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I'm going to my brother's funeral but I'm glad he's dead

This is a heavy one... I'm( 21 F) going to my brother's funeral today against my wishes ( my family guilted me into it) but I'm glad he's dead. I know this sounds cruel and heartless but let me explain. My brother (33 M) was a drug addict, any drug you can think of he has probably gotten his hands on. Since about 15 years old my brother has been on substances and actively rejecting help, straining our family. I lived with my dad and my brother was in our lives on and off when it was convenient. He threatened my father with a knife many times, had freakouts while on drugs claiming that people were going to hurt him, etc. My dad took him to rehab multiple times using his own vehicle and gas even though we were dirt broke most of the time. And still, my junkie brother would drop out of rehab just to come home, steal our possessions and score more drugs. When I was younger I feared being at home because I saw how violent, paranoid and angry my brother was. I would lock myself in my room for entire evenings just praying that my father wouldn't actually be stabbed and killed this time. These are just a few examples of many reasons why I'm glad he's dead. He caused stress to our family, stole resources and trust for his own gain, so no, I will not mourn him.

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Been amazing friends for 2 decades and Been into him for half the time

One of my best friends/closest friends since my preteens. When I realized I had a crush I never told him and I ended up with someone for a decade kept my distance and hoped the feelings would fade and it never did. Everytime I was single he wasn't and same with him. I finally got over my nerves. Even with distance I never moved on and I told him about how I always felt. I found out he had been crushing but same problem both never single at the same time. He went through a hard break up and has lots of healing to do and I'm not sure if there's feelings still there and I'm not sure he knows either he's pretty broken over the break up. I just don't want to waste more years waiting for nothing to come of it but even when I have broken contact in hopes of moving on it hasn't happened. Advice on how to move on? Time and distance hasn't done a thing.

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for you to read.

iam just scrolling then feel like i want to say something. idk why. maybe just maybe.. someone out there is meant to hear it.. so iam not in my ultimate state rn , neither am i hurt or upset. iam fine. and so are you. and if you're not at the moment, you will be. i promise. do you need a hug? here. now smile. you'll get through this, you always did and you still will. life without struggles and challenges and pains, isn't something to wish for infact whats the point? its almost like going to the mall every single day, no way you won't one day be sick of it.. even a life with no troubles is hard. god/allah never sends the heavy stuff to its weakest soldiers, only his strongest. hey, keep your head up, this was meant for you to hear. iam proud that you have your heart in the right place. and thankyou. thankyou for existing. for being the person you're.. falling and getting up, facing the struggles even if you're fighting tears. thankyou for still being here, with me. on this planet🩷 i really do care for you, you know? you're so so beautiful my angel. god bless you. was nice catching up with you btw :) would love to do it again some day. bye bro👋👋

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My first ever post. About my day

This is the first time I'm posting anything like this online. But from what I've heard it's important to share and not keep things bottled up. Lately I've been feeling very stressed, so I thought I'd share my journal entry with reddit community. See what people think or maybe in a weird way I just need the feeling that I'm not talking to myself. Today’s been a weird day. It feels like I’ve made progress with my family but gone backwards with Partner . Yesterday I was able to share what I learnt through experience and immediately saw it help my cousin . In return, he hasn’t stopped talking to me about what he wants to do in future and general life also. I’m liking talking to him, for the first time I feel like he’s opening up to me. And tomorrow I get to show them my favourite movie. Rocky. The first time I watched it I was too young to understand it. I wasn’t sure what it meant. I guess I hadn’t experienced enough in life yet to truly understand what it meant. Sly who wrote the story wrote it when it was his last straw, a last attempt at not failing. I can’t even begin to imagine what he must’ve gone through until that point. I can’t wait to watch it again. Hopefully I will learn something. Hopefully I will teach my brother and cousin something through it. But most importantly, I hope I become a wiser and become at least a little kind, to myself and those close to me. Even strangers perhaps.

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Finding out some men get off on SA stories has made me spiral

I'm posting this from a throwaway because I don't want it associated with my main account for obvious reasons. I'm a 28 year old woman living in the US and some background on me I was SA'd by a family member from about 6-10 and once as an adult. This caused me to found a local SA survivors group where I've been working with girls trying to turn my own pain into other people healing. I'd also been talking openly about it online and keeping an eye on DM's that way if another girl was going through it and needed support reached out I could help them. One day I get a DM and it's like...alarm bells start going off. Asking weird targeted questions about my situation, I click through their profile and it's full of rape fetish content. Needly to say I literally vomited. Now ever since I constantly feel this internal conflict between sharing my story to help others and keeping it to myself out of disgust. It was reviolating in a way I can barely begin to explain. Even worse I know sharing this, this will probably be viewed by one of those losers.

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Friendship issues?

I dunno, it's just the small things in it that make me feel off like my best friend always seeing my messages but never responding (I get she's busy sometimes but all the time??) it's four of us in total and I always hear how three of them go and hang out spontaneously but I'm never invited, I live a literal 10 minute walk away from one. It kinda hurts but I dunno if I'm just being clingy and expecting them to hang out with me, we are all hanging out this Wednesday but I don't know if I feel like going anymore because I feel like I may just be singled out, it hurts more because I've known one for almost 9 years now and these others for just over a month but I feel like a bad person for just going completely silent on them but at the same time I'm sick of hearing about them all going out constantly and just being left on read when I said I wish I could've come

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I’m done

My partner is breaking up with me I really don’t want to be alive anymore, I’ve got nowhere to go, I don’t want to live without her in my life

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I haven’t heard from my boyfriend since Thursday night….what should I do?

Me and my BF have been together for a year we actually recently celebrated our 1 year last month. Also his birthday is next week. When we spoke on Thursday night I spoke about missing him and he replied that he misses me too and that he was exhausted while he was working his night shift. I contacted him Friday with a usually good morning text before my shift at work and one I got to work at 12pm I notified him. My shift ended at 6 and still nothing from him. (Usually when he sleeps the rest of the day he will still message even to get up and pee). I called him twice and rung to voicemail I even drove by his residence and didn’t see his car in the driveway. So idk what to do?

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Am i an awful partner?

So my partner (23M) and I (21F) got married about 7 months ago, and we’ve been together for YEARS at this point. i love him & everything has been fine, but recently we’ve been hanging out with a (new-ish) friend, we’ll call him Dave; the way he looks at me? I know it’s not just some friendly gaze, i’ve been dreaming about him every night & cannot get him off of my mind. Dave has a kid (we can’t have kids) and seeing him be such a good dad makes it that much harder; i don’t want a divorce, but i’m kinda stuck wondering what to do with myself? I also don’t wanna make the first move and somehow have been wrong, but at the same time i just KNOW he’s got to feel the same way, i just want him to know how special he makes me feel, and the flirting just makes me feel so, valued..😮‍💨 How wrong is this?? Do i make a move???

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Life is too much goddamn work.

And on top of that, I’m surrounded by toxic people. I’m sick of it.

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i think i have lyme disease and there’s nothing i can do about it

Before you assume, no i’m not trying to self diagnose, no im not a hypochondriac. I’m a teenager, and i’m entirely dependent on my neglectful parents for medical care. Aside from that, my countries healthcare system is in a complete shamble. As for why i think i could have lyme disease, i know what im about to say was immensely stupid but i knew nothing about the transmission of lyme. I was on FT with my then gf, and i found a dying deer mouse on my doorstep when i went to let my dog out. It wasn’t wounded or anything, but it didn’t run away from me and allowed me to pick it up, i assumed it was dying from old age or a non-transmittable disease. I felt genuinely terrible for it, i’ve watched my father use kill traps on mice and i didn’t want this one to die on cold stone. I held it for about an hour and a half, during this time i noticed (what i now know to be) an adult female deer tick crawl down my arm. Thinking it was just another bug, i just swatted it off. this was a year ago now. I’m already disabled with a diagnosed chronic pain condition (chronic coccydynia), but since then i’ve noticed a gradual decline in my health. I’m constantly lethargic and in pain, my muscles are weak and my neck is always stiff. No matter how much i sleep it’s never enough, with a bunch of other stuff. I’m not asking to be diagnosed, I know i could be wrong but i also know my odds aren’t great. I’m just hoping things will work themselves out tbh.

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My best friend is a troll

I found out my best friends reddit account. We have been through a lot together and have been in each others lives for 15 years. I am APPALLED at how she handles herself online. She’s 32 years old. Preaches on and on to me about how terrible it is that her old friend group are toxic and spread judgement about her and others. Now she’s a reddit troll on every snark page just HATING on people who don’t know she even exists (mostly celebrities or random reality show “stars”). Idk what to do. I’ve completely lost respect for her. She just seems like such a loser.

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I got friendzoned by the girl I've liked the most because I played it safe and took too long to go for it

I met this girl on Tinder 2-3 months ago. We instantly clicked, and went on two dates which were fenomenal. I had the most fun I've ever had, and I could tell she enjoyed it a lot too. Seeing how well it was going, I didn't wanna risk it and go for the kiss by the end of it. We hugged and I kissed her cheek, but nothing past that. After that things started going badly, and I just entered the friendzone. We are still friends to this day, and yesterday we went out to a street market for the night and I mentioned if there was a chance for us to be something more, but she told me that although she was very fond and interested in me the first times we met, eventually now she just sees me as a friend. I asked if going for a kiss the first two times would have helped developing our relationship in another direction, and she said she can't be sure, but might. I absolutely adore this girl, she's sexy, fun, gorgeous and her positive energy is so damn good all I want is to be with her as much as possible and make her not lose her smile. But now it's too late, I fucked up. It took me like 10 years to find someone that would make me as interested in them, and I am taking it hard. I know I eventually will move on, but right now I hate my past self and wish I had been a bit braver. If this helps anyone to take the first step quickly, I am glad. Don't be me.

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What do I (19) do if my younger brother (15) touched me inappropriately while he thought I was asleep?

Hello, last night, my brother (15) and I (19) were sleeping over with some childhood friends, a brother (21) and his sister (19). We were all sleeping on the same couch so we were all really close. Logically, I was lying between my brother and my female friend. All of a sudden, I started feeling somebody touching me inappropriately. It was my brother. At first, I thought “No this can’t be, he’s my little brother”. But it became very apparent. I guess he thought I was sleeping. I felt him touching my breast over the clothes and then he tried to lift my shirt up but my hands were over it. He noticed that and then he subtly moved my hand. After managing to do that I felt him touching...himself. He even tried to get into my panties. Tears were rolling down my face. I didn’t move. I didn’t think it was possible. But it was happening, I don’t know why I didn’t react. I even tried to turn away from him but he just started touching my ass. I don’t know what to do. I’m confused. Do I tell somebody? Our mom? Our dad? What do I do? Do I confront him? I can’t look at him the same, obviously. He’s acting like nothing happened.

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I'm about to go back home to my family and I'm afraid.

At the end of the month I'm flying back home to my family for summer break and I'm on full paranoia and anxiety mode right now. I was free for most of the year, living on my own, drawing wherever and whenever I want, buying and reading art books, going to art galleries, and soon all of that's gonna get abruptly taken away. I'll go back to hiding all my art supplies, locking myself in the bathroom just to doodle, watching my words so my family doesn't know I've been drawing, pretending to be clueless when my pro artist mother and siblings talk about art stuff, etc. I know it's only for a couple months, but it's such a huge pain. I guess this is just a yearly thing for me now. I just wanna be an artist so bad. The fact that I'm not is why they want me to quit so bad. And to think all this just because I quit art as a kid and only picked it up again too late. I never knew the consequences of that one little decision would cause so many problems for me so far down the line.

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I think I’m going to be alone forever

I know I have my family but I’ve never been able to keep friends for a long time, I have people that check in now and again but I don’t have people who actively seek friendship, my romantic life has been filled with abuses, and never feeling good enough. Every time I meet someone I feel them just wanting to use me for sex, it’s gotten to the point where I’m terrified of physical touch, I want people to want to be around me but at this point I just feel like I’m not meant to be with people.

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of romantic relationships']

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A tiktok made me look at my breakup differently and my mind is in shock and awe right now

Context I got broken up with 2 months ago, ended on good terms but it got left a bit vague as to why I exactly she wanted to break up. Now today I’m scrolling tiktok as I’m bored and it was a girl saying “I wanted a different future that you didn’t but I love you all the same” and that hit me. That thought never even came to me that my ex maybe just wanted something too different for her future and was too anxious or afraid to talk about it. And now my brain is molten for the rest of the day

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I feel like my best friend tolerates me because he has to

My best friend(m19) and I(m19) started living together last year and things have been good, but we had a few fights(a big one too) which we got over and are ‘good’ as far as he’s concerned. Thing is, since we got back from university(we live in the same town), i feel like he talks to me because we are in the same friend group, and only because of that. When I think about it, he never gave me a feeling that he likes being my friend, and we’ve been good friends for about 4 years… A lot of times my other friends comment that I would do more for him than he would for me, and that makes me want to pull back from him, but I always find myself going back and wanting him to give me a reason or something so that I know he likes to at least be around me. It feels like I’m friends with a wall, especially over text, where he completely ignores me or answers with one word texts when i ask him something.

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Im thinking of ending things

Im thinking about it, for sure. Doubt I will follow through with it. Everything is going wrong. My mom got diagnosed with breast cancer , my old roommate who began dating my best friend refused to pay me back on the last months rent/ utilities and went off on me saying horrible shit - so by default my “bestfriend” of 6 years blocked me and they both are no longer apart of my life. I hate my job so much, a job I once loved so dearly and literally saved my life. Im so anxious all the time. I only have 2 friends, and i live alone now. I experienced genuine happiness in 2023 after escaping an abusive relationship. My entire life has been like this and I only had a year of happiness. I only had a fucking year. I doubt I ever will, though. I ache for a happy ending, I want a chance to be happy but it feels like Its just downhill from here. But man, as someone who has attempted before this is the scariest feeling. Ive never felt this amount of dread and impending doom. I wish I could stop it. Also my therapist ghosted me right before all this began so lol ❤️

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Is something wrong with me?

So I've grown up a traumatic childhood (I'm 18F) and still am dealing with a TON of crap, I've never been loved or felt loved growing up, always hit and yelled at, and more things I don't want to talk about, but there is something strange going on with me, I felt deep attractions towards fictional characters, for an example (Screech from Doors) and other characters, but screech is the most "Loved" one for me, I don't find actual people attractive in any way the way I find fictional characters attractive, mostly monster characters attract me the most, but screech I've been "hyperfixated" on, I have merch (unofficial) of him and I do things to them, for an example I own a smelly crusty plush of him and I've always did things to it, kiss it, sleep with it and treat it as a lover, which I don't do for an actual person, it feels so right yet so wrong, people don't like me for this behavior, I even take the plush to school and all that, he's always by my side, I feel so comfortable and happy around him, yet being depressed and having suicidal thoughts, yes this happens to me growing up, but I've always wondered why?.

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i want to get a breast reduction

basically that. i hate having a big chest😭i prefer smaller boobs in all aspects. mine sag and are ugly, i just want mine to sit prettier???

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My uncle assaulted someone

Some details have been changed to protect my privacy. My uncle was just charged with sexual assault of a minor. I don't really know the details, and quite frankly I don't want to. All I know is it was someone in his trust (think camp counselor to camper) and they had enough evidence to detain him. I'm just so shocked. He was always so fun and nice, and I never once felt unsafe around him. Clearly my intuition is off. I'm disgusted with him and honestly, with myself. I feel like I should've known something. I feel bad that I'm struggling to connect the fun, jovial guy I knew and this monster. Of course I believe the victim, it's just so hard to process. My family is on the fence about who to believe, and that makes me sick too. I know it's technically family, but how can you continue to claim this person as such? I don't know. It's all I can think about, and I want to talk about it, but nobody wants to bring it up. I'm just sad that I thought he was such a great guy, but clearly it was all a facade. It also makes me question everyone else; if he was so good at hiding this, who else could be? It's just all around so messed up.

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Bpd = it’s okay to be emotionally abusive

My bf has Bpd. Six months ago, his episodes used to be really bad and he would just straight up push me to my mental limits when he’d split. We’ve been together for a year now getting on really well without many issues. Last night we started bickering and out of nowhere it started happening again (over text) just tormenting me, making me feel unloved and worthless even after I told him how he makes me feel he still continued. He tries to get me to break up with him, and talks about killing himself by monday and threatens me (“or else”) if I call his best friend to go round his house and keep him company as I am too far away. At about 4am I went to sleep because I didn’t want to give him any more entertainment of me begging him for normality and kindness. Woke up to countless missed calls and a few texts saying sorry and I love you. I don’t belive him for a second. I just feel hurt by how he treats me when he gets like this. He said he doesn’t know why he does it or why he’s like this and I’m sick of it. I do everything for him financially and get him so much. I give him so much and give him a good life. I don’t understand how to navigate dating someone like this if I’m honest, and if other people with bpd or people with partners with bpd could reply id love that.

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Im fucking up my life.

Im a teen im 16 and im hanging out with the wrong people but i cant get rid of em, im lonely without them. Theyre the only People that are with me, i started smoking with them when i was only 13 and smoked my first joint at 14. im still trying to stop im trying everything, ive been „clean“ for 2 weeks but ive been having bad withdrawals. im just searching for advice what i could do to cut them off, no contact. And or to stop my addiction. Plus the big factor is my dad died when i was 9 so my mental state is also a huge factor that makes me addicted, Plus if i dont have anger contact with them then im lonely. i have no one if i leave them, im just searching for some help. plus they have started doing harder drugs and theyre trying to get me addicted too, i dont wanna be a homeless crackhead in the future. Please if Anyone has advice could u help me.

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Think wife is cheating again

Wife cheated on me years ago with my sons basketball coach. After separating and getting counseling we got back together. There are things she’s doing again that make me feel like she’s back to her old ways. Would appreciate outside opinion. Dm open if available.

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Feeling like a bad partner for not pushing my fiance to get dental help.

So for background he has really bad dental hygiene due to not brushing because of depression. This was way before we even got together. It hurts him to brush his teeth now so he doesn’t (trust me I’ve tried everything I can to help) and idk what to do. I’m afraid his teeth are gonna fall out and the smell has been awful lately. I try not to say anything because I’m worried he will unalive himself or something. I wish I was being dramatic but idk what to do. I’ve gotten numbing mouthwash, soft toothbrushes, and sensitive toothpaste and nothing helps him. He won’t go to a dentist. I’m just so lost. I feel like if I tell anyone they will judge him or I.

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I now have anger issues

I walk around visibly pissed off. I scream in my car. I throw shit around. I deliver food 10hrs a day. I have a grad degree in IT and can’t land a job. I’m 33M and losing my mind. The only peace I have is by hurting myself with exercise and the extreme tiredness at the end of the day. I want to tear the faces off people that don’t tip after wasting gas and time to deliver their shitty fast food. I used to make 35$ an hour and I make about 12$ now. If this continues, I’m going to have a melt down. I’m far more angry than depressed but the depression just causes me to be angry at all time. I hate being poor, I hate being alone, and I absolutely hate every waking moment of my life. The only possibility of me being happy again is getting another decent paying job.. How do I manage this unstoppable anger?

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My "uncle's" family is abusing dogs

We share a house with my dad's brother who has a wife and son. They own 6 dogs. We always thought they were too many but the wife continuously showed her dogs off and posted about how much she cares about them and wants to rescue them. Some of them were purchased so not all were rescues. Lately they've been leaving the dogs outdoors in the hot summer temperatures, in the haistorm, all night. Because apparently they've been making a lot of mess, peeing in the house and stuff like that. I feel incredibly bad for them and when I told my family this I also added: If they continue these dogs will die. One of them had already lost a lot of weight because it continues to eat the poop of all the other dogs. They all poop in the garden. I don't know the last time they've taken a dog for a walk. They only did it in the beginning when they tried to show off. My parents answered: they do hope the dogs die. It's not all of them, just the ones making a mess. I feel really bad, I would never sue them or call animal protection because they are kinda confrontational and would immediately suspect my family. My bf insists I call animal protection but as much as my heart breaks for those dogs, I can't create problems for my family. The dogs also make noise at night in front of my window and wake me up and the entire situation is just unbearable. I'm incredibly mad over this but even more so because there's nothing I can do.

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Stop sending me your wedding photos

My ex-husband keeps sending me the photos of his wedding to his dream girl. We have a kid together, so he’s sending me the photos including her. But man it’s really pushed me to the emotional edge today. Id never tell him that now, but watching him marry someone he actually loves killed me. Plus he moved her into the house I totally walked away from without a dime (before I was even out), and they worked together. So I’m sure there’s more than I’ll ever fully know. And even 4 years out, I wish I could end it all every time I wake up. Only the kid keeps me going.. He’s not being malicious. He just really didn’t love me, so I think he just has little empathy for the lesser woman he dumped and is just trying to share. We get along well enough. Man. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow.

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I wished he liked me back….

It sucks out here…. I feel like the guys I always wanted to be with never feel the same and it puts me in this depressed and unworthy mood. Makes me feel like something is wrong with me and it sucks. The girls who will have them are so lucky…. Finding a man has been a hurtful and mentally exhausting journey. I don’t think I can handle this anymore.

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

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Validation .

Being depressed and feeling like what you sacrifice for physically , mentally attempting to keep a spark is very hard with it’s only one side but then get guild trip about it is just toxic af I want to be loved feel like I’m attractive and that I matter more then just being stable income Sorry just feel like I can’t to anybody I don’t have people who to talk to about it which makes it worse

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They Apologized

So, in high-school someone who was one of my best friends informed me, in front of the entire friend group, that nobody liked me and just felt sorry for me. Cue Imposter Syndrome. They've reached out a few times through mutual friends' posts, but yesterday they reached out to me privately, and not only acknowledged the hurt they remembered, but listened to the hurt they forgot they caused (medical issue with memory). We had a long conversation and they were so open to repairing the bridge. This is a huge weight off my soul, my heart, and my mind. I know there's still progress to make, but this helped so much at a time when I'm already working on improving myself. This definitely makes the future seem brighter already!

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Came to vent-now I feel bad for everyone else

I came here to vent how no one in my life gives 2 shits what I am going through or how I feel but I am always there for everyone else. I then read a few posts here and now I feel bad for thinking I have problems.

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How is it possible that I am suicidal even though I don't want to be suicidal?

I don't understand how it is possible that I am suicidal even though I don't want to be suicidal. I have been this way for two and a half years. How is this possible?

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I don’t trust doctors and nurses

A nurse told me that “No one will marry you” + laughed. Ironic thing is that she was herself super fat and ugly. I also experienced medical malpractice from some other doctor. I did some research and find out that a lot of people had bad experiences with medical professionals. Many of them even got verbally abused. I know that some doctors are good but problem is that it’s all based on probability. So it is possible that you will always encounter shitty medical professionals. You never know if your doctor or nurse is truly friendly because some of them shit behind your back just like famous MD Tiffany Ingham. I wish everyone live a healthy and pain free life so no one ever have to see medical professionals.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

Feel like outcast

I attended a friend’s wedding today and after the afternoon of socialising, felt very anxious and restless. So I think I have social anxiety. I reflected on my past growing up years and there was a time in high school that I was the outcast. Literally had no one to eat with, even tried buying food and eating in the toilet so that I wouldn’t need to be the loner in the canteen. Tried to hit up my old friends in my previous class but got rejected. In group work, I was the “spare” that people will adopt into their group if they couldn’t form enough numbers to group with. Anyway, thinking about those times make me sad but now even when I’m grown as an adult, I feel like I carry the low self esteem and negative self-talk, especially regarding social settings. I think I am naturally introverted which also contributes to the lack of desire to socially interact, but I still want to be loved and accepted by people around me.. What can I do to shake out of this? I just feel so alone in my thoughts…

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']

part3

offmychest

Pregnancy is horrifying

I'm a girl and I think pregnancy is horrifying. Every single aspect of it, from conception to end, is just disgusting and horrible and unfair to the woman, but that's nature. Either way I think it's horrifying I WILL NEVER get pregnant, I'm a lesbian, but it's still something I worry about happening to me by force against my will. I have OCD and its a huge phobia of mine. It is just something like a horror movie to me. I've lived with the most painful horrible periods, so bad I have passed out, so my reproductive parts already torture me and remind me about it. It makes me sick and i hate it. But pregnancy? Holy fuck. Pregnant stomachs look so swollen and painful and scary. It looks so gross and stretched out like theres a fcking alien growing in it. I can't even look without feeling sick. The phrase "water breaking" just grosses me out like wtf😭😭 Then all the health affects from pregnancy and birth. The fact you can get diabetes from it, rip open from vagina to asshole, can't hold in pee anymore after, etc. holy shit. It even affects your brain!! I can't even imagine the pain from birth. But most of all you can just DIE. You can just straight up die. Afterwards, your body will NEVER be the same, its permanently affected, all because some guy squirted goo in you. What the fuck It's horror. I feel so bad that that had to happen for me to exist

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

finally left my abuser

i tried logging back into my old reddit account and so i just logged back into this old one. my old one was imaginary_sleep something. talked a lot about the experiences and trauma i endured. now that i’ve left i don’t know why im thinking about relapsing. the pills are in my bag and they’ve been there for a few days now. it’s just hitting me extra hard tonight.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

Just a taste

I have been building up the courage to go non contact with a toxic family member. I will build the courage and confidence to free myself.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

When will I find love

I feel like finding romance has been so delayed in my life. I don’t think I’m an ugly or uninteresting enough person (which I’ve had a hard time believing I wasn’t for the longest time) to not warrant a good relationship. I just want to connect with someone on a deep emotional level because no matter what friend or family member I talk to, I just can’t find obtain that. I want someone who can appreciate the actual me and someone who I can be completely open with without feeling like I need to put on a mask. I also just really want someone to love… someone to hug… someone to cuddle and sleep with. I’m getting desperate after being patient for so many years. Only problem is, I’m stuck at home and don’t go anywhere. I’ve obsessed over seeking attention online which doesn’t fulfill me whatsoever and only makes my feeling worse. It’s been so long that I haven’t had a relationship that I’m genuinely scared whether I’ll be a good enough partner. I feel like I can be so selfish or narcissistic sometimes. My intention isn’t to make someone feel shitty or bored but I don’t really have the evidence to prove that I might be a good partner and I just fear that my bad qualities might affect our relationship. I just want someone who can open up to me as much as I can open up to them. Someone to bond with emotionally and romantically. Someone to laugh with and someone I could hopefully make laugh and please… I just don’t know when I will find it

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships','Lack of physical touch']

part3

offmychest

Miss him

I miss my ex .. I am listening to wrong side of heaven…. He was beautiful… is…. He’s not dead just not mine… I am hurting. I just sent my friend home … I just wanted to be alone

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

exploration

offmychest

I no longer find my husband attractive.

We are both in our early 40s and I have come to the realization that I just don’t find him attractive at all anymore. He has seriously let himself go. He rarely showers and doesn’t brush his teeth or anything. So much so he’s lost many of them. I have asked him if he is ok and tried to talk to him about his mental health and he says he is fine and no depressed. His excuse for why he doesn’t shower is that it’s cold in the house. The only time he does shower is if he wants to be intimate because I’ve told him that I’m not sleeping with him if he isn’t clean. He used to care about how he looked and smelled when we were dating. He used to have his hair well kept and wore nice clothes. Now he just wears whatever if it’s clean and doesn’t care how is looks. I try to bring it up to him but he says I’m attacking him. I’m at my wits end.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

Magsorry ka man lang Oli

Its been a week since the last time we talked. I miss our conversations. Naiisip ko parin lahat lahat kung paano tau nagsimulang magkakilala, magkausap. Kung lahat ba ng sinabi mo ay totoo. Marami palang excuses mo lang.and still hard for me to forget. And I dont know if you still feel the same way. Feeling ko lahat ng sinabi mo hindi totoo, even ur feelings towards me. Siguro nga hindi un totoo kasi nagsinungaling ka e just to make urself happy. Ang selfish mo pa rin in the end. Kahit man lang magtxt ka for the last time ng Sorry sakin. Kasi ayon lang siguro ang gusto ko. Malaman ko man lang na kahit nagsinungaling ka sakin, ayaw mo pa rin ako talaga saktan. Pero aasa pa ba? As if naaalala mo pa ako now. Mag sorry ka man lang dahil napaka unfair mo😞

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I don't understand the fuss about people dying.

Something that always bothered me was how everyone is just so attached to their loved ones after death,or on their way to dying. I understand and recognize what "loss" is,but it just doesn't click with me. I hear people talking about loved ones for YEARS,and my girlfriend drones on about how it's a normal thing when friends talk about it.And recently she's been thinking about her elderly grandma,and how that will eventually be her dad,and I'm just sitting there,faking worry and understanding,when in reality,the only thing in my mind is "we are born,we live,we die."..No afterlife,no "soul",just a lifeless corpse.And to me,that's fine. I'm okay with death,but I'd like to understand what everyone feels,you know? And I can understand people don't want to hear "why are you sad?" When they talk about about loved ones,so,I never get around to simply ask how it makes them feel. And yes,I've had experience with death in my family,and my response to the most important person in my life to die was "Ok." I just want to understand what it's like? Not making it sound like it's not heavy,I get it is,I just wish I could understand her pain,and not have it be such an alien concept.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

Lost a friend today

y she reached out and said her fiance (who I didn't even know about) wasn't comfortable with her and I hanging out, I was a bit taken aback as she always called me her best friend but she said we could text, I said okay and we kind of didn't text at all as I was really busy the last week. I text her the other night and asked her about a hair style I wanted and she said she agreed that it looked better on me currently. I wake up today to a phonecall from a number I don't recognize, I answer and it's her fiance, he starts saying if I don't stop talking to her he's going to call the cops and file harrassment charges on me, I say whatever and hang up. I text her and explain hey this is shitty and you should just talk to me yourself and explain things and that I don't appreciate getting a call like that, she says "don't ever text me or contact me again, goodbye" and so I just reply with a "this is pathetic" and delete all her info as I felt like that was best anyways. I fell like fucking garbage about this and I feel hurt that a friendship that I was always supportive of ended over something so stupid. I don't know how to feel about all this.. any chance I could get some feedback?

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I just want to rot in bed. I’m a fuck up.

I feel so directionless in life. I graduated with a useless social studies major. I have no friends , no prospects, no job. I’m recovering from a herniated disc injury that has left me constantly in pain. I’m 24 and I know that’s young relatively speaking but I feel as though I have missed too many developmental/social/self actualización milestones growing up that I am just a loser. When I was young I felt so mature but now I feel as though everybody else is ahead of me. As it is the world feels so unstable and uncertain in merely uncomfortable with the thought of being alive. Even my own heart beat freaks me out if I start to notice it

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

exploration

offmychest

just me or has life been a blur right now and doesnt feel them same since covid

christmas hasnt felt the same since 2020 3 and abit years went by felt like nothing 2023 christmas i was excited sure but not was it felt like it kinda hurts me to think about how everything felt happy all memories like smells on christmas and how life was slow but now its not nothing feels same right now

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I have HPV, in debt, and still a student.

I'm in my early 20s and I've made decisions in my life that I'm regretting now. Surely it's my fault that I got hpv because of my carelessness in the past. H-word phase does really have its consequence when done in a wrong way. I've been diagnosed few months ago and got my results that it is indeed hpv. I shouldered every expenses on those days and it just adds up to what my current debt is. My debt started when I was with my ex almost 2 years ago since most of the time I spent money for us and the debt isn't that big yet. Now that we're not together, everything just piled up. From one loan app to another. Since I'm still a student, all the money I have is from my parents and some xx app that I'm not even updating anymore which is giving me enough just to pay the interest. In my course, it's not possible for my schedule to apply for part-time jobs. I'm also trying to eat healthy for my immune system to fight the virus as I haven't undergone surgery yet and I also need to save up for my vaccine. It's really hard to think that I cannot just tell my parents about these things. We're a religious household and they would kick me out if they discover what I have right now. I just wanna get this off my chest since it's bothering me for a long time now. It's hard to focus on everything I wanna do with a heavy feeling that I don't know how long will I still live. Now is a great realization that we should be careful of what we are engaging. Can't really go back in time to reverse everything.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I miss the Social aspect of gaming 5-10 years ago.

It's just gonna be a ramble I think. I miss having a social circle that constantly wants to play video games together. I don't care what games, a few many many years ago I had a friend circle that consisted of roughly 8 people. We'd constantly play games together but after they made accusations about my relationship with my gf and one of the guys in the circle was a constant verbal abuser and narcissist I made the decision to cut them off and leave them behind so I as a person could grow and not have them drag me down. However my current friend group doesn't play video games enough to want to play games together. I finished elden ring, lies of P, and sekiro which all have BEAUTIFUL stories but then I didn't feel like I had anyone else other than my gf to show my accomplishments to. I just want what I had a few years ago. A bunch of guys I had a good repor and history with and play games with frequently. Where when we plan a game night everyone can come. Or hell there were days in my old circle where someone would join a discord call just the hell of having a conversation while someone screen shares some games. I guess if you read into it too much it kind of boils down to me wanting more friends who have similar interests.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

Husband didn’t want to go out with the kids and I and now wants us to go out with his family this weekend?

Last weekend I told my husband if we could go out with the kids. I'm home all day with the kids doing therapies since they are both with disabilities and he works night shifts and sleeps all day and is only "with us" for three hours. Weekends he has school from morning until 2 pm. We went out Saturday for two hours to go watch a movie (a date after months of not doing that since we were struggling financially) and Sunday came up so I thought it was okay to ask him if we can take the kids out to enjoy the day and he flat out said no cause it was laundry day. This week his mom called invited us to go out to her bf house and he instantly said yes. I find it unfair because I feel like he does more for others than he does for the kids and I. I know it's not his moms fault but I don't want to go because of the way he acts with us.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I've turned into a cynical narc and I hate it

I hate that my dad poisoned me with his ideas about the world and about people. I've become such a negative, cynical and narcissistic person who thinks that they know better than everyone and I deeply despise myself for that. I remember arguing with my dad when I was younger that people aren't nearly as bad, cruel or egocentrical like he portrays them, but somewhere inside I already started rotting just like him. I always think that everyone and their dog is out to get me or scam me despite never having had any major negative interactions with strangers. I'm almost always pleasantly surprised when getting to know people better because usually my ideas of them were completely wrong and they're actually nice people. I wish I was as innocent as I was at 13. Everything feels like it's rigged, politics, academia, the economy and I can't shake the feeling that I got this attitude from him.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I look like a man.

This is basically what I’ve been told since my early primary school days to the end of secondary school last year: “You look like a man” “You look transgender” “You look like a boy” “Is that a he or a she?” “I would never date you because I’m not gay” - said by a guy This is the primary reason why I never ask guys out. Fuck my life. I really feel like ending it all if I’m being honest.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

My boyfriend(that I was getting along great with) left me to do an overseas job

He specifically said he doesn't want long distance, as it would be too frustrating. I am stunned. We were getting along great; he always how happy I make him, how he's never felt anything but peace in my present, how hard it is to find someone like me, how time spent with me feels like a holiday. We never had a single fight. Then he got an offer for a promotion overseas. Now, if I knew it was truly going to make him happy, I would be sort of accepting. But I genuinely don't think it will; he doesn't know a word of the language(his job will be in English, but still), doesn't know a single soul there. Also, he is a person who deeply values comfort and work-life balance. He was making payments on an apartment in our home country. Just not "I'll uproot my life and be happy about it" material. Most of all...I'll miss him. Our walks in the park, our late night talks, how he was teaching me to ride a bike and he was such a good, gentle, loving teacher. How we would hug and kiss when waking up. What a peaceful, gentle, understanding person he was. He really felt like family. It hurts suddenly losing all of this without having done anything wrong, and I just can't understand how can you just decide "Yes, I have this with a person, and I'm just ok never seeing them again. This job sounds too cool". I feel sad, and betrayed. It's frustrating to see couples around me who get along much worse and still stick together. I also feel guilty for not being "seductive/addictive" enough to make him stay. This all feels so unfair.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I ate too much today

I had way too much food for dinner, so many more calories than I needed or should have consumed. I hate myself and I want to die. I have been trying so hard to lose weight for years. Every time I lose weight, I gain it back. The last couple years, I have been steadily gaining, no longer losing as well like I used to. I just want to end it all. I hate myself. I hate that I did this tonight. I ordered fast food and consumed two sandwiches and fries. I start to think I'm on a roll with eating less/healthier, and then I fuck it all up like I did today. I am an ugly disgusting mess. I don't know what to do to correct this behavior. I've tried so many things and they just don't work. I'm so sad.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I'm still missing my ex, after 2 years

Hello everyone, at first, sorry for my bad english, its not my first lanjuage... This happen maybe 2 years ago, i usted to have a girlfriend, and man, i f*ucking really love her, she was perfect for my, we had the same gaste of music, food, movies, even our parents was friends, i was seriously thinking about do the big question to she. All was perfect, until one night in my own f*cking house she cheated me with a close friend. The worst of all was that I Heard that by our Best friend, after 2 weeks, I obviusly i broke, and after a depresion of 3 Months I start dating with anoter girls, but man, Ramdonly i remember she, i think a lot of she, and in her pretty face, red curly hair, her soft voice. PD: terapy is an option, but my insurance doesn't have psicologist in his services, and I can't afford one.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

Navigating Changes in a Mother-Daughter Relationship Over Time

I am 22 my relationship with my mother has drastically changed from the wonderful bond we shared in my childhood. She was not just a mother but also my closest friend, someone I could confide in about everything. However, everything changed when she was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago. Since then, our relationship has been strained. She has become overprotective, often accusing me of engaging in illegal activities whenever I go out. Our frequent fights have become exhausting, especially when she makes false allegations against me. I understand that her illness is to blame for this change, but sometimes, it's just too much to bear

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I think I want to divorce my wife

For some backstory I was a young dumb teenage guy and my wife was a couple years older than me. She kind of pressured me into marrying her by saying that she’s depressed all the time because her friends were getting married and she wasn’t ( she went to a small Christian school so it was common for everyone to get married super young). I didn’t really want to at the time because I knew it was too early but I sold my car and bought the ring anyway (a 1990 240sx with a sr20det for those who care). A bit into us getting married I was working as an automotive tech and a coworker became my best friend and we hung out all the time and I noticed they kinda started being a little too friendly. A year or so of this goes on of just inappropriate talk right in front of me, purposefully leaving me out. She would say nothing is going on every time I brought it up but it was obviously lies. Her claim is that they had one conversation or Snapchat and one conversation where they were just talking about me. Obviously bullshit but this happened about 3 years ago or so I guess and I just know that there’s so much more I’m not being told but there’s no proof of anything. And I just kinda fake being happy but truly it’s really all I think about every time I look at her and i just feel like I’m not really happy. Idk I just don’t have any friends and I work for myself now (no longer an automotive tech) so I have no coworkers. I just wanted to tell someone I’m just not really that happy lol.

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']

['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']

part3

offmychest

How do you deal with a bitter and resentful sister?

I’m 24 and live with my sister that is 21. Our relationship has felt strained for the past 3 years. I love her and care about her. But I’m not exactly interested in repairing our relationship. I just want to prevent further damage. But idk how since we live together. She’s easily triggered by me. And she’s regularly cranky. Sometimes I’m really shocked at how she speaks to me. I’ve gotten to the point where I just stay quiet. But this is getting to me. I’m not exactly sure why she resents me. We’ve both made mistakes. Not trying to figure out why either. But how to do I prevent it from getting to me? It upsets me when she yells at me!

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

exploration

offmychest

People with Borderline Personality Disorder are proud of it and don’t hesitate to let everyone know they have it.

It’s a stupid diagnosis and everyone can be diagnosed with it. I am sure if you read the DSM-5, you might find that you may be subject to a personality disorder. People who have been diagnosed with BPD feel special and make sure everyone knows because they like the attention. Prove me wrong.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

Steam is a scam

I was gifted a 50 dollar card on steam and it wouldn't let me redeem it even when I did exactly what it said and now I can't get in my steam account

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

exploration

offmychest

My friend called me ugly

I have been called Ugly today. This is not the first time some girl said Im ugly but she is my friend. I'm really ugly. I hate myself. I never expected her to say so. It is hurting. I'm hurt so bad. I cannot live with being ugly. What should I do now? Please tell. How to accept that im ugly and live with it. Please tell.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

exploration

offmychest

I can't tolerate being a virgin

I am fed up of being single , rejected and being in the friendzone. All my friends are getting laid , getting GFS / getting married, fed up of being the loser , neither my routine is giving me time to do things not anything. My friends they just get on apps and start getting nudes from girls like that / they set up a date and start hooking up with them. I have friends whose body count in 60+ , my other friend travels the world and just gets laid this easily. When he comes to my country he has fucked every girl from each city. My college best friend just wakes up talks to women and just gets nudes from them. My roommate has 3 GFS and my other roommate has a gf and they are having sex every week. My friends talk about sex and they are getting laid every month. I am struggling here just to meet my ends expenses. Fed up of being the good guy. Someone please teach me how to get out of this hell. Even my juniors have had threesomes and stuff like that. Everyone looks at me like a loser. Fed up of being the entertainer in the group. I have been going to the gym 8 months yet skinny fat. Working on multiple businesses all failed. Please help me out.

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

['Lack of romantic relationships']

part3

offmychest

Should I be worried about my fetishes?

Sometimes I think I should be. I have a body swap fetish and a clothes swap fetish. I am a male, but I get off to the idea of switching places or clothes with my female friends. Sometimes I go so deep that I convince myself that I am supposed to become them. I worry that this will one day affect any chance I have of a relationship. I'm in my 20s and have never been on a date, and sometimes I think my obsession with wanting to be another person helps cause that. I have copied their outfits before, and wish I could spend a day acting exactly like them, but I worry tying to get them to play along with it would be deceitful. T Any thoughts? Thankfully this is normally only when I'm in a horny mood and not necessarily a 24/7 deal.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

Feelings unwanted Volunteered for 6months hoping for a job when there was a vacancy. Now the boss is ghosting me

I volunteered for 4 days a week for 6months. Quit for a bit due to health reasons. I saw the vacancy recently. I got ghosted by the boss after asking about the vacancy. She always answers back fast- she’s chatty and friendly. Unless she had a heart attack or other crisis, I am taking this as rejection. It reminded me that no one wants me around. Im not sad about that. I guess I should be upset that I can’t have my dream job. It would make me so happy to have my dream job. But I dont feel sad. Just a confused as to why they put up this facade to make me feel wanted. I like the truth. I don’t like pretences. None of friends ask me to hangout anymore . Or even text me. I guess they aren’t friends any more. I feel useless and worthless and like Im hindrance. But its not a bad thing. I used to perceive it as a bad thing. But now its sort of a fact, like you read in a textbook. I feel like im seeing reality and becoming self aware. I am ok and accepting of this. But i felt like telling someone.

['Lack of friends']

['Lack of friends']

['Lack of friends']

['Lack of friends']

part3

offmychest

You took another piece of my heart.

I guess it’s time to go back. Back to the old ways. I’ll just play and I won’t have to ever get hurt again. Damn you. You’re the one that killed me after so long. Damn you for getting in and damn myself for letting you. Fuck you.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

Seem like villains win in real life

My ex left me when I was 5 months pregnant and for the last2 years I slowly lost everything. I left my job after maturity leave he embarrassed me by sleeping with my coworker and my car being vandalized multiple times by one of his many side pieces. Our son is likely autistic and will be diagnosed soon. He doesn’t love our son he just tolerate him. Our baby is 2 and most of his “accidents” happen while with his dad. Like recently our son stim had started holding his head down combine with kind of eye rolling and the doctors are trying to make sure it’s not seizures. He had his head down in the water and his idiot dad thought he was blowing bubbles he was drowning. I called checking on him and that’s what his dad told me happened. I immediately picked him up and stop working for the night. After that I stop asking his dad to keep him. Which limit when I can work. I have to Amazon flex, DoorDash and Shipt bc it allow me to have my kids with me while I work and the schedule flexibility due to have two kids one I have to pick up and drop off from school and my youngest is in therapy. My old boss husband left her and it’s like she aged 10 years. My aunt husband cheated and left her and now she’s a functioning alcoholic. One of my coworkers husband cheated with his boss and left her and he’s happily married now with two kids. It just seem like the villains always win in real life what’s your thoughts?

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

evaluation

offmychest

Dog was run over today. She’s okay tho, but I’m not

This morning, she was run over just outside our house while mom was walking her. They were in the sidewalk but when she saw *this* van, she chased the van while she was on her leash. Apparently, the leash was too long causing her to reach the van on the road even though they were on the sidewalk. I immediately took her to the vet, and was assured she’s going to be okay. Thank God!!! She’s a tiny dog and only around 4-5kgs. She’s really brave 😭 But I’m not okay. I can’t let my emotions out because 1) it was my mom who failed to pull her, and 2) it was pure accident because the van was running from the humps, so it was less than 10 km/h. But I heard her scream from where I was inside the house. Remembering her scream in pain really breaks my heart. What if… she died right there and then? She’s my world and thinking of that possibility crushes my heart. I really pray for her healing ❤️‍🩹 and for mine too. I forgive my mom, though. It’s not her fault. It’s not the driver’s fault. I just wanna let this off my chest.

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

['Not lonely']

part3

offmychest

I feel like I’m a burden

This is my first post, so I’m really sorry if this doesn’t make sense I just need to rant and I don’t really have anyone that I can talk to, so here I am. I’m 20 living with my brother and his roommates, I babysit and do household chores in exchange for rent and his roommates are great but I feel like it’s caused some tension between me and my brother because I feel like he doesn’t want me there anymore, but I don’t really have anywhere else to go except for my stepmom‘s house and I really don’t wanna have to move back in there considering what’s going on with her and my dad and them splitting up while I’m looking for jobs. I haven’t really gotten any word back from anyone and I had a little bit of an attitude with him lately and I don’t even know why I’ve always struggled with my emotions and keeping them in control, but I feel like it’s all just worse lately and he texted me that he wants to talk to me when I get back home to his house, cause I’m housesitting right now and he hasn’t answered any of my texts asking about what he wants to talk about and I just feel like he wants me to leave and with all that’s going on. I just don’t want him angry at me or hate me because he’s really the only person I have right now and I don’t wanna lose him, but I feel like the damage that’s been done is too much to repair maybe but I don’t blame him for hating me if he does I hate myself too. Anyway thank you for reading my ted talk lol

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part3

offmychest

Should I confess to my best friend?

Sorry for the bad storytelling skills, but I needed to get this off my chest. I have a best friend who is constantly there in my life. We talk about the most mundane stuff, and overall, he was a good companion to be with. The problem is, I thought I was gay; now I’m confused. Moving on, most of the time I thought our situation was platonic, and I did view it that way for a long time (severly in denial) because I just got broken up with them while I was friends with them. I don’t know when my feelings sprung, but I think it was when they suddenly became touchy. I did communicate about that being uncomfortable for me, and they eventually stopped and apologized. The problem is, I think I gained feelings after that! and I’m generally confused because I don’t want to be in a relationship with them. The reason is that they also just broke up at the same time me and my ex broke up, and I just don’t want to be in a relationship. It’s always in my head, though, and I can’t take it off about how I just want to get it out of my system, but I also read here on Reddit that it’s selfish to “dump” your feelings on another person. I don’t expect anything from this, and I talked to our mutual friend about this, and he just  ignored me (rude 🙄 butunderstandable). He doesn’t really know who i was referringg to when talking, but i think he got the gist. Please help me! P.S: He’s very friendly and sweet naturally but I know he doesn’t feel the same way. It’s okay, though, because I just want to move on with this chapter of my life.  

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offmychest

Dating apps really make you feel worthless

I mean, it appears that literally no woman on any app likes me, it makes me feel so undesirable, unlovable, I feel like I should just stop bothering, I feel like I don't have anything to offer to anyone

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lonely

I wish I was someone's first choice

I don't have someone to call my own, and I feel more like a background character with my friends. Like I'm there but it wouldn't be too different if I wasn't. I just wish I could be the first person someone thought of when something happens, when they want to hangout, or even when they wake up.

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lonely

Anyone over 30 on here?

I’m 36 and constantly battling loneliness. I just want to know if there is anyone in my age bracket who is dealing with this as well and how they deal with it.

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lonely

I‘m sick of getting used

All men ever want is sex from me. I‘m so sick and tired of it. I‘ve been getting groomed on here since i‘m 15 and irl all they do is bully me. I never had friends, I‘m lonely and I CANT STAND disgusting men trying to abuse a child. I‘ve had too much of too many who threw their issues at me. I‘m tired of having to deal with trash when all I want is to be accepted and supported.

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lonely

Internet hug? 😔

Gather around 🫂

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lonely

What’s the worst part of loneliness for you? Yearning for conversation… worse part of loneliness (for me 🙄)

At this point, I’m addicted to Reddit. The engagement and quasi social interactions I use to seek on other platforms has been replaced by scrolling the infinite comments section that is Reddit. But still… I find myself desperate for thought provoking conversations. Learned opinions and the exchange of ideas. I ask (imo) thought provoking questions to stir debate and discussion only to be met with “everyone is different, no one likes the same things”. What?! Really?! Ground breaking! Thank you for letting us know individuals are individual 🙄. I just feel like people can’t critically think or contribute to a thought discussion and instead of realizing their limitations they share that groundbreaking news. All in all. Being lonely I miss most conversation that challenge me or at least actually introduce new ideas 😩 ##Whats the worst part for you?## Close second is having no/few shared memories with others.

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lonely

Friends?❤️

Hi everyone! My name’s Linda and I’m 21 F looking for friends to talk daily (M/F) (I’m Asian and 5 6 if that matters )Please lmk where youre from when u dm me ❤️ My MBTI’s INFP-J and I’m shy at first then i open up and talk more with time . Hope to talk to you soon ❤️

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lonely

I just want to love someone and be loved.

Just finished balling my eyes out in bed. I hate being so quiet all the time, I want to laugh and talk with someone I love. I have so much love to give at this point I feel drained and run down. I know having a boyfriend won’t solve all my problems but having that love and closeness to someone would make it a lot more better. IM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I WANNA DiEEEEEEEUGGHHH

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lonely

Today is my birthday but Im not happy

Today is my 18 birthday but none of my friends remember it! Its pretty much been like every day. Is it normal to have noone to talk to even on your birthday?

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exploration

lonely

F13 I feel lonely

None of my friends are ever there when I need them. When I feel bad and try talking to them they don’t seem interested so I just stop talking and listen to them. It makes me feel like nobody really cares or is there for me but I try being there for them.

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exploration

lonely

trying is one of the most attractive things

Sometimes i think about this. people inherently wants someone who tries. someone who tries automatically has a chance for success. it's just an attractive trait. if u scroll through this sub, 70% of posters are trying. like 'im trying to make friends, im trying to date, etc.'. Wow. That's actually beautiful. I used to try in middle school, maybe early hs. but i dont care about myself. i literally do not give a flying fck. the only compass in my life is pleasure and pain. it's painful talking to people = isolate. It's pleasurable numbing my mind = scrolling, gaming, music. that sums up me as a person. i dont care about sabotaging a future self cause there is no future. just today. sure, i'd begrudgingly get a job if i was homeless next week. But unless it's necessary to survive tmrrw, it has no value. and no, im not gonna get better cause i'm not trying. Makes sense. why get mad or sad at a hopeless situation. It'd be painful to unalive, so I wont. People that try are so brave. If i actually tried- and failed- i'd do the next best thing to unaliving myself. that's actually a crazy concept. I would never try. This cycle has become too comfortable.

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lonely

Drinking alone

So, I'm hanging alone, drinking with my cat. I've run out of people to message so I'm posting here (there weren't that many, hence coming to the lonely people of Reddit) I recently went through old journals from when I was a teenager (20 mumble years ago) and compiled a list of 250 songs I used to love... it's been a ride. I found a random number generator and that's how I've been experiencing it. It's a weird range. Does any else listen to music from a period in their life when things were intense, listening with new ears? It's good, I'm not sad but lonely...I used to have so many people in my life then. I should have read more about this group, hope this is okay to blurt out

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wrote a poem about how I feel throughout my loneliness.

I see, as couples stride in their ardor, I see, as others dissolve into laughter, I see, as the world lives, I see, as the clouds drift. ‎ Why? I see, for I have no legs to run, no mouth to scream, no hands to reach, no soul to experience. ‎ I am but a spectator. I see. ‎ I see, as friendships blossom and fade, I see, as dreams ignite and shatter, I see, as joy and sorrow dance together, Yet I remain untouched, unseen. ‎ Invisible walls encase my being, A silent scream echoes in my mind, A hollow heart, void of connection, In this endless void, I am confined. ‎ I see, but never partake, I yearn, but never grasp, in a world so vibrant, I am but a shadow, nothing more than a whisper in the vast expanse. ‎ I see, as the sun rises and sets, I see, as time weaves its tapestry, I see, but do not live, Forever watching, never belonging.

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lonely

I need a hug

please :(

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lonely

Is it possible to find a girlfriend if you are ugly?

In the last few years I lost a lot of hair at a relatively young age (M24) and now this sadly has made me look much worse. I don't really have the face for balding as I have a somewhat "feminine" face for a man. I used to be able to (with a lot of effort) sometimes match with women and meet them. But slowly but surely it has become worse and worse and now I get almost no likes or matches, and the ones I do get either don't message me (Bumble)/don't respond or ghost me relatively quickly. I sadly am also too introverted to ask girls out at university or such, and am not part of any friend groups there. Recently I got really excited because a girl wanted to meet me and seemed quite interested, but she flaked on the day twice and said she would write me when she has time, but hasn't done so for a month now, so I don't think it will work out. Do you think there is hope if you look unattractive for finding a partner that likes and loves you? I feel like I am not valued at all and currently find it hard to imagine a woman would still want to be with me looking how I am. I feel very lonely and don't know what to do anymore.

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lonely

I’m an ER nurse. I was called racist by a patient’s mother for simply doing my job.

Her 15 year old daughter had a textbook broken radius. With an injury of that magnitude, sedation is 100% certain. Which in turn, means no food or drink for 12 hours before. We can’t control what you do before you get to the hospital, but what we can control is what you do while you’re there as a patient. The patient was flagged in the system as “NPO”. Which means nothing by mouth. No food or drink. I (31f) am a racist because I wouldn’t get her daughter a ginger ale. She told my charge nurse and everything, who in turn dismissed me from the girls care. When my charge nurse asked the mother why she feels that way, she screamed “Because my baby wants a FUCKIN ginger ale” I’ve been doing this job for 9 years. I’m good at it. I know what I’m doing. I got the patient pain meds, 2 pillows, and an ice pack. I even helped her pee in the bathroom while her mother went outside to smoke a cigarette. But I’m a racist because she wasn’t allowed food or drink. This job is taxing. I wouldn’t wish some of these patient interactions on my worst enemy. It doesn’t matter the age, race, religion, or sexual orientation. Some of the people are downright cruel.

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offmychest

tired of all the pretty privileged girls

TW lots of swearing ig they're all naturally pretty. They look great with and without makeup. They look good with every hairstyle they do, no matter what they wear, it always looks beautiful on them, they have perfect skin, perfectly healthy hair and they're all skinny asf. I hate it. I'm tired of being the only one in the friend group who's an ugly duckling and always will be for that matter. I feel like they pity me everytime they look at me. Hell, I KNOW they do. My teeth are fucked up even with braces, my face is fucking weird, I have acne even tho it got much better over the last year, but still. I'm not fat but I'm not skinny, I'm feminine but not THAT feminine, my hair is boring, my nose is fucking ugly and I have circles under my eyes that are of a disgusting purple color. How tf do other girls keep being pretty all the time and continue to get more and more prettier while I lie here feeling like a fucking loser? My life will always stay that way. I'm sure of it. I just want to end it all

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offmychest

I truly love being black

I love everything about being african american. I love the countless stories of my people overcoming adversity. i love the way that we talk and how we create our own phrases and languages. I love our music and how because of us you can hear it all around the world. i love the 10’s of genres our people have created from rap to country. i love the strides we made in america and around the world. i love how we fight for what we believe in no matter what. i love that we can be loud and passionate as well as quiet and thoughtful. i love how when tragedy happens we come together and how our community is so tight that wherever you go you feel like someone has your back. i love our food, personally my family is from louisiana and it’s some of the best food i’ve ever had. i love our facial features and our hair textures. i love how we can accept eachother and our differences while recognizing what we all have in common. i love how we’re open to trying new things and meeting new people of all cultures. i love how we treat friends as family, calling them our aunts uncles and cousins. i love our fashion, our jewelry, our shoes. i love the way our skin radiates in the sun. i love being black so much it makes me cry. i’ve seen so many posts of black girls saying how much they hate it and how they wish they could be white. i love how people envy us so much that they want to be us and can never replicate it correctly. i love everything about being a black woman in america and i truly wouldn’t want to be anyone else.

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exploration

offmychest

Guy sent me home after sex and i feel like failure as a woman

Hello everybody I'm 35, female, duagnosed last year with adhd and autism For context, I started getting into dating this year, in the past i only had a boyfriend for 6 months when I was 16 (I met him online and he was 23, different sensibilities at the time). Men have never liked me: i'm what you would call a butterface. I either made them livid when I espressed interest in them, or i stopped existing once a prettier friend came into the picture. I gave up on apps (men would match asking me if I was a guy, trans or saying "at least you have a nice body to make up for it i guess" i never put revealing photos up by the way) and recently met a guy at a boardgame meetup. We spoke the whole time and he seemed genuine interested. When the meetup ended 10 hours later, I brought him home and he offered to show me his cat. We had a very nice conversation and then he came onto me. He was very polite but I kinda felt paralyzed: what do i do? It was so long that I had sex or just actusl affection that I agreed, but made clear i was not the type for one night stands and he told me he also wasn't (i'm very naive and honestly kinda dumb, i'm basically a teenager in an adult woman body, as I have no experience). But he was so nice (the previous guy I went i a date with revealed himself to be a andrew tate supporter and basically told me to was his dishes like a maid, also implying he was doing me a favor by staying with me lol), I really liked him. So we ended up having sex (i'm not very good at it probably) and he basically told me to stay there to sleep. Welp, at 4 am he told "maybe it's better if you go, I cannot sleep like this". I felt very hurt: in my mind everything is my fault. I must have done sonething to make him uncomfortable. I asked him jokingly if this was post nut carità and he told me no, it wasn't. I shouldn't have, but I asked him if he wanted to hang out in the future without any pressure and he told me "cannot give you an answer right now" which, you know, fair. I feel very stupid. Maybe he just sent me home because he was sleepy and I made the situation weird? I should not have slept with him, i'm so dumb. I realize the pattern happens often: men compliment my body (and body only) and want to just have sex, but i'm not girlfriend material. Usually I manage to just say no, this time i was week. Sorry for the rant i just feel useless as a woman. I wish I had a pretty face, maybe i would be more valuable.

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offmychest

I sent a dead rat to the man who was grooming me as a teen and got away with it

I doubt I can get in any legal trouble for this, it’s been almost 18 years since but I’m using a throwaway account all the same. It’s also not something I want to be traced back to me or my family. When I was 15 I was in a relationship with my neighbor who was in his late 30s. I believe he started grooming me when I was 13. Anyway, his wife was getting suspicious so he broke up with me. I was heartbroken and furious because I thought he loved me (yes I was very very stupid). I tried several times to get him to be with me and when he wouldn’t I went to his work and left him a gift box. Inside was the dead rat with a note card that said “A rat for a rat.” I also threatened to tell his wife and kids and I'm not proud of that but at the time I was very desperate. He worked for his parents at a garage and I imagine other people saw it. He was beyond pissed and went to my parent’s house banged on their door and told them I was sending him dead rats. They asked him why he thought it was me and why I would do that. He said someone saw me do it but he couldn’t prove it and had no reason for why I would be sending him dead rats. I played dumb so my parents didn’t believe him. They did ask me if my friends might have been pranking him. I regret lying to my parents. Part of me wants to tell them but I know they’d be heartbroken to know this happened to me so I think they should never know. Besides my therapist, and my husband no one knows. Now that I’m almost as old as the man who groomed me it’s settling in how much he manipulated me and everything that he stole from me. I used to feel guilty for hurting him but not anymore.

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offmychest

I hate being a black girl

Just like the title said i hate being black i hate it i hate it i hate it I am always being compared to other girls especially white girls (i’m not tryna hate on you guys u r so pretttyyy💗💗💗) I am always reminded of how nobody wants me I always feel like i’m less valuable than a white person Whenever i see someone addressing this they always say it gets better but idk i can’t bare it anymore i hate my skin color i fkn hate it so much I don’t think i’m ugly infact i know i am pretty but being black in a predominantly white area is one pfp the worst things ever i just feel like everyone finds me ugly i always compare my selves and it makes me so insecure i wish i could go to a school with people who look more like me I hate it here i absolutely hate it infact i lowkey just wanna go to like heaven or something because i’m tired of living with this self hatred

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offmychest

Trump has ruined my family

I hate politics. I especially hate Trump. My family has been brainwashed into worshipping this man like he’s god. Flags everywhere, t-shirts, hats, stickers, pins, the list goes on. My autistic brother calls eagles “trump eagles”. My family are hardcore Christians and won’t tolerate any oppositions in beliefs from anyone. If you don’t live, eat, breathe, sleep, and shit the same way they do they think you’re an evil person and are trying to destroy America. I could go on and on but I won’t make this longer than it needs to be. Fuck trump.

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Update: I’m leaving him, but I have to pretend everything is normal

I’m not exactly sure how updating posts on Reddit usually works, so forgive me if this is weird/ not the norm. In the past 3 days, I have been able to inform everyone who needs to know of my plans. This includes my job and my leasing office. Because I’m moving back to my hometown I’m having to find work there, but thankfully my managers are very understanding and supportive of what’s going on. They first and foremost want me to be safe. My leasing office is helping me find a way to discretely remove myself from the lease so I can get out. I have begun recording everything, either on my phone or in writing. My mom is helping me with plans to get an attorney for custody. My dad and stepsister are helping me slowly move things out of my current apartment, as my stepsister live in the same town I do and can take things from me and bring them to my dad to store until I leave. I’ve started applying for jobs in my hometown as well as housing. I saw the comments warning me not to wait until he has a job and you’re right, but I do plan on waiting until I have a job to secure a future for my baby and myself. Thank you to everyone for the well wishes, miraculously since I’ve decided to leave he’s decided to act like the model father/boyfriend, but it’s only been 4 days and I can tell that’s waning. I will keep you all updated as things progress. Wish me luck

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offmychest

My ex murdered someone

The title pretty much says it all. I found out yesterday, almost two months after it happened. So many of our mutuals could have told me, but didn't. I feel fucking sick. He and I dated for over a year. We spent every night together, traveled together, made plans together. Eventually we broke it off but remained friends until I entered another relationship. The murder was incredibly brutal, and I don't even want to go into detail because it was all over the news. What he did was cruel, callous, and left a 1 year old child without their parent. The worst part is someone sent me an article that had a video of the incident. Watching him, someone I once loved, take an innocent person's life absolutely gutted me. My heart is broken for the victim and their loved ones, but I can't help but feel heartbroken for him too. A part of me always had a soft spot for him, and always wished we would get back together someday. This makes me feel immense shame, because logically I know he deserves the hell he's currently living in. I'm fighting the urge to write to him. He's a fucking monster who destroyed a family for no good reason. Why the fuck do I want to talk to him? I've never experienced grief like this.

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My boyfriend's entire family hates me because Im poor

me(f24) and my bf (m26) have been together for 6 years. His family are well off and have respectable career while mine is poor. I dont really live with my family anymore as I was able to make a decent living for myself. I am in school right now and I support myself financially 100%. My goal really is to become a psychologist but I am too far from that goal yet as I need to take things slow in order for me to manage both school and work. My bf on the other had is still starting out with his life (a different story for a different time) and is really making an effort to find a job. Currently he is being supported by his family. His family never failed to point out multiple times of how I cant afford a decent living for the both of us, and how poor I am and of how I dont have a bright future ahead of me unlike them being medical doctors. They also think Im a gold digger. Me and my boyfriend dont have plans of living together yet or starting a family. We have discussed that we need to be stable first before moving in together and we are working our way on that. My bf defends me and is on my side, But I guess what they said is really affected me and brought myself to a downlow and I just dont know how to lift myself up from here.

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offmychest

My moms foster family are so annoying

They keep accusing my family of taking their things when it’s actually the other way around. And they keep taking. Without telling us 🤦🏾‍♀️

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part3

lonely

19f

I just want to talk to someone feel free to dm me as i am lonely af rn.

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part3

lonely

first day of job update: first day/orientation is going super well so far! the team i’m training with are all nice

also one of my previous coworkers works here, so that was cute :)

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part3

lonely

Deal With

It seems like everywhere I go people treating me like a laughing stock How do I deal with people making fun of me.

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part3

lonely

Anyone here from India. Just wanna talk

I am not sure whether it is appropriate or not but I just wanna chat with someone

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part3

lonely

Friend or Gaming Partner

dm me if you want to make friends or play games with (dbd 👉👈) im 18 btw so 18+ pls

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part3

lonely