleep and bear me to the shadowy land of dreams where t by crystal streams and gathered flowers would never fade or talked angels the pleasant shade it was a dream ah yes and life to me was once a dream � smooth as the placid sea when all is calm and on its bosom lies the golden radiance of the summer skies there came a storm � the thunder s dreadful roar the angry waves that beat against the shore awakened me � oh i had lived too long in the bright of fancy and of song perhaps twas well the storm swept o er the sea perhaps twas well the tumult startled me twas well i learned there s much to do and dare wild much to be suffered much to meekly bear but when i found the real though and thought of life and trembled as i when like the leaves in autumn day by day the hopes i cherished hastened to decay and hopeless helpless in my great despair i turned to earth but found no solace there twas well for me that in the darkened skies i sa w the star of arise i know not why though nature to know that all my dreams of happiness below should be thus yet the time is near when i poor often here shall reach the port and safely at last the scenes and sufferings of the past � beholding where the shadows darkest lay the dawning glory of immortal day and all along the path that seemed so leaving this one memorial � god was here thine eyes shall see the king in his beauty the thought is ever present shall these eyes indeed see the maker of the universe shall these feet indeed walk the golden city shall these hands wave the palm of victory and strike the of the glorious harp whose music shall be sweeter than that of david s can this be possible and do i and mourn because of present a� oh the future the future what has it not in reserve for me glories of which mortal never dreamed eternal life � eternal happiness � perpetual youth � knowledge un songs of hope bounded yet ever increasing fly fly fly days of pain and sorrow hail all hail bright of it will come and i � oh the thought me � i poor and wretched and sinful shall be blessed forever forever all is well dark the future before me bitter my bosom swell but a light is breaking o er me and a voice � all all is well sad and lone has been my journey sad and lone my way must be care and sorrow pain and sickness long have been allotted me sunshine that o er youthful a bright and magic spell seldom breaks upon my pathway yet i know that all is well if the hand that guides the the when they cry can it be that i m unnoticed by a father s loving eye he has thoughts of mercy toward me his designs i cannot tell tis enough for me to trust him he knows best � and all is well many doubts and many shadows oft have flitted through my mind wild flowers and i ve questioned sadly but no | 28 |
and season when i was dear that was better than p n t the plain honest workings life to t waa b to he ashamed me sufficient means of self � � ti respect and fa at those times i expectations that mj to dear old joe and the was gone and that i was growing up in a fair way to be partners with joe and to keep company with � when all in a moment some remembrance of the days would fall upon me like a and scatter my wits again wits take a long time picking up and often before i had got them well together they would be dispersed in all directions by one stray thought that perhaps after all miss was going to make my fortune when my time was out if my time had run out it would have left me still at the height of my i dare say it did run out however but was brought to a premature end as i proceed to relate it was in the of mj i to joe and it was a ni it there was a group round the fire at the three to mr as he read the new of that i was one a highly had heen and mr was in to the he over every in the and identified himself with every witness at the he moaned i am for as the victim and he serve yon out as the he gave the medical testimony in pointed imitation of onr local and he and shook as the aged keeper who had h ad blows to an extent so very as to suggest a doubt regarding the mental of that witness the in mr s hands became of the he enjoyed himself thoroughly and we all enjoyed ourselves and delightfully in this state of mind we came to the verdict wilful murder then and not sooner i became of a strange gentleman leaning over the back of the settle opposite me looking on there was an expression of contempt on his ce and he int the side of a great forefinger as hie expectations watched the group of faces well i said the stranger to mr when the was done jou haye settled it au to wn satisfaction i have no everybody started and looked up as if it were the murderer he looked at everybody coldly and � guilty of course said he out with it � sir returned mr without having the honor of your acquaintance i do say guilty upon this we all took courage to unite in a murmur i know you do said the stranger i knew you would i told you so but now m ask you a question do you know or do you not know that the law of england every man to be innocent until he is proved � proved � to be guilty sir mr be m to reply as an englishman myself come said the stranger biting his forefinger at him don t the question either you know it or you don t know it which is it to be he stood with his head on one side and himself on one in a manner and he threw his forefinger at mr � as it were to mark him out � before biting it again now i said he do you know it or don t you know it certainly i know it replied mr certainly you know it then why didn t you say so at first now ask yon another question taking possession of mr as if he had a right to him do you know that none of these witnesses have yet been cross examined t k mr was beginning i can only when the stranger stopped him what you won t answer th f question yes or no now m try you again throwing his finger at him again attend to me are you aware or are you not aware that none of these witnesses have yet been come i only want one word from you yes or no mr hesitated and we all began to rather a poor opinion of him come said the stranger help you you don t deserve help but help you look at that paper you hold in your hand what is it what is it repeated mr it much at a loss is it pursued the stranger in his most sarcastic and suspicious manner the printed paper you have just been reading from � undoubtedly undoubtedly now turn to that paper and tell me whether it distinctly states that the prisoner expressly said that his legal him altogether to reserve his defence i read that just now mr pleaded never mind what you read just now sir i don t ask you what you read you may read the lord s prayer backwards if you like � and perhaps have done it before to day turn to the paper no no no my friend not to the top of the you know better than that to the bottom to the bottom we au began to think mr of � well have you found it here it is said mr that passage with eye and teu me whether it states that the prisoner said that he was instructed by his legal wholly to reserve his defence come do you make that of it mr answered those are not the exact words not the exact words i repeated the gentleman bitterly is that the exact substance � yes said mr repeated the stranger looking round at the rest of the company with his right hand extended towards the witness and now i ask you what you say to the conscience of that man who with that passage before his eyes can lay his head upon his pillow after having pronounced a fellow creature guilty un heard we an began to suspect that mr was | 8 |
this poor man with a polite smile hoping he would feel very kindly toward her as a generous person that s the only money i ve got she said the mill on tub thank yon little miss said the man in a less respectful and grateful tone than anticipated and she even observed that he smiled and winked at his companion she walked on hurriedly but was aware that the two men were standing still probably to look after her and she presently heard them laughing loudly suddenly it occurred to her that they might think she was an idiot tom had said that her hair made her look like an idiot and it was too painful an idea to be readily forgotten besides she had no sleeves on � only a cape and bonnet it was clear that she was not likely to make a favorable impression on passengers and she thought she would turn into the fields again but not on the same side of the lane as before lest hey should still be uncle s fields she turned through the first gate that was not locked and felt a delightful sense of privacy in creeping along by after her recent humiliating encounter she was used to wandering about the fields by herself and was less timid there than on the high road she had to climb over high gates but that was a small evil she was getting out of reach very fast and she should probably soon come within sight of or at least some other common for she had heard her father say that you couldn t go very far without coming to a common she hoped so for she was getting rather tired and hungry and until she reached the there was no definite prospect of bread and butter it was still broad daylight for aunt retaining the early habits of the took tea at half past four by the sun and at five by the kitchen clock so though it was nearly an hour since started there was no gathering gloom on the fields to remind her that the night would come still it seemed to her that she had been walking a very great distance indeed and it was really surprising that the common did not come within sight hitherto she had been in the rich parish of where there was a great deal of pasture land and she had only seen one at a distance that was fortunate in some respects as might be too ignorant to understand the propriety of her wanting to go to common yet it would have been better if she could have met with some one who would tell her the way without wanting to know any thing about her private business at last however the green fields came to an end and found herself looking through the bars of a gate into a lane with a wide margin of grass on each side of it she had never seen such a wide lane before and without her knowing why it gave her the impression that the common could not oe off perhaps it was because she saw a donkey with a log to his thb mill on the foot feeding on the grassy margin for she had seen a donkey with that pitiable on common when she had been across it in her father s she crept through the bars c the gate and walked on with new spirit though not without haunting images of and a with a pistol and a dwarf in yellow with a mouth from ear to ear and other miscellaneous dangers for poor little e had at once the timidity of an active imagination and the that comes from impulse she had rushed into the adventure of seeking her unknown kindred the and now she was in this strange lane she hardly dared look on one side of her lest she should see the blacksmith in his apron grinning at her with arms it was not without a leaping of the heart that she caught sight of a small pair of bare legs sticking up feet uppermost by the side of a they seemed something � a kind of for she was too much agitated at the first glance to see the ragged clothes and the dark shaggy head attached to them it was a boy asleep trotted ter and more lightly lest she should wake it did not occur to her that he was one of her friends the who in all probability would have very genial manners but the fact was so for at the next bend m the lane saw the little black tent with the blue smoke rising before it which was to be her refuge from all the that had pursued her in civilized life she even saw a tall figure by the column of smoke � doubtless the mother who provided the tea and other it was astonishing to herself that she did not feel more delighted but it was startling to find the in a lane after all and not on a common it was rather for a mysterious common where there were sand to hide in and one was out of every body s reach had always made part of s e of she went on however and thought with some comfort that most likely knew nothing about so there was no danger of their falling into the mistake of setting her down at the first glance as an idiot it was plain she had attracted attention for the tall figure who proved to be a young woman with a baby on her arm walked slowly to meet her looked up in the new face rather as it approached and was reassured by the thought that her aunt and the rest were right when they called her a for this face with the bright dark eyes and the long hair was really | 14 |
on board an but though she had seen all the members of the family she had not yet heard all the noise they could make another quarter of an hour brought her a great deal more william was soon calling out from the landing place of the second story for his mother and for he was in distress for something that he had left there and did not find again a key was accused of having got at his new hat and some slight but essential alteration of his uniform waistcoat which he had been promised to have done for him entirely neglected mrs price and all went up to defend themselves all talking together but and the job was to be done as well as it could in a great hurry � william trying in vain to send down again or keep her from being troublesome where she was the whole of which as almost every door in the house was open could be plainly distinguished in the parlor except when drowned at intervals by the superior noise of sam tom and charles chasing each other up and down stairs and tumbling about and was almost stunned the of the house the of the walls brought everything so close to her that added to the fatigue of her journey and all her recent agitation she hardly knew how to bear it within the room all was tranquil enough for having disappeared with the others there were soon only i ark her father and herself remaining and he out newspaper the loan of a applied himself ti studying it without ing to recollect her the solitary was held between himself and the paper without any reference to her possible but had nothing to do and was glad to have the light from her aching head aa she sat in bewildered broken sorrowful contemplation she was at home but alas it was not a home had not such a welcome as � she checked herself she was unreasonable what right had she to be of importance to her family she could have none so long lost sight of william s concerns must be dearest � they always had been � and he had every right yet to have little said or asked about herself � to have scarcely an inquiry made after it did pain her to have forgotten the friends who had done ao much � the dear dear friends i but here one subject swallowed up all the rest perhaps it must he so the destination of the must be now pre eminently interesting a day or two might show the difference she only was to yet she thought it would not have been so at no in her uncle s house there would have been a consideration of times and seasons a of subject a pro an attention towards everybody which there was not here the only interruption which thoughts like these received fur nearly half an hour was from a and den burst of her t s not at all calculated t i park compose them at a more ordinary pitch of and in the passage he exclaimed devil take those young dogs how they are singing out ay sam s voice louder than all the rest that is fit for a � you there � sam � stop your confounded pipe or i shall he after you this threat was sa disregarded that though within five minutes afterwards the three all into the room together and sat down could not consider it as a proof of anything more than their for the time thoroughly which their hot faces and panting seemed to prove especially as they were still kicking each other s and out at sudden starts immediately under their father s eye the next opening of the door brought something more welcome it was for the tea things which she had begun almost to despair of seeing that evening and an attendant girl whose inferior appearance informed to her great surprise that she had previously seen the upper servant brought in everything necessary for the meal looking as she put the kettle on the fire and glanced at her sister as if divided between the agreeable triumph of showing her activity and usefulness and the dread of being thought to herself by such an she had been into the kitchen she said to hurry sally and help make the toast and spread the bread and butter or she did not know when they should have got tea and she was sure her sister must want something after her journey was very thankful she could not but own that she should he very of a little tea immediately set it as it pleased to have the employment all to herself and with only a little bustle and some few attempts at keeping her in better order than very well s spirit was as much refreshed as her body her head and heart were soon the better fur much well timed kindness had an open sensible countenance she was william and hoped find lier like bim iu disposition and good will towards herself in this more placid state of things william followed not far behind by his mother and he complete iu hia lieutenant s uniform looking and moving all the taller firmer and more graceful for it and with the happiest smile over his face walked u i directly to who rising from her seat looked at him for a moment in speechless admiration and then threw arms round his neck to out her various emotions of pain and pleasure anxious not to appear unhappy she soon recovered herself and wiping away her tears was able to notice and admire all the striking parts of bis dress listening with spirits to his cheerful hopes of being on shore some part of every day before they sailed and even of getting her to to see the the | 26 |
way bv a minor prophet nor dreaming of the quite at the service of posterity to be feared though that the much given to and nuts has confessed boys will be boys may write a for a think s was an irish bull a who up fox and a chief upon change boys will be but dogs will all be moral with suited to diet the will fade from memory or live as portraits in large learned books distasteful to the feelings of an age nourished on purest beauty earth will hold no stupid brutes no cheerful no cunning grave absurdity pigs with tender and parental much as to their perhaps from too much crushing in the ark bv a prophet but taking that the by ridicule long headed legged solemn looking wise silent critics of a age the silly the weak hissing at of wheels � all these rude will have disappeared along with every human type by dint of diet all will be harmony of hue and line bodies and minds all perfect limbs well turned and talk quite free from aught e thus far in his s mantle but at this climax in his prophecy my sinking fearing to be urge me to speak high prospects these my friend setting the weak brain we will resume the thread another day to morrow cries at this hour no not to � i shall have a cold � bv a prophet at i fed some � tliis � ood by no tears are than the smile � with which i quit bitterly i that every change upon tliis earth is bought with my fail to reach that high mount which shows in bird s eye view a perfect world or enter warmly into other joys than those of struggling human kind that strain upon my soul s too feeble wing ends in i fall into short sighted pity for the men who living in those perfect future times will not know half the dear imperfect things that move my smiles and tears � will never know the fine old that raise my friendly the innocent that like a needless or black patch give those who wear them harmless happiness the and cracks in poor that touch me to more conscious fellowship bv a i am not myself the finest with my so poor to whom raw gives zest of wintry work could hardly fancy any joys quite with the s scent perhaps his highest hopes are not all clear of from that tis well that is not speaking in i am a clinging fl my life � my is i to nature s types which banish from worship beauty say you patience friend i worship in the temple with the rest but by my hearth i keep a sacred nook for and duck footed who and for the weary man in days of old and in that i clothe forms inherited from toiling generations daily bent bv a prophet at desk or plough or loom or in the mine la for the world nay i am apt when from too rash flight to grasp at and pity future men who will not know a keen experience with pity the pathos exquisite of lovely hid in harsh forms � not penetrating them like are divine within a common bush which by the heavenly guest so that men put their shoes off but like a sweet child within some walled cell who leaps and fails to hold the window s but having shown a little band is visited by tender hearts whose eyes keep watch about the prison walls a foolish nay a wicked for purest pity is the eye of love melting at sight of sorrow and to grieve because it sees no sorrow shows a love from its truer nature turned to love tf merest habit like the s bv a but i am still my prejudice is for the flavor of my daily food not that i the world is growing still as once it grew from ra and from night or have a too for the hope which dawned in human breasts a double with earliest of the rising light chasing the darkness and through many an age has raised the vision of a future time that stands an ai el with a face all mild the demon i too rest in faith that man s perfection is the crowning flower toward which the ui ent sap in life s great tree is pressing � seen in blossoms now but in the world s great to with and with deepest glow yet see the patched and citizen waiting upon tiie pavement with the throng while some victorious world hero makes entry and the peal of shouts and flash of uplifted hats bv b a run like a storm of joy along the streets he god bless him almost with a sob as the great hero passes he is glad the world holds mighty men and mighty deeds the music his like strong wine the moving splendor touches him with awe � tis glory shed around the common and he will pay his tribute willingly though with the earned by sordid toil perhaps the hero s deeds have helped to bring a time when every honest citizen shall wear a coat and yet he more easy fellowship with neighbors there who look on too and he will soon from noticing the and the to think with pleasure there is just one in his pocket that may serve to tempt the wide eyed lad weight is all too much for that young mother s arms and then he falls to dreamy of sunny days when he himself was a small big lad in some far village where no heroes came bv a prophet and stood a listener his father s legs in the warm fire light while the old folk talked and shook their heads and looked upon the | 14 |
as he did such a purport fulfilled as had taken him away be would have expected any thing rather than a look of and words of simple pleasant meaning it was to set his heart in a glow and to bring him home in the state for feeling the full value of the other joyful at hand s promotion with all its particulars he was soon matter and with such a secret provision of comfort his own breast to help the joy he in it a of most gratifying sensation and all dinner time after dinner when he and his father were alone he had a history and then all the great events of the last and the present situation of at were known to him suspected what was going on they sat so much usual in the dining parlour that she was sure must be talking of her and when tea at last brought them away and she was to be seen by again she felt guilty he came to her sat down by her took her hand and pressed it kindly and at that moment she thought that but for the occupation and the scene which the tea afforded she must have betrayed her emotion in some excess he was not intending however by such action to be to her that approbation and which her hopes drew fit m it it was designed only to express his in all that interested her and to tell her that he had been hearing what quickened every feeling he was in fact entirely cm his tide of the i o i i as at her ao supposing her to s is he had it to and could her io be taken pe but thomas not the able than he did � and while her for die had die of her ui stronger than thomas echo he wm most earnest and it be i at last and tha bj it would appear that their dispositions were as e id fitted to make blessed in each as he m� beginning consider them had too he had not given her time to he had begun at the wrong end with such powers as his however and such a disposition as hers trusted that everything would work out a happy meanwhile he saw enough of s embarrassment to make him guard against exciting it a second time by any word or look or movement called the next day and on the score of s return sir thomas felt more than to ask him to stay dinner it was really a necessary compliment he staid of course and had then ample opportunity for observing how he sped with and what degree of immediate encouragement for him might be extracted from her manners and it was so little so very very little every chance every possibility of it resting upon her embarrassment only if there was not hope in her confusion there was hope in nothing else that he was almost ready to wonder at his friend s perseverance was worth it all he held her to be worth every effort of patience every exertion of mind � but he did not think he could have gone on himself with any woman breathing without something more to warm his courage than his eyes could discern in hers he was very willing to hope that saw dearer and this was the most comfortable conclusion for his friend that he could come to park from an that he observed to pass before and at and after a few which he promising when he and walked into the room his mother and were sitting as and silently at work as if there were nothing else to fix could not help noticing their apparently deep tranquillity we have not been so silent all the time replied his mother has been reading to me and only put the book down upon hearing you coming and sure enough there was a book on the table which had the of being toy recently a volume of she often reads to me out of those books and she was in the middle of a very fine speech of that man s � what s his name t � we your footsteps took the volume let me have the pleasure of that speech to your said he i than find it immediately and by giving way to of the leaves he did find it or within a page w two quite near enough to satisfy lady who him as soon as he mentioned the name of cardinal that he had got the very speech not a look or ib of help had given not a syllable for or au her attention was for her work she seemed to be interested by nothing else but taste was too strong in her she could not abstract her mind five die was forced to listen his reading was capital md her pleasure in good reading extreme to reading however she had been long used her uncle read well � her all � very well but in mr s there was a variety of excellence beyond what she had ever met with the king the queen all were given in turn for with the h the happiest power of jumping and be could always light at will on the best scene or the best q of ch and whether it were dignity or pride or tenderness or remorse or whatever were to be expressed he do it with equal beauty it was truly dramatic his had first what pleasure a play might park give and his reading all his acting before her again nay perhaps with greater enjoyment for it came unexpectedly and with no such as she had been used to suffer in seeing him on the stage with watched the progress of her attention and wa amused and gratified by seeing how she gradually in the needle which | 26 |
he looked self conscious his heart he was still more agitated when the were counted and said it s a pleasure to that will be the next assistant wi elder i know of no man who stands more for common sense and enterprise than good old george come on let s give him our best long yell as they a hundred men crushed in to slap his back he had never known a higher moment he drove away in a of wonder he into his office to miss well i guess you better congratulate your i been elected vice president of the i he was disappointed she answered only yes � oh mrs s been trying to get you on the but the new said by chief say that s great that s perfectly i m to death congratulations called the house and to his wife heard you were trying to get me say you got to hand it to little this time better talk careful you are now addressing the vice president of the club oh pretty nice is the new president but when he s away little takes the and em up and the � no matter if they re the governor himself � and � george listen � it puts him in solid with big men like george paul � � yes sure i ll paul and let him know about it right away listen paul s in jail he shot his wife he shot this noon she may not live chapter xxii he drove to the city prison not blindly but with unusual care at corners the of an old woman plants it kept him from facing the of fate the attendant said you can t see any of the prisoners till three thirty � visiting hour it was three for half an hour sat looking at a and a clock on a wall the chair was hard and mean and people went through the office and he thought stared at him he felt a defiance which broke into a fear of this machine which was grinding paul � paul � exactly at half past three he sent in his name the attendant returned with says he don t want to see you you re crazy you didn t give him my name tell him it s george wants to see him george i told him all right all right he said he didn t want to see you then take me in anyway nothing doing if you ain t his lawyer if he don t want to see you that s all there is to it but my god � say let me see the he s busy come on now you � reared over him the attendant hastily changed to a you can come back and try to morrow probably the poor is off his nut drove not at all carefully or sliding past the s curses to the city hall he stopped with a grind of wheels against the and ran up the marble steps to the office of the hon mr the mayor he the mayor s with a dollar he was instantly inside demanding you remember me mr � vice president of the � for you say have you heard about poor well i want an order on the or whatever you call um of the city prison to take me back and see him good thanks in fifteen minutes he was down the prison corridor to a cage where paul sat on a cot twisted like an old beggar legs crossed arms in a knot biting at his clenched fist paul looked up as the keeper unlocked the cell admitted and left them together he spoke slowly go on be moral on the couch beside him i m not going to be moral i don t care what happened i just want to do anything i can i m glad got what was coming to her paul said now don t go jumping on i ve been thinking maybe she hasn t had any too easy a time just after i shot her � i didn t hardly mean to but she got to me so i went crazy just for a second and pulled out that old revolver you and i used to shoot with and took a crack at her didn t hardly mean to � after that when i was trying to stop the blood � it was terrible what it did to her shoulder and she had beautiful skin � maybe she won t die i hope it won t leave her skin all but just afterward when i was hunting the for some cotton to stop the blood i ran a little yellow duck we hung on the tree one christmas and i remembered she and i d been awfully happy then � hell i can t hardly believe it s me here as s arm about his shoulder paul sighed i m glad you came but i thought maybe you d lecture me and when you ve com a murder and been brought here and everything � there was a big crowd outside the apartment house all staring and the took me through it � oh i m not going to talk about it any more but he went on in a monotonous terrified insane to divert him said why you got a on your cheek yes that s where the hit me i suppose get a lot of fun out of too he was a big fellow and they wouldn t let me help carry down to the paul i quit it i listen she won t die and when it s all over you and i ll go off to again and maybe we can get that may to go along i ll go up to and ask her good woman by and afterwards i ll see that you get started in | 42 |
his arm and they went along silently together as true comrades do he saw that she was and to question her oh i ve been talking to her she said at last i wish i hadn t and yet it is best to be reminded of things i hope she was civil yes i � i can t help liking her � just a little bit she s not an nature and i am so glad her difficulties have all suddenly ended she explained how had been summoned back and would be enabled to her position i was referring to our old question what has been saying to me has made me feel more than ever how hopelessly vulgar an institution legal marriage is � a sort of trap to catch a man i can t bear to think of it i wish i hadn t promised to let you put up the this morning oh don t mind me any time will do for me i thought you might like to get it over quickly now indeed i don t feel anxious now than i did before perhaps with any other man i might be a little anxious but among the very few virtues possessed by your family and mine dear i think i may set so i am not a bit frightened about losing you now i really am yours and you really are mine in fact i am easier in my mind than i was for my conscience is clear at and elsewhere about richard who now has a right to his freedom felt we were deceiving him before sue you seem when you are like this to be one of the women of some grand old civilization whom i used to read about in my by gone wasted classical days rather than a of a mere christian country i almost expect you to say at these times that you have just been talking to some friend whom you met in the about the latest news of or or have been listening to s eloquence or have been watching away at his latest while made complaint that she was tired of they had now the house of the parish clerk sue stood back while her lover went up to the door his hand was raised to knock when she said he looked round wait a minute would you mind he came back to her just let us think she said timidly i had such a horrid dream one night and � what did say to you he asked oh she said that when people were tied up you could get the law of a man better if he beat you � and how when couples quarrelled do you think that when you must have me with you by law we shall be so happy as we are now the men and women of our family are very generous when everything depends upon their but they always kick against don t you dread the attitude that arises out of legal obligation don t you think it is destructive to a passion whose essence is its upon my word love you are beginning to frighten me too with all this well let s go back and think it over her face brightened yes � so we will said she and they turned from the clerk s door sue taking his arm and murmuring as they walked on homeward ax the obscure can you keep the bee from or the ring dove s neck from changing no nor d love they thought it over or postponed thinking certainly they postponed action and seemed to live on in a dreamy paradise at the end of a fortnight or three weeks matters remained un advanced and no were announced to the ears of any congregation whilst they were and thus a letter and a newspaper arrived before breakfast one morning from seeing the handwriting went up to sue s room and told her and as soon as she was dressed she hastened down sue opened the newspaper the letter after glancing at the paper she held across the first page to him with her finger on a paragraph but he was so absorbed in his letter that he did not turn a while look said she he looked and read the paper was one that in south london only and the marked advertisement was simply the announcement of a marriage at st john s church road under the names � the united pair being and the inn keeper well it is satisfactory said sue complacently though after this it seems rather low to do likewise and i am glad � however she is provided for now in a way i suppose whatever her faults poor thing it is that we are able to think that than to be uneasy about her i ought too to write to richard and ask him how he is getting on perhaps but s attention was still absorbed having merely glanced at the announcement he said in a disturbed voice listen to this letter what shall i say or do j at and elsewhere ton l i won t be so distant as to call you mr � i send to day a newspaper from which useful document yon will learn that i was married over again to garden last so that business is settled ri ht and tight at last but what i write about more particular is that private affair i wanted to speak to you on when i came down to i couldn t very well tell it to your lady friend and should much have liked to let you know it by word of mouth as i could have explained better than by letter the fact is that though i have never informed you before there was a boy born of our marriage eight months after i left you when i was at | 45 |
immense new there a old country villa then a of black ditch sparkling rank field richly cultivated kitchen garden brick arch canal and disorder of and fog as if the child had given the table a kick and gone to sleep but even among school school teachers and school all according to pattern and all in the light of the gospel according to monotony the older pattern into which so many fortunes have been shaped for good and evil comes out it came out in miss the watering her flowers as mr walked forth it came out in miss the watering the flowers in the little dusty bit of garden attached to her small official residence with little windows like mutual the eyes in needles and little doors like the covers of school books small shining neat and was miss cherry and of voice a little a little a little book a little a little set of tables and and measures and a little woman all in one she could write a little essay on any subject exactly a slate long beginning at the left hand ton of one side and ending at the right hand bottom of the other and the essay should be strictly according to rule if mr had addressed a written proposal of marriage to her she would probably have replied in a complete little essay on the theme exactly a slate long but would certainly have replied yes for she loved him the decent hair guard that went round his neck and took care of his decent silver watch was an object of envy to her so would miss have gone round his neck and taken care of him of him insensible because he did not love miss miss s favourite pupil who assisted her in her little household was in attendance with a can of water to her little watering pot and sufficiently divined the state of miss s affections to feel it necessary that she herself should love young so there was a double among the double stocks and double wall flowers when the master and the boy looked over the little a fine evening miss said the master m a very fine evening mr said miss are you taking a walk and i are going to take a long walk u charming weather remarked miss for a long walk ours is rather on business than mere pleasure said the master miss her watering pot and very carefully ah out the few last drops over a flower as if there were some special virtue in them which would make it a jack s before morning called for to her pupil who had been speaking to the boy u good night miss said the master m good night mr said the mistress the pupil had been in her state of so with the class custom of stretching out an arm as if to hail a cab or whenever she found she had an observation on hand to offer to miss that she often did it in their domestic relations and she did it now well mary anne said miss if you please ma am said they were going to see his sister but that can t be i think returned miss because mr can have no business with her mary anne again hailed well mary anne if you please ma am perhaps it s s business that may be said miss i didn t think of that not that it matters at all mm mary anne again hailed well mary anne they she s vary handsome oh mary mary returned miss slightly colouring and shaking her head a little out of humour how often have i told you not to use that vague expression not to in that general way x when you say they say what do yon mean part of speech tu mary anne her tight ann behind her in her left hand as being under examination and replied personal person they t third person number they number then how many de mean mary anne two or more i beg your pardon ma am said mary anne disconcerted now she came to think of it but i don t know that i mean more than her brother himself ab she said it she her ann i felt convinced of it d miss smiling again now pray mary anne be careful another time he says ia very different from say remember difference between he says and they say it me mary anne immediately her right arm behind her in her left hand � an attitude absolutely necessary to the situation � and replied u one is mood present tense third person singular active to say other is mood present third person active to say why active anne because it takes a after it in the case miss very good indeed remarked miss with encouragement in could not be better don t forget to apply it another time mary anne this said miss finished the watering of her flowers and went into her little official residence and took a of the principal rivers and mountains of the world their depths and heights before settling the of the body of a dress for her own personal occupation and duly got to the ey side of westminster bridge and crossed the bridge and made along the shore towards in this region are a certain little street called church street and a certain little blind square called smith square in the centre of which last retreat is a very hideous church with four towers at the four corners generally resembling some monster frightful and gigantic on its back with its legs in the air they found a tree near by in a corner and a blacksmith s and a timber yard and a dealer s in old iron what a rusty portion of a and a great iron wheel or so meant by lying half buried in | 8 |
natured and well meaning even if he was a lawyer he might explain to very delicately just how the family felt and how much stood to lose if he continued to maintain his connection with her if had married o would find it out a liberal provision would be made for her � say fifty or one hundred thousand or even one hundred and fifty thousand dollars he sent for mr o and gave him his instructions as one of the of s estate it was really the lawyer s duty to look into the matter of s ultimate decision mr o to on reaching the city he called up and found out to his satisfaction that he was out of town for the day he went out to the house in park and sent in his card to she came down stairs in a few minutes quite unconscious of the import of bis message he greeted her most this is mrs he asked with an jerk of his head yes replied i am as you see by my card mr o of knight o he began we are the and of the late mr your � ah � mr s father you ll think it s rather curious my coming to you but under your husband s father s will there were certain conditions which affect you and mr very materially these provisions are so important that i think you ought to know about them � z i that is if mr hasn t already told you i � pardon me � but the peculiar nature of them makes me conclude that � possibly � ho t he paused a very question mark of a man � every feature of his face an i don t quite understand said i don t know anything about the will if there s anything that i ought to know i suppose mr will tell me he hasn t told me anything as yet ah breathed mr o highly gratified just as i thought now if you wiu allow me i ll go into the matter briefly then you can judge for yourself whether you wish to hear the full particulars won t you sit down they had both b standing seated herself and mr o pulled up a chair near to hers now to begin he said i need not say to you of course that there was considerable opposition on the part of mr s father to this � ah � union between yourself and his son i know � started to say but checked herself she was puzzled disturbed and a little apprehensive before mr senior died be went on he indicated to your � ah � to mr that he felt this way in his will he made certain conditions governing the distribution of his property which made it rather hard for his son your � ah � husband to come into his share ordinarily he would have inherited one fourth of the company worth to day in the neighborhood of a million dollars perhaps more also one fourth of the other properties which now something like five hundred thousand dollars i believe mr senior was really very anxious that his son should inherit this property but owing to the conditions which your � ah � which mr s father made mr cannot possibly obtain his share except by with a � with a � certain wish which his father had expressed sa mr o paused his eyes moving back and forth in their in spite of the natural prejudice of the situation he was considerably impressed with s pleasing appearance he could see quite plainly why might cling to her in the face of all opposition he continued to study her as he sat there waiting for her to speak and what was that wish she finally asked her nerves becoming just a little tense under the strain of the silence i am glad you were kind enough to ask me that he went on the subject is a very difficult one for me to introduce � very difficult i come as an of the estate i might say as one of the under the will of mr s father i know how keenly your � ah � how keenly mr feels about it i know how keenly you will probably feel about it but it is one of those very difficult things which cannot be helped � which must be got over somehow and while i hesitate very much to say so i must tell you that mr senior in his will that unless unless � again his eyes were moving to and fro � he saw fit to separate from � ah � you � he paused to get breath � he could not inherit this or any other sum � or at least only a very minor income of ten thousand a year and that only on condition that he should many you he paused again i should add he went on that under the will he was given three years in which to indicate his intentions that time is now drawing to a close he paused half expecting some outburst of feeling from but she only looked at him her eyes clouded with surprise distress now she understood was sacrificing his fortune for her his recent commercial venture was an effort to himself to put himself in an independent position the recent periods of of subtle and of dissatisfaction over which she had grieved were � ow explained he was unhappy he was brooding over this loss and he never told her so his father had really him mr o sat before her troubled himself he was very sorry for her now that he saw the expression of her face still the truth had to come out she ought to know i m sorry he said when he saw that she was not going | 43 |
already in his figure with all the surroundings � lamps his facility interesting me deeply i asked the young lady next me if she knew who he was she could not tell me at four o clock there was a general from the we to a neighbouring to drink beer and as we stooped of a young man under an the young man was his name spoke to me in english was my name and had we not exchanged a few words in so and so s so and so was the great man whose like had awakened in me the usual reflections on the chances of life were of course made and then followed the inevitable will you dine with me to night thought the following day would suit him better but i was very pressing he offered to meet me at my hotel or would i come with him to his rooms he would show me some pictures � some trifles he had brought up from the country nothing would please me better we got into a cab then every moment revealed new qualities new in my friend tall strong handsome beautifully dressed and talking french like a native he continued to and capture my imagination he said it was only natural that he should speak french for he was bom in and had lived there all his life but the accident of birth rather stimulated than my pride in being seen in his company he spoke of the fashionable and he stopped at a s to have his hair curled and i was on the of expectation to see his apartments of a young man apartments were not so grand as i expected but when he explained that he had just spent ten thousand pounds in two years and was now living on six or seven hundred a month which his mother would allow him until he had painted and had sold a certain series of pictures which he contemplated beginning at once my admiration increased � to wonder and i examined with awe the great fireplace which had been constructed at his orders and admired the iron pot which hung by a chain above an artificial fire this detail will suggest the rest of the the turkey carpet die brass lamps the screen the pieces of the oak chairs covered with red velvet the oak wardrobe that had been picked up somewhere � a ridiculous bargain and the inevitable bed with columns there were filled with foreign and palms stood in die comers of the rooms pulled out a few pictures but he paid very little heed to my compliments and sitting down at the piano with a great deal of and dashing about the keys he off a what is that i asked oh nothing something i composed the other evening i had a fit of the and didn t go out it of a young man i think it beautiful did you really compose that the other evening at this a knock was heard at the door and introduced me to a beautiful english girl with that see nothing and words that mean nothing an woman receives the man she finds with her sweetheart but it subsequently that had an appointment that she was dining out but would however call in the morning and give him a sitting for the portrait he was painting of her i had hitherto worked very regularly at the but s society was an attraction that could not be resisted a long began and while my own i my friend s idleness and him to return to work for the sake of his talent which i believed in but s beauty held him a winning it was and his delight in her was thorough and his gay dashing manner made me feel happy and his experience opened to me new avenues for enjoyment and knowledge of life on my arrival in paris i had visited in the company of my the and the and had dined at the d or by myself but took me to strange students where dinners were paid for in pictures to a of a young man place where a table d was held under a tent in a back garden frequented by the lights of love of with whom we went to walk in the gardens of the or the it often seemed to me that was not conscious of the fantastic of the foliage under the or of the of the life we were leading in the company of women known only to us by their christian names he took it all for granted whereas i lived it in my imagination exalted by the the band the of the dancers and most of all by the returning home in open carriages through the close warm night the darkness by an feather hanging over the hood of the carriage in front of us an edge of skirt passing beyond the foot board she is in his arms i said does she love him i asked and watched the moon and compared it to a magic lantern hanging out of the sky now we seemed to live in and and the were filled with impressions had a friend in this street and another in that it was only necessary for him to cry stop to the coachman and to run up two or three flights of stairs of a young man madame est si se la d and we were shown into a handsomely furnished apartment a lady would enter hurriedly and an animated discussion was begun i did not know french sufficiently well to follow the conversation but i remember it always commenced mon ami and was sprinkled with the phrase the ladies themselves had only just returned from or and they were generally involved in mysterious or were busily engaged in claims for several millions of against different foreign and just as i | 15 |
ood i have shaken off the of last night and am more like what father used to tell me to be when i was a of a girl a cheerful as right as a though to be sure i do not know what being as right as a is any more than i did then last night it is true there were circumstances that might have been urged for a week it had been the of a saint weather that took all the snap out of a body s mental fibre mother had had one of her bad days when the pain seemed too dreadful to bear patient angel that she is had been in one of her most despairing fits and the old year looked so dreary behind the new year loomed so hopeless before that there was some excuse for a girl who was tired to the bone with watching and worry if she did not feel exactly cheerful i cannot allow though that it justified her in crying like a watering pot and the pages of her until the whole thing was like a composition written with tears in a school i certainly cannot let this sort of thing happen again and i am thoroughly ashamed that it happened once i will remember that the last day father lived he said he could trust me to be brave both for mother and myself and that i promised � i promised so last night may go and be forgotten as soon as i can manage to forget it to night things are different there has been a beautiful snow fall and the air is so crisp that when i went for a walk at sunset it seemed impossible ever to be weak again mother is wonderfully comfortable and the new year began with a letter to say that george will be at home to morrow mother is asleep like a child the fire is in the best of spirits and does the for itself and for peter who is with content expressed by every hair to the tip of his white tail even is singing in the kitchen a hymn that she thinks is cheerful about sa a a e ter er er noon it is evident that there is every opportunity to take a january fresh start and to conduct myself in the coming year with more self respect so much for new year resolutions i do not remember that i ever made one before and very likely i shall never make one again now i must decide something about i tried to talk with mother about her but mother got so excited that i saw it would not do and felt i must work the problem out with pen and paper as if it were a sum in it is not my business to attend to the education of the minister s daughter especially as it is the minister s daughter and he with his whole congregation thinks it rather doubtful whether it is not sinful for even to know so dangerous an i sometimes doubt whether my good neighbors in would regard tom himself who father used to say as the for all rural new england with greater horror than they do me it is fortunate that they do not dislike me personally and they all loved father in spite of his in this case i am not clear on the other hand that it is my duty to stand passive and see without at least protesting a sensitive imaginative delicate child driven to despair by the misery and terror of a creed if had not come to me it would be different but she has come time after time this poor little morbid creature has run to me in such terror of hell fire that i verily feared she would end by going frantic ten years old and desperate with conviction of original sin and this so near the end of the nineteenth century so called of grace thus far i have contented myself with taking her into my arms and just loving her into calmness but she is getting beyond that the of a saint she is finding being so delightful that she is sure it must be a sin she is like what i can fancy the most imaginative of the to have been in their passionate childhood in the days when the only recognized office of the imagination was to picture the terrors of hell i so long for father if he were alive to talk to her he could say the right word and settle things the bible is very touching in its phrase as one whom his mother but to me whom his father would have seemed to go even deeper but then there is s father whose tenderness is killing her i don t in the least doubt that he suffers as much as she does but he loves her too much to risk damage to what he calls her immortal soul there is always a ring of triumph in his voice when he the phrase as if he already were a spirit in eternal and infinite glory there is something finely noble in such a superstition all this however does not bring me nearer to the end of my sum for the answer of that ought to be what i shall do with it would never do to push her into a struggle with the or to set her to arguing out the impossibility of her she is too young and too morbid and would end by supposing that in reasoning at au on the matter she had committed the sin her father would not let her read stories unless they were books perhaps she might be allowed some of the more entertaining of history but she is too young for most of them she should be reading about bed hood and the white cat and the | 3 |
why m joined so in this message to miss but i accepted hi statement with a bow where is your brother i asked is he on the steamer with you no he answered with a start why do you ask that perhaps it was the knowledge that she i indicated miss with a motion of my head would rather not see him and m looked at each other would rather not see interrupted i did not know that she had any such feeling the old trouble we never could seem to under stand each other quite do you imagine i asked that she is particularly anxious at this moment to look on the face oi her child s father m strode a step forward but grasped him firmly by the sleeve her child s father exclaimed the former in that fierce whisper of his who told you this why i responded astounded she did for one and throwing off the hand that would have restrained him took two steps more and his breath was in my face that he said or for heaven s sake interrupted wait she will hear you she will see that you out of arc quarrelling let me try to this knot a word i insist with a powerful movement the speaker drew the other back and began to me what did madame say exactly he asked quote her literal words if you can much i tried to answer him she said why you told me the same thing are we all crazy that your brother was s father gave his companion a wise look then he said to me but she did not use the word i am not sure but what is the difference that in your brother s name is it not m could not be restrained she said his brother and you thought she of course m s face was in smiles it is all explained then said beaming also i have two brothers you see it was the other one the other one this made the fourth or fifth person i had accused of being the father of that unhappy child was it to rest here i wondered or were there still more to follow it was the other one repeated after exchanging a pressure of the hand with his companion in short it was here we have been alluding to all the time as m his name is and it was to him that the ceremony of marriage with your sweet in a trap american friend took place in the at i glanced at her child to her heart at the other end of the deck and her aspect of alarm justified the revelation so this was the man she had dreaded to meet that she had fled from to avoid and after all her pains we were at sea with him on a french vessel in as pretty a trap as could be imagined were he disposed to assert his authority over her there was no place more suitable we could rely only on his forbearance i am the husband of that lady and the father of that boy said slowly yet i have no wish to claim them against their will now that have met so unexpectedly however i would like to talk long enough with to her mind of some of the things she has against me m i want if possible to set myself right before my wife will you tell her that for me bowing assent i left the gentleman and went to miss s side i know what you are going to say she broke out and i have made up my mind to refuse everything this seemed so unjust that i was moved to a slight deception has it occurred to you i inquired that he can do what he pleases on a vessel that flies the french flag but he asks very little he only wants to show you that you have charged him in your thoughts with wrongs he never committed he will not in you long i think judging from what he out of said to in is it not better to hear him now ana have it when i alluded to m s rights miss s lip grew firm and her independent spirit seemed about to assert itself in some determined phrase when i changed and spoke of a matter of policy she hesitated and then agreed with me very well she said but do not go far away stay where you can hear my voice if i call you she spoke like a child afraid of some ordeal who wants the comforting assurance that its parent will be close at hand and i suggested had not his nurse better take him to the she caught the child to her in sudden alarm how can you think of such a thing she exclaimed he might have it stolen while we were talking no i will keep the baby here and i will meet this man together m thanked me when i brought the message that he could have the desired interview but he said farther that he wanted me by all means to be a in it he realized he said that madame would feel nervous if left in his sole presence and he preferred that her pleasure should be consulted in all things accordingly i accompanied him to miss s side of the boat m i said this gentleman asks me to listen to what he has to tell you and i have consented to do so if it is your wish miss i can call her nothing else try as i changed to a rosy red at my words she turned her eyes toward me avoiding those of m caught in a trap and bowed it was plain that she was suppressed excitement of no ordinary character that every nerve was at its when m began to | 1 |
plainly saw not to be convinced she short and horror strode for she had never before so seen her gentle husband ao of noble power lo fall of inward holy wrath i master now often dreamed and delayed whole days sat down row np spoke to himself drew with his stick on tne sand or began to make an eye or a nose with buck chalk and then called him a child or thought that dissatisfied with her he held with his own soul or he walked up and down in the garden stood for a quarter of an hour at before the of a tree and studied its wonderfully bursting bark looked up to the and on bis memory the forms of the clouds or he sat before the door and called hither handsome children placed one quite in the shade of the roof another only half and made a third stand in the full sunshine that he might for himself the colors of the in and shade or he old men and women who to him as if they had sent by god then called to him and said my why not rather work i thou well we need it i do work said my ia ready internal now appeared to his mind � b if induced by constant d� and disclosed to his how the appearing out of the tears its delicate white child s shirt and then the master glowed like � vessel full of gold and pure for the casting so that he knew nothing more of the and what was revealed to him he transferred to the with inspired haste � then came and called to him two or three times always louder and louder some tr he then sprang up neither knowing where he had been or where he now was the of uie spiritual closed suddenly and the only half images sank back into night and into spiritual death and perhaps never returned to him � ah i never again then he recognized j who at his stood before him and him deaf and then his blood was like to a spring flood he seized the charm violently bv the arm � and held her thus till he awoke then be said ashamed is it thou my wife f i was not here now not with thee i forgive me to even a child is more than to see and paint all the angels and to hear them and one s self praised is desirable also in a beautiful world � and that the sun and moon shine npon it that makes it none the worse where thou art where i am with soul and yea with fancy and her works that is to me the true the holy world i and now he smiled and asked her mildly what dost thou want with me then my child but his eyes flashed she however believed that she had looked upon a demon a at spirits she examined the red mark on her arm where he had seized her tears from her eyes she bowed down and lamented ah i know it i have it in my mind � thou wilt certainly one day murder mc every time i go to bed i pray that i may not perish in my sins when again art as thou art now when i am nothing to thee i with such a spirit in the house nothing went well the modest ate with them at first of all that was an bat also spoke with her when he was alone there was nothing more painful to him than in a house where only two or three live together to force one s self to be silent o� tt of mere and lo treat the servants whether male or female as who are yet bt like ourselves for nothing makes us more contemptible in the eyes of than when they dare not talk to ns because we seem to despise them and do really despise them now suspected when he broke off a with she that it had bees her therefore she short and be d from the house he not to it then � till more times and at last he was obliged to let her go because a the poor creature and to protect her from want � was therefore he must see the poor girl with her go about begging � and he actually saw it � bat with secret tears and sighs once warned a artist against marriage from this warning that was with his own marriage and she remained whole days in the house of her parents he went for her in the � to avoid the risk of her not returning at all when husband and wife weigh every word before it is uttered then there is � more free intercourse and the must be doubled but in due time d who now appeared gave to wife the yet the glory of tlie mother thus the continued to bless her f was the sacred instrument in his hands and the most mysterious the most divine of old nature were thus granted to her as it were in being bow filled with reverence rapture and all was well better than ever and his love was now nobly founded and hers m not more therefore the creature as a rich blessing from his heavenly father be ye said he to himself as thereby some have entertained angels and by these words he was transported bark in fat to the day when he stood in the church and the maiden j na stood beside him and now in he put the little into her arms and the bride stood � as a mother all that had afterwards taken place seemed to him then an a of the past and the softness with which his heart was reflected and warmed the long days in which | 37 |
and the select audience forgot that it was select and became enthusiastic and when the fair singer reappeared were upon her had only a but as it fell at her feet miss stooped and picked it up and held it in her hand as she repeated her song and then it was all over and the crush and tumult of departure began made his way behind the scenes and met ah here you are said the young lady miss is in the manager s room i think she is ex you miss he heard miss on every side among the and then he found him self in the little apartment dignified by the title of the manager s room standing before her � or � which now for she had changed her stage dress and waited in her graceful trailing robes for a moment and then she forgot herself and looked up and down and almost trembled and the great tears stood in her eyes and she was silent as though she could not speak forgot himself too his calm haughty self was lost and he came to her and took hold of her hands and held them and looked down into her eyes down down as no man had ever looked before the woman the world has made of little he said i thought i had lost you and you have come back to me to me he said to me what am i to say she said with a little trembling sweetness in her voice i am not � i am what the world and its has left of your child i am willing to trust you was the answer tell me who this web for me my aunt as i call her she said with the smile again but i am really her cousin bj a remove for the sake of the old blood and my she took me and amused herself with me was my father s name and � and � the face flushed a little as she hesitated over her the world never knew that my mother had a right to it e was but a poor girl of irish whom he fell in love with when he was on the coast of and secretly married had not loosened his grasp upon her hands but just then she remembered herself and dropped them from his clasp i knew you from the first she said smiling when you gave me my glove at mrs s party i recollected your ce and connected it with your name while you had forgotten all no he answered i had not forgotten but i could not believe having had time to recover her composure she was quite miss now miss softened perhaps but still the i must find my aunt she said her eyes a little downcast under his steady gaze will you please take me to her he laid her hand upon his and held it in his own until he helped her into her carriage then with his farewell he looked down at her again as if waiting for something the time had come when miss had found a power and her eyelids drooped come to morrow she said timidly i want � i should like to talk to you about old times smiled as she had not seen him smile before a smile that brought the blood into her cheeks i have found you he said i will not lose you again then the carriage drove off said mrs that man is not going to make a second tom of himself and you ought to know better than to with edge tools unless you wish to cut your fingers went home to his hotel and found a moon beam resting upon the s face the woman the world has made of he whispered i loved you then i love you now i will trust you if i risk my life upon it � darling he bent over and kissed the cold white shoulder with his passionate lips chapter vi by the sad sea v the next mornings miss s maid brought her a new style of offering it was a fragile basket lined with moss like velvet and full of cool looking lilies with great golden eyes and leaves and in their centre glowed a blood red was dressing lazily when it came and she only told to leave it on the flower stand without making any comment but when the girl the room the cheeks scarcely tinted before looked like the and a curious glow burned in her eyes as she took the artistic trifle in her hand i wonder if i am a very wicked woman she said perhaps i had better have remained nothing but miss to him if there had never been a my life might have been or at least more but i can t look back and then be content to look forward i wonder if you have found out by this time that there was a good and a bad angel in s life and that the time had come now when either one or the other must rule forever imagine a girl with every beauty and fascination given into the hands of such a woman as mrs a woman who had lived in the world and for the world since she escaped from the nursery who had paused to think of nothing but the luxurious her refinement and wealth were so well able to procure her if it had not been for the face might have remained but there was a pleasant in playing the part of to a girl who was likely to carry the world before her beyond that she thought of nothing might be educated and introduced to society and then she might marry � un bon partly of course no other idea had ever occurred to the selfish aunt had lived a life that | 13 |
lie alas my treasure s gone why do i stay the english poets he was my friend the truest friend on earth a strong and mighty influence join d our birth nor did we envy the most sounding name by friendship n of old to fame none but his brethren he and sisters knew whom the kind youth d to me and ev n in that we did agree for much above myself i d them too say for you saw us ye immortal lights how oft have we spent the nights till the stars so d for love wondered at us from above we spent them not in toys in or wine but search of deep philosophy wit eloquence and poetry arts which i d for they my friend were thine ye fields of cambridge our dear cambridge say have ye not seen us walking every day was there a tree about which did not know the love us two henceforth ye gentle trees for ever fade or your sad branches thicker join and into shades combine dark as the grave wherein my friend is laid henceforth no learned youths beneath you sing till all the birds t your boughs they bring no birds play with their cheer and call the learned youths to hear no whistling winds through the glad branches fly but all with sad solemnity mute and unmoved be mute as the grave wherein my friend does lie to him my muse made haste with every strain whilst it was new and warm yet from the brain he d my worthless and like a friend would find out something to commend hence now my muse thou not me delight be this my latest verse with which i now adorn his and this my grief without thy help shall writer had i a wreath of about my brow i should that flourishing honour now condemn it to the fire and joy to hear it rage and there instead of crown with sad me which does not d so much as i for him who first was made that mournful tree large was his soul as large a soul as e er submitted to inform a body here high as the place twas shortly in n to have but low and humble as his grave so high that all the virtues there did come as to their seat conspicuous and great so low that for me too it made a room he this busy world below and all that we mistaken mortals pleasure call was filled with innocent gallantry and truth triumphant o er the sins of youth he like the stars to which he now is gone that shine with beams like flame yet bum not with the same had all the light of youth of the fire none knowledge he only sought and so soon caught as if for him knowledge had rather sought nor did more learning ever crowded lie in such a short when e er the skilful youth or writ still did the notions throng about his eloquent tongue nor could his ink flow faster than his wit the english poets so strong a wit did nature to him frame as all things but his judgment overcame his judgment like the moon did show that mighty sea below oh had he lived in learning s world what bound would have been able to control his overpowering soul we have lost in him arts that not yet are found his mirth was the pure spirits of various wit yet never did his god or friends forget and when deep talk and wisdom came in view d and gave to them their due for the rich help of books he always took though his own searching mind before was so with notions written o er as if wise nature had made that her book so many virtues joined in him as we can scarce pick here and there in history more than old writers practice e er could reach as much as they could ever teach these did religion queen of virtues sway and all their sacred motions steer t just like the first and highest sphere which wheels about and turns all n one way with as much zeal devotion piety he always d as other saints do die still with his soul severe account he kept weeping all debts out ere he slept then down in peace and innocence he lay like the sun s laborious light which still in water sets at night with his journey of the day wondrous young man why thou made so good to be snatched hence ere better understood snatched before half of thee enough was seen i thou ripe and yet thy life but green i nor could thy friends take their last sad farewell but danger and death d on that breath where life spirit pleasure always us d to dwell but happy thou ta en from this frantic age where ignorance and does rage a time for heaven no soul ere chose the place now only free from those there the thou dost for ever shine and thou cast thy view upon that white and radiant crew see st not a soul cloth d with more light than thine and if the glorious saints cease not to know their wretched friends who fight with life below thy flame to me does still the same abide only more pure and there whilst immortal hymns thou dost thou dost with holy pity see our dull and earthly where grief and misery can be joined with verse the chronicle a ballad first if i remember well my breast first of all but when awhile the wanton maid with my restless heart had played took the flying ball soon did it resign to the gave place though loth and angry she to part with the possession of my heart to s conquering face the english poets till this | 45 |
look forward to and the wet windy weather which swept the contributed to her the by only event of the day seemed to be her father s departure in the morning immediately after breakfast he tied up his music in a brown paper parcel and put his into its case he spoke of missing his train and from the windows of the music room she saw him hastening down the road she had asked him if there were no he wished copied in the british museum absent he had answered no and on the glass with her fingers she wondered how the day pass there was nothing to do there was nothing even to think about she was tired of thinking that a pupil might come back � that a new pupil might at any moment knock at the door she was tired of wondering if her father s would ever pay � if the firm of music with whom he was now in treaty come to terms and enable him to give a concert in their hall or if they would break off as many had done before and more than of everything else she was tired of thinking if her father would ever have money to send her abroad or if she would remain in always one morning as she was returning from where she had gone to pay the weekly bills she discovered that she was no longer happy she stopped and with an empty heart saw the low lying fields with poultry pens and the horse by the broken hedge the old village was her prison and she longed as a bird she had her there she ought to love it but she didn t and looking on its too familiar aspect her aching heart asked if it would ever pass from her it seemed to her that she had not strength nor will to return home a little further on she met the he bowed and she wondered how he could have thought that she could care for him oh to live in that with him she pitied the young man who wore brown clothes and whose employment in a bank prevented him from going abroad for his health these people were well enough but they were not for her she seemed to see beyond london beyond the seas whither she not say and she could not the yearning which rose to her lips like a wave and over them formerly when there was choir practice at st joseph s she used to go there and meet her father but lately for by some reason which she could not explain to herself she had refrained the thought of this church had become distasteful to her and she returned home indifferent to everything to music and religion alike her eyes turned from the pile of volumes � part of s interminable works � and all the old furniture and she stood at the window and watched the rain dripping into the patch of black garden in front of the house surrounded by a low stone wall the opposite suggested a desolation which found a parallel in her heart the road and the pale brown sky frightened her so menacing seemed their monotony she knew all this it was all on her mind and all that ornamental park where she must go if it cleared a little for her afternoon walk she must tramp round that park once more she strove to keep out of her mind its walls its stone where the floated like white china ornaments almost as lifeless but worse even than these were the hours between six and eight for very often her father was detained and if he missed the half past six train he had to come by the half past seven and in those hours of waiting the dusk grew oppressive and fearful in the music room startled by a strange shadow she crouched in her and when the feeling of dread passed she was weak from want of food why did her father keep her waiting faint and weary of life she opened a volume of but there was no pleasure for her in the music and if she opened a volume of songs she had neither strength nor will to even through the first and rising from the instrument she walked across the room stretching her arms in a feverish despair she had not eaten for many hours and out of the of the stomach a rose into her eyes pressing her eyes with her hand she leaned against the door one evening she walked into the garden the silence and damp of the earth revived her and the sensation of the cold stone against which she was leaning was agreeable little stars a and misty sky and out of the mysterious spring twilight there came a strange and ultimate yearning a craving which nothing she had ever known could but those stars � could they tell her nothing one large almost as the moon itself by up in the sky and a voice within her whispered that that was her star that it held the secret of her destiny he gazed till her father called to her from the gate and all that evening she could think of nothing else the conviction flowed within her that the secret of her destiny was there and as she lay in bed the star seemed to take a visible shape a face rose out of the gulf beneath her she could not distinguish whether it was the face of a man or woman it was an idea rather than a face the ears were turned to her for her to take the the throat was deeply curved the lips were large and rose red the eyes were nearly closed and the hair was curled close over a straight low forehead the face rose up to hers she looked into the | 15 |
problem it did not take long i sprang my feet now i have it cried i ought to make the tackle the p nt of balance and what we learn of this will serve us with everything else we have to aboard once again i all my work by lowering the mast e water but i the point of balance vi hi a the ot the mast came of the butt looked despair but i laughed and said it would do just as well her how to hold the turn and be ready to slack away at command i laid hold of the mast with my hands and tried to balance it across the rail when i thought i had it i cried to her to slack away but the despite my efforts and dropped back toward the water again i heaved it up to its old position for i had now another idea i remembered the � a small double and single block affair � and fetched it while was it between the top of the ind the opposite rail wolf came on the scene exchanged nothing more than good mornings and though he could not sec he sat on the rail out of the way and allowed by the sound all that i did af ain to away at the when i gave the word i proceeded to heave on the w slowly the mast swung in until it balanced at right angles across the rail and then i discovered to my the sea wolf ment that there was no need for to slack away in fact the very opposite was necessary making the fast i on the and brought in the mast inch by inch till its top down to the deck and finally its whole length lay on the deck i looked at my watch it was twelve o clock my back was aching sorely and i felt extremely tired and and there on the deck was a single stick of timber to show for a whole morning s work for the first time i thoroughly realized the extent of the task before us was i was learning the afternoon would show far more accomplished and it did for we returned at one o clock rested and strengthened by a hearty dinner in less than an hour i had the main on deck and was the the two together and making allowance for their unequal length at the point of i attached the double block of the main throat this with the single block and the throat themselves gave me a tackle to prevent the of the from slipping on the deck i nailed down thick thing in readiness i made a line fast to the of the and carried it directly to the i was growing to have faith in that for it gave me power beyond all c as usual held the turn while i heaved the rose in the air then i discovered i had forgotten ropes this my climbing the which i did twice before i finished it fore and aft and to side twilight had set in by the time this was accomplished wolf i who had sat about and listened all afternoon and never ned his had taken himself off to the and started his supper i felt quite stiff across the the small of the back so much so that i straightened up with an effort and with proudly at my work it was to show was wild with desire like a child with a new toy to with my wish it t so late i said i d like to see how it works don t be a mc remember to morrow i� coming and you re so tired now that you can hardly stand and you i with sudden solicitude you must be very tired you have worked hard and i am proud of you not half so proud as i am of you nor with half the reason she answered looking me straight in the eyes or a nt with an ti in her own i tremulous light which i had not seen before and which gave mc a pang of quick delight � i know not why for i did not understand it then she dropped her eyes to lift them again laughing if our friends could see us now she said look at us have you ever paused for a moment to consider our appearance yes i have considered yours frequently i answered over what i had seen in her eyes and puzzled by her sudden change of subject mercy she cried and what do i look like pray a i m afraid i replied just at your skirts for instance look at those tears and such a waist t it would not require a to that you have been cooking over a camp tire to say nothing of trying out seal and to cap it all that and all that is the woman who wrote a kiss endured the sea wolf she made me an elaborate and stately courtesy and said as for you sir � and yet through the five minutes of which followed there was a serious something underneath the fun which i could not but relate to the strange and fleeting expression i had caught in her eyes what was it could it be that our eyes were speaking beyond the will of our speech my eyes had spoken i knew until i had found the out and silenced them this had occurred several times but had she seen the in them and understood and had her eyes so spoken to me what else could that expression have meant � that dancing tremulous light and a something more which words could not describe and yet it could not be it was impossible besides i was not skilled in the speech of eyes i was only van a who loved and | 21 |
sobbing one night last year in the chase and it mid ha gone hard wi a certain party if folks had come along well a little more or a little less twas a thousand that it should have happened to she of all others but tis always the the plain ones be as safe as � hey the speaker turned to one of the group who certainly was not ill defined as plain it was a thousand indeed it was impossible for even an enemy to feel otherwise on looking at as she sat there with her flower uke mouth and large tender eyes neither black nor blue nor gray nor violet rather all those shades together and a hundred others which could be seen if one looked into their � shade behind shade � tint beyond tint � around pupils that had no bottom an almost standard woman but for the slight of character inherited from her race a resolution which had surprised herself had brought her into the fields this wc for the first time many months after wearing and wasting her heart with every engine of regret that lonely could devise common sense had her she felt that she would do well to be useful again � to taste anew sweet independence at by maiden no more any price the past was past whatever it had been it was no more at hand whatever its consequences time would dose over them they would all in a few years be as if they had never been and she herself down and forgotten meanwhile the trees were just as green as before the birds sang and the sun one s clearly now as ever the familiar had not darkened because of her grief nor because of her pain she might have seen that what had bowed her head so profoundly � the thought of the world s concern at her situation � was on an she was not an existence an experience a passion a structure of sensations to anybody but herself to besides was only a passing thought even to friends she was no more than a frequently passing thought if she made herself miserable the night and day it was only this much to them � ah she makes herself unhappy if she tried to be cheerful to dismiss all care to take pleasure in the day ht the flowers the baby she could only be this idea to them � ah she bears it very well moreover alone in a desert island would she have been wretched at what had happened to her not greatly if she could have been but just created to discover herself as a mother with no experience of life except as the parent of a nameless child would the position have caused her to despair no she would have taken it and found pleasures therein most of the misery had been by her conventional aspect and not by her innate sensations whatever s reasoning some spirit had induced her to dress herself up neatly as e had formerly done and come out into the fields harvest hands being greatly in demand just then this was why she had borne herself with dignity and had looked people calmly in the face at times even when holding the baby in her arms the harvest men rose from the shock of com and by op the d stretched their and extinguished their pipes the horses which had been and fed were again attached to the scarlet machine having quickly eaten her own meal beckoned to her eldest sister to come and take away the baby fastened her dress put on the gloves again and stooped anew to draw a bond from the last completed for the tying of the next in the afternoon and evening the proceedings of the morning were continued staying on till dusk with the body of then they rode home in one of the largest in the company o a broad moon that had risen from tiie ground to the its face resembling the gold leaf of some worm eaten saint s female companions sang songs and showed themselves very s and glad at her out of doors though they could not refrain from throwing in a few verses of the ballad about the maid who went to the merry green wood and came back a changed state there are and in life and the event which had made of her a social warning had also for the moment made her the most interesting personage in the village to many their friendliness won her still further away from herself their lively spirits were and she became almost gay but now that her moral sorrows were passing away a fresh one arose on the natural side of her which knew no social law when she reached home it was to learn to her grief that the baby had been suddenly taken ill since the afternoon some such had been probable so tender and was its frame but the event came as a shock nevertheless the baby s offence against society in coming into the world was forgotten by the girl mother her soul s desire was to continue that offence by preserving the life of the child however it soon grew clear that the hour of for that little prisoner of the ii by maiden no more flesh was to arrive earlier than her worst had and when she had discovered this she was plunged into a misery which that of the s simple loss her baby had not been had drifted into a frame of mind which accepted the consideration that if she should have to bum for what she had done bum she must and there was an end of it like all village girls she was well in the holy and had studied the histories of and and knew the to be drawn but when the same question | 45 |
heart was he too like the would he kill other men who had families like and frank and johnson had killed t was he too a wild beast a dog that would over a bone she sighed life was a strange puzzle perhaps was right in her cruel statement of the terms of existence by ic the valley op the moon what of it laughed harshly as if in answer to her questions it s dog eat dog i and it s always ben that way take that scrap outside there they killed each other just like the north an south did in the civil war but can t win that way you say yourself that it spoiled their chance of winning i suppose not he admitted reluctantly but what other chance they ve got to win i don t see look at us we ll be up against it next not the she cried he nodded gloomily the are loose all along the line for a high old time say they re goin to beat us to our knees till we come back a for our they ve up real high an mighty what of all that the other day the troops out is half the fight along with the an the papers an the public behind em they re their mouths already about what they re goin to do they re sure for trouble first they re goin to hang johnson an as many more of the fifteen as they can they say that flat the an the an the times keep it over an over every day they re all union to beat the band no more closed shop to hell with organized labor why the dirty little come out this morning an said that every union official in ought to be run town or stretched up pine you bet it s fine look at us it ain t a case any more of sympathetic strike for the mill workers we got our own troubles they ve fired our four best men � the ones that was always on the conference did it without cause they re for trouble as i told you an they ll get it too if they don t watch out we got our tip from the water front with them us we ll go some you mean you strike saxon asked ed by the valley op the moon he bent his head but isn t that what they want you to do � from the way they re acting what s the shrugged his shoulders then continued it s better to strike than to get fired we beat em to it that s all an we catch em before they re ready don t we what they re they re camp drivers an mule all up an down the state they got forty of em em in a hotel in right now an ready to rush em in on us an hundreds more like em so this saturday s the last wages i ll likely bring home for some time saxon closed her eyes and thought quietly for five minutes it was not her way to take things excitedly the coolness of that so admired never deserted her in time of emergency she realized that she herself was no more than a caught up in this tangled conflict of many we ll have to draw from our to pay for this month s rent she said brightly s face fell we ain t got as much in the bank as you think he confessed had to be buried you know an i up what the others couldn t raise how i was it forty dollars i was goin to stand off the butcher an the rest for a while they knew i was good pay but they put it to me straight they d ben the right along an was up against it themselves an now with that strike smashed they re pretty much smashed themselves so i took it all out of the bank i knew you wouldn t mind you don t do you she smiled bravely and bravely overcame the sinking feeling at her heart it was the only right thing to do i would have done it if were lying sick and would have done it for you an me if it had been the other way around by ic the valley op the moon his face was glowing saxon a fellow can always count on you you re like my right hand that s why i say no more babies if i lose you i m crippled for life we ve got to she mused nodding her appreciation how much is in bank just about thirty dollars you see i had to pay an for the a few other little things an the union took time by the neck and a four dollar emergency on every member just to be ready if the strike was pulled off but can wait he said as much he s the goods if anybody should ask you how d you like m i liked him but i don t know about doctors he s the first i ever had � except when i was once and then the city did that looks like the street car men are goin out too dan s come to town came all the way from new york tried to in on the quiet but the fellows knew when he left new york an kept track of him all the way they have to he s on the spot whenever street car men are licked into shape he s won lots of street car strikes for the keeps an army of strike an ships them all over the country on special trains wherever they re needed s never seen labor troubles like she s got and is goin to get ail hell s goin to break | 21 |
mistaken for me and he has some taste in dress though he gets if i am too long away fi om him i warrant you that i find a in his coat to morrow we were all seated round the fire by this time for the evening had turned chilly the lamp was lighted and so also was my father s pipe i suppose said he that this is your first visit to s oak my uncle s face suddenly very grave and stern it is my first visit for many years said he i was but one and twenty years of age when last i came here i am not likely to forget it i knew that he spoke of his visit to royal at the time of the murder and i saw by her face that my mother knew it also my father however had either never heard of it or had forgotten the circumstance was it at the inn you stayed he asked i stayed with the unfortunate lord x buck it was the occasion when he was accused of his younger brother and fled from the country we all fell silent and my uncle leaned his chin upon his hand looking thoughtfully into the fire if i do but close my eyes now i can see the light upon his proud handsome face and see also my dear father concerned at having touched upon so terrible a memory shooting little glances at him the of his pipe i dare say that it has happened with you sir said my uncle at last that you have lost some dear in battle or wreck and that you have put him out of your mind in the routine of your daily life until suddenly some word or some scene brings him back to your memory and you find your sorrow as raw as upon the first day of your loss my father nodded so it is with me to night i never formed a close friendship with a man � i say nothing of women � save only the once that was with lord we were of an age he a few years perhaps my senior but our tastes our judgments and our characters were save only that he had in him a touch of pride such as i have never known in any other man putting aside the little of a rich young man of fashion i stone could have sworn that he was as good a man as i have ever known how came he then to such a crime asked my father my uncle shook his head many a time have i asked myself that question and it comes home to me more to night than ever all the had gone out of his manner and he had turned suddenly into a sad and serious man was it certain that he did it charles asked my mother my uncle shrugged his shoulders i wish i could think it were not so i have thought sometimes that it was this very pride turning suddenly to madness which drove him to it you have heard how he the money which we had lost nay i have heard nothing of it my father answered it is a very old story now though we have not yet foimd an end to it we had played for two days the four of us lord his brother captain sir and myself of the captain i knew little save that he was not of the best and was deep in the hands of the jews sir has made an evil name for himself since � tis the same sir buck who shot lord in the affair at chalk farm � but in those days there was nothing against him the oldest of us was but twenty four and we on as i say until the captain had cleared the board we were all hit but host far the hardest that night � i tell you now what it would be a bitter thing for me to tell in a court of law � i was restless and sleepless as often happens when a man has kept awake over long my mind would dwell upon the fall of the cards and i was tossing and turning in my bed when suddenly a cry fell upon my ears and then a second louder one coming from the direction of captain s room five minutes later i heard steps passing down the passage and without striking a light i opened my door and peeped out thinking that some one was taken there was lord walking towards me in one hand he held a candle and in the other a brown bag which as he moved his face was all drawn and distorted � so much so that my question was frozen upon my lips before i could utter it he turned into his chamber and softly closed the door next morning i was awakened by finding him at my bedside charles said he i cannot abide to think stone that you should have lost this money in my house you will find it here upon your table it was in vain that i laughed at his telling him that i should most certainly have claimed my money had i won so that it would be strange indeed if i were not permitted to pay it when i lost neither i nor my brother will touch it said he there it lies and you may do what you like about it he would listen to no argument but dashed out of the room like a madman but perhaps these details are familiar to you and god knows they are painful to me to tell my father was sitting with staring eyes and his forgotten pipe in his hand pray let us hear the end of it sir he cried well then i had finished my toilet in | 4 |
jane to return with them to and had some difficulty in getting a refusal accepted as they thought too highly of their own kindness and situation to suppose the o� could appear in less advantageous light to anybody else elizabeth gave them her interest though evidently against her own in privately urging to go you do not know what you refuse said she nor what you have to bear at home i would advise you by all means to accept the invitation there is always something lively going on at you will be in company almost every day and robert and jane will be very kind to you as for me i shall be no worse off without you than i have been used to be but poor margaret s disagreeable ways are new to you and they would vex you more than you think for if you stay at home was of course except to greater esteem for elizabeth by such representations and the visitors departed without her when the author s sister showed the manuscript of this work to some of her she also told them something of the intended story for with this dear sister � though i believe with no one else � jane seems to have talked freely of any work that she might have in hand mr was soon to die and to become dependent the for a home on her narrow minded sister in law and brother she was to decline an o� of marriage from lord and much of the interest of the tale was to arise from lady s love for mr and his counter affection for whom he was finally to marry a he knew of no one bat himself who was inclined to the work this is no motive a man sees something to be done knows of no one who will do it bat himself and so is driven to the helps s life of ch i the of my aunt jane has been received with more favor than i had ventured to expect the notices taken of it in the press as well as letters addressed to me by many with whom i am not personally acquainted show that an interest is still taken in every particular that can be told about her i am thus encouraged not only to offer a second edition of the but also to it with some additional matter which i might have to intrude on the public if they had not thus seemed to call for it in the present edition the narrative is somewhat enlarged and a few more letters are added with a short specimen of her childish stories the chapter of persuasion is given in compliance with wishes both publicly and privately expressed a fragment of a story entitled the is printed and are given from a novel which she had begun a few months before her death but the chief addition is a short tale never before published called lady i regret that the little which i have preface been able to add could not appear in my first edition as much of it was either unknown to me or not at my command when i first published and i hope that i may claim some indulgent allowance for the difficulty of recovering little facts and feelings which had been half a century deep in oblivion a of jane chapter i � birth of jane � her connections � their influence on her writings than half a century has passed away since i the youngest of the attended the funeral of my dear aunt jane in cathedral and now in my old age i am asked whether my memory will serve to rescue from oblivion any events of her life or any traits of her character to satisfy the inquiries of a generation of readers who have been bom since she died of events her life was singularly barren few changes and no great crisis ever broke the smooth current of its course even her fame may be said to have been it did not attain to any vigorous life till she had ceased to exist her talents did not introduce i went to represent my who was too to attend himself and i was the only one of my generation present a of jane her to the notice of other writers or connect her with the literary world or in any degree pierce through the obscurity of her domestic retirement i have therefore scarcely any materials for a detailed life of my aunt but i have a distinct recollection of her person and character and perhaps many may take an interest in a if any such can be drawn of that mind whence sprung the and the and the and who have been admitted as familiar guests to the of so many families and are known there as and intimately as if they were living neighbors many may care to know whether the moral the correct taste and the warm affections with which she invested her ideal were really existing in the native source whence those ideas flowed and were actually exhibited by her in the various relations of life i can indeed bear witness that there was scarcely a charm in her most delightful characters that was not a true reflection of her own sweet temper and loving heart i was young when we lost her but the impressions made on the young are deep and though in the course of fifty years i have forgotten much i have not forgotten that aunt jane was the delight of all her and we did not think of her as being clever still less as being famous but we valued her as one always kind and amusing to all this i am a living witness but whether i can sketch out such a faint outline of this excellence as shall be perceptible to others may be reasonably | 26 |
but her late agitation had made her absent minded i came back by you know said mr not as if any intention to arrest her departure but apparently from his tendency to say what he had said before this of human speech was exhibited in mr i there and saw s library and that kind of thing there s a sharp air wont you sit down my dear you cold felt quite inclined to accept the invitation sometimes then her uncle s easy way of taking things did not happen to be it y as rather she threw off her mantle and and sat down opposite to him enjoying the glow but lifting up her hands for a screen they were not hands or hands but powerful feminine maternal hands she seemed to be holding them in for her passionate desire to r know aad to think which in the of and had issued in ending and red eyelids she herself now of the condemned criminal what have you brought about the sheep what poor � well it seems we can t get him off � he is to be hanged s brow took an expression of and pity hanged you know said mr with a quiet nod poor he would have helped us i knew t know he is a little buried in books you know is when a man has great studies and is writing a great work he n t of course give up seeing much of the world how can he go about acquaintances v s true but a man you know i have always been i too but i have that sort of disposition that i never x was my way to go about everywhere and take in everything i but i can see that does you he a � a companion you know it would be a great honour to any one to be his companion said you like him said mr without showing any surprise or other emotion well now i ve known ten years ever since he came to but i never got anything out cf him � any ideas you know however he is a man and be a that kind of thing you know if feel stays in and he has a very high opinion of you my dear could not speak the ct is he has a high opinion indeed of you and he peaks uncommonly does he has deferred to me you not being of age in short i have promised to speak to you � j though i told him i thought there was not much chance i was bound to tell him that i said my niece is very young and that kind of thing but i didn t think it necessary to go into everything however the long and the short of it is that he has asked my permission to make you an offer of of marriage you know said mr with his nod i thou t it better to tell you my dear no one could have detected any anxiety in mr s but he did really wish to know something of his niece s mind that if there were any need for advice he might give it in time what feeling he as a magistrate who had taken in so many ideas could make room for was kind since did not speak immediately he repeated i thought it better to tell you my dear thank you uncle said in a clear tone i am very to mr if he makes me an offer i shall accept him i admire and honour him more than any man i ever saw mr paused a little and then said in a lingering low tone ah well he is a good match in some respects but now is a ood match and our land lies together i shall never interfere against your wishes my dear e should have their own way in marriage and that sort of thing � up to a certain point you know i have always said that up to a certain point i wish you to marry well and i have good reason to believe that wishes to marry you i mention it you know it is impossible that i should ever marry sir james said if he thinks of marrying me he has made a great mistake that is it you see one never knows i should have thought was just the sort of man a woman would like now pray do not mention him in that light again uncle said ng some of her late irritation revive mr wondered and felt that women were an inexhaustible subject of since even he at his age was not in a perfect state of scientific about them here was a fellow like with no chance at all well but now there is no hurry � i mean for you true every year will tell upon him he is over five and forty you know i should say a good seven and twenty years older than you to be sure � if you like learning and and that sort of thing we can t have everything ana his income is good � he has a handsome property independent of the church � his is still he is not young ana i must not conceal from you my dear mat i think his is ot over strong i know nothing el i t him i should not wish to have a husband very near mv own age said with grave decision i should wish to a who was above me in judgment and in all knowledge mr repeated his subdued ah � i thought you had more book l � miss f own opinion than most girls i thought you liked your own opinion � liked it you know i cannot imagine myself without some opinions but i should to have good reasons lor them | 14 |
the face is a confused of features but composed of sharply defined and features whose eye are so formed that it would be impossible for such eyes to and take glances on this side and on that but they must turn the whole head the manners of that period are plain and fierce the reverence exhibited is for personal qualities courage address self command justice strength swiftness a loud voice a broad chest luxury and elegance are not known a population and want make every man his own cook butcher and soldier and the habit of supplying his own needs the body to wonderful performances such are the and of and not far different is the picture gives of himself and his in the retreat of the ten thousand after the army had crossed the river in there fell much snow and the troops lay miserably on the ground covered with it but arose naked and taking an axe began to wood whereupon others rose and did the like throughout his army exists a boundless liberty of speech they quarrel for plunder they h t bt with the on each new order and is as sharp as any and than most and so gives as good as he gets who does not see that thb is a gang of great with such a code of honor and such discipline as great boys have the costly charm of the ancient tragedy and indeed of all the old literature is that the persons speak simply � speak as persons who have great good sense without knowing it before yet the habit has become the habit of the mind our admiration of the antique is not admiration of the old but of the natural the are not but perfect in their senses and in their health with the finest physical organization in the world acted with the simplicity and grace of children they made and statues such as healthy senses should � that is in good taste such things have continued to be made in all ages and are now wherever a healthy but as a class from their superior organization they have surpassed all they combine the energy of manhood with the engaging of childhood the attraction of these manners is that they belong to man and are known to every man in of his being once a child besides that there are always individuals who retain these a person of genius and energy m k still a greek and our love of the muse of i admire the love of nature in the in reading those fine to sleep to the stars rocks mountains and waves i feel time passing away as an sea i feel the eternity of man the identity of his thought the greek bad it seems the same fellow beings as l the sun and moon water and fire met bis heart precisely as they meet mine then the distinction between greek and english between and seems superficial and when a thought of becomes a thou t to me � when a truth that fired the soul of fires mine time is no more when i feel that we two meet in a perception that our two souls are tinged with the same hue and do as it were run into one why should i measure degrees of latitude why should i count egyptian years the student the age of chivalry by his own age of chivalry and the days of adventure and by quite parallel miniature experiences of his own to the sacred history of the world be has the same key when the voice of a prophet out of the of antiquity merely echoes to him a sentiment of hb infancy a prayer of his youth he then to the truth through all the confusion of tradition and the of it s rare extravagant spirits come by us at intervals who disclose to us new facts in nature i see that men of god have from time to time walked among men and made their commission felt in the heart and soul of the commonest hence evidently the the priest the inspired by the divine and people they cannot unite h un to history or reconcile him with themselves as they come to their and to live their own piety explains every fact every word how easily these old of moses of of of themselves in the mind i cannot find any in them they are mine as much as theirs i have seen the first and without crossing seas or centuries more than once some individual has appeared to me with such of labor and such commanding contemplation a haughty begging in the name of god as made good to the century the the and the first the of the east and west of the and is in the private life the influence of a hard on a young child in his spirits and the understanding and x sat l that without producing indignation but fear and obedience and even much s with the � is a familiar fact explained to the child when he becomes a man only by seeing that the of his youth is himself a child over by those names and words and forms of whose influence he was merely the organ to the youth the fact teaches him how was worshipped and how the were built better than the by of the names of all the workmen and the cost of every tile he finds and the of at his door and himself has laid the courses again in that protest which each considerate person makes against the superstition of his times be step for step the part of old and in the search after truth finds like them new perils to virtue he again what moral vigor is needed to supply the of a superstition a great on the heels of a how many times in the history | 37 |
up with him so did at my side i can t quite understand the house seems to have been violently entered when joe was out supposed by somebody has been attacked and hurt we were running too fast to admit of more being said � we made no stop until we got into our kitchen it was of people the whole village was there or in the yard and there was a surgeon and there was joe and there were a group of women all on the floor in the midst of the kitchen the by drew back when they saw me and so i became aware of my sister � lying without sense or movement on the bare boards where she had been knocked down by a tremendous blow on the back of the head dealt by some unknown hand when her ce was turned towards the i � destined never to be on the again while she was wife of joe chapter xvi with mj head fall of george i was at first disposed to believe that must have had some hand in the attack upon mj sister or at all events that as her near relation known to be under obligations to her i was a more legitimate object of suspicion than any one else but when in the clearer light of next morning i began to the matter and to hear it discussed around me on all sides i took another view of the case which was more reasonable joe had been at the three jolly smoking his pipe firom a quarter after eight o clock to a quarter before ten while he was there my sister had been seen standing at the kitchen door and had exchanged good night with a farm going home the man could not be more particular as to the time at which he saw her he got into dense confusion when he tried to be than that it must have been before nine when joe went home at five minutes before ten he found her struck down on the floor and promptly called in assistance the fire had not then burnt unusually low nor was the snuff of the candle very long the candle however had been blown out nothing had been taken away from any part of the house neither beyond the blowing out of the candle � which stood on a table between the door and my and was her she stood tlie fire and was strode � was there an j cf the kitchen excepting as she had made in filling and bat there was one remarkable of on the she had been something and on the head and after the were dealt something heavy had been thrown down at her with considerable as she on her and on the beside her when joe picked her np was a s l inn which had been now this iron with a smith s declared it to hare been filed asunder some time the hue and cry going off to the and people coming thence to the iron joe s opinion was they did not undertake to say when it had left the prison ships to which it undoubtedly had once belonged but they claimed to know for certain that that particular had not been worn by either of two who had escaped last night further one of those two was already and had not freed himself of his iron knowing what i knew i set up an of my own here i believed the iron to be my s iron � the iron i had seen and heard him at on the � but my mind did not accuse him of having put it to latest use for i believed one of two other persons to have become possessed of it and to have turned it ta this cruel account either or the strange man who had shown me the file now as to he had gone to town exactly as he told us when we picked him up at the he had been seen about town all the evenings he had been expectations in divers companies in several public and be bad back witb and mr was nothing against bim save tbe quarrel and mj sister bad witb bim and witb everybody else about ber ten thousand times as to tbe strange man if be bad come back for his two bank notes could have been no dispute about them because my sister was fully prepared to restore them besides bad been no tbe bad come in so silently and suddenly that she bad been before she could look round it was horrible to think that i bad provided the weapon however but i could hardly think otherwise i suffered unspeakable trouble while i con and whether i should at last that spell of my childhood and tell joe all the story for months afterwards i every day settled the question finally in the negative and and it next morning the came after all to this � the secret was such an old one now had so grown into me and become a part of myself that i could not tear it away in addition to the dread that having led up to so much mischief it would be now more likely tha n ever to joe from me i b bad the further dread would not believe it but would it with the dogs and as a monstrous invention however i witb myself of course for was i not wavering between right and wrong when the thing is always done � and resolved to make a full disclosure if i should see any such new occasion as a new chance f helping in tbe of the the and the bow street men from � � � for this happened m the days of the red police � were the house for a week or two and | 8 |
the sound when a gale came which lasted four days and nights and which would have done for poor old in half the time our touch with the great nation not having much improved our four and twenty hours later and i should only have been a gallant captain in a small paragraph at one corner of the newspapers and being lost in only a nobody would have thought about me s were to herself alone but the miss could be as open as they were sincere in their exclamations of pity and horror and so then i suppose said mrs in a low voice as if thinking aloud so then he went away to the and there he met with our poor boy charles my dear him to her do ask captain where it was he first met with your poor brother i always forget it was at mother i know dick had been left ill at with a from his former captain to captain oh i but charles tell captain he need not persuasion be afraid of mentioning poor dick before me for it would be rather a pleasure to hear him talked of by such a good friend charles being somewhat more of the of the case only nodded in reply and walked away the girls were now hunting for the and captain could not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume into his own hands to save them the trouble and once more read aloud the little statement of her name and and present non class over it that she too had been one of the best man had ah those were pleasant days when i had the bow fast i made money in her a friend of mine and i had such a lovely together off the western islands poor sister you know how much he wanted money worse than myself he had a wife excellent fellow i shall never forget his happiness he felt it all so much for her sake i wished for him again the next summer when had still the same luck in the and i am sure sir said mrs it was a lucky day for us when you were put captain into that ship we shall never forget what you did her feelings made her speak low and captain hearing only in part and probably not having dick at au near his thoughts looked rather in suspense and as if waiting for more my brother whispered one of the girls mamma is thinking o poor richard poor dear fellow continued mrs he was grown so steady and such an excellent correspondent while he was under your care ah it would have been a happy thing if he had never left you i assure you captain we are very sorry he ever left you there was a momentary expression in captain s face at this speech a certain glance of his bright eye and curl of his handsome mouth which convinced persuasion instead of sharing in mrs s kind wishes as to her son he had probably been at some pains to get rid of him but it was too transient an indulgence of self amusement to be detected by any who understood him less than hers in another moment he was perfectly collected and serious and almost instantly afterwards coming up to the sofa on which she and mrs were sitting took a place by the latter and entered into conversation with her in a low voice about her son doing it with so much sympathy and grace as showed the kindest consideration for all that was real and in the parent s feelings they were actually on the same sofa for mrs e had most readily made room for him they were divided only by mrs it was no insignificant barrier indeed mrs was of a comfortable substantial size infinitely more fitted by nature to express good cheer and good humour than tenderness and sentiment and while tiie of anne s slender form and pensive face may h considered as very completely captain should be allowed some credit for the self which he attended to her large fat over the of a son whom nobody had cared for personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary proportions a large figure has as good a right to be in deep as the most graceful set of limbs in the world but fair or not fair there are which reason will in vain which taste cannot which ridicule will seize the admiral after taking two or three refreshing about the room with his hands behind him being called to order by his wife now came up to captain and without any observation of what he might be interrupting thinking only of his own thoughts began with � if you had been a week later at last spring you would have been asked to give a passage to lady mary and her daughters should i i am glad i was not a week later then persuasion the admiral abused him for his want of gallantry he defended himself though that he would never admit any ladies on board a ship of his excepting for a ball or a visit which a few hours might comprehend but if i know myself said he this is from no want of gallantry towards them it is rather from feeling how impossible it is with all one s efforts and all one s sacrifices to make the on board such as women ought to have there can be no want of gallantry admiral in the claims of women to every personal comfort high and this is what i do i hate to hear of women on board or to see them on board and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family of ladies anywhere if i can help it this brought his sister upon him oh i but i | 26 |
after fifteen hours work sat down to read mere about men and women more or less like themselves and about children more or less like their own they took de foe to their instead of and seemed to be on the whole more comforted by by mr was for ever working in print and out of print at this eccentric sum and he never could make out how it yielded this product i am sick of my life loo i hate it altogether and i hate everybody you said the unnatural young thomas in the cutting chamber at twilight you don t hate tom i hate to be obliged to call her and she hates me said tom no she does not tom i am sure she must said tom she must just hate and the whole set out of us they u bother her head off i think before they have done her already she s getting as pale as wax and as heavy as � i am young thomas expressed these sentiments sitting of a chair before the fire with his arms on the back and his sulky face on his arms his sister sat in the darker comer by the fireside now looking at him now looking at the bright sparks as they dropped upon the hearth as to me said tom tumbling his hair all manner of ways with his sulky hands i am a donkey that s what i am i am as obstinate as one i am more stupid than one i get as much pleasure as one and i should like to kick like one not me i hope tom no loo i wouldn t hurt you i made exception of you at first i don t know what this � old � jail tom had paused to find a sufficiently complimentary and expressive name for the parental roof and seemed to relieve his mind for a moment by the strong of this one would be without you indeed tom do you really and truly say so why of course i do what s the use of talking about it returned tom his face on his coat sleeve as if to his flesh and have it in with his spirit because tom said his sister after watching the sparks awhile as i get older and nearer growing up i often sit wondering here and think how unfortunate it is for hard that i can t reconcile you to home better than i am able to do i don t know what other girls know i can t play to you or sing to you i can t talk to you so as to your mind for i never see any amusing sights or read any amusing books that it would be a pleasure or a relief to you to talk about when you are tired well no more do i i am as bad as you in that respect and i am a mule too which you re not if father was de to make me either a or a mule and i am not a why it stands to reason i must be a mule and so i am said tom desperately it s a great pity said after another pause and speaking out of her dark comer it s a great pity tom it s very for both of us oh you said tom you are a girl loo and a girl out of it better than a boy does i don t miss in you you are the only pleasure i have � you can even this place � and you can always lead me as you like you are a dear brother tom and while you think i can do such things i don t so much mind knowing better though i do know better tom and am very sorry for it she came and kissed him and went back into her comer again i wish i could collect all the facts we hear so much about said tom setting his teeth and all the figures and au people who found them out and i wish i could put a thousand barrels of under them and blow them all up together however when i go to live with old i u have my revenge your revenge tom i mean i u enjoy myself a little and go about and see something and hear something i u myself for the way in which i have been brought up but don t disappoint yourself beforehand tom mr thinks as father thinks and is a great deal and not half so kind oh said tom laughing i don t mind that i shall very well know how to manage and old their shadows were defined upon the wall but those of the high presses in the room were all blended together on the wall and on the ceiling as if the brother and sister were by a dark or a fanciful imagination � if such treason could have been there � might have made it out to be hard times the shadow of their subject and of its lowering with their future what is your great mode of and managing tom is it a secret oh said tom if it is a secret it s not far off it s you you are his little pet you are his favourite he u do anything for you when he says to me what i don t like i shall say to him my sister loo will be hurt and disappointed mr she always used to tell me she was sure you would be easier with me than this that ll bring him about or nothing will after waiting for some answering remark and getting none tom wearily into the present time and himself yawning round and about the rails of his chair and his head more and more he suddenly looked up and | 8 |
endure it i am an old man and now i want to enjoy myself in my own way and my desire is to get through the last years of my life with you you can do what you please ask here you please give me a few hours of your time when i am particularly busy with my and above all let us be alone sometimes spring days after dinner so that we can turn our chairs round to the fire and talk at our ease � your affectionate uncle mount so he won t pay for a secretary and wants me to do the work that s about the meaning of that letter frank re read the letter sentence for sentence and as he read new and new expressions of scorn rose in his brain in tremulous there was scarcely a plan for the of his uncle that he did not for some fleeting moment entertain and one most letter he committed to paper but would not hear of its being sent and he was surprised and glad to see that she was not depressed or at the turn affairs had taken i can do what i like with father sally can t but i can you leave it to me what s the good of that you can t get round mount never mind we don t want to get married yet awhile we ll be engaged it is nearly the same thing we shall be able to go anywhere together � up to town if we only come back the same day write a nice letter to your uncle saying you ll do nothing without his consent that it is true your affections are very much engaged but that your first thought is of him � oh but my darling i want to make you mine so you shall � we shall be engaged father won t consent to our being married but he can t prevent us being engaged you ll see i ll get round father sooner or later he ll give in but you won t get round mount if he would only come here and see you spring days he won t do that but one of these days he ll be in london i suppose he goes to the park sometimes we ll go too you ll introduce me � a little and i ll see if i cannot get him to like me flow clever you are i understand father still it required all s to even partially reconcile mr to lord mount s letter she accepted without argument that marriage in the present circumstances was out of the question she even went so far as to cordially assent that a man would be a fool to give his daughter to a man who could not settle a substantial sum of money upon her and she only ventured to suggest that it be foolish not to give lord mount the opportunity of changing his mind she spoke of his immense fortune and exaggerated it until she made even seem a paltry creature in the old man s eyes surely he would not by any act ruin her chances and throwing her arms about him she wept and telling him a set of she involved sally in serious and averted attention from herself so the life of engagement began walking alone in of all but each other looks and gestures abundant laughter the passes beneath the foliage � the young man tall and fair his driving coat his gloves the elegance of the whip and the charming sense of intimacy with which he draws up the apron in the ball room � the colour of the flowers the beauty of the women s necks dark and bright her frank tall and insolent waiting for her by a doorway i spring days in london � victoria station the of passengers coming through the gates frank so impatient and at last catching sight of the dark eyes in the crowd � in public places in street morning performances � the six o clock express the rush and beauty of the train through fields and splendid light the woods of the south lands and in the long delicate and exquisite pressure of hands � now the green seemed to be theirs the girls coming with to see frank frank going to them swinging his sally s sympathy had been secured frank was anxious to her he returned from london with presents for her and he always spoke to her looking at her he showed much anxiety and he was worried that she must find it dull at his when they came to tea or else to an lunch he was assailed by regrets if she would only say yes he would ask him to meet her when would return sally tossed her head � she had had enough of her manner left no doubt as to her sincerity but and happening to meet a few days after in the train frank slipped easily into asking him to come and see him and in the gracious atmosphere of the the soon into intimacy and aft er a preliminary of restored her old sweetheart to all the rights and wrongs of modern henceforth life went well amid incessant secrets and tea parties grace had with them and had promised not to say a word about nor was it spring days ever ascertained whether in the of the night she had betrayed this trust or whether some jealous enemy had spoken or written to mr on the subject but certain it is that one joyful day when sally and were eating and frank was twisting the into a bottle of there came an ominous ringing at the door i wonder who that can be shut up perhaps it is father he is in london i m not so sure about that no matter � we don t want | 15 |
solemn treaty and compact between them that mr should be mute upon the subject of his love the question then was whether could trust mr and saying with a smile oh yes with whole heart it became important to find out where mr lived this didn t know and the captain had forgotten and the captain was telling walter in the little parlor that mr was sure to be there soon when in came mr himself captain said mr rushing into the parlor with out any ceremony in a state of mind on distraction mr had discharged those words as from a mortar before he observed walter whom he recognised with what may be de as a chuckle of misery you ll excuse me sir said mr holding his forehead but i m at present in that state that my brain is going if not gone and anything approaching to politeness in an individual so situated would be a hollow mockery captain i beg to request the favor of a private interview why brother returned the captain taking him by the hand you are the man as we was on the look out for oh captain said mr � what a look out that must be of which am the object i haven t dared to i m in that rash state i haven t had my clothes brushed my hair is together i told the chicken that if he offered to dean my boots i d stretch him a corpse before me all these indications of a disordered mind were in mr s appearance which was wild and savage see here brother said the captain this here s old s r him as was supposed to have perished at sea mr took his hand from his forehead and stared at walter good gracious me stammered mr what a of misery how de do i � i � i m afraid you must have got very wet captain will you allow me a word in the � shop i and son he took the captain by the coat and going out with him � then captain is the party you spoke of when you said that he and miss were made for one another why aye my lad replied the captain i was of that mind once and at this time exclaimed mr with his hand to his forehead again of all others � a hated rival at least he an t a hated rival said mr stopping short on second thoughts and taking away his hand what should i hate him for no if my affection has been truly disinterested captain let me prove it now mr shot back abruptly into the parlor and said ing walter by the hand � how e do i hope you didn t take any cold i � i shall be very glad if you ll give me the pleasure of your acquaintance i wish you many happy returns of the day upon my word and honor said mr warming as he became better acquainted with walter s face and figure i m very glad to see you thank you heartily said walter i couldn t desire a more genuine and genial welcome couldn t you though said mr still shaking his hand it s very kind of you i m much obliged to you de do i hope you everybody quite well over that is upon the � i mean wherever you came from last you know all these good wishes and better intentions walter responded to captain said mr i should wish to be strictly honorable but i trust i may be allowed now to allude to a certain subject that aye aye my lad returned the captain freely freely then captain said mr � and lieutenant � are you aware that the most dreadful circumstances have been happening at mr s house and that herself has her father who in my opinion said mr with great excitement � is a brute that it would be a and son flattery to a marble or a bird of prey � and that she is not to be found and has gone no one knows where may i ask how you heard this inquired walter lieutenant said mr who had arrived at that by a process peculiar to himself probably by up his christian name with the profession and supposing some relationship between him and the captain which would extend as a matter of course to their titles lieutenant i can have no objection to make a straightforward reply the fact is that feeling extremely interested in everything that relates to miss � not for any selfish reason lieutenant for i am well aware that the most agreeable thing i could do for all parties would be to put an end to my existence which can only be regarded as an inconvenience � i have been in the habit of a trifle now and then upon a footman a most respectable young man of the name of who has lived in the family some time and informed me yesterday evening that this was the state of things since which captain � and lieutenant i have been perfectly frantic and have been lying down on the sofa all night the ruin you behold mr said walter i am happy to be able to relieve your mind pray calm yourself miss is safe and well � sir cried mr starting from his chair and shaking hands with him anew the relief is so excessive and unspeakable that if you were to tell me that miss was married even i could smile yes captain said mr a to him upon my soul and body i really think what � ever i might do to myself immediately afterwards that i could smile i am so relieved it will be a greater relief and delight still to such a generous mind as yours said walter not at all | 8 |
through the glad silence with hope and pleasure they were alone together once again every object was bright and fresh nothing reminded them otherwise than by contrast of the monotony and they had left behind church towers and and dark at other times now shone and dazzled in the sun each humble nook and comer rejoiced in light and the sky only by excessive distance shed its placid smile on everything beneath forth from the city while it yet went the two poor wandering they knew not whither the old shop los chapter � p of tower hill and brass of mai in the city of london gentleman one of her majesty s of the courts of king s bench and common at westminster and a of the high court of on and of any a knocking at the street door often repeated and up from a modest single rap to a perfect of � red in long with a veiy short interval between caused the said daniel to struggle a position and to stare at the ceiling with a indifference that he heard the noise and rather wondered at the same but couldn t be at the trouble of any thought upon the subject as the knocking however instead of itself to his la y state increased in vigour and became more as if in earnest remonstrance against his falling asleep again now that he had once opened his eyes daniel began by degrees to comprehend the possibility of there being somebody at the door and thus he gradually came to recollect that it was friday morning and he had ordered mrs to be in waiting upon him at an early hour mr brass after about in a great many strange attitudes and often twisting his face and eyes into an expression like that which is usually produced by eating very early in the season was by this time awake also seeing that mr invested himself in his every day garments he hastened to do the like putting on his shoes before his stockings and thrusting his legs into his coat sleeves and making such other small mistakes in his toilet as are not uncommon to those who dress in a hurry and labour under the agitation of having been suddenly roused while the attorney was thus engaged the dwarf was under the table muttering desperate on thb old shop himself and mankind in general and all objects to boot which suggested to mr brass the question what s the matter the key said the dwarf looking at him the door key � that s the matter d ye know anything of it how should i know anything of it sir returned mr brass how should you repeated with a you re a nice lawyer an t you you idiot not caring to represent to the dwarf in his present that the loss of a key by another person could scarcely be said to affect his brass s legal knowledge in any material degree mr brass humbly suggested that it must have forgotten over night and was doubtless at that moment in its native key hole that mr a strong conviction to the contrary founded on his of having carefully taken it out he was fain to admit this was possible and therefore went grumbling to the where sure enough he found it now just as mr laid his hand upon the lock saw with great astonishment that the were undone the knocking came again with most violence and the daylight which had been shining through the key hole was on the outside by a human eye the dwarf was very much exasperated and wanting somebody to his ill humour upon determined to dart out suddenly and favour mrs with a gentle acknowledgment of her attention in making that hideous uproar with this view he drew back the lock very silently and and opening the door all at once out upon the person on the other side who had at that moment raised the for another application and at whom the dwarf ran head first throwing out his hands and feet together and biting the air in the of his malice so far however from rushing upon somebody who offered no resistance and implored his mercy mr was no sooner in the arms of the individual whom he had taken for his wife than he found himself with two staggering blows on the head and two more of the same quality in the chest and closing with his such a shower of rained down upon his person as te him that he was in skilful and experienced hands thb old curiosity shop nothing by this reception he clung tight to his opponent and bit and away with such good will and that it was at least a couple of minutes before he was then and not until then daniel himself all flushed and in the middle of the street with mr richard performing a kind of dance round him and requiring to know whether he wanted any more there s plenty more of it at the same shop said mr by turns advancing and retreating in a threatening attitude a large and extensive always on hand � country orders executed with and despatch � will you have a little more sir � don t say no if you d rather not i thought it was somebody else said rubbing his shoulders why didn t you say who you were why didn t you say who you were returned dick instead of flying out of the house like a it was you that � that knocked said the dwarf getting up with a short groan was it yes i am the man replied dick that lady had begun when i came but she knocked too soft so i relieved her as he said this he pointed towards mrs who stood trembling at a little distance muttered the dwarf darting an | 8 |
put in this class he had no idea in advance of his age in all but courage and military skill he appears behind his times no noble thought no lofty sentiment seems to have inspired him none such breathes in his words or deeds mr says he was not a mere but we see nothing else that can be said to distinguish him from the rest of men he was one of the most vulgar of he loved the excitement of adventurous deeds he sought vulgar fame and vulgar wealth and power by vulgar means for vulgar ends few distinguished were so he came among the red men of america they began by calling him a god and ended with him as the devil in the hot region of he was treated with great kindness his companions experienced every that could be desired from the attentions of the friendly nations they made more than a thousand for the and freely gave provisions for and his sent to learn who we were says and what we wanted for our ships we were only to tell what we wanted and they were to furnish it the indians who attached themselves to his standard were faithful of the only proved but was and he discontent he encouraged the nations to rely on his protection as he had come to their wrongs while he came to steal their possessions and their persons he told his own soldiers they were to fight against who had from their lord against the enemies of christianity to fight the battles of the cross to obtain riches and honor in this life and glory in heaven he was unjust to his own soldiers seizing more than us share of the of this than mr even the food was sometimes divided cap et al did the soldiers complain made a speech full of the most phrases and arguments most some he into silence with gold others with promises some he put in chains were the to be divided he not only selected first the king s fifth thereof and his own but the finest of the women were secretly set apart so that as one of these cap the common soldiers found only old and ugly women left for them after the spoil was divided in s conquest of this unjust fashion he would not always allow the soldiers to keep their scanty share but once demanded one third of it back again and insisted that if it were not restored he would take the whole under pretence of he a good deal from his own soldiers � a circumstance which injured him much says mr thinks such occasions were critical which all the address and personal authority of he never shrank from them but on such occasions was true to himself vol ii p but truth to himself was to his soldiers he would his word to them for the sake of more plunder much as they honored and feared him few loved him much and in one of his most trying times says the same old soldier we have often quoted they all him a handful of to stay his hunger cap was cruel this appears in the slaughter at and in the at which even mr thinks a dark stain on the memory of the his often appear wanton � he orders a man to be killed for stealing a pair of fowls another for speaking angrily to he has the feet of his pilot off for some he took fifty who came to his camp as cut off their hands and sent them home the friendly indians were curious to see the and came too near the lines of their and coolly relates that fifteen or twenty of them were shot down by the mr excuses this the jealousy of the court and the he had received from his seem to have given an unnatural to his of danger vol ii p after the conquest an took place and was speedily put down four hundred chiefs were to the stake or the by which means says god be praised the safety of the was secured he burnt alive some of s officers who were guilty of no offence but that of obeying their king at the same time he punished for giving them the order he tortured the members of s household putting boiling oil upon their feet this great to the put himself and the of to the torture � not exactly to save his soul so as by fire but to get his gold afterwards on a suspicion he hung them both mr shows little horror at these little sense s of ms of their injustice nay he seems to seek to the natural which a man feels at such tyranny of the strong over the weak we confess our astonishment that an historian tf ho thinks the desire of the heathen was the motive in the breast of no more censure to bestow on such wanton so frequently as they were the soldiers of the cross going on their mission of mercy to snatch the from the fires of hell dress the wounds of their horses with melted fat cut from the bodies of the natives they were to convert l cap mr makes no comment has the slaves with a hot iron in the cheek this more than ten times mr but twice and then has no word to bay � more than if they had been with water the at was terrible as it was needless and wanton more than three thousand of the enemy perished in ten hours says mr thia has left a dark on the memory of the that he does not intend to their cruel deeds and then to excuse this very cruelty we confess our at such an excuse vol ii � the at after the capture of the city was terrible we will not dwell | 37 |
to one merely to ease bis conscience by praying there which of these two do you think would mercy sooner ay you think sir you have me now but vm not so easy as that comes to do you forget so soon an too or may be yer � eh � well who knows � an if you should � bud in respect iv what you me at any rate in the name of goodness set you right i can tell you they d be on a par in that respect you see the of the on the one han an the of the church on the other make up what the man s heart might fall short of so that there t be a differ them an that s the use of otherwise where be the iv id is there any other deep point sir in or divinity that you wish to have cleared up indeed i did not think that your views of religion so peculiar but i will not trouble you further on that subject at present will you permit me to ask if you know father butler i beg your pardon sir for about ten i m these idle fellows of mine isn t got to their work � bud any how i have two or three to say every monday an thursday at time an this is just the hour sir for ye see the sun s now on the third pane of the windy so that i must be at it how an i won t keep you long so saying he went into his own house and the next moment appeared in the tree with a long pair of beads in his hands he then dropped instantly on his knees before a large wooden nailed to the tree which i had not observed saints t a time ago in ireland father before like every other prayed aloud and felt not the slightest degree of shyness in doing so before me on the contrary he went through his with that confidence in their merit which not only gives a so high an opinion of his own but such a very contemptuous one of every person who not as many prayers as himself he had not been many minutes however in the tree when i heard him in the midst of the prayer shout with a most voice very well very well that s a fine way you re the turf an you you great isn t it a fine way yer the time between i must pay wages an give for this � an well ye both ye idle he then resumed his prayer whilst his eye was passing from place to place to see that every man was employed in the course of a few minutes he again i say take an put the an on that mule that s herself in the craft and help tim to draw home them rough heads x we ll soon want them for the to the he then resumed as before and began to finger the beads as if he were paid for reckoning them by the hundred a few minutes before his descent he called out to a boy who was driving out the cows that had been to pasture will ye back don t you see that she s sick ye blind bud drive her to the wan side first there s red headed ye � to the wan side with her till the unlucky thief passes he then got through two or three more � tackle f x a kind of turf � father butler descended by the window as before and the next moment was with me in the garden well said i if i had not seen you practise this species of devotion in the tree i could scarcely have believed that a man would select such a situation for prayer � indeed sir i m now so used to id that i would rather pray there than any place else but an idle pack of fellows about me here an so many prayers to say that i declare it sir i never both on some plan like this � oh ho thought i the secret is out he s no after all it is to watch the that honest the tree and for no spiritual confidence that he puts in the situation although i should not feel surprised from what i have seen of him if that notion too influenced him i now came directly to the object of my visit said i do you know father butler the young clergyman who lives here in our neighbourhood do i know im is id said he looking with one eye shut very into my face � an may i make in a civil way to ax your fur that same i assure you said i i have no particular reason except a wish to become acquainted with him and why sir still in a civil way i mane you wish to get him because i think an interesting intelligent young man i replied � and because i m told there s something peculiar if not affecting in his history he again looked into my face and seemed not only cautious and inquisitive but suspicious and dissatisfied hum � an who sent you to me sir submission to any thing about father butler it was tom i answered one of my who told me whatever i have heard about mr butler and directed me to you well father butler sir hot you an ill go back to tom the d that hasn t an iv sense an tell im me that he s as much about father butler as i do an tell im too if ye that neither iv is s any thing to if i certainly felt offended at his and the evident of his manner but i perceived that | 50 |
endurance upon herself and takes refuge in or certain it is that when the last few searching yet illuminated moments of his interview with his wife were over philip fell into a condition of singular mental he was still conscious it is true of being bowed down by the weight of a heavy but his perception of the extent of that became indistinct his sense of the situation was his misery was no longer active full of force and energy but dull and slow as the sob of the dying storm when the morning breaks dim and sullen over sea and wreck strewn shore where the tempest beat out the madness of its fury through the long night he went back to his room sat down near the open window and stared with sad fixed eyes out over the lawn � on which and to and fro searching for worms in the moist grass � to the meadow with its great chestnut trees that raised their ragged branches towards the i blue grey sky exhausted with excitement and his night of watching the colonel after a brief period of semi consciousness slept he dreamed that he stood once more in the glaring italian sunshine on the terrace of the villa in her simple light cotton dress was beside him � brilliant merry her arms full of great red roses she wanted something which he was powerless to give her and and pleaded with him i pretty laughing fashion � and then somehow the the final reward � scene changed she had got monkey in her arms instead of the roses she was going up a cold wide white marble staircase which seemed to stretch up and up far out of sight nd philip followed her always just a few steps behind he strained every nerve to get nearer to her called to her implored her to wait for him but still she flitted on lightly in front always just out of his reach while the monkey looking over her shoulder grinned and pointed at him philip was faint and terribly weary he could not move fast and she got farther and farther ahead sometimes she looked back smiling gaily seeming half inclined to stop her soft rounded cheek lying against the monkey s brown one in hideous � and all the while the stairs stretched on for ever and ever philip was driven forward by a necessity to overtake the girl to clasp her to him to hold and keep her he was very very � it was impossible hopeless suddenly there came a great sound of rushing water flung back a high massive door that loomed up in front of her opening on to vast spaces of drifting gloom and full of shapes the monkey s face had changed into a mail s now which philip knew and yet did not know � he had seen it somewhere but he was sick with fruitless effort and bewildered � he could not remember where he called aloud to once more desperately wildly but she neither stayed nor answered the door swung to behind her with a and she and the thing she carried fled away and vanished in the driving mist with his arms outstretched the sound of the closing door in his � and the cry on his lips � lost lost philip awoke in this work a day world high romance only to visit us at intervals between we have to deal with plain vulgar matters which we shall reckon an or a relief according to our humour the first thing that met philip s distracted gaze when he opened his eyes was the face of as that entered the room carrying a luncheon tray shall i bring it to you there sir or will you come across to the fire he asked quietly the transition of thought seemed to philip too in his present state of agitation and excitement he put out his hand with a sharp movement of oh put it where you like i don t want anything he said however was not disposed to take an refusal of this kind he drew up a table and put the tray oh it neatly setting the glasses in order and turning out the corners of the white k colonel s wife it s past two o clock quite time you had something said with a touch of respectful authority the colonel shook his head in disgust i can t eat they say a man makes a good breakfast when he s going to be hung but it s too much to expect him to have an appetite when he s in bent down and poured some brandy into a with careful i d give my right hand gladly to see you out of this colonel he said and his hard voice trembled philip looked away over the quiet garden he stood too sorely in need of human sympathy just then to be able to reject any that came to him i believe you would � and i am grateful to you you ve been the best servant to me a man ever had for years but you will never see me out of this except one way it was a little time before answered you must eat sir all the same he said presently there s no gain i can see in starving food which brought back a measure of physical strength brought with it a renewed capacity of mental suffering for so long every thought and aim of philip s existence had in his wife in her happiness her amusements and and now it was all over between them his mind seemed a blank the present was incomprehensible the future inconceivable he felt as one who has lost a limb the brain still sends out its message but instead of the answering movement there is only the weary ache of severed nerve and muscle � | 32 |
had received had his soul and he was a willing servant ready for a smile from his m to perform with barbarous fidelity the duties of his office seizing by the arm he pulled off his shirt and led him to the tree the last ray of hope had expired in the soul of his blood at the thought of being by watch and wait oe whipped he was not stirred by the emotions which disturb a free child with a in prospect he not at the pain he not at proper and wholesome punishment this was the of the slave it was the emblem of his the blows were the which the master upon his his soul was free while his body was in chains and it v as his soul rather than his body that was to be the thought was madness his blood boiled with indignation with horror and with the tide of despair in upon his spirit and overwhelmed him he resolved not to be whipped and when long tom turned away to the he sprang like an through the group of spectators and ran with all the speed he could command towards the river perhaps it was a mistake on the part of but it was the noblest impulse of his nature which prompted him to resist the unjust sentence that had been passed upon him he ran and desperation gave him the wings of the wind but he had his chances if he had considered them at all for the by a he young swift horse of the was tied to a stake near the dead oak he had been riding over the estate when returned from green point with the story of the blows which had been inflicted upon him colonel leaped upon his horse the instant he realized the purpose of the and before had accomplished half the distance to the river the overtook him he rode the horse directly upon him and if the intelligent beast had not been kinder than his rider the story of poor might have ended here as it was he was simply thrown down and before he could rise and recover himself the had dismounted and seized him by the arm so deeply had the prejudices of his condition been in his mind that the thought of blows upon the sacred person of his master did not occur to him if he had dared to fight as he had the strength and the energy to fight he might still have escaped colonel was an awful presence to him and he yielded up his purpose without a struggle to carry it out the swore at him with a fury which by watch and wait or chilled his blood and struck him several smart blows with his riding whip as the of what he was still to undergo � now back to the tree said colonel as he mounted his horse again had given up all hope now and he marched to the post as the condemned criminal walks to the he had advanced but a short distance before he met the other spectators to his doom and long tom seized him by the wrist and held him with an iron till they reached the dead oak tie him up quick tom said colonel it has been more work to this young than a dozen full grown long tom fastened the around s wrists and passed them through a band around the tree about ten feet from the ground he then the victim up till his toes scarcely touched the earth now lay them on well said the how many asked tom as he the long lash of his whip by l tub tragedy at the dead oak page by by the young lay on till i say stop s flesh quivered but ms spirit shrunk than his body from the of the slave master s the lash fell across his back � his back as white as that of any who read this page the blood from the wound which the cruel lash inflicted but not a word or a groan escaped from the pallid lips of the sufferer a dozen blows fell and though the flesh was terribly the of the soul was deeper and more severe stop said colonel long tom promptly obeyed the he evidently had no feeling about the brutal job and there was no sign of joy or sorrow in his countenance from first to last if he felt at all his experience had effectually him in the difficult art of concealing his emotions take him down added the who as he gazed upon the torn and flesh of the victim seemed to feel that the had washed away the offence during the punishment master had be by watch and wait oe no small degree of emotion and before the driver had struck the sixth blow he had asked his father in a whisper to stay the hand of the negro he had several times repeated the request but colonel was till the crime had in his opinion been fully long tom the and the body of the dropped to the ground as though the vital spark had for ever fled from its de boy fainted said the driver i see he has replied the with some evidence of emotion in his tones as he bent over the prostrate form of the boy to ascertain if more was not done than had been intended he felt the pulse of and satisfied himself that he was not dead we must do him the justice to say that he was sorry for what had happened � sorry as a kind parent is when to punish a dear child he did not believe that he had done wrong even accepting as true the statement of the for the safety of the master and by the young his family made it necessary for him to regard | 36 |
more let him go i ll give you twenty five cents if you will the who had to open his heart very wide to make this liberal offer of of fortune ok he is going to jail if there is such an institution in these parts replied til give you fifty cents if you ll let him go pleaded mr if you would give me fifty thousand dollars i wouldn t let him go replied the steward do you think i would sell my own soul for money with the revolver in his right hand felt in all the pockets of his prostrate enemy for dangerous weapons bat he found none now get up said he dock obeyed in momentary fear that one of the pistol balls would be spinning through his head do you where mr s house is continued he i do replied dock then march and if you turn to the right or the left or attempt any irregular proceeding i promise you on the honor of mr c that i will give you the benefit of every bullet this pistol contains six in number by actual count forward dock marched in the direction indicated he could not help doing so bitter as the necessity was mr half bound the world followed begging and pleading with all his eloquence and even offering as high as a dollar for the release of his mend tt old man return to your humble abode and give up your weary frame to the arms of said when his patience was exhausted in other words venerable sir go home and go to bed the was terribly stricken by the sudden misfortune of dock not from sympathy but because it the loss of the money the prisoner owed him it is possible that he had some fear of being before the courts if he had it was by the greater dread of losing his money he could not willingly return and it was only when the steward threatened him with the terrible pistol that he did so walked about six feet behind his victim till he came to mr s house and then directed him to go up to the side door ring the bell said the steward in the stern tones of command see here steward can t we arrange this thing replied dock turning to his of fortune or tt ring the bell we ll arrange it in the court dock rang the bell little did the father and mother of sleep while she was away from them and they heard the bell the first time it was rung who s there called mr from a window sir replied the steward in the of tones there s a gentleman here to see you sir i will be down in a moment and presently a light appeared in the dining room walk in said mr opening the door walk in repeated in stern tones dock followed the merchant into the dining room closely attended by his guard exclaimed mr when he turned to see who his midnight visitor was yes sir replied the steward you will pardon me for bringing him here sir but i did not know what else to do with him where is my daughter demanded the merchant earnestly she is on her way to replied dock j half round the world who was now beginning to recover his self possession and to measure the consequences of his misfortune i beg to suggest mr that his reply is a wretched falsehood interposed the steward i heard him tell mr that his vessel wasn t a great ways from new york in the latitude of new york i meant merely mr this man is making a mess of it for you i made my demand of you by letter give me the money and your daughter shall be restored if you don t you will never see her again whatever may happen to me said dock not a dollar not a penny replied mr with emphasis very well mr you will discover your mistake soon enough added dock we want an officer and a pair of said mr can you keep him while i procure assistance i can answered confidently as he displayed his pistol of fortune ob mr called his two men and sent one of them for who was the only officer available at that hour of the night he came and the villain was the and the steward kept guard over him till morning half bound the world chapter off sandy hook did not learn that the great enemy had been captured till he went up in the morning to relieve the steward but the news was spreading rapidly and it came to his ear before he reached his station he hastened to the house of mr where and the steward still kept over the fallen foe the officer evidently did not relish his employment but mr c had proved that he was a first class tiger as well as an exquisite of the first water mr had another interview with the wretch as soon as arrived but dock was as obstinate v as a mule he took no pains to conceal the fact that he enjoyed the distress of the suffering father and the intense anxiety of the prisoner was to be examined before squire during of fortune or the and it was hoped that some development of the plan of the would be obtained by the morning train came mr the steamer sent in pursuit of the had returned to boston in the night of course she had not seen or heard of the vessel which had gone through sound while the steamer followed the track of ships bound round the cape of good hope has he been searched asked mr when he had reported the result of his mission to his employer no i proposed it to mr but he declined to do it 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she need not hint at if she does not want to be hinted at and besides i won t s trunk she steal mamma s cape indeed i i would trust her with all the gold in the world why don t you your own trunk blushed deeply and said she had rather not threw up both hands and looking at mrs exclaimed mon est il possible no it is not possible retorted and fired by ad le s against her favourite she caught the by which s key was suspended and unlocked the trunk on the top lay a pencil sketch of charles that he had the sunday before given to grasped k and held it up to trembling embarrassment begged her to give it to her and while a little contest ensued between them ad le casting ever and anon stolen glances at mrs proceeded in her it was a short piece of work there was something in the neatness and order with which our humble aud ut friend s scanty stores were arranged that have appealed even to ad heart if she had not been intent on self you must excuse me she said as she shook out s and her stockings i only serve you as i serve me myself � it is nearly finished and then as me you will be tranquil � one thing more and we have done � mad t she took the last article a cotton from the bottom of the trunk unfolded and shook it the cape fell from within it there was a general exclamation ad e s mon mon drowned every other after the first burst of surprise mrs seemed entirely occupied with examining a tear in the cape which her pleasure in her recovered property a pleasure that otherwise would have engrossed her to the of all emotion at the discovery of such guilt in an apparently innocent young creature for in her eyes was but a little servant girl a species of the human with whom she had about as much sympathy as with the bees and the whom she fancied were created solely to make honey for the table and spin silk for ladies to wear oh how could you how could exclaimed and grieved was near fainting and pale as death s exclamation brought the colour to her face and tears and voice to her relief i did not take the cape she said i don t know how it came into my trunk � ad e must know i oh mon mon listen madame you have never seen one such bold one false yon not when she wished not her examined � did you not see her and tremble � did she not turn pale as one guilty person when the cape dropped � and now she accuse me s ah c est un quite shocking indeed responded mrs faintly her eyes still fixed on the rent in her cape do you could dam this so it not show f i believe not madame k she had only stolen it and not torn it resumed mrs i could haye forgiven but she really does deserve the ad le bad as she was started from such a consequence and affecting to pity she said she is very young the mamma exclaimed shall not go to the � i will ask papa � he will be home before dinner � she shall not go to the if she is ever so guilty s distress was increased by her embarrassment as to what it was best for her to say or do her faculties were stunned she almost lost the sense of her identity she felt alone helpless and exposed to judgment without mercy s affection touched the springs of her heart and as she afterward said first sent her thoughts to the place and that having breathed a silent trust in him who in darkness as well as in light she felt more composed still the tears poured over her cheeks and little who sat on her lap put up his hand and wiped off first one cheek and then the other then put up hia to and � st i kiss ber and finding all did not do he too burst into tears and hid his face on her bosom become of me thought folding her arms round the little fellow i will do what i can for you and after a little consideration she resolved that she would if possible remain in the house till mr s arrival and reserve her statement at his ear in the mean time ad e whispered to her mistress and both retired for a few moments in that interval ad le strongly urged sending immediately off without other punishment than loss of character and loss of place if she urged � she stays till mr arrives she will frame her own story � she will put everything upon mr will believe her � men always believe a very pretty young girl against one who has the misfortune to be not young � will be left without any french servant and that dear angel master would speak english first just a� the young ladies bed convinced by these precious arguments mrs returned to the nursery and announced to that she must leave the house within an hour entreated that she might be permitted to stay till evening and her entreaties and then declared she should not go till papa came her mother s decision only made her more vehement till to her that if she cared for she had best let her go at once for all the servants knew what had happened and no one could say how soon a might be in the house this roused the common childish terrors of an officer of justice and she now urged to hasten her x false appearances however reserved to abide all risks that of leaving before his | 6 |
fire � his features brought out into full relief by the flickering shadows � his complexion brightened by the glowing light and his full and well turned neck all appeared to the best possible advantage his mother leaned over him with an expression of great fondness and pleasure in her countenance and then kissed his forehead saying half aloud oh my dear boy i wish you could love your mother half as much as she loves you she then arose and went out into the yard and brought in after of wood until she had made quite a pile by the chimney corner she her fire moved her wheel back a little way and then brought some knitting work from a little box or trunk under the bed where it had been concealed it was a she had conceived the plan some time before of knitting a pair the mother s wakes up the wood of intending to keep it a profound secret from him until they were finished so as to surprise him she had been accordingly for a week very busy in all the odd moments she could get when was out of sight and late in the evenings after her day s work done and he had gone to bed in pushing on her knitting and now all was done but one thumb when she found therefore that was sound asleep and the wood was all in she thought it would be a fine time to finish the the large fresh of wood which she had put upon the fire soon began to and sing and the ends of her needles commenced their rapid she sat in a reverie building castles in the air in her imagination grew up into a man and bought a farm and cultivated spacious fields and raised stock and she sat in her by his chimney corner and found a delightful employment in taking care of bright and happy whose ages and sexes she was just upon when drew a long sigh extended back his head and opened his eyes in short brought to an end both her dreams and his own she was just off the thumb but she had the presence of mind to clap her work behind her she spoke to asking him whether he had had a good nap answered rather and sat up and looked into the fire in a short time his faculties and his good nature gradually returned and he asked his mother how the bear skin came under him i put it down for you said she and look there she added with a smile pointing to the wood she had brought in there was certainly a sort of smile on s face at seeing the wood though there was very little affection or gratitude in the expression of it he only said i am sure lam glad i have not got any wood to bring in the self convicted mother the secret is dissatisfied with the wrong his mother talked with him a few minutes hesitating whether to bring forward his or not they were not really finished but then five minutes would finish them and she could not resist the temptation to see how pleased he would be so she said with an arch look after a moment s pause i have got a secret what is it said with an air of indifference his mother drew out the unfinished from behind her with the needles still attached to the tip of the thumb and held it up what is it said it is a said she it is for you and the other is all done got up and moved slowly toward his mother saying with a dissatisfied tone i don t believe it is large enough for me oh i rather think it is large enough said she and holding it open for him try it on pushed in his hand with an expression of reluctant and selfish pleasure on his countenance at seeing that it fitted exactly his mother paused looking upon the covered hand with a smile and expecting s expressions of satisfaction but he coldly said what did you have a green in it for mother i should like blue a great deal better why she replied mournfully pulling off the i took a great deal of pains to make these for you i am sorry you don t like them any better the grieved and disappointed mother could hardly finish her sentence she felt the tears coming fast into her eyes and rose put the in the chair and turned away to the back side of the room she struggled against her feelings as well as she could she went and looked out at the head s mother s disappointment and grief a stranger window then came back and stood by the fire and finally commanded composure enough to say to in a tolerably voice that it was about time for him to go to bed felt a little conscience smitten and besides that he was somewhat sleepy so he took up his bear skin up the ladder to the above and disappeared the loose boards yielding and rattling under his tread his mother sank down into her chair by the fire rested her elbows upon her knees and her face in her hands and burst into tears a moment afterward she thought she heard the distant of bells she raised her head to listen yes there were certainly bells coming up the road she went to the window and finding that the sound was approaching nearer she watched a moment and presently saw emerging from the woods a horse followed by a with one and perhaps two persons in it the sky was but the moon gave sufficient light through the clouds to enable her to see this in a moment more the passed beyond her view as it moved on toward the front of | 22 |
glowing deserts of africa shining in silvery and arid desolation the broad green belt of the atlantic now itself and then appears the deeper green of this immense luxuriant forest america with the achievements of three centuries of advancing struggling civilization barely to dot its eastern border and hardly in extent those in its which nature or rather the red man s annual has through many ages to hollow out by from amid the all embracing foliage shine forth with steady radiance with deep serenity the mirror hints toward like of the great lakes � the last surpassing in size and beauty � the slender threads of the father of waters and his far stretching are seen whose has known no parallel since while farther on the tremendous chains of the the rocky mountains heave up their and rugged sides through the surrounding seas of as if in grim and haughty defiance to the utmost fury of the lightning and the or in scornful exultation over the crouching world at their feet soon the broad placid surface of the vast pacific presents itself sprinkled with of deepest where flowers bloom and still the earth rolls on and every hour shall bring to view fresh to awaken the soul to a consciousness of the infinite to the of piety and the glory of the great supreme yet beyond doubt the central figure of this vast of creation around which all other and cluster and is man he is the genius � the lord of the it is his presence which gives significance and interest to the landscape which and beauty above and decay not in laughing nor rippling not in broad blue lakes nor foaming � not even in these vast forests with their depths their waving swelling expanse of surface their changing so green and now so golden � not in these � in any or all of them � does the soul of nature find utterance on no wild mountain or lone would the spirit gaze dwell with clinging earnestness but on the scenes of man s earliest most momentous with nature with destiny or with his own blinding evil passions � on the narrow where th the gathered might of a continent � the battle field where a world was lost and won � aa the solitude wherein rome human life over th fading wreck of her grandeur and her power or the wintry desolation wherein gray haired amid the ruins of her once towers and temples � the ashes of her self trampled into her brow by the iron heel of sixty generations of through all circumstances all events this truth presents itself that man s being is the essential fact his spirit the imparted vitality of the world human life how inspiring how boundless the theme sadly wildly has the poet sung of it � calmly has the historian traced its � earnestly gravely have the priest and the sage exposed and its errors from the birth of the race the nurse s story it � the scholar s � the s and from the cradle over which the young mother with a novel sensation of wondering delight to the around which all are melted in the brotherhood of a common sorrow this life of ours is a marvel and a poem are we in the country from that low cottage a youth is going forth with lofty heart to do and dare on the great battle field of manly adventure he has given ear to a father s counsel he has knelt to receive a mother s blessing he has smiled at the fears and regrets expressed by younger or hearts around him for a sanguine spirit him on and he sees already fortune and honors awaiting him in the distant city to which his eager footsteps tend not till the hour of parting has come and passed does he feel how heavy the chain he who � goes forth for years from all he loves on earth � not till the stately elms which the dear spot have waved their last mute adieu to his backward glances � not till the stream which was the companion of his boyish bent away from his rigid course and buried itself among the wooded hills does he feel that he has shaken hints toward like of the great lakes � the last surpassing in size and beauty � the slender threads of the father of waters and his far stretching are seen whose has known no parallel since while farther on the tremendous chains of the the rocky mountains heave up their and rugged sides through the surrounding seas of as if in grim and haughty defiance to the utmost fury of the lightning and the or in scornful exultation over the crouching world at their feet soon the broad placid surface of the vast pacific presents itself sprinkled with of deepest where flowers bloom and still the earth rolls on and every hour shall bring to view fresh to awaken the soul to a consciousness of the infinite to the of piety and the glory of the great supreme yet beyond doubt the central figure of this vast of creation around which all other and cluster and is man he is the genius � the lord of the it is his presence which gives significance and interest to the landscape which and beauty above and decay not in laughing nor rippling not in broad blue lakes nor foaming � not even in these vast eternal forests with their depths their waving swelling expanse of surface their changing so green and now so not in these � in any or all of them � does the soul of nature find utterance on no wild mountain or lone would the spirit gaze dwell with clinging earnestness but on the scenes of man s earliest most momentous with nature with destiny or with his own blinding evil passions � | 19 |
season his majesty king george the third was present with all the and royal while upwards of three of the general nobility and other persons of distinction were also in the town at the time carriages and other were arriving every minute from london and elsewhere and when among the rest a shabby stage coach came in by a by route along the coast from and drew up at a second rate tavern it attracted comparatively little notice from this dusty vehicle a man alighted left his small quantity of luggage temporarily at the office and walked along the street as if to look for lodgings he was about forty five � possibly fifty � and wore a long coat of faded cloth with a heavy collar and a up he seemed to desire obscurity but the display appeared presently to strike him and he asked of a rustic he met in the street what was going on his accent being that of one to whom english was difficult the looked at him with a slight surprise and said is here and his royal the stranger inquired if they were going to stay long don t know sir same as they always do i suppose how long is that till some time in october they ve come here every since eighty nine stranger moved onward down st thomas street and approached the bridge over the harbour that then as now connected the old town with the more modem portion the spot was swept a committee man op the terror with the rays of a low sun which lit up the harbour and shone under the brim of the man s hat and into his eyes as he looked westward against the radiance figures were crossing in the opposite direction to his own among them this lady of my mother s later acquaintance v she was the daughter of a good old french family and at that date a pale woman twenty eight or thirty years of age tall and elegant io figure but plainly dressed and wearing that evening she said a small muslin shawl crossed over the bosom in the fashion of the time and tied behind at sight of his face which as she used to tell us was distinct in the peering sunlight she could not help giving a little shriek of horror for a terrible reason connected with her history and after walking a few steps further she sank down against the of the bridge in a fainting fit in his the foreign gentleman had hardly noticed her but her strange immediately attracted his attention he quickly crossed the picked her up and carried her into the first op adjoining the bridge explaining that she was a lady who had been taken ill outside she soon revived but clearly much puzzled her perceived that she still had a dread of him which was to hinder her complete recovery of self command she spoke in a quick and nervous way to the asking him to call a coach this the did v and the stranger remaining in constrained silence while he was gone the coach came up and giving the man the address she entered it and drove away who is that lady said the newly arrived gentleman she s of your nation as i should make bold to suppose said the and he told the other that she was v at general s in the same town a committee man op the terror i you have many foreigners here the stranger inquired yes though mostly but since the peace they are learning french a good deal in genteel society and french are rather in demand yes i teach it said the visitor i am looking for a in an academy the information given by the to the frenchman seemed to explain to the latter nothing of his s conduct � which indeed was the case � and he left the shop taking his course again over the bridge and along the south to the old rooms inn where he engaged a thoughts of the woman who had betrayed such agitation at sight of him lingered naturally enough with the though as i stated not less than thirty years of age v one of his own nation and of highly refined and delicate appearance had kindled a singular interest in the middle aged gentleman s breast and her large dark eyes as they had opened and shrunk from wm exhibited a pathetic beauty to which hardly any man could have been insensible the next day having written some letters he went out and made known at the office of the town guide and of the newspaper that a teacher of french and had arrived leaving a card at the s to the same effect he then walked on but at length inquired the way to general s at the door without giving his name he asked to see v and was shown into a little back parlour where she came to him with a gaze of my god why do you intrude here she gasped in french as soon as she saw his face you were taken ill yesterday i helped you you might have been run over if i had not picked you up it was an act of simple humanity certainly but i thought i might come to ask if you had recovered hi i n a committee man op the terror she had aside and had scarcely heard a word of his speech i hate you infamous man i she said i cannot bear your helping me go away but you are a stranger to me i know you too well you have the advantage then i am a here i never have seen you before to my knowledge and i certainly do not could not hate you are you not b he i am � in paris he said but here i am | 45 |
now taken such a shape with him as could not long continue if improvement was not to be looked for nature could only for a limited time maintain this dark and warfare against the world and itself we are not informed whether any continuance of years was at this period probable for burns whether his death is to be looked on as in some sense an accidental event or only as the natural consequence of the long series of events that had preceded the latter seems to be the opinion and yet it is by no means a certain one at all events as we have said some change could not be very distant three gates of it seems to us were open for clear poetical activity madness or death the first with longer life was still possible though not probable for physical causes were beginning to be concerned in it and yet had an iron resolution could he but have seen and felt that not only his highest glory but his first duty and the true medicine for all his woes lay the second was still less probable for his mind was ever among the and so the third gate was opened for him and vol i s miscellaneous he passed not yet speedily into that still where the and fir � how rs do not reach and tbe heaviest laden at length lays down his load contemplating this sad end of and how he sank hy any real help hy any wise sympathy generous minds have sometimes figured to themselves with a sorrow that much might have been done for him that by counsel true and friendly ke might have been saved to himself and the we question whether there is not more tenderness of heart n of judgment in these suggestions it to us whether the richest wisest most benevolent individual ii ould have lent burns any effectual help counsel which seldom any one he did not need in hm understanding he knew the right from the wrong as well perhaps as any man ever did but the persuasion which would have availed him lies not so in the head m� in ihe heart wh re no or have ed much to it as to money again we do not really believe that this was his essential want or weu see how any private man could even s consent have bestowed on him an independent fortune with much prospect of decisive advantage it is a truth that two men in any rank of ty could hardly be found virtuous enough to give money and to take it as a necessary gift without injury to the moral of one or both but so stands the fact friendship in the old heroic sense of that term no longer exists except in the of kindred or other legal it is in reality no longer expected or recognised as a virtue among men a close observer of manners has pronounced patronage that is pecuniary or other to be twice cursed him that gives and him that takes and burns thus in regard to outward matters also it has become the rule as in regard to inward it always was and must be the rule that no one shall look for effectual help to another but that each shall rest contented with what help he can himself such we say is the principle of modem honor naturally growing out of that sentiment of pride which we and encourage as the basis of our whole social morality many poet has been poorer than but no one was ever we may question whether without great precautions even a from would not have and more than actually assisted him still less therefore are we disposed to join with another class of s admirers who accuse the higher ranks among us of having ruined by their selfish neglect of him we have stated our doubts whether direct pecuniary help had it been offered would have been or could have proved very effectual we readily admit however that much was to be done for that many a poisoned arrow might have been from his bosom many an in his path cut asunder by the hand of the powerful and light and heat shed on him from high places would have made his humble atmosphere more genial and the heart then breathing might have lived and died with some fewer pangs nay we shall grant further and for it is much that with all his pride he would have thanked even with exaggerated gratitude any one who had cordially him patronage unless cursed needed not to have been twice so at all events the poor promotion he desired in his calling might have been granted it was his own scheme therefore than any other to be of service all this it might have been a luxury nay it was a duty for our nobility to have done no part of all this however did s miscellaneous writings any of them do or apparently attempt or wish to do so much is granted against them but what then is the amount of their simply that they were men of the world and walked by the principles of such men that they treated as other and other had done other poets as the english did as king charles and his did butler as king philip and his did do men gather grapes of thorns or shall we cut down our thorns for yielding only a and how indeed could the nobility and gentry of his native land hold out any help to this bard proud of his name and country were the nobility and gentry so much as able rightly to help themselves had they not their game to preserve their interests to strengthen dinners therefore of various kinds to eat and give were their means more than adequate to all this business or less than adequate less than adequate | 37 |
pan was grating horribly on my nerves i not collect ray thoughts clutching the if for support � and i confess the with � it put my teeth on edge � i d a hot cooking range to the offending it and it securely into the coal box the cook grinned at my exhibition of nerves and into my band a steaming with an ere this ll fc good it was a mess � ship s coffee � ta the beat of it was between cf the � staff i glanced down at my raw and bleeding and turned to the the sea wolf thank you mr i said but don t you think your measures were rather heroic it was because he understood the reproof of my rather than of my words that he held up his palm for inspection it was remarkably i passed my hand over the and my teeth went on edge once more from the horrible sensation produced my name i not he said in very good though slow english with no more than a shade of accent to it there was mild protest in his pale blue and withal a timid frankness and that quite won me to him thank you mr johnson i corrected and reached out my hand for his he hesitated awkward and shifted his from one leg to the other then hand in a hearty shake j have you any dry clothes i may put on i asked the cook yes sir he answered with cheerful alacrity � il run down an a look over my if you ve no tions sir to my things he out of the door or glided rather a swiftness and of gait that struck me as being not so much cat like as in fact this or as i was later to learn was probably the expression of his personality and where am i i asked johnson whom i and rightly to be one of the sailors what vessel k this and where is she bound off the heading about sou west he the as though groping for best and rigidly observing the order of my ne the bound sail t aad who u the captain i must see him as soon as un looked puzzled and embarrassed he hesitated � be in his and framed a complete er the cap n � wolf or so men call him l� ner beard his other name but you better speak soft � ith him he is mad this morning the mate � bu be did not finish the cook had glided in better yer out of ere he said t k ou man n be yer on deck an this t � y fall foul of im turned to the door at the same over the cook s shoulder me with an solemn and wink as though to remark and the need for mc to be soft b captain over the cook s arm was a loose and d � my of evil looking and sour smelling garments � they was put aw y wet sir he vouchsafed but you ll ave to make them do til yours the fire to the staggering with the roll of the hip and aided by the cook i managed to slip on the instant my li w is and crawling from the harsh contact � � my involuntary and � t only yer don t ever ave to get used to such as ite in this life you ve got a soft skin that l the sea wolf you ave more like a s than any i know of i well sure you was a gentleman as soon as i ad eyes on yer i had taken a dislike to him at first and as be helped to dress me this dislike increased there was something repulsive about his touch i shrank from his hand my flesh and between this and the smells arising from various pots boiling and on the fire i was in haste to get out into the fresh air further there was the n ed of seeing the captain about what arrange ments could be made for getting me ashore a cheap cotton shirt with collar and a bosom with what i took to be ancient blood was put on me amid a running and fire of comment a pair of workman s my feet and for trousers i was furnished with a pair of pale blue one leg of which was fully ten inches shorter than the other the leg looked as though the devil had there clutched for the s soul and missed the shadow for the substance and whom have i to thank for this kindness i asked when i stood completely arrayed a tiny boy s cap on my head and for coat a dirty striped cotton jacket which ended at the small of my back and the sleeves of which reached just below my elbows the cook drew himself up in a humble fashion a on his face out of my experience with on the atlantic at the end of the voyage i could have sworn he was waiting for his tip from my fuller knowledge of the creature i now know that the posture was unconscious an hereditary no doubt was responsible sir he his features the sea wolf i greasy smile sir an at t thomas i said i shall not forget you � are dry bt his face and bis eyes as in the of his being his ancestors ed and stirred with dim memories of former lives sir be said very gratefully and very ed in tbe way that the door slid back he slid stepped out on deck i was still weak from d a puff of wind caught me and across the moving deck to a comer of the ch i clung for support tbe from the perpendicular was bowing and pacific roll | 21 |
to you dearest in all sincerity old pretty by this time had looked round puzzled and seeing two people crouching under her where by custom there should have been only one lifted her hind she is she doesn t know what we mean � she ll kick over the milk exclaimed gently striving to free herself her eyes concerned with the s actions her heart more deeply concerned with herself and she slipped up from her seat and they stood his arm still her s eyes fixed on distance began to fill why do you cry my darling he said o � i don t know die murmured as she saw and felt more clearly the position she was in she became agitated and tried to withdraw well i have betrayed my feeling at last said he with a sigh of desperation op the d that his heart had his judgment that i � love you dearly and truly i need not say but i � it shall go no further now � it you � i am as surprised as you are you will not think i have upon your � been too quick and will you n � i can t teu he had allowed her to free herself and in a minute or two the of each was resumed nobody had beheld the of the two into one and when the came round by that nook a few minutes later there was not a sign to reveal that the pair were more to each other than mere acquaintance yet in the interval since s last view of them something had which changed the of the universe for their two natures something which had he known its quality the would have despised as a practical man yet which was based upon a more stubborn and tendency than a whole heap of so called a veil had been aside the tract of each one s outlook was to have a new horizon � f or a short time or for a long end op phase the third phase tee fourth the consequence tee tee consequence xxv restless went out into the dusk when evening drew on she who had won him having retired to her chamber the night was as as the day there was no coolness after dark cm the grass roads garden paths the house fronts the walls were warm as and reflected the temperature into the s face he sat on the east gate of the yard and knew not what to of himself feeling had indeed smothered judgment that day since the sudden embrace three hours before the twain had kept apart she seemed almost alarmed at what had occurred while the novelty mastery of circumstance him � being that he was he could hardly realize their true relations to each other as yet and what their mutual bearing should be before third parties angel had come as pupil to this in the idea that his temporary existence here was to be the merest episode in his life soon passed through and early forgotten he had come as to a place from which as from a he could view the absorbing world without and it with op the d crowds of men and women attired in the usual how curious you are to me i � resolve upon a plan for into that world anew but behold the absorbing scene had been imported hither what had been the world had dissolved into an uninteresting outer dumb show while here in this apparently dim and place novelty had started up as it had never for him started up elsewhere every window of the house being open could hear across the yard each trivial of the retiring household that house so humble so insignificant so purely to him a place of constrained that he had never hitherto deemed it of sufficient importance to be as an object of any quality whatever in the landscape what was it now the aged and brick breathed forth stay the windows smiled the door and beckoned the blushed a personality within it was so far reaching in her influence as to spread into and make the bricks mortar and whole overhanging sky throb with a sensibility whose was this mighty personality a s it was amazing indeed to find how great a matter the life of the obscure had become to him and though new love was to be held partly responsible for this it was not solely so many besides angel have learnt that the magnitude of lives is not as to their external but as to their experiences the peasant leads a larger fuller more dramatic life than the king looking at it thus he foimd that life was to be seen of the same magnitude here as elsewhere despite his faults and weaknesses was a man with a conscience was no insignificant creature to toy with and dismiss but a woman living her precious life � a life which to who endured or enjoyed it possessed as great a the consequence as the life of the to himself upon her sensations the whole world depended to through her existence all her fellow creatures existed to her the universe itself only came into being for on the particular day in the particular year in which she was bom this consciousness upon which he had was the single of existence ever vouchsafed to by an first cause � her all her every and only chance how then should he look upon her as of less consequence than himself as a pretty trifle to caress and grow weary of and not deal in the greatest seriousness with the affection which he knew that he had awakened in her � so and so as she was her reserve in order that it might not and wreck her to encounter her daily in the accustomed manner would be to develop what had begun | 45 |
she and with great interest and anxiety set forth beside him down the path on the alert for any f or a little captive maid they went out at the gate in the high fence the master remembered where to find the key and he seemed in excellent spirits the side street led them down the hill to father s house but when they reached it the poor captain was tired out began to be frightened as she stole a look at him she had forgotten in the pride of her own youthful strength that it would be such a long walk for him she was anxious about the interview with father she had no idea how to account for their presence but she had small opinion of the merits and ability of the captain s own parish minister and felt confident of the good result in some way of the visit presently the priest s quick step was heard in the passage rose as he came in but was only noticed by a kindly glance the old captain tried to rise too but could not and father and he greeted each other with evident regard and respect father sat down with a questioning look he was a busy man with a great parish and almost every one of his visitors came to him with an important errand the room was stiff looking and a little bare everything in it was well worn there a little captive maid was a fine portrait of father s or it should rather be said a poor portrait of a fine man whose personal goodness aad power of doing christian service shone in his face father miles had been the first priest in that fast growing inland town and the captain had known and respected him he did not say anything now but sat looking up much pleased at the picture this parlor of the priest s house had a strangely public and look it had been the scene of many parish and and sober of rebuke and kindly counsel gazed about her with awe she had been brought up in great reverence of holy things and of her spiritual and masters but she could not help noticing that the captain was a little astray in these first few moments there stole in upon his pleased contemplation of the portrait a sense of doing an thing and he could not regain his familiar dignity and self possession that conscious right to authority which through long years had stood him in such good stead he was only a poor sick old man he had never quite understood the truth about himself before a little captive maid and the thought choked hun he could not speak the was to with your about ventured timidly feeling at last that the success of the visit depended wholly upon herself oh indeed exclaimed the good priest much relieved he had discovered the pathetic situation at last and his face grew compassionate this little girl seems to believe that it would set me up to have a change of air i have n t been very well father the captain was quite himself again for the moment as he spoke you may not have heard that the doctors have had hold of me lately here has been looking after me very well and she speaks of some on your irish coast i may not be able to leave my business long enough to do any good it s going to the dogs at any rate but i ve got enough to carry me through was flushing with eagerness but the priest saw how white the old captain s fingers were where they clasped his how and feeble his face had a little captive maid grown the thought of the green hills and hollows along the old familiar shore the lovely reaches of the bay the soft air the came to his mind as if he had been among them but yesterday i wish that you were there sir i do indeed said father it is nearer like heaven than any spot in the world to me is old you would be pleased there i m certain but you re not strong enough for the voyage i fear captain you d best wait a bit and regain your strength a little more a man s home is best i think when he s not well the captain and both looked defeated father saw their sadness and was sure that his kindest duty was to interest this poor guest and to make a pleasure for him if possible i can tell you all about it sir and how you might get there he went on hastily shaking his head to some one who had come to summon him land at go right up to cork and pass the night and then by rail and coach next day � t is but a brief journey and you re there t is a grand little hotel you find close to the bay � t was like a palace to me in my boyhood a little captive maid with the fine coming and going well i wish we were there this day and i showing you up and down the length of the green country just what i want i ve been a busy man but when i take a holiday give me none of your noisy towns said the captain eager and cheerful again you d be so still there that a bird lighting in the would wake you said father ah t is many a long year since i saw the place i dream of it by night sometimes captain god bless it could not keep back the ready tears the very thought that his reverence had grown to manhood in her own dear was too much for her you re not of going over this summer asked the captain wistfully i should | 40 |
the professor of divinity as well as to a valued friend a fellow of and went thither on the last day of march i was the guest of my friend in was close upon that college and i lived on college my new friends showed me their the library the gallery hall and the rest i saw several faithful young men some of them in the mood of making sacrifices for peace of mind � a topic of course on which i had no counsel to offer their affectionate and ways reminded me at once of the habits of our cambridge men though i to these english an advantage in their secure and polished manners the halls axe rich with and ceiling the pictures of the hang from the walls the tables glitter with plate a youth came forward to the upper table and pronounced the ancient form of grace before meals which i suppose has been in use here for ages it is a curious proof of the english use and wont or of their good nature that these young men are locked up every night at nine o clock and the porter at each hall is required to give the name of any student who is admitted after that hour still more descriptive is the fact that out of twelve hundred young men the most spirited of the aristocracy a has never occurred oxford is old even in england and its foundations date from alfred and even from arthur if as is alleged the of the had a here in the reign of edward l it is pretended here were thirty thousand english traits � students and nineteen most noble foundations were then established found it as firm as if it had always stood and it is in british story rich with great names the school of the island and the link of england to the learned of europe hither came with delight in in was relieved and main by the university a noble prince of who visited england to admire the wisdom of queen elizabeth was entertained with stage plays in the of in coming from of france by invitation of james i was admitted to christ s college in july i saw the museum whither in sent twelve cart loads of here indeed was the of all wood s and s games and heroes and every inch of ground has its lustre for wood s or of the writers of oxford for two hundred years is a lively record of english manners and merits and as much a national monument as s or s register on every side oxford is of age and authority its gates shut of themselves against modem it is still governed by the of the books in ton library are still chained to the wall here on august john milton s pro and were committed to the flames i saw the school court or where in the caused the of thomas to be publicly burnt i do not know whether this learned body have yet heard of the declaration of american independence or whether the does not still hold its ground against the of as many sons almost so many it is usual for a nobleman or indeed for almost every wealthy student on college to leave behind him some article of plate and gifts of all from a hall or a fellowship or a library down to a picture or a spoon are continually in the course of a century my friend doctor j gave me the following anecdote in sir thomas s collection at london were the of and this prize was offered to oxford university for seven thousand pounds the offer was accepted and the committee charged with the affair had collected three thousand pounds when among other friends they called on lord instead of a hundred pounds he surprised them by putting english traits down his name for three thousand pounds they told him they should now very easily raise the remainder no he said your men have probably already contributed all they can spare i can as well give the rest and he withdrew his for three thousand and wrote four thousand pounds i saw the whole collection in april in the library dr showed me the manuscript of the date of a d brought by dr from egypt a manuscript of the same century the first bible printed at i believe in and a of the same which had been deficient in about twenty leaves at the end but one day being in he bought a room full of books and � every scrap and fragment � for four thousand louis d and had the doors locked and sealed by the on proceeding afterwards to examine his purchase he found the twenty deficient pages of his bible in perfect order brought them to oxford with the rest of his purchase and placed them in the volume but has too much awe for the providence that appears in also to the parts to be re bound the oldest building here is two hundred years younger than the frail manuscript brought by dr from egypt no candle or fire is ever lighted in the its catalogue is the standard catalogue on the desk of every library in oxford in each several college they in red ink on this catalogue the titles of books contained in the library of that college � the theory being that the has all books this rich library spent during the last year for the purchase of books � the logical english train a scholar as they train an engineer oxford is a greek factory as mills carpet and steel they know the use of a as they know the use of a horse and they draw the greatest amount of benefit out of both the reading men are kept by hard walking hard riding and measured eating and drinking at the top of | 37 |
a smile sometimes at his ways it was soothing to them to have a comrade from whom nothing was to be feared from the day that they left the telegraph wire behind them at the man who was mounted upon a thirteen four was delivered over into the hands of the owners of the two that ever shot down the ground the three had dismounted and led their beasts under the welcome shade in the yellow glare every branch above threw so black and solid a shadow that the men involuntarily raised their feet to step over them the palm makes an excellent hat rack said scott his revolver and his water bottle over the little upward pointing which from the trunk as a shade tree however it isn t an success curious that in the universal of means to ends something a little less could not have been devised for the like the in india or the fine trees in where a whole regiment could under the shade the tree isn t bad in either by jove the has all come loose in the saddle bag that long cut mixture rather hot for this how about the they ll be here in five minutes down the winding path which curved among the rocks the little train of baggage was picking its way they came and along turning their heads slowly from side to side with the air of a self woman in front rode the the � three body servants upon and behind walked the boys they had been travelling for nine long hours ever since the first rising of the moon at the weary drag of two and a half miles an hour but now they brightened both beasts and men at the sight of the grove and the horses in a few minutes the loads were the animals a fire lighted fresh water carried up from the river and each provided with his own little heap of laid in the centre of the table cloth without which no well bred will condescend to feed the dazzling light without the subdued half tones within the green palm against the deep blue sky the flitting silent footed servants the of sticks the of a lighting fire the placid heads of the they all come bade in their dreams to those who have known them scott was breaking eggs into a pan and rolling out a love song in his rich deep voice with his head and arms buried in a deal packing case was working his way through of bully beef chicken and to reach the which lay beneath the conscientious with his upon his knee was down what the railway engineer had told him at the line end the day before suddenly he raised his eyes and saw the man himself on his chestnut pony dipping and rising over the broken ground here s a pretty his pony is in he s had her at that hand gallop for hours by the look of her the engineer a small compact man with a pointed the green flag etc red beard had made as though he would ride past their camp without word or halt now he and his pony down to a he headed her towards them for god s sake a he my tongue is stuck to the roof of my mouth ran with the water bottle scott with the and with the tin the engineer drank until his breath failed him well i must be off said he striking the drops from his red moustache any news a in the railway construction i must see the general it s the devil not having a telegraph anything we can report out came three i ll tell you after i ve seen the general any the usual up good bye with a soft upon the sand and a clatter among the stones the weary pony was off upon her journey once more nothing serious i suppose said staring after him serious cried scott the ham and eggs are burned no � it s all right � saved and done to a turn pull the box up come on that the fork is than the pen just at present what s the matter with you i was wondering whether what we have just seen was worth a well it s for the to say if it s worth it sordid money considerations are not for us we must the three wire about something just to justify our coats and our but what is there to say s long austere face broke into a smile over the s innocence it s not quite usual in our profession to give each other tips said he however as my is written i ve no objection to your reading it you may be sure that i would not show it to you if it were of the slightest importance took up the slip of paper and read � obstacles stop journey confer general stop nature difficulties later stop this is very said with wrinkled brows cried scott why it s if my old man got a wire like that his language would crack the lamp shades i d cut out half this for example i d have out journey and nature and but my old man would make a ten line paragraph of it for all that how well i ll do it myself just to show you lend me that he for a minute in his it works out somewhat on these lines � mr charles h the eminent railway engineer who is at present engaged in the construction of the line from to the front has met with considerable obstacles to the rapid completion of his important task � of course the old man knows who is and what he is about so the word obstacles would suggest all that to him he has today been compelled to make a journey | 4 |
and to her put up half articulate prayers for mercy cease said the high priest she is the minister who judges and the sword that strikes i am the ears and the voice speak and tell me � were you about to cast those men whom you were commanded to receive into yonder fire because they saved the victim of your and killed the you cherished nay i saw it all know that it was but a trap set to catch you who have been allowed to live too long but still the wretch before the draped form and howled for mercy messenger said the high priest with thee the power goes declare thy decree then our guide lifted her hand slowly and pointed to the fire at once the man turned ghastly white groaned and fell back as i quite dead slain by his own terror now many of the people had fled but some remained and to these the priest in cold tones bidding them approach they obeyed creeping towards him look he said pointing to the man look and tremble at the justice of the mother aye and be sure that as it is with him so shall it be with every one of you who dares to defy her and to practise and murder lift up that dead dog who was your chief some of them crept forward and did his bidding now cast him into the bed which he had made ready for his victims the messenger staggering forward to the edge of the flaming pit they obeyed and the great body fell with a crash amongst the burning boughs and vanished there listen you people said the priest and learn that this man deserved his dreadful doom know you why he to kill that woman whom the strangers saved because his familiar marked her as a witch you think i tell you it was not so it was because she being fair he would have taken her from her husband as he had taken many another and she refused him but the eye saw the voice spoke and the messenger did judgment he is caught in his own and so shall you be every one of you who dares to think evil in his heart or to do it with his hands such is the just decree of the spoken by her from her throne amidst the fires of the mountain chapter xiii k beneath the wings one by one the terrified crept away tiie last of them were gone the priest advanced to let and saluted him by placing his hand upon his forehead lord he said in the same corrupt which was used by the of i will ask if you are hurt since from the moment that you entered the sacred river and set foot within this land you and your companion were protected by a power invisible and could not be by man or spirit however great may have seemed your danger yet vile hands have been laid upon you and this is the command of the mother whom i serve that if you desire it every one of those men who touched you shall die before your eyes say is your will nay answered they were mad and blind let no blood be shed for us all we ask of you friend � but how are you called name me he answered friend a good title for one who dwells upon the mountain � all we ask is food and shelter and to bo led swiftly into the presence of her whom you name mother that whose wisdom we have travelled far to seek he bowed and answered the food and shelter are prepared and to morrow when you have rested i commanded to conduct you whither you desire to be follow me i pray you and he preceded us past the fiery pit to a building that stood about yards the rock wall of the beneath the wings i it would seem that it was a guest house or at least had been made ready to serve that purpose as in it lamps were lit and a fire for here the air was cold the house was divided into two rooms the second of a sleeping place to which he led us through the first enter he said for you will need to yourselves and you � here he addressed himself to me � to be treated for that hurt to your arm which you had from the jaws of the great hound how know you that i asked j it matters not if i do know and have made ready i answered gravely this second room was lighted and warmed like the first moreover heated water stood in of metal and on the beds were laid clean linen garments and dark coloured robes lined with rich fur also upon a little table were and a marvellous thing to see for it told me that the very nature of my hurt had been divined but i asked no more questions i was too weary moreover i knew that it would be use d less m now the priest helped me to remove my tattered robe and the rough upon my arm washed it gently with warm water in which he mixed some spirit and examined it with the skill of a trained doctor j the rent deep he said and the small bone broken but you will take no harm save for the which must remain then having treated the wounds with he the limb with such a delicate touch that it scarcely pained me saying that by the the swelling have gone down and he would set the bone this indeed happened after it was done he helped me to wash and to myself in die clean garments and put a about m h neck to serve as a rest for my arm meanwhile had also dressed | 18 |
the exterior wall of this great church everywhere there were empty where statues had been thrown down and here and there a statue still lingered in its and over the chief entrance and extending across the whole breadth of the building was a row of angels personages and kings in stone being much by the moist english atmosphere during four or five hundred that they had stood there these and majestic figures put me in mind of the appearance of a sugar image a child has been holding it in his mouth the venerable infant time has evidently found them sweet inside of the there is a long and of the same height and side and dim of where in catholic times the lamps were continually burning before the richly decorated of saints in the audacity of my ignorance as i humbly acknowledge it to have been i this great interior as too much broken into and of half its old home by the of a screen the and it did not spread itself in breadth ascended to the roof in lofty one large body ci might have knelt down in the others in each of the and smaller ones in the side besides an indefinite of in the beyond the screen thus it seemed to t the of rather than the world wide hospitality of religion i had imagined a cathedral with a scope more vast these with their arches overhead supported by clustered pillars in long up and down were venerable and magnificent but included too much of the twilight of that gloom out of which they grew it is no matter whether i ever came to a more appreciation of this kind of architecture the only value of my being to show the folly of looking at noble objects in the wrong mood and the absurdity of a new pretending to hold any opinion whatever on such subjects instead of himself to the old s influence with simplicity a great deal of white marble the old stone work of the in the shape of and most of these are of people distinguished especially the and of the cathedral with their relatives and families and i found but two monuments of personages whom i had ever heard of � one being and the other lady mary a literary acquaintance of my boyhood it was really pleasant to meet her there for after a friend has lain in the grave far into the second century she would be unreasonable to require any melancholy emotions in a chance interview at her it adds a rich charm to sacred this time honoured custom of burial in churches after a few years at least when the mortal remains have turned to dust beneath the pavement and the quaint devices and still speak to you above the statues that stood or in several recesses of the cathedral had and a kind of life and i regarded them with an odd sort of deference as if they were privileged of the it was singular too how the memorial of the latest buried person the man whose features were familiar in the streets of only yesterday seemed precisely as much at home as his he belonged to the cathedral like one of its original pillars this impression in my fancy might be the shadow of a spiritual fact the dying melt into the great multitude of the departed as quietly as a drop of water into the ocean and it may be are conscious of no with their new circumstances but immediately become aware of an strangeness in the world which they have quitted death has not taken them away but brought them home the and of affairs however have not ceased to attend upon these marble inhabitants for i saw the upper fragment of a lady in a very old fashioned garb the lower half of whom had doubtless been by s soldiers when they took the hj storm and there lies the remnant of this devout lady on her ever since the outrage as for centuries before with a countenance of divine serenity and her hands clasped in prayer a depth of religious faith which no earthly turmoil or calamity could disturb another piece of apparently a favourite subject in the middle ages for i have seen several like it in other was a skeleton as representing an open of bones as could well be expected in a solid block of marble and at a period moreover when the mysteries of the human frame were rather to be guessed at than revealed whatever the defects of its production the old had succeeded in making it ghastly beyond measure how much mischief has been wrought upon us by this invariable gloom of the imagination flinging itself like a death scented pall over our of the future state our hopes hiding our sky and dismal efforts to raise the harvest of immortality out of what is most opposite to it � the grave i old home the cathedral service is performed twice every day at ten o clock and at four when i first entered the young and old but mostly i think boys with voices j sweet and clear and as fresh as bird notes were winding up their harmonious labours and soon came through a side door from the into the they were all dressed in long white robes and looked like a peculiar order of beings created on purpose to between the roof and pavement of that dim consecrated edifice and it with divine themselves meanwhile on the heavy grandeur of the organ tones like on a golden cloud all at once however one of the multitude pulled off his white gown thus himself before my very eyes into a commonplace youth of the day in modem frock coat and trousers of a decidedly provincial cut this absurd little incident i verily believe had a sinister effect in putting me at odds | 35 |
are three different one has over its door � british office another is for and a third for g eat promises are made to persons proposing to such as a free passage to the west indies wages of from seventy five cents to a dollar per day and permission to when they choose very few however of those who have been long resident here can be induced to avail themselves of these offers small as are the at they believe that the are not observed that on their arrival in the west indies will be called upon to pay their passages and that it will not be at their to return in short they suspect to be only a more plausible name for the slave trade the are the class most sought for as although of any tribe are received even the just re ca are sent off as the authorities are pleased to term it voluntarily the last consisting of somewhat less than two hundred and fifty persons included seventy six slaves almost that instant landed from a prize a merchant me that these men were not d by journal of an permitted to with their countrymen but i� l hurried off to the vessel without knowing whither they hound the acting governor dr denied tiie of this although he admitted that the seventy six slaves did to the west indies very soon after halt ing from the prize it is to be remarked that the white inhabitants of as well as the coloured people entertain very able notions of this scheme of west indies the best defence of it perhaps is nor can flourish in this settlement and a from its poor soil and sickly climate to any other region may probably be for the better but the british government is less scrupulous as to the method of carrying out its projects than most other nations in their schemes of self in which is the residence of all the are to he found what remains of the from and their descendants the whole number transported hither at several periods was about fifteen hundred not than seventy or eighty of these people or their t w survive upon the spot our pilot is one of the number that his countrymen were promised fifty acres of hm each in on condition of the already in their possession in with this un e standing they to africa but in more than half a century which has since elapsed the government has never found it convenient to fulfil its obligations only two or three acres have been assigned to each meantime the body of has away until the standard f earth by two the natural inheritance of every being has almost all of them as well as fifty or ye thousand acres could have done these the slaves who were taken or ran away from e united states during the war d by t j african and their movement was anything bnt one it would be matter of curious speculation to inquire into the relative proportions now alive of slaves who remained southern soil and of these together with the amount of their posterity not of course that it has been in any degree a experiment as to result of and slaves the trial of that experiment has been left to america and it has been in a manner that might induce england to her own when she with this settlement has been known as the white man s grave and it is certainly a beautiful spot for a grave � as lovely as one of those ornamental now so fashionable and on which so much of our taste is as if only the dead had leisure for the enjoyment of and however is by no means the fatal spot that it once was formerly a governor was expected to die every year although a few held the reins of power and the pomp and dignity of office twice or even thrice that period brave and excellent men have accepted the station on this fearful among them was colonel the adventurous traveller in africa very great likewise prevailed among the merchants military and civil officers and soldiers this was partly owing to the of their mode of life the rich were in the habit of giving champagne at noon and heavy and luxurious at night the continual neighbourhood and near prospect of death made them gaily desperate so that they grew r with him and regarded him almost as a boon companion and besides in a sickly climate each individual is confident of his own personal against the disease which he ready to allow be fatal to those around him i have noticed this absurd in others and been conscious of it in myself ill it is the d by of an the bullet is expected to strike any and every except one s own � and here perhaps is the great courage fc the at practise a temperate life another circumstance that has render the settlement less is the of in the vicinity and of the rank into fields the good effect of this change will be appreciated by those who have noticed the improved c our western as the forest falls before the axe or have seen the difference between the inhabitants of old new lands in any country it is by the old here that they do not fin il very sickly except once in seven years when an and carries off many this happened since until the present year when in the order of things the angel of death should have re ax several persons provided for their safety by the j and others made their arrangement to retreat on ee symptoms of danger but ihe year thus far seems to been distinguished by no peculiar life in a climate like this must generally be much mm brief than in temperate regions even if it do not yield | 35 |
a serious beat of admiration that was honey to the girl and through her to me it seemed to wipe us clean of all james more s and the next moment he was just himself again and now by your leave my said he this is a very but be a thing nearer to the gallows than he s caring for and i think this is a grand place to be leaving the word recalled us to some wisdom ran upstairs and returned with our saddle bags and james more s i picked up s bundle where she had dropped it on the stair and we were setting forth out of that dangerous house when stopped the way with cries and he had whipped under a table when the swords were drawn but now he was as bold as a lion there was his bill to be settled there was a chair broken had sat among his dinner things james more had fled here i cried pay yourself and flung him down some d for i thought it was no time to be he sprang upon that money and we passed him by and ran forth into the open upon three sides of the house were and closing in a little nearer to us james more waved his hat as if to hurry them and right behind him like some foolish person holding up its hands wore the sails of the turning gave but the one glance and laid himself do vn to run he carried a great weight in james more s but i think he would as soon have lost his life as cast away that which was his revenge and he ran so that i was distressed to follow him and and to see the girl bounding at my side as soon as we appeared they cast off all disguise upon the other side aud the pursued us with shouts and view we had a start of some two hundred yards and they were but l after all that could not hope to better us at such an exercise i suppose they were armed but did not care to use their pistols on french ground and as soon as i p that we not only held our advantage but drew a little away i began to feel quite easy of the issue for all which it was a hot brisk bit of work so long as it lasted was still far and when we over a and found a c of the garrison marching on the other side on some i could very well understand the word that had he stopped running at once and at his brow they re a real folk the french nation says he conclusion no sooner were we safe within the walls of than we held a very necessary council of war on our position we had taken a daughter from her father at the sword s point any judge would give her back to him at once and by all clap me and into jail and though we had an argument upon our side in captain s letter neither nor i were very keen to be using it in public upon all accounts it seemed the most prudent to carry the girl to paris to the hands of her own of who would be very willing to help his on the one hand and not at all anxious to james upon the other we made but a slow journey of it up for was not so good at the riding as the running and had scarce sat in a saddle since the five but we made it out at last reached paris early of a sabbath morning and made all speed imder s guidance to find he was finely lodged and lived in a good style having a on the fund as well as private means greeted like one of his own house and seemed altogether very civil and discreet but not particularly open we asked of the news of james more poor james said he and shook his head and smiled so that i thought he knew further than he meant to tell then we showed liim s letter and he drew a long face at that poor james said he again well there are worse folk than james more too but this is dreadful bad tut tut he must have forgot himself entirely i this is a most letter but for all that gentlemen i cannot see what we would want to it public for it s an ill bird that his own nest and we are all folk and all upon this we were all agreed save perhaps and still more upon the question of our marriage which took in his own hands as though there had been no such person as james more and gave away with very pretty manners and agreeable compliments in french it was not till all was over and our drunk that he told us james was in that city whither he had preceded us some days and where he now lay sick and uke to die i thought i saw by my wife s face what way her inclination pointed and let us go see him then said i if it is your pleasure said these were early days he was lodged in the same quarter of the city with his chief in a great house upon a corner and we were guided up to the garret where ho lay by the sound of it seemed ho had just borrowed a set of them from to amuse his sickness though he was no such hand as was his brother rob he made good music of the kind and it was strange to observe the french folk crowding on the stairs and some of them conclusion laughing he lay propped in a the first look of him i saw he was upon his | 38 |
these poor savages wonderfully improved they acquired a thousand wants of which they had before been ignorant and as he has most y sources of happiness who has most wants to be gratified they were rendered a much happier race of beings but the most important branch of civilization and which has most been by the zealous and pious fathers of the is the introduction of the christian faith it was truly a sight that might well inspire horror to behold these savages stumbling among the dark mountains of and guilty of the most vol i g by ic f t history of horrible ignorance of religion it is true they neither stole nor they were sober continent and faithful to their word but c though they acted right habitually it was all in vain unless they acted so from the new comers therefore used every method to induce them to embrace and practise the true � indeed that of s ig them the example all these complicated labours for their good such was the obstinacy of these stubborn wretches that they refused to acknowledge the strangers as their and persisted in the doctrines they endeavoured to most that from their conduct the of did not seem to believe in it themselves was not this too much for man patience � would not one suppose that the from europe provoked at their incredulity and discouraged by their stiff obstinacy would forever have abandoned their shores and consigned them to their original ignorance and misery � but so zealous were they to effect the comfort and eternal salvation of these pagan that they even proceeded from the means of persuasion to the more painful and troublesome one of let loose among them whole troops of fiery and furious � them by fire and sword by stake and by new m consequence of which measures the cause of christian love and was so rapidly advanced that in a very few years not one fifth of the number of existed in south america that were found there at the time of its discovery what stronger right need the european advance to the country than this have not whole nations of savages been made acquainted with a thousand imperious wants and indispensable comforts of which they were before wholly ignorant � have they not been literally hunted and out of the and lurking places of ignorance and and absolutely into the right path have not the things the vain and filthy of this world which were too apt to engage their worldly and selfish thoughts been taken from them and have they not instead thereof been taught to set their affections on things above � and finally to use the words of a reverend spanish father in a letter to his superior in can any one have the pre to say that these savage have yielded any thing more than an � to their in surrender ing to them a little pitiful tract of this dirty planet in exchange for a glorious in in the kingdom of heaven by history of here then are three and sources of right established any me of which was more than ample to establish a property in the newly discovered regions of america now so it has happened in certain parts of this delightful quarter of the globe that the right of discovery has been so the influence of cultivation so extended and ihe progress of salvation and civilization so that what with their attendant wars diseases and other partial evils that often ha on tha skirts of t benefit s � the savage have some how or another been utterly � md this all at once brings me to a fourth right which is worth all the others put for the original to the soil being all dead and buried and no one remaining to inherit or dispute the soil the as the next immediate occupants entered upon the possession as clearly as the to the clothes of the � and as they have and all the learned of the law on their side they may set actions of at defiance � � nd this last may be entitled the by or m other words the right by gun powder but lest any scruples of conscience should remain on head and to settle the question of com b ii c by york t right for ever his pope alexander vi issued a bull by which he generously granted the newly discovered quarter of the globe to the and who thus law and gospel on their side and being with great spiritual zeal showed the pagan savages neither favour nor affection but the work of discovery civilization and with ten times more fury than ever thus were the european who first discovered america clearly entitled to the soil and not only entitled to the soil but likewise to the eternal thanks of these savages for having come so far endured so many perils by sea and land and taken such pains for no other purpose but to improve their forlorn and condition � for having made them acquainted with the comforts of life for having introduced among them the light of religion and finally � for having hurried them out of the world to enjoy its reward but as argument is never so well understood by us selfish mortals as when it comes home to ourselves and as i am particularly anxious that this question should be put to rest forever i will suppose a parallel case by way of the candid attention of my readers let us suppose then that ihe inhabitants of the moon by astonishing advancement in science and by a profound insight into that philosophy by history of the mere of which have of late years dazzled the feeble and the shallow brains of the good people of our let us suppose i that the inhabitants of the moon by these means had at | 48 |
product of the united f t tes for the year e � reached a total of short tons and a valued at the mines before any expenses for at the product included short tons of coal and other worth and short tons of and at the value of all of a ton at the mines the of coal was cents a short ton at the in the total product d short tons of and short tons of product per cent the and the total value h j or cent the number of p engaged in the industry was who received in the ns wages j ie t a d on a of loan il ri i l of gold coin h oi lo � a s s i o i v � � � � � � i n j t oi u � � a is i ho mi i l ia l r i ih � l f ir l i ml b � j l iii a i it s a l ij ii a i � � � � h l l ji k po a i s i h l i h i m fi h l iii d m i j l j i jo u iv in i oil la tis y s d u m j j h j t� � � os r j i � i i s if a ii i ti h ki j l o t t i un li i r � � j th s ji tis is n ci fl jt i m ai s � i b os t li u l o i li o o o no si l l l h il j ii o oft l o os ih i f oi r vm i ij o ia i j o i j jim hi i t � � l l s � i i i ij a � � � � i l l i l n l m j lo i s l p a i l o ih j i tl o i m th oe l f r� l hi lu i � � l l l mm i n j i ni i l � hj n � � l m i r l s s r ii m � � b h l ij t la i j j ri re y e � t ot l r ou s s p t ti i � i ei i o o m ie i s ii l l g h fi l jt i t h j m l rt fill s s s rt t r w oo w l io j ao t j til i i ia i il l i l i � ha l t o o s ci o l s n i p i � t � i u s il ni al tj ot i i i f i ri i vl l i l h o ri � � t i b i l tj ril � � tm l r i ai h o o � ol s is oil � � i n � g so � v s l o b � � m so t ri is fi l oi i k i fl o fi o f i mn ss re sl s ft � � p f l l oil io too � t fl � � ih i o il t s il j os tj s jn o i a oo c a a h s ha y � s in of f ts i d era iti and d � ss i oi � y � t i a t ts i t ss h � b m ir op by pi on and other civil and l l i til c lar m ru h j os a d ra s a c � � i i u years ht k ui r aa a j i ti u � l lo i ii ii tl l m i tl i g k h t l m a o t a � io fl m f l i h r� is a a l l c ig no s is o i o a a j i i ia f no a c h ma j ms a tj i a i n os s g e � s e el h � oil j is a m i a ri w lo ii k o k o j i t m h of bonds indies is ll ml l � ss l e � h ah � � f j s r in tj i g lift l ns l a ti n ss � m s fi cl s j a i r t go j la s a hi tj ai i lo i a b m h j i ii n h i i it j l a s s o year w l i u i s l ir i li � oft i s i � t ic l i oc g s g i f p r l est on public debt f i � g oo g total in a t tf b i l t c o i rt go oi � fl te ii i o bo t s ij s ng f o d tv t and other applied to sinking fund ir b l it� i i h � i � � � i i l o co j ii to is j mi g s l i m ih m i i i l i vi m i k the e for commerce on the great lakes the season of trade com other grain mill farm total coal iron ore stone all kinds ton per cent of and class to total | 19 |
pile brows around the locks of youth were woven have borne the fatal ordeal and betrayed no sign of shrinking from the fiery blast and voices whose sweet tones were once the natural of happiness and love have been ib to herself the writer mast here in of the poetry of religion how forcibly she is � with what some would call the of the task she has undertaken because this subject necessarily brings under serious observation the all important for which we ought to be either to live or die as duty may require and before which all considerations even that of poetry itself vanish into she would however hope that her task may be pursued without and that she may point out the poetry of religion with a feeling of its and more essential in the same way that a may upon the architecture of a cathedral without reference to the for which the building was originally and to which it la still appropriated heard above the embers and the shouts of brutal to heaven the pure melodious strains of a joy fresh from the of domestic peace young innocent have been torn to and in the centre of the fire and trembling with the last of mortal agony have borne their testimony to the of their faith the cry of an parent bursting from the surrounding throng may have reached the sufferer in the flames the eye that was once the of his hopes may have glanced upon him through the dense and smoke and thoughts dear as the memory of early love may have rushed upon his soul even there bathing it in the tenderness of childhood and melting down his high resolve which but for that and zeal would yet have sent him forth a worthless wreck upon the troubled ocean of life after the promised haven had been in sight the pilot near and the anchor of eternal hope ready to be cast for ever into the foundation which no storms can shake yet even here his faith remains and he shakes off the lingering weakness of humanity his joyful spirit already the unbounded of its promised felicity let us contemplate the scene one moment longer the excitement has subsided the cry of the merciless spectators is heard no more the smoking pile becomes one universal ruin and the living form so lately quivering with the intensity of quickened and sensation is mingled with the silent dust are there not footsteps lingering near that fatal spot are there not looks too wild for tears still fixed upon the white ashes with which tlie idle breezes are at play are there not hearts whose inmost depths are filled with bitterness and thoughts of vengeance and dreams of daring and fierce bold scrutiny of the ways of providence and questioning if these are the tender of the most high yes such has ever been the effect of persecution upon the mind and never is the so firmly fortified against conviction as when he the wrongs and the wretch the poetry op life which man with a blind and superstitious zeal his brother we turn from this scene of horrors to the aspect presented by religion under a form of persecution or rather under one whose influence is more remote and we follow a httle company cf faithful to their m tne where their is the sky and their altar the rude rocks of the wilderness ij on the summit of a precipice a keeps watch and while he looks to the sombre woods the hollow or the dim and distant heights if he may discern the movements of an enemy hymns of praise and adoration are heard from the congregation in the valley as echoing from to the deep full of devotion rises on the evening breeze then the devout and prayer is up that the true shepherd will to look down upon and visit the scattered remnant of his flock that his voice may yet call them into safe pastures and that he will pour out the waters of eternal life for the support of the feeble the refreshment of the weary and the consolation of the sore distressed it is in such scenes and circumstances that the followers of a persecuted faith become indeed brethren in the fellowship of christ in a common cause the same danger and led on by one purpose the vital bond of the society extends and lives through all its members discord enters not their communion for the world is against them and they can stand imder its cruelty and oppression by no other compact than that of christian love jealousy not its into their hearts for they are hoping to attain a felicity in which all are ambition not the seeds of selfishness amongst them for their reward is one that admits of no � of which all may partake without the portion of any and this pure and simple worship how sacred how fervent is the farewell of the brethren on separating for their distant home some have to trace the sands of the sea beaten shore some the lonely sheep track on the mountains and some the hollow bed of the wintry torrent whose thundering waters have worked out themselves a rugged pathway down the hills but all are accompanied by the same deep sense of danger and internal peace � all have the same bright to light them on their silent way and the same spiritual help to support their weary steps they know not but the homes they are seeking may have become a heap of ruins but they have learned to look for an everlasting habitation where the may not come they know not but the sword of persecution may have severed the chain of their domestic but they feel that every link of that chain can be in a world of peace they know not but the of destruction may have fallen | 41 |
which the of the land were wont to take pride is fully established by the allusions to it that abound in the many legends yet in existence composed in honor of of the lion heart these preserve the names of the and speak of them aa being valued at sums that allowing for the difference in the worth of money quite exceed any prices known in our day the domestic troubles which marked the reign of john and the succession of wars in which we were subsequently engaged probably interrupted the progress of sport materially � at all events we do not find any of our sovereigns giving their countenance to it from richard to the bluff harry henry viii was disposed for manly occupations and of his moral tendencies we speak not we have it on the authority of that he was much disposed to improve the breed thb of horses for he imported firom spain and turkey fortune too enabled daughter to do for our native breed the of the spanish having with many and bred horses their descendants found in the vessels of that fleet which fell into the hands of lord of we now com to her successor james i who must be considered as a founder of legitimate racing in this he introduced the first into england of which we have any knowledge � that purchased by mr and known as the the training which has now reached such perfection was then practised in its various divisions of work and the of stable economy and the weight to be carried for public arranged by authority the at was an established course in one of the being a silver bell of the value of ten pounds or run for in five mile similar were also given at s on at and in whence the popular term bearing the bell no doubt had its origin his unfortunate son i had little opportunity of the social concerns of himself or others in reign however the first races on record at were held and by a similar l to was he borne a prisoner to the forces the civil of the of course was not friendly to the amusements of the turf but though suspended they were hot lost sight of mr place the master to the palace at was hy this for the of enjoying the diversion of hunting � no races having been held upon the heath till the succeeding reign thb s imported the celebrated horse known as the white he was also the owner of some very capital one of which daring the search after property at the restoration he saved from destruction by hiding in a whence she took the name of the coffin mare with the came the days of the regular meetings were established at and other parts of d silver cups and of the value of one hundred pounds were presented as royal gifts and more than all the light of royal favor shone it in shape of charles the and mistress william iii had no taste for and died by a fall from his horse prince george of den mark on the other hand was warmly attached to the turf and promoted its interest by every means in his power we are indebted for many royal plates to his influence with his queen anne george i was no in his reign however the alteration in the royal plates took place by which a sum of one hundred guineas was in their stead shortly after george ii ascended the throne arose a morbid yearning after for the turf some of the acts were mischievous very many were very silly one was good � that no plate or prize of a less value than � should be run under a penalty of � it was during this reign that tiie and were brought into this country � two horses from whom have descended all the most celebrated that adorn the annals of our turf this is the period at which the of our thorough bred horse then was and it is the date whence i think it most convenient to begin my notice of english racing the a notice so confined as this is beset with that few would conceive possible as an instance i will the case of an old and well informed of who some years ago published a history of that place he starts somewhere about the conquest and never for want of materials as he goes on till he comes to the great stumbling block concerning which he shall speak for himself � when the races on downs were first held we have not been able to trace but we find that from the year they have been held in the months of may or june and about six weeks previous to which the hunters are occasionally run for on the race course at one of which in the famous horse won the and proved the best plate horse in england to return however to the reign of g ii though we find little bearing on the business of the turf to be from its records it us to the great forefathers of our thorough blood and one of the most interesting questions ia our domestic natural history � the problem of the seed or origin of the english horse a brief search through the book will convince the that almost without exception our great were and are descendants of the and i use the latter term merely because its now those celebrated animals they were both as has been stated imported in this reign the question that i would here investigate applies equally to each but for the sake of it i will treat it with reference to the latter only that he was a genuine says the book his excellence as a is deemed sufficient proof a little further on we read it is remarkable that | 50 |
home she can t go you d never know her we ll have to put her in an asylum something in his voice made look at him he met his gaze they re getting ready to do it� that man and the preacher but i don t mean em to have anything more to do with her they ve done their worst now let em keep away from her nodded his acquiescence that evening went to see a doctor he knew and next day through his was removed to the private ward of an asylum where she was made as comfortable as possible it was evident that she had not much longer to stay but god had been merciful to her she of her finds baby and her happiness at seeing it soon and a small strongly built man with grave eyes sat by her in the and told her stories of it with a of invention that amazed the doctor who had her in charge when mr s agents called next day to make the preliminary arrangements for carrying out his agreement with they found the room empty the woman who had charge of the house had been duly fixed by and she told a story sufficiently plausible to pass muster the sick woman had disappeared at night and had gone she did not know where she was afraid she might have made away with herself as she was out of her head this was and this was the story that went back to mr and finally to a little later the body of a woman was found in the river and though there was nothing to identify her it was stated in one of the papers that there was good ground for believing that she was the woman whose disappearance had been reported the week before chapter the marriage one day after was removed was sitting in the office he had taken in new york working on the final papers which were to be exchanged when his deal should be completed when there was a tap at the door a knock at the door is almost as individual as a voice there was something about this knock that awakened associations in s mind it was not a woman s tap yet and both sprang into s mind almost at the same moment the door opened slowly and pausing on the threshold stood j but how changed from the mr of the jovial and manager of the whistle or the and editor of the new the apparition in the door was a shabby representation of what j had been in his days he bore the last marks of extreme his eyes were dull his face and his hair thin and long his clothes looked as if they had served him by night as well as by day for a long time his shoes were broken and his hat once the emblem of his station and high spirits was battered and rusty how are you mr he began boldly enough but his assumption of something of his old air of died out under s icy and steady gaze and he stepped only inside of the room and taking off his hat waited uneasily the what do you want of met demanded leaning back in his chair and looking at him coldly well i thought i would like to have a little talk with you about a without taking his eyes from his face shook his head slowly about a friend of yours continued again shook his head very slowly i have a little information that might be of use to you � that you d like to have i don t want it you would if you knew what it was no yes you would it s about squire s about her marriage to that man how much do you want for it demanded advanced slowly into the room and looked at a chair don t sit down how much do you want for repeated well you are a rich man now i thought so rose however rich i am i will not pay you a cent he to the door oh well if that s the way you take it i drew himself up and stalked to the door himself and again took up his pen at the door turned and saw that had put him out of his mind and was at work again yes if you knew what information i sat up suddenly go out of here if you d only stood up with a sudden flame in his eyes go on i say if you do not i will put you out it is as much as i can do to keep my hands oflf you you could not say a word that i would believe on any subject i will swear to this your oath would add nothing to it waited and after a moment s reflection began in a different key mr i did not come here to sell you yes you did no i did not i did not only for that if i could have sold it i don t say i wouldn t for i need money � the lord knows how much i need it i have not a cent in the world to buy me a to or drink i came to tell you something that only j i have told you that i would not believe you on oath began impatiently but you will for it is true and i tell it not out of love for you though i never i always liked would have liked you if you d have let me but out of hate for that man has treated me worse than a yellow dog i ve done for that man what i wouldn t have done for my brother you know what i ve done for him mr and now when he s | 46 |
as to meet danger face to face and take it by the beard determined therefore to put an end to all these petty on the borders he wrote two or three letters to the grand council which though neither ia bad latin nor yet by about wolves and and op yet had more effect than all the elaborate and of his learned put together in consequence of his the great of the east agreed to enter into a final of and settlement of boundaries to the end that a perpetual and happy peace might take place between the two powers for this purpose governor two to with from the grand council of the league and a treaty was solemnly concluded at on receiving intelligence of this event the whole community was in an uproar of exultation the trumpet of the sturdy van sounded all day with joyful from the of fort and at night the city was illuminated with two hundred and fifty candles besides a barrel of tar which was burnt before the governor s house on the cheering aspect of public affairs and now my worthy reader is doubtless like the great and good peter himself with the that his feelings will no longer be by details of stolen horses broken and all the other catalogue of heart that disgraced these border wars but if he should indulge in such ous it is a proof k s s that he is but little in the ways of to convince him of which i his serious attention to my next chapter wherein i will show that peter has already committed a great error in politics and by a peace has materially the tranquillity of the province i speculations on chapter iii divers speculations on war and � showing that a treaty of peace is a great national evil it was the opinion of that poetical her that war was the original state f man whom he described as being a savage beast of prey engaged in a constant of hostility with his own species and that his ferocious spirit was tamed and y society the same opinion been by nor have there been wanting other philosophers to admit and defend it for my part though fond of these valuable speculations so complimentary to nature yet in this instance i am inclined o take the proposition by believing ith that though war may have been the favourite amusement and industrious employment of our yet like part i chap f ac et t post hot sat l i s sl man s many other excellent habits so far from being it has been cultivated and confirmed by refinement and civilization and in exact proportion as we approach towards that state of perfection which is the ne of modem philosophy the first conflict between man and man was the mere exertion of physical force by weapons � his arm was his his fist was his and a broken head the catastrophe of his the battle of strength was succeeded by the more rugged one of stones and clubs and war assumed a aspect as man advanced in refinement as his faculties expanded and became more exquisite he grew rapidly more ingenious and experienced in the art of his fellow beings he invented a thousand devices to defend and to assault � the and the the sword the dart and the prepared him to the wound as well as to the blow still urging on in the brilliant and career of invention he and powers of defence and injury � the the the and the give a horror and to war and its glory by increasing its desolation still though armed with machinery that seemed s fighting by to reach the of destructive invention and to yield a power of injury even with the desires of revenge � still deeper must be made in the area na with furious zeal he into the of the earth he toils midst poisonous and deadly � the discovery of upon the world � and finally the dreadful art of fighting by seems to the demon of war with and this indeed is grand � this indeed marks the powers of mind nd that divine of reason which us from the animals our the brutes content themselves with the native force which providence has assigned them � the angry bull with his horns as did his before him � the hon the and the seek only with their and their to gratify their fury and even the subtle serpent the same and uses tlie same as did his before the flood man alone blessed with the mind goes on from discovery to discovery � his powers of destruction the tremendous weapons of deity itself and tasks creation to assist him in his brother worm improvements in war and peace in proportion as the art of war has increased in improvement has the art of preserving peace advanced in equal and as we have discovered in tliis age of wonders and inventions that is the most in war so have we discovered the no less ingenious mode of maintaining peace by perpetual a treaty or to speak more correctly a therefore according to the of experienced learned in these matters is no longer an attempt to accommodate to ascertain rights and to establish an exchange of kind offices test of skill between two powers which shall over reach and take in the other it is a cunning endeavour to obtain by peaceful and the of those advantages which a nation would otherwise have by force of arms in the same manner that a conscientious hi and becomes an excellent and praise worthy citizen himself with his neighbour out of that property he would formerly have seized open violence in fact the only time when two nations can be said to be in a state of perfect is when a is open and a treaty then as there are | 48 |
falls however and the in the are then in full bloom and sing songs from one end of the range to the other of course the snow on the lower of the rivers is first melted then that on the higher fountains most exposed to sunshine and about a month later the cooler shadowy fountains send down their treasures thus allowing the main trunk streams nearly six weeks to get their waters hurried through tlie foot hills and across the to the sea therefore very violent spring floods are avoided and will be as long as the forests last the rivers of the north half of the range are still less subject to sudden floods because their upper fountains in great part lie protected from the changes of the floods the weather beneath thick folds of just as many of the rivers of lie beneath folds of ice coming to the light farther down the range in large springs while those of the high lie on the surface of solid gi exposed to every change of temperature more than ninety per cent of the water derived from the snow and ice of mount is at once absorbed and drained away beneath the folds of the mountain where and groping in the dark they at length find larger and like from which they and cool in the f of large springs some of them so large tliey give birth to rivers that set out on their journeys beneath the sun without any visible period of childhood thus the issues from a large lake like spring in valley and about two thirds of the volume of the river forth suddenly from the face of a bluff in a roaring spring seventy five yards wide these spring rivers of the north are of course shorter than those of the south whose extend up to the tops of the mountains fall river an important of the or upper is only about ten miles long and is all falls and springs from its head to its with the springs issue from the rocks at one end of it a snowy fall a hundred and eighty feet high at the other and a rush of crystal sing and dance between of course such streams are but little affected by the weather sheltered the mountains of from their flow is nearly as full in the autumn as in the time of general spring floods while those of the high to less than the part of their prime in autumn to a series of silent pools among the rocks and of their channels connected by feeble creeping threads of water like the sentences of a tired writer connected by a of and strange to say the greatest floods occur in winter when one would suppose all the wild waters would be muffled and chained in frost and snow the same long all day storms of the so called rainy season in that give rain to the give dry frosty snow to the mountains but at rare intervals warm rains and winds the mountains and push back the snow line from feet to or even higher and then come the big floods i was usually driven down out of the high about the end of november but the winter of and was so warm and calm that i was tempted to seek general views of the and of the basin of feather river in january and i had just completed a hasty survey of the region and made my way down to winter quarters when one of the flood storms that i ever saw broke on the mountains i was then in the edge of the main forest belt at a small foot hill town called on the divide between the w of the feather and rivers the cause of this notable flood was simply a sudden and fall of warm wind and rain on the the floods of these rivers at a time when they contained a considerable quantity of snow the rain was so heavy and long sustained that it was of itself sufficient to make a good wild flood while the snow which the warm wind and rain melted on the upper and middle regions of the was sufficient to make another flood equal to that of the rain now these two distinct hai of flood waters were gathered simultaneously and poured out on the plain in one magnificent the of the and feather like many others of the are admirably adapted to the growth of floods of this kind their many far and wide extensive and the are inclined while the trunks are comparatively level the flood storm was hi progress the at ranged between and and when warm wind and warm rain fall simultaneously on snow contained in like these both the rain and that portion of the snow which the rain and wind melt are at first up and held back until the combined mass becomes which at length suddenly slips and all together to the trunk channel and since the deeper the stream the faster it flows the portion of the current above the slower foot hill portion below it and all sweeping forward together with a high front on the open plain with a violence and suddenness that at first seem wholly unaccountable the of the lower portion of this particular flood was somewhat by the mountains of gravel in the river channels and by which gave way after having at first restrained and held back the waters these conditions did not however greatly influence the general result the main effect having been caused by the rare combination of flood indicate above it is a pity that but few people meet and enjoy storms so noble as this in their homes in the mountains for spending themselves in the open of the plains they are likely to be remembered more by the bridges and houses they carry away than by their | 28 |
unnecessary it really seems very extravagant i said oh well we don t come to a s every day any of us said philip easily but not the pink pearl i bar the pink pearl not pearls of any kind a self made you ought to have your birthday stone whatever that is my birthday happened to be the month of so philip insisted on buying me a great half which matched in size the diamonds already upon my hand you should have a of my lord said mr and then miss would be wearing your s racing colours that s a pretty notion a very pretty notion i think we can t do better than carry it into effect eh but we won t give it away where we got the idea from remember they re my racing colours you need not say mr suggested it eventually i went out of that shop with the value of nearly three hundred pounds on the third finger of my left hand as we drove towards the park the sun cast its rays right down upon the doors of the cab i put my bare hand with its three glittering rings upon the edge of the door so that the sunlight might fall upon it how good of you to spend such a lot of money on me philip i said in a voice that trembled in spite of myself aren t they lovely he was holding my right hand in his left yes my fingers they do seem to matters don t they chapter xvi the daughter of her mother what a delightful business a wedding is when the bride and groom are young and in love years ago not long after was married to george i heard somebody at one of mother s say to another person that she thought lady was one of the most charming and clever women she had ever known in her ufe yes answered the man to whom she spoke she s a regular old soldier i never told anybody about it i don t know why � from an instinct i think but i have often thought about it since a regular old soldier of course i know now what was a mystery to me then they meant that mother had to get who was not a general favourite married to george it was clever of mother and it was cleverly done she was an artist in management in a country where the women have the and are in all respects the equals of men i am convinced that my mother would be prime minister she was so particularly clever in continually playing up to her life she always kept up the game she always kept on her face mask she always lived as if the of society had the buttons off she was so wise about my engagement to lord she choked down any resentment she i a self made might be feeling � and i knew her well enough to know that in her inmost heart she was furious at his mother s attitude � and proceeded exactly as if everything connected with my coming marriage was as smooth and easy as if i had been twenty times a duke s daughter within a few hours of my having the three beautiful engagement rings the announcement that i was to be married almost immediately to the earl of was inserted in all the journals of importance then after philip had gone back to camp mother gave a little tea party so wise of her she asked very few people � one or two of the most important among our acquaintances and a few of the leading women mrs who had charge of the fashionable intelligence in quite a dozen society papers and was moreover considered the greatest authority on in the profession was among them oh thank you so much said mother in her tone when mrs congratulated her and me yes we are very happy in our new relations lord is such a dear fellow � so simple and so hates society and every kind of formality indeed i think is very fortunate because you know it s entirely a love match oh entirely show mrs your rings dear she added in her most indulgent tones i held out my hand with the three great rings blazing upon it dear me white and blue said mrs a self made oh that was entirely lord s idea said mother his racing colours � red white and blue isn t it a quaint and pretty fancy yes it is said mrs and carried out in a very costly and lavish manner i suppose you consider them all your engagement rings yes i do i suppose the diamond one is really the engagement ring proper but the are for my birth stone and the are for his a double conceit said mrs lord is full of them said my mother and yet so simple so that s nice said mrs i stuck up people myself and when is the wedding coming off oh almost immediately early in september said my mother and will want you to help her dress dear mrs i shall be delighted you have always been so good to me lady you were good to me when i hadn t many friends when i really wasn t in a position to return any kindness and h d little hope of ever being able to do so we will not talk about that my dear we will not talk about that if i was ever able to help you i was delighted to do so but you will help with her won t you because we want it to be very out of the common and what the shop people call exclusive you know think it out i ll go home straight away and think it out said mrs she moved off | 30 |
conferred be was the passion of the moment was too strong foi him but sometimes ins mere were in intensity passions and his passions while they lasted of madness he was a because he had some taste that way hut chiefly because he regular work of any sort he had no real love for hia art and not the least touch of poetic feeling he knew an oak from a tree and the sort of touch that should be in the foliage of each a yellow was to him a yellow and ho mix the colors enough which made up its hue his education had been by no means neglected but it had been of a strange sort every thing he had learned was as it were for immediate am of a superficial but character the of a would have shaken their heads at what richard did know almost as severely ns at his lack of knowledge he had read a good deal of all kinds of including much be play a little on the piano and speak french with an excellent accent in a word he had learned every thing that had pleased him aa well as a little latin and some which had not he in the bone knew english history far better than most young but the sight of or had never made bis heart with an idea by a single beat associations had no charm for him this mighty oak for example under the shadow of which he and which he had transferred so to his t has no longer any interest for him he has done it and its use and are therefore departed in his eyes he quite that it is called the s in token probably of some of wild ducks effected by from its cover tliat this tree is of years old � the oldest in ail the chase he has read the talking oat for indeed he can quote by the yard and in and it would have been natural enough one would think in such a time and place that some thoughts of what this venerable monarch of the forest must have witnessed would come into bis mind the same moonlight that now shines down between its knotted ru ed branches must have doubtless lit on many a of lovers for it was ever a favorite for in years the young perhaps may here when was an have given double to himself and to the girl who to her love maiden and gallant many a time have foi their political differences beneath this oak as yet a tree not ed to nay perhaps even those of york and may here have been for in one red rose of a blush bluff harry had hunted beneath its once wide spreading arms and certainly the martyr king had done so with a score of generations of men of all sorts dead and gone god alone knows whither though no more the sounded nor the bow was heard there was surely an echo of their music in the young painter s ear ko there was none heard are sweet bnt those was a line had read perhaps but certainly had not understood he heard the bare branch and sway above his head as the wind slowly took it he heard the night jar as it flew by on silent wing and now and then he heard or thought he heard the of the voices of his fellow a great way off which was his only touch of fancy they were all silent and in close hiding it is not to be supposed however hat his mind was fixed upon the matter in which he was engaged so that other subjects were thereby excluded fi om it the of night was not a matter that interested him either in principle or practice he would just as soon that the keeper had not reminded him of his offer to share his watch � the whim that had once seized him to do so had died away hut having is company he was not oi once promised h break his word the young mar neither with the p the s thoughts were busy then st nor the present but with his future the path of did not lie straight before richard as it does before most men of his age and in fact it came so to speak abruptly to a termination exactly where he stood in such a case the choice of the boundless and is only limited by the and circumstances as matters were ha had scarcely to live on � not nearly enough to do so as his tastes and habits suggested and yet by one bold stroke with luck to back it he might not one day that have had small charm for him but at once and for his hfe long bo rich and prosperous he could not be said to have expectations bnt his ion was not without certain extreme brilliancy of which might almost for their it was from a dream of future greatness or what seemed to him as such wherein he saw himself wealthy and i surrounded with luxury and witli the of every pleasure that he was suddenly and awakened by a trifling incident � the snapping of a dead in the hard by in an instant of thought was swept aside and the young fellow was all ear and eye the wind had dropped for some time and the silence was intense that solemn hush seemed to the forest which some poet has attributed to the of spiritual life as the of the were for the of occupations until the mortal should pass by nothing or if so it was motion without sound as when the full owl softly through the midnight air above him hot a dead leaf fell and where the leaves had fallen there they lay was it then that a broke | 25 |
stop a moment said mr excessively red in the face i told you the last time you were here with a grievance that you had better turn about and come out of that and i also told you if you remember that i was up to the gold spoon look out i were not up to t sir i do assure yo now it s clear to me said mr that you are one of those who have always got a grievance and you go about it and raising crops that s the business of your life my friend hard times shook his head protesting that indeed he had other business to do for his life you are such a ill chap you see said mr that even your own union the men who know you best will have nothing to do with you i never thought those fellows could be right in anything but i tell you what i so far go along with them for a novelty that ill have nothing to do with you either raised his eyes quickly to his face you can finish off what you re at said mr with a meaning nod and then go elsewhere sir yo know said that if i get work wi yo i get it the reply was what i know i know and what you know you know i have no more to say about it glanced at again but her eyes were raised to his no more therefore with a sigh and saying barely above his breath heaven help us aw in this world he departed hard times chapter vi fading away it was falling dark when came out of mr s house the shadows of night had gathered so fast that he did not look about him when he closed the door but straight along the street nothing was further from his thoughts than the curious old woman he had encountered on his previous visit to the same house when he heard a step behind him that he knew and turning saw her in s company he saw first as he had heard her only ah my dear thou wi her well and now you are surprised to be sure and with reason i must say the old woman returned here i am again you see but how wi said falling into their step walking between them and looking from the one to the other why i come to be with this good pretty much as i came to be with you said the old woman cheerfully taking the reply upon herself my visiting time is later this year than usual for i have been rather troubled with of breath and so put it off till the weather was fine and warm for the same reason i don t make all my journey in one day but divide it into two days and get a bed to night at the travellers coffee house down by the railroad a nice clean house times and go back at six in the morning well but what has this to do with this good says yon fm going to tell you i have heard of mr being married i read it in the paper where it looked grand � oh it looked fine the old woman dwelt on it with strange enthusiasm and i want to see his wife i have never seen her yet now if you ll believe me she hasn t come out of that house since noon to day so not to give her up too easily i was waiting about a little last bit more when i passed close to this good two or three times and her face being so friendly i spoke to her and she spoke to me there said the old woman to you can make all the rest out for yourself now a deal shorter than i can i dare say once again had to conquer an instinctive to dislike this old woman though her manner was as honest and simple as a manner possibly could be with a gentleness that was as natural to him as he knew it to be to he pursued the subject that interested her in her old age well said he i ha seen the lady and she were and wi fine dark eyes and a still way as i ha never seen the like on young and handsome yes cried the old woman quite delighted as as a rose and what a happy wife aye i suppose she be said but with a doubtful glance at suppose she be she must be she s your master s wife returned the old woman nodded assent though as to my master said he glancing again at not master more that s aw him and me hard times have you left his work asked anxiously and quickly why he replied whether i ha his work or whether his work ha n me f th same his work and me are parted tis as so � better i were when yo up me it would ha brought n trouble upon trouble if i had stayed tis a kindness to that i go tis a kindness to it be done i turn my face fro fur th time and seek a fort n dear by fresh where will you go i t night said he lifting off his hat and his thin hair with the flat of his hand but i m not goin t night nor yet t morrow tan t easy t know t turn but a good heart will to me too the sense of even thinking aided him before he had so much as closed mr s door he had reflected that at least his being obliged to go away was good for her as it would save her from the chance of being brought into question for not withdrawing from him though | 8 |
had i only foreseen � what a fool i was i ought to have known better i have had nothing but bad luck all my life nothing it is perfectly wonderful the bad luck have had no matter what i did nothing seemed to go right i if you had gone to see that fellow without me it would have turned out differently but i don t see how i am to tell my sister point blank that i have forbidden him the house what will she say she may fly at me women have queer particularly when you interfere with their young men my sisters have the very worst of you don t know them as i do fortunately it is not sally i assure you i wouldn t face sally with such news for all the money you could give me i am very sorry old chap but we must now go through it you must forbid her to communicate with him she won t heed what i say it will only excite her she will fly at me and call me names and burst into tears i should not be surprised if she went off her head she has been very strange once before i don t mean to say she spring days was ever wrong in her head but she is a nervous girl � most my sisters are the most girls i have ever known it was soon over had not spoken a dozen words when he was interrupted you mean to say you have been to call on him yes and we told him he was never to speak to you again frank expected her eyes to flash fire but he only noticed a slight change in her face a movement of the muscles of the lower jaw then i will speak to neither of you again and she walked out of the room and in dismay they listened to her going upstairs she didn t fly at ine said and looking a little terrified he his moustache softly i told you she would give no heed to what we said nor do i see how we can prevent her seeing that fellow if she chooses he cannot come into the house it is true but she can go out when she pleases we must follow her conscious of defeat desired compromise he could not be induced to take a share of watching and following which frank declared essential and seriously an encounter with whose arm was impossible to forget he shut himself up in the shop and devoted himself to drawing up a most elaborate balance sheet showing how he would stand if he were obliged to close the business to morrow frank about the roads � but mrs came along with her dogs and engaged him in conversation and no matter at q s spring days what comer he stationed himself he found he was not free from observation and next morning he could not bring himself to return to his post and contented himself with looking out of his window and taking an occasional stroll by the when he saw a train daily his condition grew more and more ridiculous true it is that ho had heard that his rival s holiday had come to an end and that he had been forced to return to his counting house in london true it is that mr had in a certain measure approved of s action in forbidding young the house and therefore of his frank s suit but neither of these gains him for the crowning loss of not being able to see his beloved for although the house was still open to him practically it was closed the sisters although at on all subjects had united in him and and during one dinner the misery of which he declared he could never forget they had sat whispering together refusing to address him either by look or word took all this calmly it is an ill wind that blows no good and the silence enabled him to thoroughly his food mr wept a little and laughed a little and reminded them of the oblivion that awaited all their little quarrels all this like much else in life was ridiculous enough but because we are ridiculous it does not follow that we do not suffer and frank suffered very indeed he was five and twenty and light love had him fairly by the shoulder he and he cried out but very soon his dignity gave way and he forgiveness but passed without him for more than spring days a week she resisted all his appeals and it was not until she saw that she was taking the neighbourhood into her confidence and to feel that if she did not a little he might leave and riot return she answered him with a with what bliss did he hear that first no and how passionately he pleaded for a few words it did not seem to matter what they were so long as he heard her speak one whole sentence to him feeling her power she was shy of yielding and with every concession she drew him further into the of love he dined now nearly every day at the house and he spent an hour sometimes two with her in the morning or afternoon he followed her from to but all his efforts were and he failed not only to obtain her promise to marry him but even a renewal of the feeble and partial hopes which she had accorded him that night on the beach he prayed he wept he implored pity he openly spoke of suicide and he hinted at murder but passed him pushing him out of the way with the watering pot threatening to water him too until one day he drew a revolver she screamed and the revolver was put away but on the next occasion a | 15 |
already made and could not but hope that the though she had told no for tune might be proved to have made s about a fortnight after the alarm they came to a sufficient explanation and quite was not thinking of it at the moment which made the information she received more valuable she merely said in the course of some trivial chat well whenever you marry i would advise you to do so and so and thought no more of it till after a minute s silence she heard say in a very serious tone i shall never marry then looked up and immediately saw how it was and after a moment s debate as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not replied � never marry � this is a new resolution it is one that i never shall change however after another short hesitation i hope it does not proceed from � i hope it is not in compliment to mr mr indeed cried indignantly oh no � and could just catch the words so superior to mr she then took a longer time for consideration should she proceed no further should she let it pass and seem to suspect nothing perhaps might think her cold or angry if she did or perhaps if she were totally silent it might only drive into asking her to hear too much and against anything like such an as had been such an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances she was perfectly resolved she believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at once all that she meant to say and know plain dealing was always best she had previously determined how far she would proceed on any application of the sort and it would be safer for both to have the judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed she was decided and thus spoke � i will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning your resolution or rather your expectation of never marrying results from an idea that the person whom you might prefer would be too greatly your superior in situation to think of you is not it so oh miss believe me i have not the presumption to suppose � indeed i am not so mad but it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a distance and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of the world with the gratitude wonder and veneration which are so proper in me especially i am not at all surprised at you the service he rendered you was enough to warm your heart service oh it was such an obligation the very recollection of it and all that i felt at the time when i saw him coming � his noble look and my wretchedness before such a change in one moment such a change from perfect misery to perfect happiness it is very natural it is natural and it is honorable � yes honorable i think to choose so well and so gratefully but that it will be a fortunate preference is more than i can promise i do not advise you to give way to it i do not by any means engage for its being returned vol ii � consider what you are about perhaps it will be wisest in you to check your feelings while you can at any rate do not let them carry you far unless you are persuaded of his liking you be observant of him let his behavior be the guide of your sensations i give you this caution now because i shall never speak to you again on the subject i am determined against all interference i know nothing of the matter let no name ever pass our lips we were very wrong before we will be cautious now he is your superior no doubt and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature but yet more wonderful things have taken place � there have been matches of greater but take care of yourself i would not have you too sanguine though however it may end be assured that your raising your thoughts to him is a mark of good taste which i shall always know how to value kissed her hand in silent and gratitude was very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend its tendency would be to raise and her mind and it must be saving her from the danger of degradation chapter xiii in this state of schemes and hopes and june opened upon to in general it brought no material change the were still talking of a visit from the and of the use to be made of their and jane was still at her grandmother s and as the return of the from ireland was again delayed and august instead of fixed for it she was likely to remain there full two months longer provided at least she were able to defeat mrs s activity in her service and save herself from being hurried into a delightful situation against her will mr who for some reason best known to himself had certainly taken an early dislike to frank was only growing to dislike him more he began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit of that was his object appeared everything declared it his own attentions his father s hints his mother in law s guarded silence it was all in words conduct discretion and told the same story but while so many were him to and herself making him over to mr began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with jane he could not understand it but there were symptoms of intelligence between them � he thought so at least � symptoms of admiration on his side which having once observed he could not persuade himself | 26 |
is found to be the wife of a man who certainly seems to be worse off than i he had the prior claim said she what you knew him at that time yes yes please say no more she implored whatever my errors i have paid for them during the last five years the heart of was subject to sudden he was kind to a fault i am sorry from my soul he said involuntarily approaching her withdrew a step or two at which he became conscious of his movement and quickly took his former place here he stood without speaking and the little kettle began to sing well you might have been my wife if you had chosen he said at last but that s all past and gone however if you are in any trouble or poverty i shall be glad to be of service and as your relation by marriage i shall have a right to be does your uncle know of your distress my uncle is dead he left me without a and now we have two children to maintain what left you nothing how could he be so cruel as that i disgraced myself in his eyes now said earnestly let me take care of the children at least while you are so unsettled you belong to another so i cannot take care of you yes you can said a voice and suddenly a third figure stood beside them it was sally you can since you seem to wish to she repeated she no longer belongs to another my poor brother is dead her face was red her eyes sparkled and all the woman came to the front i have heard it she tales went on to him passionately you can protect her now as well as the children she turned then to her agitated sister in law i heard something said sally in a gentle murmur much from her previous passionate words and i went into his room it must have been the moment you left he went off so quickly and weakly and it was so unexpected that i couldn t leave even to call you was just able to gather from the confused discourse which followed that during his sleep by the fire this brother whom he had never seen had become worse and that during s absence for water the end had unexpectedly come the two young women hastened upstairs and he was again left alone after standing there a short time he went to the front door and looked out till softly closing it behind him he advanced and stood under the large the stars were flickering coldly and the which had just descended upon the earth in rain now sent up a chill from it was in a strange position and he felt it the unexpected appearance in deep poverty of � a young lady daughter of a deceased naval officer who had been brought up by her a and had refused in marriage years ago � the passionate almost angry of sally at them the abrupt announcement that was a widow all this coming together was a difficult to cope with in a moment and made him question whether he ought to leave the house or offer assistance but for sally s manner he would have done the latter he was still standing under the tree when the door in front of him opened and mrs hall came out she went round to the garden gate at the side without seeing him followed her intending to at the pausing outside as if in thought she proceeded to a spot where the sun came earliest in spring time and where the north wind never blew it was where the row of stood under the wall her object he waited till she had accomplished it it was the universal custom to wake the bees by tapping at their whenever a death occurred in the household under the belief that if this were not done the bees themselves would pine away and perish during the year as soon as an interior responded to her tap at the first hive mrs hall went on to the second and thus passed down the row as soon as she came back he met her what can i do in this trouble mrs hall he said o � nothing thank you nothing she said in a tearful voice now just perceiving him we have called and her husband and they m l do everything necessary she told him in a few words the particulars of her son s arrival broken in health � indeed at death s very door though they did not suspect it � and suggested as the result of a conversation between her and her daughter that the wedding should be postponed yes of course said i think now to go straight to the inn and tell what has happened it was not till after he had shaken hands with her that he turned hesitatingly and added will you tell the mother of his children that as they are now left i shall be glad to take the eldest of them if it would be any convenience to her and to you mrs hall promised that her son s widow should be told of the offer and they parted he retired down the slope and disappeared in the direction of the inn where he informed of the circumstances meanwhile mrs hall had entered the house sally o was in the sitting room alone and her mother explained to her that had readily assented to the no doubt he has said sally with sad emphasis it is not put off for a week or a month or a year i never marry him and she will iv i i me passed and the household on the became again serene under the influences of daily routine a very correspondence dragged on between sally hall | 45 |
comes to the from the to find its way down all the little and streams into the brook and that consequently the water in the brook will be highest a short time after the rain is over in one place the water had the banks of the brook and had spread all about under the trees which thus seemed to be growing out of a pond the rock which had observed in the morning the torrent was now wholly imder water and the stream showed no indication of its presence except by a ripple the boys noticed these things as they passed but they hastened along to the dam to see what were the appearances there they could see no traces of the dam whatever the water swept over the place in one overwhelming and unbroken torrent the boys stood upon the bank a few minutes looking on in silence and yet with great interest until at length james said � it is all carried away isn t it i don t know answered it has been carried away or whether it is bu there � deep imder water but the the the could not be covered with water water and so if the dam was there still we should see the tops of the did not reply but he considered james s reasoning as then said he after a short pause the and the board have all gone down stream together and that s the end of our dam however he continued at any rate if we have not got a dam we have got a and we will sail some ships down so the boys left in the wagon in a place where ho could see pretty well and they began to into the water sticks of wood and poles and little logs and other such floating as could find around there and then they amused themselves in watching them as they were borne swiftly away down the stream sometimes dashing first against one bank and then against the other sometimes shooting straight forward along the middle of the current and now and then plunging headlong down a or a in this sport they followed the stream down for some distance until called out t them not to leave him so far behind bo the boys left in the wagon � page the new york public library foundations a l and then they went back to him and after about an hour returned home the next day came again to look at the brook and he found that the water had subsided nearly to its accustomed level he proceeded immediately to the site of the dam and found that there were no traces of it remaining whatever except the two little cuts in the bank where had inserted the two ends of the board the water was slowly along the sandy bed of the brook taking its own course and looking as if it was saying to between these banks i choose to have my own way about a month after this as james and were at work among the bushes at a considerable distance below where the dam had been built james suddenly stopped cutting and said with a loud sigh � o dear me i am tired i wish had a good place to sit down well said we ll look about and find a log or something o here is a board meaning up against these bushes he and james went to get the board and jo their utter astonishment they found that g it was the identical board which liad into the dam they knew it by the and holes they got it out from the place in the bushes where it had been caught and made a seat of it and this was the end of their dam as for the and the narrow board they never saw any thing of them again thus their dam was first by the pressure of the water in the brook and then afterwards carried wholly away by its what effect did expect would be produced by the and the consequent rising of the water in the brook which would the force of the jet really depend upon the quantity of water flowing in the brook or the height of the water the dam what were the appearances of the brook when first went down when he went down the second time did he expect to find the water higher or not so high why did he expect to find it not so high how was it in fact why was it higher after the rain was oyer what was the appearance at the dam was the board carried away by the pressure or by the of the water what is f relate th� circumstances under which they found the board chapter xi s lecture one day and were sent away by s father about eight miles into a neighboring town in a wagon to get some apples of a particular kind called the cherry from their color they bought them of a farmer they went early in the day because they had to gather the apples themselves from the trees and had to climb up into the trees with baskets and take oflf the apples one by one to prevent their being bruised � for s father wanted to keep them all winter about four o clock they had finished gathering the apples they put them into three great bags which they put into the wagon behind the seat they put in some straw first to prevent the apples getting bruised by the of the wagon lu k two apples for himself to eat by thi way and so they set out for home they went on very for some time but at length when they were about five miles from home down came the back of the wagon to the ground with a violent shock | 22 |
a wall before us to change our direction and instead of proceeding parallel to the to strike suddenly towards it � we had now a close view of some of the obstacles which bar the approach to the of on which we were about to enter seemed to me absolutely the only relief to the white snow and ice before us was an occasional rock thrusting its sharp point above their surface and too steep to permit the snow to lodge on it one of these rocks or rather a chain of them called the grand which we had destined for our resting place for ae was vm but above our heads at the of four or five miles the however still lo defy all attempts to approach it� the of uke the rest of the of the is an immense mass of ice filling a valley which stretches down the mountain side and is formed by the snow and ice which are constantly in the summer months sliding from above while the are thus constantly increasing on the surface die internal heat of the earth is slowly melting them below � hence when they are large there generally proceeds from under them a considerable stream such are the sources of the and of the their surface often that of a sea suddenly they are frequently of several in breadth and from to feet in depth the snow which falls on them to the depth of several feet every winter is softened by the sun s rays in summer and again at the return of cold weather but in a more solid state forms a successive every year this may be easily measured as each of them is distinctly separated from its neighbour by a dark line at the section made by those cracks which every in all directions these cracks or are occasioned by ae irregular sinking of part of the whose support below has been gradually melted away this effect takes place principally in summer with a noise that may be heard at the distance of several miles and with a shock that makes the neighbouring country tremble these rents are from a few to or even or feet in breadth and generally of immense depth probably extending to the bottom of the they offer the greatest danger and to the passenger they are often concealed by the snow which gives no indication on its surface of the want of and it often happens that the � � � � � � � � � � i i � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � � m � � a � � � visit to the summit of ing all his caution suddenly sinks through this veil into the chasm beneath we remained a couple of hours at our resting place to take some refreshment and to regain strength for our next difficult task our feet seemed to linger and to leave with reluctance the last ground we were to touch until our return we however entered on the with confidence in the skill and prudence of our guides several of whom being hunters and accustomed to chase the over such were acquainted with all the precautions that it was necessary to take for our safety to avoid the danger of falling into the especially those washed by the snow we fastened ourselves three persons together at the distance of or feet apart by a cord round the body so that in case of one falling into one of these the other two could support urn each person was provided with a pole six feet long and pointed at the bottom with iron which we found to be a necessary article � where the were not more than two or three feet broad we over them with the assistance of our others we passed on natural bridges of snow that threatened to sink into the abyss and over others we made a bridge of the ladder which was extremely alight as otherwise it would have been impossible to carry it up the we had ascended without it� we could not have passed the over this slender support we crawled with caution over a chasm into which we could see to an immense depth but of which we could see no bottom we were sometimes forced to pass on a narrow ridge of treacherous ice not more than a foot in breadth with one of these terrific on either side the firm step with which we saw our guides pass these difficulties inspired us with confidence but i can not even now think of some of the situations we were placed in without a sentiment of dread and especially when in and in the silence of the night they present themselves to my vol i to the summit of imagination i involuntarily shrink with horror at the i and am astonished in what little sensation i felt at the moment we threw down into some of the narrow cracks pieces of ice and fragments of rock and heard for a considerable time the noise and more distant sound as they bounded from side to side in no instance could we perceive the stone strike the bottom but the sound instead of suddenly as would then have been the case grew fainter and fainter until it was too feeble to be heard what then must be the immense depth of these when in these silent regions the noise of a large stone striking the bottom b too distant to be heard at the the number of we met with which were broader than the length of our ladder and which of course we had no means of crossing rendered our we were often enabled | 48 |
of an police j c � a took us up four flights of st rs to i that we might have a d of the whole theatre this row bears no resemblance to our galleries or to those of the english theatres the box we entered was one of several called de so they are fitted up as s for clubs of gentlemen with � tables and and are veil lifted the of the from is or would b magnificent when they hare an a a daylight illumination ordinarily the blaze of is for the stage the audience is in comparative obscurity and consequently la b perhaps twice as large as the opera house in london its effect is by no means so brilliant as that where the light is and reflected by richly dressed people here we could only imperfectly now a matron s cap and then a young lady s as they peeped from behind the curtains of th boxes the rows of boxes are with mile bordered with crimson the box is the it the second and third rows and is as lai e as a small drawing room and is of coarse fitted up with and has a gilded crown suspended over it the theatre is the great of society the ladies receive in their boxes instead of at home and being constructed with reference to this custom they are deep and narrow not more than two can occupy a front seat between the seats in the pit and the front boxes there is a wide left for the gentlemen to the music is a secondary object holding e same place it does in a drawing room a air or a favourite attention for a few moments but as far as i have observed even the italian is not the common in b j of the bound of his own voice to s to be not to heavenly b was the in which when in the street i have to it being rather a phenomenon to see young ladies walking about as our girls do but the gaze of men lounging before our box and planting their for the ace of two or compared with the with i our women at home are treated rather strongly dr in the two after having heard la c the here was no great affair the can no longer afford to pay th best the presence of art and the result of study are striking in the stage management the opera all its is the study of this nation bs ns are the study of england and the states during the which by the way is ed between the acts of the opera much to the of its effect there was a corps of between and girls on the stage at the same moment not varying in height children are for the at a school uie for the and for besides this should be a fearful question to who must answer it it would i should cure people s mud for opera to witness the e of these poor young i felt sorry for our dear girls and for myself that ve were present at such i cannot call it ty a more name there were persons on stage at one time belonging to the army the emperor pays a sum to sa the opera at la considering it an e instrument for the political pulse ef italy no wonder that must be employed to sing e to those who have a master s pointed at th homes among other which the emperor has that the love of that divine and essence is at work in the hearts of the is the fact that no italian lady an officer in her box with it matters not what rank he holds if tes him she is put into by her countrymen is there not hope of a people who while their chains are dare thus openly to disdain their masters � it ii we m no of italy aa it is by overpowered bj ths ot bet force and is still into but we of a � how that the of their a to in the twelfth when � their from them their and off their soldiers we are feeble forsaken and they said be i bo it does not to to hut to our country we oar left in our arms and the yet boiling d d l g g i thk two the c have beat to see us and eagerness to s letter the elder c is of th� aa office that has fallen its al to a mere but mil as its gift is a proof of favour its incumbent will probably be of the friends of the bat apart from this � e hare reason to expect the have no fellowship with the and into that we the habits and modes of in the two are ao different that there can be but little pleasure social intercourse the english gentleman in his italian acquaintance to his home he comes here and is offered the italian s he is and cold and intercourse ends after the gentlemen left ra r a� k o had been talking with c � i how him very much he is not only tiiat rice does not grow in new england that the does not empty into the atlantic but ha as with the of our country as if he had there the count is a a world and the most delicate made oi t id md b� wa will wait not till tho hope of conquering i� � that bat till of n � t � is the greatest of all s tbe of the in the and the ob places in a one of the little used believe the display of and to crown all we had the of count c s escort the which you know is the great | 6 |
who s who and i said to myself she was bom in cambridge and he is twenty car old and then i said twenty seven years old and free and fancy free but how did i know she was fancy free and the pang of new bom jealousy put all incredulity to flight there was no doubt about it i was jealous therefore i loved and the woman i loved was i van was in love i and the doubt assailed me not that i was afraid of it however or reluctant to meet it on the contrary that i was to the most pronounced degree my had always recognized and love as the greatest thing in the world the aim and the summit of bein the most exquisite pitch of joy and happiness to which life could thrill the thing of all things to be hailed and wc and taken into the heart but now that it t l the sea wolf i could not believe i could not be so fortunate it was too good too good to be true s lines came into my head i wandered all these years among a world of women seeking you and then i had ceased seeking it was not for me this greatest thing in the world i had decided was right i was an monster a strange creature capable of in sensations only of the mind and though i had been surrounded by women all my days my appreciation of them had been and nothing more i had actually at times considered myself outside the pale a fellow denied the eternal or the passing passions i saw and understood so well in others and now it had come of and it had come in what could have been no less than an ecstasy i left my post at the head of the and started along the deck murmuring to myself those beautiful lines of mrs i lived with visions for my company instead of men and women years ago and found gentle mates nor thought to know a sweeter music than they played to me but the sweeter music was playing in my ears and i was blind and to all about me the sharp voice of wolf aroused me what the hell are you up to he was demanding i had strayed forward where the sailors were painting and i came to myself to find my advancing foot on the verge of a paint pot sleep walking � what he no i retorted and continued my walk if had occurred chapter xxiv among the most vivid memories of my life arc those of i the events on the occurred the forty j rs succeeding the discovery of my love for i who had lived my life in quiet places only to enter at the � of thirty five upon a of the most adventure i could have imagined never bad incident and excitement crammed into any forty of my experience nor can i quite close my cars to a small voice of pride which tells me i did not do so badly all things considered to begin with at the midday dinner wolf informed the hunters that they were to eat in the it was an thing on where it is the custom for the hunters to rank as officers he gave do reason but his motive was obvious enough and smoke had been displaying a gallantry toward ludicrous in itself and to her but to him evidently distasteful the announcement was received with black silence though the other four hunters glanced significantly nt who had been the cause of their k quiet as was his way gave no sign but the darkly across smoke s forehead and he half his mouth to speak wolf was waiting for him the glitter in his eyes but closed his mouth again without having said anything s l the sea wolf anything to say the other demanded it was a challenge but smoke refused to accept it about what he asked so innocently that wolf was disconcerted while the others smiled oh nothing wolf said i just thought you might want to register a kick about what asked the smoke smoke s mates were now smiling his captain could have killed him and i doubt not that blood would have flowed had not been present for that matter it was her presence which enabled smoke to act as he did he was too discreet and cautious a man to wolf s anger at a time when that anger could be expressed in terms stronger than words i was in fear that a struggle might take place but a cry from the made it easy for the situation to save itself smoke ho the cry came down the open way how s it bear wolf called up dead sir maybe it s a russian suggested his words brought anxiety into the faces of the other hunters a russian could mean but one thi ny � a the hunters never more than roughly aware of the position of the ship nevertheless knew that we were close to the boundaries of the forbidden sea while wolf s record as a was notorious all eyes upon him we re dead safe he assured them with a laugh no salt mines this time smoke but i ll tell you what � ih lay odds of five to one it s the no one accepted his offer and he went on in which event lay ten to one there s trouble up the no you spoke up i t object to losing my money but i like to get a run for tt anyway there never was a time when there wasn t trouble when you and that brother of yours got together and i ll lay twenty to one on that a smile followed in which t joined and the dinner went on smoothly thanks to | 21 |
given her by st john of the handsome and the shown by her little page to die rather than see her after failing to deliver her letter joined with her own appearance mark her very well the following is a prose sketch of her as seen in common life sir s portrait of of she is of too high a mind and dignity not only to seek but almost to wish the friendship of any creature they whom she is pleased to choose are such as are of the most eminent condition both for power and employment not with any design towards her own r sterling either of or curiosity but her nature fortunate persons as virtuous she prefers uie conversation of men to that of women not but she can talk on the fashions with her female friends but she is too soon sensible that she can set them as she wills that pre eminence all equality she with those who are most distinguished for their powers of love freely will she discourse listen to all its faults and mark all its power she cannot herself love in earnest but she will play with love and will take a deep interest for persons of condition and � see life of in a cabinet vol p the noblest trait given her in the play is the justice she is able to do charles after his treachery has consigned to the tower lady and ho betrayed you he i it cannot be there s not a in his court so vile holland nor would deceive a trust like that i placed in him nor would so seeming heart felt words as those he he s not entirely vile and yet he did it this seen in with her out pouring of contempt upon the king when present makes out a character as a whole that given her by the poet is not only nobler than the one assigned her in history but opposed to it in a vital point the play after has set forth for the with the from her left in the tower where she has on his last moments alone henceforth forever while history makes her transfer her attachment to who must have been in her eyes s murderer on the score of her love of intellectual power in which all other considerations were this is a character so odious and in a woman so unnatural that we are tempted rather to suppose it was hatred of the king for his base and treacherous conduct towards that induced her lo betray to the counsels of the court as the best means of revenge such a version of her motives would not be vol iv � no iii u sterling inconsistent with the character assigned her in the play it would be making her the agent to execute her own curse so spoken after she finds the king willing to save himself by the sacrifice of s life the woman s mad her passion the skies l i brave them not i but their justice to rain hot curses on a tyrant s head henceforth i set myself apart for mischief to find and prompt men capable of hate until some dagger in s blood at the heart of s murderer charles his murderer o god � no no � not that sinks back into a seat and here i call on all the powers above us to aid the deep of my curse and make this treason to the noblest man that moves alive within our english seas fatal to him and all his race a worth it ne er could stars in your glory vital air and sun and thou dark earth our cradle nurse and grave and more than all free truth and justice with all your dreadful influence against bis blood whose crime ye now behold make him a and a name of woe a conquered warrior and a outcast to teach kings the law of evil power till by an end more and than his great victim s and with heavier pain let him off to a detested grave and now i give your majesty leave to go and may you carry from my house away that fixed of the heart which i have helped your thoughts to fasten there if these burning words had as much power to her own heart as they must that of the we only realize our when we find her sending to the five members the news of the intention of charles to arrest them thus placing him in a position equally ridiculous and miserable incurred all the of this violent transaction to no purpose that might well be a proud moment of gratified vengeance to her when he stood amid the sullen and outraged parliament baffled like a as a thief exclaiming the birds are flown and all owing to the of the honorable lady car the play opens with s return to london he is made to return in rather a temper from what he really did not only trusting the king but in his own greatness fearless of the popular hatred the opening scenes are very good compact well wrought and showing at the very beginning the probable fortunes of the scene by making the characters the agents of their own a weight of tragedy is laid upon the heart and at the same time we are inspired with deep interest as to how it shall be acted out appears before us as he does in history a grand and melancholy whose dignity lay in his energy of will and large scope of action not in his perception of principles or virtue in carrying them out for his faith in the need of absolute sway to control the herd does not merit the name of a principle in my thought the promise of grows to the self same stature as the need which is gigantic | 37 |
fast asleep but within the limits of the clearing h k there was not a single blade of green � nothing m but the trampled earth h the book the moonlight showed it all iron gray except where some stood upon it and their shadows were black little looked holding his breath with his eyes starting out of his head and as he looked more and more and more swung out into the open from between the tree trunks little could count only up to ten and he counted again and again on his fingers till he lost count of the and his head began to swim outside the clearing he could hear them crashing in the as they worked way up the but as soon as they were within the circle of the tree trunks they moved like ghosts there were white wild with fallen leaves and nuts and twigs lying in the wrinkles of their necks and the folds of their ears fat slow footed she with restless little black only three or four feet high running under their young with their just beginning to show and very proud of them with their hollow anxious faces and trunks like rough bark savage old bull from shoulder to flank with great and cuts of fights and the dirt of their solitary mud dropping from of the their shoulders and there was one with a broken and the marks of the stroke the terrible drawing scrape of a tiger s claws on his side they were standing head to head or walking to and fro across the ground in couples or rocking and swaying all by themselves � scores and scores of knew that so long as he lay still on s neck nothing would happen to him for even in the rush and scramble of a a wild elephant does not reach up with his trunk and drag a man off the neck of a tame elephant and these were not thinking of men that night once they started and put their ears forward when they heard the of a leg iron in the forest but it was s pet elephant her chain snapped short off up the she must have broken her and come straight from s camp and little saw another elephant one that he did not know with deep rope on his back and breast he too must have run away from some camp in the hills about at last there was no sound of any more moving in the forest and rolled out from his station between the trees and went the book into the middle of the crowd and j ling and all the began to talk in their own tongue and to move about still lying down little looked upon scores and scores of broad backs and wag ears and tossing trunks and little rolling eyes he heard the click of as crossed other by accident and the rustic of trunks together and the of enormous sides and shoulders in the crowd and the incessant and of the tails then a cloud came over the moon and sat in black darkness but the quiet steady and pushing and went on just same he knew that there were all round and that there was no chance of him out of the assembly so he set his teeth and shivered in a at least there was torch light and shouting but here he was all alone in the dark and once a trunk came touched him on the knee then an elephant and they all took it up for five or ten terrible seconds the dew from the trees above down like rain on the unseen backs and a dull noise began not very loud at first and little could not tell what it was but it grew and grew and lifted up one fore foot and then � � x m i j of the the other and brought them down on the ground � one two one two as steadily as trip the were stamping altogether now and it sounded like a war drum beaten at the mouth of a cave the dew fell from the trees till there was no more left to fall and the went on and the ground rocked and shivered and little put his hands up to his ears to shut out the sound but it was all one gigantic jar that ran through him � this stamp of hundreds of heavy feet on the raw earth once or twice he could feel and all the others forward a few strides and the would change to the crushing sound of green things being bruised but in a minute or two the boom of feet on hard earth began again a tree was creaking and groaning somewhere near him he put out his arm and felt the bark but moved forward still and he could not tell where he was in the clearing there was no sound from the except once when two or three little together then he heard a and a and the went on it must have lasted fully two hours and little ached in every nerve but he knew by the smell of the night air that the dawn was coming the book the morning broke in one sheet of pale yellow behind the green hills and the stopped with the first ray as though the light had been an order before little had got the ringing out of his head before even he had shifted his position there was not an elephant in sight except and the elephant with the rope and there was neither sign nor rustle nor whisper down the to show where the others had gone little stared again and again the clearing as he remembered it had grown in the night more trees stood in the middle of it but the and the grass at the sides had been rolled | 39 |
tale and when she told of and dropped the pearl into s hand even she was reconciled to the reality of her mother in law in the said you will sell the pearl to for five thousand french the house objected he will build the house answered he says it will cost four thousand french also will he give one thousand french in credit which is two thousand and it will be six long ay answered six and in the middle room will be the drop clock ay and the round table as well then give me something to eat for i am hungry said complacently and after that we will sleep for i am weary and to morrow we will have more the house of talk about the house before we sell the pearl it will be better if we take the thousand french in cash money is ever better than credit in buying goods the the whale tooth the whale tooth it was in the early days in when john arose in the at village and announced his intention of carrying the gospel throughout all now means the great land it being the largest island in a group composed of many large islands to say nothing of hundreds of small ones here and there on the living by most precarious was a of de and the smoke of the hot arose under their windows and the bodies of the slain were dragged by their doors on the way to the the or the worship was slowly and often in fashion chiefs who announced themselves o the whale tooth christians and were welcomed into the body of the chapel had a distressing habit of in order to partake of the flesh of some favorite enemy eat or be eaten had been the law of the land and eat or be eaten promised to remain the law of the land for a long time to come there were chiefs such as and who had literally eaten hundreds of their fellow men but among these ra highest ra lived at he kept a register of his exploits a row of stones outside his house marked the bodies he had eaten this row was two hundred and thirty paces long and the stones in it numbered eight hundred and seventy two each stone represented a body the row of stones might have been longer had not ra unfortunately received a spear in the small of his back in a bush on and been served up on the table of whose me the whale tooth string of stones numbered only the hard worked fever stricken stuck to their task at times despairing and looking forward for some special some outburst of fire that would bring a glorious harvest of souls but had remained the headed man were to leave their so long as the harvest of human was plentiful sometimes when the harvest was too plentiful they imposed on the by letting the word slip out that on such a day there would be a killing and a promptly the would buy the lives of the victims with stick tobacco of and of trade beads the chiefs drove a handsome trade in thus of their live meat also they could always go out and catch more it was at this juncture that john star the whale tooth proclaimed that he would carry the gospel from coast to coast of the great land and that he would begin by penetrating the mountain of the of the river his words were received with consternation the native teachers wept softly his two fellow strove to him the king of warned him that the mountain would surely him � meaning to eat � and that he the king of having become would be put to the necessity of going to war with the mountain that he could not conquer them he was perfectly aware that they might come down the river and sack village he was likewise perfectly aware but what was he to do if john persisted in going out and being eaten there would be a war that would cost hundreds of lives later in the day a of chiefs waited upon john he the whale tooth heard them patiently and argued patiently with them though he not a whit from his purpose to his fellow he explained that he was not bent upon that the call had come for him to carry the gospel into and that he was merely obeying the lord s wish to the who came and objected most of all he your objections are they consist merely of the damage that may be done your you are interested in making money but i am interested in saving souls the heathen of this dark land must be saved john was not a he would have been the first man to deny the he was eminently sane and practical he was sure that his mission would result in good and he had private visions of the spark in the souls of the and of a revival that would sweep the whale tooth down out of the mountains and across the length and breadth of the great land from sea to sea and to the in the midst of the sea there were no wild lights in his mild gray eyes but only calm resolution and an trust in the higher power that was guiding him one man only he found who approved of his project and that was ra who secretly encouraged him and offered to lend him guides to the first john in turn was greatly pleased by ra s conduct from an heathen with a heart as black as his ra was beginning to light he even spoke of becoming true three years before he had expressed a similar intention and would have entered the church had not john entered objection to his bringing his four wives along with him | 21 |
t f ends � we refer to the meat preparation of c ale bo den and the preserved fruits of vm smith of ny tl e is now an approved food having received a prize at the london exhibition it is formed by boiling down the strong beef of and mixing into the strong beef tea thus formed a certain proportion of the finest flour four of this are sufficient food for a man on active service it is light and keeps without change owing to the profusion of the cattle in the manufacture of the meat is carried on in that state near to the preserved fruits of m s th p f ij d by any other specimens t he preserves the fruit neither j p b b t t or a of the sam d bj th th bursting or the of f p and h flavor preserved by careful under water and preservation from contact with the air in au its stages the fruit is of the same whiteness as in its fresh state why are not these in this exhibition even here they would stand and may anywhere challenge there are a few specimens of preserved milk in the american department as also exhibited by co who show all afterward mr smith has removed his from our state to in to be where grow and preserved food kinds of vegetable e are useful pr on they arc made solid b partial of tbe milk and the subsequent of and sugar until the whole of and some looking preparations from the blood of the great f of the soil our first survey of ihe gave ua the tbat there was no display of the agricultural of the united states in the raw or natural condition of their growth not finding them in the agricultural department we had supposed there was an entire want or unfortunate in this to us and many thousands of other most interesting part of any exhibition that to present a view of the industry of all na � which we are just simple enough to suppose should include our own we can however now report that there is a w of used for human food it may be found on the lower floor next to the wall upon the north east side looking out towards forty second street as you enter from that street turn to the left and you will soon see all that we have seen the first articles in this collection that you will be to notice are a baker s dozen of very and very ancient looking roots there is no name nor anything to indicate what they are ov where they are from or why they are there the sole representatives of their numerous family and it is very difficult fur on to guess we happened to be able to tell sundry that they were potatoes they stared and wondered next to these are seven ears of white ent corn of large size small and long produced as a tells us by selection of seed this is and really useful interesting information next to these are nine other ears in the of similar white com which we came from the south or west next are three ears of corn also white which any one who knows can say was grown some of the soil where in the northern states its general appearance and round smooth then comes a collection � four white ears twelve yellow seed corn half an ear mixed blue and white and three boxes full of corn one striped one purple flint one yellow one of one of spring wheat one of winter and one of wild also a indian pack of the exhibited by m le due d captain of the army and whose names are an honor to the only section of the united states making any pretence toward a show there are also two of common field beans and two other which may possibly contain some uncommon ones or something else there is a beautifully arrayed case of ears and of indian corn intended to show all the kinds grown in this state for which we are indebted to col b p johnson secretary of the new york agricultural society as well as for two other cases of english grain this case of corn would be very interesting but it is placed in such a had light tliat nobody can sec it to any advantage now tell it not in but ye farmers of the united states and listen ye of this exhibition of industry this is the sum total of your agricultural in the raw state there is in the same neighborhood a good show of highly finished flour barrels which probably contain very white flour there are several neat looking bottles of and a said to contain sugar from a southern plantation there are some very white refined sugar and some pure looking and possibly a few other things is a case with some of yard long wool � the animals which produced it are among the outside one glass case of what probably may b eight of fine wool but aa yet invisible one case of fine cotton and several of that article and also some of and if this does not the sum total of the farm we hope somebody will correct our list which in fact articles � as refined sugar cotton and dressed and there is one dry limb of a cotton stalk showing the the great exhibition as it appears when ready to pick but that is stuck up almost out of sight with no name to what it is or where it grew or whether it grew at a about which many who look at it are quite uncertain and is the new york world s exhibition of industry and production of american farmers i can anything more disgraceful to that class of | 19 |
� � you were as flowers now withered � so these lets shall which we upon you among the beautiful and simple hearted customs of rural life which still linger in some parts of england are those of flowers before the and planting them at the graves of departed friends these it is said are the remains of some of the rites of the primitive church � but they are of still higher antiquity having been observed among the and and frequently mentioned by their writers and were no doubt the spontaneous of affection long before art had itself to sorrow into song or story it on the monument they are now only to be met with in the most distant and retired places of the kingdom where q � fashion and hate not been able to in and out all the curious and interesting traces of the time in we are told the bed whereon the corpse lies is covered with flowers a custom alluded to in one of the wild and plaintive white his as the mountain snow all with sweet flowers which be wept to the grave did go with true love showers there is also a most delicate and beautiful observed in some of the remote villages of the south at the funeral of a female who has died young and unmarried a of white flowers is borne before the corpse by a young girl nearest age resemblance and is afterwards up m the church over the accustomed seat of the deceased these are sometimes made of white paper in imitation of flowers and inside pf them is generally a pair of white gloves they are intended as of the purity of the deceased and the crown of glory which she has received in in some parts of the country also the dead are carried to the grave with the singing of and hymns a kind of triumph to show says that they hate be their h joy and are become this te formed is observed in some of the northern ties particularly in and it has a pleasing though melancholy effect to hear of a still evening in some lonely country scene the mournful melody of a funeral swelling from a distance and to see the train slowly moving along the landscape thus thus and tl us a we compass round thy and ground and as we sing thy we will the and other flowers upon the altar of our love stone there is also a solemn respect paid by the traveller to the passing funeral in these places for such spectacles among the quiet of nature sink deep into the soul as the mourning train approaches he pauses uncovered to let it go by he then follows silently in the rear sometimes quite to the grave at other times for a few hundred yards and having paid mis tribute of respect to the deceased turns and his journey the rich vein of melancholy runs through the english character and gives it of its most touching and graces is finely in these pathetic customs and in the solicitude shown by the common people for an honoured and a peaceful grave the pe whatever may be his lowly lot while living is that some little respect may be paid to his remains sir thomas describing the and happy thus lives she and all her care is that she may die in the spring time to have store of flowers upon her winding sheet the poets too who always breathe the feeling of a nation continually to this fond solicitude about the grave in the maid s tragedy by arid there is a beautiful instance of the kind describing the capricious melancholy of a broken hearted girl when the a bank stuck full of flower s she with a sigh will tell her servants what a pretty place it were to bury lovers in and make her maids em and her over like a the custom of graves was once universally were carefully bent over to keep the turf and about them were planted and flowers we adorn their graves says in his with flowers and plants just of the l life c� man which been compared in holy to those fading beauties whose roots being busied in rise again in glory this usage has now become extremely rare in england but it may still be met with in the church yards of retired villages among the mountains and i recollect an instance of it at the small town of which lies at the head of the beautiful of i have been told also by a friend who was present at the funeral of a young girl in that the female attendants had their full of flowers which as soon as the body was they stuck about the grave he noticed several graves which had been decorated in the same manner as the flowers had been merely stuck in the ground and not planted they had soon withered and might be seen in various states of decay some drooping others quite perished they were afterwards to be by and other which on some graves had grown to great and the tomb stones there was formerly a melancholy in the arrangement of these rustic th t something in it truly poetical the rose was some times blended with the lily to form a general emblem of frail this sweet flower says borne on a branch set with thorns q � rural and accompanied with the lily are natural hi m of our fugitive anxious and life which making so fair a for a time is not yet without its thorns and crosses the nature and colour of the flowers and of the with which they were tied had often a particular reference to the qualities or story of deceased or were expressive of the feelings of the in an old poem entitled f s a lover the he | 48 |
she murmured almost all snow and darkness at the chapter le oil n a re il a un de vent old ballad the next morning dawned cold and dismal a dense yellow fog hung over the metropolis like a pall � the street lamps were lighted but their scarcely the and the chill of the snow air penetrated into the warmest rooms and made itself felt even by the side of the brightest fires sir philip woke with an uncomfortable sense of headache and depression and grumbled � as surely every has a the land of mockery right to at the wretchedness of his country s winter climate his humour was not improved when a arrived before breakfast him in haste to a dull town in one of the on pressing business connected with his for parliament what a bore he exclaimed showing the to his wife i go � and i shan t be able to get back to night you ll be all alone i wish you d go to the why said quietly i shall much prefer to be here i do not mind philip i am accustomed to be alone something in her tone struck him as particularly sad and he looked at her intently now my darling he said suddenly if this bother is making you feel worried or vexed in any way i ll throw it all by jove i will and he drew her into his warm embrace after all he added with a laugh what does it matter the country can get on without me smiled a little you must not talk so foolishly philip she said tenderly it is wrong to begin a thing of importance and not go through with it and i am not worried or vexed at all what would people say of me if i your wife were for my own selfish comfort and pleasure of having you always with me to prevent you from taking a good place among the men of your nation indeed i should deserve much blame and so though it is a gloomy day for you poor boy � you must go to this place where you are wanted and i shall think of you all the time you are gone and shall be so happy to welcome you home to morrow and she kissed and clung to him for a moment in silence all that day philip was haunted by the remembrance of the lingering tenderness of her farewell embrace by ten o clock he was gone taking with him and after her household duties were over prepared herself to go and lunch with old mrs and see what she would advise concerning the affair of sir francis but at the same time she resolved that nothing should make her speak of the reports that were afloat about her husband and violet know it is all false she said to herself over and over again and the people here are as silly as the in ready to believe any so long as it gives them something to talk about but they may chatter as they please � i shall not say one word not even to philip � for it would seem as if i him thus she put away all the morbid fancies that threatened to her and became almost cheerful and while she made her simple plans for pleasantly passing the long dull day of her husband s enforced absence her friend lady was making arrangements of a very nature her had received a from sir francis that morning the pink had apparently put her in an excellent humour though after reading it she it up and threw it in the waste paper basket from which her attendant half an hour later extracted it it in her own pocket for private perusal at leisure she ordered her saying she was going out on business � and before departing she took from her dressing case certain bank notes and crammed them hastily into her purse � a purse which in all good faith she handed to her maid to put in her bag of course managed to make herself aware of its contents � but when her at last entered her carriage her unexpected order to the brilliant theatre strand was sufficient to and cause him to exchange surprise with who merely smiled a incomprehensible smile where did your la ship say asked are you getting deaf responded his mistress pleasantly to the brilliant theatre she raised her voice and spoke with distinct emphasis there was no her touched his hat � in the same instant he winked at and then the carriage rolled away at night the brilliant theatre is a pretty little place � comfortable bright and deserving of its name � in broad day it is none of these things a seems to have settled upon it � it has a peculiar atmosphere of its own � an atmosphere dark heavy and strangely with of escaping gas and crushed orange behind the scenes these mingle with a all smell of beer � beer which the stranger s sensitive nose d directly in spite of the choking the land of mockery clouds of dust which arise from the boards at the smallest movement of any part of the painted scenery the brilliant had gone through much ill fortune � its never realized any financial profit till they secured violet with her came prosperity her utter absence of all reserve � the frankness with which she threw modesty to the winds � the vigour with which she danced a regular break down � roaring a comic song of the lowest type by way of accompaniment � the manner in which speaking she kicked at the public with her legs � all this of genius on her part drew crowds to the brilliant nightly and the grateful and happy paid her a handsome salary humoured all her and and for | 33 |
wistfully as at some young goddess of youth and health and to one she gave a bright morning greeting to another money perhaps to others hope � who the lovely can tell presently she turned out of the but lately opened gates and stood hesitating in garden miss said the policeman she addressed straight down through and square turn to your right then to your left and there you are when she had smiled and thanked him stood looking after her and he too smiled even his hideous dress and office could not quite cut him off from manly emotions and he was aware that quite early in the day he had got a most especial treat � and enjoyed it he touched his hat when passed him for was extremely well known but the look of pleasure diminished on his face and as a man he felt for he did not consider good enough for the young lady they re rum these he as he watched what he supposed to be the disappearance in the distance garden at this time of the morning when they might lie snug in their beds and i will say that blue eyes and io the lovely hair with a colour like a rose is my fancy and a walk so as she d go over as if they was satin he added thinking that if that were his sweetheart he would not tail behind but step out brisk beside her and then he thought of his fat sandy haired old woman at home and sighed half way down s came and as she stopped to tie it resting her foot on a stepped forward and performed the task for her she started very slightly and looking down on him as he knelt with a face full of delicious mirth and mischief said � don t be alarmed naught is never in danger may i come with you said when he had rubbed the dust from his knees and straightened himself i heard you tell the policeman where you were going you must know said keeping swift step with him as a man likes every woman to do but only a tall woman can said to me there s only one thing worth seeing in london and that s garden market before people are awake you get a the lovely real smell of the country there and a breath of the earth so here i am what will say and she turned a look of mischief on at which he laughed and shook his head but with the good the filial the respectable beside me who could possibly say anything that s all right then said cheerily if we meet any one we know as if any of them would be up said looking at the army and navy club which they were then passing doesn t it smell of stale sleep and after all i don t see why the poor � who get little else � shouldn t have the delicious early morning hours to themselves it must soothe their starved hearts and do them good even if they don t know it don t you think so it strikes me the poor get a lot of pity they don t deserve said who was a to the and who did not like some talk like a radical paper the worst of these poor is that they won t work they ll knock up over tasks that you or i would do without if we had got to do them that is where our training comes in cried the lovely the head helps the hands but those poor wretches who painfully along from birth to burial they can be taught by our trying to make their lives happier oh at the the other night after dinner i stood on the balcony and saw the dark figures far below on the and the black river beyond and i thought of what might be if only the people who have too much money would help those who have too little and what would you do said as they crossed the deserted that looked strangely under that clear pure morning sky i would light up the brilliantly from end to end think of that beautiful background of trees and picturesque houses the most beautiful site in europe for a people s i would have a at intervals under those trees with seats where people could rest and listen and there should be and books and every man should have his book and every woman her or coffee and the poorest of all should be there and the children who were big enough should come too the lovely the weather said but it does not rain right through the summer i would draw the men out of the public houses the poor tired women out of their stifling and they should all have a few hours of peace in the open air with such music as pleased them and they would go home refreshed to sleep not to and fight as they do now i would do the same with park and any other green space that was meant just as much for the enjoyment of the poor as the rich shook his head it would never answer he said oh why not cried passionately were all the pleasures in the world even pure air made solely for the rich i think it is � it is horrible � that one man may own twenty millions of money and another has to commit a crime to keep the life in his miserable body and if i were wealthy cried the girl indignantly i d be a it s the who are the real friends of the poor some of their money through to the very lowest classes and even if he does ruin himself the prodigal has done more good than the man who never no | 17 |
not what she expected she is disappointed and becomes complaining of woman s lot or discouraged and crushed by it she thinks him perfect his prejudices adds them to her early stock and ever them with his arguments where she from him in taste and habits she believes herself in the wrong and him in the right and life in to him instead of herself to her own ideal thus she loses her individuality and never gains his respect her life is usually bustle and hurry or barren order dreary decorum and method without vitality her children perhaps love her but she is only the upper nurse the father the his wish is law hers only the sigh uttered in secret she looks out into life finds nothing there but confusion and herself that it is man s business not hers to look through it all and find stern principle seated at the centre of things is this woman s destiny is she to be the only adventurer who her course through life tossed upon the waves of circumstance by joy panic struck by misfortune or of it is she neither to to heaven like the lark nor bend her way led by an guide to woman congenial to her nature is she always to flutter and flutter and at last drop into the wave man would not have it so for he the gently firm man does not ridicule nor expose to the woman who he wishes not for blind reverence but intelligent not for but to be understood not for obedience but companionship it is the weak and ignorant of her own sex who brand her but the still remains why are so many of the sex allowed to remain weak and frivolous the minor cares of life the path of woman demand as much reflection and clear and involve as much responsibility as those of man why is she not encouraged to think and penetrate through to principles she should be seen after the first years of unconscious childhood are passed meekly and reverently questioning and encouraged to question the opinions of others calmly contemplating beauty in all its forms studying the harmony of life as well as of outward nature deciding nothing learning all things gradually forming her own ideal which like that represented in the figures of the old sovereigns should and over her society would attract her and then gracefully mingling in it she should still be herself and there find her not her home she should feel that our highest hours are always our lonely ones and that nothing is good that does not prepare us for these beautiful and graceful forms should come before her as revelations of divine beauty but no charm of outward grace should tempt her to one hair s breadth from her demand for the noblest nature in her chosen companion guided in her demands by what she finds within herself seeking an answering note to her own inner melody but not sweetly herself into the belief that she has found in him the full toned harmony of the celestial if her demand is satisfied let her not lean but attend on him as a watchful friend her own individuality should be as precious to her as his love let her see that the best our most friend can do for us is to throw a genial atmosphere around us and our path with golden opportunities but our path can never be another s and we must always walk alone let no her high of creator of a happy home household order must prevail but let her it by its relation to that law which keeps the in their course every new relation and every new scene should be a new page in the book of the mysteries of life reverently and lovingly but if folded down never to be read again it must be regarded as only the introduction to a brighter one the faults of those she loves should never be veiled by her affection but placed in their true relation to by the deep insight with which she beneath them with high heroic courage she should measure the strength of suffering before it comes that she may not meet it unprepared her life plan should be stern but not her hours precious treasures lent to her carefully to be protected from vulgar intrusion but which women are constantly scattering around them like small coin to be picked up by every thought should be her atmosphere books her food friends her occasional solace prosperity will not her for her own spirit is always brighter than its sunshine and if the deepest sorrow visits her it will come to lift her to a higher region where with all of life far beneath her she may sit apart till the end is this the ideal of a perfect woman and if so how does it differ from a perfect man w n to � heard in like the low s of a leaf hid bird thy voice came to me h the screen trees sinking the simplest long known i had no glimpse of thee and yet i heard and blessed thee for each clearly word i longed to thank thee and my heart would frame mary or some sweet name for thee yet could i not my lips have stirred i lovely that thine eyes were blue and downcast and large unknown to thee up to their rise with half sad memories of other years as to alone thou o er that to childhood to mt no m l o an art thoughts on art department of life at the present day � trade politics letters science religion � seem to feel and to labor to express the identity of their law they are rays of one sun they each into a new language the sense of the other they are sublime when seen as of a | 37 |
him again and ho stood up holding by the mantel shelf as he pressed his cold hair down with a hand that shook as if it were i she was coming to him but he stretched out his arm to stop her no i don t please don t i let me see thee by the bed let me see thee a so good and so let me see thee as i see thee when i in i can never see thee better than so never never never he had a violent fit of trembling and then sunk into his chair a time he controlled himself and resting with an on one knee and his head upon that hand could look toward seen across the dim candle with his eyes she looked as if she had a glory shining round her head he could have she had he did it as the noise without shook the window rattled at the door below and went a o x i hard time when she gets better tis to be hoped she ll leave thee to again and do thee no more hurt any ways we will hope so now and now i shall keep silence for i want thee to sleep he closed his eyes more to please her than to rest his weary head but by slow degrees as he listened to the great noise of the wind he ceased to hear it or it changed into the working of his loom or even into the voices of the day his own included saying what had been really said even this imperfect consciousness faded away at last and he a long troubled dream he thought that he and some one on whom his heart had long been set � but she was not and that surprised him even in the midst of his imaginary happiness � stood in the church being married while the ceremony was performing and while he recognized among the witnesses some whom he knew to be living and many whom he knew to be dead darkness came on succeeded by the shining of a tremendous light it broke from one line in the table of at the altar and illuminated the building with the words they were sounded through the church too as if there were voices in the fiery letters upon this the whole appearance before him and around him changed and nothing was left as it had been but himself and the clergyman they stood in the daylight before a crowd so vast that if all the people in the world could have been brought together into one space they could not have looked he thought more numerous and they all him and there was not one pitying or friendly eye among the millions that were fastened on his face he stood on a raised stage under his own loom and looking up at the shape the loom took and hearing the burial service distinctly read he knew that he was there to death in an instant what he stood on fell below him and he was gone out of what mystery he came back to his usual life and to places that he knew he was unable to consider but ho was back in those places by some means and with this condemnation upon him that he was never in this world or the next through all the ages of eternity to look on face or hear her voice wandering to and fro � sa s of be knew not what he only aa a hard times seek it he was the subject of a nameless horrible dread a mortal fear of one particular shape which every thing took whatsoever he looked at grew into that form sooner or later the object of his miserable existence was to prevent its by any one among the various people he encountered hopeless labor if he led them out of rooms where it was if he shut up and where it stood if he drew the curious from places where he knew it to be and got them out into the streets the chimneys of the mills assumed that shape and round them was the printed word the wind was blowing again the rain was beating on the and the larger spaces through which he had strayed contracted to the four walls of his room saving that the fire had died out it was as his eyes had closed upon it seemed to have fallen into a in the chair by the bed she sat wrapped in her shawl perfectly still the table stood in the same place by the bedside and on it in its real proportions and appearance was the shape so repeated he thought he saw the curtain move ho looked again and he was sure it moved he saw a hand come forth a about a httle then the curtain moved more and the woman in the bed put it back and sat up with her eyes so haggard and wild so heavy and large she looked all round the room and passed the comer where he slept in his chair her eyes returned to that comer and she put her hand over them as a shade while she looked into it again they went all round the room scarcely if at all and returned to that comer he thought as she once more shaded them � not so much looking at him as looking for him with a instinct that he was there � that no single trace was left in those features or in the mind that went along with them of the woman he had married eighteen years before but that he had seen her come to this by inches he never could have believed her to be the same all this time as if a spell were on him he was motionless and powerless except to watch her or | 8 |
along the snow while laughed till the tears ran down his face there followed days and days of the cruel whip that like the wind over ice and his companions all bit him because he did not know his work and the harness him and he was not allowed to sleep with any more but had to take the in the passage it was a sad time for the the boy learned too as fast as the dog though a dog is a heart breaking thing to manage each beast is � the nearest to the driver � by his own separate trace which runs under his left fore leg to the main where it is fastened by a sort of button and which can be slipped the second book by a turn of the wrist thus one dog at a time this is very necessary because young dogs often get the trace between their hind legs where it cuts to the bone and they one and all will go visiting their friends as they run jumping in and out among the traces then they fight and the result is more mixed than a wet fishing line next morning a great deal of trouble can be avoided by scientific use of the whip every boy himself as being a master of the long lash but it is easy to at a mark on the ground and difficult to lean forward and catch a dog just behind the shoulders when the is going at full speed if you call one dog s name for visiting and accidentally lash another the two will fight it out at once and stop all the others again if you travel with a companion and begin to talk or by yourself and sing the dogs will halt turn round and sit down and hear what you have to say was run away from once or twice through forgetting to block the when he stopped and he broke many and ruined a few ere he could be trusted with a full team of eight and the light then he felt himself a person of consequence and on smooth black ice with a bold heart and a quick elbow he smoked along over the as fast as a pack in full cry he would go ten miles to the and when he was on the hunting grounds he would a trace loose from the and free the big black leader who was then the dog in the team as soon as the dog had scented a breathing hole would reverse the driving a couple of that stuck up like handles deep into the snow so that the team could not get away then he would crawl forward inch by inch and wait till the seal came up to breathe then he would down swiftly with his spear and running line and presently would haul his seal on to the lip of the ice while the black leader came up and helped to pull the across the ice to the that was the time when the dogs and with excitement and laid the long lash like a red hot bar across all their faces till the stiff going home was the heavy the loaded had to be humoured among the rough ice and the dogs sat down and looked at the seal instead of pulling at last they would strike the well worn road to the village and ki along the ringing ice heads down and tails up while struck up the na na ne the song of the returning and voices hailed him from house to house under all that dim star sky when the dog came to his full growth he enjoyed himself too he fought his way up the t the second book team steadily fight after fight till one fine evening over their food he the big black leader the boy saw fair play and made second dog of him as they say so he was promoted to the long of the leading dog running five feet in advance of all the others it was his duty to stop all fighting in harness or out of it and he wore a collar of copper wire very thick and heavy on special occasions he was fed with cooked food inside the house and sometimes was allowed to sleep on the bench with he was a good and would keep a ox at bay by running round him and snapping at his heels he would even � and this for a dog is the last proof of bravery � he would even stand up to the gaunt wolf whom all dogs of the north as a rule fear beyond anything that walks the snow he and his master � they did not count the team of ordinary dogs as company � hunted together day after day and night after ni t � fur wrapped boy and savage long haired narrow eyed white yellow brute all an has to do is to get food and skins for himself and his family the women folk make the skins into clothing and occasionally help in small game but the bulk of the food � and they eat � must be found by the men if the supply fails there is no one up there to buy or beg or borrow from the people must die an does not think of these chances till he is forced to and the boy baby who kicked about the hood and pieces of all day were as happy together as any family in the world they came of a very gentle race � an seldom loses his temper and almost never strikes a child � who did not know exactly what telling a real lie meant still less how to steal they were content to spear their living out of the heart of the bitter hopeless cold to smile smiles and tell queer ghost | 39 |
of and nineteenth street line if he could get that if he had that he say to and his friends once they had this line here now why not let me run this line of which i am part owner with you in connection with my the own after that so many things could be done is such a subtle thing suddenly an idea occurred to him say george he said why do you work all your schemes through and and couldn t you manage some of these things alone or with just one person instead of three or four it seems to me that plan would be much more profitable to you it would it would exclaimed his round eyes fixed on in a rather helpless appealing way ive thought of that but these have had more experience in these matters than i have had frank they ve been longer at the game i don t know as much about these things as they do smiled in his soul though his face remained passive take this railroad deal you re in on george j ou and i could this just as well and better than it can be done with and in on it they re not adding an to the wisdom of the situation they re not putting up any money you re that all they re doing is agreeing to see it through the and the and as far as the is concerned they can t do any more with that than any one else could � than i could for instance it is a question of arranging things with and putting up a certain amount of money for him to work with here in town there are other people who can reach the council just as well as i m not asking you to change your plans on this north deal you couldn t do that very well but there are other things in the future why not let s see if you and i can t work some of them together you ll be much better off and so will i we ve done pretty well on the city loan proposition so far the truth was they had done exceedingly well aside from what the higher powers had made mr s the new house his lots his bank account his good and his changed and comfortable sense of life were largely due to s successful of these city loan already there had been four issues of two dollars each had bought and sold nearly three million dollars worth of these acting one time as a bull and another as a bear mr was now worth all of one and fifty thousand dollars there s a line that i of here in the city which could be made into a splendidly paying property said after a while if the right things could be done with it just like this north line it isn t long enough the territory it serves isn t big enough it ought to be extended and if you and i could get it it might eventually be worked with this north company as one company that would save and ofl and a lot of things there is always money to be made out of a larger power he paused and looked out the window of his handsome little upon the future the window gave nowhere save into a back yard behind another building which had formerly been a residence some grass grew feebly there the red wall and brick fence which divided it from the next lot reminded him somehow of his old home in new market street where his uncle used to come as a followed by a black he could see him now as he sat here looking at the yard well asked taking the bait why don t we get hold of that � you and me i suppose i could fix it so far as the money is concerned how much would it take smiled inwardly again i don t know exactly he said after a time i want to look into it more carefully the one trouble is that the i m carrying a good deal of the city s money as it is you see i have that two thousand dollars against your city loan and this new scheme will take two or three thousand more if that were out of the way � he was thinking of one of those inexplicable stock � those strange american which have so much to do with the temperament of the people and so little to do with the conditions of the if this north deal were through and done he rubbed his chin and pulled at his handsome silk don t ask me any more about it george he said finally as he saw that the latter was beginning to think as to which line it might be don t say an at all about it i want to get my facts exactly right and then i ll talk to you i think you and i can do this thing a little later when we get the north scheme under way i m so rushed just now i m not sure that i want to it at once but you keep quiet and we ll see he turned toward his desk and got up ril make any sized deposit with you that you wish the moment you think you re ready to act just and he ll send you a check thought we ought to act pretty soon was speaking of city money to be deposited with acting as a banker in order to the proposed north project for which he was and part owner ril tend to it george replied confidently it win come out all right leave it to me kicked his stout legs to his trousers and extended his hand he strolled out in the | 43 |
where i looked forward to going � no you cannot expect me to go there would not argue upon the propriety of such feelings she only endeavored to them by working on others and represented it therefore as a measure which would fix the time of her returning to that dear mother whom she so much wished to see in a more eligible more comfortable manner than any other plan could do and perhaps without any greater delay which was within a few miles of the distance to was not beyond one day though a long day s journey and their mother s servant might easily come there to attend them down and as there could be no sense and occasion for their staying above a week at they might now be at home in little more than three weeks time as s affection for her mother was sincere it must triumph with little difficulty over the imaginary evils she had started mrs was so far from being weary of her guests that she pressed them very earnestly to return with her again from was grateful for the attention but it could not alter their design and their mother s being readily gained everything relative to their return was arranged as far as it could be and found some relief in drawing up a statement of the hours that were yet to divide her from colonel i do not know what you and i shall do without the miss was mrs s address to him when he first called on her after their leaving her was settled for they are quite resolved upon going home from the and how forlorn we shall be when i come back i lord we shall sit and at one another as dull as two cats perhaps mrs was in hopes by this vigorous sketch of their future to provoke him to make that offer which might give himself an escape from it and if so she had soon after wards good reason to think her object gained for sense and on s moving to the window to take the dimensions of a print which she was going to copy for her friend he followed her to it with a look of particular meaning and conversed with her there for several minutes the effect of his discourse on the lady too could not escape her observation for though she was too honorable to listen and had even changed her seat on purpose that she might not hear to one close by the on which was playing she could not keep herself from seeing that changed color attended with agitation and was too intent on what he said to pursue her employment still further in confirmation of her hopes in the interval of s turning from one lesson to another some words of the colonel s inevitably reached her ear in which he seemed to be for the of his house this set the matter beyond a doubt she wondered indeed at his thinking it necessary to do so but supposed it to be the proper etiquette what said in reply she could not distinguish but judged from the motion of her lips that she did not think that any material objection and mrs commended her in her heart for being so honest they then talked on for a few minutes longer without her catching a syllable when another lucky stop in s performance brought her these words in the colonel s calm voice � sense and i am afraid it cannot take place very soon astonished and shocked at so a speech she was almost ready to cry out lord what should hinder it but checking her desire confined herself to this silent � this is very strange i sure he need not wait to be older this delay on the colonel s side however did not seem to offend or his fair companion in the least for on their breaking up the conference soon afterwards and moving different ways mrs very plainly heard say and with a voice which showed her to feel what she said � i shall always think myself very much obliged to you mrs was delighted with her gratitude and only wondered that after hearing such a sentence the colonel should be able to take leave of them as he immediately did with the utmost bang and go away without making her any reply i she had not thought her old friend could have made so indifferent a what had really passed between them was to this effect i have heard said he with great compassion of the injustice your friend mr has suffered from his family for if i understand the matter right he has been entirely cast off by them for in his engagement with a very sense and young woman have i been rightly informed is it so told him that it was the cruelty the cruelty he replied with great feelings of dividing or attempting to divide two young people long attached to each other is terrible mrs does not know what she may be doing � what she may drive her son to i have seen mr two or three times in street and am much pleased with him he is not a young man with whom one can be intimately acquainted in a short time but i have seen enough of him to wish him well for his own sake and as a friend of yours i wish it still more i understand that he to take orders will you be so good as to tell him that the living of now just vacant as i am informed by this day s post is his if he think it worth his acceptance � but that perhaps so unfortunately as he is now it may be nonsense to appear to doubt i only wish it were more valuable it is a but a small one | 26 |
what was the good of my telling you as a piece of news something which you knew already but i didn t know did you not she shut her eyes as he stood there with his arm around her so he was going to keep the farce up to the very end she felt like a woman in a as if her head was going surely she had not dreamed that she saw standing at the door of the safe in the dressing room a light in his hand and turning over the papers on the shelf no she had but just come into the house she was wide awake she had never been more wide awake in all her life then the light had gone out she had felt herself thrust on one side and afterwards had discovered that which the price of a wife was evidence enough to prove that it had been no dream that she had indeed been very wide awake of course he went on the cause of her silence this new state of affairs will make all the difference to us dearest your troubles are all over now there will be no more hollow cottage no more poverty no more parting and and all the horrible that has gone on since you gave yourself to me i don t see why i shouldn t tell them at once what your real position is no she said suddenly speaking with the strongest emphasis no that i absolutely and entirely forbid when the funeral is over i shall leave park and go back to hollow cottage no don t say a word i insist upon having my own way i want to be quiet for a little time i want to get over the horror of what i have gone through and i want my wife he said in a very tender tone then she said you must wait for her i would prefer that they believed that we were married after all was over they can put it a journey alone down to gratitude if they like she said with a harsh laugh such things have been done before i believe he looked at her doubtfully i don t know what has come over you he said at last one would think that you were sorry that i have come into my father s property that you liked me better when i was poor and could not do more for you than i would have done if you had been my mistress instead of my wife i don t understand you i confess that i don t understand you women are difficult to understand she answered i did like you better when you were poor � when you were all my own i was happy then but you will be happy now when you have got over this i shall never get over it she said bitterly i shall never be really happy again i would give ten years of my life to go back to those happy days when you came now and then and everything was bright and fresh and honest with us i shall never feel quite honest again my dear you take too exaggerated a view the price of a wife of the whole situation he said trying hard to make his tones patient perhaps i do let me alone don t worry me any more while i am here be my employer s son let me remain your father s nurse then when my last duty is over i will go home and try to pull myself together again so during the two days which followed they had no more of this kind she joined him at lunch and dinner and during the rest of the day she kept as much as possible out of his way then the day of the funeral came there were much coming to and fro the arrival of many carriages the scent of many flowers there was singularly little grief s face was drawn and white and the general verdict was that he was terribly cut up by his father s death of real however was the only one for the late john had not been blessed with many relations and those whom providence had given him he had not cultivated there were two distant of his late wife s to each of whom he had left a trifling a journey alone but there was no train of grief stricken women and the only manifest sorrow during that sad ceremony was from the son who was the heir to everything and the nurse who had attended him during the past few weeks there were the customary baked on their return to the house after the ceremony a dismal feast at which presided and at which naturally enough was not present the company was solemnly and the talk ran mostly on agricultural subjects then one by one they filed away and the two cousins the the doctor and a few others interested in the will passed into the library to hear the final disposition of john s worldly nobody had anything to say it was a natural thing that being the elder son and having been most with his father should inherit the major part of the property those who knew anything about shook their heads and looked wise when they realized how completely the dead man had his wings i o the price of a wife very wise said the to his nearest neighbor was always a sad it would have been quite within the bounds of possibility for our poor friend to have made him the heir he was set upon marrying money and it was indeed the grief of the later years of his life that he could not persuade him to do so i am sure it is a most merciful thing that everything is comfortably arranged and disposed of the | 30 |
by his sympathies and his tender counsel soothe the mind and cause sadness to give place to joy if ever there was one man of whom it could be said with greater truth than of another that he could rejoice with those that rejoiced and weep with those that wept that man was edward his thoughts and sympathies and affections were indeed so much occupied with others that he almost ceased to be about nor were mr living s confined to mere words they were no less strikingly in the actions of his life he was a practical as well as his charitable deeds were countless and they were � with no ni ard hand he relieved as liberally as his means would permit it is no poetic fiction but a sober fact communicated to me by one who knew him well that he often himself suffered the of a thb meal that he might thereby be the better able to assist in feeding the and clothing the naked his heart his house and his hand as has been well observed by one of his were open to all the sons and daughters of want or wretchedness it was enough for him to know that a person was in to immediate relief to the utmost extent of his ability he asked no questions with the view of whether that might not have been brought on by or crime to show how truly charitable be was i may mention that i know a case and i believe it is only one of many in which a poor woman who never saw him before and of whom he knew nothing to him for relief he gave the astonished a sovereign all his acts of charity were by a few words of and impressive counsel often by prayer who shall say in how many instances the souls as well as bodies of poor persons may have been thus through the of mr the incapable himself of even an feeling r less doing an unkind thing to any human being he was exceedingly sensitive to the unjust treatment he received at the hands of others i need not say that his noble but susceptible spirit was particularly pained when he found that those whom he had in the generosity of his mind regarded as his greatest friends turned out his most bitter and foes i remember hearing him about six months before his death make a very touching allusion to the bad treatment he had received from certain quarters oh if those who heaped their upon him with so a hand as to the latter years of his existence had only heard the gentle terms and tender accents in which he spoke of them and their deeds of persecution they must have shrunk into the earth at the contrast between his spirit and theirs i have before said and now repeat it that he was earnest and frequent at a throne of grace on their behalf and that the prayer of his master in reference to the the i to which he was subjected at the hands of his enemies father forgive them t was often offered up by him but i must draw my notice of mr to a close if i were to sum up his character according to my view of it in the possible words i should say � and should say it with a special emphasis � that he was a truly great and good man it were difficult to say whether his moral or intellectual excellence i have rarely known a more remarkable union of the head and the heart than was afforded in his case i shall always regard him as having been one of the of his age it is true that the visionary notions which he adopted indicated a judgment and to a certain extent obscured his intellect but i am convinced that had he been but spared a few years longer he would have seen his error and his extravagant opinions i say this because i happen to know through a private source of information something of the circumstances under which he adopted his the rev more notions on this point however i must from respect to the feelings of parties who are still alive fix m any specific as a speaker mr any man i have ever heard in a pulpit his voice was powerful and some of its were exceedingly musical and he had a perfect command over it i can imagine that the accents of the reverend gentleman s voice are still greeting my ear his admirable contributed much to display his voice to advantage his utterance was singularly well timed while the manifest ease with which he spoke the originality of his matter the beauties of his and his though often vehement gestures in effect to those attributes of his which had more of nature than of art in them with what attention did thousands consisting of all ranks and classes of individuals frequently hang for more than an hour half at a time on the lips of edward i no one that had the gratification of the hearing him in some of his happier moods will ever forget either his eloquence or his person and here i should remark that his personal i was as striking or as much out of the beaten track as his style of preaching i never saw a more handsome man in so r as figure went he was upwards of six feet two in height and formed it is true that he had a marked in if i remember his right eye but his features were otherwise regular while the expression of his countenance had so much benevolence and about it as to any unpleasant feeling which the in his eye would have otherwise produced his complexion was and his hair which was long and of a jet black hue was carefully parted | 24 |
known as s creek runs through the city in two branches and you find it in odd places walled in closely by the buildings hung over by little and the like of which i did not see again until i reached there were in the sky as i noticed when i came out of the railway station i was charmed with winding streets and a general air of peace and quiet � but i could not the cathedral anywhere i made my way up high street � which is english for main � and finally found my recommended inn small and dark but in the hands of and consequently well furnished in the matter of food i came out after a time and followed this street to its end passing the famous gate where the used to sink on their knees and in that position pray their way to the cathedral as usual my gave me a world of information but i could not stomach it and preferred to look at the old stones of which the gate was composed wondering that it had endured so long the little that i knew of st and king and and thomas a and came back to me i could not have a at forty called it sacred ground but it was colored at least the romance of history and i have great respect for what people once believed whether it was sensible or not is a city of twenty eight thousand with gas works and and an electric power plant and moving pictures and a but though it has all these and much more of the same kind it nevertheless that something which is pure poetry and makes england exquisite as i look at it now having seen much more of other parts of europe the quality which produces this beauty in england is not so much embodied in the individual as in the race if you look at in other countries you have the feeling at times as if certain individuals had greatly influenced the appearance of a city or a country this is true of paris and and some one seems to have worked out a scheme at some time or other in england i could never detect an individual or public scheme of any kind it all seemed to have grown up like an bed of flowers again i am satisfied that it is the english temperament which at its best the which exists in all these places i noticed it in the towns about where in spite of rain and smoke the same poetic prevailed here in where the architecture dates in its through all of eight centuries you feel the of the english temperament which has produced it to day in the sections of london � and seven kings west and north � you still feel it at work accidentally or instinctively this atmosphere which is common to oxford and it is of a sense of responsibility and cleanliness and religious feeling and strong national and family ties you really feel in england the distinction of the fireside and the family and the fact that a person must always keep a nice face on things however bad they may be the same spirit bird boxes on poles in the yard and lays charming white stone and plants vines to over walls and windows it is a sweet and poetic spirit however dull it may seem by comparison with the brilliant of other here along this little river the came down to the water in some instances the bridges over it were built with the greatest care and although houses lined it on either side for several miles of its it was nevertheless a clean stream i noticed in different places where the walls were quite free of any other marks a giving the picture and the history of a murderer who was wanted by the police in and it came to me in looking at it that he would have a hard time anywhere in england concealing his identity the native horror of disorder and scandal would cause him to be yielded up on the moment in my wanderings which were purely casual and i finally came upon the cathedral which up suddenly through a street under a leaden sky it was like a lovely song rendered with great pathos over a gate of exquisite and endless labor it � two black stone towers rising and into the gray air i looked up to some which gave into what might have been the and saw birds perched just as they should have been the walls originally gray had been turned by time and weather into a soft black which somehow fitted in exquisitely with the haze of the landscape i had a curious sensation of darker and lighter shades of gray � lurking pools of darkness here and there and brightness in spots that became almost silver the a at forty grounds were enclosed in vine covered walls that were nevertheless worked out in harmonious detail of stone an ancient walk of some kind with broken arches that had fallen into decay led away into a green court which by a process of other courts and covered arches gave into the proper i saw an old or of the church walking here in stately meditation and a typical english his trousers fastened about the knee by the useless but came by a few bricks in a there were endless courts it seemed to me surrounded by two story buildings all quaint in design and heaven knows what of the life they seemed very simple to me children played here on the walks and grass worked at vines and fences and occasional workmen appeared � men who i supposed were connected with the which were being made to the as i stood in the of the s house which was in front and to the left of the | 43 |
there are great insane but though crowded they are insufficient so there is given over to the worst cases now and then some poor insane creature comes to his senses in those awful and in wondering joy escapes from the land and back to his home but most cases are they just suffer along poor devils their former life quite or recalling it like a dream � again the grip of the north which will not let one go � for most cases are for a quarter of a century the battle with frost and famine went on the very severity of the struggle with nature seemed to make the gold hunters kindly toward one another the latch string was always out and the open hand was the order of the day distrust was unknown and it was no for a man to take the last shirt off his back for a comrade most significant of all perhaps in this connection was the custom of the old days that v gold hunters of the north when august the first came around the who had failed to pay dirt were permitted to go upon the ground of their more fortunate comrades and take out enough for the next year s stake in rich bar washing was done on the river and in bar was struck just below the mouth of the it was at this time that the first moderate strike was made on forty mile creek so called because it was judged to be that distance below fort reliance of jack fame a named started for the outside with dogs and indians to carry the news but such hardship on the summit of that he was carried dying into the store of captain john at but he had brought the news through � coarse gold within three months more than two hundred had passed in over for forty mile find followed find � sixty mile miller and the but they were all moderate discoveries and the still dreamed and searched for the stream too much gold where gold was so plentiful that gravel had to be into the boxes in order to wash it gold hunters of the north and all the time the was preparing to play its own huge joke it was a great joke an exceeding bitter one and it has led the old to believe that the land is left in darkness the better part of the year because god goes away and leaves it to itself after all the risk and toil and faithful endeavor it was destined that few of the heroes should be in at the finish when too much gold turned its yellow treasure to the stars first there was robert � and this is true history had faith in the indian river district for three years by himself depending mainly on his rifle living on straight meat a large portion of the time he many of the indian river just missed finding the rich and dominion and managed to make poor out of creek and creek then he crossed the divide between indian river and the and on one of the of the latter found eight cents to the pan this was considered excellent in those simple days the creek gold bottom he the divide and got three men and to return with him the four gold hunters of the north took out and be it and again that this was the first ever in and washed out and be it also that robert was the of all lies and tales to the contrary running out of again the divide and went down the indian river and up the to sixty mile here joe ran the trading post and here joe had originally told his tale and a dozen men ail it contained deserted the post for the scene of his find also persuaded a party of bound for river to forego their trip and go down and him he loaded his boat with supplies drifted down the to the mouth of the and and up the to gold bottom but at the mouth of the he met george and thereby hangs the tale was a he was familiarly known as george � a term which had arisen out of his for the indians at the time encountered him he was catching salmon with his indian wife and relatives gold hunters of the north on the site of what was to become the golden city of the over with good will open handed told of his discovery but was satisfied where he was he was possessed by no desire for the life salmon were good enough for him but urged him to come on and until when he yielded he wanted to take the whole tribe along refused to stand for this said that he must give the preference over to his old sixty mile friends and it is said some things about that were not nice the next morning went on alone up the to gold bottom by this time aroused took a short cut for the same place accompanied by his two indian brothers in law jim and he went up rabbit creek now crossed into gold bottom and near s discovery on the way up he had a few on rabbit creek and he showed colors he had obtained made him promise if he found anything on the way back that he would send gold hunters of the north up one of the indians with the news also agreed to pay for this for he seemed to feel that they were on the verge of something big and he wanted to make sure returned down rabbit creek while he was taking a sleep on the bank about half a mile below the mouth of what was to be known as jim tried his luck and from surface prospects got from ten cents to a dollar to the pan | 21 |
ye said he staring at me over his spectacles it s to save another said i and to redeem my word what would be more good than that do ye no mind the scripture and you with the book upon your lap shall it profit a man if he gain the whole world ay said he that s grand for you but where do i come in i have my word to redeem the same s and what are ye asking me to do but just to sell it ye for have i named the name of cried i ou the name s said he the thing is there whatever it just comes to this if i am to service ye the way that you propose i ll lose my then it s clear ye ll have to make it up to me and a for your ain credit like and what s that but just a bribe and if even i was certain of the bribe but by a that i can learn it s far that and if you were to hang where would be na the thing s no possible and just wi ye uke a lad and let read his chapter i remember i was at bottom a good deal gratified with this result and the next humour i fell into was one i had near said of gratitude to who had saved me in this violent manner out of the midst of my dangers temptations and but this was both too and too cowardly to last me long and the remembrance of the missing witness james began to succeed to the possession of my spirits the st the day set for the trial i passed in such misery of mind as i can scarce recall to have endured save perhaps upon isle only much of the time i lay on a side sleep and waking my body motionless my mind full of violent thoughts sometimes i slept indeed but the of and the prisoner glancing on all sides to find his missing witness followed me in slumber and i would wake again with a start to darkness of spirit and distress of body i thought seemed to observe me but i paid him little heed verily my bread was bitter to me and my days a early the next morning friday nd a boat came with provisions and placed a packet in my hand the cover was without address but sealed with a government seal it enclosed two notes mr can now see for himself it is too late to his conduct wiu be observed and his discretion rewarded so ran the first which seemed to be laboriously writ with the left hand there was certainly nothing in these expressions to compromise the writer even if that person could be found the seal which served instead of signature was to a separate sheet on which there was no scratch of writing and i had to confess that so far my knew what they were doing and to as well as i was able the threat that peeped under the promise but the second was by far the more surprising it was in a lady s hand of writ is informed a friend m for him and her eyes were of the grey it ran � and seemed so extraordinary a piece to come to my hands at such a moment and under cover of a government seal that i stood stupid s grey eyes shone in my remembrance i thought with a bound of pleasure she must be the friend but who should the writer be to have her thus enclosed with s and of all wonders why was it thought needful to give me this pleasing but most intelligence upon the bass for the writer i could hit upon none possible except miss grant her family i had remarked on s eyes and even named her for their colour and she herself had been much in the habit to address me with a broad by way of a i supposed at my no doubt besides but she lived in the same house as this letter came fix m so there remained but one step to be accounted for and that was how should have permitted her at au in an affair so secret or let her like go in the same cover with his own but even here i had a glimmering for first of all there was something rather alarming about the young lady and papa might be more under her than i knew and second there was the man s continual to be remembered how his conduct had been continually mingled with caresses and he had scarce ever in the midst of so much laid aside a mask of friendship he must conceive that my imprisonment had me perhaps this little friendly message was intended to my the missing i wiu be honest � and i think it did i felt a sudden warmth towards that beautiful miss grant that she should stoop to so much interest in my affairs the up of moved me of itself to and more cowardly counsels if the advocate knew of her and of our acquaintance � if i should please him by some of that discretion at which his letter pointed � to what might not this lead in vain is the net spread in the sight of any fowl the scripture says well fowls must be wiser than folk for i thought i perceived the policy and yet fell in with it i was in this frame my heart beating the grey eyes plain before me like two stars when broke in upon my musing i see ye gotten news said he i found him looking curiously in my face with that there came before me like a vision of james and the court of and my mind turned at once hke a door | 38 |
strand and the roar of the were like the same hark to it the ebb tide now and you can hear the and the rolling and the streets and then at last i would look about and there was the old place and no mistake with the statues in the square and st martin s in the fields and the and the and the and i can t tell you what i felt like i felt like crying i believe or dancing or jumping clean over the column i was like a fellow caught up out of hell and flung down into the part of heaven then i spotted for a with a horse a shilling for yourself if you re there in twenty minutes said i to the he went a good pace though of course it was a trifle to the carpet and in nineteen minutes and a half i was at the door what door asked the captain oh a house i know of returned bet it was a public house i cried the clerk � only these were not his words and w y did n t you take the carpet there instead of in a i did n t want to a quiet street said the bad form and besides it was a well and what did you do next inquired the captain oh i went in said the old folks asked the captain that s about it said the other a grass night on the beach well i think you are about the poorest and at a cried the clerk it s like children i can tell you there would be more beer and about my little i would go and have a b and s for luck then i would get a big with fur and take my cane and do the la de da down then i would go to a slap up and have green peas and a bottle of and a chop � oh and i forgot i d ave some w first and green and ot coffee and some of that form of vice in big bottles with a seal � � that s the then i d drop into a theatre and on with some and do the dancing rooms and bars and that and wouldn t go ome till morning till d doth appear and the next d y i d ave water am and fresh butter would n t i just oh my the clerk was interrupted by a fresh attack of well now i tell you what i would do said the captain i would have none of your fancy with the man driving from the but a plain fore and aft hack cab of the highest first of all i would bring up at the market and get a turkey and a pig then i d go to a wine merchant s and get a dozen of champagne and a dozen of some sweet wine rich and and strong something in the port or line the best in the the ebb tide store then i d bear up for a toy store and lay out twenty dollars in toys for the and then to a s and take in cakes and and fancy bread and that e with the in it and then to a news agency and buy all the papers � all the picture ones for the and all the story papers for the old girl about the earl discovering himself to maria and the escape of the lady from the private and then i d tell the fellow to drive home there ought to be some s n up for the suggested they like yes s for the red at that said the captain and those things they pull at and go pop and have poetry inside and then i tell you we d have a day and christmas tree combined great scott but i would like to see the i guess they would light right out of the house when they saw driving up my little � the captain stopped sharply well keep it up said the clerk the damned thing is i don t know if they are n t starving cried the captain they can t be worse off than we are and that s one comfort returned the clerk i defy the devil to make me worse off it seemed as if the devil heard him the light of the moon had been some time cut off and they had talked in darkness now there was heard a night on the beach roar which drew nearer the face of the was seen to and before they had staggered to their feet a burst in rain upon the the rage and volume of that one must have lived in the to conceive a man panted in its assault as he might under a shower bath and the world seemed in night and water they fled groping for their usual shelter � it might be almost called their home � in the old came into its empty chambers and lay down three of humanity on the cold coral floors and presently when the was the others could hear in the darkness the chattering of the clerk s teeth i say you fellows he for god s sake lie up and try to warm me i m if i don t think i die else so the three crept together into one wet mass and lay until day came shivering and off and continually to wretchedness by the of the clerk chapter ii morning on the beach � the three letters x he clouds were all fled the beauty of the day was spread upon and the wall of breaking seas upon the and the palms upon the already trembled in the heat a french man of war was going out that morning homeward bound she lay in the middle | 38 |
said now you ll feel a lot better i saw there was something wrong with you from the start which needed breaking up now suppose you quit inadequate inventions and just tell the truth unfortunately i have done so already mr said the lady paused a moment her face full of inquiry and doubt honest the term was not familiar to her but he judged it to be of the nature of an and assented and do you mean to tell me that for all those years you went through that every day i had my sundays answered and since their invention my bank holidays i got three weeks holiday in the summer formerly a fortnight laughter had speedily and his mood returning upon him found a certain bitter enjoyment in setting forth the extreme of his life before this light hearted piece of womanhood again he her with the absurd and exquisite little dogs as something superfluous out of relation to sad and sober realities and yet you manage to look as you do it beats me declared i tell you it me out of time completely for if you ll excuse my being personal there is an air about you not usually by an stool � at least in my experience where do you get it from you can t be english i am a by mr said with a slight lift of the head the far horizon there now my dear man don t you go and up again we were just beginning to get along so nicely put in quickly i am having a capital good time and you re not having an altogether bad one are you but tell me how long ago were you extracted very long ago i was brought to england as a baby child oh i didn t mean it that way she returned i was not touching on the subject of age not that it would matter much in your case for you are one of the lucky sort with whom age does not count i only meant are you an all round foreigner practically � my mother was partly irish looked away to those wooded slopes of and against the gloom of which the home of station � hard white lines and angles tipped with scarlet and black � stood out like the gigantic characters of some strange the air was sweet with the scent of new hay the birds up and down the bushes and it was all very charming yet that same and distrust of the future were very present to he forgot all about his companion aware only that those two guests old age and loneliness stood close beside him claiming and entertainment ah your mother said slowly with the slightest perceptible of mockery and she is alive still turned upon the poor lady of the dust fiercely she had come too close come from her proper place � were not her lips painted � behind the and laid her hands upon that which was holy he was filled with anger towards the far horizon her � anger towards himself too that he should have departed from his habitual silence and submitted to be cross questioned and listened to her feather headed so long he rose to his feet for the moment young alert full of a pride at once and forbid he said sternly dear saint and martyr she is safe from all at last she is dead he stood a moment trying to choke down his anger before addressing her again it is time i should go he said presently i think we have talked enough but st john presented a singular appearance all the audacity had departed from her she sat huddled together looking very small and desolate her eyes � the one noble feature of her face � swimming with tears no no don t go she cried in tones of entreaty why should you go i like you and i meant no harm i ve had the day and meeting you was a let up you did me good somehow was quite right in taking to you i only wanted to know about you because � well you are different don t tell me i know what i am talking about you re straight you re good right through the words were poured forth so rapidly that hardly gathered the exact purport of them but one thing was clear to him � namely that this frivolous and being must be human after all since she could suffer don t go she repeated i m miserable i ll explain i ll tell you just sit down again it would be awfully kind you see i ve been expecting a friend it was all important i should see him to day because there were things to be said i ve been awake half the night the far horizon up my courage to saying them and then he never turned up i got nerves waiting hour after hour � anybody would waiting like that and i began to imagine every kind of disaster swallowed a little and her against her eyes i shall be all right in a minute she went on do sit down please you say you re nobody and have nothing to do so you can t very well be in a hurry i am like this sometimes it s awfully silly but i can t help it some rotten trifle sets me off and then i can t stop myself i begin to go over all my worst luck � doesn t it occur to you there s no earthly good in standing it me to talk loud and it s stupid to take all common into our confidence thanks that s very nice of you � well you see when fm like his the flood gates of memory are opened � which sounds pretty enough but the is strictly | 32 |
and drawn by oxen life seems more and quiet in holland than elsewhere and for this reason i like holland and i think i shall always remember this street the great professor lives in a little house at the end of it with one servant and when we went to see him i watched her in the and i thought of the pictures we had seen in the galleries professor is a nice old man short and fat and he wore a red dressing gown his furniture was the same as one sees in hotels � and chairs covered with and everywhere the lake there were books and i think there were more than newspapers i don t think i ever saw so many every corner was filled with them he and mr talked in french so it was difficult for me to follow the conversation i heard however the names of my good friends and and came in for a good deal of criticism that i know for mr dictated to me the professor s views on the worthy and these views it appears are most important when we got out of the house he explained to me what these views were but i have got so much else to tell you that we will omit from this letter i might very well omit the mention of the two pictures that hung on the professor s walls but they interested me so i will tell you that they were two portraits painted by now i wonder how these two portraits of pretty women ever found their way into the professor s house did the professor ever care for pretty women i wonder and i suppose i shall go on wondering for my curiosity on this point is not likely to be satisfied from we went to to see s pictures and we saw some six or seven each thirty feet long by twenty feet high in in full face in three quarter face there are about thirty in each picture and that would make heads hands � well perhaps not quite so many perhaps all the hands are not shown i cannot tell i how many painted and the lake these pictures contain but painting one everything is so perfect that the pictures lack humanity they seem a little mechanical mr calls the of painting and i do not think the comparison is he is the d he whose wrist never over whose guard a thrust never comes this is mr s picturesque way of expressing himself i think a somewhat comparison would help you to understand why i don t seem to like these pictures i cannot admire thirty heads all a row pictures of this kind reminded me too much of the inside of but his picture of the old women a picture painted when he was eighty is quite different it is full of emotion and beauty seems to have grown tender and sentimental in his old age or was it that he merely painted these old women to please himself whereas he painted the at so much a head there is no suspicion of the in the picture of the old women he saw them together in the they made a group a harmony and he was moved by the spectacle of the poor old women fading like flowers having only a few years to old women in their last shelter an he was at that time as old as any of his and the picture of the old men which he began immediately after was never finished i suppose that one morning he felt unable to paint he grew fainter and died when one has seen there is nothing else to see in one walks about until the train comes to take one away that i did not take a note of the the lake weariness i experienced during one dusty afternoon i not a matter for regret i recollect the afternoon sufficiently well � the walk along the dusty roads by little woods dusty as the roads and the tea we had at a very uncomfortable hotel in a barren room there seemed to be no one in the hotel except the proprietor and he cheated us charging two shillings for a cup of tea which made mr very angry the in holland are small or they seem small and the miserable dutch landscape irritated me hour after hour i sat looking at flat fields sometimes i counted the number of in each field i don t know what the others did they sat in the comer of the carriage we had been together since early morning and were a little tired of each other i don t think any of us had anything to say you can hardly believe that i had nothing to say well believe it or not as you like but i didn t speak a word and when i don t speak i always feel cross we left by the four o clock train and i felt grateful when night came and blotted the landscape out the train seemed as if it were going to on forever it into and out of many a little station and we were so hot in our first class carriage that we got into a third the change was a pleasant one after a time some got in and they reminded us of the pictures we had seen but one can t go on considering forever and at last unable to contain myself i said now what are you thinking of mr do you know you haven t spoken to me for two hours are j a new french poem the lake it i t t it t it well no not exactly but the in the second of the little poem i composed in the train coming from the are all and in french verse should rhyme as much as possible | 15 |
goose for my to make food acceptable to their be a at once no but these are places than and i should think your soul would revolt at thb � i swung my ann in a half are not my he said half smiling well admit and i knew all by s along that this was the there are other � brethren of nearer degree n he ejaculated i among my own people � i must live among them to understand i should think them rather easy to understand i mean to foe in sympathy n he said gently besides i am trying to teach them two or what for i confess at my soul had at his surroundings that foreign bom foreign looking foreign spoken multitude who had filled the street as i came along through the vile of e russia as it was called had smothered my charitable feelings well for one thing to learn ihe use of freedom � for another to learn the proper method and function of they certainly appear to me to have the by being what are i said lightly i mean of business explained i want to break up the sweat shop and the sweat system we are already making some and have thousands in various kinds of organized business which are quite successful i should not think they would need your assistance � from what i saw they appear to me to have an instinct they have said but we are how to apply it the difficulty is their ignorance and prejudice you think that they hold you in some by john marvel assistant distrust and dislike possibly as his tone implied a question i nodded well that b nothing to the way in which they regard me you they distrust as a but me they as a well i must say that i think you deserve what you get for bringing in such a mass of ignorance now you are an american and a patriotic one how do you reconcile it with your patriotism to introduce into the body such an of ignorance superstition and why said you don t know our people the jew is often an of ignorance and superstition though he is not alone in this but he is never an element of when he is treated he added after a pause but whatever these people are in this generation the generation � the children of this � will be useful american citizens all they require b a chance why the children of these russian jews from their own country are winning all the in the schools he added hb pale face flushing that lad who showed you m b the son of who sell second hand shoes in the next street and cannot speak a word of and yet he stands at the head of hb class no how do you know he told me the little rascal i see how proud he b of it said triumphantly by s neighbors he tried to sell me a pair of shoes chuckled did he then he catching my thought that is the most important thing for him at present but wait let this develop he tapped his forehead he may give you laws equal to s or a new philosophy like bacon s he may solve � or thought in any direction � who knows hb face had lighted up as he proceeded and he was leaning forward in his chair his eyes glowing i know i said he ll sell shoes � second hand ones polished up for new i was laughing but did not appreciate my joke he flushed slightly that s your ignorance my friend that s the reason your people are so dense � they never learn � they keep repeating the same thing no wonder we discover new for you to claim what new worlds have you discovered well first literature next what fa your oldest boasted scripture i thought you were talking of material worlds i we helped about that too � did our full part you think queen her jewels to send to discover don t you i nodded well the man who put up the money for that little expedition was a jew � the you never heard of him i never by john marvel assistant he did it all the same if you w mild lead else your narrow writings you would of the true history of now and then s like ant ter s showed through the in his what for instance since you ai ear to know it all almost any other history or philosophy read the work of the old and new and much life is than the shallow thing by that divine name by the and and who their in our faces or fasten their brazen claws in our meantime you might read my he said with a smile when it comes out well me about it meantime and save me the trouble i sometimes prefer my friends to their s you were always la he said smiling but he b an to talk laying down his of life which was i le enough thou i could not him very far i had been trained in too strict a school to accept doctrines so radical and but that i saw him and marvel and acting on them i should have esteemed them u q as it was i wondered how tar had inspired his book y by s philosophy which may be by the reader as warmed up to theme his face brightened and his deep eyes glowed the trouble with our our country � the is that our whole system � social � commercial � political � every activity is based on mere sheer state and church act on it� live by it the success of the jew which has brought on him so much through the ages has itself by stamping on | 46 |
t know i promised of course and we kissed one another over and over again and i soon fell fast asleep it seems to me at this distance of time as if it were the next day when the striking and adventurous proposition i am about to mention but it was probably about two months afterwards we were sitting as before one evening when my mother was out as before in company with the and the yard measure and the bit of wax and the box with saint paul s on the lid and the book when after looking at me several times and opening her mouth as if she were going to speak without doing it � which i thought was merely gaping or i should have been rather alarmed � said master how should you like to go along with me and spend a fortnight at my brother s at wouldn t that be a treat is your brother an agreeable man i oh what an agreeable man he is cried holding up her hands then there s the sea and the boats and ships and the and the beach and am to play with � meant her nephew ham mentioned in my first chapter she spoke of him as a morsel of english grammar i was flushed by her summary of delights and replied that it would indeed be a treat but what would my mother say why then i ll as good as bet a guinea said intent upon my face that she let us go i ask her if you like as soon as ever she comes home there now but what s she to do while we re away said i putting my small elbows on the table to argue the point she can t live by herself if were looking for a hole all of a sudden in the heel of that it must have been a very little one indeed and not worth c the personal history and experience i say she can t live by herself you know oh bless you said looking at me again at last don t you know she s going to stay for a fortnight with mrs mrs s going to have a lot of company oh if that was it i was quite ready to go i waited in the utmost impatience until my mother came home from mrs s for it was that identical neighbour to ascertain if we could get leave to carry out this great idea without being nearly so much surprised as i had expected my mother entered into it readily and it was all arranged that night and my board and lodging during the visit were to be paid for the day soon came for our going it was such an early day that it came soon even to me who was in a fever of expectation and half afraid that an earthquake or a fiery mountain or some other great of nature might to stop the expedition we were to go in a s cart which departed in the morning after breakfast i would have given any money to have been allowed to wrap myself up over night and sleep in my hat and boots it touches me nearly now although i tell it lightly to recollect how eager i was to leave my happy home to think how little i suspected what i did leave for ever i am glad to recollect that when the s cart was at the gate and my mother stood there kissing me a grateful fondness for her and for the old place i had never turned my back upon before made me cry i am glad to know that my mother cried too and that i felt her heart beat against mine i am glad to recollect that when the began to move my mother ran out at the gate and called to him to stop that she might kiss me once more i am glad to dwell upon the earnestness and love with which she lifted up her face to mine and did so as we left her standing in the road mr came up to where she was and seemed to with her for being so moved i was looking back round the of the cart and wondered what business it was of his who was also looking back on the other side seemed anything but satisfied as the face she brought back into the cart i sat looking at for some time in a reverie on this case whether if she were employed to lose me like the boy in the fairy tale i should be able to track my way home again by the buttons she would shed of david iii i have a change the s horse was the horse in the world i should hope and along with his head down as if he liked to keep the people waiting to whom the were directed i fancied indeed that he sometimes chuckled audibly over this reflection but the said he was only troubled with a cough the had a way of keeping his head down like his horse and of drooping forward as he drove with one of his arms on each of his knees i say drove but it struck me that the cart would have gone to quite as well without him for the horse did all that and as to conversation he had no idea of it but whistling had a basket of on her knee which would have lasted us out handsomely if we had been going to london by the same conveyance we ate a good deal and slept a good deal always went to sleep with her chin upon the handle of the basket her hold of which never relaxed and i could not have believed unless i had heard her do it that one woman could have so much | 8 |
a quarter of a pound of butter the same quantity of � mix with a quarter of a pound of cakes for d tea brown sugar a of a couple of table of and a of flour a couple of tea of in a wine glass of milk and strain it into the cake � add sufficient flour to enable you to roll it out very thin cut it into all cakes and them in a slow oven nuts � a pound and a half of flour three eggs half a of two of butter six of sugar one cup of milk to your taste and in cakes for breakfast and tea cakes � mix a of flour wi h a pint of milk water will do but is not as good and a tea cup of � set it on a warm place to rise when light which will be in the course of eight or ten hours if family is used if s is used they will rise much quicker add a tea of salt � i� sour the same quantity of dissolved in a little and strained if they are too thick thin them with cold milk or water them in just fat enough to prevent their sticking to the pan rice cakes � pick and wash half a pint of rice and boil it very soft then drain it and let it get very cold a pint and a half of flour over the pan of rice and mix in a quarter of a pound of butter that has been warmed by the fire and a salt of salt beat five eggs very light stir them gradually into a of milk beat the whole very hard and it in rings or in irons send them to table hot and eat them with butter honey or you may make these cakes of rice flour instead of mixing together whole rice and wheat flour flannel cakes � put a table of butter into a of milk and warm them together till the butter has melted then stir it and set it away to cool beat five eggs as light as possible and stir them into the milk in turn with three of flour add a small tea of salt and a large table and a half of the best fresh set the pan of near the fire to rise and if the is good it will be light in three hours then it on a in the manner of cakes send them to table hot and cut across into four pieces this may be baked in irons if so send to table with the cakes powdered with white sugar and � � � � ok meal s to a a a quarter of brown sugar a pound of beat six e s and mix with the and butter � add a tea of or � stir in a pound and three quarters of white indian meal and a quarter of a pound of wheat the meal should be it in small cups and let it remain in them till cold rolls � warm an of butter in half a pint of then add a and a half of of small beer and a little salt put two pounds of flour into a pan and put in the set it to rise for an hour it make it into seven rolls and them in a quick � si short rolls � dry before the fire a sufficient quantity of flour to make three penny rolls or larger if you like add to it an egg well beaten a little salt two of and a little warm milk make into a light let it stand by the fl e au night the rolls in a quick � melt four of butter in half a pint of new milk then add to this seven eggs well beaten a quarter of a of and three of sugar put this mixture by into as much flour as will make an extremely light more like and set it to rise before the fire tor half an hour then add more flour to make it but not work it well and divide it into small or cakes five or six inches wide and them when baked and cold them th thickness of and brown them a little in the oven a of indian meal with just water enough to make a thick stir in a couple of tea of salt and two table of butter turn it into a pan and it half an hour � mix a of wheat flour smoothly with a pin and a half of milk half a tea cup of a pie of beaten eggs a tea of salt and a of table of melted butter set the in a warm place to rise when light butter your turn in the mixture and the till a light brown raised � stir into a of flour sufficient milk to make a thick the milk should be stirred in gradually so as to have it free from put in a table of melted butter a couple of beaten eggs a s ton t sa of salt and half a tea cup of when risen fill your irons with the them on a bed of coals when they have been on the fire between two and three minutes turn the irons over � when brown on both sides they are sufficiently baked the irons should be well with and very hot before each one is put in the should be as soon as cooked serve them up with powdered white sugar and mix flour and cold milk together to make a thick to a of the flour put six beaten a table of melted butter and a tea of salt some add a quarter of a pound of sugar and half a them immediately rice � take a tea cup and a half | 41 |
the trade a s such of our readers not without as the have it may possibly be aware from the repeated occasions in which they have their attention called to the various st they in their walks when accompanied by their sweet young olive branches is carried on to a large extent in this city as nearly three hundred houses are engaged in the trade either as or some of the latter however carrying on business on a very limited scale about twelve are occupied exclusively in for the trade though there ai e beside many store who make a considerable proportion of the goods for their own customers of these twelve there are three confined almost solely to the making of what is termed french while the remaining nine deal in general goods connected with the trade they also vary much in the extent of their one house in the busy season giving employment to more than a hundred hands male and female though the same firm at another period of the year will not be able to find occupation for more than thirty or forty the men d � engine drivers where they use steam power and the latter a very under paid and over worked body of men being subject to an intense heat they endeavor to as in the sugar proper by themselves of all superfluous clothing the services of such as these under certain are considered highly with five dollars a week many not getting more than some not so much as sixteen dollars a month the remainder are paid from six to nine dollars a week a medium between the two being an average price throughout the trade girls are employed in arranging ihe in the boxes and similar light work for which they are allowed about fifty cents a day during the busy season there are engaged in this city in the houses about five hundred persons of both sexes though a very much larger number probably some thousands are indirectly sup by it the paper box makers being generally busily the great exhibition employed and many children gaining a by through the streets the city of new york is the head quarters of trade supplying as much as all the rest of the union together the results of its industry to al parts of the states as well as to canada most of the west india islands and many other places to provide the means of meeting such a demand the agency of steam is necessary and a large of money is therefore expended in machinery alone though it is extremely difficult to ascertain the amount invested in this kind of property in the city it is worthy of notice that the used here by those distinguished in the trade as french from their to perfection the foreign articles are all imported not on account of any superiority in the machinery itself but from the impossibility of separately a peculiar stone known as the granite which alone will answer the purpose required and hence it is necessary to introduce at a great expense an article of foreign that but for the stone could be made quite as well and more at home it is estimated that fully worth of is made in this city and hj that term we mean pre of sugar c but many articles which properly come under the such as ice and other which would run up the amount to perhaps double two of the principal houses daily between them four thousand pounds of at fourteen to fifty cents per pound the a e about twenty cents and this is exclusive of three hundred boxes of which are sold weekly by a firm each contain ing ninety six paper such as are sold in stores and each twenty making a total of nearly six hundred thousand what can become of them all in view of this enormous consumption by child parents will be inclined to what is and what it has in a point of view it i unnecessary to mention the endless forms which as whether as drops sticks or other shapes but in any of these it is supposed to consist only of sugar highly refined though by different processes from that used in the sugar house in each case some slight variety of preparation and to the tastes of different customers the effected by some harmless vegetable matter also being to make a greater attraction for the when thus these are evidently quite harmless if taken in moderation though it is otherwise when allowed as is the case in many instances to become almost the article of food for a child as common sense alone ought to indicate but most of the imported from foreign countries and a proportion though a very one of the home made article is not of such innocent materials on the contrary of a nature highly dangerous to life if admitted in large quantities into the system are known to be used indeed to such an extent has this been carried abroad that in france it has been found necessary to pass laws to protect the portion of the public from the effects of the in articles of while in the city of york in england within two years after a public dinner at which n con serves were supplied several of the guests were se w th sickness brought on from of colored or with poisonous it is however pr � in the matter so far as relates to foreign ns thai these are to be found as m age ts are adopted in preference to vegetable with the object thus at f of a brighter and more ng color for which purpose among other is used � an art as our readers are well aware possessed of the most qualities the too are not always less dr an eminent english and who from his position may probably be | 19 |
goes to an occasional party at the but at the opera and the theatre and at the small intimate parties of and her friends the darling of is not visible however she has s her little she knows the well and can talk about them which puts her quite on a level with them in the estimation of her own set she rules in the lower sphere if not in the higher and is in the way of promotion yes and if she be very rich and papa and mamma are at all or if they can be hushed up there is no knowing but miss will suddenly bloom upon world as mrs p s daughter in law wife of that gentlemanly young man mr naturally it pains me very much to be obliged to think so of the people with whom i associate but i suppose they are as good as any as says if i fly from a because he wears his hair long like a woman i must equally fly the frenchman because he his like a lunatic the story of jack is the of the world it is astonishing how intimate he is with our language and literature by the by that has been mean to send out to paris for the very silk that i relied upon as this summer s de and has just received it made up the worst of it is that it is just the thing for her she wore it at the ball the other night and expected to have crushed me in mine not she i have not it at new the papers port for � well for several years � for nothing and although i am rather beyond the strict white muslin age i thought i could yet venture a bold stroke so i arrayed a la � not too much and awaited the saw me across the room and came up with his peculiar smile he did not look at my dress but he said to me rather looking at my dear me i hardly hoped to see spring flowers so late in the summer then he raised his eyes to mine and i am conscious that i blushed it s very warm you feel very warm i am sure my dear miss he continued looking straight at my face you are sufficiently cool at least i think replied i � naturally said he for i ve been in the immediate vicinity of the pole for half an hour � a neighborhood jn which i am told even the most ardent spirits sometimes � so you must pardon me if i am more than usually dull miss and the beat time to the with his head i looked at the part of the room from which he s had just come and there sure enough in the midst of a group i saw the tall and stately and still he is a hardy continued who sails for the pole it is glittering enough but by daylight upon a coral is no pleasanter than by night upon have you been asked i suddenly he laughed softly no miss i am not one of the hardy i keep close in to the shore upon the slightest symptom of an agitated sea i my sails and creep into a safe harbor besides dear miss i prefer tropical to the voyage and the old wretch actually looked at my black hair i might have said something � his taste perhaps who knows � when i saw mrs she was splendidly dressed ill the silk and it s a pity she doesn t become a fine dress better she made for me directly dear i m so glad to see you why how young and fresh you look to night � really quite blooming and such a sweet pretty dress too and the darling baby waist and all � j the yes said that witty permit me miss � quite an upon my word you are too good replied i my dear it is your dress which deserves admiration and i flatter myself in saying so for it is the very of one i had made some months ago yes darling and which you have not yet worn replied she i said to mr p � mr p said i there are few women upon whose i can count as i can upon s and therefore i am going to have a dress like hers most women would be vexed about it and say things if i did so but if i have a friend it is and she will never grudge it to me for a moment it s pretty isn t it just look here at this and she showed me the very part of it and so much than mine that i can never wear it � am so glad you know me so well said i m delighted with the dress to be sure it s rather for your style but that s nothing just then a struck up come along give me this turn said and putting his arm round mrs s waist he whirled her off into the dance s how i did hope somebody would come to ask me nobody came you don t dance asked stood by daring my little talk with p oh yes answered i and the too looked on at the dancers a few minutes then turned to me and looking at my said it is astonishing how little taste there is for spring flowers at that moment young came in warm with the whirl of the dance with it s very warm said he in a gentlemanly manner dear me yes very warm said been long in no only a few days we always come after for a couple of weeks but isn t it delightful quite so said coolly and smiling at the idea of anybody s being enthusiastic | 16 |
fired with the rest and then down another charge as fast as i could staring out through the smoke in front of me where i could see some long thin thing which slowly backwards and forwards a sounded for us to cease firing and a of wind came to clear the curtain from in front of us and then we could see what had happened i had expected to see half that regiment of horse lying on the ground but whether it was that their had them or whether being young and a little shaken at their coming we had fired high our had done no very great harm about thirty horses lay about three of them together within ten yards of me the middle one right on its back with its four legs in the air and it was one of these that i had seen flapping through the smoke then there were eight or ten dead men and about as many wounded sitting dazed on the grass for the most part though one was shouting i at the top of his voice another fellow who had been shot in the � a great black chap he was too � leaned his back against his dead horse and picking up his fired as coolly as if he had been shooting for a prize and hit who was only two from me right through the forehead then he out with his hand to get another that lay near but before he could reach it big who was the man of the company ran out and passed his through his throat which was a pity for he seemed to be a very fine man at first i thought that the had run away � � v � r a i � � � � � r i o r ot ev � � r y m t ti i � � tor v ce ind � i� r f the great shadow who was the youngest in the regiment ran out from the square and pulled down the but quick as a jack after a a came flying over the ridge and he made such a thrust from behind that not only his point but his too came out between the second and third buttons of the lad s he shouted and fell dead on his face while the blown half to pieces with balls over beside him still holding on to his weapon so that they lay together with that dreadful bond still connecting them but when the battery opened there was no time for us to think of anything else a square is a very good way of meeting a but there is no worse one of taking a cannon ball as we soon learned when they began to cut red through us until our ears were weary of the and splash when hard iron met living flesh and blood after ten minutes of it we moved our square a hundred paces to the right but we left another square behind us for a hundred and twenty men and seven officers showed where we had been standing then the guns found us out again and we tried to open out into line but in an instant the � they were this time � were upon us from over the i tell you we were glad to hear the of their hoofs for we knew that that must stop the cannon for a minute and give us a chance of back and we hit back pretty hard too that time for we were cold and vicious and savage and i for one felt that i cared no more for the than if they had been so many sheep on one gets past being afraid ip the ov till � t or thinking of one s ot t r � � feel that you want tc vm � i have gone through hi i � � � i that time for hey r ii n � � them and we se r � i � r at a mi f rt m i mothers weeping for f i� w have felt so pleased oi er i hot brutes when hey are p � � as two bull when got then the did a e v that this would the he wheeled us into line pot n hollow out of reach of the gun � again this gave us time to � � too for the regiment had � � in the sun but � � � deal worse for some of � � dutch were thousand of th in our line pleased them too and o � � had been � � with us or � � � � � soaked r ir � was firm bound � � � � � i r � � f � � � � � � � � � r� the great shadow it was little we could see of the battle but a man would be blind not to know that all the fields behind us were covered with fl men but then though we on the right wing knew nothing of it the had begun to show and napoleon had set of his men to face them which made up for ours that had bolted and left us much as we began that was all dark to us however and there was a time when the french had in between us and the rest of the army that we thought we were the only left standing and had set our teeth with the intention of selling our lives as dearly as we could at that time it was between four and five in the afternoon and we had had nothing to eat the most of us since the night before and were soaked with rain into the bargain it had off and on all day but for the last few hours we | 4 |