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I almost got ran over today.. It's funny really, I wasn't scared. I wasn't anything. Just pissed off at the guy for blaming me.

What happened? > I wasn't scared. I wasn't anything. Just pissed off at the guy for blaming me. Lol. i've had the same thing happen a few days ago at a crossover and i remember just thinking *Either kill me or don't, don't give me hope.*

I am just in complete acceptance of my inevitable suicide. I constantly feel like I'm getting close to death because I have just accepted that I will kill myself before I'm thirty. I'm putting no effort into my future because I don't think I'll have one

All these posts, I swear we're a hive mind, or we're the same person same soul in different bodies.

No longer have those spontaneous, magical moments in life where you wouldn't want to be anywhere else.. fuck. so lame to be us... on this sub... team wet blanket & unable to thrive

Now I'm sure you didn't intend for that to be funny, but you got me to giggle. It's just the truth of it... team wetblanket, thats me haha

Woke up this morning. Off to a bad day already. I would never hurt myself but I do pray every night that I don't wake up. I accidentally saw a pic of my ex with a new guy and it hurts. We were suppose to move in together and ger married and everything. Fml x infinity

Keep positive man, the best thing you can do is focus on yourself and your endeavors. Never quit, never give up. You got this man.

will be swallowing all of my psych meds tonight!!!. good riddance to me. fuck living!!!!

Thats not a good idea friend

Do you guys ever stand in the edge on the cliff just to feel that you're in control of your life?. Meaning that YOU and only YOU decide if you want to live or you want to die.

yes or like just being somewhere high

Thanks Parents. Woke up feeling really shitty and depressed today. My parents then had a go at me for not wanting to do anything and saying that I should just get over it. And that of course really helped. Just needed somewhere to let it out

ok to let it out, here to listen and help you.PM if you want to talk. :)

I wish I didn't fucking break down in public two years ago.. Now I'll always be a bitch to society. I will never really be able to live a dignified life.

Why even care what random people think of you? likely go crazy worrying about that stuff

my loneliness is killing me. im tired of being alone. i feel this loneliness is triggering me

in there my friend. I'm here for you

Literally Bawling my eyes out.. Life absofuckinglutley sucks. WHY was I fucking born. Why am I human? How is it that existence itself is complete bullshit.

What's going on at the moment that is making you so upset?

Life's only worth living if you're an attractive white girl.. Instead I had to be born an ugly-ass short guy. Fuck this place

Danny Devito seems to be carrying on just fine. Head up OP, regardless of how you feel and what you think, people always have it worse. Regardless, all in this together

How much do you tell your psychiatrist?. Im suicidal, but she does not know that.

I believe that is something that must be said. Could be a side effect of some medication

One day I’ll succumb to suicide. Emotionally numb. Constantly drained. Severe brain fog, panic attacks about existential bullshit, isolation. just getting tired of this nonstop cycle.

Me too, that's why I treat everyone like shit. I'm hoping that one day nobody cares about me, even my parents. That day is the day I'll become free from my despair

I managed to even fail this.. I attempted suicide on the 15th, and failed. After waking up it was soul-crushing and made me feel even worse. How do some people feel better if they fail? I'm sorry, just don't have anyone else to say this to.

I find that how you view failure is tied to your expectations quite heavily. Or also the pressure of feeling others' expectations of you on your shoulders. I still haven't worked things out that I'm able to effectively handle failure myself, but mainly people can feel better when they fail, because they recognise it as a learning experience, or it is an inevitable part of the process. Now this may sound obvious, but when in the moment, it is very easy to forget this and lose sight of progress after the failure. Failure can appear in many forms. My expectation of a 'good outcome', instead was a horrible mistake... Or was it? I'm sorry to hear you feeling even worse after your suicide attempt. Just know that I believe you are alive, and fighting, and you will come out of this stronger.

I had the worst depressive episode of my entire life... so I decided to ask my crush out. She said, just not looking for anything right now, I hope we can still be I love my why I decided to sleep for 20 straight hours and now I feel exactly the same

I mean you had the balls to ask her out in the first place , you got further than a lot of other people with their crushes because they are too scared to ask them. Just because she said no mean the end of the world bro, even though it might seem like that. Keep your head up

Looking how happy everyone else is in my instagram feed males me sad. Why can't I be like them. Honestly I'm just a gloomy, worthless, piece of shit who shouldn't exist.

You realize people's instagram feeds are manufactured to just show the good side of things right? People only show when they're happy or when they appear to be happy, but in reality they might be just as miserable as you. It's all fake.

My mom just literally told me to man up, stop pitying myself and get a girlfriend. Thanks mom, I'm cured mom.

Pretty much lol. In my experience man up means to just ignore any and all emotional issues and act like life is fine. Shit's stupid.

Depression has made me a shitty person. People try reaching out to me and an asshole about it. I used to be pretty nice and genuine but I just know anymore. Why it just be over.

Same here. Depression made me into a miserable bitter piece of shit when I used to be humble and kind to everyone.

I'm at the emptiness stage. I'm a mindless robot drifting through life doing what I have to do

How is in your head? I mean... what thoughts go through it? I wonder if Im alone in this but..m my mins doesnt wander anymore. Im aware of every single thought, which is never pleasant nor spontaneous/creative. :/

How did you reach out?. Dear members, those of you who have reached out for help for your depression, who did you contact and how did you awfully hard to know who exactly to contact for guidance and also how to tell while being taken seriously.

Either a therapist or your closest friend, one you can trust.

Fluoxitine (prozac). Hey I've recently been prescribed fluoxitine 20mg daily by my doctor, I've suffered with depression on and off for over 10ys. I've been taking them for 6 days and I'm still in a lull, I've heard they can make you feel worse before you feel better. Are fluoxitine any good?

I take zoloft, so I couldn't give you any insight I'm afraid, though I wish I could

��. Sometimes I have the urge to cut but that's not even helping anymore I'm hanging on by thread

What's up buddy ? Want to talk ?

Can anyone recommend a SAD lamp?. that turns on at a set time every morning. TIA

Get some full spectrum LEDs bulbs. Works great

I know I'm struggling but nobody can tell. Sometimes I can't convince myself I'm struggling too.

Sorry to hear that. Are you struggling with anything specific or life in general?

Lonely. I don't feel too good. feel non-existent, unimportant and disposable. It's like nobody cares enough to really see what's going on. Everybody expects me to be fine. I don't even know if it's depression speaking or I'm just really, really lonely right now.

i can relate. where are you from?

What do I put in my note?. When I work up the courage to finally get it over with, what do I leave behind for the people that find me? Or for the people that didn't know I've wanted to leave for years? I feel obligated to explain myself but what the hell do I say?

Often times, people don't work up the courage. The people most likely to commit suicide are those who are completely numb. The suicide notes they leave are often mundane. Don't forget to feed the cat. My life insurance policy is in this drawer etc.

The only thing worse than extreme physical pain is extreme mental pain, once you have experienced that, you will stop felling pain at all. My favorite quote i have made so far.. My favorite quote i have made so far.

Same here. Part of why self harm is so easy to me.

2017 has been my worst year. Without a better future in sight either :))

Each year just keeps getting worse haha please end me

i know what i have to do to get better; however, i don’t have the motivation nor concentration to do it. anybody in the same boat?:(

No, because I don't know what I can do to make it better. Although the motivation and concentration doesn't help.

Always tired. A few nights this week I actually got a decent amount of sleep but whether I get 3 hours or 8 hours, I still always feel so tired. It's the depression and anxiety isn't it? I'm mentally exhausted for sure and I use sleep as an escape when I can.

Definitely a part of it. I can sleep 8 hours and still some days I am just draggy, tired and unmotivated although other days just unmotivated.

Does anyone notice a change in libido during extended episodes of depression?. I have depression, and with me, I either lose my sex drive altogether or get extremely aroused nigh constantly. Is this a side effect of depression? Is it recommended to indulge these impulses or does it lead to other high risk behavior?

Now this is an odd one. I felt a drop in my sex drive when my depression worsens, but sometimes I can be really sad and then have morning wood and whatever. I am no professional by any means, but I feel it differs from person to person.

help. hey how do i shoot myself in the head without a gun thanks

Shoot yourself in the face with kindness. Go and treat you some motherfucking chocolate and some fucking videogames and calm the holy fucking fuck down. This was a lot of fucking swearing but even fucking think about killing your damn self. You will leave some fucking people who will for fucking fuck sake miss you. So - as as friendly reminder - please kill you! *You* *matter* ! Never ever think about this again or even post this shit. I want you to stay alive and fucking nail it! You can do it, buddy!

No job, 100 dollar left, No place to live, No friends and family.. Getting old 45 now i have no clue what to do anymore. Lived a hard life. I am extremely depressed.

Dam you're lucky. Have you thought about maybe volunteering, working in nature and meeting positive people perhaps? And meditate, many people your age and situation start to look into meditation for long-lasting happiness. It's the perfect time. Do you have any possessions? Sell it, you may find that you will be better off without them = ) Feel free to chat to me if you want. You don't have to look at this as a dead-end, but a start to a beautiful journey. I don't post in r/depression, well because it says to Do not post or respond with: it gets better messages. How does that make you feel? I find that ridiculous lol. I hope you find what makes your life worth living. The truth is, whoever you are, wherever you are.. Life *does* get better, more than you can imagine.

i just woke up for a new day and the first thought i had was fuck. goddamn it brain sTOP WAKING UP

I don't want to keep waking up at 1 am it's hard

Here again. Drinking my tirst.. Im at a bar listening to trash music. Feel free to ask anything. Unlike the people here. Edit: Judging by the /r you can quess my mood

What trash music is on?

I have happy moments but only vividly remember bad ones.. I struggle to remember good memories where I don't feel the urge to die. I only vividly remember anything that hurts me and no matter how hard I try I struggle to change it.

This happens to me. Whenever this happens to me, I just count to ten, I don't know why. then I remember my childhood when I was about 5 or 6, playing with toys. Then that makes me feel better.

Depression. So any non med for depression ?

The generic answers heard over the years tend to go something like the following; exercise, sunlight, talking, therapy, stroking animals, eating healthily, meditation and writing one thing thankful for daily. I say with sincerity that any of those have worked for me but helped others. Keeping busy with hobbies on the days able to function might help. It does slightly for me.

I wonder where my special someone is?. Tell him I'm waiting, somewhat patently.

Hopefully just right around the corner

I.... just always depressed.. I ever think doing the right thing.

Me too..depression clouds our judgment. It gets really hard to think about things clearly. Hate this feeling but it won't go away yet.

im a spoiled piece of shit. im on a vacation with my family in hawaii, and i cant stop complaining. about stupid little pointless shit. a friend called me out on it saying that i shouldnt be complaining about how i dont like being around my family, because theres people out there who arent lucky enough to even have their families. it really got me thinking. im a spoiled piece of shit. im so lucky to have family that love me and want to be with me. and i take it for granted. im tired of being this spoiled kid who hasnt ever had to work for anything. i make myself sick. my life is meaningless. i need to find a way to be less of a piece of shit. i think im going to start volunteering again

Please do whatever stuff that makes your feel your own worth. In your case, that's a good stuff. If you're in the path towards the positives, keep on walking. Good luck.

im so tired. I just wanna be done, I have no hope, I have no future... hell I don't WANT a future... why can't I just be done?

I am 31 yrs old and am in college myself. I dropped out during my first college career due to, you guessed it, mental health issues. College is hard. LIFE is hard. But honey, there are people who love you. People who care way less about your college degree and debt than they do about your happiness. Look into your university's mental health services. Counseling is a sympathetic ear who will NEVER downplay things bringing you stress. I've been depressed. I've been suicidal. The worst part is the sincere feeling that nothing will EVER get better. Well, I want to tell you that IT WILL. While there's life, there's hope. Please PM me if you need support. I've been where you are. It sucks, but it can be overcome.

no friends for 10 years. no gf. ugly. wtf do i do?. I'm a 24 year old old man.

Depression is a hard fight. I am 29, on meds and I still struggle. All I can add is to start with yourself. Keep a daily routine, like hygiene or reading, find something that allows you to clear your mind and be calm. Go to work or go to school and be yourself. Always find something that can make you laugh. A great sense of humor and a good personality can for real change the way people see you. I had terrible acne as a child and hated how I looked, but as I grew older I gained more friends through my humor. I only really have 2 friends but they are great friends. Quality over quantity and all that jazz. As for being single I too am in the double digit bus. I go from periods of loathing being alone to being numb to being okay with it. My friends and the things that make me laugh help ease that pain.

Hello!. How are you all? :)

Tired......I'm going to eat and then go to bed. Fuck my homework. I'll maybe do it tomorrow morning, probably not.

I feel like I'm so depressed that it's hard to even pretend to be happy. Does anyone else feel this way?

Pretending to be happy can be extremely hard, no matter if depressed or not. Sure, depression doesn't make it any easier, thats a fact. Do you have someone you can talk to? For example have a really deep conversation, tell them about your biggest fears? Where you dont have to pretend to be happy? Wearing a mask is exhausting as hell, and the longer you try to keep it up, the more explosive will it be, when you can't hold it up any longer. In that regard, I speak from experience. And last but not least, it's completely fine to not feel happy sometimes. You just have to feel sad, out of the loop, neglected, rejected or even hated sometimes. Those are the moments where you really analyze yourself and your doings, (something you should keep under control, because too much of it is destructive), and if you embrace it, roll with it, telling yourself that this is natural and just a response of something inside you, you can't really pinpoint yet, those times could actually end up being beneficial for you. Noone feels 100% happy all the time, and if so, I'd call them liars. If you want, shoot me a pm, anytime! Keep your head up! please!

Evolutions biggest joke is mixing survival instinct with wanting to die.. Having a bad day. Just a drunken thought.

It's like wanting to diet but also wanting pizza and ice cream.

I'm scared of relationships because I don't want other people to feel as shitty as me. I'm not saying a relationship would solve any of my problems, it's just that I feel like I could've atleast experienced one by now if I wasn't so crippled. I'm on the cusp of adulthood and I haven't been kissed yet - not because I don't want to be, I just can't function socially which frustrates me so much. Even if I did get someone to like me enough to go out once, there's no way it would last without me making her miserable and I feel like K have a responsibility to not put others through that same pain. I wish I could be different, I wish I could be better, but my will is paralysed and there's nothing I can do.

You're not alone. I feel the same way.

I’m lost. know what doing anymore, think might end all

if anything i can do for you, OP, im right here.

Depression is going hungry all day and being handed an amazing looking dinner. And then having absolutely no desire to eat it.

And then tossing it onto the floor while thinking that it still looks normal

What has helped your depression?. Is anyone cured or nearly recovered?

Definitely not cured, but much better than my worst. I've found that forcing myself to do the things I used to love, even if it only holds my interest briefly, helps on bad days. I have also found music to be a great mood changer and excerise if I can force myself to do it.

We were supposed to be getting married tomorrow... 2 weeks ago we broke up leaving me as a single mum.... Yea it is what it is. struggling hard since last night. coming up to visit his kids tomorrow... first time seen them in a month. Why do I feel like I need to hate him but I

This sounds so hard to deal with. You will get there and you child/children will give you strength. Mine has, I live for her. Sending love

Attempt. Been really depressed lately, tried to od earlier, but all it did was get me high. When i was high i didn't even feel good i just felt numb and just as shit as i did before. My life isn't getting any better.

Please be safe and seek help. I have been really depressed and lonely before where I tried what you tried. I took over 20+ pills trying to OD to end up at the doctors with them believing it was a virus. I also tried cutting but I was too scared of the pain. I lived through the loneliness and pain only to be depressed again, but I came to a realization- I deserve better and I am worth it. It's definitely hard and a battle everyday, but with professional help, I am getting better day by day. You deserve better and you are worth it. Please stay strong and I do hope you talk to someone to get the help you need.

Life has gotten so old and I'm only fucking 19. I'm 19 (20 in a couple months) and life has already gotten so fucking old. I don't know how people make it past 50 on this planet without wanting to blow their brains out 24/7. Especially when life has so little to offer.

If you believe life has little to offer, you're forgetting that you're alive. The fact that you were able to type this post was nothing short of a miracle in itself.

Did WELCOME TO THE NHK help anyone here?. The show definitely helped me a lot.

I dk found it kinda depressing and yes I watched the whole thing.

I feel like there's no particular reason to my depression. But then life decided to add a few.

There will very likely be a reason to your depression as depression doesn't really start from nothing, sweetheart

I get so hung up over the smallest things.. I've been trying to eat healthy lately, but then I ate two cookies, and I really wanted to fucking die for the rest of the day. I'm not even kidding.

Over dramatic much?? It's a fuxkin cookie eat that shit then get off ur ass and walk .. regret feelings solved

Why people desire to have children. World is a nasty place. Life is terrible. Why would you let someone come through the same shit?

I wanted to have a kid for selfish reasons, I wanted a reason to live and I wanted someone who understood me. I feel like no one in this world can understand me and therefore no one is willing to put up with me, if I had a kid I could raise them the way I was raised and they would have the same genetics as I so I feel like they would have a chance of understanding me. Also it's pretty much a guaranteed way of having a companion for 18 years, and if you play your cards right it's someone who will tend to you in your old age and sit with you as you die. All that being said you'll notice I used past tense wanted instead of want and that's because I got hit with several physical illnesses that make it near impossible for me to have a kid (or even take care of a kid) and even if I were miraculously cured tomorrow I wouldn't want to risk passing on these illnesses and causing someone to suffer as much as I have suffered.

My therapist: don’t drink or do drugs Me the next week: so I drank and got high. Love a daily dose of self-sabotage

addicted to self sabotage fuck it

Literally no friends. I don't know how to interact with other people, I don't have a single friend, and humans can't live like this. Seems like people can just smell the depression and anxiety on me and they stay away. Wish I had the courage to end it.

Have you tried exploring out of your circle of people? I've had trouble making friends too but I found that when I put myself out there by taking a part time job or some sorts, I ended up meeting new people who aren't all that bad actually. As to the depression and anxiety, have you seen someone for that?

Family history. Why do they ask if you have a family history of depression. How much of that is a factor to you getting it and why?

Parents pass on their coping skills to their kids. If they have unhealthy ways of dealing with life, it's pretty likely their kids will have issues in that area too. This can be passed down from grandparents even. Also there is likely a genetic factor. But in my POV, I think it has to do with upbringing moreso.

Hey at least I make myself laugh. at a point where unable to react to a situation without making some kind of sarcastic joke or comment. Probably not a healthy way to think but at least I can find some entertainment in my life.

Laughter is a hugely important way of dealing with life, in my opinion. Sometimes I also make myself laugh and realise life is not too bad afterall. Keep finding the funny edge to everything and you can cope with anything.

I think I'll just scream until I bleed internally and die.. And nobody would even hear that : D !

wrong? What makes you feel like that?

Hate how sensitive I am. Wish I didn't care as much

Tbh. I used to hate being sensitive. But I love it now. And people need to be considerate of it! really a strength. Being sensitive makes your more empathetic (which is an amazing fucking quality to have!) and just really more in tune with the mood of the room. Do you know there are some people that just babble on and even ever tell that other stopped listening?? I know it sucks overthinking and constantly worrying. But being sensitive makes you a better human.

isolationism. why do i isolate myself from people so much only to crave companionship and company when i am alone

Maybe because you crave for very meaningful relationships? Because I do.

depressed. Hey, does anyone else feel like they're going to be homeless when they're older? I'm constantly feel that I won't achieve anything in life and I'll just be homeless on the streets begging for change.

It's typical for depressive thoughts to either revolve around poverty our around guilt

Is living worth it, knowing that you'll never be happy?. I ruined my chance at life. Life is never going to get better. It already sucks and it's only going to continue to suck this bad, or to be ever worse.

I do not know you, nor do I know your situation but just know that is purely depression talking. As someone who feels inadequate everyday because I met my school/career goals yet, I struggle constantly with feeling like a failure. You will get through this. It seem like it will getter better but I promise you that it will.

just failed suicide what do i do family is going to know. what the fuck do i do

Why did you want to commit suicide?

I feel like I only have a past. Not much more to say. To an outsider, I look moderately successful. Good job, education, even a family. But it's all empty. There's nothing in the future but the end.

Dude! ME TOO. and the guy next to me, and the chick over there. Sorry, trying to break the ice.. But in all seriousness our past is what it is and we can't change it. The future is what we want it to be and we can try our hardest to make it how we want too, but in reality, nobody can ultimately control the future anyway. Focus on today. It's the small things.

I'm all the way down now. I can see all the way to the bottom...

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. We are here for you.

How to become depressed again?. Hi. I was depressed all the time for years and today i woke up and didn't feel depressed. I want to be depressed, how can I become depressed again?

Why would you want to be depressed?

I just feel like shit.. I don't really know why. Everything's just so overwhelming all of sudden. I was feeling great this past month, but it's back. Did I do something wrong? I don't know why.

I feel like shit too everyday. I just wanna fade away.

My friend knows that I am depressed and suicidal, yet he keeps on telling me that I chose to be sad everyday. I don't know what to think about that? Is it really an option I make everyday?. Is it bad that I think I chose to be depressed now?

No, depression isn't a choice. You can't control it.

I got fired today. This sickness keeps screwing my life. What now? Is there a website for employers who are depress friendly?

Wait, you got fired due your depression? Where are you from? Isn't depression classified as a medical condition like any other? Aren't you protected by law against such action? Sorry to read about your situation. And sorry for all the questions. Guilty of being a lawyer :/

I dont have anymore friends.... They all disappeared or turned on me... I'm so lonely

I too don't have any friends, u aren't alone

Lately everyday is a bad day.. Not much else to say.

I'm sorry. I hope you get a good day soon.

.... I desperately need aid in this instance of my depression, to handle it. I'm already in an severe episode and what's coming is different, it feels much darker. Please, help.

Just do your best man. going through dark times (probably the worst of my entire life), just keep trucking on.

Currently i have 60 matches on tinder and it doesnt even matter because i have nothing to offer. Texting to them would be pointless.Maybe my face is above average but i dont have any hobbies, friends so i will stay alone forever.I want to try but im dead inside.. depression sucks

there are a few things I am passionate about, my bed, speed. that is about it

if anti-depressants are so bad then what should one take?. Im passing through a huge crisis right now

what are you needing help with? part of the problem with anti depressents is how easily and flippantly they are prescribed. There is use for these medications but should be far more proper professional analysis before determining the correct meds, and monitoring. Lack of health care support means throwing the most widely used ones at a patient, refer a psych and hope for the best. They are not terrible, can help in many people but take so long to be effective and are hit and miss so its a tough solution when in a present difficult crisis. Sometimes doctors will prescribe short term assistance like Benzos and tranquilizers to keep stable in the short term, I found this works better for me than long term anti-depressents.

Well its my birthday. I can cry if I want to right?

Happy birthday. And crying is always okay. :)

There is no help.. You are on your own.

You are on your own, which gives you the power to turn it around! You are not your mistakes, your past, your parents, your bully. You are a person doing the best they know how! You can ask for help, but it is up to you to accept it. Loving yourself is difficult and getting to that point is painful

I guess I'm not eating tonight. Have nothing but processed garbage that I'm sick of. Going out to get something would just be fast food, garbage as well. Wouldn't mind eating a bullet though.

That last sentence really got me

FUUUUUUUCCCKKKKKKK. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuckkk!!!!!!!!

I see your fucks and raise you one!

Me: Finally travels abroad. Also me: not enough energy to leave the bed for most of the day.. I get to be depressed in international beds, guys!

Force yourself to take a shower in the morning. Then force yourself to get dressed and take a walk. No end goal in mind. Just a nice leisurely walk. what I did abroad and I found myself in the most fantastic places.

Made it through another miserable day at work today without killing my self idk how I do it.. Will it ever get better?

That is the question we all ask ourselves. But if you feel that you hit rock bottom, it can only go up from there.

I have been a Freshmen for 3, 1/2 years. I don't even blame my depression , I am just dumb. I was at community college for three years and now I am on academic probation in a university, this is my second semester here and I only have twelve credits to my name. I am trying , I really am but it's just hard and hopeless. The other day my parents told me we made room for your future degree , next to your siblings degrees! I am twenty-two years old going on twenty-three. I don't know what to do.

It took me seven years to get a bachelors, and a lot of that was done part time or online. Do it on your schedule. Nobody else's.

A girl I like asked me what I do when I'm not working or at school and I didn't know what to say.. I stumbled pretty badly and struggled to make something up. I hate myself. Now she knows I'm a loser.

I just say video games. At least it's a thing.

DAE here hate when you're told that you're good at something. It's such an awful copout. It's always either You just don't realize what you're good at or Don't worry you just have to PRACTICE a bit more It just makes me incredibly salty knowing that the people saying this are saying them just because they don't suck at ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING

To me it feels not genuous most of the time, but also you don't respect their opinion on it. Say, a really unfunny person telling you that you're funno doesnt mean anything.

I'm pathetic. If I see girls or anything about couples or marriage, I get super sad and feel like crying. My depression is just getting worse day by day.

Hey, I feel the same way. quite demoralizing to see everyone in a relationship when all you want at times. Most of my friends are in committed relationships. So, been times where I was the only single guy in the room. I say anything, but deep down it kind of hurts. I help but think I just I realize that not something I could say to anyone else. I could never look at anyone call them unlovable. So why can I say it myself? Why do we think such nasty thoughts about ourselves? My friend, you do deserve love, and I hope that it comes to you. :) Oh, and social media is terrible for this type of feeling btw. been staying off Facebook, Instagram, and Snapchat lately. I now feel a lot more secure in my status as not constantly bombarded with pictures of happy couples (who are also usually just posing for the picture, sometimes they break up the next day).

Whats are some suggestions for cheering yourself up?. how do you guys cheer yourself up?

Sometimes I'll go back and watch some of my favorite scenes from childhood tv shows. Really lifts my mood.

bad thoughts. I seriously can't deal with my own thoughts anymore. I keep having these terrible thoughts of hurting or killing myself or other people. Or what I would do to myself or someone else if someone close to me died. I just feel so angry.

Can you tell anyone? Bad thoughts can be dangerous.

How do you find a good psychiatrist?. I had one I really liked when I was on my parents insurance, but the past three I've had have been bad for different reasons. Is there a site or something with reviews? What should I even look for?

I guess that depends on your country and social security system... But a phonebook will probably Work! :)

I don’t understand. I understand how a single person on this earth can be happy. I how anybody at all could even want to stay alive. Is anybody happy? Am I just weak? Does everybody feel this way?

I'm not very happy but I distract myself with hobbies and projects. I'm just used to being single.

I miss you.. So much. Constantly. I just want you back.

Uhhh... who? Sorry I can't help you very much...

just harmed myself for the first time in quite few years. it felt good to let it out on myself. i'm too much of a coward to kill myself so might as well let myself suffer. it hurts but it feels good

you're not a coward. I know the feeling and I still have urges time to time. but I look back on those years with regret. and you are loved. know that. treat yourself how you would others. have empathy for yourself. always here if you need to chat.

..... Ever feel your brain melt while numb?

Maybe not melt but i often feel so absent from it. My head feels so slow and i feel like not even part of the chaos that is going on in it. Maybe similar to what experiencing.

My parents help others get help for depression but ignore it when their own son says he wants to die.. I want to kms just to spite them

You piece of shit how Dare you make such an insensitive comment to someone that is potentially suicidal FUCK YOU!!! Have some empathy you waste of a human being.

I am done in.. This is my 5th relapse. What's the point. My life just revolves around hoping I don't have a relapse. Then I do. I put my loved ones through hell. Is this living? Is god having a laugh? Or is it my brain having a laugh at my expense.

It's more of a learning experience, is what it sounds like to me. No one is laughing at you, I don't think your brain is laughing either. It just a phase that you're going through. Hope that helps.

If I know I will be a virgin for the rest of my life and a cute girl will never love me what should I do?. I hope I get to leave this world very soon

There's nothing wrong with being a virgin. I'm one, too, and I don't feel bad about myself for it. I'm proud of it, actually. Also, I don't understand sexuality probably because of my autism. Remember, it's not a competition. Once you lose it, you can't get it back. There are a lot of other types of love out there than just physical love. I don't understand why people around my age are upset about being a virgin to begin with. Don't feel so negative about yourself. There are people in this world who love you already such as your family. Take care of yourself.

Feeling nervous when happy. So yesterday I felt happy for the first time in a while and switched from my depressing music to my happy music. I quickly switched back to my depressing music because the happiness made me feel uneasy and nervous. Anyone else have this happen to them?

Yea, things go more wrong when happy. Kind of. Really I just get more nervous because I suddenly have that happiness to lose. When Im depressed it is what it is, but when like carrying a bag of money through a bad neighbourhood at let me lose lol. I be happy if not risking something. The risk and fear of losing the happiness, is part of how I feel good. Like, I feel proud that willing to take that risk. If that makes sense? Be careful with music, powerful. I have stuff I listen to because so good at effecting how I feel. Also, your brain releases a lot of chemicals when happy for the first time in a while, if ever had an extreme sugar rush, or done cocaine lol, it can be overwhelming. normal though.

Can you ever be successful?. I'm sure my depression will never go away. When I was 16 I always had high dreams and wanted to be successful. Currently in my engineering degree and I have failed physics twice. Is depression and success not compatible?

The thoughts that you're associating with depression will not go away as a result of what you associate with success. If depression is getting in the way of your success than the most succesful thing you can do is to find peace with your depression. The rest will fall into place :)

No one wants me alive.. I just want to be cared, I'll never be cared, I'll never be liked. I'm tired of all the negativity. I'm done. Why should I be alive?

I want you to be alive! :)