I'm about to take a big step in my life. I would like your opinion.
igrekel: It will not solve your problems.It will give you experience with the act itself but not with the process of "getting there" since the deal is already set and the outcome already known. What you would learn from the experience will be just about the act itself (which is really no big deal) but nothing about the part where you have a problem which is the social interaction that comes first. And once more, the social interaction that comes first is not really all that geared toward sex, so this experience could harm your capabilities by reinforcing this wrong perception that you seem to have.You just need to understand treat this as something you need to learn. You need to learn social interactions, some people have it naturally, some people not so much. Your goal should be to learn by observing, trying to understand the situations, trying to understand the point of view and perception of people without asking direct questions.