Should I give up?
edw519: I have 2 signs above my desk.One says, "It doesn't matter".  This is for when I get so stressed out, I have trouble doing anything.  It helps keep things in perspective.The other says, "Jabez Wolffe".  His guide boat forced him to abandon his swim across the English Channel because they couldn't see through the darkness and fog, and it was too dangerous to continue.  What they didn't realize was that they were only 100 yards from shore, but they had no way of knowing.How far from shore are you?I would suggest doing whatever you can to find out before making any decision.[Aside:  Please contact me off-line.  I am in a similar situation and would like to talk.]