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Any advice for attachment issues?. I get attached to people easily. Any advice?

Main focus should be on yourself and your own personal interests. Be solid on a self-development mindset. Be more self-aware of yourself and your goals.

When does your seasonal depression begin?. If you suffer from seasonal depression -- when does it typically begin/end for you?

Not seasonal, but it gets worse in the winter

Can’t sleep. so worried about everything. Life is too much. I feel like dying. What do I do? Everything is fucked

I take melatonin and that works

I feel like I'm slowly spiralling again. and I'm so frustrated at myself I should be grateful for the life I have; the people I have but I feel nothing but a gnawing emptiness I want to be there for people I care about but I'm just such a mess and I'm exhausted.

It might help to know not alone , had everything someone could ever want but no draw to anything for me no pleasure just emptiness

Mental health services can kiss my ass!!. They don't help with shit

I've had the same experience with them, but I think the problem was that I wasn't opening up to my therapist. Don't give up just yet!

My relationship ended yesterday.. I don't know. I just feel alone. How are you?

I keep hearing about this gym you speak of. Works, huh?

I'm not willing to kill myself.. Tempted to hire someone to off me, though.

Is it sad that one of the biggest reasons I haven't killed myself yet is anticipation for future games?

Is tiredness and dizziness only a symptom of the first week of using citalopram?. I started on Thursday, I spend my days so tired.

been on cit for a year. it still leaves me feeling pretty tired. it's better when i take my dose at night rather than in the morning and any tiredness is worth the benefits of the drug in my case :)

Why am I so fucked up?. I just bombed my bio test and ruined my whole quarter. I went into the bathroom and purged my breakfast out. Now I'm crying in the bathroom floor in the school and Idk what the fuck to do next.

Talk to your teacher. Sometimes they're willing to give extra credit if you do additional assignments or labs. Also, many teachers will at least pass a student if the student goes to them and shows that they're really making an effort in the class. One test will not ruin your life. I promise. :)

Crazy thoughts. Planning to end it all soon .

Do you want to talk about it? (I realized that sentence kinda sounds sarcastic wasn't meant to be)

I hate my life so fucking much right now.. I hate myself so much. Why is life so difficult. Constant self loathing. just sitting by the computer all day. Doing nothing. I'm just a fat ugly virgin loser. I hate this life. I hate myself. I didn't ask to be born in the first place... Why am i expected to accept life as it is then? Ugh...

I looked at your post history(sorry, I'm nosy) and what caught my eye was that you were upset that you feel girls don't find you attractive. The key there was you said you don't even bother talking to them. A fear of rejection is what keeps most people single, I think. Even just smiling at a girl when she walks by might make you feel better. If she gives you that, What do you want, weirdo? look, that's her insecurity, and those aren't the kind of people you want in your life anyways. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. My problem is the opposite, I'm skinny as a rail and short. Upon putting myself out there, I found that some people actually think I'm attractive. You're your own worst critic, so I sincerely doubt your just un-lovably ugly. And about your weight, treat it like an RPG, make a game of losing weight. You'll start to feel better about yourself the more you lose. It can be kind of fun to work on yourself, especially when you start to see results. I was talking to my parents the other day, and calorie counting apparently worked wonders on them. Do some research and see what's best for you, I'm no doctor. Hope this helps.

The number of times I say I hate myself in my head is uncontrollable. It kinda comes out on its own like I'm hungry

For me, it's the number of times I say, I hate my life and I hate people.

If my depression makes me undatable, why shouldn't I kill myself?. I'm depressed because I'm alone and I'm alone because I'm depressed. Women are too difficult, I will never understand them and I will never change, why shouldn't I buy a gun and fucking shoot myself?

Because you are important! Your life matters! You shall find someone who will be understanding and there for you when you are depressed. You just need to let yourself be vulnerable and keep dating until you find the right person. It may take awhile but it's worth the wait. For you and that future person.

Have been cheated on. Hey all. To cut a long story short. My boyfriend and I have broken up because I found out he was cheating on me. He says it's because I don't come across confident in bed. I'm know questioning everything about myself and it making me think about wether it was because of my body my mental health in general or just because I was useless in bed. I really don't know and to rip t all off I can't get the image of the two of them out of my head. What can I do? I'm losing sleep and feel like I'm spiralling out of control. Any advice would be a huge help.

His reasoning is absolutely no excuse. It is certainly not your fault. It really does, as others have said, seems like you would be better off without him.

First step... The hardest step.. After enjoying 6years of depression and dark stuff on this sick brain... I've taken this step now. A few weeks in a mental hospital. Hoping to get out. Not sure why i Tell this here. Maybe hoping that others can take this step to. Good luck to all who are in this shitty shituation. #smallsteps

After hearing every line in the book, I found this single post surprisingly helpful

How do you learn to accept what you cant change?. Trying to stop self loath

You help it. I've always told myself that when something is bad, either change it or deal with it. I mostly used it all my mother who is pretty fat and puts down other people for being fat. When something can't be changed, the problem is not that you must deal with it, but that you don't know how to. Focus your thoughts on how to better the situation, maybe take advantage of it even.

Float tanks?. Has anybody had any luck using float tanks for depression/anxiety?

I tried one once. It was a cool experience, but I'm also afraid of the dark, so it was a little anxiety inducing (they had a button to turn the lights on though). I don't know if it's really helpful, but it's still something I'd recommend, even if just for the experience

So Long and Goodnight, I'm drinking myself into oblivion. I'm more than half a bottle in to shutting down my fucked up brain. Good luck to you all.

I'm sorry that you feel this way, and if it means anything I hope you wake up tomorrow and things look up a bit

Anyone ever feel weird saying you're depressed when you've never been clinically diagnosed. I'm pretty sure I have depression. However there's this constant fear that if I tell someone they won't believe me. If I tell my friends or family I'm depressed. I'll think they just won't believe you just because I should be happy because of how my life looks.

I feel you. When I wasn't diagnosed but was obviously depressed (looking back now) I was in denial and felt ashamed. I always said I feel depressed and not I am depressed

In one of those moods I can't shake. Just feeling like I don't want to do this anymore. What techniques do you use to pull yourself out of bad funks?

Strip club. Get some taitais in your life, even if you gotta pay for that shit. Don't be just jackin it in the bedroom man! If you go to a strip club you already winning cause you got up and went outside! Bitches got ears too, not just for fucking, if you talk to them they actually listen to shit you saying! Just remember to get the money up front.

Has anyone here had success with Mirtazapine (Remeron)?. I've tried Zoloft, Prozac, Citalopram and Venlafaxine (Effexor).

Haha. Same exact medications. No. It did nothing. Didn't even notice it.

Depressed that I'll never find love.. My biggest fear is not finding love.I see all of my friends having girlfriends and stuff and I am sitting here and wasting my time doing nothing.I've had a few relationships but all of them crashed and burned.

Well you've had a few. I doubt any of us gets a bulls eye on the first shot. Some of us never even had a chance. Give it time.

Contact. There's a weird comfort in connecting with someone who you know is also struggling. It's almost like you stare at each other and immediately think, We are on the same team. It's pretty nice.

I totally agree. That's why I visit this sub a lot. It's nice to know you aren't alone.

Scream. Anyone else ever get the urge to just scream?

I want to scream all the pain out

You used to be that guy that everyone like and now, you just seem broken. What's wrong?. Do I? Oh, I didn't really see it. Thanks for showing your concern but I'm fine.

Funny how pharases like that say everything you know, give an answer why you are depressed and then ask you why are depressed.

Does anyone spend money recklessly when you're depressed?. Like buying stuff above your means?

Made a throwaway a few weeks ago to post something similar to this. But yes, absolutely. The past two years my depression has gotten worse, and so has my credit card debt. I feel like ive dug myself a hole that I can't get out of because of it. Most of what I bought was food too, so I cant even return any of it haha.

Trying CTE for the first time. Nothing has worked for my depression so CTE is basically my last option. I have even tried ketamine. If anyone has had CTE, what has it done for you? And also will I be able to exercise on days that I have it done and be able to attend school?

Sorry for the stupid question(s) ... what is CTE? And out of curiosity, how did the ketamine work/fail? I get the sense it targets mood more than anything, but right now struggling more with the cognitive dysfunction.

I feel like drunk me is the person I'd be without depression. With drunk me I mean being drunk and on xanax

I feel you. I'm only happy and at ease when I'm drunk. I'm sure I'd drink a lot more if I had more disposable income.

Depression and Anger are best friends if not the same entity.. I'm at the point in my depression spectrum where everything makes me angry. All day I experience silent rage. Things piss me off more than they did before. And this is the way i isolate myself without knowing it at times. My family tells me they don't know who I am anymore, they ask why I'm mad all the time. My partner does not get fair treatment from how shitty I treat him. My whole life is that feeling you get when your mom tells you to take out the garbage right before you're about to go sleep. Little inconvenience after little inconvenience turns into full on discomfort being awake and always being pissed off you have to do anything at all. I don't know how to not be mad anymore and it scares me.

I feel the same way. I'm angry and depressed. It takes a lot out of me emotionally to do little things like run errands. I hate interacting with people. They state at me funny and act like I'm scary which makes me angry. It's exhausting.

Anyone else in college with zero friends. Please no bullshit about putting myself out there and all that nonsense. I do. I try. It's just hard when u are depressed, work 40 and then just have nothing to say idk

Not in college, maybe never will be, but at this point I'm not even bothered about being alone, in fact I relish it.

I see a red door and I want it painted black.. I want it all to be black

No colors anymore, I want them to turn black I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes I have to turn my head until my darkness goes...

I got out of bed and made myself breakfast today.. I made French toast and had some coffee. It isn't much, but at least I did something today

That's great to hear, bud. Just take it day by day, you're doing great.

does god exisist ? Does karma exisist. if they do then why do good people suffer

more i live more its harder to think so

I have a project due tomorrow and nobody wanted me in their group. I'm either too slow for other people or my mind is too distracted to focus on anything productive.

same even though i said gonna do everything no one wanted me

How do i live help. i feel dead please help

What's on your mind? <3

Someone please kill me. It hurts too much just to live anymore

*sigh* Fine, give me your address. But you have to shoot me after I do you, ok?

My car is clean for the first time in years. Because starting to figure out not only about self care, care for everything, as much as you can. a good day. I hope have a good day as well.

I'm proud of you! Even though I don't know you I truly am. Care for everything that's worth caring, you'll find it's more than it seems.

I feel like i have just wasted 20 years of my life.. Happy birthday to me i guess...

It's your birthday? Well, happy birthday... And I can relate. I'm pushing 30 and I feel like I have wasted what were supposed to be the best years of my life...

Staring at a sharp object at work, scared of my thoughts. I'm staring at a sharp bladed object at my work and since I;m left alone for it I'm considering doing something stupid, I'm really scared, help

What makes you feel this way?

Can someone have a chat with me for a bit?. I feel so sad and lonely

I'm around if you need someone to chat with. I'm sorry you're feeling sad. Sometimes it's such a painful and unbearable feeling.

I've just spent the entire day in bed. It feels wrong to think I've had a bad day.

Hey, is there something that's overwhelming you, or something that you are avoiding? What is going on? Why are you in bed? Sometimes when you share it can help to lighten the burden.

I tried to cry last night and partly succeeded. It felt so good.. It feels so good to feel some sort of emotion.

Something is better than nothing at least. Even if it isnt positive its at least cathartic.

I just know. Ever get the feeling that the way die is by suicide? I know when actually do it , but I just have feeling how going to be. Even when i am not that depressed ( which is never ) I still know way my life will end.

Same conclusions again and again

Why does it seem like everyone has someone. And I don't and probably never will :(

It may seem like other people have everything you want but doesn't mean they are happy. I know what you mean though we all need that someone in our life who we can trust. I don't have that someone either.

I'm such a god damn joke. When I scroll through this sub I see people with real problems. Then I think 'wow I call myself depressed? I'm such a dumbass'. Lol I'm so pathetic

Everyone's problems are real. It's not a contest. If something is bothering you, then it's a problem. It doesn't matter if others have it worse. Emotions don't work like that. You wouldn't say Well, I was happy, but everyone seems happier, so I guess I'm not happy. Your feelings are just as important and valid as anyone else's.

I feel so dysfunctional. Ever wish you could live in someone else's shoes for a day to observe how they function through everyday life?. I feel extremely dysfunctional. I barely have the energy to get through an 8 hour workday. I have no motivation to clean, to be productive, etc. How do other people do it? I've always wondered how other people live.

I'd say that they choose to endure it... It's just that they have a more hopeful insight, they can fully understand something good will happen from their work, and they can grasp that it's real. That's why I sometimes wonder if Depression is stunted cognition (maybe imagination), because if I could imagine the beauty that life has to offer I'm sure that no matter what got in my way I'd plow through. Why would neurotypicals work so hard if they couldn't in some way see the other side, feel it, almost experiencing it? I just think we're unable to do that.

Should I make everyone hate me before I die?. Maybe I don't even need to

No, I basically did this and dug myself into a much deeper hole to climb out of.

Soon I’ll be dead. You think so but happen in a very short period of time

What makes you feel like this?

Is it supposed to be like this?. had depression since I was probably around 14. 38 now and I recall a time when I depressed. Off meds my bouts of deep depression were much sharper it seems. On meds it seems like everything is dulled. Perhaps my age (and the fact that just sick of everyday life in general) that seems to have dulled life experience, maybe the seemingly constant barrage of tragedies and heavy personal baggage, but it seems like my doctors are just barely keeping me functional. It feels like psychological life-support. My question is, is this what meds are supposed to be? Just little bumpers to keep you from falling off the deep end? Do people take meds and actually experience...happiness in their life? Now asked this question to people (whom I know also take meds) straight to their face and I get a distinct feeling like being lied to as they tell me that they know what I mean, or that happy because they have a great family or whatever. But what are these meds really supposed to DO?

I feel the same way you do and would also like an answer to this question part of me want to stop taking them and fall off the deep end again im tired of putting on an act for my family because if I show them how I feel the tell me I need more meds

How do you deal with the pit of despair in your chest?. Personally, I like to look through hundreds of homeless dogs that I can't adopt until I can't take it anymore. Of course this only make me want to cry but it directs the pit and gives it propose a I can go to sleep.

Yeah, this feeling is a strong one. Felt it consistently for a lot of my childhood and early adulthood. The truth is that I never dealt with it constructively, or at least in a way that could help me get to the root of that feeling. Part of the reason I think you and I are on this in the first place is because we were never taught how to deal with that feeling constructively. In my case, I used constant denial and self-numbing ... At some point, I just assumed the pit was a part of me I could choose to ignore. You seem to be actively trying to experience it. You are engaging your sadness, which is objectively good for working through depression. It may not be what you might call 'conventional' but everyone does their thing a little differently :) If what you are doing no longer works for you though, it might be best to start looking for other (healthy) ways of working through that discomfort. Personally, when I feel that pit, I know what thoughts tend to follow it. Fortunately, my therapists (and my stay at hospital) helped me come up with ways to attack that pit when it hit me hard. In order to redirect those thoughts that create it, I try to reach out to anyone in my support net. It's hard because I feel like they won't give a shit, but most of the time, they do (but I often choose to ignore that reality). Or I will simply write some positive words here, on this. Reaching out to others here in positive ways is not just for others, but for my own sake as well. As you put so well, giving that pit a 'purpose'. But don't cover that feeling up. Continue to engage with it, as best as you can. It's there for a reason. Hopefully, the more you work with it, the easier it is to process and let go.

I'm done being a loser.. It's time to repress these feelings once and for all.

What makes you a loser?

Has anybody here understood WHY they are depressed?. It is one question I can't answer. I am 24 now, and I have been depressed for about 10 years. I read a lot of explanations about depression. Some connect it to family, some to movement, some to capitalism. Has anybody found an answer for themselves?

I've been depressed since I turned 10. From what my therapist says it's not uncommon for the beginning of chronic depression to coincide with the begining of puberty. I think that's when it started for me.

Did anyone get way far into drug use as cooing that now you have a drug dependency problem as well. That's how I feel cigs, weed, porn and pills. I think I'm dependent on all of them and I feel it frying my brain

For me, it's beer, pills and sex. It's normally short term for me, but I've found myself in a years long rut right now.

Suicidal thoughts. Hi guys I have major suicidal thoughts and I feel extremely confused right now, what can I do to make myself feel better and not so tired and empty please help Today was a very very shitty day

Talk about it to a therapist or ANYONE. talking about it helps tremendously. Call a suicide hotline if you have no one to talk to. You would be surprised how much just talking about your issues helps.

The number of times I say I hate myself in my head is uncontrollable. It kinda comes out on its own like I'm hungry

For me, it's the number of times I say, I hate my life and I hate people.

Serious (slightly) nsfw question.... I swear, not looking for anything lewd, etc... but am I the only one who gets horny when a depression jag hits? I have no idea why.. and it winds up making me feel even worse.. but it happens more often than not.

I think that's pretty common actually. I'm very much the same way.

Nobody knows me anymore - not even my boyfriend. And nobody even tries. This is no way to live.

Why not try and get to know some of us? May help short term.

Guys need hugs too.. Or maybe it's just me. It makes me feel loved.

HOW ABOUT GUYS NEED LUBE!! Up top! Ew!!

My dog has cancer. She has cancer in her nose, and over the next few months im going to watch my childhood friend struggle to breathe more and more until the end. Is this all my life is going to be, just watching things I love suffer and die? Whats the fucking point.

I'm sorry to hear about your dog. Losing a pet is a tough thing to go through. Is it possible to have her euthanized? To save her some pain and you some emotional suffering? Honestly, I think that would be best, if it's at all possible. I had to watch my dog die years ago. It still haunts me because of how much she suffered and how little I was able to do to help. *-hugs-*

Told my mom i want anti depressants she said no :(. Im like rlly fucked mentally rn

We may need to hear the content of the conversation. Just saying something like was seem very convincing. Perhaps think I should try antidepressants like to see a Dr for my depression and see if benefit from

My grandma died and I just feel numb. My grandma, who raised me and then disowned me years ago for reasons that I think had very little to do with me, died today. I know that I'm supposed to feel something but I'm just as empty and numb as ever. Guess it shouldn't surprise me.

Sorry for your loss, but don't feel guilty, there's probably a reason why you feel that way. Also, your feelings might clear with time.

The only thing getting 'lit' this weekend are my fall scented candles.. I am so lonely. I'm in summer vacation and I just lay in bed all day, and browse random shit online. I wish I could do fun things, but Nope, couldn't even get that in life.

Treat yourself to some body lotion, chocolate icecream and maybe a glass of wine while you're at it. Couldn't ask for a more relaxing weekend than that.

Why am I still here?. Why haven't I killed myself yet? Why am I torturing myself with school and late homework? WHY AM I NOT BRAVE ENOUGH TO KILL MYSELF!? I'm a goddamn failure. I can't even do this final act.

No one's brave for killing themselves. It's the *fear* of living that drives them to end their lives. But something inside you wants to live. If that wasn't true, you'd be dead by now. I'm glad you're still here, and I hope one day you can be too :)

Is the lower libido a permanent thing? I've been day 4 on citalopram. very tired too all day

Unfortunately, yes :( for me at least. It causes big problems in my relationship and it sucks. It might not be that way for everyone though

Feeling lonely and would love to hear about why you feel depressed and I’ll tell how I feel. The title says it all. Just pm me if interested

Haha, how much time you got?

My family makes my depression so much worse and I'll never be able to move out. I have tried and tried to treat this depression and nothing works. What else is there for me other than suicide?. Why can't someone just give me an honest answer.

You say you'll never be able to move out . . . sure you will! would you be moving to a new city or some where farther away? obviously, to move out, you will need a good paying job and money for an apt (by your self or with roommates.) tell your family that you are moving out on X date, if you are over 18, they can't really do anything about it. tell the police that you are moving away and your family is triggering your depression. they might try to file a missing person report if they notice that you go missing out of no where. suicide, I don't think, is ever the answer.

Anyone tried ketamine infusions for depression?. Considering trying this treatment for depression, anyone already tried it?

Haven't tried it but know a medical professional that says it really works for many patients. Not covered by insurance though.

I just wanna quit my life. How do I start over or delete

Well everyday is a new day to start over

A hundred feet under water and almost out of breath.. Aka that feeling of impending doom combined with complete isolation.

i just wish there was something we all could do..

I hate myself. I'm 14 and starting highschool in a month. I have one friend. this friend is avoiding me and I don't think they need me anymore. I don't feel loved by anyone. I hate myself for being such an ugly, dumb, stupid freaking freak.

Chill man high school isn't that bad all you have to do is just be chill and if you don't want to talk to anyone that's fine but eventually someone will want to talk to you that's just how it is :)

I want to die. Please kill me.. I hate my life. I'm such a failure of a person. My life is hopeless. This world has nothing for me. I want to die. I need to die. Please someone or something please fucking kill me. Please. Please.

so sorry hurting so much. here.

i did something horrible. when i was 18-21 i misled a older woman with marriage and kids for 3 years. i knew it was wrong since i have mentall issues. she is 30 now and desperate for kids/marriage i feel it is my fault that she have those and it makes me depressed

Yeah pretty fucking horrible but not unforgivable. But your mental illness is no excuse. We are obligated to do our best every day to be good people, just like everyone else. THAT BEING SAID, what would you tell someone else who posted this? Hopefully that not the only person to make this mistake, and making mistakes make you a bad guy. The fact that you feel remorse shows that you have empathy and care about others.

Is psychiatry a good idea?. Currently in a bad spot, not a great way to correct it normally without getting into a worse one. Normally, I'm against drugs for treating mental disorders but it seems like a quick way out right now if it helps. So basically, does it work for anyone?

Psychiatry and/or psychology can be a big help. Psychologists, at least in Illinois, can't prescribe, so their first choice may not be drug therapy.

Does anyone ever wake up in the morning with a tinge of happiness? Then, suddenly, you remember that you're sad and subsequently go back to your depressive mood...?. Just wondering, as it's like a false sense of hope...

As someone with ADHD too, I have whole days where things feel like they're fine, but attempting to do anything to fix my situation generally drains me and leaves me agitated and snippy. I feel like an inpatient, able to roam the fluorescent halls, but unable to go outside.

I know I won't do it but... I've been thinking about downing all of my lorazepam. Ive been searching painless ways to kill yourself. But my lorazepam keeps beckoning me. Im afraid it will fail and I may end up with severe brain issues. I have about 90 pills. 1 mg each.

It won't kill you...if you need someone to talk to reach out to me. I go through the same shit

why don't you smile?. why do i have to smile all the time?

I've been asked this since I was a kid. I've always given pretty much the same response whats there to smile about? Surprised I didn't get put in therapy as a kid for saying that shit lol. What I meant by it tho was why would I be smiling at this very moment nothing good just happened

Suicide is the only way to end everything. I want to help myself anymore

I use to be miserable. I hated my wife. My life. Lots of stuff. But one day I just Decided to be happy. I got up. Told by bitch wife I loved her. Kissed her. Got up and sang in the shower. But i was miserable again in an hour. But then the next day i tried again. And the next afternoon. Again and again. Finally my wife wasnt a bitch anymore. My life wasnt so bad. I realized being miserable can be a choice. Our emotions can be changed by our actions. Wake up and just pretend to be happy. Pretend you like your job. Fail and do it again.

I haven't done anything for a month.. I've been in bed for about a month, messing around on the internet 24/7. Really depressed about the state of my life. That's it. It's summer, and I'm really anxious about next school year. I don't see any point in doing anything anymore.

I can relate to this. The worst part for me is feeling as though I have no purpose or anything. I couldn't wait until school ended for the summer but now I feel worse because I'm not doing anything. I've taken to drinking during the day to keep the bad thoughts at bay.

God damn is it hard to let go.. I mean why is it so hard to do something i've done so many times before. If this is life why live cause all it is, is waiting for that person you care so deeply for to just leave you. its fucking insane how bad it feels i don't want you to leave i know i said it was ok, but i meant ok for you not for me i'm gonna be a train wreck within 5 mins tops when you leave

Not getting better for me either :/

I cannot sleep!. Please why can't my brain just relax :(

It's only about 1:45, there's still time to get some sleep, even if you're up early. Ultimately worrying about sleep isn't going to help you relax, and that's just going to make it harder to sleep. Try to think about something else

I’m not DEPRESSED because I do Drugs. I do drugs BECAUSE I’m DEPRESSED.. I wish people would understand this

I think that drugs could make depression worse though.

Someone to chat with. Hey there- I'm going through some rough times lately. Looking for someone to chat with, 26M if that should matter.

DM me anytime, my dude.

Feeling like a failure. I'm not doing too well right now. I'm feeling like I let everyone down, and I can't stop about everything I've done. About how I fell to rock bottom so quickly. About who and what I lost. I I don't know what to do anymore

We all make mistakes. We all let people down occasionally. No one expects us to be perfect. We do however have to learn from our mistakes. Hopefully you can find how to better yourself from whatever mistake you made.

How does everyone feel about relationships/dates?. I feel like i make the biggest joke of myself ever, i tend to just get too clingy because i finally possibly found someone who likes me and i just tend to go overboard, do any of you have the same problem?

I don't feel a connection with anyone. After a while I always end up hoping the date will end soon so I can be by myself again cause it doesn't feel right :s

I can't do it anymore. I can't even begin to describe how I've been feeling recently. I just want to stop existing. I know for a fact that the way I am going to die is suicide. I don't know when, but soon. Wow, I really need help.

I'm just waiting until I turn 21 so I can buy my own alcohol and spend the next year killing my liver. I think 22 will be my last year but sometimes I don't even think I can make it there.

POEM:Hollow. ***EMPTY*** *rooms and* ***EMPTY*** ***SOULS*** ***FORGOTTEN*** *places and* ***HEART*** *shaped holes* ***DEPRESSION*** *comes with days of* ***STRUGGLE*** *and often times a* ***BLOODY PUDDLE*** UP\-VOTES CURE MY DEPRESSION

Brilliant. I sat here and mulled it over. I really like it.

Emergency therapist. I can't find an emergency therapist...why is this hard?

Yeah. I think it's considered an emergency only if you are posing an immediate threat of suicide. You must be feeling as much pain as I have felt and so I feel bad for you and hope you find a way to feel better soon. Paul

Kinda hope I dont wake up tomorrow. Had a fight with a friend, i was a dick.. now i cant escape this shit feeling no matter what i do. She thinks its her fault and i dunno what to do so i wanna die

Can you reach out to her and tell the same thing to her that you told here right now? I think it could help you. And her.

I feel like everyone enjoying life is living a lie.. Maybe I'm just an asshole.

I feel the same way, but I'm probably just projecting. To my friends and family I look pretty normal, happy and motivated, but in reality I struggle every day just to stay alive. I can't stop myself from feeling everyone else is the same.

Does anyone else get physically ill/nauseous when you're depressed?. All day today I've been shaking and my anxiety has been through the roof. I spent my day in bed crying and throwing up. Nothing brought on this panic attack, I've just been awfully down.

I just get nauseous and anxious

Is the good even worth it?. idek anymore. Too much bad...

The good is worth it! Hang in there! You can get through this because you're stronger than this! You can make it through cause the good will be worth it! Lots of love!

I miss my best friend. I want to be close to somebody

Me too. I try to establish a connection, they just stop talking eventually

I wasn't anxious!. When I walked home from school today I didn't feel any anxiety at all when a car drove past slowly right next to me. I had developed a fear for cars driving past me in fear of them swerving trying to kill me, but I didn't feel it today! I'm glad.

That's so awesome!! It's great that you're getting past your fears! I believe in you!

Depression, BPD Rational Thinking Rambling In Manic. depression in my eyes venting

This is a perfect place to vent your mind if you want to continue.

Best ways to get some life perspective?. Stop feeling so sorry for myself

Drama queen negative all the above

I’m sorry if this is a stupid question, but how do I know I’m depressed?. I think I am, but I know. sorry, I mean to offend or anything. I just want to know

You can always speak to a doctor. They can assess you using diagnostic tools, like tests, and observation.

Going Bananas. Does anyone ever feel like they get near the precipice of a psychotic break and just barely pull yourself away from the edge?~Askingforafriend

Nope. I fell completely over the edge three times. But I'm feeling much better now.

I'm tired. That's how I feel, not just physically but mentally too. Like the dim screen on a phone with no battery left. I just want to rest, but lately that makes it worse. Why does this feel so bad?

I know how that is. Resting feels like the right thing to do but it never quite works. Have you thought about taking a sleep aid? I take mirtazapine before bed and it makes me sleep better and I feel better the next day. More rested and alert. It is part of my strategy to finally lift my depression.

I need help getting through the day without crying.. I just need a distraction, does anyone want to pm?

wish u the best, i cant help, cause i dont really know how to help I would love to cry again, now i feel barerly nothing ;-;

So sad i can't even leave my bed but i don't know why. I guess that's depression for you

Sometimes I wake up and I immediately feel like I need to go back to sleep.