Where did you top out in math classes?
rtf: I don't know, how about every subject?Multiplication. Long division. Algebra. Geometry. Trig. Calc.I was never very motivated to study math. The problem was, my older brother was very into it(and now is a math grad student, ever-so-slowly getting his thesis together). This set a model that I could not hope to emulate, but it only meant my mom pushed me more, talked to the school to get me into the advanced/accelerated classes I didn't really want to take. She probably would have done some of that without my brother around, but not as much.This led me down the "please the parents" line of study, which naturally meant some surreptitious, embarrassed attempts at cheating. This only made me feel worse, of course.In college I started into computer science, thinking that I at least liked the programming. But integral calc sunk me for good, and in a particularly bad quarter that was my low point, I tried taking linear algebra as well as a repeat of calculus, thinking that perhaps the extra pressure would do something good.Of course not. I dropped linear algebra and failed calc again. After that, I decided to declare in economics, restarted calculus with the "ez-for-econ-majors" series and sailed through those courses with a solid B average. I struggled through, but passed on the first try, the two intermediate econ courses which started introducing serious mathematical modelling. The remainder of the major was electives, and not difficult ones.I never knew, until after that whole period of my life was over with, exactly what was holding me back. Now I'm pretty sure that it's about motivation and dedication. My brother is fairly normal but can get interested enough in math problems to sacrifice his well-being. The genius researchers of the field sacrifice well-being regularly, without really knowing it, and are typically slightly unhinged socially.As for myself, I tend to run away from a challenging math problem. So, even if I'm forced to tackle it, it will probably take me 10 times as long to solve as it would my brother(not even factoring in his years of experience now). Once I overcome those hurdles particular to a new category of problem I am fine, but I have to take considerable effort to do so.Summing that difference up over a long-term period like that of a college course, the best students can zoom far ahead because of this motivation factor, even if they aren't necessarily the _smartest_. Indeed, many math students reach the upper-division levels on memorization alone and get stuck from there, as proofs take on more and more importance. That's a major failing of current math education in the United States - overdependence on rote techniques. (The former Soviet educational system, OTOH, had probably some of the strongest math education, and much of it has been translated to English - pick up a book from that period and you will probably see a small and dense text that introduces high-level concepts in great, if unforgiving, detail. Very different from the thick drill+practice textbooks I'm used to.)My conclusion: many academic fields can accommodate a half-hearted practice. Math is not one of them. And our society doesn't respect that difference, shoving it under the rug as "I'm just not good at math."