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School reopens,vacations over tomorrow. I don't want to go to school.. I don't even have a friend in my class, I don't want to go to school.

I hated school partly for this reason. Everyone always came back chatty and excited about what they'd done over the holidays. I had no one to tell what I'd been up to for the last few months. It was mostly just doing mundane stuff with my parents, but I still wanted to join in the conversation.

How do people work 8 hours a day?. I just did 4 hours of volunteer work and I'm absolutely shattered and exhausted. How on earth do people do twice that and every day? Am I just a faulty weak human? Because that's what it feels like. Do they just get used to it over time and that's why I'm struggling because I'm not used to it? FML.

Woohoo, slaving so I can

I actually felt happy. This may seem dumb but I actually felt happy today. I got high from weed, and it makes me happy. I'm always told that its bad but it made me happy for once

Yess I feel you, and I guess being depressed is bad for you as well so you're just trading one bad thing for another, except this one makes you happy. So yeah basically why I do it

Got back from therapist.. and it was useless... she only questioned me why i dont work and why i dont have any meaning in this life... useless visit for a useless person.. well i guess its time to stop this..

I felt this EXACT way when I first went as well. I felt like it was a grilling of my life, and I even tried to lie and say that I'm mostly 100% happy with my life and that I just wish I had more friends and cleaned the house more. YEAH RIGHT. I'm a mess a lot of the time and have so many problems I dont know where to begin. Eventually once I started to know my therapist and dive into the smaller issues, did she really start to open up and I opened up myself as well. Keep going. The first day is the hardest I think

I have never met a good person in 28 years. Have you?. thats the most depressing thing about this world

I try to remind myself everyone's life is a tragedy, not only mine. Although this world is cursed, it really does have some beautiful people who only want to help. Keep looking, you'll find them eventually OP.

Depression comes and goes for me.... I'll be having a good day and one thought ruins it all. I get pissed at a lot of things and I get angry easily...

It's that simple, isn't it? That's exactly what makes it so wretched. Like you, I can be perfectly fine, everything going well and then, bam! I'm off the deep end with one slip of the tongue, one word, one internet scroll...one anything.

I like to sit outside in the rain because I feel as if everyone else in the world is crying with me.. Anyone else feel this way? One comment/upvote and I'll feel some sense of comfort. Thank you

I like the rain because it feels cleansing, like it could wash everything away so that we can start fresh. It's oddly uplifting.

I'm ready. I've been dealing with this for long enough. I'm tired of feeling sad. I'm done.

I hope you r ready to be happy and move on from this phase

i wanna jump from an elevated place. i wanna kill myself, like really really would like to jump off an elevated place, but not die what do i do? drugs? fall from somewhere not far above the ground(like a 4meters jump)? you know, i'd just like to die but i have a gr8 life other than that (I have different lives in two different countries, just want to kill myself in one)

I don't want you to jump. I don't want you to die, in either one. I don't know exactly what you're going through but from the sounds of it, I'd suggest focusing on the parts in your life that you enjoy.

i wish. i wish bad thoughts could be washed off and drained away like dirt and sweat are when you have a nice hot shower

Sometimes I find treating it like that can help, though sometimes obviously I am just very clean and unhappy, with wrinkly fingertips. I wish there was better advice I could give but it's the old don't think about X problem. I hope you shake them off soon.

My death date. decided that gonna end it on August 21st of this year.

Why did you decide on that? I'm sure you're an incredible person, please don't kill yourself, have you talked to anyone about this?

Cooking/Nutrition for Depression. I'm having trouble keeping up with basic cooking. What are the easiest/healthiest meals I can have to keep my nutrition up? I've been eating so many plain turkey sandwiches.

Can you just get one of those packages of pre-washed spinach and add those to your sandwiches as a start? Take what you have working for you and try to cram as many nutrients in as possible. Spinach is a good choice because it's pretty nutrient dense as opposed to lettuce, and it's easy to add to stuff. You can even grab a can on minestrone (or any other type) soup, heat it up and dump a bunch of spinach into it to boost the vegetable content. My go to recently has been a spinach salad with goat cheese and balsamic vinaigrette dressing. Maybe some day I'll get fancy and add onions or peppers or whatever to make it a real salad, but at this point, it's better than the grilled cheese by itself or whatever else I'm eating. Baby steps, man. Baby steps.

Does everyone think i hate them?. I recently was hanging out with this girl who said she thought I hated her last year, it hit me kinda hard, I'm extremely quiet and I just wish I could know everyone's opinion of me.

Some people are sensitive. Don't change the good things about yourself just because some people don't understand silence.

Does anyone else want to kill themselves but are too scared to do it?. The title says it. I just want to die but i just cant bring myself to do it. Ive always been this way. Too scared to do anything or make important choices. I feel worthless that i cant even bring myself to do this. I feel like a absolute mess.

I don't want to die. I would be pissed if I died. But I sure as hell don't want to keep on living either...

I am afraid that I will be spending Christmas entirely alone.. Title says it all. Working too much to have made plans, maybe it was partly intentional. Anyone else in a similar boat?

I am sort of in a similar boat. There are lots of people around me but it still feels like entirely alone. prepared to spend most wonderful time of the getting drunk everyday until school starts again. And then starting another draining semester.

Anyone else only feel numb?. For the past couple months I felt anything. I even just walked around for a half hour in the pouring rain and felt nothing. like not even in control, just spectating my own life as it goes by.

Sometimes. Specifically the spectator thing, it's a depersonalization/derealization thing I think

Depression is comforting?. Does anyone else feel like being upset and depressed all the time is comforting some what because only then do people treat you like you are worth something or it has a sense of security that no one can hurt you anymore?

For me,I think it's comforting because it's all iv'e felt for so long, it's become weird NOT to feel bad.

DAE get ready even if they have no place to go?. Sometimes just putting on makeup and nice clothes makes me feel better even though I'm just sitting at home alone. Does this help anyone else? Maybe one day I'll actually get up and go out.

I get showered and dressed every day. It's a habit I work hard not to break, just so I can go out if I'm able. It definitely helps me

i want die. i will probably give myself the die soon idk

or you can just waste your life instead

idk. i wish i could feel anything at all.

I wish I couldn't feel anything at all.

If I have ever amounted to anything it would probably be nothing. I am less than nothing.. i hate myself I'm gonna get drunk again.

Are you saying that you are typically harmful to the world and so your best aspiration would be to become a net zero for the world instead? I'm sorry if you feel that's the case. If the drinking is correlated with the problem, you might consider looking up groups of people who try to quit drinking together.

Fucking stupid. Fuck High Schoolers and fuck everything else

What kind of stuff do you like?

Screaming. Does anyone else feel like they need to scream until they can't anymore but when you do it doesn't help fill the aching emptiness at all? Been dealing with this shit for 8 years and its torture

I want to let so much out.

I've always been told that I'm a horrible liar, yet somehow I am able to fool everyone into thinking I'm okay.. I just wish somebody would notice that I'm really not.

Same here man. I hope your life gets better and that your day is fantastic, you really deserve it. I know that it's a struggle because I go through the same thing every day - do you ever laugh but feel like it's just not reaching your eyes anymore? That's me every day. I can't say that it 100% for certain gets better, but it COULD get better and that's what really motivates me every day.

I just woke up in a puddle of my own piss.. I lay on a inflatable mattress so my cloths and my cover just absorbed everything. On top of that its so I was shaking from being soaked. Why does shit like this happen to me? Just when I thought things were okay stupid shit like this happens. Fml.

It could be a medical condition, and you shouldn't be ashamed. I recommend you see a doctor about it.

Does anyone else find meditation completely useless?. I'm not denying it works for some, but as someone with depression and crippling anxiety it's basically a complete waste of time. Anyone else?

Yep same here. Tried a whole bunch of different ones over time.

Does anyone else get depressed after/while reading a romantic story because you just feel so unlovable and hopeless. Bc I do, and I want to relate to someone desperately

I dont read romantic books but this is why I hate romantic movies/shows

SRRIs making me feel terrible. First day of SRRIs.. Feel horrible. Should this be happening?

Yeah, unfortunately the side effects from them can be really strong, especially if its your first time trying them, I lost a lot of sleep from stomach pains when I was first prescribed them. That said they side-effects should pass fairly quickly as your body adapts to the meds but if it is causing you a serious problem, talk to your doctor, they can often start you off on a smaller dosage and work their way up to a level that can help you.

Today I felt a lot better than I did in the past year, but now I feel dead again. Will you fucking fuck off depression?!

I know the feeling. It sucks. But maybe now when you had even short moment of relief, maybe even happiness, you know it's possible to feel that way and you can try to get energy from that. Hope it doesn't sound stupid. Stay strong.

Am I powerless over my mental illness and do I have no control?. Convince me that I am right.

Mental illness can be overpowering . You may feel like you have no control. But please try to hold on , don't give up on yourself .

Suicide is not the answer...well.... Then why do more and more people do it? Lmao.

Simply because it is an answer. When people put definitive statements out there, they are also putting out there it is not the answer for them and for normal society. As a two-time suicide survivor and multiple abuse survivor, I know I can't fault anyone for doing what they do. It sucks to have someone kill themselves, but there was so much pain and suffering that they couldn't bare it any longer. I know, I've seen that demon more than once.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am unlovable. Just because I've accepted it doesn't make it hurt any less. I wish I want disabled, I wish I wasn't ugly, I wish I was at least average height, I wish I was confident. That, or I wish I was dead. I can't handle being this lonely any longer.

I have that feeling too... but then I read it can be one of the symptoms of PTSD, so I really don't know what to think about it

How to become an Introvert ?. It may sound wired but i think that being extroverts suck and becoming Introvert may help me in depression and anxiety and the worst i think i have BPD.Can someone give me a guide on how to become an Introvert. Thanks

Introvert here, I still get super lonely I just stress out about what I would say to people and every single thing I can say wrong.

Is it worth going to the doctor for S.A.D(seasonal affective disorder). Every time winter comes around I lose all my energy and motivation. Any advice on what I should do?

Definitely talk to your doctor if the lack of energy and motivation is interfering with your job, relationships, or quality of life. Even if it's not that serious it still might be worth seeing your doctor just to be sure that it's SAD. There are other conditions (hypothyroidism for example) that have symptoms similar to depression.

Depression Described for Mother. Every time. i see this courageous, clever and brilliant description, I think, YES! Someone DOES get it. It helps me that she's brave enough to put it out there...

What's the message. I am curious

Cancelled all plans for tomorrow because depression got the best of me.. I just feel really terrible mentally and physically.

sorry to hear that depression has killed motivation to do daily activities. I feel the same way. Hope you stay strong! If you ever need to talk You can send me a PM.

How do I know if I have clinical depression?. I just feel shitty all the time even though the reasons are tiny and petty

Sometimes the reasons for having depression are irrelevant. If your gut instincts are telling you you may be depressed, then there could be some truth to it. At this stage you should be seeking treatments and seeing if you notice any differences in how you feel. I'd recommend running outdoors for 45 minutes at least 5 times a week. This is actually more powerful than antidepressant medication and without unhealthy side effects - on the contrary - it strengthens connections in the brain which are responsible for feeling good. Give this a try and see how you feel.

Anyone else keep sighing?. I can't help it. Anytime I do something a little bothersome I just sigh and sigh,,,

Wow. I thought I was the only one. When depressed I sigh a LOT.

Waves of melancholia ebbs and flows( how to stale the ocean of depression). Can someone out there help me in these dire times . I've been havin beautifully tragic dreams of my past. And i awake fine frm them feelin slightly sore, as one will . And once again I near the nighty times where darkness cover my eyes and nearing slumber I start wanderin near the ocean I speak of above. The wave hits me cuz I walk too close to it ig but I promise u its involuntary my being there. The caustic impotable wave suffocates me so can some distract me with smth important , like deportable Mexicans who need help Or trump and his mighty tower and how it will fall and we shall clap . Anything , even pennies or peniseseses . There was sort of a beat to what i wrote It helps me to cope with my shit So plz Don't diss Ull miss Cuz I'd be alr dead In any case discuss

You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

brothers girlfriend admitted ive been working up her anxiety and depression. i didnt mean to im sorry

I know how you feel but you have to remind yourself that even if right now no one would be worse off without you it doesn't stop you from making a positive impact in the world in the future

I hate when people trick me into believing I can count on them... Then when you need them they disappear..

The key is to have no expectations, especially when it comes to other people

Just started school again and I can't focus or learn because im really depressed all day and its a negative spiral help me please. title. But yeah its really bad guys

And what's the reward of finishing school? Working full time.

When you try to self-medicate but you don't get drunk. I just finished a whole bottle of wine and am only slightly tipsy. Feelsbadman

I'm in the same boat, if I do get drunk it's not the fun kind it's more like all those depressing thoughts start boiling over. I don't drink liquor anymore for that reason, now I stick to a few beers every night and that's usually enough to help me relax.

How did you (If you did) beat depression?. I'm curious to know how y'all did it.

I watched a short video once (I'm sure can google but I'm on phone and about to get in car) that compared depression to a big black dog. On bad days the dog is giant and weighing you down and on better days the dog is small and at your feet. This helped me accept a lot more about my life and my depression rather than constantly wishing it could just go away. I would get so mad at myself for being angry/sad but now I know it's like owning an animal--you take care of it and it won't bite you, at least not as much anyway. It's part of who you are and that is okay. I do not have severe depression so I am not on meds, so can't speak for those folks who are, but for me exercise and doing things for me (rather than constantly for others or other people's approval) really helped. It's like learning to be selfish in a good way. Eating less carbs and gluten helped too as they tended to make my body more sluggish which did t help when I already felt sad/slow/tired. I eat a lot more protein and fresh veggies now and I think there is a big difference--especially after 6+ months. I still drink alcohol but now a limited variety of stuff that I truly like the flavor of rather than eh it's here so I'll drink it. Also I don't drink when I'm in a bad place or anything traumatic happened that day/week. It's just a recipe for bad. I don't do any other drugs and I'm allergic to smoke so can't speak on that. I also drink 0 caffeine but that's mostly due to stomach issues--not sure if that would help or not. Good luck!

Looking for advice. I have been in a recently. I been to work in 2 weeks and have just been extremely depressed & anxious. I am basically sick of this and ready to make a change but I know where to start. I have major issues opening up to a therapist and have tried numerous times and constantly fail. I am taking meds for the depression and anxiety, but basically think what taking is enough. Does anyone have advice on different coping tactics you use throughout the day to get yourself past the extreme feelings of anxiety? Any other advice on positive or motivational changes I could consider? Willing to try basically anything at this point...

I feel pretty anxious myself. But when i have no choice I just come to the point where i think what's the worse that could happen? maybe I faint. But then there are people to help me. If I panic I can just excuse myself and leave. If the situation gets to much, I can leave anytime. And just knowing that I am always in controll of what I am doing helps me a lot. Having trouble in the subway? Well, you can pull the breaks anytime. That's pretty expensive and affects a lot of people but just knowing that I could is a big plus. I am not a prisoner in these situations. I am free. I can leave whenever I want. But sometimes I realize I panic because of no logical reason. I tell that myself. Than I make a breathing exercise and it calms down. My therapist told me, when you have the feeling of not getting enough air breath through a straw. It calms you down, makes you hear your breath and you start focussing on it. ​ I hope that helped ​

No motivation, only obligation.. The motto of my current life.

Perhaps that's not such a bad thing for the time being - at least it sounds like you're still doing the necessities of life whether you want to or not and whether there's anything resembling pleasure in it. It seems that's how I've been operating for a few years myself - doing things because I have to not because I want to. At least we're doing them, maybe we'll get our mojo back and want to do something later.

My new years' resolution is not to kill myself. Unless I think of a really funny way to do it.. I feel like I would be happy if it was funny. All the best.

Doug Stanhope has a bit about it

“Happiness only real when shared” -Christopher McCandless. Other people are toxic though... :(

Not everyone is toxic. Perhaps you are hanging around the wrong people? Start out by ditching the toxic people in your life, and make an attempt to find new friends. There are various hiking groups that are good for that (hikers always seem like happy people). Volunteering is a great way to meet nice people as well.

My family makes my depression so much worse and I'll never be able to move out. I have tried and tried to treat this depression and nothing works. What else is there for me other than suicide?. Why can't someone just give me an honest answer.

You say you'll never be able to move out . . . sure you will! would you be moving to a new city or some where farther away? obviously, to move out, you will need a good paying job and money for an apt (by your self or with roommates.) tell your family that you are moving out on X date, if you are over 18, they can't really do anything about it. tell the police that you are moving away and your family is triggering your depression. they might try to file a missing person report if they notice that you go missing out of no where. suicide, I don't think, is ever the answer.

If it weren't for my wife and daughter, I'd have killed myself by now. I know they need me. The only thing keeping me alive is that I don't want them to suffer. I wish I hadn't imposed myself on them.

I understand completely. If it weren't for my daughter I'd be gone. Right now even holding out for her is very hard. Truthfully if I had a firearm I don't know what I'd do.

Meh. What's the point.... (Quality content I know)

There is no extrinsic meaning to life. Life has the meaning you give it. If Life is Meh to you, that is what it will be. YOU are the determiner of value. No-one else can give it to you... and there is freedom in that.

To those who are suicidal or have considered suicide, what could be granted for you to no longer feel that way any more?. Anything, can be multiple things.

I got a cat. She is the reason I'm alive right now.

I want someone to acknowledge me.. Last night, I cut off all my hair. It was down to the middle of my back. The people I see most regularly barely noticed anything different about me today.

I feel you. I grew a full beard between visits to my folks. Not a word.

dont want to be alive anymore. hate myself and i hate my life

Have you looked into therapy?

Invisible. Went out tonight with a few friends. Went completely unnoticed again. Almost got into a scrap with some affliction wearing jock fag. Uneventful night otherwise as always. Why even bother.

I can't remember the last time I went out with friends, I guess I'd have to have some first

Can’t do it anymore. Too much going on in my head.. I handle it. I just want this to stop.

Can you talk about whats going on in your head? Maybe if you get it out, it will be a little more sorted? I'm sorry it's so overwhelming right now. Someone loves you, they just don't know how to show it the right way, right now.

I break down crying every day when I get home. I push it off at work and at school, but as the day goes on I can just feel it building and building. And then I just break.

does it happen for a reason?

Lol. Im gonna die alone and

I feel the same way. Do you want to talk about it?

I do nothing all day and I certainly don't want to do something either.. Except die. I want to die.

I used to do nothing all day. Now I do gym at least one hour a day. Then I lay on my bed the rest of the day until I sleep. Wake up and repeat.

i dont know what to do. So, im about to kill myself but im really afraid about how my boyfriend will react to it. I dont want to make him upset but this is my only option right now, we are both 16 if that changes anything.

What about just fuck it. care about the problems no more? what I did and it worked for me over the span of 3 years. No fucks given, to anything, anyone.

depressed. i have depression and want it to go away, but it wont so this is me expressing my frustration at that

Depression is no common cold. There are people that live with it for decades. The solution to controlling, or ridding oneself of depression varies, person-to-person. So, perhaps medication works for Bentley, whereas Allison exhibits no improvements despite numerous boosts to her dose. Maybe Allison has an abusive partner that's affecting her mental state. In that situation she would benefit from distancing herself, as well as seeking professional counseling/therapy...But I digress. In your life, it might be productive to identify that things that worsen your mood. Maybe you need to change your environment, catch up on debt, etc.

How should a 23 year old really feel? About things such as relationships/who they want to be/stress/life in general.. Wise wizards come out from the woodwork.

I'm 23, and I'm kinda stumbling around in life like someone cut the lights off. I have no idea where to go at this point either. Ex gf of 3 and half years left me 5 months ago in a shitty way and it made me lose sense of direction even more. I guess we just stumble across where we're supposed to go eventually. Or at least I hope so.

Need advice. Hey im going through allot at the moment with my depression and whats going on around me. have been doing harm to asking to help but there is something on my mind that i need to get off my chest and i dont know how to go about it.

Sure, I might be able to give some advice. What is on your mind? Feel free to PM me or to reply here. Whatever you are more comfortable with.

Told my friend I want to CTB. Literally just told him i wanted to catch the bus. He asked me what it meant and I said suicide, his response was Oh wow i haven't heard that term before and walked off. Lol fml

Wow, if you need to talk about it, you can DM me.

I'm gonna smoke my last hit of weed, try to feel happy, probably cry. I have $14 in my bank account

That's terrible. I can understand the struggle they must be. This world is not sustainable for a lot of people.

Could use some company.. Another saturday night. My days are all the same, I'm so bored.

I could use some company. My small group of friends are playing the same online game as usual and spent a while bashing me in the call.

what should i do the help my depression?. what are the steps to curing depression?

Try finding new hobbies. This will help your mental state stay focused on something else. Also just try going out and engaging with other people. This always helps me since social interaction is really good for mental health.

4:56am/8.29. 25. not sure when supposed to be doing. Even as I write this my eyes are too blurry to see. not sure who is reading this, But just know not okay.

I get it too. I slept in 3 nights, my mind is ablaze! having a really tough week too in my struggle with depression, but before this week, I had three really good weeks. Hang in there! Some days are just harder than others. Sometimes I try falling asleep to a meditation music playlist, sometimes that works for me, I can focus on the sounds instead of my thoughts. Just take it one day at a time and know that you are not alone! I hope tomorrow is a good day!

Sleep is always a factor in controlling my depression. When I lack sleep or even the fog just kept being heavy and heavier each time. Even people notice it, that when sleepy or sleep, my face looked scary to them. Is anyone else like this?

I have major issues with sleeping too much. I can't sleep when I want to at night and then I sleep all day. I set an alarm to wake me up at 12 and usually snooze it for an hour. If I turn it off then I don't get up until 4PM. I can't say I get any sort of fog feeling though, just incredibly tired.

loser. im a complete loser who cant get his life straight even if i try'd and now im behind in school now because of how depressed i am, i've been trying to fight this for years now but im tired now i just want to give up

No you are not a loser in any way. Admiring your depression shows how strong you are. This is something that is hard to get rid of. Believe me I know. important is that you give up and keep moving forward a strong and special person. I believe in you. Have hope. *hug*

You feel like your failures in the past define you.. And becoming the opposite of that failure is a mission that's unachievable.

I don't really have any failures of consequence in the past.

Depression is like an ex. Only comes back when doing better.

Or like an ex because a fucking pain in the ass.

Do you ever feel like running away?. Do you ever just feel like running away somewhere far away, move to another city or country, changing your whole identity, exploring new things, finding new opportunities and meeting new people. Just leave this life behind and start a new one.

I have many times i have made plans and let them go i want to try agean just to get away from it all i just want to hop on a train and go whare it goes and maby be hapy for once in a long time sorry for bad gramer and bad spelling

I need to know. Has anyone actually got better?. starting to feel like the idea of recovery is just a myth to keep me from committing suicide. tried every medication and nothing has helped. If no chance of getting better the point of going on?

I'm not 'cured' but I'm a thousand times better than I used to be, there's a light at the end of the tunnel. The key has been little steps over a long time, unfortunately there are no quick fixes. Keep going, keep experimenting with treatments, there's one out there that'll work for you. You can do this!

How am I supposed to convince my best friend that she shouldn't kill herself when I'm thriving to do so myself?. Like cmon why is this supposed to be so difficult? Just end my life...

It's so hard to not be hypocritical in this situation. She's your best friend, right? That must mean you care for her. Sometimes just saying you care and support her can do wonders.

It's a pattern!. How do I break it?

I suppose it depends on how deep the pattern is, something that help some people is to use a calendar and write down things to do during which hours everyday in advance and try to force yourself to not break the schedule. Doesn't work for me but i know that it works for some people. The most important part i'd say is to find a goal to strive towards.

Anyone get physical pain along with the sadness?. noticed on some days that I feel particularly down and empty, I will experience a very sharp pain in my abdomen. It feels like a bunch of needles poking through my insides. This has been going on for a couple of years now, and only periodically occurs, but very alarming.

It happens to me every day.My doctor just thinks my body is too sensitive and reacts to my emotions.

Its my dream to become a paramedic.. How fucking dumb is that. Im stupid, out of shape, very skinny. Probably couldn't lift 20 pounds. Im 6'1 120 lbs.

Hey, I just completed my EMT cert. Part of it we had to do an ambulance rotation and were paired with paramedics for a while. Honestly, the things that I got from my experience in EMT class and doing the ride along is that there are a lot of pretty stupid, not very competent, or physically fit people out there doing it. Im not saying that you wouldn't have to change anything, but like I guarantee that you could do it if you want to and would be better at it than some of the people out there working.

What the fuck. What the fuck what the fuck.

Hey there you seem to be going through something, care to share?

Today is my birthday! And I feel good.. Yay! :) I am happy today!

I'm so glad you're happy! It's nice to see happy people :) Also, happy birthday! Hopefully your day turns/turned out well!

What drugs do you guys do?. Legal or illegal drugs do you guys like?

Cocaine keeps accidentally falling into my nose. That pesky cocaine.

How can I tell my mom that I have depression and why without crying?. Crying near people is the worst

You really shouldn't be ashamed to cry in front of your mom. I understand it's embarrassing sometimes but hopefully she will understand how hard it is for you. She's seen you cry before, she knows you're human.

I dropped out. One semester short of a bachelors in math. Ended a year long relationship. Quit my job. not sorry for leaving, sorry I stayed so long.

I like your conviction. Sometimes cleaning the slate is what you need. What's next in the life master plan?

Lack of sleep. Did the time change affect anyone else's depression negatively?

Yeah i feel a little disoriented but in a good way lol

How do i get smarter. And also stop cutting in my sadness and anger

Pick something you're interested in. Anything. It could be comics, a historical event, a tv show, law, place, a band, etc and learn everything you an about that topic. See where it takes you :)

If you do something long enough, it rewires your brain. That's both of good and ill. I know certain habits and crutches just encourage the depressive and anxiety feelings. But as I try new things, new therapies, they become less scarry and more normalized. So there's always hope.

Care to extrapolate on some positive examples of your brain rewiring? The only experience I have with this is my weed addiction since I was 16 and now I'm 20 :/. Only smoked once this last week tho so things are looking up

Books to read that can help me with my anxiety. Hi everyone. It is a very difficult time in my life right now and would like to start reading some uplifting books to get my mind on other thoughts.. Any book recommendations?

Not a book but you should search up a spoken word poet on youtube called ' Shane Koyczan '. I was never into poetry until I heard some of his work. His voice is so passionate and calming and the visual effects help to focus.. for me anyway Personal favorites are: Troll When I was a kid To this day

Help. I'm stuck between recurring suicidal thoughts and fear of death. I don't want to live, but I can't bring myself to an end... does this make any sense??

That's a pretty good summary of the last several years of my life. On an unrelated note: you like penguins? I like penguins.

I'm not depressed since being on drugs actually they've made me happy.... Wired thing is now I just want to die happy.. happy days a

I can get that, but the feeling's only temporary, isn't it? An hour or two maybe depending on what exactly, but still. Those things always run out and I find myself being broke not long later, having to lend or beg relatives, yadda yadda yadda. I hate it, but love it at the same time because that always seems to pay off. Sure, I don't have the right mindset for this thing - drugs are bad, and so on and so on but whatever works works. Just make sure it works and doesn't make it worse is my advice.

Waking life better better than sleeping life for anybody?. Because it's def not for this mid 20s manchild

Yea. Especially since I regularly have lucid dreams. It's amazing, except when you wake up with a bitter taste in your mouth.

Drugs allow us to live in the past for a while... .. But the comeback to the present is brutal. JAT

It's the otherway around man!

If this is what life is, I don't want to experience any more of it. Things just get worse, not better.

Maybe one day. as you dream, things will get better. Hopefully. but mostly i believe you are the only one who can make things better. If you are feeling like talking. I'm here. <3. :)

Alone on birthday again.... I just wish it would all go away.

Happy Birthday.. just to say I am an introvert, I get depressed but am not the clinical type, I am 45 and for also long as I can remember have never celebrated my birthday day except for a couple of time, this used to bother me some in my the past but not any more.

Anyone else has nothing worth living for?. No friends, no job prospects, no romantic success to look forward to. Makes life look like an utterly pointless waste of time. Anyone else struggling with this?

Not in the same way - I have a job (and prospects), I have some friends, but I live a life in solitude, since I cannot enjoy spending time with friends or people because it amplifies my depression - and I have no clue why. Maybe because I always feel alone, even when in company which makes me avoid it. So yeah, it's not what I'd call a life worth living and at least somehow related to your struggle.

I feel like no matter what, nothing is worth it.. not worth it to get out of bed, not worth it to go to college, not worth it to live because no matter what there is always going to be stress and depression and misery. Not matter how hard I work it change. not worth the struggle to live, happiness worth it. I stand it anymore.

Nothing will change until you change. still struggling every minute and every second with this too, so right there with you. Everything is shit, until you see it differently. Just imagine the YOU whose conquered this hell in your mind, what do you think he would tell you?

In the last days, I've experienced how to be okay. Now it's over.. Hello, laziness and suicidal thoughts.

What was it that made you feel okay and has it ended?

Has anyone else ever gone through hell, then met the person of their dreams, the person they're meant to spend the rest of their life with, and then you fuck it up forever because you felt it was too good to be true so you constantly started fights to make it feel like it wasn't a dream?. Fuck man, I hate myself so much now. I don't hate my heart. I hate my brain. I hate my consciousness. My subconscious fuckin warned me to wake the fuck up and stop ruining things. But I didn't listen.

currently in a relationship. I keep thinking going to breakup with me or cheat on me. My anxiety fucks it all up.

My brain is leaking.. Has anyone dreamt all night about some small task that needs to be done no matter how trivial it might be. I'm exhausted over a 5 minute project that won't matter if I do it or not.

Same! I have lots of homework that need to be done, but I do it, driving me insane. I even do simple always so exhausted. Especially at school!

Help. How can I overcome depression and anxiety without meds?

I dunno man, I over come either even with a ton of meds. It really depends on the person.

I almost threw up with anxiety from walking down the high street. I used to be able to rave, go out with friends, work, study. Now I can't walk down the road without having panic attacks. Great

sorry man. If people judge you for it then FUCK THEM