Text
stringlengths 10k
41.8k
|
---|
The studio was filled with the rich odour of roses, and when the light summer
wind stirred amidst the trees of the garden, there came through the open door
the heavy scent of the lilac, or the more delicate perfume of the
pink-flowering thorn. From the corner of the divan of Persian saddle-bags on which he was lying,
smoking, as was his custom, innumerable cigarettes, Lord Henry Wotton could
just catch the gleam of the honey-sweet and honey-coloured blossoms of a
laburnum, whose tremulous branches seemed hardly able to bear the burden of a
beauty so flamelike as theirs; and now and then the fantastic shadows of birds
in flight flitted across the long tussore-silk curtains that were stretched in
front of the huge window, producing a kind of momentary Japanese effect, and
making him think of those pallid, jade-faced painters of Tokyo who, through the
medium of an art that is necessarily immobile, seek to convey the sense of
swiftness and motion. The sullen murmur of the bees shouldering their way
through the long unmown grass, or circling with monotonous insistence round the
dusty gilt horns of the straggling woodbine, seemed to make the stillness more
oppressive. The dim roar of London was like the bourdon note of a distant
organ. In the centre of the room, clamped to an upright easel, stood the full-length
portrait of a young man of extraordinary personal beauty, and in front of it,
some little distance away, was sitting the artist himself, Basil Hallward,
whose sudden disappearance some years ago caused, at the time, such public
excitement and gave rise to so many strange conjectures. As the painter looked at the gracious and comely form he had so skilfully
mirrored in his art, a smile of pleasure passed across his face, and seemed
about to linger there. But he suddenly started up, and closing his eyes, placed
his fingers upon the lids, as though he sought to imprison within his brain
some curious dream from which he feared he might awake. “It is your best work, Basil, the best thing you have ever done,”
said Lord Henry languidly. “You must certainly send it next year to the
Grosvenor. The Academy is too large and too vulgar. Whenever I have gone there,
there have been either so many people that I have not been able to see the
pictures, which was dreadful, or so many pictures that I have not been able to
see the people, which was worse. The Grosvenor is really the only place.” “I don’t think I shall send it anywhere,” he answered,
tossing his head back in that odd way that used to make his friends laugh at
him at Oxford. “No, I won’t send it anywhere.” Lord Henry elevated his eyebrows and looked at him in amazement through the
thin blue wreaths of smoke that curled up in such fanciful whorls from his
heavy, opium-tainted cigarette. “Not send it anywhere? My dear fellow,
why? Have you any reason? What odd chaps you painters are! You do anything in
the world to gain a reputation. As soon as you have one, you seem to want to
throw it away. It is silly of you, for there is only one thing in the world
worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about. A portrait
like this would set you far above all the young men in England, and make the
old men quite jealous, if old men are ever capable of any emotion.” “I know you will laugh at me,” he replied, “but I really
can’t exhibit it. I have put too much of myself into it.” Lord Henry stretched himself out on the divan and laughed. “Yes, I knew you would; but it is quite true, all the same.” “Too much of yourself in it! Upon my word, Basil, I didn’t know you
were so vain; and I really can’t see any resemblance between you, with
your rugged strong face and your coal-black hair, and this young Adonis, who
looks as if he was made out of ivory and rose-leaves. Why, my dear Basil, he is
a Narcissus, and you—well, of course you have an intellectual expression
and all that. But beauty, real beauty, ends where an intellectual expression
begins. Intellect is in itself a mode of exaggeration, and destroys the harmony
of any face. The moment one sits down to think, one becomes all nose, or all
forehead, or something horrid. Look at the successful men in any of the learned
professions. How perfectly hideous they are! Except, of course, in the Church.
But then in the Church they don’t think. A bishop keeps on saying at the
age of eighty what he was told to say when he was a boy of eighteen, and as a
natural consequence he always looks absolutely delightful. Your mysterious
young friend, whose name you have never told me, but whose picture really
fascinates me, never thinks. I feel quite sure of that. He is some brainless
beautiful creature who should be always here in winter when we have no flowers
to look at, and always here in summer when we want something to chill our
intelligence. Don’t flatter yourself, Basil: you are not in the least
like him.” “You don’t understand me, Harry,” answered the artist.
“Of course I am not like him. I know that perfectly well. Indeed, I
should be sorry to look like him. You shrug your shoulders? I am telling you
the truth. There is a fatality about all physical and intellectual distinction,
the sort of fatality that seems to dog through history the faltering steps of
kings. It is better not to be different from one’s fellows. The ugly and
the stupid have the best of it in this world. They can sit at their ease and
gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are at least spared the
knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should live—undisturbed,
indifferent, and without disquiet. They neither bring ruin upon others, nor
ever receive it from alien hands. Your rank and wealth, Harry; my brains, such
as they are—my art, whatever it may be worth; Dorian Gray’s good
looks—we shall all suffer for what the gods have given us, suffer
terribly.” “Dorian Gray? Is that his name?” asked Lord Henry, walking across
the studio towards Basil Hallward. “Yes, that is his name. I didn’t intend to tell it to you.” “But why not?” “Oh, I can’t explain. When I like people immensely, I never tell
their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to
love secrecy. It seems to be the one thing that can make modern life mysterious
or marvellous to us. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it.
When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I
would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it
seems to bring a great deal of romance into one’s life. I suppose you
think me awfully foolish about it?” “Not at all,” answered Lord Henry, “not at all, my dear
Basil. You seem to forget that I am married, and the one charm of marriage is
that it makes a life of deception absolutely necessary for both parties. I
never know where my wife is, and my wife never knows what I am doing. When we
meet—we do meet occasionally, when we dine out together, or go down to
the Duke’s—we tell each other the most absurd stories with the most
serious faces. My wife is very good at it—much better, in fact, than I
am. She never gets confused over her dates, and I always do. But when she does
find me out, she makes no row at all. I sometimes wish she would; but she
merely laughs at me.” “I hate the way you talk about your married life, Harry,” said
Basil Hallward, strolling towards the door that led into the garden. “I
believe that you are really a very good husband, but that you are thoroughly
ashamed of your own virtues. You are an extraordinary fellow. You never say a
moral thing, and you never do a wrong thing. Your cynicism is simply a
pose.” “Being natural is simply a pose, and the most irritating pose I
know,” cried Lord Henry, laughing; and the two young men went out into
the garden together and ensconced themselves on a long bamboo seat that stood
in the shade of a tall laurel bush. The sunlight slipped over the polished
leaves. In the grass, white daisies were tremulous. After a pause, Lord Henry pulled out his watch. “I am afraid I must be
going, Basil,” he murmured, “and before I go, I insist on your
answering a question I put to you some time ago.” “What is that?” said the painter, keeping his eyes fixed on the
ground. “You know quite well.” “I do not, Harry.” “Well, I will tell you what it is. I want you to explain to me why you
won’t exhibit Dorian Gray’s picture. I want the real reason.” “I told you the real reason.” “No, you did not. You said it was because there was too much of yourself
in it. Now, that is childish.” “Harry,” said Basil Hallward, looking him straight in the face,
“every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist,
not of the sitter. The sitter is merely the accident, the occasion. It is not
he who is revealed by the painter; it is rather the painter who, on the
coloured canvas, reveals himself. The reason I will not exhibit this picture is
that I am afraid that I have shown in it the secret of my own soul.” Lord Henry laughed. “And what is that?” he asked. “I will tell you,” said Hallward; but an expression of perplexity
came over his face. “I am all expectation, Basil,” continued his companion, glancing at
him. “Oh, there is really very little to tell, Harry,” answered the
painter; “and I am afraid you will hardly understand it. Perhaps you will
hardly believe it.” Lord Henry smiled, and leaning down, plucked a pink-petalled daisy from the
grass and examined it. “I am quite sure I shall understand it,” he
replied, gazing intently at the little golden, white-feathered disk, “and
as for believing things, I can believe anything, provided that it is quite
incredible.” The wind shook some blossoms from the trees, and the heavy lilac-blooms, with
their clustering stars, moved to and fro in the languid air. A grasshopper
began to chirrup by the wall, and like a blue thread a long thin dragon-fly
floated past on its brown gauze wings. Lord Henry felt as if he could hear
Basil Hallward’s heart beating, and wondered what was coming. “The story is simply this,” said the painter after some time.
“Two months ago I went to a crush at Lady Brandon’s. You know we
poor artists have to show ourselves in society from time to time, just to
remind the public that we are not savages. With an evening coat and a white
tie, as you told me once, anybody, even a stock-broker, can gain a reputation
for being civilized. Well, after I had been in the room about ten minutes,
talking to huge overdressed dowagers and tedious academicians, I suddenly
became conscious that some one was looking at me. I turned half-way round and
saw Dorian Gray for the first time. When our eyes met, I felt that I was
growing pale. A curious sensation of terror came over me. I knew that I had
come face to face with some one whose mere personality was so fascinating that,
if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my
very art itself. I did not want any external influence in my life. You know
yourself, Harry, how independent I am by nature. I have always been my own
master; had at least always been so, till I met Dorian Gray. Then—but I
don’t know how to explain it to you. Something seemed to tell me that I
was on the verge of a terrible crisis in my life. I had a strange feeling that
fate had in store for me exquisite joys and exquisite sorrows. I grew afraid
and turned to quit the room. It was not conscience that made me do so: it was a
sort of cowardice. I take no credit to myself for trying to escape.” “Conscience and cowardice are really the same things, Basil. Conscience
is the trade-name of the firm. That is all.” “I don’t believe that, Harry, and I don’t believe you do
either. However, whatever was my motive—and it may have been pride, for I
used to be very proud—I certainly struggled to the door. There, of
course, I stumbled against Lady Brandon. ‘You are not going to run away
so soon, Mr. Hallward?’ she screamed out. You know her curiously shrill
voice?” “Yes; she is a peacock in everything but beauty,” said Lord Henry,
pulling the daisy to bits with his long nervous fingers. “I could not get rid of her. She brought me up to royalties, and people
with stars and garters, and elderly ladies with gigantic tiaras and parrot
noses. She spoke of me as her dearest friend. I had only met her once before,
but she took it into her head to lionize me. I believe some picture of mine had
made a great success at the time, at least had been chattered about in the
penny newspapers, which is the nineteenth-century standard of immortality.
Suddenly I found myself face to face with the young man whose personality had
so strangely stirred me. We were quite close, almost touching. Our eyes met
again. It was reckless of me, but I asked Lady Brandon to introduce me to him.
Perhaps it was not so reckless, after all. It was simply inevitable. We would
have spoken to each other without any introduction. I am sure of that. Dorian
told me so afterwards. He, too, felt that we were destined to know each
other.” “And how did Lady Brandon describe this wonderful young man?” asked
his companion. “I know she goes in for giving a rapid précis of
all her guests. I remember her bringing me up to a truculent and red-faced old
gentleman covered all over with orders and ribbons, and hissing into my ear, in
a tragic whisper which must have been perfectly audible to everybody in the
room, the most astounding details. I simply fled. I like to find out people for
myself. But Lady Brandon treats her guests exactly as an auctioneer treats his
goods. She either explains them entirely away, or tells one everything about
them except what one wants to know.” “Poor Lady Brandon! You are hard on her, Harry!” said Hallward
listlessly. “My dear fellow, she tried to found a salon, and only succeeded in
opening a restaurant. How could I admire her? But tell me, what did she say
about Mr. Dorian Gray?” “Oh, something like, ‘Charming boy—poor dear mother and I
absolutely inseparable. Quite forget what he does—afraid
he—doesn’t do anything—oh, yes, plays the piano—or is
it the violin, dear Mr. Gray?’ Neither of us could help laughing, and we
became friends at once.” “Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is far
the best ending for one,” said the young lord, plucking another daisy. Hallward shook his head. “You don’t understand what friendship is,
Harry,” he murmured—“or what enmity is, for that matter. You
like every one; that is to say, you are indifferent to every one.” “How horribly unjust of you!” cried Lord Henry, tilting his hat
back and looking up at the little clouds that, like ravelled skeins of glossy
white silk, were drifting across the hollowed turquoise of the summer sky.
“Yes; horribly unjust of you. I make a great difference between people. I
choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good
characters, and my enemies for their good intellects. A man cannot be too
careful in the choice of his enemies. I have not got one who is a fool. They
are all men of some intellectual power, and consequently they all appreciate
me. Is that very vain of me? I think it is rather vain.” “I should think it was, Harry. But according to your category I must be
merely an acquaintance.” “My dear old Basil, you are much more than an acquaintance.” “And much less than a friend. A sort of brother, I suppose?” “Oh, brothers! I don’t care for brothers. My elder brother
won’t die, and my younger brothers seem never to do anything else.” “Harry!” exclaimed Hallward, frowning. “My dear fellow, I am not quite serious. But I can’t help detesting
my relations. I suppose it comes from the fact that none of us can stand other
people having the same faults as ourselves. I quite sympathize with the rage of
the English democracy against what they call the vices of the upper orders. The
masses feel that drunkenness, stupidity, and immorality should be their own
special property, and that if any one of us makes an ass of himself, he is
poaching on their preserves. When poor Southwark got into the divorce court,
their indignation was quite magnificent. And yet I don’t suppose that ten
per cent of the proletariat live correctly.” “I don’t agree with a single word that you have said, and, what is
more, Harry, I feel sure you don’t either.” Lord Henry stroked his pointed brown beard and tapped the toe of his
patent-leather boot with a tasselled ebony cane. “How English you are
Basil! That is the second time you have made that observation. If one puts
forward an idea to a true Englishman—always a rash thing to do—he
never dreams of considering whether the idea is right or wrong. The only thing
he considers of any importance is whether one believes it oneself. Now, the
value of an idea has nothing whatsoever to do with the sincerity of the man who
expresses it. Indeed, the probabilities are that the more insincere the man is,
the more purely intellectual will the idea be, as in that case it will not be
coloured by either his wants, his desires, or his prejudices. However, I
don’t propose to discuss politics, sociology, or metaphysics with you. I
like persons better than principles, and I like persons with no principles
better than anything else in the world. Tell me more about Mr. Dorian Gray. How
often do you see him?” “Every day. I couldn’t be happy if I didn’t see him every
day. He is absolutely necessary to me.” “How extraordinary! I thought you would never care for anything but your
art.” “He is all my art to me now,” said the painter gravely. “I
sometimes think, Harry, that there are only two eras of any importance in the
world’s history. The first is the appearance of a new medium for art, and
the second is the appearance of a new personality for art also. What the
invention of oil-painting was to the Venetians, the face of Antinous was to
late Greek sculpture, and the face of Dorian Gray will some day be to me. It is
not merely that I paint from him, draw from him, sketch from him. Of course, I
have done all that. But he is much more to me than a model or a sitter. I
won’t tell you that I am dissatisfied with what I have done of him, or
that his beauty is such that art cannot express it. There is nothing that art
cannot express, and I know that the work I have done, since I met Dorian Gray,
is good work, is the best work of my life. But in some curious way—I
wonder will you understand me?—his personality has suggested to me an
entirely new manner in art, an entirely new mode of style. I see things
differently, I think of them differently. I can now recreate life in a way that
was hidden from me before. ‘A dream of form in days of
thought’—who is it who says that? I forget; but it is what Dorian
Gray has been to me. The merely visible presence of this lad—for he seems
to me little more than a lad, though he is really over twenty—his merely
visible presence—ah! I wonder can you realize all that that means?
Unconsciously he defines for me the lines of a fresh school, a school that is
to have in it all the passion of the romantic spirit, all the perfection of the
spirit that is Greek. The harmony of soul and body—how much that is! We
in our madness have separated the two, and have invented a realism that is
vulgar, an ideality that is void. Harry! if you only knew what Dorian Gray is
to me! You remember that landscape of mine, for which Agnew offered me such a
huge price but which I would not part with? It is one of the best things I have
ever done. And why is it so? Because, while I was painting it, Dorian Gray sat
beside me. Some subtle influence passed from him to me, and for the first time
in my life I saw in the plain woodland the wonder I had always looked for and
always missed.” “Basil, this is extraordinary! I must see Dorian Gray.” Hallward got up from the seat and walked up and down the garden. After some
time he came back. “Harry,” he said, “Dorian Gray is to me
simply a motive in art. You might see nothing in him. I see everything in him.
He is never more present in my work than when no image of him is there. He is a
suggestion, as I have said, of a new manner. I find him in the curves of
certain lines, in the loveliness and subtleties of certain colours. That is
all.” “Then why won’t you exhibit his portrait?” asked Lord Henry. “Because, without intending it, I have put into it some expression of all
this curious artistic idolatry, of which, of course, I have never cared to
speak to him. He knows nothing about it. He shall never know anything about it.
But the world might guess it, and I will not bare my soul to their shallow
prying eyes. My heart shall never be put under their microscope. There is too
much of myself in the thing, Harry—too much of myself!” “Poets are not so scrupulous as you are. They know how useful passion is
for publication. Nowadays a broken heart will run to many editions.” “I hate them for it,” cried Hallward. “An artist should
create beautiful things, but should put nothing of his own life into them. We
live in an age when men treat art as if it were meant to be a form of
autobiography. We have lost the abstract sense of beauty. Some day I will show
the world what it is; and for that reason the world shall never see my portrait
of Dorian Gray.” “I think you are wrong, Basil, but I won’t argue with you. It is
only the intellectually lost who ever argue. Tell me, is Dorian Gray very fond
of you?” The painter considered for a few moments. “He likes me,” he
answered after a pause; “I know he likes me. Of course I flatter him
dreadfully. I find a strange pleasure in saying things to him that I know I
shall be sorry for having said. As a rule, he is charming to me, and we sit in
the studio and talk of a thousand things. Now and then, however, he is horribly
thoughtless, and seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. Then I feel,
Harry, that I have given away my whole soul to some one who treats it as if it
were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an
ornament for a summer’s day.” “Days in summer, Basil, are apt to linger,” murmured Lord Henry.
“Perhaps you will tire sooner than he will. It is a sad thing to think
of, but there is no doubt that genius lasts longer than beauty. That accounts
for the fact that we all take such pains to over-educate ourselves. In the wild
struggle for existence, we want to have something that endures, and so we fill
our minds with rubbish and facts, in the silly hope of keeping our place. The
thoroughly well-informed man—that is the modern ideal. And the mind of
the thoroughly well-informed man is a dreadful thing. It is like a
bric-à-brac shop, all monsters and dust, with everything priced above
its proper value. I think you will tire first, all the same. Some day you will
look at your friend, and he will seem to you to be a little out of drawing, or
you won’t like his tone of colour, or something. You will bitterly
reproach him in your own heart, and seriously think that he has behaved very
badly to you. The next time he calls, you will be perfectly cold and
indifferent. It will be a great pity, for it will alter you. What you have told
me is quite a romance, a romance of art one might call it, and the worst of
having a romance of any kind is that it leaves one so unromantic.” “Harry, don’t talk like that. As long as I live, the personality of
Dorian Gray will dominate me. You can’t feel what I feel. You change too
often.” “Ah, my dear Basil, that is exactly why I can feel it. Those who are
faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know
love’s tragedies.” And Lord Henry struck a light on a dainty silver
case and began to smoke a cigarette with a self-conscious and satisfied air, as
if he had summed up the world in a phrase. There was a rustle of chirruping
sparrows in the green lacquer leaves of the ivy, and the blue cloud-shadows
chased themselves across the grass like swallows. How pleasant it was in the
garden! And how delightful other people’s emotions were!—much more
delightful than their ideas, it seemed to him. One’s own soul, and the
passions of one’s friends—those were the fascinating things in
life. He pictured to himself with silent amusement the tedious luncheon that he
had missed by staying so long with Basil Hallward. Had he gone to his
aunt’s, he would have been sure to have met Lord Goodbody there, and the
whole conversation would have been about the feeding of the poor and the
necessity for model lodging-houses. Each class would have preached the
importance of those virtues, for whose exercise there was no necessity in their
own lives. The rich would have spoken on the value of thrift, and the idle
grown eloquent over the dignity of labour. It was charming to have escaped all
that! As he thought of his aunt, an idea seemed to strike him. He turned to
Hallward and said, “My dear fellow, I have just remembered.” “Remembered what, Harry?” “Where I heard the name of Dorian Gray.” “Where was it?” asked Hallward, with a slight frown. “Don’t look so angry, Basil. It was at my aunt, Lady
Agatha’s. She told me she had discovered a wonderful young man who was
going to help her in the East End, and that his name was Dorian Gray. I am
bound to state that she never told me he was good-looking. Women have no
appreciation of good looks; at least, good women have not. She said that he was
very earnest and had a beautiful nature. I at once pictured to myself a
creature with spectacles and lank hair, horribly freckled, and tramping about
on huge feet. I wish I had known it was your friend.” “I am very glad you didn’t, Harry.” “Why?” “I don’t want you to meet him.” “You don’t want me to meet him?” “No.” “Mr. Dorian Gray is in the studio, sir,” said the butler, coming
into the garden. “You must introduce me now,” cried Lord Henry, laughing. The painter turned to his servant, who stood blinking in the sunlight.
“Ask Mr. Gray to wait, Parker: I shall be in in a few moments.” The
man bowed and went up the walk. Then he looked at Lord Henry. “Dorian Gray is my dearest friend,”
he said. “He has a simple and a beautiful nature. Your aunt was quite
right in what she said of him. Don’t spoil him. Don’t try to
influence him. Your influence would be bad. The world is wide, and has many
marvellous people in it. Don’t take away from me the one person who gives
to my art whatever charm it possesses: my life as an artist depends on him.
Mind, Harry, I trust you.” He spoke very slowly, and the words seemed
wrung out of him almost against his will. “What nonsense you talk!” said Lord Henry, smiling, and taking
Hallward by the arm, he almost led him into the house. |
As they entered they saw Dorian Gray. He was seated at the piano, with his back
to them, turning over the pages of a volume of Schumann’s “Forest
Scenes.” “You must lend me these, Basil,” he cried. “I
want to learn them. They are perfectly charming.” “That entirely depends on how you sit to-day, Dorian.” “Oh, I am tired of sitting, and I don’t want a life-sized portrait
of myself,” answered the lad, swinging round on the music-stool in a
wilful, petulant manner. When he caught sight of Lord Henry, a faint blush
coloured his cheeks for a moment, and he started up. “I beg your pardon,
Basil, but I didn’t know you had any one with you.” “This is Lord Henry Wotton, Dorian, an old Oxford friend of mine. I have
just been telling him what a capital sitter you were, and now you have spoiled
everything.” “You have not spoiled my pleasure in meeting you, Mr. Gray,” said
Lord Henry, stepping forward and extending his hand. “My aunt has often
spoken to me about you. You are one of her favourites, and, I am afraid, one of
her victims also.” “I am in Lady Agatha’s black books at present,” answered
Dorian with a funny look of penitence. “I promised to go to a club in
Whitechapel with her last Tuesday, and I really forgot all about it. We were to
have played a duet together—three duets, I believe. I don’t know
what she will say to me. I am far too frightened to call.” “Oh, I will make your peace with my aunt. She is quite devoted to you.
And I don’t think it really matters about your not being there. The
audience probably thought it was a duet. When Aunt Agatha sits down to the
piano, she makes quite enough noise for two people.” “That is very horrid to her, and not very nice to me,” answered
Dorian, laughing. Lord Henry looked at him. Yes, he was certainly wonderfully handsome, with his
finely curved scarlet lips, his frank blue eyes, his crisp gold hair. There was
something in his face that made one trust him at once. All the candour of youth
was there, as well as all youth’s passionate purity. One felt that he had
kept himself unspotted from the world. No wonder Basil Hallward worshipped him. “You are too charming to go in for philanthropy, Mr. Gray—far too
charming.” And Lord Henry flung himself down on the divan and opened his
cigarette-case. The painter had been busy mixing his colours and getting his brushes ready. He
was looking worried, and when he heard Lord Henry’s last remark, he
glanced at him, hesitated for a moment, and then said, “Harry, I want to
finish this picture to-day. Would you think it awfully rude of me if I asked
you to go away?” Lord Henry smiled and looked at Dorian Gray. “Am I to go, Mr.
Gray?” he asked. “Oh, please don’t, Lord Henry. I see that Basil is in one of his
sulky moods, and I can’t bear him when he sulks. Besides, I want you to
tell me why I should not go in for philanthropy.” “I don’t know that I shall tell you that, Mr. Gray. It is so
tedious a subject that one would have to talk seriously about it. But I
certainly shall not run away, now that you have asked me to stop. You
don’t really mind, Basil, do you? You have often told me that you liked
your sitters to have some one to chat to.” Hallward bit his lip. “If Dorian wishes it, of course you must stay.
Dorian’s whims are laws to everybody, except himself.” Lord Henry took up his hat and gloves. “You are very pressing, Basil, but
I am afraid I must go. I have promised to meet a man at the Orleans. Good-bye,
Mr. Gray. Come and see me some afternoon in Curzon Street. I am nearly always
at home at five o’clock. Write to me when you are coming. I should be
sorry to miss you.” “Basil,” cried Dorian Gray, “if Lord Henry Wotton goes, I
shall go, too. You never open your lips while you are painting, and it is
horribly dull standing on a platform and trying to look pleasant. Ask him to
stay. I insist upon it.” “Stay, Harry, to oblige Dorian, and to oblige me,” said Hallward,
gazing intently at his picture. “It is quite true, I never talk when I am
working, and never listen either, and it must be dreadfully tedious for my
unfortunate sitters. I beg you to stay.” “But what about my man at the Orleans?” The painter laughed. “I don’t think there will be any difficulty
about that. Sit down again, Harry. And now, Dorian, get up on the platform, and
don’t move about too much, or pay any attention to what Lord Henry says.
He has a very bad influence over all his friends, with the single exception of
myself.” Dorian Gray stepped up on the dais with the air of a young Greek martyr, and
made a little moue of discontent to Lord Henry, to whom he had rather
taken a fancy. He was so unlike Basil. They made a delightful contrast. And he
had such a beautiful voice. After a few moments he said to him, “Have you
really a very bad influence, Lord Henry? As bad as Basil says?” “There is no such thing as a good influence, Mr. Gray. All influence is
immoral—immoral from the scientific point of view.” “Why?” “Because to influence a person is to give him one’s own soul. He
does not think his natural thoughts, or burn with his natural passions. His
virtues are not real to him. His sins, if there are such things as sins, are
borrowed. He becomes an echo of some one else’s music, an actor of a part
that has not been written for him. The aim of life is self-development. To
realize one’s nature perfectly—that is what each of us is here for.
People are afraid of themselves, nowadays. They have forgotten the highest of
all duties, the duty that one owes to one’s self. Of course, they are
charitable. They feed the hungry and clothe the beggar. But their own souls
starve, and are naked. Courage has gone out of our race. Perhaps we never
really had it. The terror of society, which is the basis of morals, the terror
of God, which is the secret of religion—these are the two things that
govern us. And yet—” “Just turn your head a little more to the right, Dorian, like a good
boy,” said the painter, deep in his work and conscious only that a look
had come into the lad’s face that he had never seen there before. “And yet,” continued Lord Henry, in his low, musical voice, and
with that graceful wave of the hand that was always so characteristic of him,
and that he had even in his Eton days, “I believe that if one man were to
live out his life fully and completely, were to give form to every feeling,
expression to every thought, reality to every dream—I believe that the
world would gain such a fresh impulse of joy that we would forget all the
maladies of mediævalism, and return to the Hellenic ideal—to something
finer, richer than the Hellenic ideal, it may be. But the bravest man amongst
us is afraid of himself. The mutilation of the savage has its tragic survival
in the self-denial that mars our lives. We are punished for our refusals. Every
impulse that we strive to strangle broods in the mind and poisons us. The body
sins once, and has done with its sin, for action is a mode of purification.
Nothing remains then but the recollection of a pleasure, or the luxury of a
regret. The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it,
and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to
itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and
unlawful. It has been said that the great events of the world take place in the
brain. It is in the brain, and the brain only, that the great sins of the world
take place also. You, Mr. Gray, you yourself, with your rose-red youth and your
rose-white boyhood, you have had passions that have made you afraid, thoughts
that have filled you with terror, day-dreams and sleeping dreams whose mere
memory might stain your cheek with shame—” “Stop!” faltered Dorian Gray, “stop! you bewilder me. I
don’t know what to say. There is some answer to you, but I cannot find
it. Don’t speak. Let me think. Or, rather, let me try not to
think.” For nearly ten minutes he stood there, motionless, with parted lips and eyes
strangely bright. He was dimly conscious that entirely fresh influences were at
work within him. Yet they seemed to him to have come really from himself. The
few words that Basil’s friend had said to him—words spoken by
chance, no doubt, and with wilful paradox in them—had touched some secret
chord that had never been touched before, but that he felt was now vibrating
and throbbing to curious pulses. Music had stirred him like that. Music had troubled him many times. But music
was not articulate. It was not a new world, but rather another chaos, that it
created in us. Words! Mere words! How terrible they were! How clear, and vivid,
and cruel! One could not escape from them. And yet what a subtle magic there
was in them! They seemed to be able to give a plastic form to formless things,
and to have a music of their own as sweet as that of viol or of lute. Mere
words! Was there anything so real as words? Yes; there had been things in his boyhood that he had not understood. He
understood them now. Life suddenly became fiery-coloured to him. It seemed to
him that he had been walking in fire. Why had he not known it? With his subtle smile, Lord Henry watched him. He knew the precise
psychological moment when to say nothing. He felt intensely interested. He was
amazed at the sudden impression that his words had produced, and, remembering a
book that he had read when he was sixteen, a book which had revealed to him
much that he had not known before, he wondered whether Dorian Gray was passing
through a similar experience. He had merely shot an arrow into the air. Had it
hit the mark? How fascinating the lad was! Hallward painted away with that marvellous bold touch of his, that had the true
refinement and perfect delicacy that in art, at any rate comes only from
strength. He was unconscious of the silence. “Basil, I am tired of standing,” cried Dorian Gray suddenly.
“I must go out and sit in the garden. The air is stifling here.” “My dear fellow, I am so sorry. When I am painting, I can’t think
of anything else. But you never sat better. You were perfectly still. And I
have caught the effect I wanted—the half-parted lips and the bright look
in the eyes. I don’t know what Harry has been saying to you, but he has
certainly made you have the most wonderful expression. I suppose he has been
paying you compliments. You mustn’t believe a word that he says.” “He has certainly not been paying me compliments. Perhaps that is the
reason that I don’t believe anything he has told me.” “You know you believe it all,” said Lord Henry, looking at him with
his dreamy languorous eyes. “I will go out to the garden with you. It is
horribly hot in the studio. Basil, let us have something iced to drink,
something with strawberries in it.” “Certainly, Harry. Just touch the bell, and when Parker comes I will tell
him what you want. I have got to work up this background, so I will join you
later on. Don’t keep Dorian too long. I have never been in better form
for painting than I am to-day. This is going to be my masterpiece. It is my
masterpiece as it stands.” Lord Henry went out to the garden and found Dorian Gray burying his face in the
great cool lilac-blossoms, feverishly drinking in their perfume as if it had
been wine. He came close to him and put his hand upon his shoulder. “You
are quite right to do that,” he murmured. “Nothing can cure the
soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.” The lad started and drew back. He was bareheaded, and the leaves had tossed his
rebellious curls and tangled all their gilded threads. There was a look of fear
in his eyes, such as people have when they are suddenly awakened. His finely
chiselled nostrils quivered, and some hidden nerve shook the scarlet of his
lips and left them trembling. “Yes,” continued Lord Henry, “that is one of the great
secrets of life—to cure the soul by means of the senses, and the senses
by means of the soul. You are a wonderful creation. You know more than you
think you know, just as you know less than you want to know.” Dorian Gray frowned and turned his head away. He could not help liking the
tall, graceful young man who was standing by him. His romantic, olive-coloured
face and worn expression interested him. There was something in his low languid
voice that was absolutely fascinating. His cool, white, flowerlike hands, even,
had a curious charm. They moved, as he spoke, like music, and seemed to have a
language of their own. But he felt afraid of him, and ashamed of being afraid.
Why had it been left for a stranger to reveal him to himself? He had known
Basil Hallward for months, but the friendship between them had never altered
him. Suddenly there had come some one across his life who seemed to have
disclosed to him life’s mystery. And, yet, what was there to be afraid
of? He was not a schoolboy or a girl. It was absurd to be frightened. “Let us go and sit in the shade,” said Lord Henry. “Parker
has brought out the drinks, and if you stay any longer in this glare, you will
be quite spoiled, and Basil will never paint you again. You really must not
allow yourself to become sunburnt. It would be unbecoming.” “What can it matter?” cried Dorian Gray, laughing, as he sat down
on the seat at the end of the garden. “It should matter everything to you, Mr. Gray.” “Why?” “Because you have the most marvellous youth, and youth is the one thing
worth having.” “I don’t feel that, Lord Henry.” “No, you don’t feel it now. Some day, when you are old and wrinkled
and ugly, when thought has seared your forehead with its lines, and passion
branded your lips with its hideous fires, you will feel it, you will feel it
terribly. Now, wherever you go, you charm the world. Will it always be so? ...
You have a wonderfully beautiful face, Mr. Gray. Don’t frown. You have.
And beauty is a form of genius—is higher, indeed, than genius, as it
needs no explanation. It is of the great facts of the world, like sunlight, or
spring-time, or the reflection in dark waters of that silver shell we call the
moon. It cannot be questioned. It has its divine right of sovereignty. It makes
princes of those who have it. You smile? Ah! when you have lost it you
won’t smile.... People say sometimes that beauty is only superficial.
That may be so, but at least it is not so superficial as thought is. To me,
beauty is the wonder of wonders. It is only shallow people who do not judge by
appearances. The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the
invisible.... Yes, Mr. Gray, the gods have been good to you. But what the gods
give they quickly take away. You have only a few years in which to live really,
perfectly, and fully. When your youth goes, your beauty will go with it, and
then you will suddenly discover that there are no triumphs left for you, or
have to content yourself with those mean triumphs that the memory of your past
will make more bitter than defeats. Every month as it wanes brings you nearer
to something dreadful. Time is jealous of you, and wars against your lilies and
your roses. You will become sallow, and hollow-cheeked, and dull-eyed. You will
suffer horribly.... Ah! realize your youth while you have it. Don’t
squander the gold of your days, listening to the tedious, trying to improve the
hopeless failure, or giving away your life to the ignorant, the common, and the
vulgar. These are the sickly aims, the false ideals, of our age. Live! Live the
wonderful life that is in you! Let nothing be lost upon you. Be always
searching for new sensations. Be afraid of nothing.... A new
Hedonism—that is what our century wants. You might be its visible symbol.
With your personality there is nothing you could not do. The world belongs to
you for a season.... The moment I met you I saw that you were quite unconscious
of what you really are, of what you really might be. There was so much in you
that charmed me that I felt I must tell you something about yourself. I thought
how tragic it would be if you were wasted. For there is such a little time that
your youth will last—such a little time. The common hill-flowers wither,
but they blossom again. The laburnum will be as yellow next June as it is now.
In a month there will be purple stars on the clematis, and year after year the
green night of its leaves will hold its purple stars. But we never get back our
youth. The pulse of joy that beats in us at twenty becomes sluggish. Our limbs
fail, our senses rot. We degenerate into hideous puppets, haunted by the memory
of the passions of which we were too much afraid, and the exquisite temptations
that we had not the courage to yield to. Youth! Youth! There is absolutely
nothing in the world but youth!” Dorian Gray listened, open-eyed and wondering. The spray of lilac fell from his
hand upon the gravel. A furry bee came and buzzed round it for a moment. Then
it began to scramble all over the oval stellated globe of the tiny blossoms. He
watched it with that strange interest in trivial things that we try to develop
when things of high import make us afraid, or when we are stirred by some new
emotion for which we cannot find expression, or when some thought that
terrifies us lays sudden siege to the brain and calls on us to yield. After a
time the bee flew away. He saw it creeping into the stained trumpet of a Tyrian
convolvulus. The flower seemed to quiver, and then swayed gently to and fro. Suddenly the painter appeared at the door of the studio and made staccato signs
for them to come in. They turned to each other and smiled. “I am waiting,” he cried. “Do come in. The light is quite
perfect, and you can bring your drinks.” They rose up and sauntered down the walk together. Two green-and-white
butterflies fluttered past them, and in the pear-tree at the corner of the
garden a thrush began to sing. “You are glad you have met me, Mr. Gray,” said Lord Henry, looking
at him. “Yes, I am glad now. I wonder shall I always be glad?” “Always! That is a dreadful word. It makes me shudder when I hear it.
Women are so fond of using it. They spoil every romance by trying to make it
last for ever. It is a meaningless word, too. The only difference between a
caprice and a lifelong passion is that the caprice lasts a little
longer.” As they entered the studio, Dorian Gray put his hand upon Lord Henry’s
arm. “In that case, let our friendship be a caprice,” he murmured,
flushing at his own boldness, then stepped up on the platform and resumed his
pose. Lord Henry flung himself into a large wicker arm-chair and watched him. The
sweep and dash of the brush on the canvas made the only sound that broke the
stillness, except when, now and then, Hallward stepped back to look at his work
from a distance. In the slanting beams that streamed through the open doorway
the dust danced and was golden. The heavy scent of the roses seemed to brood
over everything. After about a quarter of an hour Hallward stopped painting, looked for a long
time at Dorian Gray, and then for a long time at the picture, biting the end of
one of his huge brushes and frowning. “It is quite finished,” he
cried at last, and stooping down he wrote his name in long vermilion letters on
the left-hand corner of the canvas. Lord Henry came over and examined the picture. It was certainly a wonderful
work of art, and a wonderful likeness as well. “My dear fellow, I congratulate you most warmly,” he said.
“It is the finest portrait of modern times. Mr. Gray, come over and look
at yourself.” The lad started, as if awakened from some dream. “Is it really finished?” he murmured, stepping down from the
platform. “Quite finished,” said the painter. “And you have sat
splendidly to-day. I am awfully obliged to you.” “That is entirely due to me,” broke in Lord Henry.
“Isn’t it, Mr. Gray?” Dorian made no answer, but passed listlessly in front of his picture and turned
towards it. When he saw it he drew back, and his cheeks flushed for a moment
with pleasure. A look of joy came into his eyes, as if he had recognized
himself for the first time. He stood there motionless and in wonder, dimly
conscious that Hallward was speaking to him, but not catching the meaning of
his words. The sense of his own beauty came on him like a revelation. He had
never felt it before. Basil Hallward’s compliments had seemed to him to
be merely the charming exaggeration of friendship. He had listened to them,
laughed at them, forgotten them. They had not influenced his nature. Then had
come Lord Henry Wotton with his strange panegyric on youth, his terrible
warning of its brevity. That had stirred him at the time, and now, as he stood
gazing at the shadow of his own loveliness, the full reality of the description
flashed across him. Yes, there would be a day when his face would be wrinkled
and wizen, his eyes dim and colourless, the grace of his figure broken and
deformed. The scarlet would pass away from his lips and the gold steal from his
hair. The life that was to make his soul would mar his body. He would become
dreadful, hideous, and uncouth. As he thought of it, a sharp pang of pain struck through him like a knife and
made each delicate fibre of his nature quiver. His eyes deepened into amethyst,
and across them came a mist of tears. He felt as if a hand of ice had been laid
upon his heart. “Don’t you like it?” cried Hallward at last, stung a little
by the lad’s silence, not understanding what it meant. “Of course he likes it,” said Lord Henry. “Who wouldn’t
like it? It is one of the greatest things in modern art. I will give you
anything you like to ask for it. I must have it.” “It is not my property, Harry.” “Whose property is it?” “Dorian’s, of course,” answered the painter. “He is a very lucky fellow.” “How sad it is!” murmured Dorian Gray with his eyes still fixed
upon his own portrait. “How sad it is! I shall grow old, and horrible,
and dreadful. But this picture will remain always young. It will never be older
than this particular day of June.... If it were only the other way! If it were
I who was to be always young, and the picture that was to grow old! For
that—for that—I would give everything! Yes, there is nothing in the
whole world I would not give! I would give my soul for that!” “You would hardly care for such an arrangement, Basil,” cried Lord
Henry, laughing. “It would be rather hard lines on your work.” “I should object very strongly, Harry,” said Hallward. Dorian Gray turned and looked at him. “I believe you would, Basil. You
like your art better than your friends. I am no more to you than a green bronze
figure. Hardly as much, I dare say.” The painter stared in amazement. It was so unlike Dorian to speak like that.
What had happened? He seemed quite angry. His face was flushed and his cheeks
burning. “Yes,” he continued, “I am less to you than your ivory Hermes
or your silver Faun. You will like them always. How long will you like me? Till
I have my first wrinkle, I suppose. I know, now, that when one loses
one’s good looks, whatever they may be, one loses everything. Your
picture has taught me that. Lord Henry Wotton is perfectly right. Youth is the
only thing worth having. When I find that I am growing old, I shall kill
myself.” Hallward turned pale and caught his hand. “Dorian! Dorian!” he
cried, “don’t talk like that. I have never had such a friend as
you, and I shall never have such another. You are not jealous of material
things, are you?—you who are finer than any of them!” “I am jealous of everything whose beauty does not die. I am jealous of
the portrait you have painted of me. Why should it keep what I must lose? Every
moment that passes takes something from me and gives something to it. Oh, if it
were only the other way! If the picture could change, and I could be always
what I am now! Why did you paint it? It will mock me some day—mock me
horribly!” The hot tears welled into his eyes; he tore his hand away and,
flinging himself on the divan, he buried his face in the cushions, as though he
was praying. “This is your doing, Harry,” said the painter bitterly. Lord Henry shrugged his shoulders. “It is the real Dorian Gray—that
is all.” “It is not.” “If it is not, what have I to do with it?” “You should have gone away when I asked you,” he muttered. “I stayed when you asked me,” was Lord Henry’s answer. “Harry, I can’t quarrel with my two best friends at once, but
between you both you have made me hate the finest piece of work I have ever
done, and I will destroy it. What is it but canvas and colour? I will not let
it come across our three lives and mar them.” Dorian Gray lifted his golden head from the pillow, and with pallid face and
tear-stained eyes, looked at him as he walked over to the deal painting-table
that was set beneath the high curtained window. What was he doing there? His
fingers were straying about among the litter of tin tubes and dry brushes,
seeking for something. Yes, it was for the long palette-knife, with its thin
blade of lithe steel. He had found it at last. He was going to rip up the
canvas. With a stifled sob the lad leaped from the couch, and, rushing over to
Hallward, tore the knife out of his hand, and flung it to the end of the
studio. “Don’t, Basil, don’t!” he cried. “It
would be murder!” “I am glad you appreciate my work at last, Dorian,” said the
painter coldly when he had recovered from his surprise. “I never thought
you would.” “Appreciate it? I am in love with it, Basil. It is part of myself. I feel
that.” “Well, as soon as you are dry, you shall be varnished, and framed, and
sent home. Then you can do what you like with yourself.” And he walked
across the room and rang the bell for tea. “You will have tea, of course,
Dorian? And so will you, Harry? Or do you object to such simple
pleasures?” “I adore simple pleasures,” said Lord Henry. “They are the
last refuge of the complex. But I don’t like scenes, except on the stage.
What absurd fellows you are, both of you! I wonder who it was defined man as a
rational animal. It was the most premature definition ever given. Man is many
things, but he is not rational. I am glad he is not, after all—though I
wish you chaps would not squabble over the picture. You had much better let me
have it, Basil. This silly boy doesn’t really want it, and I really
do.” “If you let any one have it but me, Basil, I shall never forgive
you!” cried Dorian Gray; “and I don’t allow people to call me
a silly boy.” “You know the picture is yours, Dorian. I gave it to you before it
existed.” “And you know you have been a little silly, Mr. Gray, and that you
don’t really object to being reminded that you are extremely
young.” “I should have objected very strongly this morning, Lord Henry.” “Ah! this morning! You have lived since then.” There came a knock at the door, and the butler entered with a laden tea-tray
and set it down upon a small Japanese table. There was a rattle of cups and
saucers and the hissing of a fluted Georgian urn. Two globe-shaped china dishes
were brought in by a page. Dorian Gray went over and poured out the tea. The
two men sauntered languidly to the table and examined what was under the
covers. “Let us go to the theatre to-night,” said Lord Henry. “There
is sure to be something on, somewhere. I have promised to dine at
White’s, but it is only with an old friend, so I can send him a wire to
say that I am ill, or that I am prevented from coming in consequence of a
subsequent engagement. I think that would be a rather nice excuse: it would
have all the surprise of candour.” “It is such a bore putting on one’s dress-clothes,” muttered
Hallward. “And, when one has them on, they are so horrid.” “Yes,” answered Lord Henry dreamily, “the costume of the
nineteenth century is detestable. It is so sombre, so depressing. Sin is the
only real colour-element left in modern life.” “You really must not say things like that before Dorian, Harry.” “Before which Dorian? The one who is pouring out tea for us, or the one
in the picture?” “Before either.” “I should like to come to the theatre with you, Lord Henry,” said
the lad. “Then you shall come; and you will come, too, Basil, won’t
you?” “I can’t, really. I would sooner not. I have a lot of work to
do.” “Well, then, you and I will go alone, Mr. Gray.” “I should like that awfully.” The painter bit his lip and walked over, cup in hand, to the picture. “I
shall stay with the real Dorian,” he said, sadly. “Is it the real Dorian?” cried the original of the portrait,
strolling across to him. “Am I really like that?” “Yes; you are just like that.” “How wonderful, Basil!” “At least you are like it in appearance. But it will never alter,”
sighed Hallward. “That is something.” “What a fuss people make about fidelity!” exclaimed Lord Henry.
“Why, even in love it is purely a question for physiology. It has nothing
to do with our own will. Young men want to be faithful, and are not; old men
want to be faithless, and cannot: that is all one can say.” “Don’t go to the theatre to-night, Dorian,” said Hallward.
“Stop and dine with me.” “I can’t, Basil.” “Why?” “Because I have promised Lord Henry Wotton to go with him.” “He won’t like you the better for keeping your promises. He always
breaks his own. I beg you not to go.” Dorian Gray laughed and shook his head. “I entreat you.” The lad hesitated, and looked over at Lord Henry, who was watching them from
the tea-table with an amused smile. “I must go, Basil,” he answered. “Very well,” said Hallward, and he went over and laid down his cup
on the tray. “It is rather late, and, as you have to dress, you had
better lose no time. Good-bye, Harry. Good-bye, Dorian. Come and see me soon.
Come to-morrow.” “Certainly.” “You won’t forget?” “No, of course not,” cried Dorian. “And ... Harry!” “Yes, Basil?” “Remember what I asked you, when we were in the garden this
morning.” “I have forgotten it.” “I trust you.” “I wish I could trust myself,” said Lord Henry, laughing.
“Come, Mr. Gray, my hansom is outside, and I can drop you at your own
place. Good-bye, Basil. It has been a most interesting afternoon.” As the door closed behind them, the painter flung himself down on a sofa, and a
look of pain came into his face. |
At half-past twelve next day Lord Henry Wotton strolled from Curzon Street over
to the Albany to call on his uncle, Lord Fermor, a genial if somewhat
rough-mannered old bachelor, whom the outside world called selfish because it
derived no particular benefit from him, but who was considered generous by
Society as he fed the people who amused him. His father had been our ambassador
at Madrid when Isabella was young and Prim unthought of, but had retired from
the diplomatic service in a capricious moment of annoyance on not being offered
the Embassy at Paris, a post to which he considered that he was fully entitled
by reason of his birth, his indolence, the good English of his dispatches, and
his inordinate passion for pleasure. The son, who had been his father’s
secretary, had resigned along with his chief, somewhat foolishly as was thought
at the time, and on succeeding some months later to the title, had set himself
to the serious study of the great aristocratic art of doing absolutely nothing.
He had two large town houses, but preferred to live in chambers as it was less
trouble, and took most of his meals at his club. He paid some attention to the
management of his collieries in the Midland counties, excusing himself for this
taint of industry on the ground that the one advantage of having coal was that
it enabled a gentleman to afford the decency of burning wood on his own hearth.
In politics he was a Tory, except when the Tories were in office, during which
period he roundly abused them for being a pack of Radicals. He was a hero to
his valet, who bullied him, and a terror to most of his relations, whom he
bullied in turn. Only England could have produced him, and he always said that
the country was going to the dogs. His principles were out of date, but there
was a good deal to be said for his prejudices. When Lord Henry entered the room, he found his uncle sitting in a rough
shooting-coat, smoking a cheroot and grumbling over The Times.
“Well, Harry,” said the old gentleman, “what brings you out
so early? I thought you dandies never got up till two, and were not visible
till five.” “Pure family affection, I assure you, Uncle George. I want to get
something out of you.” “Money, I suppose,” said Lord Fermor, making a wry face.
“Well, sit down and tell me all about it. Young people, nowadays, imagine
that money is everything.” “Yes,” murmured Lord Henry, settling his button-hole in his coat;
“and when they grow older they know it. But I don’t want money. It
is only people who pay their bills who want that, Uncle George, and I never pay
mine. Credit is the capital of a younger son, and one lives charmingly upon it.
Besides, I always deal with Dartmoor’s tradesmen, and consequently they
never bother me. What I want is information: not useful information, of course;
useless information.” “Well, I can tell you anything that is in an English Blue Book, Harry,
although those fellows nowadays write a lot of nonsense. When I was in the
Diplomatic, things were much better. But I hear they let them in now by
examination. What can you expect? Examinations, sir, are pure humbug from
beginning to end. If a man is a gentleman, he knows quite enough, and if he is
not a gentleman, whatever he knows is bad for him.” “Mr. Dorian Gray does not belong to Blue Books, Uncle George,” said
Lord Henry languidly. “Mr. Dorian Gray? Who is he?” asked Lord Fermor, knitting his bushy
white eyebrows. “That is what I have come to learn, Uncle George. Or rather, I know who
he is. He is the last Lord Kelso’s grandson. His mother was a Devereux,
Lady Margaret Devereux. I want you to tell me about his mother. What was she
like? Whom did she marry? You have known nearly everybody in your time, so you
might have known her. I am very much interested in Mr. Gray at present. I have
only just met him.” “Kelso’s grandson!” echoed the old gentleman.
“Kelso’s grandson! ... Of course.... I knew his mother intimately.
I believe I was at her christening. She was an extraordinarily beautiful girl,
Margaret Devereux, and made all the men frantic by running away with a
penniless young fellow—a mere nobody, sir, a subaltern in a foot
regiment, or something of that kind. Certainly. I remember the whole thing as
if it happened yesterday. The poor chap was killed in a duel at Spa a few
months after the marriage. There was an ugly story about it. They said Kelso
got some rascally adventurer, some Belgian brute, to insult his son-in-law in
public—paid him, sir, to do it, paid him—and that the fellow
spitted his man as if he had been a pigeon. The thing was hushed up, but, egad,
Kelso ate his chop alone at the club for some time afterwards. He brought his
daughter back with him, I was told, and she never spoke to him again. Oh, yes;
it was a bad business. The girl died, too, died within a year. So she left a
son, did she? I had forgotten that. What sort of boy is he? If he is like his
mother, he must be a good-looking chap.” “He is very good-looking,” assented Lord Henry. “I hope he will fall into proper hands,” continued the old man.
“He should have a pot of money waiting for him if Kelso did the right
thing by him. His mother had money, too. All the Selby property came to her,
through her grandfather. Her grandfather hated Kelso, thought him a mean dog.
He was, too. Came to Madrid once when I was there. Egad, I was ashamed of him.
The Queen used to ask me about the English noble who was always quarrelling
with the cabmen about their fares. They made quite a story of it. I
didn’t dare show my face at Court for a month. I hope he treated his
grandson better than he did the jarvies.” “I don’t know,” answered Lord Henry. “I fancy that the
boy will be well off. He is not of age yet. He has Selby, I know. He told me
so. And ... his mother was very beautiful?” “Margaret Devereux was one of the loveliest creatures I ever saw, Harry.
What on earth induced her to behave as she did, I never could understand. She
could have married anybody she chose. Carlington was mad after her. She was
romantic, though. All the women of that family were. The men were a poor lot,
but, egad! the women were wonderful. Carlington went on his knees to her. Told
me so himself. She laughed at him, and there wasn’t a girl in London at
the time who wasn’t after him. And by the way, Harry, talking about silly
marriages, what is this humbug your father tells me about Dartmoor wanting to
marry an American? Ain’t English girls good enough for him?” “It is rather fashionable to marry Americans just now, Uncle
George.” “I’ll back English women against the world, Harry,” said Lord
Fermor, striking the table with his fist. “The betting is on the Americans.” “They don’t last, I am told,” muttered his uncle. “A long engagement exhausts them, but they are capital at a steeplechase.
They take things flying. I don’t think Dartmoor has a chance.” “Who are her people?” grumbled the old gentleman. “Has she
got any?” Lord Henry shook his head. “American girls are as clever at concealing
their parents, as English women are at concealing their past,” he said,
rising to go. “They are pork-packers, I suppose?” “I hope so, Uncle George, for Dartmoor’s sake. I am told that
pork-packing is the most lucrative profession in America, after
politics.” “Is she pretty?” “She behaves as if she was beautiful. Most American women do. It is the
secret of their charm.” “Why can’t these American women stay in their own country? They are
always telling us that it is the paradise for women.” “It is. That is the reason why, like Eve, they are so excessively anxious
to get out of it,” said Lord Henry. “Good-bye, Uncle George. I
shall be late for lunch, if I stop any longer. Thanks for giving me the
information I wanted. I always like to know everything about my new friends,
and nothing about my old ones.” “Where are you lunching, Harry?” “At Aunt Agatha’s. I have asked myself and Mr. Gray. He is her
latest protégé.” “Humph! tell your Aunt Agatha, Harry, not to bother me any more with her
charity appeals. I am sick of them. Why, the good woman thinks that I have
nothing to do but to write cheques for her silly fads.” “All right, Uncle George, I’ll tell her, but it won’t have
any effect. Philanthropic people lose all sense of humanity. It is their
distinguishing characteristic.” The old gentleman growled approvingly and rang the bell for his servant. Lord
Henry passed up the low arcade into Burlington Street and turned his steps in
the direction of Berkeley Square. So that was the story of Dorian Gray’s parentage. Crudely as it had been
told to him, it had yet stirred him by its suggestion of a strange, almost
modern romance. A beautiful woman risking everything for a mad passion. A few
wild weeks of happiness cut short by a hideous, treacherous crime. Months of
voiceless agony, and then a child born in pain. The mother snatched away by
death, the boy left to solitude and the tyranny of an old and loveless man.
Yes; it was an interesting background. It posed the lad, made him more perfect,
as it were. Behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something
tragic. Worlds had to be in travail, that the meanest flower might blow.... And
how charming he had been at dinner the night before, as with startled eyes and
lips parted in frightened pleasure he had sat opposite to him at the club, the
red candleshades staining to a richer rose the wakening wonder of his face.
Talking to him was like playing upon an exquisite violin. He answered to every
touch and thrill of the bow.... There was something terribly enthralling in the
exercise of influence. No other activity was like it. To project one’s
soul into some gracious form, and let it tarry there for a moment; to hear
one’s own intellectual views echoed back to one with all the added music
of passion and youth; to convey one’s temperament into another as though
it were a subtle fluid or a strange perfume: there was a real joy in
that—perhaps the most satisfying joy left to us in an age so limited and
vulgar as our own, an age grossly carnal in its pleasures, and grossly common
in its aims.... He was a marvellous type, too, this lad, whom by so curious a
chance he had met in Basil’s studio, or could be fashioned into a
marvellous type, at any rate. Grace was his, and the white purity of boyhood,
and beauty such as old Greek marbles kept for us. There was nothing that one
could not do with him. He could be made a Titan or a toy. What a pity it was
that such beauty was destined to fade! ... And Basil? From a psychological
point of view, how interesting he was! The new manner in art, the fresh mode of
looking at life, suggested so strangely by the merely visible presence of one
who was unconscious of it all; the silent spirit that dwelt in dim woodland,
and walked unseen in open field, suddenly showing herself, Dryadlike and not
afraid, because in his soul who sought for her there had been wakened that
wonderful vision to which alone are wonderful things revealed; the mere shapes
and patterns of things becoming, as it were, refined, and gaining a kind of
symbolical value, as though they were themselves patterns of some other and
more perfect form whose shadow they made real: how strange it all was! He
remembered something like it in history. Was it not Plato, that artist in
thought, who had first analyzed it? Was it not Buonarotti who had carved it in
the coloured marbles of a sonnet-sequence? But in our own century it was
strange.... Yes; he would try to be to Dorian Gray what, without knowing it,
the lad was to the painter who had fashioned the wonderful portrait. He would
seek to dominate him—had already, indeed, half done so. He would make
that wonderful spirit his own. There was something fascinating in this son of
love and death. Suddenly he stopped and glanced up at the houses. He found that he had passed
his aunt’s some distance, and, smiling to himself, turned back. When he
entered the somewhat sombre hall, the butler told him that they had gone in to
lunch. He gave one of the footmen his hat and stick and passed into the
dining-room. “Late as usual, Harry,” cried his aunt, shaking her head at him. He invented a facile excuse, and having taken the vacant seat next to her,
looked round to see who was there. Dorian bowed to him shyly from the end of
the table, a flush of pleasure stealing into his cheek. Opposite was the
Duchess of Harley, a lady of admirable good-nature and good temper, much liked
by every one who knew her, and of those ample architectural proportions that in
women who are not duchesses are described by contemporary historians as
stoutness. Next to her sat, on her right, Sir Thomas Burdon, a Radical member
of Parliament, who followed his leader in public life and in private life
followed the best cooks, dining with the Tories and thinking with the Liberals,
in accordance with a wise and well-known rule. The post on her left was
occupied by Mr. Erskine of Treadley, an old gentleman of considerable charm and
culture, who had fallen, however, into bad habits of silence, having, as he
explained once to Lady Agatha, said everything that he had to say before he was
thirty. His own neighbour was Mrs. Vandeleur, one of his aunt’s oldest
friends, a perfect saint amongst women, but so dreadfully dowdy that she
reminded one of a badly bound hymn-book. Fortunately for him she had on the
other side Lord Faudel, a most intelligent middle-aged mediocrity, as bald as a
ministerial statement in the House of Commons, with whom she was conversing in
that intensely earnest manner which is the one unpardonable error, as he
remarked once himself, that all really good people fall into, and from which
none of them ever quite escape. “We are talking about poor Dartmoor, Lord Henry,” cried the
duchess, nodding pleasantly to him across the table. “Do you think he
will really marry this fascinating young person?” “I believe she has made up her mind to propose to him, Duchess.” “How dreadful!” exclaimed Lady Agatha. “Really, some one
should interfere.” “I am told, on excellent authority, that her father keeps an American
dry-goods store,” said Sir Thomas Burdon, looking supercilious. “My uncle has already suggested pork-packing, Sir Thomas.” “Dry-goods! What are American dry-goods?” asked the duchess,
raising her large hands in wonder and accentuating the verb. “American novels,” answered Lord Henry, helping himself to some
quail. The duchess looked puzzled. “Don’t mind him, my dear,” whispered Lady Agatha. “He
never means anything that he says.” “When America was discovered,” said the Radical member—and he
began to give some wearisome facts. Like all people who try to exhaust a
subject, he exhausted his listeners. The duchess sighed and exercised her
privilege of interruption. “I wish to goodness it never had been
discovered at all!” she exclaimed. “Really, our girls have no
chance nowadays. It is most unfair.” “Perhaps, after all, America never has been discovered,” said Mr.
Erskine; “I myself would say that it had merely been detected.” “Oh! but I have seen specimens of the inhabitants,” answered the
duchess vaguely. “I must confess that most of them are extremely pretty.
And they dress well, too. They get all their dresses in Paris. I wish I could
afford to do the same.” “They say that when good Americans die they go to Paris,” chuckled
Sir Thomas, who had a large wardrobe of Humour’s cast-off clothes. “Really! And where do bad Americans go to when they die?” inquired
the duchess. “They go to America,” murmured Lord Henry. Sir Thomas frowned. “I am afraid that your nephew is prejudiced against
that great country,” he said to Lady Agatha. “I have travelled all
over it in cars provided by the directors, who, in such matters, are extremely
civil. I assure you that it is an education to visit it.” “But must we really see Chicago in order to be educated?” asked Mr.
Erskine plaintively. “I don’t feel up to the journey.” Sir Thomas waved his hand. “Mr. Erskine of Treadley has the world on his
shelves. We practical men like to see things, not to read about them. The
Americans are an extremely interesting people. They are absolutely reasonable.
I think that is their distinguishing characteristic. Yes, Mr. Erskine, an
absolutely reasonable people. I assure you there is no nonsense about the
Americans.” “How dreadful!” cried Lord Henry. “I can stand brute force,
but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use.
It is hitting below the intellect.” “I do not understand you,” said Sir Thomas, growing rather red. “I do, Lord Henry,” murmured Mr. Erskine, with a smile. “Paradoxes are all very well in their way....” rejoined the
baronet. “Was that a paradox?” asked Mr. Erskine. “I did not think so.
Perhaps it was. Well, the way of paradoxes is the way of truth. To test reality
we must see it on the tight rope. When the verities become acrobats, we can
judge them.” “Dear me!” said Lady Agatha, “how you men argue! I am sure I
never can make out what you are talking about. Oh! Harry, I am quite vexed with
you. Why do you try to persuade our nice Mr. Dorian Gray to give up the East
End? I assure you he would be quite invaluable. They would love his
playing.” “I want him to play to me,” cried Lord Henry, smiling, and he
looked down the table and caught a bright answering glance. “But they are so unhappy in Whitechapel,” continued Lady Agatha. “I can sympathize with everything except suffering,” said Lord
Henry, shrugging his shoulders. “I cannot sympathize with that. It is too
ugly, too horrible, too distressing. There is something terribly morbid in the
modern sympathy with pain. One should sympathize with the colour, the beauty,
the joy of life. The less said about life’s sores, the better.” “Still, the East End is a very important problem,” remarked Sir
Thomas with a grave shake of the head. “Quite so,” answered the young lord. “It is the problem of
slavery, and we try to solve it by amusing the slaves.” The politician looked at him keenly. “What change do you propose,
then?” he asked. Lord Henry laughed. “I don’t desire to change anything in England
except the weather,” he answered. “I am quite content with
philosophic contemplation. But, as the nineteenth century has gone bankrupt
through an over-expenditure of sympathy, I would suggest that we should appeal
to science to put us straight. The advantage of the emotions is that they lead
us astray, and the advantage of science is that it is not emotional.” “But we have such grave responsibilities,” ventured Mrs. Vandeleur
timidly. “Terribly grave,” echoed Lady Agatha. Lord Henry looked over at Mr. Erskine. “Humanity takes itself too
seriously. It is the world’s original sin. If the caveman had known how
to laugh, history would have been different.” “You are really very comforting,” warbled the duchess. “I
have always felt rather guilty when I came to see your dear aunt, for I take no
interest at all in the East End. For the future I shall be able to look her in
the face without a blush.” “A blush is very becoming, Duchess,” remarked Lord Henry. “Only when one is young,” she answered. “When an old woman
like myself blushes, it is a very bad sign. Ah! Lord Henry, I wish you would
tell me how to become young again.” He thought for a moment. “Can you remember any great error that you
committed in your early days, Duchess?” he asked, looking at her across
the table. “A great many, I fear,” she cried. “Then commit them over again,” he said gravely. “To get back
one’s youth, one has merely to repeat one’s follies.” “A delightful theory!” she exclaimed. “I must put it into
practice.” “A dangerous theory!” came from Sir Thomas’s tight lips. Lady
Agatha shook her head, but could not help being amused. Mr. Erskine listened. “Yes,” he continued, “that is one of the great secrets of
life. Nowadays most people die of a sort of creeping common sense, and discover
when it is too late that the only things one never regrets are one’s
mistakes.” A laugh ran round the table. He played with the idea and grew wilful; tossed it into the air and transformed
it; let it escape and recaptured it; made it iridescent with fancy and winged
it with paradox. The praise of folly, as he went on, soared into a philosophy,
and philosophy herself became young, and catching the mad music of pleasure,
wearing, one might fancy, her wine-stained robe and wreath of ivy, danced like
a Bacchante over the hills of life, and mocked the slow Silenus for being
sober. Facts fled before her like frightened forest things. Her white feet trod
the huge press at which wise Omar sits, till the seething grape-juice rose
round her bare limbs in waves of purple bubbles, or crawled in red foam over
the vat’s black, dripping, sloping sides. It was an extraordinary
improvisation. He felt that the eyes of Dorian Gray were fixed on him, and the
consciousness that amongst his audience there was one whose temperament he
wished to fascinate seemed to give his wit keenness and to lend colour to his
imagination. He was brilliant, fantastic, irresponsible. He charmed his
listeners out of themselves, and they followed his pipe, laughing. Dorian Gray
never took his gaze off him, but sat like one under a spell, smiles chasing
each other over his lips and wonder growing grave in his darkening eyes. At last, liveried in the costume of the age, reality entered the room in the
shape of a servant to tell the duchess that her carriage was waiting. She wrung
her hands in mock despair. “How annoying!” she cried. “I must
go. I have to call for my husband at the club, to take him to some absurd
meeting at Willis’s Rooms, where he is going to be in the chair. If I am
late he is sure to be furious, and I couldn’t have a scene in this
bonnet. It is far too fragile. A harsh word would ruin it. No, I must go, dear
Agatha. Good-bye, Lord Henry, you are quite delightful and dreadfully
demoralizing. I am sure I don’t know what to say about your views. You
must come and dine with us some night. Tuesday? Are you disengaged
Tuesday?” “For you I would throw over anybody, Duchess,” said Lord Henry with
a bow. “Ah! that is very nice, and very wrong of you,” she cried;
“so mind you come”; and she swept out of the room, followed by Lady
Agatha and the other ladies. When Lord Henry had sat down again, Mr. Erskine moved round, and taking a chair
close to him, placed his hand upon his arm. “You talk books away,” he said; “why don’t you write
one?” “I am too fond of reading books to care to write them, Mr. Erskine. I
should like to write a novel certainly, a novel that would be as lovely as a
Persian carpet and as unreal. But there is no literary public in England for
anything except newspapers, primers, and encyclopaedias. Of all people in the
world the English have the least sense of the beauty of literature.” “I fear you are right,” answered Mr. Erskine. “I myself used
to have literary ambitions, but I gave them up long ago. And now, my dear young
friend, if you will allow me to call you so, may I ask if you really meant all
that you said to us at lunch?” “I quite forget what I said,” smiled Lord Henry. “Was it all
very bad?” “Very bad indeed. In fact I consider you extremely dangerous, and if
anything happens to our good duchess, we shall all look on you as being
primarily responsible. But I should like to talk to you about life. The
generation into which I was born was tedious. Some day, when you are tired of
London, come down to Treadley and expound to me your philosophy of pleasure
over some admirable Burgundy I am fortunate enough to possess.” “I shall be charmed. A visit to Treadley would be a great privilege. It
has a perfect host, and a perfect library.” “You will complete it,” answered the old gentleman with a courteous
bow. “And now I must bid good-bye to your excellent aunt. I am due at the
Athenaeum. It is the hour when we sleep there.” “All of you, Mr. Erskine?” “Forty of us, in forty arm-chairs. We are practising for an English
Academy of Letters.” Lord Henry laughed and rose. “I am going to the park,” he cried. As he was passing out of the door, Dorian Gray touched him on the arm.
“Let me come with you,” he murmured. “But I thought you had promised Basil Hallward to go and see him,”
answered Lord Henry. “I would sooner come with you; yes, I feel I must come with you. Do let
me. And you will promise to talk to me all the time? No one talks so
wonderfully as you do.” “Ah! I have talked quite enough for to-day,” said Lord Henry,
smiling. “All I want now is to look at life. You may come and look at it
with me, if you care to.” |
One afternoon, a month later, Dorian Gray was reclining in a luxurious
arm-chair, in the little library of Lord Henry’s house in Mayfair. It
was, in its way, a very charming room, with its high panelled wainscoting of
olive-stained oak, its cream-coloured frieze and ceiling of raised plasterwork,
and its brickdust felt carpet strewn with silk, long-fringed Persian rugs. On a
tiny satinwood table stood a statuette by Clodion, and beside it lay a copy of
Les Cent Nouvelles, bound for Margaret of Valois by Clovis Eve and powdered
with the gilt daisies that Queen had selected for her device. Some large blue
china jars and parrot-tulips were ranged on the mantelshelf, and through the
small leaded panes of the window streamed the apricot-coloured light of a
summer day in London. Lord Henry had not yet come in. He was always late on principle, his principle
being that punctuality is the thief of time. So the lad was looking rather
sulky, as with listless fingers he turned over the pages of an elaborately
illustrated edition of Manon Lescaut that he had found in one of the
book-cases. The formal monotonous ticking of the Louis Quatorze clock annoyed
him. Once or twice he thought of going away. At last he heard a step outside, and the door opened. “How late you are,
Harry!” he murmured. “I am afraid it is not Harry, Mr. Gray,” answered a shrill voice. He glanced quickly round and rose to his feet. “I beg your pardon. I
thought—” “You thought it was my husband. It is only his wife. You must let me
introduce myself. I know you quite well by your photographs. I think my husband
has got seventeen of them.” “Not seventeen, Lady Henry?” “Well, eighteen, then. And I saw you with him the other night at the
opera.” She laughed nervously as she spoke, and watched him with her
vague forget-me-not eyes. She was a curious woman, whose dresses always looked
as if they had been designed in a rage and put on in a tempest. She was usually
in love with somebody, and, as her passion was never returned, she had kept all
her illusions. She tried to look picturesque, but only succeeded in being
untidy. Her name was Victoria, and she had a perfect mania for going to church. “That was at Lohengrin, Lady Henry, I think?” “Yes; it was at dear Lohengrin. I like Wagner’s music better than
anybody’s. It is so loud that one can talk the whole time without other
people hearing what one says. That is a great advantage, don’t you think
so, Mr. Gray?” The same nervous staccato laugh broke from her thin lips, and her fingers began
to play with a long tortoise-shell paper-knife. Dorian smiled and shook his head: “I am afraid I don’t think so,
Lady Henry. I never talk during music—at least, during good music. If one
hears bad music, it is one’s duty to drown it in conversation.” “Ah! that is one of Harry’s views, isn’t it, Mr. Gray? I
always hear Harry’s views from his friends. It is the only way I get to
know of them. But you must not think I don’t like good music. I adore it,
but I am afraid of it. It makes me too romantic. I have simply worshipped
pianists—two at a time, sometimes, Harry tells me. I don’t know
what it is about them. Perhaps it is that they are foreigners. They all are,
ain’t they? Even those that are born in England become foreigners after a
time, don’t they? It is so clever of them, and such a compliment to art.
Makes it quite cosmopolitan, doesn’t it? You have never been to any of my
parties, have you, Mr. Gray? You must come. I can’t afford orchids, but I
spare no expense in foreigners. They make one’s rooms look so
picturesque. But here is Harry! Harry, I came in to look for you, to ask you
something—I forget what it was—and I found Mr. Gray here. We have
had such a pleasant chat about music. We have quite the same ideas. No; I think
our ideas are quite different. But he has been most pleasant. I am so glad
I’ve seen him.” “I am charmed, my love, quite charmed,” said Lord Henry, elevating
his dark, crescent-shaped eyebrows and looking at them both with an amused
smile. “So sorry I am late, Dorian. I went to look after a piece of old
brocade in Wardour Street and had to bargain for hours for it. Nowadays people
know the price of everything and the value of nothing.” “I am afraid I must be going,” exclaimed Lady Henry, breaking an
awkward silence with her silly sudden laugh. “I have promised to drive
with the duchess. Good-bye, Mr. Gray. Good-bye, Harry. You are dining out, I
suppose? So am I. Perhaps I shall see you at Lady Thornbury’s.” “I dare say, my dear,” said Lord Henry, shutting the door behind
her as, looking like a bird of paradise that had been out all night in the
rain, she flitted out of the room, leaving a faint odour of frangipanni. Then
he lit a cigarette and flung himself down on the sofa. “Never marry a woman with straw-coloured hair, Dorian,” he said
after a few puffs. “Why, Harry?” “Because they are so sentimental.” “But I like sentimental people.” “Never marry at all, Dorian. Men marry because they are tired; women,
because they are curious: both are disappointed.” “I don’t think I am likely to marry, Harry. I am too much in love.
That is one of your aphorisms. I am putting it into practice, as I do
everything that you say.” “Who are you in love with?” asked Lord Henry after a pause. “With an actress,” said Dorian Gray, blushing. Lord Henry shrugged his shoulders. “That is a rather commonplace
début.” “You would not say so if you saw her, Harry.” “Who is she?” “Her name is Sibyl Vane.” “Never heard of her.” “No one has. People will some day, however. She is a genius.” “My dear boy, no woman is a genius. Women are a decorative sex. They
never have anything to say, but they say it charmingly. Women represent the
triumph of matter over mind, just as men represent the triumph of mind over
morals.” “Harry, how can you?” “My dear Dorian, it is quite true. I am analysing women at present, so I
ought to know. The subject is not so abstruse as I thought it was. I find that,
ultimately, there are only two kinds of women, the plain and the coloured. The
plain women are very useful. If you want to gain a reputation for
respectability, you have merely to take them down to supper. The other women
are very charming. They commit one mistake, however. They paint in order to try
and look young. Our grandmothers painted in order to try and talk brilliantly.
Rouge and esprit used to go together. That is all over now. As
long as a woman can look ten years younger than her own daughter, she is
perfectly satisfied. As for conversation, there are only five women in London
worth talking to, and two of these can’t be admitted into decent society.
However, tell me about your genius. How long have you known her?” “Ah! Harry, your views terrify me.” “Never mind that. How long have you known her?” “About three weeks.” “And where did you come across her?” “I will tell you, Harry, but you mustn’t be unsympathetic about it.
After all, it never would have happened if I had not met you. You filled me
with a wild desire to know everything about life. For days after I met you,
something seemed to throb in my veins. As I lounged in the park, or strolled
down Piccadilly, I used to look at every one who passed me and wonder, with a
mad curiosity, what sort of lives they led. Some of them fascinated me. Others
filled me with terror. There was an exquisite poison in the air. I had a
passion for sensations.... Well, one evening about seven o’clock, I
determined to go out in search of some adventure. I felt that this grey
monstrous London of ours, with its myriads of people, its sordid sinners, and
its splendid sins, as you once phrased it, must have something in store for me.
I fancied a thousand things. The mere danger gave me a sense of delight. I
remembered what you had said to me on that wonderful evening when we first
dined together, about the search for beauty being the real secret of life. I
don’t know what I expected, but I went out and wandered eastward, soon
losing my way in a labyrinth of grimy streets and black grassless squares.
About half-past eight I passed by an absurd little theatre, with great flaring
gas-jets and gaudy play-bills. A hideous Jew, in the most amazing waistcoat I
ever beheld in my life, was standing at the entrance, smoking a vile cigar. He
had greasy ringlets, and an enormous diamond blazed in the centre of a soiled
shirt. ‘Have a box, my Lord?’ he said, when he saw me, and he took
off his hat with an air of gorgeous servility. There was something about him,
Harry, that amused me. He was such a monster. You will laugh at me, I know, but
I really went in and paid a whole guinea for the stage-box. To the present day
I can’t make out why I did so; and yet if I hadn’t—my dear
Harry, if I hadn’t—I should have missed the greatest romance of my
life. I see you are laughing. It is horrid of you!” “I am not laughing, Dorian; at least I am not laughing at you. But you
should not say the greatest romance of your life. You should say the first
romance of your life. You will always be loved, and you will always be in love
with love. A grande passion is the privilege of people who have nothing
to do. That is the one use of the idle classes of a country. Don’t be
afraid. There are exquisite things in store for you. This is merely the
beginning.” “Do you think my nature so shallow?” cried Dorian Gray angrily. “No; I think your nature so deep.” “How do you mean?” “My dear boy, the people who love only once in their lives are really the
shallow people. What they call their loyalty, and their fidelity, I call either
the lethargy of custom or their lack of imagination. Faithfulness is to the
emotional life what consistency is to the life of the intellect—simply a
confession of failure. Faithfulness! I must analyse it some day. The passion
for property is in it. There are many things that we would throw away if we
were not afraid that others might pick them up. But I don’t want to
interrupt you. Go on with your story.” “Well, I found myself seated in a horrid little private box, with a
vulgar drop-scene staring me in the face. I looked out from behind the curtain
and surveyed the house. It was a tawdry affair, all Cupids and cornucopias,
like a third-rate wedding-cake. The gallery and pit were fairly full, but the
two rows of dingy stalls were quite empty, and there was hardly a person in
what I suppose they called the dress-circle. Women went about with oranges and
ginger-beer, and there was a terrible consumption of nuts going on.” “It must have been just like the palmy days of the British drama.” “Just like, I should fancy, and very depressing. I began to wonder what
on earth I should do when I caught sight of the play-bill. What do you think
the play was, Harry?” “I should think ‘The Idiot Boy’, or ‘Dumb but
Innocent’. Our fathers used to like that sort of piece, I believe. The
longer I live, Dorian, the more keenly I feel that whatever was good enough for
our fathers is not good enough for us. In art, as in politics, les
grandpères ont toujours tort.” “This play was good enough for us, Harry. It was Romeo and Juliet. I must
admit that I was rather annoyed at the idea of seeing Shakespeare done in such
a wretched hole of a place. Still, I felt interested, in a sort of way. At any
rate, I determined to wait for the first act. There was a dreadful orchestra,
presided over by a young Hebrew who sat at a cracked piano, that nearly drove
me away, but at last the drop-scene was drawn up and the play began. Romeo was
a stout elderly gentleman, with corked eyebrows, a husky tragedy voice, and a
figure like a beer-barrel. Mercutio was almost as bad. He was played by the
low-comedian, who had introduced gags of his own and was on most friendly terms
with the pit. They were both as grotesque as the scenery, and that looked as if
it had come out of a country-booth. But Juliet! Harry, imagine a girl, hardly
seventeen years of age, with a little, flowerlike face, a small Greek head with
plaited coils of dark-brown hair, eyes that were violet wells of passion, lips
that were like the petals of a rose. She was the loveliest thing I had ever
seen in my life. You said to me once that pathos left you unmoved, but that
beauty, mere beauty, could fill your eyes with tears. I tell you, Harry, I
could hardly see this girl for the mist of tears that came across me. And her
voice—I never heard such a voice. It was very low at first, with deep
mellow notes that seemed to fall singly upon one’s ear. Then it became a
little louder, and sounded like a flute or a distant hautboy. In the
garden-scene it had all the tremulous ecstasy that one hears just before dawn
when nightingales are singing. There were moments, later on, when it had the
wild passion of violins. You know how a voice can stir one. Your voice and the
voice of Sibyl Vane are two things that I shall never forget. When I close my
eyes, I hear them, and each of them says something different. I don’t
know which to follow. Why should I not love her? Harry, I do love her. She is
everything to me in life. Night after night I go to see her play. One evening
she is Rosalind, and the next evening she is Imogen. I have seen her die in the
gloom of an Italian tomb, sucking the poison from her lover’s lips. I
have watched her wandering through the forest of Arden, disguised as a pretty
boy in hose and doublet and dainty cap. She has been mad, and has come into the
presence of a guilty king, and given him rue to wear and bitter herbs to taste
of. She has been innocent, and the black hands of jealousy have crushed her
reedlike throat. I have seen her in every age and in every costume. Ordinary
women never appeal to one’s imagination. They are limited to their
century. No glamour ever transfigures them. One knows their minds as easily as
one knows their bonnets. One can always find them. There is no mystery in any
of them. They ride in the park in the morning and chatter at tea-parties in the
afternoon. They have their stereotyped smile and their fashionable manner. They
are quite obvious. But an actress! How different an actress is! Harry! why
didn’t you tell me that the only thing worth loving is an actress?” “Because I have loved so many of them, Dorian.” “Oh, yes, horrid people with dyed hair and painted faces.” “Don’t run down dyed hair and painted faces. There is an
extraordinary charm in them, sometimes,” said Lord Henry. “I wish now I had not told you about Sibyl Vane.” “You could not have helped telling me, Dorian. All through your life you
will tell me everything you do.” “Yes, Harry, I believe that is true. I cannot help telling you things.
You have a curious influence over me. If I ever did a crime, I would come and
confess it to you. You would understand me.” “People like you—the wilful sunbeams of life—don’t
commit crimes, Dorian. But I am much obliged for the compliment, all the same.
And now tell me—reach me the matches, like a good
boy—thanks—what are your actual relations with Sibyl Vane?” Dorian Gray leaped to his feet, with flushed cheeks and burning eyes.
“Harry! Sibyl Vane is sacred!” “It is only the sacred things that are worth touching, Dorian,”
said Lord Henry, with a strange touch of pathos in his voice. “But why
should you be annoyed? I suppose she will belong to you some day. When one is
in love, one always begins by deceiving one’s self, and one always ends
by deceiving others. That is what the world calls a romance. You know her, at
any rate, I suppose?” “Of course I know her. On the first night I was at the theatre, the
horrid old Jew came round to the box after the performance was over and offered
to take me behind the scenes and introduce me to her. I was furious with him,
and told him that Juliet had been dead for hundreds of years and that her body
was lying in a marble tomb in Verona. I think, from his blank look of
amazement, that he was under the impression that I had taken too much
champagne, or something.” “I am not surprised.” “Then he asked me if I wrote for any of the newspapers. I told him I
never even read them. He seemed terribly disappointed at that, and confided to
me that all the dramatic critics were in a conspiracy against him, and that
they were every one of them to be bought.” “I should not wonder if he was quite right there. But, on the other hand,
judging from their appearance, most of them cannot be at all expensive.” “Well, he seemed to think they were beyond his means,” laughed
Dorian. “By this time, however, the lights were being put out in the
theatre, and I had to go. He wanted me to try some cigars that he strongly
recommended. I declined. The next night, of course, I arrived at the place
again. When he saw me, he made me a low bow and assured me that I was a
munificent patron of art. He was a most offensive brute, though he had an
extraordinary passion for Shakespeare. He told me once, with an air of pride,
that his five bankruptcies were entirely due to ‘The Bard,’ as he
insisted on calling him. He seemed to think it a distinction.” “It was a distinction, my dear Dorian—a great distinction. Most
people become bankrupt through having invested too heavily in the prose of
life. To have ruined one’s self over poetry is an honour. But when did
you first speak to Miss Sibyl Vane?” “The third night. She had been playing Rosalind. I could not help going
round. I had thrown her some flowers, and she had looked at me—at least I
fancied that she had. The old Jew was persistent. He seemed determined to take
me behind, so I consented. It was curious my not wanting to know her,
wasn’t it?” “No; I don’t think so.” “My dear Harry, why?” “I will tell you some other time. Now I want to know about the
girl.” “Sibyl? Oh, she was so shy and so gentle. There is something of a child
about her. Her eyes opened wide in exquisite wonder when I told her what I
thought of her performance, and she seemed quite unconscious of her power. I
think we were both rather nervous. The old Jew stood grinning at the doorway of
the dusty greenroom, making elaborate speeches about us both, while we stood
looking at each other like children. He would insist on calling me ‘My
Lord,’ so I had to assure Sibyl that I was not anything of the kind. She
said quite simply to me, ‘You look more like a prince. I must call you
Prince Charming.’” “Upon my word, Dorian, Miss Sibyl knows how to pay compliments.” “You don’t understand her, Harry. She regarded me merely as a
person in a play. She knows nothing of life. She lives with her mother, a faded
tired woman who played Lady Capulet in a sort of magenta dressing-wrapper on
the first night, and looks as if she had seen better days.” “I know that look. It depresses me,” murmured Lord Henry, examining
his rings. “The Jew wanted to tell me her history, but I said it did not interest
me.” “You were quite right. There is always something infinitely mean about
other people’s tragedies.” “Sibyl is the only thing I care about. What is it to me where she came
from? From her little head to her little feet, she is absolutely and entirely
divine. Every night of my life I go to see her act, and every night she is more
marvellous.” “That is the reason, I suppose, that you never dine with me now. I
thought you must have some curious romance on hand. You have; but it is not
quite what I expected.” “My dear Harry, we either lunch or sup together every day, and I have
been to the opera with you several times,” said Dorian, opening his blue
eyes in wonder. “You always come dreadfully late.” “Well, I can’t help going to see Sibyl play,” he cried,
“even if it is only for a single act. I get hungry for her presence; and
when I think of the wonderful soul that is hidden away in that little ivory
body, I am filled with awe.” “You can dine with me to-night, Dorian, can’t you?” He shook his head. “To-night she is Imogen,” he answered,
“and to-morrow night she will be Juliet.” “When is she Sibyl Vane?” “Never.” “I congratulate you.” “How horrid you are! She is all the great heroines of the world in one.
She is more than an individual. You laugh, but I tell you she has genius. I
love her, and I must make her love me. You, who know all the secrets of life,
tell me how to charm Sibyl Vane to love me! I want to make Romeo jealous. I
want the dead lovers of the world to hear our laughter and grow sad. I want a
breath of our passion to stir their dust into consciousness, to wake their
ashes into pain. My God, Harry, how I worship her!” He was walking up and
down the room as he spoke. Hectic spots of red burned on his cheeks. He was
terribly excited. Lord Henry watched him with a subtle sense of pleasure. How different he was
now from the shy frightened boy he had met in Basil Hallward’s studio!
His nature had developed like a flower, had borne blossoms of scarlet flame.
Out of its secret hiding-place had crept his soul, and desire had come to meet
it on the way. “And what do you propose to do?” said Lord Henry at last. “I want you and Basil to come with me some night and see her act. I have
not the slightest fear of the result. You are certain to acknowledge her
genius. Then we must get her out of the Jew’s hands. She is bound to him
for three years—at least for two years and eight months—from the
present time. I shall have to pay him something, of course. When all that is
settled, I shall take a West End theatre and bring her out properly. She will
make the world as mad as she has made me.” “That would be impossible, my dear boy.” “Yes, she will. She has not merely art, consummate art-instinct, in her,
but she has personality also; and you have often told me that it is
personalities, not principles, that move the age.” “Well, what night shall we go?” “Let me see. To-day is Tuesday. Let us fix to-morrow. She plays Juliet
to-morrow.” “All right. The Bristol at eight o’clock; and I will get
Basil.” “Not eight, Harry, please. Half-past six. We must be there before the
curtain rises. You must see her in the first act, where she meets Romeo.” “Half-past six! What an hour! It will be like having a meat-tea, or
reading an English novel. It must be seven. No gentleman dines before seven.
Shall you see Basil between this and then? Or shall I write to him?” “Dear Basil! I have not laid eyes on him for a week. It is rather horrid
of me, as he has sent me my portrait in the most wonderful frame, specially
designed by himself, and, though I am a little jealous of the picture for being
a whole month younger than I am, I must admit that I delight in it. Perhaps you
had better write to him. I don’t want to see him alone. He says things
that annoy me. He gives me good advice.” Lord Henry smiled. “People are very fond of giving away what they need
most themselves. It is what I call the depth of generosity.” “Oh, Basil is the best of fellows, but he seems to me to be just a bit of
a Philistine. Since I have known you, Harry, I have discovered that.” “Basil, my dear boy, puts everything that is charming in him into his
work. The consequence is that he has nothing left for life but his prejudices,
his principles, and his common sense. The only artists I have ever known who
are personally delightful are bad artists. Good artists exist simply in what
they make, and consequently are perfectly uninteresting in what they are. A
great poet, a really great poet, is the most unpoetical of all creatures. But
inferior poets are absolutely fascinating. The worse their rhymes are, the more
picturesque they look. The mere fact of having published a book of second-rate
sonnets makes a man quite irresistible. He lives the poetry that he cannot
write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realize.” “I wonder is that really so, Harry?” said Dorian Gray, putting some
perfume on his handkerchief out of a large, gold-topped bottle that stood on
the table. “It must be, if you say it. And now I am off. Imogen is
waiting for me. Don’t forget about to-morrow. Good-bye.” As he left the room, Lord Henry’s heavy eyelids drooped, and he began to
think. Certainly few people had ever interested him so much as Dorian Gray, and
yet the lad’s mad adoration of some one else caused him not the slightest
pang of annoyance or jealousy. He was pleased by it. It made him a more
interesting study. He had been always enthralled by the methods of natural
science, but the ordinary subject-matter of that science had seemed to him
trivial and of no import. And so he had begun by vivisecting himself, as he had
ended by vivisecting others. Human life—that appeared to him the one
thing worth investigating. Compared to it there was nothing else of any value.
It was true that as one watched life in its curious crucible of pain and
pleasure, one could not wear over one’s face a mask of glass, nor keep
the sulphurous fumes from troubling the brain and making the imagination turbid
with monstrous fancies and misshapen dreams. There were poisons so subtle that
to know their properties one had to sicken of them. There were maladies so
strange that one had to pass through them if one sought to understand their
nature. And, yet, what a great reward one received! How wonderful the whole
world became to one! To note the curious hard logic of passion, and the
emotional coloured life of the intellect—to observe where they met, and
where they separated, at what point they were in unison, and at what point they
were at discord—there was a delight in that! What matter what the cost
was? One could never pay too high a price for any sensation. He was conscious—and the thought brought a gleam of pleasure into his
brown agate eyes—that it was through certain words of his, musical words
said with musical utterance, that Dorian Gray’s soul had turned to this
white girl and bowed in worship before her. To a large extent the lad was his
own creation. He had made him premature. That was something. Ordinary people
waited till life disclosed to them its secrets, but to the few, to the elect,
the mysteries of life were revealed before the veil was drawn away. Sometimes
this was the effect of art, and chiefly of the art of literature, which dealt
immediately with the passions and the intellect. But now and then a complex
personality took the place and assumed the office of art, was indeed, in its
way, a real work of art, life having its elaborate masterpieces, just as poetry
has, or sculpture, or painting. Yes, the lad was premature. He was gathering his harvest while it was yet
spring. The pulse and passion of youth were in him, but he was becoming
self-conscious. It was delightful to watch him. With his beautiful face, and
his beautiful soul, he was a thing to wonder at. It was no matter how it all
ended, or was destined to end. He was like one of those gracious figures in a
pageant or a play, whose joys seem to be remote from one, but whose sorrows
stir one’s sense of beauty, and whose wounds are like red roses. Soul and body, body and soul—how mysterious they were! There was
animalism in the soul, and the body had its moments of spirituality. The senses
could refine, and the intellect could degrade. Who could say where the fleshly
impulse ceased, or the psychical impulse began? How shallow were the arbitrary
definitions of ordinary psychologists! And yet how difficult to decide between
the claims of the various schools! Was the soul a shadow seated in the house of
sin? Or was the body really in the soul, as Giordano Bruno thought? The
separation of spirit from matter was a mystery, and the union of spirit with
matter was a mystery also. He began to wonder whether we could ever make psychology so absolute a science
that each little spring of life would be revealed to us. As it was, we always
misunderstood ourselves and rarely understood others. Experience was of no
ethical value. It was merely the name men gave to their mistakes. Moralists
had, as a rule, regarded it as a mode of warning, had claimed for it a certain
ethical efficacy in the formation of character, had praised it as something
that taught us what to follow and showed us what to avoid. But there was no
motive power in experience. It was as little of an active cause as conscience
itself. All that it really demonstrated was that our future would be the same
as our past, and that the sin we had done once, and with loathing, we would do
many times, and with joy. It was clear to him that the experimental method was the only method by which
one could arrive at any scientific analysis of the passions; and certainly
Dorian Gray was a subject made to his hand, and seemed to promise rich and
fruitful results. His sudden mad love for Sibyl Vane was a psychological
phenomenon of no small interest. There was no doubt that curiosity had much to
do with it, curiosity and the desire for new experiences, yet it was not a
simple, but rather a very complex passion. What there was in it of the purely
sensuous instinct of boyhood had been transformed by the workings of the
imagination, changed into something that seemed to the lad himself to be remote
from sense, and was for that very reason all the more dangerous. It was the
passions about whose origin we deceived ourselves that tyrannized most strongly
over us. Our weakest motives were those of whose nature we were conscious. It
often happened that when we thought we were experimenting on others we were
really experimenting on ourselves. While Lord Henry sat dreaming on these things, a knock came to the door, and
his valet entered and reminded him it was time to dress for dinner. He got up
and looked out into the street. The sunset had smitten into scarlet gold the
upper windows of the houses opposite. The panes glowed like plates of heated
metal. The sky above was like a faded rose. He thought of his friend’s
young fiery-coloured life and wondered how it was all going to end. When he arrived home, about half-past twelve o’clock, he saw a telegram
lying on the hall table. He opened it and found it was from Dorian Gray. It was
to tell him that he was engaged to be married to Sibyl Vane. |
“Mother, Mother, I am so happy!” whispered the girl, burying her
face in the lap of the faded, tired-looking woman who, with back turned to the
shrill intrusive light, was sitting in the one arm-chair that their dingy
sitting-room contained. “I am so happy!” she repeated, “and
you must be happy, too!” Mrs. Vane winced and put her thin, bismuth-whitened hands on her
daughter’s head. “Happy!” she echoed, “I am only happy,
Sibyl, when I see you act. You must not think of anything but your acting. Mr.
Isaacs has been very good to us, and we owe him money.” The girl looked up and pouted. “Money, Mother?” she cried,
“what does money matter? Love is more than money.” “Mr. Isaacs has advanced us fifty pounds to pay off our debts and to get
a proper outfit for James. You must not forget that, Sibyl. Fifty pounds is a
very large sum. Mr. Isaacs has been most considerate.” “He is not a gentleman, Mother, and I hate the way he talks to me,”
said the girl, rising to her feet and going over to the window. “I don’t know how we could manage without him,” answered the
elder woman querulously. Sibyl Vane tossed her head and laughed. “We don’t want him any
more, Mother. Prince Charming rules life for us now.” Then she paused. A
rose shook in her blood and shadowed her cheeks. Quick breath parted the petals
of her lips. They trembled. Some southern wind of passion swept over her and
stirred the dainty folds of her dress. “I love him,” she said
simply. “Foolish child! foolish child!” was the parrot-phrase flung in
answer. The waving of crooked, false-jewelled fingers gave grotesqueness to the
words. The girl laughed again. The joy of a caged bird was in her voice. Her eyes
caught the melody and echoed it in radiance, then closed for a moment, as
though to hide their secret. When they opened, the mist of a dream had passed
across them. Thin-lipped wisdom spoke at her from the worn chair, hinted at prudence, quoted
from that book of cowardice whose author apes the name of common sense. She did
not listen. She was free in her prison of passion. Her prince, Prince Charming,
was with her. She had called on memory to remake him. She had sent her soul to
search for him, and it had brought him back. His kiss burned again upon her
mouth. Her eyelids were warm with his breath. Then wisdom altered its method and spoke of espial and discovery. This young
man might be rich. If so, marriage should be thought of. Against the shell of
her ear broke the waves of worldly cunning. The arrows of craft shot by her.
She saw the thin lips moving, and smiled. Suddenly she felt the need to speak. The wordy silence troubled her.
“Mother, Mother,” she cried, “why does he love me so much? I
know why I love him. I love him because he is like what love himself should be.
But what does he see in me? I am not worthy of him. And yet—why, I cannot
tell—though I feel so much beneath him, I don’t feel humble. I feel
proud, terribly proud. Mother, did you love my father as I love Prince
Charming?” The elder woman grew pale beneath the coarse powder that daubed her cheeks, and
her dry lips twitched with a spasm of pain. Sybil rushed to her, flung her arms
round her neck, and kissed her. “Forgive me, Mother. I know it pains you
to talk about our father. But it only pains you because you loved him so much.
Don’t look so sad. I am as happy to-day as you were twenty years ago. Ah!
let me be happy for ever!” “My child, you are far too young to think of falling in love. Besides,
what do you know of this young man? You don’t even know his name. The
whole thing is most inconvenient, and really, when James is going away to
Australia, and I have so much to think of, I must say that you should have
shown more consideration. However, as I said before, if he is rich ...” “Ah! Mother, Mother, let me be happy!” Mrs. Vane glanced at her, and with one of those false theatrical gestures that
so often become a mode of second nature to a stage-player, clasped her in her
arms. At this moment, the door opened and a young lad with rough brown hair
came into the room. He was thick-set of figure, and his hands and feet were
large and somewhat clumsy in movement. He was not so finely bred as his sister.
One would hardly have guessed the close relationship that existed between them.
Mrs. Vane fixed her eyes on him and intensified her smile. She mentally
elevated her son to the dignity of an audience. She felt sure that the
tableau was interesting. “You might keep some of your kisses for me, Sibyl, I think,” said
the lad with a good-natured grumble. “Ah! but you don’t like being kissed, Jim,” she cried.
“You are a dreadful old bear.” And she ran across the room and
hugged him. James Vane looked into his sister’s face with tenderness. “I want
you to come out with me for a walk, Sibyl. I don’t suppose I shall ever
see this horrid London again. I am sure I don’t want to.” “My son, don’t say such dreadful things,” murmured Mrs. Vane,
taking up a tawdry theatrical dress, with a sigh, and beginning to patch it.
She felt a little disappointed that he had not joined the group. It would have
increased the theatrical picturesqueness of the situation. “Why not, Mother? I mean it.” “You pain me, my son. I trust you will return from Australia in a
position of affluence. I believe there is no society of any kind in the
Colonies—nothing that I would call society—so when you have made
your fortune, you must come back and assert yourself in London.” “Society!” muttered the lad. “I don’t want to know
anything about that. I should like to make some money to take you and Sibyl off
the stage. I hate it.” “Oh, Jim!” said Sibyl, laughing, “how unkind of you! But are
you really going for a walk with me? That will be nice! I was afraid you were
going to say good-bye to some of your friends—to Tom Hardy, who gave you
that hideous pipe, or Ned Langton, who makes fun of you for smoking it. It is
very sweet of you to let me have your last afternoon. Where shall we go? Let us
go to the park.” “I am too shabby,” he answered, frowning. “Only swell people
go to the park.” “Nonsense, Jim,” she whispered, stroking the sleeve of his coat. He hesitated for a moment. “Very well,” he said at last, “but
don’t be too long dressing.” She danced out of the door. One could
hear her singing as she ran upstairs. Her little feet pattered overhead. He walked up and down the room two or three times. Then he turned to the still
figure in the chair. “Mother, are my things ready?” he asked. “Quite ready, James,” she answered, keeping her eyes on her work.
For some months past she had felt ill at ease when she was alone with this
rough stern son of hers. Her shallow secret nature was troubled when their eyes
met. She used to wonder if he suspected anything. The silence, for he made no
other observation, became intolerable to her. She began to complain. Women
defend themselves by attacking, just as they attack by sudden and strange
surrenders. “I hope you will be contented, James, with your sea-faring
life,” she said. “You must remember that it is your own choice. You
might have entered a solicitor’s office. Solicitors are a very
respectable class, and in the country often dine with the best families.” “I hate offices, and I hate clerks,” he replied. “But you are
quite right. I have chosen my own life. All I say is, watch over Sibyl.
Don’t let her come to any harm. Mother, you must watch over her.” “James, you really talk very strangely. Of course I watch over
Sibyl.” “I hear a gentleman comes every night to the theatre and goes behind to
talk to her. Is that right? What about that?” “You are speaking about things you don’t understand, James. In the
profession we are accustomed to receive a great deal of most gratifying
attention. I myself used to receive many bouquets at one time. That was when
acting was really understood. As for Sibyl, I do not know at present whether
her attachment is serious or not. But there is no doubt that the young man in
question is a perfect gentleman. He is always most polite to me. Besides, he
has the appearance of being rich, and the flowers he sends are lovely.” “You don’t know his name, though,” said the lad harshly. “No,” answered his mother with a placid expression in her face.
“He has not yet revealed his real name. I think it is quite romantic of
him. He is probably a member of the aristocracy.” James Vane bit his lip. “Watch over Sibyl, Mother,” he cried,
“watch over her.” “My son, you distress me very much. Sibyl is always under my special
care. Of course, if this gentleman is wealthy, there is no reason why she
should not contract an alliance with him. I trust he is one of the aristocracy.
He has all the appearance of it, I must say. It might be a most brilliant
marriage for Sibyl. They would make a charming couple. His good looks are
really quite remarkable; everybody notices them.” The lad muttered something to himself and drummed on the window-pane with his
coarse fingers. He had just turned round to say something when the door opened
and Sibyl ran in. “How serious you both are!” she cried. “What is the
matter?” “Nothing,” he answered. “I suppose one must be serious
sometimes. Good-bye, Mother; I will have my dinner at five o’clock.
Everything is packed, except my shirts, so you need not trouble.” “Good-bye, my son,” she answered with a bow of strained
stateliness. She was extremely annoyed at the tone he had adopted with her, and there was
something in his look that had made her feel afraid. “Kiss me, Mother,” said the girl. Her flowerlike lips touched the
withered cheek and warmed its frost. “My child! my child!” cried Mrs. Vane, looking up to the ceiling in
search of an imaginary gallery. “Come, Sibyl,” said her brother impatiently. He hated his
mother’s affectations. They went out into the flickering, wind-blown sunlight and strolled down the
dreary Euston Road. The passersby glanced in wonder at the sullen heavy youth
who, in coarse, ill-fitting clothes, was in the company of such a graceful,
refined-looking girl. He was like a common gardener walking with a rose. Jim frowned from time to time when he caught the inquisitive glance of some
stranger. He had that dislike of being stared at, which comes on geniuses late
in life and never leaves the commonplace. Sibyl, however, was quite unconscious
of the effect she was producing. Her love was trembling in laughter on her
lips. She was thinking of Prince Charming, and, that she might think of him all
the more, she did not talk of him, but prattled on about the ship in which Jim
was going to sail, about the gold he was certain to find, about the wonderful
heiress whose life he was to save from the wicked, red-shirted bushrangers. For
he was not to remain a sailor, or a supercargo, or whatever he was going to be.
Oh, no! A sailor’s existence was dreadful. Fancy being cooped up in a
horrid ship, with the hoarse, hump-backed waves trying to get in, and a black
wind blowing the masts down and tearing the sails into long screaming ribands!
He was to leave the vessel at Melbourne, bid a polite good-bye to the captain,
and go off at once to the gold-fields. Before a week was over he was to come
across a large nugget of pure gold, the largest nugget that had ever been
discovered, and bring it down to the coast in a waggon guarded by six mounted
policemen. The bushrangers were to attack them three times, and be defeated
with immense slaughter. Or, no. He was not to go to the gold-fields at all.
They were horrid places, where men got intoxicated, and shot each other in
bar-rooms, and used bad language. He was to be a nice sheep-farmer, and one
evening, as he was riding home, he was to see the beautiful heiress being
carried off by a robber on a black horse, and give chase, and rescue her. Of
course, she would fall in love with him, and he with her, and they would get
married, and come home, and live in an immense house in London. Yes, there were
delightful things in store for him. But he must be very good, and not lose his
temper, or spend his money foolishly. She was only a year older than he was,
but she knew so much more of life. He must be sure, also, to write to her by
every mail, and to say his prayers each night before he went to sleep. God was
very good, and would watch over him. She would pray for him, too, and in a few
years he would come back quite rich and happy. The lad listened sulkily to her and made no answer. He was heart-sick at
leaving home. Yet it was not this alone that made him gloomy and morose. Inexperienced though
he was, he had still a strong sense of the danger of Sibyl’s position.
This young dandy who was making love to her could mean her no good. He was a
gentleman, and he hated him for that, hated him through some curious
race-instinct for which he could not account, and which for that reason was all
the more dominant within him. He was conscious also of the shallowness and
vanity of his mother’s nature, and in that saw infinite peril for Sibyl
and Sibyl’s happiness. Children begin by loving their parents; as they
grow older they judge them; sometimes they forgive them. His mother! He had something on his mind to ask of her, something that he had
brooded on for many months of silence. A chance phrase that he had heard at the
theatre, a whispered sneer that had reached his ears one night as he waited at
the stage-door, had set loose a train of horrible thoughts. He remembered it as
if it had been the lash of a hunting-crop across his face. His brows knit
together into a wedge-like furrow, and with a twitch of pain he bit his
underlip. “You are not listening to a word I am saying, Jim,” cried Sibyl,
“and I am making the most delightful plans for your future. Do say
something.” “What do you want me to say?” “Oh! that you will be a good boy and not forget us,” she answered,
smiling at him. He shrugged his shoulders. “You are more likely to forget me than I am to
forget you, Sibyl.” She flushed. “What do you mean, Jim?” she asked. “You have a new friend, I hear. Who is he? Why have you not told me about
him? He means you no good.” “Stop, Jim!” she exclaimed. “You must not say anything
against him. I love him.” “Why, you don’t even know his name,” answered the lad.
“Who is he? I have a right to know.” “He is called Prince Charming. Don’t you like the name. Oh! you
silly boy! you should never forget it. If you only saw him, you would think him
the most wonderful person in the world. Some day you will meet him—when
you come back from Australia. You will like him so much. Everybody likes him,
and I ... love him. I wish you could come to the theatre to-night. He is going
to be there, and I am to play Juliet. Oh! how I shall play it! Fancy, Jim, to
be in love and play Juliet! To have him sitting there! To play for his delight!
I am afraid I may frighten the company, frighten or enthrall them. To be in
love is to surpass one’s self. Poor dreadful Mr. Isaacs will be shouting
‘genius’ to his loafers at the bar. He has preached me as a dogma;
to-night he will announce me as a revelation. I feel it. And it is all his, his
only, Prince Charming, my wonderful lover, my god of graces. But I am poor
beside him. Poor? What does that matter? When poverty creeps in at the door,
love flies in through the window. Our proverbs want rewriting. They were made
in winter, and it is summer now; spring-time for me, I think, a very dance of
blossoms in blue skies.” “He is a gentleman,” said the lad sullenly. “A prince!” she cried musically. “What more do you
want?” “He wants to enslave you.” “I shudder at the thought of being free.” “I want you to beware of him.” “To see him is to worship him; to know him is to trust him.” “Sibyl, you are mad about him.” She laughed and took his arm. “You dear old Jim, you talk as if you were
a hundred. Some day you will be in love yourself. Then you will know what it
is. Don’t look so sulky. Surely you should be glad to think that, though
you are going away, you leave me happier than I have ever been before. Life has
been hard for us both, terribly hard and difficult. But it will be different
now. You are going to a new world, and I have found one. Here are two chairs;
let us sit down and see the smart people go by.” They took their seats amidst a crowd of watchers. The tulip-beds across the
road flamed like throbbing rings of fire. A white dust—tremulous cloud of
orris-root it seemed—hung in the panting air. The brightly coloured
parasols danced and dipped like monstrous butterflies. She made her brother talk of himself, his hopes, his prospects. He spoke slowly
and with effort. They passed words to each other as players at a game pass
counters. Sibyl felt oppressed. She could not communicate her joy. A faint
smile curving that sullen mouth was all the echo she could win. After some time
she became silent. Suddenly she caught a glimpse of golden hair and laughing
lips, and in an open carriage with two ladies Dorian Gray drove past. She started to her feet. “There he is!” she cried. “Who?” said Jim Vane. “Prince Charming,” she answered, looking after the victoria. He jumped up and seized her roughly by the arm. “Show him to me. Which is
he? Point him out. I must see him!” he exclaimed; but at that moment the
Duke of Berwick’s four-in-hand came between, and when it had left the
space clear, the carriage had swept out of the park. “He is gone,” murmured Sibyl sadly. “I wish you had seen
him.” “I wish I had, for as sure as there is a God in heaven, if he ever does
you any wrong, I shall kill him.” She looked at him in horror. He repeated his words. They cut the air like a
dagger. The people round began to gape. A lady standing close to her tittered. “Come away, Jim; come away,” she whispered. He followed her
doggedly as she passed through the crowd. He felt glad at what he had said. When they reached the Achilles Statue, she turned round. There was pity in her
eyes that became laughter on her lips. She shook her head at him. “You
are foolish, Jim, utterly foolish; a bad-tempered boy, that is all. How can you
say such horrible things? You don’t know what you are talking about. You
are simply jealous and unkind. Ah! I wish you would fall in love. Love makes
people good, and what you said was wicked.” “I am sixteen,” he answered, “and I know what I am about.
Mother is no help to you. She doesn’t understand how to look after you. I
wish now that I was not going to Australia at all. I have a great mind to chuck
the whole thing up. I would, if my articles hadn’t been signed.” “Oh, don’t be so serious, Jim. You are like one of the heroes of
those silly melodramas Mother used to be so fond of acting in. I am not going
to quarrel with you. I have seen him, and oh! to see him is perfect happiness.
We won’t quarrel. I know you would never harm any one I love, would
you?” “Not as long as you love him, I suppose,” was the sullen answer. “I shall love him for ever!” she cried. “And he?” “For ever, too!” “He had better.” She shrank from him. Then she laughed and put her hand on his arm. He was
merely a boy. At the Marble Arch they hailed an omnibus, which left them close to their
shabby home in the Euston Road. It was after five o’clock, and Sibyl had
to lie down for a couple of hours before acting. Jim insisted that she should
do so. He said that he would sooner part with her when their mother was not
present. She would be sure to make a scene, and he detested scenes of every
kind. In Sybil’s own room they parted. There was jealousy in the lad’s
heart, and a fierce murderous hatred of the stranger who, as it seemed to him,
had come between them. Yet, when her arms were flung round his neck, and her
fingers strayed through his hair, he softened and kissed her with real
affection. There were tears in his eyes as he went downstairs. His mother was waiting for him below. She grumbled at his unpunctuality, as he
entered. He made no answer, but sat down to his meagre meal. The flies buzzed
round the table and crawled over the stained cloth. Through the rumble of
omnibuses, and the clatter of street-cabs, he could hear the droning voice
devouring each minute that was left to him. After some time, he thrust away his plate and put his head in his hands. He
felt that he had a right to know. It should have been told to him before, if it
was as he suspected. Leaden with fear, his mother watched him. Words dropped
mechanically from her lips. A tattered lace handkerchief twitched in her
fingers. When the clock struck six, he got up and went to the door. Then he
turned back and looked at her. Their eyes met. In hers he saw a wild appeal for
mercy. It enraged him. “Mother, I have something to ask you,” he said. Her eyes wandered
vaguely about the room. She made no answer. “Tell me the truth. I have a
right to know. Were you married to my father?” She heaved a deep sigh. It was a sigh of relief. The terrible moment, the
moment that night and day, for weeks and months, she had dreaded, had come at
last, and yet she felt no terror. Indeed, in some measure it was a
disappointment to her. The vulgar directness of the question called for a
direct answer. The situation had not been gradually led up to. It was crude. It
reminded her of a bad rehearsal. “No,” she answered, wondering at the harsh simplicity of life. “My father was a scoundrel then!” cried the lad, clenching his
fists. She shook her head. “I knew he was not free. We loved each other very
much. If he had lived, he would have made provision for us. Don’t speak
against him, my son. He was your father, and a gentleman. Indeed, he was highly
connected.” An oath broke from his lips. “I don’t care for myself,” he
exclaimed, “but don’t let Sibyl.... It is a gentleman, isn’t
it, who is in love with her, or says he is? Highly connected, too, I
suppose.” For a moment a hideous sense of humiliation came over the woman. Her head
drooped. She wiped her eyes with shaking hands. “Sibyl has a
mother,” she murmured; “I had none.” The lad was touched. He went towards her, and stooping down, he kissed her.
“I am sorry if I have pained you by asking about my father,” he
said, “but I could not help it. I must go now. Good-bye. Don’t
forget that you will have only one child now to look after, and believe me that
if this man wrongs my sister, I will find out who he is, track him down, and
kill him like a dog. I swear it.” The exaggerated folly of the threat, the passionate gesture that accompanied
it, the mad melodramatic words, made life seem more vivid to her. She was
familiar with the atmosphere. She breathed more freely, and for the first time
for many months she really admired her son. She would have liked to have
continued the scene on the same emotional scale, but he cut her short. Trunks
had to be carried down and mufflers looked for. The lodging-house drudge
bustled in and out. There was the bargaining with the cabman. The moment was
lost in vulgar details. It was with a renewed feeling of disappointment that
she waved the tattered lace handkerchief from the window, as her son drove
away. She was conscious that a great opportunity had been wasted. She consoled
herself by telling Sibyl how desolate she felt her life would be, now that she
had only one child to look after. She remembered the phrase. It had pleased
her. Of the threat she said nothing. It was vividly and dramatically expressed.
She felt that they would all laugh at it some day. |
“I suppose you have heard the news, Basil?” said Lord Henry that
evening as Hallward was shown into a little private room at the Bristol where
dinner had been laid for three. “No, Harry,” answered the artist, giving his hat and coat to the
bowing waiter. “What is it? Nothing about politics, I hope! They
don’t interest me. There is hardly a single person in the House of
Commons worth painting, though many of them would be the better for a little
whitewashing.” “Dorian Gray is engaged to be married,” said Lord Henry, watching
him as he spoke. Hallward started and then frowned. “Dorian engaged to be married!”
he cried. “Impossible!” “It is perfectly true.” “To whom?” “To some little actress or other.” “I can’t believe it. Dorian is far too sensible.” “Dorian is far too wise not to do foolish things now and then, my dear
Basil.” “Marriage is hardly a thing that one can do now and then, Harry.” “Except in America,” rejoined Lord Henry languidly. “But I
didn’t say he was married. I said he was engaged to be married. There is
a great difference. I have a distinct remembrance of being married, but I have
no recollection at all of being engaged. I am inclined to think that I never
was engaged.” “But think of Dorian’s birth, and position, and wealth. It would be
absurd for him to marry so much beneath him.” “If you want to make him marry this girl, tell him that, Basil. He is
sure to do it, then. Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is
always from the noblest motives.” “I hope the girl is good, Harry. I don’t want to see Dorian tied to
some vile creature, who might degrade his nature and ruin his intellect.” “Oh, she is better than good—she is beautiful,” murmured Lord
Henry, sipping a glass of vermouth and orange-bitters. “Dorian says she
is beautiful, and he is not often wrong about things of that kind. Your
portrait of him has quickened his appreciation of the personal appearance of
other people. It has had that excellent effect, amongst others. We are to see
her to-night, if that boy doesn’t forget his appointment.” “Are you serious?” “Quite serious, Basil. I should be miserable if I thought I should ever
be more serious than I am at the present moment.” “But do you approve of it, Harry?” asked the painter, walking up
and down the room and biting his lip. “You can’t approve of it,
possibly. It is some silly infatuation.” “I never approve, or disapprove, of anything now. It is an absurd
attitude to take towards life. We are not sent into the world to air our moral
prejudices. I never take any notice of what common people say, and I never
interfere with what charming people do. If a personality fascinates me,
whatever mode of expression that personality selects is absolutely delightful
to me. Dorian Gray falls in love with a beautiful girl who acts Juliet, and
proposes to marry her. Why not? If he wedded Messalina, he would be none the
less interesting. You know I am not a champion of marriage. The real drawback
to marriage is that it makes one unselfish. And unselfish people are
colourless. They lack individuality. Still, there are certain temperaments that
marriage makes more complex. They retain their egotism, and add to it many
other egos. They are forced to have more than one life. They become more highly
organized, and to be highly organized is, I should fancy, the object of
man’s existence. Besides, every experience is of value, and whatever one
may say against marriage, it is certainly an experience. I hope that Dorian
Gray will make this girl his wife, passionately adore her for six months, and
then suddenly become fascinated by some one else. He would be a wonderful
study.” “You don’t mean a single word of all that, Harry; you know you
don’t. If Dorian Gray’s life were spoiled, no one would be sorrier
than yourself. You are much better than you pretend to be.” Lord Henry laughed. “The reason we all like to think so well of others is
that we are all afraid for ourselves. The basis of optimism is sheer terror. We
think that we are generous because we credit our neighbour with the possession
of those virtues that are likely to be a benefit to us. We praise the banker
that we may overdraw our account, and find good qualities in the highwayman in
the hope that he may spare our pockets. I mean everything that I have said. I
have the greatest contempt for optimism. As for a spoiled life, no life is
spoiled but one whose growth is arrested. If you want to mar a nature, you have
merely to reform it. As for marriage, of course that would be silly, but there
are other and more interesting bonds between men and women. I will certainly
encourage them. They have the charm of being fashionable. But here is Dorian
himself. He will tell you more than I can.” “My dear Harry, my dear Basil, you must both congratulate me!” said
the lad, throwing off his evening cape with its satin-lined wings and shaking
each of his friends by the hand in turn. “I have never been so happy. Of
course, it is sudden—all really delightful things are. And yet it seems
to me to be the one thing I have been looking for all my life.” He was
flushed with excitement and pleasure, and looked extraordinarily handsome. “I hope you will always be very happy, Dorian,” said Hallward,
“but I don’t quite forgive you for not having let me know of your
engagement. You let Harry know.” “And I don’t forgive you for being late for dinner,” broke in
Lord Henry, putting his hand on the lad’s shoulder and smiling as he
spoke. “Come, let us sit down and try what the new chef here is
like, and then you will tell us how it all came about.” “There is really not much to tell,” cried Dorian as they took their
seats at the small round table. “What happened was simply this. After I
left you yesterday evening, Harry, I dressed, had some dinner at that little
Italian restaurant in Rupert Street you introduced me to, and went down at
eight o’clock to the theatre. Sibyl was playing Rosalind. Of course, the
scenery was dreadful and the Orlando absurd. But Sibyl! You should have seen
her! When she came on in her boy’s clothes, she was perfectly wonderful.
She wore a moss-coloured velvet jerkin with cinnamon sleeves, slim, brown,
cross-gartered hose, a dainty little green cap with a hawk’s feather
caught in a jewel, and a hooded cloak lined with dull red. She had never seemed
to me more exquisite. She had all the delicate grace of that Tanagra figurine
that you have in your studio, Basil. Her hair clustered round her face like
dark leaves round a pale rose. As for her acting—well, you shall see her
to-night. She is simply a born artist. I sat in the dingy box absolutely
enthralled. I forgot that I was in London and in the nineteenth century. I was
away with my love in a forest that no man had ever seen. After the performance
was over, I went behind and spoke to her. As we were sitting together, suddenly
there came into her eyes a look that I had never seen there before. My lips
moved towards hers. We kissed each other. I can’t describe to you what I
felt at that moment. It seemed to me that all my life had been narrowed to one
perfect point of rose-coloured joy. She trembled all over and shook like a
white narcissus. Then she flung herself on her knees and kissed my hands. I
feel that I should not tell you all this, but I can’t help it. Of course,
our engagement is a dead secret. She has not even told her own mother. I
don’t know what my guardians will say. Lord Radley is sure to be furious.
I don’t care. I shall be of age in less than a year, and then I can do
what I like. I have been right, Basil, haven’t I, to take my love out of
poetry and to find my wife in Shakespeare’s plays? Lips that Shakespeare
taught to speak have whispered their secret in my ear. I have had the arms of
Rosalind around me, and kissed Juliet on the mouth.” “Yes, Dorian, I suppose you were right,” said Hallward slowly. “Have you seen her to-day?” asked Lord Henry. Dorian Gray shook his head. “I left her in the forest of Arden; I shall
find her in an orchard in Verona.” Lord Henry sipped his champagne in a meditative manner. “At what
particular point did you mention the word marriage, Dorian? And what did she
say in answer? Perhaps you forgot all about it.” “My dear Harry, I did not treat it as a business transaction, and I did
not make any formal proposal. I told her that I loved her, and she said she was
not worthy to be my wife. Not worthy! Why, the whole world is nothing to me
compared with her.” “Women are wonderfully practical,” murmured Lord Henry, “much
more practical than we are. In situations of that kind we often forget to say
anything about marriage, and they always remind us.” Hallward laid his hand upon his arm. “Don’t, Harry. You have
annoyed Dorian. He is not like other men. He would never bring misery upon any
one. His nature is too fine for that.” Lord Henry looked across the table. “Dorian is never annoyed with
me,” he answered. “I asked the question for the best reason
possible, for the only reason, indeed, that excuses one for asking any
question—simple curiosity. I have a theory that it is always the women
who propose to us, and not we who propose to the women. Except, of course, in
middle-class life. But then the middle classes are not modern.” Dorian Gray laughed, and tossed his head. “You are quite incorrigible,
Harry; but I don’t mind. It is impossible to be angry with you. When you
see Sibyl Vane, you will feel that the man who could wrong her would be a
beast, a beast without a heart. I cannot understand how any one can wish to
shame the thing he loves. I love Sibyl Vane. I want to place her on a pedestal
of gold and to see the world worship the woman who is mine. What is marriage?
An irrevocable vow. You mock at it for that. Ah! don’t mock. It is an
irrevocable vow that I want to take. Her trust makes me faithful, her belief
makes me good. When I am with her, I regret all that you have taught me. I
become different from what you have known me to be. I am changed, and the mere
touch of Sibyl Vane’s hand makes me forget you and all your wrong,
fascinating, poisonous, delightful theories.” “And those are ...?” asked Lord Henry, helping himself to some
salad. “Oh, your theories about life, your theories about love, your theories
about pleasure. All your theories, in fact, Harry.” “Pleasure is the only thing worth having a theory about,” he
answered in his slow melodious voice. “But I am afraid I cannot claim my
theory as my own. It belongs to Nature, not to me. Pleasure is Nature’s
test, her sign of approval. When we are happy, we are always good, but when we
are good, we are not always happy.” “Ah! but what do you mean by good?” cried Basil Hallward. “Yes,” echoed Dorian, leaning back in his chair and looking at Lord
Henry over the heavy clusters of purple-lipped irises that stood in the centre
of the table, “what do you mean by good, Harry?” “To be good is to be in harmony with one’s self,” he replied,
touching the thin stem of his glass with his pale, fine-pointed fingers.
“Discord is to be forced to be in harmony with others. One’s own
life—that is the important thing. As for the lives of one’s
neighbours, if one wishes to be a prig or a Puritan, one can flaunt one’s
moral views about them, but they are not one’s concern. Besides,
individualism has really the higher aim. Modern morality consists in accepting
the standard of one’s age. I consider that for any man of culture to
accept the standard of his age is a form of the grossest immorality.” “But, surely, if one lives merely for one’s self, Harry, one pays a
terrible price for doing so?” suggested the painter. “Yes, we are overcharged for everything nowadays. I should fancy that the
real tragedy of the poor is that they can afford nothing but self-denial.
Beautiful sins, like beautiful things, are the privilege of the rich.” “One has to pay in other ways but money.” “What sort of ways, Basil?” “Oh! I should fancy in remorse, in suffering, in ... well, in the
consciousness of degradation.” Lord Henry shrugged his shoulders. “My dear fellow, mediæval art is
charming, but mediæval emotions are out of date. One can use them in fiction,
of course. But then the only things that one can use in fiction are the things
that one has ceased to use in fact. Believe me, no civilized man ever regrets a
pleasure, and no uncivilized man ever knows what a pleasure is.” “I know what pleasure is,” cried Dorian Gray. “It is to adore
some one.” “That is certainly better than being adored,” he answered, toying
with some fruits. “Being adored is a nuisance. Women treat us just as
humanity treats its gods. They worship us, and are always bothering us to do
something for them.” “I should have said that whatever they ask for they had first given to
us,” murmured the lad gravely. “They create love in our natures.
They have a right to demand it back.” “That is quite true, Dorian,” cried Hallward. “Nothing is ever quite true,” said Lord Henry. “This is,” interrupted Dorian. “You must admit, Harry, that
women give to men the very gold of their lives.” “Possibly,” he sighed, “but they invariably want it back in
such very small change. That is the worry. Women, as some witty Frenchman once
put it, inspire us with the desire to do masterpieces and always prevent us
from carrying them out.” “Harry, you are dreadful! I don’t know why I like you so
much.” “You will always like me, Dorian,” he replied. “Will you have
some coffee, you fellows? Waiter, bring coffee, and fine-champagne, and
some cigarettes. No, don’t mind the cigarettes—I have some. Basil,
I can’t allow you to smoke cigars. You must have a cigarette. A cigarette
is the perfect type of a perfect pleasure. It is exquisite, and it leaves one
unsatisfied. What more can one want? Yes, Dorian, you will always be fond of
me. I represent to you all the sins you have never had the courage to
commit.” “What nonsense you talk, Harry!” cried the lad, taking a light from
a fire-breathing silver dragon that the waiter had placed on the table.
“Let us go down to the theatre. When Sibyl comes on the stage you will
have a new ideal of life. She will represent something to you that you have
never known.” “I have known everything,” said Lord Henry, with a tired look in
his eyes, “but I am always ready for a new emotion. I am afraid, however,
that, for me at any rate, there is no such thing. Still, your wonderful girl
may thrill me. I love acting. It is so much more real than life. Let us go.
Dorian, you will come with me. I am so sorry, Basil, but there is only room for
two in the brougham. You must follow us in a hansom.” They got up and put on their coats, sipping their coffee standing. The painter
was silent and preoccupied. There was a gloom over him. He could not bear this
marriage, and yet it seemed to him to be better than many other things that
might have happened. After a few minutes, they all passed downstairs. He drove
off by himself, as had been arranged, and watched the flashing lights of the
little brougham in front of him. A strange sense of loss came over him. He felt
that Dorian Gray would never again be to him all that he had been in the past.
Life had come between them.... His eyes darkened, and the crowded flaring
streets became blurred to his eyes. When the cab drew up at the theatre, it
seemed to him that he had grown years older. |
For some reason or other, the house was crowded that night, and the fat Jew
manager who met them at the door was beaming from ear to ear with an oily
tremulous smile. He escorted them to their box with a sort of pompous humility,
waving his fat jewelled hands and talking at the top of his voice. Dorian Gray
loathed him more than ever. He felt as if he had come to look for Miranda and
had been met by Caliban. Lord Henry, upon the other hand, rather liked him. At
least he declared he did, and insisted on shaking him by the hand and assuring
him that he was proud to meet a man who had discovered a real genius and gone
bankrupt over a poet. Hallward amused himself with watching the faces in the
pit. The heat was terribly oppressive, and the huge sunlight flamed like a
monstrous dahlia with petals of yellow fire. The youths in the gallery had
taken off their coats and waistcoats and hung them over the side. They talked
to each other across the theatre and shared their oranges with the tawdry girls
who sat beside them. Some women were laughing in the pit. Their voices were
horribly shrill and discordant. The sound of the popping of corks came from the
bar. “What a place to find one’s divinity in!” said Lord Henry. “Yes!” answered Dorian Gray. “It was here I found her, and
she is divine beyond all living things. When she acts, you will forget
everything. These common rough people, with their coarse faces and brutal
gestures, become quite different when she is on the stage. They sit silently
and watch her. They weep and laugh as she wills them to do. She makes them as
responsive as a violin. She spiritualizes them, and one feels that they are of
the same flesh and blood as one’s self.” “The same flesh and blood as one’s self! Oh, I hope not!”
exclaimed Lord Henry, who was scanning the occupants of the gallery through his
opera-glass. “Don’t pay any attention to him, Dorian,” said the painter.
“I understand what you mean, and I believe in this girl. Any one you love
must be marvellous, and any girl who has the effect you describe must be fine
and noble. To spiritualize one’s age—that is something worth doing.
If this girl can give a soul to those who have lived without one, if she can
create the sense of beauty in people whose lives have been sordid and ugly, if
she can strip them of their selfishness and lend them tears for sorrows that
are not their own, she is worthy of all your adoration, worthy of the adoration
of the world. This marriage is quite right. I did not think so at first, but I
admit it now. The gods made Sibyl Vane for you. Without her you would have been
incomplete.” “Thanks, Basil,” answered Dorian Gray, pressing his hand. “I
knew that you would understand me. Harry is so cynical, he terrifies me. But
here is the orchestra. It is quite dreadful, but it only lasts for about five
minutes. Then the curtain rises, and you will see the girl to whom I am going
to give all my life, to whom I have given everything that is good in me.” A quarter of an hour afterwards, amidst an extraordinary turmoil of applause,
Sibyl Vane stepped on to the stage. Yes, she was certainly lovely to look
at—one of the loveliest creatures, Lord Henry thought, that he had ever
seen. There was something of the fawn in her shy grace and startled eyes. A
faint blush, like the shadow of a rose in a mirror of silver, came to her
cheeks as she glanced at the crowded enthusiastic house. She stepped back a few
paces and her lips seemed to tremble. Basil Hallward leaped to his feet and
began to applaud. Motionless, and as one in a dream, sat Dorian Gray, gazing at
her. Lord Henry peered through his glasses, murmuring, “Charming!
charming!” The scene was the hall of Capulet’s house, and Romeo in his
pilgrim’s dress had entered with Mercutio and his other friends. The
band, such as it was, struck up a few bars of music, and the dance began.
Through the crowd of ungainly, shabbily dressed actors, Sibyl Vane moved like a
creature from a finer world. Her body swayed, while she danced, as a plant
sways in the water. The curves of her throat were the curves of a white lily.
Her hands seemed to be made of cool ivory. Yet she was curiously listless. She showed no sign of joy when her eyes rested
on Romeo. The few words she had to speak— Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this;
For saints have hands that pilgrims’ hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers’ kiss— with the brief dialogue that follows, were spoken in a thoroughly artificial
manner. The voice was exquisite, but from the point of view of tone it was
absolutely false. It was wrong in colour. It took away all the life from the
verse. It made the passion unreal. Dorian Gray grew pale as he watched her. He was puzzled and anxious. Neither of
his friends dared to say anything to him. She seemed to them to be absolutely
incompetent. They were horribly disappointed. Yet they felt that the true test of any Juliet is the balcony scene of the
second act. They waited for that. If she failed there, there was nothing in
her. She looked charming as she came out in the moonlight. That could not be denied.
But the staginess of her acting was unbearable, and grew worse as she went on.
Her gestures became absurdly artificial. She overemphasized everything that she
had to say. The beautiful passage— Thou knowest the mask of night is on my face,
Else would a maiden blush bepaint my cheek
For that which thou hast heard me speak to-night— was declaimed with the painful precision of a schoolgirl who has been taught to
recite by some second-rate professor of elocution. When she leaned over the
balcony and came to those wonderful lines— Although I joy in thee,
I have no joy of this contract to-night:
It is too rash, too unadvised, too sudden;
Too like the lightning, which doth cease to be
Ere one can say, “It lightens.” Sweet, good-night!
This bud of love by summer’s ripening breath
May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet— she spoke the words as though they conveyed no meaning to her. It was not
nervousness. Indeed, so far from being nervous, she was absolutely
self-contained. It was simply bad art. She was a complete failure. Even the common uneducated audience of the pit and gallery lost their interest
in the play. They got restless, and began to talk loudly and to whistle. The
Jew manager, who was standing at the back of the dress-circle, stamped and
swore with rage. The only person unmoved was the girl herself. When the second act was over, there came a storm of hisses, and Lord Henry got
up from his chair and put on his coat. “She is quite beautiful,
Dorian,” he said, “but she can’t act. Let us go.” “I am going to see the play through,” answered the lad, in a hard
bitter voice. “I am awfully sorry that I have made you waste an evening,
Harry. I apologize to you both.” “My dear Dorian, I should think Miss Vane was ill,” interrupted
Hallward. “We will come some other night.” “I wish she were ill,” he rejoined. “But she seems to me to
be simply callous and cold. She has entirely altered. Last night she was a
great artist. This evening she is merely a commonplace mediocre actress.” “Don’t talk like that about any one you love, Dorian. Love is a
more wonderful thing than art.” “They are both simply forms of imitation,” remarked Lord Henry.
“But do let us go. Dorian, you must not stay here any longer. It is not
good for one’s morals to see bad acting. Besides, I don’t suppose
you will want your wife to act, so what does it matter if she plays Juliet like
a wooden doll? She is very lovely, and if she knows as little about life as she
does about acting, she will be a delightful experience. There are only two
kinds of people who are really fascinating—people who know absolutely
everything, and people who know absolutely nothing. Good heavens, my dear boy,
don’t look so tragic! The secret of remaining young is never to have an
emotion that is unbecoming. Come to the club with Basil and myself. We will
smoke cigarettes and drink to the beauty of Sibyl Vane. She is beautiful. What
more can you want?” “Go away, Harry,” cried the lad. “I want to be alone. Basil,
you must go. Ah! can’t you see that my heart is breaking?” The hot
tears came to his eyes. His lips trembled, and rushing to the back of the box,
he leaned up against the wall, hiding his face in his hands. “Let us go, Basil,” said Lord Henry with a strange tenderness in
his voice, and the two young men passed out together. A few moments afterwards the footlights flared up and the curtain rose on the
third act. Dorian Gray went back to his seat. He looked pale, and proud, and
indifferent. The play dragged on, and seemed interminable. Half of the audience
went out, tramping in heavy boots and laughing. The whole thing was a
fiasco. The last act was played to almost empty benches. The curtain
went down on a titter and some groans. As soon as it was over, Dorian Gray rushed behind the scenes into the
greenroom. The girl was standing there alone, with a look of triumph on her
face. Her eyes were lit with an exquisite fire. There was a radiance about her.
Her parted lips were smiling over some secret of their own. When he entered, she looked at him, and an expression of infinite joy came over
her. “How badly I acted to-night, Dorian!” she cried. “Horribly!” he answered, gazing at her in amazement.
“Horribly! It was dreadful. Are you ill? You have no idea what it was.
You have no idea what I suffered.” The girl smiled. “Dorian,” she answered, lingering over his name
with long-drawn music in her voice, as though it were sweeter than honey to the
red petals of her mouth. “Dorian, you should have understood. But you
understand now, don’t you?” “Understand what?” he asked, angrily. “Why I was so bad to-night. Why I shall always be bad. Why I shall never
act well again.” He shrugged his shoulders. “You are ill, I suppose. When you are ill you
shouldn’t act. You make yourself ridiculous. My friends were bored. I was
bored.” She seemed not to listen to him. She was transfigured with joy. An ecstasy of
happiness dominated her. “Dorian, Dorian,” she cried, “before I knew you, acting was
the one reality of my life. It was only in the theatre that I lived. I thought
that it was all true. I was Rosalind one night and Portia the other. The joy of
Beatrice was my joy, and the sorrows of Cordelia were mine also. I believed in
everything. The common people who acted with me seemed to me to be godlike. The
painted scenes were my world. I knew nothing but shadows, and I thought them
real. You came—oh, my beautiful love!—and you freed my soul from
prison. You taught me what reality really is. To-night, for the first time in
my life, I saw through the hollowness, the sham, the silliness of the empty
pageant in which I had always played. To-night, for the first time, I became
conscious that the Romeo was hideous, and old, and painted, that the moonlight
in the orchard was false, that the scenery was vulgar, and that the words I had
to speak were unreal, were not my words, were not what I wanted to say. You had
brought me something higher, something of which all art is but a reflection.
You had made me understand what love really is. My love! My love! Prince
Charming! Prince of life! I have grown sick of shadows. You are more to me than
all art can ever be. What have I to do with the puppets of a play? When I came
on to-night, I could not understand how it was that everything had gone from
me. I thought that I was going to be wonderful. I found that I could do
nothing. Suddenly it dawned on my soul what it all meant. The knowledge was
exquisite to me. I heard them hissing, and I smiled. What could they know of
love such as ours? Take me away, Dorian—take me away with you, where we
can be quite alone. I hate the stage. I might mimic a passion that I do not
feel, but I cannot mimic one that burns me like fire. Oh, Dorian, Dorian, you
understand now what it signifies? Even if I could do it, it would be
profanation for me to play at being in love. You have made me see that.” He flung himself down on the sofa and turned away his face. “You have
killed my love,” he muttered. She looked at him in wonder and laughed. He made no answer. She came across to
him, and with her little fingers stroked his hair. She knelt down and pressed
his hands to her lips. He drew them away, and a shudder ran through him. Then he leaped up and went to the door. “Yes,” he cried, “you
have killed my love. You used to stir my imagination. Now you don’t even
stir my curiosity. You simply produce no effect. I loved you because you were
marvellous, because you had genius and intellect, because you realized the
dreams of great poets and gave shape and substance to the shadows of art. You
have thrown it all away. You are shallow and stupid. My God! how mad I was to
love you! What a fool I have been! You are nothing to me now. I will never see
you again. I will never think of you. I will never mention your name. You
don’t know what you were to me, once. Why, once ... Oh, I can’t
bear to think of it! I wish I had never laid eyes upon you! You have spoiled
the romance of my life. How little you can know of love, if you say it mars
your art! Without your art, you are nothing. I would have made you famous,
splendid, magnificent. The world would have worshipped you, and you would have
borne my name. What are you now? A third-rate actress with a pretty
face.” The girl grew white, and trembled. She clenched her hands together, and her
voice seemed to catch in her throat. “You are not serious, Dorian?”
she murmured. “You are acting.” “Acting! I leave that to you. You do it so well,” he answered
bitterly. She rose from her knees and, with a piteous expression of pain in her face,
came across the room to him. She put her hand upon his arm and looked into his
eyes. He thrust her back. “Don’t touch me!” he cried. A low moan broke from her, and she flung herself at his feet and lay there like
a trampled flower. “Dorian, Dorian, don’t leave me!” she
whispered. “I am so sorry I didn’t act well. I was thinking of you
all the time. But I will try—indeed, I will try. It came so suddenly
across me, my love for you. I think I should never have known it if you had not
kissed me—if we had not kissed each other. Kiss me again, my love.
Don’t go away from me. I couldn’t bear it. Oh! don’t go away
from me. My brother ... No; never mind. He didn’t mean it. He was in
jest.... But you, oh! can’t you forgive me for to-night? I will work so
hard and try to improve. Don’t be cruel to me, because I love you better
than anything in the world. After all, it is only once that I have not pleased
you. But you are quite right, Dorian. I should have shown myself more of an
artist. It was foolish of me, and yet I couldn’t help it. Oh, don’t
leave me, don’t leave me.” A fit of passionate sobbing choked her.
She crouched on the floor like a wounded thing, and Dorian Gray, with his
beautiful eyes, looked down at her, and his chiselled lips curled in exquisite
disdain. There is always something ridiculous about the emotions of people whom
one has ceased to love. Sibyl Vane seemed to him to be absurdly melodramatic.
Her tears and sobs annoyed him. “I am going,” he said at last in his calm clear voice. “I
don’t wish to be unkind, but I can’t see you again. You have
disappointed me.” She wept silently, and made no answer, but crept nearer. Her little hands
stretched blindly out, and appeared to be seeking for him. He turned on his
heel and left the room. In a few moments he was out of the theatre. Where he went to he hardly knew. He remembered wandering through dimly lit
streets, past gaunt, black-shadowed archways and evil-looking houses. Women
with hoarse voices and harsh laughter had called after him. Drunkards had
reeled by, cursing and chattering to themselves like monstrous apes. He had
seen grotesque children huddled upon door-steps, and heard shrieks and oaths
from gloomy courts. As the dawn was just breaking, he found himself close to Covent Garden. The
darkness lifted, and, flushed with faint fires, the sky hollowed itself into a
perfect pearl. Huge carts filled with nodding lilies rumbled slowly down the
polished empty street. The air was heavy with the perfume of the flowers, and
their beauty seemed to bring him an anodyne for his pain. He followed into the
market and watched the men unloading their waggons. A white-smocked carter
offered him some cherries. He thanked him, wondered why he refused to accept
any money for them, and began to eat them listlessly. They had been plucked at
midnight, and the coldness of the moon had entered into them. A long line of
boys carrying crates of striped tulips, and of yellow and red roses, defiled in
front of him, threading their way through the huge, jade-green piles of
vegetables. Under the portico, with its grey, sun-bleached pillars, loitered a
troop of draggled bareheaded girls, waiting for the auction to be over. Others
crowded round the swinging doors of the coffee-house in the piazza. The heavy
cart-horses slipped and stamped upon the rough stones, shaking their bells and
trappings. Some of the drivers were lying asleep on a pile of sacks.
Iris-necked and pink-footed, the pigeons ran about picking up seeds. After a little while, he hailed a hansom and drove home. For a few moments he
loitered upon the doorstep, looking round at the silent square, with its blank,
close-shuttered windows and its staring blinds. The sky was pure opal now, and
the roofs of the houses glistened like silver against it. From some chimney
opposite a thin wreath of smoke was rising. It curled, a violet riband, through
the nacre-coloured air. In the huge gilt Venetian lantern, spoil of some Doge’s barge, that hung
from the ceiling of the great, oak-panelled hall of entrance, lights were still
burning from three flickering jets: thin blue petals of flame they seemed,
rimmed with white fire. He turned them out and, having thrown his hat and cape
on the table, passed through the library towards the door of his bedroom, a
large octagonal chamber on the ground floor that, in his new-born feeling for
luxury, he had just had decorated for himself and hung with some curious
Renaissance tapestries that had been discovered stored in a disused attic at
Selby Royal. As he was turning the handle of the door, his eye fell upon the
portrait Basil Hallward had painted of him. He started back as if in surprise.
Then he went on into his own room, looking somewhat puzzled. After he had taken
the button-hole out of his coat, he seemed to hesitate. Finally, he came back,
went over to the picture, and examined it. In the dim arrested light that
struggled through the cream-coloured silk blinds, the face appeared to him to
be a little changed. The expression looked different. One would have said that
there was a touch of cruelty in the mouth. It was certainly strange. He turned round and, walking to the window, drew up the blind. The bright dawn
flooded the room and swept the fantastic shadows into dusky corners, where they
lay shuddering. But the strange expression that he had noticed in the face of
the portrait seemed to linger there, to be more intensified even. The quivering
ardent sunlight showed him the lines of cruelty round the mouth as clearly as
if he had been looking into a mirror after he had done some dreadful thing. He winced and, taking up from the table an oval glass framed in ivory Cupids,
one of Lord Henry’s many presents to him, glanced hurriedly into its
polished depths. No line like that warped his red lips. What did it mean? He rubbed his eyes, and came close to the picture, and examined it again. There
were no signs of any change when he looked into the actual painting, and yet
there was no doubt that the whole expression had altered. It was not a mere
fancy of his own. The thing was horribly apparent. He threw himself into a chair and began to think. Suddenly there flashed across
his mind what he had said in Basil Hallward’s studio the day the picture
had been finished. Yes, he remembered it perfectly. He had uttered a mad wish
that he himself might remain young, and the portrait grow old; that his own
beauty might be untarnished, and the face on the canvas bear the burden of his
passions and his sins; that the painted image might be seared with the lines of
suffering and thought, and that he might keep all the delicate bloom and
loveliness of his then just conscious boyhood. Surely his wish had not been
fulfilled? Such things were impossible. It seemed monstrous even to think of
them. And, yet, there was the picture before him, with the touch of cruelty in
the mouth. Cruelty! Had he been cruel? It was the girl’s fault, not his. He had
dreamed of her as a great artist, had given his love to her because he had
thought her great. Then she had disappointed him. She had been shallow and
unworthy. And, yet, a feeling of infinite regret came over him, as he thought
of her lying at his feet sobbing like a little child. He remembered with what
callousness he had watched her. Why had he been made like that? Why had such a
soul been given to him? But he had suffered also. During the three terrible
hours that the play had lasted, he had lived centuries of pain, aeon upon aeon
of torture. His life was well worth hers. She had marred him for a moment, if
he had wounded her for an age. Besides, women were better suited to bear sorrow
than men. They lived on their emotions. They only thought of their emotions.
When they took lovers, it was merely to have some one with whom they could have
scenes. Lord Henry had told him that, and Lord Henry knew what women were. Why
should he trouble about Sibyl Vane? She was nothing to him now. But the picture? What was he to say of that? It held the secret of his life,
and told his story. It had taught him to love his own beauty. Would it teach
him to loathe his own soul? Would he ever look at it again? No; it was merely an illusion wrought on the troubled senses. The horrible
night that he had passed had left phantoms behind it. Suddenly there had fallen
upon his brain that tiny scarlet speck that makes men mad. The picture had not
changed. It was folly to think so. Yet it was watching him, with its beautiful marred face and its cruel smile.
Its bright hair gleamed in the early sunlight. Its blue eyes met his own. A
sense of infinite pity, not for himself, but for the painted image of himself,
came over him. It had altered already, and would alter more. Its gold would
wither into grey. Its red and white roses would die. For every sin that he
committed, a stain would fleck and wreck its fairness. But he would not sin.
The picture, changed or unchanged, would be to him the visible emblem of
conscience. He would resist temptation. He would not see Lord Henry any
more—would not, at any rate, listen to those subtle poisonous theories
that in Basil Hallward’s garden had first stirred within him the passion
for impossible things. He would go back to Sibyl Vane, make her amends, marry
her, try to love her again. Yes, it was his duty to do so. She must have
suffered more than he had. Poor child! He had been selfish and cruel to her.
The fascination that she had exercised over him would return. They would be
happy together. His life with her would be beautiful and pure. He got up from his chair and drew a large screen right in front of the
portrait, shuddering as he glanced at it. “How horrible!” he
murmured to himself, and he walked across to the window and opened it. When he
stepped out on to the grass, he drew a deep breath. The fresh morning air
seemed to drive away all his sombre passions. He thought only of Sibyl. A faint
echo of his love came back to him. He repeated her name over and over again.
The birds that were singing in the dew-drenched garden seemed to be telling the
flowers about her. |
"It was long past noon when he awoke. His valet had crept several times on\ntiptoe into the room to (...TRUNCATED) |
"As he was sitting at breakfast next morning, Basil Hallward was shown into the\nroom. “I am so gl(...TRUNCATED) |
"When his servant entered, he looked at him steadfastly and wondered if he had\nthought of peering b(...TRUNCATED) |
End of preview. Expand
in Dataset Viewer.
README.md exists but content is empty.
Use the Edit dataset card button to edit it.
- Downloads last month
- 33