Where do I go from here?
bgurupra: I have experienced exactly what are you are talking about here and at least this was my problem - I was not happy simply because my mind kept jumping from one thing to another, I would spend all the time on news aggregators,checking emails, reading some random stuff,jumping from one task to another without concentrating on anything and not fully completing anything on interenet.I always wanted to join some open source project but everytime I would just manage to download the sources,maybe do some sample work and then get distracted onto something else.Then I thought maybe I was just lazy and tried all sorts of productivity tips and tricks to get out it.Then one day I was reading a Buddist book on Medidation and it had some really useful advice( and no I am not at all religious but at least what that book seemed to me was very clever mind hack).It asks you to just "Let go" , don't think about your past, don't think too much about the future.Just focus only and only on what you are doing right now.If things are meant to be they will be, if you like programming just go and program , don't bother too much on what is the problem,eventually it is only but logical that you will get good at it, you will obviously start working on areas that interest you,you will become skilled enough that you can probably get a job in the field you like or maybe open up your own company.I think the key is you have a computer and you have the interest, just go an program and don't bother too much about doing something "important" or writing "Poetry".The book btw is Mindfulness-Bliss-Beyond-Meditators-Handbook